Board Thread:Season 31 - Retribution/@comment-24371892-20160311012804/@comment-25768771-20160311025838

''What were your thoughts as the game went along? ''

As the game went along, I tried to keep my thoughts on the downlow since I had no idea who to trust early on in the game. I started off in a rough spot since I was throwing up constantly and had a really high fever the weekend the game started, so I wasn't able to make as many social connections as I would have liked to begin with.As it went on, I made it so I was expendable to anyone who needed a vote since I didn't see anyone as my ride or die on original tribes. That was my mentality all of premerge cause my first goal this season was to make merge.

When we merged, I wanted to be the one to make the moves. I insisted Nick/Jordan tried to vote Evan out with me the first merge vote and tried to get Boo/Grace onboard, who would then send it out to Ethan/Dani since we needed numbers. That didn't work out since Evan played an idol. As it went on, I was left out of the Dani vote cause people thought I was close with her (which I wasnt lol). When we unmerged, Grace and I were in minority. At first my thoughts were ditch Grace and see how I can do with Evan/Lucas/Michelle, but Grace thought she could get Evan to vote out Lucas or Michelle so I thought it was a good idea to stay loyal to Grace. I won both immunties so I was in no threat of going to tribal.

When we remerged, I took a lot of what you had to say in heart. I thought I could use the remerge as an attempt to show my true colors and stand out as a player by trying to get you/me/michelle/lucas/jordan to be a group of five since we were all labeled goats. Although I had no intentions of aligning with you/Bryce, somehow people thought I did and Jordan left cause of that.

Grace and I called and she explained it to me, but I just had the "play it up that your okay and wait for the right moment" mentality since I put a lot of my trust into her and Boo so I realized they were never giving me that same level of trust. Later on that night I kinda had a mental breakdown the night after the Jordan vote because the feelings I had triggered past experiences (i refuse to publicly express it all because I would rather not expose my personal life to everyone in the community, especially those I don't know) and it hit pretty close to home. I use ORGs as an escape and way to cope with my everyday irl issues, and this was an instance where the two coincide with one another.

I was done putting trust in people who didn't give me the same. Done sticking by people who weren't going to treat me the way I treated them, and did what I thought was best for me before doing anything for anyone else. Which is why from the Michelle vote onward, I wanted to basically do anything I can to get to the end that way I can at least say I accomplished something before I leave the ORG communities I am in and spend time fixing the flaws and struggles I face IRL before coming back (I most likely will be deactivating my skype/facebook once NZ is over tbh)

''What were your failed plans? ''

My failed plans include getting Evan out at first merge vote, making sure Lucas left first remerge vote, and the final 8 vote where Michelle left instead of Grace/Boo. Another failure was voting for Evan that round instead of Boo or Grace. Other then that everything else worked out the way I wanted it to.

''Also, I want to know about the final 6 vote when I went home. If Grace had waited to vote, realized I was being honest with her, and then decided to save me, would you have voted Lucas out over me? Or were you always planning on siding with Evan?''

I would have voted Lucas because I saw that you would have had a shot at beating Evan in immunity challenges and you and I became really close with one another. Plus I was under the impression that Lucas/Evan were a lot closer then Evan/I were, since I knew Lucas wanted me around so he can take out Evan.

''I would like you to compare all 13 players that made the merge to the 13 players from Cambodia’s merge!!! =D None of the Cambodia players can be used more than once. It might be difficult but it works. And that also mean comparing yourself and eachother to a player. Good luck!''


 * Yannick - Keith. Just cause both are pretty funny
 * Dani - Kass. Good entertainment value.
 * Nick - Fishbach. Voted out for trying to make a move against the Joe, but the Joe got back at you.
 * Ethan - Joe. Good at challenges, taken out for being challenge threat
 * Jordan - Kelly - Under the radar social person who was seen as a threat for social skills
 * Michelle - Savage. All about alliances sticking together, and you were all about that with your people
 * Bryce - Ciera. Went off whenever things didn't go his way, emphasized making big moves to everyone
 * Taylor - You're Kimmi. You wanted to make moves in this game that would help you win, but got caught and was voted out for doing so.
 * Grace - Kelley. Just cause they were both iconic queens during their time.
 * Boo - Abi. Kinda went off when he needed to, improved their game a lot second time
 * Lucas - Spencer. Kinda a threat in the beginning, but became more of a goat near the end.
 * Scott - Tasha. Good first season but majorly flopped on second time around.
 * Evan - Jeremy. Had a shit ton of idols, always immune, no one wanted to take him out when he wasnt. Probably also winning unanimously too.