Board Thread:Season 32 - New Zealand/@comment-27707211-20160422043301/@comment-27051031-20160422135950

Hey Ciere,

First I will say that I am sorry if my opinion on you was skewed. I honestly thought you were lying to me the whole game. If I would have known you weren't things probably would have been much different.

I think you're right. My vision of this game is a little fuzzy. I was lied to a whole hell of a lot but different people and was never really sure who to trust. Which is why I played the game the way that I did.

On to your questions:

1. Why did you come to me saying you wanted to vote out Berk, but never follow-up with it?

I actually did want to vote Berk out. I had been wanting Berk out since before the merge and you weren't the only person I mentioned that to. Which is why I did try to go after him when you left and had the numbers to do so. But then Kostas played an idol on him and it really screwed the whole plan up!

2. What motivated you to vote me out all 3 times?

My motivation for voting you out was because a) you voted out Pav who was arguably one of the only people I trusted b) I was constantly told you wanted to vote me out, but maybe that was all lies, and c) Because I knew you had an alliance with all the boys as well as trying to have an alliance with the girls and that really worried me about you. The goal was always to get the girls to the end, so I was afraid that you were going to ruin that for us.

3. How did each juror affect your game and what major game moves you were involved in?

Charlie: He didn't really have a huge affect on my game. We were on opposite sides as soon as the merge happened and never really got to play the game with each other.

Ciere: Without even trying you made me one of the most paranoid people playing this game. You were a threat to me and to the girls making to the finals and even though you wanted to work with me, I just couldn't see that happening.

Josh: Made me wake the eff up. As soon as he posted his video I really realized that it was time to do something and to stop letting other people make my decisions for me. I started talking to him more and we tried to change the game. Unfortunately he was voted out because of an idol.

Alex: Made me want to work harder, and try harder at challenges. He was always doing his best and that was a huge motivator. He forced me to look at things a different way every time we spoke and I really liked that about him.

Brittany: Coming into this game I never thought I would be one to have an all girl alliance and actually want to make it the end with them. Normally I'm the only girl in an alliance with a bunch of guys. She changed the way I look at alliances. She made me think more strategically and calmed me down when I would get upset about things.

Kostas: I wanted to play the game with Kostas since the first tribe swap. Kostas was always someone that I could talk strategy with and not feel like he was leaking whatever I told him. However he affected my game in a negative way. He, along with others, made me his follower, not his partner. That is the main reason why I turned on him.

Berk: I never trusted Berk. As soon as he turned on Pav that was it for me. Everyone thinks I let him run my game because I always voted the way he did and that's fine if that is your opinion. But I always brought Berk up to other people as an option for voting him out and was always shot down because it wasn't the right time yet. So good on him I guess for never being a target even though he was a huge one in my opinion. He affected my game the same way Kostas did. He made me a follower, he manipulated me, and lied to me, so that I would do what he wanted. Which again is why I knew I needed to turn on him as well.

4. At some point in this game you were all either considered to be a goat or a sheep and I want you to defend yourselves.

I always knew that was how people thought of me. But I also always knew that I wasn't going to go to the end by being someone's goat. Kostas and Berk wanted to control me. They want to take credit for everything I have done in this game. But I'm a smart person and I knew exactly what they were doing. Maybe some of you don't agree with my strategy, or think I have no handle on this game. But every decision I made, every vote that I casted, was a vote for someone who I thought was playing the game against me. I didn't always vote off the person who left. I voted for the opposite sometimes partially because of the fear of idols being played, but also because I knew a lot more about the game than I let on. I knew that Kostas had an idol he could play after the vote was revealed and that he would probably use it on Berk. I knew that the idol Josh had was a fake one. But I voted out Berk because it was what I said I was going to do, and then I voted out Faith instead of Josh, even though I knew his idol was fake because Josh was actually playing the game that Faith wasn't. Every single time I turned on someone who was a threat to win this game it wasn't needed. I could have voted a different way and chose, like Faith chose, to be a goat all the way to the end. But I didn't. I could have been more quiet and more reserved, like Dani was, but I wasn't. Dani can claim that she was the swing vote all she wants. But she was always an afterthought. There were always plans set in motion for moves in the game that she was then added to later as an extra number. People can call me a goat, or a sheep all they want because it doesn't bother me. I know the moves I made helped me get to this point.

5. Most of the girls were taken out pre-jury, but you guys were smart and solidified yourselves at the merge. Who was leading the girl’s alliance and who came up with the plan to take out Brittany?

These are two completely separate things. The only girls alliance I was in was just with Britt and Faith. Dani and I really never worked together until the very end. I wouldn't say there was a clear leader. Obviously Britt was in control of Faith but that was never the case for myself. Britt and I had a few separate conversations about certain moves and I think the fact that when the rest idol was played and I voted for Faith instead of Josh that goes to show that Brittany was ever in control of me. The plan to take out Brittany was actually a plan that I had spoken to Berk about before it came into play. I knew that if Brittany was in FTC with me I would have no chance at winning. Once I knew that people were on board with it I spoke to Dani to make sure she would be another vote and would be willing to take out Britt. Faith was never included in the plan because she was way to close to Britt and as soon as the vote happened she basically stopped all communication with me and wanted nothing but to see me leave. However, I had solidified my trust with Dani, and also with Berk because I voted out Britt. The next step was to continue to take out the other threats left which brings us to where we are now.

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">6. What was your plan before and after the reset idol was played?

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">My plan before that idol was played was always to get out Berk. Josh knew about it, the girls knew about it, and eventually Kostas and Berk knew about it. The idol reset didn't change anything for me. Yes it stopped Berk from going home, but I still knew that he had to go and soon. Kostas and Berk made the mistake of then still thinking they had control over me even after I tried to get Berk voted out. They started throwing each other under the bus and I knew that I was in a good position to be able to vote them out once there was no chance of an idol being played again.

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">Thanks for the questions, hopefully this helps to clear some stuff up!