Board Thread:Season 54 - Caño Cristales/@comment-33819352-20190819062622/@comment-38834507-20190820013456

Hey Andre!

Firstly, I want to apologize for the fact that I was 100% not straightforward with you when it came to game talk. To be honest and upfront with you now, there were many times when you would bring up game moves that I didn't want to make but because I didn't want to lose your trust (and as a result, our friendship) I made the cowardly choice to be vague with you instead of being fully honest. For example, when you wanted to join forces and try and take out Matt, I was super apprehensive because he was probably my closest ally at that point so I gave you vaguely positive answers instead of being honest because I didn't want you to think I was against you. I'm really sorry for doing that to you and I figured that you deserved some honestly now at least. I really do love you and I'm sorry I wasn't the best person to work with at many points in this game :(

Also, to briefly touch on your point about me riding coattails. While I do think there's validity in what you had to say, I personally don't think that was entirely the truth. I elaborated this point more in my response to Su's speech (where he made a similar point) and if you're interested in my rebuttal you can check it out there. BUT, I think I best made my point by simply saying " In '''my eyes, it was more so me using my relationships and connections to get me the things i wanted in the game without being viewed as a threat OR as if i was controlling other people." '''

I think there's a difference in actually riding coattails and pretending to ride coattails by playing up my naivety and "going along" with votes so I got what i wanted while still playing innocent. BUT! I respect what you have to say and I think that the way I viewed my game and others viewed my game are two different things because we all have different perceptions of events!

On to your questions!

(you and Rob both asked me similar questions so I hope you don't mind that I'm going to use the same answer for you both.)

A lot of the game moves that I made were definitely on the subtle side. One move that I made which positivly impacted my game and no one else's was me making the deliberate choice to NOT make a move. I'm not sure If the jury's learned about this yet but earlier in the game, I found a power! This power was called the Black Heart and it gave me the ability to force a player to choose between voting for two other players of my choice during the tribal council that I played it during. This power had to be played publically. (this detail will come up later) The only person I told about this power for the longest time was Andreas. (Andreas please know I say this with complete love and respect) Andreas was a great ally in this game but one difference in our gameplay styles is that he's MUCH bolder than me. Once he knew about this power, he tried to convince me to use it MULTIPLE times. In each case, I felt out the situation and I didn't think I needed to play it to ensure my safety (and I was right each time!). One of the reasons why I was so reluctant to play it was because it was NOT anonymous. Can you imagine what causing so much drama and heartbreak would do for my whole "social sweetheart" game?? It would have blown a giant whole in my entire stratagy and for what? Votes that would have gone our way anyways??? I had a great perception of the game and I knew it wasn't necessary any of the times he pushed me to play it. I stood my ground each time by telling him no and it worked out in my favour. I had faith in my own personal strategy and I wasn't about to ruin that so I could make someone else happy and further their game.