The Equivalent of a Nuke/Confessionals

Day 19
"baku"

- I love Felix to death but the guy has like one emoji he always uses. The Smiley Face. Sometimes it's appropriate when we talk about something happy or joyful. But he also puts it next to bad news like the Jake thing. Like this is not a time to be smiling man. It's like he could say "My puppy dog died today smile emoticon " lol dude, do you have any other emoji you can use¿?

"sheki"

- Omg. Or we are merged or this is another twist. But I'm with Clifford, Jared, austin, jessica and nifty now. All the people I need!!! Omg I'm freaking happy. I had to leave sheki for good. "sheki"

- It is a freaking mess out here. This fake merge has caused a lot more problems for the Five Guys alliance instead of solutions. Everyone on Khizi atm is against Cliff and Joe, and are all trying to actively throw the challenge to get one of them out. All of these people are buttin' heads and telling everyone different things. I can't fit all the chaos of this tribal into one neat, small confessional so I'll try to report back on more of what's happening in a video confessional or something, but let me just say that this fake merge is basically the equivalent of a nuke.

"khizi"

- So merge or nah this is pretty confusing. I wouldnt mind a merge right now because I think I have solid connections with multiple people here and would be able to make a solid 6 person alliance to get my way through this game. Im more confused than a a tourist in New York City.

"khizi"

- I should probably talk about the drama last night so im still kind of in this. Everyones a lying hoe and I drank too much to even respond the end

"sheki"

- So I've been on every tribe in this game except Khizi now! It's exciting to finally be in what I think is the merge and the jury phase, as far as I know I'm honestly sitting pretty well right now because according to Nifty im very approachable and have already had people offering to work with me, I mended the Bakara alliance with Felix and Bryce and apparently Bryce has the rings of duality! It's awesome because Clifford has the mask of restriction and Nifty has the vote spy, I have the dark Pearl but I honestly don't think that's gonna handicap me as bad as I thought it would, im aligned with ella and she will probably make a Jared/Jessica/Me chat, and at that point im pretty sure every person on Odlar Yurdu will trust me, and then I have to break that trust with a few of them, from what I know I feel like we should target people that we are positive have the idols, I know Hunter has the Sheki, well we at least highly speculate it, but I'm in a pretty good position as of right now, we'll have to see exactly how it goes down very soon, it's gonna be exciting.

"khizi"

- From the position of being on the bottom of the alliance I'm in and the least liked, I feel like my approach should be to shut the fuck up and pray I'm not targeted I'll let the big boys make the strategic moves. Let cliff use his idols when he has to. hope the Jessica's, the cliffs, the robs, the austins, the actual good players which is why I think Jared is prob playing the best long term game

"khizi"

- So merge or nah this is pretty confusing. I wouldnt mind a merge right now because I think I have solid connections with multiple people here and would be able to make a solid 6 person alliance to get my way through this game. Im more confused than a a tourist in New York City. I should probably talk about the drama last night so im still kind of in this. Everyones a lying hoe and I drank too much to even respond the end I said this in the chat but I thought it was funny so im making it a confessional: Its like we all just got married and Probst was like ""I know pronounce you survivor and Odlar Yurdu""

"sheki"

- So now we are merged I should be safe for a couple of episodes. Why? I have almost everyone on my side so it's easy. I have Austin. Austin says everything to me and he's easily to manipulate. He does everything I want so I have full power on him. Doesn't take away I like him a lot, maybe most of all these people. Nifty is fun, he even tried to put the target away from my ass. And it worked pretty well if I'm not wrong. Hunter talks with me for the first time so that has to mean something. This brings me to Hunter, if I want someone out of this game it's Hunter and I'm going to do my best to put the target on him as soon as possible. Joseph, that dumb goat is on my side as well. Now I saved him at Baku 2.0 he fully trusts me. But a lot of people dislike him and he'll be probably one of the first boots in merge so bye joe. I've talked with Rob today and he was very open to me. I know he's not in the best spot but he's close with Hunter and Jessica. So I could work on them. Brings me to Jessica. I saved Jessica at our first TC. Why would she go after me. She trusts me and I trust her. Jake R is for now the only one I havent talked with so if he doesnt show up soon he'll appear on my target list. Nick is just really inactive. This may put a target on his back. I'm not gonna fight for him or something. He won't do for me anyway so lmao bye Nick. Clifford, he's so amazing omg. I adore him and I hope he will not be targeted but I think he will. He's against Rob, Jake R and jessica. So lmao I'll be a swiiiiiing vote #oops. Felix, I have nothing with him. Just nothing. Bryce, I talked with him and told him about Jaylen's elimination etc and he wasnt mad at all lol. But I feel safe with him. He's the best friend of my boyfriend. Why would he target me? Michael will be so mad at him. And honestly, I want to go to the end with Bryce. Who's left uhm... Jared! Omg jared is my bestie since day 1. When I got reunied today with him we were sooooo happy omg. I missed him a lot, really. So I got everyone now. How am I going to play in merge? Easy, i'll do my best in challenges. Really, a goal would be to win at least 3 individual challenges. Quite impossible with Felix and Nifty but idc, I'm just gonna do it. Besides that I'll try to stand at the background. IF I reach FTC i'll explain everything ofc. For now if I was on tribal council I made the big moves. It was me. So if I continue with that and make all the big moves without being targeted I could play the perfect game. And I'll try to get no votes against me. I want to win with 0 votes against me. I'm getting closer and closer. 10 people to beat and then I'm at final tribal council. Shouldn't be a big deal??? Lmao.

"sheki"

- I have so much bad luck with the idols. I'm like looking for those since day 1. And I haven't found it. It's so unfair am I just blinde or what? I really need a idol and specially in this phase of the game. In the past seasons the winners have almost always a idol. And I could make amazing moves with a idol. I really need it!!

"sheki"

- Just asked Hunter if he had the idol lol and he told me this 'Hunter Reed I honestly don't I've narrowed it down to the exact guess with clues but I can't get it Someone else has it'. Well, honestly I believe him but also I'm not. I know Austin has not the idol. Nick and nifty could get it so I have to keep them close to me.

"khizi"

- We are coming into this merge, from 2 tribe swaps so its going to be so hard to figure out who you can trust, which tribes people are going to stay loyal to and outside relationships. I know for a fact I want to work with Jared, but hes also with Felix and Bryce and im with Hunter Jake and Jess so we are all over the place its going to be a crucial yet hectic vote

"baku"

- So I survived. Felix was right. Jake was majorly bluffing. I have a feeling he knew the idol he head was fake, but that didn't stop him from playing it at all. To be honest, I was really nervous it was real. I really should trust Felix more when it comes to other people. Throughout the game, I have trusted him to vote with me and be strategic with me, but I also need to understand that he is in my corner and that he wants me to stay and that I want him to stay. I also need to ensure that all of the people in my circle stay with me and get blood on their hands. Meanwhile, I'll sit in the back and eat my popcorn and watch the show. Why everyone wants me out is clueless to me. I'm not that big of a threat people like chill out a little bit. I'm not this big fat snake that you think I am. When I say I am loyal I'm loyal. Gah. Why does everyone always perceive me in this way. I'm not the ""Biggest Snake"" that Solar described me as last time. I wasn't then and I'm not now. This 'merge' that we are in is definitely just a Thailand or Gabon thing where everyone thinks that we are merging and then BAM we we either switch tribes or we continue with the tribes we were originally with. But hey, I'm learning this time to be more aware of what is going on in the game. I am not going to be that naive player I was last time and assume that I'm the only one playing the game. I would like to think this is a merge, but if it isn't, I'll just go with the flow.

"baku"

- I feel that I'm kinda in a good spot right now. I'm still going strong with my original Khizi alliance Jessica & Ella. I also have been talking to Felix, Rob, Nick, Jake, and a few others. I'm not at the head of any alliance but I like it like that since those people usually go first at merge.

"baku"

- I just met Cliff and I can already tell hes gonna try to be the funny guy that everyone loves blahblahblah and I'm already over it. Like so far his attempted jokes haven't been funny lol

"khizi"

- We were all skeptical about this merge, but once we came up with the name and color it seemed official but guess not oops i hit send too soon i actually wont be that upset if we lose this challenge because we can finally get rid of the virus named joe. On the merged tribe he was just not beneficial to our game and this is a glorious opportunity to take him out

"sheki"

- This whole double tribal twist has screwed the plans of The Five Guys alliance MAJORLY. Cliff and Joe are at risk of going home if Khizi loses, Ella is at risk of going home if Sheki loses...there are just so many bad scenarios that can happen to us down the road here. At the end of the day, I'll most likely survive no matter what happens. But I don't want someone from The Five Guys to go home when we're within arm's length of reaching the merge and taking the game by storm from this point onwards! We're so close to having an easy rest of this game, but we can't have that until we get past this one last bump in the road. And this bump is so large that someone might just fly out of the car as we drive over it.

"sheki"

- Omg Austin is acting really annoying. He doesnt let me say anything lmao. Like; if u want to do it in ur own do it then. But don't cry if we lose and you will be targeted because then I'm not gonna save you.

"sheki"

- Can I just rant about Rob for a bit right now? Cause he's been stirring up crap since day one on old sheki, and I see that--18 days later--none of that behavior has changed. He's setting people up, telling everyone completely different things, and ultimately just slithering along while whispering things into people's ears, hopin' that they'll believe it. And I am honestly so surprised that he's made it this far in the game with this shit gameplay of his, his carlessness of lying and just trying to stir up as much crap as possible.

AND NOW HE""S SCREWING WITH MY ALLIES, ONCE AGAIN. AND THE WORST PART ABOUT IT IS THAT I CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT YET! I can't vote him out, from what Cliff and Joe have been tellin' me, Jess, Rob, and Jake are determined to stick together.

I'm gonna try my damndest to save them if they end up going to tribal council, but with my current position I don't have a lot of power in which I can save Cliff and Joe and manage to get them to target Rob.

"sheki"

- Okay so I'm about to start ranting about someone, who's been getting on my nerves ever since I've been on Sheki with him, and that someone is Hunter, so I just got done doing this scavenger hunt challenge BY MYSELF, granted I didn't ask for any help and I was fine with doing it by myself, but I would have random input on what I was putting in to see if anyone agreed or objected, it took me about 2 and a half maybe 3 hours to find everything and get it done, so later after that im talking to Ella and she tells me Hunter told her he got annoyed by me in the challenge, now I wish I wasn't like this but I can be easy to anger sometimes, and Hunter has been getting on my last nerve, he said the first day on Sheki that he's dull, and I FULL HEARTEDLY agree that Hunter is the dullest person I have ever met, and also fuck you dude. Fuck you for not doing anything in the challenge, everyone else was appreciative towards me because of what I did, I didn't expect a thank you, but I sure as hell didn't expect or for that matter DESERVE to be called annoying by your stupid ass, you're a lame ass player and you're dull as hell, if you were a color, you'd be gray, if you were an animal, you'd be a slug, if you were a state, you would be Wyoming, you know what all of those have in common? THEY'RE BORING. YOU ARE A BORING PERSON. You're the annoying one with your weak social ability like seriously trying to have a conversation with you literally made me hurt because you can't keep a conversation going for shit. Can't wait to vote you out.

"sheki"

- Talking with Nifty feels good. He says everything about what happend in the game at sheki etc and it gives me a good feeling. We're honest and I build trust with him, every time we talk more and more. He's trustworthy and we have the same opinions about the players in the game. Not only disliking joseph but also being paranoid about Rob who plays his game so messy. If we win this challenge I'm in a perfect spot. And I think i'll be good for the couple of episodes. BUT if we lose, I have to fight. Hunter and his idol can mess everything up. IF he has the idol.

"sheki"

- Confessional #100. I DID IT. I made 100 confessionals in just 19 days. It was one of my goals. I'm giving my whole game in all my confessionals from hour to hour. After the game I can read them all. Omg I'm proud on myself!

"khizi"

- I swear im surrounded by idiots. THE FIRST SENTENCE IN THE CHALLENGE SAID THE SCAVENGER HUNT WAS SURVIVOR RELATED! Whatever Joe, you can put in Ice Age as a choice but theres no survivor reference in that! Have fun at ponderosa!

"khizi"

- Apparently Ella's been campaigning against me because I need more people against me squint emoticon either way If I survive this tribal, I get into a good goat position and hopefully I can cruise to the end I guess its a question on who's a bigger goat than me so I can try to align with them and go through convoluted methods to get them to try to keep me Nick City in a F2 maybe? Austin / Nifty / Cliff are way too likeable Ella maybe, but she'd never work with me So i guess I would need to make a move at 9 I'm not going to sit here and die I'd need to try to convince Nick City to a Final 2 though

"baku"

- Bryce is just.. I don't know. He didn't annoy me that much before but hes really getting on my nerves during this challenge. He's acting like hes the boss or a host or something like you're no better than Felix & I buddy.

"khizi"

- Apparently Jess, Jake, and Rob didn't get the memo: I'm a fuckin' cowboy. They're trying to throw the competition. Jake even offered Felix help on Baku's immunity challenge!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? That kind of confidence is nothing but nails in your coffin. The same coffin I'll be pissing on when you're six feet under. Death to Khizi and good riddance.

Sincerely,

Big. Poppa. Cliffy.

Day 20
"sheki"

- We won! Austin actually won for our tribe! Which means I'm in the final 11. Wow, this is going fast but really insane I have nothing to worry about. Well, that's not 100% true because I need Clifford in the game. Jared is on the chopping block at his tribe but I'm alligned with Bryce and as much as I love my sweet Jared I'm not gonna make a move against bryce again. Jared has to do this by himself. But I'm gonna help Clifford. I know Jessica pretty well so who knows I can do something for him. He has to survive.

"sheki"

- So I made a big scheme of how the game goes from what I know and how it'll go if I take the control. I know that if I'm going to FTC with Austin and Clifford both I won't win. Clifford has many haters in this game while Austin is liked by all the players. I can't go to FTC with him so I have to keep Nick in the game and trying to get him to reach FTC and win from them. Nick is the inactive one and Clifford the hated one. I'm the strategic one AND the active one which means I should win. With Jessica, Austin, (??) Jared (??), Nifty and Bryce in the jury I should get the majority of the votes without doubt. I have good connections with people and I'm already figuring out how I'm going to do my vote for Ella speech. But that's a looooong way to go so I stay with this.

"khizi"

- This scaredy cats alliance is making me scared now. They are not answering who we are voting and have been sketchy since we lost. I think I might be Tom'd right now and completely blindsided, but I have an idol so I might be forced to play this bad boy

"khizi"

- I dont know if Cliff is trying to hard hes trying to play me or the kids an idiot, hes telling me hes going to self-vote. We had a deal we would not vote one another the first tribal, but Joe may be pulling the string between those two and I can get idol'ed out of this game with an idol in my back pocket

"sheki"

- So I'm really liking this one world/Thailand twist. It lets me be involved in tribals that I won't even be apart of. The 5 Guys are gonna be fucked over by me at the merge. I do not plan on sticking with them at all. All I need to do for right now is to make sure Rob and Jared can both make it past this double trouble and then I'm pretty sure we'll be set for merge.

"sheki"

- Looks like I'm gonna end up being the reason uncle Cliffy wastes his idol tonight, chaos NC is here bitches

"baku"

- Of course the one time we aren't in last place its a double tribal lol. I'm on a tribe with a duo so its obvious that I'm gonna be voted out but I have my hopefully real idol to save me. By the end of the tribal I'm gonna look like an idiot or iconic. I'm just really hoping this isn't karma for basically giving Jake a fake idol lmao

"khizi"

- Ok so I know Cliff and Joe are flat out lying to me about the vote. They told me Jess thinking they can do a 2-2-1 and hope they guess the idol right, but I know Cliff has it and will use it on himself. This means me Jake and Jess can go 3 strong on Joe and make it a 3-2 vote and get that pesticide out of here

"sheki"

- Even we're not going to tribal there's so much drama. A nervous and scared Austin came to me saying that Hunter is gunning for him. Honestly I'm so happy to hear that since he was originally targeting me. I love Austin but if he targets Austin I'm more fine with that. Nifty told Austin that Hunter tries to vote him out. Look it's so much drama now but I'm going to stay out of it. I'm not gonna be in trouble for someone else unless it's Clifford.

""sheki"

- So, Sheki won the challenge. But the way we went about doing the challenge was that Austin basically took everything over and stopped to take Ella's opinion or my opinion every so often, so he basically just took it over and did most of the list by himself.

Hunter perceived this as Austin being annoying and pushy, just doing everything by himself and not really letting other have their input. Ella heard about this and told Austin, who ended up telling the Five Guys.

And now Austin and Hunter are basically rivals for the rest of this game lol. Austin wants to target Hunter and Hunter has told me that he wants to target Austin. They're overreacting to it so much and its really just fun to watch.

Best part is that I'm in the middle of it all.

I can keep this tension tight by telling them what the other says about the other. Or, at least what Hunter says about Austin. Not sure how I'd feel the other way around, but I'll keep agreein' w/ Hunter and keep the tension between them tight. Keeps a target off of me, and it keeps a target up there for The Five Guys to shoot for going into the merge. Either way it really helps me out to try and keep them away from each other rather than try to have them resolve their problems.

"sheki"

- Shit. Nick was a mole and was spreading all of the things we said in the Five Guys alliance to fucking Rob. Out of all the people Nick could've been a mole to, it had to be FREAKING ROB. Well, this is great... Clifford assembled the other three guys to inform us all about this. Apparently Rob told Felix, and Felix obviously trusted Clifford more so Felix told Cliff. And now we know that all the info we've spread onto the Five Guys alliance has been shared w/ Rob. God dammit. Hopefully we can use this to our advantage tho. Make Nick feel like he's still a part of the Five Guys and that we still have no clue whatsoever. Feed him false info in that chat and then absolutely blindside him. It still sucks though knowing that our secret alliance has been completely exposed. God dammit Nick...

"sheki"

- OMG. Nick has given Rob all the info we told Nick. Rob knows we're targeting Hunter. If Hunter knows I'm against him it could be bye bye Ella. Nick ruined everything that little pig. I can be so mad about this, we freaking saved his ass at Baku 2.0. What is he even trying? He wants to flip every vote? Lol Nick if these confessionals will be up you will see what mistake you actually are. I'm disgusted. If you were against us this would be a great move but you're making me puke with these actions. So that scheme I made is 100% different now. NICK HAS TO GO FOR REAL.

"baku"

- We need to win this challenge because we are down to three members and one more would be devastating. And I will not be 13th place again. I am determined to win. I really think if we come together as a threesome, we can do this. Losing by so little is really frustrating. It would have been nice to see both tribes of five trying to scramble. This vote is really stressful for me. One thing that I hate about this vote is that Jared has the Light Pearl, meaning he will have one vote against him not count. This means I will have to use the rings of duality. Otherwise, we are going to a tiebreaker and if I'm in that I am screwed! Gah. That would have come in handy come merge time. Jared is a really nice guy. I hate to vote him out but it is what has to be done in order to ensure Felix and I are safe until merge. Hopefully we can survive this vote and become this season's under dogs. This dude is amazing and I would love to be in the finals with him. I just wish that we could have won.

"khizi"

- This is going to be a very emotional tribal and I don't know if I'm ready to face my own actions. For theatrics, I'm the cowboy, the wild man, the last king of Azerbaijan... but in reality....I weep. I weep for all of us who lie, who cheat, who steal, and for the first time in my ORG career...I'm admitting it. I'm the bad guy. I've been told every game I played previously, ""Cliff, you come off like a hero. Like a loveable, trustworthy guy. But in reality...you're the villain."" I'm beginning to see who I really am. My capacity for deception and my fall from grace. But what villain feels empathy? Feels sorrow? Who am I supposed to be? This...rage I feel. The desire to destroy my competitors....it's taking over like a dark symbiotic poison and I'm at the point where I'm finally giving. Finally opening my arms and embracing who I was born to be...

The bad guy.