Game Bot Butt Buddies/Confessionals

Day 19
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- We got merged ! It's really good. Right now, I hope that my old alliance will mix with my new alliance, to have 6 against 4 at the next Tribal.

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- I've found the Spy Vote, I can spy who I want. I'll not use this advantage yet. I think I'll not be a target.

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- Aras needs to choose the target. And so, he needs to be the target number one on our alliance. It's like a coach who pushed a wrestler in the ring.

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- The merge is basically Zibaq vs. Najma.

You’ve got Romain, Tate, and I, who were in the driver’s seat with Godman at Zibaq originally. Anna’s on good terms with everyone and she and I are close, so she’s got no reason to flip. And then you have Zak, who’s just been all over the place. He was spamming Whitney and Kristen during one of the first swap live challenges, and then he forced a tie in the second swap because he wanted to save Dalton but then changed his mind. And then he threatened to do the same shit to save Aras and send home MaLEAK. So Zak’s pretty much the guy that’s at risk of flipping for Zibaq. I think he’s going to do whatever Aras does.

Najma apparently has all sorts of bullshit going on.

You’ve got Scott and Brett, who make a cute little pair of game bot butt buddies. Then there’s Whitney and Kristen, who were a pair until Whitney started freaking out, apparently. Everyone’s talking about how Whitney has some vendetta against Aras and she’s turning people in her alliance off. She's telling me that Aras and Kristen hate her, but she has no legitimate reason and everyone has been telling me that Kristen and Whitney are close. She's faking it. Either to turn on Najma to save herself, or to get brought in on the other side's plans so she knows who to play an idol on. Aras is the guy on the end, just like Zak is for Zibaq. Aras was basically separated from his tribe for the whole swap, and he got by because socialized like a motherfucker and made Zak fall in love with him. He also set up an alliance of Aras/Anna/Will/Zak, so maybe he’ll stay true to that.

TBH whoever wins this reward is getting a vote steal, which could determine the first vote. Most likely Aras votes with Zibaq 6-4. I'm getting really tired of Whitney's bullshit already, I want to keep her if she's not going to work with Aras, but it's hard to justify working with someone when you know they're completely, utterly full of shit. Horrible liar, like what the fuck Whitney.

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- Well look at that. I managed to make the merge. Today was a day off and for me, an opportunity to meet Annabelle, Romain, Will, and Zakriah. Annabelle is nice enough. Maybe a hair boring, but she's at least kind and friendly. I feel like she might be someone worth trusting. Romain makes lame jokes. That's all I really have to report on him. We've barely spoken to one another. Will is squad. He's a lot of fun, we have similar tastes, he lives about 40 minutes away--he's wonderful. And Zakriah I found to be a bit much at first as he is a bit quirky for my taste, but the more I talk to him, the more I realize I have in common with him and like him. And I know what you're thinking. Why the hell should I be caring about these four Zibaqs that are going to be coming for me? Simple. I actively can't stand Kristen and Whitney and I don't feel either is reliable enough to carry a solid five OG Najma-strong vote. So I need to ingratiate myself with the winning faction, the Zibaqs. Or at least I need to befriend them enough to become a person worth approaching when they inevitably splinter. Here's hoping.

Drama sparked today. Because why wouldn't it? As I trusted Aras, I felt the need to tell him that Whitney screenshot him and that he shouldn't be too keen on her or Kristen. What does Aras do? He confronts Whitney. The crazy person. Jesus fucking Christ NO! What are you doing?! You don't come at the meth dealer asking him why he's selling to your niece?! Absolutely not! This was so bad that I'm cringing. And now neither Scott or myself have any need to trust Aras to keep a level head. This is just OG Najma as per usual--everyone is fucking nuts while Scott and I have to make sure we don't die because of it. Jesus.

Day 20
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- I kinda like the idea of Najma creating an alliance with everyone I'm aligned with except for me. I can compare what they're telling me and what my allies are telling me, unless everyones lying to me. Also if I make it to final 3 and all their sorry asses are on the jury, they won't think i betrayed them really lmao.

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- The immunity challenge is a flash game. Well I'm fucked. So no need to try past 10,000. People will know I'm not even a little bit of a challenge threat and Aras will probably win. I'm ready as fuck to get rid of Whitney at this point for being impossible. Suddenly, I'm added to an alliance chat consisting of Will, Romain, Annabelle, Whitney, Scott, and me. Literally what the fuck is this? I wasn't consulted about this. I don't like it. I don't like Whitney. I don't know Romain. I barely know Anna and Will. No. I'm not having any of this. I talk to Scott about what's going on and tell him we have to tell Tate. He disagrees and I reason that Tate already thinks we might be sketch because of how the Roodman vote went down in synchronicity. Telling Tate would get him on our side and he could likely sway others that would make a much more sane majority alliance. I do so and I let Tate marinate with the information a bit. He appreciates my telling him and I hope his use of the information doesn't put me in hot water.

The results come back and God hates me. He hates us all. Whitney has won immunity. And not a moment later does Kristen lose her shit in her THIRD public freakout that Whitney is full of lies and she's throwing my name around and Tate's name around and Will's name around. Kristen's arguments are mostly nonsensical and no one knows what the hell she's saying. It's really embarrassing. It shows her lack of education. It shows her lack of self-control. But she did post a middle finger selfie to Whitney and she looked super cute in it, so Kristen at least has sexy looks going for her. I'll pay her that compliment. While Kristen is a gigantic mess, Whitney is worse. She just starts drama everywhere is and is one of the most transparent liars anywhere. She can't see beyond her disdain for Aras and it's put a lot of games at risk, not to mention her own. I have really hated dealing with Whitney this whole time because of how nightmarish she's been this whole time with over-strategizing and playing all sides and just plain old being EXTRA as fuck. She's my least favorite person I've ever played with and that's saying something because I hated some people in my last game, but she takes the cake because she makes everything so unnecessarily uncomfortable and really seems to not understand why it's not a good thing. Kill her with fire. Get her out of here. I'm done with her.

I think the most glorious thing to come from this whole thing is that Tate managed to slam both Whitney and Kristen during their argument. The second his name was thrown around, he just stood up and said "Keep my name out of it. I don't care for either one of you." What a fucking BALLER move. If I wasn't in love with Tate before, he officially has me on lock now. I would KILL to have the courage and abandon it takes to tell Whitney and Kristen how terrible they are. That was awesome.

Day 21
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- Fuck, Whitney has won immunity.

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- Since Whitney got immunity, we'll voting for Scott tonight. Whitney and Kristen hates each other, so right now, if an idol is played, Kristen will go. If not, Scott will go. That's beautiful.

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- Whitney needs to be blindsided. Scott needs to go. Hell yeah !

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- So I think this vote for Aras is the perfect opportunity to achieve some things for me: 1. It's Whitney led vote, not me. Hopefully lowers my profile a little bit. 2. It allows me to separate myself from Brett a lot, which is ideal because they see the two of us as a pair. 3. Kristen is basically only loyal to me in the game as far as I can tell, so if by some miracle this vote actually does go and gets Aras out, that would be perfect. 4. If Kristen goes out, I'm just going to claim she was my Final 2 and I couldn't vote her, (which is the complete truth and I can back it up)

So really I think this is the perfect vote for me in this game. I might be crying about it next week when everyone decides to get me out, but I think this is just what I need!

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- So it's time for the vote and with Whitney sadly immune, I feel like Kristen should go. She just straight up shouldn't play ORGs. Ever. Her life is a hot mess and this is not the escape she needs. She just should not be here. Whitney tells me she has the votes for Aras to go, but I'm not about that life. I want the drama to leave. And since Whitney can't, unfortunately Kristen should.

Scott approaches me a bit later saying he is going to vote for Aras because he's worried we appear to be too tight a pair for comfort and voting differently would help us keep a reputable distance from each other. I'm fine with whatever. I don't know how believable it would be, but Scott's smart and I trust it. He then comes to me later paranoid that he's leaving and Zibaq is staying strong. Whitney even brings about an OG Najma movement, but doesn't consider Aras. Because that's smart? Jesus Christ, Whitney... And Scott really thought we could get it together and vote 5 strong. Come on, man. We both know Whitney's a piece of shit and won't deviate from her Aras hatred plan. Seriously. I tell Scott that at some point, he needs to relinquish control and acknowledge that he's done everything in his power to stay alive. He's made connections, he's made deals, and he ultimately has put in work that is indicative of one who stays. I told him to have faith in the job he's done.

Unfortunately, the votes come in and I'm the only one who has voted for Kristen. Scott was voted out with 6 votes and 3 votes went to Aras. I'm really sad because Scott deserved to stick around way more than I did and he didn't even get to make the jury. I feel incredibly guilty and sad. He deserves this so much more than me. I now need to figure out where I stand with Tate, if any of that was real, and where I am in the boot order to go. I'm pretty bad at challenges, but I'm the only sane one on OG Najma remaining. Yikes. The good news, however, is I don't have to be nice to god awful Whitney and hot mess Kristen anymore. That's awesome. Because they've been the WORST to deal with this whole time. And my game is up in smoke and I'm down to just shred from here on out. Who needs a jury vote?