I Don't Know If It's Just Like A Cultural Thing/Confessionals

Day 13
"ziyang"

- I can't breathe now !!!! OmG !!!! Give me a minute!! Aaaaaaa 😨😨😨😨😱😱😱😱😱 What the fuck happen?!!?!! I am shocked now but ... I am ok ! However, I thought i did right decision tonight !! When Jon and Yas asked me, i told everything about my plan ! I told that John wanted me to split vote Yas and Jon but i wanna protect them so I would vote Erin ... It saved me tonight! They trusted me now because i told them the truth ! If I followed John and voted them, lied them tonight , i would be out next !! Maybe i am number 4 of this new alliance now ! But I don't care. I survived! I will do everything to save myself. Not me go home, it is fine , i look good 😎 I am so proud of myself tonight lol 😑😑
 * Big hands for TSN * 👏👏👏👏 * clapping *

"chengdu"

- Catch-up confessional woooooo!!!!11 So, John got voted out last tribal, so my secrets that were previously with John and Loren are probably safe for now. Now, we have to do a reward challenge. I don't feel too bad sitting out because I felt like I proved myself as a asset to challenges in the last immunity challenge. A lot of things happened with Mai and Aromal and Sim before the immunity challenge results were announced but they don't matter too much as of now. Maybe it'll come up again, who knows?

"ziyang"

- I am so thrilled I was safe and now I can trust my alliance. I also absolutely love Man. He flipped and did not vote for me. That was very nice of him. He is now my loyal goat. Jk....I do like him a lot. I hope we win immunity cos Erin and I are getting close and I feel bad for her. What do I do if we lose....stay tuned!

"leshan"

- Everything at Leshan is running super smoothly right now! We all are friends with each other and talk a lot and I can see a future for the three of us, but mostly Alexa and I because Jake is going to be a threat in reality. I think the main objective right now is to stick together, win immunities, and keep moving forward. If we make swap or tribe merge with Jake, I'm sure I'll keep him around but when he starts to act normal he's gone, considering that he's going to be a social threat.

"leshan"

- I've been busting my ass trying to find this idol, guessing everyone from Fang because, let's face it, the idol would be on Fang. I'll bet that demon Sugar has it...Real deal though, Jess is going to get this idol and that's going to throw a wrench in my gears.

Day 14
"ziyang"

- I've been talking with jessy this whole time at five flower lake and basically ignoring emile lol. We sort of made a cross tribal alliance, agreeing that if a swap comes the brawn and the beauty would team up to take out a brain because they're too strong and there's too many of them

"ziyang"

- jessy and i are working out more cross tribal alliances, since us, vanne, and priscilla are the only ones that we know of who are under 20 we're starting a fetus alliance and slaying the old people i mean vanne and priscilla still have to join but still who wouldn't join a fetus alliance

"chengdu"

- I love Erin. She's such an asset to this tribe, she works really hard and is always very helpful during challenges. The thing is I feel like I haven't had any chances to get to know her better, you know, have a proper full conversation with her. I guess because our personalities are somewhat opposite. While she seems cool, sociable and positive, I am sort of weird and ridiculously lame sometimes. I'm super horrible with small talk, I just don't know how to keep a conversation going. I mean I want to talk to her but after like 3 sentences, it starts becoming awkward and we just kind of ignore that and do our own things. The last time I talked to her is about 1 week ago? I dunno. The same goes with Emile, except for the fact that we only exchanged 5 words or something. This is so terrible, I don't want to come across as the kind who only talks to people when we lose immunity or when I have to scramble to stay in this game. I guess for now I gotta learn how to hold a conversation and talk like a normal human-being. I still have a few days left before the tribe switch and hopefully I can manage to develope a more solid relationship with Erin and Emile.

"ziyang"

- im kind of pissed off at vanne right now because she literally just turned in the first thing she found (as did I but only for 2 things as opposed to her like 5). i mean, i don't mind if we lose the challenge because i will be more than happy to dump off Erin but still. i just hope we get lucky and the other tribes do the same thing we did...

"leshan"

- This Five Flower Lake was a COMPLETE turn around from last time. Two episodes ago when I went to Five Flower Lake, I didn't talk to anyone, I didn't complete the maze, but NOW everything has changed. I talked to Jon and I think he seems genuine on the outside but he's VERY shady and I'm very aware of how he'll try to play the game in the future so I put up a friendly front and all but I know to keep my eyes out for him. I talked to him about how Brawns and Beauty need to stick together, only because it's an easy way to get Alexa Jake and I an alliance going into a tribe swap or possibly merge. Also on Five Flower Lake, I finished the maze and got the Blossom of Enlightenment, basically allowing me to expose votes for a tribal. I think I can do a lot of damage with a power that appears to be so small, because if I expose everyone's votes at the initial merge tribal, it'll definitely draw the lines between who's against who, and the Beauties would arrange their votes a certain way to appear like we're completely left out and don't know whats going on, so its Brains vs Brawn. This is a super long confessional but overall, its only uphill from here!

"chengdu"

- pretty sure someone found the idol by now

"chengdu"

- welp massive swing and miss on the reward challenge by me. But hey we have enough idol clue for someone to find the damn thing by now.

"leshan"

- I'll lay it all out for you. If we Luzon this today, Alexa and I are planning to stick together. But the wrench in the gear is Jessy having gone twice to exile. So Lexi and I have got to throw one another under the bus. Far. and hard. Jessy has to feel completely in the driver's seat for this plan to work. Hopefully we don't have to, but if it comes to that, that's the plan.

"chengdu"

- So I've decided if we lose immunity, I'm gonna use my mutiny ticket. The most basic reason is that i don't feel particularly safe. In a tribe where I have no meaningful alliance, and with everyone anticipating merge, and with items likely to show up because I doubt people can't solve the maze in time... I might just be a casualty. In short, no one knows what they're doing on the brain tribe and the vote might just go on me for arbitrary reasons. The only person that may be mad at me is Sim, and if the rest of the brain tribe is pissed, I'll just call them idiots for thinking I'd stick with a tribe in which I had no idea where I stood. Also I expect to be able to mend fences with brains at merge at some point because, they are the brains after all, they should be smart enough to put "I feel betrayed and won't consider options" aside). Now, I'd go to the brawn tribe because there's much more chance for me to survive a tribal there than a unified beauty tribe that would have no problem voting me out. Anyways, the biggest reason I'm going to mutiny is to present myself as a free agent, with no particular group that I'm attached to. Whether the brawns take advantage of me for their numbers or not, I can't say. I expect members of groups to be the targets at merge, whether it's the giant brain alliance or the tight 3-person group beauties. But chances that it would be me will be low, I hope. And I can work my way around that

Day 15
"ziyang"

- haha we fucking FLOPPED on that challenge. How did Chengdu find that stuff for so cheap?... ugh. I guess we should have prioritised price over time. At least we can get rid of Erin now, and all know that we're going into this swap united.

"ziyang"

- so the vote is going to be 4-1 erin. I mean it better be. I doubt she has an idol, but if she does I'm getting close to her just in case.

"ziyang"

- We lose again !! And BUMMmMMmMm ! 100% i will get 1 vote at least from Erin because i flipped and voted her last tribal ,,, and RIP my perfect game ,,, i scared so much because i am in dangerous now ,,, I didn't think someone target me soon but Erin did ,,, and she needs to go this tribal ,,, i will do everything to save myself in this week and hope swap in next because i feel i am in bottom of this alliance. However if don't have swap, I won't go anywhere too because i am a fighter and i am survivor!!

"ziyang"

- tran just said to me "you are so cute when you say lol with heart icon :)" UM OK HOW DO I RESPOND

"ziyang"

- i don't know if it's just like a cultural thing and they're more open with words like cute and love in east Asia or if he like actually finds me attractive which he really shouldn't because he's only seen this poorly made mangatar of me

"ziyang"

- Ugh! I hate this tribal. I feel so bad for Erin, but I know not what to do. My alliance wants her out so I'm going along with it. Do I trust them all? In Survivor, you are always skeptical. You never know what happens. Every tribal is never a definite save. I did make a mistake by telling Vanne and Jon I felt sorry for Erin. I hope they don't think I'm a wuss! However, I did reiterate to them, it's a game so it is what it is!

"chengdu"

- Winning immunity is bittersweet. The sweet is pretty clear. I wasn't sure if I was completely safe, especially because of how much I stunk in that challenge. My big contribution was starting a spreadsheet and sending them in. So yeah, I'm glad to be safe. Our bond together as a tribe winning all these things will hopefully stay true throughout any tribal swaps or hey, maybe even the merge! The bitter part of winning the challenge is that now we won't be even in numbers with brawn, we'll always have numbers if we make it to the merge. If a Brain is stuck on a tribe with the majority not being Brain, then you can almost guarantee that they'd be voted out by the Brawns and the Beauties. I'm kind of thinking of possible scenarios in the case of any tribe swap, majority or not. I have no idea about the tribe dynamics on the other tribes so that'll be something I definitely consider when these plans have to come into fruition. For now though, I can work on building my relationships with the tribe. If you were wondering why I stopped trying to get that idol... Well I wish I had an elaborate reason but I was just lazy. We tried all the candidates on Mai's list but that didn't lead to anything.

"chengdu"

- So today we won immunity again which is awesome but not so awesome neither. I mean it feels great to be completely safe and guaranteed a spot in the top 13, or should I say the swap? I've been waiting for the swap since like day 5 and rambling about it in every confessional. If there isn't a swap tomorrow I would be surprised. It's not that I hate my tribe, like, how could you hate my tribe? We've won so many challenges, i kinda stopped counting awhile ago. But that's the point. We've won so much that it's starting to feel like we only focus on the challenges but when it comes to getting to know each other, we just suck. Chengdu is a strong tribe, but not a tight tribe, clearly not a divided tribe either but we're just simply boring. That's why I was hoping for the beauties to lose, you know, if i were a viewer, I feel like i would be rooting for them to slay the heck out of the boring Chengdu and the chaotic Brawn (not sure it's the right world but). Unfortunately I'm not one, im playing the game with them and those 3 are definitely my biggest threats right now. They just seem really tight and also have been trying really hard at challenges. They're fighters, I really do respect that, but I want them gone. Because if all of them make the merge, there's no way we can break them apart. They would become the most iconic F3 ever and I would be sitting in a corner thinking about how such a loser I am. Pathetic i know.

"chengdu"

- Sorry for not sending one in a while guys,but there's nothing exciting going on,atleast not that I know of.Happy to win the challenge even though I contributed nothing. We're basically Kororing ourselves to the merge.If we lose,the plan is still to split between Erin and Emile. On a more exciting,I finally watched the GoT premiere! Fuck Dorne sooo much #Siddigwasrobbed