Fan the Flames/Confessionals

Day 7
"riza"

- When you have to log off just so you don't tell someone there leaving ugh I'm so upset rn I loved brit and Christine is gone wth! "hizoku"

- I seriously hate my tribe more than anything they all annoy me soooo much except Jamie. Like Matt being all "J-Rod where are u ik ur out there!!11" when I literally just checked the chat and Ash being like "Also awk at jared needing to play what we gon do woth that" what does that even mean!? I literally scored higher than you on the puzzle and then she says "where the fuck has Jared been" I TALKED TO YOU AT 5 PM SORRY I DONT TALK TO YOU ALL DAY WHEN YOU GIVE ME ONE WORD RESPONSES "ningyo"

- I feel bad for playing Christine on like that but I feel like she really did have a chance, because Sora and Charley WERE considering booting Alietta but it was just not gonna happen... poor girl :X "hizoku"

- I was relying so much on a swap lol, just shows you how weak my game is. What always seems to happen to me in these games is that I start off in a really precarious situation - usually meaning that if my tribe loses say even two challenges, then I'm gone. In Indonesia, if Boalemo lost twice, it was Purry then me. In Gens, it was Amber first, but it would've been me if we had to go back. And now I'm pretty sure I could be first gone if we lose and if it's not me, then it'll be Jared and I'd follow. The reason why I always flip in ORGs is because I'm pretty much always on the bottom of my original tribe and so I flip on my original tribe, and I always think 'Why don't people wanna include me in the early alliances? They did it to themselves!' but I guess considering it's happened in 3/4 of my seasons now, it must be my fault or a certain aura I give off? I guess Kylie Jenner was right and 2016 really is the year of realising things. I mean even after working out that it's my fault I'll still flip lol because why would I stay at the bottom of this tribe when I could be at the top or middle of a new group - so why shouldn't this tribe vote me out first if we go to TC? I just have a really shitty feeling about this challenge and I'm kinda thinking that it'll be me going if we lose and yeah... got a feeling that I'll be out of the game in 48 hours lol so I will have gone from 6th, to 11th, to 15th, to 20th. Fun. "makeinu"

- I still laugh whenever I look at Chris' mangatar. The smile and middle finger combo. Amazing. "makeinu"

- molly christ better pull this out! i got 0 alliances, im barely active, and i would say i couldve gotten swap fucked but that would imply that i was in good position preswap :~) "hizoku"

- Welp we just lost the challenge cause matt's a fuckin idiot. "hizoku"

- Or not lol what the fuck is your word search, Jake "makeinu"

- i gotta whip this out faster than a fuckboy whips out his dick for harambe "ningyo"

- Going to tribal is not an option. There is no way I'd feel safe going to tribal with our four alliance members and if we did, I would try and get Sora voted out because I am closer to the other two, but, I don't want to do that. I want us four going far in this game and if we need to do that, we need to win more of these tribe challenges. "ningyo"

- So basically my tribe has to win this challenge. All we are now is one four person alliance. I don't want to turn on anyone, whether it be for loyalty, or knowing at a swap they'll attract more of a target than I will. I do have this nagging feeling that we are going to lose. As much as we say we're a great tribe, we aren't. Alex is great. The rest of us are messed. Luckily, I have an uncanny ability to survive shitty tribes. I did it for half of generations, even though I am always the one dragging the tribe down most times. I just gotta keep being nice, play the innocent ""loyalty is the real fun part of orgs!"" And hope they don't vote me out before a swap. Because a swap will be fun. Just have to get there. "riza"

- So tribal went like I thought, and it showed me my paranoia is extremely high questioning people so early!! I honestly feel terrible for Brittany she is such a sweet girl, and it sucked having to vote for her because I'm sure it hurt, but that's unfortunately how this game has to go. I do NOT want to go to tribal again because I cannot show my cards this early in the game and expose myself for not being with miguel/hunter. I need all of the numbers I can get so this is a do or die immunity for me for my game in the long run ! "makeinu"

- why are people who im exicted to play with getting voted off "hizoku"

- This tribe is just nutty. You've got Ash trying to waffle between the majority alliance and Jamie, Alexa trying to control her undying rage towards Ash long enough to survive a few tribals, and Jamie, who's been scrambling for like a damn week. We're run by women. They're so skeptical of each other, and now I'm just trying to fan the flames without getting caught picking sides. We all know Jamie and Ash have something going on, but I don't think it's as strong as Uli and Alexa think. I believe Ash is trying to pick up Jamie as an extra ally behind everyone's backs, but I also think Jamie doesn't trust her. I'm dropping hints, letting Jamie know that Ash ratted her and Jared out to Uli, that Ash is super close with everyone. Who knows, but I'm playing under the radar for once in my life. I'm pretty sure we're two tribals away from shit hitting the fan, and while I'm pretty sure I'll be safe, I cannot wait to watch. "ningyo"

- I'm actually gutted they voted Brittany out at the last tribal. I mean, I am glad Jessy and Claire are still in the game but Brittany has always been one of those players that I've wanted to play with but never had chance. #BRITTANYwasROBBED "hizoku"

- I'm kinda genuinely concerned that we might lose this challenge. And with Alexa being nonstop shady, I'm not sure what to do. "riza"

- Brittany going 5-1 just as planned is absolutely perfect. Things once again are going my way and I feel like its right on track. If we lose immunity and go to tribal, in all honesty I think it'll be beneficial but I didn't wanna throw any challenges which is why I sat out. Chris is shady and a threat, and getting him out now rather than later would honestly be beneficial, thus why Hunter and I have already planned for him to go. Chris told me it'll be "tough to decide between Hunter and Miguel if we go to a second tribal" and through that, I developed a plan with Hunter that I would push for Miguel to go, and then inform Miguel that he's being targeted, thus meaning that basically 3-2 Chris would go through it all. If we end up losing immunity, thats gonna be what happens. If we win it, I'll be staying loyal to everyone from Riza for temporary purposes. Overall I just wanna see the results from immunity and get to this tribe swap, despite all my nerves about switching to a tribe full of people who are potentially threatened by me. "hizoku"

- Jamie "hizoku"

- Honestly, Jamie's lowkey pissing me off. She's just like ohhhhhhhhhhhh yeeeeeeeeeeah we should like compete to pick whoever's best for the typing challenge, and I get that she has good intentions and just wants to win, but like try not to make it sound like you're saying you're better than me pls? It rubs people the wrong way. Either way, Jamie can play it. If she fucks up, that's on her, not on me. She was boasting and if she's not as good as she thinks, then she's not as safe as she thinks. I really don't want to go to tribal tonight. It just freaks me out. We've been too safe for too long, anything could happen. There's so many possibilities. Alexa's a shady fucking cunt and we never talk game, Jamie is starting to put me off, Uli is never fucking online and it's borderline hard to talk to him, Jared is MIA half the time and he's probably super close to Jamie now, and Matt is fucking chill as fuck, but who the fuck knows? Everyone could just be lying to me. Get me the fuck off this tribe. Can I just get to Charley and Hunter and actually work with people that I find vaguely fucking dependable? Help. SOS. My tribe is crazy??? "hizoku"

- Okay, Jamie. Insist that we need to pick who's better, and keep saying that you're soooo good at typing, and then FUCK UP THE FUCKING CHALLENGE???!?!?? WHAT THE FUCK. Also, is Ty literally trying to fuck up my entire game because how the fuck in what fucking chance would it be that HE would fuck up Jamie. I'm so fucking pissed. "hizoku"

- Honestly... rip. If we go to TC like I deserve to go lol. I messed it up for me/Jared and if it's a split vote between me and Jared then I couldn't conceive making my mistake cost him the game 😕. "hizoku"

- I'm really nervous about the challenge results since Jamie accidentally screwed up in the challenge. She felt really guilty about it and was telling me about how she'll let me vote her out if we lose and all these other things. I really want both of us to survive if we go to tribal because I really did bond with her a lot and I think of her as a friend. I'm gonna try my hardest to keep both of us in the game, but if it comes down to it I'll probably have to use her messing up to my advantage because even though it'd still be sad for me, better her than me.

Day 8
"riza"

- i'm soo pleased that we won immunity, it keeps me safe and not exposing myself so i'm THRILLED. Like, this is the best thing that could happen for me rn. And I'm also thrilled that Claire is going to rishiri, because imma send her to leader lagoon so she can go get the idol or whatever power from her dinner with sam as I told her everything that happened there privately and told her about all the questions and the answers so I'm ecstatic

If claire gets this idol I'm gonna be soooo happy "makeinu"

- So Molly should be going tonight, no point in breaking loyalty at this stage. I usually don't feel bad voting people out. I guess this is an exception! Molly doesn't deserve to leave "makeinu"

- basically i feel fucked bc im not in any alliances and i didnt contribute to the last challenge, but i've otherwise proven my worth as a tribemember and friend i feel like. i dont really know whats gonna haooen, so highkey im expecting my name to come up "riza"

- HOLY SO GETTING ALL THIS INFO IN A SHORT TIME IS A RUSH Thank you Chris so hopefully with this I can get us an Idol! "hizoku"

- Praise the Survivor gods for Uli. He literally dragged our pathetic asses through this fucking challenge. How the fuck did we win. "ningyo"

- IM GOING IDOL HUNTING AND IM FINDING IT IN THE NAME OF CHRISTINE "makeinu"

- I hate this fuckkkkkk i pray for a swap to happen i feel like im on a sinking ship and i want to get off. "makeinu"

- This is weird, it's not like we need to lie to Molly, she doesn't have an idol, so why are we lying to her? Do we want to avoid getting raged at? Maybe. Do we want to avoid Molly scrambling? Probably. Do we not want her to expose us since she trusted us? Possible. For me, I want to be as minimally exposed as possible, and if she starts scrambling, she may cause cracks in our tribe whether she ends up staying or leaving, and that's no good. "makeinu"

- Well here we are at tribal council for our second time, I will state the obvious and say that none of us want to be here. Going into tribal council thankfully I have the safety blanket of the “Bobs Burgers” alliance.

Shockingly I actually have a pretty decent level of trust in this alliance. It’s way too early for people to flip and shake things up because they will probably end up being labeled as a backstabber. Sadly though with loyalty to this alliance I will have to vote out Molly. She’s a cool chick and it will be tough to write her name down, but survivor is a lot about luck and sadly she just got unlucky. To further solidify the Bobs Burgers alliance, I told them that they were allowed to use my name and throw it around to Molly so as to prevent her from scrambling, Yes this is a risky move but I don’t care much, I only have things to gain from doing so. A)	The alliance will see that I can be a team player looking out for our group interests 😎	It reduces paranoia amongst the alliance and makes everyone feel comfortable, leading to a more secure vote C)	I get to test Molly’s loyalty to me and see if she spills the beans to me and reveals info I don’t know about

Currently I am just playing it cool with Molly pretending like I am having a lot of trouble coming up with a name to vote, hopefully she just hears my names shuts the fuck up and votes me.

Oh yeah should mention my player thoughts for my tribe members since I have gotten to know them more now.

Ally: Super strong social player, I like talking to her, but I know I am not the only one to whom she is working her social game on. Seems to be paranoid at times and hopefully by playing it chill and calming her down I can provide a presence that she can trust and bounce ideas off of. Her social skills will be an asset for making allies later down the road.

Emma: Emma is very laid back and has only shown signs of paranoia once. I feel like she has a ton of connection in the cast so she will be a useful ally for this portion of the game. She is mediocre at challenges, which isn’t good if we stay on this tribe any longer. I can trust her though and can definitely see myself working with her for a bit in the game.

Emile: I love Emile lmao, he is so blunt and chill it’s hilarious. He’s the least paranoid person in the game, or at least he hides it well. We have a few similar interests, which is nice. As an ally I think he’s very ideal for the long run. He is great at challenges, doesn’t get paranoid, and seems to have a decent strategic mindset. I worry though come a swap that he wont be out there trying super hard to establish future allies as much as I would like him to be.

Molly: Molly is super sweet I actually really like her haha, we bonded over alcohol. She’s on the outside of our alliance though and that’s honestly just pretty much luck and I feel bad for her but it’s a game. She doesn’t have a ton of in game connections and I need an ally who can hook me up with more connections and information deeper in the game. But yeah, if she can scramble out of this situation then kudos to her!

Hopefully tomorrow everything goes according to the plan! "makeinu"

- why does emile want to save molly... I am 35 percent on board but when there is a swap next or soon its not a good idea to piss somebody off. "ningyo"

- Hizoku...that's one damn strong tribe. And I bet they are all close as well. I think at a swap, someone needs to bring those numbers down for the merge. "ningyo"

- I'm so excited because after the terrifying vote that was last tribal council we slayed this fucking challenge and we are S. A. F. E! NONE OF US ARE GOING ANYWHERE!!!!

I'm really happy because I genuinely don't want to go to Tribal Council on this tribe again, because I feel like I am in a generally good position. I seem to be Sora's closest person (So he tells me, that I am but idk if I want to fully believe that, I'm just gonna be gullible and go for it right now), then I have Alietta, who I consider my closest person and I think Charley is wary of Alietta after that last tribal, where they were unsure whether Alietta actually threw Charley under the bus or not.

If worst case comes to worst, I still have my vote canceller and I would be able to use it that tribal. I just genuinely feel like this is the group, that I want to go far with and the only way I could imagine losing one of them is by other people taking them out with me being unaware or not there to help. I just at this stage really don't feel like cutting any of them loose.

There's talks about a potential tribe swap and I could see it happening at an odd number that is 18, with the 19th person just being escorted to the Island for that round and being safe. If that's the case, I genuinely hope someone from the Purple Tribe will go there, because they have not went to tribal at all and one of them finally has to GO. A group of 6, where lines are not out in the open at a tribe swap is pretty bad and I hope that it paints a major target on their back, because I'm not fucking around with those people.

If we do have to compete in our original tribes again I am going to pick myself up and slaughter the hell out of the next challenge, I don't give a fuck what it is, but I am genuinely not in the mood of going to tribal council again under any circumstance. The perfect case scenario would be the purple tribe going to tribal too, it would be delicious. "hizoku"

- I'm just thinking about the upcoming swap and I'm soooo ready to get out the people who put me in such a shitty position on this tribe. Alexa will obviously be my first target and I hope I'm on the same tribe as her JUST SO I CAN VOTE HER OFF. Matt is the only one who's kept it real with me the most but even so, I feel little loyalty towards him. Jared is the only one I feel true loyalty to from our tribe and I don't see myself turning on him ever really, I'd love to go to FTC with him just so Alexa is #triggered.

AS FOR THE OTHER TRIBES, I'd love to be with Sora, Chris or Emma. I feel like they'd be able to assimilate me into whatever alliances they have. I specifically don't want to swap and be with Molly, Charley, Ash or Uli. Molly and Charley because Gens history would be awkward and also for Charley, I find quite hard to socialise with, I kinda hate the XDs (sorry Charley if you're reading this when confs have come out lol we could've become rlly close and if so then I don't mean it! 🙂 ). For Uli and Ash, I know they've spoken about that old alliance plan and I just can't be bothered to deal with it lol so I don't want them with me.

AS FOR THE REBELS, http://67.media.tumblr.com/8c4fea27d8b4ffc36a7ce5ecb3765a1f/tumblr_nlg3kw96ch1rqhhm5o1_250.gif. I HOPE WE SWAP RIGHT AFTER TC SO I CAN BEGIN MY REBEL DECIMATION. "hizoku"

- A possible swap soon really changes up your gameplay. There's more to consider when deciding whether or not to keep someone, theres the worry of people being close to people from other tribes, there's mutineers, being in the minority, etc. Sometimes you have to start considering whether someone who might be loyal while they're in a bad position on the tribe, and that there's a possibility they would completely throw you under the bus to change their game, even if you tried to help them. Food for thought "makeinu"

- so I'm obviously gonna join the bobs burger alliance because that's basically securing my safety and everyone is going along with it. it REALLY does hurt me to vote Molly but can't be emotional in these games 😕 but anyways everyone's been trying to like secure our relationships / deals because after this, it's only four of us and if there's another tribal we're all fucked...with everyone like trying to reassure this im praying it means ill be safe in that event djsndns. "hizoku"

- I’M SO PUMPED!! We won the Immunity challenge for a fourth time in a row! Omg so with that aside, every day Ash’s game becomes more and more apparent to me, she tries to butter Jamie up while at the same appealing to Uli/Matt/Myself. She is a snake and I want her gone when the timing is right. Jamie is a GREAT player honestly. She’s been at the bottom this whole time and refuses to give up but she’s extremely dangerous and I’m unsure if she’ll ever trust me again after the whole Ash situation. But Matt doesn’t really feel like making a move, and I suspect this because he’s trying to keep HIS relationships strong and since he’s in the middle of everything he wants to get out Jared. I’m on to that aspect of his game, so I know I’m a tribe of wussies. They want to send out Jared who clearly is on the outs and can be eliminated at ANY time. If I have to keep my mouth shut to survive for right now I will but just know that when the timing is right I will strike and refuse to stick with an alliance I’m expendable to. But LMAOOO Ash thinks I’m dumb enough to fall for her shit, nah girl don’t you worry I see right through it all. But don’t you worry, I always get the last laugh ♡!

P.S - This game is the shit, I’ve loved very freaking minute of it. The good and the bad. It’s gonna be a long and bumpy road to Day 39.