Roll With the Punches/Confessionals

Day 21
"odlaryurdu"

- I thought we had it but TWO he had TWO IDOLS?!?!? I was happy enough to have on I swear he has one of those futuristic printers and just duplicated it!! Welp I'm happy that I played my idol cause it could have easily been me leaving in the event of a tie, but with these idols all out of play merge should be somewhat straight forward, or probably not

"odlaryurdu"

- So we made it to the merge! I'm honestly so glad I've made it this far, I want to go further and of course I want to win, we are in a predicament because we just lost Bryce instead of Jared, and we found out Nick has a, what I saw someone say, I don't know this for certain but a pregame alliance with Rob, it pisses me off that one of the 5 guys betrayed us like this and it kinda hurts, but we will just have to roll with the punches, we made a new 4 guys alliance chat so we didn't have to deal with Nick being a spy, we are wanting to work with Felix and Ella, I trust both of them a lot and I feel like this group has the potential of final 6, also it's time for you all to hear about my dislike towards Hunter again! So today he told Nifty that I'm pushy and cocky?? Am I pushy because I actually care about this game and want to be social and open to people? and am I cocky because I literally won the damn challenge for Sheki because I did it myself? Damn dude, if being proud that I kept my allies Nifty and Ella and myself safe and guaranteed merge makes me "cocky" then so be it, I spent 3 hours on that challenge and you did jack shit and whine behind my back about me and tell Nifty you want me out. Out of all the people still in this game, I couldn't see you winning, because no one wants boring ass winners and you have an extremely weak social game, you're so boring to talk to like really get a personality or something, like I said before, it may not be soon, but I CAN NOT WAIT TO VOTE YOU OUT.

"odlaryurdu"

- We finally officially merged together into Odlar Yurdu, the tribe name I coined btw lol, and I'm so happy that I reached this point. It was pretty easy to get here, all I had to do was remain in a good spot on each tribe I was on, win challenges, and vote with the majority for one tribal council in the pre-merge.

Now, though, is where the real game starts for me. Because I'm going to every tribal council from this moment on until I either get voted out or make it to Day 39. I'm no longer safe unless I win individual immunity or try to go on an immunity streak (which will ultimately put a huge target on my back)

I plan to stay socially connected with as many people as possible, and to hopefully play under the radar for a few rounds. I think I'll be able to do it pretty good as well considering that people have just made themselves even bigger targets than I am right now. Well, I should say bigger targets. They've made themselves more visible targets.

"odlaryurdu"

- Ever since those insects voted me the first tribal council I've been waiting, PRAYING to get the chance to get my revenge. I've held back on the swaps so I didn't mess up my position with them, but now that the merge is here it's a whole new level. This is my chance to go for the kill, I'm done with the 5 shits. Me Rob and Jared are in similar positions and have teamed up, but we need at least 3 more if we're gonna do this. I'm already exposing their alliance and Austins distain for him to Hunter and the enemy of my enemy is my friend, were both their enemies. Rob is securing Jessica and Jareds gonna try for either Ella or Felix, I know there both under Cliff's spell so it's time to show them Cliffs and the rest of that alliances hand. If we show everyone what kind of game there playing we might just be able to pull this off, we just gotta go for it.

"odlaryurdu"

- Merge!!!! For real now. Both tribals were so intense. This made stampe you never know when a idol pops out of nowhere. Like, wow. How many idols are played? 5? 4??!! And like I dont have at least one, how sad am I? Well Rob had the sheki idol which means the idols could be all gone now. Hunter could also have the sheki 3.0 idol if there was a sheki 3.0 idol. Or nick has it. I dont know but I have to stay on the background. But hey, DON'T I LOOK GREAT IN PINK??

"odlaryurdu"

- I dont mind who's going this tribal council. Everyone is lying to each other and it disgusts me. I'm going to focus me on the next challenge instead of the endless fights. I'm going to make moves when I'm actually in danger. Hello, I'm playing my own game I'm not going to do what others want me to do. I'm NOT a goat.

"odlaryurdu"

- Wow America, Canada, have of Northern Europe and all of Asia definitely hate my for being the reason Jake R is out but I will avenge the hell out of the kid for you guys

"odlaryurdu"

- Holy MOLY! So yesterday, I lost my biggest ally in the game; Bryce. Poor guy got idolled out again, holy crap. Anyway, this really sucks, because I don't know if Jared is willing to work with me anymore, now that I tried to vote him out. Also, Jake's out. Clifford once again, did not tell me about his plans; the guy had 2 idols! If this whole alliance thing is gonna work out, the guy has got to trust me with some information. With Jake out, my window to the other alliance is gone, and I won't be able to spy anymore. Unfortunate, but honestly better this way, I didn't really feel comfortable lying to Jake like that. Anyway, we are merged! Next tribal's going to be crazy, because nobody knows what's gonna happen. Yesterday, I found out that Nick had been snitching to Rob, so I immediately told Cliff about it. I guess Karma's a bizzle, cause I've been snitching to Cliff. So as it stands right now, it's Jessica, Rob, Hunter and Nick on one side, and Austin, Clifford, Ella, Joseph and myself on the other, with Jared and Nifty kinda stuck in the middle. I'm gonna need to patch things up with Jared, or things will go south very soon.

"odlaryurdu"

- So Nick decided to be a fucking shit head and expose everything, Fuck you dude. I don't even feel like I have anything going for me right now, I feel everything I worked on basically just got absolutely mutilated as a public display and it's all Nick's doing, im worried im gonna be targeted and I just hope the majority alliance we created stands, Clifford is obviously not trying to give up, he's just trying to get the votes away from me, honestly I won't be surprised if im the first voted out. This game is gonna get crazy but hopefully we can make it though this, this is probably my lowest point I've been in the game

"odlaryurdu"

- Is there a need for me to get involved, FUCK NO! But hey, I need something to distract me from this paper and I need to show my future allies that I can be trusted and I'm willing to fight for them. The lines are drawn in the sand and I might as well redraw them with a purpose

"odlaryurdu"

- What the fuck is happening here. There are some conversations going, I'm talking with Nick and then in the main chat 'I have a announcement' said by Nick. So we all are like; what is it. And then he just reveals their alliance. Clifford - Austin - Nifty - Joseph. This opened my eyes. Shouldn't I flip to Nick instead? I know if I reach final tribal council with Nick and Rob I get ALL jury votes. I'm the swing vote now. Choosing Clifford's side or Nick's side. If I'm really the swing vote it'll be hard to choose. Rob is easy to beat. Shouldn't I really do this vote for myself? BUT Jessica's here as well. I need time to think, wow.

"odlaryurdu"

- This kind of events makes my day. And they're all against each other now. And I? I'm on both sides. I got this. *winks* I love this game.

"odlaryurdu"

- Man, this is bullshit. Remember my app, where I said that I was gonna be the villain of the season? Well, apparently I'm a hero now, because everyone and their mother has betrayed me so far. angel emoticon

"odlaryurdu"

- Now that we have this solid 6 alliance we seem pretty secure. We just need to make sure we all stay close and no one flips! There of course is the fear of the idol, but if these 4 guys need idols to get through their entire survivor experience then they dont need to be here, sorry Russel

"odlaryurdu"

- I've enjoyed this night. I'm in both alliances now. Austin came to me to say he dont know what to do if I leave him. On my right shoulder I have Cinderella, the good one who tells me to believe him and to go with the 'Survivor Friends'. But on my other shoulder I have Cruella. She tells me I have to follow my own path and to blindside the Survivor Friends. But I don't want that honestly. I have more chance on winning with Nick's alliance but with reaching FTC I have more chance with sticking with Survivor friends. So many things to decide..

"odlaryurdu"

- Everyone blew up today and I bet their going to write mean confessionals. Just an observation. Maybe post this one first and see if my fortune telling served me well.

"odlaryurdu"

- After some thinking and watching inspiring Survivor confessionals im ready to get my head back into this game and start playing seriously again, im nervous that I will be targeted but I could win immunity, especially if this is a flag making challenge I know how to edit pretty well so I have confidence I can win, hopefully we can get Felix to stay with us but hardly anyone has heard anything from him on our side, I feel less confident in my ability to win this game but I am not giving up, I am going to fight and do anything in my ability to win this game and will not stop fighting until I get the majority of votes at a tribal council, I'm even more aggravated at past mistakes, like Minke telling Nick he was going them him playing that idol, this shit wouldn't have blown up in our faces if Minke would've let him vote us out at the start, I can't change what happened though, and I'm here now and I'm never giving up

"odlaryurdu"

- At first I was afraid I was petrified Thinking I couldn't live without you by my side And I've been spending nights Thinking how you did me wrong And I grew strong And I learned how to get along And now you're back From outer space And I find you here with that sad look upon your face I should have changed that stupid lock Oh made you leave your key If I've known for a second you'd be back to bother me Go on now, go walk out the door Turn around now You're not welcome anymore You're the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye Do you think I'd crumble Did you think I'd lay down and die?

No, not I, I will survive Long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive I've got all my life to live And all my love to give and I'll survive I, I, I will survive

It took all my strength not to fall apart Trying' without my mind to mend my broken heart I spent so many nights Feeling sorry for myself, how I cried But now I hold my head up high And you see me, somebody new I'm not that lonely little person who's still in love with you Now you come dropping in Expecting me to be free Now I'm saving all my lovin' for someone who's loving me Go on now, walk out the door Turn around now You're not welcome anymore You're the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye Think I'd might crumble Did you think I'd lay down and die?

No, not I, I will survive Long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive I've got my life to live And all my love to give and I'll survive I, I, I will survive

Go and go, walk out the door Turn around now You're not welcome anymore You're the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye Do you think I'd crumble Did you think I'd lay down and die?

No, not I, I will survive Long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive I've got all my life to live And all my love to give and I'll survive I, I, I will survive

It took all my strength not to fall apart Trying' without my mind to mend my broken heart I spent so many nights Feeling sorry for myself, how I cried Now I hold my head up high And you see me, somebody new Not that lonely little person who's still in love with you Now you come dropping in Expecting me to be free but I'm saving all my lovin' for someone who's loving me

Go on and go, walk out the door Turn around now You're not welcome anymore You're the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye Think I'd might crumble Did you think I'd lay down and die?

No, not I, I will survive Long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive I've got my life to live And all my love to give and I'll survive I, I, I will survive

Go on and go, walk out the door Turn around now You're not welcome anymore You're the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye

"odlaryurdu"

- http://youtu.be/1HZYPb1HKcI

"odlaryurdu"

- Just when you think the roller coaster ride is over, keep your arms legs and hands inside the vehicle because its about to go for another flip

"odlaryurdu"

- After some thinking and watching inspiring Survivor confessionals im ready to get my head back into this game and start playing seriously again, im nervous that I will be targeted but I could win immunity, especially if this is a flag making challenge I know how to edit pretty well so I have confidence I can win, hopefully we can get Felix to stay with us but hardly anyone has heard anything from him on our side, I feel less confident in my ability to win this game but I am not giving up, I am going to fight and do anything in my ability to win this game and will not stop fighting until I get the majority of votes at a tribal council, I'm even more aggravated at past mistakes, like Minke telling Nick he was going them him playing that idol, this shit wouldn't have blown up in our faces if Minke would've let him vote us out at the start, I can't change what happened though, and I'm here now and I'm never giving up

"odlaryurdu"

- With all of the hostility going around in tribe, we are now playing that was removed from the app store because too many people would break their phones in anger over this..... sounds perfect

"odlaryurdu"

- At this point, this game is gonna turn into Cagayan 2.0. We got me as Tony, Rob as my Woo and Jared as my Trish. We gotta keep our soldiers in check and get ready to get those fuckers out

"odlaryurdu"

- This begins to bother me. This is the last time I told them what they're talking about. I feel kinda bad about lying to Jessica. I not feel bad to lie to Nick, hunter and Rob because if they get the chance they will vote for me.

"odlaryurdu"

- The fact that everyone hates me and is talking mad shit about me and it's all coming back to me is beautiful! It's human nature for the strong to eat the weak but it's also human nature to crave more strength. When push comes to shove will they bother playing with the bones of roadkill or work their way to leader of the pack? I see people being leaders, followers, sheep, users, liars, and judgmental Pharisees but what I don't see is sacrifice. No one is willing to sacrifice who they are, their reputation, or how they're perceived to get to the end. I'm taking a big risk but after playing two idols I needed to quickly become the weakest member of the tribe. Thanks to Nick's ego, Rob's insecurity, Felix's inflated intellect and everyone else's meek nature to by stand as others hurt... I'm officially the weakest person here. So it'll be interesting to see if I'm still standing at the end of this game and then maybe we can have a conversation on what true weakness is.

"odlaryurdu"

- I really need to do a Dutch confessional because I need to talk about my feelings and I'm kinda tired of the English language. Ik heb het soms echt gehad met deze mensen... iedereen is echt super-super strategisch en ik dacht dat ik strategisch was lol. Het is best moeilijk het spel te voorspellen. Het spel verandert per dag, per uur... per minuut. En 24/7 Engels praten is soms best frustrerend. Maar buiten dat vind ik het fantastisch om hier te zijn en om de samensmelting bij te wonen. De drang naar victory en winst wordt alsmaar groter. Als ik mijn beste beentje voortzet, een beetje sneaky speel en iedereen te vriend houd is er een kans dat ik nog wel is in die final 2/3 kan zitten. Because I want to talk about people now I'm going to continue in English. Clifford is really sad all the time and I honestly think he wants to quit if the fights will get worse etc. But I told him to fight and to stay. I can use him now as my shield. Isn't that freaking great? I loooooooove Cliffy but he's easy to play. Anyway Austin and Nifty are targeted by the other people. I'll be good for this vote. But I'm sure, after challenge results, the war will start. And it will be worse than ever before. Sometimes watching it, laughing/joking and besides that I'm not going to involve. I'm going to stay out of it. It's sneaky, it's nasty but if I wanna win this game I have to choose for myself. I wanna be the Sole Survivor of Azerbaijan. That's my goal since day 1. That's my goal since I applied. That's my freaking goal since I came here with the thought to apply for the main ORG. Azerbaijan has the right people, we're merged in freaking pink and I'm in two alliances who will both keep me as long as possible. And still I have 0 votes against me. After nine episodes. The targets from good side (in their order): Nick, Rob, Hunter, Jessica, Jared. At the other side; Clifford, Austin, Nifty, Joseph, Felix. Jared and Jessica are close with me. If Jared or Jessica will be voted out I think I'll be good. I just have to concentrate me and to figure out who wants me in the final 3 or not.

TRANSLATION FOR DUTCH PORTION: I’ve had enough of these people. Everyone is super strategic and I thought I was strategic lol. It's hard to predict this game. Game changes every day, every hour, every minute, and talking english 24/7 is frustrating. But outside that I think it is awesome to be at the merge. The urge to win and have victory is getting bigger and bigger. If I play my bestest, be a bit sneaky and can be friends with everyone, there is a chance that you'll see me at final 2/3.

"odlaryurdu"

- feel like I got put into a great spot with the merge. Theres been tons of drama already and I'm just eating popcorn and watching it because it does not involve me. Theres 2 sides as of right now and I'm hoping the "Sloppy Seconds" get the upper hand because I feel like I have more of a say in that alliance. I mean I'm kinda even in the middle of that too because of my bond with Nick & Rob and Ella & Jess. If I HAVE to I'll definitely flip on Nick & Rob since I haven't burned my relationships with the other guys but I'm gonna try my best to keep the "Sloppy Seconds" in power

"odlaryurdu"

- Congratulations Nick, you have just confirmed that I will be turning on you down the road. Relating me to Woo, no bitch youre gonna be Jon and I'll be Natalie and kick your ass out of this game when its right for me. Right now I will play that Woo role and be dumb and try to win challenges

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- I feel bad for clifford because i know what's happening in his real life but he had to think twice before applying. I actually made a amazing plan to make a fake fight with clifford. Because if we vote Nick now the others will target me next vote. I don't freaking want that. That fake fight would be the only chance to get a high spot in their fake alliance. I don't want to see my name on a parchment until FTC. Then they all have to vote for me. But right now I'm pissed off. Clifford is making drama for nothing. That plan would fucking work. And I could finally get some respect from others instead of I giving respect to them

"odlaryurdu"

- I've thought about it. Maybe I'm going with Nick's side. I'm worrying too much about Clifford, Austin and the others. What it I stay with Nick and the gang? I always have Jessica and Jared if Nick and Rob wants to blindside or something.

"odlaryurdu"

- In all honest I still think there's a sockpuppet twist. Joseph still acts as weird as he did and his picture reminds me of some commercial or something. I can be totally wrong lmao but what if it's a twist and he could be a mole or a saboteur of the game?

Day 22
"odlaryurdu"

- I heard this story when I was a kid about wife who was mad at her husband for cheating. So mad that when he was sleeping, she went downstairs to the kitchen, grabbed a knife from the drawer, walked back upstairs, and cut off her husband's penis. She then went downstairs...and baked it. Baked his penis. There was nothing the doctors could do. ""How can we attach a baked penis to an unbaked man?"" Which isn't that far off if you think about it. Humans, just these walking dough creatures filled with blood and nerves and consciences. Surprisingly enough, the man stayed with the woman. Strategically, he couldn't cheat on her anymore, so the problem was solved, and she finally began pursuing her career in baking. A gift he praised her for early on in their formative years before things grew cold and stale in their marriage. Twenty years pass by and science has figured out a way to attach a fully functional penis onto a human being! This is music to the husband's ears! He can't believe it. So what does he do? He empties his savings account and spends every last dollar on getting a new penis. And one night, his wife woke up, and there it was, a new penis, attached to her forehead. And THAT'S how you play Survivor.

"odlaryurdu"

- So I just won my first individual immunity of my entire ORG career! Woot woot! Honestly I thought I'd be safe anyways, but this vote is so unsure and I'm so uncomfortable about it that I'd rather not risk it and take matters into my own hands. As for the vote tonight, I'm just hoping we all stay loyal to one another and that we can rule the game from here on out until we gotta turn on one another. If not, and we're thrust into the minority, then at least I know that I need to win more challenges lol. I'm planning on just letting the next few be won by other people cause I don't want to paint myself as a huge challenge threat this early. Just wanted safety for this round.

"odlaryurdu"

- I'm the swing vote, I have nothing to worry about. I'm not even close to be in danger. BUT this is the merge. From now I have to keep everyone as a friend to get their jury votes. I have to make moves now to earn the title of Sole Survivor. The Hunter parchment and the fake idol thing will be two big moves in one to just not put myself more out of the danger but also a biiiig move. If they have the idol (real) and they think Clifford is playing sneaky they use it on Rob. But the case here, Nick will be voted out tonight. Nobody sees that coming, lmao. Well, our tribe does. If Nick felt like I was in big trouble I would do more and more to stay. What is he doing? Sitting, watching and going offline. Well yeah, then you're not scared and active enough to get your butt out of the dangerzone. If I knew any single person was throwing my name around I wouldn't even bother to go offline. This is a game, you've to take it seriously and play it just as hard as you can. If the alliance agrees with the fake idol thing we have Rob who trusts me. Hunter who wants me to be in a alliance since Hunter will be targeted for flipping. He's not flipping but we have to act like he did. It's essensial I'm not seen as the flipper. Because then I could be in the dangerzone. That's why I have to make these moves. My goal is to reach FTC with 0 votes against me. Will I make that goal? Probably not. But even reaching final 6 without being on the chopping block would be amazing. That's why I need Rob, Hunter, Jess, Jared and our alliance.

"odlaryurdu"

- I admire Nick for playing an honest game. I don't admire him for being against me and using that honesty to promote his ego and paint us, the people with good personalities and a passion for this game and try to get to know these people, as the villains. And it is true to some extent that we are villains. We lied a lot and we still are. But I feel like we're anti-villains. Or, no, anti-heroes. Doing villainous things for the heroic outcome. So while Nick is being honest, I personally feel like he is nowhere close to a hero.

"odlaryurdu"

- So it looks like the plan for the rival alliance is to vote for me, which sucks because I have the dark Pearl that the hosts oh so graciously brought up after im sure everyone had forgotten, but Clifford has the mask so he's gonna use that and it cancels out the Pearl, would've been nice to keep that mask though but to get rid of this Pearl once and for all I will be so happy, there is a good possibility I could go tonight and that scares me because I still have a lot to do in this game and I'll feel incomplete if im the one leaving tonight, I can only hope that Nick will leave tonight and Good will triumph Evil, but if they play an idol on Nick, which we don't think will happen because they think we're voting out Rob, if I get Idoled out I will be disappointed, but I will root for my alliance until the end, I feel like everyone voted how they said they would and that's comforting, if this is my last few hours in this game I just want everyone to know I had an amazing experience, I'd have liked to do smarter things, but I'm not ashamed of my game, I created majority alliances that worked every tribe I was on, despite if Nick was in two of them and was a rat, I think I've played a good game but I just don't think the people on the outside looking in will be able to see that, I want to show people I have what it takes to win this game, and if I get out now, I will feel beyond let down, because I want to show people my game at the end at the final tribal council and be proud of it, and show them that I did do what I needed to do to get to the end and win despite what it appeared as to them.

"odlaryurdu"

- For this vote Ella was basically the swing vote and that was very scary because shes a huge wild card in the game. I was basically the only person who had a chance at getting her to stay with the "Sloppy Seconds" which is a lot of pressure because it depended on me mostly if our alliance was majority or minority but I think I got to her enough to make her come with us. I'm just hoping shes telling the truth

"odlaryurdu"

- This is fishy as hell, I'm starting to think Ella has flipped. They told her to give me a fake idol and Ella did it to seem like she's with us and really I am going to play a fake idol and look like an idiot. Cliff told me they wont vote me but I can trust him as far as I can throw a baseball. And for all of you who dont know, I quit when I was 7 cause I was the worst on the team, so theres that. This vote is going to determine how the rest of the season goes and I really hope the four guys dont dominate cause that will just make this exciting pre-merge worth nothing.

"odlaryurdu"

- It's so crazy how just this morning I thought I was totally fucking doomed. Now? I have a now 3rd life in this game. I'm so excited to see my rival FINALLY leave. 3 down, 1 to go.