Set This Whole Game On Fire/Confessionals

Day 28
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- "Alexander is gone, and I'm happy about it. That's one person down that I don't really vibe with. Next on the list...Natalia and Andrea. It's kind of funny because I just have not gotten along with any of the girls in this game, except for maybe Katie for an hour when she wasn't trying to be too UTR gamey. It's kind of sad because in my first ORG in this community, I vibed pretty well with Catherine and Juliaviv. But that's fine, I don't organize my game by gender. I FEEL like there could be potential with Andrea, though. Natalia, however, is just...I don't know how to describe it, but she's the type I would unmatch with on Tinder after maybe five messages. Just completely different types of people.

It'll have to wait, though, because hooliganism is in the air this round. Everyone seems to be going after Hunter this round because he has an idol and people are being rubbed the wrong way by him lately. I've sort of felt that, too. What I'm not feeling, though, is how my ass was the last one to hear about this play, BY ACCIDENT. I was being left out alongside Ethan. Bradley, however, was in on the plan without issue. I feel like this cunt sold out our alliance and totally said I was close with Ethan and Hunter as if he wasn't in an alliance with them, too. I see you, bud.

Yousef accidentally told me, and I've essentially forced my way into being part of the plan. If there's one thing you don't want, it's to be left out of a vote that big. I was kind of aggressive with it, but eh, I had to get shit done. There is a question, though, of whether or not I should tell Hunter in hopes that he plays an idol. My initial instinct was to do it, however...Hunter has been very non-committal with me lately, and I've been picking up on it. I'd feel really bad taking out someone who rooted for me a lot in my last game here, but weighing the pros and cons, it does seem that there are more ways it can go badly for me if I tell him to idol vs if I just take him out. I imagine I tell him to idol, he does, Karsten leaves, next round comes along and Hunter is the target again. He throws me under the bus and I lose trust with other key allies, and I leave or he does that round. There's just not enough of a framework to build a move next round with him. We'd have Ethan with us and that would be pretty much it.

I suspect someone will pull some fuckery here, though. It would be a great opportunity to tell him to play any idols he has, then to blame it on me. Will anyone try to pull a move like that off? Unlikely, but we'll see.

My midterms have really been shitting all over how much time I can put into being social, but hopefully I survive long enough to make a comeback in the second half of the merge. This round, aside from worming my way into the know, I should probably just stay UTR and let other people define the common enemy. Then when the tribe splits in two, I make my move."

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- "So my #1 Hunter was just BLINDSIDED. I had no idea this was happening, and it honestly makes a lot of sense. Last round, my intuition had me concerned for Hunter's well being and that there may be some sort of revolt against him (which I guess I was right in) But I didn't do anything about it because I believed what my ""Alliance"" told me. Now Karsten hates me and thinks that I wanted him gone when that is NOT the case. The poor dude has been brainwashed by whoever was pulling the strings on the last vote. I'm trying to convince him that Hunter and myself are legitimately the ONLY reason he stayed last vote. But he doesn't seem to be buying it.

But right now, I can't be mad. I can't be sad. I have to be grateful. And I have to push past this. My social bonds with these people kept me in the game, even if they didn't trust me enough to tell me. Honestly, they probably should have taken the shot at me, because I am WAY more deadly in this game than Hunter ever could be. But this game is about adapting. I now don't have this ""duo"" status attached to me, which is good. Most people from what I am hearing, assumed Hunter had the Barbarossa idol and auction/madness advantages. So hopefully at this point I can just lay low. I need to work with figuring out the power structure of the tribe, and getting in good with whichever group has the most pull. There's no time to be upset right now. I was wondering when this game was officially going to kick off, and here we are. At least I know what it's like to be lied to by these people, so I can recognize the signs if it's happening again. But the good thing is, they don't know how I lie yet, so these people better watch their backs, because I came here to win. Welcome To Survivor, Scallywags."

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- So after the vote, I'm doing the rounds, trying to extinguish these burning bridges, when here comes Karsten with a flamethrower. He is being super rude and condescending to me when I try explaining my thought process and where I was coming from with the last vote. He just did NOT want to hear my side of the story. I brought up how I didn't know Hunter was leaving, and he responds with: "Damn then everyone is against you and you should be nervous". I'm more hurt than angry or upset, I just don't get why he is acting like this. I'm trying to have a conversation when he just keeps throwing these jabs at me while I'm actually trying to be open and honest with him. I genuinely wanted him to stay for these last two votes, but he just can't seem to process what I'm saying to him. He's probably mad because "I lied to him" but I legitimately told him he's was the vote BEFORE the deadline, and that if he had any idols or powers, he could save himself. I respect the dude so much, and for him to be so hostile, when HE lied to me also, makes no sense. If anything I should be the one mad at him, but I realize this is a game, and it was a damn good move on their part. Hopefully he will calm down, it is still fresh after the vote, but he is not the person I thought he was.

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- "I have learned A LOT of stuff for a man who was just blindsided in the last vote! Everyone is telling me they voted out Hunter because they were worried he had idols/advantages, and I'm playing it off like Hunter never told me he had any advantages. If I had info to throw him under the bus with I would tell them, but I can't. Right now they all think I'm a loyal guy who has done what he has said all game... which definitely not true, but it's what they think. I'm hoping that by not just saying ""Oh yeah Hunter def had the idol"" I'm making myself less suspicious of me actually having it. Sneaky sneaky!

Anyways, I have been talking to Jake and apparently he was let in on the plan last minute, so me and him are clearly on the bottom. Last round, Elmo came to me and said if the ""PIN"" alliance between Me/Hunter/Jake/Bradley was a thing... so clearly one of the other people leaked that to him. I know I didn't do it, Hunter said HE didn't leak it, and Jake has been a little sus of Bradley, and that he didn't leak it either. So Bradley is clearly playing a lot harder than I initially thought. He was the one that ratted out our alliance to Elmo, and probably everyone else, THAT is why they left Jake out of their plan to blindside Hunter, because people saw us as a tight trio (which wasn't the case, Jake was a tangential ally to me at most, I honestly wanted to go with HEEB). So I am keeping my eye out for Bradley. He is in more of a power position than I thought. I am trying to buddy up to him because if he has the power, I want to make it seem like I am 100% commited to him, and that I'm best for HIS game moving forward. When he trusts me, that's when I will make my move.

This game is so weird, I feel like I have so many friends to avenge. Willow & Hunter, I haven't forgot about you, and I plan on maneuvering my way to the end. I have an idol that is burning a hole in my pocket, and hopefully it will have Bradley's name on it."

Day 29
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- "Things are already starting to look up for me in this game! Who would have thought that my #1 ally leaving would be GREAT for that game! This kid, this kid did. So now I'm here all by myself. After literally EVERY single person lied to me, I feel as if that has given me carte blanche in this game to look out for myself. Before I was on the train of ""group thing"" and ""let's work as a team"", but that Ethan is gone now. Now I am here to play hard, balls to the wall, and get shit done. That last vote lit a fire under my ass so hot that there is no way I'm slowing down until I win, or get voted out.

Right now, Bradley/Elmo are clearly the biggest and best dynamic duo left in the game. They were the ones who started the crusade against Hunter, so everything has lined up perfectly for me to make a strike back against them. Yousef and I have REALLY bonded over these last few days, the dude is seriously in the running to be my final 2 right now. We have been spit-balling back and forth, and we think the best course of action is to take a strike at these boys who may have 1, 2 or 3 idols between them. So this plan is very scary, but has a lot of promise. Yousef and I are talking to Andrea and Natalia who seem down, and I have Jake on my side, who is a very cool dude and probably my current final 2. But if the 5 of us can snipe either Elmo or Hunter that will blow the game wide open.

Is it just me or is this the Pair-pocalypse? First Lex was taken out of the duo of yousef/lex. now Hunter got taken out of the Hunter/Ethan duo. And now Elmo/Bradley are being targeted. Sucks to be a pair in this game I guess.

I don't care if this backfires, because I'm more than willing to play my idol to keep myself safe in the event shit hits the fan. When this is all said and done, These people are going to look back at the last vote and realize the mistake they made. Hunter wasn't a threat, they should have voted me."

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- "For tonight's tribal, this is the first vote in which I feel like I MIGHT not see my name written down? Although that probably means i'm going home lol.

Ideally, I want to flush an idol out of Ethan if he has one, but not necessarily vote him out. Elmo and Yousef are also believed to have idols. There are a ton of idols out there and I don't have one-- so I expect something to start going down. A Jake vote would probably be the safest play tonight, particularly because he doesn't seem to have made any true friends anywhere. Nice enough dude, but definitely a little odd in the way he's played the game. Maybe there's something I don't know about."

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- The moment of truth is almost upon us. The fuel has been poured, and I'm standing here with the match, ready to drop it, and about to set this whole game on fire. Yousef and I have been planning this Bradley or Elmo blindside for this whole round, and I'm hoping it goes off without a hitch. Karsten is freaking out thinking that the vote is going to be him tonight, but I doubt it will be. Me/Yousef/Andrea/Nat/Jake are going to be voting one of either Elmo or Bradley, and it's going to hopefully a fantastic blindside. We're all trying to calm the nerves of elmo/bradley, and pointing out how Karsten is acting all crazy and lying to everyone. Hopefully this "common enemy" strategy will lower their guard just enough so that they don't play their idols. Yousef has been paranoid (par for the course with him) but I think I may have calmed him down. This is really the do or die moment for my game. This will be the first big, splashy move of the season. Even if it doesn't work out for me, I had SUCH a fantastic time. Like holy crap what a season to be a part of. Hope I can make it back to camp to keep giving more of these confessionals.

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