We're Just a Gaggle of Geese/Confessionals

Day 16
"pesante"

- Okay so, tribal number 5 was just posted. Or 4, whatever, counting Paola's quit.

My heart was pumping on Juliet's behalf scrolling down. I would've been a bit sad to lose a fairly close ally this early on another tribe - that hasn't happened at all, mayybe Andrea had potential to be a fun ally but our strategic circumstances just didn't align in time. Antoine from last round, who I had a mild connection with from the fake tribes, was very nice but almost too charismatic and therefore likely noncommittal so I was happy he left.

So it's between Izzy and Juliet apparently, and Izzy gets to boot, or so I thought. The DEATH card is unleashed and it's basically the twist from Australian Survivor where the castaway isn't really voted out, just merely swapped to another tribe. Cool.

I have no connections to Izzy therefore she isn't an enemy so this doesn't really affect me negatively, in fact if she joins my tribe I'm going to pounce straight away because any new connections count and I want to be in the best position possible headed into a merge.

This tribe has been super nice, chill and most of all SUCCESSFUL. There hasn't been any need for strategy talks, but I floated out a few balloons of trust to Jordan Pines and Harrison last night to let them know that just because I haven't discussed strategy with them, doesn't mean I'm not totally down to work with them if it comes down to the wire. I think I have solid connections with everyone on this tribe, I like them al -- there just hasn't been any alliance chats to my knowledge, maybe I'm in a worse position than I think but for some reason I doubt it? (famous last words).

New Pesante have also snapped up two idol clues and despite me trying to use them to the best of my ability, I keep coming up short. Someone HAS to have found it. Has to have. I'm starting to think I'm NEVER going to find an idol in an ORG. I want to be able to make a move at some point that I can claim as my own.

"vicino"

- can't help but feel as though izzy joining our tribe is going to put a target on my back zzz

"lontano"

- Why is Izzy still here ugh???? She's literally just telling everyone anything. It's not a good strategy and a terrible way to play. I hope she's out soon because it's not good to have an unpredictable player in the game. She's super nice but ugh. I'm so glad I didn't use the idol because that would have been such a huge waste omg.

"pesante"

- So Izzy chose to transfer to Vicino instead of Pesante. Lame. I'm lowkey a bit disappointed because that was a potentially useful connection going to a bunch of people who I haven't met and will likely be at odds with come merge. Yikes.

No love lost though. I'm still in the same fairly good position as I was at the start of the day.

"lontano"

- ok so i survived that tribal i am shooked to the core. aaron wanted to change his vote. ugh my power i guess. but anyway i'm really glad that things are looking up for me in this game and i'm feelin mixed, baby hair on fleek, face beat up to the heavens i should be.. deceased! if a bitch say im flopping she blind, period. izzy was annoying and i wanted to work with girls but you know what? last girl standing juliette has a nice ring

"vicino"

- https://vocaroo.com/i/s1ZUS8xVOlJn (i recommend turning your volume down) Wow um. That was. A lot. I feel like absolute shit. I even talked to a few of them about blindsides and how upset they make me. I told them I respect my tribemates and I don't want to upset them. So the fact that we had those conversations and they still did that sent a very clear message. Besides, why the fuck would you vote out your best challenge player?! I'm so happy to be on this new tribe though. I picked it 99% for Nat, because she was my closest ally at the beginning. Plus I loved Christian and Declan from the fake tribe. The other two seem super sweet as well! The thing is that I have BPD and it tends to put me in bad situations a lot. I don't have the greatest control of my emotions sometimes. I also have major abandonment issues and paranoia. So when I get blindsided, it really messes me up. That's all, I guess.

"lontano"

- Why is my tribe so inactive omg

"pesante"

- So I think it's fairly likely we're headed to tribal but I'm going to go out on a limb and say I'm 100% safe.

Me, Jordan, Harrison and Jerry have formed an allegedly tight alliance of 4 that I named GOOSE FLOCK. I love that name. I don't know how reliable these guys are gonna be as a core and headed into the merge I'm definitely going to keep my options open but if we go to tribal it will highly likely be Mai leaving. We're just a gaggle of geese.

She hasn't done anything wrong socially other than hardly really be online and apparently hasn't really connected with the others. I connected with her and like/respect her but someone who is hardly online will probably be unreliable and not overly useful in helping gain social reach at the merge.

Of course I'd LOVE Vicino to go to tribal though. We took 12 guesses to get to the name but I'm pretty sure it could be done in less. If they do lose, i get to keep a potential number/ally in Mai and that tribe which has never gone to tribal gets the chance to potentially implode, flush idols hopefully because they've won a bunch of stuff, who knows.

I haven't met Nat, Christian, Izzy, Declan or Jason I don't think. Yikes. I want those people to dwindle down.

Day 17
"pesante"

- So I've been added to a new alliance on my Pesante tribe and its called the goose whatever. Tbh, for now this is what I need. The only problem that could come up is if we lose the next two challenges. At that point, I'm not sure how this will turn. I do think that Harrison has put most of his trust in Jordan, based on what Jordan tells me about there conversations. My main concern is where does Jordan's trust truly lie. He tells me, that it is me obviously. He would be dub to tell me otherwise, but I am quite concerned about it going forward. Elias is a threat. I feel like he will just play socially until late game and flip a switch and start playing hard. Which is something that will be bad for my game going forward. I need to try and turn this in my favor with the merge on the distant horizon.

"lontano"

- I need the merge. I'm done with the anxiety of the small tribes and I'm quite ready to start my merge game. I want Izzys tribe to lose so that she can be gone before merge. She's going to gun for me so I need to just make sure I'm good. My guess is merge will come at 11, which seems alright. I just wanna make sure I'm there. I think with my idol I could be the last one standing on this tribe.

"vicino"

- i'm so glad to be on vicino now and not on that other tribe with the snakes. did you know i've now been on every tribe except pesante? :P anyway i felt shitty when they won the first part because i knew if we went to tribal, they'd never let me live that down. i have to prove myself now. i hope i can do it.

"lontano"

- Knowing that jason has the Lontano idol is so relieving. Knowing that its something I dont have to worry about is great. And Pesante better try to get Jordan out before the merge.

"pesante"

- This is a very big tribal for me. I'm going to finally put my alliance with Jordan to the test. While I have been suspicious of him for a while, I'm gonna find out if he is telling me the trust. I do trust him, but you can never be sure. I think I'm in a really good spot overall with options. Which I love. I'm gonna make the best decision for me, which I think is to vote out Man who is most inactive during this. Which I hate because I like her as a person. She's really nice and this sucks..ugh

"vicino"

- There’s a lot to cover here. With the fake lontano tribal, we gained Izzy. I like Izzy a lot actually, but she throws off the numbers. We’re all really close in our tribe, but Ashley, Nat and myself have agreed to work together. There’s no alliance chat or anything. With Izzy, we no longer have the majority. Our plan is to make nice with Izzy and have her be our fourth. She’s definitely not dead man walking on vicino.

My position in the game is pretty good I think. There’s only two people I haven’t played with at all, and they’re Harrison and Jason. However, Jason and I have played together many times. I have no bad relationships with anyone, so if I make it to the merge I think my vote will be up for grabs. I just gotta get there first.

I’m guardedly optimistic about my chances in this game. I don’t wanna be confident because that usually sends you home.

"pesante"

- So I wake up this morning to the news that we lost the challenge. Thought so. Vicino had an awesome strategy for deciphering the survivor character, can't blame them. But they haven't been to tribal yet and I want them to IMPLODE.

This is a cut and dry Mai vote most likely. She's only online for a short window each day, in the morning between her busy schedule. If you miss that, that's another 24 hours to wait... not a reliable ally in that regard.

I really like her but her unreliability in both being online and strategic vagueness mean she would probably be a floater at the merge AND make it very far as a non threat, taking up more spots for me and people I can work with effectively in the endgame, if I make it that far. This tribe will turn into a sausage fest, yeah, but it's the wisest strategic decision.

According to Jordan (who caught her in her activeness window) she wants to target Harrison. Great. Idol play insurance. I don't think there's much more to report other than the fact that the Goose Flock is going string.

"pesante"

- Back at tribal again. So sad. I'm honestly not too concerned, ive been making some strong social connections on this tribe. We lost the challenge and that did not shock me at all. Being able to not help watching our tribe butcher the second part of it, killed me inside. I was screaming in my host chat watching there terrible guesses. God, Jerry, Harrison and Elias, i love them all so much but they were DUMB last night. ANyways now mai is probs gone. She tried to make an alliance wiht me and jerry to kill harrison but were not on board. ALSO, HOLY SHIT AM I CLOSE WITH JERRY NOW? JERRY WHO I WANTED OUT ROUND 1? WHAT HAS LIFE BECOME THAT HE MIGHT BE MY NUMBER 1 ALLY!!!!!!!!!!!

"lontano"

- I really wanna make the merge. I'm so close and with this idol I can definitely make it there. I'd obviously prefer to use it later, but to be honest, idols fuck my game up. They make me nervous and all of the power ruins my game. I've gotta make sure I get to the merge, and have no idol, because they mess with my head. So if we lose one more time before merge, I'll use it, and then I'll start playing hard come merge.

"lontano"

- I'm feeling good today. I think I'm going to win this season

"lontano"

- I REALIZE I HAVENT DONE ONE OF THESE IN 3 DAYS GET OFF MY BACK. Ok so first of all, Izzy went to Vicino. Izzy is not a good player, and she called us out for playing a post merge game? Come on. She’s playing a Borneo pre merge game. No— she’s playing a Garrett from Cagayan game. I’d tell her something and she’d tell everyone about it! For example, when we were deliberating between voting Jason and Juliet, I said I would sleep on it. Less than five minutes later, Jason messages me asking me why I told Izzy I was thinking about voting for him and was sleeping on it. Hm — that’s exactly what I told Izzy! And so we voted her out... and she got a second chance. Of course.

Thank God for Juliet, though. She essentially saved us from a disastrous tribal council. I would’ve had to turn on someone once again, and that would’ve been bad. Now it’s final 14 and paranoid Jason is CONVINCED it’s gonna be a triple tribal. Yeah, idk about that. I wouldn’t be surprised if it was a swap with a double tribal, like in Sichuan, or even just a double tribal with one tribe being immune, but a triple tribal? Nahhh. Either way, I think the merge will be either next round or the one after that, and incredibly, all of my assets have survived, with the only thing remotely close to a casualty being Ant. Even though Izzy is still in and probably wants my blood, I still have Jason, Aaron, Juliet, Jordan, and Trey, would should be enough to take control at the merge. Izzy is a problem, but I don’t think she’s gonna makeenough people distrust me that its gonna be irreparable.