Ready To Start Knocking Bitches Out/Confessionals

Day 1
"sangre"

- I'm immediately getting really good vibes from Toby. He seems intelligent and easy to talk to. I really want to work with him, but I'm scared with him being a returnee. I don't want to look like his goat if we go far together. But that's future me's problem. I'll definitely try to work with him for the foreseeable future. Let's hope this doesn't screw me over.

"lapaz"

- I'm really hoping I edge someone on to have them ask me to be in an alliance first.. I dont wanna be the first one to do so

"lapaz"

- Luca - Cool that you’re from Europe I guess. They’re 67? Ummm….

Ryan- He’s 24. Could see me and him being allies.

Beth- Annoying.

Phoenix - I hate your name. I don’t think it is your real name and it’s fucking ugly. If I had to vote someone off right now it would be you.

Kamen- Try hard game bot. Will try to hard to be the villain.

Tia- Returnee. She plays hard apparently. I wanna work with her and use her as a shield for me.

Zeebem- Annoying and ugly. No one gives a shit if you’re with your boyfriend.

Liam - Quiet / inactive. Goat for right now. I’d work with him.

Overall, I hate my fucking tribe. None of them want to do calls which is annoying asf bc that means i'm going to have to stay around and message these fucks all game. oh well.

"lapaz"

- um- day 1! i'm so excited. really not that much has happened yet but so far i'm really vibing with Ryan! we're super similar so i'd absolutely be down to work with him. Luca is a little hard to talk to so far but i think we could get along! Kamen's v talkative but he could end up being a little gamebotty which is scary, and Beth seems sweet but sis needs to chill with the reacts. everyone else hasn't really said much, so i'll be back with more later luvs!

"lapaz"

- I already got myself a ride or die with my man Will, hes such a great guy overall and we plan on making something work out soon enough...

"lapaz"

- My tribe seems to be mostly asleep besides Luca and I, we've bonded alot this first night and am thinking having two #1 allies isnt a bad idea

"lapaz"

- I know its already day 1 and all but so far I really think my game is on lock, for now, and is definitely not paranoia free. I plan on moving forward with multiple final 2 or 3 deals with my tribe mates, some real, some fake af. For now my #1 priorities are, obviously to win, but if I don't win I really want a newbie to win or my own original La Paz tribe mates to win.

"sangre"

- This first day has been super quiet. I've made connections with Toby, TC, and Nicolai. Tomorrow I'm going to approach them all about an alliance of four. Then, I plan on reaching out to Hudson and Abi about a majority alliance the day after. I want to get a solid majority quickly to ensure I survive the first few votes. I'm probably going to throw the first immunity to trim the fat off of our tribe, so I need to know I have the numbers. Fingers crossed.

"sangre"

- Day 1 of 39 for Toby's triumphant (hopefully) return to Main ORG. 4.5 hours since cast reveal, this tribe hasn't really done much. TC and Micah are the two people I've talked to most, and Nicolai and Hudson have kind of been around? The other 4 I have nothing from, but I'll explain what I'm thinking about the active 4 so far.

TC: He's an interesting one, and was the first one to message me. Jumped straight into "rah rah women's alliances bad" and "returnees need to stick together because newbies will meta-target us". Mans went so fast right out of the gate and I'm willing to roll with it but mostly because someone as restless as that won't be able to play the long game in Survivor, so that's a useful shield for me to have. Side note, but I highly doubt the newbies will try and gang up on us, especially when the newbies are pretty inac, but we'll see.

Micah: He and I have talked the most, I'd say, and I feel like we'll probably end up working together in the early game at least. It's mostly been small talk, but I'm good at small talk so I feel like it went fine, even though he was kind of a conversational cul-de-sac quite frequently, so I definitely shouldered most of the load there. Nevertheless, he's been active, friendly, and social while giving me honest vibes, which checks most of my boxes for an early game ally.

Hudson: Hmm. He and I didn't really talk that much at all, and what little we did was mostly about school, which isn't great. However, that's probably as much my fault as his, so it's not something I'm going to let influence how our relationship forms unless it's a pattern that starts to recur, and it's far too early for that. He's understandably side-tracked by an important real life event, so the fact he even made the token effort to reach out is significantly more impressive, particularly when it's juxtaposed next to the plurality of the tribe that did not bother, despite no such engagement. Of note is that he didn't reach out to TC, so I suspect some meta-gaming might be in play. I can't tell if he thinks we're more likely to be friends because I hosted him in Mesopotamia, or if my reputation precedes me and he thinks I'm going to be the tribe's kingpin and wants to get on my good side.

Nicolai: I don't remember Nicolai being particularly skilled at orgs, but that was years ago and people mature and grow up. Most of our conversation has been about workouts so far, which is GREAT as far as I'm concerned, because they're something I have passion and knowledge about, and he's getting interested in, which is always a super solid foundation block for a relationship, which is something I don't really have compared to the others (Particularly TC, with whom my relationship mostly consists of him thinking I'm smart (thanks, hosts!) and older than I am due to being a law student, and him not liking Abi because he's maybe a bit meninist. I joke...), but my exchange with Nicolai was brief in the extreme, so I have no idea if we've got the foundations for a sustainable relationship.

In terms of more multilateral relationships, TC is already pushing for the three returnees + Micah to band together, which I'm not going to say no to for sure, but at the same time, I've still got complete question marks on so many variables (tribe mates) that I need more information before I commit.

The one blessing of this rather underwhelming cast is that I'm unlikely to get caught up in trying to keep another player safe, a commonality in many ORGs I play, because I just don't like any of them enough. This'll help me play disloyalty much more effectively when necessary, but I'm still loyal enough that I won't start stabbing for no reason. I'm paranoid, of course, about the future, but I feel like I have decent relationships with enough people that I should be okay for the first few rounds of the game, and we'll play by ear there. Of note, this cast doesn't look super physically strong, so if the merge challenges play to my strengths, I might be onto something there, but that's something for way later down the line.

Ahh, it's good to be back.

"lapaz"

- OKAY BITCH HERE WE GO! All of my confessionals are naturally long af bc I'm longwinded so I'm sorry in advance lol. Walking into this game I am fucking terrified like, here's the tea. I know Abi, I know Liam, and I have KNOWN Hudson. I fucked over Abi in Transylvania, I voted Liam out of Reincarnation LITERALLY yesterday, and Hudson? Ooooh boy I love him but I am fucking terrified LMAOOO.

I've played a couple of ORGs with him and have enough experience with him outside of ORGs to know how he plays. He is VERY capable of being the tyrannical leader, the Boston Rob, the manipulator who steamrolls the game. I know he is, I've heard stories of him doing it (note, FROM HIS MOUTH). Hell, I've played like 2 or 3 ORGs with him too, so I know he's capable. I hope to GOD he's either gone by a swap/merge or wants me as an ally bc yikes that boy needs to GO. I don't want to take him on myself lol.

Also, I'm just kind of nervous about playing two ORGs at once. Like, my biggest fear going into this is that I'll get taken out because of outside elements. It just terrifies me, and Liam being here DOES NOT HELP. Thankfully, he seems to be okay with me so idk. We'll see. Besides that, everyone seems to be really nice! Idk there's nothing super solid for me strategically right now, but I've had a lot going on irl, and it is only day one, you know? This is Main, though, so who knows? Maybe I've missed out already? I'm just such a perfectionist, so I'm worried I'm gonna screw stuff up and all I want is to do well. If ORGs are Roman battle arenas, then this is the Colosseum. I'd love to win and to be the player of the season and whatever, but if I can say I played well and successfully in Main, then I will be happy.

"sangre"

- Soo... as we walked in I was expecting there to be a surprise 3rd tribe based on seeing 2 tribes of 6, however, it turns out each tribe would be accompanied by 3 returnees from previous seasons. Hmm. Alright then. At least I know for a fact that by Survivor tradition those 3 returnees are far more likely to be targeted early on than me as long as I keep my big mouth shut. If you ask me, they're all temporary players as no returnee is winning this season, and I can guarantee that.

"sangre"

- Turns out I'm bonding really well with one of the returnees, Toby, and it's almost like a brotherly relationship. He gets me, I get him. He's my Wentworth and I'm his Lauren, only difference being that we're a lot more cuter and bubblier. I could see myself going deep into the game with him, however, I'm fully aware that you can't trust any bitch with no exceptions, everyone will backstab you eventually.

Day 2
"lapaz"

- if we were to lose this upcoming challenge, i would have to say my idea for the boot at the moment would be Tia. she’s barely spoken about one-on-one or in the tribe chat so far. it may be a time zone thing but we’ll see depending on how much she talks today. i find it a bit odd considering she is a returnee- i was expecting them to come in fully ready

"lapaz"

- I fucking hate Luca. Literally I cannot stand him. Everytime I get a message from him it makes me want to blow my brains out.

"lapaz"

- Okay whew it's currently Day 2 like 3ish hours before our first immunity challenge is to be posted, and I'm gonna get some preliminary thoughts out woohoo. So I'm dropped in this 9 person tribe with 2 other returnees and I'm immediately shook because I was expecting a tribe of all returnees... 0-0 oop! But that doesn't really change how I'm going to approach the season. I want to play it cool and play the role of a background character in the early stages. I 100% do not want to be the most well-connected member of my tribe to start, because knowing my aggressive ass that will not end well. I don't want to be the main strategist at the jump. I want to work on building genuine relationships & strategic bonds without shoving my agendas down their throats! Maybe they're into that idk yet.

I decided that for the first 24hrs I'm not gonna go out of my way to message everyone myself exactly, but more so just keep up a steady appearance in the tribe chat and interact with people there. I did pick a few people to go and message first though, picking them for random reasons - they were Beth (because she seemed iconic), Zeebem (because he has the most unique name), and Tia (because she's a fellow returnee + have no history with her at all like I do with Liam). I was also approached by some people too, being Luca, Phoenix, Liam, and Will. I haven't talked a single bit of game or strategy with anyone yet so go me for not being extra (yet) !!

It's not even been 24 hours yet & these opinions are based off not much and are v likely to change, but here are my thots on my tribematesJakeisfake (talk) 13:07, February 19, 2020 (UTC)

Beth: A Main ORG legend-to-be PERIOD!!! She's so fucking cool ugh. She writes essays in DMs and I love it lol she's like my new pen pal <3 In an ideal world she would be my main bitch all game!! But we'll see if that's a viable option or just fantasy

Luca: So far I've spoken with him the most, and he's somebody I've known a decent amount online from EM. But our conversations have been really organic and not at all about orgs or the game, so that's giving me really good vibes about our relationship woo

Liam: He's the other person on the tribe that I knew prior to the game. We played in EMVV last year but I'm feeling like that won't affect what goes on with us this game much. We talked ab random reality tv shit and it has also been organic and cute so yay for that

Phoenix: He was one of the first people I was chatting with after our tribe was formed, and we had some cute banter with gifs and stuff. He seems fun & eager to play

Zeebem: We chatted a good amount about The Circle and that's about it lol but I like his energy

Will: He hit me up and I just replied to him a little while ago so as of me writing this we haven't had a convo yet oop. His last name is Traitor which is a red flag even if it's his real name idc! flaksdjf. He's also cute and maybe I'm intimidated ctfu.

Tati: She said hi or smth like right after the tribe was formed and then dipped lmaooo. She responded to my DM but it wasn't anything substantial rip.

Kamen: He's the one person I haven't had any DM's with yet but we will soon enough. He is young and seems really into the game and I love that. I feel like he'll be somewhat of a gamebot and I know how to work with those kinds of players, so I'm keeping my eye on him

Overall it's a good group!!! Ready to start knocking bitches out whenever the time calls xx

"sangre"

- I want Timi out of here. I get a really used car salesman vibe from them. They keep agreeing with everything I say and not really saying anything. Hopefully, we lose this first challenge, so I can put my plan in action. Timi's gotta go.

"sangre"

- I just met these people but I’m kinda scared on my place in this tribe, I just really hope we win immunity today.

"lapaz"

- I got the case of the 1st day heebie jeebies last night. Just the excitement alone and talking to everyone just makes me want to talk game non stop and I gotta control myself and my paranoia...

"sangre"

- So far I absolutely adore this tribe, it's more active and wholesome than most the ones I have been in before! Everybody checks in every now and again and it's active and wholesome and I love it love it love it. We'll go to tribal at some point and it kind of pains me that this amazing group of people will soon hit Survivor's essence head first and be forced to turn on each other. Well, inevitabilities gonna inevitability, I guess

Here's a quick evaluation of the tribe Toby - God that dude is scary lmao, he is certainly among the more social members of the tribe and he sure knows his social game! He is precisely the kind of guy I would love to be friends with outside the game and, yeah, that's why he intimidates me somewhat. We'll definitely go far together if we stick together, I have a feeling, and I'd like to keep it that way until at least merge Timi - idk, man, we just really clicked with him. He's a dope guy and we talked all day and discussed tons of topics, so I feel like this guy could be a great ally down the road! As a bonus he is like REALLY close to me timezone wise so he is if nothing else the perfect ally for me to strategize with Micah - so I haven't actually talked with him as much as I'd prefer and later on he apparently started going around rallying people for a majority? My man's a little confused, but he's got the spirit, I guess LMAOO We'll see where this takes him and us all, if he does press on Abigail - she's the sweetest ever omg! I haven't PMed her but I will do it whenever I am not too tired from all the socializing and the lack of sleep, she seems like a riot and I would love to just have a chat with her Jimmy - he's a cool guy, I feel like I can certainly work with him... He would actually probably be high on the list of people I'd love to work with, no lie. I feel like I haven't yet seen enough of him, though. Stacee (best name on the entire tribe hands down), TC, Hudson - haven't been outstandingly active yet, most likely due to timezone differences or external (IRL) factors. We'll see, really, how well they do, idk anything about them for now

"sangre"

- I've made flags before, and done pretty well. I'm consider my self really good puzzles too. Constellation seemed like a game I'd be bad at, so obviously I volunteered. I think I got a good score, but we'll find out. I wanted to put where I'd do the worst. Hopefully, my tribe doesn't pull off a win. I have 4 solid allies right now, in TC, Toby, Nicolai, and Jimmy, and I'm about to approach them about a majority alliance. But we need to test the waters early. Here's to losing!

"lapaz"

- Me and Will have officially made a final 2 agreement with each other called "The Golden Guys" after a pun I made earlier today in our private chat. We've agreed to share all of our idol searching clues and where we have already searched in part of trying to find the idol.

"sangre"

- It turns out I'm in a really cute bromance with Toby. You know, Sandra and Courtney's rice and beans was an iconic thing, but Toby and Timi is prettier. I'm gonna play along keeping in mind he could very well be screwing me over, however, I don't think he is at least for now. I need a handsome wingman and that's him. I'm gonna keep his ass safe as long as he looks out for mine. I'm gonna try to lay low tho because dynamic duos hardly ever fare well, and it wouldn't be cute to go out pre-merge all thanks to a cute guy.

"lapaz"

- Tia's abcense from the tribe is really worrying Phoenix and I when it comes to the first challenge. I hate to say it early, but no way is an inactive going farther than me

"sangre"

- Now we have a challenge and an idol system, and I'm still lukewarm on this tribe. TC is probably the person I'm going to be working the closest with for the immediate future, but he's too aggressive for my tastes. Hopefully that'll come back to bite him all on its own, but we'll have to see. Jimmy, Timi, and (to some extent) Abi have finally arrived on the scene, so I have a better grasp on the tribe, and it's still overwhelmingly milquetoast and has the very strong taste of tofu. But, I'll continue my cast assessment from yesterday.

Jimmy: Nice, a bit clueless about ORGs, but I have okay vibes from him. I do kind of see him as being a possible candidate for second boot, especially given that he's apparently telling people he's nervous about the returnees...existing? I feel like he's recently watched Redemption Island or something and is spooked by that. I kind of like him but he's very expendable, so I don't really have any qualms about being ready to cut him if Sangre winds up being pathetic in challenges, so meh. Still a nice bloke, just making a potential big mistake by going against TC and myself, who I see as potentially becoming a decisionmaking nexus for the tribe.

Timi: I'm of two minds about Timi. He's coming across as wayyy too affectionate too early which worries me a lot because he told me that in Canary Islands people pretended to like him and he got blindsided as a result, and that he might be attempting to use that exact same tactic again. Talking with Timi is at least somewhat easy to do compared to Jimmy or Hudson, but it's still rather generic in tone at the moment. The most entertaining part is watching him start to say "bro" to me a bunch because he thinks I'm straight, which amuses me greatly.

Abi: TC is swearing up and down that Abi is amazing, great vibes, super trustworthy, and all the rest. I'm pretty sure he's just pushing his pro-returnees jingoism on me, but whatever. If it secures me an ally with relatively little work that's good, but I'm well aware that'll mean TC will be in the centre of the returnee trio. This is a very much double-edged sword, because it'll mean when someone tries to take a shot at us (which is inevitable), they'll be more likely to go for him under the assumption that it'll divide Abi and I, because he's our only common bond. I will still try to keep up a strong bond with Abi, but I'll try to downplay it because I think TC's enthusiasm for her has been an initial mistake by him because it's betrayed his loyalties. But, I get good vibes from Abi, and she got a high placement in a recent game so probably has a lot more scary meta than me.

Stacee: Oh, Stacee. I was thankful that we had a totally useless player on this tribe, because it's Stacee. I'm not even sure what their pronouns are so I'll go neuter for now. I did read their profile, and I just have to quote this bit because it's gold: "I know the elements to this game. I can manipulate, lie, make people feel safe, and play both sides. You can’t beat that unless you’re a real legend." By this definition, a mop with a mangatar drawn on the handle would be a "real legend". Nobody I know has spoken to Stacee, they have sent a total of a single message into the tribe chat (directly after cast reveal), and are in general looking useless. TC has a proposal about trying to keep Stacee around to use as a shield, and that's...something. I'm not against it, but I'm in no way going to propagate this strategy as it stinks of something that the other players would read as bad faith Survivor play, and that'll rub them the wrong way against the mastermind, especially if you're purposefully keeping someone totally useless around for a pretty cynical purpose. PLUS, the way I normally play the game, germinating threat culture so early would just be a huge mistake, because that's the sword I tend to die on. So, I'll go along with it, I think it's a mistake, but it's a mistake I'm willing to let TC make on my behalf.

So, that's the Sangre tribe! Let's see how things develop and if I can grow to enjoy the taste of plain room temperature white bread. I'm not excited though...

"lapaz"

- at this point i'm really confused...i don't know if Tia has something else going on, but i've seen her online more than anyone else on my tribe and yet she's talked the least. she hasn't even opened the tribe chat for a full day, nor has she been responding to PMs. it seems like a few people are on the same page right now in terms of being a bit confused by it, so she very likely at this point will be our first boot.

"lapaz"

- So i just finished doing my part of the first immunity, which was the Missing Vowel shit and I had to go against mister Toby from the other tribe... and it went terribly ctfu. First round category was Franchise Mascots so we were neck and neck, then they dropped Dance Styles for the next category..... flaksdfjs honey my awkward introverted ass knows nothing of that so this was a big flop. And I'm pretty sure Toby is like.. into dancing if I remember correctly?? so mess for me! Anyway he creamed me and now I must seek revenge against him eventually, period! Just kidding, maybe not hehe.

Besides that tragicness.... Queen Beth misunderstood the challenge and ended up submitting her flag like 2 hours into the challenge lkfajsdf and it was a bit of a mess. But she can do no wrong in my eyes so we still stan lmfao. But with my loss and I'm assuming hers too, that leaves us 2 points down out of 5 so unless the rest miraculously slay the speed part, the puzzle, and the flash game, one of us getting 18th! All tea all shade, it'll probably be Tia because she is MIA and frankly none of us fuck with that. We shall see :)

Also in other news Zeebem came to me and asked to be allies. If he approached me like this, chances are high he's approached others the same so... keeping my eye on him. I can't say I trust anyone yet but I also can't say anyone is distrustful, but I'm keeping my claws ready because I know these hoes aren't all as nice as they want me to think they are.. Ready to snap if provoked, always.

"lapaz"

- i flopped the challenge so hard, tia baby please stay inactive so i can survive. i think even though i sucked i should have good enough social bonds for the first vote if we go?? i'm trying my best this is scary!

"sangre"

- Okay, so now I have a couple more things to discuss - why my tribe sucks, and how I'm going to remedy that. So, the idol system and this messy messy challenge.

Idol-wise, this is an interesting, low-difficulty and low-randomisation system. I've done some maths based on it, and these are my results - the fastest you can find an idol is 40 hours after the idol system was announced (slightly before the deadline for the first tribal council) which a person has a 1/53,000 chance of doing. That is the lowest bound of finding the idol. However, if I'm going to find how long I expect the idol to be found in, I'm putting at 5-6 days after the initial announcements, so around Tribal Council 3. The reason is because the odds of finding one of the five correct locations in the first three guesses are slightly better than even, which, if that rate of finding kept true, would put the expected time of locating the idol at 15 guesses or so. But, because the proportion of incorrect responses shrinks at a slower rate than the proportion of incorrect responses (if you find a letter with your third guess, the odds of getting a letter in your fourth, fifth, or sixth guess is 47%), it'll be more like 16 or 17 guesses, which would constitute 5 days and 8 or 16 hours.

However, this can be sped up dramatically by sharing guesses. Now, people lie, and they might be lying to me, and I might already be overplaying massively. But, TC and Micah have both been sharing idol guesses with me, and together we've claimed to cover 20% of the grid...without finding anything. I'm suspicious, but I'll let it go for now.

With the challenge, it was kind of a shambles. First, my tribe spent hours and hours and hours just not achieving anything, even though I had a challenge portion that I was going to do basically no matter what. It was just a matter of making sure the others agreed with me, and trying to do it with a light touch. Now, I don't think that the light touch thing actually worked out that well (after about eight hours of wanting I cracked and asked people to actually sort it out and we immediately sorted out everyone posthaste), but things are made a lot more difficult by such minor inconveniences as this tribe not really caring, Stacee having still totally failed to even ATTEMPT to make an appearance, and the Europeans didn't really give any clear indication of what they wanted until nearly 12 hours in to the challenge. Hopefully my threat level hasn't been raised too much by taking that bit of command here, but I got the challenge portion I wanted and won it in a landslide so I'm happy. Physical game still going strong!

Honestly, I'm not fussed on winning this challenge. My general theory in a two tribe season is that, assuming you're at no risk of elimination, winning challenges in on balance better than losing them, because you're reducing the odds of being swapfucked, but this does come with the important corollary that losing some challenges (and losing some members of your OG tribe postswap, especially) is rather important or else the merge is all kinds of messy. I'll get into all kinds of trouble just from my inability to play a boring, long-term game, so I don't need any extra trouble from unlucky swaps.

But, if we lose, I doubt TC's "save Stacee" campaign will gain any traction whatsoever given that total dead weight is just...unsaveable. I may be buff, but even my back can't do enough carrying to keep Stacee alive.

"sangre"

- I've been working on this damn puzzle the whole day and one thing I can say is that the puzzle is as black as the souls of the hosts. That's right Ally, Emma, Hannah, Hunter and Jake, you heard me. For real tho, I'm not confident in my tribe winning immunity, but if we do, cool beans.

"sangre"

- I've been talking to people and so far I've been bonding really well with Toby, Nikolai, Micah, Jimmy, Abi and Hudson. That means TC and Stacee are on my list of people I plan on getting rid of, because if you don't bother to talk to me at all you might as well shoot yourself. TC especially is on thin ice considering he's a returnee thus having an instant target on his back. We'll see what happens, but I only need 5 minutes to have the show rolling. Tick-tock, the clock is ticking.

Day 3
"lapaz"

- tia is still nowhere to be seen...if we go to tribal and someone else gets the boot like-

it is WAY too early to try and make a bunch of big moves when we have an inactive. if i'm the first boot somehow, i'm gonna wreak as much havoc as i can on the way out bc i would be PISSED

"lapaz"

- With this challenge and everyone struggling on their part, the one thing we dont need right now is inactivity. Tia hasn't stopped by yet at all and Phoenix and I are discussing the easy vote on her if we just so happen to lose.

"sangre"

- i am either the smartest person here or the stupidest person here and i doubt that there's any middle ground

"sangre"

- i'm feeling good about the place i'm in. i've heard from multiple people that there's an anti-returnee bias, so i haven't initiated strategy talks with anyone. toby and i are working together, as are abi and i, though i very intentionally worded my allegiances to them as being "i want to work deep into the game with you guys" because if i make it that far i'll probably try to blindside them for fun. it is a pretty positive sign, to me, that almost my entire tribe has come to me to get my thoughts on working together, so i should be able to coast for the first phase of the game.

"lapaz"

- both kamen and ryan have proposed alliances to me!! in the words of chrissy hofbeck, i think that i am dominating the social game- or at least doing my best! i do feel like i’ve bonded at least a little with everyone which SHOULD put me in a good position for now

"sangre"

- Dang it. We won. And I also did the best in the flash game. So now we can't go to tribal and I look like somewhat of a threat. Most people would be happy right now, but the game I'm trying to play requires early tribals. I'm trying to sabotage everything. I'm straight up throwing the next immunity. If you want something done, get it done yourself. Enough of the this hoping.

"lapaz"

- so tia just up and left the group chat...idk. she was probably getting the boot, but i don’t like to see someone leave that way, so i hope she comes back

"lapaz"

- Tia being inactive and then publicly leaving the tribe group chat really makes me angry. Shes a returnie, she should be happy to get a second chance and at least try to get far. So many other returnies wouldve been so grateful for that spot...

"lapaz"

- We lost every trial LMAO. I highkey saw it coming and I'm not upset over the loss at all. Tia also left the tribe chat after results lol and honestly whether she quits or not, I don't think the result of tribal would change. Kinda sucks because this quit is a blemish on the season :-/ I hope there wasn't a real life issue or something, but if there wasn't then this was a dick move smh.

In other news, Luca and I are growing closer and have initiated a game bond so I'm happy. We both talk with Liam and Phoenix, so an alliance could possibly form between us soon. We also shared with each other our idol searches and wiggg we both found different letters already, so hopefully that means we're in the lead for that. I had to get some people to say what Harry Potter house they're in for my task lol it was cringey. But a success whew. Starting to feel like I'm getting some footing in this tribe and it's cute

"lapaz"

- Of course it was quite disappointing to lose the first challenge as a tribe but all we can do is take the opportunity to get rid of some deadweight and move forward.

"sangre"

- TC and Toby and I are gonna have a threesome.

"sangre"

- Hey all!! It's my first official confessional, exciting stuff!

What is there to say? I've done my introduction already but just as a refresher - I'm Hudson, and I'm the future winner of Main ORG~ (I'm not actually this cocky, just trying to manifest victory).

As for my tribe, we all seem cool and pretty dedicated! I've had some good conversations with Nicolai, Toby and TC! Abi seems really cool too, our little "Jill of all trades." Have yet to find out something she -doesn't- do. Maybe I'll make that a little side challenge, discover some random thing that Abi isn't good at.

No one else has made a big impression on me. We'll see how things go -- I like my tribe but it's felt like a bit of a slow start for me. I haven't clicked with the tribe as much as I would like to; but only time can really make a difference in that!

I'm a teensy bit too high for this rn so I'm gonna leave it at that for now fkjjsd prayer circle for Sangre to win another challenge

"sangre"

- Woooooooooooooo! I'm so fucking happy we won the first challenge. I really went all in with the Devil's Puzzle as I like to call it because it cost me the whole day and a mental breakdown to complete. But honestly, imagine losing to us by a 5-0 result. They must feel like shit as they should because Sangre is out for blood. *pun intended*

"lapaz"

- Well this went off to a jolly start.

I absolutely hate it when people sign up to play an ORG and then go completely AWOL - and as a returnee, really? I get that everyone here has played at least another ORG but you still gotta set some sort of example for all the newbies. This is Main ORG, you’re supposed to treat it seriously!! I guess the upside is that Tia was gonna get voted out anyway.

Idk what to think of this tribe and idk what to think of my position right now. Time zones and IRL stuff mean that I haven’t been the most active guy so far, but tbh the others don’t seem like they’re around all the time either. I’m conflicted because normally I’d be worried if I had this little activity, and in some ways I still am, but it seems like that’s not gonna be a huge issue here unless there’s something going on that I’m missing.

Thoughts rn? Lol this tribe has some real messes on it. Kamen stands out because this is supposedly his first ORG, and yet the dude is such a tryhard for everything!! Online all the time, constantly messaging the main chat with feel-goody bullshit, tries a lot in challenges, etc. I like him though, he transmits information to me and I think he’ll go on to be a key player in this season. He has a tendency to jump the gun too early though and I’m pretty sure he’ll end up overplaying and get himself voted out. I know he’s close to Will.

Will on the other hand idk anything about, I mean I’ve had good convos w him when he popped online but that’s about it. Ryan tells me he’s probably talked the least with Will.

Ryan is an absolute joy and I really wanna work with him in this game. We’ve known each other for years but we’ve never played together but he seems so straight up with stuff and me and him are really similar in lots of respects (like drugs, lol). He fancies working with me, Phoenix and Liam, or at least that’s what he told me.

Liam is British so I can’t help but try and keep him in the game bc otherwise I’ll be the only non-American on here and that hurts me as far as time zones go, LOL. He’s still cool though and I’ve had plenty of convos with him that scratch the surface of what being a uni student in England really means.

Phoenix seems cool but he also seems very gamebotty. Idk what it is about him but he feels a bit sketch, it’s p much just a vibe at this point and I hope I’ll change my mind. No matter how I feel about him he seems well connected so I’m pretty sure he’ll stick around for a while.

Zeeb/Beth I haven’t really clicked with so far, both of them seem cool I guess but I literally haven’t had a convo that lasted more than 5 mins with either of them. Will probably look to vote out one of them if we lose again.

Predictions for what’s gonna happen if we lose again? It’s gonna be one of Zeeb, Beth and Will.

"sangre"

- Hi here’s an update on my game and my thoughts on people!

So at the moment I’m loosely trying to follow my pregame strategy, where I would work with the vets and try to appear weak. I’ve been really trying to play up that I’m so nervous and unsure of myself, and that I trust people and their opinions and judgements. I think I’ve been doing a pretty good job of this, I worry that I’m talking too much about strategy and the game. Oh well though, we’ll see! I haven’t been attaching myself to the vets too much. I was thinking maybe we could do an anti-vet alliance, and I think Micah hinted at being interested in that. BUT I think Nicolai really likes and gets along with Abi, and I don’t have a relationship with Stacee at all. I won’t initiate that discussion anyways!

If we go to tribal, I think we might end up putting together a group of me, Nicolai, Abi, Toby, Micah and Timi? I would prefer to vote out Stacee first, but I don’t feel that great about Hunter or TC either. I told Nicolai that I really trust him and will follow him, so I’m hoping that he will kind of take me under his wing, and his supposed relationship with Abi might also help? I’m gonna also try to paint them as a pair, so that they can be shields in front of me. I’m chatting with Toby and Timi a lot but I wouldnt be surprised to see them flip at some point. Micah said he’d really like to work with me, so I told him the same.

With the challenge; I wasn’t able to finish it in time, so I messaged a couple people about it and cried a little bit about how I feel so bad, I tried so hard, etc. I was trying to play up how I’m weak, but I try my hardest.

I regret not helping out with the flag much, it might give people a more negative opinion of me.

Let’s just hope we avoid going to tribal council again anyways, so I won’t have to worry too much! However, I don’t think that I’ll be a target, I think I’m coming across pretty weak, and I think I’ve done enough chatting with people that they don’t want to target me. If we go to tribal, I want Stacee out first, and either Hudson or TC as my second option.

"lapaz"

- This game's looking up for me already! In Caribbean a lot of the people I vibed with from the beginning ended up being taken out early, and I'm really anxious that's gonna be the case again this time around, but at least this tribe is bigger and has a lot more personalities I can easily gel with, so I'm optimistic! Here's a lil' cast assessment of my tribe & my thoughts on 'em.

Ryan - Played with him twice before and he's so much fun! He's also been my downfall both of the times, so I'm definitely keeping on his good side this time around and playing up the naive side of me so he won't suspect my true intentions, but I really do want him gone as soon as a swap or merge allows me to have the numbers against him. I'm not gonna allow this man to get the better of me again, as much as we click!

Will - This guy is hilarious and I'm so glad I finally got to meet him and talk to him properly! It feels like I'm just talking to one of my friends whenever I talk to him so I'm looking forward to playing this game with him. Hopefully he sticks around!!

Luca - I'm SO excited to finally play with this man!! I've heard so much about him from other people and he really reminds me of my friends in real life so I'm looking forward to getting to know him better! I know he's a good player though so I hope he's someone I can depend on later in the game.

Kamen - This guy's cool! We've had a few conversations so far but I haven't really felt as much as a connection as I have with the three above, but I still do enjoy talking to him! Hopefully we get to a point where we talk about more in-depth stuff instead of just "how's ya day" "how're ya doing" etc..

Phoenix - Phoenix's fun! I hosted him a while ago and I think we generally have similar sorta personalities so we're vibin' atm. Just need to delve deeper and talk about more topics similar to the issue with Kamen I think, hopefully we'll become closer!

Beth - Beth's not really talked to me much yet and every time I try to start a conversation she immediately cuts it dead so I don't really know what's going on there. I tried to ask her about the flag for the challenge and she immediately shot me down there just saying she submitted it and that she hopes it's enough.. I dunno if there's just some sort of thing off with me or she's just like this generally but I'm finding her difficult to really talk to about anything meaningful... hopefully it changes as the game progresses!

Zeebem - This guy's just voted me outta Twisted so that's awkward lmao. I'm not really wanting to work with him honestly so I'm hoping if we lose a couple of challenges I can get him gone early on, but for now I'm just gonna be all smiles and see if that earns me any brownie points and gets me off his radar in this game if I happen to be on it again. I'm not repeating that ORG here.

Tia - Who?

& that's the tribe! I'll delve into thoughts on the other tribe come swap/merge, but for now that's my impressions of everyone! This game's gonna be fun and honestly probably quite difficult for me, but I'm anticipating this to be my last Survivor ORG so I'm planning on going out with a bang however it may end! They won't know what hit them.

"sangre"

- Winning the first Immunity was a good thing, especially given it was a complete blowout victory, meaning that the fact I won my particular portion doesn't raise my threat level that much, which is definitely preferable this early on, because becoming a ChAlLeNgE tHrEaT is really not preferable, as I have a very strong preference of not being eliminated early. The challenge was kind of dull, based on Constellations it looks like I don't have a lot of competition for challenges? I hope that's the case, because it'll make my life later in the game a lot easier. Plus, being safe from being first boot is always fun.

Socially and strategically I am thinking I'm in a decent position? Abi is apparently pushing for a majority alliance with myself, her, TC, Nicolai, and Timi. I'm fine with this because I'm working well with all of them and I'd be happy to sit into basically any majority alliance. I think I need to cool off though because I might have come out of the gate a little bit too strong, because I really thought that TC/Micah/Me would be a potential majority alliance foundations, and now that Micah has apparently fallen out of that I might have revealed to Nicolai that I'm a bit too well connected, which would be bad. I think I'm being wayyyy too open about my relationships with other people and it's potentially going to make me a target down the line. So I'll just keep it to small talk social game, with some strategy stuff with like TC, but I need to cool it with everyone else. My only problem is I get sooo bored in Survivor which is why I overdo things. Hopefully I'll be able to pace myself this season, because I realllly want to do well in this game and make the most of my second chance. If I get swapfucked and die because people don't want me at merge I'll be so hurt, so I'm going to make sure that doesn't happen.

Not much happening in the game (Stacee still refuses to appear lmao), but I'm okay with how things are! I do need to calm down before I can be good, but I'm definitely okay. Let's improve this shit now, though!