Just Look at the Flowers/Confessionals

Day 24
"akitaipu"

- Charley... I'M SO SORRY. You don't deserve to be where you are, you deserve to be here. Jamie's a fucking SNAKE and I'm going to make sure that the bitch gets exactly what's coming to her. Whether I have to spend fucking 10000 hours on immunity to win I fucking will. I'm not giving up, not for one second. ""akitaipu"

- Holy shit, I feel like I just walked into a strip club with $50 and came out with $5,000. That vote worked out so fucking well for me, I just reaped all the rewards and seem to have gotten no blood on my hands. Everyone is drinking the Brett Kool-Aid. And you know what? I think they are actually enjoying it.

So post Charley blindside, Jared decides to start popping off in the group chat with Hunter/Ash and I am over here sipping my cup of bourbon chuckling as he digs his grave deeper. Everyone knows that it is stupid in survivor to shun the people who are on the bottom.

Meanwhile I am chatting with Hunter/Alexa I played up that I felt they were being untrustworthy towards me because they didn’t disclose that they were in an alliance chat with the opposite side. This isn’t the case at all, I knew they were telling the truth about wanting to blindside Chris. But now they think that they fucked up by not telling Sora and myself about that alliance chat. Right now I am grooming Hunter/Alexa for potential back pocket votes, Chris is going to need to be blindsided very soon and they will be very valuable for that. Even better is that Alexa/Hunter/Ash aren’t even mad at Sora or myself, they are all pissed at one of Chris/Jamie/Jared because that’s who they think the ringleaders were for this vote when in reality it seemed to be myself and Sora (at least from my perspective)

I am really worried though that I might have my hand in too many cookie jars, people are going to start catching on to my game very soon so I just have to be extremely careful with my words. I don’t plan on using my tribal skip this coming tribal, but I definitely might play with the idea of using it next tribal. "						"akitaipu"

- Oh great, it's one of those games where everything goes wrong. "akitaipu"

- This is so fucking tragic that I have to work with FUCKING ASH. On another note, Brett told me that he realized that I was actually being legit about the plan and that he's open to working with me. You know, if anybody thinks I'm giving up the fight they're seriously mistaken. My plan moving forward is to let people believe I've buried the hatchet and pick up Ash/Hunter/Brett/Sora as possible numbers. Nothing in this game is impossible, no matter hoe far-fetched it seems. "akitaipu"

- So obviously since a social game doesn't seem to fucking work in this fucking godawful season, let's turn into a fucking cunt. I have nothing to fucking lose. Nobody trusts me. I have no one on my side, and I have no fucking reasons to stay loyal to anyone. I have never been so fucking alone in a fucking game, and you best believe that there will be consequences if I can do anything about it. Fuck playing loyal. It gets you nowhere. I'm gonna backstab my fucking way to the end, and if I don't, I'll at least have fun doing it. "akitaipu"

- On the other hand, I'm a fucking idiot though. "akitaipu"

- I resent Alexa for only coming to me after they fucked up. Like, fuck you. Now that you fucked up, and didn't bother trusting me and realized that no one fucking trusts you, you run to me after lying to me? Fuck you. ""akitaipu"

- I survived tribal and I'm honestly so stunned, like you can be told all you want that you're safe and everything is going to work out but that means nothing until the votes come in. Buttttttt, I'm here!!!!!! I'm happy to be here!!!! I got Ash to waste her idol!!!! I'm just very pleased overall. I'm happy I got votes and that I'm not one of the people left without votes cast against them, because it will get to a point where it shows you're a threat for having no votes against you and I won't be a threat!! The only problem about the vote was Ash was like livid with me. I bonded and connected with her really well and we worked together all throughout the swap, and she was pissed offffff with me that I didn't tell her what was happening, and I could tell she was genuinely depressed that everyone excluded her. However she was a bit hostile which is only gonna hurt her, but like I feel I have nothing to apologize for, I did what I had to do to survive and part of that was not filling her in so she wouldn't go crazy and stir shit up last minute. If Ash can compose herself then I have no problem trying to work with her and helping her, because she will be useful for me, but if she can't then she unfortunately needs to leave at some point. "						"akitaipu"

- Can I denounce the Hizoku tribe altogether? "akitaipu"

- Time to play Chris like a fiddle. I've got the advantage of all sides not trusting each other, and they all need numbers. Alexa ran to me like a naughty puppy, Chris underestimated me, Jamie is continually a bitch and apparently so is Jared. I'm insane, so they say, so why shouldn't I play the part. I knew something seemed off, something seemed too simple, so let's just bring out the corrupted bitch inside me and play this game. "akitaipu"

- Being at the bottom isn’t fun but the only way you can truly go from here is up. Jamie has backstabbed and betrayed anybody who’s put any trust in her (don’t blame her because I would too) and I’m going to use that to drag her name through the mud. Along with her terrible social management skills, like she’s playing to be iconic and not to win. She thinks her little act of playing the victim whenever people refuse to her bidding is going to work for much longer. I already used your ass to survive the swap and you fell right into my trap, you’re the enemy now. Bothering to fix my relationship with Jamie at this point would be a waste of time, my objective right now is to convince Brett, Emile and Sora that if they want something better than 6th/7th/8th place that they need to flip and make a move while they still can. It’s hard picturing Emile actually making a move because it’s been two seasons and he’s never had the fucking bravery to take the game into his own hands, his only move EVER is voting me out at the Final 3 and that only worked because he was the sole voter. I hope Emile realizes that his little alliance with Chris/Claire/Jamie/Jared is going to get him a shitty placement we’ll see. Anybody who decides to work with Jamie, make sure to watch out for Regina George in sheep’s clothing. "akitaipu"

- I could go with the majority opinion and vote off Alexa or Hunter, and save the worry of having Alexa be a shady shit to everyone, but there's no guarantee of my position if I do it. All it'll do is appease Chris and Jamie, two of the biggest players and add to their "move" list, and in no way does it not guarantee that I'm not gone in eighth. "akitaipu"

- If worst comes to worst and I have to sell out Hunter… I will. I purposely made him be the one to make deals with everyone last round so that if the Chris vote flopped then he would get painted as the master schemer and not me, these people can fight and bitch all they want but I’m keeping my mouth zipped because a few jabs isn’t going to do much for me in this game. If I prove to people that I’m easygoing, calm and reliable then I’ll be able to get myself back into a majority position. Nobody wants to work Ash for a reason! "akitaipu"

- Chris and Hunter are pieces of shit and I'm going to stab them. So much for loyalty and KEEPING INFORMATION QUIET YOU ASSHOLES. You can bet your ass these fuckers are going home if I can do anything about it. ""akitaipu"

- Ugh I really am stuck at a crossroad here in my game. I just need to let this all out in words so that I can begin to formulate a decision as to where I am going to be headed later in this game.

So right now in this game it’s basically 7 vs 3. I don’t really think that it makes sense for me to stick with the 7 and go after the 3 on the bottom, that’s just throwing away potential votes that could be used later on down the road. Ash/Hunter/Alexa haven’t done any wrong to me in this game, so why would I vote them out, that’s just doing someone else’s dirty work. I talked to Sora a little and I kind of hinted that I would be down to blindside Chris because we have the numbers and he wouldn’t expect it, but Sora didn’t seem to keen to do that.

Here’s the thing, I told myself I wouldn’t bring any past baggage into the game with Chris, I really wanted a clean slate and I feel like I have done that, but I know through Sora that Chris was already slandering my name on old Riza and I feel like every time I talk to Chris he is being semi fake to me. I don’t know if I am reading too much into things or being paranoid but idk I just don’t get good vibes from him and I don’t want to ignore my intuition and get blindsided. That really isn’t one of the reason I want Chris out, I think I mainly want Chris out because he is in a pretty tight trio with Emile/Claire and sans Chris I feel like I will definitely have more sway with Emile, and on top of that all I feel like taking out Chris removes a little power from Jamie.

So the 7 wants to split the vote 4-3 in case Hunter plays an idol. I am thinking that I could make sure I am in the group that will be placing 4 votes on someone but not actually vote with the 4, flip to Ash/Hunter/Alexa and blindside Chris in a 3-3-4 vote. My only hesitation is that it might be too early? People are going to see that I am kind of shady and here to play my own game and that is my only hesitation. Everyone seems to really trust me right now and am I really going to ruin that all to blindside Chris? I really don’t know.

On the flip side I can go along with the 7 show that I am loyal and take out one of the minorities. This is a better move for me in the long run but what if I get blindsided next round and I am not here for the long run? Short-term strategy tells me to take out Chris but long-term strategy tells me to calm down and bide my time before showing all my cards. But if I do blindside Chris I will definitely skip tribal council the round after so the dust can settle and I can see where I will fit into everything. Svalbard Brett would go short term but I don’t know what Archetypes Brett will do. "						"akitaipu"

- Am I silly for wanting to believe in someone so badly that it could blow my own game up? I think I prob am but I've always been told I got to big a heart "akitaipu"

- I'm in a horrible spot right now and Chris/Jamie know I'm one of the few people not afraid to make a FUCKING MOVEEE and therefore have been campaigning hardcore to get me out. I'm going to make sure everyone sees how much of a fucking conceited piece of shit Jamie is so that they know she's a paranoid mess and vote her ass out the FUCK OUT OF THIS GAME LMFAO! Every alliance has a hierachy and there's always someone at the top (Jamie, Chris) and the people at the bottom (Brett, Sora) and I'm going to use that to my advantage to survive this vote. I'm going to try and lay low a bit and let people see that Jamie is much more of a paranoid psychotic mess than I am and let karma bite her in the ass a bit and rub some salt in the wound. I am ready to ruin her game and obliterate her ass all the way to ponderosa, you fucked with the wrong person. "akitaipu"

- Chris's lies are as see-through and transparent as shit. He's such a bad liar and god I can't wait for him to pay his dues in this game. ""akitaipu"

- I think I sorted things out with Ash and Hunter. I doubt they've truly forgiven me but it's better than them being openly mad at me. As for Alexa, she's a snake bitch and I'm stupid for trusting her. I want her gone and I'm gonna do all I can to make sure it's her going. "						"akitaipu"

- IDK who Brett and Sora think they are trying to target me this vote or the next vote but thankfully Jamie is on my side and lets me know all of this ! :) "akitaipu"

- Thanks, Claire. You, Emile and Chris screw me over and then you tell me to lay fucking low like you ever had me in mind in the first fucking place. "I need people to trust me." Bitch. "akitaipu"

- hate Chris. I swear to god, I really do. Everything is about him. Stay quiet, don't do anything, rely on me to get "power," we can make f4/f3. Yeah sure, I think what you're spelling out is G O A T. I'm not going to sit by and hand the game to you. You fucked me over. You fucking shot me down to the fucking bottom of the fucking game snd you expect me to rely on you to fix it? No. I do things myself. I'd rather go home than be your fucking goat. "akitaipu"

- Good game, Chris. You set yourself up in the best possible position. Alienate me, because you know I'm a threat and by removing my allies, you remove my power. Set up Hunter and Alexa in the spotlight because you know they aren't stupid enough to fall into your plans, target and alienate them as untrustworthy and playing both sides so they can't do anything because no one trusts them. Play both sides yourself and push the target on us so you're untouchable. You get far enough, no one can touch you. Same with Jamie. Work with Jamie because you know she pissed off half the jury and won't get their votes. Tell me to do nothing so I have no chance at getting any power back. Everything is about Chris. Good fucking game. But I'm not giving it to you. "akitaipu"

- It's so fun planting seeds and baiting people into saying what I need to hear when everyone thinks your a sheep but in reality you're the one who's gonna be the sheep "akitaipu"

- Sora's got the merge idol from what I hear and if all the info I'm getting from Chris is true then Sora will be happy with the info I'm telling him and will just let me blindly agree I'm playing up the naive girl who has no idea what's going on and that's exactly what I want everyone to see because once I get the info I need well then I can write your name down <3 "akitaipu"

- So Chris is a paranoia mess and I just plan on playing double agent getting the info I need sending it back and getting super close to Jamie/Jared I think Alexa trusts me to some point and I have Emile/Chris so I just need to steer the vote to the one person in the game who I don't have Brett my friend if everything goes my way you'll be gone within the next 2 votes "akitaipu"

- Despite the odds being against me, I'm trying to get as much wiggle room in as possible. Jamie/Chris both have been such fake asses and have approached me to make "amends" yet are campaigning for me to go home. I'm working really really hard on solidifying Sora & Brett so that they consider flipping over to dethrone Jamie since they both know they're at the bottom of that gross alliance. Jared... lost all my respect because he proved that he is clearly Jamie's sidekick and nothing more. I basically told Jamie that she doesn't have to bother faking shit with me and to put it more in the open. I'm going to use all of her words against her and prove to this damn sheep tribe that Jamie is paranoid af and cannot be trusted. Claire is... in dire need of a wake up call. You can't co-win the game with Chris so make a freaking move! An alliance of 7 can't win this, only one person will and people are so threatened by me because I'm the only one not fucking afraid to make a move. I never thought I'd say this but Ash is without a doubt the most logical person on this entire tribe, LMFAO SHOCKER RIGHT? ""akitaipu"

- The aftermath of this vote is so glorious. Finally people are fighting again and the side of Jared I knew was there that not everyone else did came out in the best possible way! I'm 100% team Jared on this issue, literally Ash and Alexa turned the tribe against him and made fun of him behind his back so why is he suddenly in the wrong for making it known that he knows about it? He's back up there for people i want to take to the end again but sadly for the wrong reasons, him and Jamie both did a wonderful job with jury management this round along with Chris, Claire and Emile who are loathed at the moment. On the other hand, Brett and me are in a fantastic position! He did the initial work and thankfully included me in what he was saying to Ash Alexa and Hunter, they all hate everyone but us and are sooo down to work with us so that's nice having an option this round as well. I was initially planning to make a move next round but maybe this round would be the better time to strike. I have a couple targets in mind, Hunter and me never clicked, I never trusted Ash, Chris is gonna come at me sooner rather then later, and I also really really really want Emile out. I'll elaborate more later but those are the four people i'd like to be the next four out so we'll see what happens! Also Jamie is throwing herself a huge pity party rn and it's kinda funny geksbdhd her: this is so unfair... why am i so hated : // -just called four people out in her parchment- "						"akitaipu"

- I ended up blowing up after tribal because I was just tired of holding it all in. There's been a rivalry between Ash and I for a while and I finally wanted to get it all out in the open. And I kinda also wanted to add some excitement since I felt like there wasn't that much in terms of fights. I'm a bit afraid it turned some people off with me because some are afraid of drama and stuff like that but oh well. "akitaipu"

- Jamie and I started to realize that Sora is starting to run the game. I'm not exactly scared right now because of that but soon it could be dangerous. Jamie told me he wants Chris out but I don't really want that yet since I feel like he helps my game and he's the person I built the tightest bond with I feel like out of the new people I met at merge. We also talked about the possibility of working with Ash. I'm not sure how far that'll go but I apologized to her just so there's the possibility because if it does work, I think it'll be a great move. No one would expect it and I feel like we could help each other if we're able to build at least some trust even if we don't like each other. "akitaipu"

- I'm getting a little bit nervous that Hunter hasn't spoken to me really since the vote like, if you're really with someone you're going to constantly be strategizing and talking about future moves. He's of just like there and I wouldn't be surprised if he bowed down to Jamie and Chris and just agreed to vote me out like if he does that then all my respect for him is gone because I thought he of all people had a backbone. "akitaipu"

- I need to use Ash right now as my key to staying in this game. However, just because I'm on her side now doesn't mean I always will be. I recognize that she's one of the few people here willing to make a move so if I survive this vote and we dethrone Jamie/Chris and become the next bitches in charge I'm gonna have to stab her in the back eventually because just like me she has an underdog appeal to the jury and I didn't come here to lose unlike half the people sheeping the majority alliance. I'm also trying really hard to work Sora/Brett so that they are kind of the voice of reason for me to stick around, I've been in situations like this before and I know the odds are against me but I'm going to get out of this hole and I'm going to make it to the end, I just have to. "akitaipu"

- honestly, i'd rather go home than bow down to everyone's perfect game. i'm not here to go to the end by doing nothing.

Day 25
"akitaipu"

- I honestly feel so alone... I've had my fair share of highs and lows in this game but this has got to be rock bottom. I feel isolated, ignored and hopeless. I'm trying really hard to flip this game around but the odds are definitely not in my favor. It's extremely frustrating to see people just roll over and hand over this game to Jamie & Chris, it's just so freaking pathetic. People need to realize that by rolling with them they're playing for 5th/6th/7th/8th, and not to be the Sole Survivor. I'm bewildered at the fact that nobody realizes that you can't win this game with a blank resume. I've also lost all respect for Hunter's game, flipping to the side that literally just split the votes on him, so spineless. Watch Claire take orders from Chris and let him dictate her Rishiri Island sending and her game as a whole. "akitaipu"

- Why is everyone suddenly online when I'm trying to fucking sleep? Are yalls tryna rig this shit against me? "akitaipu"

- 'm loving the fact that there's an endurance challenge right now being that I'm being targeted ! I will literally stay up for 24 hours to win this I don't care at this point "akitaipu"

- I'm so freaking sad. I posted a second too early in immunity and basically have no chance at winning no since the maximum score I can get is 23, versus the 24 the :00 time could get. I've heard there's tension between some people in the majority alliance so I'm going to keep my head down and focus on reeling in the people at the bottom of the alliance because every hierachy has someone at rock bottom. I might be out of the running to win the challenge but I'm not letting them win in sending me out, no way. "akitaipu"

- I just love bringing people together! Both Ash and Jamie like hated each other and wanted each other dead last round, and I told both of them separately that the other likes them and doesn't want them gone, and now they're both good again ! This makes things so much more simpler "akitaipu"

- I picked Jamie because I trust her and I know she's on my side and it doesn't show I'm super close to Emile and Chris along with making our bond even stronger ""akitaipu"

- So my video is uploading right now, and it's taking a while to load. But it cut because the phone had no more storage space, so I probably didn't get to talk about a few things. So, to condense things... I was wrong about too many things. I'm looking at Ash/Chris/Claire and then someone else as my close allies. Sora is too power hungry and needs to go. You'll never get a large enough amount of sheeps in this game. I wasn't too concerned until he thought I needed to go soon. The idols need to go. I'm probably making finals and losing again. I don't think Jamie needs to go anymore. "						"akitaipu"

- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ffTpvNF1Iq4 "akitaipu"

- If Chris thinks I'm dropping out of this challenge just because preshush Cwiss is in danger, he's damn wrong. ""akitaipu"

- so ash didn't find her idol via sam mccanada. Which means ANYONE COULD HAVE AN IDOL! GREAT! ITS NOT NARROWED DOWN! Which also means I wouldn't believe Sora found another idol if he didn't tell Jamie, who leaked it to Chris "						"akitaipu"

- Wait, I forgot. Chris is the fucking pussy who goes to bed at 10/11 every fucking night. Good fucking luck with the allnighter queen. "akitaipu"

- Chris is hardcore dedicated to telling me to drop out of this challenge. I'm too dead inside to fucking care. Go home or not, I just don't care. "akitaipu"

- YOU KNOW WHAT FUCK THIS. I'D RATHER GO HOME KNOWING I ACTUALLY FUCKING TRIED IN THIS FUCKING RETARDED GAME. I'M NOT FUCKING DROPPING. "akitaipu"

- Did I just... possibly flip Emile? "akitaipu"

- Maybe it's the prolonged time since last tribal or maybe I'm just secretly trigger happy, but I'm getting bored and I'm starting to wonder if I should just make a move now for the sake of making a move. I don't intend on final 7 with these people but I also don't want an uprising against me so maybe I should just wait a round instead ?? idk but there hasn't been gametalk in forever so this immunity needs to END "akitaipu"

- I dunno about Chris, but I'm doing this challenge and still getting decent amounts of sleep. I'm not crazy anymore. It's a nice feeling. Hopefully it'll drag me through to the end. "akitaipu"

- Claire has no backbone, none whatsoever. If I win this game I'm getting her a new pair of hooves, CLEARLY she needs it. A blank resume won't get you a job or the title of Sole Survivor, bye! "akitaipu"

- It's like vaguely awkward talking to Emile about Chris' plan to vote off Sora when I have almost 0 intention of actually going with the vote. It just sucks, cause Sora is pretty much an untrustworthy shit, but this might be the only chance we have to get Chris out. If he and Brett don't fucking realize this, they're idiots. I'm not just gonna go with Chris' perfect plan. It just sucks that I have to lie to Emile, because he could be a really useful asset in making sure Chris and Jamie don't set themselves up even more perfectly. I have to rely on a bunch of people that I just don't know about. That's why I want immunity so bad. I need the guarantee. "akitaipu"

- Does Chris honestly expect me to care about his safety when he, the person I literally trusted the most, lied to me, made me waste my idol and is trying to push me into giving up immunity? It's literally shady as fuck that he doesn't want me to win, does he not realize that? He's so fucking concerned about him him him. He has literally told me that if I'm not immune, I'm getting votes. Maybe if he hadn't been a lying piece of fake shit, I would have played the same loyal game that I usually do, and put my neck on the line for my allies. But no. My allies proved to me last vote that they don't care about my allegiance, and I'm giving it to them right back. You fucked up, Chris. So fuck you for thinking I'm gonna risk my life in this game for someone who proved that they aren't willing to consider my game as a part of theirs. "akitaipu"

- Like, and does he not realize that he's coming off as an inconsiderate fucking prick by telling me and guilting me into fucking quitting? I don't need to ally with fucking jackasses. I wouldn't be so fucking gung ho about getting him the fuck out if he hadn't pulled this crap. Does he not have fucking respect? "akitaipu"

- Rock Bottom definitely hasn't been fun but I've been doing my best to make people think "Alexa's alone. She doesn't have anyone so why get rid of her?" I want them to think like that, because once I get a little momentum going I'm climbing my way back up to the top and boom the control's in my hands. Underestimate me all you want because my old cast did the same and snakexa slithered her way to Final 3 with a shit ton of blood on my hands. I'm going to play victim (Jamie's expertise) and let them want to keep me around and then I'm going to pull the rug from right under them and stick a big old knife in their backs. I'm going to let Ash scramble her way out of the game, and by reeling in Brett/Sora I can infultrate the majority alliance from the outside and flip the vote to keep myself in the game. Don't worry Jamie & Chris, you'll be getting your karma real soon. "akitaipu"

- Careful Sora if you get blind with power even the most obvious move you won't see coming 😉 "akitaipu"

- I want to strategize more and be more involved in what happens but my body is literally shutting down and I'm so sick(it'll be a concept if I'm the first to die during a season) so I might just let Jamie kinda lead me and go with the flow rn

Day 26
"akitaipu"

- So Ash sold Chris' plan out to Sora, and Chris being immune makes this... a really unfavorable situation. Hmm what to do "akitaipu"

- All my suspicions have been confirmed, Chris is coming after Sora/myself and Jamie is a fucking snake. Shits going down "akitaipu"

- I never knew playing double agent could be so much fun! "akitaipu"

- These people aren't good at Survivor. Period. The only person here besides Alexa I would consider voting for in the end are Brett and Sora because they aren't complete asses. I genuinely hope they make it to the end because I can't see myself voting for the rest of these fuckers who I know only messaged me because Jamie told them to. I guess I can respect that. But still. I have a bit of hope. I think an angle could fly down and save me...and that angle might not even be an angle to be with...more like...the anti angle...the graph....the graphantom....named Ash...because she's pissing everyone off. We'll see. Keep The Koch in your thoughts and prayers. "akitaipu"

- HOLY SHITTTTTT. The other alliance is OBLITERATING AS WE SPEAK and thanks to my constant buttering up of Sora he trusted me enough to bring me into a threesome with him and Claire. I'm gonna try my best to make sure Jared goes home to flush Jamie's possible idol and I know Sora is friends with Jared outside of this and that he wants Emile gone over him for personal motives, to benefit himself. I have Hunter's vote under my control and Ash too. I'm going to just enjoy going from being in the rock bottom to a possible majority but I'm aware that Sora needs to goooo right after I can get Chris/Jamie out of here. I want them to underestimate and think I'm just a silly vote because I'm going to flip this game on them and win it all, proving them all wrong. Also turns out Claire is Sora's bitch and not Chris's who knew! "akitaipu"

- So I'm done with bullshit. Chris doesn't get to fucking manipulate his way into immunity and not have any fucking repercussions. He's a cocky piece of shit who thinks he's entitled to everything. Guess what? Your entitlement, and your pushing me to drop out of the fucking challenge? It just got your Sora/Brett plan exposed, your duoship with Jamie exposed, because guess fucking what? Ash is a bitch, and she isn't about to hand off the game to undeserving people. And yes, I'm crazy. I'm blowing up this game just because I can. 🙂 "akitaipu"

- I'm trying to set this move up in a way where it severely hurts Jamie/Jared but also hurts Sora. I want to make sure that Jamie takes a major blow from Jared going, (Emile might go but I hope I can convince the group otherwise) and also hurt Sora since I know he's friends with Jared outside of the game. I want it to set it up in a manner where I can pick off Jamie/Chris and then have Emile/Ash/Hunter to blindside Sora. In this game you've gotta think way ahead and I already know it's going to be imperative in blindsiding Sora a little bit later so I can't keep around someone who would be totally opposed to the idea. I might be in alliances with all these people but if anyone knows me is that true unconditional loyalty isn't in my vocabulary. ""akitaipu"

- Ash - Don't say anything btw keep it quiet Claire - Btw pretend we never had this convo Brett - don't tell anyone

and they all have different stories. Geez. "						"akitaipu"

- To be honest, I don't see any possible way I could win this game, so I'm just gonna have fun with it. "akitaipu"

- Fuck me in the ass. Finally I get a chance to stay in this game. Just lay low. That's what I was gonna do. Just chill. And it happened. But guess what? Now I'm the swing decision in who this group is voting - Emile or Jared. Fuckkkkkkkk. I don't really want to make enemies right now and I don't want to be in this position...too many enemies to be made. Oh well. W/e. Koch is trying to come out of his shell but sadly it's not gonna be easy. "akitaipu"

- OKAY SOMETHING NEEDS TO BE ADDRESSED FIRST AND FOREMOST, THE LAST CONFESSIONAL WAS TO PISS OFF THE HOSTS BC THEY WERE COMPLAINING ABOUT NOT BEING IN CHATS OR SOMETHING, BUT SHITS CHANGED FOR A REASON AN ACTUAL ONE. So all during the challenge Chris is telling me how much he appreciates me saving him and wants to work with me, and then Chris tells Ash he wants me and Brett out ????? And of course she tells Brett who tells me, and after I confirm with Claire IT IS TRUE. AND JAMIE CONFIRMED IT HERSELF SHE TOLD CHRIS ME AND BRETT WANT HIM OUT AND TOTALLY FUCKED ME OVER FOR WANTING HIM TO STAY LONGER AS A SHIELD FOR HER. So am I just gonna sit idly around and just hope for the best after taking out Hunter? Nope I don't think so, I'm taking matters into my own hands. You wanted to make a move now or later, well first come first serve and don't trust people who are as loose lipped as Ash. I'm GOING to convince these people that Emile needs to go over Jared, (they're afraid Jamie has an idol so there not doing her) Emile is the person in that alliance of 7 that I'm least close to, and unlike Jamie and Jared, I can't use him as a number and neither can Brett anyone if he's as close to Chris as we think. Loose lips sink ships, and if they're immune they sink friends ships. I DO NOTTT want Jared gone and see no value in it, he's in my corner why take him out. Also me and Brett are clearly the swings here DO WHAT WE WANT. WHY ARE YOU FIGHTING THIISSS, Ash is doing HORRENDOUS in this 'convert the flippers' department, so current plan until things get fucked up again, take out Emile now, then Chris, then we use Jamie and Jared and flip on one of them and then we're the swings again!!11! this game's like a teeter totter and I love it "akitaipu"

- even tho I'm at great risk (which means I didn't play well), this is quite exciting ""akitaipu"

- Of course the one person I didn't want to win the immunity challenge won. Fuck Chris I want him out so bad haha. So post immunity everything changed, all my suspicions were confirmed so I could finally act on them and not look like I was just being paranoid. Honestly an absurd amount of things happened so I'm just going to summarize it because it's too confusing to all write down. Basically the game has flipped, a new alliance of Ash/claire/hunter/Alexa/myself/sora has been formed. Our targets are Jamie/Chris and their henchmen Emile/Jared. Ash probably thinks this was all her doing because she blew up Chris's game but everything she spilled was all stuff I have been very suspicious of and just needed confirmation on. I am glad I worked on a relationship with her because it's payed off pretty well. Today I also learned that I can't trust Emile. He is way too ingrained with Chris and I can't trust information with him, I literally can't read Emile for shit and don't know where he truly stands half the time. So I am definitely going to be weary with what information I put out to him because it's all gonna go back to Chris. Because of this I am no longer opposed to getting him out. So in the new 6 person alliance we are debating between voting Jared/Emile. And Ash is being really annoying. Sora and I want to vote Emile because A) it benefits us b) IT'S ACTUALLY THE SMARTER STRATEGIC MOVE But Ash thinks she knows everything and wants to vote jared but it's obviously for personal reasons and not really strategic. Sora and I also had another moment today because he revealed his idol to me Heheh. This is some nice information to have and shows that he really trusts me. At this point in the game I really do trust Sora and we are definitely a very loyal duo who will be working together for a bit longer. I am not stupid though, I see the game Sora is playing and he's setting himself up extremely well, I would be an idiot to take him into the late game, so I will definitely need to nip him in the bud when I get the chance. But as of now I will stay loyal to him because I really do need that one person I can trust 100% and bounce ideas off of. For the most part I want to let him take charge and do a little more work than me and because of this I believe that people will see him as the stronger onebbetween the two of us and when we eventually get targeted it will be him over me. Basically my main goal right now is to get Chris the fuck out of this game because he is such a thorn in my ass. "						"akitaipu"

- At this point I am just agreeing with everything Sora says lmao, once Chris is out of this game I am setting my sights on Sora and Jamie "akitaipu"

- All of a sudden this game is going to rocks and all the emotional drama that's going on is gonna drive me off the wall ""akitaipu"

- I've got things to consider. Claire is going with her heart, and from what I can tell, that's Chris' side. But that's okay. I respect it. I want to do the same thing. It's why I can't vote Emile. It feels wrong, and I want to be a good person, not just a player. I would rather go home knowing I did what I felt was right. I just want to find out who they want out. Because I'm not okay with voting Emile. Claire, the sweetheart, is trying to switch the vote. I just can't vote Emile, not after I promised that what I did wouldn't hurt him. I'll take my punishments, but don't take hostages over my deeds. If Chris still pushes towards Sora, and somehow doesn't figure out that I turned on him, and Sora doesn't stop being a pushy fucking twat, maybe I'll break a tie. I just want to protect Alexa. Half of me turning and running to Sora and Brett was to protect Alexa, half of it was my own rage against Chris, but it's a decision I have to live with, right or not. I'd be happy to take the attention if only to spare those that I care for. I just need to see where my heart lies, and how I can protect the people who have made this game worthwhile. "						"akitaipu"

- When both sides want you to play double agent and you're already doing it LMFAO "akitaipu"

- I DON'T UNDERSTAND CLAIRE AT ALL SHE IS IMPOSSIBLE TO TALK TO. ""akitaipu"

- Holy fuck ok I am debating right now whether or not I am going to make shit hit the fan or not. Right now the vote is kind of set at Chris-Hunter Emile-Hunter Jared-Hunter Jamie- Alexa Claire- Alexa Brett-Emile Alexa-Emile Hunter-Emile Ash-Emile Sora-Emile Well what if I were to gather Alexa/Hunter/Ash and myself in a group and tell them to all vote Jamie? Leaving Sora all alone to vote Emile? I am heavily debating this right now and weighing the pros and cons, I completely destroy trust with quite a few people but I feel like it almost needs to happen? Jamie is such a threat and no fucking way am I going to be communicating with her through Sora. Honestly I am so fed up with this game right now and just want it to be finished, I kind of just want to play a reckless game lmao. My only hesitation right now is that Jamie might play an idol and then hunter would go home :/ hmmmmm "						"akitaipu"

- Claire is also astoundingly kind, and I wish she loved herself more. All I want to do is hug her, because she just has the amazing quality of humanity, empathy. She follows her heart. She's not afraid to do what she thinks is right. Claire is just an astounding person, and I'm humbled to have met her. I'd be happy to pick a rock for her. If only this were easier. "akitaipu"

- My logic when I'm fucked up and don't care is astounding. Protect Alexa, flip on Chris. Protect Emile, flip on Sora. I'm gonna get voted out so fucking hard it won't be funny. "akitaipu"

- If I can be 100% sure Jamie is not playing an idol I am going to fucking do this, I don't even care how horrible the consequences are going to be. "akitaipu"

- I never knew what it was like to work with an actual fucking goat in this game until I met Hunter. He squashed any and all interesting gameplay today by voting early, who the fuck does that. I AM PISSED. "akitaipu"

- But in general, fuck you Hunter for fucking over Charley and for ratting about my stupid idol. Chris is gonna get it too, but fuck you, Sora. You can push and push but I don't need you, but you're not taking out MY ALLY while I sit by. Claire and I wanted a third option, and Hunter arose. I'm making my choices, I had different options and I'm doing what's best for me. "akitaipu"

- The worst part is... The only way I can actually solidify an alliance and possibly a real way into playing the game is by voting out an ally. What I did is going to screw me with Chris, he'll never fully trust me again. I'm screwed with their side, like it or not. Claire will understand. Emile has to. At least this way I earn Brett's trust, and I'm going to need him. Ally for an alliance, I suppose. I'm not happy with it, but difficult moves must be made in order to advance oneself. At least now, I have an actual solid chance. Play Sora and Chris off each other and weasel my way into the finals. I don't usually play this way, but desperate times call for desperate measures. "akitaipu"

- Just.. Look at the flowers, Emile. Just look at the flowers. "akitaipu"

- There's been so much lowkey strategizing going on behind the scenes which I'm not apart of and only know because of Jamie. I kinda like it because I still hear about it but technically I'm not in the loop so no one can really get mad at me. The big thing that worries me right now is that I hear Alexa is targeting me for whatever reason. She honestly is such a dumb player I've tried to work with her twice and proved my loyalty but she keeps going against me when I'm probably the only person she has a chance at beating in the end but she's just too petty to realize that. I want the split plan to stay which will result in Hunter going but honestly I wouldn't care if something went wrong and Alexa went instead. "akitaipu"

- thought everything was going smooth but it completely flipped. I just found out that half of the tribe has a secret alliance and I'm super paranoid right now. I only trust Jamie right now and I'm just hoping it's anyone but me going home. ""akitaipu"

- So I’ve been trying to play Sora and Chris against each other ever since the merge — both think that I’m with them with the objective to take out the other. Right now I’m just gonna try to keep it that way but Chris is being ~targeted by Sora so I’m gonna need to make sure he wins immunity & let him know everything that’s happening. Me when I’m playing both sides: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wAPWGmvrqqw "						"akitaipu"

- So in the past few hours a lot has happened. For starters, I was able to push the idea of the alliance and the alliance of 6 {Brett, Sora, Claire, Hunter, Ash and I} was formed. Here's the problem with the alliance. I think that Sora is trying to use Ash/Hunter/I to get rid of Chris so that he can then have all close allies left in the game and boom after that he'll flip back to Ratmie/Jared and pick off Ash/Hunter/myself. Sora is the closest with me out of Ash/Hunter so I believe that he thinks I'm under his spell and will follow his every command which I fucking refuse to do for anyone, I give out orders I don't follow them. I have Ash wrapped around my finger so I filled her up with all this paranoia in hopes that she'll help me in flipping the vote to Jared and not Emile but here's the problem. If we push too hard then Sora will just flip back and vote Hunter/Ash/Me out so on one hand we probably should vote Emile but at the same time I know Sora's shady and is using the alliance to pick off his enemies. I'm not doing anyone's dirty work, people need to do MINE LMAO. ""akitaipu"

- Omg I tried to apologise to Alexa and she just a bitch lol. I literally hate her, I kinda want her and Ash to go just so I beat all the awful Rebels. Anyway, ALEXA MUST GO, I’ve been campaigning to Sora for ages and he straight up refuses. I’m really wary of him at the moment because he’s close with Alexa, Ash, Claire, me, Jared, Brett, etc. The list is endless, and Sora WILL have a cakewalk to the victory. Moreover, he’s GOT AN IDOL. So, since Sora refuses to vote Alexa, I decided to put the game into my own hands and go out and campaign. I went to Chris and told him legit everything, about how Brett is going after him, Sora has an idol etc, and how we NEED to strike to remove one of Sora’s votes. Chris was down, and even said he managed to get Ash, Claire and Emile on board, making us 5 vote Alexa. Jared would be down to, so Alexa should be going. Also Hunter said he wants to work w/ me too which is great! "						"akitaipu"

- I'm kinda playing both sides of the alliance in a way to get intel; I'm appealing to Hunter/Ash in one chat and to Sora/Brett/Claire in another. I just don't want for the last vote to repeat and for the morons that are Hunter/Ash to make a plan, make even distrust us, fail at making our move and being alienated yet again. Also, I find it pretty funny that people are underestimating me so much saying I have no shot at winning because I can't win a challenge. Well guess what? People have been gunning for me from DAY ONE and I'm still here. I've survived the fall of so many of allies and keep going and pick up momentum. I want them to underestimate me because they won't see the snake coming. I purposely gained Jamie as an enemy because she's my Aromal this season in a way. If people know you're openly targeting/gunning for someone then they will disregard you because you're focused on getting that person out. "akitaipu"

- Um change of plans! Chris wants to vote Sora out alongside Ash, Claire and Emile. I straight up refused to do that, it’s lowkey too early for me to do it since Sora and Chris should still be against each other for longer. I’ve really been stuck though between who I want to choose between the two, and I’ve chosen Chris. I just think in the future, he’ll be easier to beat and remove before FTC. Sora has an idol and a shitton of allies and continuing on, I’m gonna have no way to remove him. So if he goes this TC, I’m just gonna have act ##shocked and not let him know. "akitaipu"

- So I was sick and tired of this game being the way it is, so I approached Brett and we layed everything out on the table and now I have him wrapped around my finger and against Sora/Jamie/Chris. I created a four person alliance with Hunter/Ash/Brett but also have my side thing with Sora/Claire so that I'm covered on all sides. My plan is it to utlize H/B/A to take out my biggest enemy Jamie, and later Sora. Jamie is going to wish she hadn't fallen for my tricks and kept me in at the last swap because now I'm going to obliterate her game little by little. I have Ash/Hunter both on leashes and hold the cards in the game, Hunter is the biggest MORON EVER BTW. He literally screwed over the possibility of sending Jamie out because of him voting for Emile way too early. But yeah I've had to overcome so many obstacles to be here and in this position so let's hope Emile going is a blessing in disguise and it can keep Sora/Claire thinking that the alliance of 6 is real. That way at the next vote Sora/Chris target each other and then our foursome swoops in and takes out Jamie and those 2 will still be after each other. I didn't here to sheep anyone, I came here to make shit happen! ""akitaipu"

- This last day has been INSANE, literally INSANE. So, Sora was supposed to go, but after Chris won immunity, Ash BLEW up and revealed all of Chris’ plans and that involved me telling Chris that Brett was after him, so Sora was MAD at me. A lot lot lot has happened, but basically at the moment, Hunter should be going? I’m not even sure. Apparently, there’s a 6 person chat made with Claire, Sora, Ash, Alexa, Hunter and Brett and Claire is the double-agent, and they’re voting Emile. I was told not to tell Jared this by Chris, but I did anyway since Jared is my #1 ally at the moment — I have one every season and he’s mine this season. I’m never going to turn on him unless I have no other choice. ANYWAY yeah, I lowkey betrayed Sora (and was ready to let him be voted off so I guess highkey betrayed him?) but this new chat gives me a valid reason to have flipped on him and still get his jury vote at the end if I’m at FTC and he does actually get eliminated. Either way, I’ve lost loads of trust with a lot of people and from here on out I need to gain that trust so I have more options going forward. Um ya, Hunter should be going? I said I’d tell him if I was voting him but that’s until I found out he was in that chat [:. "						""akitaipu"

- So I won immunity thank god, I needed it with Brett/Sora targeting me like they were and I thought we'd be able to blindside Sora this round, unfortunately Ash is the most idiotic player I have ever played with and has literally ran and told Sora how I'm targeting him and shit, and like she legit is so fucking dumb he ran and told everyone and now it got back to me so like nice going idiot lmao? It's funny though hearing Brett and Sora run around like ""Chris is targeting us!!"" because first of fucking all you both were gunning after me according to Jamie first, I wanted to stick to our 7 chat and both of yall were not so I had reason to, and if they even dare try to start a fight after tribal they're gonna look fucking silly. Now unfortunately the Sora plan needs to be scrapped and I hope he's paranoid enough he just uses his idol on himself, I can't imagine him using it on someone else in an all-stars game unless he has immunity or two idols sooooo I'm overall kinda annoyed with Ash, luckily Jamie is willing to vote with us because shit is going on and I'm sure Jared will be now that Sora is targeting either Emile or Jared, which gives us 5 not including Ash, so things can still happen here, just gotta hope for the best ! "						"akitaipu"

- It's unfortunate that so much shit has happened to where I can't vote Sora this round, luckily if all goes as planned it legit looks like everyone did what they said they were doing and it looks like sora/brett are the ones who fucked up ! It's just about slowly taking people away who would be numbers for sora until we can get him out, but I'm sad because jamie says sora wont use his idol this round to waste it :((( oh well, just move on!