Reinforces An Underdog Story/Confessionals

"aumakua"

- Claire had told me a while back that I am not her number one, and insinuated that neither was Maya. I knew that her number 1 had to be a hero, and even a hero on our “side,” so this left Sora and Evan. I know that Sora’s ride or die is nick, so that left one option. Getting out evan now allows claire to play an more independent game and right now I am selling to her that we play similarly, as in honest heroic players. Also the fact that i and playing up the fact that I was not that involved in the move to show that it had nothing to do with her. I hope this will allow me to work with Claire a little in the future to get our bigger threats

"aumakua"

- Yesterday was a turning point in the game.

Mackie is my only real ally in the game. Everyone one else is just a person I can join on a vote. I've told Mackie that telling everyone about the Black Pearl was a mistake before his name even came up as a target. We even fought about that a little.

He was being really defeated when his name came up. I restrained myself about calling him out again, I told him to take a step back which I think he did and to let me confirm the votes, and we succeeded in getting Evan out. Our position in the game just better itself by at least 50%. I think we positioned ourselves right in the middle and this is great.

I think Evan could have stayed if they would have really targetted Lexi instead of pathetically lied and have Lexi poorly acted the fact that she felt like she was going home.

Moving forward, I'd like to get rid of the people I have the least trust in: Lexi, Sora, Maya, Declan, Alexandra, Rob. (pretty much in that order).

I'd love a final four of Nick, Mackie, Claire and myself. For some reason this seems like such a powerful final 4. Like I've said before. I don't care about winning. I care about good times, great gameplay, entertainment and final 4. This final four would provide that in my opinion.

"aumakua"

- CHRISTINE IS HERE this is honestly the boost I needed after evan left I was feeling a little down but getting to talk to her was amazing and it makes me want to fight that much harder like I'm just so thankful lets keep this underdog arc going

"aumakua"

- First of all, yay Julia! I've never had a loved ones visit on any of my seasons, so I am totally pumped to have her. She was gone way too soon on Bali and her game doesn't get respected nearly enough. Also, I'm thinking a lot about where I want to go from here. The thing that I hoped would finally happen, the powers that be, turned on each other, which puts me in a newfound interesting position. The way everything is set up, I could easily play a swing vote, but that's a really tricky way to play the game. It feels as though the people playing the middle actually accidentally have a majority in this game now, simply because the big guns need the votes to pick one another off. I know that, despite what Rob says, he and Nick are really tight and they are definitely going to take each other to the end. Claire is a little upset with me for going with the Evan vote, but how could I not when that was the clear majority? I also think it would be good to keep some of these bigger targets around for a vote or two and get back under the radar.

"aumakua"

- Last vote was really shitty, I knew Evan was leaving and I was trying my hardest like I had in the past rounds to push it back more but it just got to a point where people weren't budging. I couldn't play my idol or try and flip the vote onto anyone else because that would have exposed my game to everyone and there's a good chance I would have been next.

So even though it was a shitty day, it got tremendously better once I saw the challenge with the loved ones. I'm not one for sap but seeing Brett come back from the dead to be my loved one, just made the whole experience for me so much better. I appreciated the gesture sooo freaking much like he really didn't have to go out of his way to do that, and the fact that he did and we got to fuck around in my chat about the game was awesome. I've had some really low lows in this game, but this was by far the best day yet here and even though he MAY HAVE SUBMITTED NOTHING. I really appreciate him for doing this for me and even though I may be in trouble this round, I'm okay with it cause this round for me personally has been so much more fun than the rest of the game.

"aumakua"

- Oh dang it, I'm slacking on confessionals again. So my last confessional was from before the last tribal. Obviously, Evan went. I knew he was getting votes, but I'm now playing it off like I only heard mine and Mackie's name. This way people continue thinking I'm out of the loop, and maybe I'll be included moving forward. So, the challenge was a loved one's puzzle! Omg, I'm so glad that Linus got to come see my confessional chat and like I can really talk to him about the game for a bit. I may be in an awful position, but Linus is always cheering for me and supporting me and saying how good I'm doing, and I appreciate him so much. I'm really excited we got to do this challenge together, and I'm even more excited that I got a faster time than him! Linus only did the puzzle twice, and he feels bad because instead of continuing to work on it to get a really good time, he started talking to other friends. But we won, so it's absolutely fine- and even if we didn't win, it was okay! I'm really happy to have immunity right now. After the past two tribal councils, I really needed some safety. This round, I don't know what is going to happen yet, but I know that it won't be me, and I'm content with that. <3

"aumakua"

- In Molise I waited until final 9 for my strategic game to truly take shape but it was very risky, people began to think I was a goat too much. I have shaped the perception of me being weak up to this point but I need to now begin moulding that weak perception and instead of seeming like a goat like I did in Molise, just make myself a lower level threat. I want to be able to remove all the jury threats in the last few tribals, hopefully by then I will have voted off all the immunity winners and will have the ability to win out from final 7 to the end!!

Lexi won immunity and it's kinda bullshit imo!! I got the lowest time but Nat didn't realise, I don't blame her at all because she's an amazing human, however immunity would've been nice. Lexi probably would've gone this tribal if she didn't win, I'm determined to get her out, she's an immunity threat and exposed her feelings towards me by voting me, she's really gonna regret that vote because I think she underestimates the influence that I have behind the scenes. The next time she isn't immune, I'm gonna gun for her, I need an immunity threat out the way and we have no real relationship.

Right now I'm continuing with my underground secret relationships and alliances. Sora and I really have pooled a lot of information together, I trust Maya a lot and Nick and I also have a little thing going!! Rob and I are now working together, as am I with Audrey and Mackie. Alexandra and I have been tight ever since David. That only really leaves Lexi and Claire, so I guess since Lexi is immune, Claire is my target. I've heard Alexandra is a target this tribal, Nick and Rob are apparently targeting her, but I want that to stop.

I have started to plant seeds of doubt about Claire with Mackie and Maya, two votes that would be crucial to get rid of Claire. Mackie and Claire have a secret alliance of some sorts (like the one she tried to make with me, hmm, but she did vote him last tribal, maybe they don't!! not sure haha) so I might have to leave him out of the loop!! However I did tell him that Claire tried to split Mackie and I up, which she did, she messaged me talking about how Mackie was untrustworthy. She also said Maya was a ""planner"" who needs to go, so I'm definitely going to share that with Maya. Sora right now is supporting getting rid of Alexandra, but I'm gonna really try to stop that and get Claire to be the target instead.

I'm feeling good about my position right now. Apart from Claire, Lexi and maybe Rob, I think I'm beneficial to absolutely everybody and very few people can actually see that. I hope it keeps on going, but Lexi better look out haha, she'll really regret voting me and then stealing that immunity away.

"aumakua"

- HvV2 Kinda Rant-2

"aumakua"

- Looks like Claire is safe!! I wanted her gone but this is a sacrifice I'll have to make, Claire and Lexi will be eliminated soon, I'm sure of that (watch this determination be my downfall haha) but right now they're unfortunately safe.

Sora wants Alexandra gone and so does Nick. I've been working very closely with these two behind the scenes and at this moment I have to appease them, I really do think I could cause a 5-4 vote and get Claire eliminated if I wanted but I'm not sure it's best for the long term. So, it looks like Alexandra will be eliminated.

This is great for me in some ways, despite it looking awful because Alexandra and I are closely aligned. I do always talk about Molise, I played a perfect game though and want to repeat my successes there!! I worked very hard to make sure everybody who went to jury was not angry at me. If Alexandra is eliminated (after her own plan backfires, I'll touch on this later!!) then I have what I assume to be a secured jury vote and no backlash. With Roisin and Jordan and Alexandra as 3 out of 4 of the first jurors, I think I could be set up quite well for the end game if I can then make it to final tribal council.

Alexandra came up with a split vote idea, it's awful and clearly not going to work, I thought after the Marie vote people would have learned that split votes in a fluid game don't work!! Of course Nick and Rob want to flip, and Audrey does too I've heard through Sora. Alexandra's plan is so flawed but she messaged everybody about it, I really tried to stop her but then it was suddenly the group's plan.

Mackie is apparently flipping now. He's unfortunately becoming a bigger and bigger target of mine, behind Lexi and Claire only. I'm almost certain he has something happening behind the scenes with Claire, but I guess he doesn't know I have the exact same thing with Sora and Nick haha. Quick respectful bit for both Sora and Nick, they're such great guys. Sora is a huge threat and I want to keep that around, if I lose immunity in the final stages of the game I want him there as an easy vote!! Nick is amazing too, his close relationship with Rob worries me and I want to split that up, but Nick on his own is really amazing.

Getting rid of Alexandra will mean I'll have to vote in the minority again but I'm ok with that. Voting in the minority reinforces an underdog story that I want to show to the jury and it means that Sora, Nick and I can control a lot of the information happening. The only information we don't really control at the moment is Mackie, so if he is eliminated then I guess we might even control everything. I'm sure there's a lot of stuff we don't know about haha but at the moment I'm feeling quite secure!! I just hope it's not arrogance before an elimination, it definitely could be.

"aumakua"

- About one hour before the merge and its hectic. Ali knows shes a target now and wants to flip it on Mackie or Audrey. At first I was cool with Ali leaving if it meant the idol left with her. In my eyes, the four biggest players left for me to beat are Sora, Nick, Ali, and Mackie- the goal is for one of them to leave this time. I need this big names out so I have a chance in the end. If Ali wants to flip it to Mackie, I can get Sora on board and we can make a move! If not, I want one of those 4 gone.

"aumakua"

- So the vote goes from between me and Sora to me telling Ali to it going to Ali vs Audrey and personally I wanted to throw my vote I love em both and then 5 minutes before the vote I hear mackie is getting voted and I was kinda in denial cause I didn't want to believe it but this vote was so fucking crazy that I went from getting votes with the chance of getting out to being part of a great move to stay

"aumakua"

- The strength and blessing from the patron saint of bad decisions Brett Ross has blessed me with the power of somehow not being in a shit position even after my supposed closest ally leaves the round prior lol

So with Brett in the game, my wild side has come out a bit and originally I was planning on getting the votes on Lexi or Claire and idoling one of them to send a big threat home. But now shit has changed immensely.

Claire me and Lexi are sort of a defecto minority trio, but Lexi and Claire aren't close and it's basically connected through me. Maya and Declan also wanted to make amends with me and form a final 3 which I accepted. and then Rob and Nick made an official final 3 with me as well. So when I hear Ali wants to split the votes I'm like good job girl have fun in your own grave. Audrey and Mackie want to flip too so it's allll good.

THEN out of nowhere, Claire exposes this to Ali and shit goes south and suddenly she's after Audrey and Mackie. I don't want Audrey out but Mackie I'd feel bad over (ish). So now Audrey vs Ali is commencing, buuuuuttt mr. Rob who also was saying he wants my idol flushed this round, comes to me and is like let's do Mackie. 4-3-3 he's gone. No Claire or Nick or anyone to fuck it up now and it's done. So now I'm legit the swing vote unless Ali just goes ahead and votes Audrey. I can get out Ali who is a mess and is all over the place, or Mackie who is a huge threat and a burden to my game. I'm actually hysterical that this somehow happened