The Correct Path/Confessionals

Day 25
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- Merge time. We gotta play harder now. I'm trying to rally up a Jordan blindside and hopefully it works. He better not win immunity.

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- So Trey basically put the fear of god in me and mentioned that Jason is like strong arming him by saying he has the numbers? Idk if I completely buy this. Cause he mentioned how he tried to turn Marty and Jason on each other. I feel like it could be the same now. However, the other tribe does technically more numbers. Trey was asking about the Peasante idol and such. I think he's gonna try to play the middle and just cut off who he thinks he needs too. Which is not what I like. I need him for now, but I want him out soon. Everyone here seems like nice people, but nice people aren't gonna stop me from doing what I signed up to do. I'm gonna try and get Harrison and maybe Marty? On my side to try and blindside someone from that other alliance. I need 1 number if old Peasant sticks together. If I can get numbers on this vote then I'm not worried about how far I can make it in this game. I think I can do fine socially, I just need the other accolades. Immunity is something that I need to win desperately this round. I refuse to be the merge boot again!! FUCK THAT. The merge is like a Mexican Stand Off, all of us are looking at each other carefully and waiting to see who is gonna take the first shot. Let's hope I'm not gonna be the one who gets shot.

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- Jordan Pines will never see this coming. He's going to try and get me out I feel because I'm the strongest person that's not on his side of the numbers. This is honestly going to be such an interesting vote because literally anything could happen.

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- WE MERGED BITCHES. anyways, im in a very chill spot to see who wants to work with me right now. I dont see myself having made enough of an impact to be targetted yet so i assume this vote people are gonna want to try to use me as a number. I think its good to chill first merge vote and assess the battlefield. Then once lines are drawn I can fuck em up to get myself in the power position. Its gonna be the start of an empire!

Day 26
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- its the merge and i dont really have anything solidified yet which scares me but im trying really hard to do the best i can and make it to the finals. i want to try and undercut myself to people so they think im not that big of a threat.

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- Ok so since I found out we get edited on how many confessionals we send, I'm gonna send a lot haha.

Last vote was quite simple really, Ashley was a chill dude but proved to be untrustworthy when he put $140 on immunity. I just didn't like that really. One mistake last round was going balls to the walls for the immunity which we then lost anyway. I showed challenge ability and I want to do the opposite!! I wanted to make merge without going to tribal but that failed, I suppose I'll settle for 9 episodes of immunity ;). Haha sorry for boasting, I'm proud of myself for lasting this long!!

This vote is different because there's no clear target. I'm trying to integrate myself socially and it's easy when everyone is this chill to speak to. Nat and Jason are my closest two at the moment. But, I like to speak to Trey, Elias, Aaron, Juliet, Jerry, Marty, everyone really. I realise I only left out Jordan and Harrison so I'll throw them in, not sure why I didn't include Harrison when he's probably the person I trust the most apart from Jason.

I'm trying to be aware that everyone I like will be liked by everyone else. Nat, Elias and Trey I think are huge threats but I also think I'm a huge threat haha. Right now I want to appear as chilled and fun to talk to so people trust me, but I wanna cause chaos and really take control of the game as we approach the end-game. I said before the game that I'd relax, be chill and gain allies and then have a strategic breakout moment and I think I've been successful so far!!

For anyone who's thinking of applying who is reading this: you should totally apply!! I'm loving it and thank you to all the hosts who accepted me. I hope I can push further and make it to the end.

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- Oh wow haha a lot has happened!! The game is really beginning.

I think the alliances will be Elias/Jordan/Juliet/Jerry against Jason/Aaron/Trey/Marty/Harrison with me and Nat in the middle. Elias is targeting Jason and Jason is targeting Elias. Since Jason was the person I wanted to go to the end with, it'd make sense for me to vote Elias except a lot of Jason's lies have become knowledge to me.

Firstly, he lied about having the idol. We talked about the idol almost daily and he lied about it which I was willing to look over because I wouldn't tell anyone if I got it.

Secondly, he lied about his connection to Trey. They know each other and were close allies in another game.

Thirdly and the one I'm annoyed at is that he told something to Trey that I told him in confidence. He told Trey that I was worried about the Pesante 4, Jordan/Jerry/Trey/Marty. I told him this in confidence and him telling Trey means that I am not his closest ally like he said I was. Jason was my closest ally above Nat and others and he has betrayed this trust now. That does not mean I am turning on him but I do not trust him anywhere near as much as I did before. I will always be keeping an eye on him now haha.

So, Elias and Juliet want me to join their alliance I believe. Jason is really scared he will be eliminated. I want to believe I'm in the middle but I honestly don't know after this. I told Nat everything so that she trusts me but also because I want to navigate the game with her. I thought if I told her everything she wouldn't tell anyone else because that'd be enough to ruin our relationship haha, and I think she's really smart and knows that it's not the time to do that, everything is so fractious at the moment.

It is awful that Elias and Jason are the two names. Elias is someone I love to speak to and I can already tell he's super down to earth. Jason, while not as loyal as I thought, if someone I am still quite close to and someone I've been playing with since the original tribes.

Right now I do think I'm in the middle but there could be a core group I'm unaware of. Maybe Nat's in it. Maybe it's Trey, Nat, Jason, Marty. I'm not really sure!! I hope that the correct path reveals itself because I'm quite confused right now!!

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- Okay so the merge is upon us and yikes, THAT was a shitshow.

So basically I hear that Jason is throwing out Jordan and Jerry's names, which I am not okay with because one of them leaving would not be beneficial to me in the slightest. So I warn them in our alliance chat, and it somehow gets back to Jason that I'm SNITCHING on their plans and now I'M THE TARGET, when I wasn't even included in them and only hearing trickle-down information. I have to be proactive, not just hope for the best that people above me are telling the truth.

So I've been trying to rally people up against Jason and Trey alongside Juliet. I don't know how reliable these connections I've made are, and I'm WAY too visible right now, but I might? be in the numbers. I eventually talked it through with Trey and Jason and reached a compromise of an Aaron vote, which as Jerry pointed out is basically playing into their hands if they see him as expendable. Apparently, Jason still wants one of me, Jordan or Jerry gone - I think he's too much of a liability to keep in the game.

Jerry FINALLY sees what I've been seeing all along regarding Trey, that he has too many options and can't be trusted, but alas he has immunity or else I would probably target him this vote. WE SHOULD HAVE PULLED THE TRIGGER WHEN WE HAD THE CHANCE! Gawd. I may have also convinced Declan that Trey and Jason are a dangerous duo, but I'm not going to 100% bank on his vote... Jordan and Jerry haven't been overly useful this merge for some reason as well? Apparently they haven't done as much social outreach as I thought, like Jordan has apparently barely even spoken to Nat, so I hope they aren't seen as my blind numbers or anything.

The difficult part of this vote, if it goes forward against Jason (who has been in my PMs begging for his life and saying he's having panic attacks, which I feel bad against) is balancing trust with Trey and Nat who I see as threats to my games and too independent and cunning in their thinking. I want that to be me so ideally they will leave soon. I don't know if I'll survive this vote because my name is in the stratosphere of potential votes, but we'll see.

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- Hmm... the game is really heating up.

The Jason and Elias binary decision has ended which I'm happy about!! I want to work with both of them so it being one of them going was shitty haha. Elias I love to speak to and he's close with Juliet who's also fantastic to speak to. Jason I'm close with and though I'm doubting him, we have a big foundation.

Harrison is the target this tribal. That sucks haha I want it to be Marty!! Of everyone left we have the least chance of working together I think. He's also one of the few people to not message me to try and work with me. Like Elias, Juliet, Jason, Jerry, Jordan, Trey all messaged me with that intention and Marty never did. I don't want to push him going though haha, I need to be breezy!!

As I'm writing this Harrison has found out he is being targeted so now it's gonna be Harrison and Juliet getting votes I think. This is so difficult, I like everyone!!

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- MY FUCKING GOD THIS VOTE. i've never hated a game more than i have this round. It's been a menial back and forth of people refusing to commit and even if i'm wrong, hell even if i go home i know i went out playing. I made my choice tonight, didnt care what the group thought and did what i wanted. Juliet, if you go tonight know i love you girl, but i really hope you go :(

Day 27
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- Whew, what a whirlwind! So after Immunity, which Trey won because he's kind of amazing, Jason starts throwing out names. First it's Jordan, then it's Jerry, then it's Elias, so on and so forth. So now everyone's getting wind that Jason is throwing out their names, and Jason suddenly has a huge target. So I'm obviously not OK with this, because Jason and Aaron have been my f3 deal since I swapped onto their tribe. LMAO if us three make it to the end, the VL is probably gonna be pissed.

Anyways, I have to get the target off Jason's back that I inadvertently put there, and in doing so the target ends up on Harrison and Juliet, who are now going after each other HARDCORE. Juliet is really good at playing dumb. Like she'll go up to someone and be like "so what are we doing?" as if she has no clue what's going on. So we got rid of her, because she had huge connections. Jason and Aaron got left out, but they'll survive tbh.

Also I was SUPER drunk at/after tribal. Like wow. At one point Jason said "Harrison told me there was a big target on my back" and I replied "who?" But all's well that ends well. Sorry this is kinda short, but I don't really have much to say. Jordan and I are gonna try to make a move against someone like eli because he's sketchy. That's a wrap, my head hurts.

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- So I'm starting to pick up my game some. Slowly bringing up the idea of maybe, possibly considering the idea of taking out Trey. While working trey at the same time, to find who I can trust going forward and such. I proposed an alliance to Trey that could be majority, but it is a lie. I feel bad doing this but I need to try and make him comfortable. I'm showing my cards and I don't care, I want this season to pick up and be more exciting. I'm gonna see who is with who and use that information. Nat and Declan are a pair, and Jason is a complete wild card apparently. But I would not be surprised if Trey and Jason are trying to be a secret pair too. Cause they are close, and to me when they are both messaging me the same thing but try to act distant its kinda obvious. Also, Marty has an idol.Thanks for the info Jordan! Like damn Marty you be holding out on me man, I appreciate that. But Jordan is inanely good at the social game. I'm impressed with how he can buddy up with everyone and get info. Its something to note and keep in mind but not something to address right now.

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- Today has been Lit!!! Marty told Harrison who told Trey about the idea of blindsiding Trey. So Trey has come to me about it and expressed his concerns. So Jordan and Marty are his new targets, which is not good for my game by any means. But I do have a plan that I think might be most beneficial for me. Marty has an idol, so if I can shift the target to him. He can use his idol and save himself, plus they could send home Trey or someone else for me and I can keep my social standing with the potential "majority." Which is my game, keeping all of my sides covered and everyone cool with me. While I make subtle moves that are really beneficial to me long term. I hate lying to Trey like this but at this point in time he is the biggest threat in the game. He's connected with most people and has influence over almost everyone. If he goes then a few people are left scrambling and I can pick up the pieces and have them come to me for help. Let's hope this is fun!!!

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- So if Marty agrees to my move, we will be idoling out Harrison who's trying to get me out next round. I hope all goes well

Day 28
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- This tribal has been a mess too!! At first it was Harrison and Aaron as potential votes and now a plan to blindside Nat has been revealed. Harrison was in on the plan to vote Nat and I revealed this to Nat. Nat told me she had an idol and apparently no one else knows. It doesn't matter because she's playing her idol this tribal but still nice to get them played ya know.

Everyone is blanking me so I think the vote flipped onto me and off Nat. That is probably just paranoia haha.

I'm very wary of Elias, Trey and Harrison in the game. Elias is controlling the tribe, Trey had loads of options and Harrison will turn on anyway. I need to beware of them.