A Day Of bullshit/Confessionals

Day 32
"sparrow"

- Hey guys, I've been busy for a bit so I've been unable to confess but now I'm here to talk. This vote is gonna be...idk. I think I'm going home, it's just a gut feeling that I have. I did my best in the challenge but there's no way I'm going to beat the others. Right now its me, Elmo, and Karsten on the bottom vs. Andrea/Yousef/Ethan/Jake. Yousef doesn't trust me as much as he used to, and Andrea/Jake/Ethan rlly havent in a long time. Elmo sounds like he might win immunity and even if he doesnt, I still think it could be me because Andrea told me she thinks I will get some jury votes and hasnt talked to me anywhere near as much as she used to. Idk I'm just really mad at myself for blowing up my spot during the Brad vote, I should've just kept my mouth shut and me and Natalia could've pulled some shit off, but now she's gone and I could very well be next. My best hope is to try and convince Andrea or Jake that if they dont shake things up they are going to lose, and I have hope they will see the logic, but at the end of the day I think it's easily going to be me or maybe Karsten or Elmo if I'm lucky. I'm just praying I can hold on until next round and see what goes on from there. I just dont get why people think i am a jury threat because no one thats gotten voted out actually loves me to public knowledge!! xD ugh its just frustrating, I hope they are just honest with me if they are voting me out, I dont wanna deal with a day of bullshit

"sparrow"

- "The Natalia vote went off great! In the last few minutes before the deadline, I knew I had some votes on me, so I told the alliance chat with Natalia that I was paranoid that I was going to idol myself incase Elmo used an idol on Karsten, to which Natalia promptly told the group that was voting me, and their plan crumbled around them. I ended up still getting 2 votes (rip perfect game), but I did manage to keep my idol for a rainy day, phew. Seeing Natalia leave really hurt, because I know she was a genuine person who cared about a lot of people on a personal level, and I felt really guilty about it, however her staying was something I could not afford because she was trying to make some really big moves, and good on her! She was smart as hell to try and pull off that big blindside, I just don't think she was expecting me and Yousef to be talking, and bonded as much as we did during the last vote. Thank god I was able to forge that friendship with him, and get him on my side, because if I wasn't, I would have been forced to use my idol. I think I'm set up in this game rather well because I think I have a good connection with everyone on the tribe, with the exception of Karsten, but I am actively trying to repair that because I don't want what we have right now to leak out into the real world once this game is over. -CUT TO THE CHALLENGE- So we have been tasked with the hell that is Zuma's Revenge. I spent all day on this challenge and I don't know if I could get a better score if I tried. I got crazy lucky on one run which gave me my score of 253k, which I am hoping could be enough to get me immunity. I know I probably don't need immunity, but after the last vote, everyone knows, or at least heavily suspects that I have an idol, and the longer I can keep that baby in my pocket without using it, the better I think my chances in this game will be. I am hoping that my core 4 of Myself/Andrea/Yousef/Jake can stay together this vote, just because I am fairly scared of Elmo and Su as challenge threats, and if I can make it to the end with this group, I think I can win the immunities along the stretch, and hopefully to the end of the game. Yousef is also a threat, but more in activity and endurance.

Hope I can win this challenge!"

Day 33
"sparrow"

- "whew yall i have a tough decision and this is my one chance to ""turn"" on yousef without actually turning on him if I push on elmo, theres a good chance he goes 5th or 4th if karsten goes and not elmo, yousef makes ftc because at that point theres 3 huge ass threats left in the game but i wont vote off yousef karsten is a number for them im gonna do it altho i dont think ethan will wanna vote him off i have to try"

"sparrow"

- "i am an emotional unstable woman NNNNNN i do what i want no man controls me u think u can get away w voting me i’ll slit ur throat y is sis still typing he typed for like an hour to say i still don’t get 100% y SIS KNEW

yousef dash will be the reason i lose this org him: so i just submitted for elmo. me: Y O U SEF WE TOMD U TO VOTE KARSTEN????? BECAUSE ETHAN DOESNT TRUST U???? so now they gonna know I LEAKED oof my position just skyrocketed it’s gonna be next to impossible for yousef to make the end now he got waaaaayyyyy too messy and i’ve been effective in shit talking him if i can get him to get ethan out ideally without me voting him then f5 i willingly vote minority then jake goes wait it’ll have to be jake next then ethan or karsten next then ethan then yousef oooooooof it’s in sight i can taste it getting out elmo was so fucking good for my game

yousef and i r so not a duo that ethan trusts me to ""vote"" him my name was thrown but i think its a decoy i can’t believe the amount of subtle control i have on this game right now i’m like the hidden godfather UGHHHHHHJ YOUSEF HUST FUCKED UP MY WHOLE GAME HE HAS THE MERGE IDOL AND JUST NOW TOLS ME"