I Give Zero Fucks/Confessionals

Day 24
"thanonchai"

- ***** **** *** ****

"thanonchai"

- Jenna and I were lied to by literally everyone else in the game and as weird as it may sound, I've never been happier to have been lied to.

Rhi, Sim, and Jake seemed to still trust us enough after that vote to keep us in touch strategy wise. We didn't really think of anything to do though. Maya comes up to Jenna and I and we form this trio alliance. This alliance literally doesn't meant much to me because Maya barely talks to Jenna and I and I see no reason for her to want to align with us. We'll see how that ends up panning out.

Then, Clifford comes up and to Jake or whatever and we form this giant chat with all of Rhi's group and Clifford himself. He says he's the swing vote and airs his grievances about why he might not want to. The thing is though, he came off so fucking bad. I know he didn't mean to come off this way, at least I hope not, but it really left a bad taste in literally everyone's mouths to the point where he's burned their bridges and the construction crew.

Clifford told Jenna and I a bit before that that Jake would be an easy vote out. And it makes sense considering their history and Jake just overall being kinda slimy if you don't get to know him. Meanwhile, Maya just said she was going to vote without telling us anything which was kind of fishy. Literally no one else from Clifford's alliance went up to me or Jenna to talk strategy at all.

Then this morning happened and Clifford gets impatient waiting for us to come to a decision and votes. Jenna and I as far as we knew were in the middle to his eyes so we didn't really contribute much to that conversation. Sim aired something out but had to go offline and Jake talked. Rhi was offline the entire time but she was busy and also not usually up again for a long time. I don't necessarily blame him for thinking we were disorganized and ditching but I just wish he had waited a bit longer. With all that being said and done, it makes sense for them to want to vote Clifford. Jake and Rhi say that they know they can't do anything so Jenna and I vote for Jake because that's what Clifford told us. Side note, Jace told Jenna and I this morning that we should split on Rhi but Jenna and I thought that that was dumb. Jenna and I tell Jake and Rhi and Sim when he gets online that we're voting for Jake and they understand. That should have been the end of everything and it would've been Jake going if things happened as they did in my mind. However, that's NOT how things happened at all.

As it turns out, everyone lied to us. We knew NOTHING about the Rhi vote besides Jace possibly hinting at it and Rhi's group told us it was going to be Clifford. I'm not mad at all and I hope that Jenna and I can work with Rhi's group in the future, especially since Clifford's group kind of left a bad taste in our mouths by not talking to us at all.

"thanonchai"

- I am very pleased by the events of this game, I love moving targets and the thrill of the HUNT.

"thanonchai"

- Seeing the way that the vote ended up going down makes me regret not flipping to vote Clifford. Chris would still be in this game. Chris told me that he wanted Clifford in this game still so we wouldn't be the main threats. Well now Chris is gone, and I'm still being seen as one of the biggest threats. The issue is, I actually liked and trusted Chris a lot. Clifford, on the other hand, is soooo shifty and is definitely actively undermining me to gain an upper hand. Now the only game move that seems to make sense to me is to take out Clifford, screwing me over in the process as I will be seen as the biggest threat. Hopefully, though, my social connections override the target on my back. If the story that I have been hearing about Clifford flipping is true, I think I can conclude that the minority alliance WANTED to keep me in this game. That's a good thing to hear. Me and Jake seemed to have smoothed things over for now, and once tribal looms nearer I will talk to him about actually working together for the first time since the Taylor vote. I am afraid Rhi will be resentful towards me after I voted her while talking to her like "I want to go far with you, I want to save you." I hope she believes me when I say that I was kind of strong armed into voting for her because I couldn't betray my alliance just then, and needed to vote the same way they did. At the end of the day she's still in the game, and didn't waste her own idol so how can she hold it over my head. To be fair, I did literally say "I'm not flipping, it is too early to make that move" to her, so I wasn't lying to her face.

"thanonchai"

- I get that most of this cast isn't too keen on Jenna and Priscilla for flipping back and forth but I'm starting to think that it's beneficial to have them close so that they won't at least put votes on you because any good idol play and it's game over for you. Either way, I want this reward and I need immunity to put pressure on the others.

"thanonchai"

- I love this game and I know after that vote I lost it. There's zero trust going forward with that group. I made a bad game move and will have to live with the consequences.

"thanonchai"

- So I am beginning to plant seeds like I did during the Kostas vote. I have spoken to Pris and Jenna to do damage control from the last vote and made sure to put the blame on Clifford forcing us to not tell them both. Then I said that that was just wrong of him to do, so that's why I tried to hint at them to vote for Rhi as a "split vote" because I actually wanted to include them on the plan without exposing it. This is all true, but word choice and implications are important. Jenna and Pris both asid they appreciated me trying to involve them because NEITHER side game them a proper direction. I love the concept of people saying "You're the only person that *insert positive interaction here" about me. It makes me feel like I may have some longevity in this game if people see me as the only one that is giving them info/talking to them on a personal level/talking to them at all/etc. Jenna and I bonded, and I exposed a lot of Cliff's lies to her and she did the same for me. I still have not said "I want Cliff out" to anyone besides Maya (who obviously I trust 100% and know wont spread that around). Hopefully when the time comes to take Cliff out, me planting seeds of mistrust about him and the game he is playing makes people more easy to get onto my side.

"thanonchai"

- Clifford is really getting on my nerves but I am starting to see though the lies and manipulation. He is telling me "oh Jake is trying to tell me all this info and wants me to not trust you anymore, but I'm not buying it" blah blah. What I bet he ACTUALLY did was went to Jake with this idea, and switched the names around to me so Cliff is the saintly party in this situation, demonizing Jake so I don't work with him. Same goddamn thing he did last tribal. He also has to throw in he isn't buying what Jake says which he's definitely only doing to make me think that I have nothing to worry about. Sorry booboo, I'm not that stupid. I decided to directly go to Jake and be like "okay so whats the truth tea here" and hopefully he gives me a solid answer. I am so sick of Clifford and I hope he doesn't have an idol because I know he would be idoling me out with it.

Day 25
"thanonchai"

- Clifford making up stories then presenting them as fact to get people to feel the same way he does is getting soooo old. He is literally like "Yeah Julia, what I am thinking is that they are making up a false narrative about you" blah blah. Then two seconds later is like "It's pretty insulting that they would do this to you, tbh." LIKE YOU MEAN THE FUCKING STORY YOU JUST THEORIZED IN THIS CHAT? GIRL BYE. Luckily, I already got into Julia's ear about Clifford being a trifling mess so she is seeing through the bullshit and we are just talking about how annoying it is in PMs. God I hope I can pull this move off, I can't take it much longer JSKDNKJNWG.

"thanonchai"

- I have almost completed laying out all of the Anti-Clifford seed and now I am ready to see the harvest. I'm ready to send Mr. Clifford Hantz out of this game before he decides to Danielle me when I "least expect it."

"thanonchai"

- I sincerely hope this deal with Pris and Jenna works. I will have to feel out my gut when we get closer to the vote. But I have been wanting to work with them in this game and they need a home. So I'm willing to change directions to work with people I sincerely like. They play messy but I feel like I can read them better now so let's see how this plays out.

"thanonchai"

- I just ate an entire bowl of shrimp so I guess I should make a confessional huh. Maya was apparently shocked that Clifford didn't tell Jenna and I to vote for Rhi and has told me about her distrust with Clifford. That's cool and all, we might be able to use her down the line. I just don't trust her as much after she was so vague about who to vote for when she's the one who wanted to start the alliance in the first place. She says Clifford told her to let him tell us and I wouldn't put it past him but I don't buy it all too much. Jake told me that he had to lie to me because he was afraid of me leaking the vote, as did Clifford and Jace. I don't necessarily blame them for that honestly because of what we did the round before. It's just that they've shown that they don't fully trust me anymore. (If they did in the first place)

So anyway, Clifford comes up to me with this deal for Jenna and I. I'm not going to bother to re-explain it because it was SUPER long. Just read his confessionals if you wanna know what it was because he probably mentioned it. Jenna and I don't trust him one bit. We literally fed him lies the entire time. His attitude came off so overbearing and dictator like and it just didn't sit well with me. I don't doubt that he's going through a stressful time and I wish him the best of luck with that, but he's just not approaching this the right way.

Yannick comes up to me behind Clifford's back and tells me that he doesn't like the idea that Clifford's brought up and is considering turning on him. According to him, everyone's fed up with Clifford and I can totally believe that. Maya told me that Yannick was trying to get his own ally out of the game and I can only assume she means Clifford. I guess he's been rallying behind Clifford's back. I don't know what my plan will be moving forward just yet. It'll have to depend on who wins immunity. Not many people have come to me strategically yet and I'm hoping that's just because they're waiting on immunity results. I haven't talked to Julia in a while I should probably get on that soon. Speaking of immunity, it's Touchy Subjects. I can only imagine how much this is going to hurt people and I'm not sure I'm ready for all that. I'm personally going to put myself for all the answers because my chances of winning this immunity are small already and since the guesses are going to be revealed, I'd rather not cause more trouble than I've already made.

"thanonchai"

- Even Yannick is down for the Clifford blindside. Now all I need to do is rope everyone in together. Yannick said that he genuinely believes that Clifford does not have the idol, but we are thinking about throwing a few votes on Sim just in case he does. Should be a fun one. Also, it is fairly safe to start getting this move together now because there is no way in hell that Clifford is going to be self aware enough to vote himself for all the negative options.

"thanonchai"

- I'm under heat again lol. There's a stirring in the shadows that a Cliffy blindside might be in the works. But I still have a shot at immunity and worse comes to worse, I can hopefully use Yannick's idol to my advantage. We'll see how this plays out. My number's up. I might squeeze to F9, pull off some magic and get to F8, but the game's catching up with me. That's why I get for playing like so aggressively. I've skirted out of a few situations so far, now it's a race against time.

"thanonchai"

- I can't believe Jenna nuked my score on that reward comp. I wanted the idol clue and the chance to blow my game up at the Temple 😞

"thanonchai"

- The entire tribe has stopped talking to me. And here I thought I was playing a highly effective UTR game....

"thanonchai"

- Touchy Subjects was brutal holy shit no mercy from anyone

"thanonchai"

- I'm in an odd position. I've been playing this game hard and it's biting me in the ass. I am hated by everyone but Yannick. They sincerely dislike me. I thought I had a sincere connection with Jenna and Pris. I thought Jace was real with me. I thought Maya was real with me. I just thought wrong. That's okay. I think everyone is going to gun for me. I might or might not pull off an idol play. I'm not sure. I've clearly lost the game so I might just let my fate be its fate. Or stick around just to fuck with everyone for one more round lol. Either way, Last Stand has been truly Do or Die and it's a pleasure being a part of this season.

"thanonchai"

- Disappointed that I lost immunity because this vote would have been smooth sailing with no risk of being blown out by Clifford. Maya coulllllld give me it I guess, but I'm not going to try and force it because that's just stupid. Everyone is on board with voting Clifford now. You see the impact of lowkey blowing up someone's spot and talking shit behind their backs, huh.

"thanonchai"

- Yeah, they hate me, but I ain't giving up. Fuck 'em.

"thanonchai"

- So here comes the tricky business with the vote. People seem pretty clear cut on wanting Clifford, but the issue is splitting votes to ensure Clifford can't idol someone (me) out. I asked Rhi if she would be comfortable with Sim being the one to get votes in the split vote plan, and she said not really, which concerns me. Hopefully we are able to find someone else, but I really don't want to throw votes on Jenna/Pris and make them feel like they are worthless to us or something because that's not the case at all. Yannick is suggesting we just got 9-1, but that reaaaalllly worries me because Clifford was literally on Samsao all premerge, and found 4 idols in Azerbaijan so it is likely he has Samsao's now. Maybe if Jake and Rhi agree that we are solid with 9-1, and Clifford doesn't have an idol, we can just say we are going along with that, and then have two people throw votes onto Sim just to prevent anyone else from being taken out. In the end, if this vote goes as planned I want to rope in Jenna and Pris to take out Rhi/Sim/Jake anyway, so me having people vote for Sim behind their backs shouldn't really matter too much. HOPING THIS GOES WELL.

"thanonchai"

- I am trying to deal with Clifford now 1-on-1 and it is difficult. He is trying to make a case to save himself this vote, and is talking about "giving up control" etc. but I think the damage is already done. People in this game do not trust him and do not want to work with him, bottom line, cut and dry. I do feel bad for him because he is taking this really personally and to heart, and that is not what I intended. My only issue with him is gameplay, strictly gameplay. I think he is a great guy and great dad, but in this game he's a big no no. This chat we are having may be good for me because it may make him want to target someone else instead of me if he actually does have an idol. What worries me is that Rhi was like "Clifford hasn't even been trying to atone for his actions, I think he knows he is gone and isn't going to put effort into fixing bonds if he's going out anyway." Well now Clifford actually IS trying to atone, and it makes me worried that he is trying to put himself in a good spot moving forward.

"thanonchai"

- I could let Clifford play my idol and take out Jake or Jace and possibly flush another then set myself up good with Julia and Maya for an endgame run...yup thats the plan

"thanonchai"

- People were quiet about the vote to Jenna and I for like half the day. We had to go up to people to get their ideas. Jake, Rhi, and Sim don't buy how easy the Clifford vote is because all of his allies suddenly turned against him. They want to vote Jace. Theoretically, if Maya, Julia, Jace, and Yannick vote Clifford and Clifford votes for literally whoever besides Jace, then we should be able to pull off a blindside. Jenna is definitely supportive of following this plan. I was wary at first because I trust Jace a lot and I really do like talking to him. I had his back and he apparently had mine when he convinced Clifford to not blindside me last round. I mean they did blindside me just not with me being eliminated unfortunately. Not only do I think he looks out for me sometimes but he's also a super huge target and meatshield. The issue is however, he's close with so many people. He may have just saved me that round to further his own gains. It's also going to be astoundingly hard to take him out later in the game so I may have to take this shot now. A concern of mine is that Jace and Jake were rumored to have a secret alliance and I'm inclined to believe it given what happened last round. Speaking of which, Jace suggested that some votes were split onto Sim in case Clifford pulls something because he too thought the vote seemed too easy. Right now I feel like I'm going to vote for Jace. My decision here is whether or not I should tell him about it or not in case he can idol himself and use that up. It's so hard to trust anyone besides Jenna after we were left in the dark the entirety of last vote. I can only hope that I don't end up being blindsided. I hope I've positioned Jenna as a bigger target than me in the case that they feel the need to take out one of us. I literally started this confessional at 8 PM and now it's like almost 5 AM so I probably left out a bunch of stuff. Oh right, Clifford apologized personally to everyone and usually I could nitpick a few things that sounded off but he seemed really sincere. Maya showed a few hours before that that he still harbored feelings that Sim and Rhi don't deserve to be here though and that still leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Everyone deserves to be here and just because you don't see them working doesn't mean they aren't.

"thanonchai"

- bow down suckers, I won the Immunity 😉 this is how it feels to be safe in the tribal. Apparently the idea of voting Cliff have been planted since the dissolved tribes and finally it's going to be happen right here right now. Cliff said that no one has approached him after the Immunity and feels like he's on the chopping block. Ok did I lose info or something like why'd you ignore him? He's going to be a juror and you should treat him as nice as possible. I suggested to him that this time, instead of him pitching the ideas about the vote, he should be the receiver. which means that not only I will know where his vote is going also he will not putting another names out there. I genuinely like him as a person but he has been blocking my way in this game and needed to be remove.

I'm still trying to get Jenna & Priscilla to trust me and I will go to the Final 3 with them. They're the only chance I got to win this game. I've been talking to them personally and regularly and I'm hoping the outcome will be successful.

"thanonchai"

- Frankly I find it funny how Clifford is trying to throw me under the bus by doing exactly what I exposed to everyone. Making up lies to intimidate people from swaying away from him. Sweetie I did not make up one lie about you in this game. If you do something in this game and it gets told to people, blame yourself for doing it in the first place, okay? And it's funny that you are now telling everyone me and Jake are secret allies when just last vote you claimed Jake came to you trying to get me out. Stop being spiteful because I bested you in this game. People better not fall for the mess ESPECIALLY after I exposed that he does this in the first place. SEE YA UNCLE CLIFFY.

"thanonchai"

- I'm not getting my hopes up

"thanonchai"

- I may get blindsided here as per weird stuff said but no matter what, I'm proud of the game I have played so far and have no regrets. Best to luck to these amazing competitors (minus Sim, you're a waste of a spot)

"thanonchai"

- i FORGOT to say this in my video but it needs to be touched on. I’m kinda upset that Julia put me as who she thought the majority would say was untrustworthy and a bitter juror tbh!!!! I have been NOTHING but honest and open to working with her literally since the combined tribal. The past two votes we clearly haven’t been on the same sides but i’ve still been open with her? During the Hannah/Yannick vote I discussed with her why I thought yannick should go and even tried to flip her! I told her I wasn’t going to rocks because I didn’t want to risk her and chris going and that was THE 100% TRUTH. Last vote, I voted jake like her clifford and chris told me to. I really don’t know how much more real i can get with her because quite frankly i think I’ve been more open to my plans than she has been to me. I brought her to the temple to again cement that I like her and wouldn’t mind her getting an advantage, but, i still get hardly anything back from her but silence and info last minute that has already been said to me by like 2345645543 people. This vote i won’t be telling her i’m voting Jace, she hasn’t told me she’s voting Sim yet other people i barely speak to have. Its sorta ridiculous. I REALLY hope that if Jace leaves this will finally free her from whatever has been holding her back. I know she’s loyal to who she’s with and i’ve been tryna be her girl but it’s just not happening huh!

Day 26
"thanonchai"

- So I decided top play my idol. Thankfully I did. I was really certain my move was going to work out until like literally 5 minutes before I voted Jake is like "yeah, I asked Julia who she was voting and she said 'Idk 😕 .'" It is funny that this tipped me off, because I think that Julia is one of the only people that actually stayed true to the plan and voted in my favor this time. Fuckin' shifty people in this game, man. I can't believe they would rather protect Clifford who has been terrible instead of me who has been straight up and kind to literally everyone. Like do you not realize I am going to be the biggest target for the entire game, but you decide to immediately swing at me? Girl bye. I'm so over Priscilla, like I said in a previous confessional I have given her sooooo many chances, and she flat out lied to me today and did not give me any warning to her trying to vote me out. My strategy now is to try to establish a new alliance because obviously Sugar & Spice either was trying to blindside me, or was "trying to tie it up between me and Sim" which basically makes me expendable to them. I need to make it known that I am a massive shield in this game to ANYONE, and they would be smart to drag me along and let me rack up votes as they get closer to FTC. I really need to pray for a miracle at this point, because I don't wanna literally beat my placement and then go home. That is lame as hell.

"thanonchai"

- Clifford is trying to do damage control, and I am not sure how much I believe it. He wants to stick to the 10/10 Alliance, which I don't know is in my best interest. As usual, Clifford is trying to say that Jake is the one that made the move to get me out, but Jake was the one that tipped me off to play the idol....? Mhm. I'm just gonna listen and see what happens. I know regardless that I am in danger, so why not go at it calmly.

"thanonchai"

- I think my best move going forward is to stick with Clifford. As long as he SHOWS ME HE IS TRUSTWORTHY, I will return the favor. My clear three is myself, Maya, and Julia. I don't want to work with Jake because according to Clifford, Jake was behind it and claims that Maya gave me her idol. I still don't know how much I can believe Clifford's alienation, but as long as it gets me to the final 5 where Julia, Maya, and I have the majority over Clifford and Yannick, I am content.

"thanonchai"

- Great. I knew this would happen once I played my idol. Maya seems pissed off at me, which is TERRIBLE for me because she is LITERALLY my closest ally. I hope that I can fix things with her and make her understand that she shouldn't be upset with me for it. Ugh, this game.

"thanonchai"

- Mhm, Jenna is serving me some hot ass lies on a crusty, dusty ass platter. She is highkey not giving me a concrete answer as to why she decided to vote for me and instead keeps bringing up how she was skeptical of the plan blah blah. Okay sweetie, then why didn't you tell me that so we could figure something out. I thought you WANTED Clifford out of this game. "I just voted with what I thought was more certain bc everyone was so up in the air with the clifford vote." Oh so voting me was something concrete? Girl bye. I'm over her too.

"thanonchai"

- I forgot to mention that Jenna has said, I think, 3 times now that "she can't believe that anyone would be dumb enough to believe Yannick would vote against Clifford." Mhm, say that to the guy that came to you and said that even Yannick is in on the plan to take out Clifford.

"thanonchai"

- This tribal couldn't have worked out better for me. Jace realized that going against me only worked out bad for him and is allowing us to get our shit on the table. My idol play failed. I'm really looking like an attractive goat right now. Fuck if I get to FTC I'm gonna have to really rev it up and pull out all the stops. If I can get 10 out of 10 unified, we can get to F5 together. I gotta make things better with Maya. My gut was telling me that they had other plans for this tribal so my idol speech reflected my perception where I openly admitted I was purposely flushing the idol but I was sure they were blindsiding someone else. Everything I'm doing now is to make me look very weak and attractive to drag forward. I'm acting all damaged from the Touchy Subjects, like I couldn't take all the hate. Truth is, these people don't know me and I don't know them. They are free to hate me. I despise that other alliance but it's in-game only. I don't respect Pris and Jenna's game at all. Rhi is too low-key for my taste and Jake is Voldemort. I'm excited to see how this pans out. I was supposed to be out at F13, I would have been the easy vote at F10. It's such a long road but I won't ever give up, I give zero fucks that they don't like the way I play. You need to get to the end of this game in order to win. So many people are caught up in the short game, they aren't thinking about the long game. I think making mistakes and not playing a perfect game is fine actually. I can leverage my own humanity. Right now I'm reminded of my favourite rule from The Art of War: When you're weak act strong, when you're strong act weak. I am embracing every angle of this. Putting myself out there, taking the heat, going through conflict, sopping up the hate. I told myself I wouldn't play this game unless I came in cutting throats and lobbing heads. I consider myself a much better player than how I played this game. I almost feel like I'm playing similar to Ella from my season lol

"thanonchai"

- awww sim got idoled out 😞 im actually shook at how tribal went down!! im sad sim left i wanted the witches to do rly well 😕

now it’s just me and rhi against the world!!! this final 9 is really interesting bc we have 4 duos and then julia we have: me and rhi jace and maya cliff and yannick pris and jenna and then julia who kinda floats between all of them (but i think is closer w pris and jenna tbh)

im rly worried after last vote that jace/cliff are going to make up and realize that theyre in danger and need to stick together for the sake of numbers… and julia is gna vote w them to create a majority. that’d be rly annoying bc this whole “side vs. side” narrative is such a fucking bore. i dont even want pris or jenna here much longer i dont trust them at all.

ive built a pretty good relationship with cliff and if hes so hated why not take this freak further. he mentioned wanting to go after pris and im very down with that. i jsut tried voting out jace so like… idk i also dont trust him at all hes very sneaky n good w his words

tbqh id like jace or maya gone next bc i dont trust either of them. i kinda want me/rhi/cliff/yannick to join together tbh. i have my relationship w cliff and rhi has been working on rebuilding her relationship w yannick. i think if we joined forces secretly, we could do some major damage in the game.

im shook that i made single digits omfggg this game is going to get hard bc im moving into college and a lot of time will be taken from me 😕 but im not giving up ive worked too hard in this game to ever give up. im going for the gold these freaks better get out of my way bc i won’t stop to get what i’m determined to achieve.

"thanonchai"

- I have been thinking and even though, yes, I am pissed at Priscilla and Jenna, at the end of the day this is still a social game. I need to act as though nothing has changed. I have already tried to confront both of them on what happened. Jenna gave me BS, and Priscilla played dumb. It is obvious that neither are people I can work with moving forward unless it is briefly. I am not sure how to go about Rhi and Jake. Both have betrayed me and targeted me and lied to me. I need to stick to this group for now and can't float between both sides in an attempt to be civil with everyone. If I even get to FTC, as long as I am not a straight up asshole to them between then and now, I will probably be able to get their votes.

"thanonchai"

- Me when I ask Rhi if we can talk about the vote at some point because I'm just confused at what went down, and she reads it and doesn't reply. Queen...

Okay me when there was a read check there literally 2 seconds ago and now it's gone. Miss Facebook is really trying to sabotage Madame Rhi, isn't she.

Day 27
"thanonchai"

- This win is such a good thing for my game. I am so happy it happened. I now have 2 idol clues that I can use to find this damn idol, and I am safe for the vote immediately after I was almost voted out with 7 votes against me. Now I need to re-establish myself so the next time I lose immunity I am not at risk of being taken the fuck out right away.

"thanonchai"

- So I am going to take a lowkey role in this vote because I want to try to allow my target to at least decrease in size a bit. Of COURSE Clifford says ""Oh yeah, I want to lay low too, let's let Maya and Julia make the decision."" AKA, let's let them take the heat. I wanted CLIFFORD to be the one making the move so that way his target could get larger than mine. Now if he goes around touting that it is Maya and Julia making the decision I may lose one of my closest allies that give me the majority within the 10/10 alliance. Right now I need to just try and unify the alliance once again since I kinda fucked it up. Julia still hates Clifford which I am LIVING for, but I just need to make sure she sticks with him for now, even with hating him. I can act as a vessel for her to rant about him and cool off, I hope that is enough to keep her sane LMFAO. Jake is trying to say that the move was Sim's idea. Lie. Point blank. Nice try attempting to place blame on the guy that just went out of the game. ""Oh Sim just thought you didn't like him."" Girl from what, I was never rude to Sim, and the only thing I said about him was that he was UTR as hell. Nothing personal. I know they are just trying to trick me into believing that they aren't to blame for this. There is no way that Sim went around and flipped 4 other people to vote for me instead of Clifford. No. Freaking. Way. It was obviously Jake and/or Rhi doing the heavy lifting at that vote. Sure, it may have been Sim's suggestion, but he did not jump into action out of the blue and make it happen.

"thanonchai"

- Priscilla is trying to plead with me that she is completely alone in this game aside from Jenna and is trying to atone for how many times she has gone against me in this game. I don't know whether to trust her or not. Even though I wanted to take a backseat this vote, I think I am hatching a plan that could work. I need to discuss it with more people, but for now the plan is as follows: I tell Priscilla that in an act of proving trust, she votes INCORRECTLY for Jake. Saying that we have another plan in mind that I'm not telling her because we have not established a trust. This way, if she runs and tells Jake, he may believe this story, and they scramble to figure out who we are throwing votes onto. OR Priscilla actually keeps her mouth shut, proving her trust to me, and the rest of us also throw votes on Jake, blindsiding him. I am nervous because that side may have another idol: The Phaluai idol. I think Jenna may be a candidate for having it because even though she was on the chopping block kinda premerge, there was never really a time where it was like ""YOU ARE GOING HOME JENNA, WE ARE TARGETING YOU."" So maybe she still has it in her pocket. I don't believe Jake has Phaluai's because it would just be dumb to play the merge idol while he had a premerge idol in his pocket. That could be a strategy to throw us off from know he has the other one, I guess.

"thanonchai"

- If that vote went the way I wanted it to, I wouldn't be in this position but because it did go haywire, I'm 99% sure I'm leaving this round. That being said, I'm trying out all the angles I can to stay in this game. I couldn't win immunity like I wanted and one of the big targets I could've used in the case that I didn't win immunity, Jace, won it. I'm trying to repair my relationship with Jace and use the fact that Jake is playing both sides to hopefully lower my status on his radar, because it must be huge after I betrayed his trust again. As for Clifford, I might be able to use the fact that I tried to save him last round. Maya is probably a lost cause at this point but I'm trying my best to convince her that lying to her was necessary, which is a really hard idea to support but I don't think I have anything else for her. Julia hasn't really given much to Jenna or I in terms of strategy talk so I may need to force her to at least bluff me by asking her point blank and skipping the part where I only talk strategy if they bring it up. Jake ratted out the plan to Jace but as long as he doesn't know that we know, then I might be able to depend on his votes still. I don't know if Jake framed us to Rhi yet but I feel like she'll still vote with us. Yannick I have no idea about but I can only assume that he's with Clifford. Things aren't looking great but I'm hustling because this is not the fate that I want. I could also try faking an idol, but considering how someone probably found all the idols by now and the fact that I already tried to pull this off a time ago, means that it proooobably wouldn't work.

"thanonchai"

- Mirror mirror on the wall who's going to have the greatest fall??

"thanonchai"

- I am trying to get our group to establish a trust between us and the Priscilla-Jenna pair. We need to show them that they can trust us if we expect them to be truthful to us. I think we could pull off a split vote 4-3-2 between Rhi and Jake. Right now I am trying to make Jenna trust me and I am laying out that I will literally be able to be taken out at ANY tribal council she pleases in the future, so there isn't a reason to undermine me anymore. I really need to make this happen. It sucks having to put trust into people that have lied and lied and LIED to me in this game, but it is necessary. I hope that this move doesn't fuck over Maya because I would feel so bad if I caused her boot.

"thanonchai"

- I feel like I am ignoring Julia's concerns, but I can't help it. We need them right now. Literally if we just go with a 5-4 and an idol is played, we lose someone. If we manage to rope in Jenna and Pris, we can do a 4-3-2, idol gets played, we are safe and have 2 more allies. C'mon Julia, don't hate me over this.

"thanonchai"

- I MAY HAVE GOTTEN JENNA. I know I have said this many times in the past about many people, and they still go against what I say, but Jenna and I literally talked for like 2 hours straight and I think I finally convinced her that she can trust me enough to be a part of this group. Pris will come along with her. My god, it would be so nice to FINALLY be on the same page with them and actually be behind a fucking vote since the merge. Knowing this game though, it will all turn to shit tomorrow right as I get into work, BUT FOR NOW I WILL BE HAPPY!!!

"thanonchai"

- LMAOOOOOO IT BEGINS!!!!!! Jake said that Jenna is trying to come after me, Julia, or Maya. I'm highkey over the bullshit, and the fact that now she's all "ohhhhh Clifford and Yannick are in it?" As though that's a big deal, "I feel like it's going to get weird." Literally how will it get weird unless you flip LMFAOOOOOOO. So now I'm thinking, let's just fucking get her out finally. We make it seem like we are splitting votes, she flips thinking that we wont have the votes, gets Pris to side with her as well, and then we all vote for Jenna and just finish her off. Underhanded on my part, but I'm sick of being lied to and having my friends targeted.

"thanonchai"

- WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE IN THIS GAME CCCCOOOOONNNNNSSSSTTTAAAAANNNNTTTTTLLLLLYYYYYY MISCONSTRUING WHAT I SAY AND THINKING I'M PLAYING THEM. MY GOD. I want Jake out. It is not hard. It is not a game. It is not a trick. I want him gone. I don't care that he tipped me off for the idol. He is my biggest competition and I want him gone. I don't understand Jenna's logic in this vote. Don't side with the group of 5 because you don't like two people of it, tell the person you don't like that you don't trust the person trying to extend an olive branch, and then tell said olive branch extender "I'm not going along with this next vote!!!" Do you think that I'm dumb enough to think that means you are going to stick to this vote? If you don't want to stick with us next vote, what numbers will you have unless you side with them this vote? I'm not dumb sweetheart. I know you are trying to take out one of my numbers LMAO. It's just so funny. So much for her, I'm done with her.

"thanonchai"

- I am putting on a show for Jake acting like I am giving up and know that I have no chance in hell to get further in this game. He's like "I don't want to see you go anywhere" which is funny to hear from him after he tried to take me out 7-2-1 last vote. I'm not going to vote with him, hell to the fuck no, but I will play along for now.

"thanonchai"

- It's too risky to gun after Jake and Rhi and nothing Priscilla or Jenna have done indicates to me that they have the Phalaui idol so taking a shot at Jenna is a great move to decimate their numbers. Hey if Jenna has the idol, this will be beautiful.

"thanonchai"

- So last night, Jace makes this alliance with me, Jenna, Julia, Clifford, Yannick, and Maya. I would have loved this alliance if Yannick and Clifford weren't included but now I just find it untrustworthy. Even Maya wanted to jump ship this morning. And if we had Maya, Jake, and Rhi, we'd be able to pull something off. The thing is though, Yannick and Clifford have Jake CONVINCED that they're voting for Julia. I don't want to go for Julia though because as much as she is a number for Jace, she's just not worth taking out at this point knowing that Maya was willing to jump. Plus, I don't trust Jake all too much after he ratted the plan out to Jace last round. That being said, I don't like the split plan we have in place. We only need two votes on Rhi, not three. That just makes it easier for someone to flip the vote and cause problems for me. I would have brought that up but that would've just showed my hestitation and the last thing I need right now is for my target with Jace to be even bigger. With all that being said, I still feel like there's a chance of me going home today. No one has any reason to trust me so I wouldn't be surprised if I'm in the dark again. There's also this Cagayan curse that's been happening where the boot order has matched the Cagayan jury gender wise perfectly, and Jefra's next on that list I think. Jefra kinda did the same thing where she offered to flip but went back on her word too. I really hope that this vote works out in my favor, but I wouldn't be surprised if it were me. Rhi is going to be so pissed off at me though, and trust me, I don't blame her.