History Does Repeat Itself/Confessionals

Day 32
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- remember when Taylor tried to fuck with me then failed? Haha I do. This is hysterical

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- My challenge aesthetic https://gyazo.com/c417ba0bb73030081362991f561b2832

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- so I know I'm losing this challenge because Evan is Endurance King

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- Time to make a deal with Taylor. I'm offering that I'll be a yes-man to his next two votes in the new majority alliance chat we're in with Lucas and Scott. Do I plan to uphold it?? PROBABLY NOT, but I'm gonna do what I have to do to get this guy to drop out.

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- ALRIGHT, so Taylor doesn't want to drop. It's whatever, I took a 5-6 hour nap before this and I'll go into the next day if I have to. May the best man win

Day 33
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- Now that that hellhole of a challenge is over with, time to just brush over some of the things that went down. In case you're wondering why I voted Michelle last round, it's simple. I saw two sides, one with Michelle Taylor Scott and Lucas, the other with Bryce Grace and Boo. I wanted to even up the numbers as much as possible and insert MYSELF as a swing vote, risky, yes, but I think it was plausible. I also wanted to take away some of Taylor's power and back him up into a corner, but the thing is, my intention in this round isn't to take him out finally, but to swing it right back and vote out one of Bryce/Grace/Boo. So yeah, basically I wanted to even out the playing field because had I voted Boo I could've seen Taylor/Michelle getting trigger happy sooner or later, but now, the way things are set up, there's two definitive sides and I want there to be a line drawn in the sand. So with enough persuasion and campaigning, Lucas and Scott settled on it being Michelle in the revote. So I've won immunity and I just have to take a step back and be really proud of what I've accomplished - this is my 4th individual immunity win and I'm about to make it to the Final 6. I have so much riding on my shoulders but I know I probably have to win out, or at least win the last couple challenges, so I just have to keep reminding myself what's at stake here and continue to give every challenge 150%. This vote however is crucial. The most ideal target is Bryce, HOWEVER, the possibility of him having an immunity idol is downright frightening at this stage in the game. If he were to play it and idol out Taylor, it's actually NOT a 3-3 tie next vote, he still has his double vote that would come into play. which would give him Grace and Boo majority for the round of 6 vote and thus, the rest of the game. So I've been doing my best to make him feel as comfortable as possible, and I'm trying to misdirect him and pretend the vote is on Boo this round. My instinct tells me he doesn't have that idol, but I still think it's out there somewhere, which scares the daylights out of me, and that's why me winning every challenge becomes much more important, and I think I could. Hopefully by some stroke of luck the thing I found is the actual damn idol, but right now I'm essentially playing a gigantic game of chance, and I'm going all in this vote. So yeah, I'm voting out BRYCE tonight, and I expect Taylor Lucas and Scott to do so too, and I'm expecting some fireworks at tribal. Bryce has fucked with me too many times in this game, and it's about time I put his second chance story to an end after he's messed with mine oh so often. Let this be the defining vote of this season.

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- I'm thoroughly convinced now that Bryce/Grace/Boo are way too lax heading into this vote, I feel like someone's tipping them off or they just have a plan ready, maybe Bryce/Taylor faked a conflict for all we know and Scott or Lucas is getting punked this vote. At this moment I don't think there's much I can do but just hope that this 4 I have with Taylor Lucas and Scott can band together for at least ONE vote, and if not, you're going to have to beat me straight up to throw me out of this forsaken ISLAND

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- This game is a complete mess. I've never had to work this hard to try and stay under the radar before. If I make my move too early, I'll get cut just like I've been doing to everyone else. The strategy that has been working is the people who try to lie around are getting cut and it's getting to the point where I'm going to have to possibly lie around and this sucks. Either I'll be able to get my way and go to the end with boo and scott, or I'll have to settle with second best with boo and bryce and pray the jury is bitter. This game is hell and I'm just trying my best to float on by but this floating is getting carried away and I might end up goating myself too hard. Gotta hope that doesn't happen

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- This final 7 vote is KILLING me! I am SOO SO worried that Bryce has the idol. Everything inside me wants to vote Bryce out, but he was able to keep an idol secret last time. I wouldn't put it past him to keep it from Evan despite how close they are. Evan is almost certain he has no idol. But there's ANOTHER problem with it. Lucas insists we vote for Grace. Like ughhH!!! I mean we are probably pretty sure she doesn't have it because she probably would have played it last time. There's yet ANOTHER layer to this vote though. Grace said she would be willing to vote with me if I had the votes because everyone has screwed her over. She even suggested voting for Boo because he broke their deal not to campaign against each other last vote. I can't be sure how truthful she is being though because she was mad at me before. I just don't want to screw her again because I really like her. This is WAYYYY too stressful for me. If I could find the idol, it would reassure me that I was making a good choice. i think I was close. I have time to do one more search and guess before I vote though. Oh god... this vote is killinggggg meeee. Someone give me a sign! I don't want Bryce to stick around any longer, but I would hate myself SOOO much if I got idoled out when I could be in a really good spot to make finals if I survive this vote. I have been through so much on my second chance journey. I'm just too close to lose it all now. I went from fighting my way through the entire premerge as all of my allies were wiped out one by one. Then I made it here. I made the merge, and I had to fly uder the radar and keep a meat shield in front of me until I could make a move without becoming the target. I was part of almost every single blindisde that happened postmerge. Then I finally decided to make a move and it failed. I ended up on the outs and i was publicly attacked for it. I lied, and people decided that because it was me it wasn't ok. And I went to the lowest point I've ever felt while playing one of these games. But I have people on my side again. I got them to be on my side or so I think. I can't go out because of Bryce, I just can't. But Evan insists Bryce and Lucas insists Grace... and I... I need to make the decision. One wrong move... ONE wrong move right here is quite possibly the difference between 7th place and making it to the finals on finale night. I can't... no. I won't let my second chance go to waste. But which way is the way to make it be worth something? I just don't know, and time is running out. Ticking away... tick tock... tick tock.

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- Oh yeah! And I was able to get the rest of the idol clue out of Evan without him realizing it. Grace only gave me the very end of the clue, so I asked Evan wait how did the clue go exactly and he was like oh here I got it just a sec. And showed me it all. It probably doesnt matter but hey why not. he thought I had the whole thing bc I said the last part of the clue, and then he started talking about redheads, and i realized there was more to it, so I was like i cont remember how it goes exactl blah blah.

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- so you see, if you look what we have here… we have a Rome situation where I may as well go back in time a year. The cast of Retribution… I mean wait, hold on, I'm sorry. The cast of Rome part 2 is Evan Manziel playing Domonique Scott Maxwell playing Brittany Lucas Tofur Cherek playing Ricky Bryce Bee playing Ethan Taylor Gee playing Ivan Zayn Boo Rogers playing Josh And staring Grace Courtney as… herself. Once again I'm going to have to pull strategy out of my ass in order to stay alive, which is not what I wanted to do but hey, second chances is all about correcting your mistakes and I'm willing to do anything I have to in order to stay alive. Go big or go home and I do NOT want to go home