Board Thread:Season 26 - Java/@comment-26156423-20150511214758/@comment-24603302-20150511222449

First of all I'd like to address the fact of "you message people who have been voted out of the game" that was a big issue last night obviously, I've already apologized to the hosts and I didn't think trying to have a conversation with my friend, Dani, was breaking any rules of campaigning for votes to the jury, I was trying to have a conversation.

And the parchment issue yes I was wrong on that and I apologize for that, I wasn't aware you couldn't ask people for pictures of their votes as I've done it in other survivors outside of this org. I apologized for that as well.

Now on to your questions

Okay so why was I so mean? I really don't know everything that I have done that has been so "mean" and I personally feel like Alex has been going around trying to bash me to the jury so I don't win. So for that question I don't know why I was so mean? Because I really don't think I've been that awful in everything I've done.

No I didn't only have to rely on immunity. It was a big factor yes because it's something I could 100% control, my safety, so I wanted to win it each time. However Mikey has already proven in his responses that he was following me all game, so I wasn't just relying on immunity because at the end of the day if the people you vote out aren't voted out then that's a problem, no matter how many immunity challenges you win. Also when you came to me asking me who I was voting, honestly, I felt it was a little bit disingenuous and I really didn't believe you actually wanted to strike any deal with me, I thought you were trying to come to me and get me not to vote you out. We never talked about anything prior to me winning immunity and then you came to me trying to talk to me and I didn't feel it was that genuine to be completely honest. But I also didn't want to align with you or make a deal with you anyways, I don't think that talking to people you're planning on voting out is a great strategy all in all, you just burn bridges if you don't stay with them and give false hope for no reason when you're trying to get rid of them. So that may have been me isolating myself but at that point the only people I needed to talk to in the game were the people I wanted to move forward with, which was michelle sheryl and Mikey. Plus if I went to talk to you and strike a deal, how would I know you wouldn't just go tell someone else, then I'd have no one. So it was partly strategy isolating myself from people I was going to vote off.

For the apology I have apologized in my opening speech for anything I may have done to offend anyone and I sincerely mean that. I didn't think it was this bad everything I've done, and I don't recall doing THAT much that is making everyone hate me so the only thing I can come to is Alex trying to get you all not to vote me by spreading lies about me. But I sincerely apologize to you, to trent, xavier, michelle, loxias, dani if I've done anything to offend any of you guys because truly I didn't mean many things I've said. Part of it was trying to find something someone didn't like about someone and use that to gain trust. For example, Alex would bash mikey a lot to me, and I'd reciprocate with his comments with the same so he would feel like I was on the same page as him. However, I sincerely apologize for anything I might've done.

Compliments:

Xavier, you were a fighter in this game. You really truly were, right when we merged you never gave up and talked and strategized with everyone trying to get the game to flip in your favor. I completely respect you for the way you handled your situation I think you did a great job convincing people to go with you, and you almost were able to get the game to flip in your favor, you had Loxias vote with you guys you only needed 1 more for a tie, so really good job on the way you went out because you went out fighting.

Trent you were an amazing competitor. You knew right when you merged the position you were in and you never gave up. You knew you needed to win challenges to stay in the game, you won the first 2 individual challenges and honestly I believe you could've gone on a streak you were such a great physical competitor. You as well as Xavier never gave up in this game and you went out talking with everyone, trying to get the game to go in your favor and you did a fantastic job at it. Also you have a great personality and just from the short time I spent with you and the short conversations we've had you really seem like a nice genuine person and I mean that.

Dani. Dani I don't know if I can compliment you any more then I have in all of my confessionals and to your face, you're the sole reason this game was enjoyable for me within the first half of it when you were here. We hit it off right off the back you're a fantastic girl, you have an amazing spirit and you're a really good person. I love you so much you're probably the only person in the history of my time playing Survivor games that I've ever established a really deep personal connection with and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for being my friend in this game.

Alex, I know you really probably don't like me nor will you care about any compliment I have to give you, but I'll still give it anyway. You were probably the single biggest threat in this game that has been voted off. You were never afraid to put your game at risk to move forward, you put your life in danger just to make a move and I think that's amazing that you have the guts to do that. You were a huge strategic threat, everything you did was strategic everything you said was strategic and I applaud you for the game you played that got you to 7th place because it really was amazing which is why you were the biggest threat.

Loxias one thing I can say about you is you have an amazing poker face. I could never tell whether or not you were lying to me or telling me the truth, and in a survivor player that's a great thing to have. You never showed your cards, ever which made you a great survivor player. I think you were able to play a great game, I believe had you sat in the final 2 based off of the connections you made and the game you played you could've won this season.

Danielle. You by far played the best game out of everyone on this season. For someone to survive 7 tribal councils in a row where your entire tribe was wiped out, and then survive an additional 4 more people that's fantastic. You were the best player here, you surpassed probably anyones expectations of you coming into this game and I know you have a lot of fans out there because of the way you've played and that's something you should be extremely proud of. This season would not have been the season it has been without you in it and you had a major impact on it. You were a sweet, genuine girl and probably the nicest person I've met online in a game before. I wish you had been on Jember from the beginning because I really believe had you been on that tribe things would have been much much different and you could've ran this entire game. I hope you return to a future season and get your second chance, because out of everyone you're the one that deserves it the most, and you're the one I'll be rooting for if you get that chance.