I'm Pretty Much the Kingpin/Confessionals

Day 27
"akitaipu"

- There's so many lies and so many lines it's hard to tell what was the first line but one of my fav sayings I always follow in survivor is: If a lie is a believable lie it may become the truth ""akitaipu"

- Alexa and I have formed a new power alliance consisting of people who can actually see what the fuck is going on around them. Sora/Jamie/Chris need to be taken out of this game and I really hope this alliance can come together to do that but I am doubtful. I am honestly laughing so hard at the situation Alexa and I are in, we have the worst allies. We had such a pivotal vote planned today but Hunter is an idiot and voted early, seriously who the fuck does that, so there went our plans to blindside Jamie. And then we have Ash who is basically the equivalent to Abi-Maria, we told her probably 20 times that Emile can’t be trusted and we just need to cut our losses here and let him go but she would not leave it alone. I am only entrusting sacred information with Alexa because the other two are just crazy. Moving forward I really hope players like Claire and Jared can wake the fuck up and stop being Sora and Jamie’s goats. Stop nursing their teets and play your own game. Claire is seriously such a useless player she holds her game information way too close and it’s going to bite her in the ass, but whatever is going to bite her needs to make it’s way up Sora’s ass first because that’s where Claire is hiding right now. I like Jared but I can’t trust him for shit because I only view him as Jamie’s lackey right now. Also I have been hinting to Sora for weeks now that Jamie/Chris are tight and he never listened and look at him now realizing that those two are tighter than he expected. For this upcoming vote I have an absurd amount of options to choose from I just want to make sure that one of Jamie/Chris/Sora goes home. If Jamie/Chris go home I need to make sure Sora isn’t blindsided about it and still trusts me so that I can make sure he doesn’t play his idol anytime soon. And if we blindside Sora I need to make sure that we are able to pull in Claire to our side for some numbers next round because we are going to need them to dismantle the Jamie/Chris alliance. "						"akitaipu"

- Sora is a piece of shit and I can't wait to vote him out. "akitaipu"

- It definitely sucks being left in the dark by basically everyone but that's not gonna stop me from fighting. I already have Brett and Sora apologizing to me along with Sora telling me he has an idol so I trust them in that aspect because they'd be dumb to backstab me at this point when they've already told me a lot. "akitaipu"

- I know I was planning on making one before the last vote about the vote and what was going on but i got held up in traffic and came back to chris and he says something about rishiri and if Jamie really did tell him about my idol this will be the biggest stab not in the back but in the heart and I will be crushed, its like 3am for her but when she gets on and she admits to it I'm gonna be done with everything. "akitaipu"

- Interesting so Alexa thinks I'm Sora's spineless sheep huh? Well I guess me playing double agent went a little too well because I don't care about Sora in this game and all I want is for me and Chris to make f2 but for now we'll play nice "akitaipu"

- Although, I do need to make sure I align myself long term with people who trust my judgment. Brett, Alexa and Hunter all don't trust some of the things I say, and I don't like that. But this is a much better option for me. Chris and Sora are too busy paying attention to one another, they'll let me slip though. I'm in a much better position right now. Chris needs me to trust him because he thinks he's in danger. Brett and Sora think they can vaguely trust me. Brett isn't under Sora's fucking spell anymore, and I'm getting along with Claire even better than before. The only thing I really need to worry about right now is securing my alliance and idols. "akitaipu"

- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vbvf71A6A4Y&feature=youtu.be ""akitaipu"

- So... um I got exposed playing both sides! Sora CAME @me and pretty much told me I was done lol, but I told him the truth about everything and was upfront about EVERYTHING (apart from me telling Chris he had the idol). I also ~tried~ to spin it that it was just me being a loyal player and loyal to Chris but... I don't think ANYONE bought that lol. BUT I guess I'm gonna have try to repair my relationship with Sora and Brett and work with them and PRAY they take me to the end, and also vote out Chris this TC provided he doesn't win immunity. I put SOOO much effort into immunity too that I think I'll be immune? Who knows lol, anyone could win I guess. In some ways though, maybe this might be beneficial? If I make FTC I think this will give me more jury votes, like Chris/Emile... who knows lol... I could be going anyway so maybe it's a bit farfetched to think of jury votes! "						"akitaipu"

- So last night what I thought went out without a hitch, I got the target switched from Jared to my real target Emile. Emile and me never really connected in this game and he wasn't working in my corner and didn't need me so he had to go sadly. HOWEVER after Chris starts coming at me for 'coming after him first' when he's been after me the whole game so lol. So I'm over it, he can't own up and say he was after me first and over reacted so here we are. JAMIE almost gave me a scare that she told Chris about my idol, but he thinks my lie was obvious but um YA BC JAMIE TOLD HIM WHAT I WAS GONNA TELL HIM AND SORTA EXPOSED HIM. Ya and with her, she owned up to trying ot pit me and chris against each other but be close to each other, but it flopped and got herself and Chris in minority. Speaking of she told me Claire told them all what happened last night before the vote and made an alliance with them so lol, guess Claire doesn't have a spine!! It makes me sad bc she was becoming a legit gamer and I helped her a lot or so I thought, with the fact that she had to betray people. But ya Claire is trying to defecto and save Chris which is no bueno. But I'll deal with her later, I'm dealing primarily with Jamie atm. She's been throwing me under the bus a lot to Chris and I'm being straight up with her and telling her that that shit is not okay anymore, and that this is her last chance to basically prove herself to me or she's gone and I 100% mean it. She's got a lot of ass to kiss if she wants to get herself out of this, and the first and only thing she can do at this point is get rid of Chris with me. I know full well my position in the game and I'm pretty much the kingpin who has all the other chess pieces in my arsenal, but I think the only people who realize this as of right now are Jamie and Chris, but I'm making my position to Jamie also known so she knows she can't do anything. It's kinda funny with Chris though, everyone thinks he's crazy and he's been declared insane, the psychological effect follows and anything you do is part of that insanity. If he says he's not crazy, all his protests and actions only confirm their points, and if he says he is crazy, well who wants to work with a crazy person who everyone knew was crazy anyway. He's correctly identified my idol and my position in the game to the people, but there so done with him and and his shit at this point that they want nothing to do with him and don't want to listen, as of right now at least which is why he has to go now before his message starts sinking in with people. It's going to be satisfying to watch and it's gonna be justice and I couldn't be happier about this, I might even do a dance! ""akitaipu"

- It really is incredibly what a false perception can do to a game. My perception of Alexa being shoved up Sora's ass is completely wrong, and unless she's lying to me, which I don't think she is, I actually feel like I might stand a chance to get Sora out this round and get into a new majority? Alexa basically told me how her/Ash/Hunter/Brett are fed up with Sora's dictator shit and how they all tried to push for Jared to go and Sora made it Emile instead, and like she wants Sora to leave this round and says she needs me here because I'm beneficial for her game and honestly I kinda believe it because I don't think she would risk me running to Sora with all of this. Sora has an idol so obviously it's like tricky but I mean if he really does believe he is in the power position in this game he won't use it and he might leave??? Usually when I play Survivor I stick to a group of people and don't ever reach out to anyone else, and lately that's not been working for me in games so I'm trying something different here and it might work. I've worked too damn hard to make it far the right way without being a fucking monster and bullying people like in Java, and I'm not ready to just lay down and die because of what king Sora wants his Survivor experience to me like. He always ALWAYS makes it to the end of games and always does the same fucking thing every single time to make it to the end, luckily this is an all-stars season and not everyone is very pleased with his attitude. He's about to be dethroned whether he likes it or not, and if this all actually happens it will be the best day of my life tomorrow. "						"akitaipu"

- The Emile plan worked whew! So right now I have a lot of power but I'm going to try my best to make it appear as if I'm not playing a major role. I have Brett, Ash and Hunter all wrapped around my finger and I'm working hard to make sure they all trust me the most which they do. Sora also kind of underestimates me and talks down to me so I'm going to let him think that way because when I blindside Jamie and refuse to go with his plan he's FREAK the fuck out. Unlike Jamie/Chris/Sora I'm not going to be the dictador type of person in charge, I'm going to pretend to give two fucks about other's opinions and then come up with a plan and make them feel as if they were the ones who pushed the plan. Let them believe they're in control as I work every person. It's also good for me to have a stigma of being Jamie's enemy because nobody will want me out since I'm after her and apparently am "weak" in challenges so I'm going to play up to that as I continue to socially take complete control over the game. After Chris/Jamie/Sora are gone though I fear Brett will turn on me to vote me out since he/I basically ran this unifying of our alliance so when the time comes I'm for sureee voting him out. An ideal Final 3 for me would be Claire aka Sora's bitch/Chris's former bitch and Hunter because he's a total moron who makes super impulsive and irrational decisions. Using this as my vengance for Jessy/Charley/Uli who were all robbed icons!! Never underestimate me because no matter how bad of a position I'm in I always keep fighting and slowly work my way back up to the top. "akitaipu"

- Basically what’s been going on recently is that Chris/Sora at each other’s throats but both are spewing out so much bullshit that it’s like a competition so see who’s the most untrustworthy. Sora has an idol so getting him out would be great but I’m well aware that Chris will flip back to Jamie after the vote making it 4-4. I’m using Jamie as my known enemy to keep people from targeting me since they know I have a set person that I’m targeting and I’m definitely playing up to that. I have Brett, Ash, and Hunter wrapped around my finger (Brett being the smartest) however I’m trying to maneuver them in a way where they don’t feel as if I’m pulling their strings. My ideal situation would be to get Jamie out and blindside both Sora and Chris but the problem with that is Sora’s idol. So blindsiding Sora and then sending Jamie out might be my best bet. For right now I’m trying to keep my head low and am just focusing on using my social game to decide how things ultimately play out and how the votes go. Claire is also playing both sides VERY poorly and nobody trusts her anymore since she is just everyone’s spineless little minion. It’s good though to see Chris and Jamie scrambling for a change, the tables have turned and Adele is SHOOK RN! I went from being in the minority to being at the top and have overcome so many obstacles to make it where I am rn. This has proven to me that I have to keep fighting to the end so that I can win this game, I just have to!

Day 28
"akitaipu"

- The fun part about voting Sora out right now... Is that I'm not his target right now. I'm not the one in danger, it's Chris. I get a target out and he's the one that gets screwed if it doesn't work. "akitaipu"

- So I just found out from Brett that he has a "skip tribal" card, so my plan for this vote is to basically blindside Sora with his idol (and Chris will flip back to Jamie) and then get Brett to bribe paranoid Jamie or Chris with his free skip tribal card to ensure that we have the majority (4-3) versus (4-4) for the next vote and boom we survive. I'm trying to dumb down my strategicness and schemenerness because although I have Ash & Hunter on leashes, Brett isn't dumb by any means. He's the only other person who wasn't afraid to target Sora and I'm sure Brett knows that down the line he has to blindside me which I don't blame him for because I'm the planning the same. I just have to keep all my sheep in line and make sure my relationships are good all around (minus Jamie because she's my "enemy" to throw off people) so I can reassemble voting blocs whenever necessary, LMFAO but yeah I need to make sure people don't pull the trigger on me soon for running the show, going to try and keep my head down while still pulling the background strings. ""akitaipu"

- So, I've been kind of reflecting on my ORG career, and honestly, I can actually say that I'm happy with my game. Nepal was all about finding my place, and figuring out who I am in game, and damn, am I dominant and I never give up. All-Stars, was my cocky ass overplaying, and getting sent home for it (not without trouble, of course, I'd never give up without a fight), and this season for me, seems to be finding my footing. I'm not playing as crazy, but like in my other seasons, I've been in the minority, and I've been in the majority, but I haven't let it stop me. Let alone, there was an Anti-Ash alliance again (goddammit Jamie), but they still haven't toppled me yet, let alone voted for me at all in the first place. I could go home this vote (I don't think I will, but still) and be happy with my game. I took it into my own hands. I made moves that furthered MYSELF in the game, I stepped down when I had to, I fought, I lost, I won. Even moves that I didn't think would have been the best choice (Emile) turned out positively. I've been just taking it all in, building real relationships and hopefully real alliances, playing quiet, but strong, and yet not being afraid to make ripples. I can safely say that I'm here because of my bonds with people, and my own moves, not anyone else's. I haven't had to depend on anyone (yet), and I haven't let anyone else decide my game for me. Everything that I've done has had a reason, whether or not it worked out or not. This sounds like a final 3 speech. Maybe it will be. I've got a shot. Maybe not a big one, but it exists. "						""akitaipu"

- I got a vote stealer, giving me the option to make it 5-4 at this TC and vote out Sora or any other big threat. I decided to tell Sora about my vote stealer and he did NOT seem happy that I won it lol. Then again he was driving so idk how I expected him to reply lol? Chris I chose to lie to and tell him that I got nothing because I do think it's best for him to go, even though I see through Sora's control of the tribe. ATLEAST I FINALLY WON SOMETHING FROM RISHIRI!!! "						"akitaipu"

- This is either my last day in the game because I'll be idoled out, or I get to continue on for longer!! This tribal is make it or break it for me and if I somehow survive this and Sora goes home like was planned then I'll be actually shook! ""akitaipu"

- So I'm officially the only underdog left, which is pretty sad, sans Emma I voted out every member of underdogs haha 😕 Jamie won immunity because she's a fucking beast at every challenge haha, I don't know how I'm going to get her out of this game because I'm 100% sure she has an idol too. Tonight Alexa and I finally had the chance to get the Sora blindside rolling. He's had way too much power in this game and I'm sick of pretending to agree with everything he says and acting like I will be his goat. It's time the carpet gets pulled out from underneath him. This vote is a pivotal moment in this game and if it all works out like I think it will I should end up in a pretty good position. Sora right now thinks he has the whole mystery inc alliance and Jamie/Jared voting for Chris. Alexa and I have both gone to Chris and explained how Sora is running this game, but it's not like we needed to explain anything to Chris haha he isn't dumb he sees what is going on as well. Just to make sure though we both threw Claire under the bus and exposed how she is a double agent in this game and relays everything back to Sora. And I also told Chris how Jamie/Jared are voting against him. After all this Alexa and I tried to make it seem that there was not a 4 person alliance and we had to work to pull in Hunter/Ash. Whether that fooled Chris or not idk, I am doubtful because he's smart. But regardless a majority of 5 has formed to blindside Sora this round and he should walk out of tribal with an idol in his pocket. Next round things should be all good because Chris is gonna feel super betrayed by Jared/Jamie and I pray to God he sides with the brainless goat alliance but I am very doubtful, I still need to assess the situation more. He is super fucking tight with Jamie outside this game and it worries me so much. I am just so weary of Chris I don't fucking trust him at all, he's so manipulative and perceptive it's insane. Ok also what the fuck is Claire's game at this point. Someone please explain. What kind of cast was she playing against that she won POS for tikal?!? PLEASE EXPLAIN. She's playing the most transparent double agent game right now, but yet she has built no social or game connections with anyone but like Sora and Chris?! I'm so excited for when I eventually blow up at her and just drag her in the group chat. She is severely outclassed up amongst all these all stars or maybe I'm just not seeing her game right, idk. From my perspective right now Alexa and myself are RUNNING this game #brexa but things can easily get pulled out from underneath us, we are up against tough competitors. We are also both in an alliance with two semi goats so I need to be careful that she doesn't cut me before I cut her. Oh as well, my tribal council skip, I don't know if I'm going to use it, yeah I will feel dumb if I go home next round for not using it but next vote is so critical because I need to make sure the brainless goats get majority that removing my number from our side would just fuck me for when I return to the game. But I don't know if people will even believe that it's only valid until the F8 if I don't use it haha. "						"akitaipu"

- Chris thinks he has Ash flipping back to him which I'm not sure about because she's crazy and already lied to him last tribal. I do trust Chris more than most of the people left in the game but I feel like he's a lost cause at this point so I don't wanna stick my neck out for him when I almost was the vote last tribal. "akitaipu"

- HALLELUJAH, JAMIE WON IMMUNITY AND SAVED HERSELF AND GOT THE TARGET 100% ON CHRIS AND CHRIS IS GOING HOME !!!!!!!!! I feel kinda bad bc I know he wanted this bad but, it's a game and you have to play with the mindset you're probably going to lose so you should probably come to expect it by this point and take it with stride. The old Sora in me from Rome/Greece is coming out and sympathizing with him because I do like him and wanted to go to the final 6/7 with him, but the keyword is wanted and until he fucked up trying to get people after me he was solid but ya not anymore. Jamie told me she got a vote steal as well which is wonderful and now basically I'm almost at a point where I can take this game. Chris is the only person left who has been actively trying to get people to go against me, once he's gone it'll get tough on a personal level because I'm aligned with everyone left at that point but it's nothing I can't handle. I told Jared and Brett about the idol as well because I'd rather them both think they're my #1 rn and I don't see them crossing notes and if they do I'll just bring it up in the fucket chat with them, so easy peasy. Claire is v blatantly playing both sides but since I have Jamie on that side she's giving me accurate information but Claire is giving the other side accurate info as well? It's very strange tbh and idk what she's gonna do, but I do know Chris is the only person out of those 3 she's close with and why shes doing this so I can't imagine she's okay with letting him go so I suspect she's going to try and get a Hunter or Jared blindside going so I'm stepping in and stopping that, me and Brett are throwing our votes on Chris regardless so he can DIE already. He's been on my radar this whole game and now comes to point to where you kill the threat and he's the last threat to me in the game as of right now. It depends on what happens next after this but I'll have options galore once Chris and his annoying ass is gone and stops popping up to people giving them ideas about taking me out. So Chris, it's been fun playing with you but ultimately whether you believe it or not, this is your own doing! Audios ! "akitaipu"

- Boy what some of these people will buy! Everyone thinks I'm playing both sides and I'm up Sora's *** but I guess my acting is just that good "akitaipu"

- I'm definitely paranoid right now because I know the majority is splitting the votes on me. Part of me wants to vote Hunter because I like Chris and in case he somehow gets idoled. The other part of me wants to vote Chris because I'm afraid that the girls are gonna flip and vote me because I'm not good for their game. I'm very conflicted rn. "akitaipu"

- If I'm not being blinded by arrogance then this vote should go really well for me OMG!! So I have my strong alliance with Brett/Ash/Hunter but I know down the line Brett is going to flip to get me out because well I am too. I have Ash/Hunter on leashes but I learned last time around that you can't underestimate anyone so I have to keep my eye on them. My strategy with Jamie is to have an open rivalry as a way to shield myself from being targeted so people can disregard me and say "Oh Alexa's obviously going after Jamie so instead of getting Alexa out, let's work with her" but I do want to send her packing soon because as the numbers being to dwindle, having her in will force me to stay on one side and I want to have the ability to constantly reassemble my voting blocks and sending home whoever I wish to. Claire is currently obliterating her game by playing both sides to the point where she's gonna be totally on the outs. I have a strong personal relationship with everyone in my alliance and I'm making them believe that I'm their closest link to kind of put a wedge between them. I want to keep Ash/Brett seperate from fully trust eaching other so that I can continue to be the bridge between them. I'm also trying my best to make Chris truly believe that I trust him and I really... hope that works. I got to Jamie to from hating me to trusting me fully at the swap and allowing me to make the merge is going to cost her the game. I've gone through so much to make it here so I'm not gonna stop fighting till it's over! "akitaipu"

- fuck things are really weird around camp right now, I would not be surprised if sora plays an idol tonight and for some reason I go home "akitaipu"

- The best part about this all is that Chris thinks he manipulated me into saving me when in reality I was planning on flipping the vote ALLLL along. I don't think anyone realizes how much power and sway I hold in the game and it's better that they don't. Unlike Sora, I'm not going to make the mistake of being seen as the "unruly dictador" I want them to think of me as a little minnow before I pull the rug from underneath them. And the best part is they won't see their blindside coming. As long as I keep myself humble and not cocky then I know for a fact I can win make it past Day 38 this time! ""akitaipu"

- So I told Chris he's going because he deserves to know. I tried to see if Claire was voting Hunter because if so then I might've tried to vote steal and save Chris but she wasn't and so Chris will be probs going this TC unless something crazy happens. It's so sad, I know it's best for my game for him to go (I mean do I though?? ksabj maybe it's not) but I love him and don't want him gone :(((. Regardless, he knows now and hopefully Claire does something crazy and saves him and Hunter goes!

Also I'm TRYING so hard to talk to Alexa, Ash and Hunter but I can't bring myself to do it. I know that they talk behind my back all the time (atleast that's what Sora told me) so idk how I can be genuine with them 😕.

Day 29
"akitaipu"

- WE FUCKING DID IT EVERYONE "akitaipu"

- And that's how you blindside a snake. Cut the head off as quick as you can. "akitaipu"

- Chris is my best friend in this game I'm so happy I got to play with him and we made all these insane moves I think we can make it to the end from here lets go! "akitaipu"

- I'M SO HAPPY SADKJBDSA. THE GAME IS LEGIT WIDE OPEN NOW I THINK. IT'S LEGIT A WHOLLLLLEEEE NEW GAME. I'M SO HAPPY!!! SDKJBDHASD "akitaipu"

- What's surprising about this game, is no one's quite caught up with me yet. I don't have a bullseye right on my back, and thank fuck that Sora is out cause he's been trying to blow up everyone's games. Who the fuck needs that. We'll see how the next few votes go, but I'm putting my all into immunity next chance I get. I'm genuinely surprised though, at how condescending Sora was towards Jamie after the Emile blindside. Like, that's the last thing you want to do, lord your power over others. It's a dick move. ""akitaipu"

- I am floored that the vote actually went the way our group had planned. Seriously before the vote I was sweating like a whore in church I was so worried that Sora would play an idol. I don’t follow ORG history but that seriously must be one of the most iconic blindsides in recent history. Sora thought he had this entire tribe on lock and it’s so satisfying that we were able to get five people together and blindside his ass with an idol in his pocket.

Shockingly post vote everyone seems to be saying “I thought I was the only one who saw that he was running the game” then why the fuck didn’t you do anything about it. So I guess I am coming out of this vote with no bad blood and that’s just fantastic.

Also I take back what I have said about Claire being dumb. Claire finally came to me and I have now discovered that she is not a mute and is not pants on head retarded. She told me that she was just playing along being Sora’s bitch because she thought she was the only one who saw it, whether this is true or not idk, I am just glad that she is back in this game to play. As I type this her and I are already solidifying something and getting on the same page about taking out Chris/Jamie.

Moving forward Jamie/Chris are definitely the biggest threats in the game and I will go guns blazing to get them out of this game. In this upcoming round sadly I am going to have to play my tribal council skipper on myself. I wasn’t going to because I wanted to 100% secure the numbers for final 7 but after Claire seems to have woken up I am less worried leaving my “brainless goat alliance” on their own.

Also I would be the biggest idiot to not take a free tribal council pass and because who knows I could end up being blindsided and I would never live that down. It’s kind of a disadvantage to not be voting but at least it moves me one step closer to the final tribal council. "						"akitaipu"

- I think I am rebuilding my bonds rather well hopefully! "akitaipu"

- I'M SOOOO ECSTATIC THAT MY MOVE WORKED! I kept Chris and proved to him that I'm loyal (not really!) and that his so called "best friend" JAMIE WOULD WRITE HIS NAME DOWN and sure enough she did. This is great for me but I am going to have to continue to have a humble exterior because I cannot let myself get Sora'd. I need to keep Ash/Brett/Hunter feeling like they're the ones pulling the strings because if not then they'll come together and vote me out. You have to appeal to the egomaniacs and make them feel like they came up with your idea, keep them feeling like kingpins. All these plays are little golden stars for my resume and I'm just going to keep making little constellations after every move. Jamie is now trying to make "amends" with me for like the 7th time and I led her on yeah but not excessively because I'd rather have a no bullshit policy than have her go around exposing fake promises thus causing me to appear as untrustworthy. Jared is.... a nonentity and he does whatever Jamie says. Claire LOOOOL just blew up her whole rat game and I'm loving it. I have my little Brexa alliance with Brett, Ashlexa with Ash and my thing with Hunter. I just have to make sure they all stay closer to me and a bit more distant from each other. I flipped this game on its axis and it's good to see others scrambling for a change. "akitaipu"

- I just need to keep everyone else feeling like they played a better game than me, that they were the ones in control of the votes and I was just an addition. I've never been in this kind of position before, but it's surprisingly fun to manage. As long as I keep Alexa and Hunter growing cocky, and stay humble and low, I've got a chance. Mind you, I'm pissed at Hunter, Alexa and Brett for not trusting me on Emile. We could have had Jamie out already. We wouldn't have to deal with her retarded idol and vote canceler. I can't decide if I need to get her on my side and put that effort in for possibly nothing or not. Hunter's a smart player, just because he's been hardcore sheeping lately doesn't mean he wouldn't turn the game around for himself. He and I *did* win Qual together. Chris is shady, but maybe we have a chance, and honestly, I've got a better read on him than half of anyone AND he thinks him not going home was 100% on me, which gives me an advantage. Jamie is oh god Jamie, Jared is fucking dead, Claire has been hardcore playing sides but she's sweet and has been primarily honest with me. The question is, who do I stick with long term? "akitaipu"

- Plus, I know Hunter and Brett trust Alexa more than me. I might need to split that up. "akitaipu"

- Yes, Brett, an alliance is ALL about ditching your allies during tribal. Bad move "akitaipu"

- Someone owes me ten bucks. Because Brett is an disloyal shit and we might be sooooo fucked. "akitaipu"

- I'M SO FUCKING MAD RIGHT NOW I CAN'T EVEN DESCRIBEEEE HOW LIVID I AM. So Brett decides to be a lil shit and fuck over our alliance by using his vote skipper. I'm literally SOOOO FUCKED right now because Jamie legit has a vote stealer and a possible fucking idol. Ash and I are soooo screwed. Not Hunter because he's a moron and Jamie won't waste her time voting him out. The only way for me to stay is to get Chris/Claire on my side and I think I could get Chris potentially since I basically just spared him and sent Sora home but Claire god... I'm not so sure. We literally just kept her in the dark about the vote like why the hell would she even trust us? I went from bottom to top to back to the bottom potentially again so I have to win that fucking immunity. There's a first time for everything. And I know it's going to me getting fucked over. ""akitaipu"

- Happy thanksgiving!!!!! Today I am thankful for not being voted out!!!! Allllll day yesterday was just paranoia and work to make sure Alexa/Brett/Ash/Hunter would keep me and trust me moving forward and I'm just ecstatic I'm still here!!!

And like they may have saved me but I don't trust them, yes they told me ""don't trust claire she leaked your split vote plan to sora"" and ""don't trust jamie/jared they're voting for you"" but like i told claire to leak that plan so sora would think he knew what I was doing for the vote so he wouldn't use his idol, and jamie ran to me telling me i was going home like 2 hours before the vote and how upset she was over it, so i trust her and i mean jared voted hunter so i trust him.

Ideally I'd like to get hunter out next, it's very clear to me that ash/hunter/alexa/brett are together in some way if they all 4 were just all of a sudden on board together to get sora out and needed me for it, and im not looking to be 5th im this close lol

thankfully jamie came to me right before results yesterday and told me she had a vote steal and how she wanted to do a last minute thing to save me and i had to lie to her saying no because i knew it'd be important this round to get majority with her/me/claire/jared so im so glad i told her not to use it

she also might not even have to use it honestly like brett according to ash wants to use his skip a tribal pass this round, and ash thought that was shady and she wanted to ""talk to me later"" so i hope to god she wants to talk to me about getting brett or hunter out this round lol then my life is easy !

anyways im happy to be here i never thought i'd outlast 16 fucking all-stars and im so close to the end i can taste it at this point, so i just gotta keep pushing forward and be smart because now is when my decisions are gonna really matter ! "						"akitaipu"

- This was the first vote where I was completely blindsided. I had no idea that Sora was going and I'm really upset about it. He was one of my closest friends in the game and I truly trusted him. I feel bad because I know part of it was that he saved me last vote and changed it from me to Emile but I'm gonna try my hardest to avenge him. ""akitaipu"

- Sigh, fuck. I just realized how screwed I am. I got my hopes up. And now, I actually want to win. I have a shot, I know that, but it's gonna be awful if I go home.

Brett's gonna turn on us really soon, especially since he's using his tribal skip. It just shows how we don't matter, just as numbers. My only consolation is the fact that I haven't played as loud of a game as I usually do, and I'm hoping that can propel me to the end? I just really need to start planning my end game. Because if I don't make it, I want to make sure the people there deserve it. "						""akitaipu"

- So like apparently Ash wants Hunter/Brett gone next and I'm just like??????? Am I really not gonna have to get blood on my hands and be able to sit back and have you make these moves?? Can things be going any better for me???

I swear like the Survivor gods or w/e people say are clearly looking out for me because whatever I want to happen I'm approached and someone is already doing it for me ! I wanted Sora gone and didn't know how to go about it and people approached me for it, and now I want Hunter/Brett gone and I'm being approached for it so yippeeeeeee! "						"akitaipu"

- I'm really nervous about this whole situation because just a few days ago I was running the vote and pulling the strings so due to Brett's stupid advantage I might be in the minority if Claire/Chris realize that this is a perfect opportunity to get me out. I can't let them realize they're in a power position because if I do they then I'm going to be in serious trouble. I need Claire to believe she fucked up with the last vote and has to stick with me to survive because if she realizes she could shake up this entire game shit is going to go down. I need Chris to feel indebted to me since I sent Sora out over him but Chris isn't stupid, he watched me play Sichuan and he knows that I'm not hesitant to backstab anyone. If I have to throw Ash/Hunter under the bus to stay I will, I'm gonna play nice with Jamie the next few days but I know she isn't dumb either. I need to get immunity around my neck so that I can play around Jamie's vote stealer and FINALLY send her home. I've been at the bottom more times than I can count but I've always gotten out of it and now is no different. "akitaipu"

- This game really is so fascinating to me and I love playing it because it's so complex and intricate. It's nearing that final stretch of this game and with this tribal council skip I am going to be in the final 7. That's insane to me, I have 6 people left in my way of winning, that's all that matters to me right now, I'm so hungry for that win I will do anything. I'm so stressed out because to make it to that final tribal council and actually win you need to be able to balance your game ever so well. You need to be a threat making moves and taking people out while building and balancing positive social relationships but in doing so you can't appear to be a huge threat. I'm trying so hard to balance my game accordingly and I hope that it's working and that I will be able to maneuver my way through these remaining players. Going forward my main targets are Jamie, Chris and Alexa, they all need to go because they are the only people I really see standing in my way of the win. "akitaipu"

- I'm in such a rough spot right now because I need to make sure Chris trusts me enough so that he reels in Claire so we can form the voting bloc for this vote. I'm extremely nervous because I've worked so hard to get here so I have to pretend like those two have my loyalty for this vote so I can survive thanks to Brett being a selfish idiot and putting our alliance in the minority. I have Ash on lockdown and Hunter most likely, he's a wildcard so we'll see. I've also been trying to play nice with Jamie but holy fuck it's not easy playing this game when people know you're not afraid to make big plays and especially when you have TWO HOSTS from your original season playing with you. Chris knows I'm a sneaky bitch because he literally watched me blossom, I need him to think I'm loyal so that I can survive the vote, regain my power and send him and Jamie packing. And god damn even the EASIEST challenges manage to be taken from me. They're stupid if they don't vote me out now, this might be their only opportunity where I'm vulnerable so hopefully they don't see it as a prime opportunity, I can only hope. I've been at the bottom a countless number of times and I've always managed to flip the vote, I need to do it one more time. "akitaipu"

- Jesus I like Brett but his skip tribal idea is so stupid. We could all literally be fucked in the ass because of it, and it's gonna hurt. I don't trust Claire. I don't trust the vote steal. He cannot fucking skip this tribal, I don't care if it's the last time he can use it for the first time or the middle time- WE WILL FUCKING DIE IF HE USES IT "akitaipu"

- s it even worth fucking trying anymore? When people who just don't have fucking lives get free fucking passes for fucking immunity? Fuck you guys for constantly using challenges that require no fucking skill, just time. ""akitaipu"

- Well I guess I have a day or two off from the game which is nice so i might as well give y'all some details of what I did these past few days ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I know that I was one of the people who really got the ball rolling on the Sora blindside but I really don't want claire/jamie/jared to know that. So post vote I definitely made it sound like Chris was the mastermind behind that vote, people need to start seeing how much of a threat Chris is so hopefully this is a wake up for them.

Thursday night, Jared and I had a good conversation, I have started to cultivate a deeper game relationship with Jared and am trying to groom him to be my goat. Jared has fought with a lot of people and burned a lot of bridges and once Jamie is he is going to have no where to turn but to me. I'm definitely going to need Jared to help me vote out someone like Alexa down the road so I want to make sure he feels close to me.

Over the past few days I have also been trying to paint the picture that alexa/hunter/Ash are a tight trio and that I am on the outside of this. There is definitely some truth to this but I know that Alexa and myself have a close relationship and I don't want others to know that (Chris probably does though) By grouping those three together I hope that my target will be smaller down the road. I am trying to make them seem like threats that ""have worked their way up from the bottom into a power position"" in reality they wouldn't have been able to do that without me.

I've also started to build a more intense game relationship with Claire. Claire definitely feels betrayed by Alexa/Ash/Chris because they left her out of the loop on the last vote, so I'm swooping in to build something with her. Thankfully before the Sora vote I had messaged Claire twice being like ""Hey you know we can talk game right, I don't bite 😛"" and I told her that I was trying to hint to her that I was down to start making moves but she denied my advances, which she seems to regret now.

It sucks that I can't communicate with anyone this vote because I won't be able to influence anything. I feel like Alexa really wants claire gone which is dumb because claire isn't a threat at all, she has no influence and sucks at immunity challenges. I need the brainless goats to keep their heads in the game this round and not to forget who the real targets are (Jamie/Chris). I'm going to be very out of the loop when I come back from exile so I need to work my social game once I'm back to gather as much info as possible. "						"akitaipu"

- Boy gotta love it when you become swing votes on every vote if everything goes well I should be in final 7 no problem! ""akitaipu"

- 'm really playing the 'I don't give a shit about this game' role well. Getting lots of allies and deals because of it. I'm a free vote! Even though I do give a shit about this game, I will cry if I lose 😞 "						"akitaipu"

- I'm going to have to play up loyalty to Claire and Chris for this vote but the thing is... Chris isn't stupid. He knows that my way of playing is to get close to people and get rid of them the next day because he watched me become that player. I need to make them believe that my disdain for Jamie is so strong that I will always be loyal to them, over anyone else. Do I think I'm in trouble? Hell yes because I literally flipped the past two votes in my favor even after being at rock bottom. However, I don't trust Claire's judgement and I know she's dumb enough and sheep enough to leave Jamie in the game with her double vote (Jared) EVERY tribal. If you can't get the shepherd, go for the sheep and that's exactly what needs to be done. If they're smart they'd vote me out but Claire might be looney enough to keep me around for one more vote thus allowing me to regain control and run the game to the end. This is going to be a long freaking night.

Day 30
"akitaipu"

- So I made up with Brett basically because he could be useful for me and I don't want to play completely personal. He seems like he really wants to work with me and I believe it since he even told me he wants Jamie out which I don't want but I'll keep letting him think that I wouldn't mind(this was before the skip thing dw). The PLL alliance basically decided on Hunter but Chris completely told Ash for whatever reason. I don't trust her because I mean I've tried to work with her tons of times and she's always backstab me so why all of a sudden when I'm not even trying anymore would she just let me go? I'm super scared of an idol being played or even Claire flipping. I'm thinking Chris is either completely gullible or he's working with her to get me out. "akitaipu"

- THIS IS SO FUCKING CRAZY RN.... SO HUNTER'S BEGGING ME FOR HIS IDOL BACK AND HIGHKEY I DON'T WANNA GIVE IT BACK... If that makes me a backstabber than ICONIC but I'm not giving up what could be a lifeline for me in this game. COULD BE FAKE, COULD BE REAL WHO KNOWS? I really fucking hope Jared goes tonight and I've been trying my best to ensure that Chris believes I'm loyal but god knows how that'll turn out. Flipping this vote hasn't been easy but I really hope it works out. I'm trying to use Ash the soldier in the front of the shooting line, utilizing her to make the false deals so that if anything blows up SHE gets the heat instead. I'm sooo nervous because they could be lying and voting me tonight and I could go out with a freaking idol, whether it's real or fake. "akitaipu"

- I'm probably just being paranoid but I feel super alone in the game right now. I mean 3 people hate me no matter how much I try to mend things and of course I'm their target. Then in my own alliance, one of them voted me out last tribal, another trusts Ash who is literally in a final 3 with Alexa/Hunter, and Jamie who I thought I was super close with is starting to make me rethink things. Before immunity she was going crazy with all these scenarios and plans but the moment she's safe and I might be in danger she doesn't want to do any of them. I'm most likely overthinking everything but I really see what Sora meant now and it sucks. "akitaipu"

- This isn't fun anymore "akitaipu"

- I'm such a awful fucking person why did I say yes to this I wanted a happy ending that I knew I could never have "akitaipu"

- At that, FUCK YOU BRETT. "akitaipu"

- Hahahahahaha, it was originally, let's vote Hunter to gain Jamie and Jared's possible trust, now it's HAAHHAAHA LET'S VOTE HUNTER AND PRAY THAT WE DON'T GO H OME. "akitaipu"

- Chris, you think you're slick huh? You think I don't see your plan of voting out Hunter so you can appeal to both Jamie/Jared and Ash/Me? Yeah sorry I see right through your shady ass! Also a big giant fuck you to Brett for screwing our alliance over and being the reason that I have to vote out Hunter in order to make it to the next vote, because of you! He's the reason we can't fucking vote out Jared along with Jamie's bogus vote stealer which aka is the only way she survives this game since Rishiri Island is basically property of Jamie. I see right through Chris's bullshit and fuck him honestly! I'm also holding on to Hunter's idol whether it's real or not I have no clue but it could be my LIFELINE. I've been on the bottom before and I've always gotten back up to the top so this is nothing new to me. I just need to keep Ash in line, Brett on my side and make shit happen. As long as I let them underestimate me and say I'm lackluster in challenges I'll slither my way to the end and reveal all the shady shit I've done behind their backs LMFAO, gif challenge bless you! "akitaipu"

- I need to do this otherwise I'm not going to be playing survivor I'm going to be playing hold hands and walk to the end