You Chose to Separate Yourself/Confessionals

Day 3
"makeinu"

- okay i survived this tribal i dont really feel like im in a good spot which is the worst part about smallish tribes there is like no way to hide! Im always one of those utr players but i really gotta get out there and make myself safe... Ally and Emile are both challenge beasts and i feel like a move would be made this next tribal??? because of course bobs burgers has 4 people somebody will feel like they are on the bottom and i feel like people wouldnt target emile and ally because challenge beasts so i hope i do well this next challenge or it could be me going?? ""ningyo"

- Soooo first confessional of the season! I probably could've started it off better but whatever. I'm super pumped to be back because honestly, after generations, my reputation really can't get worse. Calling me an underdog is like the polite way of saying I sucked. Big time. I lost every challenge, went to a record number of tribals, and didn't even make the merge. I tried really hard strategically but that didn't work. But here's hoping this time goes better! Anyway, onto my tribe.... I love most of my tribe. The secret sirens are amazing. In particular, Sora Alietta and Alex are my allies, we have a four person alliance that is just super awesome. Christine I love too, she's sweet as hell but someone always has to be on the outside. I hope we only lose once though, it would suck to have to send her home. But I do hope we lose once for two reasons. One: If we wait too long to be exposed then the other tribes will resent us even more and we will have major targets. Two: I really want to get rid of Mihai. No seriously. After gens, I want him out hardcore. Dude was nice to me all season, and then I read confessionals to him tearing me apart for no reason. I guess he was trying to be edgy to keep from being irrelevant, idk, but it basically just put a target right on his head from me. A game is a game, idc that he voted me out in gens because I voted for him too, and you have to make the moves you make. But don't be an ass for no reason. Luckily, the rest of my tribe agrees and thinks he's shady as hell. The sooner he goes the better. I'm just hoping his little island trip thing didn't give him an idol. "						""riza"

- Unfortunately dreams DON'T come true and Brett wasn't voted out. Who knows, maybe he'll want to work with me come a swap!!!!! Oh who am I kidding, probably not! It's alright though, I'll let him deal with his tribe and I'll deal with mine. SPEAKING of my wonderful tribe who are definitely NOT boring and inactive (they actually are), Miguel approached me for a winners alliance with myself, him and Jessy which is good! He also wanted to include Hunter in on that to get the numbers, which I'm more then happy with. I feel like this alliance sets me up perfectly to make a swap, because luckily Brittany isn't really talking to anyone and I'm pretty sure she'll be the first boot, which then allows myself, Claire and Jessy to have the majority on this tribe and puts me in a good spot to decide which group I actually want to go with. Luckily I don't have to cross that bridge right now, and I'm HOPING we actually can get Brittany out before a swap because then I'm left with 4 other people who I'm in alliances with and have options with. I'm trying not to play this game hard, just kind of laying low a lot and letting other people play hard for me. I mean it's clear Miguel is a natural leader and has been aggressively talking to people so he can form alliances and set himself up well, and I'm more than happy to sit back and let him carry me to a swap where I can connect with some other people I'm friendly with and let them go after him for me ! I'm v pleased about the position I find myself in rn as I thought I'd be like the only winner against people who would want me dead on my tribe, but I'm happy that like there are 3 winners and people want to work with me here!!!!! I have a CHANCE in this game and wouldn't that be something if I could win both times I played on the main org?? Well, or at least get to single digit placements. I can live with that. "						"riza"

- Ben's elimination should be a wake up call for everyone. We're here to play the game brothers and sisters and whoever is not 100% with the head in the game will end up with the head in the chopping block. I kept building my relationship with Chris, Hunter and Jessy separately. Hell I even had a long conv with Britanny. Which I still hate btw. Seems like she is the boring stereotypical girl that ALWAYS gets to a girl alliance that backfires and gets her out. I told her to try a different approach if she wants to make it far this time. Part of it is because I think is an honest advice but also I dont want any stupid girl alliance ruining my game. And I know she would be the first one to propose it. So I have to be quicker than her. Since history tends to repeat. Claire is too chill for this season since just came back so I guess she is not that into thinking ahead. This is like day 40 for her. She's probably strategically exhausted. So it's perfect timing for me to make a move. I'm building an alliance of myself, Hunter, chris and Jessy. Using the "we're all winners" card with Jessy and Chris and using the "old school players for the win " with Hunter. I told Hunter to be more social with Jessy and chris like 3 days ago. And now Jessy and him have a good bond. Which is perfect for me. Since I need my allies to trust each other as well. Everything seems to work smoothly perfect. I'm not gonna make the same mistake Ben did. I'm gonna grab the bull by the horns. I'm gonna be the leader's leader. And make sure we're a strong and unified team. And if we lose, we'll get rid of our real weak links. Old school style "riza"

- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eXtV9K2dvN0 ""makeinu"

- So tribal last night went really smooth it was almost scary how chill and easy it was to vote out Ben. I thought for a winner he would have put up more of a fight. Whatever though that’s done, now its crunch time for immunity and I am hoping we can pull it off.

In the event we do go to tribal again I have a plethora of options.

Right now Bobs Burgers seems to be in control, but I fully believe that Ally and Emma are a tight duo, which gets more risky as the numbers dwindle on my tribe. Short-term strategy tells me to take out one of those girls and form a majority with Emile and Molly. Consequences of this are being labeled as playing too hard, and showing myself to be a snake because I do have close relationships with Emma and Ally and it would look bad to backstab them so early.

But if I am thinking more long term strategy I can stick with Bobs Burgers and ride that out for a round or two so that I appear as a trust worthy dude, the question is what if we lose another immunity after Molly supposedly goes? I feel like I could form a tight trio with Emma and Ally and use them as meat shields come swap/merge.

Hopefully we win today and I can put some of these thoughts on the back burner. "						"hizoku"

- Ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffuck. This is either, hey look, let's target All-Stars, or, hey look, let's target winners. Whatever the fuck happened, it's bad for me. Ben was one of the only people I knew outside of my tribe and I was hoping to get a chance to work with him again. So not cool with this. "hizoku"

- This challenge is like, right up my alley. I'm an artist. I naturally visualize things really well and puzzles just work so well with me. I just start memorizing where the pieces go. If I don't do well on this, I literally am bringing shame to my profession. I must bring honor to this tribe. "hizoku"

- There's always that dilemma, that's like, hey, is this majority gonna be loyal? Is it worth sticking to? And I think I'm having that right now. So basically, I think everyone on my tribe are good people, and they're mostly pretty easy to socialize. Alexa is really nice and like we hit it off from the start but like, she started off her game by shading Jamie and Jared, and first off, she told Matt before me. I had to prod her to get her to tell me. So I definitely think Matt and Alexa are really close, and Matt is really fucking awesome too cause he was the first one to tell me straight what was going on. Uli will be Uli, but what's nice is we seem to be on the same page with stuff. Like Alexa. I kind of don't trust her all that much. So surprise surprise, I was the one who told Jamie what was going on, which pretty much my own little power play for her to trust me. So she gave me her perspective, which is basically that her and Jared aren't really that close, and I believe it, cause I know duos, I play duos, duos are in sync, Jamie and Jared aren't so in sync. So basically, it could be Alexa just playing for power in her own way at the start to create a majority. What's worrying is, Alexa and Matt are close, so Uli and I would be lower in the ranks, and honestly, I trust Jamie more right now. Plus Alexa sucks ass at challenges, and Matt doesn't seem to care. I'd rather avoid tribal if possible, peeps. So I'm not sure what I'm gonna do. Jared looks like first boot material, but if Alexa goes for Jamie, I don't plan on sitting idly. Whether Matt likes it or not. "hizoku"

- I have a tiny bit more hope than before but I'm still not expecting anything good to happen for me. I just seriously dislike this tribe as much as I try to get along with them. Uli is like never on when I am, Matt is always all egotistical and tries to act like he's higher than me, Ash is alright but she can be shady, and Alexa especially is my least fav. I can just tell she's super fake and at first I thought she was gonna be super sweet but I can tell she's the opposite. I love Jamie but right now I'm just trying to let her do most of the work until it gets close to us having to do the tribal and I'll see if it's good for me to try to blow things up, until then I'm just trying to act nice to everyone and make myself look like I'm not a threat. "hizoku"

- So apparently fucking Jamie and I are the only ones who are fucking trying on this motherfucking tribe. It pisses me off. Matt and Alexa feel safe so they feel like they don't need to put any actual fucking effort in, which leaves fucking Jamie and I to pick up all the fucking slack. Just because you're in a majority alliance doesn't fucking mean you're fucking safe. I don't want to be in a fucking alliance who doesn't care whether we win immunity or not, fuck that. "hizoku"

- Planting seeds, letting them bloom, just gotta hope for the best. "ningyo"

- I'm going to keep selling that I'm a team player and that as well as playing for myself, I am playing for "my people". As much as I plan to stay loyal to the people I'm with for a while, I am playing for one person this season and that is myself. I'm sorry but, there ain't no messing around this season. I'm here to prove why I was selected out of those applications as an all-star. "hizoku"

- The past few days I’ve been working my magic on Matt and Uli, Matt in particular so that he rallies hard for my safety if he ever hears my name come up. I had a great relationship with Jamie and still have a decent one but it all came tumbling down because of fucking Ash. I swear that girl spreads any info she receives, she’s like a gas leak that can’t be fixed. Where’s Tinkerbelle when you need her? But I’m not going to be emotional about the whole Ash situation, instead I’m going to make her believe she is my ultimate best friend and then BOOM when she least expects it her torch is snuffed. Every single action made in this game can have an effect and cause your game to be fucking destroyed so I’m trying to slowly plant seeds in people head’s about Ash’s strategy of stupidly playing both sides out in the open. Uli is a very bizarre guy I’ll give him that but if I can keep a convo with Jared of all people alive, I’ve been able to do the same with Uli. What can I say? He’s my own little basket case! I already turned the tribe against Jared/Jamie by pitting them as a “duo” when that’s just my excuse to send Jared packing, my next mission is to slowly turn the tribe against Ash so that I can bury her game at the swap. ""hizoku"

- It's only day 3 and I've honestly made so many mistakes - the main one being too trusting. I trusted Alexa way too early and she's turned on me for what appears to be no reason, Ash I trusted too and told her stuff which she's no doubt told Alexa, making Alexa actually have a valid reason to target me. I don't know why Alexa decided to come for me full force though, I'd done nothing to her really and wanted to be loyal to her (not until the end of course, but alteast until the merge!). She's literally such a fake bitch lol. They really should vote me out if we go to TC though, because if they don't, they're allowing me to flip on them immediately whenever we swap... which is obviously what I'd do. I've tried talking to Matt and Ash and honestly neither of them want to flip either so I guess right now I'm just gonna push for Jared to go which sucks because he's the only person on this tribe I actually like. https://scontent-iad3-1.xx.fbcdn.net/v/t34.0-12/14804729_1735459886707000_699644497_n.png?oh=a7542aa9e6f36a247af5b1c08926027b&oe=580BB449 https://scontent-iad3-1.xx.fbcdn.net/v/t34.0-12/14793768_1735459920040330_1055266525_n.png?oh=14e1ae55ed39002bee8a367084d6b5fa&oe=580BC833 "						"ningyo"

- Ok….so our tribe's just a hot mess huh. I’m honestly so annoyed right now. For starters we could only stay hidden for one tribal. ONE. TRIBAL. And now? Apparently I’m already in the minority according to Sora. Apparently there was a chat made to talk about the vote with him, Alietta, Charley and Alex. Like...thanks guys. Really appreciate it. It hurts cause I thought I was close with Alietta so for her to exclude me like that is a bummer. Thank god for Sora though, like at least I have someone to trust. If all goes according to plan, Mihai should be going but then that potentially just leaves me on the outs...Ugh, I’m gonna try and get closer with Ali and Charley at this point and hopefully I can work something out and if it doesn’t I’m gonna have to start praying to the swap gods to get me out of here.

Day 4
"hizoku"

- EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE CHARLEY CHARLEY CHARLEY CHARLEY CHARLEY. also mihai is royally fucked lol "ningyo"

- okay yas we won immunity i almost cried because i felt like i really sucked at the challenge i only really had so much time but that means more time to prove.... I hate how im so paranoid about challenges but im good with people on this tribe!!! also the new tribe... I just pissed myself and shat myself at the same time i cant believe im playing with icons like alex vivor alietta christine charley ripa and sora! "ningyo"

- it just occurred to me that if i wanted to save mihai i easily could and if i did then i would have 100% control over this tribe. more thoughts on this matter to come l8r ""ningyo"

- Okay so holy whew, I am REALLY bad at these early confessionals and I apologize for that. I am SO happy to be back! Especially as part of some fucked up twist, which is a secret tribe, because it makes it even more iconic to be invited back for a season that way. Now I'm gonna skip this entire getting to know people Day 1 stuff and jump straight into it as it's round two: Alietta is probably my closest person in this game at the moment, we talk the most, we talk about who we like, who we don't like and other stuff and I generally feel comfortable around her. It's funny because I seem to get along with all the ""Al""'s, it's a funny coincidence. She's the person I would imagine proposing a f2 deal along the way, but I'm not gonna headstart into it this game, because that bites me in the ass usually. Sora is the other person that I talk to the most, we've never played together, never REALLY spoke THAT much, but I hosted him after all, so I guess I know him somewhat. We've had good conversations so far also, we threw opinions back and forth and motivated each other to do well this season. Charley is the third and final person I frequently talk to. I know she is Eddie's like best friend and that's the only thing I knew from her until this game. She's pretty cool, seems pretty nice and shy, but I think it's some kind of cover lmao, I think she can cut a bitch if she wants to, but she also makes it like she is a loyal person. After Alietta, Sora & I talked (one-on-one w/ each other) we realized that we all talk with the same three people and we all get along great and thus an alliance was formed. I'm fine with alliances that happen based on social comfort, because those usually tend to work. Alliances where people don't like each other crumble super quickly and I would love to move forward with a group of people that get along great. I don't know if this puts a target on Alietta's back, because she was the one to jump it and make the alliance lmao... Now, here are the two problem children: Christine I just don't talk to, she seems nice and all and Sora talks to her but we don't talk and that's like a red flag, because she would vote me over other people on this tribe and the potential of her flipping on me eventually could be high. And then we have Mihai, whose social game was a trainwreck with everyone on this tribe but me and I think it's extremely unfortunate, because I've had good conversations with him. His train just kinda left the station a little too late and now he is so far behind with connections that it made an easy target out of him for everyone else. He also apparently has lacked at challenge communication, which made us lose this puzzle challenge and that pissed Sora off to the point, where he wants Mihai's head on a silver platter lmao... I'm going to just like stick to that for this one and hope for the best, because I am generally loyal to the first people I connect with. It would suck to immediately get like stabbed in the back the first tribal, but it seems like these people's intentions are genuine and I shouldn't have to worry about it for now. I just hope that, if this works and we go to tribal again, they stick to voting Christine out also lmao... On to a good season! "						"ningyo"

- Ok, so I’m like lowkey a mess right now because I just went through the Rishiri Island place and I had to insult two of my tribe members and like….that was so stressful. Luckily Alex popped out of nowhere and started jokingly insulting me so I took advantage of it and then I knew Sora would probably understand so that was pretty easy. I’m just not comfortable with the others yet to do that so I definitely got lucky. Unfortunately the only thing I got was the chance to mutiny which….I guess in my position I probably should have but it’s just way too early to make waves. Like, I was just on a secret tribe so plopping myself right onto another one would’ve been trouble. Plus Sora already thinks a swap is coming up so I’m gonna take his word for it and hope for the best! "makeinu"

- y'all really want me to fail huh?? "hizoku"

- I'm honestly so pissed lol I hate this twist like I went from placing 16th+ to 22nd+? And Sora's on the other tribe which will no doubt make me a bigger target and this is happening JUST as Matt said he wanted to work with me, and Ash seemed to be getting angered at Alexa and Matt. I honestly was really starting to enjoy it and pick up momentum and this new twist has probably made my chances so much worse and ugh I'm SO pissed. The tribe swap will inevitably be pushed back too, and if there's a double or triple tribal or some shit, then I'm DEFINITELY going to tribal, whereas before this I just thought the F14 swap would happen without double or triple tribals. Ugh I'm just feeling really defeated atm.. ANYWAYS I'M SUCH A WHINER: atleast Sora and Alietta are here now and those are two people I can work with. And if Mihai goes then I'll start to feel better bc he annoyed me in gens lol. AND moreover, I was in a shitty position and there's a slight chance this shake up could benefit me. We'll see! AS OF RIGHT NOW THOUGH, I'm angry and upset lol. "hizoku"

- I started to actually talk strategy for the first time with Ash last night and it's definitely giving me more hope. I'm still not completely convinced because I think she's in the best spot right now but she kinda brought Alexa's name up first so. It's at least giving me more confidence then I had before in case we do lose. "makeinu"

- I played in a previous season and the host, as a troll, said "this tribe has been hiding from u guys for like 18 days, here they are!!" and people got really mad so the joke was over quickly. So when I saw we had only 18 players in this cast that idea popped up in my mind but it was just a thought and nothing else. "riza"

- WHAAAT? theres so many damn people in this game and I already feel like I have to do good bc of my last 2 seasons and you just made it a lil bit harder hosts "riza"

- WHAT THE FUCK SO THERE WERE 6 OTHER PEOPLE I GOTTA WORRY ABOUT (one of them is my best friend so that's okay) BUT HOLY HELL I DIDN'T SEE THIS COMING UM UM I'm not really worried being on this tribe cause we pretty much have it set but like DAM ""hizoku"

- fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

Whew, that's a lot of players. "						"hizoku"

- I do not like the new tribe twist that much. It makes getting far in this game just that harder and then past relationships probably come into play again. I am close to Sora out of the game but in this game I don't determine what I'm gonna do off of that so I hope no petty things happen again like they did with that rumor of me and Jamie. ""riza"

- I won't lie, I'm definitely upset with this twist, and not with the twist itself but the people on that tribe. I hate Mihai, he basically said in the ORG winners chat that this ORG sucks and isn't realistic and no one shows their faces and all this shit about how bad this place is, yet he crawls his ass back here the first opportunity he gets to play another time. Charley I really don't see myself ever working with, but she can be a target over me I guess being that this is her 4th time. Alex is just a mess and I'm not looking forward to playing with him. Alietta is also messy, but I'm OKAY with her I guess? Christine is the only one I actually adore because I hosted her in Tikal, and then there's Sora! I will not make Sora the person I put the most trust in for this game. I've done that three times in the past, he let me put a target on myself and let me get voted out in Tokelau and he won. I handed him the win on Bangarang, and in Heroes vs. Villains he sent a screenshot to get me voted out, which was breaking the rules, and let me go home ! So basically, I want Sora gone as soon as possible and I will not work with him long-term if I'm even on a tribe with him at some point. I do not trust him, I refuse to hand him another win at the expense of me, and I want him gone. Plus he probably is so high up on himself thinking ""haha I was the twist this season haha!!"". If only he knew he was second best compared to the 18 of us who were initially revealed and was one of the six leftovers.

Anyways, this twist and the PEOPLE involved in the twist annoy me, and the only positives I can take out of this are I think all of the tribes combined are going to want these people out come a swap, my tribe now has 3/4 chance of winning immunity challenges instead of a 2/3 chance, and there are more people that can be targeted over me!

But seriously, screw these people. Like honey's, y'all have got a big storm coming I'll tell ya what "						"hizoku"

- Gave Christine the trip to rikjsfjjd island. She's fresh off of her first season so she's less likely to have an in with other players. And she's the rebel representative so why the fuck not? "ningyo"

- I kind of fee like I've done quite a bit on this tribe. Personally, I think I helped provoke a response about people's feelings on Mihai, everyone knew he was being shady but they were holding it in. I also formed the alliance. Mihai will leave tonight. Sora/Christine are definitely a thing whether he is loyal to her or is; there is some sort of established relationship there. Hopefully we can repeatedly win immunity now so no one else leaves. "riza"

- I can't believe I sent a message to Hunter over 9 hours ago and he's been able to talk in the tribe chat yet he can't respond back to me. What a great player! "ningyo"

- So, Mihai is messaging people saying there is a girls alliance. Hate to break it to you, there is a girl alliance; me and Charley. This is even more reason to vote him out. With that being said, I am pretty sure Mihai is making up there is a girls alliance to then say "get a girl out" so he can then target Charley and that's not happening. But, incase he got anything from that island, we've got to keep Mihai in the light and pretend to vote Charley. I asked Charley myself who I should tell him I'm voting and she gave me the answer I was looking for; her. I didn't even need to mention her name, it was her idea. Better for me. "ningyo"

- So it has come to my attention that, despite my minimal talking with Mihai, because of my genitalia I am his closest ally now??? That would've been great to know prior to voting but okay. Initially I was like 'bye you pissed me off so your going home' BUT when I think about it logically, Mihai is loyal to me specifically and so is Christine. So why not keep them both in??? I have an alliance with the other 3 members but, from what I can tell Alietta and Charley are very close, and Alex idk but I think he's close with everyone. I can read people very well and Mihai is the kind of person where you just nod your head and agree, tell them what they wanna hear and how they're right, not be too abrasive or passive. Alex, he wants a friend he can trust that he thinks will be just as loyal to him. Alietta likes to be in control and make the calls, she wants someone who she feels like will listen to those calls and be eternally loyal. Charley is someone whose vvvvv very social and is in everyone's good graces. I can see what she's doing and I can respect it because I'm doing the same thing, but I don't necessarily wanna play with it. And Christine is just someone who if you have her back she has yours and those are the kinda people I like so she's my favorite. Now the problem with keeping Mihai is, I don't know how long these tribes will last. If I had confirmation we're swapping next then bye Mihai, but if we're stuck here for awhile then it honestly might be in my best interest to kepe him. If I really wanted to I know I could get Mihai to stay, THE OTHER PROBLEM IS HE VOTED EARLY AND VOTED CHARLEY. I said I could easily save him but I didn't say I could easily save him against Charley, if he voted Alietta on the other hand that could be tempting. So ya I think I'm probably just gonna vote out Mihai, because this season I honestly just need to chill. Everyone is really worried and don't want to go but, my game is about being reactive not being proactive. I let people come to me, and I go with the flow. Alietta fighting Mihai and starting the alliance talks will probably come back to bite her in the ass but that's just who she is. The only concern I have is, I know I can keep myself safe in most situations, my worry is the safety of Jared and Jamie. I lowkey hid all my pictures with them to try and hide the fact I'm friends w them especially Jamie. I don't want them getting screwed over because they know me or moreso ME because I know them. But I'll cross that bridge when we get there I suppose. ""ningyo"

- Soooo you know, losing isn't the worst thing you can do on an org. I mean honestly, sometimes losing can be good. I have done a lot of losing on the main org, so I'm used to it. And this time, losing means I just get to send Mihai home early. So I mean... But really, everyone wants to send him home. Unless they're really good liars. But because they want him gone, this should be an easy vote, right? Well, it should be. But theres a chance he has an idol, or an artifact, or something that will get in the way of us sending him home. And if he has that I will cry. I desperately just want him gone. And the word around here is, he wants me gone too. He just doesn't have the social game to pull it off. Like you don't talk to people only before tribal. You build the relationships beforehand so you don't look fake as hell. I could still go home. I don't know. But if this works.... Well redemption for me at least "						"ningyo"

- I am going home 100%. I was mad at first, now I am almost over it. I aint no heaven man, but this tribe is full of lying villains who suck at lying, btw. I dont like friendships prior to the game, popularity contests on the org that affect the way people vote, and no matter what I would have done, I would have been first out from this tribe because I have no friends since I am not an active member. I hope they think it is a blindside when I can actually see right through them and I hope molly wins this season so that I can have something to be happy about. Absolutely no regrets! "riza"

- So i'm just reflecting and it's like omg everyone is famous and I'm like Oh I've heard of you and you and YOU and then I gotta remember I'm on here to so it's like omg i'm not that much and teytess I'M ON THIS SEASONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN "ningyo"

- Even though I love Sora to pieces and understand where he is coming from, I don't really understand how it's Mihai's fault we lost. I mean, YOU decided to submit it, he advised you to and if you ask me, it sounds dumb that you handed in based on another person's opinion when that person doesn't know everyone else's ability? Like, I'm not sure. I wouldn't hand mine in if someone told me and I had time to do better. "makeinu"

- Now these placements get more intense that fuels my fire to keep on fighting and of course the underdogs are always in trouble at the start these tribes are very fitting.