Board Thread:Season 45 - Molise/@comment-31200621-20180221215550

Hello friends, long time no speak. Before I get into critiques and such, I just want to tell all 3 of you how proud I am of you. You are three people who in my eyes I became very close to, and while I am upset I am not in this final 3, I couldn't ask for a better one that I am not in.

Harrison, I find my issues with your game are very similar to Elias', this idea that we were very tight pre-merge and as the game progressed we just grew further apart. I'm not going to address that here because I can just read your answers to Elias speech. However there is one thing I would like to point out that truly irks me with your game. YOU GOT MY FUCKING NAME WRONG IN RITES OF PASSAGES! YOU CALLED ME JERRY? LIKE COME ON BUD. I can look past any game decisions or stuff that I disagree with and still find merit in voting you a winner, however getting my name wrong? That is something a narcissist such as myself has trouble looking past. My question for you is show me that name thing was a fluke and our relationship existed. I want you to tell me in your answer everything you learned about me this game, from the good to the bad. Just give me an indication that you really knew me, because I was honestly a little bit offended when that happened.

Marty, I am very conflicted. On one hand seeing you in the final 3 makes me so happy, you were the first person in the game that I really became close with and I had such a good time talking with you, shit talking our fellow castaways and honestly just working great as a strategic pair. However, when I found out in your opening speech you were ready to vote me at final 5, I was taken a back. I want to make this clear, I am not upset that you wanted to vote me at final 5, the game move made sense. What does upset me was you were ready to turn on an all game relationship with me without so much as a warning, I mean Declan at least had the courtesy to let me know. I'm gonna be honest, it stings a little. Besides that however, I feel I am one of if not the person who saw your game in the best limelight. I feel working so closely to you I was able to see more of your strategic insight than others. My question for you is to prove to the jury your game was more than what meets the eye. Let us know everything you did and how it benefited you, not your alliances but you. Do this and I think you would be a winner that I am happy to vote for.

Finally Declan, I have the most to say about you and while a lot of it is positive, a lot of it is not as well. I told you many times that when the jury saw your full game unfold you wouldn't look like a goat but rather the strong contender that you were, and well I guess I was right. I don't want to discuss your game here, because honestly its quite good and I have really little to say about it that isn't apparent at this point. What I want to talk about is our relationship and how little it seemed to mean to you. I don't care that you voted me out, and I don't care that you used two idols to guarantee I would go home. Honestly, while I was upset that I went home, it was a great game move. What upsets me is that upon reading your opening speech it seemed our entire relationship was a lie. You tell me that after Nat left I was your closest person in the game. I call bullshit on this. Every convo we had, every strategic talk we had, they all seemed like a lie. We plan a huge Nat blindside only for me to hear I was just the backup plan and you tried to warn Nat. We spend days searching for idols and trying to figure out where they are, and you've had two of them the whole time. My question to you, is was any of our relationship real? You can't have it both ways Declan, you can't tell me how I was your closest ally and have every game conversation we have be a lie. Was I real ally to you or was I just a pawn to get you to the end? I don't care if I was a pawn, but if so you have to own it. You can't have it both ways. I am going to be honest, I find it hard to vote you as a winner after learning so much about how fake our relationship was, but maybe you can convince me.

To all three of you, is this the final 3 you imagined? When you started looking towards the end game, is this how you wanted it to be? How was it similar to your plans and how did it vary. I want to know how you saw yourself getting to the end and how it worked out in your favour.

I'm sorry if this speech seemed rude or bitter, this is just how I feel. My vote currently is open, so please answer these to the best of your abilities and earn it. 