He Apologizes for Everything/Confessionals

Day 14
"tagaloa"

- After the Tribal Council, I realized that the game right now is not about Internationals vs Americans. It's everyone's game. After Matthew was voted out then Ahad. Well it is a proof that everyone of us is eager to win and survive the World of Anarchy in Samoa.

I'm worried about the fact that I always get the lower scores in challenges and maybe I'm the next one to go home. However, Kaffe told me that I am an asset in the group not as a threat so this time I need to work hard in challenges, be sociable as always and use my brains to become alert.

"tagaloa"

- So Ahad finally left the game last night at tribal council. This is something that I've been working towards for quite a while, and it just so happened to work out perfectly at the very first tribe elimination stage. Essentially, the entire tribe wanted Ahad gone because he was too much of a schemer. Additionally, Jon was still mad at him for the idol fiasco.

Unrelated to that vote out is the fact that Tyler M is starting to get squirmy in his position on the tribe. He is beginning to take more of a leadership role, and he's even trying to control me in a few scenarios. He would prefer that Americans are protected over any International players.. but to me this is a stupid move. Because of that fact, I have started going behind his back and working closely with Jordan, Richie, Jerby, Nokomis, etc.. to try to influence the power dynamics at the other camp. Hopefully this will pay off for me at their first tribal, where I expect to see Quanz go in a landslide vote. After that, I would prefer if Blake or Jordan go, but we will have to see.

Beyond all of that, it really has been a bit of a slow last few days.. strategically speaking. Just laying low, playing the field as it develops and trying to keep my eyes open for any new developments. I still feel great about my place in the game.. and I'm currently working on concocting a plan that will net me Tyler M's idol half. We will have to see how that goes as well.

"tagaloa"

- After the Tribal Council, I realized that the game right now is not about Internationals vs Americans. It's everyone's game. After Matthew was voted out then Ahad. Well it is a proof that everyone of us is eager to win and survive the World of Anarchy in Samoa.

I'm worried about the fact that I always get the lower scores in challenges and maybe I'm the next one to go home. However, Kaffe told me that I am an asset in the group not as a threat so this time I need to work hard in challenges, be sociable as always and use my brains to become alert.

"tagaloa"

- It really sucks that we lost the challenge and the Atonga got it faster. We have different time zones and most of us are busy in school and workplace. Wow! I'm always performing poor in the challenges and Jamie didn't know that we have a challenge. So either me or Jamie will go home. #BestOfLuck

"atonga"

- It's challenge day and like I mentioned in my previous confessional, I need to do well in this. Fortunately, I am online during the challenge (because of my work) and we were able to win it.

It is a bittersweet moment knowing that I am safe but at the same time, Jon and Kaffe (people I have alliances with from the other tribe) are going to tribal again. There have been talks that Jon is next to go and as much as I don't want that to happen, Jon's been rubbing people the wrong way. Plus, his performance in the past challenges aren't helping him at all.

I should be worried about Drew too but he's in a good spot right now. Honestly, he's the next Matt - a threat that no one seems to notice! He's good in challenges, gained the trust of most of the people (even the hosts!!!), he has half the idol and he's the one organizing the votes.

The good thing is that I'm his ally and I treat him like he's my brother. So what I could do for now, is stick close to him without him noticing how huge of a threat he is to me right now.

"tagaloa"

- Well today sucked. It was a live challenge that was pretty impossible to take part in. I was in school, and for that, we're going to Tribal. I hope that there's better communication for the next live challenge, because I felt like that was a big part of it, too. x

Day 15
"tagaloa"

- So today has been chaotic. Basically, I've discovered that Richie cannot be trusted. I found this out, because Jordan stupidly decided to share with Jerby his entire opinion on me and my position in the game. How is it that people don't realize Jerby and I are together yet? It's so confusing to me... Either way Jordan is not the strategic player that he thinks he is.

Anyway, he basically informed Jerby that Richie has been telling him everything I have leaked so far.. and that they both (Jordan and Richie) feel that I am like Boston Rob and not to be trusted at all. They are correct. This is why they need to go, before they even get a chance at making a power grab.

The way I am going to do this is: Influence Noah, Nokomis, Blake, and Quanz. Convince them that Jordan and Richie are making a big play to try to get them out, and that Richie needs to go at the first tribal. I've already got Noah, Nokomis, and Jerby willing to vote for Richie. This leaves Quanz, and Blake. Quanz should be easy.. because simply put: It's going to be him voted off unless he makes a move and votes for Richie. Blake will be an interesting test of will power for me, but I truly believe I can talk him into voting "American" and taking out Richie. This will be one of the most important moves I will have made in this game yet if I can pull it off. There is a threat brewing in Jordan and Richie, and I need to take them out before they get a chance to grow into something that I can no longer handle.

After that threat is handled, Kaffe and I have agreed that our boot order is going to be Dustin, followed by TylerM. This will put the idol half back into play, and I will do everything in my power to go out and grab it.

That's all for now ! :D

"atonga"

- Ooh, trouble is brewing within Atonga. Apparently, Richie believes that Drew and Tyler of Tagaloa are controlling this game, and that Nokomis and myself are going to join them when the merge takes place. This...is true. So, Richie and Jordan are forming an alliance to get Nokomis and myself out of the game before it can happen. Oh dear--and it gets better. Jordan goes and tells Jerby this "amazing" plan. Little did Jordan know, that Jerby and Drew are tight. Of course Jerby is gonna tell Drew this, who ultimately tells me. Silly, silly, Jordan. Here's the deal. Quanz, Jerby, Nokomis and myself are hopefully going to make an alliance to overthrow Richie, Jordan and, more than likely, Augustin, and get out either one (or two...) of the three before the merge takes place, and really stick it to 'em! This leaves Blake...time will tell where his faith lies, and I can't wait.