Board Thread:Season 44: Costa Rica/@comment-28848947-20171215212909/@comment-27992076-20171215225011

'''Thank you for your speech! I always welcome criticism, because nobody is perfect, and I always aim to improve myself as a player in the future. '''

Communication is definitely a 2 way street, and it's very hard to expect that after attempting to vote you out twice in premerge that we would still become all best buddies living a happily ever after life. I'm going to admit that it's very difficult, and there's will always going to be a level of distrust between us two. Even you would struggle answering the same question if our roles were reversed, me sitting in the jury asking you the same question. You would probably be like "Well, you tried to vote me out twice, how can I even trust you?" I feel pretty much the same exact way sadly.

At the time, I felt like trying to be your best friend after all of that is going to feel fake on a whole new level and would just put even bigger target on my back. And I'm not that kind of person who would attempt to be fake to someone.

I am also very well aware that my social game will always be somewhat lacking. I am extremely antisocial in real life, and it's very difficult for me to be outgoing and friendly to every single players. Nevertheless, I put in all of my effort to get out of my comfort zone and attempt to make small talks to people, knowingly I would completely sucks at it. The important thing is that I still need to prove to other people that I am at least trying my best. People would constantly talk about awesome and cool stuff about life, etc. and I would always struggle trying to keep up the conversation going and it's very frustrating when people criticize my flaws for something I can't help with. Activity is also a huge factor. You have to remember that I was working 60 hours a week for the majority of Merge. Criticize me all you want on my activity level, but I will bet you 20 dollars that if anybody was working as hard and as long as I do, they wouldn't even come close to being as active as I was.

I would sometimes open up my phone and look at the messages, then whenever my boss walk by, I have to immediately put it away, making people think I left them on read, which is sadly true, but I can't always be able to reply without risking my job.

As for the Legacy Advantage: I did not waste the advantage, I just simply found it useless, I could only play it at either Final 12 and Final 6. When I found out that there was rumors going around that I have the advantage, I knew that I have to flush it out. People are just going to start targeting me out of paranoia of the advantage, and that's the last thing I want for my game. I asked myself if it's even worth having it? I would have to survive Final 11, 10, 9, 8, and 7 tribals with the advantage paranoia going around then just use it on Final 6, which I don't think I would ever need it. The way final 6 turned out, I definitely did not need it.

Did I flush it? Yes. Was it a bad move on my part? Definitely not.

'''Did I orchestrated your blindside? '''No. I would like to apologize if I misworded what I said in my speech. Initially people were considering of getting rid of Ry. What I did was simply try my best to convince Layla and couple of others that there are bigger fish to fry. Mentioning your name as the prime example. Then when your name somehow appear shortly after I mentioned your name. I was all down for it, but I didn't try to get everyone to vote you out. I believe that I implanted the idea of voting you out to the people that orchestrated your blindside.

Now moving on to answer your questions! Sorry if I was just nitpicking on few things you say, I just want everything to be honest and true based on how I perceived the game.

'''Bearing in mind what I've said above, give me an analytical strategic move that was all your own that you made in this game. I don't want the fluff, just the peanut butter.'''

The one move that I made that was definitely all mine was the final 7 tactic to give 3 people a majority against the four and blindsiding Nadine.

At the time, I was in a final 5 alliance with Joanna/Nadine/Jon/Rhys. Joanna wanted us five to vote out Ry. She then proceed to tell everyone that she sent in her vote and will not come back until 24 hours later. '''That's a single vote locked on Ry. '''

Jon and Rhys wanted to blindside Joanna and discussed it with Nadine. Nadine decided to tell me immediately and also told me the fact that Jon and Rhys does not want to tell me until few hours before the votes are in. That basically tells me that Jon/Rhys/Nadine are a lot closer to each others than they are with me. If they were so willing to cut off Joanna, they would do it with me as well. That's when I knew I have to take down that alliance somehow.

Ry and Hesh came on the last few hours, and was talking about voting out Joanna making it 6-1. I told them that I came up with much smarter plan, and a sneakier one. '''Knowing that in an event of a tie, Joanna and Nadine cannot revote. '''I came up with a way that would give me Ry and Hesh 3 person majority in final 7, which is pretty hard to pull off.

I told them that we can vote Nadine this tribal, forcing a 3-3-1 vote. Joanna and Nadine '''cannot revote. We get 3-2 majority''' and Nadine was as good as gone.

After sharing this plan, they were so down for it. We then discussed briefly if we should do the same exact plan but do it to Rhys instead, but decided in the end that Nadine was a much better target.

If you were a character in Nickelodeon's Back at the Barnyard, who would you be and why?

Freddy. I can really relate with him so much being tempted to eat chicken because I love eating chicken so much, but at the same time you can't because they are also your best friend. I know it's like a simple but weird metaphor that I could relate to in real life. Thank you so much for bring that nostalgia back. It made me want to rewatch the whole movie again!