Every Move Can Save You or Screw You/Confessionals

These are the confessionals made within this episode.

Day 4
"tambo"

- I was kinda surprised that Ali was voted out unanimously, mostly because I didn't really expect Ben to lie to him... But I guess Ash must have campaigned to get him out, which I'm okay with.

When we got to the challenge, there were several bits I knew I would be decent at, but aside from the picture quizz, which was unfortunately worth nothing, there wasn't really any I could ace. I tried to make a flag just to see if people would like it, Ash kinda got mad because apparently it's the only thing she finds herself decent at... But frankly, I don't care. If she wants to face Gerda in a graphic-making challenge, fine, whatever. Have fun, booboo.

I'm really hoping that we can be safe.

"tambo"

- Yup, so Ali's gone and I feel slightly safer, but I just really want to win immunity now. I know Gerda's doing the flag for her part of the challenge, and I'm hoping to do it for mine (Andrei and I both want to do it but my flag is already better =_=) mostly because I like making flags and I suck at everything else. So the amount of crosstribal talking I'm doing is hilariously a lot. But I know for sure someone's out to get me. I'm not sure if Alejandro is lying that it's Hunter, but I know someone is telling Gerda/Adam that I am targeting them, even though I'm really not -_- Gerda didn't believe me when I told her I wasn't, and I'm not sure how Adam took it. But I need to watch out, someone's targeting me (other than possibly Charlie) and I don't like it. I hate being targeted, but this is so far the only interesting thing going on in my game. Which makes me feel like a sitting duck. My tribe isn't that active, and I'm pretty sure that both Taylor and Andrei trust me... and probably Kevin too. Slight problem there. xD so I'm just hoping not to lose.

"tambo"

- This challenge was a bitch and a half. Mainly because I hate Whizz Wordz, but nobody else on my tribe was very good at it, so I told them to stick me where they are the weakest. I've realized that in this game, I am a jack-of-all-trades. I am pretty good at most challenges, usually ranking in the top quarter. The only reason I never got Immunity in Polynesia, was because of Adam. As luck would have it, I have to go against him in this challenge. Luckily, him and I are aligned, and I know that I'm not going to beat him in this challenge, but I'm still very happy with my score.

The only thing that sucks about this challenge, is that I can only submit for Whizz Wordz. I know that I can beat my tribe in at least 3 of these 5 challenges. It is crazy, because I hate that I'm better at challenges than most people, but we still might lose due to their inadequacy. But, that is the name of the game. There are two ways this could go for me, either my tribe will think I am too strong, and want me out of this game, or they will flock to me, and want me around, because I can carry this tribe in competition. More than likely, the latter will happen, because they already have flocked to me.

I have realized, after playing this game back-to-back, that I am really the perfect castaway. I dominate in challenges, I am nice to everybody, and I tend to align myself with the right people.

I've seen people post up on Facebook about who they think would win this game, and I see people who I don't even know saying that they think I have a good chance. They are correct of course, but it feels good to know that some people think you can win this game, when there have been so many people who doubted me even being here. I'm doing everything I can to align myself with people who I see as going far in this game, and then when I make merge, I will just use my dual threat of challenge prowess and my superior social skills to just take my ass to the Final Tribal.

Day 5
"tambo"

- So now we're fucking going to tribal again, and Ben and I have to decide where we're siding. Taylor (and Kevin) or Andrei. Either way, we're in the majority. I really don't want to vote out anyone, and honestly, I'd vote out Kevin or Ben, just because I don't talk to them that often. And I was roped into an alliance with Ben by both Andrei and Taylor... This annoys me.

So Ben ended up choosing Taylor's side, and I think I just realized that I really do like Andrei, so that's why I'm trying something new... After thinking for a while, I believe I can get Ben out. He's the only one on my tribe that I don't trust, because he barely replies to my messages at all, and he avoids like all alliance/strategy talk. I can show Andrei that Ben is going to go with Taylor's alliance, so then I have two votes Ben, and if I can get Kevin to vote Ben out by telling him that he's gonna be the target in f4...

If I vote Andrei off here, next vote, it's probably going to be me or Kevin. If I vote Ben, all bets are off, but I can get Taylor OR Andrei out. God damn this.

"tambo"

- What the hell am I going to do. We now have a set alliance of myself, Kevin and Ben which I've forged together but we have to go to tribal and have no clue who to vote out. Ash talks to much and isn't the greatest in challenge. Andrei talks very little and is a monster in challenges which could be bad if he gets far in this game. Either way this decision is going to be a good and bad for us.. Damn

"tambo"

- Well, I brought it up to Kevin, telling him that it was just an option and not to screw me over haha but he said it'd be better to just vote out Andrei.

Well, I tried to save him. I can't do anything else, Taylor won't want to vote Ben out, because he trusts him, which annoys the hell out of me. I tend to like it when I'm everyone's #1 ally, it's easier for me to work around shit that way. And obviously Ben won't vote himself out. So I'm really sorry Andrei. And now I'm finding myself becoming the Ciera of my alliance... with 4 people left. Bye bye Ash...

Apparently Zuma thinks I'm controlling my tribe, and they're targeting me... awkward. I'm really not. And I'm not sure if Charlie is lying to me about it, but I somehow doubt he is, because what the hell would he get out of it? Sigh. If there isn't a tribe swap or something soon, I'm just about dead. Because I think Kevin and Taylor are a lot closer than I think. He's playing the same game as I am, except better. Gahh this frustrates me. I'm so screwed. This is like a game of chess, every move can save you or screw you.

"tambo"

- Hufflepuff lost again and this vote is even lamer because it's going to reveal my allegiances. Taylor and Kevin are on one side; Andrei and Ash are on the other. It's made me realise this tribe doesn't have a leader, which sucks as I like to attach myself to the authoritative player. Now I'm the one who has to make the calls. I was going to go with Taylor and Kevin but they won't decide between Ash and Andrei. I can definitely see Ash jumping ship at any moment without a second thought but if she takes me with her then that's not so bad lol. I'm thinking ahead and Ash could be a valuable ally for all the reasons Taylor and Kevin are wary of her. She talks to a lot of people and I'm sure she's got a couple of alliances going on. I know there's going to be some sort of tribe shake-up soon and she seems my best 'in' to a new alliance when Tambo is no more. She also says she's close with Henry, so I'm thinking she could help me secure an alliance between Hunter, Gerad and Henry, and the Tambos. At this stage, I'm sick of going back and forth with who to vote out. I want to make a decision and be done with it. Jenna Lewis would never stand for these sorts of shenanigans.

"tambo"

- Today is already shaping up to be one of the worst ever. I woke up this morning to the news of us losing the challenge, and to an alarmed Ash telling me I'm going home unless I vote for Ben. Well, let me tell you, you don't wanna wake up to a death warning.

I'm pissed about losing the challenge because that means Alejandro is extending his lead over my track record and it does not sit well with me, but right now, with my life on the line, I have more to worry about.

I spent the day being as calm and collected as possible while Ash was scrambling to save me. A conversation with Taylor almost led me to vote out my girl because he seemed willing to vote her out, and well, I was somewhat reassured about the idea it would not necessarily be me.

After that, I spent a few hours reading, and when Ben came online, I tried to see where his head was at, and apparently he went to bed before anyone could brainwash him. I let Ash work her magic, then innocently came up to him to check if he was going by her version of the facts, and by then I had enough information to cast a vote.

At this point, I have a choice between voting for Ash, a notorious scrambler and high-maintenance drama queen, and the loyal guy from last season. I feel like I owe Ash too much to throw her under the bus now and it might not even be worth it, so... against all rational thinking, I'll vote for Kevin, who I haven't talked to enough to feel bad about it.

"tambo"

- This really sucks. I work my ass off, completely dominate two of my three opponents, and then we get sent to tribal yet again. Its like that challenge was designed so Zuma would win. But, I'm not going to complain about anything, I'm going to take it in stride and keep a level head.

This vote is particularly difficult, because I really like my tribe. We all seem to be getting along well together, we just need to work harder on challenges. I mean, I would have loved to be able to spend more time on mine, but working 51 hours in 6 days will kill your free time.

But anyways, by the looks of it, I've become involved with the strong 3 in our tribe, but it surprised me on who it was. I thought I'd be working with Ash and Taylor, but it looks like it'll be Me, Taylor and Ben. I call us the "Tambo-rine 3." Ash will wind up being our fourth, but she believes that her and I are the closest. In this game, the only other person I am looking after is Adam. I want to be able to make the finals, and I am going to do whatever it takes to make it there, and if some bridges must be torn down, then I will use those pieces to make a new bridge.

"tambo"

- So I figured out that Taylor/Kevin have a close alliance, and I think Ben and I are a closer duo than I thought before. Kevin didn't agree to taking out Ben (that now I'm glad about), and I almost gave up on Andrei until he said that we could try for Taylor or Kevin. I know I couldn't get Taylor out, but I thought that I could get Kevin... lo and behold, I'm finding myself talking to Ben about voting off Kevin. Since he and I are playing both sides, we're allied with both Taylor and Andrei, which left out Kevin. Thank you Kevin, for having a job and not being able to be online all the time. And thank you, Ben for understanding reason. If this works, Ben and I will be at the top of our tribe, we'll have the easy, ultimate choice of who to go with, I'll have saved my ally and secured his loyalty (hopefully) and gotten out a powerful duo. I'm 90% sure the vote is going to be a blindside, either for Kevin, or for me if Taylor and Kevin find out and pull Ben in... oh well, at least I'll go out with a bang.