Always Play On Edge/Confessionals

“	This confessional comes just after our first cluster of a tribal. Sinningest thing i've ever seen. This tribe may not be unanimous but it sure as heck isn't broken. It's working for me. I am now on a contingent of people who just voted together despite a LOT of confusion. This five is tight and it's not shrinking. it might expand, but its not going anywhere. Tobias lying to me about his vote today is actually a good thing- bc now he will feel less bad about me lying to him, knowing he did the same. His options are work with us or work against us. I feel set until the merge. This was the right game move. Plus now Hobbes knows he can trust me. I think this was ideal, except that it was dior and not logan. Arlo was a mess and it backfired, but i patched things up with him. don't want him being a loose cannon about me. I told him things he could reasonably guess, but not much more. Also told hobbes the extent of my convo with arlo. The show must go on from here! Now it's challenge time, and time for ME to work my magic. hehehehehe this one looks good. glad my mandatory challenge is something suited to my skillset.	”
–GGL

“	CF: Tonight we took out Dior. It was an amazing blindside of a strong player, and I'm glad we did it. Arlo wanted to appeal to emotion however that was not what I was going to vest my vote in. Dead weight is better than weight with a consciousness. I really think in this game the girls were underestimated tonight, and now that they mobilized something only a man could screw it up. I'm still playing an innocent persona with these people. If my alliance was smart they would realize they don't need to play so hard and they would sit and stay and vote the way I need. GGL is played hard, she is aligned with everyone, we were lucky that she has an appeal to strategy. All of the girls are playing the same innocent act and the men fall for it every time. I think my age might play a factor into being perceived by innocent, but I really do not mind it. These men better watch out, and Hobbes and Tasmin better not cross us since its literally the second episode.	”
–Hazel

“	Ummm.....what the fuck was this tribal? Arlo went way off the rails and off the cliff too, exposed everyone’s plan, Maykon begged to go and Dior went home? Maykon Toby and I are def fucked and GGL is the one stirring the pot imo. Her and Arlo are untrustworthy but I ain’t saying shit.	”
–Logan

“	So I feel like I'm in a good spot in the game, but a lot of people are paranoid and I can easily see that coming to bite me in the ass.	”
–Kyle

“	I have the 7 person alliance, my core 4 with phoque, nemo, and juice, my alliance with druce and gavin, and recently i had a discussion with kyle about gender identity because im a bit ignorant on the subject, so we talked a bit about it. then last night was wills turn, where i talked to him about languages and shit because we're both interested in it for a while. tryna keep my social game s tier, and juice said hes never heard my name come up ever so im tryna keep it that way. i forgot to mention my partnership with josh, which i feel is not his only partnership lmao but whatever its chill. he wants to vote out druce but is worried nemo will sway the vote like he did with the jay vote, and he says nemo is the head of the alliance cause he made the groupchats. i remember asking nemo to make the groupchats and i wanted jay out before we even decided, so its nice that nemo being my shield is working so well. now josh wants me to talk to nemo to see if hell vote druce, so i am gonna talk to nemo, but im also gonna talk about whether well vote josh out next tribal. i really like this guy, one of my favorites to talk to. but i feel he has too many "partnerships" where hes fishing for shard information and telling people different things, starting rumors. its just too risky to keep him in this game. and ill put a pin on nemo. hes good for a while, but eventually all the credit hes getting is gonna be too much. one last thing. juice claims me and phoque are his ride or dies. hes saying final 3. prolly the person i talked to the most, coolest guy here. but slow down man. i aint going with shit involving final 3 till i know ill win. i could be swap screwed or even blindsided next for all i know. no way im thinking about final 3s now. ill say sure but if i ever have to do something different then ill do something different. it sucks but its what ya gotta do lmao	”
–Aaron

“	so wowee this is my first time doing these because i am dumb and thought VL confessionals were the same thing but regardless i’m feeling pretty solid here and i’ll go through each member of the tribe and give my thoughts GGL- one of my two “ride or dies” this season. i don’t see any reason to doubt her (or maybe i just don’t want to but at least i’m self aware about that). she’s incredibly sweet, we have great synergy, and hopefully she considers me in her top allies like i do. also, one of two people i’d actively fight to save when our little group starts falling apart. Tasnim- my fuckin dude! i love tas, i love talking with him and relieving our stress with stupid ass memes together. i feel like our trust each other has cemented after the tribal, and he’s my second ride or die. it’s so easy to be comfortable with and around him and he’s someone i’d also fight against going home. Arlo- hnnng. if i’d been making this before our first tribal this would’ve been very very different. but sadly, i’m not. i...don’t know how to feel about arlo. i’d like to believe our personal connection is at least somewhat real for him, and i’d like to believe him when he says he wants to work with me. but hopefully he likes me more than the others in our group since i’ve been both kind and straight with him. Hobbes- now we’re getting into alliance members that aren’t necessarily ride or die tier. i like hobbes as a person, i like talking to him but i haven’t connected *as* much as i have with ggl and tasnim. i’d still never try to get him out this early unless something huge happens, but depending on circumstances i wouldn’t put my life on the line to veto it. Hazel- now this is an interesting one. i know hazel’s type of player i think. very black and white, either completely for or against you. i always seem to anger these types of players so it’s nice to actually connect with hazel here. she doesn’t seem to talk too much though, slight paranoia here she’s just not talking to *me* much? we’ll see Logan- dude, talk to man man. please. we won’t get anywhere if you don’t. Tobias- i see the potential here, he’s really pleasant to talk to and doesn’t seem mean-spirited in any way. probably the person in the “outgroup” i like the most tbh. Maykon- well i’m certainly glad he’s not giving up anymore, i wasn’t lying about that. i’ll have to monitor the maykon-arlo connection to see if it ever starts to threaten my own though. so, my goal before entering the game was to focus on personal-talk for the first several days to endear myself to people and i think i’ve achieved that at least partly. if people start to care about you they’re more likely to feel guilty for voting you out or even wanting to. i’ve done this very well with ggl and tasnim, and to a lesser extent with arlo hobbes and hazel, working on it with tobias and maykon. alliances: won’t be talking about the 1-on-1s here but i do think they helped to facilitate some trust. not fake bitches (me hazel and tasnim): i’m actually really happy to have this because i’m looking ahead to when the core six start to fracture when we’re (hopefully) the only ones left so i can play a good “middleman” game and have neither side target me for awhile. safecrackers (me ggl hobbes arlo): mmm somehow i doubt this is gonna get used again much, *however* disregarding the arlo drama if i can work ggl and hobbes being closer to me than the other of the six and combine that with being liked by the not fake bitches, even this early i’m set up pretty well. no (me ggl arlo hobbes tasnim hazel): the majority, the “core six”. when i started getting things going to make this, i was extremely confident. now, for obvious reasons, i’m less confident. but i think arlo is now forced to work with us even if it’s not his top choice, given none of us voted him out (even though we didn’t go with his plans). like i mentioned earlier, we do have to watch arlo for any potential leaks though. no-arlo (me ggl tasnim hobbes hazel): well it’s no, but without arlo lmao. i think this is the most solid alliance in the game for me so far, we all united in the dior vote and the foundation of trust is strong there, along with the fact that we actually like each other. i’ll trust them unless i’m given explicit reasons to. so, what i’m working here is setting myself up for the reality where our core six pick off all the outsiders and we’re all that’s left (seems like the most probable reality at the moment, if this looks like it’s changing i’ll adjust my plans). i believe arlo will go first in this scenario, with the split being (me tasnim hazel) vs (me ggl hobbes) in which i’m basically guaranteed safety *if* i play my cards right which i believe i’m capable of doing. hope y’all enjoyed my pointless gamestate rambling, prepare for more of these in the future!	”
–Bird

“	We did pretty good on the challenge, I am praying to the almighty survivor gods we do not lose	”
–Gavin

“	So… Yesterday didn’t go very well for me. I thought GGL was my closest ally in the game, but she was lying to me pretty much all day when we were discussing the vote. She pushed me to vote for Maykon because “that’s what the numbers were doing” even though I was worried about an idol, and then she went and voted out Dior (allegedly because she was worried about an idol.) Anyways, it’s pretty clear I was intentionally left out of that plan, and now I’m on the bottom with Logan, Arlo and Maykon (the latter two being people I have absolutely no interest in playing with.) I don’t know what to do at this point. I kinda trust Logan, and Hobbes told me where to find a shard, so that was nice of him. I’m banking on the tribe wanting to get rid of Maykon and Arlo quick, but clearly anything can happen at this point.	”
–Tobias

“	The whole Josh-being-untrustworthy thing has really been ramping up. He's just really overplaying and it's like "bro chill out". But, it gets the target on him. My one worry is that an idol may be played, but I think he thinks we're on his side, so even if he does play an idol if we lose the challenge, Druce will go home, which would definitely suck. But ya know, it's tough that we can't tell Gavin, because we don't know how close Gavin and Josh are. If Gavin tells Josh, the whole plan goes to shreds. At this point, it's better to ask for Gavin's forgiveness after we blindside Josh than to ask him permission. And this is all if we lose the challenge, which we will find out in about... 5 1/2 hours.	”
–Nemo

“	A lot of gameplay notes, but I'll try to organize them as best I can... If we lose the challenge today, Josh will likely be going home. He's been playing incredibly hard from the beginning, and not many people trust the guy... add some idol suspicions to the mix, too! At this point, I've heard multiple people say they wouldn't mind losing just to get Josh out sooner rather than later, so that's a pretty good indication of where things stand. I revealed that I know the Vote Steal location to Nemo, Aaron & Phoque. Nemo told me that I'm his "number one," and so we've compiled our idol searches into a spreadsheet in order to better find shards to purchase the advantage. Aaron & Phoque is my ideal final 3, which they both know, as well. Within that alliance of four, there's a lot of mutual distrust... hopefully I don't regret the decision to share the advantage in the end. I believe everyone in that 4 has strong trust in me, so I'm currently praying the glue holds and that information isn't leaked. On the other hand, Kyle & Will have been another strong final 3 possibility from the beginning, although I think in that situation, I could just as easily lose to Kyle. Kyle, however, also approached me for a partnership -- I agreed to that one, too! We both believe Nemo's paranoia & threat level may eventually be his downfall, but we're staying close because for now, he's the de facto leader of the Saints. Regardless of which path forward I choose, I really do believe I have maximum options at the moment. I also believe a swap to be a strong probability, so that can limit those options or expand them even further. Things change moment to moment in this game, so it's not a done-deal just yet... but I do feel incredibly proud of my positioning thus far and my chances moving forward.	”
–Juice

“	What is up SurvivorORG nation - it's your favourite European cast member [also you're only European cast member... hooooooray for diversity!] So ya'll have been spared from my ramblings for a few days now and tbh, although it wasn't intentional, I'm sort of glad cause now I can tell a full ass story So as the events transpired, we won the 2nd challenge, meaning we have extra time to talk, which is always "enjoyable" (jk, I'm not an ass, just sarcastic) and I found out some interesting things, aka. people are fucking snakes. Josh and Druce are targeting each other, there was a majority alliance created on Day 1 (excluding myself, Druce and the now eliminated Jay) and I am in 2 alliances with Nemo; a guy who doesn't trust me (fun, right ;D). This has, sadly, taught me a valuable lesson of Survivor that I should have had in my mind all along - always play on edge and never trust anyone wholeheartedly. If I stay on the edge, I will be able to expect even the wildest outcomes, I just have to make sure I don't fall off that edge. But I can say one thing for sure - these "Saints" need to be more than ready if we end up going to tribal, cause I'm about to release a whole can of worms no man dare open >;D - To Be Continued	”
–Phoque

“	Another update: my tribe is going to absolutely suck in this challenge. I can't believe how little they know in the trivia department. How have they never heard of John Wilkes Booth? River Phoenix? I'm annoyed.	”
–Tobias

“	I just made a plan to vote out Josh. I didn't want to, but him asking for our idol guesses and lying about the Druce situation made it clear for me.	”
–Gavin

“	Yooooooo! What is with my luck this game! Its day 7, I found 2 shards on my own, and now I have the immunity idol! I'm f*cking burnt out of school man, so to start the day like this gave me the energy i need to finish my cram session. I have the idol and Tasnim my 2nd closest ally has the vote blocker. We are stacked! I don't plan to tell anyone about the idol this soon, because its weird for me to be able to find it this early. I already told GGL my number one ally about the idol because I trust her 100% and I know other people dont trust her much anymore. Im trying to keep our connections hidden, and I dont think theres an incentive (yet at least and I hope) for her to tell people about it. But strengthen my bond with her, which is nice. She is my ride or die, so I see no problem telling her about it, unless she pulls a sinful backstab on me, which wouldnt be out of character in the sinners tribe.	”
–Hobbes

“	Hobbes found the idol!!!!!!! (i kinda wish i had, but it was his efforts that got us this close anyway. he deserves it.) With that, my game is now in the perfect place after that last vote. Hobbes is in a better place than me but i don't need to worry about that here. Him sharing the idol proves it- I verified it, he has it, he trusts me, and i will do everything i can to have earned that trust. #1 means ride. or. die. I may be percieved as more of a threat than hobbes (but he's defo more powerful than me so far).	”
–GGL

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“	Alright so update. Yesterday I did pass the info on to Gavin that Druce was after him, which isn't true. I did this because I 100% need Phoque in this game as a number for me and I'm not getting rid of an alliance member. Another thing I started doing was planting seeds in some heads that Nemo's trying to be the leader and control where the votes go, which I think is true for the most part. Now, my plan is not only to use this parchment with "i wanted to vote josh" to make people sympathize and make sure people dont flip. I also can use this to pin someone for the vote, prob whoever I think is my competition on this tribe.	”
–Josh

“	Right now I am also focusing on keeping all my options open, while I still personally am loyal to the 6. I dont wanna cut my ties with Tobias and Logan since we might be swapped together and I am still willing to work with them and they have said the same to me. I am just trying my best to be social with everyone in the tribe. Initiating conversations when I can, because timezones are rough in ORGS, not much time to talk and get to know people. Also playing a lot of survivor speeds recently, and even actually coming of from a win just 2 weeks ago in another org, showed me that the social game and having agency is what helps you survive unexpected turn of events. We won the challenge as well, so fun time to be a sinner and the f*cking idol clue is worthless XD. Its funny lol.	”
–Hobbes

“	So a new alliance has formed between Myself, Aaron, Will, Juice, Kyle, and Phoque, because I like and trust those five. wow that was a short confessional for me	”
–Nemo

“	So, the tribal question phase was.. smth Honestly, idk what truely came over me at that moment, it's just seemed as though all my frustrations just - needed to be let out. In truth, this is definitely the hardest ORG I had ever had to play, mainly cause I have a certain handicap when it comes to time. But, Survivor is all about overcoming hardships and I'll be damned if I don't try my hardest in one of the largest ORG communities out there. But as for that "meltdown" at tribal, I'm gonna lying if I said there was no strategic intent in it [tbh I would have probably kept it bottled up if I didn't think of a way to do it right]. For the TL;DR verion, Nemo went on a dictatorship run, basically telling everyone how to vote and obviously I'm not here for it. So, knowing how people are sort off put by his attitude, I wanted to use the mealtdown to paint him in an even worse light - which, for the most part, worked pretty damn well. Josh is definitely the one going this time [unless he plays an idol], but I already want to have a set target on someone going forward, I want everything planned out, so that when we get to tribal that there is no room to rethink. Is this move bold, risky and possibly dumb? Hell yeah,this could very easily bring a negative light on me and paint me as a liability. But nobody succeeded in Survivor without doing risky things and leaving themselves out in the open. "He who risks nothing can gain nothing"	”
–Phoque

“	Writing this right before the vote reveal, but it's gonna be ass to see josh go tbh. thats if he does of course. but anyway i should prolly say this now. but nemo, he goin so fast bruh. hes made 4 groupchats with me in them. today he made one with the core 4 plus kyle and will like bruh. and then he always makes plans and just wants people to stick with them, which i mean...we all wanted josh out. like today he told druce gavin was the vote, idk. josh has been acting sus. but now nemo is just doin so much. he wanted to throw two votes on druce just in case josh whipped out an idol and got to be the deciding vote. kyle said hed do it and nemo said ok phoque (who was sleeping, time zones) youll be the other. ya know while he was sleeping. i gave no fucks tbh i dont think josh has an idol, maybe he does, but yeah i fell asleep, woke up to phoque bein lowkey angry that he was given that role. he even said he felt like the punching bag, he just does whatever and was gonna be the scapegoat if druce got made. i agree tbh. he tried to tell nemo but nemo said nah its the plan bro. tryna keep up my social game i played as mediator and said nemo love you bro but you gotta get some other mf to vote druce, i dont want phoque to feel on the outs and to feel like hes just there ya know. so he said aight and got will to vote druce, and phoque said how left out he feels because of his time zone during tribal, i feel bad for the guy. so yeah. i should prolly mention that he knows about the 7 person alliance and i did major damage control, telling him how i made sure he wasnt on the block during the jay vote and how i got him in the core alliance. he should get credit tho, hes a fun guy and people wanted to keep him. so yeah, its chill now. but nemo is a good shield, hes just gonna have to go soon. josh even got kinda annoyed at how much he tries to take the drivers seat. its good to know he confirmed that nemo would be a good shield before we send him off. thanks josh. it was nice talking to you and bonding with you, im gonna miss you in the tribe chat, and you always say good morning and youre a true homie bro	”
–Aaron