Board Thread:Season 39 - Morocco/@comment-29899619-20170403110059/@comment-30071826-20170404010544

I have been both dreading and anticipating your jury question for weeks now. Dreading it because I know I’m going to have to answer to my actions, but anticipating it because it’s a chance to publicly make things right and show everyone I had a plan from the start.

'''In principle, I really struggle to value a game like yours. You were a bit of a waste of space, and your story could easily end up being one of those that's edited to make it look like they could get some votes but ends up losing 7-0. '''

I think for anyone to truly understand my gameplay, they need to be able to appreciate subtly. My approach in these games is “You can’t build Rome in a day”. Little things add up, and boy do I feel like I did a lot of little things right. Whether it be letting the core alliance of Zibaq form around me because I made people feel at ease, or making a f2 with Aras with the sole purpose of him bringing me to the Bazaar so I could buy a challenge advantage that ended up helping me win immunity the next round. Do I think I was a waste of space? Obviously not. I know you love bold players and game changing moves. But my strategy was always “death by 1000 papercuts” as opposed to a single knockout punch.

  You were rude and gave unnecessary comments towards me 

There’s no denying this, and I feel shitty about it.

And the only good strategic thing you did was get out Anna be she would have STOMPED OVER YOU BOTH 

I think a lot of my strategic moves ended up not being seen because they were very personal 1 on 1 moves. At F9, Brett really really wanted to flip the script and vote with you and Kristen. The only reason he didn’t was because you two were dead set on me. Brett had just voted out Rood, and I had just voted out Scott. On the outside, it didn’t make sense that we would be so close. But I worked hard on gaining his trust. The whole game could have played out differently if I didn’t make that move of bringing Brett in close to me. I truly believe if you and Kristen wanted to vote for ANYBODY else, Brett would have sided with you. Maybe Brett can back that up if he sees this.

'''Do you think always being in Will's shadow is going to now cost you? '''

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black">Tough question. My answer is, it could. I don’t necessarily see using hiding behind more open targets as a bad strategy. Plus the shadow is nice and cool. And we both know that I love throwing shade.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:Helvetica,sans-serif;color:black;border-width:1pt;border-style:none;border-color:windowtext;padding:0in;">Both of you '''<span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif";color:black"> - I cannot STAND how both of you are passing off being horrible to me as a strategy - I fail to believe it. You both simply didn't like me as a person so started being mean to me, and are now trying to claim this was all part of your plan. '''

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black">Our relationship was truly baffling to me. When I first arrived at Najma I felt like we had some great talks. Roodman told me that you already hated me because of something I said during the Mixer challenge. I thought that was strange but didn’t take it too seriously. Then you left me on “Seen” for like 5 days (THE NERVE LOL!!!). That plus the rumour made me think that you were someone that I just couldn’t work with. As the game went we were very standoffish with each other. You were the only person that I couldn’t get to really like me, so I wrongfully took that as an insult. That’s where my dislike for how you were playing the game started. So I would say that I disliking you predated me trying to use that dislike as a strategy. As Will said, I had used confrontation as a strategy to win my other org. So I thought to myself, “Whitney is someone I just can’t work with. I don’t plan on trying to buddy up to her, what can I do to use this situation to further myself.?” Obviously I went too far. And I apologize from the bottom of my heart for what happened. While I do believe we both added fuel to the flames, I think I poured a whole barrel of oil into the fire.

<p class="MsoNormal">'''<span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif";color:black">Do you like me, Whitney Benson, as a person? '''

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica","sans-serif";color:black">I think that’s a pretty complicated question because we are both complicated people. I liked some aspects of what you showed (quick wit, how you never gave up), but at the same time I couldn’t stand how over the top you can be. To be real with you, It’s hard for me to see us ever hanging out irl, but I think that is not necessarily a bad thing. We can’t all gel perfectly with everyone. So I guess my answer is I did not like the Whitney Benson that I saw in this game.

<p class="MsoNormal">'''<span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif";color:black">Why did you vote me out when you did? I personally felt like I had no chance of winning, so was surprised everyone was against me so much. '''

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black">I voted you out because I knew that you would never work with me. You were a challenge beast, and as long as you were in the game, there was no shot at me to be as dominant late game as I ended up being. You very well could have won your way to the end, and if you did there was no way in the world that you would have taken me along for the ride.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black"> Since I was on the outs all the time, I had no idea what was going on - what was one move the other finalist made that was pivotal in the game?

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black">There’s no denying that Will played a good strategic game. Imo his best move was making sure Dalton and Malik went home. They are 2 of my friends, and I would have for sure tried to work with them come merge. Also I’m pretty sure Dalton and Malik had good connections on Najma, so those 2 tribals really clinched a Zibaq dominated merge.

<p class="MsoNormal">'''<span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif";color:black">Predict how each juror is going to vote - yes, seriously. '''

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black">Kristen – Tate. While we both did her dirty. I just have a feeling she has less animosity towards me.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black">Zak – Tate. I felt Zak and I had a good connection in the game and he can appreciate my subtle gameplay. He seems to know how he wants to vote

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black">Whitney – Toss up. Neither of us deserves your vote. And this must be a shitty decision for you to make. I hope that my actions since your vote off translated enough to you. I’m not the kind of player you love to watch or root for. But I do think I played a more impactful game than you may believe. I hope you see that.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black">Aras – 80% Will, 20% Tate. I think Aras will vote for Will. But I hope Aras knows that even though I betrayed him, I really respect him and his gameplay. We worked together really well.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black">Romain – Tate. Romain is probably one the best friends I made throughout the game. He knows what Will is saying about mine and his relationship is untrue. We connected on a personal level instantly and we will be friends long after this game.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black">Brett- Tate. Brett likes all of my Instagram posts. Enough said. I don’t consider Brett a “facebook” friend. Brett is a real life friend to me. We made it so far together and Brett was the perfect sneaky spy.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black">Anna- Will. She basically said she respects Will’s game more than mine. Which is fine. Her and Will made for a powerful duo and I can’t deny that. I just want to remind Anna that If there was anyone who played in a way closest to her, it was me. Obviously she was way better than I was. But we both excelled by keeping bigger targets in front of ourselves.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black">To conclude I just want to point out some irony in Will’s post. He continues to bash me based on fabricated lies. Kind of like how we bashed you for no reason during the merge. He continues to be condescending by calling me a “kid” when I’m like 4 or 5 years older than him. His continued assault on my character gives me a new perspective on how I treated you.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:"Helvetica","sans-serif"; color:black">Thank you for your questions and input Whitney. This post took me the longest to type because I had so much to say to you and I wanted to be as open as possible.