Everyone Has A Cracking Point/Confessionals

Day 36
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- Erin wrote my name and then she was eliminated ! I know at this time, everyone wanna go with me to final tribal 😂😂 you can say that i am a goat but the true is i am a good actor and good liar. Why don't keep Vanne ? Why don't keep Aro ? They are goats! They keep me on their side because of 1 reason, i look good and my social is good too. Lol i gave Emile a kiss icon and he used idol on me 😘😍 it is not necessary but i feel sweet 💋😜

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- I think I've made it far enough to where getting voted out is only a compliment, so I'm satisfied. I'm proud of how I played this game. I may not have been in control of things, but I stuck to my reads and always made sure I was set well enough to avoid being a future boot. But the game isn't over. When I look at the other 3 finalists, I see reasons for all of them to be voted to win over me. Alexa, really strong social. Jessy, still has 0 votes against. TSN, the underdog. FFFFFF. Me? Immunities. Although getting rid of TSN = I get the underdog story for myself, since I was a target early merge, after all. Also TSN is strong in challenges and having him gone in 4th gives me much better odds to win the final 3 challenge if there is one

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- OMG I wanted to tell you guys that I had two idols so badly! So I had been holding on to that Leshan idol since Day 5 of this game and I never even needed it! My biggest fear was going home with that shit in my pocket. Alright so first of all, I’m literally ecstatic that I’m in the final four, I never thought I could get myself this far. Next, I just wanna seriously address Emile’s game because I don’t people to be blinded by his challenge wins. Emile IGNORED the social aspect of the game until the Final 5. Up until that point all he did was obey whatever the girls alliance would tell him to do. He didn’t have to worry about tribal council until the episode before the merge and even then he was immune. If he makes it to the end I will make it my priority to show the jury that yeah he did win challenges but what ELSE did he do? This isn’t Survivor: Borneo, social game is the most important aspect of Survivor. He’s had 0 influence on who’s been voted out each time. He had a ticket to the merge handed to him, while I had to go to three STRAIGHT tribals. I didn’t get a single second to relax, I always had to be on top of my game to make sure that it wasn’t me getting blindsided on Leshan. Even at the final 5 he had an opportunity to use his idol on Erin and blindside Jessy/I and he didn’t take that opportunity. He has no balls and is a mere coward who isn’t deserving of the title of Sole Survivor. If you need immunity around your neck to make it past a vote then your game is flawed. I don’t care how many challenges he can win, what else can he do? This kid has been trying to get people to vote me out for the past 4 votes and look, I’m still here. If he is to be rewarded for basically coasting through the season than this jury is on some serious crack. I’m making it my priority to make sure his torch is snuffed and he is sent off packing to jury, I’m done with him and his crappy social game. I refuse to lose to such an underwhelming player, especially Emile. On paper he looks like the most impressive castaway in this game but coming from someone who’s spent over 20 days with him in the merge, he doesn’t do shit. He goes along with whatever plan people set for him and he does nothing more. He’s the definition of a one trick pony but hey at least that’s better than being a no trick pony *cough* TSN. Heading into this next vote I predict the votes will go 2-2 against Me/Emile and it’ll go to a fire tiebreaker! I can’t wait to kick his ass but I’m going to make sure that TSN realizes how little chance has of winning next to Emile so that maybe just maybe a little spark of common sense will exist in his mind. LMFAO literally Emile can’t even sell water to a fish. Ideally, they would actually go for Jessy but the chances of that happening are almost as likely as TSN orchestrating a blindside. This all goes back to Jake’s blindside which was there I convinced the girls alliance into voting him out because a) he was planning on going for them very soon (complete lie) and that b) he had the Leshan idol, which was obviously a lie since I’ve had it for 30 days. Saying people bought it is an understatement, nobody expected me to have an idol let alone the Leshan idol. I’ve been focusing on doing some major damage control with Jessy especially so that I have at least an opportunity to do the tiebreaker if I lose immunity. TSN needs to realize that for whatever the reason is people to seem to admire Emile’s flawed game (since he’s had no influence in getting anybody out aka bitter people) and that Emile needs to go, it’s now or never. If my tribe mates think my game is already over they’re surely mistaken. I’ve been in a vulnerable spot for the past 3-4 votes and I managed to get myself out of it. Literally I entered the merge knowing TWO out of 10 players. I went in with a major disadvantage and I was able to come back strong and that’s what I plan on doing. No matter how far at the bottom I am I will never give up, I came here to fight and to do some major damage in this game. Go big or go home <3

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- I’ve survived 36 days in this game… That’s crazy! I never once expected to make it this far, let alone on my first ever ORG. I knew how big of an opportunity this was and that’s why I was very careful with everything thing I’ve done thus far. I knew entering this game I could easily slide under the radar at the beginning and focus on building social relationships and that’s exactly what I did. I began this game on one of the most dysfunctional tribes in Survivor ORG history probably. Saying Leshan was a disaster in challenges is an understatement. The second I entered this game the first thing I did was observe my fellow castaways and see what type of personalities I would have to put up with. I quickly saw that Jake/Jessy had that sort of leadership aspect to them so I immediately began to build a strong friendship with them so that I could pull the strings and not be the one getting the backlash for the moves that were being made. On Leshan, I had bonds constructed with every single person, which is what led to my success and control on the tribe. I had a major hand in every blindside and after each day that passed the closer I became to Jake and Jessy. But I knew that being allies wouldn’t be enough, we needed to be friends. I made sure to create genuine connections that involved not only Alexa in the game but Alexa as a person. I got to know them and was basically everyone’s best friend. I became close to people not only on game levels but on personal levels so people never expected me to stick a knife right in their back. I was then isolated by myself for over 72 HOURS by myself on Five Flower Lake unable to communicate with anybody and build any sort of bond. It was hell not being able to have control of my fate. I then entered the merge knowing literally 2/10 people and was immediately dragged into a Brawn/Beauty alliance and being isolated for so long caused me to be at the bottom of that alliance. As soon as I entered the merge I got to work socially so that I could change that. I created friendships with nearly everyone in the game, not just my alliance members. People thought I was as sweet as sugar, completely underestimating my ability to orchestrate some major blindsides in this game. As soon as the Brains began to deplete in numbers I began to contemplate blindsiding Yasmin, who was a major threat to my game. I did just that and got out one of the best players in the game. For quite some time I had been suspicious of Jake and knew that he was a really charismatic and fun-loving person so in my mind he became a bigger and bigger threat as the game progressed. So then I began to hear that Jake was mentioning to people how amazing of a social game I had been playing and how I’m smarter than I let on, which worried me extremely. So I conjured up a lie that Jake was planning on bringing the boys together which sparked the creation of the Amazonas (the girls alliance of Jessy, Erin, Vanne and I) which I then used to get the tables to turn on Jake. I threw out him having the Leshan idol (LMFAO bye) and how he was planning on blindsiding an Amazona at that very tribal, not to mention revealing his advantage which ultimately caused his blindside. After being successful a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders because nobody in the game was yet aware of my major control in this game. I then had been really pissed for quite a while because Aromal had written my name down TWICE and never bothered to make a relationship with me and had been slandering my name for a very long time so I quickly got to work and it resulted in his blindside, which I had been longing for a very long time. Right before his elimination I built a strong relationship with him and his last words to me were “I’m rooting for you, take this all the way to the end” and I knew I had been successful, was really happy about it too. Then following Aromal’s elimination is when Vanne tried to make a move to blindside one of the Amazonas and ultimately failed, I couldn’t keep her around because not only was she shady as well she was also a complete wildcard. Emile was exiled and TSN had immunity so an Amazona had to go, until the last second at that vote I had been the desired target which is what caused me to play one of my idols before the vote flipped, but I made sure to tell Erin about my idol quickly before the results in order to keep her trust post-tribal. Following Vanne’s elimination it became crystal clear that Emile had to go because he has been longing for my head for god knows how long. I made sure to turn everyone against him and tried to open people’s eyes to how dangerous it is to have him in advance, when Emile won immunity and since I knew he had an idol it was obviously he would be idoling TSN. So then I devised a plan to manipulate Emile into going for one of the other Amazonas, despite having my idol I wanted to check his loyalty and see if he would ever put any sort of trust in me. We had a deep talk and quickly pieced all the puzzle pieces together and I was able to steer him away from a me blindside to Erin, after making him realize how good of a resume she has and how much of a double-agent she’s been throughout this game. He even revealed his idol to me, which I thought was hilarious. This all was the cause for Erin’s tragic blindside which I needed to do to stay on track for the win. I’ve put in SO much work to succeed in Sichuan and the win is so near I can taste it. Saying my journey here was a bumpy one is an understatement, I’ve had to play a subtle and sly social and strategic game to make sure I would make it where I am now. I want this more than anyone and I never once thought I would make it here!! I’ve played a ruthless game, slitting throats left and right and it’s been an amazing game experience for me. I didn’t come here to be America’s Sweetheart, I came here to be the Sole Survivor. I’m proud of the game I’ve played and I’m so freaking thankful for this chance to play! I hope I haven’t disappointed you guys and there’s still so much left for me to accomplish in this game. No matter how many times people try to knock me down in this game I will always get right back up because when I want something I go out and get it.

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- I'm officially and finally in the Final 4! I feel like I've definitely grown a lot as a player and a person in this game, but I've also played a game very true to myself. I think I’ve gotten so far because I was a very powerful and controlling player from the start of this game. I came in on the losing team, losing half of my starting tribe, but from the ashes I think I realized how easily I can go in this game and really stepped it up. When I got sent to Five Flower Lake for the second time, I won my Blossom of Enlightenment that would come in handy later, but I also plotted with Jon from the Brawn about the Brawn/Beauty alliance. With my Blossom and my conversations, I am the sole reason about why this game at merge was played as Brawn/Beauty vs Brains. I set the division which benefited from me completely, because everyone knew me as being the leader but I think I established fear in both sides. I played very aggressively compared to how I started on Leshan, and really reshaped my strategy. With that, I’ve controlled every single one of the votes and proven to have come out on top being here still remaining in the Final 4! I think I’ll be in hot waters soon because I’ve been the biggest target for the longest time, and now it’s crunching time for everyone, but if I just keep my relationships tight and manipulate these people into thinking there are bigger fish to fry, I could make it to the Final Tribal Council. I think I have a lot of potential to do what I set out to do from the start, which was to be the Sole Survivor, and also even more than I thought, which is potentially being the first Sole Survivor in ORG history to play a Perfect Game!

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- Go to final 4, it is an amazing journey ❤ when this season started, I didn't think i can go far like now. I am in bottom whole time and my name was brought up a lot. I must try every tribal to save myself. I feel too nervous and worry so much day to day. Normally, i play physical game, win immunity as much as i can. However everything changes in this season. There are a lot of good players. They played challenge very well. I know I can't win all of immunity. So i play different game in this season. My social brings me to here. Sometimes i feel it is not good as what i want. But now i am here, final 4. You can judge my game, my personality. However i am here, i look good and i never regret everything what i did. Thank everyone rooting for me in this season. Hope I don't make you guys disappointed ❤

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- I thought about it and it's clear to me now that Alexa needs to go. And she needs to vote Jessy in the process so Jessy doesn't have a "perfect game" heading into final tribal. Alexa has played a great social game, had a lot of people trust her and the jury will recognize that. And she found 2 idols. When you compare that to TSN's game, all he has going for him is being an underdog, which I think he won't be able to sell to the jury. Also, I think it looks better for my image to have TSN/Jessy in the final 3 with me rather than Jessy/Alexa. Now I just have to pray that Alexa doesn't know how to win this challenge

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- I swear TSN has no common sense… ZERO! He is the biggest moron I have ever met and I’ve met my fair share of duds. I cannot believe he would be willing to let Emile make the Final 3? LMFAO what the hell is going through his head? He’s more scared of ME than he is of Emile. Does he not understand that the jury is butthurt and would vote Emile because he has had 0 influence in putting them on the jury? I don’t understand his logic, not one bit. Jessy although pissing me off in the past few days she is the only person on this entire tribe with some common sense. She knows Emile HAS to be exterminated while TSN is riding Emile like a god damn horse. Emile himself… is a complete nightmare. He does nothing socially/strategically yet he wins challenges like J*e Anglim (I’m disgusted even saying his name) and that’s the type of player this sort of jury seems to appeal to. The moron who wins challenges, not in my book. Things are not looking good for me right now but I know I can turn it around and make it to the next vote. I have to win immunity it’s not even a question! If I don’t I know I can swing over at least one vote and go to a fire tiebreaker but even that is a risk. I’ve worked so hard in this game and they’re not going to take it away from me. And I already am planning to annihilate their asses with my speech at the FTC. Whether I’m a finalist or a juror I WILL be calling out Emile’s shitty game. His lack of social awareness and inept strategic ability will be one of the things I will address along with TSN’s coattail riding and sheep strategy. Jessy… if she makes it to the FTC she is definitely my biggest competition but I need her vote to make it past this tribal since TSN is in love with 2nd place, he just wants it so much that he decides to hand over Emile the win. I’m the most pissed I’ve ever been in this entire season because I knew before that these people weren’t the brightest crayons in the box but I never knew TSN was so stupid… He should’ve been on the dud tribe not Brawn. He literally flipped to the minority at the merge LMFAO and has been on the wrong side of the vote almost every single time. Not to mention he wrote my name down and basically begged me for forgiveness, have some respect! I have 0 tolerance for people who lack a backbone, like do you not have a brain? I swear he came here to be Sole Jellyfish and not Sole Survivor. Emile despite being good at challenges is the definition of the word floater. He jumps from side to side going to wherever the majority is, never making his own moves. Not to mention him needing immunity and advantages to survive every round. I’ve literally spent the past day trying to drill some common sense into TSN’s skull, he doesn’t stand a chance against Emile. It’s extremely frustrating but I have a master plan to make it past this vote, however it’ll only work if I win immunity. Jessy/I will vote out Emile, trick TSN into voting out Jessy and have Emile vote for TSN (if not he’d just go for me instead obviously) and then the vote would be 2-1-1 and Emile would be gone. I’m doing everything in my power to make sure Emile’s torch gets snuffed and I’m stopping at nothing to make this happen. My hands are already smeared in blood as it is and Emile is my prey. He might be able to outplay the challenges but he sure as hell can’t outwit me.

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- I expected Alexa to be trying to convince me to vote Jessy, but... she's hovering between not having an opinion and trying to convince me that TSN should go. I'm honestly baffled, guess jessy/alexa are tighter than I anticipated? There's no other reason for Alexa to want Jessy still in aside from loyalty.

And that loyalty is stopping me from trying to get Alexa to vote Jessy. Because I worry that Alexa will report to Jessy.

I hate when I'm unsure on what my next move should be

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- Lol i just realized this final 4 same as Kaoh rong final 4 😂 And i am Cydney ? 🙄🙄🙄 Ok, i need to change the history! This Cydney will win this season 🖕

Day 37
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- It seems the girls were loyal to each other after all, so, I fucked up in getting rid of Erin. Goddamit.

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- I’m LIVID. I’m literally about to explode, Smoke is about to come out of my ears! So not surprised, Emile won immunity yet again. I swear this kid has so much time to practice challenges since he’s never bothered to work on his social and strategic game but anyways my life in this game is hanging by a string. I’ve spent the past few days trying to knock some common sense into TSN’s microscopic sized brain but he doesn’t seem to get the memo. You’re playing for FIRST not second honey. The boys are basically trying to lead the charge on me for the 5th time and they won’t budge. Thankfully I have Jessy by my side who’s going to vote to keep me no matter what at this next vote. She’s smart, she knows that if she votes me out that she WILL get 3rd when one of those two wins immunity. I’m literally going to 99% end up going to have to go into a fire making tiebreaker, and I CANNOT let my fate go to a stupid challenge. I’m so angry that the person trying to get me out is the person who didn’t fucking PLAY THE GAME. He better hope there’s some sort of jury vote off because I will make his FTC a living hell if he manages to make it there over me, considering he doesn’t deserve it one bit. His atrocious game shouldn’t be rewarded with ANYTHING! I’m so mad right now it’s almost indescribable, I’m pulling out every card I can possibly pull out. Saying I’ve had to fight my ass off to get where I am is an understatement. And to have such a inept player like Emile come and take it away from me would literally be the worst. LMFAO he’s awful in every single way possibly and every day he forces me to bite my tongue even more. I’ve had to hold myself back from going off at him for like 15 days now. It takes so much effort to prevent myself from telling him that his game is literal shit and that I don’t buy any of his fake bullshit. I’ve put my heart and soul into Sichuan and I will fight until the very last second. I didn’t need immunity to make it another 3 days, I never needed anything. I had TWO IDOLS and I never once had enough votes to be eliminated. He on the other hand needs it because his social game is the equivalent of a pile of shit, he can’t make it past a vote. If he thinks he’s going to get me out and not feel the heat he’s in for a big storm, I do appreciate a good game move but I REFUSE to reward a coward. I’m putting out all the cards out on the table, nobody’s getting in the way of my win. I’ve been playing ruthlessly since the second I entered this game and I show no compassion, especially for weak-minded jellyfish like TSN. I’m campaigning my ass off like I have every vote and I WILL make it past this vote. I hope I’ve been able to make all you guys proud including the amazing hosts we had this season! I can say that Sichuan is truly unforgettable and will always be a great experience for me. This season also allowed me to find out that I can do so much more than I let myself believe I can! It’s truly been a roller coaster, going from top dog to isolated to top dog to underdog, it’s been amazing for me. I’m TWO days away from possibly winning this entire game and I’m determined to make it there. Stay fabulous <3

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- It's come to a potential end of the road for the best duo this season, possibly ONE of the best in ORG history. Emile "shockingly" wins immunity and him and I were "discussing" who to vote out. He argued that TSN is better, even though we both agreed he'd win against Alexa in both a FTC and immunity challenge. Kinda dumb thinking if you ask me but he started acting like an asshole and he knew it saying that "oh I knew I should've trusted you at F10/F9, I knew the way Erin was playing, I knew how TSN was voting, I have good reads on people! we should get rid of Alexa!" Like you're saying this to the person who is the straight up reason why youre in the F4 right now, I know how to make good decisions thank you very much. Basically I had to argue for Alexa for a while and I just brought up the conclusion that we should make it 2-2. Kinda annoying afterwards because Alexa told me Emile was talking about "Jessy vs TSN? Which to keep" or whatever when he literally spent an hour talking about that with me. He didnt give Alexa as much information so I'm under the assumption it'll be TSN vs Alexa in a fire making challenge, but Emile could flip the script on me and send me into the tiebreaker instead. At the end of the day, Alexa or I are going against TSN and we're facing tough waters ahead of us. I feel bad because its most likely Alexa, and I feel like I tried my hardest to save her when it matters and it all went to shit, so now I feel shitty but she told me not to worry about it. I have a gut feeling that she or I could go because, although I was hopeful for it, her and I realistically were never supposed to make FTC together, yet alone this far along in the game. Is she competition for me in the FTC? Absolutely, she's the sweet girl who befriended everyone and I'm the heartless bitch who got rid of everyone. At the end of the day, Alexa is a true friend to me so no matter how she would go I would still feel bad. If she goes, I know I'll have to win this and same thing if I go, she has to win this. I'm feeling hopeful for my own game because I believe I have a strong chance of getting into the F3, which could potentially be the group that goes to FTC, but I'm gonna be stressing until this tribal is over with.

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- I almost win immunity again but I didn't. I hate second placeeee 😣 aaaaaa :((( Ok . My plan is keeping Emile in my side and leading Jessy to vote Alexa . I think both of them want to go final 2 with me . Of course, no one want to go with ALEXA . They don't have a lot of chances to win if going with her . So kick that bitch's ass and go with me is the best choice

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- Tie breaker 😩😩😩😩 I am too nervous now 😞 I must win it for me, for everyone who believe in me... and for Emile

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- I flopped in this challenge and i can feel it. I know i will can go soon. I just disappointed of myself. But if i lose, i need to go. 3 of you are amazing players ! It is too close and i wanna go to final tribal council so much :(((( I was eliminated before final tribal in some orgs and if it happens again, it hurts! Omg :((( i am crying!
 * praying*

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- this is where you shut your mouth and wait patiently until you can speak in finals

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- Everything went to my plans..... again! This season is full of Jessy's original plan going perfectly lol I'm dead. Alexa is pissed the fuck off and I'm loving it bc she's finally letting loose all her opinions this season. I am getting a little annoyed bc she's saying "I controlled every blindside all season" and like ummm..... she wanted Aromal out at every tribal since merge, so Mai, Priscilla, Yasmin, and Jake were not her blindsides at all lol. It's a little annoying but whatever I'm ignoring it. Bottom line is Alexa and I are in the F3, which is possibly the Final Tribal Council, and I'm another step closer to winning this game just like I planned!

Day 38
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- So just like I predicted my ass was almost grass today, it going it to a tiebreaker. I was so fucking pissed that I just had to go off on TSN and tell him the truth. You suck at this game and your game is the definition of the word TRASH so don’t mess with me. He took it like a wimp and had the weakest responses ever and all he did was give me a little laugh. I’m done with him and I hope he enjoys jury, I don’t care for him and if he doesn’t vote for me then that’s perfectly fine with me it’s not like he can persuade anyone anyways. I am so ecstatic to see his torch go out for the pathetic cheater he is. Messaging jurors for answers, like are you that afraid of me? I spent a good 38 days in this game keeping my chill and today was the last straw I was not having any of TSN’s bullshit. Complaining about me not voting for Jessy when he fucking wrote my name down? Goodbye, good riddance and be gone. Such a pathetic player having to go out as being DISQUALIFIED that’s what you get for being a worthless pawn in this game. I’m not a mean person by any means but TSN pushed all my buttons in every way possible. You better not take a shot at me and miss because there’s nothing I won’t do to get my revenge. Moving forward I’m in a tough situation as usual because if Emile wins immunity he WILL vote me out, he even messaged me saying he would. I need to decide which way is better for me exterminating Emile the challenge beast or Jessy. They’re both big threats for me at the Final Tribal and I’m weighing out all my options at this point. I’m proud of the game I’ve played and I know for a fact I have a shot at winning this, I’ve been building my resume since Day 1! Emile is acting as if he was talked into voting me, give up the act already. I’ve been done with him for hell knows how long and I can’t wait until I can finally stop listening to his bullshit. I called him out on his transparent game and he basically agreed, talk about the truth. He knows he sucked socially and I’m going to make sure every single person on the jury is well aware of that. I didn’t come here to fuck around, I came here to come out on top. Both people left are pissing me the fuck off and I’m doing everything in my power to make sure I survive if it’s a F2, my only chance is immunity. And to all of you messaging me all season with support, thank you so much it means a lot!

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- So we're down to three, and we don't know if we have one more immunity challenge to go, or not. I'm tempted to just throw immunity because I am not interested in doing the girls' homework for them. And what would happen? I get voted out, but that's a better option than doing jessy or alexa's move for them. Unless, you know, I think I could actually beat either of them. I'd have a better shot if it was a f3 FTC (?) because people would split votes between jessy/alexa and the rest of the votes go on me! (inb4 none of the brains/tsn want to vote for me)

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- After reading Alexa's rites of passage, I'm tempted to take her to f2 and bury her game

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- DAY 38 LMFAO WHAT?! I never thought I’d make it this far, had you asked me a few episodes ago I would’ve told you that my ass was grass. I’ve been a target for so long now and look at me now! I have a 1 in 3 shot at winning this game and it feels so good but I get a little nauseous every time I remember Emile is still here. I called him out and he openly admitted to flopping at this game socially yet he tells Jessy and I that we stand 0 chance against him and that he’s winning this game no matter what. I don’t know who the fuck told him to put himself on a pedestal but it’s seriously going to bite him in the ass and I hope it stings. Whether I’m the final juror or a finalist I WILL be calling out Emile’s shitty social/strategic game for what it really is and he will feel the wrath of Alexa yet again, he’s not going to get rewarded for his atrocious social game, not letting it happen. Jessy is also someone who’s worried me for a long ass time and if I win this final immunity challenge there’s a good chance she could be voted out, it all depends which way I believe the jury will go. I need this win so badly because my lives in this game are running out. I’ve campaigned and flipped the votes that were going against me but this time the one person who’s spent the entire second half of the season trying to get me out could be the sole voter, Emile has already told me that if he wins it that he does not want to see me advance to the FTC but he’s so close-minded! TSN played Emile’s game and Emile played Jessy’s game, the guy serious has no guts. He refuses to make a move for himself and has been put on a leash this entire season but that isn’t going to stop me. I won’t let myself get this close to the end and not make it, I’m not giving up. I’m going to use every fiber of campaigning that I have to ensure that I make it past this final vote, I’m a fighter I’ve survived a target on my back for a very long time. I purposely didn’t try in the early immunity challenges because a) that puts a MAJOR target on your back and b) I didn’t need immunity to make it another 3 days. If you need immunity to survive in this game then your game is flawed *cough* Emile. He thinks he’s the god of this island and he’s got a big storm coming if he expects me to just sit back and sign him over the winning title, he’s out of his mind if he thinks I’m letting that happen. I’ve proven time after time that I’m not scared to speak my mind and that you better not take a shot at me and miss because I will not leave anything unsaid, I came here to be a shark not a minnow. I’ve worked way too hard to come so close and have the journey end here, not letting it happen! I’ve overcome to many obstacles to make it here, hell I had one of the roughest roads here. I’m so proud of how far I’ve come and there’s so much left for me to do accomplish, the win is so close I can taste it. Emile should know better than to mess with me because that FTC will be a living hell for him, he better get off whatever pedestal he’s sitting on.

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- I'm beyond pissed right now. Emile told me he spent 11 hours on immunity, what the fuck? Literally what normal human being spends 11 hours getting a score of 1 million. Anyways, I was so close to winning immunity and I'm super upset that Alexa and I can't make F2, like actually heart wrenching because we were such an amazing duo all season. Now, I need to convince Emile that Alexa has too many bonds to get into FTC. I'm playing down my game, saying that I didn't control anything and the fact that I have 0 votes against me is just luck, but I'm not sure if its working. I'm scared for my life honestly and I just really want to make it to the end. I think in reality Emile is losing either way, but I just hope he thinks he can beat me instead of Alexa. I dont want to throw Alexa under the bus at all, but I feel desperate in pleading my case in a way that doesn't slander her. This is NOT how my immunity plan was supposed to go.... but I hope my plan of getting to the F2 still works out for me. This could be the end for me, but I'll be going out fighting

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- I’m in the worst spot I could possibly be in! The idiot who’s spent the past 5 votes trying to turn the tables on me is now the sole voter, and knowing Emile he’s going to snuff my torch because he has been playing Jessy’s game all season long and wouldn’t be able to survive without his master leading him around on a leash. Get some fucking respect! You played an atrocious social game (which barely even exists) and made idiotic strategic moves, all you did was win challenges. I’m using every ounce of campaigning I have left in me to make sure Jessy is the one voted out instead of me, such a shame because I would’ve LOVED to write Emile’s name down, send him the fuck out of Sichuan! I’m really sad because I’m just one day away from making it to the FTC, I’m so close yet so far. I’ve had to overcome so many obstacles to make it where I am. This season has been amazing in every way possible and I know I can win this if I could just make it past this last tribal. I’ve been ruthless and have had to cut close allies emotions weren’t an option in this game. I dominated socially and that’s what allowed me to gain control in the blindsides. I had to bite my tongue and hold myself back from popping off at people for making the dumbest decisions in ORG history, it was really tough. The one person who doesn’t deserve to win this game now has a 1 in 2 chance of doing so and it really fucking sucks! He’s telling me how he finds it too dangerous to take such a strong social gamer to the end and that he hopes he doesn’t regret his decision. Either way, FTC will be a living hell for Emile because I’ve made it crystal clear that I will NOT leave anything unsaid, everything will be out on the table. I’ve given this game my all and I refuse to give up, no matter how many times Emile says he’s voting me out. I have such a respect and love for this game that I just cannot be the type of person to sit back and do nothing when their ass is on the line it’s just not possible for me. Emile needs to grow some balls and stop being a coward, if you’re going to vote me out don’t fucking apologize. You’re not sorry about anything, you’ve been dying to vote me out so just shut the hell up and make a MOVE. Cowards don’t win Survivor. Afraid you’re going to piss Jessy off? You should seriously be ashamed. And spending ELEVEN hours doing the Brawn challenge, that’s the only thing he’s capable of doing. He can’t socialize, he can’t strategize but he can sure as hell click. That’s all he’s done all game and I swear he thinks we’re playing Survivor: Borneo. There’s no fucking words to describe how pissed off I am! There’s no way in hell I’m going to let Emile make me give up, I will keep fighting until my torch is snuffed.

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- As long as the people from the brain alliance + 1 bitter member vote for me, I should be able to win. If I take Alexa and lose it'll definitely be something I want to take back. Because I think Jessy deserves it far more than her. But, I'm expecting Alexa to blow it at the FTC, espeically if she pulls the same stuff that she did in the rites of passage.

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- Alexa just told me that Emile said to her he's taking her to the F2. Emile just campaigned to me a tribal ago about how she we should Alexa out incase the FTC occurs at the F3 and bc she's a jury threat..... honestly I'm gonna do absolutely everything I can to get to the end. I worked hard enough already, this is just the last stretch and I hope I can work my magic onto him. It's looking tough, but I'm going to be a warrior and come out fighting, hopefully come out on top as well

Day 39
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- I MADE IT!!!!! My journey is finally coming to an end, and everything is working out to my plans.... AGAIN! I really believe I can win this, Emile ultimately did nothing but listen to me and win immunities. I played a very strong game, I think one to remember and one that deserves to win. My jury speech explains absolutely everything, being my pretty much flawless game to be quite frank lol. I'm staying positive, but at the end of the day I did what I set out to do, which was to become the Sole Survivor!

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- I feel like my jury speech answers definitely cleared my name and set the record straight for most jurors! I'm hoping these people see how hard I went in this season, my journey to get here, and basically reward me for the game I played! I believe compared to Emile I played a way more aggressive and active game, and with that I'm praying that I end up being the Sole Survivor at the end of this!

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- It's been a nice ride, a bit mad at myself for fucking everything up at the last minute due to my impulsive nature. Hopefully it's only the start to my org journey around here. Everyone was great, the challenges were interesting, the players impressed me. If there's one lesson I take out from all this, it's to be more humble. Sometimes we think we can stay in the zone forever. But everyone has a cracking point.

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- I think that this experience for me was definitely a wake-up call to who I am as a person but in a good way! I came into this thinking there was absolutely no way I could get to the end, I'd have to float or just be plain old lucky to make it to even the Final 6 or something, and yet here I am in the Final 2 as someone who had one of the best gameplays in this season! I knew I was an underestimated player, and I feel that I underestimated myself as well, but I fought my way to the end and it worked! I never thought I had the social skills to do half the stuff I did in this season, and I believe that having more confidence in myself to do what I want will pay off in the end. I was a charmer, which is something I always referred to myself as but I never really had proof but I think this season is a double check that I was right. I think I cleared myself up with the jury, so a win is hopefully in the making for me! I'm trying to get all the good karma and good wishes I can! I came into this season saying I only want one thing out of it, to be the Sole Survivor at the end, and as I always say, right now....It's All Happening! xoxo