Riding Dirty With Alliances/Confessionals

Day 28
"njano"

- Heyyaaaa So I am at Day 99!!! Tomorrow will be Day 100 not sure what is gonna happen at the tribal tomorrow but wish me luck!!!

Actually it is scattered this time but here is what I see. Nicole & Nora are together then Evan, Chris and Jack(?)(Not sure). Next is me, Natalia and Cali. I am freaking out but hey I can make it to the final 3. I just need to believe in myself.

"njano"

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"njano"

- So will left because jino already voted him before he went to sleep wow are we surprised no we aren't at all. it's unlikely that he would've flipped anyway because his "aww but u guys didn't give me a name" shit is absolutely bull. will made an alliance between me/Nora/Natalia which was like basically his last good deed for us before leaving love him stan him a king. then he called out Chris for having an idol which we all know is false. also, something I'd like to note is Nora told me will actually did pass his idol to Nora several times like during previous votes but just didn't this time so like there was literally a chance I would've believed that Chris story had he just not straight told me it was a lie. anyway, a new alliance has entered the narrative: will's coven, I wanted to name it Valar Morghulis but meh. There's also a chance will actually passed his idol to Nora and they're hiding it which is pretty stupid if you ask me so I think it's unlikely but still possible. Chris hasn't been online yet so I'm yet to see his reaction to all of this, I think it'll be rather interesting.

"njano"

- Chris got online and started going straight to the point why am I not surprised. so as I already found out from Nora the day before he definitely believed her over me but she decided to target him and not believe him anyway so great! he gave me information about Nora having a fking hit list is this Courtney from td all-stars (i know that season is bad shhh but this situation juts reminds me of it) like literally, SHE HAS A FRICKING HITLIST. according to Chris, this is what it is.. it sounds pretty accurate considering how crazy that lady is

9th- Natalia 8th- Chris 7th- jack 6th- will or jino 5th- will or jino 4th- Cali final 3- Nicole/Nora/Evan

SHE LITERALLY WANTED TO TAKE ME AND EVAN TO FINAL 3?? that's literally insane but ok. like she has no reason to trust me or want me like anywhere near any of her secrets or anything but Nah let's take me to final 3 LMFAO. then there's Evan who gets very annoyed by her especially after the yelling and he has also leaked like every single thing she's ever said to him so lmfao! great choice of final 3. meanwhile WILL who didn't do anything to her is sitting there as final opportunity threat boot. yeah ugh.. interesting...

"njano"

- So I did the challenge asap and tried to get a good score and submit early as possible for tiebreaker reasons and I'm pretty sure I've got this one in the bag. it's funny ya know because I practised this at debate like literally a week ago. anyway Nora has a score swapper and she's thinking about using it on Chris or Evan I know Evan is sucking ass at this challenge so I'm telling her to use it on Chris but she decided not to BECAUSE CHRIS GUILT TRIPPED HER INTO NOT DOING IT?? I'm sorry WHAT you can be guilt-tripped? ok time to start guilt-tripping you later on. Natalia and Nora are having an open strategic convo in pms and using me as like a third vote I don't even know, I don't feel solid about this alliance at all despite it being like will's final wish or something like that, Nora is a mess and Natalia is smart. I'd rather get brainless non-problematic people thank u very much but they don't exist in this game so I guess I'll settle. But yeah Nora is looking to vote one of Chris and Evan this round and I would honestly rather get rid of fricking like Cali or jino because despite Evan being an omega snake I feel like he still sees me as a lesser threat than Nora and more loyal to him and Chris is probably trying to play me again but it seems more genuine this time and he's spilt more tea. chris is a shield as soon as he goes everything is going to go wild.

"njano"

- Legend Will left but made sure to let a legacy: Will's coven alliance: me nicole natalia. Love that for us. Witches coven is my favourite alliance in survivor history so im glad that this alliance has that name. Anyway, lol, my survival actually is depending on Jino and Natalia. These 2 are the ones im close the most beside Nicole Evan Chris. Evan made me a promise on never writting my name down for tribal but like ITS AN EVAN PROMISE. He always promises moon and stars. I figured since Will's blindside that Evan is a very messy player. He was supposed to be logical but actually he makes moves at the wrong time and hope that will bite him. He is so fake and sneaky: ther Ultimate disappointment. Me and Natalia compared notes and figured that he made the same promises to me and natalia ( blabla going to the end together, blabla F3, blabla immunity for fire making challenge blabla) like plz shut up! Im glad that i have my bond w Jino since the start of the merge bc now, we talk game more deeply and i feel like i might need him later. He is very helpful actually and i know HE PLAYS DUMB but he has a very good game awareness. Chris, Mister Chris came back from Exile and his plan is clearly making me feel bad abt targetting him like welll, i don't feel bad abt that. He plays the emotionnal card with me. I know how he plays, he thinks he can read ppl and then talk to that person the way the most convenient but like, plz, next! i read people too and i know how is chris game. Mr Evan Snakziel reported to chris my ideal boot order list, omg snake and big mouth, so Chris directly brought up that point and throw literally Evan's name to me LMAO we played along. Like rn, the 3 predators left are not going to work together. I know they both will stick together and i won't be included in that. Well lets be real, they gonna be willing to see me dead. My baby Will asked me to kill evan and chris before leaving us so i will make sure to get revenge for Will. Like Natalie Anderson avenging Jeremy in sjds, i will avenge Will. I need to solidify my relationship w some ppl and improve others. Anyway, Natalia told me she is willing to go til the end w me; thats so nice but like something came to my attention: if she reaches the end w me nicole, that would mean that ALL THEY PREYS are in the jury and will vote for her :D I love Natalia to death, she is amazing but i wanna have a chance to win. We still F8 and its still far but im not giving up. Im the minority Queen. I play my best from the minority and i know im a predator from there. Okay im just delusionnal but GOD HELP ME TO SURVIVE

"njano"

- I played people this morning. Im awful sometimes. so chris told me that evan reported everything to him so i asked evan to get on call and i confronted him to the fact that he is a rat kinda?? okay i didn't use the word RAT but i asked him WHY he did that. He got speechless, started by lying and pretending he hasn't said anything until i mention that crhis said his name and then i asked something else that nicole told me and he was like "i swear to god nora, i didn't tell him that" "plz believe me" "swear" " i promise nora" The level of lies! disgusting!!! If u wanna be a snake, be a good snake plz! I expected BETTER.

"njano"

- “We’re in the endgame now.”

WELL, maybe not IN the endgame, but approaching it. I feel like I’m at a crossroads now and I’ve always been a fundamental believer in that as the days dwindle, the social game can kinda be thrown out the window because any bond you form with someone now is a little too late and now you just start executing.

I recapped it earlier in my latest confessional but I feel I’ve done the most appropriate damage control possible to Nora and Nicole without exactly over promising or over compensating, bc I’m not a dumb shit that wants things to run back to them. I kinda played up to the victim noises of how tough the move was which was a partial truth, but as they say the truth is in the eye of the beholder and I wanted to sell it as I felt awful about the move from a personal standpoint. Nicole deadass has offered to save me with her idol when that time comes which is insanely great at face value, but if it’s too good to be true, it’s probably a lie.

I feel like I have a Chris Blue problem now. I don’t know what to do with this guy and whether or not he wants me in the end or wants to slash my throat. He’s constantly reinforced that he will take the fall for me, be my shield, wants to see me reach 100 days, all that jazz. But he had a pretty bad slip up earlier by mentioning the discrete and incriminating words of BOOT LIST to Nora, which lets Nora know I basically leaked everything to Chris (which I did). However I had to backtrack and say I only gave some bits and pieces of information to Chris, didn’t tell him about her score swap, not the full boot order, that jazz. And I had to add a little emotional fuel to our call that I’m ‘blindsided by Chris’ to make Nora’s heat and attention go from my direction hopefully back to Chris. Like I had to tell her that Chris was also throwing her UTB and fake that ‘come to realization’ moment if you will.

But .. I don’t think you exactly just slip such incriminating evidence against me without there being some intent to undermine me at least a little. Chris apologized profusely and I think I made him believe it’s all fine and dandy but edgelord gameplayer in me says that may have been a setup. So my solution to that was to ping pong that target back to him with my spiel to Nora, play weak and confused and emotional, and I hope it worked.

So back to the Chris problem is .. do I cut him or not. The last thing I’d want is to slash the last winner in the game and force myself into endgame territory needing to win out but I’d also just die if I find out he was setting himself up for the win all along. It’s been an internal war in my head over the last 24 hours and I honestly don’t know the answer yet, but what I do know is I have to pick up every little clue as this game goes on and hopefully see the big picture.

Speaking of the big picture, this is where I’m at rn. I hope Nora didn’t score swap me, I actually just used an algorithm to wreck this WikiClicks challenge and got it in like 40 minutes of the challenge being posted? And I think the only ones smart enough to have done that weren’t online at that time. So all I had to do was just play up to the noise that I sucked at the challenge to the others but .. again no clue if Nora score swaps me. If she does, then I’m about to dropkick that panic button bc that’ll probably means she wins immunity and I’m the target. The plan then would be to hopefully get me Chris Natalia and Cali to throw votes at like Jino.

I’m kinda seeing this game in factions rn, as anyone should, Natalia and Cali are a duo, Nora and Nicole are the defecto minority duo (but I think there’s some mistrust there), Jack and Jino are kinda on their island and I would like to believe me and Chris are tight. I was heavily concerned about Will passing his idol to Nora last second but based off their behaviors and based off the fact Nora didn’t use the tribe cutter item, I feel like nothing was passed along. But I’ll still give it an outside shot.

I feel like if I win this immunity it’d be a hard press to save Nora, but then I think at Final 7 there’s two options. One, roll with Chris Cali and Natalia as a final 4. Dos, roll with Chris and Nicole, and use Nicole’s idol to strike. In a way I think the latter sets me up for more protection in the endgame, because even if the idol is say burned at final 7 we could find it right back at 6. The problem is who to trust in these scenarios. Still tba but I’m working to find it out.

Gamebot confessionals aside .. I do just want to say I’m genuinely proud to have reached this far, reach single digit placements, get close to 100 days, and mix up my game this season. I won’t get too sentimental just yet but I really feel like I’m playing with house money this season and as this thing wears on, I just feel an increasing sense of momentum that yeah Evan, maybe you really could win this thing twice. This is my dream and determination and I’m not letting anything get in the way of it, so allow this 4th and final time to be the magical moniker for my best game yet.

"njano"

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"njano"

- Chris told me that he did badly in the challenge not as badly as Evan supposedly did the more I think about it the more ridiculous the idea evan getting 40 on a singular link is. whatever it's a win for me either way either he's lying and doing good and then Nora will swap him and I can laugh at him or he's actually doing that bad and I can laugh at him for doing bad. win-win situation. I still feel like I have this one in the bag because I really feel like I have a good score but oop the deadlines coming up soon so only time will tell.

"njano"

- Can't believe my 3-3-3 plan actually worked out akskdhgsshajak omg Even though Will was my initial target, I gave him a chance to campaign because I felt it was the right thing to do. I know that there's been times I wished people have me an opportunity to speak my case. Well turns out being a respectful player brings good karma because Will gave me a LOT of information on a lot of different people. Even when I told him I was going to vote him he was still helping me with info and rooting me on and omg during his campaign we actually got to get to know each other better since before this moment Will & I hadn't spoken since he's been so busy. But yeah it's funny I made a whole plan to get him out and then right before I was about to get what I wanted I realized I stan Will & he's really a great person. But a great person that still was too dangerous to leave in the game lmao he's too good at campaigning. But this conversation/call with Will was very very enlightening. I tend to think round by round in terms of my plans since immunities change, dynamics can flip from one second to the next, and I'm always expecting the next twist 👀 But yesterday I started thinking about the late game more, well after praying that I don't go this round and get 8th AGAIN. But if that doesn't happen, I decided it was time for one of Chris and Evan to go next because I know from f7 and onwards (if not this round) they were both going to plan my downfall and they are a super tight duo which Will also confirmed for me. I hadn't really made my mind up on who ATM and still haven't 100%. When I called with Will and he told me that both Chris and Evan had been going to him saying I'm the biggest threat and they wanted me out blah blah I was like still a little bit shook. I mean I knew they were gonna come for my ass but I just didn't think it would be so soon. And like apparently Chris told him that I saved him at the Ashlee vote so he *had* to pretend to be on my side and to work with me but that he wants me gone So that was fun lolll you're right Chris I did save your ungrateful ass aaksjdjdjsk but that was a BIPRODUCT of the real goal which was getting Ashlee out so i still wouldn't change a thing. Anyway so Will was telling me I am SURROUNDED by people who want me out like on all sides and I was like well. I expected it but also like holy shit people, CAN I BREATHE???? 😂 Oh I also made sure Will knew that my prey ass was behind the move so I get my deserved credit if I get to the end from the jury but he's the only person (from the ppl that didn't know) that I told and I didn't even tell him the story of how it happened bc I couldn't risk that classified info getting out but I just wanted him to know it was me. I think Will honestly just appreciated that I did give him a chance to actually stay so I'm glad I did that, I would definitely want someone to do that to me too but ik that doesn't happen a lot especially in blindsides. Anyway somehow Will left ON MY SIDE????? shooking. He told me he was going to leave an exit speech attacking me claiming he would basically never vote for me in order to help my threat level bc he wanted me to do well 😭😭😭 he's amazing. So grateful for his help. He also told me he was going to say that Chris has Will's idol to put a target on Chris and also say things about Evan to make him a bigger target too. Then as if that wasn't enough from Will, he also really vouched for me to Nora so Nora Nicole and I could start working together. I am still skeptical of this alliance, not sure how long it's gonna last, maybe only this round, maybe more, but that was still very highly appreciated. If it's up to me I would love to take Nora to final 4. My ideal f4 scenario rn is Jino Cali Nora and myself. I am hoping to death that Nora is actually going to work with me this time but I'm not counting on anything really lol. So far she does seem honest just bc the vibe has been really different from before when she wasn't being honest so I'm hoping this means this time it is lol. Will also told me about Nora's secret advantage to swap scores with anyone in the game but then later on Nora told me herself so I had to act surprised lolll because I didn't want her to know how much Will and I had made up at the end and how much he had actually helped me with info. Will also warned Jino that Jack was coming for him which is great as well because protecting Jino is protecting me too.

So now I am in an alliance with Nicole and Nora called Will's Coven which I stan bc it's all women but uhm I still really don't trust Nicole loll Nora I can kinda lean towards MAYBE trusting, but Nicole I'm just like 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ I would love for her to use her idol asap either wasting it or as part of a bigger plan to get someone else out. But the main objective is I don't wanna be with her in late game so she can save herself no matter what and there are only a few options for who to vote. That would be terrifying for me. Also last night Nora came to me when we were making up and everything with Will's help, and she told me she wanted to do what I wanted to do for this vote as a way to prove her loyalty to me supposedly but the thing is I don't wanna name drop either to her in case she's lying and is just going to expose me to Evan and Chris so I just told her I wanted one of the boys out which I'm sure she understands is Evan or Chris but that I would support whichever one she wants. The thing is it also highly depends on who wins immunity and also who Cali wants to vote because I can bring Jino but that's only 4 votes and we would need 5. So tbh whoever Cali wants to do that's where I'm leaving rn cuz I can't risk the person I vote for staying lol imagine that. It's clear to me Nora wants to do Evan and Nicole probably same but Evan is a closer ally to me than Chris. I would rather Chris go because he is closer to Nora so if he stays they can make up, whereas if Evan stays Nora is still most likely going to be gunning for him. Especially since Nora sent me forwarded messages that Chris forwarded to her from ME. As soon as she showed me that I was like oh OKAY Chris 👀 and then after what Will told me I was like yep he's cancelled. But Evan is such a threat too.. so like idek. Both going has positives. But my main focus is that it's not me and that it's one of them two. If it's someone else it's like not as big of a deal lol as long as it's not me. But I'm gonna try to make sure that it is Chris or Evan, more leaning towards Chris but we'll see what I can do without jeopardizing my game too much.

Day 29
"njano"

- Loool

So welcome to my biggest challenge yet. Despite me not mentioning to one person that I knew how to do the challenge, Nora swaps with me and the worst case scenario and Armageddon has commenced. And it honestly feels grim. However, I’ve been through these types of situations before and I know how to operate when I’m a target.

Nora again is spiraling down into her pit of insanity. She all but went out of her way to guilt trip and gaslight me last night, only to reach a compromise telling me all is fine and that Chris is the biggest threat. Then swaps scores with me..? If she really wanted Chris gone then she would’ve swapped with him.

But I can’t just blow up on her and I’m just gonna act hurt about it but say I understand and that it’s a game. Meanwhile running to others and further burying whatevers left of her credibility lol. So now the question is what to do. I said earlier that I thought maybe me Cali Chris Natalia can get our votes on Jino.. and Chris said he can get even Jack to do that. And while Jino is an asset to my game I’d be willing to let him go. But through my talk with Natalia I find out that Nora is suggesting me and Chris and leaning me, then she mentions would I vote out Chris.

This puts me at a huge breaking point now because now I have to ask myself if I let Chris go at this round if it means he’s a target. If I do that .. there’s no turning back and I am the biggest threat in the game. But if I fight too hard to keep him, I may end up going in the process. But if it works and I keep him I have that shield still.

I really have to work on getting a read on Cali and hope Natalia has some degree of sway on her.. because I do feel like I have Jino. And I do feel like at the end of the day Nicole would keep me over Chris.

Options are going to be piling on the table and it’s survivor Russian Roulette at this point. I can’t even tell you who my target is right now – because quite frankly I just want safety. If I get out of this alive this really will be my greatest escape yet

"njano"

- This would probably be better as a video but OH WELL. So I'm very cognizant of the fact that it's final 8, day 29, aka the same instances I got voted out last time. So I REALLY wanna survive this round. But I swear everyone decided to smoke crack today because there's like a million things flying around this vote. Let's see:

Nora is out for blood and wants Evan out. It's fucking terrifying and she scares me, I don't know what she'd do if he went but I also don't know what she'd do if he stayed. She makes a valid point about him potentially winning immunities and he'd def beat me but I dunno, I like Evan and I trust him for a bit longer at least. Evan is now gung ho at getting Nora so that's a 1v1 that could keep me safe potentially.

Chris is just a general soft target for being a threat but no one has explicitly said they want him out yet. While I know I can't beat him I trust him the most right now and I don't want him to go just yet.

Jino said Natalia said Nicole was throwing my name out, which he also told Evan and Chris, but Nicole heard this and vehemently denied ever throwing my name out and Evan and Chris confirmed they'd never heard the sort. So either NATALIA is lying, or JINO is lying, and getting my name unnecessarily involved here.

I have not spoken to Natalia or Cali yet about the vote but I know Natalia is talking to other people. Why not me? This makes me concerned, and yes I should message her (I will right now I promise) but I'm starting to think she might be a red flag for my game.

All in all the shit has already hit the fan and it's 3.5 hours into tribal. Who's gonna go home? I have no fucking idea! Nicole's idol could factor in but I dunno if she'll want to use it right now. I also have the vote reveal in my back pocket but all that'll do is reveal where people stand, and I'd like to think I already know that for the most part? But you know what, if this vote is gonna be this crazy, might not hurt to reveal where everyone stands, especially since it's anonymous.

This vote might singlehandedly age me by 10 years

"njano"

- Quick update does seem like Evan's growing weary of Jino's antics where he's paranoid every vote. While I'd like to believe I've made progress with Jino and have a solid working relationship with him, if he's the one lying about my name going round just to get it going round that's trouble. Not to mention he does the same shit with me he does with Evan. Still no word really from Natalia (I mean we talked briefly but when I spilled game she didn't open the message).

It's becoming a larger point to me that maybe the "threats" aren't actually the most threatening right now because at the very least I know what they're doing, the unstable unpredictable players like Nora and perhaps Jino are very dangerous because nobody knows what they're gonna do and in an instant the knife can be turned around on you. The devil you know is better than the devil you don't, but the hard part is figuring out whose game you can actually predict

"njano"

- Alright, final update for the night. Jesus, what a doozy. Jino wants a split 4-2-2 vote, 4 on Nicole to flush her idol, then 2 on ME AND EVAN???? Some fucking ally you are bud, don't even care if Evan would go on the revote tell me how that's good for my game. We've got a potential 4 now of myself Evan Nicole and Chris (hurray I'm with threats!) but with all the shenanigans going round this is believe it or not the safest thing for me right now. We don't know who Jino/Natalia/Cali are gonna vote (I'm pegging them as a trio for convenience sake), we don't know if Nora is still steadfast on voting Evan or if she can be flipped, and to whom, and we don't know if it's gonna be 4-4 or 4-3-1 or 4-2-2. Nicole might have to play her idol but on who? Don't know. Granted Chris hasn't heard any of this yet but I'm sure he'll be on board once he's told, he wanted to lay low and let people play themselves into being a target and guess what? That's exACTLY what Jino did. Fucking foolproof honestly, someone will always make a mess of things.

"njano"

- the tea is i did the damn thing. hopefully. maybe. IDK. KNOCK ON WOOD. but this is another alex situation where i had no relationship with him or trust nd started a vote that everybody else spiraled for me without doing anything, and now the same is happening with jino!!! thankfully jino has been helping to dig his grave but its like incredibly ideal for him to leave right now bc i have no trust or relationship much with him !!! if people were smart theyd figure out im the one who threw his name out first but idt they are theyre too caught up in what jino has been doing and trying to get a 4-2-2 vote going on and shit jino has said to trace it back to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the best thing for me that couldve happened was that exile 2 days away bc i needed a cool down to get other ppl in the spotlight and i think evan did that to himself which is great for me bc nora has wanted him dead now and tried targeting him and even used her swap score on him... also evan legit took credit it was subtle but he took credit for killing will saying "did i really kill will and flush his idol" and like he should be well aware im the one who blew everything up and put the direction going in that direction he just did the leg work for me, but because he did the leg work he thinks its all him and ppl are going to think its all him which is GREAT!!!

evan also went ham for no reason in this challenge placing a challenge threat target on his back so ppl are gonna be afraid hes gonna go on an immunity run. GREAT FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!

the ONLY ONLY ONLY thing that worries me is im not dumb enough to think im getting out of all of this without any heat. wills final words in itself puts a massive target on me for every round now that im not immune, and im playing both sides right now with evan but i need to lock down one side for sure and i think its gonna have to be with nicole. thats probably my best bet because she has the idol. she threw out the idea of wanting to go to the end with evan and i first and nicole has been shady at times but i lowkey kinda believe it?? idk. regardless im not ignorant enough or naive enough to believe im fully safe ever so i could very easily be blindsided this round and i know im being targeted and have a target on my back

its gettin down to it, they say its a marathon not a sprint but bitch its time to sprint

"njano"

- Bro did I just go from swing vote to public enemy #1 back to swing vote again LMAOOOO

I was in pretty dire straits last night and don’t get me wrong I can still end up dying tonight but if all goes in accordance I may be a swing vote. AGAIN. AT FINAL 8. AND PISSING MORE PEOPLE OFF. BUT AT LEAST IT MAY NOT BE ME??

Nora last night after results campaigned to the whole GOD DAMN TRIBE minus me and Chris to kill me off. Luckily thanks to my super hefty amazing cool social game people let me know. Either that or Nora’s social credibility is just atrocious. My worry was I figured people could just piggy back off of that knowing Nora’s immune and Nicole had her idol. But apparently all it takes is for other people to blow their shit up and go mad for me to potentially evade the target this round.

So I hear from the rumor mill, that Jino said that Natalia told him that Nicole threw out Jack’s name. Which sounds confusing first but read that shit again. Automatically Nicole loses her shit when that gets back to her and wants to 360 no-scope Jino. Jack hears it too and says fuck Jino, and I fueled him by hinting Jino would want to split some votes his way too. Nicole is suddenly inseparable to me, claims to be willing to use her idol on me, wants F3 with me and Chris, wants me at the end. All that good jazz. Could be a ruse but I’m putting my eggs in other baskets in case it is. So rn Nicole and Jack are thinking me and Chris are with them and will all kill Jino. And that the rest can either throw their votes off or just hop on the train – basically they think 4 can be our majority either way.

On the flip side, Natalia and I had an in depth conversation last night and I come to find out the transcript of her and Nicole’s conversation. Basically to me it came off as more of Jack’s name being discussed in terms of where he is in the game and how he can be a wild card, but they were interpreted two different ways. Natalia sees that as Nicole targeting Jack, Nicole thinks otherwise, naturally I hype both of their cases up in private lol. Now the thing is though, Natalia is thinking she can get me Jino Cali and her to vote Nicole and at least flush the idol out, and she’s piecing things together and saying Chris has deals with everyone and is closer w/ Nicole and Jack than people think. Again that makes me concerned about the Chris dilemma.. but Chris is my last meat shield in the game. The second Chris dies, I’m in win out mode, I truly believe so.

Now in the morning Jino comes up to me in his usual panic mode but he still wants a majority on Nicole. But he basically knows there’s no way to reasonably split unless he gets Jack on board at which point I share everything Jino is telling me to Jack and he does the same so we’re not getting played there. But now Jino has already voted Nicole but knows from Natalia Nicole is after him. So he’s panicking lmao, and then there’s Nora. Yea we basically just fought in pm’s because I still genuinely and truly think she’s a gaslighter in this game, she exhibits toxic behaviors, and fucking hear this out.

NORA HAS LITERALLY GONE TO CLOSE FRIENDS/HOSTS OF ME, NATALIA, CHRIS AND NICOLE AND BASICALLY TRIED TO LEARN WHAT WE’RE ABOUT AND HOW WE OPERATE. YOU KNOW THE FUCKING NETFLIX SPECIAL YOU? YEAH, NORA IS JOE GOLDBERG. AND I AIN’T TRYNA BE BECK.

Apparently Natalia has calmed her down which is good and Nora has insisted she hasn’t targeted me since her earlier campaign, and come to find out from other testimonies today that that’s true. So I’d LIKE to believe I’m safe now but if Cali/Nat and Jack/Nicole compare notes on groups or voting blocks I’m p fucked unless they wanna settle in on Chris, which I still trust they see him as the biggest threat? I think in a way if they know I’m always against Nora and vice versa, that’s an everpresent feud that can always lower anyone’s target. Which now will put me in an insane dilemma of do I even dare try to work shit again with Nora or just snipe her for the sake of my sanity. Choices Evan choices.

But now this is the wild thing bc there’s a 99% chance of bulljive going down tonight bc I’m expecting Chris Nicole and Jack to vote out Jino with me, and Natalia is pushing to get the 4 votes on Nicole bc I believe Jino already voted her and Cali may want to do it. And this is terrifying. Do I kill off Nicole, and get rid of an idol and a wild card, or do I kill off Jino, who is just a wild card. Logic says kill the one with the idol but that one has expressed a desire to work with me and use it to my benefit.. I truly don’t have an answer rn but if this keeps up and I’m safe I’m just going to have to go with my gut at that point.

I kinda feel like I just want to kill off Jino for now and subtly hint to Cali that that’s the move at which point I tell Natalia our hands are cuffed but we can make something happen next round with Nora and Cali. I’ll see how my convo w/ Cali goes with that and get back to you in case any last minute UPRISING occurs.

I’m honestly astounded to have made it this far, and while I haven’t played perfect by any means I truly am just proud of letting it all out on the table on my fourth time here. I feel like the last three ticks I have to check off are reaching day 100 overall, then day 39 this season, then winning this whole god damn thing. And I can see the end in sight but I know it’ll require hyperfocus for these next couple weeks and I’m locking in until these wheels fall off.

"njano"

- Alright so this is where I will be spilling the plan that COULDA, WOULDA, AND SHOULDA HAPPENED THIS ROUND but didn't happen because I don't have the BALLS....YET.

So Miss Nora pops off and steals evans immunity and I mean ya gotta give credit where its due. Ya she didn't really work for the win but she was smart to realize hmmmm THIS IS LITERALLY THE TYPE OF CHALLENGE EVAN WOULD SLAY AT (which he did) and miss this finessed it for herself. I always support a brown sister who wins through scandal and fraud!

So MR Chris slides up into my DMs, and he says that our best course of action is to do Jino….NOW AS YALL KNOW. JINO IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. Like I dearly and truly adore him and he's helped me (and almost put me in jeopardy) SO MANY TIMES in this game and I almost feel like voting him out now like this would be just so...dirty?

SO I MAKE A PLAN TO BE DIRTIER. Essentially my first plan is this, and be warned, its scummy, probably would have had major repercussions, and more than likely would have meant me being ultimately voted out 7th.

So, it was clear that me and Natalia (my boo, my bby, my ride or die, my queen that I want to be and will forever attempt to embody) were at a cross road as we had this new alliance of us plus evan and chris, and then our original final 3 with Jino. And honestly at the moment, I felt like sticking with Evan and Chris was smarter for definitely making it to the endgame, but not for winning at ALL.

IF WE WERE DARING. The plan was to pull in waifu Nicole and empress nora, to make a 5, and all vote for CHRIS. BOOM. its gonna be wild...

WELL IT WOULD HAVE BEEN WILD BECAUSE I WAITED TOO LONG TO RUN THIS THROUGH WITH NAT AND SHE DIDN'T SEEM RECEPTIVE SO THIS PLAN WILL JUST HAVE TO LIVE FOREVER IN MY HEAD. If theres anything my past seasons have showed, its that yes I am an extremely loyal player...to usually like 1 or 2 people. I HATE JUST RIDING DIRTY WITH ALLIANCES and everytime I have flipped before it's because I just get an instinctual feeling that screams "HI YOU NEED TO MAKE A MOVE RN" and that's really what was speaking to me this round.

Jino if this ends up being you, I cannot apologize enough for it. You are a legend, a cool calm and collected, and I'm sorry I wasn't the ally you deserved. If I have to vote you out I will, but just know it probably will be the hardest vote I ever have to cast in this game :(

"njano"

- IM GONE FOR 3 HOURS AND ITS A SHIT SHOW OF NOT TRUSTING ME AND ASKING WHY IM PROTECTING NICOLE

BITCH THANKU FOR GIVING ME PERMISSION TO FULLY GO AHEAD AND WORK W/ NICOLE NOW AND KEEP HER IDOL IN THE GAME FUCK OUTTA HERE

IDK IF I GO HOME FUCK ALL OF THESE PPL IM OVER IT

"njano"

- EVAN DID THE EXACT SAME NUMBER OF GUESSES AS ME BUT AN HOUR AND 20 MINUTES EARLIER IM GONNA SCREAM! but, this still works out. Nora got immunity which is good because no one will target her and she is loyal to me (Again I don't know what's going on in her head and why she would choose to be loyal to me of all people I'm literally such a snakey bitch). Nora is going after Evan like very intensively. she is campaigning her ass off but I don't think it'll work. Anyway, this is again good for me because she's straining her relationship with Evan, even more, I was on call with him and he sounded so very pissed about Nora swapping him after apparently talking him up for an hour last night... should've "guilt-tripped her" like Chris I guess. All of this conflict and I'm not involved in it at all, Evan and Nora will become a rivalry I can take advantage of by being on both sides of it so it's really optimal if Evan stays this round and someone irrelevant and not on my side like Cali/Jino get out. Why not Natalia? because she's in that Will's coven chat and could be a valuable vote down the line. Why not jack? because I believe that he'll really be on my side after this. Both of them are also going to beat their placements if they survive this round so this'll be an important one for them and they might be more desperate.

"njano"

- what the fk is this clownery. so I hear from chris that jino is saying that I said jack's name. first of all OBVIOUSLY I did NOT. that would be stupid I literally just said in my last confessional that I wanted Jino/Cali (don't quote me on this if I'm wrong but that's where my thoughts are at) Jack is such a valuable ally to me right now he doesn't have solid allignments with anyone and he's looking to make moves. Why in the world would I target him in this round it doesn't make any sense right so. After Chris told me that I went and confirmed with Evan that this happened and it's real after that I waited a bit and gave jack a heads up that no I did not do that... He agreed and has a brain!! he deduced that it was illogical for me to vote him or even gun for him at this point in the game and I am so very glad. So I guess I won't' have to work that hard to save Evan or use my idol because Jino's digging himself a hole. Just now he told Chris that Natalia was the source of me saying jack. If he's making that up then Natalia's gonna be pissed at him along with me and jack and if it's true then Natalia probably going to be pissed anyway because she probably didn't expect him to tell everyone on this earth. she's not here at the moment because she's on vacation but I will be questioning her afterwards. Anyway, a plan to vote jino out is formulating between me, Evan and Chris. Those two obviously don't want to die and i really believe that voting out jino is the best for my game right now. Jack will be roped in soon as well.

"njano"

- Natalia woke up and here's the update. she did indeed say that I was thinking jack... which is absolutely insane because earlier she asked me on my thoughts on jack and I told her that jack was a vote up for grabs and a free agent. what part of that translates to Nicole wants to vote jack? yeah, that's right none of it. Natalia is sneaky and she's not even going to take the brink of the heat this vote because jino's being a nervous mess as per usual. I'm definitely looking to vote her out soon but again definitely not this round. I've also been told that jino wants to split 4-2-2 me-Evan-jack... that is also rather ridiculous and I'm wondering if he's delusional at this point. jack is roped in to vote jino and Evan is even more convinced after jino tried to play jack and Evan against each other... Natalia's down to vote jino as well at least she's telling me that but who knows she could be trying to blindside me right now. actually, she and Cali are definitely out for me but they just aren't in a position to right now. at least Cali's honest and like "idk who i'm going to vote for out of you and jino' unlike Natalia who probably doesn't even mean it yet. Nora is still set on Evan when no ones even considering voting him, me and Natalia have both tried to convince her otherwise and she's just been refusing.

"njano"

- "I called with Evan and we decided that we were making an f3 with Chris. I'm obviously not going to be fully loyal to this alliance but there's a clear path to the end like this. Jino goes this round, next round we idol or have majority with jack the round after one of us wins immunity one of us gets voted and the third has my rock draw pass and then we have a majority until the end. he also straight up said that he'd cut Chris if it was an f2 which makes sense. the path is easy but I want to win this damn game which means Chris can't be at ftc with me because he's playing a hell of a game. As for Evan, I'm mixed on where I should cut him but I need these two's loyalty for now.

updates regarding the vote, Nora is utterly delusional. she thinks they're all throwing jino's name at us and its all a massive line to get me voted out with the idol in my pocket. straight up I'm confident enough to know that this isn't the case. she wants me to play my idol on myself and vote Evan in order to idol him out and I'm just saying no lmao like no this isn't happening. also both Evan and Nora are trying to get me to pass my idol to them for safekeeping, Evan is being at least calm about it noras being rather forceful so I made up a ooh but I did a conditional idol play several hours later and hosts said I cant pass :( in order to not pass my idol to her because I just don't want to. another thing is Chris is telling me that Natalia/Cali are pissed that I'm not going home and well they can stay pressed but this tells me that yes they're a duo and Natalia is not loyal to will's coven and on top of that they're close to Chris which juts elevates his threat status. Jino's going home and it looks unanimous to me. He's less dangerous than Cali and Natalia but ill take it."

"njano"

- Well last minute wrap up here. Jino submitted for Nicole, sounds like he was pushing more on me as the backup/split than Evan. Might’ve been relying on Nora doing Evan, but she’s not now because somehow she found out it wasn’t gonna be him any more. So Nicole tried to persuade her and I merely said I’m going after Jino because he mentioned me. So hopefully she jumps on Jino because if she ain’t doin Evan, and she chooses Nicole, we could see 4-4. Dunno where Nat and Cali are going. Cali hasn’t talked to me in over 24 hours (shocker!) and Natalia told me Jino wanted me to get votes but she’s not keen on that. But I think she still would do Nicole which means this comes down to Nora potentially. I’m not gonna play my vote reveal though because I’m pretty sure where all the votes are going. It’s hingent on the 4 of us voting together but that would be truly astonishing if any of us didn’t vote Jino at this point. So I think we’ll be ok and hopefully I’m not in the line of fire when all’s said and done

"njano"

- Hahahahaha Natalia just told me she’s doing Jino too. We all really did too much to make sure he goes home. If I’m getting lied to I’m gonna flip my shit