Time To Manifest My Own Fucking Destiny/Confessionals

Day 17
"torrobo"

- LAKERS IN 7

"kikuyu"

- omg natalie got blindsided.. wig. and i was welcomed home with open arms i feel so warm and fuzzy inside! and anyway we have a double tribal coming up which has me absolutely FRIGHTENED luv because last time i played i left at the double tribal RIGHT before the merge and now the possibility of that happening again exists... NOT ON MY WATCH :(((((

"torrobo"

- idk about this one

"kikuyu"

- mixed bag... natalie being voted out? a surprise. me being welcomed back? happy! double tribal?? ANGERYYYYY !!

my last time playing i left in a double tribal right before the merge which is the format i’m anticipating right now and the idea of me meeting that same fate... nope nuh uh i cant keep doing this. i have to survive so pray 4 me during this challenge

"torrobo"

- Well. My last confessional was pretty sad. This one's worse. Chris told me a lot of info, which I'm grateful for that he decided to screw whatever doubts he had and open up to me, I think I probably trust him more than most people at this point right now and he's actually giving a damn about me. The Cassandra vote was decided days before tribal, and I only found out about it the day of. Nicole and Natalie were prime for pushing it and saying that I wanted Chris out (not really true as I wanted to flip but didn't trust anyone else to and didn't want to be THAT guy). Nicole, the person I thought totally had my back, was shit talking me as the "worst" prey. I feel so fucking betrayed and hurt. I really am on the complete and utter bottom of this game. Well fuck that. I've got Chris, I'm gonna get Evan, I'll get Ashlee, and I'll work with the Predators. Because I said this game I was gonna be a Predator. And if the Prey don't want me, fine. I never wanted to be one of them anyways. Time to manifest my own fucking destiny

"kikuyu"

- I'm still here!!! I'm not in the VL! Fuck yes, thank god though, I don't have to deal with Brandon Binkerhoff's non-existent flat ASS!!

"kikuyu"

- my strategy for this challenge is to get drunk so my inhibitions are lower and i’m more willing to take on the temptations

"torrobo"

- HI it’s been awhile mamma has been busy. But considering that there is a very real possibility I’m getting the boot this episode I thought this should be the time I go OTT with my confessionals so WHEW here we go.

So for now all I know is I’m really just gonna need Trent to sacrifice his rights that he has in this game and to kidnap me so I don’t have to deal with this tribal mess Sjjgdkkf.

Does that sound lazy, bad, and dependent? Bitch you know it does.

"torrobo"

- In case I have to leak two confessionals, I think this will be the last org I ever play.

"torrobo"

- In case I have to leak a confessional, this host team is rly cute and I love them all

"torrobo"

- Yeah so I was right about the confessional leaking but you cheeky fucks set a time limit. FINE. My confessional was very sad so I sure hope I get some pity here. Anyways I've been talking to Ashlee and we both feel like we're in danger and we both really want the other to stay, so I have her in my corner and Chris I hope thinks he can trust me, and Evan wants to rock with me so that's pretty good right there. Natalia I like talking to a lot, dunno how she's feeling with me on a game leve, Cali left me on read but we were making progress before the first swap, and Jino also left me on read (again) so he sucks and I want him to go.

"kikuyu"

- TIL the confessional form posts are all antm quotes LMAO. anyway my strategy of getting drunk and yolo-ing this challenge didnt happen because i fell asleep and the other hosts bullied me so. hopefully it works out for me.

also i dont want ti go back to torrobo tribe bc it was really weird. like i was handcuffed to the shelter and jake kept asking to see my toes

"kikuyu"

- Natalie went home not a surprise at all, now the question is whos next. ideally for me personally it'll be gerda she keeps telling me that she trusts me and genuinely wants to be my ally but judging by the way she talks to will and Nora its obvious shes still stuck on those damn tribal lines and all for PrEdAtOr StRoNg. Trent is my gateway to reconnecting with the preys and he's a part of CCBD so it'd be shitty if I voted him out because the rest of the alliance might be angry. Alex is a goat so obviously, he's not being voted out and he's loyal to me.

"kikuyu"

- so.. we do merge at 11 judging by this double tribal. it sucks that it isn't a challenge threat type challenge and it's more like a how desperate are you challenge. I'm personally not desperate at all but I want the damn idol clue because I want the idol. this stupid 9 digit code system is cancelled smh. also, I'd like to kidnap Jino and find out what advantage he has because Natalie told me that he had one before I voted her off lmao.

"kikuyu"

- "I'm such a fool omg i did 6 out of the 7 temptations I definitely regret it now because some desperate person like Trent will take all 7 without hesitation. Here's my thought process during the actual challenge though.

Ban from idol search - not a biggie since there's literally so many codes to crack it's not worth practically sitting from this challenge where I can get kidnapping immunity and an idol clue

ugly manga/anger translator - literally doesn't affect the game at all easy yes these ones

abstain from next immunity - I think the merge is up and I don't think I'd want to win the first merge immunity or like any solo immunities, in general, it's way too early to be seen as a big physical threat

publicly submit a vote - this is probably where I should've really stopped but I picked Evan because I haven't met him yet and I've heard that he's chill so hopefully he doesn't mind that much

dark pearl - I might as well since I took the last few and it's not like there's any chance I'll be voted out at this tribal anyway

leak a confessional - literally, the last confessional I submitted was the one with all of my opinions on the other tribe that'd destroy my game so I'd rather not rofl

so yeah that was a rollercoaster and I'm a mess and I regret my life bye."

"kikuyu"

- so wills gonna get the idol, I was really hoping I'd get it but he beat me to it. whatever I have his loyalty anyway so its more of our idol than just his idol. we had to talk about the word heteronormative for 10 minutes and then he said he had to do endurance. this tells me that ON TOP OF THE FRICKING NINE DIGIT CODE YALL HOSTS HAD TRIALS AFTERWARDS TOO? LMAO GRR.

Day 18
"torrobo"

- MESSSSSS CITY WHAT A MAD HOUSE

I’m convinced now every confessional I have will be a mix of good and bad news but I swear I’m actually feeling as elated as I could this round. First the bad. The idol. I DON’T KNOW WHERE I’M GOING WRONG. LIKE.. ALL THE CLUES HAVE BEEN THE SAME UP TO THIS POINT SO IF I TRY TO PROJECT IT OUT TO SOLVE FOR TOROBBO’S IDOL I STILL DON’T FIND SHIT. AND I SPENT LEGIT LIKE 5-7 HOURS OF MY LIFE THE LAST 48 HOURS TRYING TO FIND IT.

But! Luckily I already know how the idols work around here and since no one’s done a random convo topic for 10+ minutes I know the thing’s not fucking found. My only concern now is if maybe Jack gets it, depends how busy he’ll be though because even then with a 4th clue you’ll still have around 1000 combos to work with, and given that it’s 12 hours for the endurance part of the idol hunt and we’re merging in t-minus 24 I doubt he can get it.

That’s another thing, Jack won immunity which isn’t ideal, but then again maybe it is because I prepared for it and given the circumstances of this challenge some people put themselves into some GRAVEEE spots. There’s a whole fucking flowchart of dark pearls and auto votes against I’ll have to map out but luckily Jino casting an auto vote for Jack should make Jack set his sights on Jino, AND praise the fucking heavens that Cali got kidnapped, while yes I get along with her next to Jack she’s the one I talked game with the least. So I really do feel like I should be good this vote.

The only thing I have some buyer’s remorse on is abstaining next immunity challenge, but then again it could be a blessing in disguise bc it’s a shit look if a player of my reputation wins first merged immunity. Slowly but surely I’m trying to defuse my target level and I think this round will put that to the test. I honestly think everyone minus Jack on this current tribe feel safe with me and now I just have to figure out who to vote out, though I’m probably leaning Jino.

Also, Trent was kidnapped yet again and I’ve been doing a good job keeping it cool with him even though I’M STILL INTERNALLY MAD AB HIM NOT PICKING ME FOR THE ROCK DRAW, he picked me again this time but alas it was a white rock once more. However good news yet again Chris got the black rock and I do think he’s going to beat Trent and I can get an advantage on my side.

While I do feel secure among most of this tribe that’s not exactly cue for me to be a dictator nor too lax, I have to act among everyone that WAOWZERS this is a crazy tight tribal but in all honesty I think I’ll get out this one fairly safe unless someone goes rogue and insane, at which point I’ll be crying in this conf thread ab it.

Here’s to making the merge safe and sound for a 3rd straight time

"torrobo"

- I'M IMMUNE WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Trent and Jino both put my name down, Trent surprised me but Jino didn't and now that I'm immune and he's not, oh I really hope we can send him home this round. Not only would it kill a vote against me in the future but I haven't done shit with him all game (his fault really) and voting him would be so fucking sweet. I'm turning this ship around with merge fast approaching, let's strap in and set sail.

"torrobo"

- So it's either, Jino, me or Chris. Now by all means I could be getting played and could get voted out unanimously but I think things could be turning around.

At first it was me or Jino but after talking to Jino it's kind of changed from my understanding and will be between Jino and Chris. I've been playing both sides and saying Jino threw out Chris' name when he didn't to make him the target as much as possible instead of me. The only way I think I get voted out unanimously is if people catch onto me playing everyone and playing both sides. But Jino is going to sleep so if he's out in his vote the way he said he would then at worst I am tied with Chris or Jino is tied with Chris.

Now I'm going to have to do a lot of damage control if I make it through but we will see how it all goes. This is going to be a rough few hours and I have to be asleep for it all. Fml. I'm throwing away a lot of relationships but I think I can justify it, I just need to make it through!

"torrobo"

- So I get kidnapped by Alex, and I’m deadsss just like ALEX MARRY ME

Will has made an enemy out of me and I will make him PAY for picking me.

Nicole ur sweet BUT SWEETIE I KNOW GOOD AND DAMN WELL UR TIGHT WITH WILL AND HIS GOONS

NORA IS ONE OF WILLS GOONS

ME TRENT AND ALEX ABOUT TO BE DESTINYS CHILD AND WIN THIS GAME KNOW THAT

this is also my worst confessional yet lmao sorry

"torrobo"

- Alright soo.. I know that the smarter move for me was just let this vote happen and let Jino go and not make waves but at the same time I know that Jino is pretty much the only person I trust 100% so it's very hard for me to just want to give up on someone that is as close to me as Jino. And now that we've concocted this plan to vote Chris instead I just feel like it's too late to back out now. Like if I just voted Jino out with everyone, Ashlee would be upset (in case she did vote Chris as she said she would) but also that I'd be saving someone who I've been trying my best to get a feel for but gives me vague runaround answers instead of Jino who's always told me the truth and has pledged his loyalty to me. I have tried to talk with Chris and I have been also the one to extend an olive branch to Chris many times hoping that he'd like show me some sort of glimmer of hope that he'd want to work together but what he's chosen to say on the matter has just been very vague and non committal which I can't really trust. Originally I wanted this vote to go on someone else, not Jino and not Chris either, but if these are my options then I'd much rather have Jino around than Chris who could easily flip flop between sides and has more connections to Torrobo people that I haven't even met yet so 🤷

My main concern right now is Evan, I've worked very hard to build a relationship of trust with him and leaving him out of the vote is gonna turn him against me. But telling him is gonna risk he tells Chris and Chris plays some sort of advantage/idol. Idk how to go about this situation at all 😔

"kikuyu"

- Well, with Trent being kidnapped and Alex immune, Its kinda obvious for me that i will be voting Gerda. Will shares the same opinion too. Thing is that we are heading to war going to merge. We need loyalty but we also need offensive arsenal. Nicole is both loyal and she is helpful at playing the game offensively and aggressively. Gerda is loyal, she is a number but sadly she is just a number. Sometimes i struggle strategizing w gerda when i talk strategy easily to Nicole for hours on call or pms. We talked abt how cutting chris or will later LOL. Nicole helped us to overcome our swapfuck situation in torrobo 2.0 and she has an advantage. Its just make more sense for me to keep Nicole. Gerda you are a legend and i wish the situation wasnt the same. I talked to alex and he is on board to do gerda too. Also im glad we have an alliance of 4 with alex he is a great guy

"kikuyu"

- lmao me getting kidnapped again <3 this is fantastic because two people are going home and I have no part in it, no blood on my hands, and I make the likely merge phase. PLUS! i have achieved a couple goals in this situation. it sucks that i have a couple setbacks along the way but i think i’m in less danger than some of my other tribemates.

also im gonna have to exchange some words with alex when we get back... not happy with that dusty motherfucker

"kikuyu"

- ok so those results were wild but the basics are Alex won immunity which is good cause Nora and will were thinking about voting him out and that's a hella no. then Trent got kidnapped which is also good because again Nora and will were thinking about voting him out as well and keeping Gerda. but now that me will Nora and Gerda are the only people eligible to receive a vote it's almost certain that Gerda will be voted out. also, I'm Trent casting a vote for jack and jack kidnapping him rofl.

"kikuyu"

- I just finished listening to Alex's confessional thank god it wasn't anything incriminating for me. poor jack though, everyone really doesn't think much of him this game. I still love him and want to work with him but idk he has like 3 votes going into him for the merge, an advantage he hasn't told me about. ALSO ROFL STAN JAKE FOR MAKING HIM A MORENA CLONE?? IM SCREAMMMMMMMMMMM. also I'm will casting a vote to kidnap Cali and Cali getting kidnapped to our side. what a great way to meet her quality!!

"kikuyu"

- Cali gave me a rock, phew time to practice some unscramble before doing this stupid tar leg. let's not spend 15 minutes on one task ever again in my life. I wonder who Trent gave his rocks to I'm gonna ask him for the idol clue after lmao. will has the idol 100% now so I know Gerda's going home regardless I got really concerned when I logged into the yahoo account and I saw Gerda guessing the right answer like 3 days earlier as an email? https://i.imgur.com/UmlVkVD.png girl how did that even manage to happen. Anyway, she's voting for me for sure she isn't even gonna try and hide it. she told will Nora and Alex and they all told me. then when I asked her who to vote she said idk and never said anything lmao way to be obvious.

"torrobo"

- WELL WELL WELL. I knew that I couldn't trust Ashlee for a reason! Somebody explain to me how I got added to a group chat where Ashlee and Jino were saying they want Chris out and then Chris informs me today that he got a message from Ashlee saying she wants to warn him that Jino is targeting him and wants him out!! Who knows what else Ashlee said she could have totally thrown me under the bus too so omggg idk what Chris knows now but since she ruined everything by leaking I'm gonna vote Jino or whatever the vote is that's not me. Honestly fuck Ashlee for ruining what could have been a good thing I'm so annoyed Bye.

"torrobo"

- We on day 18 and we at a double tribal! wow!

so UM. idk where to start! lets go before the challenge ended !

before the challenge ended and before it was even announced as a double tribal something in my gut told me to talk to jack about things and fill him in on how ppl want him out/all the shit being talked about him and im glad i did bc i think now that he won immunity he has some loyalty to me for being upfront and honest with him???

ANYWAYS I WAS WRITING THIS BEFORE I FOUND OUT THE SHIT BUT ASHLEE/JINO R TARGETING ME NOW?? JINO USING STEAL A VOTE ON JACK??? 3-3 TIE??? IDK. I COULD DIE RN. OH WELL. BEEN FUN. IM OVER IT

"kikuyu"

- I have been in agony for the last day or so because of the idea of voting Nicole. She is a fun and genuinely nice person who I have really been connecting to. We have done quizzes etc together and we pretty much had an instant connection straight away. And I really don't want to vote her. But I am in a situation where I'm forced to because I just cannot vote Nora or Will. They are like my family in this. But today has been really quiet. People feel bad and I have always thought it was because of Nicole because that's how I feel. But now that several of my messages have been left on seen and some people are online but not really I am starting to wonder whether this has anything to do with me possibly going. I know I am a little paranoid but I seriously hope that will not be the case.

"torrobo"

- I am nervoussss but let us wait if the plan went perfectly well or hfksndjsndjjjdjd

"torrobo"

- So I just found out that crazy things happened... CRAZY THINGSSSSS I am so freaking nervous.

"torrobo"

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"kikuyu"

- they tied 3-3, that's wild! Trent is back early that's weird I thought he'd stay for the whole time but Cali is trapped here and we don't get to know our results :( we compared times and we literally started and ended at the exact same time wtf so we can't even know hopefully I don't get anything useless. apparently, Trent was against Chris that's a rip. Jino had a double vote I guess I don't need to ask him what advantage he got anyway. why does he get something useful while I get haha i can vote one round after I'm dead!! WOOHOO SO USEFUL! Anyway looking at the votes it's likely that Evan/Chris/Natalia voted Ashlee and Ashlee/Jino/Jino voted for Chris. Why Jino used his steal a vote on jack to vote Chris which is a hopeless cause if you look at the votes is completely beyond me tbh lmao the first tribal the other tribe goes to and the wildin starts.