Always the Bridesmaid/Confessionals

Day 28
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- DID IT!! And from the looks of it they might want to keep me around for even longer! I got to talk to Hugo now that we merged and he seems to be really tight with Diego who I like also. But I’m still not sure where their head is at they aren’t promising to keep me like Tom and Miguel are so I think its best for me to just stick with them.

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- Ok, so Hugo and I were talking and we agree a big move needs to be made cause all these motherfuckers (-Nick) are shady. So Hugo comes up with the brilliant thought that one of us should win immunity, well no shit, maybe we coulda last round had u or Nick actually submitted. Beyond that when one of us do get immunity he wants to give it to Katie to solidify trust! What kinda messed up drugs are you on for God's sake! We don't even know if Katie is with us but we're gonna give her guaranteed safety and wave neon lights and scream WE'RE BLINDSIDING TOM! Can we not.

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- Well, at this point it is down to the major players of this season. Whatever happens next is going to, in my opinion, kind of predict how the rest of this season is going to play out. That is exactly why I think I need to take a risk here, and try to shake things up to solidify a spot for me alliance members in the finals. Goal, instead of taking out Katie, which most of the tribe seems to want to happen, we need to take out Rick or Tom. In the words of a wise redneck "you have to risk it, to get the biscuit." Any way, Hu_ We_ Go again, mi cuerpo est listo!

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- Right now Katie is working as a secret agent, telling me everything Hugo and Diego are discussing with her. Just another reason to keep her around for a little while. So I already set in motion the Erlend boot. First I went ahead and talked to Tom, not that hard to get him on board with the plan. Then Rick and Red were cool with it. Hugo told me he wanted Rick out now because he doesn't like him which lol who plays that way? Anyway, It didn't take long for me to change his mind and now he wants Erlend out too. All we need right now is Nick and Diego to agree which will be the hardest part so far because they are actually savvy players. At least I have Hugo to support my case. If I succeed, everyone in the F8 will have some sort of alliance with me which will let me have many options to get to the end.

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- Ok, so there's been lots of talk to get Erlend out but I think Katie might be the better option for elimination. She's a free vote and I can see lots of people including myself wanting to use her which makes her dangerous.Katie is more active/social so she is definitely more likely to make deals than Erlend or Red so she could weasel her way further in the game than I want. So now I bring up the idea of taking Katie out next and Hugo goes freaking berserk and gets really defensive. Sorry I don't want us to make a mistake Hugo, calm your tits. He actually really pissed me off and then I realized, why am I aligned with him? He's a social threat and for that matter so is Miguel, they better watch out because I might just aim to get them out sooner than planed. I get that he's stressed cause of finals but he needs to get his attitude in check.

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- I now have newfound hatred towards cats

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- Tom won again surprise surprise and I came in second. I could dominate these challenges but damn Tom has to manifest destiny all over my life. Like this dude has won all 3 individual challenges he's participated in but somehow the alliance wants Erlend gone *exhales angrily*

Day 29
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- Hot damn, 10 days away from the end! Things so far have been working out just peachy for me ^_^ Most people like me (i hope) and just today Red and I forged a new duo which I quite like myself. I've been thinking and it seems like a lot of the other players are making moves while my strategic game is slowly falling behind. Now, I really like Tom but he is a big challenge threat and we might catch him off guard with Touchy Subjects making it the perfect time for him to go and me to step up as the challenge dominator as I've come in second both the two merged challenges. With him gone I could win my way close to the end. But I was thinking, I really like Nick, Hugo, and Miguel but any combination of the three and me in FTC could spell a potential loss so my plan is to go to F6 with Red, Rick, and the three of them and convince Hugo and Nick to turn against Miguel telling them that he's the only one who could stand in the way of us being at FTC. After that I could use Red and Rick to eliminate the both of them and sit at FTC with Red and Rick, and come on who would actually vote for either of them.

Right now I have as many options as an Indian goddess has arms, either way though only an idol is gonna put me in the jury house

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- I feel like Alicia in One World ...in my mind i'm like great player but now i see that no one trust me, no one like me....f*ck you guys. If you everyone think that you are happy Payang family you are wrong. I think i will be next so i need miracle now...i made hell in camp ...i'm not quiter

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- For once Tom didn't win a challenge, but guess who came in second for a third straight time? ME!

Diego

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- OMG! Fucking paranoid Tom thinks that everyone is against him, true, but like chill and Rick knows he's on the bottom and Katie seems closer to Tom, and cml I came in second again! To quote Ivan "always the bridesmaid." But now that Tom is without immunity nw might be the perfect time to strike and take him down once and for all, but who knows. This shit is getting crazy.

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- So this challenge just started a shitstorm. Rick pretty much called me out in tribal chat as running the show even though nobody put me as an answer for anything in the challenge. I really just need to get my 4 to final 7 - me, Diego, Miguel, and Hugo. I don’t care who goes home or how we do it. But I need the votes to get someone out right now then at F8. After that, it’s a coast to F4 where I see myself in the F3 pretty much no matter what.

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- I was bored so here you have too much confessionals: I love the touchey subjects challenge. Even though I didn't expect to win it, I knew I'd do well in it. But the real reason I love it it's because of the drama it brings <3 Now we have people like Rick and Tom freaking out over the answers and people mad scrambling, it's really fun!

I was really annoyed by Tom when he suggested that the reason I won the challenge was because people helped me. Um, no, dumbass, the reason I won is because I'm able to assess where everyone stands within the tribe, which is clearly something Tom sucks at.

Erlend was supposed to be the target for this tribal but all changed with this challenge, it accelerated the game and now the tribe started to fracture. Right now the plan is to vote out Nick, then get rid of Diego, Hugo and Katie so that the Fab 5 end up as the Final 5. Who would have thought an alliance made just to split votes that one time is probably gonna gain control of the game.

It's been clear since Day 3 or so that people didn't like Rick. Hugo and Tom were actually pushing for his ousting before freaking Fiona, which would have been such a dumb move considering a swap was coming. And now at the merge, people still want him out, and it has nothing to do with strategy but pure dislike for the guy. As for me, I think Rick actually trusts me so if everything works out the way I want it to, I will be sitting next to Rick at the FTC and he would get no votes. You know, everyone needs a goat and Rick is the ultimate dream goat of all.

Right now the plan is to vote Nick out which is really gonna change the way people perceive me. I'm totally expecting Diego, Hugo and Nick to be bitter because of this so I'm gonna need to be on my A game and make sure that I explain myself in a way where if I'm at the FTC, there's at least a chance that they vote for me. I'm not even doing this just for the sake of being a villain or anything, those three are the coolest guys here, I'm not dumb, I don't want them sitting next to me in the end! It's really a shame that I have to break my loyalties to them but I truly believe it's the best for my game.

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- Ok, so atm I think I've gotten Red to side with my ornitorrinco alliance! Which makes 5, so good riddance Tom! I've actually been talking to Tom though and despite my earlier dislike for him he's actually a pretty cool dude and if it wasn't for his challenge performance I doubt I would even consider voting for him but thats the way the game goes. After he's gone Miguel is my only real competition left so come F6 I think we'll be saying good bye to him too. Hugo I can tell disagrees with me although he's going to comply I don't want him to feel unhappy with the consensus but at the same time I want to push my agenda so I can stand strong in FTC. Also while talking to Tom he said that I was the most powerful in the alliance which flattered me and made me realize how much sway I have and that so far everything I've said has happened. Also with Tom gone maybe I won't come in second every single challenge! idk if i spelled everything right, I'm eating cake and tbh that's my priority rn

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- Since Los Ornitorrincos are targeting Tom in this TC, I'm using that as an reason to tell Tom to play his idol, kinda like Natalie telling Jon: "Dude, play your idol!". That way I will earn his trust and if I decide to go against him later on he will never see it coming, and it also makes him flush the idol, I love forcing people to flush their idols, I did it with Nick back at the Bryce's boot... Anyways, I'm waiting till tomorrow to tell Tom to play his idol, I don't trust that he will keep his mouth shut until tribal's over.

Day 30
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- Hugo doesn't wanna vote for Tom (he sent me this deep message about chess and taking out pawns before the king). I understand his worry, but when the king is vulnerable you don't eliminate pawns, you go in, take the king, and win the game (I think, I don't actually know how to play chess). This is how he felt when I wanted to vote out Solar and I feel like if I push to hard I might lose his loyalty which is bad because he;s my most trusted number and my favorite person in this season. I hope he doesn't flip, but if he does it'll be my fault. Also, I'm realizing that all these guys are being controlled by a 14 year old. (Unless they all flip on me now)

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- I'm getting nervous now and I think I might get some votes this tribal :O Also, touchy subjects went really well for me, and the fact that people wanna see me win makes me feel confident that I'll get jury votes but the weird thing is: it was a tie between me and Miguel but no one answered me publicly… Also, people wanna hang out with me after the game :D yay, but prob not after they read my confessionals XD. But I actually got answered for some really cool things, which makes me happy.

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- So what was apparently my final four alliance is turning on me. They are taking this opportunity to vote me out because they see me as a challenge threat. But if we are an alliance of 4, who cares if I end up winning to the final? That would lead me to believe that the alliance was never true, or it broke up earlier in the game

Diego, Hugo and Nick have their own final three. They're trying to make deals with everyone to vote me out. Miguel is the only one that's seem to have stayed true to his word. I faked having an idol and told Miguel I used it. Then he confessed Diego's plans to me, so now I'm rallying to make sure everyone is voting Nick instead.

I suspected a Nick, Hugo, Diego alliance for a while, and the immunity challenge results confirmed it. I called everyone out and they all got defensive. It's funny when I bring something up to one of them, another person in their alliance will start talking to me about it. I'm still not 100% on Miguel because of that, but we'll see how things turn out.

Rick also called both me and Nick out, I tried to calm him down. Since my alliance turned on me, I we worked a plan to stick with the Payang Fab 5. I want to take me, Miguel, Red and Rick to the final four, then me Red and Miguel to final three.

Me and Miguel agreed to this with Red a little while ago. He doesn't seem like a threat and will basically be our goat. If it's us final three, it'll be a toss up between me and Miguel since we have been playing similar moves (if Miguel is really on my side.)

Hopefully the Fab 5 sees that if they don't take out Nick, that alliance will pick everyone off one by one.

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- It's crazy that before merge i told bad things about Tom. I was still like...Tom must go, Tom must go and now i know that he is cool guy. He watch my back so now i'm like maybe i can go to F4 with Tom