I NEED A MIRACLE/Confessionals

Day 9
"qahtan"

- so Taylor left 7-1. Yap & Joan FINALLY got with the winning team but #ripTaylor because he was nice. Well to me anyway. He dragged Sam in PMs though LMFAO

When Sam told me that I laughed my ass off. Meanwhile, everyone is expecting a swap :o (also Amber and Blaine went home ;o ). So Szymon puts the challenge up and it's us choosing numbers between 1-18 :o!!! I picked 13 because that's my birthday. I'm nervous tbh BUT whatever happens, will happen and hopefully I can survive :)

"bariq"

- I survived last night! It feels amazing, I was so worried going into the vote, and then going into the tie vote was even worse. But, fun fact, Skandi told me they were going to tie it before we even tied! Fun nuggets! Seriously, what is the goddamn logic behind that? "We want Blaine or Charley to trust us going into a swap, so lets put them both in a tie. Yeah, that'll make them love us". And they're acting like it's some big ass favor to not get me out at the tie. Like would've been a favor if you didn't put me in a tie in the first place! So I had to beg, grovel, plead to not get voted out. No shame in that as long as you stay, and it seemed to work. I promised these guys so much loyalty, told them I was a perfect vote in their pocket. Like yeah right, I'll be loyal to the people who just lied to my face and said they wouldn't vote me and then totally put my in a tie. Yeah, that sounds legit. I'm so sick of old school. I was a paranoid mess going into this game, but it's funny what nearly getting voted out can do to a person. It lazer focused me after that Dallas vote, I actually got up and targeted Blaine hard core, where previous votes I would've let Skandi done his thing. (Oh, did I tell you he wanted me to sit back like a good little girl and let him do all the leg work for me? Yeah, that's a thing. Love you Skandi but clearly you don't know that I'm not a sit back kinda girl). But this vote I was aggressive, and I think it paid off. Now old school has a pissed off little bitch wanting them all out. Good job old school, and when I say old school I mean the exact core of Mihai and Lukas. You two are good guys, but inside this game, can't really stand you. I'm jumping to the first alliance offered. If I can work with Skandi without the other old schoolers, I'll do that, but for now... Done with old school. ;)

"qahtan"

- Before the challenge ended, we all decided that we would vote Taylor out because Cali was more likely to stick with us at a swap (and I’m aligned with her) and Taylor didn’t talk much. So the immunity challenge ends and I win immunity! Episode4conf1.gif So after results I receive a clue to the idol that I already have and the idol that my alliance with Kevin, Tyler and Jessy looked for but it was already gone. So I copy and paste the clue into that alliance chat as well as the all girls alliance but I’m an idiot and didn’t realize that it said: “here’s the clue for the idol you already have” so I sent that to everyone… Episode4conf2.gif I started hyperventilating and Jessy spammed the chats in hopes that no one would see it but then we planted a fake idol that matched the fake idol clues Jessy planted. To rewind a little bit, Jessy planted a flake clue from Nicaragua and Tyler found it and we said we think Joan hid it. So I showed them the idol from Nicaragua and said Joan must have noticed his clue was gone and then added that idol. It seemed like they bought the story but at this point I’ve lied to them so much that the truth wouldn’t help. After all the idol drama settled down, Joan skyped with Taylor. So after Taylor got on video and talked in his Australian accent, Joan decided he wanted to keep Taylor… Episode4conf3.gif And then Yap messages me and says he wants to save Taylor too and honestly wyd we decided the night before that Taylor was going so I gave Joan enough reasons not to keep Taylor and then the only person who wanted to save him was Yap.

"shehr"

- As if voting Amber out and lying to her didn't already suck, it looks like the swap is coming and New School will be split up unsure emoticon Right now I'm hoping I make it to a tribe where there's a good amount of New Schoolers left so that I'm not at a disadvantage.

If Ricky, Molly and I get split up, it could be a bad scenario for us as a trio. I think people are expecting the endure people to align so we could be easy targets. I'd also love to be on a tribe with both Jamie and Jessy. Jamie is someone i could see a lot of potential working with as an ally. I know Jessy and Jamie are close, and I think Jessy and I are on decent terms, so I think they'd be a good plan if I can't make a tribe with Molly and Ricky.

Fingers Crossed I don't get swap-fucked l m a o

Post-Swap
"qahtan"

- L M F A O  I KNEW IT I KNEW THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN REST IN FUCKING PIECES @ ME LIKE I JUST GOT SWAP FUCKED SO HARD LOL ME RN Episode4conf4.gif

"shehr"

- Old Qahtan is in majority on new Qahtan but they don't know that Tyler P has the idol. I'm debating whether or not I should tell them that they need to split the votes in order to flush the idol or let things play out as they should and pretend I don't know.

"qahtan"

- This swap is practically perfect. Turns out that voting out Taylor was a good move since him and Lukas despise each other, I would hate tampering with my relationship with Old School due to them now being the legal guardians of Jessy at New Bariq, it's like a kindergarden with me paying them with Skandi's idol in exchange of them keeping care of Jessy. Yeah, it was me who got Jessy a deal with Old School, Skandi knows that he shouldn't mess with me due to me being able to sink his game with four words: He. Has. The. Idol. He also thinks we are Bonnie and Clive... It's more like I'm just watching him go on his power trip, blindside delusions and ego enlargement, waiting for the right moment to dig into his back the dagger for all his bad actions, I'll be his personal karma based executioner. In the other hand I am doing extremely good in my new tribe, I have majority from middle school and the two outsiders are people who are closer to me over anybody else. Lukas, probably nobody has spoken to him other than me. Tyler P., I hosted for him and I know all his strengths and weaknesses. I'm everywhere, but they can't do jack about it, they all need me one way or the other, and I will help those who earn it.

"Shehr"

- New tribe, the joy. I mean, I'm kinda excited to meet new people, but I could have done that while not being the only old schooler in the tribe. Can you believe the luck amir, skandi and charley have? They're 3 against 3, hombre, all they gotta do is stick together. And lukas, well lukas is pretty screwed, but I'm not even a bit sad about it. Last night when the tribe were announced, amelia, sam and kevin messaged me, so that felt good. Also, tom is a med student just like me, so I used that to start talking with him. I think I'll play the flirt card with amelia and sam, since girls love compliments and stuff, but damn, it's hard to flirt with a bunch of mangatars. The persons I trust the least here are kevin and molly, but we'll see how everything works out. Also, all five of them are from US and Canada, hope that the time zone thing doesnt screw me.

Day 10
"qahtan"

- *has war flashbacks of endure 2 with this challenge* WHY DO BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE YOU CHOSE THIS CHALLENGE OUT OF E V E R Y SINGLE CHALLENGE AND I DID A THING LIKE THIS IN ENDURE AND I WORKED MY ASS OFF AND I GOT FUCKING MICHELLE YI'D OUT OF THAT GAME WHY LIKE NO STOP LET ME LIVE

"qahtan"

- Okay so I'm now with two options, work with Tyler P and try and pull in Joan, or just succumb to the Qahtan majority and hope I scrape through to the merge... porque no los dos? I think I'll try and do what I can with Tyler P, but at the same time, make sure he's the preferred target over me. I think that's the best thing I can do right now, other than obviously give my absolute 100% in challenges.

"qahtan"

- The original Qahtan members are pretty much admitting that they're in power and they're a strong four - Joan's like "prove yourself in the challenge and you should be fine" and Tyler R's like "yeah I'll talk to the others and we'll see". My goal right now is get right under their skin, both Tyler P and I are on death row and I'm going to do absolutely everything to get myself to the merge. It's like I'm on death row

"qahtan"

- Another potential idea would be to say that myself or Tyler P has an idol, and then just vote for Tyler P at tribal, so the vote would be 3-2-1, assuming that the Qahtan Four decide to split the vote. Oh and if they decide to start throwing challenges, I'll stir so much shit hahahah

"shehr"

- so i think i left off with ricky finding the idol right? yeah. so ricky found the idol and told our alliance about it, and then twenty minutes later sam messages me like "AMELIA I FOUND SOMETHING ON THE WIKI I THINK I KNOW HOW TO FIND YOUR TRIBE'S IDOL YOU GOTTA GO GET IT" and im like oh shit, what do i say next because a) the idol is gone and b) i know who has it but i'm not about to go tell her that because she's not even on my tribe and my alliance comes first. so i'm just like "whoa what how do i get it!" and she sent me all of the puzzles and everything so i had to pretend to work on it and then be like "oh no it's gone :((((" so she wouldnt get suspicious. supposedly she didn't find her idol either, which i'm inclined to believe, but you just never know *eyes emoji* anyway so that was some drama and i'm just really hoping it doesnt come back to bite me. i didn't tell my alliance about it because i don't want them to know that i know sam or that she wants to work with me. plus, what if i decide that going with her is a better course of action? we shall see. then i won immunity, which was great considering i did that challenge at the literal last minute and was just like "should i even try? this isn't going to matter at all" but comp kween amelia slayed yet again yassss! tribal was pretty fun and worked out exactly as planned, which was nice. amber was just going too hard too fast in the wrong directions, so she had to go. the only thing that i felt bad about was that she asked me if we could talk about harry potter later in the day after i said i voted for molly (lol pleathe) and i was like "yeah i'll let you know when i can talk!" and then i was busy all day and didn't get a chance, which makes me look like a jerk. so i'm sorry amber :( but other than that, i'm happy with how it went bc it really unified us (at least i think) as a tribe and i feel like i have a solid relationship with everyone there. i think original shehr has a good chance of sticking together and having each other's backs and going really far. *lindsey cascaddan voice* the winner of this game is standing on that tribe :~) which as it turns out is Very Good, because now we're swi[p swooped and i gotta figure out where the hell im going from here. as far as the new tribe goes though i am feeling great about it so far - there's me, molly, and tom from original shehr and also the not from europe alliance; sam and kevin from the middle school tribe; and mihai from the old school tribe. as of right now, my ideal alliance would be me/molly/tom plus sam and/or mihai. i'm definitely 100% with original shehr and i trust them the most, and i'm really hoping nobody fucks that up because honestly there's no way we can go wrong if we just stick together. that being said, if i hear anything about them not being real w/ me, that's it and they're dead and i will not hesitate to cut the cord. but i'm really hoping it won't come to that. anyways, so i've got those two and we just need one more in order to get majority. we haven't really talked about it much yet, but tom did mention mihai and i was like "he seems cool" because i had a good chat with him and he was one of the few old school people i had actually heard of and wanted to get to know. he's also a winner, so that helps and will definitely be important in the future. and then.....there's sam. okay. this is where stuff gets kinda complicated for me. the thing is, i know sam from tumblr, and we have our own intense dragonz fan club, and she's been really enthusiastic about wanting to work with me ever since the game started. (a clarification: THIS IS IN NO WAY A PREGAME LET ME LIVE @VIEWING LOUNGE) and in an ideal world, i would love to work with her as well. however. it gets a little dicey when considering who i trust the most, and how much i'm gonna tell her about my game, and whether or not working with her is actually a good idea for me. right now i am just planning to be cautious about it and play it by ear and see what happens.

"qahtan"

- The challenge is underway and it's stressful as heck but I think we can pull off the win if we're strategic enough. Right now we need to make sure the other two tribes don't get 1 of each item, they don't get any points. For shehr, that means we need to keep them from getting the canteen. If we can successfully do that, we might be able to pull up in the ranks.

If we lose the challenge, I'm planning to try and get myself wedged into a good spot on thid tribe. Lukas and I have decided to work together on this seeing as we're in the same position. If we get 1 more, we force a tie, so ideally we want to get 1 or 2 more people to side with us and maybe survive.

This of course rides on the idea that Lukas won't betray me and that people will be honest with me. Joan says he wants to keep the tribe strong, so as long as i show dedicatio and that i'm doing my best to contribute, maybe I'll make it through this.

"bariq"

- god, fuck EVERYONE you know?? i hate every fucking body, even jamie and sam my apparent #1 allies who've held all this fucking information from me. jamie didn't tell me anything about people knowing sam having the idol, she didn't tell me anything about tyler and joan actually fucking wising up sam didn't tell me tyler p. has the idol because she doesn't trust me because of jamie, she didn't tell me everyone on qahtan is in fucking danger, she didn't tell me her tribe is BASICALLY throwing the fucking challenge because oh look they've... deleted their posts.. because they didn't know they got it... how... truth-y..... huh.... true! GOD my perspective has totally shifted and i'm looking for more fucking info because i am out of the FUCKING loop.

"qahtan"

- WE ARE FINALLY ON THE BOARD OH MY GOD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Episode4conf5.gif

"shehr"

- Generations confessional

"shehr"

- so we swapped woo and anyway it looks like we going to tribal lol so i'm talking to tom and he wants mihai to work with us.... but not with us? he wants a 3-2-1 votes split basically like old tribes and have mihai vote how we told him? this is literally the dumbest plan i've heard of in a while like???? tom stop you're not a strategic goddess, leave that to me and win challenges

"shehr"

- Well, I've officially decided that once I'm voted out, I will be leaving the wikia. I've put my heart and soul into this group, and I feel like it is a good one, and can continue to grow. It's just time for me to move on with my life, and let other things be the cause of stress for me. This is the last game I applied for, and other than one other game I'm in currently, once I'm out, i'm out

"qahtan"

- 13 and a half hours into the challenge and we're staying strong! I don't want to sleep though because i'm worried if I do we'll sink back into 2nd. Also where the fuck is Lukas it's 6:39 pm in his part of australia this is bs he better have a good reason why he was gone. Oh also I think he has the Bariq idol so if we lose this challenge i'm gonna have to think a lot about how to proceed.

"qahtan"

- This challenge is brutal. People are tired as hell and stressed. My tribe started out sucking badly at the challenge but shockingly we did a comeback and we are now first, aye from flops to tops. Anyways strangely enough I did my Cote Curse ritual on the other tribes... And since then we've done way better... It also worked when I did the curse on Blaine as a joke and he went home... I also did the curse on Tyler P and he is basically dead if we go to tribal one or twice... Im just waiting for Hagrid to storm into my room and say "You are a wizard Joan."

"shehr"

- poor luck is hosing us bad in this challenge and tribal appears inevitable. Luckily im with 2 old sherhr in the swap and one of them is my close number 2 partner, molly. Weve been preparing for tribal and ive sorta taken the lead, establishing the ground work. Kevin is one of the biggest threats and needs to go ASAP. He came to me scrambling and hopefully i convinced him the vote is mihai. He told me about a tumblr 3some with the girls, winners 3some with same, mihai and amelia. Hes trying to pull out all the stops. Im afraid he might have an idol. So i told mihai that kevin may have an idol and the target is sam. Me, molly and amelia will actually vote kevin. If mihai is being truthful, kevin should go home 3-2-1. If not, it may be 3-3 and a possible idol play, but hopefully the idol is wasted on Sam. Im not gonna put a big effort into talking to sam about the vote because when people are neglected, they think theyre the target. I want sam to think shes the target :). I was fairly confident last tribal. But this ones gonna be a doozy.

"bariq"

- Judgement Day has arrived, we switched. It could have been much worse, but I'm not too happy with this tribe. I do like the fact that I have Skandi and Charley with me (oh yeah we voted out Blaine eventually in the revote) but the new members are not very reliable. Jessy and Jamie are both part of the trio that I call "Joan's Angels" (along with Sam). They will do whatever Joan tells them to, including voting me out. Then there's Ricky... well, I thought I might be able to work with this guy. but honestly? I don't trust him. So at the end of the day I have another bunch of people that are not really good at challenges yet not very trustworthy. Mihai was also screwed over, but at least he has Tom on his tribe. Ricky was totally useless in this challenge. for god's sake even Charley was better than him! my plan is to send him home, but there's a big chance he has the Shehr idol so we will have to split the votes. It might be risky, but if we throw a vote or two at Jamie this vote will go down as planned.

"qahtan"

- HEY! I SAW THAT.

Amir previously claimed the canteen at 13:10, Jamie just kept hers up too. But then Amir claimed the golden bars at 13:20. So he decides to delete his canteen post, way passed the 10 minute deadline!! I'm pretty sure that's against the rules!!!

Like you shouldn't be able to pass an item passed the deadline, after you realize oh I caught the next item. GET BAILEY ON THIS! I'm up in arms \o/

Day 11
"qahtan"

- This is tragically humorous... Skandi basically will follow anything I tell him, vote out Jamie, protect Jessy, hide the idol, prepare yourself to vote out Amir at the merge... Yet the one condition he asks me, to keep Lukas, I am reluctant and he is okay with it because he doesn't really care as long as he has me. I already see the headers... Survivor: Generations - One Big Satyr.

"qahtan"

- Survivor Generations - Day 10 We Won

"shehr"

- OMG. I love this twist, is the best ever. I find i so funny that everyone I ask what they wanna do, all they say is that they dont know, lol. Come on, bitches, everyone has a plan in this game. I think the best thing is for qathan and bariq to join forces and take out ricky or tom since they're so strong. Personally, I would love to take out kevin, he's so arrogant and full of himself. If this guy wins this game, I WILL eat a rock!

"shehr"

- This tribal is like Shrek, because, also like onions, it has so many fucking layers. It's not a parfait, because that would mean it was good. Nobody likes this many layers. But, I feel a little better about my situation

"qahtan"

- The obvious happened.. SWAP!

So while I'm on my date with a girl I really like and I don't want to screw up, I'M GETTING BOMBARDED WITH MESSAGES ABOUT TO CHOOSE A FUCKING NUMBER! I'm like damn homie can't y'all wait.

Anyway so I'm still on Qahtan, and I'm still with Ridgeway, Joan, and Cali. Not a bad group of people to be with for me, I like it ^.^)b

Joining us is Lukas and Tyler P. (Who I'll now and forever refer to as Po). Right off the bat, we have majority. To me, this seems like nothing to worry about. Just possibly an idol or two, which we luckily can just split the votes with.

Fuck this challenge. I think this is like my second or third time doing this type of challenge and I've hated it every time. Luckily for this we have Po, who's like a damn computer getting a google doc up with everything organized. Probably didn't look good that I woke up late for the challenge.

And boy, we were getting decimated in the early rounds of this game. Jamie and Jessy were kicking our butts! Eventually as the time went on, my tribe got a certain groove going on. We would use a passing strategy that I saw happen in Endure, we would show a great defense (cause you know, a good defense is a good offense), etc. All that plus a combination of me staying up (roughly 18 hours) and Po, we fucking dominated this challenge. WOOOOOOO WE WIN.

While doing the challenge, I was very honest with Lukas about the situation. That yeah, because of the situation, it does seem that the 4 of us may stick together. Like I wasn't trying to beat around the bush and seem shady, I was just being honest. And I think it would be clear that if any other tribe was in our situation, they may do the same thing.

Well the twist was revealed to be a join tribal, SO LOL NVM HAHA. I talk to Po afterwards and I said what was on my mind and in my heart. That yeah, even though it seemed at the time like we could have gone to tribal council and not worry, I still gave it my all that challenge. Staying up all night and just matching the amount of work and energy you put in that challenge. Even though I knew he had an idol, I guess he really didn't want to play it and keep it for a later date. Also that would screw him in the future too.. ANYWAY, he said he appreciated it. So I'm glad my actions definitely spoke loud and clear to him, that I'm opening this huge door to him for us to work together.

"qahtan"

- I am legit everybody's fucking secretary I basically make appointments for everybody, do the research for everybody, make the alliances for everyone. Gotta say I love my job. I am basically orchestrating everything that is going to happen in the anti Tumblr Endurers side making myself seem like a supporting figure when Im actually tweaking it like a mastermind.

"bariq"

- FUCK OFF OLD SCHOOL+NEW SCHOOL!!!!!!!!

"qahtan"

- This morning was great! I woke up to the confirmation of us winning the challenge, and the twist! THANK YOU HOSTS! The twist had saved me, honestly! But last night I made a lot of progress social game wise, had a skype call with Joan and Yap that lasted hours. It was nice meeting yap, he's a really cool guy who I see myself being friends with outside this game, and it was great catching up with Joan too, he's a legend! Yap admitted to me that Tyler P and I had our backs against the wall, but this twist has saved me, or at least strongly reduced my chances at being sent packing. But as for this tribal council, I'm hoping one of my Bariq gayshore boys (Skandi, Amir, Mihai) as well as charley remain safe. I'd like to see a big challenge/overall threat like Jessy, Jamie or Sam being sent home, that would be great but its out of my hands.

"shehr"

- so we swapped woo and anyway it looks like we going to tribal lol so i'm talking to tom and he wants mihai to work with us.... but not with us? he wants a 3-2-1 votes split basically like old tribes and have mihai vote how we told him? this is literally the dumbest plan i've heard of in a while like???? tom stop you're not a strategic goddess, leave that to me and win challenges

"shehr"

- SO MANY FUCKING LAYERS. I can either vote Jessy out, losing my ties with Sam, Tyler, and Jessy, thus ruining the greatest alliance ever (Boomshakalaka). Or I can vote out Tom, which would take out a huge challenge threat, but limit my options of alliances later, because Ricky and Yap would probably not work with me. But, I will do what I have to do. I'm not focusing on keeping alliances in this game for too long. Ricky and Yap have shown me before that they don't always stay completely loyal, and I don't expect them to. I'm known in these games as being loyal to the end, and more often than not, it is the reason I get voted out. Since this is probably my last game, I'm gonna go balls deep this whole game

"shehr"

- OMG, I feel so popular now. 7 people asked me what I want to do and they all seem to trust me. I hope I'm not sarah from cagayan, lovelies. So, last night tom messaged me and told me he thinks we should vote jessy. I said ok, because, well, it's free to lie to people. After that, jessy messaged me and she started talking non game stuff (that girl can talk), but today she said she wants tom. Also, Ricky said he likes me and wants to work with me, so I just told him that I heard jessy since him and tom are close anyway. I also told that to Amelia. I mean, I would loved to work with amelia as a winners thing, but she didnt want to consider voting out molly or tom when we didnt knew this would be a large TC, so she has made her choices. Sam trustes me 100% and she actually gave mthe clues to the idols but told me they're gone already, since she found the answer too late. Tbh, I think she might have it, she is pretty bright. So, I was the voice between these people and the old bariq and it seems we agreed that tom has to go, because he's so damn good in challenges. I'm only worries that he might an idol and use it, since he just told me he feels insecure because he either goes early or gets 5th in these games. Oh, yeah, and tom also told me he'll tell sam, kevin and jessy to vote out amir so that jessy wont use an idol. I'm sorry, tommy boy, but no one goes after my amir, I love that guy, he's my number one here although sam, charley and lukas think they are. Also, I just hate the fact that people like molly who are sooo lost, are safe for not being threats. So, it should be a 7-5 vote tom-jessy if it all goes well.

"shehr"

- Kinda had to toss my vote out Kevin plans to the wind, but old Shehr have gotten together and plotted. I've sorta spear headed the attack. Plan is to weaken Qahtan and vote out Jessy. This also will help my old tribe with numbers on their new tribe. Mihai seems down with the plan and he claims Charley and Amir are in on it. No word from Skandi. Meanwhile, we are trying to convince Kevin, Sam and Jessy that the target is Amir to prevent idol plays. OMG I'm anxious. I could easily see old Bariq and Qahtan grouping together to take out a Shehr. Which would likely be me, Molly or Amelia since we have numbers on our tribe. Most likely me as I'm the one runnin' around talkin' to everyone.

"sheher"

- And yeah, still using my strategy of getting to know these people and their lifes and I think this is why most of them say they trust me. it worked for kelly wigglesworth, hope it works for me. If I'm going home tonight, i will be surprised but at least I;m trying to play the game

"bariq"

- This twist is some major trolling right there, hosts. It's as if you had a regular hosts meeting and the main topic was "how are we going to fuck up Amir's plan today?" xD But honestly, whether or not my plan works tonight, the person voted out will be totally screwed over. What's the point of even having tribes and tribal challenges if the game is already individual? It's like the stupid Anarchy twist all over again. I think you did that just because you were annoyed with all the unanimous votes. But anyway let's get to the point. There was so much bullshit and disinformation going around yesterday, especially from Joan. Right now I can only count on the four Old Schools and Jessy to vote with me. Sam is supposed to be with us, but who knows. With Kevin I only talked once and this guy is so dull, why is he an Allstar anyway? Most of the Middle Schools really look like as if you were forced to cast them because there wasn't much to choose from. They are all either recycled three-timers or some random guys like Yap and Kevin who (other than hosting) really didn't do much to be worthy of their popularity. So as far as I know, the Old and Middle are going to take out Tom, who thinks the Old are voting with the New for Jessy. Jamie is not really part of any voting bloc, but just to be on the safe side I told her I'm voting Molly. If this plan doesn't sound shaky enough, Tom could possibly play an idol. I will honestly be very surprised if this will go as planned but considering this not very comfortable twist, there is nothing else I can do.

"bariq"

- can't believe I'm saying it but I miss Alejandro's overstrategizing so much! here people be like "oh maybe I'll go to sleep for a couple of hours and when I wake up tribal will be over"

"bariq"

- UGH I COULD KILL SKANDI. Seriously, so I've been telling pretty much everyone on my tribe that I am seperate from old school, which I am. I don't trust them worth a shit because, let's be honest, they're snakey bastards. But today, Skandi drags me, Mihai and Amir into a chat with Jessy and Sam. Like bro, DO YOU NOT REALIZE HOW BAD THAT MAKES OLD SCHOOL LOOK? And he tried to change the vote from Tom last minute. Like WHY SKANDI. He is seriously driving me up the wall. I can't handle it. In other news, Jamie and I are getting tight. Idk if I can trust her, but she's felt better than every other ally I've had before.Jessy also says she wants to work with me. I know she's friends with Sam though, so that won't work long term because I don't like Sam, but we could use it for now. Tom should be going home... And next tribal, if it isn't mixed... I've got my sights set on an old school. Time to walk the walk, I am not old school anymore.

"bariq"

- I survived original Shehr, and I was trying to find a way to survive on new Bariq when this twist came and shook everything up! Originally I wanted to form an alliance on new Bariq with Charley, Ricky and Jessy since I’m closest to them and it seemed so easy (with Charley being on the bottom of old Bariq), but now with new Shehr voting, I shifted my main target onto who I’ve been after for quite a while now — the endure alliance. The endure alliance, all from an ORG called ‘endure’, is supposedly Ricky, Molly, Tyler P and Yap (and potentially Kevin), with them also having tumblr allies in Amelia (and maybe Sam). I was pretty sure they were running Shehr, so I kept my distance, didn’t speak strategy to anyone and just acted like I was loyal and innocent. It worked, and I survived. Now I’m on new Bariq and with the new twist there’s more people voting, so I thought I would have a shot of getting Molly out since I’m closer to Ricky than her, and those two are the biggest threats from that alliance. I pushed hard for it and even managed to form bonds with Skandi and Charley (somewhat aligning with both) while I was pushing for it, but it lead to no avail since Sam wouldn’t follow through with it and we needed her vote. I also made an alliance with Sam and Jessy. I know Sam has an idol through Jessy, but Sam doesn’t know that I know. Pretty much everything Sam has said to Jessy, I’ve been told, so whenever Sam reveals info in the alliance chat I act shocked, but I already knew it before lmao. That’s why when Jessy’s name came up from original Shehr, I knew I couldn’t vote her. She’s pivotal in my game, since she’s feeding me a lot of information. I immediately went to her and told her, and I tried to rally the troops against the endure alliance but it just wasn’t happening. I even got Joan to tell Skandi and Amir to trust me, but he flopped at that and just made them distrust me more. Also I don’t know how this came about but I think I’m in an alliance with Skandi and Joan (and potentially Charley too)? I’m not 100% sure what’s happening right now and who I’m aligned with lol. Anyway, I just decided to sit back and let Jessy fight for herself. Sure enough, now Jessy and Sam seem to have got an army of them + old school voting Tom, and now they only need me. Tom is someone that I never speak to and honestly, I feel a lot safer going with old school and Jessy + Sam over new school, since I was never even added to a proper alliance chat on original new school. There’s still a lot of paranoia going around (for example some people might vote Molly, some vote Jessy, some vote Tom), and who knows what will happen! I’m just gonna wait and see, and hopefully it’ll be Tom going tonight.

"shehr"

- my first thought when i saw the joint tribal thing was "shit no please we dont deserve this" but then i was like "this is actually.....fantastic for me" because like now i dont have to try to balance the winners alliance vs the original shehr alliance and make sure theyre both happy in a 6 person tribe - let me tell you, that was exhausting. the shehr alliance was like "let's vote out kevin but let's tell mihai and kevin that we're voting out sam in case of idol stuff" and mihai was like "can you get them to change the vote from sam to kevin so we can protect our winners alliance" and sam was like "i don't want to vote kevin" and WHEW. too much. that would not have been good and i probably would have been exposed. but now we have so many more possibilities. right after the joint tribal thing was announced, we made a chat with all the old shehr people - me, molly, tom, ricky, and jamie - and were like "okay this is great for us we're solid for sure", which i do believe. apparently jamie and ricky weren't sure if they were safe on bariq so this is extra good for them, and it's really good for me because i dont have to play both sides quite as much. the tribal thing is still stressful, though, because like the general consensus was voting out jessy (i dont remember why tbh or even what original tribe she was on whooops but she voted me out on tumblr once so i'm cool with it), but tom was like "we should misdirect sam and kevin and tell them that the vote is amir" for idol reasons i guess, i have no idea what the f*ck is going on honestly but i'm just rolling with it for now until i'm able to wrap my head around it more. but anyways, so i was like okay this is gonna be a problem if me and mihai are supposed to tell sam the wrong name for the vote but i don't want my alliance thinking i'm with her so i dont know if i should say anything about it, but eventually i ended up being like "yeah so sam might be pissed at me if i lie to her about the vote because she thinks we have a winner thing going on" and i think that was okay? who knows, that might have been a huge blunder and they might be plotting behind my back now but i really hope they're not worried about the winners thing and that my honesty about it is believed because i'm way more into the original shehr thing than i am the winners alliance. so i ended up telling sam the vote this morning, although i'm kind of lowkey annoyed with her this round because she's just been realllly paranoid and acting like nobody is telling her anything at all which i know isn't true because tom said he talked to her and that she was good with the vote. im assuming she was just testing me there, so i hope i passed. but yeah it's been a little frustrating to have her be like "so what are we doing??? what's going on?????" every hour and not giving me anything to work with from her side like idk what you want me to do sam am i just supposed to talk to everyone and give you all the tea? that's not how a good relationship works. and then last night i was trying to reassure her and i was like "i think everyone's just a little messy right now because this tribal thing is so weird, hopefully we can figure out what the majority is doing and it will be straightforward" and she's just like "but on who?????" and im like i don't know sam i don't have all the answers! give me something to work with here! also i'm a little worried now because apparently kevin isn't supposed to know that the vote is jessy but i didn't tell sam that because i assumed tom had talked to her about it already (honestly, tom is a superstar. 10/10) but if she goes and spills the beans apparently that's bad??? idk. there's 15 minutes till tribal so i'm kind of over it right now but sam has definitely gone way down in my trust book. i feel like i might have to get rid of her soon, because she's just been so paranoid and giving me nothing. anyway gotta go now, it's time for tribal so i'm #praying i don't get blindsided or anything. that would be pretty funny, i've gotta admit, but also i have a few more things in my bag of tricks so i'm not quite ready to say goodbye yet. but is that true? we will see.