It's All Consequences/Confessionals

Day 37
"doabslavskq"

- I guess I should of remembered fairy tales don't always come true

"doabslavskq"

- OMG. WHAT THE HELL THE PEOPLE ARE THINKING? I'm a treat. Messing with all of them. Lying to them. They really shodn't do what I want. Trust me. They should vote out me. Lately I'm cheating a bit - I'm acting that my English is worse that it is in reality. It would help a little. I need all help I can get here. :) From the beginning I was here to win... But I was absent about half of the season... And now... I don't believe it. It shoudn't happen. I give here only about 20% of my survivor abilities... It shoudn't be enough...

"doabslavskq"

- Part of me wants to beg to get to the finals but I have more pride then that but I guess i'ma just have do my dam best I can in this final challenge if there was anytime I needed a win it's now

"doabslavskq"

- I feel like such a jerk because from a gameplay perspective I have to vote Claire out, and I was trying to convince her to do the same, but she just refuses, I'm such an ass, and although I didn't come here for second place, Im hurting at the thought that she would just sit there and not be willing to go against me. Fuckfuckfuck, this would have been so easy had she not been so kind of a person :(.

"doabslavskq"

- I could have done it Linus wears his heart on his sleeve and just telling him I'm never voting him could have just gave me my spot in the final 3 is it true I would never vote him? Kinda I don't know if I had the will power too but all I know is things are looking up

Day 38
"doabslavskq"

- Doing these challenges even makes talking to Felix seem pleasant

"doabslavskq"

- To think 2 months ago I was going into this with the goal of "All I want is to make final 12" Now I have a shot at winning? Holy ****

"doabslavskq"

- I do think i'm going to make the finals cause

Linus has been honest with me from the start

and he said he was voting me to start and now he said he won't

so I doubt he'd lie now

I think it comes down if I can do a tie breaker or if I think the other girl will vote with me

"doabslavskq"

- I decided to don't be very active in last days. I want to make an impression that I'm not a treat and someone who is going to be difficult to win with during tribal council. That the game isn't very important for me and I won't show my best also during final tribal council. I don't now if it's possible to survive and become one of the finalists of the season but I hope that my... strange strategy is going to work. I love experiments and it's funny to be first time ever someone who even doesn't deserve to be here.

"doabslavskq"

- When I think about my game in the season I'm ashamed of it. I'm embarrassed how poor my actions were. I always want to be one of the best ones and I'm. And here... tbh maybe 2 or 3 tribal councils were perfect and planned by me... I hate myself right now. I could and should show you more... Much more!

"doabslavskq"

- But I have survived like always and it's all consequences of my hard work. It's not a shoot of luck that I'm here and what is going to be next? We'll see.

"doabslavskq"

- THIS GAME SUCKS

"doabslavskq"

- WHO THE HELL IS TAKING SO LONG TO SUBMIT FOR THE CHALLENGE!

"doabslavskq"

- I didn't win that's okay I am known for my social skills this is the ultimate test I gotta do this and I gotta do this TODAY

"doabslavskq"

- Congratulations Linus for having won the game! Ugh, he's winning in any F3 scenario. We would have got him out if he wouldn't have won that FIC. Claire has to go now. Yay, I can't wait to be crushed at FTC!

"doabslavskq"

- I wonder what to do tonight. I'd love to vote out Linus but he has the immunity idol so I have to choose betweet the girls. I don't care about something so stupid like loyality to people. You know that. I wanted to vote for Marie to make a 2:2 but... I don't want to give one more reason to win the one whou would win the challenge... And tbh CLAIRE YOU BITCH!

"doabslavskq"

- I also don't like Marie and her childish behaviour and it would be funny to watch what kind of hell Claire is going to do during final tribal council but... NO. I love lying to her... so... let it last.

"doabslavskq"

- shh the rebels are coming

"doabslavskq"

- So I'm down to the 11th hour and I still haven't decided how to vote. I don't know if I'm cut out for this game :(.

Day 39
"doabslavskq"

- It's just amazing, the final three, and Marie did it without Michael and without her safety net and without anybody else, and the helpmate and the mom (tears up) found herself and became Marie again. And if all goes well tonight, I could walk away as the Sole Survivor of the 36th season of the Main ORG.

"doabslavskq"

- I don't think I'm gonna win but I'm really proud to have made it to Day 39. I was really social early on then I turned on my strategic mode at the merge and I always did what was best for my game. I hope I'm gonna win but I think I'm not. Tikal was an amazing season and I loved to be a part of it. Thanks to the hosts and the players. Now, Marie is heading to FTC, ready to face the jury. <3

"doabslavskq"

- All season I'm complaining how easy it is all for me here and first time ever I have an occasion to say - it was really difficult for me to write the speech. My homework for English is always the longest - 10-15 sentences and the speech... over 2300 words... 7 hours of work... But I'm glad that I done it.

"doabslavskq"

- So, wow, I actually made it to the end of the main org, thats crazy. I remember like a year ago when I was still new survivor I was trying to find a way to play it online, and I found the actual website of the org, but had no idea how to apply or anything. I remember creeping around looking at players profiles and trying to figure out what actually went on in the game hoping for episode summaries, but I could never figure it out haha. The player's I remember wanting to emulate were Ethan (Im pretty sure that his second season had just ended), as well as Josh from HvV because he sounded really funny. It's crazy now though, I've finally been in the org, and I've outplaced either of those people I wanted to be like, even if I don't think I played the game anything like them. Looking at my experience I feel like I was a villain, but for heroic reasons which is kinda weird haha. To explain what I mean is like, I wanted to be friends with everyone, and got along with people, but maybe got too close to too many people, and it resulted in me being forced to go against people I wish I could have worked with :( . Even now I'm looking to the end because it feels so close I could just grasp it. The only thing standing between me and having my face up as the  winner of the org I think is Joanna, which sucks because I feel like it could be a bit of a hit to my ego if I lost to an inactive, and Ill forever regret turning on Christine and Claire as I would have  been content losing to either of them. However, I made  the choices I  did, and now to not die a little on the inside I have to row forward against the current and try my damnedest to show this jury Im not just muscle.