This Tribe is Destined to Suck/Confessionals

Day 6
"bariq"

- after that post you (Dallas) made I don't really feel that gutted actually, it's your choice what you do but if it's motivated by being a sore loser then I disapprove of it completely

"bariq"

- So I think this tribe is destined to suck. Like I have no idea when we'll have a swap, probably not for a while, but I don't feel comfortable in this tribe at all. I'm doing my best to make myself a valuable member, like stepping up my game in challenges for example, but I haven't been included in any type of major alliance. Ok, I understand that this is an old school tribe. Most of these people haven't played in a while, but they're not stupid. I'm honestly freaking out because I feel like if this tribe continues on its downward spiral, I'll be next on the chopping block. I wanna say that I have good one-on-one relationships with most of this tribe, but idk if they'll stand the test of time. All I can do is hope and pray that we can pull it together and win some damn challenges.

"shehr"

- who tf does amber think she's messing with

"qahtan"

- Today I woke up to Dallas making a post, it confirmed something, he is kind of childish. He thinks he can do jack and be stand out. Honestly calling out somebody I'm front of the entire cast is just a way of making sure that you are qualified as bitter, since I'm pretty sure we all figured out about the old school winners are allied, anyways let me get to the main point. People shouldn't be worried of the winners alliance, people should be worried about the cross tribal, do they think there's never going to be a swap?

"shehr"

- Challenge... this word can cause my elimination. It's all about this challenge. All the three tribes are going to tribal council which means everyone will be in danger except if you win the challenge. I'm currently doing it and it's hard for my feeling. Kinda have the feeling Ricky, Jamie or Tom will beat me. If I'm not wrong I got it in 6 or 7 guesses so it could be possible to win but it's a tiny tiny chance. If I lose I could be voted off. Ricky and I had a good conversation this morning. Except for him I've not talked to anyone for a day... so probably I'm the target for this tribal council. Fingers crossed, hoping I'll get through this!

"qahtan"

- Eww.. I've done this challenge way too many times before. So this should give me somewhat of an advantage over the others. However... because I was gone all day when it was posted, I was pressured by Ali to do the challenge while I was at work >.> Didn't have the luxury to have my computer on hand and type really fast, I had to do it on my damn phone. It was a valiant effort, but Sam won. Oh well!! YAY it's my showmance that's safe!

In game talk.. Kevin, myself, Sam, Tyler R. and later Joan got in a skype call to discuss the vote. Errbody trying to be coy about it, so I flat out said I am comfortable with voting out people I've talk to the least in the game, that being Jessy and Cali. And it was like there everybody, I fired the first shot! GO! Later Taylor's name came up, welp. Apparently the dude hasn't been talking to people as much as he should have, nothing I could really do. So by the end of the talk, it seems to be either Taylor or Cali.

Talked to Ricky again, and stuff here and there. We talked about our connections in the game. He said Molly, I said Sam. Apparently Molly and Sam are tight, and Sam later confirmed to me that they talk. So yeah, potential alliance in the future waiting for me. He also told me how to find the idol, it's the damn insignia on the tribe camp. So I spend like about 30 mins combing through thread after thread, and I collected all the clues, now gotta solve the phrase. I do end up doing it, the next day, unfortunately I dug and found diddly squat. Yay... there's an idol somewhere among the 7 of these fools. I hope it isn't played and I'm the casualty.

"shehr"

- Oh my god… I feel so stupid. I got completely complacent thinking I had an idol before realising that I should’ve been given an idol picture or something more than just words to say I had the idol… unless it was fake. The hosts wouldn’t just forget to give the picture, which shows me that my idol is in fact fake and worthless. I’m such an idiot though, thinking that in an All-Stars season people wouldn’t re-hide the idol to throw people (like me) off… Ugh. Plus, I doubt I’ll win immunity, I think 7 guesses might get me maybe like 4th in the tribe? I doubt it’s a winning score though. Ricky was speaking to me and he said that Amber was the first boot and I had nothing to worry about, but if I don’t win immunity, I’ll be worrying right until the last vote is read. I’ve spoken to everyone a fair amount and got to know them, so if it’s me that’s planned to go then I guess that’s just how it is. I pray that Ricky’s not lying to me in saying it’s Amber, but who knows? I lied to him in Rome, he might just be repaying the favour.

"bariq"

- So Dallas is out in another unanimous vote, but his exit was everything but quiet. It's funny how hypocrite people can be when they realize they made a mistake that costed them the game. I know this out of experience because I had the same problem, I wasn't able to look inside and think where I was wrong, instead of blaming others for my failure. Dallas was trying to call out the three winners for having an alliance (well, duh! isn't it the obvious thing for winners to do in an allstars season?) and make a desparate effort to convince the tribe to turn on us. Good morning Dallas, where were you last tribal when you happily voted for Jeremy even though it was "so clear" to you that we're aligned? I'll tell you exactly where - in your comfort zone. You didn't give a shit about who is going home as long as it wasn't you. This strategy doesn't work when you don't have a solid alliance or any other good case to keep you around. I doubt anyone from the other tribes was taking him seriously considering the unanimous vote, but it was still annoying.

"qahtan"

- So Joan found the fake clue that Jessy planted and is now on a mad witch hunt to figure out who planted it and wants me to help him. ALL I WANNA DO IS WATCH H20 AND EAT MY DORRITOS IN PEACE! IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR? I THINK NOT!!!!

"shehr"

- Ricky reminds me to Danny, my buddy from last season. He's so competive and smart. I have to make sure I can trust him. I really don't wanna go home that early... And I have to try to get Molly out because she is the only one who is not in any alliance with me.

"qahtan"

- I don't buy the fact that Sam didn't know about those puzzles and I also don't buy the fact that Joan doesn't have the idol. But I'm doing this because I need to know that the idol is gone for myself so I can act accordingly

"shehr"

- i've been messaging amber about tc and t's v funny bc im like wow????i wonder what everyone is doing>>>???? but like i know u voting for me hoe so ya we'll see if my alliance is tru then im not going anywhere yet

"shehr"

- Having a conversation with Ricky and Jamie at the moment. They are doing so fake for my feeling. I have no idea if I have to believe them or not so I'm playing the game slowly when I talk to them. Just don't feel safe for now... I could be voted off this time...

"shehr"

- Lol Ricky bad actor.

"qahtan"

- So it's pretty clear that the fact that we are going to tribal is sinking on people's skins because Taylor (for the love of got TAYLOR) actually approached me to talk. As of now everybody but Kevin has actually approached me to talk which makes me angry since the three times Ive talked to Kevin I had to approach him. Like boy that is not good social game, you have to show some interest because as of now in this tribe I see 6 possibilities of people who I can work with and align after the obvious swap that is going to happen and then there is Kevin who thinks that talking about his work is going to make him seem a valuable member. So if I get a choice on who goes home tonight its Kevin, without a second thought, I don't care if he has an idol, he will probably not be aware he is on the chopping block for the same reason of why he is in it, he just won't reach out to people and talk.

Day 7
"shehr"

- I finished the challenge and i'm not too confident in my score winning. Since we can't compare with each other, I looked at the results of last season. The record was 5, but a lot of people got in the 6-8 range. I got 8. I thought Molly and I were at an advantage because we had to do a challenge like this in endure once, but it was a lot different (the best score was like 23, i got like 38 i think). However, Ricky was a host for Alsace-Lorraine so he could've seen how people were getting it in 5 or 6 moves and copied their strategies. As well, Amber was a competitor in the challenge, and though she got a 10 last season, that doesn't mean she can't do even better.

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"shehr"

- Also i just realized that my chat with Tom and Amber is called TATtoo Trio. I thought it was TATer Tots. I'm disappointed.

"bariq"

- Feeling a little bit anxious at the moment. The next vote is crucial to go our way, even though it appears we have the numbers. Something is telling me that Amir and Skandi will turn on me, hopefully I'm wrong though.

"shehr"

- I'm very conflicted right now frown emoticon

So if everyone is being truthful to me, I think Amber is the person to go. It's killing me because Amber is soo nice to me and you can tell she's putting a lot of effort into this game. There is evidence of her making multiple little alliances here and there but let's be real, isn't everyone doing that?? We gotta make allies somehow and i think her downfall is that she was just forming the alliances too late.

There is a chance that she can win immunity though, and while it might suck for the Not from Europe crew, i'm not entirely sure that's bad for me personally.

We'll wait and see...

"shehr"

- there's only room for one blonde bench on this tribe

"shehr"

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"shehr"

- This evening is really weird. I'm feeling strong but also not safe. It will be Molly or me tonight and also if we get majority maybe she has the idol. I'm sure anyone has found it already. Amelia got immunity and I didnt't. I really thought I did it in six moves but probably seven. Maybe it's a good thing to be not immune now. To see if I can trust everyone. For now I got everyone to vote Molly but something in me says I will go home.

Day 8
"qahtan"

- so there is definitely a close alliance between yap ,joan and sam going on feeling like i need to get myself into that for the mean time but only for now i have no long term plans atm and just trying to survive the short term

"qahtan"

- im in a skype call with sam and joan and as soon as one stops typing the other starts...

"qahtan"

- So, apparently the idol has been found, and my guess, is that either Sam or Joan have it. Taylor could potentially have it, but I'd doubt it. If he does, he needs to play it this tribal. I just hope that if an idol is played, I'm not the one who is targeted

"bariq"

- 'm so sad, you guys. The gay guys alliance want to vote out blaine because they think a switch happens next and he might be dangerous with all the friends he has on the other tribes. I just dont wanna vote out blaine, he's such a great guy. It literally breaks my heart to be in this situation. If I dont vote blaine and let's say me, blaine and charley vote skandi, the guys will be mad on me. And I also dont wanna go to rocks. I don't know what to do, my heart says go with blaine and charley, my mind says the guys. How should I know which one is right?!

"qahtan"

- Generations Confessional-Day 8

"qahtan"

- So I'm pretty sure they want to vote me and Sam is leading the charge the slut

"shehr"

- So I lost immunity, but according to Ricky I should be safe. I’ve spoken to everyone else and everyone is saying Amber apart from Amber who’s saying Molly, so I feel safe unless the whole tribe is playing me but I doubt that. I thought I’d be screwed simply because I didn’t know anyone and have a reputation for being untrustworthy but I guess talking to people and getting to know them while staying under-the-radar has really worked well for me! I mean who knows, it could still be me going but from my talks with everyone, I just feel like it’s not likely.

"shehr"

- We are walking to tribal council and I'm soooo nervous! The feeling I could go home makes me almost throw up. If everyone is honest to me they are voting Molly. If they are not then I'm never, really never, talking to them again, lol. No kidding it's just a game but it would suck so much if I have to leave this game. I'm not ready to go, I want to be in the tribe swap, I wanna meet new people. This game is not over for me and I've fought for my place here. I hope it was enough and if it's not I'm leaving as a strong player. Tribal council, let me stay please. *sighs*

"bariq"

- Oh fuck, Skandi wants to split the vote. Why is it that I have a bad feeling about this? A little paranoid that if we split the vote Skandi will vote with Blaine and Charley against me. I remember Skandi back in Switzerland, "I'd rather be a Russell than a Natalie", that could be his motion behind a big move. I guess I've got no option but to go with the split, hoping everything goes to plan.

"bariq"

- Survivor is a numbers game, and if skandi joins forces with charley and Blaine, he'll be apart of a 3 person alliance whereas if he remains loyal to us he'd be apart of four. So it would make sense that he'd stay with us! But its survivor, you can never be sure till the votes are read.

"qahtan"

- So I'm talking to Joan about the vote, and I bring up the possiblilty of someone having the idol, and he's just all like "ya I knoooowww". Ya child I know you have it. And even if you don't have it, I still don't trust you cause the only things I been hearing about you, just lead me to think that your nothing but a shady MC shadypants. If I survive this vote I will make it my mission you down, and take you down hard. Like you gonna spread shit about me having an alliance with everyone? Well two can play at that game.

"bariq"

- Now skandi came with the idea to split the votes. Me and amir vote charley, he and lukas vote blaine. I might go with blaine and charley and vote his ass out.

"bariq"

- So the survivor gods have granted me a birthday present in the form of winning immunity and a guaranteed spot at the final 18 without having to break a sweat. I guess you can always count on me to win a luck-based challenge xD The problem is that our tribe has to say goodbye to another member, without losing a challenge to justify this member's boot. Of course that Blaine is a more valuable member in challenges than Charley any day, but considering this tribe swap that could take place right after the triple tribal and the idol that we have to somehow keep a secret, there are many variables that must come into account when we're going to vote tonight. There is still the option we will stay in the same tribe and keep losing, there could be a swap or a dissolve or who knows what. Blaine is a more reliable member challenge-wise, but Charley is closer to Skandi and he could use her. This is the hardest call I had to make in this game so far, but I hope I can make the right desicion.

"bariq"

- I was thinking about it all day- Blaine or Charley? and the more I thought about it, the more I realized there is no good or bad decision here. I have no idea what the hosts are planning for us, so I can't possibly make a rational decision. So I went back to my principals and thought how can I benefit from this vote, regardless of who's going home? then it hit me. Split the votes! 2 for Blaine, 2 for Charley. If Blaine or Charley voted against the alliance, that person will go home 3-2-1. If they voted against each other, it's 3-3 and we revote. It will give us an opportunity to see how the other tribes voted and for Blaine and Charley to plead their case and beg us for mercy before we finally decide. And it gets better. In case of a switch, we can sell the other tribes any story we want about what was going on in our tribe. such vote will crush the theory of an alliance between the three winners, nobody will know who's aligned with who and even Blaine and Charley themselves wouldn't know who was on their side. Nobody is going to think our tribe is a one happy family after this vote.

"bariq"

- Chances are, I'm going home. But I'm not going to lay down and die, take it like a bitch like it seems Skandi wants me to d, I'm going to fight for my place in this game. You see, Skandi is telling me the vote is between me, and Blaine. He's also telling me not to fight, just go under the radar. Like... My ass is on the line, if you guys want me out of this game it'll be kicking and screaming. So, I'm throwing Blaine under the bus, he approached me about an all winners alliance last week, so I'm going to tell these hopefully paranoid winners about it. But god, old school has the smarts and manners of baboons. THIS IS A SOCIAL GAME.Skandi and Amir, I'm fine with. Mihai and Lukas drive me up the fucking wall. I can tell they want Blaine because he's their friend, he promised them everything in the world and they ate it up. Now that I am literally telling Mihai, hey this guy was talking about overthrowing a winners alliance, he won't fucking listen to me. These guys are stubborn as mules! Seriously, I have a track record of loyalty in games, and they would rather keep Blaine. They should keep him though. I mean why the fuck would I stay loyal to a tribe that JUST CONSIDERED VOTING ME OUT? If they keep me, and we switch, I'm running far away from old school. The only ally I have here is Skandi, and even then... I'm just playing this to survive

"bariq"

- Ok, so I don't get charley. A day ago she told me she trustes blaine and would like to work with him. Now she tells me she wants to vote for him. I mean, I had this plan for saving both of them and getting skandi out, but I guess some people don't want to be saved, so it will probably be a 3-3 tie between charley and blaine. Charley is a fine example of why I'm not into women.

"qahtan"

- So after I reluctantly talk with Taylor about saving him, he and I get into a skype call with Kevin. And the vibe I got off Kevin was that he was reluctant too. Eventually I get Ricky into the call, and he's like spit balling answers too. Ricky and I are talking on the side and I tell him that no matter what, Taylor's going home. Nothing can really change at this point, and I also don't want to at this phase of the game. It's like whatever, and Taylor leaves to go to the gym.

That leaves Kevin and myself with Ricky where he gives us the lowdown. Tyler P. has the idol because Molly, himself, and Ricky straight went looking for it. Originally he said someone had it and he didn't know, so I guess he finally decided to tell him the truth. And Ricky believes that Sam may have ours because if Molly and Tyler P tell her practically everything, then they're dead sure that she was told about the idol location and everything.

So that leaves me at this situation. Of course I want to be close with Sam, because in some way we connect. However because of so many other factors in this game, it can't work out like that. She's most likely tighter with Molly and other people because of pre-game stuff. And try as I might, I can't get her to reveal to me that she has the idol. LIKE I WOULD FEEL A LOT BETTER ABOUT US IF SHE WOULD REVEAL TO ME SOMETHING, but she's been very vague when it came to game details. I don't like it unsure emoticon

At least I'll get a friendship bracelet out this showmance

"qahtan"

- These damn bitches omg. So I'm talking with Jessy and she tells me that Yap is trying to flop the votes so I go home. And honestly like...dafuq? Yap better go through the exit on stage left before I go all kinds of Sardinia on his ass. Like honestly, there is so much holding me back from just calling his sneaky ass out in that tribe chat for everyone to see. So now I gotta just go back through to everyone so that they are still good with the plan to get Taylor out. If this is my time, I ain't going home without a fight.

"bariq"

- ok confessional

umm idk but i guess im in the best position in my tribe which sucks cuz honestly i planned it really differently, i was going to be a goat until the merge at least. on one hand im the leader de facto of the winners alliance and im not even suspected to be in it on the other hand i have those great friendships/alliances with joan (my husband), charley and recently amber i kinda abandoned my relationships with sam, cali and blaine ( idc cuz hes going out this tribal), Which is bad but honestly u guys know im super busy and yes i think i managed to save charley ( at least at the revote) which is great because shes a really close ally ( i hope) i also managed to be the first to achieve the hii without clues this season and pass it to amir who can use it smaerter than me

"qahtan"

- So the plan WAS to unanimously vote Taylor out for not doing anything but then he suddenly comes online to save his ass and now everyone is charmed by his accent and good looks and wants to keep him and im just like... Epsiode3conf2.gif

"bariq"

- REALLY getting the impression that Skandi is not to be trusted for this vote! Very anxious!

"bariq"

- It feels like I'm on a sinking ship with this tribe. I feel completely on the outs and even though I'm socializing my ass off, I don't feel included in the strategic talks of the group. The only person I sincerely trust is Mihai and while I think he has my back, I don't feel like he's in a power position either.

Lukas and Amir hold that power which is why I've been basically kissing their asses. I just need to survive long enough for a swap to happen and then I'll be golden.

"bariq"

- holy shit! I was wrong about skandi, he's a loyal motherfucker after all! Well now I've got a tough decision to make, having to vote out one person who's extremely deserving. I want the most deserving player to stay, because let's face it, both charley and Blaine wouldnt do business with any of us after this vote, and both of them are quite big threats, "physically", strategically and socially... So there's nothing else to base my vote on but by who's more deserving at advancing in the game. At the moment I'm leaning towards protecting charley, but on the other hand... I've enjoyed battling with Blaine in both Laos and Cuba, if the journey ends here it would be a disappointment. Ugh why is this so hard!

"bariq"

- Well fuck all of you. I try my absolute best in challenges so that this pathetic tribe doesn't have to go to tribal over and over again and it's unbelievable that this is how they choose to repay me. I've been waiting for this opportunity to come back for almost two years so it's heartbreaking to be this close to being out, especially since I feel like I deserve to be here over most of these people who do absolutely nothing. And they don't even have the decency to reply back when I'm trying to plead my case. So fuck you Alfons, fuck you Amir, and fuck you Skandi.

"shehr"

- Welllll, Amber vote out went as planned and as expected. I reallllly love my tribe and all the people. Jamie is actually really nice. Maybe her social game is just on point, haha. I was wary of her with the way she played in Rome, but she aight. I'm actually pretty nervous about a swap because I like the group that much. I'm afraid I will be a high level target in most scenarios

"bariq"

- So, we will vote blaine out because charley is more loyal. And we will do it by a 3-1 vote because I told the guys it should be better to make the other tribes think someone's an outsider in case he's separated at the switch. That person could say he voted for charley. Also, we dont want anyone to know we've been working together.

"bariq"

- Well fuck all of you. I try my absolute best in challenges so that this pathetic tribe doesn't have to go to tribal over and over again and it's unbelievable that this is how they choose to repay me. I've been waiting for this opportunity to come back for almost two years so it's heartbreaking to be this close to being out, especially since I feel like I deserve to be here over most of these people who do absolutely nothing. And they don't even have the decency to reply back when I'm trying to plead my case. So fuck you Alfons, fuck you Amir, and fuck you Skandi.

"shehr"

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"bariq"

- holy shit! I was wrong about skandi, he's a loyal motherfucker after all! Well now I've got a tough decision to make, having to vote out one person who's extremely deserving. I want the most deserving player to stay, because let's face it, both charley and Blaine wouldnt do business with any of us after this vote, and both of them are quite big threats, "physically", strategically and socially... So there's nothing else to base my vote on but by who's more deserving at advancing in the game. At the moment I'm leaning towards protecting charley, but on the other hand... I've enjoyed battling with Blaine in both Laos and Cuba, if the journey ends here it would be a disappointment. Ugh why is this so hard!

"bariq"

- Alfons is seriously annoying me with all his self-righteous bullshit. Like he wants to keep the person who's most deserving to still be in the game. Who the fuck is he to judge? We've all earned our spot to be in this season and I for sure deserve to still be here over Charley and especially over him. All the success he's had in this ORG career is due to everything being handed right to him. I just can't with him anymore.

"qahtan"

- So, I've been having a really tough time outside of the game. Work is kicking my ass, and I feel like I'm potentially starting to get somewhat depressed. I don't have the same drive as I normally do when it comes to things that I enjoy doing. All I can say, is that this means I am going to be less likely to care about fucking people over this game. This is more than likely my last game, at least for a long, long time, and I plan on doing whatever I need to, to make it to the end