Board Thread:Season 52 - Tasmania/@comment-30202274-20190415114536

Hey Jury

Look I'm not here to suck up your asses or apologize for voting y'all, because quite frankly I've played a ruthless game and I don't regret that. If you are salty and are going to vote for someone likable whose played a lesser game then me, I get that but I mean this is a game and outside of this game I hope you guys can understand that. So let's get down to it. Just so you guys know if you dont want to read my whole speech I understand, the first paragraph after this current one, and the last paragraph are probably the ones you want to read, the in the middle stuff is a summary of each vote out post merge. If you're only interested in your vote out then check the name at the start of the paragraphs and read up. Anyway onto the fun!

First off, from merge to now every move I've made has been a deliberate one. I've survived this far without immunity, without any idol and without protection. I've literally relied on the fundamentals of survivor which is social and strategic play. I was on the right side of every vote post merge and I kept up relationships with everyone to make it possible to flip back and forth each vote and get away with it. I love Benj and Hayden equally however I dont believe either of them played as well as I was able to. Benj had a great challenge game, but had he not have won the challenges I do believe he wouldn't be here, he left himself open with all of his original allies voted out one by one, and wasn't able to do anything about it. Hayden had a very loyal game and it was for that reason that he allowed himself to be blindsided so late in the season, he was very much the third wheel to the tripod that was me, Abi and him and was amazingly loyal as to almost never question decisions being made. I played the best game with the skills I had so lets get into everyone's vote outs.

First up JJ sorry dude, I knew it was you or me and this is where being semi inactive pre merge kept me clean. No one cared to much for me being voted out because what did I do pre merge to put a target on my back? Nothing. I knew the more relaxed I was about the vote and the less effort I put in would get me through because essentially I felt like Benj and Seamus kind of petitioned that vote. Letting them do that kept the target of my back and put it on them. Thats what cued me up for our next vote.

I believe this was the birth of the trio Abi, Hayden and I which I set up with Abi after a mini fight. Then I sent a voice message I'm listening to right now where I mentioned 'not wanting this to be a dick show' to Abi and suddenly that alliance was born. With that Abi said she could bring in Hayden and the original threesome was born. With Abi, Hayden and I in the middle we knew we could bring together numbers to pull a blindside on my former allies. We worked with Zack, Bryce, and Ronald and Seamus was taken out. This cemented my trust with Abi and Hayden, but also gave me an in with Zack, Bryce and Ronald. So from this vote the Cat man feud happened which was semi real semi fake, because I knew we needed him for future votes. Anyway, I put forward the Abi and I alliance and Abi brought in Hayden, we took out a huge threat and duo in Benj and Seamus, and I opened up connections on the other side (Zack Bryce and Ronald).

Now onto one of my favorite humans who I genuinely did feel bad voting because I feel like he came out to late and it sucked but I needed him out. From what Abi, Hayden and I had created we made three groups of three without anyone knowing how close Abi, Hayden and I were. Now I'm not going to take full credit for this as my move but I do feel like Abi and I spoke more about the strategy of it all with Hayden just jumping in every now and again. Anyway our three groups were my trio, then Bryce, Ronald and Zack VS Benj, Catman and Brian. Knowing we didnt want to come across as a trio I put forward the idea of one of us voting with Benj, Catman and Brian, knowing we would still have the votes if one of us voted elsewhere. So wanting to separate herself from Hayden and I Abi voted with the Benj crew. I kept up the Abi and Ashlee feud to keep eyes off us as a trio and Brian went home.

With some confusion from both sides as to who voted with them, we had successfully misted everyone and were able to swing back to the Benj, and Catman crew to take out Zack. I did wish Zack stuck around a little longer if not for his voice messages and vision for a life of Ariana Grande songs playing on all stations, except for 'Break up with your girlfriend I'm bored' which he didnt like (shameful). This vote knowing we couldnt split, Abi, Hayden and I stuck together, keeping the feud going publicly but privately Abi and I plotted like the best of them. It was fun being mischievous and around this time is when we made a final three deal. Anyway Zack you were missed at least by me.

Oh Cat man. I believe our feud kept going and even into your vote out I dont know if you saw it as fake or real. I did genuinely enjoy just fucking around and having fun messing about together. Anyway let me tell you this vote I told Benj everything. I told him that Abi and I were fake fighting and all about the trio that was me, Hayden and Abi. He obviously didnt tell anyone EVEN WHEN I told him that his closest ally Cat man would be going next. I laid out a plan for the next three votes. It would go Catman, then we would vote out Abi then Bryce. Obviously it went the other way around because Benji was worried about Bryce winning his way to the end (how ironic). Anyway we're getting to far ahead. With Hedger in a corner and losing his closest ally Benji he was next up to go. I made sure Abi and Hayden thought I was still close with them.

Bryce was next because not only was Benj happy to make it happen, but also Abi and Hayden were happy to go the same route after Benj won immunity. The best thing about Benj winning was that I kept my connections with both Abi and Hayden, and Benj. With both Benj and I KNOWING Abi was going next. Anyway Bryce was gone and that left Ronald and Benj as the last men standing on each side of the trios we had set up.

So this is probably the point where Abi's and my feud became semi real. Once Benj won immunity we all agreed on Ronald going, however I had spilled the bean (just like I did to Benj earlier) on Ronald and told him about the three alliance and how Abi was the one controlling everything. I played it up as if I was her lil bitch because if I didn't I'd not be here at all when in fact we both were probably equal in the decisions we made up until I flipped. So with Benj and Ronald believing I was a goat to Abi and believing she was the biggest threat to win, I got my way and Abi left. I feel like I maybe lost her vote but I mean I hope she can respect that I could not differentiate our moves come FTC if we were here together because I often put you in the spotlight as the one making the moves when actually we were both equally pulling strings, just to keep myself out of the spotlight. So that left the final four.

Last vote, Ronald. I was lucky to have built enough trust in Benj and Hayden to have Hayden ADVOCATE for me and the have Benj vote for Ronald. Personally I think Ronald and Benj played the same role in the game, they were both people on either side of the trios who were left at the end. Personally I think to some extent they just let their alliances leave one by one, noticing what was happening and doing nothing. But I mean thats personal opinion. But yeah thats what happened.

So my game was fun, ruthless, calculated and full of deception and lies with hints of trust somewhere around here. Is that a good thing? Maybe not in the real world or to an upset jury, but I played harder then both these boys. I constantly put my game down and told people I wasnt a threat, I adapted every vote and played every side of the fence, I was never on the wrong side of the vote, and I was behind almost every noticeable move in the merge portion if the game. Look I'm not going to plead or beg for votes because I may have helped take almost all of you out of the game and for some that stings. But I assure you I played the most strategic and social game of the three people sitting at the end. Can I win a challenge? No. Can I dominate at puzzles or games? No. But because I played such a big social and strategic game I didn't need to rely on immunity. I wasn't safe at any tribal, I was supposed to be the merge vote out, I was a loud mouth, feud fueling player, but I sure as hell wasn't anyone's goat, and I do deserve this win. I claimed I was everyone's lil bitch when in fact I was helping make moves and was behind the scenes pulling strings then pinning it on someone else to keep my ass safe. Ask me your questions, throw facts in my face, I'll listen, I'll answer. Just don't rule me out because you're upset or hurt, rule me out if you honestly think I played a shit game and let me prove to you I didn't, just in case my actions didn't. Good luck with your vote. Question me! 