I Can’t Just Give Up/Confessionals

These were the confessionals made within this episode.

Day 34
"oussou"

- I FUCKING BEAT MY PLACEMENT FROM NZ HELL YEAH AND I WAS ABLE TO GET ROB OUT WITHOUT VOTING HIM AND MAIS IDOL IS GONE AND NOW I JUST WANNA WIN MY WAY TO FTC IM FINALLY READY TO WIN SOMETHING F5 BETTER BE ENDURANCE!!!

"oussou"

- Brittany, this plan is really great, but don't take credit for it boo. If you weren't stoned last night, you would have thought of this earlier. :) Still love ya tho. They claim I'm not an outsider, but being out of all their loops this season isn't a great sign for me. Thank god I won immunity, so this potential ""alliance"" is starting to crack. Let's pray I can finally get Mai out!

"oussou"

- Anyways, I'm beginning to feel as if winning challenges is going to make me a threat, but it's not like I don't have a target on my back regardless. At the end of the day, these challenges are gonna secure my safety so at least I'll have that, and hopefully this advantage brings me to the final four. Also, some people really showed their true thoughts in this challenge, might bite them in the butt sooner than they think.

"oussou"

- I need to somehow get Brittney the fuck out of this game I need Mai to trust me and for Ally to trust me aswel

"oussou"

- ugh now im gonna lose immunity and head straight to ponderosa

Day 35
"oussou"

- MAI IS SO CLOSE TO THROWING THE IMMUNITY FOR ME SO THAT I PLAY THE FAKE IDOL ON HER

"oussou"

- lmao ally is trying to get me to throw this challenge slay me. why on earth would i do that. i mean like shes probs gonna win bc of the advantage but girl im fighting for my life out there NO? ok she might have an idol she might not but she wouldnt use it on me anyway lmao so im gonna try my best on immunity again, i guess i know ive said this a million times before but this freaking sucks

"oussou"

- I'm Estefana Trying to call me a goat as she literally had no strategy the entire season AGAIN meanwhile I'm the reason half the jury left

"oussou"

- OH MY GOD I THINK I SUCCEEDED IN SWITCHING THE TARGET FROM ME TO ALLY.BRITTANY AFJGYFYSG

"oussou"

- well so after the reward results ik ally will most likely win immunity bc of the advantage (if she does not win im targetting her lolololol we both knew we hate each other anyway) SO, the only way i can survive this round is to pull the trigger @ brittany. I came to stef playing the victim card lmao like i started rambling bout how im not a threat comparing to britt/ally (typical!) and hurt it was to see ppl thinking im the one whos most likely going to stab them in the back while ive always been so truthful about my vote with her and shannon (so fake i know) And then she told me not to think like that and she wanted me to stay this round ;/; I mean yeah of course at first i did not buy it at all but then the convo started getting serious and you know when someones finally getting serious, you shut your mouth and let them talk. And i think she kind of spilled more than what she intended to. Like she started talking about how much of a threat Brittany is and now were trying to form a plan together!! idk if shes just playing me again but at least i have some hopes now so :)

"oussou"

- I love this challenge and how it frustrates the living daylights out of me m kinda positive i got 16 ppl correct so im halfway there, although i have no idea how good other ppl might be at this i think i might have a shot if i get everyone correct ; -)

Day 36
"oussou"

- Operation GET MAI OUTTA HERE is a go!

"oussou"

- IF THESE PPL FUCKING MADE THOSE COMPLICATED LIES JUST TO VOTE ME OUT I WILL B.L.O.W.I.T IN MY JURY SPEECH

"oussou"

- It sucks, my allies who had the brains to make a move are dropping one by one and I'm officially alone at this point. Brittany did not deserve to go at all because of GOATS. The only thing stopping me from winning right now, is that immunity and honestly all is on the line. It's either 4th or 1st.

"oussou"

- okay calm down a lil bit i rly hope ally does actullly has an idol and is gonna idol me bc it would make zero sense for her to make up a lie about it rite? ;-;

"oussou"

- plz plz let this work plz plz plz plz plz plz

Day 37
"oussou"

- Ofc I'm in the end with the three 3 ppl who didn't really have my back all of merge, I probably trusted the least, like I'm just so defeated and like wow I just really need this challenge win I'm gonna choke in immunity too like that would happen to me It always does

"oussou"

- I'm really hyped for this. A lot REALLY is on the line, but like I can't just give up. I want to disappoint like my pals in jury and like the 2 ppl who probably are rooting for me. If I win the immunity, I can almost kiss the ring, and if I don't well I can at least say I PLAYED the game unlike certain people left :) So yeah. Fuck Mai. Fuck Shannon. A big fuck to Stef, this is my final stretch and I don't want to leave now.

Day 38
"oussou"

- ive literally been practicing tilt ever since the merge bc i knew it has appeared a lot in previous season if i lose my golden 4 points in tilt i'll EXPLLOOOOODEMai

"oussou"

- Is it bad I'm crying? Like I'm so fucking proud of myself like this has been so hard and I've invested so much time on this. I even put my own orgs on hiatus for this and like the effort and amount of paranoia I went through to get where I am...this is so much more different than YT camps, like especially from someone who was "retired" from games but I've become such a better player and I didn't have to depend on others to get myself to the end, I had to fight my own battle to the end and I truly never been more proud of myself over a game, and like I know this sounds lame but I really learned more about myself (like pulling shit out to get what I want FJDNDNDNE). But honestly A BIG GIGANTIC FAT fuck you to Estefana. All season long she had the guts to tell me I was a goat and I had no chance of winning but I've won the past like what 3/4 immunities and other comps, I've kept a good social game despite being a lone wolf + plus most of the jury are my friends, and despite my plans not workin at times I was the only one to make efforts to make big moves out (especially out of the fans). but GUESS WHAT THIS GIRL WILL PROBABLY GO TO THE END OF A GOAT SO YOU KNOW WHAT HAHA THE TABLES TURNED BITCH

"oussou"

- i think i got shannon to vote stef with me sooooooo yeah i might still have a shot

"oussou"

- im 100% sure shannons voting stef FASHFSHHUSGHHUSHU dont count me out just yet!!

"oussou"

- All of this just seems unreal to me because I still remember reading the F8 tribal results thinking I was going home like it was yesterday. I was seen as one of the biggest threats in the game ever since the final 10 and after I completely turned the whole tribe upside down and and have been receiving votes in 4/5 tribals from the final 8 up until now. I was close to getting voted out in every single one of them but YET, im still here and only ONE challenge away from making the final. Ally is good and honestly I don't know where the jury heads at but I believe I can definitely beat her as long as I can make it out alive this time. I went home my first season in a revote, lost 2 tie-breakers this season it's about DAMN time I survived one. And I hope the fact I won two individual immunities, played an idol successfully and was able to convince a person to force a tie in the final 4 for me despite being the public enemy says something about my game. And even If I'm leaving tonight, I'm walking away with my head held high knowing I did the best I could and I might sound super cocky but in a season that had tons of great players and gameplays, I feel like I did awesome enough to be proud of myself.

Day 39
"oussou"

- onestly if i lose this to ally (which is most likely going to happen atm but im gonna keep trying tho), i freaking swear theres something against a brain in ftc

"oussou"

- This has been a blast, it's weird that I don't even feel sad at all even though I know im gonna lose ; ). Just thankful for the experience. If there is one thing ive learned from this season, as cheesy as it sounds, is to never give up on yourself but be less self-satisfied. Unfortunately even the longest journey has to come to an end so ummmm i'll miss everybody, this community and yeah, goodbye survivor cyprus