I'm Finally In The Game/Confessionals

Day 16
"sotara"

- we-. Well in true loris fashion, he just had to ruin my plans anyway he could ig NNNN well we love Loris and i rlly hope he isn't angry at himself or me or like disappointed. we love loris <3 .but immediately after tribal it's all going down now omg so i've basically found out that Torsa told people to vote Kat out to protect Su which is like omg im psychic yes ofc more ppl want to protect Su yess, i talked to rob abt it tho and started to talk to him abt how Su is not to be trusted omg and he believes me so I don't feel too horrible. Brian told me that now that Loris is gone i'm his N1 over everyone and that he doesn't want to work with any of that tribe now, so um yes another one against Su xoxo maybe im just obsessed with su but i also just feel he's after me or at least is trying to get ppl to not want to ally me or whatever and I obvs do not want that ugh. these ladies messy. I was thinking if we went to tribal I'd be safe because Jayme said he's more than happy to vote Callum first but now im not too sure abt torsa cause she might be listening to Su too much and try to turn the vote onto me. it's a lot, it's all a lot but ik i have an idol and that im good at making connections with ppl so I just have to do what im good at and keep talking to ppl and prep for this merge <3.

"sotara"

- THAT is the last time i help anyone with tribal su is literally complaining to my OWN partner about me wanting kat out (i only said kat for his own benefit) thinking he wouldn't rant to me about it ajgkdfsk now i probs fucked up with the entire galeras tribe n. i cannot be bothered i hate these people

"romeral"

- (I'm going to go back in time to fill in my confessionals that I've had typed up, so oops... hope this doesn't mess y'all up too much :

They... really voted out Loris? It's over... I miss him already! He was my favorite person in this game by far because I knew I could actually count on him 100% of the time, and I don't feel that way with anyone else. Yes, I have my close relationships, but I will never feel the same closeness with anyone except for him... that sweet angel... may he rest in peace...

Rob and Su had a lot of explaining to do in my PMs, and while I kinda sorta bought it for a second... Su then proceeded to go to Matt and throw the entirety of Sotara and myself under the bus for things we didn't do. They claim we pushed for Kat to go and that's why Elizabeth was kidnapped (in order to lessen the amount of singles), but I know for a fact I didn't talk to Rob during tribal or Kat (except for a good luck!) and my only little thing with Su was, ""Are you safe? Well. You can trust Loris!"" He said he didn't feel those vibes from Loris, which I can respect, but it's also a big spit in my face, and it kinda hurts... a lot! I do think he'll learn that his big mouth is going to screw him over, but we shall see..

As for my current spot on the tribe, I feel good!! Aside from Jake, I do think everyone would be willing to work with me and keep me in this game, but I just hope we don't have to go to another tribal because that would absolutely be the shittiest thing for me right now. I want Galeras to go back and be a mess again or Sotara to go and maybe to blindside a certain... idol holder? Hehe... jk, I love you, Alex, even if you do scare me, still!

"sotara"

- THESE BITCHES ARE CRAZZYYYYYYYYY I CANT FUCK W THEM OMGG

Literally. What the fuck. Let's recap

First of all, Loris leaving? Beautiful for my game. I didn't trust him, he was confirmed with Rob/Brian/Alex, and him being blindsided by his alliance was great because it confirms that Su/Kat/Rob are a thing and it brings Brian over to my side. And, whatever, I have a good relationship with Su...

...OR DO I?! Because literally after tribal council, I approached Su and he threw both Andre and Torsa under the bus to me. I immediately told them, and then Su was throwing them under the bus to Alex and other people as well...and then Matt comes to us and says ""Su thinks there's an alliance of alex, andre, jayme, torsa"" DSKLFSKFSKLFSLKFS. LIKE FIRST OF ALL, I DISLIKE AND DONT WANNA WORK W ALEX AT ALL! SECOND OF ALL, LITERALLY WHAT BASIS DO U HAVE BESIDES ANDRE/TORSA TRYING TO HELP YOU SURVIVE?????? Literally. Brian, Alex, and Andre told Su that maybe going after Kat would be good bc Loris would vote with him and that's them ""trying to control their tribal""??? No, they only wanted to help, and Su is repaying us by throwing all of us under the bus???? what the fuck,

Kat sucks to talk to, too. So wtf. Let her leave. Idc what happens but Su, Rob, and Kat has honestly shoved themselves right into my red dot sight when they weren't even on my radar previously. Messy ss bitches deserve to leave

"sotara"

- Caño Cristales Day 16 confessional - nope

"romeral"

- Okay so Jake comes out of no where telling me that 'we've been killing the comps'.... WE?????????????? Then on top of that, he comes out and says that Layla told him that Brian has an idol ????????? Not sure how I feel about that information but I will keep it to myself now....

"romeral"

- For this challenge, Galeras & Romeral have a plan to work together to target Sotara which I think would be our best bet. I want another pair broken up before merge and I think it could be in mine and Liz's best interest to have that happen.

"romeral"

- Liz came to me with all this tea on that apparently Rob, Loris, and Su all wanted her out and she heard it from Matt and how Matt said that without him she wouldn't be here and the whole convo raised red flags to me. Matt has no reason to put his neck out that far for Elizabeth to stay.... but he has hosted her before and I think he believe she is gullible and choosing to groom her so if something happened to me then he would have her in his corner... I'm very nervous with that whole alliance right now. I can't help but feel they are over playing to an extent. I guess getting stir crazy ?

"romeral"

- Torsa doesn't really talk to me often which I am not sure what that's about BUT she came to me and was just like out of the blue ""I like our alliance and i also think someone should give Elizabeth an idol. Okay that's that""

And that was the whole conversation...... it was weird and felt very like pressed.... ya know ?

"romeral"

- My tribe is super pumped for the upcoming challenge, and I could not be happier. We really need this motivation so we can come in first! It would be so nice...

Throwback to me trying to throw last challenge and now? This? I'm cackling HARDcore. Love my change of focus in this game!

Once we merge, I plan to do a cast rundown (not the first day, but probably the second), and people are speculating it happening next round, so expect that from me in the near future! I would do a video on it, but I feel like I just retake it so many times, that it's more worth-it to type it all out and have my backspace option available!

OMG, also! I know I mentioned my little ish with Rob and Su, but I forgot to mention that because Rob appeared in my PMs too soon after Loris went home, I kinda... popped off a little? And he popped off back? But I realize there was no need to really pop off because .... I kinda wanna remain the middle man! I think i can do it, too... so whew...

Final final thing is that I told Jayme about the idol, so whew ! Love a legend.

Day 17
"galeras"

- My tribe mates really came THROUGH on that immunity challenge, go them. I legit would have 100% been going home if we had lost tbh. I no longer feel remotely safe and I'm paranoid as hell.

"galeras"

- Whew!!I made it to day 17. how? I'm not sure. But here's the tea. Confirmed that Alex and Brian both have an idol. Spots at G8 for brian and B13 for alex. Unsure of who has it at the new camp. I am unsure of alex at the moment. He's being kinda.... messy??? like today it seemed like he was covering up his tracks that he wanted me out last tribal. Same with brian. apparently he was thinking of using his idol last tribal if things weren't going to work out. Either way it's fine, I just have this information that I can use to my advantage in the future. I did crap at the immunity challenge but what else is new. Elizabeth was 'there' but didn't even try. She must have been on the phone so it would have been hard for her.

"romeral"

- I've only been to tribal 1 time, and it really has opened up so many options for me. I have alot to think about moving forward, whether we swap tomorrow or merge in a week. Jerry has slowly become my right hand man, that's not to say that i control him or anything. But, i feel like i could trust him to come my way when i need him. Me and him HAVE to be swapped together. On too of that, Rob tells me that an alliance of pairs is forming and we need to group up. Rob has lied to me in the past, so I'm not sure how well i can trust him here. If what he is telling me is true however, i have alot to think about over the next couple of days.

"sotara"

- my first tribal, im shaking. was hoping to have a nice little immunity till merge but i rlly sucked in the challenge omg so i can't be angry i ended up here im just lucky i got carried for so long omg. the vote seems p easy, we've kinda had it planned out from before we even went to tribal, Callum is nice but he really only pops in to do challenges and then I hear nothing from him till the next one, but he is super nice and I feel so bad for Matt. im really trying to do things differently with Matt this season and not treat him like I did in Newfoundland, which was as an ally until I just backstabbed him nnnn, but it's hard to reassure someone you're going to be an ally to them while voting out their partner. Matt's being understanding i'm just wondering if he's going to do anything about it or just kinda let Callum go cause myself/Jayme/Torsa/Andre have formed a little alliance thing so I don't know it Matt knows this and it scares him or he just thinks we've sort of all just decided to vote Callum and it's a coincidence that this is what we all wanted nnn. The last vote got super messy so it'll be interesting to see what happens with this one, if it gets messy in the time to come or if it'll stay relatively quiet, im hoping for that last one because I'm really trying to not start or be involved in any drama now, my plan is to just leave tht to everyone else ksksks.

"sotara"

- CC VC 3

"sotara"

- idk if this conf i did submitted earlier but lemme just paraphrase it again

LOVE BEING AT RISK <3 I'm totally not surprised at myself for becoming an obvious target for Andre and Alex but getting my name thrown not even 5 minutes into tribal??? LMAOOOO honestly they really don't know what's coming for them. Their butts are getting roundhouse kicked outta here.

My approach to this tribal is to make myself look like a massive social pariah - which I'm already pretty good at - as much as possible. To play the game by not playing the game. That way, Alex and Andre would presume that the vote on me will be unanimous and therefore they'll have no inclination to play an idol or any advantage that could jeopardise my position at this current moment. The vote's gonna be 2-2-2 tonight, with 2 on me, 2 on Alex and 2 on Andre. This automatically cancels out any incoming idol play or vote block, but if a vote steal is played then I am well and truly finished.

Also if I do leave tonight, then it would kinda suck since I'm FINALLY feeling like I'm actually getting somewhere with people and my game overall. I love my majority alliance with all my heart. I'm finally starting to trust Andreas more. I am finally beginning to properly LIKE these people and get an idea of what side I'm on and who's playing what role. I'M FINALLY IN THE GAME. Maybe it took this tribal for me to shine after all :')

Also I am SO shocked at Loris leaving. I thought he, Rob and Alex were like a firm set-in-stone trio??? One less person to worry about for my game though so I'm not complaining xoxo

Anyway. This might be my last confessional. Not that I've made that many KDHSDFS. But still.

"sotara"

- these people are so annoying. can i get a cast that isn't annoying, can i PLEASE get a cast that isn't annoying. like all i've done prior to this tribal is try to help people out and all they've done to me in return is throw me under the bus?? for what reason... i was genuine when i wanted to work with rob and su but all they do is tell people exaggerated actions of what i did and it's just so infuriating... like i can't play any games now without people wanting to create a bigger target out of me. before last round i literally did NOTHING and as soon as i try to help out su and suggest a name on the assumption that rob/loris are close, i influenced their tribal and wanted kat out. like if YOU really thought i was trying to influence the tribal... idk be the bigger person and approach me about it because if you're truly scared of me based on my reputation (because i'm not sure of any other reason this is happening other than me/fitz being a pair in the game which at this time wasn't that big of a deal bc there were more pairs then that are just as threatening) then you would know i'm pretty logical and understanding when it comes to votes. i'm trying so hard to be calm right now and not just go in the one world chat and be like "some of yall need to stop throwing people who want to help you under the bus to get brownie points with others who don't care about you in the game" because i just know the people rob/su have aligned with are going to throw them utb as soon as they can, why wouldn't they? they're making big messes out of everything for no reason. a prime example of rob making a mess is him going to MY PARTNER that i tell everything to that i'm doing stuff behind his back with andre (who i even told jayme a few days ago that i didn't trust enough because we didn't get past small talk) like SIR??? HELLO?? please make it make SENSE... i call fitz all the time about the game and i tell him almost every interaction i have so we both have the same stories if people approach us. in conclusion of this long rant: su and rob be like: we irritating 😂😂😂 also about the vote, we just decided to be better safe than sorry because of alex's idol so i think all of us are just gonna vote out callum. yeah rip

"galeras"

- so yay im FINALLY immune <3 im so happy to be able to avoid tribal council this round. if i'd gone to this one too, i would've gone to my 6th out of 7 tribals which is just...aahhhhhh

ive been taking the day off to try and chill. i just wished all the sotara ppl luck and i havent tried getting involved much in their tribal, becuz i know how sketchy and annoying it was when they tried to do it last time, and i also just dont care lmao. I hope Matt makes it out of there becuz he's the only one there i still fully trust; callum is cool but he doesnt speak to me, and the other four, i'm maintaining relationships with (except for alex sorta LMFAO) but i still am so put off by the whole kidnap/vote kat situation from last vote and i'd be ok seeing them leave. I do love jayme, andre, torsa as people and alex is really nice too we just havent had time to connect. but on a game level, idk. theyre strong players and i get bad vibes and i dont believe their ""oh idk how it happened, bvw is crazy!"" story so imma just keep them at arms length for the moment

Right now, I feel like I'm amassing a strong group of people who I'm connected to. Me and Rob and Kat made an alliance last round called Sukarob lmaoo its a cute alliance and I trust both of them a lot, especially me and Rob have bonded and become tight. I also trust like all of Romeral, I've talked with all of them except Jake about working together in the future and i've been vibing well with all of them, and Rob said Jake would be possibly down to work together in the future as well which is cool. Brian, i just legit love him so much. There was a hiccup in our relationship due to me voting out Loris and not telling him, and I think things aren't like 100% back to normal but I do feel like he trusts me and he'll wanna work with the singles. I've been getting great vibes from Andreas and Jerry and I have been getting along well. And Liz and I havent talked much but I do think its still in our best interest to work together and i think i can count on her to work with me in the future. I think Matt or Callum, whichever survives cuz I have a sad suspicion one of them is going tonight, would also work with us to dismantle the tight four at the merge.

im really praying im not like, on hallucinogens due to paranoia and that there really isnt a four. like last round was weird but maybe it was just a clusterfuck...and i do feel like jayme andre torsa all trust me and would wanna go deep with me and are bigger threats than me. so if we merge soon, even next round is what a lot of people are speculating, im gonna aim for alex cuz i think hes a big threat most likely, and then im gonna have to reevaluate if its best for me to go for them as well or adjust my strategy. all i know for sure is that i wanna work closely with Rob and Kat moving forward and that we just gotta figure out what is best for the three of us <3

"galeras"

- Brian's idol is confirmed at G8. I searched there today. Nothing else has happened today.

"sotara"

- okay never mind no one has talked to me for the past couple of hours so now i'm extremely nervous and going back to my paranoid state x

7th boot here we go!!

"galeras"

- If Matt or Jayme leaves tonight... imma sob

"sotara"

- SO ALEX IS GOING TO BE USING A VOTE STEAL AFTER ALL APPARENTLY???? fuck this shit i'm NOT living for this at all. WHY DOES HE NEED TO USE IT? I THOUGHT IT WAS A PRESUMED 5-1 VOTE AGAINST ME

i literally hate this what the fuck. if this is a bluff so alex can play an idol instead then i'm actually going to press charges for defamation. literally wtf. now it's 4-2 against alex.

CAN PEOPLE STOP BEING SO MESSY. it's time to vote anyway. i have literally nothing to lose.

"romeral"

- I have a ton to say so buckle in !!!

First - im super happy with how the immunity played out before it means that Elizabeth and I will have a 1/3 chance of getting the blood pendant advantage. I think the fact we are the longest pair left standing who haven't been on a tribe together is testament to our game play, and the fact we can stand strong together and individually. I do think that if we do merge after this tribal council, the next few rounds will be hands down the hardest of the games. We will have 3 pairs left in the game, and 7 singles. The 7 singles will hold majority and they will want to target the pairs, and the pairs will hunger games this shit to get that immunity. But the pair who gets that immunity will have two rounds to build relationships, because once it ends I do not doubt for a second they will become the target.

"romeral"

- Jayme came to me and said that a singles alliance is currently in the works. Which I am not surprised about because it's at that point in the game. While the singles would have a numbers advantage, it is worth noting that its 7 people who all haven't played the cleanest games. Some of these people can be messy, so I think it would be crazy to assume they will be able to work together - but it's also something I'm not just going to rule out.

"romeral"

- Okay I have something to say about the Sotara tribe. I find them to be extremely transparent. It's clear none of them talk to me for the sake of just talking. They get game-bot like and quite frankly it kind of discourages me from wanting to play with them. I know Torsa has had a very busy personal life but I find her to be the worst of it. Like it's clear you don't open my messages until you need to talk to me .... idk that's just something I want to get off my chest

"romeral"

- Oh yeah forgot to say it but Brian confirmed to Kat that Alex has the idol LOL.. she is so sneaky and smart .. honestly the Monica Culpepper of main org with a man who drags her down in the beginning but then flourishes

"romeral"

- AHHHH, we won that challenge! I'm glad because I like my current position on this tribe and don't want to vote any of these other 3 guys out. I think they could each benefit my game. My plan at the moment is to try and find a way to pit the other two tribes against each other. As of now, after the current tribal I really want to tell the blue tribe that the red tribe was coming to us with this plan about going after them in the last competition and we just went along with it for safety. So, at the merge, they will be gunning for each other and we can just kinda relax and pick and choose our sides. The big thing that is concerning to me at the moment is Andreas. He's the only one of us to still have a loved one in the game. That could lead to some alliances, but also be a potential risk going forward. Him and Elizabeth are close and idk if she knows I exist LOL. No communication. Partially my fault but still, hers too! But anyway, I'm gonna try to let that be the big thing after this tribal ends. If I can sit in a bunker while the other two have a cross fire, I think I could be set for a while. I'm trying to band together as many people that have lost a loved one and go from there. That's the plan for now!

"sotara"

- Caño Cristales Day 17 - hi my name is ciera eastin