It's a Sticky Situation/Confessionals

Day 22
"kinavatse"

- THE MERGE! I can't believe I made it! It's so nice to have Sora on my side again. He doesn't seem bitter about the Will vote at all. The whole 5-5 tie that the genders have going right now is a little intimidating, but whatever. I hope the name I have in mind for the tribe gets chosen!

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- MERGE YAS. I've made the merge and the jury in this game, it has been my goal to at least make it this far, now the only thing left is to make it to the final 3. As soon as we got to the merge Jace immediately came to me telling me not only was he happy to see me, but that HE was the one behind the Will blindside because he was sketchy?

I haven't been with Jace since this game really started, but as it looks right now Jace to me seems like a really paranoid player. So right now my plan this round will be to round up my former alliance, get 2 or more of the people on the other tribe, and vote out one of the girls. It's not that I don't trust them, its just I don't want them to have options in this game. I want to make sure I am everyone's options and if I feel you have other ones, cut them as soon as possible. Jace and Renz seem like good candidates and if I'd have to pick a target at this moment I'd probably be Missy, or maybe even Eoin if it comes to it, because right now I have no idea where the guys over there stand.

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- Sorry been busy recently exams, shit like that (Not even lying this time) but anyway here I go. So basically the tribe swap has worked out like a dream for me, the two people who were assholes to me (Will and Martynas) got their torches snuffed before I did as they lectured me on how I owed them for getting this far and I should be the one sorry for the blindside. Pretending to be their slaves worked perfectly and all is good in the world at the minute. I would have liked to have a bigger part in the blindsides but Martynas (Illiterate fuck) elimination had nothing to do with me. While I had flipped to the girls on Attica we were torn between Jace and Will, Jace cut Will's throat before I got the chance to so I guess he gets the credit for that.

Now I'm at the merge (Which I didn't expect to make) in the majority in every retrospect. As on one side I have the ladies who I have teamed up (With me included) we have the majority at 6-4. While if you want to look at post-swap tribes my tribe is 6-4 up so either way I have the majority but this is the tricky bit, are both sides with me? The other post-swap ladies were very united with the men so I do worry that maybe they might try and swing a few over and take out someone from our post-swap tribe. And as the women recruited me for their side, the men could do the same although they are unlikely to take me out since they still think I'm loyal at this point (lolpher) and I think the brains of the men (Except me) are mostly gone, I mean the most threatening at the minute is fucking Sora.

But I do think I have the females on my post-swap tribe on lock so I proposed the most sensible option target MJ or Sora as they are not aligned with any of us and they have no ties that I know of. This also means if one of the alliances we are with backs out we still have the numbers to take them out. I'm still waiting for a response but if this plan works i might have my first piece to add to my final tribal council resume!

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- aight, let's see if i can get this straight. so right now jessica and i have like 3 alliances we're considering? apart from our core 4-person alliance with hanne and mj, which we're definitely sticking to. there's the OG laconia alliance with missy and erica, which probably isn't going to happen tbh since we haven't talked as a group at all. there's the new attica alliance of jace, ranz, and eoin, which probably won't hold together for very long either since apparently jace is already talking to the guys about working together again which makes sense. and then there's the nebulous, not-clearly-defined ideal alliance that might include eoin and sora and erica or some variation of those three. we were just going to stick with the laconia alliance plus eoin for the first vote and get rid of jace or renz, but then he was like, "i think we should take out either mj or sora first since then we'll be in the majority both ways" and me and jessica jim-faced at each other and were like "hmm idk about that" and then jessica came up with this Master Plan. basically, we get rid of missy at the next tc so it looks like jessica, eoin, and i are in the minority, then get hanne and mj and possibly sora to "flip" at next vote and then take out jace, renz, and erica, not necessarily in that order. the tricky part is that we're trying to maintain the illusion of working with everyone as long as possible, and making our core 4 alliance (which really needs a name tbh) not obvious. good news is we have relationships with almost everyone and 2 idols, so we should be able to work it out. i mean, this all sounds brilliant and amazing right now and i'm so here for it, but i know it's not gonna be as easy as it seems. especially at f6 or so. just gotta roll with the punches and try to remain alert and aware and adaptable. hopefully it works out. also i have to keep reminding myself that, as cool as our f4 alliance is, i have to be careful with them too. i teamed up with these people for a reason: they're much smarter than everyone else here, and i'd rather be with them than against them. but i also can't become complacent and get blindsided by them, because hey, it's survivor and sometimes you gotta kill your friends. figuratively, of course..............[eyebrow face] idk i just have to be aware of them too and especially careful not to get too comfortable.

also note to self: DO NOT BECOME AN IMMUNITY THREAT PLEASE WE HAVE ALREADY SEEN HOW THAT GOES IT'S NOT WORTH IT AMELIA IT'S NOT

kbye gotta go eat my crunchy rice

Day 23
"kinavatse"

- I feel like the swing vote right now. I want to vote with the guys, but I don't know what they are planning, and I want to vote with the girls, but I do not want them to have a majority. It's a sticky situation (Shout-out to Bay).

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- SO I LOST BY 4 POINTS TO A FLAG THATS LITERALLY SPELLED WRONG DLGKNGSDLKGDSNKGL ok moving on, before the immunity challenge I wanted Missy out, and now after immunity i want Missy out. Her leaving would be an easy no problem kinda vote, thats not the case anymore. Literally, all hell has broken loose at this camp. I can't even tell you who is likely leaving, because I probably heard every single persons name come up at least once. Jace is concerned that a girl needs to go because he thinks its still girls vs boys? No its not anymore, maybe coming into this it was but now its who you trust vs who you dont.

"kinavatse"

- This is where things get scary. I am not sure if I can trust Amelia or Erica with the vote of Missy. I hate how the game is 5-5 right now. So much can go wrong, and so much rides on this vote going well. Any misspoken sentence or inaccurate trusting can lead to my downfall in this game. I'm hoping this vote goes well.

"kinavatse"

- I am quite happy that I won immunity. Thats the good news! Yay!

ExceptforthefactthatIhavetovotesomeoneoutthatIdon'tseethemasathreatwhatsoeveraftertheyummytummyfeastandIfeelscrewedbecauseIdunnowhotovotefor.

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- okay so the problem with having a strong alliance is that some people think that means it's a good idea to get fancy. the plan has changed like 5 times in the last 24 hours, but basically it looks like jace is going at this point. i think the main reasoning for this was that everyone thinks he and erica know each other / are friends / say too many words to each other, which i don't necessarily see as such a huge threat but jace *is* a pretty smart player so i don't mind too much. i feel a little bit bad about betraying him so soon, especially because i do believe that he trusts me and intends to work with me in the future, but [captain hammer voice] a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do. we have eoin and missy on our side for sure, so right now it's better to keep them close than get rid of useful numbers. also, i think it's a bit better to just go with a majority vote than continue trying to balance three alliances and keep them all happy at the same time.

the only potential problem is jace having the merge idol, which was discussed at great length within the 4 alliance (god we really do need a name). but honestly i don't think he has it, since we've had like 24 hours since the feast and the chances that he would get the clue and/or manage to guess correctly within that time are pretty slim. now, he said to me that "he stopped trying to find it", which i do not believe at all, but i don't think he is going to be successful. also, even if he did have it, i don't think that he would play it, since it is early and it seems like he feels fairly secure with me at least; he came to me and asked me to vote missy with the guys and i was like "hmm well i don't like it but you're right that's probably a better idea" and "as long as you are sure that you have renz" which i think was pretty convincing. so when everyone was like we have to split the vote, i was not super for that idea since it just increases the chances of us getting messed up if one person decides to vote against missy. like, i don't have any idea what sora is doing at all right now, and am a little worried about eoin. but anyway, after some thought we decided to just go for it and all vote jace, so hopefully he'll be gone next.

sorry jace. love you bae. but as you said yourself, missy is queen.

"kinavatse"

- I'm going home, and I'm not going to do anything about it.