Board Thread:Season 28 - Generations/@comment-25270574-20151009063700/@comment-24769179-20151012083755

Hey Po, thanks for actually being one of the few that gave me a chance to speak at this Final Tribal Council.

Honestly, I feel really bad that you think I sorta just dropped you, which I understand if it made you feel like whatever connection we had in the game was never genuine on my part. I mean, you don't have to believe me, as I would understand it can come off as pandering (see how Sam's addresses the jury members). I really did feel like we had a nice bond, in terms of the game wise and on a friendship level. It was a mistake on my part, but in the hustle and bustle of everything, I never got around to talking to you around that part. And I admit it, it was my mistake. Should have checked in with a lot of more people, you especially, even if I was voting you out.

To answer your question, my first move of the merge is something I had set up going into it. A round or two before the merge, I had individually gone up to Tyler R. and Sam (the two big names on the Qahtan side) to squash all rumors of any premades that regarded myself and to further strengthen a working relationship. So yes, it was my intention during that first round of the merge to vote out a Shehr member. As grateful as I was that you guys had took me in as a lonely hermit during the swap, I didn't feel comfortable in my position within the alliance. I'm sure everyone wants to just claim that I never had an independent thought within this game (which isn't realistic in the slightest), but I flipped. What fell in line too at the time was that Amir and Mihai decided to vote with Qahtan, so it worked out. I'm not going to claim that I lead the charge on this vote, as I decided to go with what that side wanted because it was the only way it would seem to have worked out. You were merely the victim of Mihai and Amir stating they only wanted to vote you because they felt like they had an obligation to Molly and Amelia during the Jamie boot.

From there, bounced around a bit to vote out key players. I can't claim that many moves were solely my own, just like the others. This is Survivor, I had to rely on other people in this game, just like they relied on myself throughout this. It's not like they had to poison my brain or plant a seed to make a garden, I was just on the same wavelength. I was involved with the strategy talks to move forward, on who to vote out, and the explanations why. An example of this was during the Jessy boot. Once our alliance had found out through Kevin that Jessy found the idol, it was perfect fuel for me to drive into the ground that we needed to vote her out that round. It was my goal initially because Sam had this attachment to her, and I unfortunately did not. Even when Sam found out about it, she was still apprehensive, so I just drilled in logic.

I understand that me saying "I was busy" can be tiresome, but it's true. I also had a strong feeling at the time that if I were to lose that challenge, the chances of myself making it to the end was high. And idk how else to say that without sounding like an arrogant douche, but if it does, so be it. So it gave me further incentives to just drop the challenge and focus on studying. And I didn't just not try at the challenge, I did submit for the flash game and the TROLOL portion.