That's Just How I Do/Confessionals

Day 34
"zahra"

- Aras is finally GONE ! Ah ah ! And now, my alliance can see the future in a good way. Final Five, baby, final Five. Awesome.

"zahra"

- I'm so fucking jazzed right now, can't believe I got out of that situation in such a good position.

Tate was full on going to vote for me, but he had to back down after he realized Aras was going home. This way, the Harry Truman alliance of Tate, Romain and I is still in tact, with another voting bloc of Anna, Brett and I. I know I'm not going home in this round, because of this fucking idol, but I also know that I'm the biggest challenge threat left and that everyone would be smart to vote me out at 4.

That's why, all I need to do this round is make sure that one of these 4 people won't flip against me at final 4. Then, my worst case scenario is a tie, which I know I can win.

Still, I really have to hope that Anna is being real with me and that she does want to take me to the final 2. I think she's afraid that I'll win FIC and take Tate or Romain to the end instead of her, which is exactly what I would fucking do.

"zahra"

- Tate's coming after me again. Looks like I'm the big target now, which is bullshit because 3/4 of the jury hates me. But whatever, I've got my idol and I think I have a good chance at winning the chall so I could give two shits about Tate. The dude is getting ejected soon enough.

Day 35
"zahra"

- I run the show since Day 1. Everybody here will follow me. I just hope that I'll not be robbed at Final Jury. Damn, I'm afraid about that. All the time.

Day 36
"zahra"

- Waiting for immunity results now. If Tate wins then I'll be forced to vote out Romain probably, which is just not ideal.

It's a little crazy, but I'm pretty sure Romain is trying to goat me? Which is so, so, so perfect. He thinks I'm overly aggressive and paranoid (which is I am!) and that I alienated the jury (which I did!), and most importantly, he thinks that he can beat me! Meanwhile, Anna, Tate, and probably Brett are considering me as the biggest threat. I think I'm somewhere in the middle, but this makes Romain indispensable. I need this dude around for the Final 4, because he won't turn on me. Maybe not because he's loyal, but because he believes that I'm the only person outside of Tate that he can beat.

He's so condescending to me and I'm just going to play it up, this is fanfuckingtastic.

"zahra"

- And then Tate wins LOL

Romain wants Anna gone, which is not an option for me so that ain't happening. I'm pretty sure that I'm in a position where Anna and I can decide between Brett and Romain being voted out.

It's a really hard decision, because Romain is such an optimal goat for me. Like, so fucking optimal. He can't beat me and he probably thinks that I can't beat him, it doesn't get more perfect than that. On the other hand, if Brett is voted out, I'm giving Tate the opportunity to flip Romain against me. It would be much more difficult for Tate to flip Brett against me at Final 4.

Gah, I can't keep Tate longer than Final 4 because if he wins the Final Immunity Challenge at Final 3 I go home, but without Romain OR Tate, I'm not 100% sure that I can win Final Tribal Council.

Tough choice.

"zahra"

- With Aras gone, it's a pretty even playing field as far as challenges are concerned. I've been working primarily with Tate and secondarily with Will--simply because they're the two people I like the most. Not very strategic, I know. But that's just how I do. With 5 players remaining, my ideal situation is to eliminate Romain next, but I feel like that's wildly unrealistic as he's the weakest player remaining and I need his help to keep Tate alive since Will and Anna are very distrustful of Tate. We'll see.

As the days go on, Will and Tate are becoming more and more adversarial towards one another--it's good for me and bad for me simultaneously. The good news is that I can count on them not working together so I can foster both relationships well. However, it's awful for me insofar as I'm going to have to choose one of these goobers to work with very soon. Tate wins the immunity challenge, just like he said he would, and I am thrilled about this because I know that Will won't be able to eliminate him and that he'll likely target Romain as the only viable option left.

Romain decides he wants to call shots at this point, though. Yikes. He comes to me saying "Hey it's Anna. This is how we're voting." Very pushy. And I don't understand. How is Anna threatening? She's won no challenges and she hasn't had a leadership role in things quite like Will has. We should be voting for Will. Tate agrees with me. Romain tells me that "Tate will make what I want him to make," (or rather he'll do what Romain wants him to do)--very interesting. Major faux pas for Romain here--he tells me that Tate and he have been tight since DAY ONE. Dude, what are you doing? You're not making me want to go to a Final 4 or 3 with you by telling me Tate and you are ride-or-dies. That was a terrible move. Tate tells me we have to deal with Romain because he's a Phillip Sheppard--understood. I can handle that.

A few hours later, Will comes to me telling me he has an idol, and I suddenly have a plan. Tate doesn't believe the idol is real because it looks just like his. I believe the idol is real because how many funky necklace pictures are these hosts actually going to sift through? I believe it's an idol, but I've never been one to play into idol paranoia. It's the most annoying thing ever. It dawns on me right then that I can eliminate the pushy Romain while keeping Tate in good faith if I can convince us to switch the vote to Will, who will play the idol on himself, sending Romain home. Will came to me asking if he should play the idol on me or himself. As I'm about to write Will's name down, I figure I'd tell him he should absolutely play it on himself and not me (this will help me perform damage control later when Will asks me why the fuck I voted for him). Tate helps me switch the vote from Anna to Will. Sure enough, Will's idol is, in fact, real, and Romain is eliminated 2-0.