These People Are On CRACK/Confessionals

Day 18
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- I am in an alliance with 3 people 'sukarob' su, rob and myself.Not sure if i said this in a previous confessional before. Anyways, I talked to Andre today who I have been told was offering my name before during the vote that Loris went home. He started off by saying 'so happy you made merge'. I was feeling sassy so I replied with 'thanks omg I can't believe I'm here. Apparently some other tribes wanted me out!!' LMAO. We danced around the subject until he CONFESSED HIS SINS. He told me that he did want Su to stay but apparently never mentioned my name. Him saying that basically throws Torsa, and possibly Alex, under the bus. Because we all know that someone on their tribe wanted me out. Also, Andre told me that he is targeting 'the people who lied' whom are most likely Su and Rob? What I don't understand about that is that Rob is very close with Alex, they went to F2 together. Also, if Andre wanted to keep Su over me then wouldn't he still want to keep Su? I think Andre was just trying to tell me what I wanted to hear. Also, Su and I have to be careful what we say about Alex in the sukarob chat because alex and rob are close. I told Su about Alex's idol but not Brian's. I am not going to tell Rob about the idol because then Alex will know I'm telling other people, if he doesn't know that already. I trust Brian as of right now so I don't think I will spill the beans about Brian's idol to anyone, other than Andreas, yet. This 2 truths and a lie will be interesting because I feel like everyone is going to be tricky. IRL you can play it well by reading body language. Online? I s2g I am going to random.org it and hope for the best. Especially if we can't talk about it to anyone. I think that is all the tea today sis. See ya later.

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- So we merged and made jury and I'm so excited!!!!!!!!!!!! It's great to get to this point, but when you consider now that I'm forced to talk to Jerry, Kat, Rob, and Su now more frequently..........................................ugh. I know they're all probs nice people but Jerry/Kat both are giving me NOTHING to work with in convos and Rob/Su have been actively going out of their way to destroy their own games as well as me and my allies. I literally adore Su as a person, and rob is okay i GUESSS, but jesus christ y'all really tanked ur games to throw Torsa/Andre under the bus when they did nothing but try and help you. And then you come to me and STILL throw them under?????????? Like I'm not going back to them??????? big mess.

Now that we've merged, I definitely feel like Torsa and I are going to be a LOT more crackt...and I live for it. Bc honestly there comes a point where Su/Rob are going to throw us under one more time or just say something to make us sound bad and we're all piling on them in One World. Literally like...idt they realize that they now have Me, Torsa, Andre, Brian, Elizabeth, Andreas, and Matt after them now. Elizabeth/Andreas are there mostly bc of the singles alliance and bc Rob /Su are STILL complaining about Su not being kidnapped so they couldn't vote Elizabeth out. I'm so tired of them using that as an excuse for them being shady, btw. Like, yeah we all totally saved Elizabeth sans Torsa, but they don't know that. For all they know it was 3-3 and they're tanking trust for no reason. And honestly, it's looking like we made the right choice bc Su has proven himself so untrustworthy. Ugh.

All my confs r going to be me ranting abt Rob/Su's messy snake asses and how boring they r.........and i haven't even gotten into the fact that i really don't care for Alex and they're forcing me to work with him lfskgskgkgsgsgjsgsj.

Moving on from that, Andreas and I called and I'm kinda pitching the idea of The Six Sugar Cubs coming together (obviously rip callum bby) since we know that even if Alex/Andre are with us for the first vote at merge they're going to jump ship for that blood orb. I literally want to work with Andreas, Matt, Elizabeth, Torsa, Brian, and Andre if he can cut Alex SDKLDSL. That's literally like...my ideal majority bc i really like them but i have a feeling that Andre/Brian are going to side with Alex later on when they need him and try to target Andreas or Elizabeth and i can't be arsed 2 deal with that. ugh. T

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- merge finally oh my lordt, im happy that I'm sort of like with all my allies now, like I've been able to talk to them throughout the game but I'm glad I can now like vote with them and work even closer with them now. the downside of tht is now all the ppl tht may want me out can just vote for me now so um, a problem. ppl have already talked abt setting up a singles alliance to take down the pairs, which is cute it's a good job that me/andre/torsa/jayme already had thought of tht and prepared to team up with andreas/elizabeth to keep us all safe ugh. our minds. but rlly if I want this immunity, someone from each pair has to go so, maybe it wouldn't be so bad if one of each of their pairs left whoops! we'll have to see how it goes because I'm like p sure my name will come up just because Su will throw it out or w/e idk we'll have to wait and see who gets immunity as well but im prepped and primed for the chaos and messiness. I need to decide if i wanna play my unveiling thing or idol as well, now might be a good time cause it's gonna be the messiest with a lot of ppl voting, but they could also come in even more handy later so im not super sure ksks.

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- Merge baby!! I'm absolutely thrilled to have made the merge, and I'm even more excited to start playing the game. I have majority for the first merge vote. Me, Jerry, Kat, Elizabeth, Andreas, Rob, and Su. This is an amazing first vote majority, and I am so happy to be a part of it. As it stands, there are 13 people in the game. 7 gives me majority, and I already have a pecking order from there. Assuming this majority stays strong, I'm sitting pretty. But it's a possibility that this is all a mirage and I'm the one being played. Hopefully this isn't the case, and I'm sitting pretty for a while.

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- We merged oh wow..... Liz and I did THAT and we made the merge i love us so much

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- WE MERGED! We... fucking... merged! 13 person merge! AHH!! I'm so happy we merged because this is something I didn't accomplish my first time, and now I have so much game ahead of me... but I can really pop off from here! I know my early social strategy will be good for me, but I need to make sure my spot as the middle man works for me as long as possible. The idol scares me as Kat has ALREADY made a joke about me and Alex with idols... which makes me think she knows a lot more than I thought she did...

This merge seems it'll be an early Rob/Su vs Torsa/others... which is funny and weird... but what makes it more interesting is that I'm needed by both sides! So!! Hahaah!!! Love it for me, I just hope I don't get caught in the crossfire. Not my gay ass, nu uh!

I'll do my merge thoughts during the challenge since it is more of an easy to do challenge, and I think I'll also have more time in general because I'll be off from work!

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- This was long overdue huh. SO BASICALLY... the last time I updated y'all was before the Loris vote. So we asked everyone to save Su adn they were like K then they save Elizabeth and Tori and Andre immediately come to me and Su and are like omg that's crazy... wow shook ok now vote out Kat. Obv didnt wanna do that so had to let Loris go so that we could get rid of a pair. Then we forced them to go to tribal, the obvious alliance of Jayme/Tori/Alex/Andre voted Callum so we gave Matt Su's mutiny ticket, but it had no effect bc we merged. Going into this merge I feel pretty good but I'm super scared of an idol. Here are my relationships.

Su: My closest ally, we share everything but I'm SUPER wary of him.

Kat: Loyal to me for sure and a good number.

Tori/Andre: Enemies

Jayme: Tori apologist

Alex: My secret ally on the other side who I don't trust.

Jake/Jerry: Bland ppl I barely talk to but I will work w them. Jake essentially offered me a f3 deal w them and a planned F5 of us + Liz/Dreas

Matt: Burned by Sotara so hopefully will work with me but hard to talk to

Brian: Really hard to read since I voted Loris and also just no clue where he's at in general but I think he's trying to lay low and I like him

Elizabeth/Andreas: These are the biggest ? My game will really rely on what they do but hopefully they're with me as they said

I think Sotara 2.0 is in trouble but you never know what could happen, at least I made the jury

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- Some comments I wanna make before the official challenge post goes up!

I don't think I'll win this, and I think my things are going to be so easy to guess, but WHO KNOWS!

I called with Matt the other day and he told me Su gave him this power thing, and then Su told me about it today... I'm just a little confused why Su told me, ""Oh, I told Rob and Kat already,"" like that's going to make me feel like I'm TRULY his number 1 ally. In addition, Su also told me that he thinks we're in great middle positions, but according to all the tea I KNOWWWW... he's got a big storm comin'. I'll talk a lot more about everyone and everything in my next confessional because I plan to do a full rank-down of my feelings of the cast, and then also how I think everyone will do (which I'll keep in my records) based on what I know now and how everyone has been so far! Everything is subject to change... and I don't really know what people think of me... but we shall see!!

So ya... expect a pop off from me during a day 19 confessional.... because I'm COMING for necks...

Day 19
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- OKAY SO LET ME TELL YOU A STORY. MISS BRIAN IS THE BIGGEST SNAKE IN THIS GAME... MY THEORIES OF HIM THROWING THE PHOTO SCAVENGER HUNT HAVE BEEN CONFIRMED BY JAYME !!!! Further to this he sent the same messages to me and Jerry this morning a final 2.... his wig is going to be gone soon.. also he has an idol somehow everyone knows? This is why I don't tell anyone about mine LOL

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- As soon as we merged the following people came to me with the following tea. 1. Rob - told me he wants me & liz to be last pair standing. 2. Torsa - wants the 3 pairs to align. 3. Kat - wants torsa & andre gone 4. Jerry - brian has an idol. 5. Andre - wants the 3 pairs to align 6. Alex - wants the 3 pairs to align. 7. Matt - is pissed with his old tribe 8. Jake - is overwhelmed with the merge 9. Elizabeth - we love each other 10. Jayme - literally spilt all the tea to me about NuSotara v NuGaleras because of the kidnapping decision. How people wanted Elizabeth out... I don't know how that will translate.

Right now it seems that people are targetting Alex/Andre and Torsa more then Liz and I. I think this is good for us.

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- This chall is inch resting bc let me tell you something. Matt mentioned in bear cups about two of the things and i know for a fact Elizabeth cant be bothered with Mulan so thats two points already BAM.... also someone needs to tell Alex to chill out and maybe relax bc boy gave us too many words.

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- Jerry wants a Me/Him/Jake/Elizabeth alliance bc I think we are swing votes and it makes sense to me. So I said yes. Should be fun to get tea.

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- Kat and Torsa don't get along thats the fight of the century

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- Oh yeah you ready for THIS ?????????????????? I think me and Liz are in a great position bc everyone wants the other pairs out really bad. If we can snatch the blood pendant advantage then we will have the idol to play the round afterwards so thats iconic. If we get the 2 immunities for F8 & F7 then we have idol for sure F6 and pretty much can secure us a F5 together... love that

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- Also I just wanna add I heard Su and Rob are full on snakes and honestly not surprised BUT my one thing on that is that I literally gave them both the same spiel about wanting to work with them and to find out they are BFFs....... ANNA OU...... peep me somehow looking like a snake AHHHH

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- I asked Brian if he has brown idol and said I don't bc if neither of us it then it must be hidden and the boy i think ate it UP lololol maybe?? i hope so honestly

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- OK, so I promised a pop off, but I'm going to split it into 2 confessionals otherwise this will be the chunkiest text you've ever seen in your life. This first one will be my feelings and vibes on each person with their ranking of how close I feel to them.

So the bottom of this list is just really based on little trust with each of these people... They're all people I like... this entire cast is! But it's just the people that I feel least bonded with socially/strategically...

12. Rob - OK, so I start off the bottom of my list with Rob. I think my main issue with Rob is that he just presents himself as someone who wants to take charge and have power, but he's also super unreliable. He came to me right after the Loris vote and truly tried to gain me as a number against the partners. I'm OVER it. It was so dumb of him... I can't believe... He triggered me way too soon after that whole fiasco, and I think that he'll learn he can't mess with half the cast and get away with it. I think he'll be the major merge boot target (alongside Torsa, apparently), and I just... whew... I cannot believe! He's definitely the person I have the least faith in, and I hope he knows this is all because of what he did to Loris. 11. Jake - My major issue with Jake is that I just don't have that strong of a personal relationship with him. He's above Rob only because he wasn't involved in the Loris fiasco, but I really just don't get any good vibes of him and I working together in this game for long! He's just... very plain Jane, and my top allies tend to be the most interesting people to me! So yea... sorry, Jake, but I just think all we have is a very generic, basic friendship, and that's it. Maybe this'll change, but I think I've been with him long enough to know that it'll be hard to change! 10. Kat - My biggest concern with Kat is that I really know her loyalty lies in weird places. I want to trust her and work with her, but she made a joke about my idol and Alex's idol, and I know she knows more than she plays up! I would love for her to go early merge because I know I'll probably backstab her sooner rather than later, and she said that's her deal breaker with me, but I just... don't see myself aligning with the people that have said they love her. 9. Elizabeth - Elizabeth is this high because of Andreas, OK? I like her, but we still have a very ... surface level relationship! We haven't talked much game aside from, ""This is how the vote is going, ya?"" I do think the prospect of working with her and Andreas together gets better and better everyday, however I feel like Elizabeth will make it to the end if we don't take her out sooner rather than later. So let's do it, hoes! Sorry, Liz, but I just know you're a lot more threatening to make it deep than someone like Rob, who is getting targeted already... and the only reason you were targeted was because you were the outcast of the 3 that were supposed to go to tribal during the kidnap.

There's a bit of a gap here because now I trust all these people! It kinda is now based more on the varying levels of trust that I've built with each.

8. Jerry - I like Jerry a lot! He's very different from me, but he's grown so much on me in this game. He's also someone I am working alongside, and I think him and I get along with ideas really well. He was more stuck in the void of OG Sotara + Romeral than Andreas, so I feel like he doesn't bring as much strategic value to the table as anyone above him, but maybe now that merge has started, he will pop off completely! I see it in the cards. He's very midtier for me just because we still haven't talked a ton of game, but we have discussed the merge and I did tell him what I knew going into this merge, so... maybe that'll work in my favor! 7. Alex - I love Alex... literally so much! I've grown to trust him more, but a lot of the time, he comes across as kinda fake kajhdjsa... and he just overall has this snakey reputation. Even when he's claiming he's not going to be a backstabbing snake, I don't see it in the cards! I see him being a complete snake and I just cannot handle this stress and the trauma from the last time we played together. I do think I can trust Alex for a little because of him and Andre, but I don't know how long I can keep without wanting to take him out. 6. Andreas - I like Andreas a lot tbh! Me and him bonded well on Romeral, and I know we can bond more here. He's jumped up a lot for me in personal rankings, and he's someone I know I can keep working on and getting more from in the future of this game. We've shared idol guesses, so I just know we have a level of trust now... and I'd love for one of us to have the brown idol at the end of the day, so WHEW! I think he also brings Liz to the table, so that really, really helps me! I know the pairs aren't necessarily together, but I doubt that any of the pairs left would just randomly turn on each other or not work together, especially since they're getting targeted together. 5. Torsa - Torsa and I have sorta been popping off more to each other, and I think now that she has a target on her back from Rob, it's even more imperative for her to work with me, someone she knows she can trust and will have her back! I love Torsa so much, but I do think she's probably someone that I will want to go before we get to the duos immunity point. I know I have the ability to work with Torsa, but I don't know when my threat level rises to be too much that she decides to cut me. Kat's already pointed out that I'm a threat because of how socially loved I am, so I'm really scared about this.

This top 4 are my babies.. I love each of them so much. There's a small gap between 5 and 4.... just based on my personal relationships which add to the growing levels of trust I have with each.

4. Su - I love Su, and I'm having a hard time completely separating myself from Su. Despite my prior rants about how annoying it is that he threw me out there as a name, and my trust in him definitely going down a lot... I do think Su will need to rely on me if Rob goes sooner rather than later! He might go right after Rob KLFJHASK... but I hope not because I know Su will be a reliable ally the further we go to me. At least.. I hope. I'm putting a lot of trust within Su, and I really just want him to go far with me and trust me.... especially because we get along SO well on a personal level... but whew... he might be a snek. 3. Andre - I LOVE LOVE Andre so much JDHAS... he's so funny, and he went from my hype man to my bully, and I just... if you know me, you know a lot of my friends like to pop off at me and make fun of me and that's just how our friendship works (I'm a bitch, OK?). Andre is also someone I feel like just has this random moments of spilling ALL his tea at once, and I scream every time because it's so real. ""The Golf Claps"" also is the cutest alliance I've had all game, and so I'm really going to put my trust in Andre for this game. I know he has a history of snaking people just like Alex, but I hope he knows I have his back.

And my top 2... ""2 Twinks and Fitz"". Literally my 2 favorite people in this game. I adore them both with my whole heart, and although I don't have too much to say about each... just know I'm blessed with them in this game.

2. Jayme - I loVE Jayme, and now that he knows about my idol... WHEW.... I really do trust him so much... he's a fucking ANGEL. I don't have too much to say about him and Matt because I just love them both and trust them wholly... I do have my personal game to worry about, but if their names came out as targets, I most definitely would be pushing to save them both. The only reason I'm stronger with Matt is because I personally just know Matt for longer, but I think if I had just met them both this game, Jayme would probably be my #1. 1. Matt - Like I said with Jayme... don't have much to say here! I adore and love Matt with my whole heart, and him and I have wrecked shit already, and I hope we can continue to do it. He doesn't have Callum anymore so I'm like SUPER down with him in this game, and I love it... we're basically each other's partners at this point LOL.

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- Now is how I think everyone will do just based on what I said in my last confessional and everything I know about the dynamics. I will be including myself, so I'm ready to show my terrible thoughts about myself hehe (jk I feel like I have a high chance to pop off with my social game!!! Confidence, bitch!)..

13th: ROB (Obvious big threat trying to run the game.) 12th: SU (After all the drama he caused... WHEW.) 11th: ELIZABETH (Splitting up a pair and also super quiet.) 10th: KAT (Leftover from the 3-person mess alliance.) 9th: JAKE (No bonds strong enough to really consider keeping.) 8th: ANDREAS (bIg ThReAt culture tbh.) 7th: ALEX (I feel like he'll have to use idol before this [me, too] and just die @7.) 6th: TORSA (Desire to split up last pair. Jayme seems to have more ins.) 5th: JAYME (Strongest player of the 5.) 4th: MATT or ANDRE (I couldn't vote Matt out n I think Jerry would be better F3. Andre/Jerry might stick together.) TOP 3: BRIAN, JERRY, ANDRE/MATT (I do think, at this current moment, I have a good shot at top 3, but I don't know if I'll win. I just think I'm setting myself up well with everyone.  Logically, I'll probably get like 6th or something, but who KNOWS!)

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- this game is very quiet rn thank GOD i have nct dream's new release of boom to calm me down :D omg let's stream ladies NCT DREAM 엔시티 드림 'BOOM' MV

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- Jake (the host) laughed at me when I looked for the idol.

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- well YAY hey look i made it to the mERGE isnt that cute omg <3 I love the tribe name Cuarcita, my bro matt is legit the smartest? i wanted to name it onika tho but like, Cuarcita is still CUTE af and the color is so pretty

anywho, this merge is gonna be a big time mess. Kat, Rob, Brian, and Jayme have all had talks with me already; Kat and Rob especially seem to wanna go for the jugular and take out Jayme/Torsa/Andre/Alex and establish lines, while Jayme said we could talk about a vote after the immunity results post. However, we did talk about the kidnapping thing again, and he assured me that it was nothing and i shouldnt worry about it. Rob told me I'm being gullible LMFAO so I had a moment where i was like ahhhh idk whats going on and i had a mini meltdown BUT im ok now. It was just a lot to handle, but Rob is probably right. Even if it wasnt as big of a deal as we're making it, someone has to go and the ppl in that group are all deadly players. I just feel guilty cuz they all love me. Well except Alex

Alex like seems to hate me for some reason which sucks :/ he left me on read a couple times pre merge so i thought he was inactive or something and then he heard i said that and got mad? and I've been trying hard to make a connection cuz I know he's going to be a pivotal player in this merge, but he's just rlly not wanting to connect that well with me. Ig i should've been nicer pre merge but its not like i dragged him or anything idk, i hope he will be more open but like if I could get him out soon I think thats good for my game cuz he's a strong player who has me on his radar so thats scary. Kat and Brian both have told me he has an idol too so hes def dangerous.

also, BRIAN! Omg I love Brian sm. We had a call and we talked strategy which was good for me, it helped center me and it helped me figure out, that I'm really stuck in the middle of the drama, and the only way to minimize the target on my back and the blood on my hands is to be passive this round and hope people don't come for me. So I'm going to try to not run the vote and hopefully not be the main person, def not the one throwing out names. Conveniently im gonna be on a date when results are coming out so maybe names will b out there by the time i come back <3 but ANYWAY brian i trust him a lot. ik hes close to a lot of people so maybe i should be more wary but I just like. spilled my guts to him on call lmfao and im gonna be working closest with him at this merge.

Rn the people I trust most are Brian, Rob, Kat, and Matt because I feel like I've bonded with all of them and there hasnt been anything sketch going on between us. I feel like I can trust them to keep their word and that they'll be open to working with me. Elizabeth, Andreas, Jerry, and Jake we dont talk as much but we still talk a decent amount especially Liz and Andreas, and I feel like they'll wanna work with us too, which gives us some good numbers if we do wanna go against the post swap Sotara ppl minus Matt

rn, we're just waiting to see who wins this immunity and then we can get down to the nitty gritty and decide who's going and see who's on what side. Brian and I agreed that we'd just go where most people are going, and hopefully thats with Rob and Kat, but if the tide is going with the post swap Sotara group, most of them do trust/like me I think so worst case I can change my game plan and focus on working with them. We'll see, all I know is that I gotta keep my cool and not fuck myself up, cuz the hardest thing about this merge for me I think is going to be putting my personal emotions aside and avoiding meltdowns over the game LMFAO. Lets hope i can do it <3 love yall - su

Day 20
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- feeling so paranoid atm... the lack of clearly defined sides is just making the first merge vote so stressful

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- So, this round I'm feeling like I am in a decent position. The game talk has been slow for me. Which could be a good or bad thing. Thinking logically, I don't see the benefit of taking me out of all people. But you never know with these people. I'm leaning more towards the idea that people are kinda being scared turtles and not wanting to say too much. I've heard similar things from others. Apparently Andre is freaking out cause Su is coming after him?? Interesting...? lol. So I'm low key hoping that is happening so I can relax and just have options. If we're talking the best case scenario for me, it would be to have options at all times. I'm thinking about ways to deal with the idols that Alex and Brian supposedly have. Honestly, I wanna find a way to flush them and take out threats at the same time. I don't have a lot to report on right now. Its been slow for me. Hopefully it will get better!

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- Okay so the game really is in full speed now. I have a foursome of Myself, Elizabeth, Andreas, and Jerry. And I mean, this is a cute little alliance and what not but. I want to target the pairs. Andreas, one of the pairs, said he heard people saying Su and Rob for the vote. Su and Rob, ARE BOTH SINGLES. The 7 singles need to come together and take out one of the pairs. This vote will determine how the path of the game goes for me. I'm trying to pull of a really big move! This would be a blindside and I really hope i can pull it off.

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- girl this tribal is a mess can rob/su just pick a name so i can build my case against them already also stream NCT DREAM 엔시티 드림 'BOOM' MV-0

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- i just wanna vote one of su or rob's snake asses OUUUUUTTTT. tryna target me torsa and andre headasses. i GUESS alex too even tho idc for him. bitches. ugh i feel like we do have the votes where if torsa or i are voted for we are safe, but between idols and advantages anything can change so i'm just keeping my ears open and continuing to rdy my rob/su parchments.....

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- So I've learned a lot during the past few days. Apparently Kat, Rob, and Su have formed a trio together and are now trying to work together to take out the remaining pairs. Which honestly stings a little because I really thought I could trust Su. I've heard that they're not coming for me or Andreas so that's a good thing.

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- I have no idea what is going on. No one wants to say a name. I want someone boring out.

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- So everyone is being really tight lipped so far. Its honestly kinda weird. I think as of now, the people being most honest with me are Andreas and Torsa. They've actually said things strategy wise open to me. Jake is kinda wanting to make a big move I think, but idk if its the right time. he's talked about voting Jayme and that's something I wanna do, idk if its time rn. And I'm someone who hates waiting on that cause you may not get another chance to make the shot. I just don't wanna expose myself. If its true that the only names out there are some weird mix of Su/Rob or Andre/Alex. Then I wanna sit pretty and just kinda leech what I can. If I'm picking one of the four, I'd rather see one of Alex or Su go home. Su because he seems like a loose cannon and is running around a lot but only to select people. (I don't appear to be one of those people). Alex because he apparently has an idol.

So that leaves Alex and Brian supposedly having idols. So both of them are threats to my position rn. Both of them need to leave soon I just don't wanna shake the waters. Its more of my style to kinda let other people screw up and I take advantage of that. As of now, everyone is playing so tight lipped that its not possible to do that. I believe in the idea of give and take in survivor and its hard to give when you already know you aren't gonna get anything back xD So I'm at this weird pass of what do I do. I don't like letting the game slip by, because it will leave you in the dust. But at the same time I don't wanna overplay and risk being targeting like some people are for that reason. I'll probably end up just kinda observing while I'm at work. Moves will be made, Its not gonna be like Molise where I waited too long. Fuck that! I'm changing history.

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- My plan is in motion! I told Rob that everyone is saying his name for the vote. Now he's going to scramble to get the singles together. And it's either going to get out one of the pairs, or Rob is a goner for scrambling. Either way, it was a worth a shot and I can't wait to see tribal.

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- Jake Womack is the most frustrating ally ever like... he comes to me saying "everyone" is going after me and Su then I'm like... well is it just the pairs? What about Kat, Brian, Matt? And he's like... well um i didnt talk to them hehe. BITCH WTF THOSE ARE THE SWING VOTES WHO WE NEED? T_T

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- SO BASICALLY... I'm just having a super hard time deciding which pair I want to end up with the blood pendant. If it weren't for Alex's idol I'd want him and Andre to have it but I'm scared that they could end up with both immunity and an idol which is just far too much power in this game. However, I think I could get him to play it maybe next round in order to flush it out while targeting a different pair. I just really don't want Elizabeth/Andreas to get it because I feel like they're playing all side of the game so tbh I really would like Elizabeth to just leave here and I think that I can get Brian on that as well. I'd prefer Andreas since he seems to be the head of that pair but unfortunately he won that immunity : c

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- God this plan is coming together! All the singles are on board and we are fucking popping right now. Did Jake Womack, the underdog, just pull off the first blindside of the season? If he did, BYE ELIZABETH. And if he didn't, it was a hell of a try. And I feel like I'm playing really well right now. I originally wanted Jayme out, but Brian want's Elizabeth and he's the swing vote so. Elizabeth it is DKLSLSSL.

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- So I won immunity and this is a good round to be immune for... because someone has let everyone have CRACK.......

so the basic run down is .... someone created a pairs rumour which actually is not a thing despite it being discussed between people

so the low down is that Kat/Rob/Su are a trio and are targeting pairs which okay whatever.. but they are being so stupid about it.... like kat came to me and told me that other pairs are saying there is a pairs alliance? WHO is spreading this information..... asking for a friend...THEN she told Jayme she doesn't think we have a pairs alliance... MESS

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- Right now me, torsa, liz, jayme, and matt are all trying to be cool calm and collected but deep down im freaking out because rob is throwing elizabeth's name out which i do not like. so i throw his name out. Essentially Su and Rob are the two names from our side being thrown out. I think Alex/Andre got wind they might be the target and kind of changed things ? UGH it's so annoying ... anyways im gonna throw HANDS if they take elizabeth out......

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- Yeah so does anyone remember the days of knowing how to play ORGs because I do and these players apparently skipped that section

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- Why couldn't we all just become best friends and vote out threats together... im IRRITATED

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- Okay so on the topic of this vote, personally I would like Rob going because I think he is being too flip-floppy

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- i hate these people. so much. like so much. they are literally so fucking messy like hello can we please get a grip and actually be sane. like hello. this should not be a crackhead vote but apparently it is. WHY am I the sane one. unbolieveable. its a disgrace.

on one hand you have the 5 sugar cubs, which is a fully loyal too atm. THEN WE satans trio in rob/kat/su all trying to get a singles alliance which is isn't working cause people aren't on the same page and they are too pussy to actually make the chat. and like im sat in here in the middle snaking them out, confronting alex about his idol. literally i hate these people. then rob comes up and says ""lets take out jerry!!!"" like wow the crack really is out here tonight jesus christ. why take out a NUMBER this is some bull shittery rn

its too chaotic cause we have 3 crackheads and like agh im over it like can we calm down ladies

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- These people are on CRACK

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- omg a lot to talk about, it's 40 mins till deadline, no solid vote yet ofc. it's been between rob/su for like 5 hours omg. at first i wanted su out but then i talked to him and we had an actually amazing conversation and he's really self aware about everything and I'm glad we had that conversation and we're both so similar so I'm really glad we managed to get on the same page with all of this. I think we're settling on Rob which is kinda fine by me, he's one of the best ppl to talk to here but after asking to work with me he's also starting a singles alliance to target the pairs so i mean he rlly can't be mad at me, plus it seems like he's kinda been messy and fake to other ppl so, im rlly not throwing whatever semblance of a game I have for him nnn. but yes talking to Su was so nice and he warned me abt a lot of stuff so ik I need to just go UTR for now NNN and not to trust everyone, I don't rlly know exactly who he means but I have a few ideas, I feel like I can survive and I do have the allies for it but he's right to make it easier on myself I just sort of need to try and stop getting my name mentioned by ppl, which should be easy? idk but im feeling ok atm i guess but tht can literally change in 5 mins in this game soo we'll just see how it goes.

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- god im feeling chaotic. fuck this its been way too stressful and im not ok with it honestly. i now have an alliance with brian and jerry which is my ideal f3 cause i lowkey think i could beat either of them, tho ideally i'd have andre rather than brian cause then i really do think i can win honestly. actually who am i kidding i have to get there first LOL, and idk how confident i am about that. i feel like i have overplayed a bit thus far so this beeetch needs to calm it down. ive been a tsunami and now i need to be a gentle river for a couple of rounds. thats the dumbest metaphor ive ever come up with LMMAAOO

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- rlly, ur probably hearing enough about this whole vote, enough to make ur head explode, so im just going to say my eulogy to me going deep this season.

i really do love this game and i wanted to do well, i wanted to prove i was better than id been in the past, that i could crush this game and get people to trust me and want to work with me and just do well. i didnt even want to win, i just wanted to succeed, be memorable, be someone be something.

but instead its either going to be me or rob tonight, and people have stopped talking. there was an explosion of activity when i came online; the pairs were apparently together, andreas uniting them, coming for me or rob, and a singles alliance was assembling to take out Liz as the least likely to be idoled? this all happened before i came online. but then it fell apart, ppl freaked and someone pissed off brian

ok now im back to finish this confessional, its like 10 minutes b4 the deadline, Rob is going, and im basically going to have to vote for him. ive aired my dirty laundry with a bunch of people but it basically looks like im gone next and that just drives me bonkers. i dont wanna leave. and i dont want rob gone either. im just so mad i didnt handle the kidnap situation right. I freaked out like I always do, I made a mess, and now it fucked up my game because ROb is leaving and now no one thinks im reliable all over again. im not going to cry, im not going to pout about this much but im just annoyed with myself that i fall into the same old traps time and time again. i just wish i couldve done it differently.

so now im gonna have to vote for rob, vote off someone who likes me and trusts me and is loyal to me. i might do liz just cuz others might do it but idk. i need to decide, i have 10 minutes, but i cant. im just lost. and im just a flop.

im sorry this is so somber but im just rlly fucking done today.

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- I don't have too, too much to say! This vote is kinda a mess..... I've planted seeds in sending Rob out to the 3 duos and Matt, and I do think it could go through, but I'm not sure. Everyone had been talking about a Rob vote the other day, but now everyone wants to remain quiet and not say a word... it's weird and unnerving! I'm trying really hard to do my best and contain a majority group into voting a certain way, and it's really scaring me because my aggressive gameplay could be seen as threatening and I could be sent out the door because of it!

I'll keep seeing what's up, but kjdahs... UGH! A mess is going to be happening.