Müüsli zum Z'Morgä/Confessionals

Day 26
"niemand"

- I don't even have time to mourn my booboo Sharky that they drop the news of the merge on us. F11 is a decent time to merge I guess, unless they decide to split us into tribes again at F10/F9/F8. Either way, this is a breath of fresh air into my game. I was suffocating in these small-ass tribes. It was nice to meet up with my dear Tambo people, and it was nice to see Gerda again, despite her rampant paranoia about my sweet little Sharky.

Naming the tribe was a painful experience. Everyone just didn't really care all that much and Gerard was all scattered

"niemand"

- So now all of the sudden we are finally merged. I am actually happy that we switched for one time. It actually helped me a lot. Now I have an idol (still can't believe it) and I also got rid of one of the people I have felt iffy about since the beginning of the game. The lovable Sharkeisha.

But now we have a rather tough choice in front of us. Who will we vote out next? And who is really with us? Do we have all the numbers we need to make sure we make it?

I do think we have the numbers, but I'm not sure if we have them to vote out Sole. Still, I know that at least Uli, me, Adam, Taylor and Lloyd and probably Andrei would be voting him. Maybe Ben too. Still not sure about his connection with him. I think we can do this though.

Maybe it would be wise to vote Jhet first because he has been spreading rumours about Taylor. And we could get more people to vote him, even Zac. I hope this all works out as well as I believe it will.

It's time for me and the rest of The Three Dragons to start conquering Westeros for real.

"niemand"

- WE MERGED!! :D I'm so happy!! I wasn't sure if I'd make it but I'm here in the F11! Crazy... So Sharky left last night which reeaally sucked because I really liked him :/ but I guess he was threatening and now I don't have to worry about him as much. Since we've merged I've spoken to everyone but Lloyd and Ben so I'm feeling okay at the moment. I've put a fat target on Uli's back because I want him gone after he flipped on me... Tbh idk what his motives are or how close he is with Taylor so I want him out. If that plan pans out the way I want it to it should be me, Zac, Taylor, Gerda, Gerard and Adam in some form of solid-ish alliance and through our contacts we can hopefully bring in Jhet, Andrei, Ben and maybe even Lloyd too for this first vote. Taylor really likes Andrei and Ben from original Tambo so I'd like to break them up and Lloyd and I have never spoken so he's done nothing to cover his ass. Taylor also blackmailed the idol off Jhet (which both Taylor and Jhet told me) so I'd like to keep them both close so they can turn on each other at any moment. I'll try and keep Jhet in the loop but he's pretty slippery so if he's gotta go then I have no problem with doing that.

I'm sticking by the phrase "Do what you must, not what you feel" so I'm trying to just stay out of the crosshairs, take out the people I need out and set myself up as best I can for a spot at FTC. So for this round it'll be Uli or Lloyd depending on who wins immunty - hopefully... I'm so pumped!!

"niemand"

- Uli cracks me up sometimes. So today he said that he is going to go to a party and drink a beer for him winning All Stars. Uli, I would like to introduce you to a Swiss expression that applies to both me and you.

Müüsli zum Z'Morgä

It means "mouse for breakfast". And I for sure am not the mouse here. You do the math. :)

"niemand"

- Wow, it's been a REALLY REALLY long time, but it's merge time... Okay, so I'm really getting annoyed by Andrei/Taylor. >.> They won't accept that my opinions are obviously superior, and they think that by teaming up they can stop me from naming the merged tribe AND picking it's color. HAHA, NO.

Anyway, I'm still allied with Adam/Gerda, and I'm also aligned with Zac/Taylor, and Sole/Uli.... #Woo

I'm really just trying to get to Day 35 at this point so I can hit Day 100. Plus, if I make Day 35, I'm probably going to become a really valuable swing vote, so that's a plus.

I'm pretty sure I can make it really deep, but I'm not too convinced on my chances of winning. So far, it doesn't seem like anybody's targeting me, and while that's great... well, if nobody respects my game enough to target me, how can I win?

"niemand"

- Oh my god a lot of things happened this past few days... But first of all, thank you guys sooo much for the merge... I really, really needed it. I was the minority in Mpilo and i was gonna be out next if we didn't merge, so I feel really lucky. Also, I got my hidden immunity idol stolen. I'm so bummed out about it. But Charlie had to go tell Adam that I had it, then he told Taylor, then Taylor BLACKMAILED me during the tie. So I had to freeking give Taylor my idol or else i'd be voted out. It was a very douche move if you ask me, but you know it's part of the game. And I'm sort of relieved, because that idol was a target. Taylor can have it now XD

"niemand"

- The day has come which i honestly didn’t think i would see this season, the merge. With 11 left my core alliance of Adam Gerda and myself retrying to rally in all the alliances we have made in the game and see what will work and what won’t. Adam is being a little… paranoid. honestly the guy has not left the game for months and months because as soon as Polynesia was finished he went straight back in for all stars. He wants a precise boot list.. come on man last time i didn’t anything like that I lost sight of the short hand goal, this time I’m not doing that. Oh and pretty much everyone knows I took jhet’s idol..so yeah..

"niemand"

- So, now this game is getting tricky - am I proud because I merged + made jury, sure. Am I satisfied, hell no. Some of these people who are totally cool they made jury and don't care about getting further befuddle me. Really? You're okay with Final 11? Okay, sounds good to me as I vote you and all of your friends out.

I'm solid with Gerda, and Taylor, but they both have friends all over the place. I'm nervous that they won't toughen up and vote their close knit buds out just to ensure our safety, which can hurt me. I know Uli has no problem with that, but other than him people seem to be a little hesitant. The thing is, we all want to win the fake money here. These $1,000,000 fictional dollars...ooh can't wait. But I actually want this title, and want to be the first two time winner. So, I need to play strategically. I went over this with Taylor and he thought it was good, Gerda was timid and nervous about it. First, Sole + Jhet go, as we have enough votes without any of their allies to take them out. I also wouldn't mind seeing Lloyd go first, and then Ben soon. With those 4 gone, I plan on weeding out Andrei before Gerda can get too buddy-buddy with him, and Uli/Zac soon after. Having Gerard at F4, he'll be an easy boot + vote and get us to the F3 no harm done. I plan to win some immunities along the way and play the idol that I should be getting back soon. If I don't, hopefully Gerda would play it on me if I need it. I just think besides Uli and my close-knit alliance, these people are all playing nervously. But, you never know. I just hope we're smart and start playing hardnosed and not nervous and complacent. Voting out someone obvious like Sole first, would possibly be foolish. We don't need anyone rallying up troops. Sole has some allies, jhet has some, Ben has some, and I want them gone before they can even think about taking me out, even Andrei might be cooking something up if he's smart. We'll see.

Day 27
"niemand"

- This challenge is pretty amusing, I've shared my scores with Adam and Gerda to make sure at least one of us won, we'll see how that turns out. I'm having fun with it, I love logic puzzles like those.

"niemand"

- Lol, my chances at reaching the final have been shot to hell because everyone wants to bow down to the winners. I feel like I'm getting played by Andrei and Taylor or they legit just don't realise what a stupid idea it is to have Gerda and Adam in the final 6. And of course everyone wants to get rid of Jhet and Sole first -- the two I was counting on as swing votes if I needed them. I want Gerard and Uli out pronto because it's otherwise just too easy for the three winners to grab them and have majority at final 9. My only potential saving grace in this shithole of a situation is Lloyd. Teaming up with Lloyd on Mpilo was the best decision I have made in this entire game. Andrei and Taylor have no idea I have any affiliation with him, and Andrei was darling enough to tell me Adam wants Llloyd out before Gerard so I may be able to work Lloyd and GET OUT THESE FREAKING WINNERS!!!

This is seriously so frustrating. If I could get Uli and Gerard out these first two boots, then I'd almost have a cakewalk to the end. But I've got my back against the wall having to rely that Andrei and Taylor are being honest with me, and Adam and Gerda are being honest with them. I hope the winners blindside us and I'll just give a big 'I told you so....' to the both of them. Ugh. Why can't we just vote out Gerard and Uli? They are so irritating. Merges suck.

"niemand"

- Finally, you get to see my villainous prowess as I mastermind the blindside of my "alliance". Haha, these kids are very naive. I like 'em as people, but as players they don't seen to understand what's going on all that much. They are all trying to be the Sandra, and Ben/Zac are trying to make a big move here. They want to take out Uli, which hurts my game, because then I possibly go down in numbers and begin to play someone else's game. I want to go out on my own terms if I happened to get slayed by one of my counterparts. (get it, slayed? Dragon reference). But seriously, I came up with the plan to vote Sole, Gerda wanted Jhet, and since our new fake alliance of Benjamin, Zac, Andrei, and our solid 3, all had differing suggestions, I came up with the bright idea to split between Uli/Jhet in which I vote out Uli along with Zac, and Ben, while Gerda, Gerard, and Andrei vote out Jhet. Gerard votes Jhet, Lloyd votes Uli. Jhet/Sole vote Uli. But, I flip, making it 6-5, cya Jhet. It can go wrong, but I'm confident it won't. I want to prove I'm playing for myself and no one's alliance. I'd rather go home tenth then follow Ben and Zac along and go home 6th, 5th, or 4th. Play to win, not for a good placement.

If someone flips on me, so be it.

Taylor might flip, he's the only person who isn't sure. We'll see...

"niemand"

- It seems that now that both All Stars are in merge, my game is ruined. Right now I keep hearing Taylor might vote against Uli, therefore with Sole.. And if he does, there is no way he'd get to the end.

But with us, he would get to the end.

He honestly can't be this silly?!

I really thought Taylor was a hero.. Turns out I might have been wrong....... I hope not, but who knows.

"niemand"

- Okay, I need to rant right now, because I'm mad over something that happened weeks ago. So, I went to Zac, and I said to him: "Me, you, Uli, Sole, and the winners can be the final 7. From there, we can cut out the winners and make F4, and since I only want to make Day 35, you're set for F3."

He said yes, so okay, that's good. NOW HE IS TRYING TO GET ULI OUT. I MEAN REALLY? REALLY? YOU WERE GUARANTEED FINAL THREE. NOW YOU ARE GUARANTEED LESS THAN 7TH. I DON'T KNOW IF HE HASN'T TAKEN BASIC MATH YET, BUT 3RD.... 3RD IS BETTER THAN 7TH.

Good game, Zac, have fun in Ponderosa.

"niemand"

- Fuck you Lincoln Alonsio! I got distracted by the Grammys and forgot the exact deadline, and this bitch got all punctual... Considering he didn't have the result post ready right at the deadline, I was beyond livid. I would've won this challenge too...

"niemand"

- The consensus seems to be that one of Uli or Jhet needs to go. An alliance kind of emerged between the old Tambo, Gerda+Adam and Zac, and some of us would rather send Jhet home because if we keep finding excuses not to vote him out, he'll end up accidentally outlasting people, similarly to what JR did on my season, and other people want Uli out because he's being rude and obnoxious... But that's actually a good reason to keep him around to me: let him be a primitive animal, let everyone hate on him... It takes the attention off us. He's sure as hell not winning this game, whereas Jhet could...

At any rate, chances are I'll be safe, but one can never be 100% sure. If Uli goes home, so be it. If Jhet goes, I'll party hard.

"niemand"

- Yeah, I think I'm out next.... I'm like, 99 percent sure it's me... To be honest, I don't really know what I've done to get me to this point. I socialized and worked my ass off from the very beginning, and here I am. Maybe I should have just shut up... perhaps my constant talking found myself undesirable to them, but whatever. Everyone here is just completely impulsive, and it's seriously takes away my passion for this game. Nobody is thinking precisely about strategy. There is no reason I should be targeted. I don't have the idol, I haven't done anything. And, I'm a good ally! I don't know, maybe I haven't really proven that. It's just... This whole game... it seems so ironic to me. You know, I socialized to everybody because I thought that I would be the outsider, and here I am. I got the idol to protect myself, and here I am. I thought that if I shut up, people would love to work with me, here I am. I did not talk about strategy because everybody just seemed like they didn't want to. But clearly, they did, and just decided not to tell me about it. What have I done? Why do I just seem to be a person that no one wants to work with?... I'm not delusional, I'm just frustrated. I hope everybody in this game... everyone who's still here... regrets this decision to take me out. It's highly unlikely, but it's my last wish. I wanted to leave a legacy when I finished All-Stars. Not having one, and being dropped from the face of the game without a whisper of reason or acknowledgement, feels so pointless. My whole game has been completely idle... and it's heartbreaking.