Double Trouble/Confessionals

Day 37
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- Holy hell it worked. I'm in the final 3 with the people I want to be here with and Danielle is FINALLY gone. I was so nervous michelle would've been an idiot and voted to keep danielle, thank god she didn't. I'm glad that Mikey got a vote because if I win final immunity I can vote out michelle and be the only person left without a vote cast against them all game.

I NEED to win immunity though to stay in this game. Michelle she isn't going to take me, I can try to convince her all I want but sheryl informed me a few rounds ago that Michelle wanted me out of this game so I don't trust her to take me, Mikey I don't know, I feel like he'll stay loyal but I'm not expecting anything, all I can do is guarentee I'm in the final 2 by winning immunity and taking myself there, and besides there's still one more letter in double trouble that needs to be spelled out.

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- : i could've voted mikey amd make it a tie between him and danielle, then it'll go to a challenge. but i would rather go f2 with mikey than her tbh. that being said, i am praying to the survivor wiki gods to not let chris win that frickin immunity damn it.

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- Also I'm really happy I was able to make it here on behalf of Dani. I told her if anything happened to her I would make it to the end for both of us and I would get revenge on the people who got her out of this game. Right after Dani left Alex went, the main person who got it to go to rocks. Then Loxias, and then we voted out Danielle. The only person left is Michelle and I will get her out of this game, whatever the challenge is I'll give it 150%, there's no quit in me.

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- Coming into this game I never thought I would ever make it to the final 3. I thought for damn sure I'd be voted off way earlier then this, but I got very lucky with the people I was put with and I am very lucky that I was put onto a dominating tribe. I'm proud of myself to be honest, and I'm so close to the end I can taste it. I know that Michelle probably doesn't want me in the final 3, I know Mikey probably doesn't either, so I just need to win this final immunity challenge and I'm there. I'm almost fucking there.

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- : this final immunity challenge is taking too long to start and like rip me again for timezone differences. looking forward there's an 80% chance my fate is in the hands of those guys who both promise to take me to f2. 20% is me winning that immunity challenge. let me liiiiive.

Day 38
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- LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOO Alex being bitter as hell! "#disgusting" haha! I'd so go off on him but I'm going to wait until after the season is over or if I'm voted out or if he openly says he's not voting for me no matter what! It wouldn't be "#disgusting" if he was here! And it's only disgusting because your ass was voted out sweety! I think you're the biggest idiot in the entire game, as you tried to make a big move for no reason and only made it for the sake of making a move, and was voted out next because of it. You're the idiot here hun, we're not. We're final 3 while your sorry ass is sitting in 7th place. Bye bitch.

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- being a jury goat is gr8 m8

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- I look like an idiot when it comes to my rites of passage stuff(the real comments will be posted when the game is over) and now I can get to the finals and be like Phillip

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- WOA WOA WOA. HOLD THE FKIN PHONE.

Lox: You were really cool, wish you could have gone after Chris.

MIKEY????/ IS HE KIDDING ME. Oh he's a dead man I'll tell you what, his ass better find a good excuse or he's in a world of hurt. You'd better believe it.

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- Holy hell I made it to the final 2. I'm honestly fucking shocked I was able to make it to the end of this game, I never expected I would have been able to coming into it and to sit here is a great accomplishment. I put all I had into winning that challenge and it was proven based on the fact I won each part of the final challenge. I knew I needed it and I'm so happy I got it.

For the vote tonight I think i have my decision made, on one hand you have Mikey who hasn't nearly put enough time and energy into this game and who people have openly admitted to being annoyed by and then you have michelle, someone who formed relationships with everyone someone who put effort into this game and someone who played the game. I hope Michelle doesn't take it personally, although I couldn't imagine why she would as I knew she was planning on cutting me if she won.

Also thank god I get to write my last hieroglyphic down to complete Double Trouble. I know it probably looks like "look at this cocky bitch writing double trouble" but I really wanted to see if I could do it and see if me and Dani could've made it to the end together and see if anyone caught on. No one did clearly, but it's just a fun little way to end my last vote in survivor java as a tribute to double trouble.

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- I just noticed Dani and I were the only people in this entire game to not have any votes cast against them. Hell fucking yes Double Trouble not getting any votes cast against them <3

Day 39
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- The end game, the end game, who's winning? Chris of course, This fucking piece of shit did nothing, literally nothing

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- But at least I can get beaten by another piece of shit

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- I just woke up really emotionally overwhelmed this morning. Um it's coming to an end I had no idea I was gonna go this far and um. I'm just reflecting on life just um how god has just blessed me. Just with the little things with decent family decent friends, this amazing experience. I'm about to go back to real life and part of me wants to part of me doesnt. I'm a teacher, in one of the craziest neighborhoods in the country and um, I just got layed off. I signed up to be a teacher to teach kids that people dont want to teach. I want to tell the kids everything... How the sand felt, how the water felt. I would love for my kids just to see this view. They see a few blocks in brooklyn, that's it and that's all they aspire to see, so hopefully they see that I took a chance and they'll take a chance. All they have to do is one time. I can only spend maybe a few more minutes sitting here after the sun comes up. You gotta put your game face on this is still anyones game, uh i think everyone has their strong points and their weaknesses in this game and it's all about playing with the strong parts, you gotta go in guns blazing, and um gotta have no mercy and, from there, the game will unfold Emotikon smile

In all seriousness though, I really am proud of myself for making it to the end. As a viewer I don't know if I would enjoy this season, I would probably automatically be like "wow there's no girl in the end? this season fucking sucks" or something and there hasn't been idols or any crazy shit like that, but as a player I really enjoyed this game. I think it was very different from any other Survivor I've played.

Going into final tribal council I'm expecting some bitterness, I'm expecting people to yell at me and I'm honestly not expecting many votes. I think too many people hate me and aren't going to vote for me, I just have to hope people will realize that I played the best game out of the final 2, I wasn't afraid to speak my mind, I won challenges, I was strategic and I was overall someone who was putting in a lot of effort into this entire game. I don't believe that many people necessarily will like me after this game is over, but all in all I had a great time playing and I think I deserve the title of Sole Survivor MUCH more over Mikey. Give me that crown bitch!

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- Eh, that was unnecessary, Chris isn't a piece of shit, even tho I know he's the kind of person who talks shit about everyone in the game...