Boys Club/Confessionals

Day 16
"taieri"

- I'm completely relieved about tribal. It was really important, because it gives the guys a 9-5 majority and it means that (more than likely) I'm in a position where I can bring all of my close allies (Pav, Brian, Casper and Josh) into the merge. I'd like to get to the point where Cheryl trusts me as well, which would give me a lot of options in terms of who I bring with me to the end. She's gonna be a tough one because she's naturally suspicious, but as long as she directs that suspicion towards every one else I think I'll be able to control her.

"kawau"

- A really important reward, huh? Some kind of control over the next merge maybe? I guess it's time to see how I am at Snake."

"arapawa"

- This game really has been way too easy so far. Did both Jenna and Josh really completely trust me? Suckers... I am still worried though. These last two tribal councils may have pushed me into the spotlight coming out both of them without a single vote against me. Plus if we don't have some sort of swap, things will get extra scary. The only good thing that has come out of this, is that I feel as though Josh has become a lot closer to me. Having a loyal minion would be pretty cool.

"taieri"

- I just went through this with Berk, but it seems that I hate or can't trust almost everyone. I'm like the Jenn Brown of New Zealand. c:

"kawau"

- The weird thing about having so few teams is how infrequently I have to vote. I think I've only voted once in the game so far, and I think there are still people who never voted at all. But speaking of the number of teams, I'm predicting a shift back to 2 tribes of 7 following this reward. I'm not sure exactly how our placements factor into that, but I imagine my score of 1000 on Snake will be either 1st or 2nd. Probably 2nd. And if it is 2nd that might not be bad, since it would show someone (probably Kostas) is still the bigger threat in the game than me, and I'm just a good person to use to fight against the bigger threat.

"taieri"

- I'm really excited that my original tribe members (Kawau) are in the majority here, but I really don't want this game to end up with just guys. That'd probably be the best scenario for my strategy (because the guys are all in my back pocket), but it would feel really chauvinistic to pick off the rest of the girls. I know I wouldn't want to watch a season like that. I want to find a girl or two that I know I can control, and take far into the game. The problem is that Brittany and Faith are attached to the hip, Chelsea is too close to Pav, and and I haven't met Daniella yet. I've got some work to do once we swap tribes.

"kawau"

- okay so Alex may be annoying but he's probably winning this comp for us.. So like whatever. Currently watching the newest Rupaul episode.. This who gives me life

"poukai"

- So I've really been liking my team a lot more recently than I usually would. But now I'm not with Alissa and Charlie anymore so there is always downsides to everything. I feel pretty confident I will be leaving if we have to vote, but hopefully something magical will happen soon.

"kawau"

- I should really stop making accounts on these puzzle sites and logging in. People can clearly see my username as the 7th best score of the week. 'No matter how often a site asks you to log in, Dream, please just play as a guest so you don't undermine yourself. Actually, perhaps I could use this to my advantage. Kostas will think he needs to beat 1000, but if I log out now and then get a score of 1250 or so while logged out then maybe I can beat him by surprise. Worth considering, so I'm not submitting yet.

"taieri"

- I'm going to take on this reward challenge for the rest of the team. I suspect that it could be related to a swap so it makes me nervous, but I'm kind of itching for more people to strategize with so I'm up for the risk. I'm pretty sure I can't win this challenge, but I know for a fact that Cheryl/Brittany/Brian have no chance whatsoever.

"arapawa"

- So I really don't want to represent our tribe for this challenge. I just don't want to have to put myself out there as a potential challenge threat. So I'm inquiring about how Josh is doing and putting out a number that in my opinion is a really bad score in the low 200s. He says that so far he has just been cutting around 100... Now I'm trying to come off as if the one in the 200s was a fluke win, but I have already made the 300s a couple of times without trying that hard. I think if I really wanted to I could have a good shot at this challenge, but obviously I don't want to. I do kind of want to have the reward, but not bad enough to actually go out there and earn it. I want Joshua to do it, but with those scores it most likely won't happen. Anyways, Josh just needs to play so I don't have to make a guess for a score that is bad but not making it obvious that I'm throwing it.

"taieri"

- Well it's 1:40 in the morning where I am. I put a lot of work into this reward challenge, I'm finally throwing in the towel. I don't think my total is going to be enough, Alex and Kos are just so good at this shit. Still, I'd be kicking myself if the reward was an idol clue and I didn't give it all my energy. If I can just get my hands on an idol or some kind of advantage I know I can dominate this game.

"none"

- So the biggest question is do I want Ci'ere on the team I think will be mine (the non-Kostas team) or not? I told Ci'ere he was my #1, but I still habe issues trusting him. But he also worries me that maybe my trust in Berk is misplaced. Probably people will discover relatively soon which team I wanted to be on if I get on the team I want, so putting Ci'ere on the other team would mean he'd know I don't trust him and then I probably couldn't work with him post-merge. Ci'ere has claimed to have my back (claimed to be the only one, even), so maybe I should take him at the spirit of his word. I think I'll put both Berk and Ci'ere on the non-Kostas team. I don't want Ci'ere having Brian to support him, so I'll put Brian on the Kostas team. There, 4 members decided, 8 left to decide. Will continue making confessionals as I figure things out

"none"

- Charlie goes with Ci'ere and Berk. And I just realized I get to decide the guy:girl ratio on both teams since Josh and I are both guys. With 5 girls, it would be good to split them 3-2, with 3 that maybe Josh could ally with on Kostas' team. Also I think putting Casper with Kostas is good, since he seemed the most willing to adjust the Seventh Heaven alliance with me if it fell apart. I think Kostas, Casper, and I could get something going if we ended up on the same team. To recap, my idea so far is: Kostas, Brian, Casper, 3 girls Josh might be allied with Ci'ere, Berk, Charlie, 1 other guy (guess that means Pav), and 2 girls

"none"

- If I'm not with Berk, I might explode. Alex could make himself my new number one target. Like he's been up there, but not even Kost could rise to him.

"none"

- Chelsea is a stronger player than Faith, and she's been nice lately, so I want her on my team. But is that feasible without Josh picking "my team"? Probably. Idunno. Josh hasn't been very good at challenges, so maybe he won't be good at picking the stronger team either. I think he'll want to stick with Casper and wouldn't want Kostas and I to end up on the same team against him, so probably I can put Chelsea on the Ci'ere team without having to worry. Chelsea and Faith didn't come from the same 2nd phase team, so I don't think they care especially to stay together. So I'll put Faith on the Kostas team. That leaves 3 girls whose names I will have to look up and then decide which one goes on my team. Oh, I think there's a Momma C and. Cheryl. Can't recall atm if they're the same person or not - I think they aren't. But yeah, Kostas and Momma C seem like allies. And I haven't had a chance to interact with Momma C. I can't risk their bond getting too strong together without me or them mutually voting me out if I end up on the Kostas team. So I think I need to split them, which would mean Momma C goes onto the Ci'ere team while Cheryl and the woman I can't remember at all go onto the Kostas team. Was it Daniella? Is she still playing this? I should probably know the answers to these questions without having to look them up... Anyway, I will look stuff up and then type my choices in the proper format in the near future.

Day 17
"poukai"

- Okay, so...another tribe swap. At 1st glance, I know that I am golden!! On one hand, I have Matt B, who has been chattin me up most of the game, that we were tribed together. I knew he was with Matt Pov. Matt mentioned to me a bit ago that if we swapped again, that it would be good to have Josh on our tribe. That he had talked with Josh about me & they thought a final 3 deal with me sounded like a great plan...works for me, hell...I didn't have to do anything to even get that deal!! Kons & I have a deal to the end...if we are both here come merge....in which I could go with Kons & Casper.

"arapawa"

- At first I thought being on a team with Kostas would be cool because we'd win all the challenges. But now with this Double Tribal, it is NOT cool.

"poukai"

- So I got destroyed with the reward challenge, which is okay. Alex is completely on another level with challenges, Kostas as well. I really worry about him going on a run after the merge. Thankfully Alex doesn't have an ally, so I don't see him doing much in terms of strategy. Only question now is whether any one can beat him in individual challenges

"arapawa"

- So we've swapped, which is good since that 2 men tribe thing was kind of scary. I had been hoping to avoid tribal council with this new tribe, but then unfortunately you dropped the bombshell of a double tribal. I would not mind seeing any of them going, except for maybe Kostas.

"arapawa"

- OMG why did we have to flip. This is so scary for me. I have no loyalties in this tribe and Casper is freaking out. Alex is an annoying asshole and Brian a sneaky bastard. My only loyalty is DANIELA. EFFING INACTIVE DANIELA. This smellas really bad for me. I need to win immunity sooo bad!

"poukai"

- So I basically am controlling this tribe. Josh, Charlie and Pav are totally with me. Cheryl's with me two, but I think it's going to be her going home. She's getting nervous about the girls being voted out, and I worry about her and Pav together. Quite frankly, even though I'm bringing her in to the alliance, I can't relate to her much. Maybe it's the age gap. More importantly, I just feel like Chelsea's a better player that doesn't deserve to go home yet. I know that's not really strategy, but I'd feel like I was cheating the audience if the only female players left in the game were goats like Cheryl and Faith.

"arapawa"

- These tribes couldn't have been picked better. I have 3/4 of my original alliance members and we have Kos & Alex. It's a win win hopefully. With Britt and Brian being on the team, it's a solid 3 alliance.

"poukai"

- New tribe! And I like it! It's my first time away from Kos, which is almost sad in a way. Only one of us can make it the merge without having gone to tribal now. I hope it's me.

"arapawa"

- No point in stalling for time on this one, since I'm guessing what the other tribe thinks, not what my tribe thinks. I don't think this is a challenge I'll be good at, but I've heard from Brian that Daniella will be the person we vote out. I hope she doesn't have an idol. And I hope one of these days I can get an idol. Kostas hasn't woken up and seen the new tribe yet or my messages to him, so even though I'm listing him as someone I trust it's possible that will change when he wakes up. Part of the reason I am answering him to some of these trust question is I want to be able to see in the aggregate information if others also said his name (because the only way he'd be the most popular name is if others also said him). Meanwhile Ci'ere is going to get annoyed at me for guessing him as the other tribe's most annoying and biggest poser, but I do care about trying to score well in this challenge, and that's my best guess on the answers. Whether or not he annoys me has very little to do with my ability to work with him. Oh, and on an unrelated note I guess I'm in some alliance of 4 with Brian, Brittany, and Faith. Brian says Brit can't be trusted anyway, so I don't think they're taking that too seriously. Hopefully we can get the girls to target Daniella, but if we can't then I can use that as an excuse to get rid of Kostas (if that's something I decide to try doing).

"arapawa"

- I feel that not being with Berk made me more strategic. I'm being forced to actually start conversations. I'm making allies like crazy. This is great.

"arapawa"

- i Adore acting fake to brian if hes gonna act fake to me you gonna get it right back. Ugh like if you loved "us" so much you wouldnt try to blindside us

"poukai"

- I'm aligned with every single person on this tribe, but in completely different ways. I'm with Berk and Ci'ere, Berk and Josh, Berk and Ci'ere and Charlie (tentatively) and Cheryl and Chelsea individually. So I'm definitely well set up, but I have no idea how to get a vote together if we go to tribal, or for that matter, who to target! My gut says Josh, since I have the least strong alliance with him, it's mostly through Berk and Casper. My brain says Chelsea to split up the Canadian girls. My heart says I should just win immunity so I don't have to decide. Charlie and Cheryl are also totally on the table. It's too early to take out Ci'ere and I'm with Berk till the end.

"arapawa"

- So the default option is voting off one of the girls. I think Brian and Alex want Daniella. But that's so boring. To be honest it would also be really scary to just move on with only men. I feel as though I need some girls in the game to bring balance and have some options. I had hoped to already have reeled in some more girls by now, but unfortunately there was not enough breathing room on old Arapawa to do anything crazy. Now there may actually be room for a move and I'm hoping to keep all the NuArapawa girls safe and have them on my side. A part of me really really wants to vote out Alex. For some reason he really rubs me the wrong way and can really annoy me. However, I think everyone feels that way about him. I think keeping Alex in the game leaves a big target ahead of me in the game and I think Alex could actually be a potential goat as well. He could be my voteproof-vest that I can run through the tribal councils with towards that final tribal council. And let's be honest, would you vote for the voteproof-vest that has been shot to pieces or the guy whom was wearing that voteproof-vest? So I've decided that I need Alex in this game as well, although at times I'm still really tempted to vote him out. Best case scenario for me would be if Brian was voted out in a 4-3 vote. Brian is probably the person from all the men left in this game that I am the least close to. He also seems closer to the Ci'ere/Charlie side of the alliance. He's the red dot in the middle of the dartboard. He's the badly animated face of the opponent in a first person shooter, waiting to be hit by a bullit and have some kid shout: "HEADSHOT MOTHERFUCKER!!!". He is the point where legs meet and no guy want to be kicked. Basically he's the perfect target for me. Plus the 4-3 vote would make it look like Konstantinos had flipped, leaving me still good with Alex and the rest of the men. If I treat this one as neurosurgery I could come out of this with lots of allies and options, without any blood on my hands. Maybe surgery to exemplify coming out of something without any blood on your hands is a bad analogy? Fuck it! So this is my goal for upcoming tribal, I just have to decide how to do it. I can either rat the 7th heaven alliance out to Kostas and present myself as bottom of the totem pole there. Then I just convince him we have to have eyes on both sides so I have to look loyal to the 7th heaven guys and have him start up an alliance with the girls to vote out Brian. Problem is that in that case I'm giving him a lot of control, he could easily vote Alex out. Also if we don't merge next round the girls would not be mine but Kostas. The better option is for myself to do the dirty work and start up an alliance with the girls. Rat out the 7th heaven alliance last moment to Konstantinos and if Brian wins immunity I can still call everything off and tell the guys about this idiot alliance the girls are starting up with me. If Brian not wins immunity it would put me in a great spot next week, merge or no merge. The better option is for myself to do the dirty work and start up an alliance with the girls. Rat out the 7th heaven alliance last moment to Konstantinos and if Brian wins immunity I can still call everything off and tell the guys about this idiot alliance the girls are starting up with me. If Brian not wins immunity it would put me in a great spot next week, merge or no merge.

"arapawa"

- Brian is still doing that thing where he tries flattering me a lot by saying I'm good at this or that and he's so glad we're together. I doubt he really cares that much. I mean maybe he does, but more likely he just thinks flattery will help keep him on my good side or will keep me unsuspecting of some attempt to eliminate me at some point.

"arapawa"

- Seeds for an epic blindside planted. Brian targeted Brittany. What do I do? I go ahead anf tell Brit. I cry a little because "I am on the outs". Alex thinks he is using everyone. When in fact noone cares about him. Daniela is stuck with me. This is going to be an epic blindside

"poukai"

- Okay, so I totally feel like a lot of these answers will be me, so it totally blows that I can't answer myself.... Ugh

"poukai"

- I'm happy with how things are going, I managed to earn Chelsea's trust by throwing Ci'ere under the bus. She thinks he, along with Josh and Charlie, was trying to get her voted out. She and I agreed on a final 7 of Her, Pav, Brian, Josh, Charlie, Casper and I. I'm actually committed to that final 7, because from there I should be able to use all of my allies to get a final 3 of Josh, Charlie and I. Those are my two goats for now. Charlie will be easy to keep safe, but Josh might get himself in trouble. I think every one is uneasy at the fact that he's so loyal to me, which is pretty valid.

"arapawa"

- I'm allies with everyone but Dani, and yet I'm flipping on Britt, if all goes well. Is it bad that I kinda hope Britt wins so we can't vote her off?

"arapawa"

- After our brief conversation, I'm thinking the vote will probably go down one of four ways: (1) (possible if neither Daniella nor Brian win immunity) Brian asks Brittany and Faith to vote out Daniella. Brian believes it will be a unanimous vote against Daniella. Kostas and I speak with Daniella and Brittany to let them know they have a chance to take out a guy instead of having all the girls lose. There's then 4 votes for Brian and 3 votes for Daniella, thus eliminating Brian and ruining my former alliance members' trust in me. (2) (possible if Kostas doesn't win immunity) There's at least 5 votes against Kostas and we take him out by surprise while he thinks either Daniella or Brian will be eliminated. (3) (possible if Daniella doesn't win immunity) Daniella is voted out as Brian planned, and Kostas goes along with this plan. (4) (possible if I don't win immunity) Everything blows up in my face and I get voted out this week, perhaps unanimously. Except in Case #3, this should make for our most interesting Tribal Council of the season so far. I don't think I'll be able to play off my vote as anyone's other than mine since we have to send in voting parchment. I'd really love Case #1, but I feel kind of forced into Case #2. Tough decision. Very tough decision. But perhaps it's a relief to think that this might not be my decision at all, and I might already be in Case #4. Emotikon wink

"arapawa"

- Hahahah I love how I was orchestrating this, but Casper will take all the blame. I dont know if Brian is telling me the truth, but he tells me he trusts me. What a better way to go home than someone that trusts you to orchestrate your blindside. And the Kawau 7 are down to 6! DONT YOU DARE MAKE ALLIANCES WITHOUT ME IN!

"arapawa"

- Brian is revealing a lot of info right now which is nice. Apparently he was pretty close with both Brittany and Faith. That's both good and bad news. On the one hand they may be still loyal to him and not be okay with voting him out. On the other hand he says, Brit was the next target and they had trouble dealing with her. I could just expose his shit? It's going to be tricky, but I do feel like this move of voting him out needs to happen.

"poukai"

- Stuff is getting bonkers. We are definitely going to tribal now so everything is getting real very quickly. Berk and I are trying to figure out who to target and it's been shifting back and forth between every option on the table and I have no idea where we are going to land. The one thing I do know is we are both safe.

"arapawa"

- So I'm relying on Kost to be my new Berk for the time being. Alex is insane, and Cas is cool, but this is kinda my first time speaking to him.

"arapawa"

- So it's looking like I was wrong and Brian has decided to get Brittany out. That's probably what happened. Either that or he's secretly talked with all the girls to get me out. Brian says the girls (Brit and Faith) think we're voting out Daniella. They seem a little too okay with that imo, but whatever. Maybe they're just assuming a girl has to go and are glad it's not them. Or maybe they're telling Daniella to use an idol, which would be cool if we really do vote out Brit

"poukai"

- The Ci'ere blindside is coming soon. He'll be second to go after Cheryl. This is gonna be big, because he's been one of the people controlling the game. It's not that I don't like him, it's just that I know he doesn't trust me and I worry about his social skills. I've been trying to get people to distrust him for a long time and it's finally paying off.

"arapawa"

- Even though it's imperative that Brian does not win immunity, I'm not going to do intentionally well in this challenge. So to not offend anyone I just filled in my buddy Kostas in for every question on our tribe and the person I'm expecting to get the boot on the other tribe: Cheryl for questions on the other tribe. I'm such a diplomat... May even have a decent shot with that, because I guess people will say a lot of the less nice things about that person. A fluke win would be kind of funny.

"poukai"

- As of right now, on my tribe, I have Matt, Matt, & Josh in an alliance, making us majority....UNLESS an idol is played by the other 3, could it foil our plans. Ci'rere & Charlie have been chattin me up most of the day. I MAY have lead Ci'ere to believe that I do not have anyone here. He wants Josh out...course that doesn't fit into my plans, so it is inevitable that he will have to go. But I have him thinking that I will vote with him & Josh sounds like a GREAT plan! I guess with the Matt's & Josh...then the other 3, that kinda makes me the swing vote. sweet!! I like options!! Nowwwww...if I could JUST get that darn idol clue & secure myself a lil safety!! XOXO

"arapawa"

- Flipping Brit and Faith was too easy. Why did Brian give me that information gold mine? Idiot. Only so annoying that I had to include Kostas in all of this. I just wanted to tell him last minute when he had already voted for one of the girls. But he decides to finally start acting like he has a brain and confronts me about the 7 men alliance. I always felt like he was not stupid enough to believe there was not such a thing, but why did he decide that now was the right moment to act smart? Anyways, he also wanted to target a guys although he probably wanted Alex. I'm happy to see that I'm right about everyone wanting Alex out, but luckily I could get him on the anti Brian train. The only problem is that he was adamant about being included in the thing with the girls. I don't really want this to end up a 5-2 vote, but I guess I could always blame Alex. Because... Basically everything is Alex's fault.

"arapawa"

- NEW ZEALAND I'VE NEVER BEEN SO ANGRY

"arapawa"

- I was talking to Britt, and she said we're in such a good place. I feel terrible. Awfully terrible. If she does end up going home after the vote, out friendship could go down the drain. She trusts me...

"poukai"

- UGH this game is such a boys club right now.. All the guys are just targeting the girls and picking us off one by one. That's so stupid

"poukai"

- I went out on a big limb and told Charlie about Ci'ere's potential idol. My goal is to make a solid four out of Brian, Josh, Casper and I. It definitely worked, and Charlie is hopefully sold on the idea of that group, which makes my life a little easier.

"arapawa"

- Btw, what's really funny is that Brit is now talking about the dirty little snake B I'm really feeling like i'm playing mostly with a huge bunch of suckers, but at the same time I have been out there way too much lately. Maybe I should tell them after tribal my brother died of internal bleeding undetected by doctors? It just sucks that Kos is a medical student, don't know if that would be possible and the timeline is realistic for that xD But I do definitely need something to divert their attention from my awesomeness.rian and is really mad at him. Brit, don't be worried about the little snake. Be worried about this huge ass basilisk even Lord Voldemort would be scared off.

Day 18
"poukai"

- I really like everyone on my new tribe, I don't want to vote anyone out. BUT I GUESS I HAVE TO because both tribes are going to tribal lol. I think Alex tried to put the challenge beasts on one tribe and the "extras" on the other, but I'm not gonna let that phase me. I did tell him that the alliance is fake and I hope he'll still want to work with Charlie and I when we merge.

"poukai"

- I honestly am shocked i got put down for answers. I didn't think people thought I was annoying and didn't deserve to be here. I can't clearly trust the boys at all because they are the ones who answered (minus Chelsea). I can't make a move because all the guys are tight and there's only two girls.

"arapawa"

- Woohoo! This was NOT an immunity I expected to win. But boy am I glad I might have all the power this week. And also glad that my guesses about Ci'ere being annoying and a poser were right. Because if they were wrong I would've never heard the end of it.

"arapawa"

- So I might be a bit of a liar, but these people thinking that scares me. Since that was the consensus, that means some of my own allies don't trust me... I better not be getting blindsided tonight. If you look at the other tribe's answers, all the boys seem to trust me there, and assumed I would be answers for some questions like most loyal or trust with their lives. I have to make it through...

"arapawa"

- Oh my god I had to mute the chat my phone is going off every 5 min due to Alex like god damn buddy relax

"poukai"

- So I want to work with Cheryl and I almost want to save her. But when I do she says she's alone. She has 0 allies. Gurl. Do you think I'm dumb? I was told that she and Pav are super close so voting her out would also mean we're splitting her up. I thought she was going to slay me, but she was literally trying to slay me. The vote should be between Cheryl and Josh. I like Josh and he wants to work with me so I want him to stay, but if Cheryl plays an idol he's the most expendable person I believe. The girls aren't going to vote each other out so we get them to vote for Josh. We want to split the vote 4-2.

"arapawa"

- Tonight’s vote is really hard, mainly because I’m voting out a really good friend of mine just to ensure a better spot in this game. I’m sorry, Britt, but both of us are playing this game to win, and I know that I’m not going to the end with you, if you had the choice. Matt and I are close, and we both had spoken to you about a final 3 where you basically told us the same thing, even though we didn’t include each other (Matt and I) in the agreement. I know this will most likely make me lose Faith as an ally, and maybe even you as a friend, but I can’t lose you as a friend. You are one of the nicest people, if not the nicest person, I’ve met in this game. I’ve been going through a lot with friends recently and almost flipped on the boys because I feel bad about voting for you, but I don’t trust you in the long run in this game. Please, please forgive me. I hope we can be friends after this is all over. Emotikon heart

"arapawa"

- I think we're just going to get Brit out. So a more interesting tribal than if we got Daniella out, but less interesting than getting Kostas or Brian out. I have no idea when I'll be able to get Brian out though. Maybe Final Three if I make it there. Emotikon tongue Or perhaps earlier, since enough people seem to think he's a liar. Idk.

"poukai"

- This also tells me how much about the people im aligned with. For example, Matt B is probably close with EVERYONE. It deff showed in the comp. If it were up to me, I wouldnt mind seeing him go home tonight mainly because i know he'd dro me if he didnt need me anymore

"arapawa"

- So it seems it's going to be me, Brian, or Brittany. People keep telling me Brian will be going home, but I feel super nervous right now considering that this could just be a huge tactic to eliminate me or make me feel better before I go. I just have to hope at this point people realize that Brian is the bigger threat.

"arapawa"

- "Why couldn't I just get my 4-3 vote? So sad. Seems like Alex may also want to vote out Brian and it could become a 6-1... Boring! And apparently Kostas wants to tell him to indeed vote that way. Because we should not blindside him. We don't want him to be mad. Who cares? We can easily spin this story in a way that wouldn't get Alex mad. I don't get why people are so afraid to blindside. It keeps people on their toes and the less people are included in a plan, the less likely it gets messed up. Plus a bit of chaos and a shady game, works way better for me. If I could have just done this on my own without Kos, I feel like it would have been a lot less stressful. So that's definitely how I'm planning to move forward, but I'm sure there will again be idiots that also think they can play this game and I'll have to involve them again. When talking and working with these players I often feel like I'm walking a really small but stubborn dog. So basically every 5 seconds of the walk we're stopping and he's again playfully yanking at his belt. I want to carry or even punch these dogs, but I know I can't and am just being patient and waiting for them to start walking again. However, with some of these dogs I'm really close to bringing them to the vet to euthanize them."

"poukai"

- I'm gonna pull my hair out before this tribal is over. I'm terrified that there are other idols out there and that I'm going out. I REALLY don't wanna be that person that has an idol and doesn't use it correctly. I just have a seriously bad feeling about this tribal. I don't feel like I have the social bonds to save me if the target plays an idol. I feel like Ciera in that one episode of Cambodia where she was pissed that her alliance was putting her in jeopardy. The other guys are sitting pretty, while my ass is on the line. I don't have long to read these people and figure out a plan. I feel alone and disposable and most people are sketchy imo.

"poukai"

- Well, here it is, finally going to tribal council. Luckily there's zero chance I'm going home. My closest alliance mate (Berk) was chosen as most trusted, so I think I'm in good hands. The two of us are the only two names I haven't heard come up. It looks like we're definitely voting Cheryl. I feel bad, partially because she seems like a sweet lady and seems to trust me, and partially because that will make me the oldest person in the game.

"poukai"

- Charlie is my closest ally as of now. We want to make moves against gameplayers like Pav. Pav is dipping into everyone's honeypots and he needs to go. I was voted for biggest liar, most annoying, and most likely to be famous one day. I'm so glad I won today and it's really special since it's the first individual immunity of the season, I feel like I can read people really well and this kind of proves that. I want to When the merge comes I have a feeling that the guys are going to kill each other. There are 9 guys and 6 girls so they won't think they're threats and then BAM they all kill each other and a girl ends up winning.

"poukai"

- And I was just coming around to the idea of totally blindsiding Ci'ere! He had to go and win immunity. I was one answer away from tying with him. Not sure that I really wanted to win though, don't need to paint any bigger of a target on my back after getting chosen as strongest competitor and most likely to win a real reality show.

"arapawa"

- This is such a crucial moment. If I survive this, I think I will be set for the long run. However, I cannot feel comfortable, exactly because all the indications show that things cannot be going sooo well. I am either playing with idiots or with extreme liars.

"poukai"

- Finally lost my voting virginity. Momma C popped my cherry!