Don't Be Giving Me Ultimatums/Confessionals

Day 10
"zibaq"

- It's never nice voting out someone who was loyal(ish) to you, but I screwed Gevonte because I know that I can't go into the swap juggling 3 different alliances..and of course we swap right after he gets voted out, poor guy.

I think I accomplished what I wanted for this first tribe. I wanted to get out of here without any baggage, and with good relationships with everyone. Zak is the only questionable person left, but really I feel confident about this. If I get fucked in the swap, so be it, but I did everything that I could to set myself up well in the swap, and I know that I'm playing the best game out of anyone so far.

"zibaq"

- Going into this swap, I am acting on the assumption that the Najmas are unified, whether it’s true or not. I’m not one to take risks. To counter the Najma alliance, I’m doubling down on my expounding. I’m privately messaging X, “try your hardest to keep Y loyal to us if you end up with them,” and I’m telling Y, “Keep your eye on X; we’ll need his vote.” Everyone thinks they play a role. Good shit.

"najma"

- Okay admittedly this confessional is a little outdated because we are about to swap, but I felt I had to keep the fact that I formed an alliance with Brett, Dalton and Aras hidden from Malik and Whitney. The problem is if they know that Brett, Dalton and Aras are aligned then they will be even more gung ho to take Aras out, which is truly something I don't even understand. I think at this point I just hope Whitney and Aras end up on opposite tribes. I could inform Aras that Whitney is gunning for him, but I don't think that will accomplish anything but put Whitney at risk, which I don't really want to happen either. I'm a little helpless right now.

"najma"

- This tribe swap has me SHOOK. All my plans were in place to get rid of Aras and now they've been spectacularly thwarted by this twist. I had my dream team trio of Scott and Malik ready to vote for him, and Kristen and me are now alligned also. Alas, it was not to be. I'm ready for that two-faced hoe to DIE. I know he's playing every single side there is, like a frickin' PENTAGON. I need him to GO and if that means flipping from my current tribe to theirs after the swap then so be it.

"najma"

- We have a swap coming, but first--I have a major concern going into it. It was brought to my attention that one of the other players took a game conversation screenshot involving targeting Kristen and shared that with Kristen, leading to her explosive confrontation. Names have not been named. It hasn't been revealed who took the screenshot nor who the person targeting Kristen was, but I could potentially have been the person whose conversation was screenshot and that could have MAJOR game implications to me. A rule was broken regardless of whether they were aware of it or not when sharing the screenshot and now I am potentially at a major disadvantage heading into a swap with Kristen feeling like I will cut her loose at any given moment. That or I'm not the subject and Kristen will flip and put original Najma at a major disadvantage. The person who sent the screenshot earned major loyalty from Kristen and got to keep their identity concealed. That's a huge advantage. Meanwhile, the rest of the Najma tribe following the rules could potentially get buried by such a game changing exchange. It's troubling. Kristen revealed the screenshot to Aras, who reported it--that probably didn't score him any points with her. He thinks it's Whitney who might be the person who blabbed to Kristen. I am not quite certain it is her, but if it is, that means I'm not the subject of it because I never talked about Kristen to Whitney until after she went nuts. I'm hoping these details come to light. It doesn't make a lot of sense for my game to run rampant and accuse certain tribe members of stirring the pot with Kristen, so I'm going to continue to treat everyone as I have been and carry on as if it's not a major issue even though it definitely is.

Gevonte's gone and I liked the guy a bit, however extra some of his phrasing was during the last immunity challenge. The swap is a complete crap shoot. The teams will be 6 on 6 with the leftover player going to the bazaar. Then either they'll get to choose their team, they'll be put on New Najma by default as it was the original tribe with 7 members, or they'll be safe for this round and join the ranks of the losing tribe after they vote out their first new member at the fifth tribal council. A trip to the bazaar wouldn't do me any good because $90 isn't going to help me at all and I could potentially end up on a bad tribe when all is said and done. I'm hoping that I end up with at least 2 of any combination of Aras, Dalton, and Scott on my tribe for sure just so I feel comfortable with the numbers. Aras and Scott are both very challenge dominant and it would so help us keep the upper hand going as well as make more trips to the bazaar. My fingers are crossed. I really hope I'm not screwed by swap like so many have been in the past.

"zibaq"

- OMG YES ! And now, I have the power on this tribe ! It's beautiful.

"zibaq"

- Roodman is a very intelligent boy. He have so many ideas ! And Will seems like he want to be the leader of the alliance ! They are so... "unexperienced". I mean, Tate and I knew that you need discretion if you want to got further in this game. But they don't have at all ! And that will be good at the end of the game.

"najma"

- It sucks that we're having a tribe swap now. The other tribe may want one, but nobody on Najma doesn't..we all like each other pretty much, and I pretty much really like Scott right now. He's amazing to talk to, and the thought of separating from him right now feels weird to me. Like I don't like it at all. If I could have anyone with me it'd be Scott and Whitney, but we'll have to see. Hopefully none of us gets tribe fucked, and we can all make the merge, flawlessly.

Day 11
"najma"

- Soooooooooo I set [Romain] on the wrong track, and here’s how: Tate found his idol in square T20. T is the twentieth letter in ‘Outwit, Outplay, Outlast.” I had a feeling that this maxim was the cypher for finding the idols, as in, the squares of interest were O1, U2, T3, etc. It took me just a few guesses to know my hunch was wrong. I kept guessing according to the cypher though, just to cover ground, and then I told Romain in private, “Yo, dude, Tate found his idol in T20. The cypher must be ‘Outwit, Outplay, Outlast.” We’ve since been separated by the swap, but I hope he’s still over there on Zibaq, looking in each of the twenty squares that I’ve already covered. He’s probably grateful for the lead too. Happy hunting, Romain!

"najma"

- I miss my old tribe straight from the go tribe

Six minds one soul tribe, the blue not gold tribe

I hate my new tribe, the gold not blue tribe

The major ‘tude tribe, the never lose tribe

I miss the Z tribe, the always beat tribe

The draggin’ feet tribe, bottom of the heap tribe

See, I ruled my old tribe, with my secret allies

And now I look around and I got no more allies

I used to love my tribe, I used to love my tribe

I even had the blue buff, I thought I was my tribe

"zibaq"

- Swap went perfectly. I have the chance to get closer to Zak and Anna, and I'm pretty confident that I can make Malik love me. Just gonna keep pretending I know stuff about astrology and using buzz words like ""snatched"" and ""shook"" and ""low-key/high-key"". Dalton, God love him, is leaking information like a god damn faucet. Apparently his tribe is going for Roodman because they think he's the mastermind, and Dalton has previous relationships with Tate and Malik.

Rood and Tate are in the minority, but they have the idol and I feel like Romain and I can potentially throw these challenges to get them out of trouble.

If we throw this challenge who do we target? I say Dalton. I know that Tate is a fucking beast. He's really, really good in a non obvious way. I want to work with Tate down the road, but I can't give him a goat like Dalton.

Only way this tribe swap doesn't go well is if I lose Zak, and Dalton is pretty suspicious of Zak already.

"zibaq"

- I really like my new tribe tbh because I really wanna work with Anna and I wanna keep myself on Will's good side and we have a majority and I know Malik pretty well already soooo :)

"najma"

- This swap has raised a whole mess. The problem is Whitney is targeting Aras and will probably take every opportunity to vote him out if he ends up over here. That leaves the options as follows (and whichever of these I have to also convince Brett of): 1. Throw the first challenge, vote out an old Zibaq as planned, let Aras come over here. Whitney is gonna get Kristen and the remaining Zibaq to vote Aras, and I'll probably have to follow suit to avoid rocks. 2. Win the challenge, hope Malik survives on the other side, then start throwing. (I don't care so much if Dalton goes out.) 3. Throw the challenge and convince old Zibaq to vote out Kristen. This cripples Whitney's numbers, and then we'll just tell Zibaq that Whitney's the easy next vote, they'll vote Whitney. Even if Whitney tries to get them to vote Aras, they'll go with the perceived 4-2 majority rather than the 3-3 tie. Then we just turn it back around on them. In theory this is a perfect option, but I would lose Whitney's trust and it might be hard to get back again. I don't want to approach Brett with this just yet because I think if he sees this option he'll be all for it and I don't want to lock into it just yet. Though it sounds like Brett's preference is to throw the first challenge and get Aras over here, but I don't think he understands the danger.

"najma"

- We swapped. Blegh. Tate and I are in a 4-2 minority, and we both know we have to get to work to finagle our way out of this one.

I finally learned what was at the bazaar, courtesy of Whitney and Scott. If Scott is telling the truth, no one until Aras right now has had enough cash in pocket to buy anything, which is a relief. I’m already at a numbers disadvantage; I don’t want to worry about a vote steal or magic voodoo lamp or something.

All four of my new tribe mates are older than everyone on old Zibaq. That’s pretty weird. I thought for a second the tribes must be secretly divided by age but I saw Aras was fifteen so I’m chalking it up to coincidence.

The age difference changes the vibe some. Socializing with adults is intimidating to me. Tate tells me I’m mature for my age, but I disagree. I think I’m self-aware for my age. I feel like they see me how I see thirteen-year-olds. I’m always scared that I’ll commit some social blunder that I don’t have the maturity to recognize. It doesn’t help that Scott and Brett are these witty intellectual types. I have a hard time imagining that I could ever develop the relationship with one of those two that I have with Will when they see me as a kid, and they do.

For example, Brett was tryna lecture me about underage drinking when BITCH, I’m a more responsible drinker than you or anyone. Don’t tell me to shut the liquor cabinet when you’re gonna go pass out in some gutter with Tate. I’m at home sipping rum with ice cream and watching Netflix. I still think Brett is a cool guy though, but we can never be pals.

First thing Whitney said when I told her I live in DC: “LOL have you had to deal with those craz liberal protesters at all?(paraphrase)”. ...Yeah, that’s me wearing a pussy hat in my cover photo. I mean, I’m not one to judge by politics, as long as you think you believe in what is right, but that was one of the most awkward introductions I’ve ever experienced. We smoothed it over though, after I let her rant for a few minutes about how the people who voted against Brexit were idiots: http://imgur.com/kzJVCAT

I talked careers and school with Brett and Scott some. Never got around to talking shop with either though.

"najma"

- Okay. Swap time. I was very nervous about getting swap fucked and those thoughts manifested themselves into reality. My new Najma tribe is 4 old Najma then myself and Roodman. At least I have a trusted ally on this tribe. But i'm in a real pickle.

Kirtsen has told us that she wants to gin for Scott or Brett. Scott has told me he wants to work with me so I'm going to try to make a good connection with him. I get the sense that they might target Roodman before me. So I'm torn between making a move with Roodman to try and gain a majority, or sit back let Roodman go home and then use the idol to save myself until the merge. Either way, pray for me

"najma"

- BITCH THIS BE CRAY CRAY. So much is happening too fast. Ok so first Roodman comes to me all how strong is your tribe and I'm like... we're strong. And then he's like I want me and Tate to stick together and I'm like well tough shit. And then the next morning he's all "oh I've thought it over and actually I'll flip as long as I'm not at the bottom" and I'm all like DON'T BE GIVING ME ULTIMATUMS HOE IM THE ONE WITH THE POWER. So I'm all like ok you wouldn't be on the bottom w/e to appease him. Then he goes and TELLS KRISTEN I WANT HER OUT. Then she confronted me bout it in the OG Najma chat (scott brett Kristen and me) and I literally FREAK. We were planning to throw the challenge to keep Malik and Dalton in the game on the other tribe, but now Kristen's all cray and Tate's so calm (as if he has an idol...!) we're too scared to risk anything. IT'S ALL A DISASTER. If we lose the challenge and Kristen flips or they have an idol I'M GONE. The upside is that if we lose and Tate or Roodman goes home and Aras joins, I can FINALLY GET RID OF HIM. But gurl I'm shook too much is happening.

"najma"

- I said at the beginning of this game that my rhetoric would help me win the game. A great example of that is my conversations with Kristen. Kristen resents Scott and Brett, but mostly Brett, for trying to run the tables. She sees them as bossy. I don’t want her to perceive me that way, although I do plan on running the tables like Brett. When I talk to her, I give her room to explain what she is thinking before I speak. Oftentimes, she says what I’m already thinking, and I only need to agree with her. Both of us get what we want.

Yeah, everyone always brags about their A-MAY-ZING social game at the final tribal council, but they forget that there’s two equally able-minded, calculating, strategizing individuals at both ends of a relationship. You don’t deserve sole kudos for anything that comes from that relationship unless you can demonstrate that you were the dominant personality. Otherwise you make yourself look like an ass in front of the jury by taking full credit for something you were only half responsible for.

That is, unless you can parse your relationship into specifics like I can. There, I said it.

Tate and I were in an unenviable position, but where there’s an idol, there’s a way, even if there’s no more Will (Ha ha, good one Roodman). Our plan initially was for Tate to ask to be voted out, draw all the votes, and then use the idol to knock out Scott or Brett. Then when we got wind from Kristen that she was on the bottom of OG Najma and wanted to shake things up, we ratcheted our plan up a couple notches.

Phase One: Infiltration. I’ve told both Whitney and Scott that I want to flip. I will forsake the blue, and don my yellow buff, born again as a true Najma. I think both are sincere when they say they will spare me over Tate. I just hope I can integrate myself well enough that they will spill the beans on how they will vote.

Something I’ve made a sticking point in these talks is that I will not flip if I’m on the bottom on the Najma alliance. Whitney swore and down that I wouldn’t be. Good. Now they’re not gonna split the vote between me and Tate and risk alienating me. Therefore, Tate can play his idol without worry.

Whitney told me she trusts me completely. Mistake. My conversation with Scott was a bit harder to dissect. When I delivered my whole spiel, Scott promised me, “You won’t be on the bottom, guaranteed.” Good. Then he said, “And I promise I’m not throwing the challenge.”

?!?!??!?!?!?!?!

“Who said anything about throwing the challenge?!”

“Oh, no one is throwing the challenge, but it was discussed. I’m telling you because I want to have connections to both tribes when the merge comes, and you and Tate are key to that.”

Huh. I said, “Ok. I’m still apprehensive about attending tribal council, though. I’d rather we win.”

Scott replied, “Yeah, I don’t blame you. Once Tate is gone, if Zibaq votes out Malik or Dalton, they won’t be doing you any favors.” Implying that I’d be voted out next... Thanks for your honesty, Scott.

So from my conversation with Scott, I gathered that he wants me to flip on the Zibaq alliance, let him into the Zibaq alliance, and vote me out for being part of the Zibaq alliance all at once.



Phase 2: Execution. Tate and I decided to not tell Kristen about the idol, although we now have a secret alliance chat with her (#pray4us). I’m hoping if I successfully infiltrate the Najmas, and convince them to split the vote between Kristen and Tate, that we can combine our three votes and knock Brett or Scott out of the game, without using the idol.

I’m still fuzzy on whether or not Najma trusts Kristen, trusts me, trusts both of us, or trusts neither. If they start feeding me and Kristen conflicting info about the vote, things will get hairy, since we won’t know what to believe. If we potentially don’t know if they’re splitting the vote, or who they’re voting for, then we’ll be forced to take a gamble with the idol, or risk a deadlock.

"najma"

- The swap has come to fruition. Aras hangs in limbo at the Bazaar and he is the first player that will have enough money to purchase an advantage. While I wanted a Zibaq to be sent to the Bazaar, I am glad an ally of mine is safe at the Bazaar and will have first dibs on advantages as opposed to some of these other goobers who are panicked, overemotional, confrontational, and/or troublemakers. It is to my good fortune that I remain on Najma with the advantage--though I perhaps would have chosen different company. I am relieved to have Scott with me, but I'm a little worried about Kristen (someone who has proven to be emotionally volatile and easy to rattle and manipulate) and Whitney (who Aras believes is the source of the leak). Dalton and Malik have been lost to Zibaq (sorry, Dalton) and we have picked up Roodman (Zibaq's most stubborn and irritating member based on the last immunity challenge) and Tate (someone I actually have a decent first impression of).

"najma"

- The initial strategy for original Najma was to throw immunity, eliminate one of the original Zibaq members, and pick up Aras. But first, let's have literally EVERYONE become paranoid beyond all reason and start playing out of fear. Whitney's been transparent with us that Roodman has approached her about flipping and she's yessed him up and down the block just to keep him from being too aggressive. Moments later, Kristen calls out no one in particular for coming after her (how familiar) and this time I don't have room to hide among the rest of the tribe, so I bite and ask her what's eating her. It ends up she's paranoid about things that ROODMAN of all people told her! Kristen, what the Christ are you doing listening to Roodman?! OF COURSE he's going to try to get original Najma members to distrust one another! So Kristen told the group that Roodman said Whitney's coming after her and she totally believes it because that's how Kristen does. We all talk her down and get her back to an operable state of mind. Cool. The immunity challenge then presents itself and there's an increased incentive to win because the winners receive a clue to the whereabouts of the Hidden Immunity Idol. Honestly, I couldn't care less. I've never been someone particularly bent on requiring an idol to win. I don't think it's the end-all-be-all and I'm happier without it, frankly. Unfortunately, there's dissent. Kristen agrees with me, but that doesn't help my cause at all. Scott and Whitney are hung up on what if's as far as one of the former Zibaqs across the way getting idol access. Furthermore, Scott is TERRIFIED of the idol falling into the wrong hands and is heavily reliant on the possibility that former Zibaq might not be working together and we should risk possibly having new Zibaq throwing all three challenges to eliminate Dalton, Malik, and Aras so that we enter the merge at a 6-4 disadvantage. Sure, tribal lines aren't 100% of the story, but I feel like playing scared like that is a much larger risk than throwing the challenge and voting out Roodman or Tate like we originally discussed before the swap even happened. Everyone is playing idol scared and I'm just annoyed with everyone. But with a frantic Kristen and an over-strategizing Whitney, Scott does have a point. I don't really have a best friend ride or die in this game. Scott is the closest thing I have to that, so it's not a great idea for me to be too headstrong and oppose Scott. We were at a standstill, so I gave in for the sake of harmony and to keep on Scott's good side. Should this all work out and Scott and I end up in the final 5 or closer together, I'm pretty sure I can't let him near that final tribal council. Something to remember.

So since we chose not to throw, I played my hardest at the challenge and I scored better than I'd have thought--not as good as Roodman and Scott, but at least in the top half of scores. And as it ends up, I did better than anyone on Zibaq. We won. Scott believes they didn't throw. I feel like it wasn't an obvious throw, but we still don't know for sure. At least I don't. Kristen played the game and a score of 0 is borderline impossible and she managed to just give up and abstain from the challenge, earning us no points at all. What the hell was that all about? Silly girl.

Tate approaches me and we talk. He knows Dalton from a previous game and senses correctly based off my personality that Dalton gravitated towards me to work with. I didn't confirm it. Tate brought up that he is down to flip to our side at the merge to work with Dalton. I countered that Dalton could easily say the same thing to the Zibaq tribe and he could flip over to Tate. We reasoned more and I really appreciate Tate's calm and reasonable nature in a strategy discussion. He's exactly the type of person I would normally work with and had we started on the same tribe, he might have been my number one ally. I told Tate my door is open and that there's a huge potential we can work together if the pieces align like they should. I mean it. I would like to work with Tate.

Day 12
"zibaq"

- Oh my fucking god. We just lost the challenge. I like Will, Romain and Zak, but I feel like I'm going home :/ hopefully I don't.

"zibaq"

- This night, we'll have a difficult Tribal to make. We'll make a split vote, and each person needs to stay loyal. However, we can have Malik on our side, and if he vote with us, omg, my position is this game will be awesome !

"zibaq"

- Fortunately, we lost the challenge and Daltons going home. Malik is okay with it, Anna's okay with it, and Romain thinks it's his idea so we're good. Once Aras comes to the tribe, he's gone next.

In other good news, Malik is definitely feeling me. I really believe he'd flip to Zibaq in the merge, which puts us at 7-4, with the 4 member majority of the Harry Truman Alliance at the core. I've got great relationships with everyone out of that 7 (maybe except for Zak) so it's in my best interest to make sure we make it as far as possible.

I've got Tate, Roodman, Romain, and even Zak to stick out as threats, and I've got Anna and Malik to go use as votes once we get to the point of turning on each other.

"najma"

- It warms my heart to see Will and Romain throwing challenges for my sake and Tate’s. Bless them. Kristen revealed that the Najmas are in fact loaded with items from the bazaar. Scott said that there was nothing at the bazaar that cost less that 100$, and he wasn’t lying, but he wasn’t telling the whole truth either. There’s nothing cheap at the bazaar because he and his cohorts already bought it all up, and didn’t leave any for Zibaq. Sneaky, sneaky. I don’t know exactly what they have, but I’m scared. A vote steal, or even a double vote could fuck us over big time. Tate and I have been doing pretty damn well considering we’ve been playing from behind, but we are far from out of the woods.

"zibaq"

- Hi I made what was supposed to be the simplest vote of the entire game one of the most convoluted votes I've partaken in. Well not really, just last night i was in a 3-3-2-1 vote/4-3 revote which was pretty lit but this is mUCH crazier than it should be. Like, okay so I promised Malik merge bc we have Org History but knowing that he can be an Org Mess (trademarked) I was incredibly wary of this deal. Well, we were all set, half of our alliance had already submitted a vote, everything is looking all set for a unanimous Dalton vote.

Then Dalton finally messages me, spills ALL OF THE FUCKING BEANS of his old tribe in one fell swoop, completely EXCORIATES Scott and Brett, and proceeds to utterly throw Malik under the bus like something ripped straight out of Jenny Guzon-Bae's manual to voting out JP. He tells me he would be willing to send screenshots of a conversation he had with Malik if screenshots were allowed and proceeds to copy and paste (I've spoken with Malik enough to see if it would be believable or not) and what I find is Malik wanted me out of this tribe first. Now that is NOT a good look at all to be honest, and I had to believe Dalton on that one. Dalton could easily be lying to me about all of this, and if he is, kudos to him bc he played the past hour of this game masterfully. I'm half anticipating some kind of an idol play and it somehow tying between me and Malik, but that's just my paranoia. So anyways, after hearing this, I was shook and within five minutes me and Anna are changing our votes to Malik, which is most likely going to force a tie, upon which Malik will be voted out.

Honestly I'm so completely amazed this round happened, I was worried all these votes were going to be boring and now I'm going to trigger another epic Malik meltdown.

"najma"

- Zibaq is heading off to tribal council. I really hope it's not Dalton. We'll have to see as far as that. We received the immunity clue and although it eliminates 150+ squares from the equation, there's still a lot of ground to search. A 0.2% chance of uncovering the idol raised to 0.3%. Yay.

I think the main issues of the day, however, are all Roodman's. He brazenly approached me this morning to talk strategy and he is really aggressive and almost embarrassingly transparent. He claims he wants to flip on Tate and eliminate him because he was the center of Old Zibaq and Roodman was a loner. I highly doubt that to be true. I rolled my eyes through the whole thing, kept my emotions to myself and told him that I would have to think about his offer since I didn't think of him as a possibility until just then. He didn't like that I wasn't going to immediately jump at the chance to work with THE ROODMAN and he then tried to stir doubt within me by saying Scott and Whitney promised him more than I did and that he's a bit surprised we haven't discussed it. Do you want me on your side or not, dude? I don't respond to scare tactics well--especially from a seventeen year old. You have homework due tomorrow morning in your senior year of high school. Get out of here with that! I'm so over his wannabe mastermind nonsense. I discuss the matter with Scott moments later and before I even weigh in and I've just said "it's about Roodman," his immediate response is "I want him gone." Perfect. Neither of us want to give Roodman the satisfaction of doing better than us because of how unlikable he is. Stay tuned to see how that chapter ends. I really hope we can crush him before the merge.

"zibaq"

- We lost tribal, and I'm not sure if I'm surviving this tribal. I like Dalton, but we've been put up against the wall against each other now, so between us two, he's got to go. Romain is my buddy <3 Zak I love him so I'd hope he wouldn't vote me out now..and Will he's amazing. I've only met him at swap, and I think he's amazing. I feel he might low key be playing me, but that could change depending on tribal. The only one I'm unsure about is Annabelle. She's sweet, but doesn't talk much, atleast to me. Hopefully Dalton doesn't convince them to send me home, and I either have Aras on my back, OR get him targeted next because apparently he wants me out as well. And I can survive to merge, and reunite with Scott and Whitney :)

"zibaq"

- After the vote and seeing it's going into a revote, I clearly can't trust Zakriah again nor look at him the same anymore. Romain and Will as far as I know voted Dalton, so idk why I'm the vote. They must've believed Dalton when he said I was in a majority. I never was, Dalton was. Like I'm annoyed with the constant pinning rumors to get me sent home I cannot deal. For once I'm going to try to relax though I am IN VOLCANO MODE. I'm going to keep it cute and just find a way to flip a vote, or I'm done.

"zibaq"

- I don't know if I'm allowed to have these in a revote but here goes:

Dalton has been spreading lies making it seem like I was in the majority and he was in the minority. He LEGIT swapped our stories and made it seem like I was the threat, when he's really in the majority following under Brett's tight ass, not mine. He barely talked to me in this entire game, is apart of Brett's army. Now he's trying to do Brett's deed to get me out. Nah. Not ok my watch. I'm going down, swinging. Hopefully I somehow save myself this round because it'd be a miracle to do so.

"zibaq"

- ZAK YOU MOTHERFUCKER. Gah, the Dalton vote was totally set and then with about 10 hours to go with Romain asleep, Zak starts second guessing everything because Dalton told him Malik was in a big alliance at their old tribe and Dalton was the next to go. Surprise, player on the bottom makes up shit to stay in the game. Zak got Anna freaked the fuck out, meanwhile I'm pretending that I already submitted my vote for Dalton so they won't flip it. Dumb and Dumber decide to just vote for Malik anyway to tie the vote. You're fucking unreal if you think I'm going to trust you when you're basically voting against me.

To be honest, I could give a shit if Malik is part of another alliance. If he flips he's going to vote Zak first anyway, and he'd most likely try to bring me in on it. Zak and Anna are totally right to be paranoid about him because he's more loyal to me than either of them.

Luckily, Romain has the social game of a goddamn wrecking ball so I'm just going to let him flip out at Zak and scare him and Anna out of voting for Malik. If Malik goes its not the end of the world, I certainly wouldn't go to rocks for him, but I'd really like to not have Dalton around when he knows that I wanted him gone.

"none"

- So reading the results of the Zibaq tribal I'm fully anticipating that I'm going to have to make up lies and fight my ass off to survive tribal or straight up solo the immunity challenges. But what do you know, I see a tie between Malik and Dalton, while one of the original Najma's is going I frankly don't give a fuck, those fucking morons on the other tribe couldn't be arsed to throw a god damn challenge so from here on out they're basically dead to me :)) what this vote shows is opportunity, what would be most ideal is if they went to rocks, that would just show a huge hatred between sides, but I'm confident that I can just jump in the majority wherever it goes and ride it out until the merge as a number 4. Number 4 this early in the game is perfectly fine with me, and truthfully I'll have options, between Dalton and Malik whoever stays I feel like will still trust me more than the people they just met. This is a nice position, I was whole heartedly expecting an asinine 4-2 vote with Dalton and Malik getting screwed, but this is exciting.

"zibaq"

- I make bigger messes than a lactose intolerant child drinking a gallon of milk

Or the mess Gwen Stefani describes in 2004's ""Danger Zone""

"zibaq"

- Romain reacted really badly to the vote, as expected, and pushed Zak into backing down. Crisis Averted, Dalton goes home.

"najma"

- Okay. This whole tribe is full of fakes. I feel like it's me vs everyone. I feel like I can't even trust my Zibaq brother Roodman.

All the old Najma people are trying way to hard to make me feel comfortable. my guess would be it's because Roodman told them about my idol. They want to make me feel safe. Then vote for me asap. Well I told myself I'm going to use the idol regardless if I feel safe or not at the tribal. I'd rather waste it then go home with it still in my possession. I'm hoping we just keep winning immunity so I dont have to deal with any of these shitheads at a tribal until the merge. They only people I like are on the other tribe. this fucking blows. and its really killing my motivation to play. Hopefully another swap or some sort of twist happens soon.

"zibaq"

- This might be really long and i should have sent in a few before this but i'm feeling pretty alright in the game so far with a few bumps. Will told me that Gevonte had made an alliance and said that i was probably a target if we lost immunity because of my challenge performance. This kind of made me panic but not too much because i took Will telling me about it as a sign that he trusted me and wanted to work with me. This is kind of how Gevonte became a target, though i wasn't part of the alliance so i have no idea what they talked about but Gevonte playing too hard is how he was voted out and not me because i didn't seem at all like a threat to anyone. So i felt pretty decent after that tribal but still kind of on the outside because i wasn't included in the majority alliance which kind of gives me the idea that the rest are probably closer. Flash forward to the tribal swap and i feel a little better because i think i can work this to my advantage and work with dalton he immediately came to me to talk to me and we meshed pretty well but when we lost immunity and will came to me saying dalton was the target i sort of panicked. I thought that i could use dalton as kind of a bridge between this tribe and the other and he seemed genuine enough to me so i tried to get dalton to talk to zak and split the vote to save him because will and romain had already voted at this point. However, it didn't work out and i feel like i'm in a bit of a pickle now with malik now that he stayed. I tried to talk to him to smooth things over but zak said that he's vindictive so i'm a little worried now but hopefully we can just win some immunities and not have to worry about tribal for a while.

"najma"

- Whitney is driving me nuts. She will say or do anything to achieve her goal, which right now is getting Aras voted out at all costs. First of all that goal doesn't even make sense, I know she's convinced Aras is winning for some reason but why do you have to go for him now when the numbers are so precipitous? ""Oh, Kristen is trying to flip on you and Brett so we can't throw"". I CAN SEE THROUGH THAT WHITNEY. Anyways, I have to take that into consideration just in case, because I would look really stupid if I let that happen after being warned.

I'm digressing, this confessional is about Whitney. I'm considering our Final 2 over. I cannot work with this person long term.