Throw Him To The Wolves/Confessionals

Day 9
""palmira"

- So we go on to the immunity without Kaeden and we lose again which sucks, but I wake up to seeing a plan in motion is already made to send Austin out. Which I am totally 100% down for cause hes making too many alliances that I'm not apart of so hes gone on my list but he keeps constantly messaging me about the vote and i really dont know what to say and its annoying cause i'll be in school and briefly glance at the message and not respond, then go back on 2 hours later to see hes typing up a storm at me for not responding i mean i kinda feel bad cause he did wanna be here but i dont at the same time cause he dug himself in that hole but going forward, for now i wanna try and make solid alliances with people and maybe try connecting more cause i've been so busy with the game im currently hosting and school and my musical im in that i haven't put time into actually making solid alliances so far i've just been a vote for people and i dont wanna put myself in a position where they see me as useless and want me to leave and now ppl just mutinied which i mean if i had known that was gonna happen, i would have said yes to tyler cause i like boo and grace a lot more then the majoirty of these people but anyways... i dont understand why bryce said no if anything he just put himself in a more risky position since hes on vacation and cant participate but i got 99 problems and bryce ain't one but anyways, i think it might be good that they mutinied since now big hero 6 (or big hero 5 now that bryce is gone) is all still together " "lucena"

- Fuck this. Fuck this fuck this fuck this shit. I was asked when I was TOLD BY PEOPLE I was getting votes, so of course I was scared. I feel like this twist happened at the worst moment, and had it been asked an hour later I would have said the opposite. Something I say to someone like that should NOT be held against me in something of THIS regard, it just screws me over when I wasn't asked what I feel like was a official question as it was done in PMS and not the confessional thread. Next, I shouldn't be held by the hosts on something that I say to THEM and have it backfire like this in the game where NOW, I am going to be viewed different by my alliance because it basically tells them I didn't trust them enough when that was NOT the case at all - just a moment of paranoia. I shouldn't be held accountable for something said to a host about my position in this game. Then the timing was TERRIBLE for such a question. The pandamonium that was going on and in the middle of that "do you feel safe?" Uhm, no. I was just told I was getting a VOTE. Had the question been asked AFTER tribal council like it should have been, I would still be on the other tribe instead of being asked in the middle of tribal fucking council where as on the other tribe they were safe and didn't have to worry. I like all of the hosts a lot, but this twist was fucking stupid on how it panned out for me and how I believe this was planned out. It should have been in the confessional thread, and announced pubicly and not have someone be held against their words to the hosts.

"lucena"

- thank god austin left. I was really worried I was going to have to deal with him later on. I also really like my tribe. We're a nice, strong tribe, and the group of five is still together. But I'm really shocked to see Bryce over here. He was with our core group, but if he didn't feel safe over there, he might not be as close with our group as I thought, which is not good. It makes me feel a little mote insecure, and now I need to find that idol, just in case.

"palmira"

- Wow Austin is finally gone I can't believe it. Now there's only 1 Azerbaijan person left that needs their karma and that's Felix. It just so happens that he mutinied over to my tribe too. It sucks that Bryce got sent over to the other tribe on accident basically but on the bright side now we can get rid of Felix. It also works out because Bryce showed that he lacks trust in his alliance so it shows that the YouTube clique isn't exactly as solid as it may seem. This mutiny worked out perfectly.

"lucena"

- So the other tribe sends home Austin. That officially ends "The Blanks". Oh well. Honestly those two guys had huge targets on their backs so being associated with them probably would have hurt me in the long run. Now there is a MUTINY? While I'm glad that the Kids Next Door stayed together, the fact the five of us all said we were comfortable could put a huge target on our back if people put two and two together. Hopefully people are blind. Then again, not that many people in this cast seem super observant yet from what I can tell. So we get Taylor, Sam, and Bryce. I am super close with Bryce from other ORGs, So I'm incorporating him into the majority, or at least putting the target off his back. Sam and Taylor are dangerous, I can tell. I want those two gone ASAP. I'm starting this whole "Sam and Taylor are trying to start something, they can't be trusted" thing in the tribe, and I think it's working. If we lose immunity, one of them is gone for sure.

"lucena"

- "MUTINY"

""lucena"

- There was a fight earlier today between Zach and the other tribe, and It was all me. I suggested that Zach should post the quote that started the fight, and now pretty much everyone on Palmira hates him. I think if I promise to protect him, he will stay loyal to us, but if I catch a hint of ""He doesn't want to be with us"" I will throw him to the wolves so fast. Did I mention I planted a fake idol? Well, I did. I plan on leading someone too it at some point. Grace is pretty much the only person who knows about it so far. " "lucena"

- So I need to chill, because I got zero votes at that tribal! It was a bit surprising but like, rip Austin! Like I was going a bit mental in my mind, but you went a bit mental EVERYWHERE so yikes, but it must feel pretty shite to be voted out over someone who didn't submit when you had the highest score. But you were getting help from the VL so god knows what else Hannah told you, it's a lot better that you're ass is mowed grass. In other news, it's a mutiny!!!! Like if it wasn't a secret mutiny I would of swapped in 0.7 seconds anyway, my place wasn't too secure on Palmira so instead of trying to fix what's broken, I'll get a new one! Lucena isn't too bad, I mean you have th Trent Dani & Grace "pregame", like I'm not gonna call anyone out on it because it could just be a rumour like the one I had, so I can't judge too soon. I'm not sure how a Lucena tribal works out so that ought to be fun if I ever go, but I have Mr. I'm Going On A Week Long Cruise to shield me from my first potentially, so all is fine! Also it's Grace's birthday so Yas! (lowkey has a bad history of voting people out on the Birthday because I am the moral equivalent to lucifers left testical)

"palmira"

- wow, I was actually in a good position in my tribe, I was just naturally paranoid. I didnt want to swap. I woke up to a hi message from Nick and from well... The Sheephereder?

"palmira"

- it was 12:30am. i just got home from being tired and drunk. i feel the need to submit a quick confessional about our win when a wild tyler ridgeway appeared being nosey af. and then the next day at work, all hell breaks loose. yo i didn't sign up for mutiny. boo and trent knew i didn't feel safe so assured me they got me lol which is relieving in someway. on the other hand though, i am reuntied with my best friend evan who also assured me he got my back. told him everything that happened back at lucena. i'm still keeping my guard because sometimes bestfriends end up as traitors lolrip. well at least for now i guess everything is going well.

""palmira"

- Yeah so I think my talk with Michelle went pretty well. She opened up and gave me some info from Lucena. Some info was obvious, others not so much, but info is info and this info she gave me doesn't seem fabricated in any way so I'll be sure to reciprocate things and help her out. So of course she mentions the Azerbaijan premade and how Felix abandoned it, and I don't blame him because him getting votes to save Hannah would've been impossible. Then apparently there was an all girls alliance, and that easily flamed out LOL. Then Michelle dropped a little bomb of Grace/Danielle/Trent being a group (premade?? probably not but i know they're tight) so I kinda just let Michelle know that if we have to deal with those 3 later we will and she told me how they feel safe and all that. So I'm thinking of doing some 2 for 1 here by doing a couple of things. First, I'll rekindle my connection with Scott, I'm not necessarily saying it's been lost, but I've been talking to him more so in groups than individually and I'll just catch up on things with him. Then when talking to Scott I'll run the idea of bringing Michelle into a 3 with us, and I say this because Scott let it be known he talked to Michelle a bit during that first vote and I think they're both tumblr so they may know each other..? Who knows but yeah, cause I want Scott to know that I'm down with getting more options from him aside from the core majority (we tried with Sam and that FAILED) and I can get Michelle in good with me by bringing her into some group that has some form of safety in it after she had to leave her tribe and be the equivalent of a survivor REFUGEE. I also plan on possibly leading Michelle to the fake idol I planted, not exactly to punk her but to make her trust me. Anyone who thinks they can get by on the basis of challenge strength and a majority alliance after a swap in survivor is fooling themselves, so I want to open things up a bit and hope it keeps me around here a few more days. Also LMAOOOO Austin removed me. AND JORDAN. AND SCOTT. MAADDDDDDDDDDDDD " ""lucena"

- So I've been taking around and this tribe has a few tiny cracks, but apart from that they're pretty tight which is just delightful >.> Grace seems pretty frosty though, idfk what's going on with her but that's a can a worms id rather not open, something stressful happened to her yesterday but like, I'm really not interested but I feel like I should if I actually want to make a bond with her " ""palmira"

- Oh yeah, when Jamie tried to DUPE me earlier asking how I felt on this tribe I actually rambled on about something far past that and she told me to make it into a confessional and I say why not because this class I'm in is GOD AWFUL. so without further ado,

You know who by far is the most GIGANTIC threat left in this game? Grace. To give a quick rundown, she has Dani and Trent locked down. Ethan's got her to the end. With Bryce flipping over (on accident yeah good job fucker), she'll have Bryce on her side. I'm sure Boo's aligned with her. But what REALLY makes me scared moving forward is that I know she can sway and influence Scott and Jordan, two key alliance members I need at this very moment. Seriously, if my alliance goes fine and her alliance goes fine, she's SO set at a merge. And I know that there's not gonna be enough rounds or enough space for a youtube-tumblr group to have any REMOTE sense when that merge hits. It's the Ethan connection that makes things the trickiest because those two were inseperable in Rome, and I see no reason why that would change this season. But Ethan knows he has 4 other people he can wholeheartedly trust in Bryce, myself, Nick, and Yannick. But I know Grace won't let her troops go down at a merge. Would Ethan let go of his? And if he does, what happens to their pact? Do they play both sides? I can easily see this dynamic is dictate the entire course of the game unless something drastic happens, and I'd be lying if I said I know what the outcome would be. My simplest solution is if the merge is youtube/tumblr infested, welllll, I'm idoling out Grace as soon as possible or doing my best to flip Ethan, cause he has the only other idol left in this game. " "lucena"

- honestly im getting annoyed with sam being like "guys can i tag out omg!" like hunny you told us youd be in it for the long haul bye

"palmira"

- Yeah we're so fucking losing. The cruel irony is that the three tribe members not living in the United States with a whole array of different timezones are the ones available now. Hopefully the Lucena mutiny 3 aren't tight

"lucena"

- So at the challenge, while Zach was active, he made a LOT of mistakes, and I really hope they don't end up costing us the challenge. I want to include Zach and make sure he isn't the next target, but he's making it really hard for himself.

"lucena"

- soooo02:48, March 25, 2016 (UTC) I was bored and feeling super tired of studying and just emotional so I vented to ethan. part of that was strategy to try and pull him in closer to me, most of it was real though. I really really really like Ethan. He's a comforting generous and compassionate person and he really helped me tonight. But that's why he's going to have to go at some point. I see him being a huge jury threat, and with his skills in the challenges, if I had to boot one of my allies first, it would be him or Grace. They're just too likable. But for now, I'll keep him and our newly found emotional attachment in my pocket and ride this out for a bit until we need to make some harder decisions.

"lucena"

- i am having fun omg i have my little spies danielle boo and ethan scurrying about watching my back now. this is so great. also boo keeps calling me his cali i BETTER not just be his cali to him because im gonna heat him :~) but i love boo and i dont think i could FUNCTION without him rn

""palmira"

- tfw palmira makes a gigantic rally, but lucena's countering and i'm just sitting here waiting like https://s3-ak.buzzfed.com/static/2015-05/11/13/enhanced/webdr11/anigif_enhanced-buzz-16407-1431365294-11.gif " "palmira"

- Been a while since I've last made a confessional. Bryce made a foolish move swapping, but I understand he was feeling paranoid about Scott and Jordan. It's all good, Lucas trusts me, and Michelle trusts Evan, so we still have a solid core. Nick has a desire to blindside Jordan because of the voting slip-up, and while I understand where he's coming from, I myself messed up a vote before so I understand Jordan's POV. Either way, Felix is bait once this tribe loses.

"lucena"

- i call myself inspector teisha.

"lucena"

- I call myself Inspector Teisha https://vine.co/v/MI9OXJZ5Ur3

"lucena"

- they call me inspector teisha

"lucena"

- I call myself Inspector Teisha.

"lucena"

- I call myself Inspector Teisha.

"palmira"

- Yeah my conversation with Michelle kinda sucked. Like I wanted to map out potential allies, targets, communicate our connections and I barely got anything from her side and sh ewasn't as engaging as I thought it'd be so I really don't feel any obligation to be open back. That or she's just really vague as part of her gameplay idek. If we lose I just have to lock things down with Scott and Jordan and hopefully get rid of Lucas or Felix

""palmira"

- these guys are testosterone-fueled savages who are sleep deprived, texts while driving, and goes on being cocky in success and defeat. and i don't want them to stop. i want to see them attack each other while i slide my way farther in this game. on the other hand, i have no clue about this idol thing. i think someone got to it already but giving the hosts random places in real life or the internet never hurt.

Day 10
"lucena"

- So right now the Kids Next Door are targeting one of the Palmira's. Since I got Bryce in the loop, he's off the table, leaving it between Sam/Taylor. Sam is a really sneaky player who seems like he could cause a lot of trouble for me, so I am pushing for him to go. Sure Taylor is a threat too, but for MY game, Sam needs to go. Zach was on the bottom, and now that 3 other people joined the tribe he thinks he's gone up in the ranks, and is now trying to fit in the the original lucena's. We'll make him think that, but he won't ever really be in the core.

"lucena"

- So Sam is digging his own grave at this point, and I'm there to put him in it when he's done. He told me that he know's Zach is in the "core alliance" (which is completely wrong) then he trys to target him when talking with other people? I'm using all of this as ammo for the "Sam is sneaky and can't be trusted" thing I'm working on, and it seems to be going pretty good. Sam, you're a nice kid and all, but when you're on the bottom don't lie to EVERYONE who's on top.

"lucena"

- So I've learned its really easy to get people to trust you. All you have to do is just "ask permission" to do stuff, and it makes you seem open, honest, and want to do whats best for the alliance. In reality I'm going to do anything I want, when I want.

"palmira"

- So here's the PLAN. I needed someone from old Lucena to give either Nick or Yannick the clue. Boom. Felix gave it to Nick already. Next, I had Nick post the clue in the Big Hero 6 chat. BOOM. Later, to solidify trust with Scott, I'm gonna show him a picture of the logo and point out the idols next to some of the letters. I'll PROBABLY guess first intentionally on the wrong one, and hope to have him find the fake idol. Hopefully if he says he found my little "idol", I'll promise to keep things "between us" moving forward if he wants to. It's weird because I actually honestly want to work with Scott deep into this game, but to secure his trust, I have to pull a small little antic here. I'll see how things go

"palmira"

- Okay, so before the challenge there has been talk about an alliance between me, Michelle, Yannick and Nick - but nothing actually was formed... Just like with my plans of forming an alliance in Lucena. This tribe isn't really chatty, haven't really talked to anyone outside of the main chat - and even there they're not that chatty. Basically, I'm gonna use this mutiny to form a shit ton of relationships - making me aligned with most of the cast.

"palmira"

- Alright so since we won today's challenge and we can't vote out Felix I had to make sure that Sam leaves on the other tribe. I went to Ethan and made up some crazy rumor about how Sam told me that he was gunning for him. None of this is true but Ethan took the bait and I'm assuming started to target Sam since I spoke to Bryce and Bryce brought the rumor back up to me. I actually told Bryce how I made it up to insure that Sam was the target and Bryce actually agreed with it. I also went to Taylor and asked him how things were going over there and he was telling me how he thinks he's in minority. So in order to lock Taylor in as a loyal ally I gave him the idol clues and told him to basically keep them to himself and find the idol and to make sure he can make it to the merge or a swap with it. He agreed and told me how thankful he was. So going forward I would now say that my 4 main allies are Bryce, Taylor, Evan and Yannick. Ethan too but I have a feeling he's going to betray the YouTube alliance eventually. I honestly can see myself in the perfect final 3 of me, Taylor and Bryce. Don't know if I'll win but I really feel like this season I'm going all the way to the top as long as I play my cards right. God damn who the hell have Nick City all this power in this game?!

"lucena"

- Okay so since we lost the challenge, things have been getting a tad bit hectic. First off, me and Ethan were able to have like a really great long strategy talk while the others were offline to see what we wanted KND to do this vote. We came to terms that it was between Zach/Taylor/Sam since Bryce voted with us during Anarchy and apparently wants to work with us. Zach would probably be loyal to us somewhat down the road so we decide to take his name off the list. So it's down to Taylor and Sam for the targets. While I'm good with both I believe (somewhat) I trust Taylor more since I made kind of a connection with him earlier on. Sam is just really hard to trust especially since he was on the outs back on Palmira for a supposed premade. Plus he was already trying to play "mind games" with Ethan apparently. So me and Ethan basically kind of wanted to see Sam go so he mentions it in the KND chat and I support him on it. Of course everyone could be lying to me and a blindside could happen this tribal, but I'm having faith that everything will go as planned hopefully. kiki emoticon

"lucena"

- It's getting closer to tribal and I'm starting to feel uneasy. I am pretty confident that Sam is leaving 8-1, but there is this one little thing nagging at the back of my mind by the way everyone has been acting. Boo told me he made a confessional about our strategy talk (Which I didn't think was a big deal, but it apparently was to him) so maybe I'm playing too hard too fast. I'm probably just paranoid though.

""lucena"

- So I unintentionally mutinied. Very interesting, but I love it! If it was up to me to decide, I wouldn’t have risked it. I instantly started socializing with everyone! It great to get back to Boo and pick up where we left off. I feel tight with him and Trent. Everyone is so nice, but it’s hard knowing you are pretty much a minority at this point no matter what they try to tell you. I knew I’d have to distance myself from Sam and Bryce the best I could. I told them a sob story about my helpless and lonely feeling when I was on the other tribe and the way Yannick seemed to threaten me into voting out Austin to prove my loyalty. I mean… it was all true of course, but I totally made it more extreme and told them how I’ve been “waiting to get away from them” and I’m oh so emotional. I mean… they probably didn’t care much, but I basically tried to get into their pants with this one, and I thinnkkkk it worked. At least they know I’m with them. Boo told me it’s probably best to throw Sam under the bus for now and see what I can later. So I talked to Bryce about doing the same, and I mentioned to Danielle that I “heard” Sam was the target. She talked to other people and they seemed to agree I guess. I also told a few others that I ‘heard” Sam’s name going around. I guess they bought it, and jumped on the easy target or so I hope. Apparently Sam is targeting Zach. I hope this is all true. It seems like my fortune is changing in the game. Trent and Boo both “have my back” and want to work together while keeping things secret. And somehow someway, NICK of all people wants to secretly work with me despite voting against him the first two tribals. He is like telling me everything. He even gave me a baby goat as a sacrifice to me because I’m a like a god or something now. Through all of this I somehow ended up with a clue to the hidden immunity idol! Like wtf, Nick!?! Who knows if it’s true, but he slipped it to me at the last challenge and said he was hoping to keep me safe, so we can work together later. Like… what is happening!? I still feel so nervous about tribal, but I am praying for another swap soon to save my ass. I feel like I am in good with most people at this point. I just need to slide on to the merge and then raise some hell. Also, find this dang idol! For all I know this is the clue from last season. I don’t even know how he would have gotten it. Apparently it’s in plain sight. This is a sick joke if it isn’t real! Hahaha I think it's a lie to make me trust him more kind of though because like wtf would I be guessing every 12 hours!? But oh well. I feel like he could turn into a nice goat eventually if I don't first. " ""lucena"

- So, it's been 3 weeks since my last confessional, and i keep planning on making a video one but I never find a good time. So!!! This will have to do. The week of Hannah's boot was the week of the sabotage challenge. We were doing good, and had a lead for a little while. Technical issues and timing issues became a problem, and we ended up loosing. I was personally super pissed off at Hannah, as she wasted a LOT of our time in the challenge. By the time I walked to the bus, bussed to school, got to school and got into class, Hannah still hadn't made a single post. She was struggling to copy and paste her friggen picture, and here I am on mobile, still trying my best. I gave her a free editing site, we made step by step instructions and STILL took her like 45 minutes. She ended up making one post, and that's when I knew that she needed to go. I was totally down with sticking with the girls, but when one of them is a liability, you're going to want to stick with the tribe. As soon as the challenge was over, I knew she had to go. The Codename Kids Next Door alliance all agreed, and Michelle agreed as well. Hannah eventually found out that she was going, and honestly- I felt bad at first. She left the alliance chat, and when she got added back she saw that we made a few jokes and thought we were bullying her. I felt like a piece of shit, but after she officially got voted out I realized- I wasn’t even being that rude???? Like It was just a joke, I don’t feel bad about it. She finally got voted off, and posted a FUCKING SCREENSHOT OF OUR FAKE PREMADE ALLIANCE AND I FUCKIN PISSED MYSELF. I PISSED MY DAMN PANTS. IT HAD SIMON SEALEY IN IT. God, what a great moment. The next two weeks, nothing really happened tbh… It was so nice to have a break from tribals. I hadn’t been safe from tribal since week 1 of Java, so it was just… GOD. It was a fucking amazing feeling. The first week, Kaeden went home which was nice. I had no ties to him and he never talked to me! The second week, Austin went home- Which I was expecting. There was the Azerbaijan premade which pretty much everyone knew about. It wasn’t a shock to anyone that Austin went home tbh! It was another person down, and another person who’s not me going home is a good person to me!! Then came THE MUTINY. This was honestly so fucking unexpected, no sarcasm or anything. It was kinda a wakeup call that I need to be walking on eggshells 24/7 in this game, because it can change in an instant. I was so fucking close to being separated from my alliance and my friends, and would probably have been doomed over on Palmira. Had I been my usual paranoid self, I would have said ‘I never feel safe.” And I would have switched, but I do honestly feel safe on my tribe. Sam, Taylor and Bryce came over to our tribe which wasn’t bad actually. I had talked to Taylor and Sam a little during anarchy, and had formed a bit of a bond with Sam. When re all reunited, Sam said he was interested in starting an alliance with me, trent and grace and I thought he was going to be a good asset to us! Then, once we lost the challenge, Sam told Ethan that he knew “ethan, trent, dani, grace and zach are close”, which made us suspicious why he left out Boo. Sam then ran to me, and said we need to get rid of Zach, which just seemed incredibly shady, so I’ll be voting for him this tribal council. I have a weird feeling about this tribal.., Idk what it is but I just have a feeling in the pit of my stomach that I can’t get rid of. I just wanna make it through this tribal. Playing Survivor, I always have multiple goals in mind. The ultimate goal is obviously- win the game. But you have to have other goals, or you’ll never be happy. I’ve already achieved 2 goals- Survive the first week, and win at least 1 immunity as a tribe. My next goal is to make jury. 5 people are already gone, we’re at final 17, soon to be 16. I just need to survive a few more, and I’m golden. I’m ready to tackle this game! " "palmira"

- i gave jordan the idol clue, um, sadly. i was planning to make up a fake clue but apparently, felix gave nick the real clue. and it seems evan knows a thing about jordan and nick so they might be comparing notes. that being said, i may be locking my target on them.

"lucena"

- okay now i am certain I am going this tribal. Nobody is talking to me at all and it just really sucks omg. I think I might already have all the votes to go and I don't like it at all ahejsvejrjebw. Damn this secret mutiny! I was hoping to go far this game but, looks that I'll have to settle with 17th, what an ugly number

"lucena"

- With me now being stuck over here, I actually feel like I can stay for 2 maybe 3 tribal councils. Half of the people who originally voted out MJ and Will in the initial vote are here, and we have have mutual respect for having that. Also, we all like each other from similar connections we all have. That being said, Sam is a goner this first vote and I don't mind that since he once told Evan that I was shady and tried to put doubt into me. Also, he's more of a threat to counter the Lords of the Ring alliance we have going on. That would leave Taylor / Zach on the outside but they would probably go for Taylor before Zach which is where things get tricky. Taylor is someone the Lords of the Ring need for our alliance down the road because he is going to stay loyal to us and work with us down the road - which is why I need to try and convince the people over here to target Zach. To do this, I may ask NC during the immunity challenge to throw it until another swap/merge comes along if they can. As for my safety down the road if we keep losing, Ethan said if it came down to 6 left on the tribe (minus Sam, Taylor, and Zach) that Grace would flip and the other 3 would be afraid of rocks so would flip. Not sure how true that is, because I am afraid of Ethan flipping on us at the end of the road, but he exposed his relationship to Grace - which will start a feud, but someone he would potentially take over me. I like to he everyones #1 option to take, which is partially why Kaeden is gone since Taylor had a f3 with me and him. I also have a F3 with NC and Taylor, which I may like to go to the end with because I feel like Taylor could be beat, just because he has been clueless as to what has really gone on, and I am making relationships with people in this game while I feel like NC hasn't tried as hard. He is a threat strategically, since he has upped his game BIG TIME from how he usually plays, but when I am back from this cruise tomorrow, I can actually shine in this game once again.