Satan Is Finally Gone/Confessionals

Day 29
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- I have made both John and Linus that they are my best allies for now. But I can't trust them. And... I can't wait to the next tribal council! I'm sure it's gonna be interesting.

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- Never mind about Felix not wanting to stay and giving up on the game, he’s playing it more than I am right now! Felix, when you read this, sorry for saying that before! Anyway, I was kinda just set on voting Felix, but he suddenly comes to me and says that he has a plan to keep all of Vatanchu safe. I’m like, wow, that’s great, let’s do it! He found out that Aguateca is going to be split on the issue of getting me or Felix out, and that Michael, Christine, and Marie want to keep me, whereas Anna and Claire want to keep Felix. Because of this 3-2 split, if the four Vatanchus got together to vote Marie, we would have the majority, 4-3-2! Amazing plan, literally amazing! None of the five seemed like they were budging, so unless they were outright lying to us, it would work. To be honest, I was expecting the worst, but hoping for the best. This plan was our best chance at all staying together, and maybe have majority next week if Aguateca can’t reunite. Felix and I acted like we were voting each other to the Aguatecas, and we just prayed that it would all work out.

In the end, of course, it didn’t go well for us. Linus and Joanna both flipped, with Linus voting for me to try and save his F2 with Felix and Joanna voting for Felix to avoid going to a tie. In other words, it was 4 votes Felix, 3 votes me (I’m up to 9 now!), and 2 votes Marie. I’m annoyed, but really just more upset, about a lot of things. First, I feel really bad about lying to Marie, Christine, and Michael. I just went through with this plan, not because I didn’t like them or anything, but because it gave all of Vatanchu a decent shot at staying together. I feel bad because I don’t want those three to think that I’m a bad person for lying to them, I just had to do what Felix needed us to do to save ourselves. I apologized to them all immediately after the results came out, and told the truth about everything, and expressed how I would be willing to work with them come the next tribal if they needed a vote. They all said they understood why I did that and forgive me, so I’m very grateful for that.

Second, I’m starting to get frustrated at the game, because absolutely nothing has gone my way so far, besides the idol play at F11. I was screwed on the Tucker vote, the Mel vote, the Scott vote, and now this vote. I’ve been in a terrible challenge slump, and I got nothing at the auction. Maybe it was a curse for being a gay guy on the tribe named after the Maya “Straight God”. It's just annoying because everything that I try to do to put myself into a better position has failed, and I don't feel this motivation to make big moves anymore, if they're just gonna keep failing time after time. Everyone thinks I'm a threat when I have nothing to really say about myself come Final Tribal. It's really frustrating, I'm hoping my luck turns around soon but I don't know if it will.

Third, I'm annoyed with Linus. Him flipping on WAISA to save Felix was the reason Felix was voted out, because from what I gathered from Joanna, she knew about Linus flipping and voted for Felix to avoid a tie. Had Linus just stuck to the plan, Joanna also would've voted for Marie and we would've all been safe. He has no one to blame but himself for Felix leaving, and, from what I know right now, I have no problem in placing the blame entirely on Linus for this tribal. And of course, he's not gonna face repercussions for it, instead I'll probably just get more votes next tribal and get voted out if I can't think of something.

All around this game is taking a toll on me emotionally. I honestly cried for a bit after the results came out because of all these reasons. I know that’s kind of pathetic, but I get really emotionally invested in ORGs, lol! Everything’s just not going my way and I don’t want to leave yet. I’m really happy I made it to Final 8, but I’m not done fighting, and I want to regain some control over my fate in this game if at all possible. I guess we’ll see what the game wants to throw at me next, but if I can win immunity then I’ll be ecstatic.

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- I feel like the world has been completely against me this game. I've been in the minority non stop, and everytime I try to make a move it ends up backfiring completely. I stick with Vatanchu, Claire has an idol. I flip and try to vote out John and form a new Majority with Claire, Felix, Joanna and Anna, that blows up in my face too and Im still voting in the minority! I've been playing from being since the start and I really need to finally get the moment. John is most likely going to win this challenge because I helped him, which is dangerous for me, but it could also force Claire and Anna to vote for someone from their original tribe. I have my fingers crossed.

Day 30
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- For once I'm working with John and it makes me want to stab myself in the Liver :)

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- More tribal stuff to talk about! Linus apologized to me for voting for me to leave, and explained that he only did it because he had a Final 2 with Felix that he wanted to try and preserve. Understandable, but like I mentioned previously, Felix could’ve stayed had he voted Marie. Oh well. He proposed that we try and keep the remnants of WAISA together (me, him, and Joanna), and work together to get out one of Michael, Marie, or Claire. I’m hesitant to do that, of course, because I just told them how sorry I was for voting against Marie, and said I would work with them, but now I’m going to backstab them again, and no apologizing is going to make them like me again afterwards. For the time being though, I’m going to trust Linus. He seems very sincere with his apology and, while I know he’s a big threat and can definitely win this game (see, 703 Sumbawa), we can get him out later if we have to. The thing is, this week might be a good time to do that. (I’ll talk more about this dilemma once I get to the tribal part of this CF.)

Joanna also came to me and apologized for flipping, and said, like I mentioned, that she did it to protect me from being voted out in a revote. She said she still trusted me and wanted to work with me, so that’s great! One more vote on my side! I do like her too, so I definitely wanna still work with her.

Our eleventh immunity challenge is a photo mashup puzzle thing, where we have to identify the three through seven Survivors morphed in each photo. This is actually really fun, and I’m reeeeally glad it’s not another crapshoot tbh, lol. My strategy for this was to first Google reverse image search all of the photos, which did actually help me for the first one (it gave me Cecilia). After that, though, I tried focusing on the clothes. I took note of colors, patterns, how the clothes flowed, necklaces and jewelry, everything. With all the bikinis, I think it was the most I’ve ever stared at boobs in my life. Googling “Survivor contestant bikini shots” probably would raise a few eyebrows without context. But anyway, it actually got me pretty far! I had around 16 after going through all five photos after a few hours.

I ended up talking to Linus a bit about the challenge, as this is the first one we were *finally* able to collaborate on. Linus, being the saint that he is, offered to send me all of his answers, as he wasn’t making much progress, to (1) show his loyalty to me and (2) try and get me into first place so I could keep myself safe this tribal. He was actually extremely helpful, and it helped me to add five to my list, bringing me up to 21 potentially correct! I couldn’t find anymore after that, so I filled in some random names and shipped it off to the hosts.

And holy crap, I actually freaking won!!! I had 18 points in the end, beating second-place Christine by five points. I’m so happy. This is the first thing that’s gone well for me in this game since the F11 idol play, and I’m ecstatic! I know that Anna and Claire were probably itching to write my name on their parchments, but now they can’t, and that’s a great feeling. Plus that puts me in Final 7! I’m so happy, that’s much further than I was expecting I was going to go, so just actually having a legitimate shot at winning is awesome. I also took the clue to the regular idol, which, from the list I made, narrows it down to around 36 people.

Anyway, tribal. I have two options here. I can either go with Anna, Claire, Linus, and likely Joanna (as of now I’m not sure what she’s doing), or with Christine, Michael, and Marie. Linus convinced the former group to vote out Marie, while, from the conversations I’ve had with Michael, the latter group wants to vote out Linus. I’m kind of at a difficult crossroads here. If I go with Anna, Claire, Linus, and Joanna, I’ll be in a potential majority, and have the solid Vatanchu Three against two pairs, but I’ll be going against my word again to MMC by voting out Marie again. If I go with MMC, I risk tying the vote, and I would have to vote out Linus, who proved his loyalty to me during the immunity challenge. Linus is a very big threat though, and can totally win the whole game if not stopped. But, I would likely be at the bottom of MMC’s alliance, so it’s not very good for me to go with them in the long run. So I have a pretty big decision to make. No matter what, I’m going to make people upset, which I really don’t want to do, but it’s inevitable at this point. I’ll probably pull a Big Meech and start crying again, who knows. If I could just not vote this tribal that’d be great, but oh well. I’ll figure something out.

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- The last tribal council was crazy af! But Satan is finally gone! I've figured out how the votes were dispersed though. John and Felix oddly enough voted for Marie, but Joanna and Linus flipped. Joanna voted Felix with Marie, Christine and I, while the others voted John. I think I did damage control with Anna and Claire because I didn't directly lie to their faces, but I wouldn't at all be surprised if they're secretly pissed at Marie, Christine and I. Anyway, John wants to work with me now, Joanna is low key working with me, the Aguateca girls are working with me as far as I know and Linus wants to work together, so I have a billion options. With John winning immunity, I think the obvious thing to do is to vote Linus out, but I still need to talk to people and see what everyone else is thinking.

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- So it looks like my game may be coming to an end tonight. I swear to god though Im trying every fucking thing I can to make a turn. Right now in the game Michael, Marie and Christine are controlling everything, so I'm trying my damndest to rally Claire, Anna, Joanna and John to vote out Marie this round. I've been working non stop and god knows I won't give up until that torch is snuffed!

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- I send the VL at tribe chat for purpose. And Linus thinks that it was brilliant. But I don't trust Linus at all. He plays shady and I think that he can have an alliance with Claire and Anne. But maybe it would be useful for one more tribal council.

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- MICHAEL CAN YOU STOP TRYING TO TARGET LINUS I NEVER AGREED TO THIS

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- My plan for the next TC is to blindside Claire, but Mike wants Linus out like wtf? I mean we need to get her out cause she's a big threat, she has two light pearls and she's too tight with Anna. The tricky part of voting her out is that Anna could flip to the Vatanchu 3 at the F7 but she won't because I'm gonna use my dark pearl and I'm sure she won't want to draw rocks. But to have that happen, I need to convince the Vatanchu 3 and Mike/Christine to vote Claire

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- Marie told me that Claire want vote out me. Probably Michael want to vote out Linus. Marie want vote out Claire and Linus probably works with Claire and Anne and want to vote out Marie. So sweet. Let they fight against each other. <3 I don't know with what side to play today.

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- I told Marie that I'm gonna help her vote out Claire and about Claire's perls. What's more I told Claire all about Marie's plans against her and that I don't believe that Claire would want vote me out and that Marie wants make me and Clarie the enemies. I tried make both Claire and Marie think that I'm with them. I don't like the way Linus is probably sticking with Claire and Anne but it's no way to vote out Claire.

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- And Christine wants to vote out Anna. LOL. People... crazy people. I like you. All.

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- Since I can't yell at a 15 year old FUCK YOU

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- Everything is completely crazy now! Claire somehow know that I'm targeting her, so everyone could've told her except Mike bc he wasn't online for the past 12 hours. So right now it's a really shitty situation and she probably is going to target me, which makes the Vatanchu 3 the swing votes. Sweet irony, huh?

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- Alright soooo, this tribal should be interesting to say the least. I’m trying to get Anna out at this point. Like, we don’t really talk at all and she’s quite the challenge threat and that’s dangerous when I’m not entirely sure what her motives are. Marie’s hooked on getting Claire out and Michael wants to target Linus while splitting the vote on Joanna. But I don’t want to target Linus and Joanna because then it’s gonna basically become a pagonging and that’s boring. I made a promise to Joanna I’d keep her safe at least for this vote and I intend on following through with that. It’s just a matter of getting the numbers to go against Anna but Marie’s too stubborn and won’t get Claire’s name out of her mouth. It’s frustrating.

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- I'm messing a lot. BUT I DON'T care. I really don't have time for playing in this season so I can do whatever I want... I can risk. I don't want be just... voted out without making a hell at the Earth. :)

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- So... I feel like one more time I'm the swing vote. I can vote with Michael, Christine and Marie (and John) for Anna (and I'll do it probably) or I can vote for Marie with Anne, Claire, Linus (and John). I need to ask John what he is up to do. And what's more I have alliance to the end with Michael. I have it also with both Linus and John but I'd prefer Michael. But I don't know.. Like always I want only enjoy the game. :)

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- Omg, I really want to vote out John but I'm showing him that I want him to win this game (ONE BIG LIE). And I have... Timeone Alliance with Marie lol. I enjoy the game so much...

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- First time in this season I really WANT to play here... mess and lie and play people's minds.

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- Whew! Ok so it looks like things are gonna go my way and Anna’s going. I guess that’s depending on whether or not John and Joanna are telling the truth, but I trust them for now so we’ll see!

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- Well everything got flipped on its head. Claire wants to target Marie because she knows that Marie is after her and Marie wanted to target Claire. Christine and I deflected the target to Anna to try and keep Marie and Claire gunning after each other longer. However, I think that Christine wants to remain loyal to Claire until the end even though Claire would probably win. I'm gonna have to take Claire out at some point probably using my idol and Marie's dark pearl. I don't want to let John or Linus sneak by though and make it to the end because they could easily win as well. On another note, Joanna and I made a deal to go to the very end with each other and I want to honour it because I think she'd be the easiest to win against.