Girl...The Mess/Confessionals

Day 6
"sotara"

- hate this challenge

"sotara"

- Hey confessional

"galeras"

- Oops 🙊 sorry I’m just so used to being in overseas mode 🌍 haha gracias though 😩 dammit I did it again 😒 sorry I can’t control it 🙌 I may still be jetlagged hey haha ✈️ take me back, am I right? ✔️ yuck is that a Domino’s pizza? 🤢 why don’t you try and be more gourmet 🍕 the pizza in Italy is Bella 🤯 haha that means beautiful btw 😬 you probably wouldn’t know that 😵 what’s that on my head? 🧢 yeah it’s a berrèt 🇫🇷 it’s something the French people do 🥰 let’s get this bread? No thanks, I prefer to get that baguette 🥖 you’re such an uncultured swine 🐖 you should come with me next time though! 🧭 oh you can’t afford it? Haha I don’t even understand 💰 I can ask Dad if he wants to buy you a holiday too? 🤩

You know Paris, France? In English, it's pronounced ""Paris"" but everyone else pronounces it without the ""s"" sound, like the French do. But with Venezia, everyone pronouces it the English way: ""Venice"". Like 'The Merchant of Venice' or 'Death in Venice'. WHY, THOUGH!? WHY ISN'T THE TITLE DEATH IN VENEZIA!? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!? IT TAKES PLACE IN ITALY, SO USE THE ITALIAN WORD, DAMMIT! THAT SHIT PISSES ME OFF! BUNCH OF DUMBASSES!

"sotara"

- Well, you almost had me fooled Told me that I was nothing without you Oh, but after everything you've done I can thank you for how strong I have become 'Cause you brought the flames and you put me through hell I had to learn how to fight for myself And we both know all the truth I could tell I'll just say this is ""I wish you farewell"" I hope you're somewhere prayin', prayin' I hope your soul is changin', changin' I hope you find your peace Falling on your knees, prayin' I'm proud of who I am No more monsters, I can breathe again And you said that I was done Well, you were wrong and now the best is yet to come 'Cause I can make it on my own, oh And I don't need you, I found a strength I've never known I'll bring thunder, I'll bring rain, oh When I'm finished, they won't even know your name You brought the flames and you put me through hell I had to learn how to fight for myself And we both know all the truth I could tell I'll just say this is ""I wish you farewell"" I hope you're somewhere prayin', prayin' I hope your soul is changin', changin' I hope you find your peace Falling on your knees, prayin' Ah sometimes, I pray for you at night, oh Someday, maybe you'll see the light Whoa oh oh oh, some say, in life, you're gonna get what you give But some things only God can forgive Yeah! (I hope you're somewhere prayin', prayin') I hope your soul is changin', changin' I hope you find your peace Falling on your knees, prayin'

"galeras"

- you know honestly idk if i'm the body or if the body belongs to me. i could go either way on this. honestly i think the body just belongs to me because i'm not really the body... i'm the inner voice. the conscience. the thonky thing inside of my cranium but not actually the body, ya know? and im confused. because i really want to know where i'm the body or if the body belongs to me. on second thought, i can even say that the body owns me. i don't actually own the body. but i don't want the body to own me. i just want to know the body's relationship to the thing that thought all of this. obv, the fingers i used to type this belong to the body. but what am i? and what is the body?

"sotara"

- kpop moments that make me go feral: jungkook main dancer in mic drop dance break #1, hoseok main danceri n mic drop dance break #2, jisung's bridge in i am you, the entirety of nct 2018's black on black choreography video, yoongi's verse in boy with luv, he beat drop in love cherry motion, the dance break in favOriTe, the time miles and i woke up super early to watch the loona debut music video which was called hi high which i think all hosts should stream. i also think hosts should listen to home by bts because it's a bop. okay this is over 100 words bye

"sotara"

- Penis in my butt. OH BOY I LOVE PENIS. EVEN THOUGH IM A STRAIGHT MALE, I LOVE COCK. I ACTUALLY DON'T BUT THIS IS A CHALLENGE SO WHATEVER, YOU KNOW. PENIS IS SO GOOD SOMETIMES, YA KNOW? BUT SOMETIMES IM LIKE WOW PENIS SUCKS. SPEAKING OF PENIS I HAVE ONE, AND I THINK IM AWESOME. PARKS AND REC SEX FANFIC IS THE SHIT. YEAH! LESLIE KNOPES HOT AFFF YOU FEEL ME?

"galeras"

- Fuck Chris Blue honestly this challenge is a joke like 24 hours madness is fucking cruel and it's annoying asf like wtf you're gonna torment us for 24 hours for what?? Just to send more people to tribal council? It's a fucking rip off it is what it is. Like no more tribals. SOMEONE THROW THE CHALLENVE ON THE OTHER TRIBE PLS it's a fat no from me and honestly like I just wanna Survivor well is it that hard and going to tribal constantly is just draining ugh like my mental health needs a break pls can we win it's all I ask omg I'm gonna go cry omg aaah is this 100 words yet omg I'm worried it isn't but honestly I live the entire hosting team like it's so good even tho ally is like a crackhead and Jake is just constantly mean ugh I'm gonna go cry again I'm just emotional ok

"galeras"

- ONE TIME WHEN I WAS LIKE PLAYING BBUK12 AND HAVING LIKE THE BEST GAME EVER I WAS LIKE PARTYING AND HAVING A GOOD TIME AND THE VICIOUS ALLY ALLEN ATTACKED ME AND JUMPED ME AND TOTALLY CALLED ME OUT WHEN I DID ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG AND I HAVE NEVER GOTTEN OVER IT!!!!! I LITERALLY HAVE NIGHTMARES WHERE SHE CALLS ME GAY BOI AND WHERE SHE VOTES FOR CAMMY TO WIN THIS IS THE WORST HELL

"sotara"

- I can not read well at all. I want to win the comp and keep putting in things that aren't worth getting points.

"sotara"

- I'm like, kinda shocked rn. I was not expecting Caleb to go home so soon. Its honestly kinda of like a smack in the face to me. That I need to pick it up. Idk if I would say that I'm playing too hard or anything. But that I need to not take my days in this game for granted. Its early, but I'm gonna take this as a positive and move forward. In this game, I'm gonna go over my messages and look at some things. I've pretty much said that I wanna work with Andreas and Kat going forward. I threw the idea out to Kat that we both lost our second person so we should form like a new duo. I hope that will work. I'm just trying to find some people who wanna work with me as of now. I'm gonna try to just let this idea that I don't have a chance at that advantage of immunity, to my advantage. No risk with me, I'm just a loner out here. While I work to try and cut there throats. Trust no one but myself and my instincts.

"sotara"

- This challenge is fully the most annoying thing i have ever done. I wouldn't mind if my tribe actually did stuff.. but this whole thing seems to have come down to me and loris at times....Alex took an easy out the first chance he got and quite frankly it was annoying. Jones still isnt here which is interesting.

OH ALSO hosts Yu finally responded to my PMs. Our interaction went as follows: me on monday: hey, nice to meet you ! him today: omg you embarassed me in the challenge me: oh im sorry him: leaves me on read... mess

"galeras"

- Caño Cristales Day 6 confs

"galeras"

- SOOOO.... Caleb went, and while that's super shitty because he was nice... it works out well for me! He wasn't someone I'd consider ""close to me"" so him going means that I have all the people still above him safe and here in the situation we go to another tribal.

The challenge is 24 hour madness, and it fucking scares me to shit because I hate long competitions like this, especially because my tribe isn't inactive, but we sure aren't as active as some of the others on the other tribe. I also feel like us being on a losing streak seems very fitting to the aesthetic of our tribe, so I wouldn't be surprised to see us lose this challenge.

I'm really over losing, and I hope we can pull out a win, but I'll prepare my ass in the case that we do go to tribal and make sure I'm SAFE.

"galeras"

- So we're behind in this challenge by a little bit, and I'm very sad about that. I feel like I've tried so hard to do well before I had to head to work, and now we're still behind... ugh! I hope this tribe can pull itself together before the end of the challenge, because I don't want to visit tribal again. I know it'll be messy, and I don't want to deal with it! Not in the slightest...

Day 7
"galeras"

- I am Heartbroken. Absolutely gutted. I can handle a blowout loss. I can handle a loss when there's an inactive or someone who deserves to leave is on the tribe. But, this is just horrible. To be destroyed, to then come back to within 50 points, to get blown out again, to almost come back at the very end and then collapse in the last twenty minutes...it's literally the most frustrating thing.

What makes it worse is how cocky Sotara is. Rob saying, ""i don't know why these hoes are still trying"" really got on my damn nerves, because what else are we supposed to do? And I know Alex & Loris are about to say something in one world about how we lost...AGAIN. I know they do it in jest but god it makes me wanna gun so hard for them during a swap or merge DSKLDSKDS

I'm not one to get too attached to my tribes in orgs. I normally have no issue voting anyone out, but the seven people on my tribe I genuinely adore. Layla, Yu, Andre-as not good for my game as they seem, I genuinely like and respect them as people. I just...wanted to win this one. Or any one. I don't want anyone to leave.

The Sotara tribe openly say they have 2-3 inactives that they could easily vote out, namely Jones and Jerry. It's so irritating that we keep losing when they have such easy, open targets that they literally have no issue saying to ANYONE. And here we are, having to vote someone out who actually deserves to be here.

Strategy Confessional will go up later, but...I'm just so frustrated at this loss. I want us to win.

"galeras"

- so HI we lost again!!!! galeras is legit a FLOP tribe. we rlly tried hard this last time but sotara is just that girl in school thats class president, prom queen, captain of the cheer team, and valedictorian if u get my drift. basically they're schooling us cuz they're just awesome and we're only pretty awesome. it sucks tho cuz my tribe is mostly chill and im sad

going into this, the two ppl i was considering were like layla cuz of her weirdness last tribal, and yu cuz he hasnt been super active and didnt do much at all on 24 hour madness. now im like. bye yu. CTYGVHBJN

this bitch tried to set elizabeth and layla against each other but made it messy obvious? jayme and layla saw right thru it immediately. and he hasnt even messaged me,a nd apparently told layla not to tell me about the elizabeth vote. even tho ive never said i like elizabeth? like i do but we're not besties, i would vote her out if i had to. like. wtf.

we're a rhyming duo! and this dude is like LETS LEAVE SU OUT. so. u dont try in the challenge. u dont include me in ur plans. u tried to hug me all the way from singapore. boy bye.

ill update yall later but rn. there's only room for one -u named person on this tribe. and i sure as HELL aint ready to leave.

"sotara"

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"sotara"

- AHHHH we won again.... honestly. that was a rlly good team effort from basically everyone except Jake. Why am I surprised. I lowkey feel like I’m putting a target on my back by snapping so hard in the challenges but at the same time so is Andreas... and Rob has been doing pretty good too... I didn’t get voted for any of the orchestrating votes or guaranteed merge stuff in the touchy subjects tho so I think I can hide. Also. People’s compliments about me in the task challenge? 🥺🥺 maybe I talk WAY too much (it’s not a maybe I do) but... I think some of the ppl on the tribe love me :(

"sotara"

- well we won again, was kinda hoping we wouldn't cause honestly there are ppl on this tribe that just aren't around kssksk for whatever reason and im sure they have good reasons but i also cba just having them here but be inactive like not in a horrible way but i just like wanna get rid of them so we can move onto playing with people that are being active, sad that the other tribe has to vote out potentially active ppl while we're here hoarding ppl we don't even want to see make merge so. just challenge beast things i guess. also ppl are gtting closer to the idol which i hate so that's nice. idk if im just being paranoid or ppl already know i have it so we're having a great time trying not to blow up my own game. but yeah loris mentioned throwing and we have to have Jones play next challenge so we're most likely gonna lose, and that's if we don't swap which i feel if it's gonna happen will happen around now which is exciting.

"galeras"

- Girl...the mess.

Last tribal I was talking about how i adored my tribe and dw vote anyone out, but i woke up the morning and realized i don't trust these bitches!!!!!!!! Fuck them all!! Love them all as ppl for sure but gOD as players i wanna vote Andre / Yu / Brian out. Like, after i was so dead-set on Layla after last tribal, Yu REALLY somehow made me go from adoring him to not trusting him within an hour LMFAOO. So, let's recap

During the challenge, Yu told Andre he was bored and wanted to put Elizabeth and Layla against each other. I'm assuming Andre told Layla that, because she immediately went to Elizabeth who immediately went to Matt and I. I feel bad bc at first I thought that it was Layla just being a Layla mess, but NOPE!! Andre confirmed it to me and now I am ANNOYED as hell. So, yeah, initially you'd think it's between Yu and Layla bc messy but NOPE!! Here comes Yu and Brian trying to target Elizabeth?!?!! And what's worse?? Andre, admitting that Yu/Layla r both messy, has lowkey said to me and Matt that no one will want those two to leave that strongly and was implying to TAKE OUT ELIZABETH BC SHE DONT TALK TO BRIAN DSLKSDLSD. And tbhf I don't fuck w it. I don't play with fear and I don't play for someone else. Andre implying that he was scared of upsetting Brian w this vote -- WHO DOESNT HAVE A VOTE -- is MESSY and IRRITATING! I'm now officially worried of a Brian / Yu / Andre alliance (which Matt could easily be apart of) and whew that idol looking rly scary all of a sudden huh.

GOD! Just let Yu LEAVE! I will vote in the minority if I have to, I refuse to write down Layla or Elizabeth and they all can lowkey fight me. I don't fuck w messy players (Yu), I don't fuck w people who hold too much power (Brian) and I don't fuck w people who let them have that much power (Andre). Idc if this is OTTN but gOD this is annoying.

Brian is easily the most connected member of this Galeras tribe with respect to the other tribe. He and Yu will flip. But I can't get the numbers now bc everyone will run right back to him DSKLSDLK. I adore Brian as a person but Andre reaaally just sketched me out by this.

On the bright side, I think I've got Andre leaning towards Yu -- because even if Andre/Yu trust each other, Andre recognizes that Yu is playing chaotically and will probably flip on us during a swap/merge. So, that's good. Like again, Layla is messy, but she's messy in a way that she won't have anyone to flip to bc she won't be able to make allies that easily w her track record. Yu is sly enough to do it. Plus he sucks at challenges. He's gotta go.

I think at the very least, Me, Layla, Elizabeth, and Su can form a majority to vote out Yu and save Elizabeth. I can see this being another unanimous vote but I don't know if I trust Brian / Yu / Andre enough to make it happen. Matt is up in the air bc he lowkey seems like the type that would give in to Brian's wish only bc he doesn't wanna upset him slfkgsslgslgsk. Ugh. Me trying to save Elizabeth could make me a target but irdc!! I'm loyal to who I'm loyal to and I REFUSE to write her name down.

Literally they can all fight me!!! I don't given a fuck!!

"galeras"

- Caño Cristales tribal 3 conf

"sotara"

- omg my first alliance! <3 me brian and loris is such an iconic trio, ofc i need to be careful abt being so close to a pair, im sure they'd pick each other over me but for now it works for me, I told them about the idol as well, well Brian told me he was gonna guess B13, which is where I found the idol, so I told him I had it SKSKKS. Now, our trio holds both idols and I have an advantage that i'm not telling them abt cause it's anonymous so I don't really have to tell anyone but I told Andre because i want him to love me. omg icr if i made a conf abt how i found the advantage but it's the reveal thing so i can force everyone to vote publicly which is nice so um very excited about that, im setting myself up nicely for whatever happens next! which we're hoping is a swap or early merge or RI reveal so I'm very well prepared ugh time for me to find more advantages!

"sotara"

- i have never felt so out of place on a tribe so far. i am coming to the conclusion that i don't really get along that well with anyone on it, and the people i have a chance with are either not that active or basically non-existent à la jones (WHY, JONES, WHY? PLEASE JUST LET US KNOW YOU ARE ALIVE).

literally every conversation on my tribe feels like it's going stale and that's probably more of a me problem than it is theirs and it's kinda draining??? like it's really, REALLY hard to find the motivation to talk when you know what the result's gonna be anyway. it's either because i don't share anything in common with anyone or because i'm not trying hard enough?? either way i'm genuinely at a very low point and i desperately need something to happen that works in my favour otherwise i'm gonna get voted out pretty soon once jones gets voted out, if we ever go to tribal :))))

at this stage, if we all merged right now, i would wholeheartedly flip to the other side if we're talking about tribal lines. but it's also blood v water, so it's absolutely not that easy.

"galeras"

- WELP! I accidentally changed my profile picture a little too early, and now I will not be able to vote at this tribal council. To be honest, with the direction this round is going... that's probably for the best? Everyone is picking between Layla, Elizabeth, and Yu... and I like all of them, but I have different reasons for wanting them to stay/go.

In Layla's case, I'm very 50/50. I like her a lot, and I know she's working alongside me and talking to me a lot, so I want to wholly trust her! However, something that worries me about her is her willingness to be so openly robotic with every single person. She has sent many people the same sort of message, and it scares me that I'm just not comparing notes with the right people to get tea on her. Another pro to her going would be that her partner, Jake, is kinda... not my top person on the other tribe? However if Layla goes, she put in a good word for me and he'd maybe stick loyal.

In Elizabeth's case, I'm more... 75/25, in favor of her going home! I like Elizabeth, but it's a very surface level relationship. I don't get much out of her. Also, if I can't vote her off because of my self-vote thing, I don't lose Andreas as a possible future ally, and I think that's so good for me. He's someone I think I could bond with more after her elimination, and so I'm kinda PRAYING that she goes, but I doubt it. I'll have to keep trying if I want this to work out this way.

Finally, in Yu's case... I don't want him going at all, but the tribe seems to think he's going to be the reason we get Pagong'd. I know he's a messy twink, and I see it with my own eyes, but I know I can trust him... and I don't want him going at all right now because that lessens the people I can work with. I'm going to be super open about this with James and Matt, but I also can't push too hard because I don't want them to get sus of me trusting him more than them.

So even though I think this vote isn't going to go well for me, I do think that me not being able to vote for either Elizabeth or Yu, who seem to be the top 2 names, is for the best? Because then I don't lose Andreas or Rob as potential allies and they think I'll be good and loyal to them.

This vote situation is ugly, because I could become ""the easy vote,"" but I think that... I'll be fine at the end and survive. And if I go home, then I'll be so sad I waited 3 years for this shit for this to happen...

ALSO, I got Alex to fess about the other tribe's idol, so now I know who's in possession of the 2 idols, and I love that for me... my big brain SNAPPED! I literally was like, ""I'm going to guess B13,"" and he just admitted it to me because he thought I knew all the tea. Ugh... And now I have a trio alliance with him and Loris, so even nicer for me...

"galeras"

- Okay, a lot of my trust in Layla has been restored today. Earlier on while the challenge was still happening, she messaged me and let me know that apparently Yu was planning on getting Layla and I to turn against each other during the vote if we lost the challenge. Later on after the challenge, I had another trusted source tell me the same information. If Layla was actually being sneaky and wanted me out, why wouldn't she just not tell me and help push Yu's plan??? I'm still feeling a little off because of her not telling me that she heard my name thrown out until the very last minute of the last vote but I think she's chill for now tbh.

"galeras"

- hi so im just like, chilled with tribal rn cuz Yu is SO dumb. He's boo boo the fool and he can go. he goes around causing ALL this drama and doesn't even message me ONCE. like BOY BYE. there's one thing i cannot stand and that's when someone considers me so irrelevant that they don't even try to socialize or strategize with me! like! thanks! bitch ur going home and im making SURE of it sweetie...

there's been some weird occurrences in our pms so like, yeah, im fine with him not talking to me im just ANNOYED he assumes im besties with liz? cuz we both work at a place that teaches about conservation??? XDFCGVHB like huh, liz is like not even in my top 5 of closest ppl in the game. its just like, he assumed i was liz's number 1 for some odd af reason and decided to not even speak to me while scaring the shit out of everyone

if ur not gonna talk to me and then also burn every other bridge you have on a tribe...u deserve ur fate and i will make SURE that you leave.

ok bitchy privileged su is done. just had to vent. besides yu yu'ing, things have been pretty swell. im bonding well with everyone else, especially jayme brian matt andre. Layla and I are starting to get to know e/o and she's rlly cool and nice, i think i just got the wrong first impression of her tbh. Liz is still cool we just don't talk a lot. so that's the tea ab all that

anyway, yeah. idr what i confessed ab last time so sorry if this is repetitive LMFAOOO but i felt like RANTING. and trying to break my UTRN1 image. BYEE

"sotara"

- My tribe won immunity which was really nice. It got really close towards the end BUT we managed to pull out the win. Sending Elizabeth for 3 tribal councils in a row is not what I wanted, but its how things have fallen. I don't think our tribe is necessarily that much stronger or better then the Galeras tribe, I just think we have a good mix of people who are strong in various areas which just gives us the edge overall. It's nice to be on a winning tribe after Kamchatka haha

"sotara"

- So Kat came to me and said she thinks Alex has the idol. Essentially she explained that Alex had given her two different lists of places he has searched for the idol already, and has stopped recently sharing locations which is really odd on his behalf. So I decided I would ask Alex if he wanted to share where he has looked for the idol with me so we can determine if he's lying. The list he gave to me was a mix of the 2 he had sent Kat which is interesting. I'm not sure if it was an accident or not on his part sending Kat two different lists. Further to that, the list he had only had like 2 locations in the area where the idol may be now. I am thinking that he wants to seem like he is being helpful, but the reality is that he doesn't want to be. Which is fine, because it's not the most difficult read in this game.

"sotara"

- Elizabeth came to me and mentioned that Matt suggested an alliance of Matt, Callum, Jayme, Torsa, Liz, and I. I said I was fine with this because I am ! I think those are people for the most part I can trust in this game. Me not having to make the alliance chat or go running around is good for my game. Now the real question is, will this alliance be beneficial to my game. I would hope so. I think you have 4 of the better strategical players in the game in it, so I hope it works out for me.

"sotara"

- In the challenge we had a little mini touchy subjects. I received the superlatives of most likely to run a pre-merge anarchy vote & Who is making merge 100%. Those are a very interesting pairing, as the first shows people are viewing me as a strategic threat. The second shows people think I am a social threat. I think I am going to have to lay a bit lower moving forward then I was planning - but the reality is how much longer can I lay after winning 2 challenges, with an obvious vote on our tribe ?

"sotara"

- Jayme, Matt, and Elizabeth have all come to me saying that Yu has found the crack on the island and has gone crazy? Apparently he wants Elizabeth out ? Why do people want to target her ? She's so pure... Regardless, Jayme assured me that as long as he is in the game that Liz will be fine on that tribe so that is good to hear. Apparently Brian was also being shady as he was also part of the plan. That is weird honestly. But I see how it is!

"galeras"

- i like am so paranoid about an idol AAHHHH. im so scared that Yu is gonna pull and idol to save himself, either from brian or from rob. i fucking swear to god if that happens im gonna scream. i have put TOO MUCH into this game already, sacrificed my dignity and any sanity just to keep our tribe in contention in the 24hr madness. god i just wanna wake up tomorrow and find myself still in the game. yu has like done this too himself tho, he has no one to blame as he went full on crackhead, tried to do stuff that had no real reasoning behind and sketched everyone out and screwed himself over. he was NEVER meant to be the vote, layla was for her really obvi gameplay but like eh congrats yu on fucking yourself over!

in other news, i've put in motion a six consisting of liz/andrea, callum/myself and jayme/torsa. mainly stems from liz, jayme and i being a trio on our tribe and like may as well get at least something going whilst the other tribe just sits around doing nothing. let them feel a little involved ya know? hehe im gonna fucking kms if anything weird happens tonight and i wake to be out of the game omg

"sotara"

- I also realized I haven't done an analysis of my tribe so here you go:

Alex - I think one of the more dangerous people on the tribe. I find him difficult to speak with at time but is very funny. Bit of an age gap which doesn't help the communication. He has won before so I am not underestimating him by any means. If we could work together that would be good .... I think

Jerry - Jerry is nice. I would say he is close to one of my top allies on this tribe. I say this loosely because we haven't gone to tribal yet. I am trying to get close to him since his partner got voted out. I think we could work together well up to a point. From a previous game I have done with him he is very loyal so that's good!

Jones - Wish I had something to say, but when you don't come around I don't know you.

Loris - He falls into a similar category as Alex in that at times it is difficult speaking to him. I think he's not afraid to call people out and potentially might even thrive in conflict. I would prefer to see him going sooner then later because I sense a division in this game potentially occurring of him/rob/alex/brian vs me/matt/jayme/torsa/liz/callum LOL

Rob - I like Rob, he is easier to speak with then Loris & Alex which is good. His partner Yu wants Liz out so I am not certain how that will translate into our relationship. We will see !

Kat - I want to say she is my #1 on this tribe so bad right now but I have a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach she is secretly a snake. Maybe I am wrong, but I'm going to continue to work with her until she gives me reason to stop. I like her though, easy to chat with and good in comps !

Callum - he is nice but quiet. I think he had some personal stuff happen which I get. I want to work with him for sure.

Jake - jake ends in ake and you know what else does? SNAKE. He seems ready to throw shade left and right. I think he is eager to play and that will end up being his demise.

Torsa - I really want to work with her but shes MIA at times which is troublesome. She is Jayme's partner so I do see us working together in this game for sure at some point. Just depends how long it will last !

"sotara"

- Hey so Alex has an idol or an advantage but idk what. Andreas and I compared notes today and it seems like Alex is being a SHADY BINCH!!!! So to put this into perspective, Alex messaged me on day 3 (?) asking for where I was looking for the idol. Alex and I got along very well before that (see my previous confessionals) and so I decided to send my list of places to him. He sent me his list of places he searched as well. WELL the next day I say something cute like 'hey nothing at f5 :)' and alex sends me a list of places he has searched. None of them match up to the ones on the previous day?! So I get a bit sus, and I keep sending him my searches, f6, f7, f8... but nothing back from him. Also, by this time we have a few clues and his picks aren't matching up, like he's saying he searched f4 but chris just said dont look between 1-4. I'm not stupid so I stop telling him my picks. I think he was honestly just using me!!!! Today I told Andreas everything and he thought it was shady so he did some investigating. he mesaged Alex and asked to compare spots that they looked. Andreas comes back with a list and none of them make sense. 8/10 are between 1-4 and none of them really match my list. Why would you be searching between 1-4??? He's found the idol / an advantage and that's the tea SIS.