Grasping at Straws/Confessionals

Day 1
"kawau"

- Well, I'm pretty sure I'm the oldest guy in the tribe, which at 32, feels sort of ridiculous. But hey, I can party with the young folks. There do seem to be a lot of gay dudes, but I feel like forming a gayliance could be creepy since they're all like 15. And there's another Matt, so I'm going by Pav for now while I decide whether to align with him or get him outta here so I can have my name back.

"kawau"

- This seems like a fun bunch. I just don't need to fuck myself over this early

"taieri"

- OMG I'm sooooo excited!! I can't believe I made it onto this island.. And a tribe of all ladies, this is great! Time to work my friendly magic and become best friends with these ladies before I have to slit their throats 😀

"kawau"

- So far, so good! Team looks pretty good, and really nice. I know it's only day 1, but I hope it stays like this. Starting to make friends already. *hums the McDonalds' theme* I'm lovin' it.

"kawau"

- I've decided to align with Matt. I'm wary of telling him too much cause I'm not sure if I can trust him fully yet, but I think he'll be a good partner. He and Ci'ere and I have very loosely formed a #BestCoast California boys alliance. I like Brian, he seems like a good, wholesome kid, says stuff like "Holy shoot!" and "Thank gosh". Alex was extremely chatty in the group but hasn't responded to my attempt to chat with him one on one. I think he may be trouble, but I also want to align with people who are going to play hard. Kyle seems like a likable weirdo. Casper appears to be a little more mature than everyone else, and I dig that he's from the Netherlands. So those are the people I'm going to try to hook up with for now. Everyone else has been really quiet, and any one of them could go, so I'll just go with the flow of whatever name comes up

"kawau"

- Hi!! This is my first confessional, so cool. Emotikon grin I kind of thought the girls vs. boys theme this season would screw me over, but I'm actually getting along pretty well with my tribe. I just made an alliance that consists of myself, Brian, Pav and Matt so hopefully I could use that for a while.

"kawau"

- I'm glad I found a sociable group of guys. I don't usually get along too well with guys, but this group seems perfect for me. A solid group of 4, and then a 5th hopefully on the way. This game is panning out so well.

"kawau"

- I like the tribe so far, and I think I set a good impression on most of them. I hope to lead us to victory in the first challenge. I won't decide any solid allies until that challenge is over.

"kawau"

- I'm now solidly aligned with Berk (other Matt), Brian, and Ci'ere. We're bringing in Casper as our 5th, and I'm going to make sure he feels very close with me. Alex finally talked to me and I'm warming up to him. He seems a little OCD and has played way too many of these games, but he's the next oldest after me and said he'd like me to stick around so I'm good with him for now. Apparently Kyle is telling people he doesn't want to talk to anyone or really play, so that's not going to bode well for him. Also I feel a little weird chatting online with a 14 year old about anything, so as much as I'm fully in support of his Lady Gaga little monster realness, I would be fine with him being one of the first out. Charlie made a comment about being uglier than everyone which is kind of uncomfortable. I think it would be easy to get him on my side though, so I'll keep him around for now. Looking right now like the first boot would be between Konstantinous, Josh, and Kyle, since they're not talking to anyone. I'd go for Konstantinous, mostly because his name is long and I don't feel like typing it out all month.

"kawau"

- Berk has told me of an alliance among Ciere, Brian, Pav, and himself. They want 6 in their alliance, and so the other 2 are likely to come from among Casper, Charlie, and me. But I suspect all 3 of us will know about this alliance, and so it's not very secretive and I don't expect it will last long. I am considering making a 'we read the rules' alliance among the people who commented on the rules post, since I'd expect them to care more about the game than others. But Berk isn't part of that group, and I'd like to stick with Berk, so I probably won't make that 'rules' alliance.

"kawau"

- So Ciere (I think that's how you spell his name?) was way eager to start an alliance, he grouped up with Brian and then brought in Pav and I. I've been working really hard to build up trust with everyone. Alex thinks of me as his number 1, Kyle and Casper believe I'm looking out for him, and each member of the core 4 thinks I'm not close with the other core members (which I am). The plan for the alliance (as concocted by Brian) is to bring in two or three more people for a majority but to maintain the core 4 members. I'm closest with Pav and I think I'm his #1 as well, and I suspect that Brian and Ciere are closer to each other. Basically right now I'm letting Brian and Ciere take the lead and I'm trying to subtly get them to bring in Casper and Alex, who are going to hopefully trust me most because I saved them. Brian and Alex are definitely the two most intelligent players, so I'm going to keep an eye on that. Overall my first day went extremely well.

"kawau"

- Also there's one woman out here older than me (Momma C). I'm hoping she'll stick around so I can feel young. She sort of seems like a whackjob from her profile though, so who knows?

"kawau"

- I feel kind of bad playing this hard right off the bat. Like I'm partially lying to everyone, but I also think I've convinced people that I'm honest and that I'm their friend. I've just got to keep up the charade and keep every one thinking that I'm on their side.

"kawau"

- It's quiet on the Kawau tribe beach at night. It is 11pm New Zealand time, so I guess all my tribemates went to bed. I hope that this alliance business will be resolved by Berk in the morning.

Day 2
"kawau"

- I spoke with Brian privately for the first time, and he is trying to give off the impression of knowing nothing about how to play the game and having spoken to almost no one. He says he will tell me if he hears of an alliance, but I believe Berk when he tells me that Brian is the co-founder of an alliance, so Brian is lying to me, probably because he was pushing for Casper to be their 6th member. Since I get along with Casper, I decided to approach him and speak about how we were both bottom tier potential invites to that alliance and how we should aim for better than that. I believe he has the same understanding with me - that the existing alliance was established in too poor a manner for it to last. I suggested that during the challenge we find a group of 6 and start the entire chat at once. This will lead to less leakage of information. We can then commit to whatever deals we want with other people (so they don't suspect our alliance), but ultimately we'll all be loyal to our Secret Six. No, I haven't actually used the name "Secret Six" before this very moment. But it might be a good name if it hasn't been over-utilized. Beyond myself, Casper, and Berk, I am uncertain who else I'd want in the six. Not Brian, since he seems too keen on lying to me, and I don't think he'd like me stealing the alliance out from under him. Not Kyle, because 14-year-olds probably have a higher risk of instinctively doing something stupid that they think is a good idea. I'm unsure on Ci'ere (the other founder of the existing alliance). He said he wanted to work with me, but he hasn't yet told me about the alliance. We'll see what he does over the next day."

"kawau"

- We decided that Casper should be the 5th member of our alliance and now we'll have the numbers when it comes to the vote. Casper is really smart though so that's why we have to distance him from the core four.

"kawau"

- Casper is not to be trusted. That guy is already trying to play weirdly. If we have no inactives, he should go out first.

"kawau"

- Just woke up, a bit earlier than I would've wanted to on a Saturday, but I need to keep an eye on what's happening in the game. I can always nap later. One of my alliance members wants to keep Kons, so maybe he'll move up the ladder slightly, but not by much.

"kawau"

- Okay Matt just dissed the alliance name I came up with, BUT HAS HE CAME UP WITH ANYTHING? I think not. Also I think Brian is my closest ally right now.

"kawau"

- So Matt comes up to me, just after trashing my alliance name, and says he wants to make an alliance of 3 with me and Alex. Things are getting sticky! We see pairs in Pav and Casper as well as Brian and the Greek guy, so it's something we're gonna look out for in the future.

"kawau"

- Finally, the game is afoot and I could not be more excited. Things are slowly getting interesting and of course you guys are curious what I'm thinking about basically everything so far. I have nothing but nice things to say... BWHAHAHAHA!!! No not really! Although I hope my fellow contestants do think that. I hope they just think I'm the laid back nice dutch guy with a questionable sense of humor, who had a bit of a hangover yesterday. Right now for me this game is all about integrating myself as well as possible into the tribe. I'm doing my best to be a social chameleon and adjust myself to their way of speaking, doing and philosophy of the game. I hope that this chameleon can soon be a perfect matching green to the leaf he's chilling on. Although paranoia will always set in for a bit. You may just be the chameleon, chilling in the sun on the leaf, thinking you're a perfect match... And 10 seconds later you get eaten by some scary ass big bird, who gauges your eyes out and plays with your intestines for a while, all because you didn't have that perfect matching green but a fluorescent pink with yellow dots because you messed up at chameleon school. What I'm trying to say is that we're dealing with people probably doing the same to me and the over the top politeness is killing me so far. Anyways, as of right now it seems like there's an alliance forming with Ci'ere, Brian and the Matts. I know I'm brought in fifth, but as I already had contact with 3 of them before they started their little alliance and we are with 10 people in the tribe I'm not too worried. The 2 Matts seem dangerous. Both informed me quickly about this new alliance. How sweet... Although we all know they just need me and just want my trust, but I'm reacting like a happy idiot with gratefulness, sweet little nothings and other meaningless BS. To be quite honest that alliance seems like it will implode quite easily. Alex knows about it and I think Charlie does as well. Basically I think Ci'ere had a lot to do with that alliance being created in the first place. He seems like the kid who's playing way too hard, way too fast. Making already many alliances, not informing me directly of the alliance being created, bringing game up really quickly while we were chatting, etc. Luckily I have some experience in dealing with these kind of players. They are like toddlers with machine guns. Luckily I don't have any experiences with those. Other than that I'm trying to get something going with Alex. I'm a bit annoyed by him, but that's just because he is taking a leadership role and trying to bring organization to the tribe and stuff. Unfortunately I don't handle authority figures well. However, I think an alliance with Alex would be hilarious and I actually think that I could trust him. He can be the good guy leader trying to have things organized and I'll be the evil asshole whom loves a bit of chaos. But seriously, if everything goes well Alex could sit on the throne and I could be that man behind the throne telling the king what to do. Kind of like Presidents and Prime Ministers that are just being held on a leash by some rich men from wealthy corporations (we all know that's how it really works). Anyways, if everything goes well I will soon have some form of contact with most players in the game and from there on I will really be able to build something up. Oh, and why Boys vs Girls? I'm not really a flirty guy in real life, but ORGs just bring the creepy flirting/stalking Don Juan out of me... OK, wait. Then it probably is better that we're boys vs girls. But I do feel like I work even better with women. I know that's hard to imagine, but it's true.

"kawau"

- Okay I think I have gotten to have a small chat with everyone on my tribe. I am being friendly and cool and have one or two safety deals. They probably mean nothing but you never know. I am immeditaly thrown away by Casper and Matt and I am being lead to believe that there is a small group gathered already.

"kawau"

- Obviously my main bitch is Charlie. As for a side bitch, I don't know yet

"kawau"

- So Brian and Ciere are hopefully thinking they're at the head of the alliance, meanwhile I've been trying to bring in as many people that are loyal to me over them as possible. Pav and I have a deal, Casper was just brought in and we included him in that deal, meanwhile I've been working on bringing in Alex all day and I'm his #1. I convinced Ciere that Pav and Casper are really close (which is nonsense) and that the only way to counteract that would be to bring in Alex because he doesn't like Pav (also nonsense). If Alex doesn't fuck this up at the challenge I should be set with 2 different alliances of four within the bigger alliance of 6.

"kawau"

- It's starting to feel like Alex is just here to promote his own ORGs. In fact, he's practically said as much. Might be good to get him out of the way ASAP before I get sucked in to playing more of these things.

"kawau"

- Bryan's kind of winning me over, he's such a nice kid. Really dorky but genuine. He just really wants to trust a few core people, and I think it's a mistake for him to not branch out more and build up relationships. I'm not sure yet if he'll be a jury threat, but I've got Ciere and Pav both thinking I'm their number 1, making Brian the odd man out in the core 4.

"kawau"

- Also, Alex, Berk, and Ci'ere are starting a side thing apparently, which Berk told me about so I'm not worried, but am now thinking I should make a side thing with Brian and Casper to cover my own ass.

"kawau"

- Starting to think Konst is a bit of a chauvinist. Not loving the "guys rule, girls suck" line of cheering during this challenge. Also his cheers are terrible, and he admits that, yet keeps doing them.

"kawau"

- The girls better step up their game.

"kawau"

- Won our first challenge (by a LOT). I'm gonna go take a nap.

"kawau"

- How did I even access this confessional booth during a challenge!? Anyway, I just wanted to say I chose to be one of the people solving the map because I felt like there could be a clue to a hidden immunity idol on the map. I had to tell Brian of my suspicion as well, since I didn't want him mindlessly posting the image to the chat. If there is an idol, I'd rather only have to beat 1 person to it than multiple

Day 3
"taieri"

- Messy Confessional 1 for New Zealand

"kawau"

- We won the challenge! Yay. The maze was easy, and I didn't see anything idol-related in it. I'm pleased that I was able to do it faster than Brian - and that even counts having to download and reupload the image to post it in team chat, since he asked me to do that. If there is something idol-related, it probably deals with the kiwi eatery. I pounced on the opportunity to take the Kiwi as my reward, figuring that is the post likely to involve an idol clue. Joshua is seeming the weakest on the team, so when we lose a challenge we'll probably eliminate him.

"taieri"

- Our tribe SUCKED this challenge, some of the girls didn't even bother to show up, if we go on like this we'll be going to tribal every time.

"kawau"

- Why am I stuck on a tribe fullof cahoots? I am like one is weirder than the other. After the challenge, which by the way we rocked, Joshua is flashing in front of my eyes as an incompetent weirdo. Which makes me want to ally with him. And also travel the world with him. I dont know. I definetely prefer a confused Joshua rather than a Casper or a Matt Pav. Those 2 know their wirs. But Casper seems loyal and he is my first alliance. I have no reason to go against him for now and Matt may be useful for an older person alliance. I wouldnt mind Kyle to go. He bare.y ever replied and he is irrelevant. Which means that I am either on the outs wih him very centered, or he has no game

"kawau"

- I am worried that our team is TOO much stronger than the other team and that production will consequently do a tribe swap after only 2-4 weeks of the game. As a team-oriented player, I get thrown off my game more than most when there is a swap

"kawau"

- I need to get this off my chest right now... ALEX IS THE BIGGEST DOUCHE ROCKET EVER

"kawau"

- No hidden idol clue yet.. at least not for me. Maybe another contestant has one, which could be bad for me. In the meantime, I'm working toward strongman'ing my way into that alliance of six to make it an alliance of seven. Brian and Ci'ere both claimed they were being honest with me but wouldn't tell me about the alliance. Pav was honest and let me know he thought I would be in it by now. So I know I can trust Pav but not Brian and Ci'ere now.

"kawau"

- THE STRATEGY ON THIS TRIBE IS SO MESSY I'M SCREAMING #help

"kawau"

- I've started speaking more with Kostas. He seems to be as idol-crazy as me, and I confirmed that he wanted the map image posted in chat due to thinking it could have an idol clue on it. Although Ci'ere is finally budging and seems to be bringing me into his alliance, I still don't have a chat or group invitation yet and I still don't know the alliance name (if there is one), so I'm still not going to trust Ci'ere and Brian. The way I see it, our alliance of 7 is really an alliance of 2 between Ci'ere and Brian, with the other 5 just helping them feel good. (Maybe Charlie is with them too. Idk.) But Kostas now knows about the alliance. He's thinking we should get the first vote-out to be Kyle, not Joshua. And then I think we'll go after Ci'ere.

"kawau"

- I dug all through that lava pit for an idol but no luck. Then everything went haywire. Berk told Alex about our alliance, then Alex went off the rails, threatening Brian and Ci'ere and interrogating me. So we had to act fast to get a 6th person and added Charlie, who I think was just glad to be asked. We are now dividing and conquering with the others. I'm on Kostas duty. I'm not a big fan, but I have him feeling safe with me and practically thinking we're related. The game is moving very fast, especially considering we are not headed for tribal.

"taieri"

- At this point in the game, it's really hard to say who is trustworthy & who is not. I am brand new to wiki. I do however know Whit, but..... I voted her out of another game a few mths back. We were never aligned, but soon as merge came, she came to me. I won 5 ind immunities, 4 for my tribe & an idol. I kept her name out of tc till f4. I always start with a #1, she was not that. However; my #1 was, in fact, still there & we voted her out, taking ourselves to finals, my 1st one, in the yr that I have been playin. She got bitter & seems to have remained that way. Emotikon frown I like Whit, she's a good player. But she is all over & being the only one here that I DO know....I don't think I trust her. Ugh, the ones of us that did the 1st part, seemed to be on it, once we got it down. The other tribe was just on it better & a lil more organized than us. I have had the other 3 that was in part 1 with me pm me. We worked well together, so I hope this votes goes just as well.

"kawau"

- I hate Alex. Hate... So many alliances within alliances. RIP me. Tomorrow, I'm making a list. This game is uber confusing...

"kawau"

- So, Alex basically freaked out because he thought he was on the outside of the alliance. He thinks that because I've been trying to turn him against Ci'erre and Brian. Turns out I REALLY turned him against those guys and he ended up basically threatening them to let him join the alliance and trying to get every one to tell him if they had an idol. What's worse is that he told the other 3 tribe members. Needless to say he's on the outs, and he's getting replaced with Charlie. It's a bummer because Charlie doesn't know me so I don't count on his trust, but Alex (26 years old) tried to intimidate two teenagers so I, along with every one else, want him out. Konstantinos, Kyle and Josh will be told that Alex just went crazy so we're all voting him out, all of them but Konstantinos don't know about the alliance. So, overall I made a big mistake by trusting Alex. I read him completely wrong, and I consider this my first mistake in the game. Nonetheless, I built enough trust that nobody is holding it against me.

"taieri"

- Well I thought being at work would have been a dissadvantage for me when we lost the challenge.. But I got brought into an alliance and everyone wants to send regan home I guess.. Looks like my social skills are paying off so far

"kawau"

- The 5th element and Six Pack, because we are with 5 and 6. You get it? Stupidest names ever... EVER! But yeah, I don't want to get voted out so: OMG, SUCH AWESOME NAMES!!! YASSS! SLAYYY!!! AMD WHATEVER OTHER NONSENSE SHOULD BE COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH!! I'll hopefully get some better alliances with better names down the line. Also, I'm told Alex messed up... Which means I may have used valuable time on trying to build a relationship with some one that could be very much useless. I must make sure the National Assembly of Sociopaths does not hear of this, they may revoke my membership. Let's just hope that he won't and can't drag me down with him.

"kawau"

- Pav is definitely considering final 2 with me. He thinks I'm going to make enemies by playing too hard. I'm just going to play into that and make him think I don't have friends in the tribe.

"taieri"

- So, this tribe is SO divided, there's an obvious 4 who pulled in Dani, but Dani told me? So now i'm trying to get all the girls who weren't in on it and vote the fuck out of one of the 4, if this flops i guess Regan will have to be the sacrificed lamb.

"kawau"

- Somehow I find myself on the outs, When did the god forsaken 6 person alliance got created? pfffff I am gonna rip them apart. I kinda had to make a F2 alliance with most of them

"taieri"

- Survivor New Zealand ORG Wiki - Confessional 1

"kawau"

- I really like Brian, he's probably one of my favorite people in the game so far. He's a really interesting kid. Very smart and perceptive, but he's being lazy with his social game. He hasn't reached out to people, so important players that are outside of our initial 4 (Alex, Casper, Charlie) basically don't know or trust him. Like, I've turned so many people against him (even C'ierre is concerned about him and Konstantinos' relationship, which is funny because I don't think Brian and and him even talk). That being said, Brian is so likable. Sweet kid, I'm tempted to take him all the way with me.

"taieri"

- I'm sketchy with players on my tribe. Some seem really great but others seem really rude. Possibly it's the way I'm taking it. I don't know anyone too much yet to make a really great confessional.

"kawau"

- Ci 'ere is a liar. My attention now is on Casper, Matt Pav, Mat B and Alex. Alex things he is that mastermind. Which makes him 7th wheel but I think he may be targeted quickly. Ci 'ere an. Brian, you are on my radar. Your time in this game will run out the moment we lose immunity.

"kawau"

- I've started off pretty great, I think I'm seen as a friend to most I think and I've held back my crazy side sorta. I've really bonded with Kyle, he's #1 rn, and a few others are cool. I've kinda laid back and let people come to me to see who's playing the game. A lot of them are. Alex is annoying everyone on the tribe because he talks a lot but never really says anything. He's super serious and I'm extremely laid back so I don't see us working together any time soon, unless for some reason I use him as my Phillip Sheppard. Also there's a girl on the other side, a badass I can tell, Alissa I think her name is. I want to end up on her side at one point and talk to her because I've seen her around the community and she seems hella cool. And as for the divide of gender, well the funny thing is that most people on our tribe have bonded because they don't get along with guys. So..any type of swap or merge is going to be absolute chaos, and someone is gonna piss off a lot of people. Calling it now.

"kawau"

- C'iere is pretty smart, he's just too suspicious and crafty. Ironically, I'm the only person he trusts. I've got him believing that Pav brought Casper in because they have a secret alliance (I told Pav to bring him in) and that Brian is shady (Brian's the most honest person on the tribe). He's just a little too impressionable, I like him though. I think he'll end up turning people off by being too strategic too quick and not earning people's trust.

"taieri"

- Apparently everyone is flipping on Whitney now? if this works I'm going to scream because the bitch was going left and right spreading rumours about me so i hope her ass goes home! we shall see.

"taieri"

- Kay seriously this is nuts!! I missed so much being at work. I'm really happy that I somehow won Brittany over because she's giving me a ton of info and I trust her a lot.. I think the two of us will make a great pair in this game!

"kawau"

- So Kostas is worried because Alex told him about the alliance. He came to me and asked about it and I told him Alex had led me to believe Kostas was in an alliance behind our backs (not true). That was enough to put Kostas at ease, he thinks Alex is full of shit like every one else does. Now he's trying to start a small alliance with Josh and I. I'd much rather stick with the Six Pack but this could be helpful in the event of a tribe swap.

"taieri"

- basically, I was absent the first two days and I feelso bad. But like there was an alliance made right after the cast reveal and like- its whitney, brittany, faith and chelsea. Imo it's totally expected for them to align. But anyway, I was the target first because I was not here at all the first two days. But with Alissa's help, I think I was saved. I really hope I can trust her. So basically, she told me that the vote was me and about the alliance and she found the votes to save me and now Whitney's the target. And Im so thankful because Brittany is now in on the plan. I really hope I can trust her. She's the only one I knew prior to the game. So Im just hoping that this all works out

"taieri"

- Survivor New Zealand ORG Wiki - Confessional 2

"taieri"

- Okay, so here goes nothing. I went to Whit, knowing only her, as I am brand damn new to Wiki. So okay, all past games on fb side aside, let's do this thang. So upon going to her & her all like, suuuuurre, we'll work together, *wink, wink*, I haven't heard a word.....BUT what I HAVE heard is Whit's name being thrown up, so.... I have no problem doin wth I need to do.....

"taieri"

- So I haven't been on talking to people as much as I'd like because I feel like I'm dying! fun:) but the person who starts talking to me and spilling all the beans is Alissa, yet I feel like she's doing that to everyone. I really like her and I think she's funny af but she said there's this alliance between Brittany, Faith, Whitney and Chelsea that was created in the beginning which I find that REALLY hard to believe unless these people are lying geniuses because they all seem like they had no relationship with each other. Also all of them were down to do Whitney and if they were in an alliance with her why wouldn't they try and suggest Regan like basically everyone else was???? so lowkey I'm really confused but I'm like almost certain Alissa made that up to get Whitney out but anyways I'm over it because as long as it's not me that's cool. I'm gonna look dumb af if that alliance was actually legit but I strongly believe it's not. But as of right now I do like Alissa I just feel like she's slightly off her rocker a lil too soon. I also rlly like Chelsea but that's just bc I've loved her since bb4 so ya!!! I'm really a flop right now so hopefully I get over my sickness soon and can make a video confessional bc I like doing those better.

"taieri"

- So we lost the first challenge that absolutely sucks I decided it would be best to try and pull an alliance together with some of the girls I well right after I did rumors started going around that there was pre made alliance and I was in it...that definitely sucked because people were hearing I started it from Regan whom was decided as target so it seems to me she is just grasping at straws hoping some how she can take the heat of her.. I'm really hoping that we go in to this tribal and things go as planned!

"taieri"

- OMG IM SO HAPPY!!! I really trust faith and Brittany and I think if we work together we can go really far.. Icons for life!!