Board Thread:Season 28 - Generations/@comment-25567389-20151009034843/@comment-26281053-20151009061937

Hey Amelia! I am so glad you saw the strategy to why I had to vote you out, and it makes me feel good that you know I put effort into getting here. I had a feeling that you would be holding me accountable for something else, and I am glad you gave me the opportunity to address it as well.

I want to first start off by saying that I really hope you do not think I am a cruel person. The last thing I ever want to do in any situation is make anyone feel bad or uncomfortable. To find out that I made you feel that way really upsets me. I know the way I am, and I know sometimes my humor isn't always well received. In my everyday life sarcasm and bitchiness is used routinely. I don't mean it as a method to put anyone down, and usually it's well received among my group of friends and the people I surround my self with.

I am however extremely self aware and because of this I have no excuse. I have heard your reaction time and time again to certain things I have said and my feelings towards the responses you have shown me have always made me feel like an idiot. You're someone who I have had a pleasure getting to know, and I know you and I are so drastically different. I should have been more respectful and picked up on the ques you sent my way.

I really thought we were close and that we could talk about anything, maybe I was wrong. I voted you out of this game, because I thought it was the best for me moving forward -- I hope that my attitude or the way you perceived me doesn't tarnish the way you view me as a human being. I really like you and I have never had one bad thing to say. I want your vote, but most importantly I want your respect. So I apologize for making you feel uncomfortable, I never want to do that to anyone, and you didn't need to tell me, I should have picked up on it and tried harder. Not one time in this game did I truly want to bring anyone down on a personal level.

The lesson to learn is that the way I joke about things, isn't always a joke to everyone. We're not all me, and I know I can be pretty loud and abrasive. It's something I need to work on. I really wasn't trying to come from a bad place.