Crush Their Dreams/Confessionals

Day 14
"phaluai"

- Okay what the FUCK was that.

"phaluai"

- So myself, Maya, Eva and Jake all seem equally in the dark, and we think we’ve worked out the drama of the round. Sim voted for Clifford to stir up some old drama with him and Jake (A very short sighted and dumbass move). Myself, Julez, Julia, Chris, Nathan and Taylor voted for Miguel, so everyone else voted Nathan, a blindside you might assume? NOPE. Masterminding. And I think there are 2 culprits for Nathan going home, Yannick and Jace. I’ll still play nice to them both, but I’m fucking onto them, especially since apparently Nathan got some of those votes because “someone” was saying me and Nathan were a tight pair? If one person would have had the fucking BALLS to message me to clear it up, I’d have explained, I was keeping him friendly, but had no intentions on merging with him, and if people pitched it to me, I’d have voted him too. Honestly FUCK SOME OF THESE PEOPLE. UGH.

"samsao"

- Nathan got blindsided and it went well. However, there was a stray vote on Clifford. I'm confident that Jake didn't do it because it was way too blatant to be him. Someone tried to rile up the tribe divisions.

"samsao"

- I know for a fact that Nathan and Jenna voted Miguel to save themselves. So that leaves the question, did Jake stupidly vote Clifford in paranoia or did someone impersonate him? I think it was Sim, what a fool.

"phaluai"

- me flipping to vote Nathan sends him home in a blindside. I'm sorry Nathan ily ❤️ played great. Now we have another tribe swap. Which I feel pretty safe with since I have good relationships with mostly everyone. I would prefer to be with some original Phaluai's.

"phaluai"

- My boy Nathan is gone and tbh it might be good. I dont want a lot of talaps moving up cause we would become a threat. The funny part is that in a lapse of 24 hours I went from loving miguel to seriously wanting to take his ass out. So now I kinda want to be with jenna and him so I can use my pretty elephant and crush their dreams. but who knows im such a freaking bipolar we might be friends again in a day or two LMAO. At least I survived that crazy round! 😊

"samsao"

- So I am trying to do damage control with Jenna right now after my blatant lie because I don't feel like being fucked over by her at this swap. I'm basically folding and apologizing for lying, but she's lowkey aggravating me. She's like "you went based on assumptions from rumors spread around about me with my friendships, without even asking me about it." It's like... Okay... But aren't you trying to spread around that me and Yannick are a tight duo because "we are friends outside of the game?" Girl tried that. Whatever, as long as she doesn't actively target me I'm fine.

"samsao"

- CHAOS! CONFUSION! DRAMA! All this and more at last tribal! So I was told by Clifford and Chris during the vote that there was discussion of voting out Nathan instead of Miguel, but I never heard anything else about it, so i assumed it was all good. THEN THIS SHIT HAPPENS! And there are a lot of people that seem to be in the dark. I spoke to Rhi, and she is confused and said Eva and Jake are as well. I asked Jace and he just brushed it off like it was nothing. Said it must have been miscommunication. When I said people brought up the vote changing to me, he said "oh well, they must have taken it into their own hands! it's probably for the best tbh." Or something along those lines... So that is VERY shady to me. He should have a reaction like Rhi had! Instantly suspicious. I said somehting to Clifford about it, and he had no response. So i assume Chris and Clifford made sure Nathan went, and Jace may be in on it. Soooo this little alliance Chris and Cliff pulled me into can go to shit! There was no reason that I or anyone else should have been in the dark. I want to start a rebellion now! I HOPE. No, I PRAY that I am on a tribe with a majority over their bitch-asses, so that I can blindside them! Thanks. BYEEEE.

"samsao"

- So. I did that. I took the risk and went for it. No one suspects me, I'm the snake in the grass biting everyone I can they slithering away. The chaos this has caused will the repercussions on everyone's games. Im here. And I'm gonna kick some ass.

"samsao"

- Fun fact: Nathan is the only player I haven't warned about being voted out yet. I was doing it to get them to burn so idol guesses for me. But now obvi we gucci atm. I had a huge downfall in Azer and I feel like of i get voted out this game it's going to be way worse. Things are starting to feel as intense as Azer. Is this every game or am I just an intense human being? We are at 16. Theoretically 3 more rounds until merge. I just need to last three more rounds then I can keep my record of never being premerge in an org. Poetic justice would have Jake take me out as the last pre-merge boot. That move that Chris and I pulled was dirty but just the beginning. I'm inbetween allegiances but I don't really have any in this game. Last time I was an undercover villain but my cult of minions saw themselves as the heroes. Now I'm playing a totally different game. I'm not loyal to any big group, I'm going to play with villains who know they're villains. Ice the floaters, ice the heroes,ice the fan faves. Hell is freezing over.

"samsao"

- From the information I have gathered, I believe Chris and Cliff along with others decided that Nathan needed to go, so Chris went to his alliance with Maya, Jace, and Julia and got them to vote for Nathan as well. During the vote, Jace gave me a list of whose votes were going where for the vote. Jace, Chris, and Julia were supposed to vote Miguel. This would explain Jace's terribly unconvincing response about what happened with the vote. If this is true then Chris is more powerful than I had thought because Jace doesn't even realize what he's doing behind his back, AND he flipped this vote. Rhi did mention that she heard Julia voted for Miguel. If this is true then idk.. maybe Sim voted that way. He never once spoke to me when I reached out to him, which gives me a negative opinion of him moving forward. Anyway, I have so much info to play with and to decide to reveal or not moving forward at the swap. This could get interesting. Only votes for Miguel that I know for sure were me, Rhi, Julez, and Nathan because I know what parchment each made. That leaves two others that were Miguel voters.

"samsao"

- So Miguel just came to me and was like "so are you gonna explain to me why you voted the way you did?" Like.... sajkdngjkerngjkaenrg. I told him that it was just what the majority was spreading around and I went for what was best for my game. We talked a little beyond this and he said he isn't holding a grudge and hopes that he has a chance with me to work together in the future. Of course I agreed because I just want to make my target as small as possible. Hopefully when the swap ends up being officially sent out I will be safe for at least the first vote I attend.

"talap"

- I am in love with this new tribe. I'm back on Talap, already have the idol in my pocket. I have Taylor who has been my ally since day 1, Pris who I got close with on Samsao, Jake who I worked closely with at the combined tribal, and then Sim who has been really inactive and sneaky so far. Should be an easy vote when we eventually lose, but I think our tribe will do well at challenges.

"phaluai"

- me at the announcement post: there's no way I could be placed on a tribe without safety. me after the announcement post: I was very wrong. Wokeosmeke I FEEL very unsafe

"talap"

- The vote aftermath happens and Nathan's out instead of Miguel. Don't know how the plan fuckin' changed but I guess Nathan was a bigger immediate threat. It sucks though because I really did like talking to Nathan. As for this new tribe, I like it. I have a lot of options. I've worked with Jake on my first tribe and I worked with Taylor and Jace on my last tribe. I've also played Sichuan with Sim and I play league with him like once in a blue moon. I also watched a movie with him and some friends so hopefully that means something ally wise. I don't want to get too overconfident though. My position in the middle can backfire on me if the others find out that I'm decently close with everyone. Besides Taylor of course but I technically worked with him so whatever. As much as I'd love to have Chris on my tribe, I'd rather not lose the tribal because I'd rather not fracture this thing I have going on where I'm kinda close with one side and kinda close with another. If we do go to tribal though, Sim seems like the easy vote. Mostly because he didn't really talk to anyone and he seems to not be too great in challenges. I don't know if I want to go for the easy though. I kinda wanna take a shot at Jace actually. He seemed to have a lot of power the last vote. Jake seems to think the same, and if Taylor was as loyal to that last alliance as he said he was, I think we'll have the votes to take him out of his throne. I'm actually kind of excited for tribal now, go figure.

"talap"

- so um yeah. i forgot to talk ab clifford in my confessional last episode. basically i squashed everything with cliff right away bc going after each other is just not what either of us need. we have a tight secret alliance that honestly? i feel like i can trust for now. i think he wants to work with me and sees we need each other to take these friend groups down. hes given me a LOT of information so far and has helped me figure out the fuckery of this last vote.

basically i was the reason votes started going onto nathan. i told jace who told yannick and i also told hannah to switch her vote. i just rly wanted nathan out huh. so people were blindsided. i acted blindsided too lmao and a chat was made with me/rhi/eva/maya of the ppl blindsided. sim was blindsided too but hes too inactive to talk game with anyway.

so basically there was a vote for clifford with the parchment i made and ONLY sent to eva and sim on nuphaluai. so when it surfaced at tribal i was fucking pissed because i thought eva or sim did it. after talking with cliff, i come to learn eva gave clifford this parchment to secure her safety when she had to go over there. snake. i dont trust eva for shit after this. idc if she did it to save herself she clearly doesnt care about me to do that. and then after the fact when i confront her about it she acts like she has no fucking idea. lmao. and oh when we swap and im conveniently on a tribe with sim, she tells sim to tell me she gave cliff the parchment. how fucking convenient huh?

basically cliff gave it to kostas for some reason. cliff explained his reason to me but it honestly made no god damn sense i think he just fucked up. and i guess kostas was using it to try to save himself in the last hour so that parchment literlaly could have went anywhere. so im going through the votes of who voted who… 10 votes nathan…. 6 miguel… 1 cliff…. okay. i know the 10 votes for nathan. ik julez nathan rhi voted miguel for sure. so im okay it’s down to chris julia taylor or sim. chris and julia i trust enough that they wouldnt do that shit. and sim is too fucking inactive to even do that shit. so i am thinking taylor did it.

im not trusting taylor for shit and OH HOW CONVENIENT im swapped on a tribe with him. this is my opportunity. taylor you better sleep with one eye open because that little stunt you just pulled? it’s gonna bite you in the ass because you just messed with the wrong bitch.

"phaluai"

- Miguel is messier than me in San Marcos ....the tribal Alietta left, he threw Sim under the bus The last tribal he threw Maya under the bus like out of nowhere Then not even 5 minutes into our new tribe & he's already throwing Julia under the bus. He just likes to throw people under the bus & drive all over them. I mean he keeps surviving so I guess he's doing something right. But I don't think it's going to last much longer if he keeps throwing people under the bus

"samsao"

- Last Stand Strategies: List of the strategies I have executed or attempted so far in Survivor: Last Stand - Do or Die

The Oprah F2 Strategy: You get an F2, you get an F2, and you get an F2! Create tight two person alliances with everyone on the tribe to sift through who means it and who doesn’t. Revealed red flags for Eva, Miguel, and Erin.

The Tattle Tale Strategy: Without idol clues it’s difficult to find an idol. I came to the conclusion that if I told the people being voted out that they were being voted out, it would A - Allow me to search for idols and double up on guesses because the person being voted out believes I’m advocating for them and B - Leave options open in case I could blindside a bigger target. This strategy allowed me to save Sim, help Kos implode and during Annabelle’s vote-off I had Yannick looking for guesses too so I tripled down on idol guesses.

The Erin Blindside: I was the only one who told Sim he was the target. Lucky for me she tried to form an all-girls alliance the night before and the chat with me, Eva, Yannick, Miguel and herself. That made it easy to flip votes and get rid of an unpredictable player.

The Priscilla Deal: When on the tribe with Priscilla I offered her a deal to protect her in exchange for a heads up if I’m being blindsided. I was aggressive in my presentation to polarize her because she’s naturally timid which means her gut reaction would be honest. Her gut reaction was to not take the deal which tells me she’s not interested in working with me long term. Also, she’s so nice, it’s impossible to vote her out, and she will always have more friends than me. So I want to leave my options open that if I need to blindside her I can use the offer I made her as a point of personal weakness thanks to her impeccable social game.

The First Kos Lie: I lied to Kos about me, Taylor, and Chris trying to save him, to let him know he’s the target, and get him idol guessing. He took my lies (and my truths) and started causing havoc. I then took everything I said to Kos and told my alliance that he said it to me, to make him seem even less credible, which would allow me to use him as an excuse in the future. I didn’t realize this benefit until later on.

The Jake Truce: Jake and I made a truce to work with each other as undercover allies who are open enemies. I don’t think that will work long term but the narrative is compelling to me. I will take measures to reposition Jake and control tribe perception.

The Alliance Pendulum: I am swinging between a tight alliance with Yannick where we are honest and upfront with each other. I helped him find an idol. He shared it with me in case we got split up. We didn’t so I gave it back. On the other side of the pendulum I got Chris who is sneaky and dangerous. I go back and forth between the two for different reasons. Chris has no idea about Yannick’s idol. Yannick has no idea about the Jake Parchment plan I plotted with Chris.

The Nathan Blindside: Nathan told Hannah and possibly others that I told Jenna that Miguel was the vote. Yes I did but he was throwing me under the bus when I could have been a number for him in the game. I talked to Yannick, Chris, Taylor, Jake and Jace and they seemed assured we could pull a fast one on Nathan. This allowed me to make it seem like I’m the reason Miguel stayed to Miguel so he can value our relationship in the future.

The Jake Parchment: Eva showed me a parchment Jake made for me with my name on it. It was a little crass. I gave the parchment to Chris and told him to vote for me. This created so much dissension and drama amongst the tribe and muddles the information. If everyone is disarmed, no one can shoot. It was a maneuver hellbent on disorienting the status quo and it did just that. This put me in the direct line of fire but I have no problem with it. I’m okay with a big target. The bigger my target, the more people will want to use me as a deflector.

The Second Kos Lie: I had to patch things up with Jake and Eva so they won’t know it’s me. I told them a long, fabricated story about how I showed Kos the parchment to gain his trust for idol guesses and he must have shared it with someone else. Jake believes it might be Taylor. I hinted that it might be Jace. It was believable enough that I may have “unintentionally” did this, making me appear weak, and useable.

Moves I Would Love to Pull off Before I Get Voted Out:

- using a self-vote to blindside someone - force a rock draw by creating a fake divide - get someone to play an idol on me where I’m the sole vote to evict and then I vote out the person who saved me - start a sunday morning church service where I preach the narrative I want them to believe - write a really cocky parchment and pin it on the next round’s target - idol out Jake again - make a video confessional about each ally and show it to them so they feel endeared by all the nice things I say - create a blog project keeping track of the game and getting others involved so they feel like they are apart of something

And I’m sure that list can go on.

"samsao"

- Another swap, just what the doctor ordered (if he was trying to achieve my mental breakdown...)

"samsao"

- HALLELUJAH. I HAVE EVA AND MAYA ON MY TRIBE OF 5. Yannick will think he’s golden, but he and Cliff are in quite the danger zone in my eyes

"phaluai"

- I hate hate hate hate hate hate my tribe. Like seriously the people I never talk to or that I don't want to playwith cause they're messy AF are in my tribe. And the worse thing is that it seems like its miguel & Jenna vs Hannah&Julia but I'm not STUPID. They could easily all gang up on me and try to Sarah me out. I need something to build a strong bond with these people cause I dont want to use my advantage yet.

"talap"

- So I know that Clifford wants me to work with Priscilla and Sim while I am over here to take out Jake or Jace... But Sim ignored me the entire double tribal and has just now messaged me! So if he doesn't talk to me much then I'm not going to work with him! And somebody tell me, what does Clifford think? That I am some sort of puppet that is just going to sit here and do his dirty work? Quite honestly, here is what I would love to happen: We vote Sim out, Chris comes to the tribe, I expose Chris and Clifford to Jace, and we vote Chris out. That sounds beautiful and fun! Clifford tries to say Jace has too much power (which I'd agree with), but he does too! It's clear he has Sim in his pocket among others, and I do believe he and Chris were behind Nathan's blindside. I am not sure what my best move is at this point. I am discussing with Priscilla about how to approach this. If we lose immunity, I really don't want to get rid of Jake or Jace right away because then Chris takes their spot and my hands are tied ;eaving me with no room to move because Pris, Chris, and Sim will work together. Decisions. Decisions.

"phaluai"

- Ok so we're gonna lose this challenge because my tribe is stupid or something. If you know you're on a challenge... a LIVE challenge. Why would you just post and randomly go out!??? UGAHSADDASDACSDASDJ I dont want to use my advantage yet. I'm so pissed at this tribe swap. It puts me in an awkward position where I'm in the middle yet I'm expendable if we lose.

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- I just had a pretty weird idea. Sure Jace is a big threat and has a lot of power, but so do other people like Clifford and probably Miguel. The point is that these huge threats are going to go after each other. What does keeping Taylor in this game do for me? Sure he's loyal for a few votes but I know I don't have that big of a bond with him. He's the only member of the Samsao Badasses (I didn't like that name but that's besides the point) on this tribe. That alliance consisting of me, Chris, Clifford, Yannick, and Taylor. It formed to take out Jace back on the swapped Samsao. If I rat out Taylor to Jace and blindside him (without revealing that alliance) then I would gain Jace's favor and take out a player who wouldn't benefit me in this game in the long run. Chris joining our tribe after won't matter that much because I can just say that Taylor was pulling something weird. If Taylor says something about me in his final words then Jace can just believe me more than him. And even then, Jace will STILL be a big threat. If we go to tribal again, we can just vote him out then. Given the pace we're going for the challenge right now, we might actually go to tribal, so who knows.

"phaluai"

- FAN FUCKING TASTIC, Miguel goes to Disney when he know about the challenge today. WOO HOO. Great so happy. Julia isn't here ): Jenna had problems posting.

"talap"

- honestly whether the cliff vote was taylor or not, i want him out if we end up losing on this tribe. i trust pris and sim enough on this tribe and i have built strong enough relationships with them to keep me safe. so i know i'll have majority over here no matter what.

i want to keep jace. sounds crazy because hes basically trying to play the same game nathan tried to play. he ran the last vote and it made people very wary of him as a leader and THREAT in this game. im trying to keep some threats around before i become the next big threat and my ass is on the chopping block. i gotta get rid of the wild cards like taylor out now before they slide to the end. jace will be an easy target for people at merge and i can definitely see the numbers of taking him out later.

the hardest part, if we lose, is going to be convincing jace to want to vote out taylor. ik theyre working together and he'd most liekly want to vote out sim at this vote but i somehow have to convince him taylor has to go. i have to be wary because theres a strong possibility taylor or jace has an idol so even telling jace is still questionable. i might not even tell him if i feel it's necessary. whew.

i just need to not focus on the cliff vote bc thats what that person wants me to do. i need to get my head back in the game and think about this game long-term. i have to look at the map, not just the road in front of me

also this is liek the same situation that happened in azerbaijan with this swap and im fucking shitting myself im having WAR FLASHBACKS i legit had a 3 person majority over a 2 and they had 2 fucking idols and i got fucked. so if that happens again ggwp bye org.

"talap"

- I am trying to get in good with Sim to ensure that if we go to tribal, and he is the target, that he will not write my name down in the event of an idol or something. I gotta make sure everyone on the tribe likes me and wants to keep me around because the combined tribal sort of threw my game for a loop.

"samsao"

- Right now I don't know whether I'm in a good position or not. I'm torn between either go to Clifford & Yannick who is my alliance at Samsao or go to Rhiannon & Eva whom I bonded slightly during the last tribal. I know that Rhi, Eva & Jake are tight close 3. It could be a good chance to take them out early since all of them are really good players. They managed to take out Alietta and almost took miguel out last tribal. However, I don't want to be seeing as playing both sides but I'm scared if I took sides, something unexpected like idol play will happen and I will be in a bloodbath. As of now, I will just need to maintain good relationship will all of them and try to survive these swap and make it to the merge.

Day 15
"talap"

- I hate that we are back on Talap because now somebody can find that the idol has been found, and they will begin to make assumptions. The good thing is, I know that literally no one else will find it on this tribe because I already have it LMAO. It is kind of a double edged sword.

"phaluai"

- I knew we would lose this challenge ugh and now I'm in such an awkward position. I know if I talk too much I'll be the target but both groups have approached me. Hannah and Julia want Miguel and Jenna and Miguel want either pink but I know they rather do Julia because Jenna and Hannah could potentially work together

"samsao"

- Maya, Rhi, and Eva came through in the clutch and the optimal result came. I want to see fireworks on Phalaui, hoping for something good to happen. I need allies going into merge and to preserve this idol.

"phaluai"

- I'm really scared. I'm such a freak. I don't think I could trust my own shadow. Seeems like I shouldn't go home and it should be either Miguel or Julia BUT I'm not 100% sure if they're not lying to me right now. It's just like for Jenna wouldn't make sense but for Hannah and Julia would make sense to vote me out. And wait for Chris to come and take my place

"phaluai"

- I might receive two votes but I'm allied with Julez and Jenna and I trust both so I think we are gonna vote together which is smart for us

"phaluai"

- I've been debating this vote for a while now. I made sure Hannah and Julia voted early. Some people just don't learn from their mistakes lmao Hannah voted way too soon at alietta's elimination and now she did it again. You can change the vote but never the voter. Lmao 😂 Julia and Hannah made a chat with me and Jenna and called it queens. So we have this supposed girls alliance but Jenna told me to just follow the chat and pretend we were with them. I agree like the goat I want to seem to be but I came here to prove I'm playing my own game. Yeah it's a big risk that Chris join us. But why would I go with Miguel and Jenna if there's a lot of people that want them out? I'm working with the enemy by an extent but I don't think I want to be associated to public enemy number 1. My biggest fear is that everyone is playing me but Hannah was so paranoid in the last hour and Julia texted me she was so glad I was in her tribe and we had the girls alliance lmao we spoke like 4 words before this and now she's super excited to have me here? That makes me think they really voted Miguel so it's up to me to decide apparently. If they're not playing me this will be my first move in the game so I'm excited and nervous at the same time. Wish me luck

"phaluai"

- im always worried like did Julez lied to me did she not? You can't know until you see what the results are, and probably Julia and Hannah voted for me and I am having the most awkward convo with Hannah rn like we both voted eachother but is nice to talk.

"phaluai"

- This vote will be the death of me