Board Thread:Season 47 - Heroes vs. Villains II/@comment-28431903-20180612100413/@comment-24553600-20180612225747

Hola Mackie haha, thanks for all the mushy shit about us and my game, and for you going to bat for me even if you may regret it now lmao but I hope to change it back to not regret!

''Take a minute or two. Clear your mind. I'm not about to ask you to go on a mystical spirit quest with me don't worry that'll be for after the game.''

I am going to a couple festivals this summer I think so I hope to let you know how those mystical spirit quests go hahaha

''Re-read your opening speech. Tell me where (if at all) you feel that you were incorrect, didn't articulate something properly, or you wish you could go back and change something. This might seem like a lot to ask but this isn't just for me. I want to see you do well, and I think that this can really be a chance for you to knock this FTC out of the park.''

At first I was dreading this because I felt like it was just gonna leave me more open to the wolves to tear me apart. But after answering some more people and seeing more speeches, I think I see what you mean with knocking this FTC out of the park here because I see my speech or parts of it being brought up quite a bit.

- but I also want to make clear that I never relied on them for anything in the game and my successful was not because of me simply knowing them.

While I do stand by this and I think it's true, I do think maybe I could've immediately spoke about it and backed it up. Like what Audrey pointed out about the Ally idol situation, I could've elaborated what really happened with it to showcase how that particular moment wasn't dictated by friendship. And maybe gone into what exactly I meant further. When I think of rely, I basically think of needing, so I don't think there was ever a moment in this game where someone I knew before this game started ever saved me from going home and I think my success and safety in this game was due to me working and getting myself safe and not just having friends save me. I do think I benefitted from having them as an option in the game, but my main point was I think I would've done just as well without them.

- Which is why I take full responsibility for why the "pregame" group died along the way like they did as I will explain.

I know Roisin pointed this out and it wasn't meant to discredit her, but I think I should have put that I was referring to the merge gameplay, and then I talked about what I meant. I think it's mostly known now that it really wasn't a thing until we were pushed into a wall and that was the argument made to get us out. I could have mentioned I fueled the flames that made Evan and Rob distrusted with how I went about it with Nick and Declan.

-''that made me promise myself that I would never be blindsided by a vote ever again. And despite my voting history, which I will get into later, I never was.''

This is just a typo I guess and I should've specified at the tribals I attended. I of course didn't know what was going on during the Nick/Roisin idol play tribals as I wasn't there. I know Roisin said in her speech "If you’re gonna proclaim to have this super lowkey strategic pulling the strings-type game, then these kind of statements do really need to be true." And I really did at every tribal I attended along with the idol play. I explained how I came about Ally's in my response to her and I knew both of Nick's idol finds and Declan's that he transferred to Roisin.

- I was the only person who knew of every elimination that was happening at the merge, even if it wasn't my plan or the original intention of how I wanted that round to go.

I elaborated what I meant above but this is the same category. I knew of every elimination happening at the merge and wasn't blindsided at any. Even with the it wasn't my plan or original intention, perfect example is your elimination. I had every intention to vote off Alexandra that round because I knew how duplicitous she could be but with 20 or 30 minutes left of the vote remaining, Rob came up with a plan with Declan and Alexandra for the four of us to vote you. At first I brushed if off as crazy but the more I thought about it the more it made sense. But that goes with what I was saying as well, even for a crazy blindside like that people needed me for it and it wouldn't have happened without me.

- It's no accident that the final 6 consisted of me and 3 of the most honest people in the game with me, Maya, Declan, and Lexi, three of whom considered me their close if not closest ally.

This endgame was pretty much my ideal ending. Me and Maya were very close, me and Declan were very close, me and Lexi were very close, and me and Nick were close. I'm not sure if it's how it came off, but it wouldn't be fair for me to say they were all there because I wanted them there. They all played this game and got far on their own merit, what I meant was there were times for example Declan and Lexi's names came up as a target and may have gone home if I didn't intervene. They were who I thought I had the best endgame set up with to get me here so I think I could've explained more.

- Survivor is a selfish game that cost me in seasons past because I wasn't being selfish, and if I wanted to succeed this time I had to be even if it meant people I truly liked going home.

I think I should've changed this but I wanted ease the knife in a bit if you will. Like I meant that there were moves that would be awful to make because I truly did like a lot of people and didn't want to see them go home or be sad. But I had to think about it from a game standpoint and not about who I want around because I like them and what not.

- I know from some speeches posted that people think I was sounding cocky/unaware in my speech with stats or didn't explain a lot of big moves I made, so I'm sorry if I came across like that. I just wanted to be proud of what I accomplished in this game and thought that it kind of showed statistics wise other reasons how I did good in this game so it's kind of depressing to me that it's being taken as cocky or just some words. I think FTC is when you show everyone what you got and is where you pull out all the stops to show why you deserve to win and that's what I intended. I'm sorry if you think my speech really made me seem like this unaware player whose not all that, I'd be willing to elaborate more on stuff if I haven't already. I hope that all was extensive enough for you and the jury, and like I said just let me know if anything else pops up you want me to answer.