The Belle of the Ball/Confessionals

Day 14
"baku"

- What. The. Fuck.

"baku"

- I have so much respect for Jaylen right now, he took the blindside so well and it was so nicely planned, I think the way im coming off Bryce & Felix are gonna feel like I was in charge of this vote when I had just as much part as the other 5 guys did, but it's all about tor perception of things rather than the reality of it, I feel that I can make Felix and Bryce secure enough to the point where at next tribal, they could have idols and feel so safe that they don't play them then we just pick another one off, I've been talking to Ella a lot and feel I've gained her trust as well, if the whole tribe feels comfortable with me, I think I'm in a pretty good position to make moves and put myself and people im tightest with, further ahead.

"baku"

- So Austin's telling me Bryce and I are not on the bottom, which I find a little hard to believe considering they didn't tell us about voting Jaylen. Fuck, in hindsight, I should have told them about the fact that I didn't trust Jaylen myself. Rip jay jay ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) OK FUCK ALL THAT SWITCHING TRIBES WOOP WOOP

"baku"

- I feel sooooo gooood. I made a big blindside in my own. I feel like I can do anything what I want righ now. It's a beautifulllll dayyy

"sheki"

- Welp, production pulled a fast one on us, and I'm once again a member of Sheki tribe. This time however, I feel like I'm literally on top of everything in the sense of alliances and relationships w/ these people. So I feel like I should be really good goin' into this version of the Sheki tribe. That being said...its gonna be a hell of a lot more difficult now to vote a person out of this tribe if we end up going to tribal at some point.

"khizi"

- FUCK SWAPFUCKED hopefully you don't target me again right away! literally how jess said hello they're going to throw it and get me out fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck I like how Clifford has gone to quiet to active real quick THIS IS LITERALLY THE WORST CASE SCENARIO FOR ME FUCK YOU RANDOM.ORG YOU RIGGING FUCK

"sheki"

- We've swapped at the right time. And I got placed in the perfect tribe. Hopefully the idol isn't found here yet so it's time to look for the idol! I'm with Austin. I'm soooo connected with him and I trust him a lot. Nick is so not confident about his spot and he trust me a lot which is perfect. Nifty is ok, just ok. And hunter omg I couldn't have a better sheki member than him! I'm so happy I'm in his tribe I trust him because I talked with him before the game and at the game. He's great! So we already figured out, me, austin and nick, we had to stick together. Nifty and Hunter will be probably going to be alligned. Which made us worrying about idols. If hunter has a idol we will be screwed. I'm going to make a alliance with Hunter and Nifty and acting like I don't trust Austin and Nick. If I get the chance to know if Hunter has a idol I will try to play like he will not worry about his spot and using his idol, sending home. Can't go wrong, right?

"sheki"

- Okay so I was talking like there wasn't gonna be another swap in my previous confessional, low and behold here we are at Sheki! But am I disappointed? Not in the least bit! I'm in majority, again. 3 of the 5 guys alliance I created is together, and Nifty has connections with Hunter so we can make him feel secure, I want to take out Hunter to keep Baku 2.0 numbers up and be safe at merge, since we are the only tribe with Second Baku majority I feel it's my duty to try and keep the numbers up, these swaps always seem to go good for me and im honestly really happy about this one, all except the fact that I'm not with Clifford anymore!! Not happy about that, but I'm already adapting, I feel good with where I stand, and I'm in a bigger power position now and I feel I will be influencing the decisions the most out of the 3 of the 5 guys, I'm very excited to see what the future holds.

"baku"

- So all of a sudden after 5 minutes of talking to Felix he invited me into an alliance with him and Bryce. No. You dont bring me to the apartment for sex FIRST, you buy me dinner first. I dont really trust them, but Ill use Felix for now to get me info. Bryce... Let him think he's Boston Rob.

"baku"

- I have no idea what's going on, but I'm embracing it... One second I think I'm in the majority alliance, Jaylen gets blindsided. Switch happens, 2 Baku, 3 Sheki. I'm fucked. Now Jake N. proposes an alliance to me, like what the fuck is going on today? I'm gonna be cautious with this though, I'm not about to get blindsided again boys and girls

"khizi"

- my entire strategy is to use the facebook gifs because i think theyre hilarious

"khizi"

- THIS SWAP COULD NOT HAVE BEEN MORE PERFECT! I am with two members from Sheki, yet opposing original tribes and in the majority. I think this will be great for me because I do not need to associate with original Sheki aka Nifty's wrath and Jake N's bitchiness and I can work with different tribes. Jess, Jake R and I all agree that we need to stick together but of course there is the fear of the idol. That is why I'm trying to get close to Cliff and Joe so they don't vote me if they use an idol. I am pretty nervous for Hunter because he is the only member of Sheki to switch to an all Baku tribe, so if they lose he is most likely going to be voted out which sucks because it seemed like I could trust him the most. I am really hoping Jake N gets voted out just for being a disgusting human being. Please don't tell me to give you an idol just because you didn't time your idol guesses correctly. I really do not want that kid at merge cause he is going to be one giant flipper and think he's a strategist. This swap did not get me out of a bad position, but I do feel that I'm in an even better position both socially and strength of tribe #ThanksRandomizer

"khizi"

- This swap was going really well and it just got better. I began talking to Cliff and we are making short-term deals to better ourselves until merge. I told him for until merge I will not write his name down, and he promised me the same and that him and Joe would be voting Jess. I just wanted to make sure I didn't have to waste my idol on a bullshit 3-2 vote. This brings up an interesting theory, Jess is a returnee and could easily be aligned with the other 3 returnees. Jake R seems to be alone in this game according to what he tells me, but according to Cliff: Jake R was very close with Bryce and they can easily join forces at the merge. But more important matters: NIFTY, KEEP MY NAME OUT YOUR MOUTH!!! I voted off your obvious f2, sorry that was a good move for my game, but at least have the decency to incorporate the rest of Sheki and admit when a good move was played. Talk shit, make sure I'm there so I can speak my case cause clearly you have no idea how to play this game if you think its about personal attacks. Im starting to think maybe this isn't a numbers game but more so the strength of those numbers.

"sheki"

- It's nice to have the sillence back in camp here. It's a short group and everyone in this tribe is actually pretty nice. I'm not worrying at all on this moment. We have challenge beasts in our tribe. Nifty, Hunter and Austin are pretty good in challenges and sometimes I am as well. I have pretty good feeling we might win or get second in next challenge(s). And if I wanna make a nasty move *shows fake idol* I can always give this little sweetheart to someone. Thanks to Minke I had to vote out someone who I actually wanted to have here and to get rid off at merge but now I had to blindside him already. So giving her the fake idol and making her thinking she will survive could work against her and getting her voted out. But if I want to do that I have to do it fast at the challenge because when we're going to our own camps I can't give it anymore. All strategy for nothing to be honest but you never know. I'm here to get the title of Sole Survivor not to be a jury speech writer and being voted out before finals.

"khizi"

- cliff said that he would have jumped on the sword for me if we lose, but knowing cliff that just means that he sold me out already I feel like the people i could talk to in an attempt to flip them are Jake while Cliff said he's talking to Rob Jake said he's an ORG noob, so i think he could be scared by the concept of returnees especially if idk tribe votes off Felix or Jared I don't think they'll throw because they'd think we'd merge at like 12 or 11 but i'm thinking maybe we're cambodia-ing it and merging at 13 and then splitting to 2 tribes of 5 at ten so i'd just need to hold on for two votes. but make them think they'd need to last for four.

"khizi"

- With the abundance of clues, everyone is starting to believe that the idol has been found. I am not budging with anyone and will tell anyone and everyone it isnt me. I will use my idol as a potential alliance creator, if I see someone at the bottom of an alliance, I will tempt them to be on my side with the idol. Otherwise, this is my idol and I am only using it to benefit my game

"baku"

- I was in a great spot on my old tribe but then of course, the tribe swap happens. I don't trust Minke or Jake but Felix & Bryce don't like me since I asked Jake how old Felix was to try to make small talk and he got all mad like chill dude. It just really sucks because I feel like I'm out whenever we lose

"sheki"

- So, I think the sides after the swap right now are Austin, Nick, and I against Hunter and Ella. My only concern w/ this is Nick potentially flipping over w/ Hunter and Ella, but I'm hoping he realizes that if he does turn on one of us, he has three other guys and whoever they manage to align with after his head--or, at the very least, against him. Along with that I fear for this tribes ability to win challenges, especially looking at New Baku having Felix and both Jakes on there. So Austin and I are really gonna have to kick it up a notch on challenge skills and not be afraid to hold back cause if we lose, we are on a small tribe of 5 again. Not much room to be comfortable in here.

"sheki"

- Why are these peeps talking so much. Wow. Chill out, I'm getting spammed by everyone. Anyway I need a challenge! I neeeed it

"baku"

- My trust with Minke went even more down and I didn't think that was possible. I was trying to talk to her but she kept giving me one word replies so I think its clear the returnees want to team up or something..

"khizi"

- so another tribe swap happened. ugh and i was so ready to get rid of minke and jake. anyway lmao.. i got lucky enough to be with jessica! and rob. rob is the most paranoid person i have ever met so as long as jessica and i calm him down we should be good lmao. i don't think either of them have an idol because one of my bakus should (i hope its felix). but just in case jess and i are going to make an alliance with those 2 and act like we really want rob out. we're gonna be like "oh that rob him and sheki were running everything it was only a matter of time before we were gone" then if they feel comfortable they won't play a possible idol. these people really should get either me or jess out but they won't do that :~). apparently joe tried to make a 4 person alliance to get out jessica? LMAO bad move bro. if we lose joe's ass will be leaving. he keeps complaining to me about how everyone on nusheki hates him and im like um maybe bc u make bad game moves and get caught in them lmao. anyway i feel good with this swap unless something crazy with an idol happens. but i will take every measure possible to make sure that does NOT happen.

"baku"

- So usually I'd be complaining about Jake getting all personal and emotional with me because we barely know each other, but I'm actually really glad about it because if I can become his friend this could really help me out in this situation

Day 15
"khizi"

- My finger work game is weak, sorry laides

"sheki"

- Feeling really relaxed today. I'm going to do the challenge later, it's not a hard challenge for my feeling. So i've also talked with Austin and it feels so good to be with him in a tribe again. But hunter is ignoring me all of the time. Kinda worries me. But we have two plans now. Plan 1- we tell hunter (me and austin) that we want to get rid off Nick because he is 'inactive'. If hunter agrees and nifty is with us too Hunter will not use his idol, if he has one. That will make 2 votes against Nick, 3 votes against Hunter. Plan 2- if hunter feels he will go home we will vote nifty in secret and going to ignore Hunter, giving him the feeling he might go home and telling Nifty to vote Hunter. Two plans that can't go wrong.

"sheki"

- I'm not the best in this challenge but I'm waaaay better in social game. I got Hunter in the pocket, lied that I was scared for my spot in the game. Austin is in my pocket as well. Trying to socialize with Nifty a little bit more so I can get everyone on my side like I had in Baku. I want to dominate the game as much as I can. I want to give everything I have and I'm doing this since the begin of the game. I controlled the vote at Hannah's elimination and made the big blindside from Jaylen. My next plan is to get rid off Hunter since he has connections with people on Sheki and Baku.

"sheki"

- Ella has honestly grown on me a lot, sure she's done some pretty wacky stuff that wasn't so smart but I really feel like I can trust her now because she seems to be being so honest with me and she's really sweet, at first I just had her in an alliance just to have her and gain info if at all possible, but now I actually feel close to her and like her, hopefully this doesn't come back to bite me but I really wanna work with Ella now.

"baku"

- ""I really feel bad for not telling Jaylen about his blindside. But, if I did, he'd blow up everything. He didn't have an idol so what's the point in giving up my mole, Clifford, away would not be logical for my game.""

""So. Apparently Jaylen supposedly had the Baku idol after all. Gah. If this is true, I would have warned him and he may still be here but LOL @ THAT! Man, this has really opened my eyes in this game. That even if you think someone trusts you. You have to remember that some things will stay quiet. But, at least this makes sure that I find that thing before anyone else.""

""We switched tribes. UGH SERIOUSLY BRUH!!!!! But for real, it was a lose lose situation. I went on a tribe where I was on the minority, to another tribe where I'm on a minority. Great. Just Great!""

""Not five minutes after we switch tribes, Jake from Indonesia wants to flip to Felix and I. This is fantastic! However, I feel that he could be playing us. But, nonetheless, I have to go with it. Something is better than nothing and at this point, anything is better than kissing anyone's butt.""

"khizi"

- Cliff found the idol, he told me he has Astara as well which would explain why this is NuKhizi and not NuAstara

"sheki"

- http://youtu.be/uQ45Fu2memo

Day 16
"khizi"

- I was feeling bloated this morning and felt a serious case of the bubble farts coming on. ""Oh my!"" I'd say, sheepishly, as my checks blushed and my right foot grazed the back of my left heel. ""Was that me?"" Heehee.

So I waddled over to the bathroom. There were newspapers laid across the ground because that's where the dog poops. I hopped over a freshly dropped log only to bubble fart and drop a log of my own! OHHH MYYYY!!!

What is going on today? I normally don't shit myself when I go for a hop!!

That's when my hips started shaking. A voice in my head screamed, ""IT'S HAPPENING!!!!!!! THIS IS REAL!!!!!!!!!!! I REPEAT!!!!!! THIS IS NOT A DRILL!!!!""

I'M HAVING A BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My water broke like a hot air balloon filled with pure mountain water. The bathroom flooded. I could hear the neighbours downstairs...drowning.

I latched my arms onto the bathtub with the newspaper beneath my tooshie!!!

I looked at my wife, directly in the eyes, ""I'M HAVING A BABY GODDAMMIT!!!!!! SOMEONE CALL MY WIFE!""

I then heard the single word I only heard once before at a subway station under tragic circumstances....""PUSH!!!!""

And I started pushing!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!! MY BABY HOLE!!!! IT HURTS!!!!

A Damien Rice song started playing as time started slowing down.....as if I was the first person alive, as if I was god, birthing beauty into existence.

It was at that very moment when I heard a cry....not just one cry.....two....

Oh my God....

I'm having twins.

Nothing prepares you to be a mother. But in that moment, when I picked up not one, but two hidden immunity idols from the placenta on the floor...I knew one thing was sure.

""'I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, As long as I'm living, my babies you'll be.""

"sheki"

- NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I was so freaking close to the idol. I had it right! It was freaking Mark Caruso! Omgggggg this really sucks. Hunter has it, it has to be Hunter. And if I get idoled out, with the sheki idol... I WILL BE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MAD

"khizi"

- The tribe swap was crazy! First we're three tribes. Then we're two tribes. Then we're three tribes! Sit down. Stand up. Sit down. Kneel. THIS FEELS LIKE CHURCH.

Hard to really dig your feet in the ground when the ground keeps shaking.

Joe and I don't have the numbers. We end up on a tribe with Rob, the villain from original Sheki, golden boy Jake r and the Scream Queen herself Jessica. This girl has got the game under her thumb. In a great position socially, she's made it far before, she's got relationships to back her up, Rob and Jake are her diligent soldiers.

I got these two idols in my pocket so I might be full of surprises! But in the long run of this game I'm going to fall back on the relationships I've made.

It's been so long since I've seen Minke. Am I still in her long term plans? My man Austin is getting a little too cozy to Nifty. Is this going to be a problem? Bryce and Felix got burnt by us but is there any residual backlash I can look forward to? Nick! Am I in his good books or on his hit list? The past could very much come up to haunt me. And what about Ella? She believes we pulled off the Jaylen blindside ourselves which is just not true! The 5 Guys Alliance wanted to do it for like over a year but getting Ella on board.

What people don't know is I knew Jaylen had an idol. He slipped up on it a conversation but didn't realize he did. There was something about his wording that made me think, ""You wouldn't say that unless you had an idol."" Before the vote I tried to Bryce to subtly find out if he had one because if he did, I wanted him to play it to get rid of Nifty. But the dude remained guarded as always, and I wasn't about to blow my game for him, tried to give him a small opportunity and he didn't take it. Didn't pick up on the social cue. Which saddens me because I'd much rather be sitting in the end. If I have it my way, Joe and Bryce will be sitting next to me in Final 3.

Austin dude, one day when you read this, you'll know, there's no way I can go to the end with you. I would lose.

You're probably wondering why I'm obsessing over the final 3 when we're not even at merge. Because that's how I look at every decision I make in this game. As much as I love two idols in my pocket and know they can def save Mine and Joe's ass. But then we're bigger targets down the line. I'd rather hold onto these deeper into the game.

"khizi"

- At the very beginning, I had the choice to cut Alex or Austin to decide how I was going to play this game. I chose to keep Austin and cut ties with Alex because he was too much of a liability for me in this game. I had blood on my hands 3 days into the vote, burned an idol, solidified allies, and got rid of a personal threat. Only to follow it up by in the majority alliance on my new tribe but an informant to Bryce to maintain his trust because he has pull with Felix. I used that time to get super cozy to Ella, the belle of the ball. And now, here I am with Joe, in an underdog's story. And as each story takes place, I need to keep one thing in mind. I'm the narrator of this story. I am the creator of my own fate.

"khizi"

- If I were to find this second idol it would be ideal, of course having one idol is amazing but with this second one, I can form more bonds with people telling them I have the idol which can help us usurp the power at the merge. But I have to play this right, I want to pull a Parvati and tear it up with the idols, not a James and get voted out with both of them in my bag.

"sheki"

- I'm still pissed about the idol. I've searched whole days for the khizi, baku and sheki idols and now it's just grabbed in front of my eyes. I have my fake idol which I can use as my shield. Jaylen had obv the baku idol. What if I tell Hunter I'm the one with the baku idol? Only if I'm the target. About this challenge, I flop so much lmao but Nick is pretty good at it. So I'm just talking a bit, this and that so IF we lose it's because of Nick. Also Nifty just said 'I'm not here before challenge results' like what the hell, are you just giving up? That's pretty weak. So for now I kinda feel targeted in my tribe. Hunter feels safe because if he didnt felt like that he would talked more with me or he's just not a talker. I dont know, just hoping we will win this challenge but if we need nick to do is, I'm scared. Sorry nick but for now you've been pretty useless

"khizi"

- I really dont understand these challenges, I hear the same music each and every theme song! I didnt even know they changed the soundtrack until now so this challenge should be fun!

"baku"

- I'm really confused right now. At the start of this new tribe I felt like it was everyone versus me but now it seems like it might not be and I might be the swing vote.. but I still don't feel confident because the moment you do, you go home.

"sheki"

- It makes me so happy to be immune. First we won reward now immunity. We are not only immune and don't have to vote, I have more time to connect with Hunter. What if we actually keep winning. It worked with Baku as well. This could maybe mean a easy pre-merge game from now. IF we keep winning...

"baku"

- Well this sucks. Now Im caught in between two alliances. Bryce and Felix want me, and Minke and Jared want me. Im the bell of the damn ball right now, and I have no clue what to do!

"baku"

- So we lost immunity. An hour ago I would have been extremely worried about this, because I still don't trust Jake (mainly because of his reputation in Indonesia), but now I actually took the time and talked to Jared. Contrary to what I thought, he's actually a really cool guy and not just Frodo after he put the ring on. He also doesn't really like or talk to Jake and Minke that much, which is music to my ears! So I immediately proposed an alliance to him, which would involve Bryce, Jared and meee, and he accepted. So yeah, this is mostly to keep all options open, in case Jake really does flip on Bryce and I. Once more, I feel safe within the tribe, but then again, so did Jaylen before last tribal council... Hope this works, and I'm still here after tribal, fingers crossed!

"khizi"

- prayer circle that felix bryce and jared stick together

"sheki"

- Ella is amusing sometimes, especially whenever Austin and I share w/ one another and Nick what's she's saying to us and what strategic plans she's trying to make. Yea, that's kind of her weak point in her gameplay; she tells everyone different things and doesn't think to herself once, ""Oh, what if they go and share this info with one of the people I'm targeting?"" Instead, she just thinks that everything will go her way, that no one would dare go against her, and that she's rocking the social game so much and controlling all the votes because of such. In reality, she's telling everyone different things while giving her real plans to Austin, her real #1 ally, and that info is being shared with literally everyone else on this tribe. In short, she's doing a lot of yapping but not a lot of thinking.

"sheki"

- So I've prepared us for tribal if we do lose, even though we've came in first both challenges so far and that's awesome, but my plan is to have Me, Ella, and Nick vote for Hunter, Nifty vote for Ella, and Hunter vote for whoever, I'm more loyal with Nick and Nifty, but I've also been talking to Ella, and she has been talking strategy with Hunter and see's me as her number one ally so she told me she thinks Hunter is gonna play that idol, that's why Nifty is gonna vote away from majority so we can have another 3-1-1 Astara-like vote, she told me that she's gonna get Hunter to believe Nick is targeting him so he will vote for Nick and the votes won't come towards us, little does she know that I'm telling Nick and Nifty all of this and have devised two separate plans which one is better in theory for myself and that's the one with Nick and Nifty that I've been describing, I genuinely feel bad for lying to Ella and I hope she won't scare Hunter too bad into playing that idol because I don't wanna vote her in a revote, and honestly, I may even be able to convince Nifty to vote for Nick in a revote, but that will break up the 5 guys alliance and it could make Clifford not trust me not knowing my reasoning behind it, so I've made this plan to where I'm pretty much safe unless I'm getting blindsided which makes me feel amazing, all I can hope is Hunter doesn't play his idol because I'll have to betray a true friend and ally no matter how I vote.

"khizi"

- Even though I would love for the idol to be in the hands of myself, Jake and Jess for the upcoming merge, it might not be bad if Cliff and Joe get it. If they get it, Cliff would let me know and I would tell them who we are voting, they play the idol, and their two votes (the only ones that count) go to Jess. This helps my game greatly, I get rid of a huge threat of Jessica as a returner, gain allies of Cliff and Joe, and still maintain trust between myself, Jake and the entire Sheki tribe because as far as they know, they just found the idol and guesses who we would be voting. I could also make this interesting and prove my loyalty to Sheki by telling Cliff the wrong person, get rid of the idol, and keep complete trust in Sheki. But do I really want to move forward with all of Sheki?