Thank The Jesus/Confessionals

"sarlag"

- Reward challenge? can we just skip this? Only benefit to winning would be to prevent one of the other tribes from winning. but dont think its that big of deal. so probably wont put a ton of effort in this challenge, but might change my mind later who knows

"tarvaga"

- Coming back from Tribal, I am so relieved. This game has been so taxing and so stressful and it’s literally Day 5. I’m so thankful to still be here and have a tight alliance. I am forever grateful to Landen and Kyle and I don’t plan on turning on them anytime soon. I‘m still a little confused why I was targeted in the first place. My best guess is that it’s because I’m loud and I’m usually sarcastic but it comes across as bossy. It’s a wake up call that maybe I need to tone it done a bit and start playing a little more quietly. I don’t have to run the show from center stage anymore.

"tarvaga"

- So I got blindsided last night, Landen swapped his vote to Eli and boom. Eli's gone. Then Landen says he's sorry and still wants to work with me, oh yeah I can obviously trust you can't I. I can see some positives to this though, I don't need to worry about a 2nd person now, I can play more for myself and help the tribe win challenges, but then Landen says he's not gonna bother with the immunity challenge. The point of voting someone out is to get stronger not lazier! I thought at the begining of this I was on a good tribe, I'm surrounded by drama queens and laziness! At first I was dredding a shuffle but now bring me the shuffle, give me some tribe mates who want to contribute!

"sarlag"

- Can I get an amen up in here? -RuPaul

This idol hunt has been so frustrating, giving combinations of numbers every 12 hours and constantly getting three Xs as a result.

Until today, when a glimmer in the darkness showed itself to me. I discovered one of the 3 numbers and my head immediately went 'Do I tell this to the others?'. As you may know, I've been sharing clues with Logan C. and Randy in hope to get clues back and it has worked so far.

But now? Are the excitement of being one step closer and the greed of wanting an idol all for myself going to throw all the trust I've built out of the window?

P.S. That reward challenge game is incredibly well-thought, but damn is it difficult.

"mori"

- Day 6. Whew you can start to see the paranoia setting in. Bradley is in my alliance but he's one dangerous player. He definitely has the air of someone who has played before. Knows the in and out of every challenge and how to leverage the best way to win. Jerome and I got our eye on him and we both know that out of our alliance he's the third. Logan hasn't even attempted to talk to me anymore and I"m thinking this is much more relaxing. I have a feeling he's throwing my name out but frankly I don't care. Bradley put it best. It's like drawing blood from a stone. Jerome man what can be said about my man Jerome. He's someone I genuinely enjoy talking to! We both chatted about the entire new episode last night and frankly he's the kind of guy I think I would hang out in the real world with. Last but not least Tal. I give him definite props. Tal I feel is genuine and really wants to be part of the group. I frankly don't want to cut Tal yet because if we all make it to the Merge I feel Tal will ride it out to the end and thats respectable. Pretty much the last few votes have been pretty straight forward with who went home. I just hope if we do go to a tribal (knock on wood). It'll be pretty straight forward.

"sarlag"

- Wow, so Eli got eliminated because of his poor performance in the previous challenge? TOTALLY not see that coming hehe. (Yes I was being sarcastic)

Also so far me and my tribe been vibing great. I expect a tribe swap on next week or next next week, which might make my job much easier, cuz I don't think any of us should be eliminated that early. But again, luck might run out on us, so let's see how things get.

"mori"

- It's not that I dont like Evan, but he might be a strong player so Im not that happy he wasn't voted off in the tribal. Who knows, mabye I will get a chanc to work with him, but I dont trust him that much...

"gatsuur"

- Once again I really flopped at the Flash game and it's wrose cause I played that one few times before so RIP my dreams of being a challenge beats and our tribe winning anything because we have really low scores.

"gatsuur"

- why do i get the feeling that ruth secretly hates me lmao

"sarlag"

- It's already been a week! Time is really flying by in this game, but that's mostly because we've been consistently good as a tribe and haven't lost any challenge yet. Not sure if that's going to continue though. This morning I woke up and read the messages from last night (8pm EST is 2am for me, for reference) and realized that I'd been sat out of a challenge by Randy. That was kind of a bummer to be honest, I think I would have done quite good at this, but the challenge itself is all about being synchronized with the others and their time so I guess it made sense not to include me. I just hope sitting out again won't make me look like the weakest link, because I don't feel like I am and it would suck to go home so early when I have so much more to give.

The idol clue was pretty useless, I had already explored the rows that the clue indicated as wrong so it didn't give me a lot of new info, hopefully there's still time and the others haven't found the combination already.

Looking at the reward challenge results, the assumptions that I had about the other tribes proved to be right: - Mori has some major challenge threat and is working super well together, they're definitely the ones to beat, hopefully they realize each other's threat level and are willing to flip after an eventual swap. - Gatsuur puts effort but they just can't keep up, the 4 of them together couldn't even do more than 2 of the Tarvaga tribe. - Speaking of the devil, Tarvaga once again proves to be a shady mess, with 2 people abstaining from a 4-people challenge and 2 people doing their best and giving impressive score, are they as much of a train-wreck as they look?

"mori"

- Jesus, Day 6 flew by really quick. Felt like I only gave a confessional a day ago! Exams and study really makes the time fly.

Tribal Council #2 Tarvaga Results: Poor Eli. I sorta looked forward to meeting him. Very interesting to see that the vote was not unanimous at all, and also some of the voting parchments sort of do help with figuring out what's going on in the tribe and why they vote that way. Thanks very much boys, I need all the information I can get.

Reward #1 Results: Holy shit can't believe we topped the board again! We beat Sarlag and I had no idea I was going to get the second-highest score overall! I barely had more than two hours to work on that challenge! Also, touchscreen laptop worked great for some of those minigames. But goddamnit Sarlag still did win the clue to the Hidden Immunity Idol. Both of our tribes have the same amount of clues to the Idol, and I really, really don't want them to get it before we do. I just want the idol not so I have the power, but so I can prevent others from having the power.

The Hidden Immunity Idol Clue and the Search Tightens: Ever feel like a piece of shit searching in the same row and then the clue blatantly tells you 'Haha what are you doing ya fack, there's nothing there' and you just waste your guesses? Yes. But getting the clue is better than not getting the clue and searching in empty rows to no avail. And damn did it help. It made me guess in the row of 50s and guess fucking what, I finally got a number in the correct position! Lucky number 55 as the third number! I really hope I'm ahead of the pack here. It's great progress.

I had to be honest with Bradley on this one - I trust each other. We just told each other that if one of us finds the idol, it's not for ourselves as an individual, it's OURS as a pair. He hasn't guessed any right, but I really hope we get it. Now there's two more numbers in there with 25 or 27 eligible numbers remaining.

Immunity Challenge #3: Okay, quite a funny challenge. The only problem is waiting for the other people to post. Well, we're in the lead but we can quickly be overtaken with a good burst of teamwork by the others. Logan's saving of pictures is hilarious. Everything is totally pixelated, worse than 144pp. The funny thing is that the additions we do are super clear compared to the rest of the photo.

Despite the pixelation, our sabotages are pretty lame compared to the other tribe. I mean, pizza, Peppa Pig, and Danny Devito? And the StanKelleeKim? Same dude same. As a side note, that episode was pretty full on. Shocking, and emotions running everywhere as a result from it.

Other things: I really hope Patrick and his friends are okay from the episode. It was tough and it took a hit on me and man, it must feel worse for the bigger fans out there. Also, Tal and I have been talking more and he's admitted that he's very close to me!That's good news! I like him too and would love to work with him! I guess that leaves Logan as the only one left who hasn't talked to me about working together.

End of confessional.

"sarlag"

- Well this challenge is gonna suck. I'm nearly 8-9 hours away from the others and my schedule is packed when they were active. I just hope that I won't get voted out just because I was on my way back to my hometown and was sick on the VERY day.

"gatsuur"

- This is a challenge I think we can win finally. Thank the jesus but right now Megan needs to step up a bit because to this point it was me,Ruth and Jacob doing all the work and I hope that she will do more now that she is online or else we could be going to tribal once again.

"sarlag"

- So it sucks Patrick had to leave the game. But we are the only tribe still 5 strong. TY seems to be paying g low and not participating much. I think he has the idol and is feeling comfortable. I don't known really. I hope when the split comes I am with some people from our tribe and can figure out where the idol is.

"mori"

- Patrick pulling himself from the game is incredibly shocking and sad. I'm super sad right now and I don't doubt the whole tribe and the hosts are too. It's so unfortunate that what happens in Survivor is deeply affecting people in the real world and it shouldn't happen, but I felt like it was important not to sweep it under the rug. People oblivious to these issues to varying degrees realised what's happening and opened their eyes, including me. It's just a dark moment but I hope it's progress for society.

I'm not even going to talk about the repercussions his quit will do to my game, because its not about my game right now. His situation is so much more important. I really really hope he and his friends will be okay after this. We spoke our final goodbyes and both teared up and wished each other well. I am so lucky to have met a cool guy like Patrick who is incredibly supportive of his friends and passionate in Survivor. I hope I play with him after this.

With that, Bradley, Tal, Logan and I are the only few Mori remaining. We are sad to lose Patrick but we can only fight from here. We are still a strong tribe. Horsepower!

"gatsuur"

- Day 8- Here we go! Last days were super hectic for me, I had tons of work but somehow I managed to find some free time to write this! Whe-hew! We won the last challenge and about 30 mins ago Patrick quit the game. This is good for me because my tribe mates and I saved our asses, avoided the tribal. These people are quite reliable and I definitely wanna work with them so winning the upcoming challenge would be amazing. The biggest thing that I am scared of is having a swap. I am seriously afraid of it because new people, new conversations, new topics. I kinda know my fellow tribe mates but I don't know anything about other 13 players of this season. So, hopefully we will swap very late (like at final 15 or final 14) but the greatest thing would be if we didn't swap at all! wish best of luck because I'll need it.

"gatsuur"

- So we found out that Patrick quit and while I am happy we won and that the Mori tribe lost, I really hope he is doing Ok and that he will get better because it's never nice or good to see someone quit over personal reasons because will never know what those reasons will be.