This Is Not Rupaul's Best Friends Race/Confessionals

Day 32
"nyuchi"

- so people are dumb is what i've gathered from the blindside. or they're smart. idk.

keeping hals was smart for a lot of people's games and i don't think they necessarily realized the lengths to which they went to keep her, reiterating why she needs to go.

basically, vincent disagreed with the plan and decided to throw roisin and i was like ""tf"", then he, feeling like he was a goat and wanting to ""control his own fate"", blew up the plans louise and i laid out, and instead took everyone else and voted her.

i guess everything failed for two reasons:

1) louise and i were perceived as a duo. 2) hals was seen as a non-entity and not worth a vote.

part of that is my fault. i pushed the vote on hals way harder than i should have and i didn't realize the verbal disagreements would translate into action. that's on me.

as for the two reasons - both have degrees of accuracy and not, but like even if they wanted to go on louise, which is a good move - the execution was TERRIBLE. like horrible. vincent basically went to the people he targetted or worked against and turned things on louise, who was not really coming for him AT ALL, and voted her out, while lying to me so that i could expose his game to the people he both targeted and worked against. he took a 5-2 dynamic and made it 3-3 with the other side having an idol and an advantage like i think his brain cells went on a vacation. they're off sight-seeing in LA or something but they are NOT in kariba.

it really is him trying to combat the goat perception by adding snake to it. now he's some sort of goat-snake hybrid like tf.

the only one funnier than that is ms. roisin, who worked with the person who threw her name out to vote out the person who told you they threw her name out. like what?? i get the paranoia of it all, but like - check your sources?

so now i'm WORKING and hard since vince's attempt to end a perception fucked up my game as he pm's me ""but i still want to work with you."" like sorry, working with someone requires more than going behind their back to get an outcome.

but vincent's royal fuck up is okay for me, because he got a bullseye to give HIM immunity if he predicts the next vote. like predict yourself xoxo. btw - that was sarcasm 🙂

it's kinda obv that i'm really frustrated with this outcome. like if i'm blindsided idm, but the stupidity with which people acted today was borderline insane. drew was well-executed. this? this was a goat trying to be a mastermind and i'm NOT here for it at all.

so peep me being sixth 😕 should've have tried to goat vincent with such proximity i guess.

"nyuchi"

- a big mess 😞 last night I was at my best friends bday party so I was either with my friends family on the tube with no signal eating dinner or at the club which is why I played the vote steal to make sure I didn’t go 😬 I knew Hals was 100% voting Louise so by doing that I made sure at very worst there was a rock draw but basically, I had no control and everything collapsed 😞

"nyuchi"

- so obviously recovery sucks.

i hate having to clean up someone else's messy move when they fucked themselves. vincent is slowly realizing how bad he screwed himself and myself/jack, and now we have to try to shift the target to a ""threat"" to save him. so we'll see how this goes but ultimately i'm not afraid to jump ship if it buys me a ticket to the next round and by extension, final four!

"nyuchi"

- So right now, it's the transition from the normal game to the endgame. All of these alliances are thrown out the window. Right now, the only thing that matters is how we make it to the end. None of us dominated the merge, we were all in the minority (except for Roisin, but she never really played a huge role). So all of that doesn't matter anymore. Right now there are two classes of people. Those who knew what they were doing and those who didn't or pretended they didn't. The way I see it, Hals, Jack, and Roisin are in the first category and Matthias, Jake, and I are in the second. The people in the first category would crush anyone who's in the second category, so what I need to do is get Matthias and Jake together with me to vote Jack. Both Roisin and Hals would have immunity so therefore Jack's the only reasonable option. Since I realized this first, I should have a better case than Jake/Matthias. I've gone back and forth like a pendulum, going from "I'm drawing dead" to "I can actually still win this". After the Roisin vote, I swung dead, but now I might be swinging to a win.

Day 33
"nyuchi"

- direction going into this vote is unclear, but it seems like everyone's name will be up in the air because the alliances have been destabilized and all i need to do is play all sides against each other to ideally survive this vote, idol the next and maybe win out. if i can get jack and maybe even roisin, winning out is a legit possibility.

so yeah, my goal is to be a mess this round, exposed next, and then attract a bunch of votes to idol them out and ideally ""ben"" someone out of this game xoxo. it's just about surviving this vote without an idol.

"nyuchi"

- Cos i stupidly revealed I had the idol last night i'm now in such a scary position 😞 every1 is walking on eggshells and saying things behind every1's back and i don't like it, i am worried cos i dont want 2 play my idol now i wld save it 4 f5 but then if i went home i wldn't forgive myself 😞 im also rly sad louise is gone if it had come at a better time 4 me i cld have stopped that but i only had time 2 do what was gd 4 me 😕 ugh. Xx

"nyuchi"

- Hi im bored and need to stay awake conf: even though personally im not super happy with how ive mostly dealt with the merge so far, I kinda feel like i might be in the best position rn to at the very least get to the end, it's just a matter of picking the right combo to get there with which... I'm not too sure about yet. If i get to the end im not sure the jury will respect my gameplay, which I don't really blame them for bc who wants to hand the win of their season to someone that was barely active for 3/5 tribals nnn but I'm gonna do my best to get there with my most likely wincon and hopefully have a good ending to this season .. thank God im immune

"nyuchi"

- so we're a solid three minutes into this vote and it's already chaos. i legit could care less about who goes and more that it's not me or vince, because i have a long-term strategy past this vote that i could use with almost any combo of people and/or scenarios.

as of now, i lightly tried to get a target on jack for playing a solid game compared the mess/goat games other believe they are playing. this, like everything does with this tribe, of course got mutilated by people's own ambitions. it might still work out, but for now i'm taking a backseat because:

i went to matthias and we initiated a plan wherein with his vote cancel, we'd need one more person to take a 3-2 majority on jack. i knew vincent would be on board, but he wanted roisin, who then pm'ed me asking whether i thought vince or matthias would be the best route for this vote.

meanwhile - i realized roisin's promises to play the idol might be a ruse to not attract votes, then deflect them next time, so i suggested to vincent that we tried to give her an ounce of paranoia by playing on their newfound rivalry and him doing just a legit SMALL call out in the tribe chat. being vince, he interpreted that as ""tell roisin EVERY SINGLE PERSON has already thrown her name"", so she might play her idol, but she might also irrationally sabotage any plans in self-preservation mode so yay @ vince for fucking that up.

legit this vote could be as simple as matthias, vincent, and i going on jack, but that might take effort to get the two of them not to self-destruct since they've both been v inclined to across the season. meanwhile, jack is sitting back and idk where hals' head is at.

as for getting to FTC, my goal is just to survive this round, then leak a confessional next round to attract votes, and negate all of them with the hunter's lodge idol i have saved up for about six tribals now. i feel like carolyn rivera holding this bitch for so long. i really wanted to do a 0-1-1 for fun, but eh - this next round i'd prefer to go solo and make a huge ass move to at least impress the jury. but after that - ideally it'll be vincent, i, and two others in F4 and at the least, that's 2-2 and a v nervewracking tiebreaker or i can try for a 2-1-1 again, because those are insanely fun! ideally at F4 and F3 i can win out, but idk. we'll see i guess. i just need to make it past this round and i'm at the home stretch!

"nyuchi"

- ok i love posting a million confessionals a day but so much is happening.

matthias leaked the idea to jack, who then went to roisin, who went to me, and now there's this unspoken tension between jack and i but i need to use it to transition to telling him about ""matthias' plan"" to get him back on my side. or have vince do it.

that snakery is not supported here, but luckily it shows that roisin and i have become v serious allies. she, hals, and i are starting a F3 and vince, jack, and i have a F3 so if i get matthias out, my bases could actually be strategically covered. i love shifting towards the middle! it makes

so yeah - plan A is scratched because of matthias' wild early attempt to 3-2 me and plan B is on, which is obvs unite the tribe against matthias and him throwing multiple names within four hours of results. technically i'll say he threw vince too and now that's three 😮

knowing matthias, this could end in a call out, since literally everything has with him before.

so yeah - wild times kdfshjskfjfhjs. idek what to do now except campaign against matthias, since he's clearly intent on doing the same against me.

but this is a 48 hr tribal and these bitches came to play, so a lot will change. i'm on self-preservation mode and with roisin's idol clownery, there are four options and i'm one so it's just about making it out of this round with me, my idol, and ideally vincent. ahhh that might be harder than i thought.

"nyuchi"

- so cos i revealed my idol last tribal i had 2 find a way 2 keep me safe until it rly runs out at f5 🙂 so i have decided 2 make a fake idol and play that 2night and i defos think the tribe believe me since i tried to publicly play it!! let's hope some1 bitter doesn't throw me a vote and ruin my perfect game 😞 xx

"nyuchi"

- people need to make up their minds because i have rehearsal and no inclination to play who is shaking who

"nyuchi"

- Matthias has gotta go cos Hals is running this game atm! I’ve spoken to Jake jack and Vincent abt getting rid of Matthias cos he is Hals spare vote and they obvs have a f2 😕 she protects him at all costs! And conveniently Hals started targeting Vincent/jack so that makes it easier to convince 😂 x

"nyuchi"

- Haha I am voting at 4:59 because I won an advantage from the hunters lounge so that if I correctly predict who leaves here I get immunity at 5. So if I wait for as long as possible there is 0 possibility of votes changing

"nyuchi"

- I feel really good about this vote rn because I think it's the first I an claim as being my own work (if it does work) I love jack and all but hopefully this is something that's gonna help me out ... I'm ready to spill blood

"nyuchi"

- so i'm a mess tonight but we're going to ignore that because at least the game is going v well. like inexplicably well for me... which is probs code for ""i'm being blindsided tomorrow"".

roisin is playing her idol, or she isn't and is false-using it to save up for F5, but either way, she and hals aren't options, which leaves myself, matthias, vincent, and jack as options.

going into the vote - my idea was to work with matthias, roisin, and vincent to take a shot at jack, but matthias leaked the plan to jack and tried to turn the situation on me, which unfortunately appears to have sealed his fate. that seed grew and hals launched her own plan to go for jack - whether it sprung from my own scheming with matthias or her own initiative is unknown to me, but it united the sides.

basically, after matthias tried to snake me, i told both roisin and vince that we're gunning for him instead, then spent the day re-angling the situation with jack to make it appear as if it was matthias' initiative. the situation with hals really helped spin it against him.

so hals/matthias are going for jack. jack/vincent are going for matthias. roisin and i now have four-person alliances with each of them and have to pick. she's intent on taking a shot at the duo that is hals and matthias, but given the nature of matthias' vote steal, that makes it 2-2, meaning i've found myself as the silent swing and get to pick between matthias and jack leaving.

i have F3 deals with both jack/vince and hals/roisin, so voting matthias is the SAFEST route to play the middle, but i also want to utilize the idol/self-combust plan that i've been preparing to take out jack, roisin, or hals, so idk 😕 i know if matthias leaves, roisin will want to swing back to hals and i'll maintain the swing, which is really advantageous but if jack goes, i have a significantly better chance at an immunity run. i don't know when my last chance to take that shot may exist.

also i just don't like the idea of two people having immunity at F5. like i really dislike it. so if i could somehow side with vincent without getting him to use his advantage properly, that'd be amazing but ultimately unrealistic. i really want to do the messy idol play, but i'm positioning myself so well that it might just be a bad idea. if jack/roisin are vulnerable, i'll consider it 😕

i'll probs go into the merits and faults of keeping both tomorrow, but i'm a tired mess with a lot of papers to write and a show to rehearse so yeah! 😊

"nyuchi"

- think every1 has bought my fake idol 😁 and i think im gna get out my final target matthias! 😝 the second hals brought up voting out jack or vincent i immediately copy and pasted the convo 2 vincent nd jack which immediately brought them on board so that's lit 🙂 and then jake i think feels v on the outside? anyway i just ranted loads of stuff abt how close hals and matthias r 2 him and now i think he's with us 😀 and matthias admitted that the vote canceller is fake which helped bring those 3 with me even more! as long as there isn't some massive plan to vote me anyway 2 check if the idol is real, i think i shld be on the right side of the vote AGAIN which would be maaaaaad - im the only 1 to vote correctly each time and the only 1 to have no votes against, so im rly happy atm 😋 x

"nyuchi"

- So Matthias randomly messages me 15 hours after I last message him, and it's obvious he wants to talk with me. Whatever he has to say, it can't be good. My mind would be clearer if I didn't have to listen to his pure useless "information". But I can't ignore him because that is a bad social move! So I just talk to him about the time where I accidently closed my binder on my finger and injured it. He left and I didn't have to listen....when I was writing this he just messaged me with his original point. 😠

"nyuchi"

- so matthias went back to the trying to get me out thing which is NOT CUTE!!!

i'm just really hoping roisin, jack, and vincent are being honest with me because for as much as they know, there is no reason to lie since the ONLY idol is in the hands of ms. roisin.

i'll do some digging as results get closer, but i really think it'll be 4-2 or 4-1-1 or 3-2 or even 3-1-1 with matthias going. if not, my hunter's lodge friend will be making her debut after seven tribals!

wish i had more time to elaborate, but no sirs and ma'ams no.