Raise Some Hell/Confessionals

Day 16
"malasan"

- I'm not having fun unless I constantly lie and blindside people. However, now if we win it will probably result in a tie breaker challenge and I will lose. This will be very exciting to see. Can't wait

"malasan"

- Xavier always saying DANIELLE like that is my favorite thing ever.

"malasan"

- the challenge hasn't even been posted and we are strategizing for the next vote. We are that confident we are going to lose. That speaks to the confidence Malasan has. Oh well

"jember"

- For some reason I feel like the people on Malasan could suck I mean maybe not but I just have this gut feeling.... I still hope we can slay Malashit for another 2 challenges

"jember"

- Confessional time yay. So I feel like this game has slowed down quite a bit. Like no one is talking no one is on everyone is inactive and it's so unfortunate because this season had the potential to be good in my opinion but the fact that half of the cast is inactive I feel like it'll be boring and predictable, and as a player I don't want that to happen even if it's the best thing for me to get to the end I still want some excitement and I hope people wake the fuck up and start playing because no one has been talking whatsoever. So the plan is to throw the immunity challenge to get rid of Michelle, and to do that I need myself, dani or alex and sheryl to sit out. I immediately sat out so I would be guarenteed to play in the immunity challenge. Idk why Loxias seems to want to sit out and literally everyone on the fucking tribe, i mean maybe loxias thinks im gonna throw the immunity challenge idk. We'll see what happens I guess, I'm disgusted with my alliance except for Dani as they're inactive as hell. I wish I had a more active cast to work with. I just hope I can at least make the jury.

Day 17
"malasan"

- Yesterday I was in a very dark place and didn't want to play anymore. I'm back now. The fight is back. I'm not going to stop working and fighting until my torch is snuffed. Time to win this challenge and raise some hell

"jember"

- Fucking great. When I want to lose a challenge we can't lose it, Sheryl got another fucking strike, ugh this is a fucking mess. My game is crumbling around me I feel. Sheryl is going to probably get another strike at some point, loxias and michelle don't trust me, we're going to end up winning this challenge most likely. Ugh. I can't win. I hate everyone I really do.

"jember"

- i am so tired of Edward (Mikey)

His way of writting is soo annoying.

HOW can anyone with a brain write this? : ''Omg we won? Yes

OMGOMGOMG

YUUUUUSSSSSSSSS SLAAAAAAYYYYY SWWWWWAAAAGGGGGGG'''

And he is doing that literally ALL the time. Or this stupid shortcuts - omg yus, g8 job m8.'

It is just so terrible, i cant stand that annymore

"jember"

- we won again. i'm starting to get a glimpse of hope everytime we win. we are getting closer to merge which might open a window of opportunity to do something else. loxias wants to work with me since we pretty much at the bottom of the tribe. i have a few llans ahead if i can make it to merge. but first off, we must win this immunity again. i have been talking to mikey, alex, and chris about the upcoming merge trying to fish out thejr thoughts. but they were all like it's going to be palau. sure guys. i guess i can't say much more until we win immunity. i am lowkey thinking that if we lose this enduquiz challenge, someone must've thrown it. lol

"jember"

- So Chris backed out on throwing the immunity... im not surprised but this means unless we ACTUALLY lose to Malasad(as Edward called them) which we all know is not gonna happen, so Michelle lives to see another day which is something I am not to happy about. I know deep down throwing the challenge would have been a huge risk but it would have been worth it in the end. Now Michelle is going to merge with us and will be a huge threat. Luckily though she has no intention of flipping on Jember. Michelle has nobody on her side, which is exactly what worries me. If she does stick with us, Malasan will eventually be out and then were will we all be? If Sheryl gets Evaced we wont have the numbers. Myself and Chris have a lot of backup plans if things dont work out but our backups can only go so far. I started thinking about Jury Management, and something was clear to me. Unless the jury is angry, I wont beat Chris. Despite us being amazing allies i know in the back of my mind i am going to have to betray him someday or face the consequences of wasting my chance at the prize. Its a reminder that in the game of survivor you are always truly alone. I just hope he doesnt cut me off first.

"jember"

- Edward is the most annoying fucking person I have ever come in contact with, and it's at the point now with his "lel" "yus" shit and "haz" instead of has where I think he feels comfortable and is doing it more and more and I can't just be like "shut the fuck up" that'd be dumb as hell so I have to sit here, be fake and speak his language which is the worst fucking thing honestly. For this immunity challenge you know I've decided it might not be the best thing to throw it, I talked with Edward and he really thinks the tribe will stick together come merge and I talked with Michelle and she actually came to me and asked if the tribe was staying together because it would be smart, so yea I think they might be on board to stick with the tribes, and even if they're not I'd rather have the chance to go into the merge with only 3 malasan instead of 4 strong. 4 strong is better then 3 strong so i'd rather go in with only 3 of them.

"jember"

- Winning this immunity challenge is important, we just need to make sure we can continue eliminating the Malashit members one by one, as long as we stay ahead by about 12 points in this challenge, we should be good

"jember"

- Since we kept winning competitions I didn't really worry about gameplay what so ever, since I'm still solid with my 5 piece alliance and still have my tight bond with Chris

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- However, if we do make the merge and we do all stick together and say "fair game at Final 7"I plan on backstabbing him before Final tribal council because I know he is running this shit and to have a chance to win, I will have to cut the head of the snake

"jember"

- Chris approached me today in the morning and he just made sure that i am with him. It is a bit strange that he didnt text me a single time in the past days and now, one round before the merge he is interested. I said that i am a 100% with them of course but I am not sure. When I stick with the Jember tribe, i will be probably gone at the final 7 unless i dont do some genial move. The second way i could go is to flip to Malasan with Michelle and go to the rocks after the tie. If a Jember goes home after the rocks we are gone at the final 5 but when we loose the rocks, we will be voted of at final 9 ...I am not sure what I will do, but I hope i will make the best move possible and change the game

"malasan"

- If anyone but Brian is the next Malasan to leave I might have to cry

"jember"

- We have a live IC goign right now. It is a trivia with questions about Survivor and Indonesia. We are currently in the lead thanks to the reward challenge advantage but we didnt win yet. And I am comming to my point now. That guy from Malasan, Xavier...he is a total beast. He is the best one in this challenge, he answers super fast and even in the past challenges, he was very good. I dare to say that he is the major thread to win individual immnuties, which is bad

"malasan"

- So Xavier randomly blows up at Brian, and I'm not really sure why... Like I was gonna keep Xavier but now that he's unnecessarily starting drama with Brian I think it's gonna be time to send Xavier out. I don't want to but someone who's such a loose cannon is NOT worth my time as an ally. Brian was really offended by the things Xavier said and he retaliated, and now things are blowing up So I think if we lose, tonight's vote will be between those two. Fine by me, keeps my name out of their mouths

"malasan"

- I don't dislike that many people in this game anymore. But if Brian makes the merge he will probably flip on me. God of course I have to engage in every fight

Day 18
"jember"

- We won that challenge! That is awesome. We won every single challenge after our only tribal. Which reminds of Bjorn, because he totally pulled a James Miller after he was voted off in our tribe group on fb. Idk what exactly he was writing all the time, but he got into a argument with Chris and wrote this: "there's no way you guys are going to win anything with me gone" and this is so funny because from that moment, we never lost. (Sorry Bjorn, no offense, but this is just so funny). #oraclebjorn

"jember"

- Well we won. I really hope that not throwing this challenge doesn't backfire on me, although I don't think it will. I had a talk with Loxias and he reiterated that he's still on board with me, I think that edward is actually doing a good job trying to get everyone together by saying things like "i can imagine jeff probst saying well jember you did it you all made it to the final 7" and things like that which is good. I have a good feeling that the 3 malasan will be voted out first in the merge. And hey, if edward michelle and loxias have been just playing me and everyone all along then good job on them, I'll be surprised, pissed off and disgusted, but it'll be a good job on their part. Although I don't think that's the case.

"malasan"

- Going into this game I knew it'd be difficult because, I'm not sure how to say this without sounding offensive, I've noticed this community is very "goddess queen fierce"-esque. That's not a bad thing by any means, but it's just not the type of people I'm used to playing with. Typically I'm like the youngest guy in the group and I have to act more mature to fit in with others, but I somehow end up being in the middle of the tribe, age-wise, and I'm with a lot of people that are of the "goddess queen fierce" vernacular. So I'm slowly trying to adjust to be more like that so I don't stick out like a sore thumb, but it's kind of hard to do so. I guess it's just one thing that separates me from the others and kinda does show me that if I want to survive in this game and in this community, I need to adjust myself a bit.