Ure a Liability/Confessionals

Day 7
"zambezi"

- Surprise, surprise.. Nic went home! That shocked literally nobody including Nic himself because I decided to tell him he was the one leaving before the votes were revealed. Leading him on and whatnot made me feel a bit icky so I let the cat out of the bag. He also decided to tell me that he had Ben as his Open Season target which was nice to know, so all’s good here in Kariba.

"zambezi"

- Tribal Council took a toll on me, so I thankfully got the opportunity to take a little trip to the Hunter’s Lodge and detox. While there, I had to pick between 15 different jars and number 14 was taken by someone from Hwadze the previous round. For whatever reason, the number 7 has resonated with me and done me some good like the jar I picked at the beginning of the game was the seventh one and it got me here, plus I picked seven as my rank last challenge and I was one of two people to score a point for my tribe… so I hope it brings me something good.

"zambezi"

- They say diamonds are a girl’s best friend, so does that make pearls a guy’s best friend? I hope so because I ended up getting a Dark Pearl at the Hunter’s Lodge! I have all sorts of jewelry and I’m ready to slay the game with these highkey iconic looks like… I got my Hidden Immunity Idol and my Pearl, I’m set! My game so far has been incredibly lucky and I’m so thankful for that, I can only go up from here. ❤

"zambezi"

- Someone deadass pushed me in mud or something cause I’m a mess y’all… Ben came up to me and suggested an alliance between Daniel, himself, and I. How could I deny an offer to spend time with some guys? Anyway, we formed The Worst Guys alliance and now I’m officially aligned with everyone on my tribe… which is so good yet so bad. Becky is the only person who isn’t in an alliance with me, so she would have to go if we were to lose. That being said, if there’s a way Louise could get the boot I wouldn’t be opposed to it only because I don’t talk her too much and we’re in an alliance together. Best case scenario is Zambezi wins every immunity until a swap or merge so I don’t have to play all my cards but who knows at this point.

"zambezi"

- So I guess I should do a run down the tribe dynamics because I deadass don’t really have too much to say about the vote except that Nic made me sad </3 I really wanted to keep my prefect premerge games but sadly that did not happen LOL.

On a more serious note I think something people are being SOOOOOO fucking casual about (seemingly) is the Open Season twist and listen: I get it, it’s not meant to dictate the game but trust and believe if my target wasn’t someone who had MADE US THE FLAG AND ISN’T SHIT AT FLASHGAMES I would take his (jake’s) ass out cuz while an advantage is great already, people aren’t as long as you don’t tell people who you got, people aren’t going to know you got it, there that advantages power is magnified by a lot. This is basically a hidden exile island except 1) your ass isn’t sitting in a chat and 2) people aren’t going to suspect you have anything right off the bat, and I find it really interesting.

I think that due to me having a relatively ass target atm, I’m gonna try harder in these challenges because even tho that could (If it hasn’t already) make me a target, I still would rather not be giving the people on this tribe a leg up over me that I don’t know about. Plus being immune it’ll give me time to figure out who has who. I already know Becky has me and I told her who I have, and I do trust her with that information for now. Ben has told me he has Augusto and he hasn’t told anyone so I felt like building trust with him by saying I wouldn’t tell anyone. Funnily enough that was a cover up for me accidently telling him Jake was my target, which I had to try cover up by making a deal that we wouldn’t tell anyone our targets and it’s great that he has Augusto as a target because Me, Augusto and Ben have an alliance so Ben therefore has a incentive to keep his promise.

If there’s one thing that concerns me right now, it’s the info that Becky told me. She had let me know the reason Nic targeted me was due to Elizabeth… which come on y’all that doesn’t make any fucking sense, why the hell are you telling him to target me and then voting him off? What do you gain from that other than me not liking you? I do understand why she did it to some degree because she and I haven’t talked so perhaps she was just throwing a name out off the top of her head but… logically I think she should’ve just gone blonde and pretended to not hear anything, that’s not #1 rule of early game is to pretend u don’t know shit when in reality you do. I have my eye on her but I’m not going to think too deeply about her motive, maybe just try to talk to her some more so I can feel her out and figure out how she moves because honestly she is the person I’ve talked to least. Everything else has been relatively normal so far, I just want to focus on social and I think me receiving a vote has helped me notice some patches that may need some tiny fixing, but I’m not going to overplay it obvs <.>

I think one more thing I should mention is that I need to figure out what my approach is this season, and I think that it’s something I don’t want to overthink but I do want to tweak, because if people get a good read on me then that’ll ruin my basic approach to this game. It’s going to be something that I’ll have to think about over the next day or two, but maybe a immunity win can give me that extra time to not flop for the later game (if I make it there.) ;o

"zambezi"

- the vote was p straightforward since nic wouldn’t respond to his PMs and wasn’t trying in challenges. i don’t think a single person had another target in mind. in other news, i got v good points with the tribe by winning us reward against an amazing hwadze flag (i still don’t necessarily understand why the judges/tribe picked me, but to each their own) so i think that definitely set me up for some time in terms of challenge necessity.) so like i called on day 2, nic was the obvious first boot, our gossip girl alliance came together and i gained a better understanding of where lines lie. if we go back to tribal, i might set my sights on dovile, just because she is playing too hard. basically, she went to elizabeth and said she was wary of augusto and i and that we might flip. like i don’t mind her having strategic concerns, but i don’t like being #4 on her list and i don’t like her refusing to voice those concerns to me. within the alliance, our subdivision appears to be dovile/louise v me/augusto with elizabeth in the middle. it wouldn’t be too hard to tell augusto about dovile’s concerns, then work with the other three to flip on dovile. the only issue with that strategically is since she’s louise’s target, if she catches wind and joins in, it could result in us giving an advantage to the minority alliance, which wouldn’t be cute. and it might be too soon, but i do think it is time to start planting seeds. additionally, the probability of ben/dan/becky feeling safe without an alliance is astronomically low, which means someone from gossip girl may be in the middle and i’d like to take their spot pls & ty.)

i did make one mistake last vote and it definitely resulted from doing three orgs. instead of checking up with each person and using the obvious boot to form connections, i made no sort of attempt with dan and ben, which kinda isolates me from them strategically, which is not cute at all. i think if we go back to tribal, ben will be in the clear from gossip girl, but it could be becky and i really like her so idk.

right now the lines are kind of becoming defined, and i don’t think i have a strong enough social bond with the people i’m working with to stick with them for the rest of the game. like on this tribe, i talk to becky, dan, ben, augusto, and elizabeth the most. louise/dovile not so much and if she’s already voicing concerns abt me…

ALSO target developments

nic had ben. ben is keeping his a secret. it’s either me, nic, augusto, or dan. becky told her person, so it’s not me, nor was it nic. louise has dovile. dovile knows. dovile has elizabeth. elizabeth knows. i have louise. louise knows. augusto/dan are unknowns. they have me/ben/nic/augusto. elizabeth has becky. she doesn’t know?

so either ben, augusto, or dan went to the hunter’s lodge i think, unless becky outright lied to me, which knowing this game, is a possibility, but it was a v convincing lie so.

and that means one of augusto, dan, and ben have me. leaning towards augusto, simply because dan/ben have been talking to me a lot so idk and augusto seemed v unhappy when they first came out. it means if i tried to flip the script with him, he could use it as an opportunity to take things out. so basically, i see you dovile, but i have to stay exactly where i’m at until i know who has my name and then i can move accordingly. because ultimately the group i’d have to flip consists of my hunter and that’s v problematic for me. for now, i just need to have a better social game. i don’t think its great right now and it might be placing me on the outs so time to slide into more PMs and find some interesting part of my personality. i might cruise until a swap, but i might also try to see who goes there. it’s all about timing tbh.

"hwadze"

- I have no idea where I am with and what with this bunch on tribe lol

"hwadze"

- also Drew, Hals, Jack, Kiley, Matthias, Roisin, Vincent most of them send me messages here and there but no alliance offers yet bummer those asses have an alliance and I know it so GLO GLO has it tough I am afraid to say with this bunch lol

"zambezi"

- this is one of the dumbest challenge I've ever player. I'm so sorry for everybody who will have this challenge in the future

Day 8
"hwadze"

- are u fucking kidding my kiley and glo not evne 100k.. god ure a liability.

"zambezi"

- the idol paranoia today was cute asf. i love how people let loose lips run rampant when they need information. i'd think it's dan, becky, or augusto rocking that idol tbh. i learned a few little tidbits that confirmed suspicions and showed me i maybe need to take a different course of direction. right now, admittedly, my game is not stellar or anything and that's right where i want it but also high key might need to fix that before i go premerge. i'm a number for a majority and low key #5 in a group of 5, which is all i need to make it past this first phase of things without getting anyones eyes on me. but i have to be careful with that because it could start to resemble floating or a small strategic influence/outlook.

but yeah - i have reason to believe louise/elizabeth/dovile have formed a cute lil trio within gossip girl. while i'm not sure, it definitely fits with dovile's unfounded suspicions of myself and augusto. what matters less is whether it's true and more abt the fact that there are now two pieces of evidence that support it if i wished to bring it to augusto and pull him closer.

i could also explore the option of using that to form a five with becky, dan, ben, and augusto, but i have a hesitation. one of dan, ben, and augusto is my hunter, one of them has been to the hunter's lodge, and one of them probably has an idol (+becky). those are three potential minefields that i don't want to dance on. like if i tried to flip things up, it could easily backfire bc i do have to worry abt someone wanting an advantage over security. not to mention it's a little early to be flipping on alliances and compromising loyalties... especially since elizabeth trusts me a LOT.

part of me also suspects another alliance bc i doubt ben/becky/dan all feel safe w/o an alliance and they do vibe well together kinda? if there's anything, augusto is in it.

basically, i've positioned myself to survive a few more premerge votes i think but also have strategic insights that i need to act on without extremism. for now, i think my goal should be to find out the remainder of the hunter-target network and start to pull augusto in as a duo. i hope my bond with him is strong enough!! like my social game is not at his level, but i do consistently reach out to people and try to talk at least twice a day. a convo a day keeps the bad social game away? i hope.

anyways, happy to say TOP 15!! i know it's clichéd and all and a lot of my confessionals seem are like idealistic about my insights evolving into plans, but i'm genuinely surprised to have made it this far and i'm hoping to at least say i swapped. like i'm working hard to position myself well and i'm hoping it's enough to make it past this initial phase of the pre-merge. in summary, i'm optimistic abt the future and abt some aspects of the game, but also wary of some things!! 😀

"hwadze"

- I've decided this is the season of Drew's problems magically disappearing.

I have to hunt someone and possibly expose my game? Let's give him the inactive person that everyone will already vote for.

Someone has to hunt me?? Let's give it to the only person I was friends with before this season started, and let's also put that person in an alliance with him but not one they started so no one has to know how close they are.

Nic is gonna be a problem as soon as we're on a tribe together? It's cool babe, he gone now. You don't gotta do a thing.

Worried someone might at some point expose that I just hosted Gloria to a win in Tumblr Survivor? The group wants to cut her, and Drew gets to look supportive of his new best friend Hals who gets to go to the hunting lodge.

Honestly um..........it just shouldn't be this easy, but I'm sure as fuck not gonna be the one to ask for a recount!!!!