Messy Sons Of Bitches/Confessionals

Day 10
"phaluai"

- We have now reached the stage in the game which I went home on Archetypes. 19th place; something I do not want a repeat of. All I can do is keep my social game up, even on these ignorant little rats. I can definitely see Nathan's social game shining through and that's going to have to be dealt with at some point. I am so happy Chris and Eva survived and to hear paranoia was a reason Kons got sent home is not surprising but helps me understand that that paranoia is something to keep in confessionals and outside of conversation with others.

"samsao"

- Clifford really does have a big mouth. He releases information like crazy. He told Kos something about me and Clifford fighting for Kos to stay in the game but that Jace was the problem. This is probably based on the convo me and Clifford had last night. But it's also a lie. Then he tells the whole alliance that he was offered a final 2 with Kos AND that he had already privately told Jace. Now, this isn't a huge deal, but people always say loose lips sink ships.... anndddd his might just be sinking in the near future. (but likely not before Annabelle's)

"samsao"

- So they plan to get rid of Kostas worked out nearly perfectly. The only issue was Kostas getting paranoid, trying to stir up trouble in the tribe, and voting for Clifford. Either way it was still a 10-1 and no one is believing Kostas' dumb bullshit. Now there the challenge of winning individual immunity to guarantee myself safety at this vote. I want to just play these boring games all day long to keep racking up points because I know tomorrow I wont be able to do anything.

"phaluai"

- look at me taking charge in the alliance chat. I DO NOT WANT TO BE A FOLLOWER🙂🙂

"samsao"

- I decided to take advantage of the info Kos gave me about Clifford telling him things (whether it was true or not) and bring it to Jace. Clifford is already sounding like he's annoyed that Jace gets his way, so I figured it would be smart to fuel the fire on the other side too. I don't want Clifford around too long, and if Jace wants Cliff gone, he will get rid of Cliff just like he did Kos. So Jace now knows he was potentially used as a scapegoat by Clifford to save his own butt. I told Jace we should be careful with Clifford. I am attempting to slowly start a war between the two to protect me later down the road and to get rid of one of my threats. Even though this info was't major, I think it will place a little doubt in Jace's mind about Clifford. Me and Jace discussed the target for next tribal and went with Anna Belle. I let Jace bring it up when Clifford asked what we should do. Him bringing it up might make Clifford keep thinking Jace is getting his way. I don't expect anything to happen between them soon, but at least I have more to play with when the time comes.

"samsao"

- MY RICE GAME THING RANDOMLY RESET MY RICE AMOUNT AND NOW I HAVE TO DO ALL THOSE FUCKIN QUESTIONS OVER BECAUSE I'M A DUMBASS AND FORGOT TO SAVE I'M GONNA PUNCH A TABLE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

In other news, the vote was unanimous, which I'm sure is VERY exciting. I would've loved to have a more conflicting vote but Konstantinos was just toooooo much. So anyway, the majority alliance I'm in wants to target the remaining three players left out, aka Chris, Julia, and Annabelle. The want to go for Annabelle first which is kind of okay with me since I don't talk with her much at all. However, going for Chris and Julia is kind of concerning. They've not shown me any reason yet to go back on them, and I've played with them the longest this season so I do feel a bond with them. Not to mention I genuinely enjoy talking to them. I sure have an easier time talking to them than I do Taylor and Maya. I would love to rock the boat and lead Julia and Chris out of this but, the other five in the alliance are so tight nit that we won't be able to overtake them even if we wanted, because I doubt they'll budge. Plus, Chris is a pretty crafty player so as much as I hope he wants to work with me, he might use my info to join that majority and flip the vote on me.

We're going to tribal no matter what because of the double tribal, so I guess I should be glad that we have Annabelle as a target, because hopefully we swap after this and Chris and Julia stay safe until the merge so I can use their help. As far as individual immunity goes, I don't really feel like I have to win because I feel like I'm close enough with Yannick and Jace where at least one of them would tell me. I'm aiming to go for a middle range score (hopefully) so that I can prove that I'm still a challenge asset for challenges (in the case that we don't swap) and that I won't be looked at as a threat challenge wise.

ALSO I TYPED THAT CONFESSIONAL 30 MINUTES AGO AND DIDN'T SEND IT SO I JUST WANTED TO INFORM YOU THAT MY RICE THING JUST RESET AGAIN UGHHHH

"samsao"

- So I Should Explain the Kos Thing

I didn't want to vote off Eva because I was able to use her to get a message to Jake, whether or not she gave it to him, I don't know. But it was worth a shot. I need to think of the future of my game which means knowing who to trust and not trust, who I can work with and not work with.

Kos was going to be a unanimous vote and everyone lied to him. I had such a huge problem with Kos being the vote when Eva came over to our tribe. Let me explain. Yes, I wanted Eva to stay but the fact that no one took the time to even discuss her as an option had me very worried. Jace said jump and the entire tribe asked how high. The alliance doesn't have my longterm game in mind and I figured that out through the method they chose to decide this vote, which was basically a dictatorship, and no roadmap going forward.

The difference between a voting bloc and an alliance is that a voting bloc works together for ""now"" where an alliance works together for ""the future"". Sugar & Spice is nothing but a glorified voting bloc under the guise of an alliance.

Yannick has disengaged privately and Jace is in everyone's ear. I don't have control on this tribe.

The reason why people wanted Kos out was because he's untrustworthy and will throw anyone under the bus. I had a good read on Kos so I did some idol guessing with him this morning and warned him that he was going. But he was put in a situation where he felt either I was lying or the whole tribe was lying. It didn't matter either way because I just needed him to scramble and he did.

The lie I told Kos was that me, Taylor, and Chris were fighting for him to stay and lost the fight. I also said that I had a fight with Jace over the decision and really sold myself on being the only honest person to him. Which wouldn't buy me much but it bought me enough that he caused some fear and paranoia and targeted me on the way out.

If you're going to be a target, it's best to be the target of someone who's about to be snuffed. I really didn't mind him dragging my name under the bus and here's why.

In order for me to go deep in this game, I need to be weaker. I took the lead on the Erin vote and pulled off the blindside without a hitch. With the swaps, relationships are getting more complicated. I'm going to have to do a little bit of grave digging. I know it's risky but the tribe needs to believe I'm weak and overly emotional when it comes to conflict/confrontation so they can put themselves in a position to console me, control me, manipulate me, etc. A good lion loves a good gazelle. Risks will have to be taken in order for me to go as far as I want to go so I'm going to have to pull out an old dirty trick and do some damage to my own character to discredit me.

I pulled this trick off in my first game with Eva and she ate me alive in her during speech (this was on another org). So I know she'll see my bullshit. I can pull this off on this tribe, with these people, because they don't know any better, the moment I get to another swap, I'm going to be a free agent. I have no loyalty to anyone in this game at this moment because my gut tells me no one has loyalty to me.

So then, once I got Kos worked up, I went over to the alliance, all frazzled like, and told them all the lies I told Kos, but through the narrative that those were things he told me. I also made up a few more lies. I sent Jace a fake quote form Koz about Jace trying to target me, which put Jace into a new gear of having to comfort me and appease any potential nerves.

Jace likes calling the shots and being ""the guy"". I also know from Yannick beforehand that he is blunt so he appreciates my straight up ""honesty"". He's smart enough to have his doubts about me but won't make his move yet.

Going to tribe members to ""vent"" shows them trust. Telling my alliance the lies that Kos said to me and then him going around sharing the same lies once again proves my honesty. I needed to give context as to why Kos would be mad at me/doubt me so I said that we had a Final 2 deal that I didn't agree to and he freaked out.

I really like Kos as a dude but as a player he is very predictable which made him useful to me on the way out.

Everyone is quiet now which can be a good or bad thing but I'm not scared and I'm not mad. I go into every move I make with the confidence that I can pull it off and if I don't pull it off, I have the confidence that I can fix it.

I just need to make it to another swap and it's a whole new game.

Until then, I'm going to have to throw Annabelle under the bus and then use Julia, Chris and hopefully Yannick or Pris to blindside Jace.

Let's have some fun.

"samsao"

- So the plan now is to get rid of Annabelle. I am hoping that she doesn't win immunity because honestly I don't know what we would do if she won it. I'm making my rounds going to the alliance outsiders, filling them in on the plan. Hopefully we have yet another unanimous vote, ensuring the calm before the storm of the next swap/merge.

"samsao"

- Julia wants to make an alliance of myself, Maya, her, and Chris. Of course I am going to accept, but it makes me nervous by aligning myself with the minority while I am in the majority. Hopefully we do not continue to lose, but if we do I think I am considering making a move against Cliff since he makes me nervous. I could make use of this new alliance, and then get Taylor and Priscilla involved. I would feel terrible leaving Yannick out, but I think Cliff is his closest ally and I can't expose it to him.

Right now, though, I need to focus on the Annabelle vote. She's the only person I'm not in any alliance with so I am completely fine with getting people against her. Basically what I am doing is bringing up how she's super quiet, and also is preoccupied with 2 other orgs that she is currently in. I like her a lot, but for my game she needs to go.

"phaluai"

- So I'm in a good spot, Julez wanna work with me, same with Alietta, Samsao wanna stick together, Jenna is my N1 rn, and we have been watching our options, Im close with Julez now and she has told me that Rhi and Nathan are loyal with her, which is good for Jenna and I bc we want to work with Nathan and Julez, we also want to keep Eva and Sim bc we need to keep our numbers and both of them are, Eva is close to Rhi so it's easy, Julez told me that, her, Jenna, Rhi, Nathan, Eva and I could be a good alliance, I agreed, and Jenna and I think it's our best move but we would need to protect Alietta and Sim, Jake is a easy boot rn for me, we haven't talked that much, So I feel in a decent spot Im afraid that Jake might win immunity bc Sim and Alietta are gonna be hard to save, but I'm just playing to have my numbers correctly and Im gonna keep checking my options.

"samsao"

- I'm kinda getting the feeling that I won immunity LMAO. Everyone is like ""omg my score keeps reseting, I'm barely at 5,000 etc etc"" while I submitted 20k. HOPEFULLY people on the other tribe blasted my score out of the water so my score isn't the highest overall and puts a bigger target on my back.

Also, I spoke to Maya about potentially taking out Clifford the next time we lose because I trust her immensely. She said she was down with that. I said we need to keep it completely locked down until we lose though, because if we end up swapping without attending tribal again that could majorly screw up the trust this group has with one another.

"phaluai"

- Jenna states she has no alliance last night which I don't believe in the slightest. I know her an Miguel are friends and also her with Eva. However, she mentioned working with me which is something I am going to need if we head to tribal. As for now, I am not sure who I want gone but maybe I should let other people take lead with this vote. This decreases how much of a threat I am if it looks like I am a follower and not a leader. Let people think they can tell me what to do.

"phaluai"

- Not shocked to see that Konstantinos got on a few peoples nerves for that vote, he’s a really nice guy and he means well, but I don’t think he grasps he can be a little awkward to talk to sometimes... Hope he didn’t take it too personally though cause as I say, he is actually a really nice guy. (Eva survived though so that’s a huge positive)

Day 11
"phaluai"

- I lose immunity and I am like wow...Julez snatching the win out of no where I was like damn girl. I've decided that I want Sim to leave. I have no game connection with him, he's the person I've bonded with least, he's inactive. Clueless to the tribe in sense of challenges. I am just very way of idols. I knew Jenna/Miguel/Eva were probably aligned but forgot to consider they were also on a tribe with Sim. Bonding with Rhi over out mutual feeling of feeling unsafe, she suggested pulling our old tribes together to get out Sim and I am down for it. It's who I want gone. I just need to be very careful because I am thin ice rn, especially when Jenna wants her and her allies to work with me.

"samsao"

- So Clifford is really starting to sketch me out. I feel like he is going to try and make a move to save Annabelle, and if he does I hope he knows that he is drawing a deep line in the sand.

"phaluai"

- well it looks like Sim is leaving. He didn't listen to what I had to say so I honestly don't feel bad. His own fault tbh. Maybe he'll find the idol

"samsao"

- Jace is running this tribe. Simple. He has his hand in everyone's basket and is not afraid to let people know where he wants the vote to go. What he does is quite brilliant actually he'll come to someone and say "I've heard a few people say they want Insert name here out" It's actually brilliant as you can't argue with the majority when really it's just what he wants. As of right now he's targeting people I have no trust in. First Koz now Annabelle. However if at the next vote he decides "the majority wants Priscilla or Clifford gone" then I will make a move. I will let him be the king of the castle as long as it benefits me. No longer after that.

"samsao"

- I am having an uneasy feeling about this vote sjdangkjerngjk. Hopefully Taylor will come on and give me some reassurance. The way that like no one is voting even though this should be an easy, foregone conclusion is stressful. If word spills to someone about a plan to get rid of me, I will not hesitate to play my idol. It is interesting that Clifford is trying to ensure that Julia and Chris have their votes locked in before he votes. Why does that matter? So I won't be able to make a countermove against you? Ugh. Especially considering now that we think both have locked in, people literally ignored my message asking if we should lock in. This is the first tribal I am actually fearful of my life in this game ending.

"samsao"

- Okay I REALLY wanted to make a move and take out Taylor or Maya, because I don't have that great of a relationship with them, but these people are voting really fast. That being said, I'm glad I thought about it a bit more instead of acting on impulse like I usually do. I was so focused on this tribe that I forgot about the bigger picture. Jace and Yannick wouldn't have flipped just because I'm cool with them, they have allies on the other side that they have to worry about pleasing as well. There was a slight blessing in Julia winning the challenge by so much. She proved herself as a challenge threat and that puts her further up as a target for the majority alliance. I would prefer that we swap before that's the case though, because I don't want to lose Julia, Chris, or even possibly myself.

"phaluai"

- Basically we have an easy vote or a chaotic way to go at this round. The easy vote would be Sim cause he's been super inactive and it's not helpful at all for the tribe! Idk how this guy outlasted me the first time around. Now another thing is that Rhi has some enemies around apparently. She has a previous feud with alietta and seems like Hannah is now throwing her name out. So she wants to strike first. I know that even if that backfires I'll be safe so why not try it? Lol i can't find that Andrea's gif but I'll be definitely like ... let's make a bigger move here.

"samsao"

- Clifford and Jace are TOO friendly with each other in the alliance chat, and I no likey. I don't want Jace to favor Clifford over me. I feel like Jace could have ran to Clifford with the info I gave him before because Clifford came and apologized to me about Kos and said Kos said he said it to save his own game, which I am not sure I believe. Anyway, Cliff gave me more ammo to attempt to place distrust in Jace about him. He suggested that he and Yannick not vote for Annabelle so that his old tribemates aren't mad/ Likeee excuse me... we didn't get to do that last vote so no! haha Jace talked him out of it, and I brought it up to Jace and pointed out they may be more loyal to original Samsao than us. Jace thought it was sketchy as well. And idk if this is working at all but it sure as hell if fun doing it! So regardles imma keep on doing it. Annabelle should be the easy vote tonight. She didn't even do the challenge. She's playing too many games at once!

"samsao"

- Me and Annabelle idol guessing tonight, let's see if we can turn this game around shall we! I keep giving people on the way out episodes to guess so I can know if that spot is incorrect or not lol. One of the reasons I keep telling people their the vote and of course why I told Annabelle lol (but also I love her and even though she's been inactive, she's super cool and I want her to play this game with me)

"phaluai"

- I voted too early

"WOW IM WILD. I'm throwing alietta under the bus rn AND IM SO SO SORRY GIRL. But this also might come back to bite me"

- Hannah

"phaluai"

- So, last night it was set to at Sim would probably be going up but then I wake up for Jake's plan to get out Miguel. I know personally this is only to benefit Jake's game because Miguel is possibly linked to Clifford and Jake hasn't got no connection with him. I don't want Miguel to go home but I think it's too early in the game to flip something like this on it's head. I have to stay loyal to my allies rn and let them take charge while I sit back and let them get the blood on their hands. The fact this plan was formed without my consent shows me my opinion isn't as appreciated or considered. I was literally told orders and had to follow them. For now I'm going to sit back and smile but I'm never going to forget this moment. Later on in this game, I'll act on this. Jake thinks he's in control for now but I'll make sure that ends at some point. When the time is ready, I'll take charge.

"samsao"

- So Clifford and I are making a full scale push to save Annabelle. She didn't do herself any favors with integrating herself with the others, and it's an incredible long shot but we have to try. Between the three of us, we have four idol guesses left before tribal. If the plan goes accordingly, Annabelle will vote out Chris with the idol. Otherwise, I will need to step up my game to secure a win for this tribe and put Phalaui on the offensive. They'd be dumb to take shots at Julez, Hannah, and Jenna and I really want to see how those strong personalities duke it out.

"samao"

- I think trying to place distrust between Jace and Clifford is working! Jace is blaming Clifford for Anna Belle not coming to speak to him yet. He thinks Clifford likely said something bad about him to her! Haha!!!

"phaluai"

- You know how they say be careful what you wish for? I'm learning that now. When I was on talap I wanted the game to start spicing up and for me to finally end up somewhere that wasn't the love tribe. Enter Phaluai 2.0, and the second we get to tribal it's no longer smiles and hugs, it's paranoia and bullshit and indecision.

So first of all, Hannah throws out Rhi's name before tribal even starts, which is bs because everyone and their mother likes Rhi. So that got shut down quick. And then sim got brought up as a target which makes sense because Sim was giving Waldo a run for his money for how hard he was to find. So I go to bed thinking, okay well all the grumbles will probably go away and Sim will go home unanimously and we stay a happy tribe.

BUT NOOOOOO. I wake up, and apparently Mister Sim has gathered the votes to stay and now miggy is the target. Which, tbqh i don't really get. Like yeah I get that he's not the most social, but at least he shows up more than once in a blue moon. And I hate it because I actually wanted to work with Miguel long term this season, but I have no idol, and there seem to already be 5 solid/likely votes against Miguel, and I'm not ready to draw rocks this freaking early.

TL;DR: Messy sons of bitches

"phaluai"

- The plan to blindside Miguel has now been exposed and Nathan was the one to do it. Nathan, I got my eyes on you. You've lost a lot of trust from me and I will make sure this turns on you eventually. I didn't want to agree with the plan but do you see my running my mouth and looking ratty? This has put me in such a bad position and I do not appreciate it. Last Stand is getting messy and while as a fan it excites me but as a player, I feel on edge and undecided on who to side with. I 100% want Sim gone but am I really willing to flip on my original alliance to see this happen? Not even I am sure yet. I was in a good position and now I am in a very bad one; all because Jake can't stop creating plans and because Nathan can't keep his trap shut. Honestly, I am LIVID because I am here trying to clean up the mess.

"phaluai"

- I haven't made a conf in a while Bc vacation but this vote is messy hihi 😊 things are fucked

"phaluai"

- So BASICALLY this tribe has been the same as Samsao somehow talking wise, I luckily swapped with legit every single person I was close-ish to/wanted to work with from Samsao. (Miguel/Eva/Sim) The tribe is once again pretty quiet starting off, I’ll come online from shitty train wifi to see no one has really said much. We win the one challenge and then next round we are RUDELY forced to go to tribal council. FOR HOURS ITS FUCKING SILENT. No one will really suggest a name, it seems to come down to Sim again for being too quiet. Which again I don’t want to happen. I tell miguel and he seems to agree but again its hard when it’s all anyone is saying. So I go to bed because literally no one is online then wake up to my worst nightmare other than it being myself. NATHAN TELLS ME POOR MIGUEL’S NAME IS OUT THERE NOW. He said Hannah/Sim/Jake/Eva were down for it which like @ EVA AND SIM WHY BITCH ORIGINAL SAMSAO NEEDS TO STICK TOGETHER??? WE HAVE 4 OVER 3 AND 3 WATER U DOIN. I understand Hannah/Eva/Sim played together in bang a rang recently and I’m not rly sure what went down but It’s understandable that they’d try and stick together. I was confused since Alietta is on original Phaluai and didnt seem to be mentioned so i asked her about it and she’s like “what no i have no idea what??? I’ve never heard miguel??” or something like that. So i’m thinking ok either her tribe hates her or she’s lying…. then not 3 minutes later she goes “omg jenna I’m sorry I’m lying i knew about it but didnt want it to happen.” Like uhh….. you basically lied for no reason and now you just look super shady. I just wanted to know if his name had been going around and she LIES FOR NOTHING. To quote Viola from She’s the Man @ Alietta “You are weaving a really tangled web. Like really, really tangled. And, honey... you got to stop!” At this point, I really just want Sim and Miguel to both stay and to stop going for each other just to survive. Coming into this tribe i was hoping the 4 Samsao’s could stay strong but this vote it seems impossible. I went to Nathan and said look, i think Samsao and Talap should just stick together and vote out a Phaluai because they’re honestly the reason for all of this shady business. He seems down and i’m legit thrilled because I know miguel will be down, I think Julez and Rhi will be. The only people I’m slightly worried about are Eva and Sim since they have been acting odd and seemed to want miguel out. I’m just really hoping they’ll see the light and stick with us. I think our target from pink is Alietta which does kinda suck because I REALLY wanted to play with her but she already lied to me over nothing and I’d rather have numbers than help Phaluai go further together. Wish me luck, if this plan works then both Sim and Miguel survive and thats all I wanted!!! (Other than myself surviving of course.) I went pretty hard trying to get this to happen but I made sure Nathan went around saying it as well so I didn’t come off as too intense, but whenever I don’t sit back and do what i’m told that tends to happen anyways, OOPS.

"phaluai"

- Alietta needs to calm down right now ....

"phaluai"

- apparently my name came up by original Phaluai, thankfully I have amazing allies that told me and shifted the vote against Alietta bc she is a liar I really like her but well she acted like my Best friend and backstabbed me easily so I'm doing the same

"phaluai"

- HANNAH IS LITERALLY RUINING THIS ENTIRE VOTE BY VOTING SO FUCKING QUICKLY FOR FUCKING SIM. ALL WE NEEDED WAS HER FUCKING VOTE TO GET MIGUEL TF OUT OF HERE AND I THINK THE RULE OF NOT CHANGING VOTES IS LITERALLY SO FUCKING STUPID BC TRIBAL HASNT EVEN HAPPENED YET AND ON THE VOTE YOU GET UP UNTIL THE TIME TO VOTE TO DECIDE YOUR VOTE.

"samsao"

- My heart breaks for Annabelle. You deserved better. I'm sorry I couldn't protect you.

"phaluai"

- Assuming this vote works out this will be one of the messiest tribals that I've been a part of. I'm pretty sure like half the tribe's names have been thrown out as targets and now someone who wasn't even considered at first is most likely going home. We deserve a fucking break or something after this tribal ends.

"phaluai"

- My paranoia levels are hitting the roof right now. I am expecting the worse because my gut is telling me there has been another flip and it's going to potentially send either me or Jake home. We should of stuck to the plan last night but it is what it is. All I know is if I am leaving, then I am causing fireworks on my exit.

"phaluai"

- tbh alietta sunk her own ship. I'm sorry girl ): you sort of did this to yourself. I still love you

"phaluai"

- This SHOULD have been an easy round, but nope, we now have gang wars of Hannah and Alietta vs Jenna and Miguel. I have honestly never seen scrambling quite like it...