Rub My Hands With The Blood/Confessionals

Day 4
"hwadze"

- Right now I seem to be in a good position. I have a group with Drew, Hals, and Jack. I have another group with Drew, Hals, and Roisin. That means that I have options for what I could do later on. Yet I got a vote. ??? I know of instances where people cast throwaway votes at otherwise boring tribals, and the person was probably trying to get a reaction out of someone. I'm not going to sweat it though 🙂 My personal theory is that it's Drew, Hals, or Matthias

"zambezi"

- YEET!!!

"hwadze"

- So I got a vote. My suspicion is Drew did it, but not because I'm his target. He probably just wanted to take advantage of the boring tribal and mix it up. I'm not voting him out over it though. That is such a big move that not even Zeke Smith would go through with it

Day 5
"zambezi"

- this challenge is very important to me cause i wanna show my tribe that i may be an ass, but i’m also an asset. also i need to talk to more people

"zambezi"

- so im tryin 2 get ppl to give me the tribes they've guessed and i've made a cute little doc with every single premerge tribe before s18 and i've highlighted ones i've guessed in red and ones ppl have told me in orange im very excited about this i have been tellin ppl lies abt my guesses tho so they could be lying back 2 me!!! but i want the idol!!!! im just an insanely attractive funny person with no brain i need something to work with!! (this was, surprisingly, a joke)

"hwadze"

- at the moment I have a 4 person alliance with drew Hals and Vincent and have also made individual alliances with Hals Vincent jack and glo I feel most comfortable with hals just cos we seem to get each other easily but in general I feel gd abt my position if we go to tribal! Xx

"zambezi"

- Mack went home on Hwadze and like… rest in peace cause her mangatar was lowkey iconic. As for my home here on Zambezi, well… it’s a hot mess in terms of strategy. I ended up randomly being added to a alliance chat with Dovile, Elizabeth, Jake, and Louise. Now, I love the first 3 but Louise is such a wildcard for me PLUS no one even told me about her being a part of our group. Totally not making me feel super comfortable, but I have to go with it for now cause it’s a majority.

"zambezi"

- Earlier in the day, Dovile and I were talking and she brought up the fact that she thinks Becky and I are working together. Um, literally what the even? I wish I worked with Becky cause she’s an icon but Dovile totally seemed paranoid and wouldn’t tell me why she thought that when I asked her, which is MAJOR YIKES. Later on she believed Becky and I were working together because Becky said I “talk a lot”... and I sincerely hope that’s a good thing? For whatever reason, I totally feel like my game right now is a little wack in all aspects and I need to freshen up or I’ll be the trash that’s taken out if we ever go to tribal council.

"zambezi"

- So like I’ve been feeling kinda crappy in terms of where my game seems to be going right now only because I’m always the person to initiate conversation with other people. Plus, people always leave me on read or with one word responses which is a little alarming. In my real life, I’d consider myself a social butterfly. I love to talk to others and get to know other people and I feel like that translates well with the game. However, I feel like a social caterpillar at the moment; slightly in my shell and waiting to be myself fully. Praying I can see some improvement in the next few days and feel secure with everything ❤

"zambezi"

- Zambezi has currently been a powerhouse when it comes to challenges and I love it… and hate it all at the same time! As much as I love having safety, I do want to know who I can turn to if I ever need it. Paranoia spreads like wildfire in this game and I always end up burned because of it, so if I can somehow tame the flames by knowing who is on my side and taking out people I don’t feel 100% with, that’s fine by me! I know I’ll probably eat my words in like 2 episodes but yeah, hope we can lose somehow (‘:

Day 6
"zambezi"

- im sad because we lost and im sadder because i sat out because that could potentially make me a target which would be really sucky but i think im set up enough with some people where that won't happen?? but i just said to daniel i dont wanna be the first to go on the tribe and if he thinks i might and he just replied with nobody wants to go but didn't answer my question hmhmhmh im miss poopy pants rn

"hwadze"

- v happy we won hopefully the other tribe votes someone who isnt becky. me and becky will reunite and we WILL end all porkies

"hwadze"

- i dont know if certain people on this tribe are just dry and inactive or if im just that irritating... probably the latter but idk how much thats gonna matter anyway. i think im pretty good w/ my two alliances and im v glad that ro likes me because i love having a cute newbie girl as a f2... its kinda weird to me that matthias seems so chill so theres probably something else including him going on and its probably related to drew because he seems like the type to try and become everyones #1 ally & im not ok w/ that!!!he scares me a lot + he knows about my jporg win which is annoying. i would love to get vincent and ro to trust me as much as possible & just have them suck onto my ass until merge, i should probably stop bullying vincent tho... jack is a good sheep cuz hell listen to me as long as i continue to shake my titties as a distraction shdjghj jk... everyone else is blah... matthias is too much of a white gay its hard to stay on his level... glo > kiley > drew > matthias would be a cool bootlist but hopefully we swap before that

"hwadze"

- I'm stoked we won the challenge but ngl vexed at Kiley's lack of effort i think there's a general consensus that she is the weak link of the tribe and if we lose the next immunity challenge i hope she will be gone cos honestly she's blunt and cold. i'm still close with vincent and hals, and drew and jack too. Xx

"zambezi"

- at this point i’m literally in desperation mode. i’m telling everyone that i trust them and that i don’t wanna vote them out in hopes they return the favor and don’t vote me. i really do NOT wanna flop and if i won’t go down without a fight

"hwadze"

- The strategy and everything has really stagnated. The tribe chat was silent for like 18 straight hours. I like my tribe and all, but they're not active! Well neither am I, so I really shouldn't be complaining, but I hope that things get more exciting soon. (Not to say that I am not enjoying myself)

"zambezi"

- i’m worried i’m coming off too strong. i talked to augusto about an alliance with me, him, ben, becky, and jake. we’ll see if it works out cause i still gotta y’all to everyone else about it. i just really don’t wanna flop cause it’d break my heart to go home this early when i have so much i wanna show

"zambezi"

- My wish was granted and while the idea of going to tribal is cool, I am a bit sad that someone from my tribe has to leave at the end of the day. Everyone on the Zambezi Tribe is awesome so it sucks, but I’m here to win the war and not the battle so if there have to be some casualties, so be it.

"zambezi"

- Somehow I managed to score my tribe a point which I hope is enough to keep me safe this round, but I do think my social game is helping me a bit! Multiple people came to me as soon as the results were posted to tell me that they don’t plan on voting me out which is music to my ears. The only issue is that the people who told me this were Becky, Dan, and Ben who all aren’t in the Gossip Girls alliance. I sincerely hope Zambezi can keep winning challenges after this so I can avoid having to write their names down because they are amazing people. That being said, my paranoid ass is totally suspecting a swap some time within the next three rounds so I hope that isn’t the case!

"zambezi"

- The Open Season twist led to Nic being my target and coming into this tribal, that’s who I want to go home. I just don’t want to be pushy about it so I brought up to just about everyone I talked to “who do you not vibe with” and hoped that they said Nic. Ultimately, everyone ended up saying that which helps me tremendously! In the alliance group chat, it was actually Louise that brought up Nic’s name. If Nic got word that people were targeting him, I’m in the clear somewhat.

"zambezi"

- Why do I have empathy for people? ;-; Nic came to me saying that he really trusted me and vibed well with me and I just feel so guilty! I know I’m voting for him at the end of the day and whatnot, but him wanting to work with me makes me feel bad. He could be spewing bull but I don’t think that’s the case… he also mentioned wanting to make a group with Becky and Jake. He even told me to reach out to them to create it which I’m not gonna do but </3

"zambezi"

- Dovile!!! Chill sis!!! She goes too much so fast and it’s annoying me like she’s nice and everything but it’s our first tribal calm down we have an easy vote let’s just do it smdh

"zambezi"

- Fairy godmother is NOT happy at all. My tribe lost and this is sucks. Actually there are so many nice people: we have two nerds, 2 princesses, 2 queens, one ghost and one stranger, who seems very nice, but under the back is a truly snake. ugh, I am not blaming anybody, but I am sure we could win. Anyway, I guess this voting should be unanimous and fine. I am not feeling safe, paranoid a little bit, but I should stay this round. However, if we lose the next challenge I will have to rub my hands with the blood.

"zambezi"

- wait a minute hold up. i think something’s happening. i was talking to Elizabeth and she says she wants to vote Daniel. i’m immediately on board cause it’s the first name i’ve heard this whole time. I talk to Dovile and she’s down.Dovile said she’ll talk to Louise and I’ll talk to Becky and that’s 5 which is majority. if this works out and everyone is being real with me then i’m gonna be staying

"zambezi"

- ignore that last confessional cause i’m going home