Leave in the Big Dogs/Confessionals

Day 31
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- They left me in the dark on that one. I'm glad I'm not the one gone, but hot damn, I did not expect Joe to go home. I mean I'm not too upset at the fact that Joe is gone. I AM upset--Or, at the very least, unsettled--by the fact that I was the only vote for Hunter when we planned to vote out Hunter

I felt like I was a huge factor in that vote and I was in a power position for once. Boy, did I think wrong. Boom went the explosives. Right in my face.

Really hoping I can talk to Cliff about this later...

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- Ella talking about "enjoy the time we're playing" yeah thats pretty easy to say when you've been in majority the whole merge time and you haven't been having to fight every single round against a brick wall basically. Its just so annoying because she lies for unnecessary stuff when shes already in majority and haven't been out of the loop like me.

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- Them leaving Nifty out of the dark could really help me in this game. I'm trying my best to work on him and hopefully get him to officially come with me & Rob while Rob works on Hunter. If no one makes a move this round they're handing the win to Cliff.

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- This game started off with me taking out Alex because it was what was best for my game, no one else's. Now, I get my alliance, to blindside Joe, the weakest member of our alliance, with the help of Hunter, a guy none of us know, and we're just going to take majority now? When the vote could have been me, Nifty, Felix, or anyone...we go Joe...leave in the big dogs...giving me plenty of time to weasel around and do my thing. But why....why on earth do I do this? I never wanted Joe to go. The dude wanted to win the game and thought I would beat him in the end. That being said, theoretically, isn't 2nd place better than 8th? I gotta hand it to Joe though. He took a shot, it didn't work, but you have to take big risks and have the balls to make a move in this game. He made one, I just made a better one. All in all, nothing but respect for Joe and he made me sweat so hard. I thought he was going to be the one to get me. Final 7 now. It's crazy. I honestly didn't think I would get this far with the previous knowledge that I currently have an undefeated ORG history. Two games played. Two games one. 3rd game, minimum 7th place. I'm in a good spot to take the win and Felix has given me shared custody over his idol, so, I'm not going to get overconfident because I don't underestimate anyone's ability in this game or the fact that I could be looking at a super bitter jury, but I've been playing harder than I ever have before and here's hoping it pays off. This is by far, the hardest game I've played so far.

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- HALLELUJAH. I'm so proud on myself tbfh. I survived 31 days without any votes against me, being a target and using a hidden immunity idol or whatever. Like this is so amazing. This gives me energy to play. So, now I'm in a alliance with like everyone. I promised Jared to stay loyal to him now and we have to work together bla whatever bla. Yeah, not going to do that. Sorry sweetheart but my plans are already figured out. Let's continue with Rob. He's so emotional and I feel he thinks I'm his last hope. Lmao duhh, if you don't win immunity you're gone. It's fricking easy yk. Anyway, we have a new final 5 alliance. Joseph got out and we brought Hunter in it. If we get to the final 5 we have to put the target on Felix. Because he can use his idol. Then we can get rid off Hunter or Nifty. Idc what he wants. We better choose Nifty lol because Hunter's is worse in challenges. I'm so excited to see how this game works out. It can't go wrong for me. In all honest, I want Nifty out this round. And I'll bring it up to Clifford. But I don't mind who's going. I'm so far now. I'm not going to screw up my game just bc I want someone out of this game. We'll see what happens. But for now, it's immunity challenge time! I'm excited and I'm going to do my best for this one. Would be awesome to be immune again

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- Shock, another vote, another time in the minority. I am just trying to play the Sandra card: as long as it aint me. Ella is having a lot of problems with her sister's health right now so I am genuinely concerned so if I play that friend card hopefully she will realize how sincere I am being. I do need someone to come with me but I am worried about someones health more than this game. I finally talked to Felix too if that means anything

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- In case I dont say this enough every week, Ella says she is on board with us! Surprise surprise. She does this every time and its just like a record player at this point, either you are going to flip or not stop toying us on because I will tell you a different vote again to show you arent ready to flip.

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- I've been thinking a lot lately. We are so close to the end of this game, and the way I'm sitting I have a high chance at having a seat at that final tribal council, and plead my case to the jury. But the way I'm going, it'll be with threats who will win against me. Threats who haven't trusted me fully for two rounds now. Threats who, I believe, will absolutely slaughter me at an FTC. So, I've been thinking to myself...Did I make the right decision? Am I still making the right decision? Do I really feel the need to give one of these three the win, even though I would prefer seeing one of them win over one of the other 3?

At this point I'm not sure anymore.

My goal at the start of this season was to be memorable. That's what it started as. I didn't figure I'd get this far so I aimed for being a memorable, pre-merge figure. But I've ended up surprising myself a lot and I'm so close to the end. I just don't know what to do anymore.

It's morals versus merit. Do I want to stay loyal to the people I've been with the whole game, people I want to see win over the other people in this game? Or do I want to actually make a move and be credited for it, and have an easier time at FTC if I get there in that scenario? I've never had to make a decision like this in any ORG I've played before. And I don't want to make it still. But it's here, and two feet only walk one path. I can't go both ways.

I'm gonna keep thinking about it...

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- This challenge is like the worst. I'm so bad at it lol but I have to stay positive. Everything will be alright and I'm not going to be in danger again. Just like four/five tribals and then I made it. I have to keep believing in myself and continue playing how I want and do.

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- I feel like I'm in the back of a cheap fastfood restaurant because there are rats everywhere!!! I was approached by Nifty, Ella and Hunter all about voting together this tribal and of course I get a message from the head of the snake, cliff, saying that I should not try to pin them all against one another. I have only been building off ideas they have presented to me. I'm pretty sure Hunter is the rat because he wants Nifty gone and I'm trying to steer him away from that because Nifty is going to be on our side for this vote but we cannot let anyone know that.

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- Cliff likes to think that he's above everyone but at the end of the day, no matter if you are controlling the game or a floater you have one vote. Don't get it confused because just because you see yourself on a higher pedestal doesn't mean you have more power at tribal.

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- Cliff is like a mom for a a newborn but instead of feeding baby food, hes feeding lies right to Ella and Hunter and they are eating it up

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- This is fucking insanity.

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- At the start of today it seemed like it was actually looking good for Rob and myself but something happened and now basically everyone hates him. I've been trying my best to help him since hes the only person left that I trust and like but its hard to do so without putting a target on myself. He really needs a miracle to happen so we can both stay in the game.

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- If I was in either Nifty, Hunter or Ellas shoes I would make a 3 person alliance between them, then get Cliff out, then use Felix to get me out and just steamroll to the end with a dominant 3. But they do not have the balls to make alliances or deals that dont revolve around Cliff

Day 32
"odlaryurdu"

- Felix just won immunity. That's amazing because now we can vote out Rob with the majority. The only thing that worries me is that Rob wanted to post something in the tribe chat after IC results. I'm so excited to see what he's going to do. I feel safe. I don't think my name will be written down again. We're going to be final 6. It's going so fast now. I almost beat my sister. If I'm in final 4 I'd be so happy tbfh. It's so close. I can almost touch the victory. Well, for my feeling I win Survivor when I reach FTC with Felix and Clifford. I'm so over the 'Clifford is a social threat and Felix is a challenge threat' thing. I have it both. So what? I'm most likely going to win if I keep Rob, Jared and Hunter good. Should be easy. I don't think I can get the vote of Nick etc but I'll do my best if I reach FTC. Let's focus now on this tribal council. Just need to survive a couple of tribal councils and then... I made it

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- I love how I'm not seen as a threat. Hahahahahahaha. That's my ticket to the finals

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- I was going to be leaving anyway, I needed to make sure that if I do leave it is just not the decision but a collective group one. Vote for yourself. Ella is telling me she doesnt want to be in the minority but little does she know, Nifty is flipping as well. If she talks to Nifty and realizes hes flipping, hopefully Ella will as well.

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- Sorry I dont find random idol hidden behind your massive ego Cliff

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- OKAY, SCREW TRYING TO WORK WITH ROB.

I remember saying this to Cliff in the past, that I wouldn't want to flip over to the minority because there aren't any good players for me to work with over there. Well, here I am proving my point. I tried to flip over but they are both such bad players--Rob especially--that they screwed themselves over in this vote. No one is flipping over to their side due to how poor Rob's social game is, and how sloppily he's going about trying to get people to flip.

So, turns out that even me wanting to flip won't work because the minority sucks at gaining numbers unless numbers throw themselves at them, like I did. But now that I realize it's not gonna work, I'll just submit back to my alliance of all threats. Besides, with Hunter here, I have new opportunities and chances at a final 3 FTC.

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- Another chapter in Ella's survivor story. Lol, am I the only one who made something like 135 confessionals already? Anyways I need to stay strong in this competition. The targets for this vote are Rob and Clifford. I'll tell Rob I'm going to vote him out. He said he wants the best for my game. If I lie again to him he'll never vote for me to be the Sole Survivor. Which means I'm going to keep everyone close to me now. I need the jury votes. I need them!!

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- Okay this may sound weird and stuff, but suddenly I got this really uncomfortable feeling. Like I just dun goofed. Like something bad is gonna come my way in a bit. I'm loyal to the people I'm aligned with, but I don't trust them and they don't trust me. And I have a feeling that, if they don't do something shifty this vote off, they're gonna try to do it at the next vote off.

Ughhh, I just wanna make final 5 man...is that too much to ask...and yet I have this strong feeling that they're gonna get rid of me before then. Like, seriously, why...why get rid of me before 5? What's the big issue with letting me get there?

I know some of this is coming from my own paranoia and just my general gut feeling, which isn't the most reliable source of mistrust. But these people haven't helped me with trusting them.