Make Or Break/Confessionals

Day 36
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- I voted Justin out last Tribal Council, because, even though I think I could've beat him at the end, it was the safest option. Mackie pretended he had an idol, so it was the smartest choice to keep us safe. I had a gut feeling they were voting Sydney, so thank God she played her idol on herself. Now, we're in the majority and Mackie lost immunity, so we're gonna vote him out. I just hope he doesn't have an idol, which he could have since the idols are still playable at F5 and he played his fish at the last TC. It has to work, please.

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- Phew this is basically the moment I make or break my 5th place curse, im hoping we secured a majority to vote out Mackie, now the fun just lies in trying to ensure I get zero votes at all.

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- "AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WON IMMUNITY!!!!! I'M IN THE FINAL 4!!!!! I ONLY HAVE TO WIN 1(?) MORE CHALLENGE TO GET TO THE END WHERE I CAN PROBABLY WIN!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't wanna get too confident because, unfortunately, I know if I don't win the final immunity or the next two there's a really good chance I'll go home and I would cry if that happened. But tonight it's plain and simple, Mackie has GOT to go. I feel bad because he really tried in this challenge but like, I wanna win lol, and that's not a realistic option with him around so hopefully tonight the thorn in my side goes home! But honestly even if he doesn't i wouldn't even be surprised, he's soooo good and it makes me so mad like GO AWAY ALREADY HOW ARE YOU EVEN STILL HERE."

Day 37
"amordehierba"

- Omg so This season has been amazing & whatever the outcome is, I've thoroughly enjoyed it. We f I n a l l y voted out Mackie, i was starting to feel like it would never happen. And honestly if I've said anything bad about Mackie during this game I fully take it back, he's an amazing dude. I feel kinda bad bc I had to lie to him all day, to make sure he voted Marie on the slim chance his idol thing was true/ in case he convinced one of the girls to vote with him. Me actually having a chance at winning will come down to the one thing I seem to struggle with in orgs - winning immunity. If Sydney isn't voted out on day 37 she will literally 10-0-0 this shit. Regardless though, I'm proud to have made it the whole merge without being immune and still receiving zero votes, and for breaking my final 5 curse. The next few days will be make or break but I'm ready!

Day 38
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- I love Sydney to death, but she clearly has to be the next one to go, she is the biggest threat and she's gonna exterminate any of us in the final three. Either Claudia, Tymeka or I need to win the final immunity challange. I think I can do good in Hands on the Idol and on the flash game, the Dilemma is complete random and fuck this puzzle. I completely suck at those ugh. I wonder how some people can resolve them in 12 minutes when I'm probably not gonna even finish it.

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- "It's so crazy to look back and see that I somehow made it here, I thought I was going to be the first person voted out and here I am, little Syd somehow made it all the way to the final 4 and one day away from the end. I feel like I've had to do sooo much in this game and that I'm sooo close to getting to the end that me going now would just kill me, I can taste it. I think I can win if I'm at the end against any of these other girls, but I don't know if they think I can or not. I assume they probably think I can too which is dangerous because now I HAVE to win immunity, I would've had to either way regardless of who I came here with. But none of these other girls have been super strong in challenges so I think I have a chance, I'm not sure what is and what's not a good score in these games but I screwed up the endurance since I was coming back from class so I'm worried about that.

But in a more looking back kinda state, I'm truly happy with how I've played thus far and only hope I get a chance to plead it to the jury at the end, I don't want to come up short and I want to show them what I've done once I can sit down and explain everything. I can't go now, I know I can do this, I just hope the other girls can't do it too!!"

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- I'm sooooo glad Sydney didn't win immunity, I mean, I love her to death, but she's clearly the biggest threat and she needs to go. I've talked to Tymeka and she's down to vote against her, now I just need to talk to Claudia, but we talked before and she was 100% down on a her/me/Tymeka final 3. I just have to lie to Sydney and tell her to vote Tymeka because I don't want her targeting me and it sucks, I hate lying to her, but at the end of the day, "fourth-placed robbed goddess" fits her well and "Sole Survivor" fits me better. :)

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- Sydney told me "Claudia would tell me if she'd vote me this round, I mean there's NO POINT in blindsiding someone at the F4" gdcsujxvgdbw this subliminal message I can't. She's 100% feeling that I can turn on her this round so she's trying to convince me to stay with her, in a not so subtle manner. I love her as a person and all, but she's the biggest threat and she needs to go. I'd love to tell her she's going after the deadline but the deadline is at 3 AM where I live so I'll be sleeping like a baby. I just hope she won't be mad at me and will vote for me at FTC like she said she would a few days ago. This is a really hurtful decision but it's what's best for me.

Day 39
"amordehierba"

- Oh my God, I made it to Day 39, again. (cries) It's been such a rough journey, and the fact that I made it to the end twice is impressive, I never thought I could pull that off. Now, I just need to win it, the first time I couldn't finish the job, this time, I have to. I believe I have a higher chance to win than last time. It all depends on this Final Tribal Council and how I'm gonna outwit these two ladies. I can't wait. :)