Board Thread:Season 55 - Nakuru/@comment-35779793-20191025004614/@comment-24277959-20191026001218

Hello Working you’re awesome and your speech was on point

I wanted to quickly address that first as to why I tiptoed around you during the vote-out and didn’t want to say anything. Trent asked me a similar question because I basically did the same thing during his vote-out and I explained it in a video response. If you can’t watch that though, basically I’ll just say that I rarely tell people straight up that I’m voting them out as and that can be attributed to a sort of defense mechanism. This was and is a pretty glaring flaw in my game in that I have trouble telling people straight to their faces I’m voting them because I compartmentalize way too much and look at too many scenarios and overthink it when in reality just want to hear the truth. I would think, what if they scramble and my plan goes to shit, or am I putting myself on some moral high horse saying you’re going home deal with it, or am I going to infuriate this person by telling them, all sorts of things when in reality I should’ve just been honest from the jump. I’m saying this not to excuse or condone it but rather explain how I operate – I’m really appreciative with how you took your vote but I do wish I handled it better regardless!

Anyways, to answer your question in a very concise and consolidated form, my answer is absolutely yes that was a big extent to how I got to the end. I think you’re right in that, I stayed in the F8 vote because of the relationships I formed with multiple people, and I stayed at F6/F5 because of Nicole wanting to keep me in, but the strength of those bonds shouldn’t win out in the end because there is a time and place where you eventually have to take out threats before they run it to the end, close bond or not. So to quote Sarah Lacina’s boring ass, “I would get rid of me if I could!”. But I also don’t want to say it’s to the fullest extent either because I do want to confidently say I put in a lot of work to maintain my safety and navigate fluidly (obviously before your voteout aka when my position blew up), and that I was able to win the important immunities I needed to, so I’m also here for other reasons.