I Need A Prayer Right Now/Confessionals

Day 32
"thanonchai"

- If I wasn't fucked before, I know that I am now. I'm trying to get back in good with Jake and Clifford, making amends and such, so I have a chance to continue on in this game. Priscilla probably flipped because of how heavy handed I was being last vote, but like come on, I just TRASHED my own game to save her ass and I'm heavy handed in putting together a move to save us all and she flips? Bye Priscilla, 100% done trusting her. Me and Maya need whatever advantage we can find, and any immunity that comes our way. I need a prayer right now. PLEASE MADAME MARGUERITE, SAVE US.

"thanonchai"

- can i just say how much i love rhi pris and cliff for keeping me this round… legends across the board.

boy am i happy that we were able to get julia out because they was honestly cliff’s worst move. if i was him i would have put my foot down on voting for maya, but oh well! better for me!

anyway tbh… as much as i want cliff out and for me to vote him out he’s very beneficial for my game right now. i’ve love to think rhi and pris are taking me to final three but i’m a huge fucking target and jury threat and i’m p sure they would take me out to f2 with themselves. cliff keeps opening up to me on an emotional level and while i do care for him and not want him to hate himself or anything, i’m using this to my advantage to solidify my relationship with him. being loving and caring towards others is not a personality trait i have so if i can fake that for this game imma do that!

my goal for this round is to get maya out actually. i want jace’s threat level in the final 5. yeah it’s a risk with his immunity wins, but i can see the 3 girls linking up if jace leaves this round tbh. if i were pris i’d take out jace now, then me, then cliff, and she easily beats maya and rhi. rn i feel like pris is my biggest competition and even though i’m aligned with her, i need to be 2 steps ahead.

if jace can pull thru with immunity this round… it would make my life a WHOLEEEE lot easier. right now cliff needs me and rhi needs me. i know those 2 wont vote against me at this round. or at least they shouldn’t. cliff could go A-WOL especially considering his other game moves this season.

ive been struggling with who i want to bring to the final 3 and it’s hard, very hardddd. i don’t know what the jury is thinking, i don’t know who is easier to beat. all i can guess right now is everyone hates cliff so that’s why id wanna bring him to the end with me and rhi. thats where i’m leaning right now. if i get the vibe i can beat pris i’d love a me/rhi/pris final three but im just trying to make the best move for my game and that final 3 might not be it. i dont wanna make the wrong move at the end of this game, i worked way too hard to fuck it up for myself now

"thanonchai"

- So Clifford is extending an olive branch to Maya and I, which I am thankful for. He has some crazy ass idea to force a tie between Pris and Maya (granted I win immunity) and then either Jake/Rhi flip on Pris, or we go to rocks with a 2/3 chance of losing Rhi or Jake. He says that he would be okay with going out because he is afraid of the FTC derision and would love to go out of this game in a crazy way. I mean.... I'm not gonna complain since I don't really have another option at this point. I completely refuse to work with Priscilla. That is like her 5th strike with me, and now her being out of this game is long overdue. Jake is too big a threat, and I just flat out lied to him last vote so I doubt he will want to work with me, and Rhi is attached to the hip with Jake and would never do something he wasn't okay with. Maya and I need to double down on idol guesses because we DESPERATELY need it. I also really need to win immunity this upcoming vote or everything is going to go to shit. Of course I am starting college this Monday, so hopefully I still am able to perform well in challenges. I am desperate to get to the end because I believe that, even though my game has gotten a bit messy in these recent votes, that I still have a great shot to win and am proud of my gameplay up to this point.

"thanonchai"

- Priscilla oh my god the biggest motherfckin snake in this game. She really has some nerves to turn her back on us after we legit saved her from going out last tribal and destroyed our alliances. She really played a horrible game for me, when someone actually trusted her, then she flipped. She's done for. But, Things happened and thats end there. I still do not trust her at all (will never do) and to move on with this game I will try to go as further as I could with Jace as the shield and fix my social aspects with the remaining players.

"thanonchai"

- Clifford is our only options now. He's not afraid to take us both to the final 3 and proposed about it even before this. Everyone do not trust Pris at this point and Jake/Rhi will eventually try to work with Cliff. I need to try make it less obvious about cliff working with us and start acting victim-y this time and make them feel we are really next after this. Our life in this game rely on Clifford now.

Day 33
"thanonchai"

- It is so hard to socialize with Priscilla because I feel so hurt by her in this game. I know I need to try to reintegrate after what has happened, so that's what I'm gonna work on for now. Hopefully 6 guesses and a time of 9:19 is enough to win immunity this round (probably isn't) so we can enact Clifford's idea of going to a rock draw which may, in the end, send him out of this game. I need to stay true to Clifford because I know that I can't trust Priscilla worth a damn and that she would never side with me and Maya over Jake/Rhi at a final 5 if I were to turn the vote around on Clifford right now. I need to ride the Clifford wave at the moment and see where it goes. He shared the idol clue with me and Maya, and odd season. He could be lying, but either way that clue is so vague it probably won't even allow me to find it at all. It will be literally so amazing if I were to find another idol, especially with one clue.

"thanonchai"

- Priscilla is basically trying to kiss my ass in an attempt to salvage my jury vote. "Oh, you are so good at this game, you would beat all of us, I'm sure that you are good enough to find a way out of this." I mean I'm smart enough to see right through this. Does she really think that I have a way out of this besides winning immunity on a fairly luck based challenge? LMFAO sweettiiieee..... my only option right now is a potential rock draw and that's IF I win immunity. I'll act nice to Priscilla for now, but know that if I am on the jury and she's goated to FTC she will absolutely not be getting my vote. The reason that I'm not going and trying to cut a deal with Jake is because I know if I go to him, my only options for votes will be Maya or Clifford. Maya, who has been my closest ally this entire game, and Clifford who is the only person that genuinely is extending an olive branch to me and Maya at this time. Then at the final 5, I am not only in a 3-2 minority still, but now the person that stays on this side also is mad at me for not sticking to the plan. It's basically a lose-lose scenario. I just hope I get something beneficial to me.

"thanonchai"

- I have managed to completely turn Priscilla's move against her and make her see how she majorly fucked up with that move. ndskjnakjenjkerg, I mean I don't really know what benefit that will give me, but it is at least nice to know that I am able to explain a move in such a way that it completely removes all validity of it.

"thanonchai"

- I mean, I have a heart (unlike some people in this community OOP!) so of course I am going to continue being kind to Priscilla. I do like her on like a personal level, but I just can't respect her gameplay. We discussed things regarding this vote and like I said, she realizes it was the wrong move because she said aside our relationship and the care I have shown her in favor or proving to herself that she can make a move happen with people she claimed to have considered enemies. She doesn't expect forgiveness or any slack to be cut for her, and yeah I guess I respect her at least not trying to milk the situation to turn it around on me and make me feel bad. I still would probably not vote for her because honestly I feel like it would have been smooth sailing to a victory for me had she stayed loyal, but now she just ripped the win out of my hands and shoved it into Jake.

"thanonchai"

- AHHHHH OMG I'M SOOOO EXCITED!!! Being immune 5 times in a row (counting idol plays)? SIGN ME THE FUCK UP!!!!! Now what needs to happen is the rock draw plan Clifford wanted by having them throw votes onto Maya, and us vote for Priscilla. I really hope this works out, but at least I know that I'm not going anywhere.

"thanonchai"

- I'm starting to not really believe Clifford's grandiose plan of drawing a rock for me and Maya's favor. The way that he randomly is like "Do you have a vote steal/negator by any chance?" Makes him not seem so keen on potentially rocking himself out of the game. I mean, yeah that makes sense, but it isn't in my best interest so I can't support that.

"thanonchai"

- I flipped on Julia last round to put me in a swing position this round where Jace and Maya would be dependant on my vote. Then I want to get rid of Pris, swing back to Jake and Rhi, take out Jace and Maya, then go to the end with Jake and Rhi, if it's a final 2 I want to go with my rival.... Jake. It would be a Survivor story like you've never seen before and I want to make some magic happen so let's see how this plays out!

"thanonchai"

- Okay don't wanna make this too long since I'm typing on my phone and I'm bound to make a typo since I never proofread until like after I send it in oops

So this might sound crazy but I kind of want Jake out this round yknow? I feel like I have a better shot against Maya than Jake. Voting out Maya almost seems wasteful in a way. The issue is that I'd have to convince Clifford or Rhi or even both. Clifford doesn't want to work with Jace and Maya ever again and Rhi is really loyal to Jake so like I'm worried that if I try to push it they'd just immediately tell Jake. Things would be so much easier if Jace didn't win immunity because now it's like Maya is a pretty decent choice of a vote since after this round Jace will still be in the game. Even if I do manage to convince one of Clifford or Rhi, the other would be so pissed off after. The only solution is to tell both of them and try to convince them. I'm thinking over whether or not I should go for it though.

"thanonchai"

- I think it's obvious that Jake and them are going to be targeting Clifford this vote. Would they honestly be stupid enough to throw all their votes on MAYA, MY CLOSEST ALLY, while I'm immune? No. They are going to act as though I have an idol, make it seem to me that Maya is going so I waste it on her (even though I don't even have one), and then play up to Clifford that they are a solid four so they can blindside him in a 3-2-1 vote. Even though I dislike the idea MUCH more now that it will be Maya drawing a rock, I still don't see any other choice. I need to see how Maya feels about drawing a rock, because the odds are still in our favor to remain 2-1.

"thanonchai"

- Last night Maya went up to me again about this girls alliance and honestly like I feel like she only suggested it because she was desperate. She expressed interest in this girls alliance before but after everything that's happened I just can't bring myself to trust that she'd stay loyal to it afterwards. This morning I received word from Rhi that Maya voted for me which is really fucking fishy. I felt like if she had to vote for someone there would have been better options. I'm worried that they're pulling somrthing with Clifford. They might have managed to reel him in because we really did kind of cut down on the communication in our alliance chat and I do remember how impatient he gets. Unfortunately for me though, if we tie up then Jake and Rhi would NOT go to rocks for me because the odds are worse. If Clifford betrayed me this round I'd be pretty pissed because he gave us this whole thing about personally feeling hurt by Jace and Maya. It's one thing to just say that but he also said that he wouldn't dare work with Maya or Jace again. I kind of personally brought up my feelings during votes but I never promised and that's the thing that would absolutely set me off aboit Clifford. I wanted to go for Jake but with Maya voting for me I have to vote for her to feel a sense of safety. It's not ideal but I guess I have to settle on taking out Jake and Jace later than I would have liked.

"thanonchai"

- So now Clifford is trying to convince me that Maya is turning on us to form an all-girls alliance to take out the remaining guys (who arguably are the bigger threats in this game currently). I mean, I have to begrudgingly agree with this notion because I hate to place mistrust in Maya, but I know that Maya has spoken in the past with Julia about how I was a big threat and that they needed to take Priscilla to the end instead of me. It would make sense for this to come into play once again. I am very wary of trusting Jake because he honestly could be in on the rouse and just wants me and Clifford to scatter our votes so EVEN IF Clifford flipped (which he did) they would still be able to pull together a 3-2-1 vote in their favor. I guess we will stick to the Priscilla plan so in a scenario where Jake doesn't flip, and Maya actually stays loyal, basically the exact same outcome will occur, a tie/rock draw between Pris and Clifford. I just really dislike the notion of moving forward with Jake in this game because I know that once the final 4 rolls around, I really need to put in EXTRA work to ensure that I beat him in final immunity and that he doesn't have the change to take me out right at the end. If I somehow ended up in a situation with us both in the end, I know that he would be able to convince the jury through his diction to make aspects of my game seem horrible such as me relying on immunities when I am only doing so because I was and still am a target large enough to overshadow even the strong bonds I have made in this game. He may also bring to light how he has been able to save himself many times while also being perceived as a threat, where as I have not been able to get a solid move together besides the Jenna blindside and the rock draw which the latter was more of a collaborative effort that I had a big role in making happen. Hopefully even if we keep Jake in this game longer than I would like to, that I am still able to get him out at the final 5 potentially so that I have less competition in the FIC and at FTC. From here on out I need to really be careful and continue to try my best at these immunities because it is coming down to the wire and I don't want my wire cut by neither my closest ally since the beginning nor the person I have been trying to get out week after week.

"thanonchai"

- I am skeptical of Jake's innocence in this whole "girls alliance" talk happening. Maya told the chat that Pris and Rhi believe it to be a 4-2 vote (including Maya in on their plan). If that's the case, that would mean that Jake is being involved on the plan. What my thinking is, is that Jake/Rhi/Pris have a hunch that Clifford has flipped back to me and Maya. They are trying to make Clifford mistrust and ostracize Maya, and then have us "vote with Jake" against someone separately from Maya. This would cause Jake, Rhi, and Priscilla to have the majority in this instance if Maya votes for someone thinking she is with that group, and Clifford and myself vote for someone else thinking that we are with Jake. This would result in a 3-2-1 with Clifford or Maya likely taking the hit. It would probably be a good move for them to take out Maya right now and significantly weaken me in this game.

"thanonchai"

- I think that they are at LEAST trying to plant seeds against Maya so when we get into a tie between her and Priscilla, they hope Clifford or myself believe them and vote Maya out to avoid rocks. It doesn't make sense to me why Rhi and Priscilla would expose the idea of an all girls alliance to Jake and Clifford when it's a very valid move for them two moving forward. Also why would Rhi randomly leave Jake out of all strategy when they have been attached at the hip ever since the Chris vote. I really believe that Jake is feigning innocence here and his crew is coordinating stunts and shows on Maya, Clifford, and myself to get us to scatter our votes so they have the majority and no risk of losing that. Clifford telling Jake that he is concerned about how quiet everyone is being was just an opportunity for Jake to insert himself into a sympathetic position with Clifford. Of course he's going to begin speaking to Clifford with "people are being silent... it's sketchy" like he just did to me, so if Clifford feeds into that agreeing and saying no one is talking to him, of course Jake is going to prey on that. He is trying to sympathize with Clifford so that Clifford feels that they are in the exact same position and need to make a move together. I'm not buying it. Jake right now is trying to propose to me that "if we make a big move right now, I will go to the final 4 with you." Let's see what he decides to propose here. I don't see a benefit of going to the final 4 with him LMFAO, like him being taken out at the final 5, or the final 4 provides nothing for me. If I lose immunity in either situation, I am getting voted out. I might as well take him out in the sooner option so (as I said in a previous confessional) I have a better shot at winning final immunity.

"thanonchai"

- Jake suggested that we vote for Cliff or Priscilla this vote. I decided to mention how I have been hearing that Maya is trying to form an all girls alliance and Jake decided to play dumb and be like "omg that would be iconic, I was thinking of that actually happening" when I know that he was literally told by Rhi and Pris that Maya was doing that LMFAO. Tried that Jake. I decided to say "let's end that alliance before it begins by just blindsiding Priscilla now." He said he agrees if Clifford is also down with it, but claims that Clifford's allegiances blow with the wind. I honestly don't really give a shit where Jake votes this time as long as there isn't an advantage played that fucks over Maya. It should be a 3-3 between Pris and Maya, MAYBE a 4-2 if Jake actually decides to flip. I highly doubt he will though, knowing him. I think he assumes that Maya will not be let in on this plan, which will make him be able to enact the 3-2-1 plan that I mentioned. Too bad she already knows, and unless she was lying, she already likely voted for Priscilla. Hopefully this plan goes as expected.

"thanonchai"

- It is also interesting to note that Jake came to me with a vote plan AFTER Maya had already voted. He also seemed to know that it was Maya who just voted as well. What this is seeming like is that he believes Maya has already voted for Clifford, and knows this because Maya told the girls alliance that's who she was voting for, and that she was going to vote and then go to bed. Rhi and/or Pris then went and told Jake "Hey, Maya just voted for Clifford then went to bed." So then Jake decides to come to me and put together a plan to vote for Pris with myself and Clifford. Interesting that he waited until now to do this. I really do think that they are playing us and want it to be a 3-2-1 vote thats Maya-Pris-Clifford, giving them a clear majority.

"thanonchai"

- so i havent been able to make a confessional about everything until now. basically cliff tells me hes voting for pris and im like ok lol i lowkey needed to find a time to vote out priscilla and i guess its now!

this however gives cliff basically all the power at final 5 lol. and i cant even go to jace ab voting out cliff at final 5 bc jace is the biggest tattle tale ever and will run his ass to cliff like an idiot. and then i’d be fucked bc cliff would be like Bye!

but im lowkey confident in the fact that cliff would have to be an absolute dumbass to go to the final 4 with jace and maya who both could whoop our asses at immunity/tiebreaker. so im banking on the fact there’s a few fucking brain cells left in cliff’s head.

cliff thinks hes like the master at this game and that his game has been so great. like all i get is russell vibes from him honestly. im rly hoping i get to single handedly cut his ass at the end of this game lol. like im imagining its a final 2 and i win final immunity and cut his ass right then and there. he’d be so crushed ugh id love it. we love a full circle yes we do!

anyway im making cliff do all my dirty work basically. i didnt see any other way for me and rhi to get to the end then by using the fuck out of cliff and telling him everything his big ol beard wants to hear. jace/maya are huge threats and im glad jace won immunity and going to final 5. hes going to be the biggest target and as soon as he loses immunity he goes and not me. Whew iconic

basically the only thing that could happen is cliff votes me or rhi out at final 5 and if he does i will gladly help give jace that unanimous win yes king