Survivor Isn't All Cheese/Confessionals

Day 20
"riza"

- Hunter Confessional 6 - "I AM FUCKING FUMING" ""makeinu"

- Oh ffs. I have mixed emotions tonight, like I just voted out Jessy who I love and adore, there's now a double tribal that we have to go to and I'm scared to death yet kinda happy because if I go then it sucks, but if I don't go then I outlast 2 more people so it's like hard, and a large part of me thinks I won't be the target, but then a larger more paranoid part of me thinks I will be which is a common theme with me this season!! I'm kinda hoping I just get insanely lucky and win immunity so I don't have to worry, but with my luck it'll be Charley who wins immunity and it'll be me scrambling to not get any votes against me. I hate this game. "						""riza"

- JESSY.... one of my closest allies gone. I'm going to get my revenge and I'm going to get it good. Put some salt in the wound! at least people won't talk about us being a duo anymore or whatever first Uli, now Jessy, my allies are dropping like flies Obviously Charley's probably the one who saved her At least she voted against Emile 😭😂 "						"riza"

- Wow, I'm beyond shocked at Jessy leaving. It's almost bittersweet. I actually looked up to her a lot during Cyprus being the previous winner, so seeing another strong winner leaving this early is shocking! However, it's sort of proves to me that Sichuan isn't as close as everyone thinks. AND my babe Emile is still here so that's another number for me. "riza"

- You know this is one of those moments where you can either... A. be angry and blow up your game or B. take that anger and channel it into an even bigger desire to win this game. And that's exactly what I'm gonna fucking do! I'm gonna act happy & content but I will be holding this against them and when the time is right they will be paying their dues. ""makeinu"

- If I'm being honest with myself, I really am disappointed in my performance so far. I've made some tight bonds but I think I've been pretty unlikable, and I don't think I'm an obvious threat to win right now. I played sloppy yesterday and gave Charley too much information for no reason, so now I have to make sure she goes next and I hit the merge with people I trust. I know I've been relatively powerless so far, I've been playing to survive and not to dominate, which isn't what I want for myself. Come the merge, I'm going to try and get in touch with the old Berk. Start turning people against each other and make big moves. "						""makeinu"

- I'm not sure when I did my last confessional, so let's just start from the 7-7 swap. Jessy was talking to me like I was her best friend while at the same time being reserved about her game. In other words, shady. I think many others felt the same vibe coming from her - And that's why she got voted out. It also didn't help her that she was in the minority with Charley against the 5 of us. So that's a shame, the Sichuan dream team is no more. So we just got through a vote and get hit with an imminent guaranteed tribal straight away. Not cool. Everything points to Charley being voted off this round. That's the ideal scenario - Charley just leaves. But knowing how the survivor gods operate, she will win individual immunity and the vote will be messy AF. If Charley does win, I expect a Matt boot. I'm pretty sure Chris and Claire won't turn on me so worst case scenario it's 3-3. I'm not sure if it's better to get rid of Ash, or Matt. I'll be closer to Matt than I'll ever be with Ash, but I can't foresee a good timing to get rid of Matt later in the game. Ash won't be hard to get rid of later, I think. Finally, I just hope Alexa or Hunter don't mutiny to our tribe because that would be a disaster ! "						"riza"

- I'm really nervous about how this is all going to work out but I've been working really hard these past few days to integrate myself socially. Sora, we hit it off right away and became close allies. Hunter's amazing and we obviously have an alliance so he's an ICON! Lowkey don't really trust him though. Jamie/Jared, we repaired our shit but I'm not sure how deep their loyalty goes. Brett and I have been talking a lot but again, no idea how deep the loyalty is. Ally and I were friends before this but I have no hesitation voting her out. Omg but if things do go sour and it comes down to Hunter/Me I'm voting him out 100% no doubt about it. I've been dealt some unlucky hands in this game but I'm a fighter and am NEVER ever giving up. ""riza"

- So with individual immunity, it's safe to assume that merge is next (I mean it might not be... it definitely SHOULD be, but I don't trust the hosts to not merge at like 9 or something crazy), and that means this TC has to be about removing people who aren't loyal to me. The main person on this tribe who embodies that is Hunter - I KNOW he's with Ash and will want me out to appease her. So I want him out at this TC if possible.

The only issue is he could have an idol, and that worries me. I mean I have no clue if he has one lol, he might not have one at all but who knows. What if does though, and he votes me and plays it, and it's 6-1 and I go? Alexa also said that the whole tribe should vote unanimously to be united, and while she may actually mean that, there's a chance she could be trying to make the whole tribe vote Hunter so he plays his idol, I or one of my allies go, and then she sets herself up as a middle man for the merge.

I think it's safer to split the vote 3-2, either with 3 on Hunter or potentially even with 3 on Alexa. If there's 3 on Hunter, then I know he's definitely getting majority votes and will go. Alexa will probably vote him too, making it 4-2-1. If he plays his idol, Alexa goes. However, I think the smarter choice is putting 3 on Alexa, because then the vote is most likely 3-3-1, with Hunter going in the revote. That ones just more safe - although it risks Alexa potentially going if she decides to vote with Hunter, it eliminates the a slight chance that something crazy could happen, like in the other situation (where Hunter gets 3 votes)... if Alexa has a light pearl and then votes with Hunter and Hunter plays his idol, its suddenly 2-1-0 with Alexa/Hunter having the deciding votes. Of course, all these situations assume that neither Alexa/Hunter win immunity, and that Ally, Brett, Jared and Sora remain loyal to me. Most of these probably seem really far-fetched too and I get that but I'm just trying to think through every opportunity and making it so it's almost impossible that Alexa and Hunter can take over the tribe.

REGARDLESS, I want Hunter's and Alexa's votes to fall onto Ally anyway, so that she goes if something crazy goes down. Sora told me that he has an alliance with those 2, and also told me that they'd be voting most likely be voting for Ally which I PUSHED for once he told me. It's not that I don't trust Ally because I do, and I wouldn't mind going far with her, it's just that if someone from our little clique has to go then I'd prefer it to be her lol. AND as for that little clique, I honestly love it. I'd love that group to make F5 and I really don't see myself turning on them (lmfao tho I make a conf like this every time I get into an alliance, and every time I turn on that same alliance so we'll see what happens). "						"makeinu"

- Charley can't win immunity. If she does it becomes guys vs girls, and if it's not me going it's probably Emile. I need all the friends I can get going into this merge, things are about to get CRAZY.

Day 21
"makeinu"

- Well, that shows where people stand. I'm genuinely surprised at the results with Hunter. Also, great, just like I thought, I'm annoying. Great for my self esteem 😃👍👍👍. Also fuck, I'm on people's radars. ""makeinu"

- I'm fucked. No really this time. I'm so screwed it isn't even funny. Because Chris and Ash keep saying ""We got your back!"" and it might be true from Ash, idk though, but I don't trust Chris for a second. I think they're all going to go for me, and then do their sad little parchments like ""Bye :( "" and act like it's a burden on them, when you know I'm the one actually paying for it so don't act sad. I think this will happen. There's little doubt in my mind that I'm going home, it's just going to happen. I'm going to fight for stay, I'm already pushing for Matt hardcore, and if this works then I deserve a prize. This is putting me in an impossible situation, and I just want to survive goddamnit. Too bad I don't trust a soul on here. If I do survive, I'm done with these people and their paranoia inducing mindgames. But I don't think I will. At least I'll hopefully make the jury, and hopefully someone good can still win this season. "						""riza"

- I am in the worst position possible like I feel like no matter which way I decide to vote tonight, it will deeply effect my chances of winning and potential friendships ending There's Jared and Brett who are my number ones and I would never vote out. But maybe voting one out would prove I'm not attached to them. There's Jamie who seems logical to go after due to our history, but we grew so much this season and having her would keep me off of Ash's radar for a while. There's Alexa who's one of my best friends here on org, and all the fingers are pointing towards her but I just don't think I can morally vote her out after how close we've gotten. "						"riza"

- So right now with Hunter winning immunity that throws out the plan of getting rid of him. Now the obvious plan B is for the Mystery Inc gang to stick together and get out Alexa. But I'm not positive I wanna do that. Ally is a close friend of mine outside the game but I know how she plays and she's a strong player but with her position in the game I don't think anyone is targeting her and I feel like Jamie and I are gonna be like shields for her to use because she hasn't burned any bridges like we have. I also have this rumor going around all the time about me and Ally b being a duo and I kinda wanna get rid of that. I'm not sure if I can trust Alexa though so it's hard to decide what I wanna do. "makeinu"

- Please make it through this, Alexa... "makeinu"

- HOLY SHIT ALEX'S VOTE OUT JUST HAD ITS FIRST REAPINGS: CLAIRE BEING WILLING TO WORK WITH ME IN MY ASSHOLERY OF SAVING CHARLEY. "riza"

- Ally is funny. She thinks she's fooling us with her fake alliance. Nobody will touch my little Angle. Alexa will stay and I will kill all that are trying to hurt my cub. ""makeinu"

- Who would've thought Christopher Blueu would make it to the final 11 (hopefully a merge) with no votes cast against him in an all-star season that had 24 people to start with???? I sure as hell didn't think I would!!!! Unfortunately there's still a long way to go and immunity really doesn't do anything for me but ensure safety for this one tribal council. I still need to figure out what I wanna do for the vote, and it's between Charley or Matt and like ideally I'd love for Matt to stay as I feel like I can trust him, he's told me multiple times that he trusts me the most, but like I don't know if that's going to be best for me or not. Matt has the ability based on his loose ties and loose bonds with this tribe to play both sides and position himself really really well, which I don't want, whereas keeping Charley around continues to let Ash believe she has Emile/Claire and I in her pocket, it allows Hunter to feel comfortable joining in to make us a six, that is if Alexa goes, and it doesn't expose my trio with Emile and Claire, which is something that would happen if Charley left as Ash does not want her leaving under any circumstances and thinks she's like subtly trying to plant seeds to get her to stay even though it's obvious what she's doing. So, IDK what I'm gonna do for the vote but I'm glad I'm outlasting two more people!! I also went back to Rishiri with winning immunity and honestly I'd just rather stay away at this point. I can't get shit from there, it's a curse not a blessing for me as I'm not getting anything but a target on my back for going there three times now and regardless of what I say people aren't gonna fully believe me. Luckily it's easier to tell the truth then to lie about something you have so maybe I can use it as leverage and people will see my story is so elaborate that it can't be a lie. But fuck Rishiri honestly it's a bunch of hoopla all for nothing "						"riza"

- You know... I couldn't be in a worse situation right now. The one person who would've been a target over me is fucking SAFE, my closest ally just went home and I'm sitting in the middle of crosshairs. I'm also VERYYY annoyed at how I'm viewed as having "no chance" haha well guess what that's what they said last time and I ran the whole show. And this time isn't any different, if they only knew half the crazy shit I've done thus far. This burns the desire for me to win even MORE, and I cannot wait to prove them wrong. "riza"

- Guess who just went from target to kingpin? This bitch right here! If I'm not being a delusional bitch then I just flipped the target from me to my beloved friend Ally who's gone around campaigning for me to go in such a way that the people who HATEDDD my guts (Jared/Jamie) at the beginning of this game who I then misted into an alliance revealed to me. I love you Ally but you messed with the WRONG person! You had your chance, now this is my time to dominate. ""riza"

- SO I'm not making a bitchy tribal reply to Ash, but here is what it would have been: JAMIE - What's your stance on the ""editing war""? OKAY so I've been waiting to bring this up without wanting to attack Ash cross-tribal. So incase I go home this TC, I'm gonna address EVERYTHING here, and let both tribes see why me and Ash have beef. I have been editing Ash's page and adding 'Cheaters' to it, and it's been removed every time. This is because Ash talked cross-tribal, and not only did she talk cross-tribal, she bitched about me and made personal attacks to people about me whilst talking cross-tribal. It's funny because Ash said this in her last TC answer: 'Your only involvement in the incident was when, despite our disagreements, I wished you good luck, and you blew the whistle on me, in order to sabotage my game as best as you could without breaking the rules that you seem to hold dear.' And yet, it wasn't me who reported her, and she wasn't reported for saying 'good luck', she was reported for being a bitch and make people target me. WHICH MAKES THIS COMMENT EVEN FUNNIER: 'These edits are supposed to be under the hosts' discretion, and under their knowledge and wisdom. Jamie, you simply do not know the situation as well as the hosts or myself might.' THE FUNNY THING IS, I KNOW THE SITUATION BETTER THAN HER! I KNOW WHY SHE WAS REPORTED LMAO, AND SHE DOESN'T! AND she also said this: 'I genuinely had good intentions towards you in this game, Jamie. Believe it or not. And honestly? I'm disappointed that you chose to act this way.' And yet, she clearly did NOT have good intentions when she spent days slandering me to people on other tribes. So guess what Ash, I'm disappointed that YOU chose to act this way. Moreover, if we get to the root of why Ash hates me, it's because of this GIF challenge. Ash believes I was pushy and rude, and yet I've reread our conversations together and this was simply not the case. For the GIF challenge, I made 23-24 custom made gifs, and Ash wanted to add random Big Brother gifs which broke the theme and I simply disagreed w/ her in the most polite way. Here are some of my (according to Ash) RUDE and PUSHY comments: Then in the tribe chat, I DID become somewhat more pushy in saying we should submit the challenge as it was. The thing is, people were starting to corrupt my GIF links and remove them from the document when I was trying to submit - throwing the challenge. Of course, having spent like 7 hours on these GIFs, I'd get angry at that. But yes, Ash hates me for being pushy and rude when I deliberately tried to be polite, and then tries to play it off like she's a victim and I'm some big bitch trying to oppress her or something when she made personal attacks on not only me, but others in the game too. The problem with Ash is that she's permanently stuck in a victim complex and can never take accountability or responsibility for her actions. She can't just admit she cheated by having the cheaters category, rather she'd brush over that and remove it from her page. She can't just admit that she talked cross-tribal, SLANDERING me, rather she had 'good intentions' and it's my fault that she hates me. Instead, the TRUTH is that Ash hates me for literally no reason. I'd like to see examples of me being pushy and a bitch in that GIF challenge because I read the tribe chat and our PMs and there are LITERALLY NO EXAMPLES OF IT. And even if I was pushy or rude, WE WON BY A LANDSLIDE, suggesting that it would have been justified if I was pushy, WHICH I WASN'T SO IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER LMFAO. -- I REFUSE to let this essay die, so here it is! "						"riza"
 * the issue w/ that bb gif is tho that legit ALL our gifs r survivor and having a random bb one would be like 'wtf' sakjabsd
 * ya im looking @the gifs and like ALL our gifs r custom ones w/ custom quotes so if we were gna add one of those it kinda like messes up the theme
 * tru kasbdjads its a story tho so i was goin for it to be a bit cheesy [this is a response to her saying my storyline was too cheesy, to which she responds with an iconic quote, 'Survivor isn't all cheese though, Sorry']

- This is fucking hilarious. Ally is DYING to get a name out of us and she's fighting so hard hahahahaha, it's so obvious this is fake. I can't wait for this blindside, it's gonna be the most satisfying this season. I love her though :( ""makeinu"

- Everyone on my tribe is saying the right things. They're saying that they want to save me, they want to work with me, and that Matt is going. And if Matt does go then... I mean good for me right? The problem is everyone is saying the right things, but I don't believe them at all. They just seem super shady, and they did the same thing last round with me and Jessy. I've done all I can do though, so at this point it's just a waiting game. Not excited this tribal though, think I'm going. "						"riza"

- You know... Going into this vote I was like I'm FUCKEDDDD to the max. But I had a few tricks up my sleeve and I'll just relay the whole last few hours. So right off the bat I go into game mode and approach Hunter about the vote and he initially wants Sora gone and I'm like WTF hold the phone? So then I talk to my Witches Coven alliance with Jamie/Jared and they tell me that Ally made a plan to make a fake alliance w/ Hunter & I to keep us not paranoid and immediately I'm like LMFAOOO the fact that I've been here for 3 days and have built more trust with these people than she has in 20 days is hilarious. So obviously she's campaigning to send me home I'm gonna quickly get to work and flip these votes in my favor. Hunter at first felt bad about voting Ally out but then I relayed all this info back to him and he was like this bitchhh and is on board. Jamie/I are really close (well for me it's temporary) so we immediately talked about how we both wanted Ally out because she's a shady bitch, also I took into account that she and Jamie have a rivalry which gives me more wiggle room to stay. Jared/Ally are REALLY close friends after so getting him to even consider voting her out was an accomplishment for me. Finally, I let Brett know about the fact that Ally used him as a decoy target in order for him to know that she considers him disposable enough to allow him to receive votes. Ally I'm just buttering up and playing dumb with her to make her believe she's the queen of this vote so she can go home with an idol in her pocket if she has one. This has a WILDDD 24 hours and if I survive this vote than it was one hell of an effort to do it. ""riza"

- Hunter I kinda have figured out his game a bit. He showed to me his super strategic side today and I can tell his whole jokester attitude is to blind people from seeing what a threat he is. When the time comes I'm gonna have to pull a fast one on him. LMFAOOO if Jared who I literally had so much beef with on Day 2 stays loyal to me and votes out one of his best friends then OMG I was able to flip this game. "						"riza"

- I really got the ball rolling to vote out Ally and it'd kinda be too late to do anything besides that. It'll definitely be the hardest move I made in both of my seasons but I feel like it'll be the best. I just hope this tribal goes smoothly. "makeinu"

- This vote is just fucking awful for me. We're likely voting Matt off, and it's all on me. This is my mastermind, to save Charley, and I couldn't feel worse. He was my #1 on Hizoku and I honestly just feel desolate. I'm half tempted to swap it to Charley, give her my idol and tell her to play it on herself and vote Emile or some shit just because of how hard this is on me. I never wanted to have to do this. This is honestly the hardest vote I've ever had to do in my entire ORG career, and I'm not sure how to get through this. ""makeinu"

- I'm not sure why I forgot that Ash would try really hard to defend Charley. So, we could either go against it and possibly face an idol play and/or ash not relying on us anymore. We could lie to her which would expose Calculated Destruction as one unit (so we're not doing that), or we could go along with it and satisfy her need for multiple close allies, losing Matt (who has no one) in the process. She's greedy for extra power and guaranteed numbers to protect her.

So her time will come.

And Matt is going home this tribal. I did say I couldn't foresee a time for him to leave during the merge, so this isn't exactly bad. However, I feel the same way about Charley. I can't see when the tribe would feel she needs to go. So I'll see if it's possible to have a close bond with Charley. "						"riza"

- https://twitter.com/twtyeol/status/797505153163259908 me entering the mystery inc 3.0 chat and me when jared starts making crazy plans without consulting me first "makeinu"

- Matt doesn't trust me for a second and he probably sees I'm lying right to his face, and he told me he was going to "tell me something when the votes are in" which to me is like saying he has a trick up his sleeve and he's gonna reveal it to me after the votes and tell me "i didn't believe you" so now I'm scared that Emile or Claire is about to be blindsided ! "riza"

- I'm so annoyed right now like me and Jamie literally gave Sora and Brett so much time to speak up and all of a sudden they're both scared and feel like we just took control when we literally gave them opportunities to speak up before we decided to do it "makeinu"

- Last minute rumors say that I could be going home and if I am well that's okay I got pretty far and I'll be ready to leave 😊 ""riza"

- Holy fuck I don’t know where to begin shit has hit the fan. People are overplaying so hard right now and absolutely tanking their games.

It all began when Hunter won immunity, he was obviously the intended vote and he saved himself. Myself/Sora/Jamie/Jared/Ally had a Scooby Doo alliance, which should have stayed loyal and just taken out Alexa, but shit got very convoluted.

Also I got some good answers in the challenge which was worrisome as I didn’t think people would be thinking of me as a threat this early in the game.

Ally suggested a really shady plan in which she would vote with Alexa/Hunter against me and pretend like she was left out of the loop to pull Hunter in, but this plan made no fucking sense and just showed that Ally is playing a very individualistic game. That plan hurts everyone’s game except for Ally, she would escape with no blood on her hands. Regardless, what Ally did wasn’t even that bad she just suggested a plan that was a little shady.

Jared on the other hand totally fucked up in my opinion, he got way too paranoid and began to gun for Ally, he spilled this to Alexa who then spilled it to Hunter. This pretty much caused the destruction of the Scooby Doo alliance. And as of now it seems like we are all going to be blindsiding Ally.

Sora and myself don’t really agree with this plan but it’s snowballed so far out of control that there isn’t really any going back. Had Alexa and Hunter been left in the dark about this plan I definitely would have tried to flip it and save Ally but there is no point now, if Ally survives she will eventually be informed about what was going to happen and she would come after us all.

We literally had a 5 person majority alliance in the pre merge phase of the game, how we couldn’t keep the alliance together for ONE vote is absolutely beyond me. This vote was handled so poorly and I blame it all on Jared. All this was absolutely messy and pitiful game-play.

This vote is definitely opening up my eyes though, it’s clear that there is a little three-way alliance going between Jared, Jamie and Alexa, I have no fucking clue why else they would try and save her. I see right through Alexa’s game, she is a total snake in the grass and has no problem lying, she thinks she has this bomb ass social game but in reality she comes off very fake, I don’t trust her at all. Oh and Hunter is totally not going to be loyal to any of us at the merge, why would he lmao. This voting round was so poorly played I am ashamed to even be apart of it.

Honestly none of this would have been happening if I had any say in it, but I was out last night and this entire morning getting belligerently drunk so I haven’t really been online and able to strategize as much as I want. I am really sad to be writing Ally’s name down tonight, she was a great friend and alliance member in this game but she just suffered an unlucky break, I wasn’t online to try and save her 😞

Whatever though, it’s not even the merge yet, there is still a ton of game left to play, I have no reason to be overplaying and pushing my agenda, so I am gonna let these people dig their graves. "						""riza"

- Um so Hunter won and everything has been CRAZY ever since. I’m literally gonna get no sleep tonight because of this absolute #mess of a tribal.

So I was good with voting Alexa, and Jared decided he wanted Ally gone out of nowhere. I was shocked but I have been pushing for it. Sora and Brett were hesitant but I literally gave them no option by telling Alexa and Hunter to vote them. That way if we vote Alexa out, Ally will get told everything by Hunter and flip so we HAVE to vote out Ally. My reasoning behind this? She’s against me, she’s a dangerous player and I don’t see myself in her long-term plans. Moreover, she really could have an idol from Rishiri and she’s been the most (I think) out of anyone, so I want that potential threat gone. There’s also ~other reasons but those are the main ones.

I’m super wary though because, even though it was Jared’s plan, I’ve done all the work to make sure Ally goes. If anything backfires and she catches wind, it’ll be ME going not him. SO I might wanna throw some votes onto Alexa and make sure I definitely stay safe, but then again she’d get ostracised so I don’t know… It’s a tough situation. "						""riza"

- ok also it's literally like I am Soras sock. We are the same person.

We are on the same page with everything personality/strategy/enemies with Chris blue.

Right now he's my ride or die dude "						"riza"

- Also for the record it really bugs me that Jared and Jamie basically jumped the gun on this without asking me and Brett (who were both not home last night to talk all night about it) about it. Jared taking Ally out like that is cold man, he called the hit on her basically out of paranoia and she was gonna be loyal to him but I can't take how shitty I feel about this into consideration because I need the people who want her gone to think I'm okay with it and on their side, but the fact they turned on her this quick is really telling about how frail these people are with relationships here.