I'm No Chatty Cathy/Confessionals

Day 9
"hwadze"

- Ok now that gloria is gone, hals better share whever she gets from the thing. i could have pushed for kiley to go with vincent but i want a price wooo.... love hals.

"zambezi"

- Zambezi ended up winning the last immunity challenge by the grace of God himself cause lord knows I was struggling with that challenge. Giraffes? Cute. That challenge? Not so much. Glad that’s over, but sadly it came at the cost of Gloria who I was actually excited to play with! Her wild personality matched our surroundings which I found perfect haha. She will be missed </3

"zambezi"

- So you know how I said I had an alliance with everyone on my tribe except for Becky? Well, she felt the need to approach me for an alliance with herself, Jake, Dan, possibly Ben, and myself. While I do love that alliance, it puts me in a crappy position because that means I HAVE to backstab someone. I thought my social game would be good but not THIS good… I just hope that my social game can get me out of the mess any tribal council could create.

"zambezi"

- Now that I’m in the eye of the storm, I need to see what would cause a minimal amount of damage. I could maybe exploit the Open Season twist a bit and keep some blood off my hands, but it really just depends how. If The Worst Guys alliance plus Becky and Jake do stick, we could try to target Elizabeth. I know Dovile’s Open Season target is Elizabeth so if she were to go, I could totally use the excuse of “I wanted you to get an advantage in case we swap!” to stay in Dovile’s good graces. On the flip side, if Jake and I stick true to our Gossip Girls alliance, I could try and push Ben’s name out there. I know for a fact that no one has Ben as their Open Season target because the person who had him (Nic) is gone. The excuse of “I didn’t want anyone to get a dangerous advantage” would come up in that scenario. It honestly just depends and I need to talk with Jake soon enough to figure what the hell is going on.

"hwadze"

- If we lose again Kiley is likely going. That would be very boring and predictable. Unfortunately that is also really the only thing that would end well for me so it's what I would have to do 😞. I reeeally want to vote Drew out because I think that he voted me and I get the feeling that he doesn't really like me but he's in my alliance and he is the best at challenges so there is no rational reason to do that and it makes me upset. Once the swap comes the game is going to become like 18 million times more fun and enjoyable (only because I don't really like my tribe rn)

"zambezi"

- yessss! becky trying to start an alliance with myself, ben, augusto, and dan -- the exact group i was wary about forming myself. perfect. do i still have hesitations that my hunter / idol holder is somewhere in that group? of course, but this grouping serves as a mechanism to keep me safe going forward and put myself in a duo with augusto, who is probably the best social player on our tribe. it also allows both sides to pick their targets, and myself/augusto to move accordingly. he has his sights set on ben (even though nic was ben's hunter??), but i don't necessarily like that direction at all.

what i love even more about this group is that i didn't start it, which means i can continue to pose as a confused number for the majority of the pre-merge. i need to walk the fine line with that one though, simply because i don't want to sacrifice a say in the outcome and thus, a say in the direction of my game simply for perceptions.

right now, i am concerned for a tribal council. i imagine we'll swap after this and doing so with a split tribe would not be cute. no matter what augusto and i would do, we'd be leaving two people unhappy to say the least. for me, i'd like to see louise or dovile go, simply because the former is my target/WILL flip on us in a swap, and the latter is the ringleader. i could rope elizabeth back in / keep her in the know, so she's not a concern.

idk it's all about whether we win or not before the swap. if we don't, augusto and i will be in the middle of a MESS and if we do, we'll be able to take a power position in the swap knowing everyone's cards 🙂 it's abt whether or not we can find these bargains.

ps: who is my hunter and why haven't they said a word after eight days. that's not cute at all tbqh. one of ben/augusto/dan had nic and one of them has me. the fact that augusto is still a suspect does make me wary that this could all be a complex set up to send me out, but like, if it is, congrats for playing insanely hard premerge.

also also: i need to calm tf down in challenges. that challenge target on my back isn't cute. i won't be wearing it down the runway no ty.

"hwadze"

- "Wow Drew, how the hell are you finding these amazing contributions to the challenge?? We've tried for hours!" Oh you know, this master internet trick called roughly 30 seconds of using Google. I wouldn't try it at home if it's confusing though. Leave it to the experts I guess???

Day 10
"hwadze"

- When i get to final tribal council and i am quizzed on what i did in the game this is a timestamp to validate that i aimed to have a calm UTR social game from the start! Xx

"zambezi"

- Dovile is doing THAT in this challenge and I’m genuinely happy for her because her being a hero for our tribe would be amazing! Queen of savings ❤

"zambezi"

- Right now, I’m just banking on an immunity win for Zambezi because I need to make sure my social investments aren’t flushed down the drain with a potentially damaging vote. Not only that, but there is for sure idol paranoia here and if people think I have it… I’m done for. Multiple people like Dovile and Becky came to me being like “OMG someone has it” and it’s hard for me to not be like “GIRL, I’M THE ONE WHO HAS IT!”. I haven’t told them I don’t have it cause they aren’t asking me if I do or not so if later on they find out, they can’t accuse me of lying cause I was just withholding the truth 🙂

"zambezi"

- Zambezi ended up losing the challenge and while I’m not too surprised we did, I wish we could’ve won. Can Nic come back so we can vote him out again cause like… I’d much rather do that (no offense to him, he’s awesome). Now everyone is scrambling and trying to get a name to see who goes home and like… I’m no Chatty Cathy sis but best believe I tried to spit out my agenda. In the Gossip Girls alliance chat, Elizabeth suggested we take out Dan. I love both Dan and Ben but Dan is better for my game overall so I suggested we take out Ben due to him potentially having a connection to Jack C from Hwadze. I mean, I didn’t LIE about it per se but I made it seem a lot more urgent than it needed to be so that my alliance would go for Ben. Ben is someone I see not only being a threat in this game, but a potential winner. Not only that, but no one getting an advantage if he leaves keeps less advantages in the game which is better for me overall.

"zambezi"

- From the looks of it, the vote could be 5-3 or 4-4 and it terrifies me because I do feel like I’m in the middle somewhat. Self-voting is frowned upon from what I know, but I’ll sign a deal with the devil if it means I can stay and maintain my social game. Ultimately, I don’t want to pay the price for my actions if I end up choosing a side. As insane as it sounds, self-voting is about self-assurance because I don’t have to put all my cards on the table and put my money on one alliance. I do believe a swap is going to happen next round and if I’m the good graces of everyone like I am right now, my life won’t be on the line. People would probably call me out for my BS after it happens, so I have to seem a bit inactive and unresponsive if I wanna make it believable. My only worry is Jake who would really be screwed over by this because he’d be seen as the sole flip and take the blame which would make him mad at me...

"zambezi"

- I was minding my business, sipping on some nice and warm tea when Jake decides to give me some more! Apparently Ben knows he’s a target which I expected cause people have been quiet. He talked to Elizabeth about it and suggested the vote should be Dovile or Becky. Also, Dovile seems to have reservations about Jake and I from the sounds of it and I’ve lowkey been picking up on that behavior only because she feels the need to remind me she’s loyal all the time. If you’re loyal, you wouldn’t try as hard idk. I love her to death BUT if the vote can somehow be switched to her… I would have no problems with it only because it keeps all my alliances in tact.

"zambezi"

- This plan to send Dovile home is rolling but I am concerned about a few things that I probably won’t voice my opinion on, to others at least, at the current moment. One, Elizabeth has always rallied hard to Ben to stay since like the first vote and this seems to be no different so I wouldn’t be shocked if they were working together. Second, Elizabeth restricted some of the words she said to me even though Jake spilled the beans for her to me so that’s nice. Third, Louise is going to totally be isolated in this vote from the sounds of it and I don’t feel safe with excluding her right before a swap SO I suggested someone vote alongside the two girls so that Louise doesn’t feel isolated. While I do think getting rid of Dovile is good for me, it’s mutually beneficial to Elizabeth who, while I love her, is totally becoming a massive target. If there’s a moment where I can take her out, I really wouldn’t mind.

"zambezi"

- I really am not here for this shit on my tribe they are just so messy, to the point where I WANT TO BE MESSY.

Let’s start with how things have been falling out. Becky told me that Augusto and Jake wanted an alliance and that I was being added as the 4th. Now the issue here is Where’s ben? and it makes me wonder why Augusto wants to make an alliance with me BUT NOT BEN like is he stupid? So I go and tell Ben about this alliance because I feel like it was the right thing to do, because I feel like Ben knows that if he went and told people about what I told him, I’ll go tell people about his target being Augusto, so he would be forced not to tell people, please he will trust me now that I told him this tea and that I’m clearly looking out for him. Elizabeth ONCE AGAIN threw my name out, she threw it out to ben saying I was inactive like sis just becase I don’t talk to u doesn’t mean I’m inactive like I scored the highest last time, not talking to u doesn’t mean I’m inactive .-. she’s irritating me, and that get’s into my main problem as of this moment.

As of this moment I would say Dovile will most likely be going home but tbfh I do not feel like seeing her go because she’s been perfectly active, and tries her best to socialise like English isn’t her first language, she’s told me this a few times and I understand that, plus this girl doesn’t want to take me out as far as I can tell. So why don’t I do something more beneficial for my game and take out Elizabeth? The only problem is, is that if I do against what Augusto and ben want, I derail that alliance and maybe lose a little trust Ben has in me, it will mean that going into a potential tribe swap my game is gonna be VERY much on the rocks. The risk is definitely there, in fact it may be seemingly pointless to save Dovile.

But you know what? It’s just so hard to sit back and Play UDR when I’m CERTAIN that I will be easily picked off anyway, it’s just not worth it on an ONLINE GAME to play like this, I am ready to try tie this vote and keep Dovile in this game if I have to.

In regards to a target I think I could do this 3 different ways: Target Augusto, Jake or Elizabeth and I almost feel like targeting Augusto would be the better move and here’s why: It would mean ben could flip and vote him off to avoid rocks, he’d get an advantage and now that he has a reason to target Augusto, he would have a motive…. God there’s so many holes in this plan but it also would be HILARIOUS to watch augusto just go! Or for Jake or Elizabeth to go cuz they wouldn’t see it coming in the slightest. Of Course this could all backfire and my CRAZY BORED ASS leaves but fuck it at least I did something fun. ‘

Ugh….. as fun as this sounds on paper I know that this is gonna take a lot of work and planning and I’ll have to do damage control as well. We’ll see what happens. 😮 either boring tribal or exciting tribal. ❤

"zambezi"

- Dovile, Louise, Becky and myself vote Augusto.... all ben has to do is vote Augusto on the revote and then he will get a reward based on the Open Season rules. 😮 it gives him the perfect motive to get rid of him. Omg this could be very juicey ❤

"zambezi"

- ALL CAPS BC IM MAD DOVILE ACCUSING ME OF LEAKING OUR GIRLS ALLIANCE TO AGUSTO I AINT DONE SHIT BUT SHES LIKE I KNOW YOU MUST HAVE DONE IT DONT LIE ONLY FOR HER TO TELL ME HE DIDNT EVEN MENTION IT SHE JUST HAD A FEELING HE KNEW IM DEAD

"zambezi"

- so this vote was an excellent strategic testing ground. it is in many ways representative of what people will do to secure an outcome. i planted seeds to go on dovile which grew in augusto and ben’s minds well enough to change the direction from ben to her. then augusto somehow managed to overplay and throw out becky and dan too because why not wild out when we’re already set? so becky and dovile put two and two together and needless to say they rallied the two sides to take augusto out. it’ll be 5-3 i think. i’m down for it tbh since loose links sink ships and my time on kariba shouldn’t be the titanic. but needless to say i have to dissociate myself with augusto asap simply bc i did not expect him to play this hard this fast. but if he has the idol i might also clue him in last minute and watch dovile go because i didn’t do all that work for nothing 👀 it’s all about what is best for my game and if he has the idol which everyone thinks he does. if i have reason to believe amends are amends with dovile and becky, bye augusto but if i have reason to believe they won’t let me detach from him, might as well hop off board. i could force a tie, but that’d force more conversations than what i’d ever want so that’s a no. idk. this is kinda the concise version since i’m short on time but this vote will see either dovile or augusto leave. unless dan wilds out and forces rocks lmfao. it wasn’t the direction i saw it taking, but that’s less because of strategic inaccuracies and more because i did not expect augusto to wild out like this. idk. it’s all dependent on idols.