I DESERVE BETTER THAN THIS/Confessionals

Day 31
"saira"

- honestly? i hate this. i hate that i went with what ricky was saying instead of sticking to our plan and i hate that mihai and amir definitely feel like i personally just stabbed them through the heart and i know i'm not supposed to let emotions or anything get in the way of strategy but i also know that wasn't okay and i shouldn't have done it. i need to trust my gut and my gut said they were being honest and i just don't know what the hell we are doing

"saira"

- So, I was right with not trusting ricky. Although I was expecting this I'm so dissapointed. I knew it will happen like this and I told amelia two days ago that they will replace me and amir with kevin and yap because ricky is a lousy liar, but amelia started with a lot of lies as well. I already miss Amir and I think I am doomed and so is jessy. I think ricky still has the idol and he will make it to the end, but will never get my vote, that I can guarantee you.

"saira"

- The last few moments of this Tribal Council was a complete mess but I succesfully got Molly and Amelia on the same page to vote out Amir! Molly couldn't change her vote, but Amelia did. In the last hour or so Sam got stuck on the call with Mihai and Amir, and we had did some last minute damage to make sure the votes all went the right way. If Amir had an Idol, well, he left with it and I think that was such a great move.

"saira"

- this round isnt sitting too well with me. Last time this happened tyler p went. Ricky won't give me the idol. This is all dumb. Why are we voting for kevin? Idfk I'm OVER IT tho I want these benches gone

"saira"

- This challenge sucks. There's no way you can control people not talking about it and since ricky molly and amelia are always on skype, well we know what that means.

"saira"

- I'm crying ofc amir has no idol My luck I hate everyone left Like wtf ... I'm so down BC I have no number 1 that has the same interests as me

"saira"

- Sam really wants Molly out and I think I deserve to give her what she wants. I flipped in this game whether anyone knew it or not. I flipped to middle school as soon as middle school became entirely Ricky friendly. I will never trust jessy; but the rest are in my corner and I don't know much longer I can deal with Molly. She pretty much talks to me like I am stupid and it sucks the fun out of the game for me. I trust her to a point, and I like her as a human, but this game is not setting us up on the right foot. Molly and I barely know each-other but we are going to be friends after this... but I can't work with her anymore!

"saira"

- SO AMIR APPARENTLY GOT VOTED OUT W AN IDOL. LMAOOOOO WHAT

Day 32
"saira"

- I'm bout to fuck shit up. For better or worse, this game is going to change. I probably won't win, and will probably get caught and voted out, but shit is about to go down

"saira"

- Today I've been fighting for my life by really trying to make new school understand that I'm not the biggest threat here, but I am 100% sure they will vote for me, maybe not amelia, but molly and ricky will, because there's some pregame alliance or stuff that's going on. They are not good liars, I mean when ricky really wanted someone out he was really vocal but now he just said ok and even though they said middle school is voting for me, new school hasnt tried to come up with a plan to avoid a tie. So that makes me sure they are lying to me and I cant do much about it. I told jessy amir gave me the idol, but I dont think it helps anyhow and no middle schooler has talked to me. I thought I could be useful, but apparently I was wrong. I'm just dissapointed in myself right now, I dont even have the energy to be mad on them.

"saira"

- kevin just messaged me and he wants my help making a move against sam and ricky this round and i might fuckng do it because these benches are dumb and should've went after g.oddess kevin last round like me, their god

"saira"

- Molly's bitch ass won immunity and I am pissed cause I had set myself up for the kill and I was ready to vote her out.. now I know I need to vote out Amelia.. Sam did everything she said she would and it's me turn to be fair. Amelia is such a great person and I trust them and they have been a great ally in this game. However to rationalize everything, they willl not have my back over Molly and I know my place when it comes down to it. I could win this game, and sometimes winning is dropping the loyalty card into the toliet and being that classic asshole who betrays the people who have worked with the entire time. I will be John Cochrane, when the shoe fits, but I'll make sure I'll use that same shoe to continue kicking ass.

"saira"

- i'm literally! so offended! yesterday my entire alliance was high as fuck and today they've been driving around all day or some shit when we gotta figure out frickin tribal plans and i'm supposed to go to bed in half an hour and i'm going to college tomorrow and I DESERVE BETTER THAN THIS

"saira"

- nevermind fuck kevin voting for that bench again

"saira"

- Well, I tried, but apparently someone here is a snitch, who is okay with losing to either Sam or Ricky