A Couple of Star Bellied Sneetches/Confessionals

Day 13
"hizoku"

- YESSS everything went as planned! This is giving me the confidence I need to stay strong in this game and keep on fighting, little by little. I feel really good about my relationships all round on this tribe so I need to maintain myself in the position I'm in, you gotta be manipulative to get far in this game. "riza"

- This has got to be the worst way to start an alliance ever. Like, I wasn't even aware if Emile knew about it or not, I spoke like 5 words about it with Ash, and Claire was just eager to get something together I suppose?? I'm a bit confused by the whole process of how this came to be, not really sure I can trust any of it, and the worst part of all is the name being "Musical Madness". Who the FUCK names their alliance that. Like, I love ya Claire whenever you see this, but I really am shaking my head right now. ""riza"

- This round was really eye opening, like I got to see the negative aspects of my game and worked on improving them, may have failed but w/e, and these tribal results say everything I was fearing in this game. The writing is on the wall, Emma being voted out despite being the only underdog when there's 4 of them, over ALEXA who is part of a tribe of 6 all still in, means that these people are gonna value connections over game moves. Alexa had Jessy and Charley had Hunter and Hunter/Jessy/Miguel make up the majority of the tribe as the leaders and control shit. So the way I'm seeing this pan out is by like making an overview of everyone left like this was an actual merge and seeing what would happen. Alex is gonna stick with Charley no questions asked, Charley is gonna stick with Hunter. Ash is close with Hunter from what I can tell looking @ history, and with Ash comes the rebels and Alexa is already clearly cozying up with Jessy so this is just a recipe for disaster for me in this game. There just gonna take out the outside people that they're not associated with until they make up the vast majority and its Bayon vs. the Witches 2.0, BUT NOT ON MY WATCH. If I want any shot in hell of doing well in this game I gotta start weakening the chains of links that hold this mega threat alliance of Old School+Rebels+Leaders together. Ideally I'd just like to kill everyone on that tribe that just voted off Emma, but realistically they wouldn't kill Hunter whose the big threat so that's a no no. I don't know what Jamie and Jared would do because from Ash it sounds like they were on the outs and I neeeed them to not fuck this up and keep our possible numbers of Brett and Ally together, it would be a disaster if they voted either of them out so please don't fuck that up and live up to your names and VOTE OFF MATT AND ULI. Alex and Ash are two mega threats from this tribe, I'm honestly not comfortable enough in my position here to try and make a move and throw a challenge to boot either of them, but if I can keep them both away from the island and get the rest of the tribe united with this idea and isolated with Ash and Alex, that would be good! This outsider/rebel alliance to the mega monster alliance that is forming is literally ALL of our only chances of making it, Claire and Chris said they were fine and seemed like they were in a good position, but from what I'm seeing I think they were both being played and really on the outs of their tribe, Jared and Jamie were clearly on the outs of their tribe, and I was on the outs of the sirens, combine us together with the 3 underdogs and we might actually have a shot at not going out premerge in this game! But this really relies solely on the assumption that Jamie and Jared will vote out Matt or Uli, and I don't like playing with unknowns so if we have to lose it sucks but so be it, otherwise lets just keep weakening the other tribe and send them back to back to back please.

"						""riza"

- So I had a fairly lengthy strategic talk with Sora, the guy I trusted the least! Well that's changing. Whether I trust him long term is another question, but I definitely enjoy talking game with him. He wants to form an alliance with me/him/Chris/Claire, and he's worried about us being overtaken at merge by nu-hizoku and the various people they'll bring in, including ash and alex. I don't believe half the picture he's trying to paint about Alex. But, at this point I don't really care whether Alex stays or goes, so I'll go with his idea. This just gives a better idea of how Sora targets players - successfully at that. Also Claire is playing so damn well what the fuck !

"						""riza"

- My thoughts on the last few days of trying to better my position in this swapped tribe can all be found in this video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=39Ss4Bo8Afc

"						""makeinu"

- Update on where I am at in the game.

First let's address Emma going home. It really sucks to see her go home as that was one of the few connections I have in this game, she would have made a great ally come merge time. It also makes me wary of there being a bigger alliance, idk Emma going home doesn't really make sense.

I also just went to Rishiri island for the first time which was interesting. I know fuck all about org history so I clearly chose the worst possible path for myself lmao. But Rishiri island gives me the opportunity to build trust in this game.

This is a game that magnifies paranoia and when you find that one person who you really feel like you can trust, you will cling to them simply because they provide you with a safe place outside of the game. I want to to be that person for as many people as possible; the more trust I can build in the premerge the better my chances are postmerge. So after Rishiri island I was more than willing to give up as much info as possible to Jamie, Ally and Berk. Quite frankly I know I am terrible at things like finding the idol and I would much rather have one of my allies with an idol than an enemy. So yes I was very forthcoming with Rishiri island info because

-it builds trust -it allows myself or one of my allies to get an idol

Today Berk offered me a final 2 which I gladly accepted because who denies a final 2? I am a little weary at how early he offered it to me after meeting him and I am sure I am not the only one he has offered this to. But honestly he reminds me so much of myself and how I play this game that I want to work with him. I do know though that Jamie threw my name out to him and he hasn't told me yet which shows we aren't truly at a full trusting point yet. But to be fair if I was in his position I wouldn't tell me either. Where I am going with this is that I want to work with Berk down the line, but the way the tribe dynamics are right now it's really hard for both of us to be completely honest with each other. It will be interesting to see where this game relationship between us heads, are we going to end up as enemies or a tight duo?

I have been talking to Jamie a lot, she always proves herself to be a strong ally, I really like working with her and respect her game. She could definitely be a pain later down the road but that's just me thinking way too far ahead. She is definitely someone I am loyal to at this point in the game.

Ally and myself talked some strategy today, she threw out the idea that there could be an old school alliance, and honestly this does make sense. I trust her opinion because I have no fucking clue about any out of game relationships whereas she does. Her and I are still super tight which is great, I really trust her and we make a pretty good duo. Although I definitely feel like I have moved down a spot ever since Jared came into the picture. Her and Jared are tight and that will definitely have to be split up sometime in the game.

Jared and I have talked more now and I actually really like him. But I feel like I have his game pegged, he seems to be a strong UTR player who is a snake in the grass. I can see him going deep into the game.

Uli is still my target on this tribe should we go to tribal council, if there is an old school alliance he definitely has connections to it and those need to be severed. He is shifty and it definitely worries me that he has been to rishiri island because idols are a thing.

Going forward I wanna keep building trust and hopefully this tribe can pull out some more immunity wins.

"						""makeinu"

- It's a new day, I'm feeling great. Getting more comfortable with my position on the tribe, and if I'm right about this, the plan right now is for Brett to go first. After that it becomes murky, with Jamie sitting in the middle of Ally/Jared and Uli/Berk.

The problem here, is that I'm not confident in a situation where I have to flip Jamie. I think every one in this game has been playing so passive, and I get it because I'm afraid of getting embarrassed and blindsided in the premerge too. But this isn't a time to be passive, atleast if we lose it won't be. I'm not going to sit around and hope we don't go to tribals, it's time to pick my game up and start planning for my future.

New Plan: After the immunity challenge (once we lose) I bring in Brett to create a voting bloc with Uli. At that point, it's Jamie's choice to vote Ally with us or risk going to rocks. I don't know how tight she is with Jared and Ally, but this is a great way to find out.

It could blow up in my face but Brett's worth keeping around, he's a solid dude and he wants to work with me. Offered me final 2 today (which is obviously bullshit but it's worth something). This is about surrounding myself with people that have my back. Ash and Alexa I have, maybe Uli too. And if I can save Brett, that's one more vote I have once the merge hits.

I'm ready for this first tribal whenever it comes, bring it.

"						"riza"

- I hate my personal standards. It makes me stay up late doing bullshit trivia on this bullshit challenge because I genuinely think that no one is going to do as thorough a job as I could. This is the problem of a perfectionist. We hold ourselves to super high standards and are let down when we watch other people fail to measure up to these standards. Whoops, I'm an asshole. "riza"

- You know what's kinda depressing? I'm pretty much almost irrelevant right now. By now, in any other game I would either have total control or a huge target on my back, but this is the first time that I've actually had some chill. It's weird as fuck. "riza"

- Thank you Chris, and Alex for being the only fucking assholes to actually try in this challenge. On that note, fuck you Sora and Emile. "riza"

- I feel like a double tribal is coming this round and I'm scared!!!!!!! "hizoku"

- You know, there might be a reason that Jamie and Jared never reply to me. "riza"

- So Chris is telling me to work on talking to Emile more and c/p's a message Emile said about me before like yesterday, and it didn't stick out to me at first then but I'm looking at it again now and I'm noticing that Emiles full is in it despite being a copy and paste. Now Chris is grammatically correct but he's not going to label a message with someone's full first and last name on here, especially if we're currently talking about them, so due to a technical mistake that means it's from a group message. And why is Emile talking about me in a group message? Because it's probably an alliance chat. I know Chris Claire probably have Emile but the question is whether or not Ash or Alex is in it. If Chris is really this stupid to make an alliance with Ash or Alex when they're clearly going to be apart of that other future alliance over me, who's all alone then there's no hope for these people. I wanna say it's probably those 3 and like Ash since he keeps saying he wants Alex gone first. I don't know if they'd really target me over either of them, but the fact that I LITERALLY came on to this tribe running with literally no one and they make one without me and don't tell me about it is honestly shady as fuck. I don't trust Chris like at all, but I really really did want to put all my trust in Claire and if she's not gonna say anything then it's just like byeeeeee, the spirit of Christine is not being passed onto you. If this is all just paranoia talking then whatever, I can't really do anything about it right now anyway but I'll remember it for sure if I'm right about this. "riza"

- AND SO TRUE COLORS START TO SHOW ""makeinu"

- Well I tried to get Brett on board by telling him that Jared and Jamie are planning on voting him out, and yet I'm left feeling like he's the one using me. Now I understand the feeling people got in New Zealand when I'd feed them outrageous lies like Brett just did now.

He replied with ""I already know that"" and then gave me some big theory that he heard from Ally. The (stupid) idea is that there's some crazy Old School alliance including Miguel, Hunter, Uli, Ash, and Charlie. He thinks Alexa and Jesse have been brought in, and possibly Alex as well. He says that we should stick together with Jamie, Jared, and Ally, try to pick up everyone in the middle once the merge hits. Says that he (and everyone else) has been concerned about my relationship with Uli and that's why I'm not in the loop.

Now, I'm pretty sure this is 100% bullshit. Like, I don't know how much Brett is lying about and how much he's just confused with, but there's just no way that there's some hidden alliance spanning every tribe. I was with Uli and Ash, I know they don't have some secret deal. I'm naturally a paranoid dude but that would be pretty fucking nuts.

Now I just need to figure out what Brett's angle is here. He's acting like he wants to go to the end with me, but he's also acting protective over Jamie, Jared and Ally. Reassuring me that Jamie trusts me and that her and us can be a threesome if we go to multiple tribals. Yeah, sure.

Here's what I think is happening. Jamie and Jared instantly flipped and made a 4-2 majority with the Underdogs. They're still feeding me this bullshit about voting out Brett to keep me quiet. There may or may not be concern about an old school alliance, so the target is on Uli first because they think they can control me better. Brett's getting out ahead of the curve and trying to pick me up as a potential ally if I make it out of the swap. He's trying to make sure I'm a quiet number for him if he needs it.

Fine. I'll be your fucking goat, Brett. You can drag me through this tribe and we can act like half of the contestants have a supersecret pre-game alliance. I'm not going to tell you that Ash is certainly with me once we make the merge, or that Alexa's my biggest ally. If I have to throw Uli under the bus here then that's what I'm going to do.

I've never been in trouble in the premerge before and I got put in a real bad spot by this swap. This isn't where I wanted to be, but I will get out of this godforsaken tribe and once I do, Jared, Jamie, Ally, Brett and whoever else won't have me in this position again.

TLDR: Tried to warn Brett that he's in trouble but it turns out it's 4-2 against Uli and I. He fed me some bullshit about how I need to vote Uli out because he's part of some huge alliance.

"						"riza"

- Ash just shows the cards she had and who she's really with so now I gotta start playing double agent and I gotta say I like my role "riza"

- So like.. What the fuck. You guys did nothing and suddenly you decide that let's take Ally to Rishiri. What the fucking fuck are you fucktards thinking. I smell a premade ""riza"

- Oh my GOD. I have NEVER in my life played with someone who was SO transparent in who they want to work with, who their alliances are, who they want to target, and what exactly they want to happen for THEIR game. I mean, who the hell does she think she is???? She is NOT a mother teresa, and I don't even know if that comparison makes sense but I just wanted to compare her to a powerful influential figure in history. I was literally like having a panic attack mixed with laughing uncontrollably during the decision on who we had to send to Rishiri all because of Ash. She made it so obvious that she wanted to work with Charley and probably already has an alliance with Matt being that she pushed for them to go to rishiri so fucking badly, which in turn means she is gonna work with hunter because charley/hunter are so fucking close outside of this game, and based on all of this shit it seems like there's a divide in this game.

The divide is like an old school/new school divide and some of the new school people like matt seem to be attaching themselves to the old school people just based on ash alone, which is WHY I was fucking freaking out when charley/matt almost got sent, but luckily I've had conversations with Claire and Sora about all this shit and they all seem to agree, and ash doing all of this just proved it even more and Emile was filled in on it as well and can see it for himself about all of this, and we all got it to work out to where alexa and ally were sent. We wanted Jared to be sent, but Ash fucking BLEW up over Jamie and Jared so it had to be switched to Ally as the second best option.

The only other thing that happened was how I filled Emile in on the hunter thing and how he has been making video confessionals and how he uploaded them to youtube as public, and I saved all of them by downloading them and taking a pic of one of the videos to prove the audio matches a video. Unfortunately hunter changed his videos to private so I won't be seeing anymore, but the ammo I have on him saying he thinks claire/i are sneaky and how he says he wants to work with ash so badly is gonna be enough for me and was enough to help convince emile of all of this, and claire, and sora.

I hate that I'm playing, I want to lay low, unfortunately laying low is not the proper strategy when it's a matter of hunter/charley potentially getting 2 idols being that I think Hunter has the riza idol as the sam mccanada spot is gone and sora said that's where he got his idol, so yeah I didn't want charley getting an idol as well as hunter and i didnt want matt potentially getting one either, so I couldn't rly lay low and go along with it in this case!

"						"riza"

- https://instagram.com/p/BMZFcw0D5zL/ this is actual video footage of ash and alex failing to send their people to the island "riza"

- I feel like I should come along here to say, that I still generally have no idea what I am doing on this tribe lmao, I guess I have grown some sort of trust to Chris for being honest with me about the events on Rishiri Island, but other than that I am very unsure. At this rate the only thing I know, is that my vote would probably fall towards Emile or Claire if we lost

Day 14
"riza"

- I see you, Chris who went to bed two hours ago. "hizoku"

- Now that Emma's gone I feel like I'm back to a place where I am free to be comfortable and secure on this tribe. this immunity challenge is a hard one that I think Hizoku really needs to win but not many people contribute all that much effort into the challenges so I feel as if theres no reason for myself to either. With only one tribe winning, Riza will win anyways because they consist of mostly psychos, specifically Ash. Alexa has informed me everything about how crazy Ash is and I'm excited to get her and Ally both out. I feel like this season for me isn't even about like "I want to vote these people out so that I'll survive and make it to the end!" its more of "I want these people out bc they're fucking annoying and bc I want to be better than them" I've been accepted into 2/2 seasons that I've applied for, I've won a season before with 0 votes against me, and I'm actually a social person outside of Facebook.com so compared to some of the contestants on this who act like they're badass I'm already better than them in minimal detail. This entire Confessional makes me sound cocky but I'm just sick of people who treat this season as if its their lives by dedicating 24 hours a day to it, especially when they threaten to target me without even talking to me (Ash), and like, they're going to lose anyways so if this is a source to someones happiness I hope they know it'll only temporary lmao "riza"

- ALEXA PLEASE OH MY LORD MY SIDES HURT THAT WAS SO SAD "riza"

- WTF IS THIS SHIT WHY DID HUNTER AND ALLY PUT ME AT THE BOTTOM OF THEIR LISTS FOR WHO THEY LEAST WANT TO SEE WIN THE GAME, YET THE REST OF THEIR LISTS WERE ALPHABETICAL???? EXCUSE ME........ ""makeinu"

- After talking with Jamie, I figured out the tribe. There's probably no 4 person alliance set between Brett, Ally, Jared and Jamie, but for all intents and purposes, that's what this is. Jared and Ally at the core, Jamie and Brett are hanging on. It was right there as soon as the tribe was made, Uli and I never had a fucking chance. When he made the f2 deal with me and tried to scare me with the old school alliance, Brett was trying to get me to vote out Uli. Once Uli's gone, Brett's safe at the next tribal because Ally is going to protect him, just like Jared is going to protect Jamie. I'm the odd man out Brett and Jamie can tell me they'd be willing to flip all they want but it's bull shit and I know it. It wouldn't be smart for them to vote out their main ally for me. Even though I know this, there's no way to save Uli. He's done once we lose this challenge, his only saving grace would be to throw me under the bus, which means I can't tell him he's fucked. I feel horrible, because I love Uli. He's a good guy and he's a legend in the community. Now, my only play is to turn Jamie and Jared on Brett. I would love to merge with Brett because he does want to align with me, but he's the only possible target after Uli's gone. I have to tell Jared and Jamie every thing that he told me. Even worse I'll have to embellish. But that's not until after Uli's gone. Right now I'm focused on my last chance, Rishiri. I finally got a trip, through pretty random circumstances, and I know my chances are slim but I need this terribly. If I can get a vote block or a double vote or god willing, an idol, I could possibly save Uli. I'm going to put it all into this one, this could be my ticket out of this shitty, shitty tribe. I really hope it is.

"						"riza"

- I did that so it would have less of a target on my back and I think I can use that to my advantage "hizoku"

- can I be put on a team with Emile and Alex in the next swap? Wouldn't help me a lick strategically, but I think those two are the only two who can balance out how awful I am at challenges and lead to me being on a normal tribe instead of a losing one. "riza"

- I FUCKING HATE THIS TRIBE AND WILL LEGIT NEVER FORGIVE ANY OF THEM IF ANYONE BUT MATT OR ULI IS VOTED OFF ON MAKEINU "makeinu"

- I hate this game. "makeinu"

- A few days ago I was feeling super confident with where I stood but that definitely has changed. Matt completely blew up my game for what reason I don't even know, like it should've at least been Jamie like I lowkey wanted him to stay over Uli. But now I have to fight to make sure the Underdogs still want to work with me and make Uli believe I'm still down for the remaining rebels to stick together. I just hope the possibility of him having the idol takes me out. "riza"

- On one side, MATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤. On the other, poor, poor Uli. Also, fuck you Adam and Gerda, because I just fucking beat my placement.

Day 15
""riza"

- Soo we won immunity, and apparently Ally was telling Sora during the hangman thing that we had to throw immunity for them, and Sora was basically begging me in pms to throw it to save her, which is not something I'd ever consider doing and if anything you're only telling me where your loyalties are at moving forward! Matt mutineed as well which is something we expected also from Ally telling Sora, and I'm definitely a bit concerned about it but I don't think I would be the one to get targeted first if we were to lose. I think I've established enough connections so far and built relationships with people where people want to work with me, so I cannot see myself getting voted out first if this tribe were to lose again.

Unfortunately though it appears there could be a swap being that we'll be at 15 people left and it can be an opportune time to swap us into 3 tribes of 5, which scares me because I have no powers or anything to keep myself safe besides my mouth, and it'd be devastating to be swap fucked right before a merge might come. I want to be in this for the long haul, I refuse to be voted out this early on, so I'm kinda hoping we we don't swap and I can stay safe for at least one more round.

"						"riza"

- Sometimes I wonder if Uli is just innocent and naive, or if Matt and I have been crazy this entire time. Like, it makes sense for Jamie and Jared to flip on us, right? "hizoku"

- Losing immunity isn't a big shock compared to the fuckers on Riza who probably have their computers melted into their legs rn after being way too over the top w the challenge. Now that Alexa got kidnapped or whatever I dont feel that much different on Hizoku for this tribal. Theres an alliance of Charley/Hunter/I and another of Miguel/Hunter/I and I feel like its really between Charley and Miguel. Although he believes my loyalty lies with him, I believe I'm voting out Miguel tonight due to his level of gameplay and because compared to Charley, I see her as a better ally down the line. Also there have been 5 girls voted off in a row, and I've been involved in 2/5 of those and I'm not about to say that I was apart of half of them, so voting off Charley would literally turn me into a meninist which I'm not about to do, so sorry Miguel "hizoku"

- FLKJJLJKLS THIS GAME IS WILD... SO I DECIDED TO BE BALLSY and do the right thing and exposed Ash for cheating. LITERALLY THO... I repaired everything with Jamie/Jared and now we're an actual trio ready to get our revenge on Ash for all the shit she's done. I obviously won't be loyal forever but I went from being totally fucked to being in a much better position. This game FLIPPED and I love it. ""riza"

- Chris Blue hi matt!! just thought i'd say hello and introduce myself

Matt Berk PSH Like I don't know who Chris Blue is I'm fucking star struck dude

I'm not entirely sure why Matt believes I have this gigantic ego and the best way to get in my good graces is to feed it, but it's nice to play up to it I guess and let him think it's working???

"						"riza"

- Well shits running smoothly ish, an update since the challenge started is, well for starters we won so thats that. During the challenge midway through I got to a portion with Ally where the two of us were in a different chat playing hangman and could communicate and she was basically poltergeisting me through her phrase guesses and telling me about how her target is mutinying and how the other one has an idol or something so I immediately freak out and try and get us to throw the challenge. But Chris and Claire were sooo against that and actually threatened to vote me off? These people don't seem to quite GET the situation we're heading in. But regardless we won and Matt of all people mutinies over and starts saying how horrible his old tribe was and how cruel they were to him 😢, cause you know, you weren't planning on getting rid of Jared and Jamie on your old tribe so how dare they feel as though they shouldn't play with you. Matt gives me such bad vibes and is really smug in my opinion, and he reminds me of a used car dealer so I don't trust him either. But ya he got pissed Jamie and Jared escaped his wrath on the rebels and were planning on voting him out, when he wanted them out himself originally so I don't like his thinking in this game that he's just auto allowed to do whatever he wants cause hes Matt, but oh well at least he bought Ash and Alex more time in this game. My worst nightmare would be to see tribal results and not see Charley and Uli go, Charley like betrayed me and made no effort to fix it so that's that on her, and Uli is the only one on that other tribe I don't see myself working with ever so I need him gone, after that we can just throw challenge's and get rid of Matt Alex and Ash ourselves. Pleeeaaaassseee survivor gods, help me out here ive been a good person. So until then I guess I'm gonna have to have a talk w mr Matt and see where his heads at game wise. ""makeinu"

- The past 24 hours has been lit.

Berk is probably the most paranoid person in this game; he is a complete mess and would have been voted out tonight had he not mutinied to the other tribe. I can still see myself possibly using him as a parachute ally down the road but for now he’s not the level headed person I initially thought he was.

The vote tonight initially seemed like it was going to be a clusterfuck due to Uli possibly having an idol but through hard gaming the majority four (ally, Jared, Jamie, myself) have been able to convince Uli that Jamie and myself will be voting Ally with him. I still think there is potential for an idol to be played but I don’t think my name is coming up tonight so I should be safe.

Having Alexa come to our tribe was a nice change as it’s another connection I get to make in the game which will carry favour come merge or swap.

All that being said, I think I should come out of the vote safe tomorrow but then again you never know, things seem pretty shifty around camp so I am keeping my eyes and ears open for anything.

"						"riza"

- Another person to join my tribe that's a bigger target then me? By all means come along send Jamie too while you're at it! "riza"

- So like, Alex basically just lost all my trust for trying to fuck over Matt. Bad move, kiddo. ""riza"

- So Matt invides the tribe after we slayed the challenge and he mutinied over here and basically confirmed the Hizoku split on the other tribe, but what the fuck, he is a HUGE MESS... based on what I heard at least... I'm so annoyed that we are a 7 person tribe now, 6 was nice and a 7th person was just not necessary, it brings so many disadvantages with it, especially when it was all nice and calm and everyone was just chilling and as Matt came, shit hit the fan and people are paranoid about rumors that are being spread and shit that Matt supposedly said and is trying to do and I am just like.. girl wtf... lmao... I sincerely hope that this is not foreshadowing to a fucking terrible first tribal, if we have to go...

"						""riza"

- It worked! I found the mutiny option, and I took the risk of swapping to Riza. I had fun with it and made my big speech to my tribe, in hopes of saving Uli: ""Ahem…Hi guys. So I’m going to come clean and say that I was the one who took the advantage yesterday. I didn’t realize it was going to subtract points because I didn’t read it all the way, so I’m sorry if that hurt our chances or sketched anyone out. The advantage was a trip to Rishiri, and I just finished it. By some chance, I got the option to Mutiny. I think you know where this is going, but I’ll spell it out. I know, from 3 of you, that it’s going to be Uli going home tonight. I’m fine with that, I didn’t come to this tribe looking to pick off the Underdogs at all, I wanted to stay close to the people that I trust most, which have been Jamie and somewhat Jared. At some point, it became obvious that there’s a 4 person alliance here, and I’m not in it; Jared and Ally are really close, Jared protects Jamie and Ally protects Brett. I’m not criticizing it, but you’re planning on voting me out as soon as we lose again, and I while I could scramble like an idiot, it’s not worth the risk. I’m going to leave for Riza, and I hope that you guys understand why I’m doing this. I don’t know any one on that tribe (nor do I know anyone in the game) except for fucking Ash, so this isn’t about me flipping. I have no plans on any voting bloc, or targeting any of you. This is self preservation. I’ll leave with these words directed towards the two people I’ve really connected with since the swap…there are two people running this tribe, we all know it. Once you’ve gotten rid of Uli, Jared is going to push for Brett to go and Ally is going to push for Jamie. It’s already started, and they’re going to decide between one of you. We’ve got atleast 2 more challenges before the merge, and if we lose you have a 50% chance of going home. I’m not going to tell either of you what to do, but you need to make the merge. This is fucking All-Stars, and if you go home because you were too afraid to take your fate into your own hands you’re never going to forgive yourself. I love you guys and I’ll see you at the merge, stay safe. I'm here until the end of the challenge if you have any questions."" Did it work? Who knows. I alienated Ally and Jared, so if they both make the merge I'm in a terrible spot. All I can do now is hope that this made sense to Jamie and Brett, that I can scramble the tribe and get my allies to the merge. Riza is interesting. In the process of squeeeeezing myself into the majority alliance. It's 4-2, Alex and Sora on the outs. I'm going to need to get dragged by Ash for now, and that's okay. I'm safe. I can breath again, but I still can't stop myself from worrying. Please make it through this tribal, Uli.

"						"riza"

- Alex is a fucking mess, both Sora and I talked to Alex about how Matt was fishing for info and trying to indirectly throw Alex under the bus, and then he immediately runs to Ash and then Ash comes to me and immediately throws Alex and Sora under the bus to me and it's like he has absolutely no fucking clue what he is doing, and I'm certainly not going to go tell him he's fucked up for him to run back to Ash and blow up my spot, absolutely not. Alex unfortunately is digging himself a grave with how fast and how willing he is to give up information, and he doesn't even know it! "hizoku"

- : Losing immunity isn't a big shock compared to the fuckers on Riza who probably have their computers melted into their legs rn after being way too over the top w the challenge. Now that Alexa got kidnapped or whatever I dont feel that much different on Hizoku for this tribal. Theres an alliance of Charley/Hunter/I and another of Miguel/Hunter/I and I feel like its really between Charley and Miguel. Although he believes my loyalty lies with him, I believe I'm voting out Miguel tonight due to his level of gameplay and because compared to Charley, I see her as a better ally down the line. Also there have been 5 girls voted off in a row, and I've been involved in 2/5 of those and I'm not about to say that I was apart of half of them, so voting off Charley would literally turn me into a meninist which I'm not about to do, so sorry Miguel ""makeinu"

- Um so I haven’t done a confessional in AGES but so much has happened! Me, Brett, Ally and Jared formed an alliance were obviously going to vote out Matt — he’s a strategic threat and NEEDS to go. Obviously now though, we’re left with little choice. I could either vote out Uli or Ally; Ally I think is targeting me, but Uli would be a vote for the other side (the Ash/Matt side) and that needs to go. I think I did a pretty good job of convincing him that he’s staying though (maybe lol?) so if he has an idol or something, he won’t play it. And I’ve set it up where if he does play an idol, Ally will go! Win win situation I guess (unless it backfires). Also, Alexa was kidnapped and came to our tribe which I was SO upset about, but I’m actually really happy she came. We kinda formed an alliance with the objective of getting Ash out, and I was skeptical at first about it but she REPORTED Ash for cross-tribal talking so she has my loyalty and trust. What a turnaround lol? Foe becoming friend! But yeah, unfortunately I had to lie to her and say Ally was going because I wanted her to tell Uli that he was safe. I was talking to Jared about this though and trying to come up with a valid lie that she’d accept as to why we voted off Uli, but I decided that I’d tell her myself (without Jared’s permission) and say that Jared was still a little skeptical and wary of her, but that we were deciding between Ally and Uli and nothing was set in stone yet. I also told her that I was telling her this bc I fully trusted her due to the Ash thing, which isn’t true — I was telling her that so that if we swap and I’m with her, she won’t feel betrayed. Also I said it so she feels more loyalty to me over Jared. CAN WE ALSO TALK ABOUT HOW MUCH ASH SUCKS? She was SO bitchy about me to Alexa. I legit can’t wait till the day she’s voted off, because let’s be clear, even if I lose, Ash is NOT winning. Neither is Matt now, Alexa said she’d go back to her tribe and get them against Matt/Ash, and if she’s telling the truth then Matt/Ash will be eliminated very soon. Me and Alexa also unearthed all the shady shit Matt/Ash were doing on Rebels. They had a 3 person alliance with me, one with Uli and one with Alexa. Moreover, our three person alliance was FAKE, as I suspected. And then Matt has the AUDACITY to tell me that he’s being ‘real’ with me and loyal to me? I wish he didn’t mutiny so I could vote him off. So yeah, Matt and Ash? THEY’RE ON MY HITLIST. I apologise to any stuff I said about Alexa in my previous confs too, she's an icon.

"						"makeinu"

- I fucking love working with Jamie Franzel, she's so much fun to talk strategy with, I have a strategy boner for her "makeinu"

- So I've sent my vote for Uli and I'm really scared rn?? I'm SOOO close to not only beating my Generations placement, but also 100 days. I need to get to Day 24 to have played 100 days and I need to survive this TC and then the one after to have beaten 15th. I HATE GOING TO TC OMG, I get so scared. "hizoku"

- I really solidified a strong relationship with Jamie and I'm really proud of myself for turning complete hatred into complete trust. AJDKJK I'm super excited to keep the control of in my grasp, taking it all one day at a time. I completely obliterated Ash's game and gained some new allies in the process. Can't wait to be the rainstorm that puts out Ash's torch! ""hizoku"

- So I lost. Again. Which honestly is just how I am used to playing now. Like honestly, it would feel weird to not go to tribal every round. Because that's just how things are going for me. I'm cursed/horrible at challenges, but guess what? I'm not the flop queen. Because 22 pre merge tribals and I survive most of them, DESPITE being weak. So ha. But no really I am a flop queen, and I DON'T WANT TO LOSE. I mean as iconic as it is to keep going to tribals and surviving, and I think if we went again I'd be fine because Hunter and Alexa are a couple of star bellied sneeches, I don't like lying to people. And that's what I do all the time now. I make friends, and then screw them over. This round it is easier because I know Miguel has been throwing my name out there. The thing is, I'm not insane and I understand that he's gotta do what he's gotta do. I won't go all Alietta and Jessy on this (love them but my GOD they get pissed at people who target them) so yeah. I'd be a lot more comfortable with Alexa here because I do trust her a lot, and I also trust Hunter a lot a lot he's my number 1 alliance right now. (More than Alex and Sora the Sirens.... They're on other tribes first of all, and second of all after the bs pulled in our last tribal together I'm not with that. So it's me, Hunter, and Alexa. And I want to actually go to the end this time. Flop queen and all.

"						"makeinu"

- When I got my ass to Rishiri Island, I ran back to where I first went. I went through textbooks, wiki pages, libraries, encylopedia, and my last answers to make sure I could snatch whatever the fuck Rhi was holding. Long story short, she gave me an idol! I guess five years of friendship works out huh! Anyways, let's hope I don't need to play it this tribal because after this, I'm going to be one powerful ass player!