Somehow, Someway, I'm Still In This Game/Confessionals

Day 37
"watubela"

- YES Sole is out! The rat I wanted out since the start. As Simon and Garfunkel said: The pattern never alters until the rat dies.

Andrei yelled at me saying how bad of a move it was, but keep in mind that Andrei isn't in my final three plan, so he doesn't realize how good it was for me and Natalie. I finally told Andrei the idol clue, just because I want someone besides Adam and Miguel to get it. I want to ensure a final three of me, Topher and Natalie. Getting out Sole was the best bet for me. Now I only have to beat two challenge beasts on the way there, and we have so many opportunities to get Adam out.

And Adam won't vote me, and Miguel won't if Adam won't. Sole however, would vote me. So getting him out now was best for my game.

"watubela"

- So here's the deal. I talk to Luke, talk to Natalie, and SOMEHOW I give them the idea that it'd be best to take out Sole. I let Luke know what kind of mastermind he'd look like if he is successful with using me and Miguel as pawns, and how it'd be smart to take out Sole letting me slide into the final 6. I work my butt off on this immunity challenge, end up losing. But, somehow, someway, I'm still in this game. Who knows how, but I have 3-4 immunities left and I can DEFINITELY win out. I know I'm the next target, just because of the lack of communication. So, I need to either get that idol or win immunity. The only way to get the idol is to get exiled, and since I can't exile myself, one half of the Match Stick Men HAS to win. Btw, me and Miguel are the 'Matchstick Men". We needed an alliance name or we'd never be cut out for Survivor. So if Miguel wins, he exiles me. Thankfully, Miguel is a wiz with graphics, however Topher might not submit just so we can't be successful. It'd be smart, but I don't know if Topher will realize or listen to Luke fully. If we don't successfully pull this off, well I have one shot to stay. We'll see how it plays out, don't count Adam out yet!

"watubela"

- Sole was voted out, as planned. It was kind of sad to see him gone not only because he was one of my biggest allies left but also a good friend. :/ Anyway, as long as it ain’t me…. But now Im basically screwed… I really need to win immunity now or hope that Adam doesn´t win it because if not I may be next. Unless we could persuade Luke to vote out Andrei since he is the second biggest challenge threat.

"watubela"

- Welp… I don’t know how Adam pulled this one off, I don’t even know if the idea of blindsiding Dan only came from him, but that was brilliant… For HIS game. This dude has more lives than fucking Uli had in All Stars!

I honestly don’t see how Luke and Natalie could fall line and sinker for this. They told me Adam showed them receipts proving Dan had plans to flip in case of a split vote, which I know he did… Back when Sam was voted out… So they were obsolete. They got tricked into drinking stale tea. They suddenly got scared of Dan controlling the game, but I mean… That’s ridiculous. They had a majority to get rid of him and I was not going to let him snatch immunities easily either. And it’s going to be my job to take immunity away from Adam now… So if this game goes to dogs because of them, they have no one to blame but themselves.

Day 38
"watubela"

- Thankfully, we got a twist that actually benefitted us for once! For this final Reward, they split us into groups of 2, and I got paired with Luke, and Natalie and Topher each got paired with a villain. Both members of each pair have to submit their creation in order for the pair to qualify for the challenge, so our best play is to have Natalie and Topher throw so we can send them to Exile. Look, I’m not too fond of giving Topher any advantage in this game, but it turned out that he had second thoughts about throwing… And his reasoning? Miguel asked him to do the challenge and he didn’t have the common sense to say “no” or “I’ll see what I can do”… So he didn’t feel like lying to his friend.

Look, I don’t like Topher, we’ve had to drag him throughout the entire premerge and he outlasted a bunch of people that I really like, so for once, he had the opportunity to be helpful by not doing as usual, yet he was willing to go out of inactivity for Miguel? He doesn’t really owe me anything, but I mean, Luke and Natalie never did anything to him to deserve that… This Idol clue could really fuck us all over if Adam gets it so it would be extremely infuriating if he sank the Yang tribe for a friendship with someone who did not hesitate to shank him.

"watubela"

- Luke told me Topher ended up having a change of heart and was actually going to throw the Reward… But It's past Done-O’Clock in Brussels and it kind of infuriated me even more because his whole spiel about how he couldn’t do that to his friend Miguel was actually bullshit too. The hypocrisy level is just too much for me to handle politely. And it’s not just rude towards Miguel; it’s rude towards the host because he’s holding up the game because he can’t just be upfront about a very rational decision.

"watubela"

- So we managed to get Topher and Natalie to throw the challenge for Andrei and I to send them to Exile Island. This way, Adam and Miguel stay far away from the idol clue. The upcoming Tribal is the last time the idol can be played, so I hope to find it to guarantee myself a spot in the final five.

"watubela"

- Yes! I have located the Hidden Immunity Idol! This means my spot in the final five is locked, since next Tribal is the last time it can be played. Adam told me his score in the challenge because he thinks Andrei is next, so I told Andrei his score for him to try and beat it. I told Andrei so far that I got the idol, but no one else.

Also funny story, Topher was actually the one who gave me the clue that helped me find the idol. I love irony sometimes.

"watubela"

- Today, Luke revealed to me that he found the idol, meaning that Adam does not have it! After the messy shit he pulled with Dan’s blindside, that was the least he could do to make it up for it. Now I have to do my part and snatch that Immunity again, because I’m not too secure with Topher. Maybe he does realise he has nothing to lose and could try and hand the game to the Villains, even though he is in fact a loyal person… He just happens to have a pre-existing relationship with Miguel, and it’s strong enough for him to feel guilty about throwing a reward challenge that he actually did benefit from throwing, so go figure.

I got a good grip, so all I can do now is get a good grip on my pearls and wait for the results.

"watubela"

- The reward challenge was up. FINALLY something that I could win and it is in PAIRS!? Fucking pairs!? And with TOPHER!? FUCKING TOPHER!??. Ok I may over react but maybe he can do a decent job with the buff and I killed it at the flag so we could win reward and we can send Adam to exile. That way he will get the second clue. Enough to one of us to finally find the idol.

"watubela"

- I can’t believe that Topher didn’t submit! What an useless player! I mean I would say that Natalie and Topher threw it on purpose but that would be giving too much credit for a bunch of useless bags of raw potatoes who call themselves castaways. I’m so pissed now. Of course Andrei and Luke won… I mean we practically have no way out of this one. I need to win immunity now.

Day 39
"watubela"

- So Adam won Immunity, meaning clearly Miguel is the target on my mind. I still don't know if I should play my idol, considering that I recently found out it can be played at final five too. Adam told me he has a plea to tell me on Skype in an hour, so I'll patiently wait to hear it. However, my mind is set on Miguel. So unless I hear that someone's been plotting against me, no chance Adam can sway me. But you never know.

"watubela"

- So Adam tried hard to convince me to vote Andrei, but I wasn't swayed. Nor was Natalie. We need him, we can't risk Adam winning his way to the end. However, the dumbass Topher said he wants to vote Andrei because he trusts Miguel more. At this point I kinda want to be on the Jury so I can slam him if he reaches the end. But I'd rather win.

So now since he's inactive, I can't find out who he voted until after the deadline. So I'm debating whether or not to play my idol on Andrei. I will seriously feel like the stupidest player ever if I play it and waste it. Oh my God, Topher is so f*cking stupid.

"watubela"

- So… I’m practically screwed. Or not. Apparently Luke is up to vote out Andrei, he just need´s Natalie's confirmation. God I hate her. Well, not really but I hate the fact that I need her when I want to vote her out since the beginning and now I depend on her to stay. I think that’s the charm of a goat. I’m not puting all my eggs on one basket though, I tried to talk to Topher and he seems like he is finally willing to pull out a move and vote out Andrei. Yay! He got a brain! So suposedly it would be a 5-1 vote. But I’m really nervous that an idol could be played or that Luke and Natalie could not flip on Andrei. Even if that’s the case we would have a tie. And I know Luke is not going to draw rocks for Andrei so he would have to flip. Definately. So as long as Andrei doesn´t pull out an idol from his bra, I could have a chance.

"watubela"

- Welp… Apparently Adam exploited a performance glitch to win this challenge, but our hosts’ common-sense radars got fooled by a video of Adam illustrating how he pulled off his performance. So now we have to send home Miguel, and frankly, I don’t think Topher is going to be willing to do it. Therefore, I have to convince Luke to play the idol on me, or it’s pretty much going to rocks… and we can’t just let Topher of all people fuck up the game for us now.