Absolute Redemption/Confessionals

Day 36
""salvador"

- I think that my vote on Lucas probably deserves some explanation.

Originally I was voting Lucas in order to save Taylor's ass once I knew for a fact that Evan had another idol. However, Boo told me that Taylor told him he accidentally voted for him (which I thought made 0 sense however I went with it anyway). So then the only way to save Boo was to ensure that Evan voted Taylor.

Boo went completely overboard with it, I love Boo to death but he is a TERRIBLE liar. I'm shocked Evan wasn't suspicious of anything just because of how obvious it was that Boo was trying to make him vote Taylor. I was just kinda like ""okay you're at a 13 Boo, I need you at about a 3"". It did work though and I created a 3 way tie of which I could control the revote however I wanted.

I talked to Taylor and he told me ""oh I voted Evan"". Because Boo told me earlier that Taylor TOLD him he voted for him, I assumed Taylor was lying to me and was just like ""okay let's get him out Evan"" boom done.

Then the truth came out… Lucas actually told Boo that Taylor was voting for him. And Lucas was actually the one who voted for Boo. That's honestly great… Taylor was voted out for a reason pretty much beyond his control besides the fact that he shouldn't have flipped on me at final 8. Maybe then I would've trusted him from the start.

It's final 5 now aka time for me to win immunity and time for Evan to finally leave. I adore Evan, I have since I actually talked to him at the unmerge. But Evan is the only person here who can genuinely outplay me and kick my ass at the end. Not to mention I know I'm way better at challenges than everyone except Evan that is left. I don't want 5th, or 4th. What I want is 1st and Evan is getting in the way of that BIG TIME.

My current brantsteele points thing (I added up my own points so I could know which one to submit) is 170 and I have no idea if that's good or not but I've only actually gotten to the end of 2 others and they were both around 110-130 so I have no idea if I can even break 170. I hope Evan's actually on a road trip and can't really get the best internet access so that way I can possibly win and take him down. Justice for Bryce! (And Justice for Ethan/Dani but they've been gone so long do they really need justice anymore tho??) " ""salvador"

- Yeah, so long story short Boo already voted against me and Grace and Lucas wanted to throw their votes off but at the end of the day everything worked out how it is, Taylor's gone, and I really appreciate how he took his exit with a head held high. Same with Bryce. It's actually the exact OPPOSITE of some premergers this season .... HMMMMM.

Anyways I know if I lose I'm fucked now. Especially if Grace wins immunity. IF both of us were to lose, I do feel like I could work an angle and say ""if you get rid of me you'd have to win that last challenge, and with the way challenges are this season, I wouldn't bank on it"". That may work. Personally if I win myself? I have to be selfish and vote Grace.

Also this challenge is murder. I'd say it's about 10% manipulation of the brantsteele and 90% LUCK. It's very easy to get the first two boots but to get the rest of the premerge is almost impossible. I'm trying to get the entire boot order correctly, that's what matters, trying to bank on other statistics would just be dumb. So really I can get past the Joe-Monica boot stage but then I remember even in a time where I got Spencer and Tasha to be booted after, crazy shit happens like a med evac or a random idol play. So yeah, it's whoever can reset as often as possible but also run into a stroke of luck is who will win this challenge. " ""salvador"

- This challenge I CAN'T EVEN GET THE BOOT ORDER RIGHT THE BEST I CAN DO IS 7 PEOPLE OFF LIKE I'LL HAVE MOSTLY EVERYONE SET AT A MERGE BUT THEN VOTE STEALS COME INTO PLAY AND PEOPLE WING IDOLS FOR NO GOD DAMN REASON

I NEED A MIRACLE " "salvador"

- Okay, so I made a F3 deal with Boo and Scott. It just makes the most sense in my opinion. Hopefully Evan loses this challenge.

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- It's been forever since I've been this scared for immunity results

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- Literally writing out my funeral right now. If I'm going out of this game I don't want a cheap goodbye I need my casket to be diamond encrusted and for the playlist to not include MMMbop.

Day 37
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- I'm shaking.................... Final 5 immunity. I'm so close to the end of this thing. From everything that's been thrown my way to everything I've had to go through before this season even began, all the shit I've had to deal with and all the highs and lows, it's just surreal but I know it's not over until it's over. And I have one game-breaking decision to make. What a fucking journey this has been

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- I know Grace is the obvious target at this point and it makes all the sense in the world to boot her, boot a jury threat and a physical threat at final 5. But then I would have have have have have have HAVE TO WIN the last challenge. There'd be no maneuvering around it. HOWEVER, if I keep Grace, we can agree to protect each other to get to the end no matter what and we can both get there. But of course, there's the glaring issue of if I can trust her next round and if I can beat her at the end to begin with. The last major ORG I played in was 703 all stars and I lost the very last challenge and came 1 day short of winning because I didn't have an insurance policy at the end. But I think the competition here this time around would be easier for me to beat and reach the end.

Time to sleep on this one. DON'T FUCK THIS ONE UP EVAN " ""salvador"

- Well I'm not giving up but I don't want to get my hopes up I offered Evan the deal that if he somehow loses final immunity and saves me this round, I'll save him and throw him in a tiebreaker against scott/boo/lucas because I think that I could possibly win against evan at the end, but it definitely won't be easy and since it happened to him in skye, it can happen to him again of him somehow losing final immunity " "salvador"

- sorry I keep writing so much if it's my last day in the game then I may as well but basically, Boo and I have always said something along the lines of "hopefully our lucky stars are here tonight" and I'm just really hoping the lucky stars are here for me

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- Well, I feel like I could definitely be going home tonight, I don't feel safe at all. Good bye Retribution

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- I try to talk to Evan and he does this thing that him and Bryce both do and they think they're being cute by being obviously online but not reading their messages so it looks like they aren't online. I mean these could be my last few hours in the game and I haven't even mentioned that once I think and I just had to get that out I'm sorry

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- Well it's official, Evan just told me he voted me out meaning there's absolutely no way for me to stay. It's been real guys, you'll have my final words and everything whenever you post tribal, that's what I've been writing all day because I've been mentally preparing myself for this moment

Day 38
""salvador"

- So this is it. One Rites Of Passage, taking in everything that's happened this season. I don't want to be sappy but it may be a bit emotional writing for some people, and if anything, I can take away that so far I've outlasted EIGHTEEN others that wanted this title badly or at least had the potential to take home the win.

Then one last challenge. It's been 39 days. I haven't felt comfortable or had room to breathe since the merge started. I actually hope there's a flag challenge, idec, bring it. I don't know what's going to be thrown my way, but I'm going to be prepared. I'm here on spring break back home but if I have to stay up 24, 48 straight hours to win this I'll do it. This is my dream and determination, and I'll lay everything out on the line to finish this second chance story on top. " "salvador"

- I just realized how fucking hilarious it is for the F4 to be two Palmiras who fought at one time (me and Scott) and two Lucenas who fought, well, ALL THE FUCKING TIME (Lucas and Boo)

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- 38 days, one final challenge, with absolute redemption on the line if I win and a gutting final spot on the jury if I lose.

For everything. " "salvador"

- Wow, F4. Honestly, when the ballot was announced I was sure I'd make it far, but - when the season started I told myself "well, I'm fucked". I believe I should be safe from elimination whoever wins immunity, which is an improvement from my last time, where I got eliminated because this one person that I didn't want to get elminated got eliminated. This time, this ain't happening.

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- Wow, I'm playing the ice cream challenge and I'm getting over 8k, where in PNG I WON the challenge and got 5k something. I honestly don't know what to think about this, especially if someone beats me.

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- So I'm gonna spend the first day of the challenge murdering the flash games.

When it comes to any challenge of any sort you ALWAYS WANT TO SEE ITS HISTORY IN THE ORG, there's a tip to anyone, and I found out that the Word Whizz challenge has been used many times in the past. Early on players won by barely scoring 1000, then Domca in Peru upped the ante by scoring around 4.5k in Peru (which apparently led to ppl calling her out for cheating?? lmao), then ultimately Tom from Similan Islands seems to be the king of this challenge with 7k +.

This challenge actually requires some basic street smarts and raw typing speed, not word intelligence nor memory. What I'm doing is having google chrome on one half of my screen with the game, and internet explorer with a word unscrambler open on the other half. What do you do? Quickly put in your given letters on the word unscrambler site, adjust that site accordingly to what category you're going for, and unleash absolute typing HELL. I type around 150 WPM at my max so that's not a problem, but there's also a bit of luck involved in the challenge in terms of getting a good hand of letters, and the dictionary in the game is a bit flawed so not all words count. So now I'm at around 5k. I'll gun for Tom's score and maybe even higher.

Next is the ice cream machine game. And this challenge is more infrequent, but Lucas played this in his PNG season. He won with a score of around 5000. After only a few runs, I'm already at 10k, but I still can't beat the actual game. So I think I'm in good shape there too, but I'll still try to beat the thing.

After that I'm gonna have to put A LOT into the puzzle, as I know Scott was VERY close to beating my puzzle score the first time around during the whole triple immunity twist and I bet he's itching for this final immunity. As for the jail challenge? Absolute luck.

So that's where I'm at as I speak, I'm just gonna pour my heart out on this thing and if all ends up well I'll get that necklace around me for one last time. " "salvador"

- Well, it just hit 2 A.M. over here and I've officially wrapped up the last challenge of the season. Just thinking back at all the challenges I've done in this season, I think about how it's tested me as a player and as a competitor, and now in this last battle, I'm just hoping that everything I've left out on the line is enough to get me that immunity necklace for a SIXTH time. Fingers, crossed.

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- Final 4 immunity. Everything on the line, and I delivered. What a post to wake up to. So now I say hello to DAY. FUCKING. 39. Let's close the show on top [:

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- So Evan won the FIC which means it looks like I'm being voted out. It's okay that it's my time. I think I played the hell out of my second chance and I'm glad I was taken out for being a threat this time around. I survived 3 tie breakers, made some good friends, and think I played an overall good social game. I'm proud of my game so that's all that matters at this point. I'm glad to be helping crown a winner this time around!

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- Wellllppp, just when you think it's over it's not. Instead of hanging my head and worrying whether or not I choke at 3rd, I'm going to look at this last challenge as a final opportunity to not only seal the deal but to break history along the way with 7 individual immunities. I refuse to die

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- "Adversity causes some men to break; others to break records." - William Arthur Ward

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- Well, shit - I really wanted to win this, or at least Scott to win this. Now, I doubt I'll get a chance to win, or even get to the finale. I think Evan should honor us working together, but he did mention Scott doing nothing, so I just don't know what is going to happen.

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- I almost want to be voted out, I'm afraid the jury will be biased and well, basically - I'm not here for the slander. Evan is only here because of idols and immunities and MY work, this is so sickening knowing I could be voted out now

Day 39
""salvador"

- Never before in a game have I put in the amount of effort and intensity that I just poured in over the course of a season, and it's finally paid off. I've been playing these ORGs for years now, starting out as a dumb TDI youtube player, and when I left my mark there, a little more than a year ago I took myself to this community hoping to do the same. I got shot out of the sky and was slapped with reality in the blink of an eye, and ever since then I just thought about making it back again. There's no ""let's see how it goes"" or ""i'm just here for fun"" mentality, I envisioned winning the whole thing and nothing else, and it's that drive that I really think makes me the player I am today.

So here I am. Day 39. Anarchy. Mutiny. Swaps. Unmerge. 21 other players with similar aspirations. 3 idol plays. 7 individual immunity wins. It's the end of the line, and now it's time to face the jury and write the final page of my second chance story. Let's get this storybook ending. "