The One on the Throne/Confessionals

Day 28
"saira"

- So, I'm not happy that I was kept out of both the loops for this vote. But, what can you do when you work all the damn time. I'm going to have to continue my strategy so far in this game. Let the "big" players take each other out, and when the war is over, I will be the one on the throne

"saira"

- So everyone lied to everyone! Old school voted out Tyler. P, as did Yap, he went home -- I have his Idol, and I aligned myself with Sam. Oh and I voted for Sam to go? Did I just get off scotch free? Oh yes, yes I did! So this round we did the same thing we do all the time, go to the people who lied with us and make plans to have them flip back to us so we can do something good! Mihai and Amir are down to make a move but they want to vote out Kevin. I'm not down with this plan.

"saira"

- okay that was a great experience. jk not really. i don't know what the hell we're going to do now honestly. the good news is, ricky has the idol because he got tyler to transfer it like 20 minutes before the votes were read - although in my opinion, it would have been much better to have tyler and no idol than vice versa. but anyways, so we've got that, and i doubt anyone thinks it's still in the game. other than that? i don't know man. i don't even really care about winning that much anymore so much as i care about not letting the middle school clique glide to the end. like, a new schooler HAS to get to final tribal. it's not a question. it has to happen, so we have to figure out the best way for that to be done. i'm going to talk with yap later on skype because he claimed the "goat alliance" was "still open" if i was interested, so i just want to see if there's anything of value i can get out of that. i also tried to smooth things over with sam, but i can't really tell if she's legitimately upset still so i'm gonna back off for a while and give her space. as for the others? i just don't even know. kevin was literally not even here at all for the vote and now he's all like "we should have stuck to the plan, we're all going down because you guys voted out jamie" or whatever. jessy and tyler r don't even talk to me and honestly i don't see why i should have to do all the work, so if they want to talk they're gonna have to start it bc i just don't have the time or energy to care. and i'm pissed at old school, but i probably have to act like i still want to work with them or something. idk. right now i'm just waiting for molly to get back so the three of us can debrief and figure out a game plan. also in re the auction: i hope i get the rice and nothing else

"saira"

- im not even mad they voted tyler out im mad because theyre fucking stupid

"saira"

- I'm still not totally comfortable about the last vote, but considering it was either Sam or Tyler P, and the fact that the new schools were so clueless about the situation, just makes me happy that they finally realized it. I was trying to do some damage control with Ricky after tribal, which I'm not sure how effective it was. We agreed that a middle school must go next, and I was finally able to make Ricky agree to vote someone other than Sam (probably Kevin). For god's sake, where were you at the last vote? If we don't manage to play the idol correctly, we'll go to rocks. I'm not exactly sure I'll be willing to go to rocks for anyone in the game, but even if it would get to that I always have the idol as a last resort. and then we got that auction... I won't even start

"saira"

- everyone who voted out jamie will LOSE. mihai/amir/ricky/amelia/molly fuck OFF!

Day 29
"saira"

- So, after explaining to them the reasons for voting against tyler, new school said they are not mad and bla bla bla and they would still like to work with us. Last night we skyped for like 2 hours because we wanted to get many items and in that time ricky made fun of kevin and told us how kevin is telling him everything. I didnt thought it was important then, but today ricky messages me and he's like tyler ridgeway has to go, everyone in the community loves him and we gotta go hard this time. I said it's an interesting idea, but in mind I was like: well, not everyone in the community will be in the jury and I'm not stupid. Ricky told me that yap is the person he wants to trust the most, althought YAP TOLD SAM THEY'RE VOTING FOR HER (after I told her first, but they dont need to know what), so ricky is very sneaky because he knows he can control kevin and can work with yap, so if we take out tyler, he will have more options and me and amir wont be irreplaceable to him. Well, that's not gonna happen because they need us and if they dont agree on voting yap or kevin (amir wants kevin, but oh, man, I feel we could beat him so easy in the end), I'll vote with middle school and one of molly, ricky and amelia will go. You know, after last vote I thought I made a mistake for going after tyler, but now I know it was the right call because ricky and tyler were close. I had a deja-vu from the time I voted tom out. PS. I'm waiting for the video, Bailey.

"saira"

- Survivor Auction!!! I love Auctions and it worked out pretty damn well. We teamed up with Old School and between all of us we received pretty much every item, minus the ones Kevin got. Kevin winning a ton of items is good for me too because I trust him more then I do most of the others. This will be a pretty interesting tribal council besides the fact that Amir and Mihai are so obviously trying to target Yap and Kevin to hinder me...

"saira"

- The auction was just insane! I knew that we would have to work some kind of strategy and coordinate our bidding so me, Mihai, Ricky, Amelia or Molly will win the double vote. It was the only thing that actually mattered, since we have no guarantee that either Kevin or Yap will ever flip to the new school and vote for a middle school. We developed a strategy that will get us at least 10 items by splitting our money evenly between 2 items each (Molly somehow got 3) and control the auction. However I had a bit different idea. I made some low dummy bids that I knew will be overbidded close to the deadline, so the middle schools will go after these items and not the ones that Mihai and the new schools were going to bid for. I was fast enough to realize that Kevin is going to evenly split his money between 5 items, but there was one that Jessy tried to take and I managed to overbid her by a mere second. And holy fuck can you guess what that item turned out to be? the double vote!! If that wasn't a godsend gift from heaven I have no idea what else could that be. Sam, Jessy and Tyler all got absolutely nothing from the auction, which was extremely entertaining to watch. Kevin won the gary hawkings whoever that is idol, which is basically an immunity. If he uses it this tribal, we will have to vote Tyler (I would prefer Yap of course, but can't see that happening at the moment). Kevin also has the dark pearl which means I can keep my double vote if we vote him (god I'm so greedy), but I'm pretty sure he is going to play his immunity anyway. Amelia and Mihai got useless items, while Molly and Yap won those random advantages which doesn't really do anything because they can only be used this round. Ricky got an advantage that is good until final 5, but if there's anyone who doesn't need an advantage in these challenges - it's Ricky. Molly won the free pass, which is an immunity and a restriction mask combined. I'm really happy that she got this because I don't plan on voting her out anytime soon and usually it's the useless and annoying people who get free passes, while Molly is hilarious.

"saira"

- Generations Day 29 (I think) LOL

"saira"

- So I am out right trying to not vote out Yap, but it seems like they are not going to let me take out Tyler. R this round... They want to do Kevin this round, then next round they want to vote out Kevin -- the thing is, what they don't understand is that I don't do ultimatums unless I am the one making them. Their excuse for Kevin is that he has the pearl or whatever the fuck and it will be an easy vote... Well guess what bitches? He also has the gary hawkins Idol. We all know what I am about to do.

"saira"

- okay, so first of all, the auction was fun but i'm feeling Very Robbed right now, considering i did not get my slow cook /or/ my new manga....i should at least get an idol honestly! anyways. the immunity challenge was not as fun but ricky slayed it which is awesome, and now we're trying to figure out the vote. which is proving to me a bit more work than i thought. it's just, ricky is wanting to push really hard for tyler to go home, which is a good idea and i agree that this is a good time to get him out, BUT old school really wants kevin out and im like, we really have no room to argue with them right now! we need them! so we kind of just have to do what they want and not piss them off or scare them away. so ricky is posting these long paragraphs and being like "it'd be dumb to vote kevin" and i'm like dude, just shut up, let them have what they want right now. of course, that doesn't mean we can't also have what we want. i do think it would be a better move to vote out tyler, and i think with kevin's idol we can make it happen. we just need to scare him into playing it, and then we're solid to go ahead and vote tyler. i bet i could talk to sam and be like "do you know what advantages kevin got? he got a lot :///" or whatever and tell her we want to vote him out. then either a) she tells him or b) she doesn't, both of which are acceptable because with a) we get tyler out and with b) it might gain back a bit of trust with her if we tell her the real vote and who knows how important that might be in the future. i highly doubt that sam would use her idol on kevin, especially when he has the gary hawkins one (if she knows that he has it). i'm kind of all over the place with this right now, i know, but i think we can figure it out. we just have to not be cocky about it and make sure that everything we do is for a legit reason.

"saira"

- Tonight has been very interesting because my budding alliance with Sam has really began to work its self out. I really already knew I could get Yap to vote the way I wanted; but somehow along the way I convinced Sam to vote out Tyler. R too. I think Sam is super smart and she knows that Tyler needs to go, she also knows that I was being real when I threw the other Tyler under the bus and she's being very smart with siding with me on this vote. I have Mihai and Amir hestitantly voting out Tyler R, they really want Yap -- of course Molly, Amelia and I are voting Tyler... now I have Sam and Yap doing the same thing and Kevin is playing his Gary Hawkins Idol. I'm about to get my way and I know next round we're all going to have to bitch and fight all over again when I blatantly do not vote Kevin out. I'm here to win, I'm not here to lose. Kevin stays. Point Blank and the Mother Fucking PERIOD!

"saira"

- so I'm nervous as usual. Kevin played his GH idol and he didn't need to because I'm sure Ricky wouldn't have voted him out. Also I just finished telling him literally hours before that Sam & Ricky tell each other everything, that information is power and we should stop telling them stuff and he tells them about his auction items. I also tried to form an alliance with Amelia who then told Ricky who told Sam who told Jessy. Like.....this needs to be called Survivor: Snitcharations because these people don't do shit but snitch!!!! I've never seen snitch game so strong man wtf is wrong with these people. Also I really do think that Amelia and I can work together (hopefully) I'm just trying to make it past each tribal at this point one by one because somebody is always doing some goofy shit. The only person who hasn't snitched from what I know is Jessy tbh and she's my ride or die basically. I just hope I don't go and she doesn't either :/

Day 30
"saira"

- I skyped with sam for like 40 minutes and she said middle school is voting for Amir. New school and tyler is voting for Amir, so that's 5-5 with the double vote. And I'm the one left to decide. It's tempting to turn against amir because he makes less enemies than me, he has an idol, he has almost the same story as me, but better since he went to all TC except one, so if I think about FTC, he'll kick my ass. The question is: Can I make it there without amir? Also, I dont trust ricky AT ALL, I'm sure he's kying about us being final 5 and he'll talke kevin and yap because he can beat them anytime. I literally dont know what to do. Also, Sam mighr have lied to me and they might go after me because she knows I'm close with amir and probably thought I would tell him which I havents. Do I wanna be a real bitch to amir? That is the question of the day, dearies.

"saira"

- idk why but i think middle school might be voting for me. ricky said theyre voting for amir but that doesnt make sense because they would come to us asking to vote him out. I just don't believe it right now. voting out kevin is also dumb yet finding a way around it right now is really difficult. fuck

"saira"

- i'm not here to play amir's game. i'm not here to play middle school's game. i'mnot here to play yap's or ricky's or amelia's games. these people are dumb if they think i'll do whatever they want

"saira"

- Hahaha. Mihai and Amir were pressing hard to vote for me, and wouldn't budge. I love causing chaos, because it makes everyone else scramble to figure stuff out, while I get to sit back and worry about next round

"saira"

- i feel like we are making this way more complicated than it needs to be, we're playing with fire right now and i don't like it. honestly i just want to go with the voting kevin plan but now molly and ricky are all like "it's a waste of a move" but i'm like ultimately it's gonna be a middle schooler gone and old school will trust us so i don't really get why this is so hard all of a sudden. i don't want to lie to mihai and amir and i don't want to put any more faith in yap and i don't want to make a mistake by trusting too many people again. hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

"saira"

- so since I owe most of the cast a drag, let me go drag them now. Amelia & Jessy I wish both of you guys luck :) I'm rooting for you guys Sam, Molly & Ricky: from the bottom of my heart I just wanna give you guys a giant fuck you tbfh. Fuck your life, fuck your soul, fuck your spirit, fuck your aura, fuck your essence, fuck your orbit, fuck your universe. Basically fuck everything about y'all. Mihai, Yap & Kevin: stop telling these people everything!!! They are just playing you and using you. Grow a brain and stop letting them dictate your games. You are supposed to be All Stars so act like it please Amir: I don't have a drag for you actually because you are cool af but you don't talk to people like get it together PLS

"saira"

- im such a great player tribal is due in just over 12 hours and i straight up told yap i do not trust him wow such game

"saira"

- sam is still a fake hoe

"saira"

- P sure im going. Fuck the cunt who disagreed to a deadline change What makes you think I want to stay up to no one saying names??? They can go fuck themselves

Post Tribal Council
"saira"

- HO FUCK U SHEHR YOUR ASSES ARE GOING TO BE BLOWN INTO SMITHERINES HAHA YAS IM NOT GOING HOME ON DAY 30 YAAAAS WHEW!!!

"saira"

- The plan worked out perfectly and I feel by doing this I now have Sam on my side almost completely. We are getting on super well and we talk literally all day long. I actually REALLY like Sam and I am beginning to trust her the most. It's nice to be able to work with someone who is reasonable and seems to get where you are coming from. I mean it's not perfect, we don't agree completely on everything and she totally seems to be too close to Jessy... but I have an awesome feeling about her and I know that this is going to work out. I mean Molly a few rounds back tried to get her out when Tyler. P left -- which lets be honest put Sam in a position where she needed to make new friends.. I think she is one of the most powerful players in this entire game and if I need to be that friend to her then I am all for creating a super duo. I am here to play Survivor; people can take the pre-made rumors and shove it up their ass, if you're not paying attention, there is NO pre-made and I am having such a blast playing the game. Sam and I are creating such an organic in game relationship and no one is going to expect it. I will go to the end with her, and hopefully by then my game will speak for its self.

"saira"

- This is the first time I go out of tribal and I feel disappointed that I didn't get more votes. Yap, Kevin and Sam ended up cannibalizing Tyler instead of voting for me as they should've. why is that? well, I guess that Ricky has a lot to do with it. He claims to having not talked to Kevin in a long time, but I don't buy it. If anyone was filling Kevin in about this vote, it could only be Ricky. Yap appearantly decided to flip again and vote out a middle school, and he told Sam about it and she had absolutely no problem to throw Tyler as if they were never an alliance. I'm also kind of assuming they realized they won't have the numbers for this vote anyway, because we had the double vote. I'm not sure if playing it was a good idea, but it was definitely a risk worth taking if you consider the amount of times these people have flip flopped on each other. Whether Ricky knew or not how this tribal is going to end will probably stay a mystery until the end of this game. I hope that the fact I played it when I came off as completely paranoid will finally make them think I don't have the idol. So Tyler was able to give immunity to someone, and it's not hard to guess he chose to give it to Jessy. It's good for business because it means Kevin has a pretty good chance of going home now while Sam will keep holding on to her idol and probably not use it on him. If I can get Kevin out this time, I have a pretty good chance of working with the remaining middle schools in the rest of the game. I like Ricky and Molly and Amelia is really sweet, but I have to keep my options open somehow. I can't keep having people asking Mihai to tell me and ask me stuff, just come talk to me bitches! and I'm especially sick of being the middle school's voting pawn, like why won't you vote someone else for a change? I'm cute and harmless frown emoticon

"saira"

- my to-do list today: - get on call with amir and make sure he's okay because ricky's explanation was definitely not adequate; tell him i think ricky talked to kevin and yap because he was nervous about amir/mihai going to middle school with the double vote but that he trusts them now - solidify the voting kevin plan with team real as a whole - laundry - get on call with sam and talk to her about the vote, make her feel like i'm legit about wanting old school out now - get ricky to talk to yap/kevin - talk to ricky and molly about what we really want to do - suffer

"saira"

- So immediately I get an earful for all 4 of them, and it's off to do damage control. I quickly say my goodbyes to Po.. awkward. Right before the votes were revealed, I kinda hinted at Amelia that down the road we, as goats of the Shehr alliance, need to take out the big players. Which was a cool thing since it was an alliance, but then she was like NO after the results. Molly was... OH MY GOD WHAT ABOUT ME THO? Like I got a horrible vibe from Molly's reaction. I understand that what I did was mean to them, but Molly made it obvious that she only worried about herself.. And Ricky was basically "you shady monkey". I mean, he says he understands why I did what I did, just didn't like how I went behind his back. Either way, I think I handled myself nicely, I kept a calm demeanor as Molly was antagonizing me since she thinks I made a dumb move. And Amelia and I talked it out, not completely healed, but getting better. Still a lot of work to be done there..

As far as the move I made.. I'm still debating on whether or not I made the right move. In my opinion, I think I did. It was a very selfish move, obviously, but I think it shows everyone that I'm not attached to the hip with Ricky. While at the same time, sorta elevates myself in the game a bit. It shows people I'm not a goat, and hey, I have something I can bring up when I make it to the end.

Ricky and I have a nice talk. So remember how beginning of the season, he said no bullshit with me. Well he tries to reinforce that with me again, and I sorta kinda not really, but want to believe him. He has this sort of mist with him, but sometimes I feel like I can see write through it. And I feel that he's sorta being genuine when he says he'll never vote me out because there's this connection outside the game that we have. Do I believe that.. well yeah.. but like I'm suspecting he might also not wanna vote me out because he believes he can beat me at the end.

Anyway, Ricky brings up that his ideal final 3 is with me and Sam. Apparently we're the two that he gets along with the most, and we make great allies. And.. well he's not wrong. Sam has big pull on one side of this game, Ricky has big pull on the other side of this game, while I sorta play up the middle..

"saira"

- So, having to wake up super early for work, and getting home after tribal has been posted for a bit really sucks. What sucks more, is neither Amir or Mihai have tried talking to me since they first tried voting me when Skandi left. They won't reach out, then I wont

"saira"

- So Mihai and Amir want Kevin out and Molly/Amelia are down to do it... So annoying, I mean, they are just honoring the choice we agreed upon but the problem with this entire situation is that I am not going to vote out Kevin. I don't care what I promises! I am not going to vote out someone I can control in this game. I wouldn't say Kevin is my goat, but he is an important part of my game and I am going to use him until he tries me too hard. I don't think he will try me at all at this point. Let's just see where we can go, and I'd rather be smart.

"saira"

- okay so not only did i accomplish all of these things (in 4 hours! look at me go!) but i also started thinking about the future and setting up some more plans. while i was on call with amir and then also mihai, i tried to sort of hint that i'm not as much with ricky as it seems, and that i'm a little worried about him long term. i wanted to make it clear that i don't approve of ricky keeping yap around too long and that i'm willing to put my foot down on that matter, because one of the concerns mihai expressed to me was that those two are tight and ricky would want to keep yap over old school. then in the lonely macaroni chat (pasta town minus tyler p) molly brought up the fact that we will possibly/probably be in danger next round, because sam will be mad at us if we vote kevin and because everyone knows that the three of us are tight (tbh the tightest group left in the game), and i was like "i'm one step ahead of you there", and i also went to pms with her and was like "we should pull a greece and make a fake final four with mihai and amir so they have incentive to stay with us". so we're going to work on that soon, probably after this vote goes down - just to start building that idea and have it in our back pocket should sam and co. decide to try and win those two back. just because it seems like we have momentum back, it doesn't mean we can get relaxed. there's still a lot of this rodeo left and we have to continue to be smart in order to ride it out.

"saira"

- also i kind of feel like we're on amazing race right now and it's finally my time to do a roadblock - ricky has been doing most of the talking and organizing so far, but I've definitely been doing a lot more with this vote since the other two are at class / sleeping, and to be honest it feels pretty good to have some real responsibility now. i mean, as long as it goes according to plan. if i screw it up, i'm probably back to just being the background figure in this alliance. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

"saira"

- I hate that they voted Tyler out, but I wasn't going to go last round. They tried to get me to not play my idol, but I was an easy target, because a middle school "had" to go... ugh. Pisses me off

"saira"

- my oh so close alliance isnt telling me everything and i instead have to find shit out from sam? whew if they give me this idol they better watch tf out

"saira"

- So, this vote is really weird because I'm feeling soooooo relaxed and because middle school said nothing to me so far. I think that when someone gets too relaxed he goes home. Amir said that jessy told her it's him and that everyone knows he has the idol. Me and amir + new school talked about voting out kevin. Tbh, I would have wanted ricky out because he wins everything, is cocky and still has an advantage, plus good relations with yap and molly. I'm actually sure that ricky tells yap everything because like 3 days ago yap messaged saying it would be good for me and him to work together since no one would expect it, but yesterday he said I went back on my word. And it was yesterday I suggested ricky that I'm scared he will go with yap and I told amelia yap should go. That tells me ricky is a liar which I already knew, of course. God, I cant trust a single word that comes out ricky's mouth. Well, hand since it's facebook. Yesterday I skyped with amir for some time and he really wants to stick to new school until the end because he thinks amelia will choose us at f5. I doubt it and I hate that amir is a chicken afraid to make moves. I want to play a crazy games, not stick with the same people for the entire game and make this game boring and predictable, but amir stops me. I just wish I dont go out this time, because I dont like how relaxed I am and I have a weird feeling. If amir goes wont be that bad in the end, I think, but hopefully it's kevin. Kevin does nothing and he's annoying, whoch would make him a perfect person to take to f3, but he is also a middle schooler in a jury that hopefully would be full of them, so he gotta go.

"saira"

- i'm debating telling amir how shehr is voting for them if i do that, then the possibility of us working together is higher but he could still go to shehr and be a dumbass and say "OMG GUYS LISTEN UP JESSY KNOWS TEA FROM SAM!!" but if he doesn't, he uses the idol, i vote amelia, mihai votes ricky, amir votes molly, 1-1-1-6*

"saira"

- So Sam told me she has a date on call with Amir and Mihai or some shit like that. It looks like Amir and Mihai are planning after the Kevin boot to fly back to middle school. There whole game has become dependant on the flip! it's annoying. Now this is something I could use however! LOL Pretty much I went to Amelia and told them everything. EVERYTHING, and even though Molly has already voted out Kevin (LOL). Amelia and I haven't voted yet! Sam, Yap and Jessy are voting Amir... and my goal which I think i am accomplishing as I type this, is to change Amelia's mind.

"saira"

- Feel free to call me Captain Jack Sparrow, because I'm Captain of the Black Pearl. I've got that automatic vote against me, but hopefully my "allies" pull through for me, and I can make it through. My best friend in these games got voted out, and I was never really given a chance to try and defend him. Right now, my chances of winning are small, so I've got to do whatever I can to put my name at the top of the lists.

"saira"

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