Alive and Conscious/Confessionals

"attica"

- These divisions really are screwing with my game, and all of the guys' games, right now. There's a tribe with four girls and three guys. I highly doubt the girls will be imploding. Then there's my tribe that has a 4-3 guy majority, but one of the guys we suspect is a flipper. It may be a long road ahead of the guys.

"attica"

- So I found out that one of my closest allies is growing skeptical of me becoming a flipper. That's really great. Clearly I've been demoted to our alliance's number three. Down the road I may have to take some drastic measures to either regain my position, or take him down. I don't want to have to do that, but I'd rather blindside him, than have him blindside me.

"laconia"

- Well the tribe swap just happened and.... things are not looking so good for me right now.. I was unfortunately moved to the other tribe, with MJ and Marty who were in my alliance, but I'm away from my closer alliances with Jace and Will. Now I'm with Hanne Shannon Tata and Erica.

Tata and Shannon are clearly together and more then likely don't look open to working with the guys, Hanne and Erica are possibilities right now though. So plan A: WIN TRIBAL IMMUNITY. if plan A fails we'll move to plans B and C: try and form like a foursome with Hanne Erica MJ and myself, or get the target off me and onto like Marty or something, just do whatever it takes to survive.

"attica"

- It finally happened, the swap everyone was talking about. I think I'm in a weird situation. Yes I'm on a tribe with 4 guys and 3 girls, but Eoin was outside our alliance on the old Attica so there is no telling what he will do here. I've been talking with Amelia though once the swap happened and she seems pretty cool. I believe I'll be able to make my plan work to bring her to The Elders side. Jessica talks very little and Missy has said basically nothing the whole time. Which means my initial guess of Amelia being the one to go after was correct. I'm hoping I can get Amelia on my side so it doesn't even matter what Eoin does.

Since my last confessional I was also in the Clash of Titans against Marty. The Elders saw the swap coming and we all agreed to make sure that there is always at least one of us in the Clash, even better if two of us can be it. That way whoever wins just takes the other so it looks more like a show of good sportsmanship instead of favoritism. I ended up winning the advantage for my tribe and a chance to go to the Temple. The temple is pretty interesting with how it works. There are 12 urns representing the 12 titans. Knowing what each titan represents helps guess what's inside the urn. I went with Coeus' urn because he was associated with intelligence. I was hoping this meant there would be a clue to the idol and I was correct.

Now with this clue I know two of the three that have been given out. The first clue was given to Ian and I'm sure he took that info with him when he was voted out. Jace told me his about Aphrodite being last in the order and my clue told me Athena was first. However when people ask, I'm telling them Athena was SECOND in the order. This will give me a leg up in finding the idol first and if I can get that, I can use it to guarantee me winning this game,

"attica"

- I really like Amelia. I hope that I can continue to like her though, but if she decides she isn't voting with us, I probably wont.

"attica"

- i shouldn't be this happy about the tribe swap. it messed up our #massiveblindside and left me in the minority again, and hanne is gone, and these are all terrible things. but like. i am SO ALIVE. new people to talk to??? new people who actually act like they're interested in talking to me and who are thinking strategically and who have more to say than " ;-; " ???? oh my god it's so beautiful i might cry.

BUT ANYWAY even though it is super lovely and i am so glad these people are alive and conscious, there are still some things i gotta work out. obviously, tribal lines are still (implicitly) strong and that leaves the three of us - me, jessica, and missy - at a bit of a disadvantage. but i've been able to talk to all of our new tribe members at least a bit, and i think we can work something out.

will - one of the first people i talked to, it sounds like he's the leader of the group of four (with a couple more allies on the other side), so definitely someone to watch out for. he seemed nice and i think i could persuade him to keep me over the other laconians (current plan b), so i'm gonna keep talking to him and see what kind of a relationship i can get going there. eoin - okay, this one is interesting. i had been told that he was on the outs with this group of guys before the swap, so i was planning to see what i could do with that, but before i could even start he messaged me and was like "i'm going to help you guys out" and told me that he wants to flip on the guys (current plan a). and he seemed super legit about it so that was cool.

so the only potential problem right now is that we're not sure how loyal missy is, since she doesn't say much and hasn't contributed to the chat for the three of us (wisu: she's like sarah but 87% more shady). which is a little worrying. we've just got to make sure she feels safe enough to stick with us instead of trying to do something crazy. we will see. here's to hoping we don't have to go "what the ___ missy" too many times in this game.

goodbye i must go participate in a blood sacrifice in honor of actual survivor missy because that's apparently what these boys do in their spare time idfk

"attica"

- THIS IS NOT WHAT I INTENDED THIS IS THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT I WANTED TO DO EVEN THOUGH MAYBE IT IS OKAY THIS WAS NOT THE PLAN

so talking to people comes with consequences and now i have choices to make. i did not want to be the choice maker before the merge. i do not want people to notice me. shhh i am not here frick

talked to will more and he's now supposedly wanting to work with me and saying that "there are tight pairs" in the guys' "tight alliance" (spoiler alert i guess will feels pretty tight) and he wants to take them down. not sure what to make of this but agreed ofc so the good news is that i supposedly have (another) secret alliance but bad news is i'm still not sure if i trust him and i may end up regretting talking to him so much/letting myself be guided down this path. because if i end up having to vote against him sooner rather than later, that's a pretty scary enemy to have. he seems really smart about the game and definitely knows what's up, so i will have to be careful with this. also, he kept asking questions about missy earlier which was kinda suspicious? idk, he seemed very curious about her and i don't know if that's because he wants her out or what. and then he asked me who i wanted to vote out next which was like, one of those questions that is very important to get right. so i said eoin because he's supposedly on the outs and i don't wanna piss off will by accidentally condemning one of his faves, so hopefully that was okay. also if he goes and tells eoin i said that, hopefully that can also work in my favor (so he can see i'm not giving away the fact that he wants to flip).

so my main dilemma when we go to tribal council will probably be whether to trust eoin or will. i mean, ideally everything will align and i can make sure that a) the guys who are targeting the old laconians want to get rid of missy instead of me or jessica, b) eoin does actually flip & vote with us, d) shit shit shit i just realized it is literally impossible for this to work out the way i want it to whoops oh well rip me it's the game i'm probably gonna piss someone off and i just hope that person is voted out. we'll see. my priority right now is keeping myself and jessica safe, followed by not making anyone incredibly mad at me, followed by winning challenges and not having to go to tribal council ever :)))) hopefully at least 75% of that can work out.

i'm really bad at writing confessionals but at least they help me realize when i've made errors wow #messy

"attica"

- Today was a very clutch immunity challenge win. However the victory is bitter-sweet. I do save myself from a possible crazy situation, but I'm condemning the three guys in my alliance on the other side. It's even more weird since I'm literally the reason Attica won the challenge. Not only did I get the highest score on my tribe, but the advantage I won in the Clash gave us the victory by a slim margin. So it will be entirely my fault if one of my guys goes home. But as the survivor saying goes, as long as it ain't me.

In other news I feel I am very close to the idol. As long as no one else made a lucky guess to find it, it will be mine in only a matter of time. I am 97% sure I am the only one who knows all 3 clues that are out right now. I'm the only one who knows mine said Athena is first while I've told others she's second. I know Jace's clue and Renz's clue. I also know exactly how many clues (at least for the guys) each person thinks they know. Now either Jace or Renz could have easily been lying to me just as I lied to them but I will be able to find out sooner because I will have less combinations to try than them.

"laconia"

- ok so tata better be going bye bye at the next tribal council. i never particularly enjoyed her presence but now she's just pissing me off. first she makes this fake alliance including myself, erica, martynas, shannon, and her. i'm like w/e i don't wanna be in here but i go along with it anyway. then we lose the challenge. me and mj make a plan to get rid of martynas or tata. we are working with sora and erica (who i realllllly need to vote with us) but i'm like 75% sure we have her. and i totally got her to tell me if tata had talked to her by saying tata had mentioned her name. wow that was good bc tata didn't talk to her and neither did i!! mj said that tata is just grouping me and her together though and wants to get rid of both of us. well fuck that. tata made a new alliance and that has sora, mj, martynas, shannon, and tata. which is tata's real alliance. and my real alliance is with mj, sora, and erica. if sora and erica are telling me the truth. hopefully. and the first thing sora said to me on the new tribe was that he likes my blog. i don't know why that makes me trust him but it does... i know i'm getting at least 3 votes at tribal but hopefully no more. ugh we could have totally flipped the votes onto erica but mj was being dumb and told tata i wanted her out!!!!!! like wtF WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?? i don't think he really thought it through but like is he trying to get me out?? idk probably not. if he voted me out right now i would be mad at him but probably not if it was like at the end of the game ya know.... last night i was SOOOO close to blowing up at tata in the fake alliance chat that she set up just to make me feel safe. like damn girl i don't think i have ever gotten in an actual fight with someone about a survivor game. but i decided yelling at her would result in her knowing i knew about their hashtag blindside on me so i just let it go... i wanted to yell at her soooooo badly though rip. martynas is also like a guy version of tata. not a good thing necessarily... and shannon really hasn't spoken to me but that's ok cause i'm still pissed off at her for telling me half of the idol clue and i don't really wanna work with her anyway. and she and tata play a lot of orgs together from what i saw on their facebook pages. i have like a notebook that i've been writing all this alliance shit down on with complex highlighter markings and everything. i am such a loser honestly. and i miss amelia and jessica rip </3 if we were on the same tribe w/ mj rn we would have a majority and wouldn't even need anybody else

"attica"

- I haven't seen a single thing from Missy since this tribe swap. She is such an enigma, but I'm glad because this "brilliant" social game of her's makes her an easy vote in the future. Continue the silence, girl, it's brilliant!

"attica"

- Thanks to Jessica, I now know that the girl's are all pretty quiet and don't talk often. She could be lying, but I also heard the same thing from Amelia. Maybe I don't need to worry about getting crushed at the merge because I feel like even if the girls make the merge with the majority, they will implode.

"laconia"

- do you know what time it is???? it's #blindside time

We did the tribe swap BLAHBLAHBLAH NuLaconia got a bit messy. There was an alliance of the 4 girls + Marty, and alliance of the 3 guys + Shannon and Tata, and there's an alliance of me, Hanne, Erica, and Sora. The alliance of the 3 boys and Shannon and Tata wanna vote out Hanne, and Sora and I were like LMAO no ayyy Hanne and Erica they're tryna vote y'all out let's flip the shit out of this game. So I put the alliance together, made a chat for us, and we all decided we're gonna blindside Tata. Everything SHOULD be going as planned UNLESS Erica is actually with Tata and told her what's going on. I think that's unlikely. I'm really hoping that's not the case. If we can pull this move off !!!!!!!! This will be the biggest move of the season so far because we're taking out a "power player" (lmao no Tata sucks). Anyways, if all goes as planned and Tata leaves, I'm gonna get them to throw the challenges after this to keep Amelia and Jessica safe :~) and get with them at the merge and dominate the rest of this game (-:

but also what if I get blindsided tonight??? honestly rip what if Erica votes out Hanne instead of Tata ??? honestly rip what if Tata plays and idol and idols out Hanne ???? HONESTLY RIPPPP

ok I'm done hoping for the best and we can get rid of the most annoying player ever @@@@ TATA PLEASE LEAAAAVVVVEEEEEEE

"attica"

- Sometimes I don't know if I'm Will's vice president, or his lowly butler.

"attica"

- These girls seem to be a mess when it comes to being together. All Amelia and Jessica do is talk about how quiet old Laconia was, how silent Missy was and still is, and Jessica even mentioned Missy going home for being so quiet. Then there's Missy who STILL hasn't said a word since the tribe swap. Unless they are bluffing and Missy is really taking one for the team, I believe that it will be easy to pit them against each other.