This Game Really Is A Roller Coaster/Confessionals

Day 31
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- and just like that, alexa is much less of a jury threat

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- Omg i am laughing so hard now 😂😂😂😂😂😂 I talked to Alexa and Jessy that Aro lead me to vote them, please save me, i am loyal to them. I just wanna be safe. I don't have any idea and never think they use idol. And BUMMMMMMMM!!! Alexa used her idol 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 I love this moment. I am safe and Alexa used idol failed 😂😂😂 Alexa is very paranoid. I have a new plan for next tribal 😂😂 she doesn't trust anyone. I think this point can save me another 3 days. I am a good liar 😂😂😂😎😎😎😎

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- I’ve spent the last few hours doing some MAJOR damage control. I had to make sure people bought the lie I was trying to sell, that I had just found the idol a few hours before Tribal and played it due to mere paranoia. Thankfully I told Erin beforehand so she feels as if I have that sort of trust barrier built with her which avoided a betrayal towards her. Jessy and I have been working very closely therefore we have come up with a plan to act as if she feels extremely betrayed by me in order to see if Emile would try to lead the charge on me again in order to know where we stand and what to do with the Amazonas. Luckily I have my advantage *pulls Mark of Restriction out of bag* which allows me to restrict one player from voting at this upcoming Tribal Council. My plan is to restrict TSN from voting so that Emile feels safe enough to keep his super “secret” idol for the Final 5 so that I can pull the trigger on him right here. As usual, I’m already in grave danger of heading home but I’ve been able to use the bonds I’ve built to flip the vote the opposing way and I’m really hoping I can do it once again. Emile is going to seriously regret slandering my name and attempting to get the boys to blindside me, he was always on my bad side but now he’s got a bullseye right on his back. For this next TC it’s either him or me it’s not even a question at this point. If he wins immunity I’ll either target TSN or blindside one of the Amazonas, preferably Erin or Jessy. If these castaways think I’m a goner, they’re surely mistaken. I didn’t come to this game to just roll over and give up, I’m a fighter who has a little surprise in store for them. On a personal note, if you would have asked me before the start of Sichuan that I would make it 31 days I would’ve told you that you were crazy. I never in a million years thought I was capable of getting myself as far as I have, especially on my first ORG. This game has seriously put my skills to the test and I’ve loved every second of it. The blindsides, social prowess, having control, being at the bottom, spending THREE days by myself on FFL, all of it has been amazing for me because it’s part of the wonderful game that is Survivor. I’ve made sure to build a winning resume from the minute I stepped foot on Leshan, I didn’t come out here to play for Runner-Up. I came here to outwit, outplay and outlast! Maybe Vanne should take that into account? I love that her social game is almost nonexistent because it ensures me the win, but as a fan I hate seeing players like her and TSN. Those who come out here and literally do nothing. But hey, who needs nyquil when you have Vanne? Seriously check yourself, you think you’re such a mastermind but all you’ve done is ride coattails.

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- And then there was six! I am so happy and proud that i made it this far...but i want to go further. This game is very difficult. It is made up of 12 sections, kinda like the Zodiac. You got the tribal portion, the first half of the merge, the latter half of the merge, and then the FTC. Each quarter is divided by social/beauty attribute, brawn/physical portion, and the outwit/strategy skill. This gets you 12, and we all have only done six or seven each. I am ready to start making some actual moves. And i wanna do it strong, by first eliminating Jess. She has played a perfect game and its time for her to go, or else she is gonna win. And i came here to win.

Day 32
"kaiming"

- I'm a little annoyed that Alexa wasted her idol. I told her to do what she wants bc she felt nervous, but I didnt want her to play it and told her she was going to be fine. Obviously I'm happy she's here, but the fact that no votes were cast against her and she wasted an idol is definitely not a positive in her game. Will it affect mine? Probably not but I'm still cautious about if that idol could've been the one to keep me in the game if something happens later in this game. At least one thing came out of Alexa's idol play, and that it was a wasted move that shows the jury that I've played better in one aspect and thats using my advantages properly, being as small as the Blossom of Enlightenment. Aromal going is a positive for me, because now I feel like I'm controlling everyone in this game pretty well. I think it's pretty smooth sails from here on out but everything for me has been times where things have been brought up that rewired my schedule, but one thing my schedule does have is me being the Sole Survivor at the end of this, and thats a plan I'm gonna stick to for the rest of this game.

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- Ding dong? Who’s there? Not Aromal because he was sent packing to JURY!! (courtesy of yours truly) For the past few days I’ve been in a dangerous position and I’ve definitely had to rebuild any cracks that were caused in the past few days to ensure that my torch isn’t the next one put out. People are starting to realize that I have a good chance at winning this entire game which is leading them to try and take me out… But what they don’t know is that I’ve had my Leshan idol sitting pretty in my pocket for over 27 days just waiting for the right moment to play it. They think Jake went home with it LMFAO the joke’s on them. Emile tried leading the charge the last vote in getting me targeted and he’s seriously going to regret it. I HAVE to win immunity so that I can solidify my spot in the Final 5 where I can play my idol and automatically advance to the Final 4 and be that much closer to making it to the Final. Emile plans on playing his idol tonight and I’m fully aware of it (thanks to my spy Jessy) and I plan on making it a damn waste. I’m going to use my mask of restriction to take away either TSN/Emile’s vote so that they have little to no chance of having a successful vote unless Erin the flip flopper decides to join them in royally screwing over her entire game. Vanne at this point stands no chance at winning this game which is why I need to make sure I can drag her along to the final. My only concern is that Vanne is such a wildcard who knows who she’d vote for? She could try and blindside Miguel who the hell even knows. She’s been loyal thus far to the girls alliance but she’s craving attention and praise so she’d do anything to be “All-Stars” material, pathetic to say the least. On the same note, TSN is another one who is extremely easy to beat at the end-game but I cannot let two goats advance any further because Emile/The two goats could take a shot at me and my ass could be in serious trouble. Jessy is my closest ally but by far the biggest threat left in this game which is why I plan on pulling the trigger very soon. It was the same case with Jake, we were extremely close but I didn’t come here for a charity, I’m playing to win. Since the beginning of this game I’ve ignored my personal emotions and have basically emerged as cold-hearted snake who’s not afraid to bite. I’ve made sure to butter up all the people heading to jury so that they each leave with a positive image of me and are like… “Damn Alexa’s played a killer game she has to win!” with the exception of Jake because that was pure betrayal on my part. He was coming for me and I couldn’t keep him around any longer. Right before Aromal’s exit I made sure to inform him of the “amazing” game he’s played and how I truly would’ve rooted him to win. The last thing he said to me was “I’m pulling for you, you better take this win home”… wait till he sees my confessionals LMAO. I came here to crush dreams, and fulfill my own.

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- I’ve spent LITERALLY 6 hours attempting to perfect this immunity challenge. I’m not going out without a fight, no fucking way! So I literally just discovered that Emile has a power to automatically go to exile and skip the vote ’m so fucking pissed! Why the hell is someone who’s played 100% challenges being rewarded? He’s literally accomplished nothing except be on a winning tribe the entire pre-merge, that literally requires no strategic or social skills. He’s been telling people how he feels I can win this entire game and that I’m the biggest threat left in the game and also the fact that I see through his entire transparent game. I’m SO done with him and I cannot wait to take him out at the Final 4 since he has an idol, god he literally just wins challenges. Such an underwhelming strategy go back to Borneo! But he’s not the only one with a few tricks up their sleeve, don’t doubt me when I say that I WILL not let him put out my torch. I’ve come way too far to have this end here, one of the FTC seats has my named carved in it with Aromal, Mai, Jake and Priscilla’s blood. I get to nullify somebody’s vote at the next tribal without their knowledge until the votes are read which gives me a major advantage. I might do a fake-out and purposely nullify somebody’s vote and go for the other person’s vote just to cop out an idol. Also Erin’s a fake!! I literally gave her my idol clues (the wrong ones LMAO, whoops) and she hasn’t shared them with me. You could’ve at least given me the wrong clues to save your own ass. Dumb move on your part but it’s not like I’m surprised at all. Also, Vanne tries to act like a mastermind yet she can’t even keep a conversation alive for longer than 2 minutes. On a personal level, I love Jessy so much! She’s my best friend in this entire game and we’re extremely close but on a strategic level I’m getting ready to pull the trigger on her soon. I want her nowhere near the FTC and will need to dispose of her very soon. We’ve spent 32 days together but there’s only ONE winner and it has to be me. It’s not a question, I came here to be Sole Survivor, unlike some people cough Vanne. This game means so much to me, there’s no fucking way I’m letting challenge-bot Emile take me out. If he thinks I’m going to let him take me out, he’s got a big storming! <3

Day 33
"kaiming"

- This tribal is a blessing and a curse. I wanted to blindside Jessy and i need Emile and TSN to be unimmune and here at tribal for it to work. But I am gonna try to adapt. I still got TSN and i could get Erin as well. Im just praying

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- Of course, i won't vote Vanne ! We against each other. But now is the time i want to show my strategy to jury. She is not my target. She is just a goat. So i need to keep her in my side Jessy trusted me, i think so. But she played a very well game. I can't beat her in final I think Alexa has the same think with me. Alexa close to Jessy. But Alexa never win if she go with Jessy However, i am scared that Jessy & Erin has a lot of advantages and I don't know what is it Thank goodness because i am safe 😂😂😂

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- I spent 8 hours on that god damn immunity challenge. And I lost to TSN? Seriously? I’m so fucking pissed right now, like there aren’t words to describe how disappointed I am in myself. I tried so hard to win immunity, to make sure that I would stick around for another day and I lost to someone who can’t even sell water to a fish, he lacks any strategic ability. Now due to Emile’s fucking advantage (which I’ve known about for like 2 days) that he got at FFL, an Amazona is for SURE going home and I know for a fact that I’m going to be a top candidate. I’m hit rock bottom but there’s no way I’m giving up. I’m going to campaign my ass off to ensure my safety, I have a little surprise for the castaways. They know I have an advantage but don’t know that it’s anonymous until after the vote. I’m going to study all of their behaviors and see how each of them change knowing that I lost immunity. Then I’m going to play my vote nullifier on who is most likely to vote for me. I’m so upset with myself I needed that immunity. I was so close yet still not close enough. I’m really fucking mad and I have to use every ounce of self-control I have from going off on someone because I worked my ass off to make sure I would win immunity. LMFAO… wait a second. VANNE MESSAGES ME NOW LMFAO? After being the DRYEST person this entire game, she makes an effort NOW when one of the four Amazonas is for sure going. Your game is almost as bad your manga, get it together. But… I need my little goat so I don’t see myself voting her tonight. It’s between Erin and Jessy for me and Jessy has a power where one of her votes is negated so she’d need a 3-1 vote to go, while Erin could have the new idol. TSN/Vanne approached me to blindside either Jessy/Erin so HOPEFULLY I’m a comfortable position heading into the vote, but I know for a fact my ass is on the chopping block. It’s going to be a LONG 24 hours, wish me luck.

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- Ok. It is important! 5 flowers lake ... 1, show the votes ( jessy played) 2, wasn't counted 1 vote against ( Pris played) 3, immunity ( emile played ) 4, extra vote ( jake had it ) What is the number 5 ? Steal vote ? Ok ! Erin and Jessy went to there a lot of time and they had it If i go with Alexa and Vanne, we have 3 but Jessy will use advantage and BUMMMMMMM! Vanne or Alexa done ! And it is very bad because next tribal i will be killed by Jessy & Erin ! Play this game smarter, TSN !

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- I feel fine right now but I'm a little pissed off at this entire game right now. Everything wrong that I thought could happen happened and now I have to work my way up again and it sucks. First off, TSN won immunity which I KNEW would happen because I was talking to Emile about it. I brought up the scenario where TSN would win and Emile would play his idol, and then he tells me about this exile power thing. I'm beyond annoyed because that means Emile is automatically in the F4 no matter what, and I do not want to go against him in an immunity bc his ass goes crazy every time theres a challenge. I feel fine because Vanne is more than likely going to be the vote, but Vanne is trying to talk to me and I think I might just tell her to vote for Erin, because she's the only other person with 0 votes against, and I want to be the one in the end w/ a perfect game. So far I think I'd have a really good chance to play a perfect game, or at least come close to it, and I think that would just be so honorable to accomplish. Another thing that's a little funny but annoying to me is that Mai and Priscilla both made it onto Survivor: Cyprus today, obviously I'll be rooting for them because they're sweet girls and I have nothing against them, but I have the feeling that they absolutely hate my ass for being the reason they're gone soooo if they're favorites for being Anti-Jessy i think thats funny but kinda bad at the same time too AHAHA I need to reel in TSN, push Vanne towards Erin, and make SURE Erin + Alexa + I are tight. I think I'm in the clear, and I think if I stay til the F4 I could have a chance to get Emile out. He says he would take me to the end, but everyone in this game says they would and I may play dumb, but I'm not an idiot. I've been underestimated from the start and I just really want to prove myself even more through the home stretch

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- Vanne thinks she's slick trying to start playing Survivor at F6.... except she doesn't seem to understand it so far. The key concept in Survivor is understanding that everybody talks to everybody, so its probably a good idea to cover your bases. She's trying to organize a blindside against me, but I've developed very strong bonds in this game and Vanne has just stood in the shadows, doing nothing, trying to get her way by. TSN told me that he was put in an alliance with Vanne + Alexa, and they were throwing out my name and Erin's. Basically Erin and I are being pinned against each other, but we're not falling for it. Erin and I are smart girls, and we know how to play this game, at least I do and Erin can pretend she manipulated the others. Alexa is loyal and is voting Vanne with us, and TSN doesn't want a bigger target so he's voting with us as well. Vanne is fairly well going home, and I'm still going to have 0 votes against me because of my Light Pearl, so I'm getting very close to playing a Perfect Game. I was going to allow Vanne further along in this game because she's easy to beat, but once you try to overthrow the top dog, an entire army retaliates.

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- Now, Alexa& Vanne against Jessy& Erin 4 girls, i like Jessy the most. She is a good girl and her game is amazing. She is only person who contacted me from merge. Maybe I can't beat her in final ... And she had advantage. So i am not sure she will use that or not and what she has. It is too dangerous! I am trying to not throw anyone under the bus. I try to make them to trust me and show them that i am loyal alliance. If i go with Jessy, 100% Alexa will be on bottom. I will have a good shot in this game If i go with Alexa, I can't control that bitch , maybe Jessy can be safe because of her advantage. And then i will go next tribal So now is time to show them that they can trust me and go with me to final 2 is good choice!

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- In a matter of 12 hours I end up in a swing vote position? This game really is a roller coaster LMFAO. So the voting blocs are TSN/Vanne and Jessy/Erin (Erin’s shady as fuck) and I’m sitting in the middle with my advantage, like what the HELL? 12 hours ago my ass was going home and now I might be able to make it another 3 days, HELL YEAH! So the options come down to voting either Vanne/Jessy/Erin, Jessy isn’t an option because she has her 1 vote negater and if I vote against her and it ties 2-2, then the person who voted Jessy out with me will flip and put me in a 4-1 minority. Erin is shady as hell, and she’s paranoid as can be. Every single day I have to reassure her that we’re going to make FTC and that our bond is unbreakable. She literally can’t sit still, she makes impulsive decisions. Also the MAJOR problem with keeping Vanne/TSN is that Emile the rodent will return from FFL bring them in and pick me off. Luckily at the auction I purchased some rat poison that I can use to get rid of Emile after his ASS plays his super “secret” idol at the Final 5. Vanne also seems to know a lot about ORG history but it’s too bad she won’t make any. Boom! All she did this entire game was sit on her ass and avoid socializing with others, so now she’s finally decided to be social but she has such bad timing. She messages a SECOND after immunity results are up and she’s just such a bad game player. She needs to go because since TSN is immune she’s the next best option. She is a major goat but her vote is so random, and I can’t put faith in her to vote the proper way. She’s a wildcard and I’d much rather see her go over someone like TSN who I could easily control. Jessy’s advantage will be gone by this vote so if Emile doesn’t play any sort of power on her at the next vote I would definitely like to see her go. I don’t care how close we are, she’s a HUGE threat and I’m here to win. I didn’t spend 33 days putting in 100% effort to create a subtle and sly social/strategic game to get cut at the last second, no way. TSN also stands no chance at that final, if he wins it then the jury members are bitter as hell. He ignores the strategic portion of the game and plays a shitty social game. TSN basically begs for you to save him, without using words mostly ugly ass emojis. LMFAO it’s dreadful honestly, but don’t even get me started on Emile. I cannot STAND his gameplay nor his character. People who win their way to the end and do little to no work when it comes to social gaming are just so boring and underwhelming. Anyways, I know the vote could definitely flip on me but I’m hoping that it didn’t. I’ve made it 33 days and I’m not ready to go home.