Board Thread:Season 47 - Heroes vs. Villains II/@comment-5357455-20180613003741/@comment-26864283-20180614023810

Hello Robert! I want to start off by saying thank you for the apologizing for your final words in the beginning of your speech. You said some really harsh things that night and I understand that you were upset. I really do respect you for admitting your faults there because it was all pretty uncalled for. So, piggy backing off of that, I want to start my response off to a personal apology to you. I know I hurt you because of my decision to vote you out. I know that you and I will definitely work things out after this is all said and done with, but I truly am sorry for hurting you personally. Voting you out was hands down the hardest decision I had to make this whole game, and by the end of this response, I hope that everything is cleared up and you have a better understanding of why I did it. I honestly, really like the way you structured your speech and I’ll be able to get to every single thing I want to discuss through that, so let’s get dig into it.

Story: Firstly, I just want to say thank you for calling me a hero. To me, that’s a compliment. I honestly never thought of myself as a hero at all the entire game, but your statement here has me thinking a lot about the game I played. You’re definitely right, in a way, my game was heroic. I truly did overcome a lot this game. From the very beginning, literally day 1, it seemed as if I was on the bottom and constantly being called out and yelled at. I even had someone call me “an ugly piece of shit”. I survived through all the callouts, blindsides and craziness that was this season. I did make bonds with people and avenge them. Two of the strongest bonds I had this game were with Marie and Mackie, both people I avenged. I also avoided fights this season, drama was what got me into a lot of trouble in both Azerbaijan and Retribution. There was a point in the game, where Audrey sent me this quote and I kept it in the back of my mind for a portion of the game. '“You either die a hero, or live long enough to become the villain. But I’m already a villain, so maybe if I live long enough, I’ll become a hero and the hero always wins in the end.”' This quote really reflects my game. I feel like I came into this game a villain, and feel as if I played a villainous game. However, as the quote says, I lived long enough to become the hero. I had to overcome A LOT to get to where I am right now, I fought all 39 days in this game to survive. The journey I’ve had this season ultimately makes me a hero.

Strategy: People keep saying that my main fault, was bringing Sora to the end because it seems a bit hypocritical. I can understand where that viewpoint is coming from. Considering I wanted everyone gone from “the premade alliance”, yet here I am sitting next to one, yea it does look bad for me. However, I firmly believe I never could have taken a shot at Sora before final 6, and once he won immunity I knew it was going to be hard to ever take a shot at him again. Sora had eyes and ears in every corner of this game. So many people never wanted to take a shot at him because they were either scared or thought he was their #1 ally. I just thought I’d say this before jumping into what you actually asked me for.

Roisin: This is probably a given for me. Roisin was definitely my arch enemy this season. The girl had it out for me from day ONE. She started making up rumors on OG Pele that I was in an all guys alliance with Tate and Will which was NEVER true. The remainder of the game, she used to call me out and target me. I had my own individual issues with Roisin, Sora had no influence on my decision on getting her out.

Jordan: This is also a pretty easy one for me. Jordan and I did not really have a good relationship. He voted me pre-merge and messaged me before the results to say how he voted me because “getting rid of me was good for his game”. From there out, we barely spoke. I knew Jordan was a challenge BEAST and I wanted him out early in the merge so he didn’t have a chance to go on a run. Sora actually had a very good relationship with him, so he didn’t even want him to leave that round when I did because of our history. Also, before Mitch left, he messaged me saying Jordan was the one who got the ball rolling for me to leave the round I played my idol. So I wanted Jordan GONE right from that tribal.

Evan: As you’ve seen from multiple speeches/responses, I always wanted Evan out. You even know this yourself, because we discussed it. Sora had absolutely 0 impact on why I wanted Evan out. Yes, he was 100% aware of this vote and knew what was going on, but he did not vote for Evan. We did not need his vote this round, and Sora actually wanted Evan to stay. You were heavily involved this round, so I feel as though I don’t have much to say here.

Mackie: I’m skipping this one because as you’re aware I was never involved with this.

Claire: Claire was someone I saw as a free agent at this point in the game. I knew her #1 was Evan and he was gone, opening up many doors for her. Now, Claire and I didn’t talk much throughout this game so I knew Claire’s loyalties were never going to come back to me. I knew that Claire and Sora were close, so I wanted her gone. To me, Claire was Sora’s Mackie and was probably going to become a very close ally to him if she survived for much longer. Sora definitely did not want Claire to go because of their tight relationship. Yet again, Sora knew of this vote but I never needed his vote or input on why I wanted her gone.

Alex: Throughout the game, I had many issues with Alex. For starters, she was one of the people who got Marie out and I knew she was tight with Roisin and her crew. She also voted the both of us at one point, AFTER she swore she was going to be loyal to the both of us. To me, voting me is not being loyal to me. We also had VERY vague conversations, and she was probably the person I spoke to the least. So, I did NOT trust Alex at all. I also saw Alex as your Mackie, similar to how I saw Claire as Sora’s Mackie. I knew that if you EVER wanted to make a move against me, you’d need and have Alex. So, while yes Sora wanted Alex out, I had my own individual reasons for wanting her gone as well.

Rob: I really do want to talk more about this in the third portion of your speech since it’s pretty much what it’s all about. However, I’ll say how it was my OWN strategic decision to get rid of you here and go into more detail in the next section. While yes, it looked like I was trying to “get revenge for Mackie!!” this was never my real intentions on voting you out. Sora did not manipulate me or turn me against you. The strategic side to it was that if you were gone, SO many more doors would open up for me. People were CONSTANTLY grouping me and you together as a duo and it was starting to not be a good look for me because people were starting to distrust you. I figured, that once you were gone, it would give me a lot more wiggle room with the tribe, as well as put me right smack in the middle. Now, if you read my speech, I had a section on it where I discussed how my plan was to be in the middle. As you can see from here, Sora throwing you under the bus to me had little to no effect on why I actually wanted you out. I did it for my own game and to better myself.

Lexi: Sora definitely did not want Lexi to leave this round. Lexi was like Sora’s puppet. She was someone he would use because he knew no one else in the game was willing or wanted to work with her. Whoever Sora told her to vote, she did. I also knew that everyone left thought she was a goat. So, getting rid of Lexi freed up a spot at final tribal council. I firmly believe that had Lexi slid by that round, Sora would have brought her all the way to the top. I knew that once she was gone Sora now had to bring another person with him to the final 3.

Audrey: This is another one that I’m going to skip for the same reasoning as Mackie.

Declan: Honestly, once Sora won immunity, it was pretty evident Declan was the consensus between me, Sora and Maya. We all knew he was playing a SOLID game and could probably take any of us at final tribal, so he needed to go. I would not say Sora played a part in my decision here either.

As you can see from this, I played my own individual game throughout the season. Sora had little to no influence on every single one of the people I voted off. I hope this clears up a lot of this for everyone, considering people keep seeming to think I did his dirty work. I had my own reasonings for why each person went home. Meanwhile, half of them Sora didn’t even want to go, but there was nothing he could do besides throw a pity vote their way and act confused.

Social: So I will start this off by yet again apologizing for what I did to you. I know I touched up a lot on this in the introduction to this whole thing, but this is an apology for something else. I know that your main goal coming into this was to hit 100 days and I was the one who took that goal away from you. My intentions were to never make it so you could not reach your goals. As your friend of about 8 years now, there is nothing more that I want then to see you reach your goals. I honestly did not even realize you were so close to hitting day 100 and would have, had I not voted you. Regardless, it would not have changed my vote. Let me just explain my thought process for why I voted you out, because I honestly think as a player, you’ll respect it. I’m aware that it looks like by me voting you, I was trying to avenge Mackie. However, that’s not what your vote off was about at all from MY perspective. I knew that people were pinning you and I together as a duo and I also knew that people were starting to lose trust in you because of you flipping back and fourth every round. I knew that getting rid of you would also get rid of the stigma of me and you being “an unbreakable duo”. Once you were gone, I was free and able to go wherever I pleased. People always told me they thought I would be telling you information, so I knew there was distrust between me and people because of my very tight association with you. So, voting you out shows to other people that I can now be trusted. It worked too, because once you were gone I knew Sora couldn’t use you to go against me if he wanted to, Audrey knew I was solid with her, plus I showed more loyalty to Maya and Declan as well. Voting you out, gained me so many more close allies and tight bonds. This is the section on being social, which is about forming bonds. So, I had to cut your bond in order to gain new ones.

I really hope that my answers helped clear your head. I felt like such a shitty person and bad friend after this round. I know you were highly upset with me the round you left because of your final words. We will move past this considering this game has made us transcend our friendship into a real life one. If anything is unclear here, or you just need more from me, PLEASE ask.