Board Thread:Season 12 - All-Stars/@comment-5073714-20140217100140/@comment-11497002-20140217104019

Zac, it sucks to hear you didn't enjoy your time in Cuba. I can't pretend to know the shit you had to put up with but I do feel like we had similar experiences in a way. After I won the Player of the Season award in Korea under 'suspicious'  circumstances everyone felt they needed to weigh in and tell me how rigged it was, how I was terrible, how I wasn't a favourite or even a relevant player. It made me wish I'd never won the bloody thing. The response ruined any enjoyment or feeling of satisfaction I had. Then when I was announced as a contestant for All-Stars, the same shit started up again. I was terrible, nobody liked me, I didn't do anything, I didn't deserve it.

You know what I said? Fuck them. Fuck all of them. I know who I am. I know what I'm capable of. This game has been my chance to show everyone who judged me without knowing me how wrong they were. It's my chance to make people think before they judge someone based on their random assumptions. A lot of people have had to deal with the same shit we've dealt with. People telling us they think they know us better than we know ourselves. You know you're better than the haters. You came fourth in Cuba, and seventh in All-Stars. Anyone who thinks they can do better needs to either put up or shut up because not many people have done what you've done.

To answer your question I played the idol on you partly because I wanted Adam out but it also allowed me to save you. I wanted the 'outsiders' to stand up to those that thought they were running the show and looking so fabulous doing it. I felt there was a lack of respect with how the vote-outs were handled. Jhet and Sole never had a chance. They were voted out simply for being outsiders. Adam, Gerda and co. had used Gerard and then voted him out when they were done using him. When they said they were voting you out I'd had enough. At Final 7 after Adam was gone I intended that you, me, Uli and Lloyd would vote together like I'd said to you. I was prepared for us four to be the final four. Unfortunately, Lloyd wouldn't go along with it. He didn't want to turn on his allies and so we didn't have the numbers to do it. In the end, I had to save myself and vote with the others to eliminate you. I understand if you see that as a betrayal but I didn't mean it to be. I had approached you and Gerard earlier at final 9 to work together so I was genuine in wanting to work with you. To have saved you one round and voted you out the next looks callous and I apologise to you for that but I wasn't using you. I respect you as a player and if Lloyd had come to our side at final 7 there's no reason you couldn't have been in the final.

Sorry again for the way that went down and I'm sorry to hear you had to deal with a bunch of shit. My advice would be to do what makes you happy. Ignore those that try to bring you down because they're just not worth the effort.

And I would choose the Pink button, to heal wounds because damn I am always injuring myself. I have a habit of flinging my hands against things and just bashing them up so that would be useful.

Even if you didn't much enjoy playing the game, I hope you can take away from it that you proved yourself as a good player. I think I might just stick to watching Survivor in future because that's a lot easier and more enjoyable.