Punch in the Gut/Confessionals

Day 24
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- I really thought I was going home, but would you look at that, not a single vote for me. Anyway, I really feel like I need to infiltrate the girls' alliance... I might need to take my shirt off at camp like all the time.

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- I am sad to see Jace go. I really liked him... </3

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- ok so like tbh not a lot has happened but amelia just messaged me and they were talking to jessica and said that they think mj would flip before f4 so they proposed a f3 with him jessica and amelia. and amelia told me it's a f3 of us without mj?? but like honestly i'm kind of sad bc i know all of them have f2s and stuff with each other (aka amelia/jessica amelia/mj) and mj told amelia he would only want to keep me around because i'm not good at challenges. so i can definitely tell that i'm like the odd one out among us 4 and i don't really know what to do. like usually i would just try to get close with more people so i would have a backup plan but it's so much different rn because i really can't flip on the 3 of them. i know i'm nobody's closest ally and i guess i'm also not a threat which is a usual spot for me in survivor but like this time it just hurts my feelings tbqh. honestly frick mj imma kick u out of the royalty club if ur mean to me!! mj's the biggest threat in the game rn and i don't trust him. also amelia is a threat too. everybody's a threat lbr i'm just ??? ? idk wtf mj i'm not v happy w/ any of them rn

Day 25
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- what the ____ missy so we were *going* to all vote for erica tonight. that is, until missy decided to go around trying to get me voted out because i'm a "threat". really, missy? really? i thought we were cool. i thought we were gonna go the distance. i guess winning one challenge was just too much. [quite literally shaking my head]

anyway, we're not necessarily voting missy out because of that, but hanne and sora and renz all came to me and were like "umm missy just asked me to help vote you out?" which a) i thought was really funny tbqh and b) was a good conversation-starter with them, and made me rethink the erica vote. originally we were going to vote her because eoin has this idea to make a "girls alliance" and pagong the guys, and i was like "yeah but what if they realize what we're doing" and he was like "oh yeah you're right let's vote out a girl first" and erica was already being discussed just because of her position in the tribe. however when i talked to sora he pointed out that erica's not really a threat whereas missy is so unpredictable that she could be dangerous. and then i talked to renz and he wanted this alliance of me, him, sora, and eoin, and he asked me who i wanted out so i said missy because i don't know if he's close with erica. so basically, by voting missy out we keep sora and renz happy and feeling like they're safe with us, and also get rid of someone who is unpredictable and wants me out. which i think is decent.

i'm feeling pretty good about my social game right now. i have a fairly good relationship with everyone except missy and erica (although after i told her we were voting missy she literally said "i want to go to f2 with you" so ??? idk what that's all about but i'll take it lol), which i think i've achieved by managing to seem like i don't know much of what's going on but telling them just enough to secure their trust, and also just by being friendly to people. i also have final 2 deals with half of the people left - jessica, mj, eoin, and erica - and even though i doubt they're completely genuine, it means i at least have a lot to work with. so my goal right now is to avoid pissing people off as much as i can and try to maintain good relationships to a point where i can still have their respect if i vote them out. which is easier said than done. but i think it's going well so far.

i think after this vote we'll see if i'm in as good of a place as i think i am, and hopefully the alliances and pseudo-alliances will be a bit more clear, because they can be a little hard to keep track of sometimes. sigh. i need a google doc.

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- what a glorious moment, once i saw the immunity challenge, i knew there was no way i was winning, not that i wanted to per say, But once i saw it i immediately went to work figuring out who to try and get outta here once the voting started, and low and behold, Missy blew up her own game. While i originally wanted to get out Eoin, Missy made a lowkey plan to get rid of Amelia, but then back out of it? I'm not sure but all it takes is one little talk with Amelia, and then a new choice of words to make her think that this is her plan to take out Missy and, badda boom were in business. It gives Eoin a little room to breathe before I take him out next week anyway, After speaking to Renz to further the amount of people not going to target me, he has a plan to go further in this game, so we'll see what it is, but rest assure theres going to be a blindside very soon.

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- Erica, what can I say about her? Working with her could sometimes be a pain. First of all, I'm not sure if we're really working together, but with the way she communicates with me, I'm so looking forward to voting her out in this game. Eoin on the other hand is someone who I can really trust, and I feel like I can also trust Amelia. Missy asked me to vote for Amelia, and I just said I'm good with whatever. Sora also messaged me, cuz according to him, "We're in the same situation right now."

If Sora, Amelia, and Eoin would stick together at this point, I think we would make a really strong alliance that would eliminate the people in the power pack of this game, but right now, I think I have to stick with what the majority thinks because that is the only way for me to not break any promises.

Erica, right now, I think is just using me, but later on in the game, she could just easily get rid of me. For all I know, she could be getting rid of me this tribal. Anyway, I would really love to play for a few more days, and it would be really cool if I'm going to make it to the end just so I could prove to them that I am a better player than any of them.

Will and Martynas are definitely the reason why I still continue to give little effort in this game. I want to win it for them, because they were the only ones who stuck with The Elders alliance, and we were all really close before Sora and MJ decided to stir up a shitstorm.

Right now, I trust Amelia and Eoin, and I hope they're going to help me get through a few more tribal councils so I would be able to get a hold of this game and win all the immunity challenges until I make it to the end.

Day 26
"kinavatse"

- YOOOO

OK so last tribal was W I L D. The vote was 6-2-2 but I don't know how the votes fell at all??? All I know is that Amelia, Hanne, Jessica and I voted for Jace. That's 100%. And I guess Missy and somebody else voted for Jace too? ANYWAYS. I have no idea so... moving on. Jessica and Hanne have the Attica/Laconia idols RIP. I guess it's good that they're in my alliance though... But I'm gonna have to blindside Jess at like 6 or something. Idk. I'll figure it out soon ok. Hanne won immunity this round and we're voting out Missy. I think this vote shoouuullldddd be unanimous? and Missy is supposed to vote for either Erica or Amelia. She was told to vote Erica, but she went around telling other people to vote Amelia, so we decided we're just gonna take Missy out, although the plan was initially to actually take out Erica. I think I'll be safe for the most part. And you know what's so funny to me now? I'm one of the last couple of people in the game to never receive a vote. This is sooooooo.... Never in my wildest dreams would I be one of the people to never have a vote cast against them! Oh, ALSO, I have an official final 2 with Amelia now. And my ideal final 4 is me, Amelia, Hanne, and Sora. If I could make that happen....whew, I'd be so happy. But ya. Missy is getting voted out, and I really want to win the next reward challenge so I can get the idol clue/actual idol, and I also want to win immunity just to keep my no vote streak going. :P

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- So apparently I'm the swing vote between her and Missy. I have no reason to vote for Missy yet (Amelia's talking to me later) and since I pretty much organised Erica's blindside why would I vote against her? I also know Erica's voted for me last tribal and she wanted to vote this time again until Renz persuaded her not to. So wouldn't it be darn right stupid to not vote that annoying bitch off, I also basically ruined her chances at reward too which got me a day at the spa. So in her speech she said she changed her mind from me voting me this time because I was harmless...harmless...HARMLESS?!? I have came so fucking far in this game I have been on the bottom to the top, and I did it in such a masterful way I'm beginning to start to build up a resume for the jury so for her to say that I'm harmless is just like a punch in the gut. Amelia is the last one to talk to me about it and she will have to make the speech of a lifetime for me not to vote Erica out.

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- With the help of Eoin, I think I would be able to be freed from the promise I made with Erica. I told her that I'll never write her name down unless it's for the title, but yeah, I hope tonight's the night the power's going to shift to the minority.