Board Thread:Season 21 - Salvation/@comment-7123402-20140920234405/@comment-10702658-20151127070416

Not to be a total dick and resurrect a dead thread, but... I was banned before I could give my "official" final words. So here they are, fourteen months late.

First, let's get this out of the way. As many of you have guessed/speculated, I did not Photoshop my score. The image was only edited to add my name and the day.

What I did do was, only semi-unintentionally, played the game on a terrible computer with many background programs running, making it lag and effectively tripling my reaction time. Not against the rules, but I was certainly at least partially aware of what was happening and how I was getting an advantage, and it was definitely,shady in retrospect. I also raged about the cheating accusations in a private chat with Nuno, which definitely impacted his opinion of me and might have impacted his decision. The "proof of my innocence" I provided Nuno was also apparently insufficient. (It wasn't a particularly good proof, as I didn't have the requested video evidence of my 16k score and I couldn't record at more than about 4 frames per second.)

I'm still not aware of whether Nuno gave that "proof" (I hesitate to call it that, because frankly, it is not) to the other admins and the Salvation mods. I'm assuming he didn't, as I wasn't confronted about it by anyone else, and one would think they would want to talk to me before making such a decision. I thought at the time that he had it out for me after that long message full of obscenities. I may have been right, and I have to admit his judgment regarding me may have been clouded, but I am the one at fault.

Looking back on this game - these games - after a year, I see what both I and he did wrong, and I can't blame him for assuming me to be a cheater.

Nuno, Adam, Bailey, and Kevin, let this post serve as my apology to you for acting confrontational from the beginning and overshadowing what was shaping up from the early stages to be one of the best seasons yet. I never got to explain my story to three of you, but if I were in your shoes, I might not have believed myself. I was too lost in the "jackass persona" I was adopting for the season.

The rest of the Salvation cast, and specifically my Askja tribemates, I'm sorry for being a general waste of a spot on the cast. I came into the season assuming I had no shot due to old grudges, from my pre-Wikia days, so I decided to make the worst of my abilities and set out to troll everyone from day 1. Hardly the best gameplan, and it probably wouldn't have taken me far in the game.

Everyone else, I may be bitter from the events of Salvation, but I don't regret being a part of this community for the better part of a year. ORG Wiki is not what it was when I joined, a fresh-faced college student with no idea what the real world was like. Whether it's become better or worse is up to your personal opinion, and my opinion is that it won't be dying soon. Make the best of this tight-knit community while you can, though. I have some very good memories, even now.

On a darker note, even though my posting ban is up, I will not be returning to the Survivor Wiki or ORG Wiki community. I don't really have any reasons to come back. My ties to the community were forcibly - abruptly - cut by the admins at the time, robbing me of my chance to end them naturally, but I don't really believe it's worth the effort to reestablish them when we no longer have anything in common.

Also, since I didn't get to say this when it happened, congratulations to Steve for winning Salvation. You were one of the few who never questioned my innocence, and I thank you for that.

'''TL;DR: I didn't Photoshop or intentionally cheat, though I wasn't on a level playing field. I bear no ill will toward the mods or admins, though I won't be returning anytime soon.'''

(By the way, my "unassisted" high score at Squishy Bird? Around 10,000, as of around six months ago.)