There's A 50/50 Chance I Will Fight A Bitch/Confessionals

Day 22
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- Finally I've made it to the merge! I'm really happy about this in general cause now I don't have to worry about being a pre-merge flop but theres 2 other reasons. The first one is that I've made it to the merge all 3 times I've played and I'm pretty happy about that because not everyone can do that. And then the more epic reason, I MADE IT TO 100 DAYS! And on top of that, I've made it 100 days without being voted out/eliminated! That's pretty crazy to think about and I'm just insanely proud of myself for it. I'm still stopping at nothing from doing my best to make it to the end again and win again, but at least no one can take this big moment away from me no matter what happens later on in the season.

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- So... I made it to merge? This is my 3rd season and every season I've made it to the merge. I'm pretty proud of that. My main goal of this season has been to make it to Day 28 so I can say I have played 100 days in just 3 seasons and I'm so close but these next two tribals are so crucial in determining if I'll achieve this goal. My main allies going into the merge are Jamie and Audrey but I also want to start a good relationship with Tyler to move forward. I've been playing low so far to make it here but I have no idea how my game will play in the next 48 hours.

My biggest problem going into this merge is the fact that someone put on a parchment for Dani that 'YT premade was so 3 seasons ago' which means that she is throwing out there I'm aligned with Jamie and Jared. While yes, I did work with them on the tribe swap I definitely didn't have the intention of working with them. I wanted Jamie gone ASAP and hoped she was going to be voted out before the first tribe swap. That didn't happen, and when we did meet she worked with me to make sure I stayed safe during my vote. If anything, Dani claiming this will only push me closer to Jared now since she wants to group us together. All she did was close us off and by doing so created an alliance for us (assuming an alliance will happen?)

I wanted to work with Dani this season when we finally met but this has to happen the tribal before the merge. Now I have no idea what will happen besides me pretending to have a good social game for 48 hours.

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- Omg soo much to go over this past round. So the last elimination was all kinds of crazy, and I was in the center of it! Apparently everyone was decided that a Culzean was meant to go, but that did NOT fly with me at all. People were telling me they want Tyler or Jamie out but I was okay, and that was their mistake like don't go for my alliance and think I'm going to just sit by and be okay with it?? So I started giving everyone who was talking to me little snippets of info that I knew to basically create paranoia that everyone was leaking their plan to get one of us out, which in all fairness they were. But it worked out in a way where Szymon and Jakey were at each other's throats and wanted to take each other out. I saw my opportunity there to keep them both in to keep going at each other and take out an alternative target, Elias. Jenna was talking to me too, but Elias stopped talking to me all together, which kind of just made me trust him a lot less because he didn't need me on the first vote, so I just got everyone to vote him!

So that worked out wonderfully and then I did absolutely horrendous in the challenge, but that is okay too I guess because not only did it not matter because we won, but I got picked to go to the castle! Me and Jamie BOTH found advantages there, she got Tymeka's idol and I got a Friend Saver! Now we have merged and we're totally about to turn this game on it's head.

I have some more plans I want to discuss but I will save it for another confessional because I'm so sleepy now

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- YAY WE MERGED! Everythings cute and iconic, but... Im worried numbers wise.

From my perspective it seems like Audrey been secretly running the game. Ik even Jamie is close with and Jamie for sure is another power player here. They had a hang with Chelsea/Jared after first tribe dissolve and with the tribe swap Jessica joined them. So that's already 5. Then there's Bryce to make it 6. NNNN i might be trouble just for my connection to Dani. I really wanted to work with Chelsea but it seems like she's easly burning her bridges.

At least people are openly coming to me with information. But without a doubt this is going to be a CRAZY merge and im here for it. Time to have fun (':

Day 23
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- Merge time! This season feels weird. I don't know why it feels so slow. Maybe it's because nothing will compare to the shit show that was HvV 2. Entering the merge I'm realizing there are five people I haven't met yet: Jakey, Jenna, Szymon, Sydney and Tyler. So that is a lot of social to do to see how well positioned I am. I'm thinking of maybe using my Immunity Necklace to give me a bit more leverage. I'm just scared it will get bad attention on me. I want to be as low key as I can for now. But after discussing with Jamie the merge boot can be a bit all over the place... and with 4 or maybe 5 idols around and 5 people I have no connection with... I don't know if I feel 100% confident... I still have time to think about it, but it's on my mind. Speaking of Jamie, I reunited with her since the merge and she is SUCH a nice person. I somehow feel special talking with her I wonder if she acts that way with everyone else or only me. She wants to go the final with me but I know how those promises go, I get cut right before the end... So I'll think about it... Especially since Jamie is a challenge beast and that there is no way I can beat her at final immunity challenge. She is also good at the game and can win it. So far I think my game has been average. I know some people say the game doesn't start before the merge but I disagree. Pre-merge is so important to build those relationships that will carry you through the merge. It is crucial to play well pre-merge if you want to go far. Anyway, for the merge I don't have many plans. I'm very good socially with a few people but I feel like Dani might know I have been a bit sneaky last vote, and she is now with a lot of her friends. So I'll keep an eye out for her. Now my plan is to talk a bit more with the people I don't know while solidifying the people I already have. For now I think I can have on my side Bryce, Cali, Chelsea, Jamie, Jared, Jessica with me which gives me 7-6. That isn't counting the other bounds I'm about to go make right this instant as I end this conf.

Byeeeeeeee

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- Well to sum things up for those uninformed, none of these bitches like me (AND WITH GOOD REASON LMAO)

So I leave the tribe swap with Audrey thinking I’m shady as fuck, Jared thinking I’m flip floppy, Jessica thinking I’m more of a trash can than I was before, and Dani loosing all the faith that she had mistakenly put in my to begin with. So ya great werk, all true facts but at least I have an entire other group of people to talk with and make deals with right?

WRONG, after trying to talk to everyone else the ONLY people who seem somewhat interested in working with me are Szymon and Jakey (btw....THEY BOTH HATE EACHOTHER SO LETS SEE HOW LONG IT TAKES BEFORE THAT BLOWS UP) And Tyler and that’s it. I would love to work with Tyler, the only thing is I personally want Sydney and Jamie out of this game asap and he probably wouldn’t be so keen on doing that

Anyway, I know I’ve kind of stumbled to to where I am right now, but I’m not going to just give up so easily! I don’t want to revert into a completely under the radar style game because that is NOT what I came here to do to win some coin, but at the same time any extravagant extra gameplay could get be blown up like TJ. So I’m just going to try to keep up my social bonds, try to achieve the usually impossible task of getting people to like me, and just roll with whatever punches come my way. hopefully I can get people to realize that I’m the perfect person to bring in for an extra number or anything like that

Before I end this I forgot to mention the love of my life Chelsea.

Chelsea, I’m not mad. just disappointed.

You had a prime opportunity to make a move last tribal that would have flopped this game upside down and it WOULD have positively impacted your game. I get you want to have your own game as your #1 priority, but keeping Audrey is going to bite us BOTH in the ass.

I still love you no matter what and I’m probably so wrong about all of this <3 we’re still going to slay this game so let’s gag the kids "balegdeh"

- We’ve merged! I hate our tribe name it sounds gross and I do not understand why we picked it. I like the purple though.

my strategy for the rest of the game is pretty similar to what it was so far: try to lay low and avoid disappointment. I want to appear non threatening and just be chatty with everyone so hopefully they leave wanting to see me win. At least for now that’s my plan, once things start going if I’m still here then it will be time 2 make a #BigMovez

Right now there aren’t really any big alliances I know of, but I’m assuming some combo of The Friends (TM) will work together (that’s jamie, szymon, Dani, Cali, Tyler, and Jared). I call them this because I think most of all of those people are close friends? So I could see some sort of alliance emerging from that.

I don’t care who we vote out this round as long as it isn’t me Jake or Audrey.

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- It seems like everyone expects Dani to win immunity, and if she doesn't she might as well be an easy target for the vote. NNNN i'd rather Dani to win immunity and make a big target on her back instead because i dont want her gone yet. Ive been working my ass socialy and i believe that at this point i had talked to everyone and everyone showed some kind of interest into working with me. Which is a good thing but its exhausting and overwhelming to have to keep tracking of 12 conversations with people SKFSJHDGJK. Im trying to appear someone that they all individually can trust and need down the road. Im really putting my eggs in Chelsea's basket as in my long term dark horse relationship. The only person that i can see targetting me right now is Jakey but ive been working onto squishing that beef as well. So far its really calm but i bet that once immunity results will be posted its going to be a huge mess and war will start really really soon

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- Chelsea just spilled to me all the info and all the alliances she's in??? LEGEND?? How CUTE that theres a group of Jared/Jamie/Jessica/Audrey/Chelsea.. real cute! I wanna call Jamie's ass out on it since earlier she was complaining about no alliances. But right when i was talking game to Chelsea AUDREY popped in with questioning me and proposing to work together outta nowhere. Im kinda digging it for where its about to go because i feel like im about to penetrate that group of people who think are in control right now

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- listen i havent made a conf in a long time but CURRENTLY this is my mood: STORMZY - BIG FOR YOUR BOOTS shall explain more when im not dying from illness xx

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- Kingdoms collide merge!!!!

Day 24
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- Well miss Jessica must think she's SO FUCKING CLEVER FOR EXPOSING ME TO DANI

And guess what bitch...you are BECAUSE DANI WAS LOWKEY ONE OF THE LAST PEOPLE IN THIS GAME WHO TRUSTED ME

But honestly fuck Jessica for that, for her preaching of """"building trust"""" and shit in her convos with me, sis take that mentality and cook it in a store bought microwave (aren't all microwaves store bought??? my mind)

like imagine feeling that petty that you go up to the person who just won immunity just to expose little old cali. LITTLE OLD CALI WOULD NEVER HURT A FLY? But on a serious note I did have to stop myself from actually going completely the FUCK OFF in the tribe chat on her, cause when you expose a fake person for being fake, you just prove that you're kind of just as fake.

Be warned miss Jessica. Because the first chance I get I am COMING at your neck

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- Ok I am having a highkey meltdown rn cause like I’m 50% sure I’m the target in a lot of people’s head

I know I’ve played a pretty sloppy game thus, and because of that none of these people trust and it’s all my doing. Like sure I can make a confessional ranting about Jessica or Chelsea, but at the end of the day I PUT MYSELF in this position so the only one I can really be mad at is myself.

I’m not at all ready to go and I have SO MUCH more fight in me. I’m going to try to weasel myself into ANYTHING. I don’t give a fuck if I have to work with Audrey and her clique, the culzeans, or WHO FUCKING EVER.

If it truly is me going home, than bitch I’m going to give you a last day to remember

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- NNNNNNN great. Audrey's throwing around info that me/cali/dani/jenna are a group. Which is true to a extend. I know it thanks to Chelsea whos doing a brillant job on playing a double agent and im acting clueless with Audrey who i still strongly believe is running the game. Jamie's totally submissive to her since she wants Cali gone when that would be such a stupid move for her since having both Jessica/Cali in game is going to keep target away from her back. NOT my problem! she lied to me too saying that Cali's the option for voting when i know she discussed with Audrey about Cali/Jenna being the boot options. At least no one has me on their radar.. yet.

I may be on the bottom right now but im getting all the kind of information i need. Im going to start planting seeds of doubt within that group of 5 without jeopardizing Chelsea's game. Specifically i would love to turn Audrey and Jamie aganist each other. Im here to fight to come all the way on the top

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- Tag yourself im Jessica trying to get me to flip to her side ALL WHILE AUDREY TOLD JAKEY THAT IM THE TARGET THIS SHIT IS LAUGHABLE.

Audrey, sis, YOU DONE FUCKED UP OOP

Also Chelsea needs to literally grow a pair. I'm ACTUALLY considering voting her out now.

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- WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS TRIBAL LEGIT WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON JESSICA WHAT ARE U DOING CHELSEA WHAT ARE U DPOING YALL ARE PLAYING SOOOO DUMB

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- WHAT THE FUCK

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- The little of hesitation I had about playing my immunity necklace or not just vanished. This first tribal is a MESS. No one wants to commit to a single name, everyone is scrambling, I don't trust ONE soul. And this will probably end up in a last minute scramble. Dani is targetting my girls (chelsea and jess) and would probably be targeting me if I wasn't immune. I hate everyone of these non committed assholes and I feel like a fast one is going to be pulled from under me. So far my plan is to aligned with chelsea, jess, bryce and jared pulling in cali (who I do not trust) and szymon (who I do not trust either). to vote off Tyler. Which mean it leaves Jamie on the outs... She will be pisseddddd. At this point in time, 3h before deadline I have no idea what I'm gonna do. If I was bored before I am NOT bored now.

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- So I know I was freaking out...but I just stopped breathed and thought.

I FUCKING LOVE THIS TRIBAL LMAO.

It's SUCH A MESS, NO ONE KNOWS WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON LMAO

I WILL BE MAD IF I GET VOTED OUT, BUT I RATHER GET VOTED OUT AT THIS TRIBAL THAN A BORING ASS ONE

ALSO THERES A 50/50 CHANCE I WILL FIGHT A BITCH IN THE MAIN CHAT STAY TUNED

(also the mood of the day is me misreading something Sydney said and then FREAKING OUT AND EXPOSING THE ALLIANCE DANI CREATED FOR US LMAO)

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- I don't even know how to explain this tribal right now. It started from either being Cali or Jenna, which either would've been fine with me because I don't talk to Jenna and I just don't trust Cali. I think everyones overlooking her asides from maybe me and Jamie because they like her a lot and shes fun to talk to but all I can think about is how so many people think that. That proves she's playing majority of the contestants left and I want her out as soon as possible. Along with her friend Dani. I just think she's a threat too, she's not as good as playing people but still that doesn't mean she's not good at other aspects. For the most part people I liked finally came together after me literally sitting on the island alone for majority of the day because no one wanted to tell me anything after I kept trying!! I'm hoping everyone in the group at least stuck together cause I heard the other side is voting me so I'm just hoping for the best..