Board Thread:Season 47 - Heroes vs. Villains II/@comment-33629256-20180612184813/@comment-24553600-20180613215335

TLazyS wrote: 1. When did deliberately voting in the minority give you information?

Information specifically, the Evan and Claire tribals, but there was still benefits with voting in it for the Rob and Lexi tribals. Evan's specifically had me not voting that way, so I knew where the group who voted with Evan would be voting next tribal and if I could potentially get them to vote my way. Claire's was a similar reasoning, but Maya voted her at the last minute. Rob's was not to solely single out Lexi, and Lexi's had a bigger move behind it. That round I attempting to(and successfully) flush out Nick's idol, so he wouldn't have a chance to use it against me at five. He had told me towards the deadline he was not going to play his idol like he did with how he was going to play it, I would have played my idol on Lexi and sent Nick home with the idol in his pocket. The benefits to it as well made me seem not as close with the people voting in majority, as well as decreased my threat level and made me seem not as aware or involved as I was.

You know as I was answering these questions and the voting deliberately wrong thing that keeps coming up, I answered it a bunch with different people with the benefits gamewise to not voting the right way. At the time I think I was able to justify it to myself and other people that there was strategic reasons behind it and it wasn't just to pretend to be ignorant and get a jury vote. But the more I do these questions and really do some soul searching thinking about why I didn't just say fuck it and vote the right way, because there are reasons for that too, I seem to keep coming back to the same thing

At the core of it, it wasn't just because of the game benefits, or jury votes, or keeping up the charade, it was because of me. I just straight up didn't want to vote that way. I didn't vote out the people I didn't vote because it was my vote, and I didn't want or have to write their name down if I didn't want to. I voted how I wanted because that's what I wanted to do, I know that's not good game, even to admit it, and it probably says a lot about me if I'm doing all this dirty work but then can't even bring myself to write these people's names down. So I just wanted to kind of say it publicly, even if it turns people off I just wanted to say it for myself as a sigh of not holding my breath on it anymore, and not a I DO WHAT I WANT, kind of thing. But it was just the conclusion and the truth that I kept coming back to.