Board Thread:Season 47 - Heroes vs. Villains II/@comment-24277959-20180612032420/@comment-26864283-20180613013305

Hey Evan, I feel like I have a lot to say to you and I don’t really know where to start. I was honestly speechless when I read through everything last night and I needed to take a while to sit on it all. I know that I’m not going to get your vote tonight and I’m not going to campaign for your vote tonight. You stated how you felt about my gameplay in your speech and while I can say I disagree with a lot that you said, I don’t think any amount of speech could change your opinion. You made it very clear that you do not think I played a good game this season and while you’re entitled to that opinion, I just wanted to address some things you stated in your speech.

The point I was trying to make in the beginning of my speech was that not one person wins by playing the same way as another person does. Survivor is an individual game, each and every single person that has won the show and the org has won the show in a different way. Now, you saying that me being the villain was my downfall in both of my past seasons which is true. However, I don’t think I played the same way I did in my past two seasons. Sure, I was a villain in now all three of my main org seasons, but they were not all identical games. Now, I’m not here to talk about how my game this season differs from my past two since that’s not what THIS FTC is about.

When this game first started, my original goal was not to specifically fuck over my friends from before the game. Yes, I wanted to BE the villain, but that doesn’t necessarily mean to rid all my friends. It just so happens that I HAD to play that way. Very early on we were all pinned together and from my perspective, the best way to get the target off you is to throw it on someone else. So, considering there was multiple other people being accused of being in this “pre-game alliance”, I knew I had to throw them all under the bus in order to survive. I needed to distance myself the furthest away from you guys as possible, without actually cutting you guys lose. At least for the pre-merge portion of the game. I didn’t needed to rely on you guys pre-merge, but it was beneficial for me because it allowed me time to build better relationships with other people outside of that group. Yes, I did receive votes but clearly the bonds that I formed outside of the group were what kept me alive. Considering the rounds I received votes pre-merge I did not have anyone from the group that was CONSTANTLY being called out on my tribe. So, I was bound to get votes, but I survived. Aside from Rob the round where I played my idol, I never had anyone on my tribe from “the pre-game alliance”. So, yes, I will say my connections outside of our circle are what kept me alive, which is why I made a big deal about it.

Onto the round I played my idol, you’re right I didn’t mention Declan in my speech because I had already played my idol before Declan told me I was receiving the votes. My mind was made up because Mitch drunkenly came to me acting EXTREMELY sketch. Rob agreed with me on that one saying Mitch pretty much exposed that everyone was against us that round since his lies were just god awful. So, back to your point, I didn’t feel the need to give Declan credit in my speech as my idol was already played.

You’re absolutely right, I should have gotten rid of Sora earlier if I wanted to mercilessly kill all my friends. I should have struck earlier, but there are multiple reasons why I didn’t. For starters, I knew Sora had his idol and with the sides constantly switching to what appeared to be voting blocks, I never knew who I could trust if I wanted to concoct a plan to get rid of Sora. I knew he had social connections all across the board. Sora was also giving me A LOT more information than anyone else in the game was at the time. Yes, I had Declan, but besides him I did not trust the hero girls an ounce more than I trusted Sora. When you have people not talking game to you vs people who actually are telling you what’s going on, to me the answer is simple. I had to keep Sora around long enough to the point where I could find a perfect time to strike.

Regarding the whole being mad at Rob and not Sora after the Mackie vote is completely not true. You said you were curious of what my thought process was, so I’ll lay everything out for you. The round Mackie left I was on call with Rob about an hour before the deadline and we were just bullshitting and he told me that the perfect time to get rid of Mackie would be final 6. Later that round Mackie and I start getting paranoid because he heard his name, I still hadn’t. He and I pieced together that he was leaving, even though I didn’t believe it until I saw the results because I wasn’t expecting Rob and Sora to lie to me. After the deadline, Sora and Rob hid from me and were ignoring my messages, which made me super pissed off. After the whole thing went down, I got into a heated fight with the both of them in PMs. While Rob was trying to do damage control, Sora actually DID damage control. Sora not only told me it was all Rob’s plan, but he even copy/pasted the messages to me of Rob saying how they needed to get Mackie out because I would never vote him out. In my opinion, that’s a move against me. Rob wanted Mackie out to get closer to me and it just made me drift away from him. Sure, Sora could have omitted messages or edited them or whatever other excuse someone could think of, but bottom line was that I had concrete proof this was a move made against me. Also, Rob having me on call an hour before the vote saying “We can’t cut Mackie until final 6” and than an hour later he was gone. I know the blindside was planned last minute, but Rob’s excuse was that it was now or never. To sum it up, I was hearing two different stories as to why they really did it. In my opinion, Sora’s story was more believable but I was still pissed off at both of them. Overall, what they did left a horrible taste in my mouth. I’ve never been so blindsided by an elimination in my ORG career.

Now, addressing my gameplay with you. No, my intentions this season was not to backstab you. I never wanted to go to the end with you, but I needed to make you think that. I needed to make “the pre-made alliance” think I was ride or die with them, which in my opinion worked since you stated it yourself that you believed me. I could have approached things different with you, but I didn’t. I’m not trying to kiss your ass here at all, but you are a great player. I watched you DOMINATE Retribution and there was no way in hell I was letting it happen again.

Like I stated in the beginning, I know you will not be voting me. I wanted to make this reply to you because I disagree with a lot of the things you said. I wanted to defend my gameplay for the others who read this. There’s one last thing I want to address to you before I closed this. You stated “And through all this, what comes off as the shittiest to me is that I know personal information about me was said to you concerning a pretty dark time of my life and instead of even wanting to confirm it to me or talk about it, you just laughed it off, and that’s messed up.” Now I’m gonna be honest with you here, I quiet frankly do not know what you’re talking about. I have an IDEA, but I also do believe that this is not the place to have this discussion. I’m not posting anyone’s personal business here, but I want to discuss this in private once the season is over. I can guarantee you THIS part is a big misunderstanding. I do consider you to be one of my best friends online, considering we’ve known each other for years. So I would like to work things out after this season is all done with, but if you wish not to, I understand. With that, I wish you the best of luck and thanks for reading this all if you actually did.