Board Thread:Season 18 - Heroes vs. Villains/@comment-24535117-20140819144058/@comment-5051226-20140819213720

Andrei, me and you didnt really start talking till the Sole vote and you said you said it's because you are bad at small talk which I didnt believe and it was confirmed because everyone else had a social connection with you. Also this is especially strange considering you, Luke, and myself were supposed to be in an alliance. So my questions....

*Are you really bad at small talk or did you just flat out want nothing to do with me?

I legit feel like I am bad at small talk. Maybe I underestimate myself, but from my perspective, I'm an introvert, I've struggled with self-esteem issues, I'm always concerned that people are not listening to me when I talk and I'm afraid of being intrusive when I ask questions. That's where I am coming from when I say that.

When you and I talk, I often feel like I keep saying awkward things like, earlier, when I wished you a happy birthday and you told me it was cursed, I kept trying to express how I really did want you to have a good time and you didn't think it was happening, and I just did not know what to say to convey that I just want you to be happy. Sometimes, you finish telling me stuff and I don't know what to say, and I feel like if I write something like "omg" or "lol" to let you know that I did read what you wrote and that I am interested, it's gonna come off fake, so I end up not replying. In real life, I can just look at someone and nod, or say "mhm", but minimal response on the Internet gets stale after a while and I feel bad using it.

Another example of how bad I am at small talk is when I go to the restaurant with my boyfriend, it takes us a while to find anything to say, so there will be long silences. Yesterday though we had a huge conversation about my upcoming semester abroad, and that's because we both had a lot of things to say.

When I was on Skype calls with Sam and others in the beginning, as soon as everyone left, the conversation kinda died out and I did not know how to make it start again, which made me feel boring and awkward, so I would generally hang up sooner or later.

The reason I did not confide in you too much about the game, however, is that you never gave me the impression that you listened to me about that. Before the merge, I tried to approach you to vote out Topher a few times, you stayed vague about it. Until the Dan vote I didn't think you cared about my insight, so I did not bother too much talking game with you, but I still had every intention to go to the F4 with you, Luke and Dan.

In order for me to feel comfortable talking to someone in general, I need to have something specific to tell them, and I need to know that they are listening to me and that I am not bothering them, and sometimes it's harder with you because we're not online at the same time and we both do other things while being on FB, so it's hard for me to feel that way.

It sucks that you still have the impression that I don't want anything to do with you, because that's not true. The reason why other people say we had a social connexion is because I felt comfortable bitching to them about other people or about the hosts, and because they had enough of my presence with what I said in group chats. I did not feel as comfortable bitching to you, because I don't know how you'd react to that, but that does not mean you and I did not have a connection. I've made efforts to send you pictures of what I was doing, songs that I was listening to, and just to reassure you that I do like you, and the fact that you still don't feel that way just shows that I'm kinda bad at it.


 * 1. Give an honest comparison of a Survivor Contestant for each jury member and the other finalist and why 

Jessy • Courtney Yates • They're both really great people and you wouldn't suspect them to be as nice as they are because they have a snarky, sarcastic humour and don't hesitate to bitch about people... And most people love them for it!

Sam • Cirie • They both have wits, sass, they're adorable and it's really tempting to work with them, but you can only trust them if they trust you. Both Cirie and Sam got Idol'd out on their HvV season, so you gotta love the irony.

Eddie • Colton • They're both kinda spoiled and have a tendency to do and say things that come off trashy and wrong. The two of them are big fans of Survivor and want recognition for their passion, and they both tried to play a great game... But Colton quit and Eddie got tricked by Adam to use his Idol on him. Another similarity between them is they want attention, but can't handle bad attention. They think they're fierce when they're mean to people and then they cry and complain when people call them bullies.

Dan • Colby • A lot of people think they're just physical threats and nice people, which they definitely are, but they're both underrated strategists and masters of sass that no one would suspect to be.

Miguel • Fabio • This was the hardest comparison because Miguel has a similar easy going personality to Fabio, they're both party guys, they'd probably be amazing to hang out with, but Miguel is nowhere near as clueless as Fabio in terms of strategy.

Topher • Dan Lembo • Some bitches like me dislike Dan because he was just there and stayed way too long without doing anything of note, but Dan has a great life outside of the game and he seems to be a good person. Same goes for Topher.

Natalie • Rodger Bingham • Rodger was a respectful player who a lot of people liked in the game, and that's why he made it far, and that's why you made it far in both your seasons. He sacrificed himself so Elisabeth would get a better stipend, and you also sacrificed yourself for Luke and I. I think Rodger also doubted himself at times because he was older, but he was very impressive in AO and I know you doubt yourself, but I'm impressed by your character. You came in 4th and 2nd in both your seasons, which is also impressive.

Luke • JT • Now I realise that JT is a lot better at challenges than Luke, but that's the one main difference between them. Other than that, they're both loyal players who won their first season because of their charm and because the person next to them tanked the FTC, they were underdogs, and then they came back as Heroes, had a lot of power, and used it to do questionable things.

Adam • Tony • They're both extremely passionate players who have a nice, hard working exterior. They'll do ANYTHING to win the game, and they will make no apologies for it. They can both act like dicks when they're frustrated, and I've seen Adam make comments along the lines of "these people aren't playing the game" when we didn't do what he wanted, which is typically the kind of thing Tony would say.

Convincing Luke to vote for Topher at F5. I had terrible odds of surviving that round because I was the biggest threat without immunity, but I made it happen.
 * 2. Your biggest move

*3, One thing that you wish you could have change about your game  I made it here despite bad odds, so if I change anything, maybe I do not make it here with such a great story. The only thing I really wish had happened differently is I would have wanted the Final Immunity Challenge to take place 1 week earlier, so I could have been there to spam my Trololol thread and make sure Adam did not get immunity, but I feel confident enough in my game to be sitting here with him anyways.