Consider This My Farewell/Confessionals

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- I KNEW IT! I guess its better that Tyler took the fall than me, but my game is essentially over and i am so freaking upset. Ting Ting is such a swamp monster I can honestly barely stomach talking to her right now. Everything she is saying is so transparent and SUCH a lie, but Im obviously in absolutely no position to call her out on it. Im just being fake back and thanking her for keeping me, but we'll see how that goes. Tomorrow will consist of me absolutely scrambling to stay relevant and going SO hard in the challenge. I have been so so incredibly invested in this game over the course of the summer that I am NOT giving up just yet. I have never had to scramble once so far and tomorrow you all will see the reason for that... (spoilers: its bc i suck at it) ""kelapapantat"

- Scrambling is going better than I thought but I am still not hopeful. Because I was the only one who was honest with Max when he was on the outs, he is showing me the same honesty. He said that Ting him and Nadine essentially have a final 3 deal, and that I'd be next to go since I'm a bigger threat than Danielle.

Listen to what I hit him with, though. Ting Ting wins the end game with him 8-0-0. She just does. Would I like her as a winner? No, not at all. Would I vote for her? Omfg of course ew. However, Hannah, Elmo, Jenna, and Alexandra all ""hate"" me so going to the end with me would be much safer. He knows I am genuine since I have no other options.

Also, he is convinced it is a final 2 because of the day numberings. Fine, I can deal with that. Well guess what, Max? Danielle and I would want to bring each other, and the brain girls would want to be each other. So if youre so convinced it is a final 2, YOUD have to win final immunity. Do you have a better chance against Danielle and I (2 individual challenge wins combined) or Ting and Nadine (6). HMMM I honestly am not counting myself out of it yet, especially since its honestly in Max's best interest to flip "						""kelapapantat"

- So here I am scrambling and I realize I shouldn't even need to be scrambling smh here is a list of reasons why Max should vote Ting out along with Danielle and I:

1. Ting Ting will beat him and Nadine 8-0-0 (this alone should be enough lol, I'd beat him too I assume but NOT by that margin) 2. Max is convinced it is a final 2, or voting off a jury member, (which I agree with) and he KNOWS whichever duo (brawn or brain) that he ends up in final 3 with will take each other to the final 2. This means he needs to win FIC and cant have a challenge beast (TING TING) in the final 3. SMH 3. Ting Ting/Nadine has voted for Max and would've voted him on Ayung as well. 4. I want him to :/ 5. I am the person who can beat Ting Ting later on in a challenge 6. Theres a 0% chance of me lying since I have no other options. 7. The jury does NOT like Danielle and I 8. He cant claim the Tyler vote as a move unless he sits next to people who weren't in on it 9. He needs another move to make any sort of argument at the end and a back to back flip would help his case 1000% "						"kelapapantat"

- Well since last tribal actually worked out, and my plan to blindside Tyler worked I'm now in a swing vote position, Nadine/Ting Ting want me to vote out David, and David/Danielle want me to vote out Ting Ting. That is unless I'm being played by everyone and I'm going 4-1. I'm planning to vote what my best interest is and I believe by voting out the person I'm going to, that it'll give me my best chance at making it to the end with the people I want to be with. All I can say is that tribal will be a surprise for someone no matter what the outcome. "kelapapantat"

- Wow I am very impressed with myself that I got it to tie. I already know people will praise Nadine for "calling us out" but tbh the real praising should be towards my response :) I am so shocked that I called it how it was to the entire tribe. I had to in order to solidify things with max and be viewed as honest as possible. I truly believe the revote will go in my favor but if not I will be at peace knowing I went down doing so much extra shit

Final 4
"kelapapantat"

- I can't believe I'm still here. It's not that surprising for them to see Ting as the threat she was, but I was in such trouble after the Tyler blindside. I said at final 9 that the winner of the game would definitely be Tyler me Alexandra or Ting, and I'm the only one left of them four!! If I can get to FTC I truly think I win, but Nadine is trying to start some movements here. Let's see who wins immunity, if anyone but Nadine does I will be ecstatic "kelapapantat"

- So I am at the point where if Nadine loses this challenge, I am the frontrunner for the win. She is viewed as a bigger threat than me, though I would gladly go up against her in the end honestly. If she does not win, I am 90% sure she will be final juror, at which point I am 80% sure I win the FTC. If she wins immunity, there is probably a 40% chance I'd go home, but a 60% I can beat her, and whoever else is there, in FTC. I already screwed up the endurance challenge but I am really hoping I can pull through on the others "kelapapantat"

- Damn I am so paranoid right now "kelapapantat"

- I lost FINAL IMMUNITY by ONE POINT in the MANGA MAKEOVER!! If I got 1 point higher in ANY category, from ANY judge, I would be tied for immunity :( >:( If I go home tonight, I will be SO sad. I blame Max and Danielle for doing awful on the puzzle :( I need Danielle to stick by my side this is so important. I can go to fire, but Max better be going home tonight. I'm not that scared to face Nadine in the end, I just want to get there and see what I can do... this really really sucks right now "kelapapantat"

- If Danielle didn't submit for the endurance challenge just like she didn't for the others, I would have tied Nadine... this will keep me up at night if I go home "kelapapantat"

- Well today might finally be my last time here. Danielle told me she was down for voting David, and I've mended bridges with Nadine after voting out Ting Ting last tribal. As soon as Nadine won Immunity, both me and David knew it was one of the two of us leaving. I've spoken to both Danielle and Nadine, and both are claiming to be voting David, but I know they could easily be telling the David the same thing. I'm not sure how the vote will go, it could be a tie or 3-1, we'll see, but I truly think I've got a really good shot to win if I just make it past this tribal council! "kelapapantat"

- OMFG... so i thought i was DONESO (and i still might be) after my iconic Canada Cathy mangatar got ROBBED. BUT enter Danielle and Nadine PLAYING GAMES. They truly think MAX MIGHT BE MORE DIFFICULT TO BEAT THAN ME. I have spent all day lying. Literally all day. Elmo and Jenna have "blocked on FB", Alexandra "told me she wont vote for me", Tyler is "closer with Danielle than she is with me", and finally, the biggest lie, I would "vote for max if im on the jury". I am just acting like I am a sad child eager to finally make FTC even if i dont have a chance, but little do they know I would WERK the jury the best I can. This is where it gets interesting... Nadine proposed to Danielle that they force Max and I to make fire (omg) and then I told DNAIELLE (IM SCREAMING) that she should say she is voting me to force fire AND VOTE MAX. I was like "hahahah jk" (clearly not joking of course) and Danielle said it would be pretty iconic and she is CONSIDERING. AHHHHHH!!!!. Even if it goes to fire, I AM HAPPY AND WILL SLAY HIM. I just cant get voted out 3-1 please God. This confessional sucks I'm sorry but a lot of scrambling is going on rn PRAYERS PLEASE "kelapapantat"

- Hey everyone, consider this my farewell post :( I am devastated to say that I am going home in a 3-1 vote almost certainly. Obviously it's the right move for them since I played 10x better than them combined, but it hurts to have come this far. I voted out my friends for this. It all made sense at the time cause I thought it would let me get to FTC. To come this short and have robbed my best friends for nothing is really disappointing and humiliating for me. I love this season so much, and just want the winner to be satisfying. Unfortunately without me, there is no possible satisfying ending. I'm not trying to be conceited but I am the only one who actually played this game. I don't value any of their games and view them as three of the worst players in the merge. Danielle never had a strategic thought and only voted whoever we told her (but at least she was included) Nadine was the most clueless person in the cast and seemed so disingenuous in all of our conversations. Max sucks for obvious reasons I don't need to explain. My only hope now is that Danielle realizes she will lose no matter what and decides to give her ally a chance over her enemy. Likely won't happen since she is so unaware and not really all that good of a person. I miss the old players. I want Jenna. I want Alexandra. I want tyler. These people suck and it's not fun anymore or exciting... bye everyone :(