Count Your Blessings/Confessionals

Day 24
"goguryeo"

- Last tribal, there were expected and unexpected things happened. I expected Chal to go home, but I didn't expect Hunter to have a vote. As a competitor, it is a good thing because his light pearl is now gone.

I was also surprised when Amir told me that Monkey asked him to give to Monkey the Rings of Duality. Maybe because of paranoia, but IDK. Monkey now has 2 artifacts, which I'm kinda nervous about.

Monkey is smart, it is proved by his ability to find idols and his suggested strategies from the Tribal Councils. It's just that many are annoyed at him.

Anyway, I really want to make it to the Merge. I think the idol for the Merged tribe is already up for grabs. The clue for it was given last reward. The idols for each tribe were already given away, so the clue for the idol is like a hint for me that we are near the merge. But it's just a guess. I just really want a merge. Hahaha.

"goguryeo"

- So the whole tribe unanimously voted off Chal at the last Tribal Council. And of course Chal waits until after he's voted off to complain about how homework got in the way. I'm gonna start college this year and I never had enough homework to prevent me from playing, mainly because I made sure I wasn't biting off more than he could chew. He also calls us traitors even though no one was with him. I feel good about our decision all ready.

"goguryeo"

- Well. As of now, I have a big plan. To blindside Hunter. It could work. As long as Amir and Aaron are loyal. OMG. I want to blindside him so bad. Thinking I am in his pocket. He knows *bleep*. Which is good. And then there is Fei and Eddie. Pretending to be with me. *BLEEP*. If you want me out say it. Alejandro I think is covering stuff up. But I can't be certain. Anyway, I think I am in trouble if we don't win immunity. I am also sure, people are saying Monkey is stupid and he is so weak. Well, let us see about that.

"goguryeo"

- I have to admit, Monkey is a lot smarter than people may think. He came out from this TC as a winner, not getting a single vote and got to keep both Alejandro's mask and Miggy's ring that I recently gave him. And if that's not enough, Chal threw his vote at Hunter, flushing the Light Pearl. That means Monkey only has to play one artifact next time to have the numbers, unless we merge. At least he seems to be happy about having a huge target on his back, calling himself the "Bullet Monkey". It's funny to think he's the only American contestant who actually has a chance of winning this season.

Speaking of Americans, people keep talking about this "American Curse" which prevents every American from winning an ORG season. Considering a vast majority of the contestants ever played came from USA, they may have a point there. However, I think blaming your failures on a curse is rather childish. If I was voted out, it's because I didn't play well. Seriously, let's take a look at the Americans who participate in Korea besides Monkey: they are all either inactives, idiots, making themselves targets or just blindly following their alliance. If all past American contestants were like them, no wonder they never won.

Back to the TC, Hunter has kindly done the entire work for me and convinced Ivan and Ryan to vote out Chal instead of Monkey. He did such a good work, that Monkey felt safe enough and didn't think of using any of the artifacts. That wasn't good for my plans, but it was good for business, as I finally begin to see the cracks in the Secret Society... However, that's for another confessional.

"goguryeo"

- So, still no Merge. This is crazy. Things get crazier. We are fighting for an Individual Immunity, and I need that.

Ivan thinks that if Monkey will not win the immunity, he will go home, but either way, Monkey will not go home.

I feel like I'm the target of Ivan if Monkey wins immunity. Hunter told me that Ivan has plans on taking me out later on of the game. I'm still not sure how I will make Ivan go home, but I really want him out.

Half of the game, I've been playing as non-threatening as I can be. I think so far it's working.

Hunter wants me to be with him in the finals. We are together in Goguryeo since Day 1, and we are on Jake Alliance (originally it's 9, but it is now down to 7).

Miggy wants me in his core alliance of 4 (Me, Miggy, Aston and Ben). It is surprising because we are in Secret Society Alliance (Alejandro, Amir, Monkey, Miggy and Me). He's scared that if we are down to 7 (SS plus Aston and Ben), the other SS members will backstab him. So he formed that Final 4.

Alejandro is the very first one who offered me to be in the finals. He is the person I trust the most. He is the only one who knows about my idol.

I'm having a headache now, as in literally. Hahaha. I want to make myself relax now. My main focus for now is to win immunity, and make sure Ivan will go home next.

"goguryeo"

- Wow, a double tribal council. I wouldn't of thought there would be another one, not this late in the game. It's coming down to it. The Super Korea Alliance is going to start crumbling soon. I've figured out that this whole time, it wasn't Eddie that was the real threat, but it's all of us. We are the North Korea of the game. Which is why I am going to break off Aaron, Alejandro, and Aston, and then add in Monkey for the White Tiger alliance, based off of the 707th Special Mission Battalion of South Korea. It's time to take down the big targets in the alliance. And that's going to start by giving Monkey immunity.....

"goguryeo"

- So, I want to blindside Hunter. He thinks I am just his puppet. That he can just cut the strings off whenever. He has to think twice. CAUSE I AM PINOCCHIO! The Puppet that can walk and talk. I got a mouth. I just have to make sure he doesn't win immunity. Now watch he does and I look like an idiot. Well, let us wait and see.

"goguryeo"

- The reason I didn't do the challenge was because I wanted to push my luck. XD. Plus it was too hard. And I think I confused the time. I want to see if Hunter was true to his word and if he through the challenge. Cause if he did, I want either Ivan or Amir to win. More so Amir. Cause my plan involves Ivan being a pawn. But whatever, I guess we have to wait and see.

"goguryeo"

- Last weekend was Yom Kippur (Day of Atonement), the holiest day in the Jewish calendar. Among other traditions, Jewish people are expected to fast, refrain from pleasures and apologize for all the wrongs they have done to others during the past year. In case those are refusing to forgive them - they need to ask God to forgive them instead. Although I'm not a religious person and I don't fast, I think it's important to be able to look back at things you have said and done, and admit you were wrong. And if that's not already hard enough, try saying "I'm Sorry".

I know I've been bashing a lot of people in these confessionals. I'm taking this game seriously and I want to win, so it's just natural that I'd overreact and say things I may regret afterwards. I use these confessionals to let off steam and express my frustrations, and since people are eventually going to read this - I want them to know that I had nothing personal against them. The only exception for this is the inactives, who doesn't deserve any respect since they applied the game knowing they're not gonna take part in it. As for the rest (and that's including you Zion and Gerda) - I'm sorry if I hurt you in any way and I hope you could forgive me.

Day 25
"goguryeo"

- Wow!! I won the Immunity Challenge. I'm really happy because the challenge itself is hard, but I won. I really had a hard time doing it, because before I do the challenge, I am not feeling well, then the challenge gave me a headache, as in literally headache. So, the difficulty was twice for me. There were 3 puzzles, and after I solve 1 puzzle, I always need to take a break and sleep because of headache. But I still won. It's really nice. I think puzzle solving is my edge over the other contestants.

Now, everybody thinks that Monkey is the easy vote. But he is my ally, my secret ally. I will remain loyal to my true ally. I really want Ivan out because I know that he will target me. He actually tried to blindside me, we talked, and I know that it is an attempt to blindside me. Hunter and Ryan told me that Ivan will be voting for me if Monkey wins immunity. I don't want people targeting me. Those people who targets me, I want them out as early as possible, because if I keep them around, they will keep on targeting me which is not fun.

My problem is that, if I keep on pushing to vote for Ivan, they may start to distrust me because my Secret Society alliance wants to vote out Hunter. So the plan is Monkey will play the mask on Ivan (to scare him so he will play his idol, if he really has it), then Me, Monkey and Amir will vote out Hunter. I'm one of the people who planned to blindside him, because he is a challenge threat, but when I heard that he wants me with him in the Finals, I'm kinda feeling bad now. I don't want to follow Dawn Meehan's footsteps (Survivor Caramoan).

My Secret Society alliance are the people who gave me an assurance early of the game, which was only done by Hunter at the middle of the game. We are both originally from Goguryeo, but my secret alliance are the very first people who expressed their desire to go with me in the finals.

"goguryeo"

- So we all thought the merge is about to come now, but it turned out to be yet another double elimination. I kind of suspected such twist, since the Absorption happened just a couple of TCs ago, and it would seem pointless to dissolve a tribe just so its members will get to the merge right afterwards. I'm not sure how I feel about this yet, since that means backstabbing either Monkey or Ivan, so I'll just have to observe and see how I can take advantage of the situation. However, there are a few things I'd like to point out first that could be important later.

The mystery has been solved - Ivan has the Baekje Ring of Dualty. Considering what I remember from our rankings, this makes no sense at all. Although none of us put Ivan as #1, I was certain me or Alejandro had a better rank overall. I guess I owe Alejandro an apology for accusing him of hiding the ring away from me. If you think I know this because Ivan confessed to me, think again. I actually got this from Aston, after he simply asked Ivan for this info. I don't get why he hid it from us, however that could be the same reason why Aaron and Miggy took their time before they told us they have their respective artifacts. Anyway, the conversation with Aston revealed he is willing to work with Ivan at the merge, rather than Monkey and Aaron. That is great for me, as this is exactly the opposition I needed aginst the Secret Society.

On that same day, Ivan came to me out of the blue saying he wants me in his ideal final four, and that he thinks Aaron and Alejandro should go first out of the alliance. YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME! Too bad I didn't ask for a million dollars. Is this guy reading my mind or what? I don't even have to convince him that Alejandro is a threat as he already got that himself. Sorry Ivan if I ever underrated you, you deserve to go far in this game just for having the balls to call that out. All you have to do now is forgive me for lying to you in the upcoming TC, and follow my plan for you at the merge.

"goguryeo"

- Tonight's Tribal Council is a lot tougher than it looks. In my mind there's only one person that should be getting more than one vote tonight but I'm still a bit worried regardless...

"silla"

- I have an evil plan coming to merge bwahahaha lol. I will pick 3 people out my 7 current alliance who I think are not strategic players, in the name of Aaron, Ben and Aston to be my secret core alliance. Another good thing about this is plan, Aaron is the least closest to mine in Secret Society, and Ben and Aston is not part of Secret Society. So hope this work.