Board Thread:Season 47 - Heroes vs. Villains II/@comment-28431903-20180612100413/@comment-26864283-20180613173819

Heyyyyyy bitch!!!! I just want to start this off by saying thank you so much for all the kind things you said about me in your speech. I was snatched by quite a few people tonight and yours was by far the nicest one and I really do appreciate it more than you may think. I’m forever thankful I did this season because I too feel as though we got extremely close because of this game. I think we’ll be friends for a long time after this is all done, so I’m very glad this brought us together. Now let’s get the fuck to business!

So, I know you stated in your speech that your vote right now is leaning towards Maya. I remember at a point in the game, where me and you wanted to bring Maya to the final 3 because we felt as though we’d both be able to beat her. You said how she hasn’t really made that big move that solidified her win and that she’d need to make it in order to get a win. From my perspective, I do not see how Maya made this move where she should get your vote. We’re not here to talk about Maya though, I just wanted to remind you of this. I hope that all I say here can persuade you to vote for me to win since I feel like I should receive your vote, and you did state you wanted to vote for me “SO BADLY”. So, let’s hop into your speech and questions!

1. Why did you decide F6 was approx. the time Sora needed to go? You’re totally correct, I do know that letting Sora get to the end was a “RIDICULOUS error on my part”. The reason why I thought taking Sora out at final 6 would be best because Sora had connections everywhere. When you think about “the premade alliance” group, that kept getting called out since the very beginning of the game. The only common factor all those people had, was Sora. I never spoke to Claire a day in my life, and I knew Rob and Evan never spoke to each other either. So, it seems as though Sora was the common connection between all of us which is why we got grouped together. The way I saw it, everyone was aligned with Sora, especially the people that were in that specific group (Rob, Sora and Claire). I know for a fact Rob and Evan both knew about Sora’s idol, as did I, but I’m not sure if Claire did or not. Sora not only had connections with that group, but he also had connections with others outside of it too like Declan, Maya and Lexi. I knew that none of these people would be willing to turn on Sora. Declan made it very clear to me that he would not vote Sora out for whatever reason. This showed to me that Sora had eyes AND ears everywhere at all times, watching and listening for his name. The only person I know would definitely vote for him was Audrey. This is why she was apart of my plan to get him out, and is the only person who knew of the plan at all. Now, to get to your question of why I believe final 6 was the perfect time to take him out. Yes, it was late in the game, BUT at that point, most of the people who would not vote for him would be gone. Claire, Rob and Evan would all be on jury. That would just leave me and Audrey, yes, but none of the others were willing to vote for him. At final 6, I knew that Declan, Maya and Sora all wanted Lexi out. Sora knew I had the idol and I knew he had his, so he wouldn’t of expected an idol play by Lexi. My plan was to have everyone throw votes on Lexi and than I would of idol’d her, meaning only mine and Audrey’s votes would have counted and he would of left 0-2-1. It was very calculated and the reason I said final 6 was the perfect time, was because I knew the Sora stans would half be gone by that time. Sure, I might have been wrong that some of them wouldn’t vote him out. But, I know for a FACT Declan would not have, Evan would not have, Claire most likely wouldn’t have either. Rob might of been open about it, but I was not sure and he would of been gone by that time anyways. So, to sum this all up, Sora had numbers up until final 6 so I couldn’t strike before that. I never wanted Sora at final tribal council I knew he would beat me, I just never could find the right timing opportunity to get rid of him before the final 6.

2. Did you think about the fact that this situation that you're in rn, with Sora sitting next to you, was very likely if he was left in the game until F6? Yes, I absolutely did know that Sora sitting next to me in the end would be a possibility. I did not WANT him here, but he is here and now I need to deal with that looking bad for me. However, the way I see how Sora played, I don’t think he deserves the win. Yes, he has a lot of stats to back up his gameplay, but what did he actually do? I’m the one sitting here with the MOST blood on my hands. Now, if you think back to our conversations, who did I always say I wanted to be this season? Of course miss Vanessa Rousso! The way I see Sora played this game was the same exact way Paul played during BB18. Sora was “running the game”, and everyone knew this, yet no one took a shot at him. Why? Because Sora/Paul both had their army that looked out for them. Not only does Sora claim to have been the mastermind of the season, similar to Paul, but Sora also voted in minority just like Paul did so he can look good to the jury. Acting like you don’t know what’s going on, but yet claiming to be “the mastermind”, is just wrong. Sora didn’t OWN his game the way I did. To be honest, as much as I despise Josh from BB18, I see many parallels to my game and his. We both were aware of what Paul/Sora was doing and wanted him out, but could never find the right moment to strike. Josh was also targeted the ENTIRE game from the very beginning, just like I was. Towards the end of the game too, Sora started getting cocky, just like Paul. The more towards the end of the game we got, the more I noticed a difference in his attitude. From the responses I’ve even read, which haven’t been many, but it seems like he is acting entitled. He thinks he should win because he knew what was happening, yet did not have the balls to make the moves, so he used me is his main argument. The way I see it, was they were my moves because Sora did not influence them. Sora did not want Evan gone or Rob or Claire, I did. I made them happen without his vote. So, despite him knowing what was happening, he still voted in minority just because all he was thinking about was being the nice guy to everyone on the jury. Sure, my jury management could have been better since I figured, but I came into this knowing people were going to be mad at me. So to answer your question, YES, I did think A LOT about what would happen if Sora was in the end with me. I did NOT want Sora in the end with me, but it happened. I even made multiple VLs and confessionals about how I felt like the Josh to his Paul so enjoy this shitty picture I made!!

'3. Do you think in your pursuit of eliminating your pre game friends, that you may have lost sight of creating your own narrative to win this game?' Or are you relying on this narrative that was created (you becoming the biggest villain and knifing your friends to prove your individuality) to lead to you victory? I can see why people would think that my narrative was lost this season. I however, don’t think it was. My narrative this season was about me being the villain correct, it just so happens that I had to knife all my friends. That was never what I was planning on doing coming into the season, it just so happened that it did. As you of all people know, I never planned on being loyal to any of them and it was mainly because of the target they were putting on my back. From day ONE I was called out for having all these “pre-game relationships”, which was true, but I was never planning on even using them. So, this made me have to shift gears and go into offense mode when it came to them. I was always in your ear about wanting them out. So, I think my narrative this season isn’t something I can really say in one or two sentences. My narrative was always changing because the game is always changing. Sure, I came in here saying I wanted to BE the villain, but I had to become the villain in order to keep myself alive. I don’t think knifing my friends was the only thing that I did to contribute to my narrative. I had two idols plays, both of which did not effect my friends leaving and I had a hand in pretty much every single elimination, despite people always wanting me out. So, I played numerous roles this season from the underdog to the top dog. It’s hard to classify myself as one, but that’s just the way I see it.

I just want to end this by saying thank you yet again. I’m beyond grateful to have been your ride or die throughout this season, I wouldn’t of traded it for anyone else. I was really expecting you to be one of the few people who’s votes I would have coming into FTC, but your speech says otherwise so I hope this helps persuade you to vote me. If you need clarification on ANYTHING you can ask, but I believe I covered more than enough. Regardless of if you vote me to win or not, it won’t effect how I think of you and you’ll definitely still be my bestie.