Board Thread:Season 50 - Kingdoms Collide/@comment-17738489-20181222011522/@comment-24114312-20181222193421

Thank you for the kind words you put in. You said to convince you otherwise so that's what I'll intend to do!! And no don't worry I know this isn't a personal thing, of course I'd love to get your vote but I know these are all your opinions and criticisms about my game and not my personality/character.

So for the loyalty thing, I definitely did want to play a more loyal game than previous seasons but part of what I meant from my speech was that I tried to appear more loyal even I wasn't actually being loyal. So relating this to the final 15 tribal, my reasoning for getting rid of Jenna wasn't the reason that I presented to you (me worrying she would flip), it was because I thought Jenna was a vote for Dani's side of the game at the final 13 and Elias would've been a vote for Audrey's. I also wanted to work with Jakey at this point in the game, and I knew you were set up so well with being close to both sides, so in a way it was about weakening you. You were someone I feared would eventually cut me, and so if I could cut Jenna then at the final 15 then it was preemptively striking. I also helped you form that group at the final 15 because I had no clue that Jakey and Elias were going to say that they wanted to work with me, I presented that idea to you before I'd spoken to them and bonded with them.

As for targeting you before the merge, I wasn't gonna vote you off before the merge after having said shit like 'omg I'm so excited for u to merge <33'. Sometimes you did get on my nerves (as I'm sure you got on mine, we're both strong-minded individuals who wanted our own way), but the only time I ever actually made a move against you was the final 12 vote. I realise I could be pissing on your vote by saying this but I want it to be truthful and don't want to kiss your ass to get your vote, but at the final 15 vote you did get on my nerves by telling Jenna she was the target, which Jenna confirmed to me that you did. I understand you did that to save your ally, but to me it was like 'wtf' and did annoy me, just like me wanting Jenna gone to begin with annoyed you.

For our own personal interactions, sorry if I annoyed you in any way!!! I'm sure I annoyed Jared, Sydney and the hosts too. Regardless of if I wanted you at final 12, I felt extremely comfortable around you to the point that I could rant or be like 'bitch I'm tired can I go nap' and it wouldn't affect our relationship. I can also only remember shutting you down once but I had a valid reason, sorry if I did it any other times! And as for demanding targets, this was something we both did to each other, I think because we did feel comfortable communicating with each other like I mentioned before. Also quickly, my reasoning for targeting you at the final 12 was because you were set up well on both sides, even if the other side were voting you that round. I felt of everyone, you were most likely to want a pull a move against me (like if you did know at final 12 that you should've thrown your vote then that proves to me that you would've had the idea to get rid of me). And finally, it was because we didn't see eye-to-eye on the direction of the game and the people I targeted were people you wanted to stay in the game, like Jenna and Cali.

I also didn't need advantages until the final 5. Just because I won them and had them doesn't mean I needed them. I was immune from the final 11 to the end, but I can break down why I was surviving every round except those last two. Final 11 and final 8 were idol plays and I got 0 votes in both of them so it doesn't really count. Final 10, we were in the majority and even if you self-voted, we would've all survived had they voted anyone except you. Final 7, I was in a final 4 deal with Jess/Chelsea/Jared and a final 3 with Jared/Sydney so the only votes I could've got were from Cali/Dani. But if I wasn't immune that round, I definitely wouldn't have left the action like right until the last second because my paranoia would've needed a plan much earlier LOL. At the final 6, both Sydney and Chelsea weren't voting me so at worst it's 3-3 against me. But that isn't to discredit the role of luck, but arguing that Jess and Chelsea didn't have luck is so misfounded imo. Jess would've gone home the Plague round if TJ didn't randomly flip, and Jess/Chelsea both wouldn't have been in the final 3 if Jared didn't find the idol nullifer at the final 7, because that set off the chain of events that led to the fuck up and Jared's elimination since we couldn't just let Sydney play her idol and have Dani go. If the final 10 makeup of tribes are different, aka I was with Audrey and Sydney was with you, then Jess may have got 9th. If Audrey won immunity at final 10, then Chelsea gets 10th too. And that's not discounting the pre-merge, when Jess or Chelsea might've been elimmed if they went to as many tribals as I did. I'm not discrediting their games, but luck is an undeniable element of the game. Although I wouldn't even argue winning immunity is luck - it's an element that I factor in and plan for and which everyone else could have planned around by eliminating me earlier, since I was voted 'most likely to go on an immunity run'. Me being immune from final 11 onwards isn't some lucky mistake, I found the merge idol in part because I had the most clues and sourced answers from everyone else, so Sydney, Jared and I only had like 10 more locations to search in when I found the idol, and it was something that was legit predicted by the cast.

As for Jess and Chelsea convincing me, I mean I can pull up chat logs where I legit said to them 'don't bother campaigning to me' because my mind was set up without any influence from them. At the final 5, I knew that if I wanted to flip, I had to flip to get Jess out that very round and then vote Cali out at the final 4, so the option was there to me and I knew I could've done that if I wanted to. I exploited Jess' paranoia to find out if Chelsea would vote against Jess - I asked Jess if I could ask Chelsea if she would vote Jess, so that Jess would know at the final 5 if Chelsea was voting against her. Chelsea saying she wouldn't then confirmed to me categorically that I had to pick my final 3 then and there, BUT Chelsea and Jess didn't even know I was weighing up my options that round by asking Chelsea that. My final three was going to be Jared and Sydney at the final 7, not Jess and Chelsea, so there was no influence on their part in my decision-making. I've said this to both Jess and Chelsea but I always assumed they were voting me out as soon as I lost immunity, infact hearing that Chelsea wouldn't have genuinely surprised me!!! So I wasn't fooled by them in any way despite voting with them. Maybe I've misjudged it based on what you said, but I thought Dani and Cali would have more jury support for being underdogs. The blame is on me, but equally with a jury of 13 people like it's sooo hard to tell because a lot of the jury were eliminated when Dani and Cali were at their peak underdog levels and Jess/Chelsea were less known quantities in the game.

ANYWAY, THANKS FOR THE VIDEO. If you vote me that's greatly appreciated but if not then like ya I know it's not personal LOL no need to worry about that. Just like from ur tone, I can sense you know anything I did was game and not personal either so ya LOVE U SZY and glad to have reunited after like 2 years and have fun in Poland lmaoo