Why Is Everyone Such a Coward/Confessionals

Day 22
"nyuchi"

- so that vote went as expected and i have my eyes on a few people.

i expected a blow up of some sorts since jack, louise, and i were all lying to the other side, but nothing happened. becky has said she's blocking everyone but me, which i find hard to believe but i get the strategic aspect of saying things like that. it ties me to her in a way and makes her more essential for my game.

anyways - dovile's idol misplay had three intentions.


 * 1) 1 it gave me an option for a big move by basically voting her and playing minority/the middle. i decided against it bc it'd involve revealing i knew about her idol to jack, vincent, roisin, and drew and making a bit more of a scene around myself than i need at this point in the game.


 * 1) 2 it was a failsafe. better safe than sorry. the merge idol could v well be out there even if i know exactly where the other three are.


 * 1) 3 if i do go to the end with dovile as a shield, it prevents some sort of ""i survived a target"" narrative with a flaw in her gameplay. idol misplays are not cute. idt i will because i don't want to get tethered to her and the target that follows her.

we could've preserved it and used it going forward, but i'd rather leave her vulnerable because she makes a MESS that way. desperation and dovile do not mix well.

plus i always have mine xoxo.

going forward, i've heard talks of a group of four (drew/vince/jack/roisin), spearheaded by drew, that will try to play the middle and play louise/dovile/me against becky/matthias/hals. that's not cute at all so i'm really working on routes to reconnect with that group of three and see if i can make a move against the ""middle"". there really are three factions rn and it's about letting people see that. i definitely have my eyes on drew. he's playing the best and i'm not here for it. i'm too tethered to louise and dovile to play all sides, which is why losing one of them might be decent for my game?

my goal rn is to play a solid game for another two-three tribals or so then hype tf up for a crazy late-merge run so i have some things on a FTC resume if i'm lucky enough to make it that far. time will tell! feeling v optimistic going forward. just time to keep working people against each other!

"nyuchi"

- Kk ive been aware that im not playing well for a while and w/ my current situation its not really possible lol... however im not prepared to leave yet so im gonna try to turn this around for me as best I can. I feel like with the personalities like Matthias and Becky its easy to follow suit with how they are and get cocky & thats not a cute look at all

"nyuchi"

- ight now it seems that I have a group of 5 with me, Drew, Roisin, Jake, and Jack which wants to play the middle. If we're making up more than half the players then that would be hard to accomplish. So maybe I'm not doing that

"nyuchi"

- Im gonna keep my head up and try to stay focused and seem like the friendliest kid ever because I need to actually win this im not letting 1 round get to me...

"nyuchi"

- 2day i have spent the day "apologising" for voting dan out to becky hals and matthias even tho they r the 1s who shld say sry 2 me for having an alliance without telling me 😞 dovile seems a bit crazy though so that makes me worried... i only feel really on the same page as louise and jack, even tho i love every1 as people here. aah - i hope i can find some stable ground soon! Xx

Day 23
"nyuchi"

- So maybe Hals actually did trust me the whole time. Whoops 😕 I'll just have to hope that I can fully save our working relationship, because we really had something going pre merge.

"nyuchi"

- spending today working OG hwadze’s to cement the strategic bonds of last time and prevent myself from going down with dovile’s sinking ship xoxo. aside from that, game is kinda on pause after the craziness. i have a feeling the four “middles” will swing to becky, hals, and matthias to go on one of my “trio” and if they try that, i might work with those three to flip things on a big player like drew or jack but that might be too big too soon. it’s all about timing for me. i’m playing kinda complacent now and working steadily towards an outcome, rather than the aggressive gameplay i prefer.

also as i’m writing this, drew is informing me the hwadze idol is out there and i’m just shook at how he doesn’t think i know. dhejshf

Day 24
"nyuchi"

- basically the vibe i’ve gotten is because the four played too soon last round and threw names quick, nobody wants to throw names this time around. it sounds like “the middle” is pretty safe this time around since both sides view them as valuable, which is something to be considered.

i’ve only heard matthias and dovile and either going is beneficial for my game so i couldn’t care less which.

if dovile went, she’d be frustrated with me, but she’d the perfect martyr upon which to flip hals/becky/matthias on “the middle” with louise and i to take a shot at a larger player like drew or jack. it’d be a strategic necessity albeit a personal loss. girl has EYES on her and sometimes that extends to me which is not okay for my game.

matthias - also works for me because we haven’t clicked and he is my target, so i could get another souvenir but honestly i feel like it’s not too great for me to help go at that trio. we could still flip things on “the middle” but dovile can be stubborn so idk.

either one is fine by me because it could position me for making a power move. it’s just a matter of when is best and if i have the bonds to pull it off tbh. i think becky is my pathway to working the other side, drew/vince are pathways for joining “the middle”, and sticking with dovile and louise could condemn me to the fate they’re facing! so yeah... lots of outcomes are ideal for me because i feel really solid with some of these people, but i also know players can be cutthroat and not care about personal bonds so i just need to keep making myself essential to their games and keep myself in the know in case i need to play my hunters lodge idol.

"nyuchi"

- so this might be the end of the road for my dear friend dovile i tried so hard to keep her last round but i just can't justify saving her again without showing all of my cards it's difficult because i love her but i can only help so much like it's becoming a detriment to me now so if this is the way people seem to be leaning i just gotta go with it

"nyuchi"

- so I rlly do feel like I’m in control of this vote 😮 cos the norm wld be to vote dovile but I don’t want that and Becky is my target so I’m aiming for her

I asked jack to name a target as he was immune so cld afford to, knowing he wld choose Becky cos of their relationship which is who I wanted all along😈 Then I confirmed my alliance with drew and Vincent and made it clear we must vote 2gether while I subtly pointed out that dovile is crazy and not a threat 😮 so as it stands all we need is 1 more vote to be fine and I’ve heard along the grapevine that drew has the idol so that shld be fine 😊 and no1 realises it’s me I’ve totally made dovile seem like the creator of this campaign but it was me - jack was the first to mention anything other than dovile!! Xx

"nyuchi"

- wtf why is everyone such a coward! we were all set to vote becky and now out of nowhere every1 is turning around saying lets vote dovile! wtf! I WANT MY TARGET REWARD!!

"nyuchi"

- Im so gutted at how this all fell apart every1 is cowards and not ready to make big moves... im so sad that dovile will be gone cos we rly clicked 😞 ugh, if i dont get blindsided this round which i sorta fear next round i must win immunity cos i rly feel the heat on my back after my antics this round 😞 x

"nyuchi"

- Dovile just told me that I would be targeted as a challenge threat if she went... what is she thinking??? I'm the guy who's getting last in all of the challenges

"nyuchi"

- i'm getting increasingly nervous with how cold and short jack and roisin were with me before tribal. i really hope things didn't somehow flip on me. rationally, i know they shouldn't--i'm closer with jack than he is dovile and his incentive for working with dovile is a lack of a bond with becky. the decent news is i'm sitting on a substantial amount of information to blow up some games if necessary and am locking up my insights to start playing hard soon. i guess since this is my first merge vote vulnerable, the paranoia is really getting to me. hoping i'm here tomorrow to hype tf up because i have some plans on how to flip people upside down in this game and i'm not here for "the middle" rn.