The Claws Are Coming Out/Confessionals

Day 1
"kikuyu"

- Bitch, what is good!!! I am here and I'm ready to play and omg I'm so relieved to see some of the people here. I see Trent, love her! Natalia, my Latin Goddess! Natalie, need I say more!!! I also really like Nicole, she seems pretty chill and Jack seems like the kind of bro I would love to play with so I just need to make some friendships and I'll be all set. Also, 18 PLAYERS??!?? I feel like there's gotta be some kind of twist where some hoes are war roomed. If they're there, come the fuck out!!!!

"kikuyu"

- it's day one and i'm already over this. well well WELL here's what's going on. not only am i playing this with chris blue on the opposing tribe (i thought i'd finally get to play my own game) but you also put me on a tribe with someone who not only is very visibly from xir facebook page from seattle, but lives like three blocks away from me! so now i feel some kind of pressure to work with cass which is already super annoying because like what if i blindside xir?? will i be able to show my face around seattle? will i be forever known as a rat? who knows.

also, cass just keeps trying to find excuse after excuse to meet up as soon as TONIGHT which i just am not here for! my org life and my personal life tend to be very separate and it just makes me suuuuper uncomfortable to have to have someone continuously hounding me about how we're gonna do partner VLs on the ave and shit like baby no I just met you three seconds ago and you're trying too hard to force something out of suuuuch a coincidence. i get that cass was first boot last time and xir're probably trying to like... make up for past mistakes but it's too much.. TOO MUCH! i cannot take it already.

in other news i am RELIEVED to see alex and cali here, two people who i do recognize and can work pretty closely with on account of our friendship. nobody really knows that i'm friendly with either of them too which works out great for me. the only thing i'm worried about is cali remembering my resurrection game from 703 and holding that against me, but it's also been over 2 years so we'll see. i'm starting off soooo paranoid hahahahaahaaaaa

"kikuyu"

- So I need to stop being a fanboy and start to play. Right now I know Cali, Natalie and Natalia then I don't know the rest. From the other tribe a few familiar but omg Gerda she is like one of the org legends. I really want to win this but I will stay lowkey for now so prayers to the Gods of Survivor.

"torrobo"

- i hate this cast

"kikuyu"

- hey again! having gotten to chat with all my tribemates so far i think i'm just gonna give some thoughts on what's going on/my course of action from here forward.

Alex: super excited to be on a tribe with Alex. I don't know if I forsee myself going super deep with him but I feel like he's reliable early on. Him and I chatted a bit about how we're now from an older generation of the ORG and we bonded quite a bit over that. otherwise... idk. i'm getting shady vibes already, not by anything in particular just like... it's very clear to me that he's here to try and win and he wants to play very dominant I feel which i don't think will be the way to go in this season.

Cali: I loooove Cali and I hate that I love Cali because she's WICKED good at this game. I want to go far with her but I don't know if that's super smart because she's either gonna backstab me or she's gonna get a huge jury pulling. I'll keep her close for now, especially because our conversations flow like butter but i think it would be stuuupid if I went all the way with her too.

Cass: I've already spoken about Cass but I've reached a verdict lol. It's very clear to me that Cass means well. Xe is a very kind person who is incredibly enthusiastic about this game. However I really just do not see our personalities matching and xe came on suuuper strong early on in a way that was just off-putting for me, especially having come into the game for the first time in three years and finding out i'm playing with someone who lives no more than a 7 minute walk away from me. I'm trying to figure out how to approach conversation with xer because i really just don't know if the tribe is picking up the same chaotic energies that i'm getting and i haven't quite figured out how to be cordial yet unsuspicious yet.

Jack: haven't talked a ton with jack yet. we go way back from epicmafia so there's a connection I can fall back on, but right now it seems like he's enjoying his vacation as he should, but it could be negatively impacting his game.

Jino: jino only spoke with me to inform me he was tired and going to bed. icon <3

Natalia: super fun to talk to. I really really like her and I think we have pretty similar personalities. Our conversation earlier got a little tooooo personal and i shared too much info and she stopped responding lol so hopefully i didn't burn a bridge there, i'll have to try again tomorrow. no more sex talks!

Natalie: lololol Natalie is super difficult for me to talk to I have no clue how she always lasts long in these games because from my experience she plays like a wall. she has never interested me but she's also incredibly unpredictable. i hateeee playing with natalie and i'm probably gonna have to stick with her because a lot of other people are gonna cling to her -_- i mean this girl doesn't like water!! i just personally think if you don't like water you need to be locked up so this will not be easy.

Nicole: love nicole she's super easy for me to talk to. I think her and jack both playing sinai and being from EM can be both good and bad for me because i have a connection there, but they are likely to have an even deeper one. BUT! i have a lot of mutual friends with nicole as well so I think that makes us likelier to be able to keep a conversation going and work together. i don't currently see nicole as someone who would backstab me.

right now, I mostly want to work with Alex, Cali, and Nicole with Jack or Natalia as a potential 5th. This is a tricky tribe because everyone is pretty great, but people are gonna have to go at some point. tomorrow i'll probably approach cali to get something started. alex seemed kind of iffy about cali so maybe working with natalia would be a better call there. i'm hoping we can win a few challenges early on though and get rid of some of those winners :)

"kikuyu"

- "Woohoo! Nicole is back and ready to be first boot! here r my first impressions on my tribe! Alex: Hasn't been around enough for me to have a proper opinion, he was seeing a movie w his bf today which is understandable! Cali: Queen! I stanned her in KC so it's really nice to meet her we talked about Danganronpa and she might actually get the games! she has watched the first season and she stans Celes, I stan her too and she's also a Kyoko fan just like me as well. I see her as a potentially great ally. Cass: Very interesting, first of all, xe made an alliance with me and Trent 5 hours into the game.., Like xe rlly asked me ""WhAt ArE yOuR tHoUgHtS oN tReNt""... and then proceeded to make an alliance immediately after. Idk I see first boot potential again I mean what I'm the first boot hehehehaha. Defs overcompensating like me and Trent have discussed. Jack: WE BACK!!! PHAROHOES REUNITE! I'm a bit scared of him tbh I know he's a great player but I also love him as a person so much. We actually haven't talked a lot so far as he was busy getting drunk (what a king) but I'm sure we'll talk later and that we'll be close during this game. Jino: talked to him the second least (after Alex), he's focusing on his studying which is good but why would you play an org if u were intending on studying for the majority of the day. I'm worried about his participation in challenges. He's nice though and he's flippino shout out to my sis Nadine <3 Natalia: I hosted her in the Caribbean and almost got her to play Rhineland. I like her but we didn't talk too much. We're going to crush the men in this game though so watch out! I also know that she's a capable player so she's on my radar. Natalie: Didn't talk too much to her yet because she was at work for the majority of the day. We did have a good convo though, about our personal lives and food, we love food. We also talked about my future career and that was a messy convo bc my life is a mess x. Nicole: QuEeN?? idk she's weird and key smashes way too much first boot material. Trent: my favourite person so far, we had a convo for like 8 hours straight without stopping, we talked about artists musicals survivor food video games epic mafia and so much more! kinda concerned with the whole cass alliance thing but otherwise yay!! we did brants together as well, a king.

so that was my brief opinions on my tribemates so far, stay tuned for first impressions on the enemies, the twists and other stuff idk I'm extra."

"kikuyu"

- "time for my thoughts on the enemies... the predator tribe :O Amir: idk him Ashlee: chaos queen we stanned her in Rhineland and we stan her as a person as well, I'm not particularly scared of her in terms of challenge performance but I'm looking forward to seeing her play in this season Brittany: idk her Chris: I.. GET.. TO PLAY WITH KING CHRIS BLUE?? I'm so shocked omg... and honoured... and scared... and AHHHHHH. I'm scared because he's so great and a big threat but I'm also excited because he's a king. it's not particularly good that he's on the other tribe but I HOPE I GET TO PLAY WITH HIM AHHH *fangirls* Evan: also am scared of him he's good at challenges as well and also very active, ugh this whole other tribe makes me concerned especially with my first impressions on my tribe challenge wise Gerda: idk her Nora: QUEEN WINNER OF RHINELAND! she's super stalky like I'm not even kidding when I hosted her in Rhineland she stalked all of the hosts and found all of the information out, it's impressive and creepy at the same time. But also she's very cute and I stan her as a person so I'm excited and honoured to play with her as well. Ryan: idk him Will: YALL CASTED ME WILL AND JACK TOGETHER, PHAROHOES UNITE! we swept fan fave and POTS. ok, but for real he's really scary because I know he's good at this game as well I mean he literally rekt me in Sinai and won and still managed to be liked as a person by basically everyone including mOrEnA. he also has physical and strategic prowess. at least he has a huge target on his head xo also he's such a musically talented king.

overall in this game, there's only a couple of familiar faces which makes this game more exciting for me as I get to meet new people and there isn't a lot of like pregame commitments."

"kikuyu"

- "extra af things nicole has done so far...

- she changed her last name from griffin back to stone as soon as she saw will in the cast - she changed her marriage to will to only me in order to hide it from everyone else - she has a spreadsheet full of information on her fellow cast members, idol guesses and also these confessionals - she edited her contestant profile after szy did it weirdly (jkjk king) - she has literally REFUSED to let people just leave her on seen (she sends them follow up double messages after 30 minutes of being left on seen unless they r jack in that case she knows that they r drunk and does not message)

this list will be expanding "

"kikuyu"

- ok, so thoughts on the alliance cass made 5 hours into the game. I feel as though cass hasn't made good social connections with anyone except for me and Trent and that xe is very scared of being first boot again which is why xe made this alliance so early. xe is like obsessed with hot pockets and so me and Trent just bowed down and named our alliance this. at least this experience helped me and Trent connect more and we've decided that we will only be loyal to this alliance if the sides r in favour but I have a feeling either jino cass or ofc Nicole will be first boot so I feel like this alliance is low. if I had to rate my loyalty to this alliance on the brantsteele scale it'd be a solid 1/10.

"torrobo"

- The tea is chilly but it'll heat up as time goes on

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"kikuyu"

- So its finally Day 1 and I'm so excited! I have been getting to know my tribe and honestly everyone is active and so nice. I get good vibes from these people. Most of my tribe I do know from either playing a game with them or hosting them. It really helps because I was worried that I wasnt going to know anyone since I have played any orgs in awhile. I seem to have good relationships with everyone so far and there's only two people who our conversations are so dry! I'm really trying with Jack and Cassandra both make it so hard for me to talk to them and get to know them. I also wondering if Cassandra is the castaway the hosts were referring to in the VL who was booted on Day 3 and thought that they were a predator. I think xe is honestly that's who they were talking about because I can really see why she was booted. Right now, I think my best relationships are with Nicole, Natalia, Cali, Jino, and Trent. I would love an alliance with just Nicole, Natalia, Cali and I to be honest. I know usually never do all girl alliances but I would be totally down for this. One thing that shocked me about the cast was sending Gerda. I remember she had this melt down about not being casted for a season and left the community. But other than that I wasnt too shocked by some of the cast.

"kikuyu"

- I’m back motherfuckers!!!!! So I made a big stink with the hosts about being prey and not predator but I look at the predator tribe and like... I get it. ESPECIALLY with Will being there. Oh, I buried the lede. WILL IS BACK!!!! AND NICOLE!!!! Pharohoes all returned this is fucking nuts. I’m definitely locking in with Nicole again even though people will probably assume that will happen if they just see we were on the same season. But I think I can succeed in this tribe if I put in enough effort to get a strong position. I’m just so happy to be back man this is the last thing I wanted to do in orgs was come back to main. Lets go win this thing baby, being prey won’t stop me. Predator? I hardly know her

"torrobo"

- Woo i'm back!!! I kinda tell ppl im back for redemption but lol im back to kick ppl's asses AGAIN!!!! But god, my tribe....6formers winners on it. I was very intimidated bu these legends first but then i tried to talk to every person and ugh it's not gonna be easy bc i look like the perfect easy boot here but i'll work hard to avoid that. First immunity challenge soon, ttyl.bye

"torrobo"

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Day 2
"kikuyu"

- Right now almost everyone is online except Jack well I don't know enough reason but I think this is an advantage for me to target him just incase we lose this challenge. Sorry dude but I just don't want to be a first boot here 😭.

And I don't understand that NO ONE FROM THEM IS DOING MY SUGGESTION to assign a season or show to someone everyone is doing things on their own but anyway still effective and still love them.

"torrobo"

- You are looking at the SAVIOR of this season.

Okay good now that will have been my opening conf for 4 of 4 of my main org seasons, anyways enjoy this vid conf upcoming in a bit

"torrobo"

- Okay nvm my camera sucks so,

As I've said before, FUCK I'M BACK. For some odd reason I decided to engage in the stress and antics and toxicity and cheating and corruption and whatever the fuck else can go wrong in these type of seasons. But idk, I just felt like this was a calling card and after enough time off I'm ready to run it back. Either this season is going to kick me to a newest low or I'm gonna rise from this ashes. But holy shit this cast is something else lol

Cast reveal comes out Friday and immediately everyone is a little busy/inact that night, which was actually phenomenal for me bc I was mentally drained from a huge project I worked on. But here comes Chris already wanting to end it based off some of our tribe members - I'll touch on more of that later.

So anyways, I'm going to be cheesy as shit and drop a quote - "we are all but a collection of our experiences". I'm a huge believer in that your most recent game shapes you in how you play into your next one, and HVV2 left a really shitty taste in my mouth, though I haven't exactly voiced that publicly, why should I? While there were things outside my control that really fucked me over, I came to this enlightenment and realization that I've been playing with a broken method for years now. So it's time to break those habits. No more putting myself into this social bubble, no more shelling out a minority alliance, no more attaching myself too deeply to my friends. This is a game about twisting people's perceptions on you to your best ability and lining up their incentives with yours and I'm gonna tip the scales, flip this script, and no longer be the same player as I once was.

I say that as I'll probably just overplay and get killed off anyways but OWELL

This tribe is a very interesting dynamic, tl;dr because I don't want this to get too long, 5 other winners is great camoflauge to work with, unfortunately 2 of them by meta are against 1 other one I think I trust the most at this point. And I think they may even be metatargeting me bc of certain toxic ppl in this community but .. okay yeah I'll explain that whenever I get the chance.

My focus now has just been touching base with everyone, doing well enough this first challenge, keeping my trap shut and not overplaying. Someone's gonna blow it - I'm not letting that be me.

I'll be back with the next chapter tomorrow but for now ADIOS

"kikuyu"

- So the challenge is basically who can be the biggest stalker no life, how fun! in terms of how people are contributing, Natalia, Trent, Natalie and Alex are contributing the most. Cass is pretending to be useful by filling out the doc but really Xe's only gotten overly excited spammed the chat to get the wrong one several times it's really funny. Cali's done like one but shes still iconic. Jack hasn't done anything like at all, he hasn't even shown up so I am concerned (I'll prob write a whole separate conf about him). honey Jino ur really sweet and ur a Filipino which gives ur bonus points but you've done literally nothing but say useless things all day.

"kikuyu"

- ok, so I'm very concerned about jack. I love him very much but he's sent like three messages total to me all of them basically talking about how Will is in this game and how I'm alive. he hasn't shown up for the challenge at all so far (it's been about 9 hours since the challenge started). Jino has told me that he hasn't talked to jack but like its jino.. so how reliable is that. its really looking like jack could be the weak link on this tribe and it hurts a lot. he's left me on read and hasn't actively engaged in convo w me. idk if its cause he thinks I'm already locked as his ally because I love him (I do love him but I ain't his ally if he isn't going to work for it)... I'm so so so very concerned.... hopefully by the time I wake up tomorrow jack has shown up and like completed the challenge bc that's the only way I see him being saved.

"kikuyu"

- Cass started a MESSENGER POLL. IN THE TRIBE CHAT TO SEE WHO TO KIDNAP and talked about it i- ... it was rather interesting, me and Trent are already conspiring to get Ashlee kidnapped against Cass' wishes. also, something suss I noticed but it could just be a coincidence but like Trent told me he "talked around" and settled on Ashlee and then like 3 seconds later Alex was like I RANDOM.ORGED A VOTE FOR ASHLEE. like... also speaking of Alex it's been hard to make convo with him but he has contributed to the challenge so zzz. ALSO CHRIS BLUE AND NORA HAVE BEEN ONLINE LITERALLY ALL DAY IM FREAKED OUT!

"kikuyu"

- Going forward on this tribe I like Trent and Natalia the most with Natalie following close behind. Jino will be a loyal ally and is hilarious (unintentionally) but he isn't that useful in terms of challenges and others may want to target him, I think I've found the Morena to my Will. Cass is problematic because of the whole alliance and messenger poll thing. I want to work with Jack if he appears, Cali is so cool but not a major ally I'm looking at atm. Alex like I've mentioned before I can't manage to keep a convo with him he keeps just not reading my messages but I know he's online cause he reads tribe chat grr!

"kikuyu"

- So I've back read and found out the Jack helped earlier in the challenge so far I am the one in danger if they will base it in contribution. Hope giving support to the tribe is enough.

I am really nervous I want to win immunity so bad. I don't want to go home in just 3 days. I waited 5 YEARS! 5 years to just come back :'( Well I think Natalia, Nathalie, Nicole, Trace and Cali trust me. I trust them that they trust me hahaha I hope everything will be on my favor all I need is to calm down and don't do crazy things in this game.

"torrobo"

- Two summaries to spill: alliances and kidnap votes? Okay so basically im with Evan. We bonded pretty quick. He hosted me before in Galapagos and i know how scared he is of people seeing him as a massive threat so i used that to give him my loyalty. I think its gonna work w Evan: he is smart, im dumb so we can help each other and he said himself that i have the social skills he doesn't have so we can be a great duo. I trust him honestly. We started to share teas and hot goss already haha and all i have to do is keep doing that with him. His request to me " All I ask you is please, do not blindside me bc ppl backstabbed me in the past and i want you to know that I trust you 100%", well, thank you! I love Evan a lot as a person and a player. EVAN IF U READ THIS, U STILL SUCK! Gerda offered to me to ally her and ofc i said Yes. Great socialqueen. I don't wanna have her as ennemy and i feel like i can lay low hiding behind her for a moment. She told me she wants an alliance with me and Amir and im so down for that. Apparently Amir told her that he likes me, thank you! Why not? Amir is cool. I love both gerda and amir so lets do that!!!! I need to work my socialgame w amir more and start talking gamestuff so i won't be just the third person of that future alliance and to be close of both of them separately. Chris Blue told me he wants to work with me, thank you! Im down too. He called me a little chihuahua but i genuinely like him! I won't give my heart to him blindly ofc but we need to give trust to ppl in this game and see if that person gives the trust back or not. So we shall see! He told me he didn't talk to many ppl more than 2mins...fake tea?? Lol, evan told me yall talked a lot abt the game but still love you chris vegetable blue. Yeah i called him vegetable and thats why he called me back chihuahua. Ryan, hmm, he is good socially but what his wikia says about his game and gerda telling me they have bad story make me more cautious about him. So yeah im working him socialy like other ppl bc who know? Maybe i will be swapped with him later if i survive! But im "aware" toward him, i am woke! Will n Brittany hmmm will is cool, he is kinda lay low lol but he is cool, not much to say about him except his fight w chris in cano cristales and brittany well, she is cool. Ashlee Queen!!! We are both rhinelandmates, we are good! She is a dangerous strategic powerhouse so yeah im in her good side rn, we told each other we are together but i do need to solidify our bonds. Kidnap vote: gerda and amir want to vote nathalie bc of her likeability! Well, they seem to willing to base this kidnap vote on getting someone trustworthy hmmmm well not really my point of view but yeah i'll be voting with them. I don't have a preference abt who to vote and im not gonna express opinions too much early! Im not confident in this tribe and i don't wanna be confident. I have meltdown everytimes i think of these giants legends surrounding me but yeah, this is the occasion to show myself i can do it

"torrobo"

- Amir is a god!!! I feel like the tribe is gonna gravitate around him. Except Chris blue lol. But hat off,Amir is everywhere. The teas he reported to me today make me realize how well connected he is in the tribe and he is very smart! Well he told me that he hasn't talked to chris a lot but hmm who knows. I better downplay my game tho, there are so many stellar socialgame in the tribe rn, thats dangerous if they figure im well connected too. Play dumb and lay low: thats what i need to do

"torrobo"

- Wow, I’m back! And I’m so shocked by this cast… it is totally not what I was expecting (except Chris… lol). And seeing Nicole and Jack on the other tribe is… WELL. Gonna give ppl an easy reason to vote me out if we lose immunity. But ya, my tribe, here are my thoughts…

Chris - we haven’t spoken… it’s tense Gorda - a QUEEN, we’ve spoken a lot and atm my no.1 Amir - nice and online quite a lot, I do just feel like he’s sneaky tho Ryan - Not spoken that much, seems fine and stans Keke Palmer so wig Nora - a Russian queen…. We stan her and her memes muchly Ashlee - Australian QUEEN, our voice notes are cute but like, she does just REEK of major social threat lol Brittany - she’s kinda hard to hold a convo with… but is inoffensive so far Evan - Haven’t spoken too much but seems nice and chill

So ya! It’s early day but I think I’ve been making good social connections with everyone so I hope this can just continue like this! Idk what to do about Chris… realistically I want him OUT hardcore but idk how to do dat so…. There we go!

"torrobo"

- I have recorded my confessional several times - wanted to do this in audio. But it's not working so to hell with it! I'll do what I do best and will just write the whole thing.. SO - first of all I cannot believe that I am here! I know I applied and all but if you asked me like a year ago whether I would ever come back I would have said 'no' - and not just a calm one but a capital 'NO'! Like a Darth Vader 'NOOOOO !!' when he finds out Padme died. But after some consideration I am here and I am truly starting to flex my Survivor muscles again. In fact I would say that my play so far has been a lot better than in any of my previous seasons. Straight away I added people as friends and started talking to everyone and by now I've been told by several of them that I am the one person they talked to the most and really vibe with. Slowly but surely an alliance is starting to form. First of all, there is Nora who I had an immediate connection with. We called today and so far we are really solid. Add to that Amir who I have always wanted to play with but never could. I hosted his winning season and that guy can play for sure! I also have formed an alliance with Will (UK residents should stick together) and potentially Ashlee. From what I hear several of us already want to work together so that sounds great! The problem though is Chris. I really like the guy and I asked him to be an ally without realizing it may become problematic. Apparently he has some beef with Will and some other alliances I am not aware of. I think he is definitely a threat. I promised myself that I would not break promises - so for now if I can save him I will. But I have to be aware of how things are. Luckily there are some other people in the tribe to be considered for a cut-off - mainly Ryan. Boy do we have history! Ryan was in my alliance in Tumblr Survivor and him + the whole alliance made fun of me and eventually planned to vote me off. Ryan is also strategically dangerous, so whatever I do I will keep my eyes open. There is definitely no way me and him will be close allies. Same goes for Brittany - she just doesn't give me a good vibe if I'm honest. However, Evan can be worked with - so I will see what can be made of that. But for now back to the competition... which is so freaking hard that it could be that we actually lose it! Fingers crossed Chris' reality TV knowledge works out though...

"torrobo"

- i just have no words with this tribe like... its NOT talkative at all im lucky to get in 3 ten minutes convos a day with any 3 people and the best part is literally no one is trying in this challenge anymore and i certainly am not gonna stick my hand up to do fucking everything. if the pace of this tribe is to lay tf back and just be like "HOPE WE WIN!" even though they arent doing anything to contribute, than i'll join them i guess??? i wont be surprised if we lose and honestly it is what it is im not gonna work myself up about it lol

funniest thing rn is brittany is hella inactive once again i have no idea why she signed up for this game :( there hasnt been talks about voting her out but lets just say i wont be surprised if 2/4 of her main org experiences end pre-swap because of inactivity nd that sucks because i like her a lot :/

good news is ive been making inroads with nora/gerda/ashlee and i have evan so thats nice but idk where everyone stands with everyone so these "inroads" i talk about i could just be boo boo the fool and everyone has them with everyone lol

uhhh idk what else to say, nora/evan both told me today that amir/gerda are pushing their old school agenda and trying to kidnap natalie in the event we win and im not sure why round 1 is the round for you to do that but you do you fam show your cards

all in all idk why im here but one thing is for sure, i shouldnt be

"kikuyu"

- Okay so I love my tribe, especially the girls, they are all iconic af. I'm obsessed with Cali for some reason just cuz I think we are so similar and now I found out she's Dominicana and I'm so excited to have some more Latinos around. I also love Nicole obviously and Natalie seems really trustworthy to me for some reason? Like she just seems like an honest person from how she interacts with me and in the tribe chat. The only man I stan rn is Jino. He is one of my fave players that I have played with! Jino actually brought up making an alliance in case we lose the challenge bc he's worried and we swapped a few notes on who we like (I made sure not to name drop too much bc can't give away all my secrets hehe). I told Jino to hold off on making an alliance rn though cuz I don't want him getting targetted later for playing too hard and I wanna lay low so I can't have Jino bringing attention to himself and me indirectly so. Glad he listened to me & decided to wait. I'm hoping to get that target of creating alliances on somebody else that I don't care about losing.

Also, I have been intentionally staying out of the tribe chat today while they discuss the kidnap vote so I can pop in after people have decided what they want & just say "sounds good!" So not only am I not involved in NO drama but I also get to pass off as easily controllable and manipulated 😅😅 Cass has been reeaaally pushing Ryan for the vote, (then pushes Gerda after Cali brings it up asdkkgfgkl), then says ok Ashlee, and then tries to TELL THE HOSTS WHO THE WHOLE TRIBE HAS DECIDED TO KIDNAP without consulting everybody nnnnnn I almost couldn't stop laughing. Omg. Then Jack was like uhm I think we have to each vote in our PMs 🤣🤣😍😍💀💀💀💀. Petty Nat wants to not give Cass what xe wants but player Nat knows to go with it & let xym plant xymself a big target by telling ppl what to do 😅 I'm gonna see if I can also manipulate Cass to start an alliance chat (which xe probably will do on xys own tbh) so maybe I won't even say anything lol but I hope xe'll do that so that target gets pinned on xym too cuz I don't trust xym for some reason (actually probably bc xe loves to leave me on read 🙃 shoutout to Jack on this one too) but I recognize xe will be a huge shield come swap and merge time so I wouldn't really want xym out fast either lol

Day 3
"torrobo"

- I’m so excited that Ry is on this season because I have someone to trust completely going forward. But we lost.... so this sucks hardcore u spend the first two days talking to everyone and getting to know them but then u have to fuckin boot someone the next day like it feels rude and I just wish we won lmao. I have no idea who I want gone, I know who I don’t want gone, Ry or Nora and I’m pretty certain I want to keep Chris around for some time, I know him and Ry have had some past but I’m unsure if they’ve completely squashed it or not. But mayb that will come in handy in the future.

"torrobo"

- No surprise here, we lost a shitshow challenge. Rhi ily but I hope this is the LAST time this challenge is ever seen on the org bc ykw ykw it only test your ability to watch reality tv and that's inherently flawed AND--- okay I'll shut up its my 4th time whatever I'll deal with it.

Anyways, Ashlee got kidnapped which is less than ideal for me, she's been the player I've talked to the most since this game started. I feel like we've really hit it off well and unless she's a MASTERFUL player I think she trusts me a lot bc I'm gonna place a lot of my eggs in her basket. That being said, it's also an incentive bc if I get out of this one alive I should ideally get info from her on the dynamics on the other tribe and maybe even any little shiny new prize she may have won.

The way I see this game is almost in terms of duos and pacts, I know Gerda-Amir are close, I know from Nora they want her in a trio, I have little duos with Nora/Chris/Ashlee, can't get a read on Will yet and I'm ab 99% certain Ryan/Brittany know each other based off an earlier slip from Brittany in the tribe chat (CONVERSATIONAL SLIP BEFORE U HAVE ANY FREAKY THOUGHTS)

Chris was really worried earlier about meta and how he fought with Will and Ryan before, and I was concerned too but to a smaller extent, bc some of their friends hate me for the dumbest of shit, but I still extended the olive branch and have made some strides there, I can't just shut up and let them target me bc that's what the old Evan would've done lol.

I'll always have an appropriate amount of paranoia for tribals but if all goes well I've heard Brittany from at least 3-4 different people, which is unfortunate bc I'd hate to see someone's legacy go down the toilet like that but if it's an escape route for me to move on I'm gonna do it. That and Brittany and I's convos have just fizzled out. There's lots of game left but I think my mission is just not to screw this one up so here goes

"torrobo"

- I’m beginning to really try to get in everyone’s ear and get Evan out. Not sure why, but I just want this vote to go my way. If it does I believe that I will already have the entire tribe on my side by the end of this week.

"kikuyu"

- WHAT THE FUCK???? I find out that Ashlee picked me and 2 other people for some fuckin trial thing and I drew the rock to actually do it!!! This is wild. Something about information in regards to the Predator/Prey choice or whatever if I beat her. She doesn't know I'm the one going. This is nuts. Did I get picked because she wants to expose me as a threat if I win? Did I get picked because she wants to work with me down the line? Was it all just random? I have no idea but I'm gonna bust my ass to win it why the hell not. Information is power and my brain is too big not to have this information in my possession

"torrobo"

- So my tribe is going to Tribal and the claws are coming out. The claws are coming OUT! Nice kitties who played with a ball of yarn half a minute ago are now sharpening their claws on mama's newest armchair! One kitty is going at those cushions in an especially vicious way - and her name is Brittany. As soon as the Tribal bells were ringing she knew her inactivity probably got her into some trouble so she started messaging people so hard! One minute she says to Nora my name should be put in tin - and then she messages me and is like: heeeey gurl! If she thinks I won't use this little nugget of information against her she is wrong. I already have! I've told a number of people, including Chris and Amir and Will hoping this will only solidify them already wanting to vote her off. Now I formed a bond with Evan and told him about his name being thrown out there by her too. Either way, Brittany never really made an effort to socialize and as I have seen it is absolutely crucial at this stage. By now I have already formed good connections with everyone and as much as I can see it is really working in my favor. I feel like the mum of the whole tribe kind of - people are coming to me and telling me that they like how my level headed I have been so far. That's kind of the point though. I promised myself that if I was going to do this again I would not freak out - no matter what happened in the game. I mean I am 30 now! At this age you kind of should know what is important and what is not - and getting mad about what happened in some ORG is just not one of those things. But this doesn't mean that I will let someone walk all over me - and certainly not Brittany! I don't see anyone but her going home tonight. But things are definitely getting interesting. Now Ryan is messaging me asking how I'm feeling. As much as I was told he has no issues with who Brittany is targeting so it may be that he is just trying to butter me up before slicing me to be on his toast! If I had my way he would be going next. I do hope he does - because there is just something about him that I do not like! He is not my enemy, but there is not really a chance that I would ever work with him.

"kikuyu"

- So 3 days in the game we won the very first challenge with me not doing anything. I am very lucky at this point as a person who don't know people recently that challenge is just a great disadvantage to me.

But hey I wasn't good at that challenge but I still believe my social skills are still good enough.

so for today I will tell you my co-castaway evaluation Nicole - She is like my twin here we have so many things alike I LOVE HER Natalia - I love her already before and I know she got my back before but hope here as well Natalie - We haven't talk gamewise but update on personal life is a big yes! Trent - The coolest guy in the tribe hope I get to know more Cali - for making a 100 days in 3 tries I do know she is really good but hope we get to talk more Alex - so hard to talk to him but appreciate the responses Jack - OMG the hardest to talk to Cassandra - same with Jack but not as tough as Jack

So far since I know we've been here only for 3 days I know that not everyone is that much willing to talk about strategy love everyone but I understand and I cannot also over play this I should learn from my first two and this is already my 3rd time here. So once again to Survivor Gods and Goddesses bring me to the title of Sole Survivor.

"torrobo"

- So we lost immunity! All I remember is finding Mrs Kasha Davis and no one else. But there were several obvious answers people got first. I got to talk to everyone and like them, even Ashlee who got kidnapped.

What I know right now is Will said someone (I didn't ask who didn't wanna pressure him) said Brittany because she mightve done the least to help in immunity. I said I wouldn't really want to do Brittany. Will said he didnt either and wants to do Chris and had thrown it out to others like Amir. He thinks Britt, me, him, Amir and Gerda could all vote Chris. And Nora and Evan would probably follow.

But idk I don't really wanna vote off Chris but I'm not about to snitch or stick my neck out this early. Chris and I are good right now and I feel like we could be good friends??? idk. he has hurt me before honestly. I rather do Evan or Amir! I haven't gotten to know them too much. Might change in the morning, maybe even turn on me.

"torrobo"

- will said everyone is leaning towards doing brittany. he said amir backed out and "everyones being pussies". he said that im the one who has to push to vote out chris to save brittany.

what a terrible fucking spot im in. if i dont throw out chris's name then brittany, whom i love, goes home. and if i say chris's name to amir then chris might go back to hating me and brittany might still leave BUT chris will hate me... but it could save her??? it looks so petty and bad if i write chris but no matter what ill put down whatever brittany does.

"torrobo"

- https://vocaroo.com/i/s0hZ6sR8I7FX

"torrobo"

- Fat fucking sigh

Looks like I'm the target of Brittany this round, I've heard from multiple people she's throwing my name out and it honestly sucks, here I was preaching I was going to be this social player and I'd LIKE to believe I've made strides in all my individual talks, unfortunately Brittany's has been the least fruitful bc sorry I can' exactly find ways to keep a conversation going when her messages start and end with 'haha', i.e. the veiled way of saying 'fuck off'. And if I'm being honest, I won't be surprised if this is a biproduct of meta-targeting based off her friend group and narratives I know they've spread about me and as I quote, "When a toxic person can no longer control you, they will try to control how others see about you. The misinformation may seem unfair, but stay above it". That's a story for another day, I'm just trying to get out of this round alive.

5 is the magic number and I feel inclined to believe I have it, Chris and Nora won't vote me, and while I know Amir/Gerda are a package deal, Amir and I have hit it off well and Brittany made a fatal error in wanting to namedrop Gerda as well. This is interesting because I know Brittany/Ryan are close (when Ryan asked Brittany where she's working in the tribe chat she said "STILL Tim Hortons" i.e. lol they've talked before), but I've also heard from Nora that Ryan/Gerda beefed in a game, so I also feel strong in believing that Gerda would gun for Brittany.

At that point it's 5 and maybe I plan on talking to Will just to make it 6, idk wtf to do to Brittany/Ryan, I feel it's lame to just not talk to them but at the same time there's not exactly much I have to work with there either.

"kikuyu"

- oop we won the challenge woohoo I feel like I contributed enough to be seen as like an asset to the tribe but also at the same time I made sure not to contribute too much as to like be seen as a huge threat. Jack and Jino both tried to help but kinda didn't end up doing anything. I'll make a whole other confessional focused on Jino after this but I feel like this tribe is pretty active especially compared to other orgs I've played before. I'd compare the amount of activity to early game mount o so like very very scary. Our plan to kidnap Ashlee worked out as well and I've messaged her but she's yet to reply atm yet. Alex is still really hard to talk to and doesn't really reply same with Jack they either leave me on seen or just never read my message even when they're online.

"kikuyu"

- Lowkey cass asked for the opinion on jino in our alliance chat. I feel like xe was expecting a negative reaction but me and Trent were like o he great and he tried in the challenge so xe just agreed and was like yeah yeah. this tells me that jino probably hasn't talked a lot to cass. cass is a bit hard to talk to as well, probably leaves me more on read than jack and Alex combined and also gives so many one word answers that don't like progress the convo. at one point cass was literally replying to what I say w emojis. its becoming a more common thing as it goes. literally, the only convo topic I seem to be able to bring up is food and that sucks because talking about food can only go so far omg. also on jino the more I talk to him the more I think that he's really precious and that I want to keep him in despite probably not being the best at challenges or like talking more to other people. I really like him as a person and like I said he's really precious and we have so many things in common. our convos r so interesting and he's just so sweet aahhh. he also sleeps for like 17 hours a day and like that's a mood but also not good when ur playing an org aoifjsdl I feel like I'll do my best to try and keep him alive but idk to what extent I can even do anything to save him considering I think that he doesn't talk too much to everyone else as we are the only non American/Canadian people on this tribe.

"kikuyu"

- "during previous seasons like showdown, I've used this kinda social strat where somewhere in a convo I'd slip in an ""ooh let's change our chat emote n colour"" or just straight change it without talking about it. IDK it feels like a good thing like I imagine everyone is talking to each other and it's just this like plain blue and the thumbs up and then u look at Nicole and it's like PURPLE or GREEN with a musical note or wave like its more unique and makes it more special. I enjoy doing it regardless of whether or not it has an actual social effect. I've done it with everyone I've come in contact with except for Alex bc he's so hard to actually keep a convo going with. so here's the list! Ashlee - Red & Fire Cali - Lilac & Music Notes Cass - Pink & Dancing Lady Jack - Lilac & Penguin Jino - Green & Tree Natalia - Blue & Wave Natalie - Lilac & Cake Trent - Blue & Stars Some of these labels for the emotes r awkward but I love it this it's so cute finally Nicole is doing something positive in an org and not just roasting everyone in confs."

"kikuyu"

- this is the ASHLEE conf I stan her so much omg. she sent me a few voice messages and her voice was so nice. I hosted her in Rhineland and she was iconic there as well. basically I've fallen in love with her and we've talked to each other through like more than 20 voice messages and this is going to be a thing now. I defs do not regret kidnapping her at all I feel like she's my favorite person so far like in game period. I'm so sad she isn't actually like on my tribe though, Trent mentioned drawing rocks that was interesting I'll ask for more information on that when Trent wakes up next. me and Ashlee has talked about so many topics from history culture game of thrones dnd and mafia to a lot of talk about Benj. I actually brought him up strategically because I followed their season loosely and it seemed like Benj and Ashlee were friends and they made FTC together. it really helped us get our convo going and connect more. we've also had a brief strategy talk in terms of kidnapping we're going to try and get each other kidnapped again whenever possible so hopefully I get kidnapped whenever I lose so I can have a fun time being immune with the other tribe xoxo.

"kikuyu"

- What is wrong with me I have a better social game with Ashlee than I do with half of my tribe

"kikuyu"

- Well Ashlee told me it was randomized and that Trent and Alex were the others but that she's spoken far less to them than me so they don't know who was chosen but I DO. I lied and said I got the white rock so I can't play so now if I get this literally no one will know which is fucking awesome. Really finessed this situation to my advantage and now maybe down the line I'll have something with Ashlee?

"kikuyu"

- Ayy! The Prey tribe won that immunity life is great because I won't be the first boot. We also kidnapped Ashlee and I only did that because Trent said we should so I trusted him. Also, this idol is going to be a pain in the ass to get because after just 2 idol clues, I have over 7000 options to pick from to get that idol... fabulous. Other than that, it's been really quiet here knowing that we aren't going to need to campaign against each other, but there are some people who just choose to not respond to messages at all, looks at Cassandra. But outside of that, I'm just gonna keep making my rounds and hopefully solidify something soon. Stay tuned.

"torrobo"

- loooool

So update w/ t minus 4 hours impending, I confirmed with everyone today minus Ryan and Brittany the vote's on Brittany, unfortunately here goes Ryan responding to my morning message hours before this vote is starting and before I can even respond I hear he's campaigning hard to get me out. It truly is corny as shit bc I've exerted the same level of effort in my convos w/ them compared to talking to anyone else, but sure, because they want to be non-responsive and uninterested and because they know each other before this game, sure lets keep Brittany and get me out even if Brittany's been a plant socially and I contributed in the challenge.. l o l

But luckily I have a saving grace in Chris who is fuming at Ryan bc apparently Ryan name dropped Chris too, and in true Chris Blue fashion he wants to take the knockout shot this round already and vote out Ryan. I would love for that, unfortunately since I'm their target this round it doesn't exactly behoove me to push my agenda hard and make swing votes feel I'm overplaying. I gave Chris the green light that I'd love to take out Ryan, and hearing from Nora how Ryan and Gerda beefed in a past game, all it takes is him to maybe just overplay his hand for him to go.

Either way, I feel like there's only 2 names I'm gonna be writing down in the foreseeable future, and I want to see through it tonight that one of them goes home.

"kikuyu"

- Me being an idiot and forgetting to do my confessionals?? it’s more likely than you think.

things are moving pretty slow at kikuyu. we won immunity and snatched up Ashlee, which is pretty neat. but then otherwise this tribe has become very uninteresting to me. cali, nicole, and alex are the only ones who are having good convos with me and everyone else is just sluggish! we will see what the next day brings.

also cass trying to get us to decide who to kidnap publicly/via messenger poll was one of the most hilariously infuriating things i’ve done recently

"torrobo"

- HEEEEEELP!! Can Doctor Who please come and transport me a couple hours ahead where this tribal is already over? Because this tribal is awfully messy for a first one - and Ryan is completely destroying his game. I know I planted some seeds of doubt about him but they are growing into trees so much faster than I could have expected! He is trying to talk to absolutely everyone and is throwing names left and right. First it's Chris, then it's Evan! He even threw me under the bus in the process when he mentioned to Chris I said I hadn't talked too much to Evan. Well guess what - I have an alliance with Evan and there is no way that I am voting him out. It doesn't make any sense! I know Ryan gave Brittany his word (and if Evan is right they may be friends in real life) but he is messing everything up for himself right now. Everyone is put off by his behaviour - and thus it may be that he will not be around for long just like I wanted. However, there is of course the kidnapping twist. Chris said that he thinks Ryan could use his parchment to signal to the other tribe that he needs to be kidnapped. Of course it will be up to them what they will do - but the truth is that Ryan definitely should go pre-merge. But does our tribe really have to throw the challenge to do that right now? I don't think so. If he does by some miracle survive though or we swap in the same tribe I will do my best to make sure that I sow the seeds of doubt again. But now all I need to do is watch the hours go by as the end of tribal nears.. Midnight cannot come soon enough.

"torrobo"

- https://vocaroo.com/i/s11iXVl2BVIi

"torrobo"

- tribal is a mess, screw being a predator just pass me a glock i dont need to eat ppl like the animals do just kill them....

i just like dont understand the campaign route of brittany and ryan going back and forth between me and evan??? whats the fuck point???? and why is RYAN campaigning harder for brittany than brittany is hello??? its so transparent... and now that the campaign isnt working hes like "yeah i told brittany she has my word id never vote her out and i plan on sticking to my word all game" so he has an out but girl no one buys that shit fuck outta here LMAAAAAO.... and he said will was floating my name out to test the water with him/amir and even if its true imma be sure as hell to confront will on it! idc!

i wanna fight someone these people drive me insane

"torrobo"

- Sorry I was so cocky last time. LMFAO. But I need this, if I can pull this out I believe the rest will be easy, I just need people to believe I will be an asset. I don’t want to be first boot oh my god please I will be so mad. I will probably never play another game again honest..

"torrobo"

- this is literally out of my control and it’s not even my fault and i’m so hurt so be the first person booted out lmao