He Learned to Adapt Around It/Confessionals

Day 31
"watubela"

- I am so pissed off right now. Eddie f*cking swore not to play the idol, and he did just that! So now I'm left on my own with only Natalie and Topher to drag to FTC. And Eddie told me he wanted to go to the finals with me, but I think it would be best to stick with the inactives.

ALSO Eddie told me that Sam was the one telling the Villains everything, which I blamed Sole for this whole time. So I'm not as upset as I would normally be. He also told me she told him everything, even her plotting to vote him out. Also that she was sh*t-talking me earlier in the game, so I would say good riddance, but I still lost an ally.

"watubela"

- YES! I can't believe my plan worked!! I told Eddie at the last second to play his idol on Sam and he did it!! Now both the idol and my biggest threat are gone and I have no blood on my hands! All I have to do now is make sure a villain and Topher leave in the next two Tribals! That way, I can make sure I'm in the Final Four with Andrei, Luke and Natalie. As soon as Andrei and I are in the F4 I think there's a strong chance of the both of us getting to the F2. If we're both in the F4, the worst that could happen is a tie-break which Andrei or myself will face off against Luke or Natalie and I think we stand a great shot at winning that.

My only concern, long-term, is my jury likeability. I've appeared socially and strategically weak throughout this entire game so there are a few problems I'd encounter at the FTC. 1 - would people believe I made the moves I have made and 2 - will they respect my gameplay enough to beat out a super well-liked player like Andrei. I need to appear strong and keep this game on lock until the F4 and then it should be smooth sailing. For now, Eddie, Adam, Miguel and Topher/Natalie/Luke have to go home!

I need to keep my eye on the prize!

"watubela"

- Today, I am serving good news, bad news, and a touching heart to heart.

The bad news is Sam got Idol’d out by Eddie… After I warned her that she would take the fall if that little pig was lying to her. I knew he was not trustworthy, but hey… She never once listened to my insight about this game so that makes the pill easier to swallow. I do feel bad because I like her, and she did not deserve to be played like that and taken for an idiot… And more importantly, she did not deserve to go before freaking Topher. At the same time, she did have a few opportunities to get rid of him so… There’s nothing I could’ve done for her.

The good news is Natalie won the Reward, which means we’re getting yet another clue. According to hers, all the men in the sequence are stuck together, which means all 4 guys are at the end. Helpful, but it still gives us a lot of options.

On another note, I have a newfound respect for Luke. Adam showed him screenshots of me saying Luke floated during our first season and may have been manipulated by Sam, and he confronted me about everything. And I do believe this to be true, and up until that point, I had a hard time respecting him as a player because his jury performance in png was basically him trying to please everyone when really he had nothing to prove thanks to his underdog status. Now, he has a broader understanding of the game, he doesn’t have anything to prove, and while he still does get nervous and neurotic a little too often, that’s just part of his personality and it’s not going to change, but he learnt to adapt around it. He explained to me why he knowingly rode Sam’s coattails, and I am reassured that he’s taken the time to explain that to me instead of letting Adam poison our relationship. One detail did not escape my attention, however: Adam made a point of asking him not to share that information with me, so I am definitely onto his cute little ass. The mind games he’s been playing are pretty impressive, and I know I can no longer talk to him about this game as a friend, because whenever anyone talks to him, anything they say can and will be used against them.

Day 32
"watubela"

- So Eddie tried his ass off to flip me, and I just went with it and told Adam. This way the Villains don't target me. Miguel also offered me an alliance with him and Adam, which I also accepted. Natalie somehow found out, so I told all the Heroes that the Villains are trying to flip me, but are being unsuccessful. I told them I'll just go with it to get information. Apparently they want Andrei out.

In other news, this reward challenge is legitimately the worst challenge ever. I'm just gonna submit an awful score ^__^.

"watubela"

- So Natalie shockingly won reward and shared the idol clue with the Heroes. Damn, did it narrow down the possibilities by a lot. Also Andrei told me that Sole heard from the Villains that I'm willing to vote him next. Luckily Andrei claims that both him and Sole know I'm bullsh*tting the Villains.

I think I know what our next challenge is, and I'm more ready than ever for it. I think I might actually win this one.

"watubela"

- So Adam attempted to turn me against Andrei by sending me screenshots of Andrei talking sh*t about me. He made me promise not to tell anyone, but once again I found a Lukehole. I talked to Andrei and debunked everything he said about me in the screenshots, then finally told him that "one of the Villains" told me he was talking sh*t about me. Andrei did confirm it, but said it's cleared now that we talked it through. He also said he wanted to go to the final three with me, so I guess that's good. I've been thinking everyone through and debating how I'd do against them in FTC.

Adam and Miguel are out of the question. They would beat me unanimously. Good social players with an underdog story, no chance.

Eddie is kind of a no-no. He's got a lot of friends on the Jury and Jury members to be. BUT a lot of people do hate him.

I think Natalie and Topher are my best bets. Natalie is my closest ally as of now, and neither of them have really done much.

Sole I might be able to beat. Solely due to his mysteriousness that might turn people off. Also I don't really think he's done much.

Andrei I also might have a chance against, because a lot of Jury members hate him. I think it'll be a close vote, though.

One thing's certain, I want no Villains in FTC.

"watubela"

- Eddie’s presence is more than I can stand right now. We had a giant argument that started after I made a passive-aggressive comment about the fact that he got his Idol through very shady means. I saw him vote out people like Aly and Jessy who he claims to be so close to, when he had that idol to save them… But instead he decided to use it to fuck over a friend, and while Sam claims she believes he got his Idol fair and square, there is no convincing me that he found it with no exterior help. He had a 1 in 10 billion shot at finding it on his first try, and maybe if he was not that desperate for attention, relevance, validation and drama, and if I felt like he had been genuine with me at any point throughout this game when he acted nicely to me, I would believe his story… But he’s holding onto his lie. And you know, if Alfons could lie about his identity for 2 straight years, I don’t see why Eddie couldn’t lie about this Idol for a couple more weeks. It just sucks that it puts the hosts in a position where they couldn’t have done anything about that idol without proof, and Eddie wouldn’t sacrifice a second in the “spotlight” that he thinks playing this game is giving him to show a little bit of integrity.

This did not really affect me too much though: I said my piece, let it all out, and I’m willing to deal with him until one of us is voted out. Now, the interesting thing that came out of this argument is that Adam told him

Day 33
"watubela"

- So I threw the challenge because I was too tired. I'm hoping Adam wins so we can vote Eddie off, because I don't want to have to deal with Eddie's complaints afterwards. I'm so happy Andrei lost the challenge, because the Villains' target is vulnerable. So in case of idols, that's a good thing.

"watubela"

- Well I'm pissed that the mods couldn't have planned out the chance there'd be a tie in this 24 hour challenge. Instead they made an executive decision to continue and I could never have been able to continue because of my life outside of this game.

In terms of this vote, Adam would have been going home had he not won immunity but instead it's going to be Eddie. He's too chaotic and he's the villain who would least likely work with me to get Topher out soon. The vote should go down 5-3 for Eddie but there's a risk Topher will self-vote making it 4-4 in which case eddie will still go home 4-2 in the tie-break.

From the villains' perspective, Luke and I are flipping making it 5-3 for Topher. If Luke doesn't flip but Topher self votes, it's still 5-3. If Luke doesn't flip and Topher doesn't self vote, then Andrei 'won't go to rocks for him'. It's a perfect plan so I hope it all works out.

After this round, I would like either Adam or Topher to go.

"watubela"

- The challenge was torture. I had micro-naps of 20 minutes in which I ended up dreaming that I missed the minute twice… And it ended up really happening. I’m embarrassed to lose a challenge in which we had to handle big poles, but hey… at least I got a nice hour of sleep or so after that.

While Adam was busting his ass out on this challenge, Eddie must have been licking it to keep Adam awake, because he didn’t even attempt to get a pole going.

When we reached the deadline, it turned out that the hosts did not expect any of us to last 24 hours… So there was no tiebreaker planned. The news was not received with enthusiasm, to say the least. Dan was pretty angry, and I can understand that; he spent 24 hours of his life at his computer only for the hosts to tell him to keep going… I mean, we all want to win but it’s not like we don’t have anywhere else to be. We don’t even make money off this…

Adam took immunity and gracefully announced that he wouldn’t vote for Dan, which kind of made me cackle and roll my eyes because he definitely was not going to do it anyways. Eddie soon co-signed, which was to be expected. Now, Adam conveniently neglected the fact that I spent 13 hours on my pole while a bunch of people did not even start it, but you know, I don’t expect him to be consistent.

My ass is on the line now, and it’s going to come to down to whether Eddie was given the sequence to the merge idol or if the hosts had the common sense to change it.