The Feminists Are Taking Over/Confessionals

Day 33
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- I wrote "olby Donaldson" honestly i should quit the game right now

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- I spent way too much time on that challenge... also...

IM SO ANNOYED STILL THAT I ALMOST GOT VOTED OUT.

Dani I’m coming for you

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- Also.... I miss Szy :(

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- I meant to send this a while ago but lmao @ the reasons that I originally flipped on Sydney, am I right?

me: Sydney, how can I trust you, you knew about the vote steal and never said anything to me? also me: Knew about it before she did and intentionally was trying to have it used against my alliance

me: Sydney, you and Jamie are keeping idols a secret, how else am I supposed to feel about that? me: has known about Jake's idol the second we merged and still to this day has said nothing

me: Sydney, you and Jenna were being shady... it's like you have other alliances other than our 7? me: was a f2 with Jake and is now one with Cali

Jake ended up leaving forever ago so I guess our secret alliance wasn't much of an advantage, but now I have one with Cali that is doing wonders. I hope to god no one is lying about wanting Sydney out, and we go into a f6 with me and my 5 closest allies :~) Right now, everyone has said they want me in their f3/f4 (except Syd, which is why I want her out), and only Jamie has told me she thinks I have a good chance of winning. I'm hoping Jamie doesn't spread that around, and that she thinks she needs me to make the end (which she kind of does, because the second she loses immunity everyone is coming for her).

Last round, I voted out Jenna because I'm pretty sure she had an idol. I don't know why Sydney didn't try to work with her and Chelsea, she had an opportunity to really shake up the game and she totally missed it. Cali threw her vote on Chelsea, and I think we're really hiding how close we are? At least I hope so. I think Chelsea and Jamie are afraid of Syd/Dani/Cali becoming a trio, and Dani/Cali are afraid of Jamie/Jared/Syd becoming a trio, making me! The perfect person for everyone to tell everything to.

This round, I 100% want to be voting for whoever leaves, so there's no bad blood between me and anyone left. But next round, I think I'll offer to be the person who throws a vote, so whoever leaves doesn't feel like I betrayed them. I don't know who I'd most like gone after this... I really just want me and Cali in the f4, because I think she's the only person left who 100% will not vote me out. But I also think Jared is scared of Jamie unanimously winning, and I could see him sticking with me in the event the f4 is us + Chels + Jamie? I think Jamie, if she decides to turn on me, will wait until f5 or f4 to do it, so hopefully I have some extra safety for these next couple rounds.

I reeeeaally hope Jamie doesn't win the next immunity, because I want her to feel afraid and dependent on me so she doesn't try to flip it around. My hope is Dani or Cali wins, and then I know in the event Jamie loses, Jared will want to target her as he's brought it up before. I'm just going to let that play out, and hopefully continue my situation of everyone needing me to make their plans work, so that I can really pick who goes.

I'm also hoping people underestimate my relationships with the jurors (specifically me/Jake and me/Tyler, we weren't aligned but we got along really well AND I didn't betray him like Jamie did) and that they think I'm incapable of writing a normal sentence since all season?? i kind of ldsjflk talked like this??? I also think at this point, I'm the only person who can confidently say they were secure and level headed every round because everyone else was either too inactive, too paranoid, or didn't branch out enough to really have as solid of an argument. I'm planning to bring up how I came into merge as kind of a target, not really having any allies, and that my goal was to remove the ""sides"" that were forming and replace it with mini alliances that all relied on me or someone I was close with in order to work.

I'm looking for the idol still, if I find it I will probably give it to Cali if people go after her next round and get her to idol out someone like Chelsea so that I have a juror who likes me but doesn't know I put them there. If Jamie finds it, all the better, the more advantages she needs to get to the end the stronger my argument against her will be.

Just thought I'd vocalize all that in case I do get voted out, so people know I was thinking about the game!!!""I meant to send this a while ago but lmao @ the reasons that I originally flipped on Sydney, am I right?

me: Sydney, how can I trust you, you knew about the vote steal and never said anything to me? also me: Knew about it before she did and intentionally was trying to have it used against my alliance

me: Sydney, you and Jamie are keeping idols a secret, how else am I supposed to feel about that? me: has known about Jake's idol the second we merged and still to this day has said nothing

me: Sydney, you and Jenna were being shady... it's like you have other alliances other than our 7? me: was a f2 with Jake and is now one with Cali

Jake ended up leaving forever ago so I guess our secret alliance wasn't much of an advantage, but now I have one with Cali that is doing wonders. I hope to god no one is lying about wanting Sydney out, and we go into a f6 with me and my 5 closest allies :~) Right now, everyone has said they want me in their f3/f4 (except Syd, which is why I want her out), and only Jamie has told me she thinks I have a good chance of winning. I'm hoping Jamie doesn't spread that around, and that she thinks she needs me to make the end (which she kind of does, because the second she loses immunity everyone is coming for her).

Last round, I voted out Jenna because I'm pretty sure she had an idol. I don't know why Sydney didn't try to work with her and Chelsea, she had an opportunity to really shake up the game and she totally missed it. Cali threw her vote on Chelsea, and I think we're really hiding how close we are? At least I hope so. I think Chelsea and Jamie are afraid of Syd/Dani/Cali becoming a trio, and Dani/Cali are afraid of Jamie/Jared/Syd becoming a trio, making me! The perfect person for everyone to tell everything to.

This round, I 100% want to be voting for whoever leaves, so there's no bad blood between me and anyone left. But next round, I think I'll offer to be the person who throws a vote, so whoever leaves doesn't feel like I betrayed them. I don't know who I'd most like gone after this... I really just want me and Cali in the f4, because I think she's the only person left who 100% will not vote me out. But I also think Jared is scared of Jamie unanimously winning, and I could see him sticking with me in the event the f4 is us + Chels + Jamie? I think Jamie, if she decides to turn on me, will wait until f5 or f4 to do it, so hopefully I have some extra safety for these next couple rounds.

I reeeeaally hope Jamie doesn't win the next immunity, because I want her to feel afraid and dependent on me so she doesn't try to flip it around. My hope is Dani or Cali wins, and then I know in the event Jamie loses, Jared will want to target her as he's brought it up before. I'm just going to let that play out, and hopefully continue my situation of everyone needing me to make their plans work, so that I can really pick who goes.

I'm also hoping people underestimate my relationships with the jurors (specifically me/Jake and me/Tyler, we weren't aligned but we got along really well AND I didn't betray him like Jamie did) and that they think I'm incapable of writing a normal sentence since all season?? i kind of ldsjflk talked like this??? I also think at this point, I'm the only person who can confidently say they were secure and level headed every round because everyone else was either too inactive, too paranoid, or didn't branch out enough to really have as solid of an argument. I'm planning to bring up how I came into merge as kind of a target, not really having any allies, and that my goal was to remove the ""sides"" that were forming and replace it with mini alliances that all relied on me or someone I was close with in order to work.

I'm looking for the idol still, if I find it I will probably give it to Cali if people go after her next round and get her to idol out someone like Chelsea so that I have a juror who likes me but doesn't know I put them there. If Jamie finds it, all the better, the more advantages she needs to get to the end the stronger my argument against her will be.

Just thought I'd vocalize all that in case I do get voted out, so people know I was thinking about the game!!!

Day 34
"balegdeh"

- Everyone sucks. This game sucks. Heck, I guess even I suck.

I understand I went total scorch the earth mode a tribal or two ago, but people have been after me continuously so I don’t think that really matters. BUT, this entire freaking game people have been coming at me nonstop and it’s just like enough is enough already! Like, why me?? My name has been brought up almost every. single. tribal. council. WHAT AM I DOING!!!

Cali leaves me on read and targets me round after round, so she is a lost cause. Chelsea and Dani ignore me and play dumb with me every round, which is annoying since I literally SAVED Dani last round!! Jessica is nice but super threatening and in my old position, and I don’t think she wants me in this game. Then, Jared and Jamie are acting so shady like one word answers to ignoring me and all. At this point they are the only ones who seem to want to play the game with me, which sucks because it means I am basically playing a losing game. Jamie complained that she’s offended I’m a bigger threat over her, which is quite the audacious statement considering she’s pretty much controlled the game and if she makes it to the end she should win by all means. I would be sitting next to her and I would still think that. If I go home I’m not going to vote for whoever didn’t try and go against them legitimately. Which is quite hypocritical because I’m not, but I have tried and no one else wants to!

I hate my position, I have limited allies and they clearly don’t have my best interest in mind if they are not even hearing me out, I wanted CALI out over Dani and over Jenna too, but I got snubbed out over it. Like do they just not care someone is targeting me EVERY SINGLE ROUND? I’m sooo annoyed I will continue to complain later.

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- i am buggin out

i feel like its me this tribal and i just UGH i just have this gut feeling that jamie and jared are lying to everyone.

so basically, since jenna is out, i feel like its 2-2-3 me and cali chelsea and jess jared jamie sydney

and ive heard that jared and jamie wanna flip and get sydney out... but i do not buy it whatsoever and it sketches me out a lot because im just like... you gon flip that fast? and sydney caught wind and wants jared out now and im just like.... idk how i feel about all of this. im telling everyone im ok with it but i just KNOW that its gonna backfire on me badly...

tho. i really want a f6 of all females. the feminists are taking over !!!!! whew!!!!! which i basically want jared out more bc i feel like no matter which of sydney or jared leave itll be good for me. but i just... cant shake this feeling that its me? and i havent really had this type of feeling in the game and just.. ugh. all my confessionals are the same format and im sorry about that tbh im just always scared and reaching the end i feel like you HAVE to be paranoid, always.

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- Right now I am deadass that spoil kid who is getting PISSED AT NO ONE WANTING TO DO MY PLAN. What plan you ask? Let mama set this up.

So this game in my head is divided like this. You got the DOMINANT TOPS. These are Jamie, Jared, and Sydney. And basically these are the people in this game who haven't really been on the bottom during this merge, have kind of gotten there way in every vote when not regarding outside interference (syzmon self voting) and are basically SKATING there way to the final 3 while singing chrismas carols.

You then have dani, jess, me, and chelsea as an opposition....BUT A WEAK OPPOSITION AT THAT. We aren't grounded at all and I don't they share the same perspective on really DEFEATING THE OTHER SIDE that I may have

It's very fruststating, theres essentially this plan that EVERYONE IN THE GAME KNOWS ABOUT TO VOTE OUT SYDNEY (AND BITCH PLEASE, I ALREADY KNOW GOOD AND DAMN WELL THAT SYDNEY KNOWS ALSO)

So let me get this straight. you people believe that JAMIE WANTS TO VOTE SYDNEY OUT IN COMPARISON TO ME??? SOMEONE WHO WILL LITERALLY VOTE JAMIE OFF THE FIRST CHANCE I GET? BALONEY

The move that we NEED to do is vote jared, and I will not rest until this happen. It reduces MULTIPLE numbers from jamie's side, and it also is unexpected meaning we don't run the risk of an idol play and jamie and co idoling one of us out.

WHAT I THINK THESE PEOPLE NEED TO REALIZE IS THAT JAMIE? YA SHE'S LITERALLY GOING TO WIN THE GAME AT THIS RATE. Like why are we allowing the BIGGEST WHOLE THREAT to continue with her KNOWN TIGHT PARTNER????

So ya i'm going to try and flip this onto jared as best as I can, because I actually WANT to avoid one of us getting screwed, and because im SICK and TIRED of us all playing to jamie.

Do you think harriet tubman was walking around with a shiny nice dress on and a crown on her head when she was TAKING SLAVES???? TO FREEDOM. *EXPLOSION*

jessica i love you but your really killing me rn

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- THIS TRIBAL OIS FUCKING INSANE AND IM WAITING FOR RESULS AND JUST WANNA FUCKING SHOWCASE ME EMOTIONS BC I THINK IM GETTING A VOTE AND SYDNEY PLAYED AN IDOLA DND EVERYTHING IS A MESS

IF IM RIGHT ITLL BE 3*-2-1-1 AND IM JUST.... WHAT??!!?!?!?! IM PRAYING EVERYTHING WORKED OUT AND UGGGHHH

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- https://youtu.be/G4SlMc3sE-o

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- Soooo this whole thing turned into a mess. I went back and forth on what to do especially because I won the idol nullifier at the Castle so even if I wanted Sydney out I could do it but I ultimately decided getting Dani out would benefit me more than Sydney and even with Jessica & Chelsea mad at me, they’d still need me. Sadly it didn’t work as planned because I guess there was miscommunication and Jamie tried getting the idol so Sydney didn’t vote with us. Now I’m most likely going but I’m okay with that. I really don’t understand why Chelsea is so upset over it and acting like a saint when she’s lied to me in the past too, but oh well. I fought for over an hour, I lied, I played the victim, I said whatever I thought gave me the best shot at convincing them and if that’s not enough, then there’s nothing I can do. I’m happy with the game I played, I played selfishly and did whatever was best for me and that’s how I like to play because at the emd of the day I’m playing only for myself and that’s who I care about winning. I am proud of myself too I mean I was the last male standing, I made it over 100 days, and it took 112 days to just get me out once so that’s pretty badass of me. This is most likely going to be my last confessional so bye bitches!