I'm The Fucking Side Ho Of This Tribe/Confessionals

Day 6
"culzean"

- okay so we're like 1 hour into the challenge and i'm highkey popping off. if everythings right then ive just got like 15 of the 25 movies/films in the space of genuinely 30 mins JKSDABHDKH. LETS HOPE THEYRE RIGHT and lets hope we can get all 25 by the end of the 24 hour period!!!! i HIGHKEY love this tribe and we're 6 days in and they're not bugging me yet, so i'd love to work w/ them long-term if possible. grace in particular im really surprised by like, how much i like her LOL. hopefully this confessional ages well and our tribe all works together iconically moving forward

"glamis"

- top 22. third boot here i come.

i think my best bet on this tribe strategically is pockets of trust. if strategic integration has happened, i’m not a part of it and no big move or sudden shift will change that. instead, integrating myself socially and through challenges might be my best bet to make it off glamis.

i’ve definitely accomplished that in challenges thus far. i was first in the original immunity, and second in this one. so i’m really hoping that allows me to be seen as an asset in comparison to someone like wendy, who was fourth in the first immunity and fifth in the second.

i had a whole confessional typed out on hypotheticals with the whole tragic cali leaving situation, but QUEEEEN DID THAT AND SAID BYE-RON to twistfuckery. ugh we stan a legend. so happy for her. she and jake are two people i trust on my tribe. it would've been nice to make majority really easy to move towards, but i don't see either of them voting me off unless there are ulterior motives. but i cant play this entire game constantly questioning everything. i spent two days freaking over whether cali’s twist was a set up when it clearly was not lmfao. anyways, if i can get to top five of this tribe with jake and cali, i think i can work from there to make top four by doing a jared/jake v wendy or chelsea/cali situation or any real duo combo that allows me to position myself into a majority. i laid out my rationale for this somewhere, but i think i might have submitted it and repeating it would be redundant so..

another development is our votes were tallied for oblivion because we came first KJSHGKKJHSG. i voted chelsea and she went, but i didn’t do it positively. i did it because i knew punishments were there too and if there’s anyone on this tribe i could live with having a punishment, it’d be chelsea. so telling her i voted her might not come across as a strategic olive branch LMFAO. there’s a reasonable chance my fellow tribemates voted her for the same reason. there’s also always the chance chelsea is in a majority, but idk? it’s a weird vibe. jake definitely said he didn't want to go, so i think the consensus for our tribe at the time was castle is punishment. chelsea kinda pm’d me out of the blue saying she didn’t get anything, which is a lil off considering we haven’t talked strategy and it feels like it could be a “cover my bases” situation, but that’s 50/50 at best.

anyways, immunity is ongoing and i’m trying to pop off. we’ve found nineteen out of twenty five castles and i’ve found like ten of those so i really am doing that and carrying my weight LMFAO. hopefully we dodge tribal again.. that swap is something i need lmfao because i’m v excited to take this lack of alliances situation and use it to untether myself from tribal lines/numbers and play the bottom.

"culzean"

- So Byron got sent home but I didn’t really know him but I know it sucks to get sent home early in the game :/ rip to him! But today we are trying to figure out where these video clips come from but they are all distorted and stuff! I’m not good at these types of things plus I’m at work until 7 so hopefully I can help some when I get home and we can get another win!

"kisimul"

- Szymon’s KC video confessional part 1

"kisimul"

- Szymon’s KC video confessional part 2 "glamis"

- Day 6 Confessional

Day 7
"glamis"

- i am so tired from this week and spending a decent amount of time reverse image searching intentionally cropped and distorted videos for immunity, so this isn't my daily ""i try to snap strategically and hyperanalyze things"" confessional yet but all i want to say is..

why am i like.. lowkey lowkey lowkey a sizable factor in this tribe’s success in challenges kjhDSHJKFHJKSDHKFHKHKSK and can that please translate into safety come tribal dshjk. like this isn't even.. being boasty or braggy bc its pure statistics? i hate myself too much to do that but facts are facts, scotland.

i'm referring to being first in my station first time around, second overall last time around (tbf we snapped regardless), and then finding 13 out of the 20 correct answers on this last challenge!! my mind is too small to do math, but if we were doing a remotely egalitarian distribution in terms of work, i wouldn't have done the work for two and a half people in this challenge kjhdshjhjksdhkjhkshkfhkks. i'm kinda happy about it tho, because it makes me an asset for safety.

other people are obvs trying too (jared/cali really stepped up this time and we wouldn't have won w/o them.. i can stan.. and chelsea/jake were busy so its understandable) but ya.. i'm just really kinda shook that i've been doing decent/well in comps since they're usually my worst aspect and thus far, they've kinda been my best and probably one of the core reasons i might be able to skate by at least one tribal unless it was the last pre-swap? idk. once its a flashy game im done.

"culzean"

- i AM SO UPSET............... but not shocked really. i tried hard in the challenge but i got pretty much all of them from reverse image searching which is an obvious thing to do in this challenge. but its like, now im really gonna have to betray someone. i think grace wants me/her/trace to be a trio but realistically i cant do that :(. i do really like them but id be foolish to think im not gonna be on the bottom of that group. and then for sydney/me/tyler i think im on the top and the person that both sydney/tyler trust more than the other. so just from a numbers perspective its like... sjkaddhjhdsakjhsdhssajkh i KNOW what i have to do and i do have to side with sydney and tyler but it SUCKS because i think grace/trace are putting more effort in and to some extent DESERVE to be here more. but i know, if we lose 2 more challenges after this one, if i stick with grace and trace im fucked because they are each other's number 1. and while it may hurt now, it'd hurt me more to stick with them and get 20th when i had a chance to go further.

i am worried about the future though. like in a swap situation, i really feel like i could be an easy target bc the MONARCHS FLOPPING.. its like such an obvious storyline to boot them back to back. and thats assuming im gonna make the swap which is NOT a guarantee. ALSO I FEEL LIKE THESE CONFS R GNA COME ACROSS VILLAINOUS, and to sharky/any other member of this tribe post-season, i am genuinely sorry if it seems that way :(. im not really sure what to do or how to NOT be villainous in a situation where youre forced to vote off people you actually really like. so ya sharky/grace/trace/tyler/sydney pls know that even tho im writing this really methodically and mathematically, i do actually like u all a lot and srry if i cut u, its rlly rlly not personal

k bye wish me luck

"fyvie"

- Elias is my new final 2, sorry jakey. How can I not align with someone who identifies the Scooby Doo movie that quickly???? An icon

"culzean"

- Oh my god I’m really angry because of the Florida midterm results. Texas too because I loved Beto but I wasn’t expecting a win there sadly. Anyway I’ll look at the positives there but it has nothing to do with the game so I’ll talk about that instead. We lost again, I’m probably the target again, so I’m probably going to have to save myself, AGAIN. I don’t think I have much work cut out for me though honestly, like Tyler and Jamie told me they’re both worried about how close Trace and Grace are. So I imagine they will vote one of them off, and those two will vote me. Which I’m fine with as long as it’s a blindside so they don’t play an idol!

"kisimul"

- That was a sweet challenge win. The sweetest so far lol, it definitely helps to bring the tribe together as a whole unit. Tyler and I practically carried the win for us and i also bonded and worked well with him during this video hunt challenge so if we lost id feel so bad on eventually targetting him basically because there's no way for me to let Ally/Jenna/Dani gone. Im going to try to use this day of catching a break from tribal as a way to solidify my relationships, lol i genuinly like those people

"fyvie"

- S50 Day 6 Confessional

"culzean"

- feeling awful right now. realistically for my game, grace/trace gotta vote for tyler so that next round, tyler is pushed even closer to me/syd. but i really dont like having to lie?????????????? i dont mind it as much when its like f9/f8 but voting someone out 22nd makes me feel so guilty. i do feel safe and i do like the control i think i have, i hope im not deluded in those thoughts. but i really really dont like having to chop ppl this soon.

"culzean"

- Naturally when I actually like my starting tribe is when we lose.

I think I've solidified strong bonds with Jamie and Trace so I don't think I'll be in trouble this time around, but who knows. I really don't know who's leaving tonight yet which is scary but I still think I'm in a good place

"kisimul"

- Kc confessional 1 "culzean"

- okay i told sydney where to look and the idol was there.. KJSBADH. im fine with her having it like id rather have it myself but she told me immediately and i do think she would possibly use it on me if i needed it. + i go ott paranoid with idols so IDK..... im trying to frame it as a positive. its better her having it than ANYONE else except me so overall its a net positive and i GUESS im happy?? idk id be more happy if she didnt get it w/ the guess i told her to do LMFAOOOOOOOOO. w/e AT LEAST I KNOW WHERE ITS AT.

"glamis"

- So we’re 3 for 3 in challenges and I’m pretty happy about that. Part of me wants to go to tribal just so I can get more of an understanding with the tribe but I don’t even want to risk it right now because as long as I’m safe I’m content. This challenge was pretty cool, I’m glad me stanning Scooby Doo and Disenchantment came in handy. Love those 2 iconic stories. Also I was working on part of it with Jake in PMs and we could not find out what the bird creature was until literally last second I figured out it was the Jubjub bird just from randomly guessing Alice in Wonderland from a list of castle movies, so I saved our asses from going to a tie right before the deadline. If we do lose soon I’d probably want Wendy out because she’s the only one I haven’t really had any bonding moment with but we’ll see. P.S. We stan the Jubjub bird!

"glamis"

- YOUR BITCH SURVIVED.

After all that mess that ensued i stayed and it feels so surreal! I left with 5 potential connections with the kismul tribe, and my tribe seemed happy to see me back which was a shock!

A lot of the parchments towards Byron were very harsh and I felt super bad about cause he is a king!

I’m scared about going to the temple again because it’s simply painting me as a threat to the other tribes AND.my own tribe. Bitch I just went through all the nine yards and back the last thing I need people thinking is that I have some power.

Anyway I’m going to keep drinking my cocoa, while receive therapy due to my time on Kismul. See ya <3

"kisimul"

- I'm pretty happy rn cause I kinda liked that challenge and I felt v helpful. I'm still a bit on edge though, because I genuinely don't know what will happen if we lost again. I have a good feeling that we are one round away from a swap, so I just have to win one more challenge to get the hell out of here. As far as my tribe-mates go, again I just have gotten a weird vibe from Dani and as much as I wanna trust Szymon I feel like both of them aren't being straight with me. I feel like Jenna's the only one I'm really trusting. I deadass have not talked to Ally this round because I just don't know what to say to that woman. It's impossible to hold a conversation with her and at this point I feel like she's either just really boring or she doesn't bother with me because she thinks I'm on the bottom? I don't know honestly. Over the next few days I'll try to get something out of Dani or Szy but I doubt it will work. Also, I forgot to really talk about the whole castle thing, I still don't know what to make of it outside of knowing that I never want to be sent there. My strategy with voting so far has been to just vote people who I wouldn't mind seeing getting a punishment, but also wouldn't mind seeing get an advantage either. Basically people who don't intimidate me very much. Each round I've voted Grace, Wendy, Elias, and Dani. That's really all I have to say about it for now.

"fyvie"

- Not much to report from camp Fyvie, we're suspended in peacetime -- had we gone to tribal over the past few rounds it could've been disastrous for overall tribe unity but everyones on good terms, mostly more than superficially.

Sarah is still MIA and won't be a particularly useful ally moving forward but I could get stuck with her in a tribe swap so I'm checking in every now and again.

We've won three challenges in a row and could potentially win out until the swap, (however there's a live challenge coming up that I don't plan on no-lifing and, like I've been saying, the margins have been thin,) but if we do win out I'm worried about Fyvie being perceived as a Healer-esque conglomerate that needs to be culled down to less threatening numbers.

To circumvent that I'll try to be transparent about the tribe dynamic, exaggerate the borderline inactiveness of two of our tribe members and that there isn't super strong overall strategic unity -- they can't know about the TJ debacle, however, because that is a perfect conversation point to divide and conquer.

Glamis are in the same boat, to be fair, and I'm interested at the lineup of people on that tribe, the dudes in particular aren't conventional, constant ORG people, which I like and will probably therefore make notable social efforts with them, and I also get good vibes from the looks of the girls/others.

The royals or whatever are at tribal again and with Sharky gone, a big player who would likely cause me grief down the line will be leaving this round, which is a plus. No idea who, maybe Sydney if I had to guess? If it's any of the others, even better, though apart of me is cautiously excited to play with Grace and Tyler again.

"culzean"

- Ok so I’m irked because they turned in the list before I got home @ 7 plus we lost because nobody was around to help Jamie :/ now sydney wants either trace or grace out and I’m pushing for Trace because I think Grace will be a bigger threat to hide under and Trace will be able to fly more under the radar. But I also know that Jamie is the swing vote because Grace & Trace made a F3 alliance chat with her aiming for me. According to Trace, I don’t really deserve to be here? Sorry for having a job but these bills gotta get paid. And it’s weird that he says I’m here less than Syd but according to Sydney they leave her on read and don’t talk to her so...lol wyd? But we’ll see what side Jamie is on after this tribal I guess!

"glamis"

- ""i have come to a conclusion.

i’m the fucking side ho of this tribe.

everyone wants to duo up and be all fetch vibes but no one wants to let me in an alliance so i can stop TWEAKING in these confessionals!!

seriously though. my pockets of trust system expanded to wendy in a weird and bold way and was reinforced with cali today KHJDSHKJ. cali and i randomly started strategizing because she was like “i feel like i’m the first boot of this tribe” when we were talking immunity and i was clear that i would not be writing her name down. is that true? i mean if it’s her or me, she gone, but if i have something to say about it i would like to stick with cali down the line because she’s honestly becoming one of my fave people i’ve met in orgs pretty fast. so ya.. we then talked idol guesses, swap strategy (coalitions with kisimul against fyvie to offset our early challenge performance possibly) but i think the point was made that we have each other’s back.

then wendy randomly and when i say randomly i mean randomly pms me asking if i’d want to work with them down the line and i’m like YESSSS FINALLY SOMEONE BEING BOLD AND DIRECT ABT WANTING TO WORK TOGETHER!! i was hoping it’d be the base for a majority but then it was “i’ve clicked with you the most on this tribe”. if that’s the t, maybe my social game is actually not as offsetting as i thought but it seems like more of a point is *said* than *made*? like.. cali and jake are the people i’ve clicked most with on this tribe and our convos kinda show that enough that i don’t need to say it. i really like wendy we just don't have as much convos so i feel off abt that statement & like i could be the strategic side piece but i won’t ask questions esp because it could v well be the t!! the point is i have a formal official ally in this game and i’m LIVING for it. maybe it’ll blossom into some sort of strategic safety net beyond pockets of trust.. but even those pockets are sufficient for now because 3/5 people have directly expressed to me that they want me here and that should be enough.

it’s kinda reinforcing strategically because i know even if i’m not majority (if there is one), i’m wanted and if a majority will form, there’s a chance i’ll be pulled in which is how i prefer my incorporation to be!! i could play aggressively and try to take these three strategic connections and turn them into a majority but that’d be leaving jared out of the mix & he’s iconic and really easy to talk to so that might not be the best look! plus it could be forming something on top of something else, so i’ll just bide my time!! i might start to try harder with jared to talk something other than tv (p much all we talk abt which is kinda refreshing) and at least some game-related content to see if i could set myself up better here maybe idk?

so ya.. day 7 was the day glamis kinda snapped.