Start To Roughen The Waves/Confessionals

Day 6
"palmira"

- Fuck Nick lmao.

""palmira"

- Well there goes my ""pregame"" lmaooooo, Kaeden going doesn't really mean much to me at all, I'm just happy that it wasn't me! Whew I need some xanex on another note, WELCOME BACK TO MINORITY CITY SAM ITS NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN BACK SO SOON FROM SKYE WOW YOU MUST LOVE IT HERE COME TAKE A SEAT I PROMISE NOT TO FUCK YOU LUBELESS THIS TIME XOXO HOPE YOU ENJOY YOUR STAY " "lucena"

- So my tribe won the challenge which is great because I didn't really feel like going to tribal again. Kaeden ended up being voted out of the other tribe but that doesn't really effect my game so I don't really care. I'm really hoping there isn't a swap next and if there is I hope the numbers can be in my favor.

""palmira"

- Played again! I honestly have no idea. I'm thinking Austin's insistence on a vote split caused the others to seize the opportunity to break up this supposed premade! I'm just happy it wasn't me. that or Austin has some thing with Nick secretly, which would maybe make sense because he cause the split... but be absolutely ridiculous because he suggested we vote Nick AND made the alliances. So not that. Bryce might be a dirty liar or not. I think the four that voted Nick last time did this time(minus Kaeden's for yannick) and either Jordan or Bryce was with us. It's crazy af. I'm hoping that we swap now. As soon as I get the chance I'm flipping on all these people. haha I'm an underdog this time around. I went from on top the whole game pretty much to this! But whatever. My ""revenge"" plot is still in place. And where the fuck are these idols!?!? haha I'm actually laughing at Nick;s ability to survive and Austin's ability to fail while trying to get him. Well.. wish me luck... Imma need it. Also... I knew there was absolutely no way Nick believed Austin's plan to trick him into voting Yannick. Like... nobody is THAT stupid to accept who to vote for in 2 mins then see the results. haha I think it may have been dumb to get Kaeden out, ut whatever floats your boat I guess. Austin was way too pushy. He was too focused on Nick, and it bit us in the ass. " "palmira"

- So Sam you're closest allies have both majorly screwed you in past game, Scott on Tumblr and Evan in Skye, so you're initial thought was to buddy up and align with them? Boy come on you're game is not what it used to be

""lucena"

- I should be distraught that Kaeden is gone. He is a friend, but he is also someone I KNEW I could trust and ally with. But instead I'm relieved. Will was taken out for being associated with Kaeden, and now that he's gone it looks like he had a huge target. The Survivor gods may have protected me from myself. I'm still holding out hope for the swap. Everyone seems to have let their guard down now that they know we're actually having a challenge, but I'm not gonna buy it till we go to the immunity challenge. As an asshole once said, keep hope alive. " "lucena"

- I believe this season is about story arcs. My favorite story arc is Austin voting out Nick but never being successful

"lucena"

- I'm really happy our tribe managed to win the reward challenge and I'm glad we got the idol clue. As usual though I don't understand the clue for shit, but I'll try my best. Hopefully my tribe can pull out a win at the immunity challenge with our advantage.

"palmira"

- Did I just throw that challenge to make sure no one on this tribe gets an idol to mess up any future plans I may have? ....... MAYBE

Day 7
"palmira"

- Oh great! A flashgame, people can see how utterly useless Nick is in challenges as if it wasn't obvious enough already! :D

"palmira"

- I'm a double agent. I told Big Hero 6 that I accidentally voted Nick, and while that is true, it won't stop me from taking full advantage of it. I'm gonna play both sides as long as possible. I'm with Big Hero 6 full heartedly, but if a swap happens, I wanna be on good terms with Sam and Austin.

"palmira"

- Honestly, FUCK YOU Nick, I literally cannot see the logic of fucking keeping you around because you're absolute shit in challenges, and Kaeden spent so much time in the sabotage challenge when you made like, what? 5 posts? Fuck you. I don't know why the fuck EVERYTIME I vote you it's unsucesful, I had to fuck up and get Kaeden to vote Yannick when we could've tied, I honestly DO NOT see A N Y benefit in keeping you in tribal phase, you want people who don't suck complete ass at challenges and you coming up in the Tribe chat like you're all fucking big saying "4th time isn't the charm boo kiss emoticon " HONESTLY, Fuck you! All you had going for you in Azerbaijan is your fucking idols, you had a shit social and "physical" game, and honestly, your strategy was just to ride the 5 guys alliance coats to the merge and you did, then you flipped on us and you fucking got out after your idols ran up, I see you riding coat tails again, because I HIGHLY doubt you masterminded any of the votes you've been in, and if you think people are keeping you in because you're good at challenges, I think you even know that isn't true, because like I've said like 3 times before, YOU FUCKING SUCK AT CHALLENGES, ALL YOU ARE IS A NUMBER, If people take you to the merge it's because you're easy as hell to beat in challenges andyou'd be a fantastic goat! So here's a big fuck you to Nick City, and I will continue to campaign to get your sorry flop ass toad self out of here until you or myself are gone, sincerely, form the bottom of my heart, Fuck. You.

"palmira"

- Idol Find-0

"palmira"

- Austin seriously is the worst player in this game right now. He voted for Nick 4 times in a row like an idiot and sided with a 15 person chat that was doomed to fail. He continually believes he can mastermind the votes and control the people on this tribe, but he's no master player. He's pathetic socially and his strategical game is a farce. It's absolutely insulting to me that he would dare try all these dumb ass plans without even considering the votes of the first tribal. If he paid attention, he would have realized Scott and Jordan voted Will, and Jordan trying to be a double agent wouldn't have given them the votes and would have sent the vote to rocks. They lack depth, perception, and the will to win. Absolutely horrible, terrible. It's hilarious that this game is going my way so far. My ally even found the idol. Way too fucking easy.

""palmira"

- Okay so we just voted out Kaeden which I think was a good thing since he was in charge of all the alliances and whatnot going on in the game And idk I'm just starting to get really sad cause Austin and Taylor and Sam are all annoyed that their in the minority I cleared the air with Sam because I do wanna work with him and all, and I hope he does too Oh and Jordan voted with them but I honestly believe he only did that so he can play the middle some more and avoid getting heat like I am right now So now I have Austin who's begging and crying and using all of his emotions against me for flipping on him Which I never exactly flipped in the first place cause he's one of the one in charge of that 15 person chat thing But idk I'm just really emotional about where I am in the middle and extremely worried that I'm gonna be pre merge for my deceptiveness this time around And I don't wanna be pre merge cause I worked so hard to be here and really make sure I could use the second change to prove myself And it's so emotionally draining hearing Austin pour his heart out to me about the game and I can't help but feel like shit when I hear his speech on how nick should have left for being the weaker person And then Taylor is all like ""well Bryce lied to me about this vote, wtf"" So now I feel bad explaining the situation to them and not really giving them light at the end of the road Like idk I just feel bad because in reality if Jordan is actually with them they do need 1 more person And flipping would be a good idea, but if I were to flip nick wouldn't be the person id flip to vote out cause that only benefits them and not me Idk I actually just shed a few tears about this, and I've never been so emotional in a game where I cried. I mean I yell at a few people and such but never cry But idk, like thinking about it I really wanna play for myself and do what's best for me, but at the same time I wanna reach the goals I have set for the season And I don't wanna push those goals aside if I start to roughen the waves to early Like I know right now I'm just doing whatever Evan says, and I'm worried I could potentially just be used by them and then voted out when I'm not needed Cause I don't wanna be anyone's puppet And I don't wanna feel as if I made the mistake by not flipping, but I know if I flip now I'm screwed in a swap situation And the only person from that other side I liked was Hannah who was just voted out Rip I'm so disappointed she left tbh Like I really liked talking to Hannah If she was on my tribe I probably would have ditched the Kaeden plan and join them Oh well, I can just only hope people don't see me as a bigger threat down the road " "palmira"

- So I'm calmer than I was earlier and after I got all my ranting over I got really sad and emotional and cried for whatever reason lmao I know I shouldn't care enough about these to cry but I couldn't help it rip! But I'm in a tough spot now, Kaeden and I were really close and now he's gone and I have to try to desperately claw my way out of this pit that is the minority, sucks to say I'm in the fucking minority and Nick's in majority for whatever reason, probably because he's obviously such an asset in challenges and is the most reliable ally in the history of the org!!! Taylor is by far my #1 ally, the guy has a heart of gold and he and I have been in the same boat of despair along with Sam since that first vote, I plan on staying loyal to those who stayed loyal to me on that vote and didn't vote out Kaeden and that's Taylor, Sam, and Jordan, hopefully we can convince Evan and Scott that Nick is the most logical vote out because he helps the tribe the least, and I know they see that but if they aren't factoring in ability to help in challenges then I don't know what I have to offer them, my loyalty maybe? I think I would be loyal to them if they kept me over Nick, but for now, I'm just gonna go all out on challenges, try to get one of the majority alliance members to vote Nick, and just pray for a swap and that I get with Taylor or anyone else I can trust, honestly, knowing my luck I'll get with Nick, the guys like the fucking clap or something, I can't get rid of him. >_> Soon, hopefully, soon. But if I can't get a majority member to flip, I think my days here on Palmira are very numbered and that's depressing.

""palmira"

- The vote went just about how I expected to - just with one glaring issue. Before the reveal Jordan suddenly revealed that he had voted Nick out... ""BY ACCIDENT"". He went on continuously apologizing, but then reassured the majority alliance that all should be fine should Kaeden had thrown his vote to Yannick. In Kaeden fashion, yes, he did vote himself out of this game and it was GREAT TO SEE. I didn't know WHAT to think with Jordan at first. Is he really that stupid to have casted a wrong vote? Was that a blatant lie and were his true intentions to go after Nick? I talked to Scott about it after the vote and he came up with a good idea about Jordan's vote, and quite frankly, the only idea. What I firmly believe now is Jordan ""accidentally voted Nick"" to play BOTH SIDES and secure himself firmly across this tribe. Think about it. He has Big Hero 6 coming up to him accepting his apologies and telling him not to worry, but NOW he can also go up to minority alliance members alike and tell them he voted along with him. I knew there were holes in his stories because he had said he was being rushed to vote, when in reality he wasn't the last one to vote, Scott was. The whole charade to me just came off as exceedingly transparent, and Jordan, you just broke any trust you had with me. But what now? At the end of the day Austin and Taylor still remain my prime two targets, but Jordan, should I have you vulnerable at any time after a swap or during the merge, it's not gonna be pretty. Also,yesterday, I found it. I FOUND THE PALMIRA IDOL, THANK GOD. This is my first item I've ever received in any relevant ORG of note, and to find it so early on Day 5 is galvanizing. I can honestly say the find was just a biproduct of relentless searching and, at least in my mind, a remote sense of INTELLIGENCE. I looked everywhere. I checked for hidden links via Azerbaijan style, I looked for past edits, I looked for any newly added photos, nothing. So I knew it had to be perhaps planted somewhere within an image? Before you know it I stormed to the logo and voila, there it was. There were actually two idols within the logo, I told Yannick to go after one of them and I do the other, and gladly enough I got lightning in a bottle and the idol is all mine. It's around a year from now that I was in Cape Verde, probably voted out, and swearing to myself I was never coming back to this scene ever again. Fast forward about a year later to today, and I'd like to believe I've been instrumental towards 2 blindsides in 5 days - and now I'm in a majority alliance with the idol in my pocket. I'm gonna ride this wave of momentum for as long as I can and when I know my game is spiraling out of control, which, let's face it, is gonna happen for just about anyone this season, I have the greatest insurance policy of all in my back pocket. It's go time. " "lucena"

- i'm a tired senior citizen so i'm submitting my score. i know it sucks but i pray before i go to sleep that the other tribe would suck even more. if we do lose this challenge, i hope other people would suck more than me. or if i'm really the dumbest of them all and targets on me, i would probably stir up some trust issues. welp, rip in peace.

"palmira"

- By the way, at this rate, I honestly could not care less about going to tribal. Actually, Iemme take that back, I may WANT TO GO TO TRIBAL THIS ROUND. The fact of the matter is that there a handful of people I don't want to trust moving forward - Taylor, Austin, and possibly even Jordan. Should we go to tribal I'm pretty sure I can dictate the vote in whatever way I need to for a majority. I say this because after the vote I had lots of people running up to me. I made reassurances with Jordan, I let Austin feel safe, and I can say the same with Sam too (after Scott and I had to do some major damage control with him). Guess who that leaves? Taylor. I'm contemplating throwing this one, so we'll see how it goes.

"lucena"

- I have been SEARCHING for this idol since day 1 and I am so happy that I finally found it. This is going to be huge and I know it will become very useful in the future. I plan on telling a select few when the time comes, but until then my lips are sealed. It honestly feels so good to know I control the idol and no one else. (Unless it's a fake which is possible, but unlikely)

""lucena"

- ETHAN FOUND THE IDOL AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW YOU HAVE NO IDEA. IM JUST SQUEALING THIS IS SO GREAT " "lucena"

- I'm 99% sure I know what/where the idol is. It should've been obvious to me, but I'm a dumbass. It may not be the idol, but it's the last place I can think of and hopefully no one has found it yet. Otherwise, I need to find somewhere to latch onto if we go to tribal. Felix has told me he's on the chopping block but I can't believe we'd put a strong challenge performer up this early, especially when we're on a hot streak like we are right now. Hopefully he or someone else is though because I need to weasel my way to a tribe swap or the merge.

"palmira"

- Yeah so I'm a shitshow at gravity sperm - or gravity worm whatever. Pretty sure we're taking a big fat L this challenge but I wanna get somewhere around 7000+.

"palmira"

- So i probably know what some of y'all are thinking, "oh god he's snitching again" but it's okay tbh! If it was merge then I would be making a stupid ass move, but this is more or a trust move, like I'm picking sides so to speak, and like I'm highkey sorry Austin but I don't choose you

""palmira"

- I'm considering telling Sam that I accidentally voted Nick. I don't wanna tell Austin because we're Voting him out most likely. But if i tell Sam, I'll tell him that I can keep him safe, which is my plan. Austin, then Taylor. If we can swap and Sam is still in, I have options. My second chance is to prove that I'm a contender. You don't become respected by being loyal the whole time. You get respect by Playing the game, with a capital P. " "palmira"

- So first Jordan messes up a vote and now he messes up a challenge. IT'S NOT THAT HARD TO KEEP YOUR SHIT TOGETHER. BRUHHHHHHHHHHHHH

"palmira"

- My paranoia is growing, my alliance is cocky as shit, I'm on a cruise and can't talk to everybody like I need to, I payed $16 for an immunity challenge I couldn't do, and I feel like I'll be the one to take the fall when we lose and this game will go on without me. It happens every time I have a good social game going, I he nice to EVERYONE while my majority alliance gets cocky, we lose/they throw a challenge, then we go to tribal and some outlier comes in and flips the vote (Scott/Jordan in this scenario) and they decide to take out me, who was nice while everyone else are assholes to them. I just feel it happening and when I tell my alliance we need to play and try and win challenges, they laugh it off and tell me I'm crazy. It's happened TOO MANY DAMN TIMES TO ME where I just know it's coming. I'm trying my best to get on Scotts good side so if he does flip, it won't be on me. I also want Taylor gone because I've heard when the vote went down and he saw I "flipped", he was after me. I actually like Austin and want to play the game with him, but to do that I would have to flip on Team Youtube - which I feel like I kinda want to do, but it's too risky in the long run right now. They cover my bases either socially with other people, or as targets bigger than mine. To say the least, I'm probably thinking of the worst case scenario, and I just need to ride the wave.

Day 8
"lucena"

- yawn. except i don't WANT to go to tribal im not looking to recreate java. but yawn in the fact that i kind of need to make sure this alliance sticks together and we can't really test it

"palmira"

- Losing that challenge was a win-win scenario because finally, the menace will get destroyed. GOODBYE

"palmira"

- This game is way too fucking easy right now. My alliance controls the idol. Game, set, match.

"palmira"

- Zach is such a hot mess. Like literally our whole tribe is unified in wanting him out and he isn't even on our tribe. Stop trying to be relevant.

"palmira"

- So I've talked with yannick and Evan and they both seem down to vote Bryce out because he's on his cruise and wont be able to do much at all which sucks because Bryce is a cool guy and god player too when he's here but he's dead weight currently due to everything going on in his life right now, but hopefully I'm not being lied to which I honestly don't know why they would be because I busted my ass this challenge to make sure I helped and got the highest score on the tribe, and I got second highest overall, but they could easily get me out right now and keep Bryce because he'll vote with majority and if they go back to tribal they can just pick the rest of minority off but I honestly don't know what the fuck type of plan that is but knowing this tribe they probably will do some stupid shitlike that like honestly I'm just praying for a tribe swap so i don't have to be on fucking Palmira anymore, I honestly do not like this tribe and I only really 100% trust Taylor, and Sam and Jordan I trust them partially, and I kinda trust Scott but tbh Evan just seems shady but he could not be and for my sake I hope he's not, all I know is this season is crazy as hell and if I'm out right now I'll be really upset because there isn't a good reason to vote me out at the moment honestly because I'm helping a lot in challenges, I can be loyal if anyone on here that's not Taylor stops acting shady as fuck but yeah that's all for now, I just really hope everyone isn't being a bitch ass liar and voting me or anyone else besides bryce :~)

"palmira"

- So first things first Zach is the BIGGEST DIPSHIT for posting that for everyone in this game to see. He's really not only just talking shit to Jordan, but to a tribe of 9 in a game of 18 MOMENTS after they lost a tight challenge. I knew heading into this game that Zach would be a sheep among wolves, just based off his mediocre campaigns or his social demeanor, and his idiotic post really helped just prove it. He reminds me of a Josh Sacker 2.0 (just without as much delusion), and I swear to god if I ever see this kid at a swap I'm lighting him up with the most lopsided vote possible. What he did was quite frankly one of the most obnoxious things I've ever seen in my history of playing ORGs, and I'll be so fucking damned if I see this idiot get dragged to the end and outrank 95% of this cast just like Josh in Cape Verde. I'm not letting that happen, I've already heard the idiot is on the outs of Lucena and I'm not surprised one bit. Normally in Survivor you keep your emotions in check, but I decided to blow his shit up on that post to prove I'm not as much of a gamebot as people would like to think. That and I couldn't care less about making an enemy out of Zach in this game. Literally what he did was the equivalent to a bench player in basketball that, let's say, scored 4 points in a 92-89 win talking mad shit right after the game. ZACH, YOU'RE BAD. I'VE PLAYED WITH YOU BEFORE. So yeah. I'm going to throw Zach out the window if I ever get a chance. Kid has the IQ of a walnut

"palmira"

- So this really sucks, but I think I'm gone this round. Nobody is giving me a straight answer about who is going, they're all saying Bryce but I don't believe them, I just have a feeling that they're voting me out and it's probably over them stupid pre game rumours which have already screwed Will and Kaeden. Ugh it just sucks because it's not true and I could be paying for something I didn't do.

""palmira"

- As for the vote, this one will be pretty simple and it's nice to not have a paranoia-induced round in a game where I know there will be, you guessed it, LOTS OF PARANOIA-INDUCED ROUNDS. Austin dug his own grave. Sam came up to Scott and I in the Three Musketeers Alliance (yeah that's what we're called now) and mentioned Austin trying to bring back the old band together, aka all the Nick voters. Then Austin has the balls to still approach everyone else individually left in this game to align with him individually. Now he wants Bryce out for the obvious reason of Bryce's 0 in the challenge, but the fact that this vote is most likely going to be unanimous against Austin is more so a testament of Austin's overplaying than it is of Bryce's social game. See, most of Big Hero 6 went on call last night and we decided to have Jordan and the rest of us drop subtle hint bombs to Taylor last night that Austin should go. Taylor's desperate, and as we compared what he was saying to us on call we slowly got him to drift to the vote out Austin bandwagon. So now we just let Sam know everyone wants Austin gone, and there ya go, we got a unanimous vote this round. I like Austin personally and I think he's a good person but the gameplay just wasn't there this season. He honestly just played on Azerbaijan so I could understand why, and I think maybe with months off or more orgs played he could've done better this season. He just thrust himself way too often in a leader role and it's not something I feel like dealing with anytime soon. Sorry brother " "lucena"

- So apparently some people can dish out trash talk but they can't take it. You got Bryce, the guy who quit at the FTC his season and really doesn't even belong back, calling me obnoxious but being totally ok with Jordan and Yannick. Then you got Evan, who should be used to losing because he is a Johnny Manziel and Cleveland Browns fan. They're both ridiculous.

"lucena"

- I'll let Zach argue with the cocky palm trees at the same time giving him arguments. Then Ill talk to him about in pm to get a mutual topić. I need a goat

""palmira"

- aoweijfaowiejf fuck this Zach kid. His self-awareness is just god awful. DOES HE NOT GET THE MESSAGE THAT IF AN ENTIRE TRIBE WANTS YOU TO POST A SHIT TALK POST ON THE WHOLE PAGE, THEYRE USING YOU AND SEE YOU AS A GOAT. I had to keep combating the idiot. I really just had to, it would probably have been better if I left my one/two comments and just shut up, but this kid is so fucking moronic and nothing I say is passing through his crooked skull. And I already know what's gonna happen, should Lucena go to tribal they're gonna keep Zach to go after me. Like these players are the fucking worst. There's always one immature dumb fucking goat every season that is dragged by the balls deep to the game before they're no longer useful. Sometimes they're even taken to the end. If this kid isn't a unanimous boot over there that'll be a giant fuck you to me and that's fine. Literally Zach is pissing me off so much I would contemplate using my idol premerge if I ever ran into this dimpus at a swap " "lucena"

- HALLELUJAH we have won that damn challenge despite me flopping so damn hard and throught i was gonna get hannah'd. but screw that, we got some breaking news right now coming to you live in the group wall: https://38.media.tumblr.com/e2ee91de2d5c80ce93147ed58765cefd/tumblr_n9du6loHuB1rd9ttuo1_250.gif

"palmira"

- Looks like today is the day I can vote out another Azerbaijan member. I'm so glad that Austin will be leaving tonight and by a possible unanimous vote. Honestly the kid brought it upon himself.

""palmira"

- So I'm SUPER uneasy about the vote tonight. Austin thinks Bryce is going home, but everyone else on the tribe is telling me Austin is the target. All I can do is hope that stays true. Austin is my closest ally, so this vote pains me to make so early in the game, but it has to be done. He's made himself a target by playing too hard too fast. he is considered the new Kaeden. I made up with everyone after last tribal. They heard of Austin's other alliance to secure the vote that involved Scott and Jordan and became suspicious of his true intentions. I saw this coming. I knew he was playing too hard from the start of the tribe. Luckily he's the shield in front of me I need. I'm starting to become so under-the-radar it hurts. I need to ride it out until I can get a chance to do something. I just don't want to turn into the perfect goat bc that's how I feel right now. This vote is supposed to prove my loyalty to the tribe. I made Austin into an even bigger target just by being honest with people I've been told. I told Evan that Austin did form that alliance to secure their votes, and he should have just told people that. I don't get why he didn't. I pretty much told everything I know. Buuut something still makes me feel uneasy. Like... something smells fishy around here, and it's not whatever's in between Yannick's legs. I am a little concerned they want to target me over things I said about Bryce. They might thinkg Bryce and I are too close or aligned or something. I might have said too much when I was upset about him betraying me twice. Yannick was being weird with me. He said this vote will prove my loyalty then questioned how close Bryce and I were from the last time we played... soo things are just making me nervous, but there isn't much I can do. Wish me luck... I need it. " "palmira"

- Everyone here is saying that Austin is a done deal, and it probably is a done deal for all I know, but I have my little buddy Mr. Anxiety living in my head and that little bitch isn't paying rent

""palmira"

- I kinda feel bad for Austin, because I do like him as a person, but he's playing way too hard. He's more of a liability going forward than an asset. Yannick, Evan, and I decided to be straight up with Sam and Taylor about the vote too. We thought that tribal unity is what's important here. I also told Sam that Evan said that, ""I don't fault Sam for any of this. It's not his fault he got grouped with Kaeden and co. I actually really want to work with him going forward."" That wasn't necessarily true, but not false either. Evan and I really like Sam and I feel like he would be loyal. I finally feel like I'm in a good spot. I have Big Hero 6, I have Sam/Taylor, and within Big Hero 6, I feel like me, Yannick, and Evan are the core of it. So if we did have to vote someone out, I think it would be Scott or Bryce first. But I hope that day never comes. " ""palmira"

- So Nick just told me all hope is lost and the votes aren't there to save me, which I wish he was lying about but he seems genuine, I would've never though nick would be the one to break it to me but I'm sure he doesn't feel that bad because it isn't him but this honestly makes me SO mad, I tried so fucking hard on that challenge and if what Nick is saying is true then Sam, Jordan, or Taylor the 3 people I thought I could put at least some trust in fucked me over, I am HONESTLY so done with this fucking tribe, Scott got the orgscar for most trustworthy? My ass. All I've got from Scott is poor attempts to act like he's even slightly interested in keeping me, and the first vote he was along with all the other fucksticks voting Kaeden out, and Evan, don't even get me started, if Nick is telling the truth then thousands of lies have been pouring out of Evan's mouth, and why they feel the need to lie to my face ESPECIALLY Evan, confuses me because I literally can't do anything with the numbers I have right now if I actually am as fucked as Nick told me I was, Evan told me he has no reason to lie this much pre merge, that he wants me in majority with him and Nick, that he wants to keep me with him, that he wants to keep people that will help in challenges, andI could go on, but I would be typing for forever because basically every damn putrid thing that has exited Evan's stupid ass mouth has been a LIE, honestly, fuck him. I cannot fucking stand this stupid ass tribe, and I feel SO disrespected that so many of them would lie to my face and NICK, NICK CITY of all the shitty ass liars on this tribe would tell me I'm going, I've been on such an emotional rollercoaster these past few days of this game and I want to be here, I am so disappointed we didnt swap at 18 because that could have given me a new lifeline but as of now, I'm just a sitting duck, a deer in the headlights, I can't do one single fucking thing to save myself and it is BEYOND frustrating, Fuck Palmira. Fuck the color orange, fuck Evan, I am just so SICK of all of this. "