The Popular Girl at a School Dance/Confessionals

Day 22
""akitaipu"

- Matt went home, I am so pumped that I stayed. I mean yeah he was a great guy and stuff, but I had to try stay, and I managed to do it. Idk how or why they kept me, maybe not the best decision because I'm still pissed at them for Jessy, but things will unfold, and we shall see what we shall see. But they're all like... Really upset over Matt going home. and maybe I'm just jaded because I have been on so many losing tribes before, and I always have to cannibalize my allies, but like.... I don't know. It's interesting to watch for sure. If we don't merge I am fucked. I mean there's no two ways about it, but I hope we do so I can figure out a plan. "						""akitaipu"

- THIS TRIBAL WORKED OUT SO PERFECTLY ALEXA HUNTER AND I ARE STILL IN THE GAME HOW THE HELL. the rest of my tribe is like crying and I'm just kinda like jamming out happy because I survived. I feel like I should feel more guilty about that. "						"akitaipu"

- I don't know if this would be a confessional or not & I want to complain so WHO ASKED HUNTER FOR HIS VIDEO CONFESSIONALS LIKE STOP BEING SUCH AN ATTENTION WHORE ""akitaipu"

- It's official!!! Every Survivor I've ever played in this community (unless I'm forgetting a basic season with no wiki page) I've made it to the merge in somehow!! The last all-stars game I was in I fucked up at the merge and didn't talk to anyone except my ""alliance"", so I'll be changing my ways this time and getting to know people and forming bonds with people ! I'm definitely proud of myself for beating 13 people, I didn't think I'd get to the swap in this game, let alone the merge, but there's still a lot of people I've got to beat if I wanna win again!! I'm kinda sad Matt and Ally aren't here, I would've loved the opportunity to play with Ally and I would've loved to keep Matt in as I don't doubt for one second he would've been loyal to me, it's just he had the ability to play a game I wanted to play so I had to cut him out and follow along with what Ash wanted so she always thinks I'm with her fully, even though I might not be ! I kinda wanna not win any challenges this round as I don't really care to put a bigger target on my back then I might already have, so I'll probably just lay low and build bonds with people and let the Ash/Jamie feud go at it for now while Claire/Emile/I decide which way we wanna go. The merge is when the game really begins and nothing you've done up to this point matters at all unless you can make it work at the merge, and I do not want to fuck up my position in this game now that I've made it here!! "						"akitaipu"

- JUST TO CLARIFY: ALLY WENT LAST TC BECAUSE SHE SPOKE CROSS-TRIBAL TO ALEXA AND TOLD ALEXA TO VOTE ME OUT, ON DAY 1 OF THE GAME. ALEXA THEN WENT ONTO RUIN MY GAME ON DAY 2. COINCIDENCE? I DON’T THINK SO. THE REASON I DIDN’T REPORT THIS WAS BECAUSE IF I REPORTED IT, THEN ALLY WOULD PLAY AN IDOL SINCE SHE’D KNOW SHE WAS GOING. BUT, THE MOVE WAS 100% JUSTIFIED. TY. ""akitaipu"

- So now we’ve merged and the game truly kicks into high-gear. And I’m ready to play it like that — I’ve tried my hardest to clear up everything with Ash and play into her complex of thinking she’s right and refusing to take responsibility for herself. I mean, I still hate her lol. But if she wants me to apologise and say she was in the right then, even if it PAINS me to do so, I will. That way she won’t vote me and I don’t run the risk of being blindsided at the first TC… I mean she still could vote me lol, but I’m TRYING to make it so she doesn’t. I’m also trying to work on Chris, Claire and Emile. Me and Chris are obviously friends and has told me a LOT already, and I feel like I clicked with Claire. Emile less so, but I’m trying to talk to him like I’d talk to his friends and use all that epicmafia lingo. I also speak to Claire much more seriously than others — she told me she hates when people use ‘iconic’ and ‘slay’ and ‘yaaas’ so um.. I’m not using them EVER around her! I’ve also tried to speak to Charley and Hunter more. I just want people to not target me and have options going into the future. If I build bonds with these people, even though they most likely want me out (according to Claire, Charley has been shit talking me lol), then I can use that. Alexa I’ve been keeping tabs on too. I feel like I’ve kinda neglected Sora, Brett and Jared but I only have so much time and I wholeheartedly trust them so that should still be okay. On the topic of Sora and Chris, I’m gonna have a choice to make down the line. Chris said that if we make f9 and remove 2/3 of Charley, Hunter and Ash then he wants to split off with a group of 5 right there. This 5 would NOT include Sora. I’m honestly conflicted because my heart tells me that in this situation, I should choose Sora because we’re really good friends and I would LOVE to go to FTC with him. It’d honestly be such a great end to my ORG career. However, strategically, I think it makes way more sense to go with Chris. All the jury votes I would’ve got, Sora would take. On the other hand though, Chris is definitely going to get ALL of Ash’s, Charley’s, Hunter’s etc vote which would leave me as a loser. I know it’s far off to be thinking about FTC, but every move I’m making right, I’m thinking about how it will affect me long-term and how it will affect my chances of not only making it to FTC, but making it and winning. Also lol, the ORG legit messes up my life. I was getting good amounts of sleep, being all ZEN with my yoga, even getting into running again with my messed up leg… and the ORG messed it up. I’m still doing yoga but I did NOT relax when I did it today. NOPE, I was thinking about the ORG. That is NOT normal and should not be happening — while I’m LOVING my time in this game and it’s a great way to end my ORG career, I definitely need to leave the ORG once this is done for GOOD. After having spent like 5 months away and seeing how much my life improved, it’s definitely the best thing to do lol. "						"akitaipu"

- I DID IT! I flipped the votes, got Ally out and made it to the merge! (SIDE NOTE: Brett, fuck you for voting for me!! I’ll get my revenge eventually). I’m honestly so ecstatic going into this merge situation with the Ash/Jared feud brewing and am going to slide right under the radar while pulling everybody’s strings. I’m really tight with a lot of the people in the game so my only worry is Emile. I have people on both sides already fighting for my vote and I feel SO great to know I was able to twist my fate and stay in this game. Hurricane Alexa is slowly getting stronger and stronger and before you know it, you’ll be in the eye of the storm! Never underestimate my desire to succeed in this game, ever. "akitaipu"

- Ash is already being a fake bitch and trying to appeal to me again. I’ll let her believe that we’re super close but I want her around for just a few votes so she and Jamie can keep on fighting. And I’ll be laughing on my way to the FTC knowing I caused the feud! "akitaipu"

- I'm going to kill all these fuckers if they name the FUCKING MERGE TRIBE CHIP CHIP. I hate this obnoxious retarded crap. "akitaipu"

- So like... Merge. I can't believe I made it. Like after everything. Brett is pretty much the only person nee that I have to meet, and I've gotta say, he's pretty damn awesome. We get along cause art and like I know sides are still gonna matter, but I definitely think I have options. Alexa somehow survived, and so did Hunter, although I could go for strangling him over "Chip Chip." So I'm likely in a good position from what I can tell. Jamie and I are supposed to talk things out, I'm honestly too tired and apathetic to fight so that's good. Plus, it'll help my allies if I'm not some raging bitch. Yet. I've still got shit up my sleeve, and I've gotta watch out. This is going to be messy. ""akitaipu"

- Gosh I feel like the popular girl at a school dance with this merge!! Everyone is coming to me, well, not everyone, but like a lot of people are tryin to talk to me making deals with me and saying they wanna work with me because they think they need my vote, and the people who think they have my vote even though they don't are saying two words to me! I feel like I MIGHT be in the swing vote position I wanted to be in for this first tribal, it's just about making it work for me in a way that won't make me a target next vote ! This honestly has never happened to me before so I don't even know how to like deal with it, I'm used to scrambling around not having people scramble for me!! Luckily because they are scrambling for me I can throw these first two challenges so I don't become a physical threat and can win later on when they don't expect it!!!!!!! "						"akitaipu"

- Chris is a special one. He hosted me, so he knows my antics and I know his. His game is to butter people up and warm up to everyone and god damn it he's a great player but I see right through him. He's going to try and utilize me as a vote for a few tribals then boom blindside me, I'm not that stupid though. Far from it. I'll play along and make him believe I'm loyal but he's definitely one of the top people on my hit list. "akitaipu"

- So I just spent almost two hours talking with Emile and repairing my relationship with him from Sichuan omg so basically here's the problem with Emile. He knows me better than anyone here, he knows how dangerous I am socially and I'm sure he's shitting his pants right now realizing that. I genuinely like him but I know for a fact he voted me out once and he'll do it again. I can't truly slide under the radar with Emile around so the sooner he's gone the better. However, I don't wanna be stuck with a Sora/Jamie/Jared trio so we'll see what happens. "akitaipu"

- You know this is one of those times where the game kind of gets to me a little bit emotionally, which rarely happens. I feel really down in the down dumps and feel as if everyone has their ride or die {Charley/Hunter, Jamie/Jared/Sora, Chris/Claire, Emile/Brett}, person to confide in, but mine are all gone. Uli, Jessy, Matt, all had my back and I had no way of saving them and now look, they’re gone and I’m all alone. I’ve had to adapt constantly in this game to survive and it’s hard to be on the other side of the spectrum this time around but I’m not giving up, no fucking way. I’m going to keep on fighting so I can make them all proud, as far-fetched as it seems. It’s just hard sometimes y’know to stay strong and keep on going so this is one of those moments where I need decompress for a bit and then boom get back in it, in it to win it. "akitaipu"

- Please god, anything but Chip Chip. "akitaipu"

- MERRRGGEEE. I'm 3/3 and I couldn't be more pleased to not be a premerge flop! I feel 10x worse now that Ally just missed merge though, and it's really disturbing me now how okay Jamie is with it, but Jared. He's like so proud of the move and thinks it was such a good move, dude you just voted off your closest ally and someone who probably would've never voted you off and sent Brett to me because of it, AND now you've shown you're just as dangerous as Jamie, but I don't really have other options at the moment so I'm stuck with them and as long as I'm 'loyal' they won't come for me either. I'm really happy Chris Claire and Emile made it to the merge but for petty reasons sad Charley did, being the only Siren to make the merge would've been iconic lol but I'm not gonna cry about it. What I will say is Charley has some nerve to not ever come to me or apologize to me about the vote. I was the MOST hurt by her because we got along so well and for her to not even apologize to me for yk BACKSTABBING ME AND TRYING TO VOTE ME OUT really shows what kind of game she's playing! "akitaipu"

- So as it seems right now I'm trying to re-establish things with Chris Claire and Emile and get them all to come on over with us to our side, we're adding them to the equation and subtracting Alexa and Hunter for now. Hunter I really don't see myself going far with and thought he was kinda funny before, but he's really transparent in what he's doing and I have 0 doubt in my mind he's running over to Ash and Charley and they're linking up and it's the reunion they all hoped for!!! Sadly Alexa is gonna get mixed up in that and regardless if she's actually with them or not, she can't be trusted in that kind of position so whatever we're doing I don't think she'll be included. Unfortunately it's 7-4 which means we can't split votes, and this secret necklace thing throws everyone off but I'm sure we can get someone to spill once they get it, so on a final note Jamie winning rishri is good and bad because I know where the idol is and she can get it, and I can bid on the trip in the auction if she fails so we can at least have that in our back pocket if we need it. So I'll give an update after the challenge of the current situation once I have an idea whose immune ! "akitaipu"

- I'm either gonna walk away from the auction with something or I'm an idiot and won nothing!!!!! I've never used the strategy of bid on everything so I'm hoping it works!!

Day 23
"akitaipu"

- Well, that wasn't ideal, but nothing I could do, especially since I abstained. Hopefully Jamie is legit about not hating each other. "akitaipu"

- I'm excited that we're finally at the merge point and we get to start playing more as individuals. I'm trying to talk to the new people I'm meeting and I think it's going well with Chris. We're the last two winners and we talked about sticking together because of that and I feel like he's a very important player at this part of the game. I'm still bitter against Ash and I'm not excited about being on a tribe with her and having to listen to her all the time but if putting my feelings aside will help me I'll try to do that because I'Il do whatever I need to do to win again. ""akitaipu"

- I feel like I'm in a really interesting place in the game right now. How Hunter Alexa and I see it, there are two main sides. The four people I was on a tribe with, Chris Claire Ash and Emile, and the four they were on a tribe with, and then us three as swings. The thing is, I would feel bad screwing over Chris Claire Ash or Emile, but I'm not above doing it if I have to. They did screw me over with the Jessy vote, and then almost just sent me home. But I don't know if I want to work with the other tribe either because.... well, Jamie and Sora are over there, and I don't trust them for a second. I kind of just want to finish what I started and take out Sora, but that might not be the best idea for me right now. I have to see how everything shakes out. "						"akitaipu"

- Guess who just found their SECOND HIDDEN IMMUNITY IDOL THIS SEASON!!!!! AHHH!!!!! I CANT BELIEVE THIS! This is the miracle I needed in this game and this thing is gonna help me turn the rides of this whole damn game, Sora is just Jamie's lackey? Sora isn't as good as Jared? Brett would kill Sora in every aspect? GOD I really needed this because I was starting to feel like the low man on the totem pole between our alliance threat wise and was like the goat among them, but I have a ray of hope now and my day is GLORIOUS NOW. "akitaipu"

- As Jamie begins to trust me more, I begin to trust her less and less. As the days go by I realize more and more what a shady bitch she is LMAO. Like personally I do like her but she is a huge threat and also at the same time has some strong pre-existing relationships. I'd like to keep her around for maybe 2-3 more votes so she and Ash can go at it and bicker but I want her out and badly. With the whole Ash sabotage thing I did they both haaaate each other and both trust me so that's a plus. LMAO neither of them think I'm a threat yet I'm the one who turned them against each other and managed to flip the votes time after time. I'm also trying to plant seeds of doubt about Ash in Hunter's mind so when the time comes I can use him as my shield to send her packing. I want to lay as low as possible by continuing to pull all the strings in the background and having people go at each other while I slither by. Ideally, the merge boot will be Chris (or Emile) so I can take Claire for myself but we'll see what happens and how things change in the next few days how shit goes down. Brett's also on my radar since he wrote my DAMN NAME DOWN! But I learned from last time that you need to have patience to make the right move at the right time. "akitaipu"

- Chris's target just keeps getting bigger after every convo he has with me. He/Claire are so in sync in the way they talk to me and are both trying to work HARD on getting me to flip to their side but I'm not a moron, well maybe I am sometimes but not right now. They're clearly the fakest, most untrustworthy people in this entire game and I want them split up and NOW. That way I can possibly use Claire as a goat since she comes across very unlikable & abrasive which will be to my advantage. I'm definitely in a swing vote position right now and hell yeah I'm going to be thinking long and hard about my future in this game because if I'm not sly and strategic, my game is fucking over! My main objective is to slowly split up each duo without destroying the trust I have with others, it'll be hard but I'm gonna try my damn best! Chris, I'm not falling for your tricks sorry! Jamie's a shady bitch too but thankfully I have her and Ash going at each other's throats. It's hard having to work with all these different duos but I'm gonna get it done because my main objective is to win this game, no matter what friendships I have to destroy in the process. ""akitaipu"

- Sora's logic: Yeah let's put our faith in the people who backstabbed anyone who was ever on their side and are the sole purpose that they're gone! {Chris, Claire, Emile, Ash}. I don't get it, Sora how could you trust them... you're gonna get fucked! "						""akitaipu"

- So making the merge was just great, the game really kicks into high gear now, people really start to play for themselves. The merge is going to be a glorious blood bath. I am really excited looking at the merge because there are only three people that I genuinely have a connection with and will feel bad about voting out, and they are Jamie, Sora and Emile. Everyone else I either fucking loathe entirely or have no real attachment to, this makes my route to the finale easier because I don’t give a shit who I need to blindside. My read on where loyalties lie within in the game right now are Hunter/Charley/Ash Chris/Claire/Emile Myself/Jamie/Sora/Jared Alexa (can go anywhere but will probs align with myself/sora/jared/Jamie) My side is currently working on Chris/Claire/Emile trying to convince them to join our side because that’s where the majority is forming. All that stuff is still kind of up in the air right now so how about some player insights instead. Hunter: I still am not a fan of his, he is really fucking annoying, we did bond over ham which is cool that made me respect him a little more. But I will never come around to him simply because of igor ugh and chip chip, I am disgusted. Regardless I will attempt a game relationship with him because I can see us working together well in the future. I think he is most definitely going to flip on our lake wood 6 alliance but only if the numbers are there, he is smarter than that. Hunter is the kind of player who goes where the numbers are, he definitely seems to be playing a little UTR but I can see him being very sneaky down the road. Charley: She is such an absolute disappointment to me, I thought she was going to be this big player with a great social game. Nope. Talking to her is extremely boring and she uses the XD emoticon so much it makes me want to chew on glass. My initial read on Charley is that she isn’t really a leader, definitely more of a follower, I sense that she might have some strategic chops but I don’t really know for sure yet. Ash: Ash is a pretty strong player, she is ok to talk to and if she survives these next few votes I wouldn’t mind striking up a partnership with her because I feel like it would be beneficial to both of us. That being said, she is extremely sneaky and shady, she loves to strategize and I don’t think she is afraid to backstab anyone. Chris: Chris and I had a pretty huge rivalry back in the BBCAN org. That being said I don’t want to bring past shit into a game because that’s just dumb. Chris is probably the biggest threat here though lmao, he is so good at the game and he’s definitely trying really hard right now to portray this image of a “Changed man” yeah he might have changed a little bit but he could just be doing that for game reasons. What makes Chris so dangerous is that he is one perceptive mother fucker, he can sniff shit out from a mile away. I definitely need to watch what I say around him because he is very intelligent and I feel like he holds a grudge against me from bbcan. Claire: Claire comes off as a follower, her social game is kind of weak, but I can see her possibly emerging as a late game threat. She will definitely go along though for now with whatever chris/emile want. She is someone I want to keep my eye on because I don’t know how to read her game. Emile: I fucking love Emile, he is so funny. The moment we met up at merge we were talking game, I missed him, and I feel like for the most part nothing between us has really changed. He definitely seems worried that I voted out Ally, but I gave him valid reasons as to why I did that. Emile is playing a smart under the radar game and I definitely see him being a late gamer in this season. Jamie: Jamie is fun, we really connect, I like working with her. That being said she is an enormous threat, which is both good, and bad, she draws a lot of attention but she can totally be used as a meat shield. I am also 99% sure she has an idol, so that’s always good to have on my side. I am not going to turn on her yet unless I am given a reason it’s still too early, she will definitely have to be nipped in the bud though before the late game because she is a huge challenge threat. Sora: Sora is actually my ride or die, I love working and talking with him. We honestly are the same person it is really scary. That being said he is also a pretty huge threat and I can see him going VERY deep into this game. I don’t know if I will have to turn on him, but if I have to I will because I don’t think I could beat him at the final tribal council. Jared: Jared is a total snake in the grass, I don’t really trust him but I am pretty sure that he trusts me, that Ally vote was so unnecessary and I only went along with it so that our side wouldn’t be extremely fractured at merge time. He is a sneaky UTR player who also is lowkey good at challenges. Alexa: Alexa is funny, I don’t mind her, she probably thinks her social game is amazing but it’s really not. She is very sneaky and will lie to your face, that being said I don’t think she has the sway or skills to eliminate anyone who is her target. She more so goes with the flow making people trust her. "						"akitaipu"

- https://youtu.be/8TJKYB7jxfg "akitaipu"

- I like, know this is probably 93% paranoia, but I'm genuinely worrying that everything is gonna go wrong and I'm suddenly gonna find myself first merge boot. I just hope things solidify soon. "akitaipu"

- WHEW! So basically I'm sitting in the middle right now and I've been thinking long and hard about what to do and how to behave. Basically, we just merged so my plan is to basically lay as low as possible, but still control what happens through 1 on 1 conversations versus group convos, let someone else take the bullet for my move, in this case Hunter. I want people to underestimate me, disregard me, because last time around that got me to Day 38 and with a lot of blood on my hands. Right now I'm leaning towards blindsiding Chris because he's extremely strategically savvy and basically watched me blossom as a player back in Sichuan. I need him GONE, so I can pick up Claire for myself and send him packing. I'm also trying to keep my relationships with Jamie/Jared/Sora intact while making this move and not putting myself in a horrible position for the next vote. I want Chris out and I want him out bad, but I'm going to let other people fuck up their games to try and make this move for me, meanwhile I just sit back, collect intel and make people paranoid and weary of each other. You can't stand out from so early on because that'll get you a big fat bullseye on your back. "akitaipu"

- Sora wants Chris to ask me what my item is? What the fuck? Just ask me yourself dude. I'm right here! "akitaipu"

- Claire literally spews out 1000 words a minute and I can never tell whether she's being legit with me or not. My gut says she's trying to work me so she can get info from me and take it back to Chris so she's not getting any valuable info from me! ""akitaipu"

- Well through some hard gaming from our side it seems that we were able to work our way into a majority alliance consisting of myself/jamie/jared/sora/chris/claire/emile Alexa and Hunter flipped on the lakewood 6 which was surprising to no one, they weren't really convincing lmao. So charley/hunter/ash/alexa/hunter think they have claire and emile voting with them. But in reality charlery/hunter will be blindsided at the next tribal council. Also super stoked at my mystery item, it's definitely going to get handy especially once things get bloody around here. The mystery item also gives me a chance to build some trust with people. I told Sora and Emile because I really want those two to know that I am putting my full trust in them, my mistake in my past season was that I wasn't fully honest with people a lot of my relationships were extremely shallow on my part, this time I want to prove to people that they have my undying loyalty/trust. Sora and myself are already looking down the road, we both have bad blood with Chris and there is no way he is not going to take a shot at one of us in the coming days. We are going on the offense though and are going to try and build stronger relationships with people like ash/alexa in case we need to use them to blindside chris. "						"akitaipu"

- My plan for this game isn't so much to act like the mastermind like I usually do, but definitely still use my social connections to push myself further in the game, and make decisions as needed as to who is more crucial to the game, like saving Charley. I just need to try not to play as loud as I usually do, but slowly still gain the control that I need to win this game. Hopefully I can strike a balance with this merge. "akitaipu"

- My gameplan for this tribal has been and always will be to get Chris out. I solidifed Hunter/Charley on the plan but am trying to be very subtle with my words because I don't wanna be a Sarah Cagayan type of swing vote who ends up getting blindsided. I'm trying to seem very open to options and not very controlling, my main targets for solidfying their votes are definitely: Jared, Brett and possibly Jamie. I have to be REALLY careful with who I approach about this vote because it could quickly turn on me but I didn't come here to play it safe, playing safe will get me to the final 6 at the bottom of an alliance. This is the one chance there is to take our Chris blindly because since Hunter/I are the swings then nobody is mad at us yet because both sides believe we're with them thus making us non-targets for this tribal which is why we need to strike now, before Chris sees it coming. ""akitaipu"

- Goddamn Hunter and Alexa need to chill the fuck OUT. Like I love them both don't get me wrong, but they just keep saying ""We have to make a big move"" like no, we have to think about down the line. If we expose ourselves as swings now, guess what, it's very trendy in survivor to take out the swing vote. But they won't listen to me because idk why, they just keep saying ""Now is our chance!"" and it's like.... We could be completely fucking our games here but okay whatever yeah no let's just keep saying this is our chance. I think now is a time when we need to be cautious. If they want to make things messy though, I probably can't stop them. But I don't want to make a huge move right now. That just puts the targets on our backs. "						""akitaipu"

- Yeah no they're not listening to me at all despite my best efforts. If this move doesn't work then I'm the one that's fucked, I'm the one that is screwing over someone that saved my ass. And I have to go with it to avoid fucking over every single person in this game in one round. I hate this tribal. I'm going to be under a lot of fire next round, and I'm going to feel bad getting rid of Chris if he does go. Hopefully I can argue my way out of trouble. "						""akitaipu"

- SHIT IS GETTING ABSOLUTELY LIT IN JAPAN IT'S ABOUT TIME Hunter/Alexa are trying to rally some troops to blindside Chris right now. They think they have myself/sora/charley voting with them to blindside Chris. Not going to lie but I am so fucking tempted to actually go through with this and blindside Chris, but it's way too early to break that many peoples trust. Hopefully after this vote I am able to mend fences with Alexa and Hunter because I am going to need their votes down the road. If claire/emile weren't so close with Chris I would probably blindside him right now tbh. I think I have definitely been able to work myself into a power position. Sora and I seem to be the ones orchestrating this entire vote which is just wow go us. I just hope people don't begin to catch onto what's going on around them. "						"akitaipu"

- K I'm probably getting blindsided. This vote is too scarily quiet. The shitty part is, I don't understand what I could've done wrong with my allies. "akitaipu"

- Jamie is such a little snake. It's either her way or the highway and it's gonna get her in big trouble. She thinks I'm dumb enough to vote out Ash and do her dirty work for her? Clearly she doesn't know me very well! You're shady as fuck and I'm going to make sure Chris ends up leaving whether you like it not, this game isn't centered all around you. "akitaipu"

- I definitely don't feel safe right now because I think I'm an easy target for the other side. There's people like Chris who are "flipping" but then I get told by Alexa that he's leading the charge to get me out and I honestly don't know who to believe. I wanna fight hard and plead my case to stay but I don't wanna ruin my chance either by speaking up. "akitaipu"

- I could just like... Play my idol, but then look like an idiot if it's not me. And then get screwed later on. I literally don't know what the fuck to do. "akitaipu"

- Ok also how did Claire win player of the season on Tikal, she has a pretty shit social game, has shown no strategic chops, and is blatantly playing the "UTR person who emerges as a late threat" game, this is all stars people need to start playing like it "akitaipu"

- LMAOOO I'M LITERALLY DYING RN. The hatred I created between Ash/Jamie is literally ruining Jamie's game as we speak. She's trying to orcheastrated a CRAZY plan of putting 5 votes on Ash, 4 on Charley and 2 on whoever just to get Ash out. Nobody trusts her and since I was the catalyst to set this Chris plan in motion all I have to do now is keep my mouth shut and I won't get the backlash for this vote. Chaos is my forte and I love that I've been able to stir the pot so much and get out huge targets and still appear as if I'm not one to worry about, that's why I love this game. "akitaipu"

- My idol is the only thing I have against other people. I'm fucked with Rishiri, I lost the auction, I have no chance of ever getting anything like this again. But I mean, it's the first merge vote. Anything could happen because the lines just haven't been drawn yet. I might just play it just so I know I'm safe. But then everything relies on my social game, and I'll actually have to try in immunities and rewards, even thoUGH IT DOESN'T FUCKING MATTER CAUSE I FUCKED UP. I'm so fucking lost right now "akitaipu"

- I'm pretty sure I'm getting votes right now, whether or not it's to get me to flush my idol, I don't know, but it makes sense. I'm the easy target. So let's play this bitch and hope it's real "akitaipu"

- Shit has hit the fucking fan. I don't feel safe. Nobody feels safe. Oh my God this shit is crazy. AFAIK, Chris, Emile, Claire, they all are voting Jared. Jamie and Jared should be voting Ash. Sora, Alexa, Charley, Brett and I are voting Chris. This should be a blindside and an easy solution...but nope. Ash has an idol. And Jamie knows about it. Why? Because Alexa and Sora wanted to let her into the know. God damn it. Damn it to tell. Ash is gonna play her idol and Jamie is convinced to run a split vote now by getting Emile, Chris and Claire. WTF. This is a shit show. A major shit show. I don't know what's gonna happen. "akitaipu"

- So if everything I understand is right, Jamie has immunity, she will probably play a possible idol on Jared and I have to play my idol cause these fuckers are voting for me. This is genuinely why I hate idols and advantages it's just a lot of bullshit that gives minorities a chance that they haven't goddamned earned. I worked to get where I am and I could get screwed if I didn't have an idol. The thing is, if the vote IS going this way, the vote might just go to 0-0, and if i vote otherwise, it could just go 1-0-0. On the othe rhand, if my idol is fake and Jared doesn't get an idol played on him, Hunter is voting against me and if I stray, it goes into a tie vote and I could have essentially screwed myself. There's a lot to consider. ""akitaipu"

- Ok Sora and myself have found ourselves in literally every single group chat right now, this is actually fucked. We either are coming out of this vote looking great or we are going to have a few people pretty angry with us after the smoke clears. I'm going to let him do a little more work than me this vote because if people do end up angry at us, I hope that they are more angry at him than myself. If everything goes according to plan The vote tonight should result in a Charley blindside with a 4-3-3-1 vote I really want Charley gone, I haven't connected with her, she's close with alexa/hunter and I can't really see myself working with her so everything better work out and she goes home. "						""akitaipu"

- Going for Charley is the worst option out of anyone and we're just doing it b/c Chris' game is in danger so we don't want to upset the group or w/e. Hunter has an idol guys are u kidding me?? We're literally voting Charley b/c of the bullshit reasons Sora spewed out since Charley voted Sora and everyone just conceded to him. Sora is mandhandling our group right now. One good thing about this is that Charley's hidden item will be no more. I thought about secretly switching my vote from Charley to Hunter so Hunter goes home. Upsetting most of the group? I don't think that would send me home. However I am not interested in ruining my image. It would be very hard to talk to people who see me as a wildcard... so I'll have to figure out how we can dodge Hunter's idol next round. Split vote again, hopefully? Is our 7 person group gonna stick together one more vote? Also I don't even want to get rid of Sora anymore, despite his apparent power right now. Because if Jamie's (or anyone's for that matter) ""big move"" at 9 means taking Sora out, then it's the perfect window to blindside Jamie (who probably has 2 idols and is very good at challenges). No idea how to present that idea yet, and to who. If we have a failed blindside on Sora I think it's golden for anyone that didn't vote him out. For some odd reason Sora tries so hard to get rid of anyone who ever votes against him, and I'd like to abuse that if possible. Finally, i believe Ash will have a much longer stay in this game than I first predicted, and I may put an effort into getting close with her! "						"akitaipu"

- Yeah, throwback to first merge boot Wesley on Nepal. Fuck going home with an idol. Even if I'm wasting it, I'd rather feel safe and just pull an immunity run later. "akitaipu"

- Throwback to Hizoku... I'm starting to want Alexa out. "akitaipu"

- This is actually why I was hesitant to play. Rishiri and this stupid auction is basically just like... Heres five hundred items, have "fun". Social games don't matter. It's all items now. "akitaipu"

- Don't you love being in the swing spot having all the power in the world it's a nice change and I think I'ma try and keep it that way "akitaipu"

- I'm really hoping this vote goes just the way planned it, I need Jamie to get weaker as every vote passes. I want her to be feel so flustered and like she's just been knocked off her pedestal, so she realizes her position in this game is not to be the head bitch in charge calling all the shots, not by any means. I didn't come here to stick with an alliance all the way, that'll just ge me 6th place at fucking best. I came here to wreck havoc, split up pairings and leave people in a state of a shock. And that's exactly why I need Chris to go home. He watched me blossom as a player and now it's time for me to watch him twirl his way into that jury chat, this could be the only freaking chance. "akitaipu"

- If Hunter plays his idol I take back saying we should have voted him. And I heard Ash is playing an idol. So if they come out, this should mean there's 2 left and we can start narrowing down who could be possessing it! ""akitaipu"

- This TC is a mess but I don’t care because I’m immune lol. Chris, Jared, Ash, Hunter and Charley could all be getting votes lol, but HOPEFULLY, Charley goes. The plan is to split it 4-3 on Charley and Hunter since Ash is voting Jared (??) and the others will vote Chris, making it 4-3-3-1, but tbh it’ll probs be 4-4-3 and my vote will be wasted lol. ANYWAY Ash, Hunter and Alexa can die lol I honestly hate them. Alexa I’ve TRIED to be nice to and was even thinking about working with her long-term but she flips immediately. Hunter I knew would flip and told him I wanted Ash out and SHOCKER, Ash found out everything I told him within 5 mins. Ash is just a bitch lmao I hope she goes SOON. I think Chris planting paranoia seeds in her head combined with everything I said to Hunter COULD make her play an idol, but I don’t think she will. Since I’m immune, I’m just gonna sit back and watch people scramble and feel safe because it’s probably the only time I’ll ever feel safe until I’m immune again. If I was them though, I’d be a paranoid MESS… like legit I would’ve definitely had a meltdown by now. Also my vote could’ve been so much harsher but I chose to NOT attack Charley as I still want to be able to fight for her jury vote if I reach FTC… but omg I was so close to legit attacking her. ALSO LOL Charley should be going because if she survives this TC, she'll have the most days played and that CANNOT happen. Like she legit SUCKS LMFAO I couldn't even bring myself to talk to her this time. She says NOTHING interesting like I have to DRAG the conversation on and replies with XD every time likE GET A PERSONALITY!!! ALSO ASH CAN DIE W/ THE XDs TOO, THEYRE FUCKING ANNOYING. CHARLEY MUST GO THIS TC SO SHE DOES NOT HAVE MOST DAYS PLAYED BECAUSE HONESTLY? THE ORG WOULD LOSE SO MUCH VALIDITY IF *SHE* HAD MOST DAYS PLAYED. Anyway lol this TC has been fun to watch but I’M SAFE SO IDC WHAT HAPPENS. ALSO I REACHED 100 DAYS AND BEAT MY ROME PLACEMENT SO HONESTLY? I’M HAPPY. ALSO SORA GOT AN IDOL. YAY. "						""akitaipu"

- Alexa is a fucking bitch and Hunter is a bitch and Charley is a follower and I'm not happy that they decided today was the day to target Chris, and unfortunately for them Brett/Sora told me everything and we have a plan of attack, and now I have the perfect excuse to tell all of them as to why I flipped! The scenarios in which I'm voted out are having someone switch their vote in the split vote plan to me, or having two idols used or a vote negator or something from Rishiri used to get me out. I hope to god this plan works because I really cannot be the merge boot again in another all-stars season. "						"akitaipu"

- So all day from when I was informed of everything happening, I've been trying to plot seeds of paranoia with Ash to get her to waste an idol and she came to me just now saying she did have one and she used it on herself, so if I'm still here after this vote which I HOPE I am and I HOPE Hunter doesn't use an idol and Charley didn't win something at the auction to save her, then thankfully I won't have to worry about Ash's idol moving forward ! I kinda feel like I'm leaving though anyways, but at least it's not a blindside for my boot!!!!! "akitaipu"

- Okay, things in Japan are getting far crazier than I have seen thus far. This entire vote is a clusterfuck and I honestly wouldn't be surprised to see 4 or 5 people getting votes tonight. Originally I was gonna keep the Riza people around, and link up with Chris Claire and Emile and basically have everyone against Charley and Ash, BUT as suspected Hunter flipped and brought Alexa with him, shocking right? Remind me again why voting out Ally over them was such a phenomenal move lmao. Anyway, of course I'm told right away this from Chris and Chris tells me that Hunter has gone ahead and made an alliance chat with them and Alexa, so basically thats strike 444yu545328 for me and hes done in my book. So I get my own little alliance going of the Fucket Four (me/brett/jamie/jared, name tentative to change) and C/C/E and now we're Se7en. We have the majority so easy peasy get one of them out, but not so fast. Alexa goes around saying Chris has been leading a charge to get me voted out? And how convenient Hunter backs up this story with me and adds me to a chat of the 3 of us and tells ME that 'I don't think our tribe alliance is gonna last : /' AFTER HE FLIPPED FIRST. So I have to go along with it, and their both basically protecting Ash which is what I wanted. I have the Riza idol so I know there's only 1 or 2 max idols floating out there so we decide to split the vote as well. For the vote, we're doing 4 on Charley and 3 on Hunter. This may come across as a resentment vote, it kinda is! Charley finally spoke to me after like being together for 4 days but she was kinda just like eh about it so w/e, the main reason is actually because if an idol is played I think she's the least likely to have it played on, as well as something else. In the situation we get to 9 and Chris decides 'hey if I use the 2 survivors of that minority with claire and emile i can get majority and take out sora/brett!' which I'm not okay with even if he's not thinking it. Charley is like very spineless in the sense that she is very very very hard to convince to make a move so I imagine she won't be making one with us, so audios! Hunter is getting votes as a just incase as well, can't have idols for both of y'all (I hope). Now me and Brett have been added to sooo many alliance chats (although moreso me) and what I think Alexa and the others plan is to try and get the two sides to pick off the people leading the other people aka Chris and then probably Jamie. then take those people and just storm their way to the end, which I can see and it's gonna work here as tempting as it is to kill Chris now before he can get me. This vote is gonna be a mess but I think I know what might happen, if Ash is really that crazy to play an idol then lol because it should be so apparent that she's not getting votes but whatever floats their boats. So prayers this works and doesn't turn out like the Rome merge because I'm starting to get flashbacks of that happening again but I've grown so much since then, I think I have a handle on what's going on and I'm just gonna pray that everyone says what they said they are (or told me at least).