Board Thread:Season 47 - Heroes vs. Villains II/@comment-26864283-20180611220158

Before I start ANYTHING, I want to personally thank the hosting team for bringing me back for a third time to play this! I had an amazing time, and from my point of view it was hosted extremely well and I’m really appreciative of this whole experience. Thank you also to anyone who has supported me throughout this crazy journey because it’s been stressful as hell. Also, I just want to say congratulations to Sora and Maya for making it to the end as well!

Fellow villains and heroes, I wanted to start tonight off a little different. I know some of you probably came into this tribal knowing or having an idea of who you’d like to vote for. So, I just want to ask that everyone please keep an open mind when reading all 3 of our speeches regardless of who you’d like to win. This has been such an amazing main org season, so please vote for who you believe should represent this season best out of us 3. This season is heroes vs villains, and as you all know, I was cast as a villain. I came into this game wanting to play the role I was cast for. I wanted to be one of the biggest villains on the org, I feel like I accomplished this goal. I played this game very dirty, but that was always my intentions and I’m going to own it all today. People come into Survivor knowing that there’s 3 aspects to the game social, physical and strategy. I believe a well rounded player needs to not only have these three aspects, but they also need to rely on their own aspects of the game. These aspects can vary, and even overlap depending on the person and how they decide to play and navigate their way to the end. It goes to show what an individual game Survivor really is, considering not a single person will win using the same exact strategy. So, with all that being said, I hope you’ll give this speech a read and understand why I did everything I did this game.

Socializing



I came into this game with one goal in mind, BE the villain of the season. I do consider this goal to be accomplished. Right when this game started, I immediately had a target on my back because of me being a host and for “premade relationships”. I knew right from there, I HAD to be the villain in order to stay alive. There was no way I could play safe knowing I was already being targeted on day 1. Since I had Roisin telling people I was involved in all these “premades” in the early days of the game, I had to form extremely solid bonds with people not involved in these “premade” rumors in order to make sure I would not go home. I was able to do this very well considering for the first few rounds, I was a target for the vote because of the rumors and yet I was able to get people to keep me around. In order to keep these strong bonds, reciprocal, I knew I had to socialize A LOT. This ended up working in my favor because the strongest allies I had in this game were the ones outside of my “pregame” relationships. One of the strongest relationships I had in this game was with Mackie, which in my opinion became an unbreakable bond. Not only did we bond over the game a lot, but we actually became VERY good friends through this game and I actually consider him to be my best friend in this game, which is true socializing. I was even one of the few people he gave the idol clue to which helped me snatch up that merge idol. I knew that Mackie would be one of the people to believe the “premade” rumors as well as someone who was also extremely social, so I knew I had to debunk them to him constantly. I being an open book with him and others, when it came to me wanting “the premade” out, which was true. I knew that by getting in people’s ears early on about wanting people like Evan, Sora and Rob out, it would look better for my individual game and would make people more willing to work with me. This also gained me people’s trust since I noticed people openly were coming to me campaigning against “the premade” when I was still being grouped in with them. Unlike everyone else who was being pinned together, I was alone on the villains tribe so I knew I had to only depend on myself and not worry about them. My strong social bonds were what carried me throughout the premerge portion of the game and helped out even more during the merge. People constantly kept me in the loop when it came to each elimination because I had strong bonds all across the board. Even after people voted me pre-merge, like Audrey, I was able to work issues out with people so that way people who remained in the game were not as pissed off at me. Survivor is a game about socializing, so if you do not form strong bonds with multiple people, you will go no where in this game. Considering I’m still alive after 39 days of being targeted, I believe it’s a strong sign that my social bonds were extremely solid this season.

Awareness



I was “woke” this entire season. In Survivor you need information, and in order to get information you need to give information. One of the other strongest bonds I made in this game was Maya. I saved Maya, by myself pre-merge on Maui, so Maya and I would exchange information all the time. She even became someone I wanted to go all the way to the end with because of all the information she ended up giving to me. She always expressed to me how she felt obligated to keep me in the loop because she was in the game because of me. Another one of the strongest bonds I had this season was with Declan. Once Mackie left, Declan became my next best source of information. Declan and I told each other pretty much everything. This helped in me being very aware of what was going on throughout the course of the merge. Declan was best allies with Roisin who was openly after “the premade”, so having someone like that in my corner helped me out insane amounts. I was able to see the “other side’s” perspective a lot more clear since we were very open with eachother. This helped me become very “aware” of how people perceived me in this game. I knew who was coming after me, why people were coming after me and when people would come after me. For example, I knew that Rob was coming after me because of my close connection with Sora. Sora gave me a lot of information throughout the game, a lot of which I kept to myself because I knew how dangerous he was. After the round that Mackie left, I was informed by Sora that him and Rob did it as a move against me. They were connecting the dots about us being closer than I was telling them. This immediately made me lose all trust in Rob, as if it wasn’t already lost because of him going behind my back to get rid of my #1 ally. Sora also informed me that Rob was even hinting that he should idol me out. It hurt me to vote Rob out because we are extremely tight that we’ve even carried our friendship into real life. This shows that I was extremely aware of what was happening, even behind my back. My idol plays are proof of me being aware as well. My idol play pre-merge, I knew people were acting sketchy towards me and I knew people still thought I was involved in “the premade”, especially because I had Roisin still on my tribe. So, I was able to sniff out the lies and realize everyone was voting me causing me to play my idol. My second idol play, I didn’t need to play it, but I knew that I was receiving votes and was unsure if someone would flip on me. No one knew I had the idol, and people didn’t really suspect me, since I never directly received the clue. I was aware enough to know I was receiving votes and could go home which is why I felt the need to play it because better safe than in Ponderosa with an idol in your bag. Keeping people around who wanted to keep me in the loop because of the strong bonds that we formed help keep me aware in this game. I made this happen because people told me who liked me and disliked me throughout the season, so I knew who to align with and who to go against. Being “woke” is not only about being aware what’s happening each round, but also knowing how everyone else is perceiving your game. People kept calling me out round after round since the very beginning of this game, so I knew I was leaving a bad taste in people’s mouths. So people who were leaving the game were upset with me, while people in the game thought I had a lower chance at winning because of the callouts. This helped me get further in the game, because I knew people thought I had almost no chance at winning or would get cut at some point. Being aware that people perceived me like this is the reason I was able to slide by the end game and make it to final tribal council. I was also aware of who else was big jury threats. I knew that Sora was playing an extremely well game early on because he kept purposely voting in minority to not piss off jurors. I had plans to take Sora out since the final 6, but they kept falling through since he had to rely on challenges. Had Sora not won that final 6 challenge, he would be on the jury and this would be a completely different final 3, but alas we are here. I wanted to take shots at Sora multiple times but I just never had the right timing, or he was immune. Regardless, I consider myself to be aware that other people were threats other than myself in this game.

Control



In order to be successful in Survivor, you need to have control. If you take a look at my voting history, I voted correctly every single round except A. It was a split vote or B. I genuinely did not know what was going on. The only few votes I was not involved in were the rounds Marie, Mackie and Audrey left, which proved that I was loyal to people outside “the premade”, since everyone had assumed that is where my loyalties were. Besides those three rounds, I played a part in each and every single elimination, showing that I had a lot of control in this game. Even the round when Roisin and I both played our idols, I became the swing vote in the re-vote because I could either force it to rocks or send Alex home. I was constantly in a swing position which is what I wanted and what I strived to set up during the merge. Once the merge hit, I wanted to be smack in the middle. Since I knew everything was about to cave in with “the premade” rumors still being thrown around and people realizing everyone involved in it was still in the game. I knew I had to lie to both “the premade” and to the other people that I built strong bonds with about where my loyalties really were. For the majority of the votes that occurred during the merge, I was a swing vote in multiple eliminations. When you’re in the middle, you’re in control because everyone wants you to vote their way.

Since I started this speech out differently, I feel as if it’s fitting to end it in a unique way. I want to personally apologize to all those who feel as though I betrayed or hurt them. I came to play this game dirty and that is exactly what I did. 0 of the votes I casted this season were because of personal issues that I had with people, but rather for game related problems. I know I left a lot of you feeling hurt, but please realize everything I did this season was for MY INDIVIDUAL GAME, not for anyone else. I voted out people I was extremely close with outside of the game, such as Evan and Rob because I knew they were threats to my game, showing I did NOT rely on pre-game relationships throughout this game. I took so much caution with every step of the way this game. I made sure to put myself in a good position round after round while still having a massive target on my back from the beginning. I even had to do something that I can guarantee that no one else this season had to do which was lie to someone’s face in real life. I put so much effort into this game it’s insane, I broke not one but two records. I now am officially the most voted for person on the entire org as well as the person with the most negated votes and I am STILL standing. I may have stabbed people in the back, but in my opinion, I stabbed them in the front. Each and every person I backstabbed, knows I backstabbed them. I started from the biggest target on the villains, to outlasting the entire tribe, which speaks volumes to me. So, when crowning your winner, please keep in mind who was a true hero and true villain throughout this season and which villain or hero deserves the crown for it. I am eagerly awaiting your questions and am willing to answer anything you guys want to ask me. 