Board Thread:Season 40 - Argentina/@comment-31455489-20170519022542/@comment-30516037-20170521020553

Hey Syd! Thanks for the questions and sorry this is kinda late, i typed out a massive reply last night but accidentally deleted it lmao.

So firstly, I defintitely agree that Marie & Tymeka aren't easy competition. My reasoning for wanting to sit next to them at the end was basically because I feel like in a lot of ways the three of us played similarly lowkey games. We each played in a way that was maybe not that obvious for the jury to see during the game so I felt like that was kind of an even playing field at ftc. For example, if you'd been in final 3 you made much clearer big moves & had idols/immunities, like a lot of other jury members, and I felt like to a jury that style of gameplay is easier to see & understand, if that makes sense. But yeah, I know they absolutely aren't easy competition.

The idea that if I win it'll be based on other games is kinda shitty to hear. Of this cast I'd only played with Brandon before, and we'd only voted together twice I think. It's been mentioned that I've made it far in other games & the same with Marie. I trust this jury can base their votes on just this game & vote for the right reason, and I literally want to encourage anyone who considers voting for me to only do it if it's based on how I played in this game.

I wanna talk about the premerge without this sounding like I'm making excuses, but basically from about day 5 to day 13 ish of this game I was on a road trip with limited access to internet so I didn't talk a lot and only made a couple of good relationships from the start. I know the obvious response to that is don't sign up for games if you can't put all of your effort into them, but it was a last minute thing that came up & I've wanted to play on main org for a while now & was so excited. So when I got back home around the time of the swap I did everything I could to salvage my game. But yeah my premerge was obviously shitty. At the start I was added to a couple of large alliances thanks to Alissa so I was reasonably comfortable within that despite knowing I was clearly not at the top of them, but I knew they were wanting to target Joey before me at least. I know I was so so lucky to have Alissa as the reason I was in those alliances and I know I had several relationships through her. However- I had multiple good relationships that weren't just through Alissa & that alliance, I talked a lot with Ally & Mackie in particular, even Jen I had some good talks with. I know Alissa was amazing in getting Ally to vote for Joey at that tribal, but by that time -as Ally had said in her speech- we were already close and had promised not to vote for eachother, so I think that was pretty significant in making sure I was safe at that tribal too.

With what you said about me betraying Alissa - I really don't think I did. I talked about this a bit more in my reply to her so have a look at that, but basically I told Brandon like a few days before that tribal that Cat would maybe be next (without knowing that that would actually happen) so I guess that accidentally contributed to him playing the idol, but I literally had no idea who they were voting for and never ever brought up Alissa's name to them. When I heard there was an idol I talked to Ally straight away and then her and I brought up splitting votes in the chat but obviously that didn't work out. So yes I did what I could to make sure they weren't voting for me but I never threw Alissa under the bus & I literally attempted to make sure she was safe too. Brandon and Catherine made the move to get Alissa out at that tribal, the only move I made was keeping the target off myself and making sure I was on good terms with both of them going into the merge, but I didn't target Alissa at all.

You talked about loyalty and loyalty was honestly really important to me too. I know that might seem hard to believe because there were a couple of blindsides I had a hand in, but I honestly tried my hardest to not betray anyone unless they hadn't lied to or done something against me first. I love Justin & Mackie, but they lied to us during the Catherine vote & then lied to me when they were voting you out, which made it much easier to vote them out, and then although voting you out was hard af, after you left me out of the Brandon vote that made it easier as well. I really feel the only people I truly betrayed were Alex & Ally, but you know the reasoning for Ally and I'll explain the Alex vote more in my answer to him.

Please ask more questions if you need me to clarify anything, and ty for a great game! <3 <3 <3