This Bottom Ranking Is A Fluke/Confessionals

Day 4
"kikuyu"

- yes Children it is the the queen of trying too hard, the mistress of ugly, and the Duchess of Diarrhea!

Anyway I just came to do a quick tribe ranking/assessment of my fellow tribe mates which should be fine considering it’s only day 4 and I’m 65% sure they already all hate

1. Nicole : Shes a whole sweetheart and I can tell she’s not turned off by my personality which is a shock and a plus

2. Jino : A fellow old schooler! I like him so far, hopefully we can work together

3. Trent : ok so like...I’m not sure if he hates me or loves me. Cause tbh it’s either he DESPISES me and is ranting about me in a confessional as we speak, or he’s all into it. I REALLY CANT TELL. I just want us to be an iconic bitch duo...is that too much to ask for?

4. Natalia : shes really pretty and nice

5. Natalie: very very intelligent, but also a question mark for me. I can’t tell if she likes me or not so I’m gonna have to spend more time talking to her to get a better ready

6 Cassandra: Xe is WILD.

7. Alex: he deadass hates me

8. Jack: HE ACTUALLY HATES ME LIKE DAMN.

Anyway ya I’m probably already on the bottom cause I do in fact leave these people on read every time they send me something boring. Is that an example of a good social game? Do I do it anyway?

Ya

"kikuyu"

- ok... i've calmed myself down. I was feeling really antsy earlier about not being super strategically involved yet but I reminded myself it's only day 4, we haven't had to go to tribal yet, everything will work out fine.

HOWEVER... I do still feel like I'm running out of time to get like a good solid foundation for an alliance. it's really difficult to get a game read on a lot of my tribe members, which has me both nervous and curious, but I also am hopeful that they're in the same situation as me right now. I think I'm going to try to stick with Cali, Alex, and Nicole for sure, but 4 isn't a majority yet. Although with this kidnapping twist it sure can be, or at least close to it. The hard part is getting the four of them together as well. I feel like nobody is really trying super hard to push the envelope in terms of strategy, and because I don't want to stick out, I kind of have to move slower than I want to as well which kind of stinks. I don't feel entirely ready to try and be SUPER sneaky with playing the game super fast if everyone is going a more lax game.

tides are also turning at camp, at least for me. Jack has been utterly useless for just about everything. He's been very nonsocial and he didn't help in the challenge. i get that he's been on vacation but like... come on lol at least try. our conversations read like he really doesn't care to talk to me at all. maybe i'll have to talk to nicole some more to see if they're bonding. it's really quite frustrating to have to worry about someone like Jack because he reminds me soooo much of evan lol and we all know what evan and bryce did to me last time. it stinks!

on the flip side, Cass' enthusiasm has finally wore down to the point that I can finally talk to xir in a way that I don't apprehend going into the chat. xe trusts me enough too that I think xe would make an excellent number, especially because xe started in a way that I don't think a lot of people are gonna take very seriously. Having Cass around is therefore probably good for me in the long run, I just dont see xir as a strategic threat yet.

Overall, I don't think I'm winning quite yet, but there's potential. you never want to start out the winner from anyone but the host's eyes, anyway.

"kikuyu"

- Gonna miss Ashlee she is really a cool girl hope we win the next immunity. Okay so for reward I am quite worried. In Salvation we done this kind of challenge so that we will swap I got 1st in the ranking but the person who got last was the one who will choose the team so now I need to be strategic on who will I choose. No crazy things for now cause still at day 4 and no shenanigans happening.

"kikuyu"

- So... I won the duel! I really like the twist and hopefully I get to go back and have another opportunity for more advantages but for now starting off with a light pearl that feels pretty good.

I talked to Alex a good amount yesterday so now at least I’ve had conversations with everyone. Some of the tribe is tough to maintain talking with but imma have to persevere, looks like the predators are already cracked as hell after one tribal so maybe that bodes well for us?

"torrobo"

- Really, after the tribal of last night and the chaos that happened, if one day, i have the occasion to write down Will's name on a parchment, i will write "Wil-d" or "Will-dcard" ...like boy, breathe !!! He is more and more wrapped on Amir's fingers, good for me bc Amir reports to me some tea? i don't care much if he doesn't report everything but like I try to exchange info to Amir too bc hmm i love Amir: smart, logical, social: that is a Winner!!! He actually runs the show strategically in the tribe but we kinda don't care much too bc 1- me and him are very close and 2- good for me if he is the one super visible and not me. Im not competing to get control by now, no sis no, Control is just an illusion and illusion may disappear as fast as a dream. Control is deceptive.

"torrobo"

- Update about alliances? Well, EVAN is my number 1 so far!! He is my closestest ally like i have no filter when i give him infos and i want that to continue. He likes to talk strategy and he is smart so i love that. I was the one who heard his name first last tribal and i made sure by all means that he doesn't go home. I was the one spreading info around the camp to make sure that people knows that TOO MANY names have been thrown by brittany. Poor Evan was so nervous and stressed, i did my best to be a good moral support n even when he spammed me about all the probabilities/scenarios where he could go home, i was calm and told him that everything's gonna be okay, that we got this. I know he has been a good moral support to me day1 when i was depressing about all the big players in our tribe so i made sure yesterday that i give him that back? I want him to be a great ally bc im gonna be a great ally too- until Id have to cut him if necessary? lol- but yeah, there's chemistry between us for now. Chris, i love Chris: in both personnal and game level. He has that kind of charisma that just makes him fascinating. We are starting to be more open to each others gamewise i guess? Amir, god I love Amir, but i know in same times that he could become the biggest threat to win AGAIN this game like the dude is so good socially and strategically. I know by far amir and will are very close, i know amir and gerda are close too so they kinda are a "grp". Gerda is the ultimate social queen, i bet she has many allies haha like hey, im one of her allies and i know she is w amir, she works w evan too, she is close to chris, she is with will and her and ashlee could be something. I love Gerda, she is a good ally for me with her motherly energy; it's gonna be so complicated to cut her later omg but by now, im with her and i enjoy talking to her. ASHLEE, my rhineQueen! okay so we are supposed to have a duo but like we bring that only when we need between us. About ashqueen, i know she can be sneaky and backstab someone ruthlessly so im kinda cautious LOL even if im open to work with her. She acts like super sweet and lovely in the tribe rn haha i bet thats her strategy to survive pre merge and then at merge, she gonna snap again. Well, good luck! Will, idk much what to say abt him bc we are supposed to be allies. The thing is just i feel that he doesn't plenty trust me- i probs should give him more time- and then he is so wild omg! like he is the wildcard of our tribe imo. He can come up with an idea or a plan and change his mind in a 10sec. I wanna think that he got nervous by the season and the game so i will give him the benefit of the doubt and im gonna work harder my socialgame on him bc where everyone wins challenge for their game, i conquer and win hearts for mine. Im so terrified by my actual position in the tribe. I try my best not to have a single-sided game but then that recquired so much energy and attention to every details. I will never feel safe in this tribe. I will never feel safe in this game whatever my position could be. I feel like the time i spend in this predator tribe is the time i spend with the people i will go after later in the game.

"torrobo"

- Tis I, el cockroach is BACK FROM THE GRAVE and survived a hectic round and I am INVIGORATED. No don't worry I won't stroke my own cock it's Day 4 only.

I had felt cautiously optimistic for the hours leading up to tribal but lol holy shit when Will got online shit spiraled out of control and I think it helped paint a picture of what can happen in the rounds to come that LUCKILY don't see myself as a target. Chris played the role of detective bc his name was getting tossed around too and Ryan and Will were blaming the other from that, come to find out from Chris that Will is the true rat but? Either way, Nora also feels burned by Will and Ryan from last round so again, more of a spotlight off me. One thing that was interesting of note was that Amir was telling me he had to wait for Will to get online before casting his vote, when that happened and Will presented an opportunity to Chris/Nora to boot Ryan, he suddenly got cold feet and backed out? Shwowzers wonder what made him back out.

So I'll start with the bad news, it kinda sucked having to play the role of passenger last round and just be a yes-man bc all the talks about a potential vote flip to Ryan didn't really involve me, and it didn't incentivize me to butt into it or push that way when I was already in the hot seat. That's bad news number 2, WE HAD an opportunity to knock out Ryan and could've done a 4-2-2 with me/Will/Nora/Chris getting the killshot, but again, Will got cold feet. Hopefully Chris and Nora don't forget about that anytime soon though.

But being the totally bright cheery and optimistic man I am, I'm trying to see the good too! I'm back with Ashlee, and we both immediately filled each other in on what transpired. I kinda used the angle that since she was away last round and I was one of the targets, we could be potential outsiders that need each other. I really honestly do think I can confide a LOT of my trust in her, but I don't doubt there may be a devil inside going on there, I think I'll need a tribal or two with her to gauge that trust. And following up on happier news, Ryan and Will both painted targets on themselves, Ryan explained to the tribe he had to do it bc Brittany was a long-time friend, and while I don't doubt that's genuine I also know that's a strategic ploy for him to wave the loyalty card. So time to find out soon how others feel about that. With this day off I'm just hoping to keep cool because I do think there are bigger fish worth frying than me at this point

That brings me to the reward challenge, we have to assign personal rankings to the tribe, and while I can't communicate with others I plan on giving Gerda/Amir 1 and 2 in any order to gas them up and hopefully maybe paint a certain perception on them. They're sitting in a pretty spot rn but it's almost too pretty bc I think almost everyone on this tribe trusts them. So if the winners are all gonna have targets on their backs and I'm going to hell, I'm going to hopefully drag as many down with me and gain that camoflauge LOL

"torrobo"

- No one wanted to vote out Chris, Will made it seem like everyone did. He didn't even warn Brittany about her name going around so she went around saying Evans all day which is what I decided to stick with.

Amir and Gerda are kind of not fun to talk to. Especially Gerda. She is never straight forward, she seems to be constantly trying to look like shes down for anything but not say what's on her mind.

Britt left. Will blamed the Chris thing on me, even though it was ALL him. He's probably doing it cause I told Nora and eventually Chris.

I loved talking to Will but I will never tell him anything game wise real again.

I have small problems with Evan, Gerda, Will and Amir. Trying to fix things with Chris. And Nora seems to be doing what I originally wanted to do which is follow other people. And Ashlee never went to tribal so idk how much she really likes me.

So I'll probably die soon god I hope we swap. I'm in no alliances bigger than 2 people and there always has been one by this stage of the game. So fuck me !!!

I'm hoping I can make Ashlee my new person but everyone probably likes her.

"torrobo"

- I went to sleep at 11 pm last night. I thought that this was it - everything was set on Brittany and I would wake up to just those results. And yes, that did happen. But I also found out that during that last hour volcano Ryan hit the campsite! And there I was like a poor Tyrion without a coffee or a sandwich after everything was burnt to ashes! I've got a question: who the fuck ruins their game on day 3? Like honestly, who?? I get that losing an ally is hard, it seriously sucks (depending the value level of the ally) but if that happens you adapt and you move on. You do not ruin your own game! Because that's exactly what Ryan did. The only reason he is still in the game is for the fact that I was asleep and the others did not want to change their plan without consulting me. Ryan not only threw several names out there (mainly Chris and especially Evan) but he also just really kept pressuring everyone to the point that all of us groaned when our message boxes pinged with his notifications! On top of that he told Chris that Will was actually gunning for him and really tried to make these guys go against each other. Luckily it seems that they both talked it out and are good now. But all of us are afraid of either the Preys kidnapping him if we lose again or him just causing chaos again if we go to Tribal once more. I mean.. who was it that told me on Day 1 that they were now with a much better attitude in regards of the game? Less than 2 days later I saw that the actual truth was completely different! Right now Ryan has realized this himself and is trying to do massive damage control by reaching out to all of us. I mean here I am at 11 pm talking to the guy about pidgeons! Pidgeons! Now I'm not saying that I cannot forgive the guy - in fact I think outside of the game he seems like a great guy - but I just cannot trust him as an ally. It is just such a shame to see such a smart player go down in flames like that. Like if you have to be one of the Hantz', why be Brandon? Be Russell instead! At least that guy makes it pretty deep into post-merge most of the times! It seems everyone is thinking pretty much in the same direction and Ryan seems like an easy vote at the next Tribal. Should we swap, there will still be some Predators around gunning for him (because believe me when I say the tribe is PISSED) and will probably convince Preys to vote him out. It will be a miracle if he makes it post-merge - but even if he does I do not see him becoming a winner. At least today things have been mostly calm. We have had the chance to take a day off. But there is still the chance that the Reward challenge results will only make things worse and I really hope that will not happen..

"torrobo"

- I have had an absolutely WILD 24 hours. So I went from being on the same page with Ryan about voting Chris out, to having him as my arch nemesis and Chris my ally within the space of about 5 hours. At 7pm, I left Ryan with “am going into a conference now for 4 hours so can’t chat but will be back later” and he was all “omg yeah talk then for sure x”. By 11pm, i.e. 1 hour before the deadline, I had HELLFIRE IN MY DMs of ALL sorts. Chris asking me why I hated him. Nora asking me what tf had happened. Ryan spamming me with pleas to talk. Brittany begging me to keep her. Amir manically checking in on the plan. I was literally stumbling through central London, blisters on my feet (new shoes for conference) almost getting ran over as I rapidly defended myself in DMs to everyone, glued to my phone screen. All because for SOME REASON, Ryan thought it was a good idea to throw the only person GENUINELY willing to save him/Brittany under the bus and cause chaos? And help the person he doesn’t like i.e. Chris?? It makes NO GODDAMN SENSE. I can’t. NO WORDS. I It’s wild to think, that I genuinely was thinking about sabotaging the challenge by deleting the google doc to get a clear shot at voting out Chris bc I trusted Ryan so much, and he went and did this. WOW. Thank GOD I DIDN’T! Whatever, it didn’t work, all it did was bring me and Chris closer together bc we had another rly deep chat and j admitted to being mean about each other which means we rly do just have everything out in the open now and we can rly move forward. I’m sad Brittany is gone, but now I rly do just need Ryan GONE. Before his chaos spreads further. Also, i’v been having a lot better chats with Evan, Gerda remains my absolute queen, and Nora’s a legend too.

"kikuyu"

- so like lowkey I saw the reward challenge and knew immediately that I was not going to take it that seriously, I lowkey submitted an alphabetical list and it was pretty funny, random.org would've been a good option as well but alphabetical is as intentional as u can get w the trolling. but anyway another reason is like alphabetically puts Alex at the top and he's been quite inactive so it'll be interesting to see how that goes. meanwhile, Trent is at the bottom of my list but he's still very useful so like that'll be interesting to see as well. I'll have a better idea of the averages n stuff also with Alex on top and Trent at the bottom it means I'm more likely to get a higher ranking due to that. so woohoo! I miss Ashlee already most of these ppl r like impossible to talk to bc they leave me on reading every 2 messages or just don't read it sucks.

"torrobo"

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"kikuyu"

- CASS HAS LEFT ME ON READ 5 TIMES TODAY I SWEAR EVERYONE HATES ME. THEY KEEP LEAVING ME ON READ. I think I may be overreacting but I'd send like 4 inciteful or like convo starting messages and cass will EITHER A: leave me on read B: reply with an emote or C: "haha". EVEN BRINGING UP FOOD ISN'T WORKING ANYMORE. I am going insane on this island omg get me out!! like literally I had such a great convo with Trent on the first day but now he's leaving me on read left n right and its scary. Alex and jack r still the same, jino always replies but he sleeps for like 20 hours a day I s2g. Cali doesn't read my messages but reads the main chat. literally, only like Natalia and Natalie r replying in a timely fashion whenever they r online. maybe its time for the NNN alliance. I mean I guess if they're leaving me on read they're also leaving others on read idek. maybe the rankings will help me decide if I'm dying or not.

"kikuyu"

- update on the Alex color situation. I had a somewhat convo with Alex at school today and we settled on an emote and color woohoo! teal for chat color and DIAMONDS for an emote. clown was second place for emote (szy ur a clown xo). I feel like if Alex has really been as inactive as I perceive to be I am now in his good graces because we had like quite a bit of convo but I was at school so I had to rush it n stuff. ugh! school ruins everything as per usual. cant wait to get outta here in another week for a 2 week holiday. this island is really driving me insane though I JUST WANNA TALK TO PEOPLE BUT PEOPLE JUST LEAVE ME ON READ AND REFUSE TO TALK TO ME AHHH. by the time its day 39 I'm gonna need to be shipped off to an insane asylum I do not even kid pls give me Ashlee.

"kikuyu"

- hopefully, the challenge is something not that bad bc I plan on going to school tomorrow and I won't know whether or not to skip until 11am tomorrow which is during school hours. I'm still very concerned at my tribe's challenge ability last challenge was a fluke I swear. like the other tribe has people like Chris blue Evan and Will I'm super super scared. but also if we lose I'm pretty certain that I'll be safe and like I can be seen as less of a threat? idk i don't think I'm seen as a threat anyway with so many winners on this cast.

Day 5
"kikuyu"

- Well. Ranked last by my own tribe. Fucking JINO, someone who’s horrendously useless, ahead of me. I mean I get it I was away the starting weekend and I’m doing a bit of catch up and also Nicole didn’t put me first because she ranked it alphabetically (god I love her and her clumsiness) but come on. This is ridiculous. Whatever, I get to sit out of a confusing endurance challenge when I’m working 12 hours tomorrow so not super complaining. I’m rebuilding social ties with everyone but Jino and Cassandra so i feel like I’m in an ok spot. If we lose maybe Ashlee will get them to kidnap me, or I can just ensure Jino is voted out bc again, WORTHLESS.

"kikuyu"

- im LOLing because I really lucked out on this challenge. I cannot be held liable for the tribe losing because all i'm responsible for is attacking, plus i'm not seen as the most valuable/the biggest threat. it is amazing for me! not to mention i can literally just sit there and pretend to try in the challenge and still have my effort appreciated! we love it, we really do.

"kikuyu"

- After a chill day yesterday. it became the opposite today. THIS IS INTENSE.

The past two challenges from this game has been a struggle to me that I've seen myself now as the weakest link I am really annoyed right now -_- hope we win this time and I can crush the 3rd challenge or work my way with words for now I can guarantee that Cali, Nicole and Natalie might be working with me but I am scared that Natalia is getting annoyed I need just at least 5 for majority :'( I hope I can survive.

"torrobo"

- im playing such a bad game !! omg

"kikuyu"

- lmfao I ranked third on the ranking and I don't mind at all but it's so funny that cass got first, my doing the list alphabetically probably contributed to that. basically, the activity is what I've said it is jino jack and Alex being on the bottom and everyone else being kinda middle Natalia being at the top was pretty expected as well. also, Alex got second to last even though I literally put him top of my list shook that means that people must hate him as much as I do x. jack was sit out and has been bringing it up in chat several times like "cass is loved and I'm hated" and then being like jk jk but he ain't joking lmao and its obvious. it makes me somewhat uncomfortable but hey I'd be angry as well if I was in his position.

"kikuyu"

- jack and jino r like kinda hinting to me that they want each other out, interesting how they skipped Alex even though he was low as well. jack was commenting on jino's cluelessness and we made a drinking game out of it, we actually had a good convo today and he replied to me like every time woohoo! jino basically said ugh I hope I can contribute and then vote jack off if we lose. tbh I'm probably going to get kidnapped anyway, I feel like I'd rather keep jino over jack. here's the thing I love both of them as people and would rather vote out rank one cassandra but when really weighing it up. jino poses no strategic threat to me and seems loyal while jack has like a huge brain and can be scary down the line zz lets just win.

"kikuyu"

- I feel so bad for the other tribe but also I don't. William Griffin YOU ARE CANCELLED! you have blocked us TWICE and we don't stan u. Ryan ur such a speedy ninja and ur LAST PLACE ON UR TRIBE maybe it's making u try harder xo. Ashlee is trying her best and I adore her so I ain't gonna comment anything there. Gerda was slow twice and then when we were like ugh Gerda's slow time to take advantage she snapped omg. amir hasn't shown up in the defender's thread but apparently has tried attacking a few times. Nora has apparently typoed 3 times and I'm so scared of Chris wtf I see him offline for like 2 hours a day at most and sometimes never. My guess for who's getting voted out from their tribe if they lose is Nora also I'm kidnapping Ashlee and in the talks with Jino and Trent. Jino seems convinced but Trent is still leaving me on read so much so I can't really tell.

"kikuyu"

- I AM GOING INSANE. I was like hahahahahaha cass got first place hahahaha funny right like I thought it was a good laugh but now I'm literally slowly going insane omg. I'm online and no one else on my tribe is and the other tribe is probably attacking tf out of us rn and I can't do anything because I'm rank THREE!! and cass who has contributed barely anything and also LEFT THE CHAT ON SIGHT... I'm gonna cry omg. why do I do this to myself? org make me more of an emotional mess than I already am. I'm probably gonna actually sleep for the first time in an endurance challenge bc no ones even on to attack with me ready to wake up and find out that the other tribe has 300 more points than us xoxoxo goodnight.

"torrobo"

- I don't know WHAT it is about this challenge that just draws a line in the sand of who I respect and who I hate but as far as I'm fuckin concerned Will is absolutely dead to me for not giving two shits about this challenge, Gerda/Amir fucked up more times than I can even count and whether that's on purpose or not IDFK but let me tell you something if these people think for ONE second they can vote me out or even TRY throwing my name out after trying my fucking best and being available the entire fucking time I will pop off and we will expose all of that nonsense. I hear my name it's being called out PERIOD.

Absolutely fuckin ridiculous that these people are this incompetent why do I always get put on the less able tribe... NONSENSE!

Day 6
"torrobo"

- This confessional will be a little less sassy than usual. This comes from a sleep deprived person who has stayed up for like 20 hours and lost another challenge because she just couldn't stay awake long enough. And now the winning Kikuyu tribe is rubbing it in our faces! Like Nicole even laughed at our attempts to defend. It's not my fault that my tribe is from so many different timezones and walks of life whereas their tribe seems to be magically awake when it's like 4 am my time! I really REALLY hated this challenge. I hated it so much when we lost that I cried. I thought about quitting for a moment because this is so not what I need right now. It's unfair that basically since I was chosen both as a defender and attacker I had to basically for the last 2 hours defend despite the fact that I was just really really tired. And all I kept seeing was the :O smileys when I made typing accidents due to my sleepiness and :( when I actually managed to defend and XD from Nicole when Kikuyu finally managed to win. And let me tell you: Kikuyu is the worst tribe despite the fact that they have won two challenges. They are rude and for some reason force one of their members (mainly Jino) stay up all night. If I am in the jury and Nicole somehow makes it to the FTC I will be very reluctant to vote for her already based on that. Like okay... I'm sorry that you literally didn't have to both attack and defend for your tribe. You don't know what it's like to be at work and constantly have to check your phone. I almost got in trouble! I don't know why I cared so much.. probably because I love my tribe. I really love these people. They voted me as the first member of their tribe. They all care for me so much from what I have seen. And I really wanted to do something for them. I really really hope that they don't kidnap me because honestly I would just have a very lousy time at their camp. I will get over this, I will .. We will lose Ryan unless they kidnap him. I seriously hope they won't because otherwise Ashlee may be in danger and I actually really like her. If we don't lose her at least I hope that the next challenge we get is a flash game because I really got screwed over by my timezone and responsibilities today. No one should have to carry such a burden like I did today. I thought this game would be fun but today it was pure, utter torture.

"kikuyu"

- WOOOO another immunity win!!! And I didn’t do anything except cheerlead!!! Lmao totally fine with this it gives me more time to keep building relationships and settle in so if we ever lose I can make sure I’m good (really enjoying talking to Cali she’s delightful). With ashlee back maybe I can have another go at the trial and get another advantage hehe

"kikuyu"

- Okay so first of all, I was SHOOOK to be placed 2nd in value for the tribe loll I swear I thought I was doing such a good job of staying around the MOTR - UTR and then the results came out and I'm so WORRIED that the predators are going to come for wig now and maybe that the preys will also want to make a BiG mOvE and come for me I literally stayed AFK for like most of day 3, purposely did not throw any opinion in terms of kidnapping vote, didn't really talk much, AND I don't think I've even started any private conversations, except maybe the first night. I could expect Jino to rank me highly because we have past history lol but for this result to be the average amongst the tribe??? Well. Now that I got ranked second anyway, I gotta play the cards I'm dealt. So for this challenge I stepped up to the plate of my rank and pulled through accordingly bc I really didn't want us to lose, mainly to force Torrobo to keep losing members cuz they're so scary lmao imagine a tribe of like all winners except for 2? NNNNNN. But honestly Prey tribe just as scary just in a different way cuz they have NOTHING TO LOSE. They are all here to make sure their ass does not go home. I am not underestimating anyone this season!! Every player is badass in their own way. Every player raises a risk.

Also! Jino created an alliance chat of 5 tonight of (Jino Trent Cali Nicole and myself). He brought it up to me as soon as he and Trent talked about it but I tried to push him to make sure Trent made the actual chat and brought it up to most ppl so that he's at the forefront and takes the hit in case of anything but JINO did not do this and created the chat himself 🤦 like babe I'm literally trying to keep you safe!! 😩😩 Other than this, I feel really good about this alliance because my faves are probably Nicole Cali and Jino and my initial like question marks about Trent are being settled a bit more now as I talk to him more but I still don't really trust him lmao. And I found out from Jino that Cali said Trent blindsided her out of their season on 703 and that we should keep that in mind and not trust him too much :o and you know we LOVE some hot tea. So I'm hoping when necessary, we can use Cali to get her revenge on Trent and get him out. Unless they make up or unless this is not some real tea and they're secretly super close 👀 gonna have to do my research ab this lol but yeah I'm glad I got added into an alliance now bc even though we're safe, it's day 6 so it's good to be prepared for a tribal in the future.

"kikuyu"

- Ashlee is picking me again to possibly go to the trial AND Trent is asking me what went down because he TRUSTS ME and wants to know if Ashlee is trustworthy. I AM MAKING BONDS PEOPLE I AM TELLING YOU THIS BOTTOM RANKING IS A FLUKE!!!! (Okay, phrasing)

"kikuyu"

- First order of business:

The tribe name is now KikUwU. More to come on that later. Also, Brittany left and I'm like WOAH, I was not expecting that. And then we get this challenge that asked us to rank our tribe and you know good and goddamn well that I Random.ORG'd that lol but hopefully, I'm not too low.

"kikuyu"

- What a weird day. I've honestly been through it all and now I'm really tired. I sort of slacked off for a good amount of the immunity challenge Because I Wanted To (TM) and then I ended up helping us win (even though we all did our parts to win by a huge margin). I'm still not even sure how we won by that much, it felt like their tribe was straight up throwing it lol. They just gave up and it was bizarre.

After the challenge, I got added to a 5 person alliance with myself, Jino, Nicole, Cali, and Natalia. This was my ideal group minus Alex, which is fantastic. We haven't been losing yet, so as long as we keep up the momentum, then I can totally see us trying to boot Jack and Cass and then us reaching a swap or merge or something pending future craziness.

Then Ashlee was kidnapped and I had a crackhead moment lol, I thought she might be lying about her tribe telling her straight up she was going home, but that wasn't very fair for me to assume. She doesn't seem like a good liar and as nice as she is, she's kind of messy so... I can kind of see someone like Chris doing that now lol. But then I decided she definitely lied to me last round about the rock draw since she told me the white rock played the challenge, I drew a white rock and did nothing. So then I decided to try and find who got the third rock since I know Alex got the other white rock and lo and behold, it was Jack! Who proceeded to lie to me about the whole thing and play dumb about it, which is annoying because it's literally such an easy lie to get caught in. But now I'm worried that Jack is on my case, which is something I was already afraid of because he talks like he hates everyone and doesn't want to be here. But now I'm worried that Jack has some sort of power in the game and we're gonna try to get rid of him first only for it to backfire on me. Ugghh. I was freaking out about it to EVERYONEEE though which is funny in hindsight, but also cringeworthy and potentially damning to my game. Alex helped ground me, luckily, but I can't say I was too happy about the situation. And then of course I draw another white rock which means... I'm still in the dark on this whole game and either Jack or Alex are getting off with another advantage. Hopefully Alex got it because I really don't know if I can handle Jack having two advantages lol.

OR there's the potential of being mutinied to the other tribe if we lose which would just be catastrophic. I want nothing to do with that, this twist stinks!

"torrobo"

- As of right now im pretty sure I'm going home. I'm not in any alliances (In Costa Rica i wasn't either but we won every immunity). I'm sure there's a big one. Gerda's probably with Amir and Will and probably Nora.

Everything bad that could happen did. Ashlee, my only ally other than kind of Chris, was kidnapped. I'm kind of very annoyed they chose her again when I was literally ranked last.

I'm a sitting duck. Chris said I should talk to Gerda to offer everything. Which I already did and she basically said "that's nice".

Will is a psychopath. I said "hello." to him and he called me sassy, rude and not courteous for putting a fucking period. He's ignored me for days. Hate him.

"torrobo"

- If Chris tells me its deadlocked on me I'm just gonna start a random ass rumour about Amir and hope it spreads and saves me. Or maybe about Will or Nora. I"m literally prey right now. So annoying.

"kikuyu"

- Today is Day 6 and I just created an alliance!!!

Okay so how I created was quite obvious. I really want Natalie in the 6 but Trent told me he has never talk game with him so I focus to us 5 well I think I can really trust them but I need to always guard myself.

So my first goal is to really reach day 100 and second is to win. Right now if I would count day 6 I am already 77 days in so 23 more to go.

And I have a proud moment from the challenge. Your boy stayed for like 24 hrs and blocked 4 in a row 💖 although I know the attacker did more work but the anxiety is too much.

So that is all for now. It is a messed up confessional but I will bring more details soon.

"torrobo"

- Gerda makes me mad. She opens messages and doesn't respond and then talks in the main chat or I hear her talking to other people. Brittany said she was doing that to her last round.

Like!!! I get we're not in jury but damn!!!

"torrobo"

- im so dumb. ive basically told everyone except amir and will id vote with them. but also 3/4 of them have been like ":) do u hear something?" im so shit at survivor turn this into big brother julie !!!!

"kikuyu"

- So like I woke up and my tribe didn't so much while I was asleep but KING JINO defended our base w his life omg he stayed up until so late like by the time I woke up it was 4 am his time and he was still awake, king!! so we won that challenge thanks to everyone's efforts and I'm glad we got to kidnap Ashlee again they tried to propose a Ryan vote but it got noped because too many people locked in Ashlee which is a thank god moment tbh bc like if we didn't have Ashlee back I'd go insane!! like girl u don't even know... anyway jack didn't get to contribute which sucks since he's active now, Alex contributed a bit idk but cass for the most important member defs didn't contribute like at all when compared to me Natalia Trent and Cali.

"kikuyu"

- lowkey, the challenge just ended and jino wants to make an alliance. I told him oh go have food first so it isn't too rushed and I have time to process. BUT HE APPARENTLY EATS FOOD IN 5 MINUTES CAUSE I LOOK BACK AND A CHAT HAS BEEN CREATED WITH ME TRENT NATALIA AND CALI ALONG W JINO SHOOK. but lowkey there's a concern Trent told me that jino wanted to start this alliance but Natalia told me that jino told her that Trent wanted to start the alliance. that's rather intriguing... I reckon it was jino tbh it seems out of character for Trent to include jino. also, jack defs don't like jino they still have this rivalry that Alex isn't included in. at this rate, we'll swap before I have to choose between the two but like its fun that jack is active now so, he'll be able to contribute to challenges since he wasn't given a chance this time... jack n Trent got a lot better today in terms of leaving me on read, it's literally impossible to have a proper convo with cass still but I still have that messy alliance with cass and Trent. me n Trent r in high demand heh. Nicole: I'm not gonna start too many alliances also Nicole: gets dragged into alliances suddenly.

"kikuyu"

- Ok so about the whole kidnap twist situation. Trent brought up with my last round that there are rocks that are drawn by people who are chosen by Ashlee herself and he said that she lied to her because she said that white rocks mean challenges but he got a white rock and didn't get to challenge. So I decided to get to the bottom of this so I went to Ashlee and convinced her to add me to the three people for this round and I got lucky and picked black rock. Me and Ashlee have decided to share whatever prize we get like all of the information which is good for me because I get to do whatever I like even if I lose the challenge. So then I did the challenge and there was UNSCRAMBLE that's literally my worst enemy to ever exist mercy on my soul, I still hope Ashlee is slower than me even if she is sharing I just want to win and have the power and even though its unlikely that she'll lie to me because she really seems to be genuine and just a bit forgetful. I want 100% certainty and control over the situation.

"kikuyu"

- a concern is that according to all information I have Jack drew the black rock last round and he won the challenge. that concerns me because A: he hasn't told me B: he's very dangerous and C: all of the above. Hopefully, I win this challenge and get the advantage to get a better understanding of what I could be dealing with in terms of Jack. because I have a feeling he is so sick of this tribe and literally to flip like any second now he was ranked last and no one is paying a lot of attention to him. so now I've gone from concerned about jack being voted out to concerned about jack being all dangerous with an advantage and uncertain loyalties woohoo!

"torrobo"

- Can I just say, these prey tribe people are BUSHHH league based off their kidnapping and actions this round. It's weird, I'm honestly just as livid about Ashlee getting kidnapped again as I am losing this challenge, just because I really wanted to see how it'd be like working w/ her a tribal council but also just from a genuine side because she did NOT want to be kidnapped again. But alas sure let's keep further drawing that line in the sand amirite

This vote is a 95% chance of an easy direction one way with a 5% of whatthefuck. Ryan is a really easy vote at this juncture just because he hasn't really done much to recover from his aggressive campaign last round, but last night I actually had to comfort a crying Nora bc she thought she's alone on the tribe and that Will is the true rat/biggest threat/the move to make. I.. don't disagree with her there and honestly in a way if we could get a blindside on Will why the fuck not? But if Amir and Gerda are so squarely in his corner, the last thing I want is a fractured tribe heading into a swap at 16.. thing is too though, I know Will's offered a F3 with Chris/Nora, I know he's tight with Amir thus making him tight with Gerda, then he told me ab how Ashlee felt close to me and he liked her .. like I can't be the only one seeing he's trying to wrap himself in all these little mini trios?? That + the fact he has 2 other people he's played with on the other side is terrifying.

This is why I actually pray to god that either Ryan or Nora can push an envelope to expose/rat out Will and his double dealing, but unfortunately I don't think Ryan has much social credibility at this point and Nora wants to play it safe. It just sucks but I also have to look at it on another side too, a Ryan vote could be the easy 6-1 and if we do swap I have my bases covered with everyone on this tribe and can use them as a number. Thing is, I actually hope we have another round before a swap so I could get an idol clue + potentially something from the kidnapping twist + see what the fuck is going on on the Prey. That's all for now friendz

"torrobo"

- We lost the endurance challenge: so upsetting and frustrating! I honestly put gerda and amir as top2 of my ranking list when i submitted that reward/immunity tasks to make them visible and put targets on their backs in front of the other tribe and doing so, helping chris and evan not be seen as the biggest targets here bc i'm getting closer to them. The endurance was stressful honestly but i loved the tribe call <3 it was so cute and Amir was funny af haha Ryan should be the easy vote tonight. So sad! I wished the other tribe kidnapped Ryan and hasn't continued their obsession of kidnapping Ashlee AGAIN!! God, kinda pissed me off that the prey tribe seems not to care about me at all; like hello, leaving me in this tribe of winners for the tribal! well, in fact, there is not much to worry about for me but just in appearance, what they did kinda show me that they don't care of me: OKAY GOTCHA, BYE! okay so i said that i wished they kidnapped Ryan lmao so i could vote Will out. Idk how to describe it but rn i just KNOW and FEEL that me and Will, it ain't gonna work and when my guts and my brain agree, i know thats the Tea!! He is sketchy! I heard from ryan that Will told him that me and chris could be close and then when i talked to will the day after the first tribal, he explained to me first why he was so chaotic and then told me like i was his close ally, that he would of included me if he had a plan of blindsiding chris bla bla bla...and then he suggested me a TRIO of HIM ME AND CHRIS SCCCRRREEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMSSSSSS.....boy wtf??? he just wants to watch me and chris out; like to make sure we don't go against him and that was a test to see if im close to chris too. So i acted like very skeptical telling him that i doubt that trio could work and i really made him understand that i was not down to ally w chris bc "im not close to him enough gamewise". IDK if he believed me or not and idc, the boy really is overplaying. LOL We all know Will's allies are Gerda and Amir. About my relationships, hmm, i kinda feel closer to Chris every day? Evan is supposed to be my #1 yes but i feel more connected socially to Chris. I feel like i'm in a way where Evan will be voting with me everytimes in the way best for us and Chris being my partner in crime. Gerda sees me as the "lovely and dear nora" = positive but underestimating, seeing me as non-threat or a vote for her: GOOD!! she ain't see me coming later. She is kinda hard to talk game actually. She phrases her opinions as general truth and don't really let the discussion open for you to give idea. Example, to start a gametalk i say that i wonder when the swap will come// She will reply that whenever the swap happens, all we need to understand is that we have to adapt, make new allies and make merge so nothing to worry much. GIRL! When i say i wonder how people gonna vote, she will reply that everything will be okay, she is confident. REALLY? she perceives the way i start gametalk as REAL fears i share when NO NO thats not the case, i just want you to think im vulnerable and that you can tell me everything bc i need you?!!!! But like hmm, i wanted to be underestimated this time, this season, so people won't see me too much intimidating so thats good if she sees me harmless i guess. I saw during Brittany's vote how she works and how to make her react in a way: She feels so much confident in the game that she is not the kind of player to double-check an info or go around to test the water, a blindside will break her heart and soul if that happens to her. Well, ITS SO TIRING TO PLAY DUMB tho. Globaly, my tribe sees me as a non-threat and they prob wonder WHY im in this predator tribe! I know they all underestimate me actually but i need to do that bc i still remember the whole merged tribe of Galapagos scared of me and TRYING to vote my ass out LOL : keep doing! keep closing yalls eyes! Close your eyes for now because i will open them later.

"kikuyu"

- It's really chill here on the Prey tribe. I'm a bit nervous because I only have an alliance with Nicole and I haven't heard anyone really trying to talk game but its just cause we havent gone to tribal so we are just in a happy mood as tribe. I love this tribe. I hope we can stay on this streak too.

"torrobo"

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"torrobo"

- ( I think this is day 6, sry if not, it's just before the second tribal) First up, the challenge was HIDEOUS. I stayed up til 4am staring at a screen for NUTHIN and I'm mad. Secondly, this vote is too easy. Everyone is set on Ryan, but I just feel UNSETTLED. I have literally ignored Ryan since the incident, no regrets. but I can't help thinking that he might have got an advantage of some sort for being ranked last in the challenge beforehand... it could tie in with the prey-predator theme. Regardless, I refuse to throw a vote on anyone and put their game in jeopardy to potentially save me - it's my drama that's caused this, and I surprisingly actually genuinely like everyone on my tribe like... wow, everyone is amazing in their own way and I'm shocked at that. So ya, hopefully that under-the-bus magnet is yeeted outta here tonight.