Board Thread:Season 47 - Heroes vs. Villains II/@comment-28431903-20180612100413

I have a love/hate relationship with FTC's on both ends. As jurors, we say jump and you say how high. If I think you need to write a thesis paper on Benghazi for my vote, I could probably make it happen. If I want a ten minute ego stroking session, fuck I could probably get that too. It's sickening, in a way. This dance we make you do, when in reality preconceived notions and opinions going into FTC will usually dictate 80% of the overall decision. I've never been a fan of the classic "let's drag the fuck out of everyone because we lost so this is our only chance to retain relevancy." But so far it's been a breath of fresh air to see how competent and articulate my fellow jurors have been. This cast is truly something special from top to bottom (except Will fuck that guy). I'd like to approach this a little differently than I and frankly most others usually do. I'm just gunna dump some honesty here because I know what I'm looking for and it's gunna be a lot easier to find it if we are all on the same page.

I won't touch on my viewpoint of the 3 of you following my elimination because life took over and I'd be lying if I didn't say I 100% checked out for a bit. Maybe even before I was voted out. Regardless, fast forward a few rounds and I felt I understood where the 3 of you stood. I felt Nick was playing the strongest, then Sora, then Maya. Not a knock on any of you. But things change. Come F6/5, Sora and Nick had switched places on that list for me, and I think that's pretty much where my mind was at coming into FTC. Scrap what i said earlier though because things are getting funky.

If I cast my vote right this second, I'd be casting my vote for Maya to win. The thing that seems to always resonate with me when I decide who I want to win as a juror isn't always who played the best socially, or strategically, or who had the magic typing fingers and won immunities. It's who can articulate the game that they PLAYED, not the one they wanted to or hoped to have played. Long story short self-awareness is IMO the single MOST IMPORTANT aspect of being a good org player. This isn't to say my decision will be based off of this aspect alone.

Let's start with Maya. I can safely say Maya that I may have been out to lunch for a while this game, but one thing I knew from the second we merged is that if I wasn't at FTC, you would be. I did not see any other person truly wanting to eliminate you from this game at any point. Even at F5, from my perspective you getting votes was never a "lets take out Maya" thing. Rather a we have to do this by default move. Did I want to work closely with you like we discussed? Of course! But it became clearer and clearer to me that with you being DIRECTLY in the middle almost more than anyone I've ever seen in a merge, my game and your game could not coexist long term. I was perplexed though! How the fuck do I get you out??? I couldn't figure it out. At F13 I saw a potential way I could eliminate every single person if I had to (not saying it would work just options available). But not you, and that was due to your own game so I give you a huge amount of praise for that. I honestly don't have many questions for you but I will leave you with this one:

''How did you maneuver yourself to get into that middle position at merge? I wanna know early game moves, like before we swapped together (so essentially your time with Kanaloa and Maui) .''

Nick. A few things I wanna say. Firstly, Roisin QUEEN is wrong. We did not become friends during Argentina. Hell we didn't even really become friends during 703BB6 or even BBORG 8 for that matter. I can count on my hands the number of people in my entire ORG career that I've left a game with a long term true and meaningful friendship with. People that I feel would have been willing to overlook the games we played in pursuit of being there for me. You are one of those people and I will forever be glad the hosts chose to cast me if only to have grown so much closer with you! This is not to say you'd throw your game away for me in any regard. But our friendship will transcend this game and we both knew that from very early on. Let's get serious though. As one of only FIVE villains to have made the merge, I'd like to touch on what you say was your main goal. To be THE villain of the season. Why? Because that was my goal bitch!! But forreal, people may not understand why you'd want to do this, but I do. Embracing the criticism, the hate, the unfair stigma's, the hypocrisy of others words/actions. All of it. When you become a villain you can go 2 ways. Embrace and go full badass, or work your ass off to alter the perceptions of those around you. You chose the former, while I ended up losing sight of that goal and split myself down those paths 50/50. So kudos to you Nick, you did it. You became THE Villain of the season. But at what cost?

I want to vote for you SO BADLY; as a fellow villain, your ride or die, and even just as a friend to see you accomplish such an amazing feat that I know you so desperately want. But if you don't facilitate the means by which I can do so, then I won't be voting for you. I actually have a couple of questions for you, however they all fall under the same umbrella.

You told me that your biggest fear in this game was that you'd make it to the end and have people discredit you or your game for having relied on pre game relationships. Your actions showed this time and time again as well. Which I fully supported and understood. With that said, letting Sora even make it to F6 if that was the case was a fucking RIDICULOUS error on your part and you need to understand that. So i guess this is a 3 parter.

''1. Why did you decide F6 was approx. the time Sora needed to go?

2. Did you think about the fact that this situation that you're in rn, with Sora sitting next to you, was very likely if he was left in the game until F6?

3. Do you think in your pursuit of eliminating your pre game friends, that you may have lost sight of creating your own narrative to win this game? Or are you relying on this narrative that was created (you becoming the biggest villain and knifing your friends to prove your individuality) to lead to you victory?''

And finally Sora. I think you're fucking awesome man. In another time where maybe you and I were new players in an org I can see us absolutely steamrolling a game partially because of how well we mesh on a personal level. Partially because we both have a similar approach to the game. But tonight I won't spend much time talking about your game because I understand it more than I understand the other 2 finalists. Instead, I want to talk about your self awareness. I'm getting the sense that you are a lot less self aware about all aspects of your involvement than I initially thought. I even said earlier that from F6/5 ish until speeches were up I not only wanted to give you my vote but saw you as the odds on favorite. I even made a comment when your idol play got posted in ponderosa. "Look's like Sora has this thing wrapped up if he makes it to FTC." This ended up sparking a rather heated argument between a few jurors, mainly myself and Ali (shoutout to Ali even if we disagree a lot you're awesome.) But I went to bat for you, and i'm starting to second guess why exactly I did that. You will more than likely be picked apart by others so I have a kind of peculiar request from you, not really a question.

''Take a minute or two. Clear your mind. I'm not about to ask you to go on a mystical spirit quest with me don't worry that'll be for after the game. But once you are done this and feel 100% clear headed, then complete this task. Re-read your opening speech. Tell me where (if at all) you feel that you were incorrect, didn't articulate something properly, or you wish you could go back and change something. This might seem like a lot to ask but this isn't just for me. I want to see you do well, and I think that this can really be a chance for you to knock this FTC out of the park.''

If anyone needs any clarification feel free to ask. Remember this. My vote is still up for grabs and this isn't that fucking bullshit that people say to get you to answer, it truly is. In fact this jury is so fluid I think anyone's vote sans a couple are up for grabs. You can win HvV2 at FTC. You just have to want it bad enough, and be self aware enough to know what you have to do.

Couldn't end off without saying a few things though. Hosts, it has been an absolute pleasure to play this game. I'd say this is my second favorite org experience I've ever had, which is funny since both of my 2 favorite orgs have been 24 person survivor games in which I've gotten 10th place, not any of my wins. When I started this game versus when I left, my intentions were wildly different. I'm thoroughly satisfied with my return to this org, and should it be my last I can walk away knowing my 2 seasons here were fun as all fuck.

This was the first time us Argentina reps got a chance for another shot (Marie robbed), but I hope I did y'all mother fuckers proud.

 