To Ensure My Neck Is Safe/Confessionals

These were the confessionals made within this episode.

Day 21
"cahmawl"

- I'm in a great position between my relationships with Marc and Will, and my relationships with Julia and Nicole. That puts me in two alliances that should be able to dominate the early merge, and I'll be in a fantastic spot to decide which way I go for the end. It won't be an easy choice and there will be some votes that step on toes, but positioning I think I'm set up nicely that I won't be voted out any time soon. Nicole suggested Jared as a first target and I'm on board with that, as he apparently is close with Spencer and is hated by AJ, so we should swing majority on that. Aleks being near death and now still playing is a huge wrench in my plan, as I'm not convinced voting him out will be an easy thing to do. But that's the game

"cahmawl"

- God as SOON as I send that I get Will in my ear telling me how we should keep Jared and not let Nicole amass too much power. And of course he's right, like I was stupid to think there wouldn't be crossfire. But I can't be in No Man's Land watching these bullets fly by. I can amass a brigade, yes. But I really want to play the middle and flip around. It's dangerous but I just feel like it'd be pointless to throw away my connections with Nicole and Julia. I always say I don't play by tribal lines, I always say it. I don't want to. FUCK. Too many people are dictating the game and I'm being forced to pick a side. End game, think about the end game. I have to get there. Just... keep it cool. It's day 1 of the merge. There will be an easy target. You can do this.

"cahmawl"

- Loose. Lips. Sink. Ships. Specifically aleks telling Nicole Jared is crazy and wants to target will. All the info on why to target Jared. Which she told me. I’m on board don’t get me wrong. BUT. I didn’t know he wanted will. So naturally I tell Will. And now Will is immediately against Jared. Funny how things work huh. That one simple piece of information can give me a very easy merge vote, protecting my allies from turning on each other

Day 22
"cahmawl"

- Hi it's been a while!

Ok so firstly, I've made the merge and my idol is intact! That's important for my personal game going forward because it's a failsafe and if need be, I can idol someone out and perhaps stir the pot a little.

Bit annoying that Byron is gone because I'd hoped I could work with him after we merged but his mouth got ahead of him it seems. I'm not sure the arrogance was real, I think it was an act for some reason that didn't really work and as it happens, he was unanimously voted out by a tribe of almost all his original tribemates.

Speaking of original tribemates, I'm amazed I made it through considering the Dendera influence over our tribe at the last swap. I was the only one there without previous Dendera ties and to see that we'd won immunity after the first tribal that sent Medha home was the biggest relief so far in this game.

My problem now is to see where I stand. The nature of Facebook ORGs means you can play so many sides and nobody can necessarily tell that you're doing so. Nicole is dangerous and, I'm guessing, is a hot favourite in the VL to win this whole thing, because her social game is really good and now that she has immunity, that's another step further. I wouldn't be surprised if she had an idol from the Temple either. She's someone I want to work with but you haven't got a chance if you sit next to her in the end. Heck, I'd vote for her!

This means that I have to get her out, somehow. I think that Will and I still are tight from old Sesibi and if I work Jared and AJ into that, we could have a four that can send one of the old Dendera home. Marc is also a wildcard that could be used in our favour. Many paths forward but I need to ensure my neck is safe first.

While it looks like Morena is the easy boot here, some might argue the case to keep her around as a goat. For my game, I'd rather take out easy boots and keep the idol in my pocket for as long as possible, to perhaps make a move down the line that will earn me some respect and credibility in this game. I've really not done that much but I don't think anyone really has. Look at the votes so far and only the Benji vote has really been exciting. I don't think that trend can last too much longer.

Only time will tell and I hope to live another day so I can speak to you all again soon!

NOTE: I've heard rumours that our season is getting hate because all the women have been voted off first. While this may be the case, I confidently defend myself and the others by saying that it's purely a matter of gameplay and strength to the tribe. The first women to go were either largely inactive or didn't engage with the other contestants, and I can say that Medha's boot was for a number of reasons (just ask Jared about what he received from her). There is no sexism occurring here, simply common sense and as it happens, the women are being voted out.

"cahmawl"

- Ok so we've merged! And I'm super happy about that because I left Byron in the premerge and he was so scary haha. But I'm really not sure about everyone now... I havent even spoken to AJ, Aleks leaves me on read the whole time, Julia hates me and apparently Jared wants me out and Spencer is his sheep. All I have is Jack and Nicole who are biggggg threats and then Marc and Morena who are like my OG. Once again Morena is in danger, and so is Jared and Julia... the gutting thing is that I actually really wanted to work with Jared once we merged so if what I heard about him wanting me out is true then that sucks so much omg. Anyway, I really want Aleks or Julia gone this round but that does not look like it's going to happen.... oh well, I'll see what happens haha

"cahmawl"

- this is what happened if some one u dont like is still in the game...a lot of strategic stuffs you have to say but in the end youll not the one who'll decide.

"cahmawl"

- I really love it when people overplay themselves. Jared has apparently bounced around on who he wants to target but he's told people each time so he just comes out looking incredibly unstable, which has made it so easy to vote him out now. I can't imagine many others voting with him but this should secure me with numbers in case we want to take out Aleks/AJ next. Will is uneasy about the other 4 original Denderas so I'm going to have to balance that with my alliance with Nicole and Julia.

I now realize my ideal strategy in this game is effectively the pendulum strat, which is incredibly dangerous for me to just blatantly expose myself in the middle. But if do right, no can defend.