Redneck Confucius/Confessionals

Day 22
"zahra"

- Last vote went great. We're now with a 6 person majority. Not to mention I found dat idol baby, WHEW. If I can make it to this reward, I'll have an idol and two extra votes, and I'm right in the middle of this whole damn tribe. Feels GOOOD.

Meanwhile Whitney and Kristen are fucking crazy, they've been faking a rivalry the whole time, got exposed, and now they're just antagonizing people. Whitney's manic, Kristen's just stupid and confused.

"zahra"

- My game is currently hanging on the edge. I lost Scott, I had a failed attempt to get out Aras, Brett has flipped and even Kristen is being iffy. I just exploded in the group chat, culminating in pretty much everyone shunning me, understandably. I'm just hoping now they see me as having 0 social game and take me to the end. When I lose immunity I'll definitely be at risk, but I have a few tricks up my sleeve yet. What I'm planning to happen is I win immunity, and say I'm playing an idol on Kristen. Ppl will split the votes like 4 Kristen, 3 Brett and me and Kristen will vote for Zakriah. But hopefully by then I will have won the reward and have a vote steal, so I can steal a vote for Kristen and put it on Zakriah, making it a 3-3 tie between Brett and Zakriah :OOO could be legendary.

"zahra"

- I can't tell you how exciting and how stressful it is to be sitting on a vote steal and an idol. I've got some big plans, I know nobody expects me to have this idol and not a single person knows about it. When I play this, I want it to be the kind of play that people remember this season for, I want to hold onto it until final 5 and shock people. The vote steal is a whole different thing. I've told Tate and Anna to build trust with them, I want to use it to secure the final 5 that I want.

I've played a really subtle, social game. But because I've put in so much work building up relationships and getting these items, it's almost time to let loose and start making people realize that I'm the biggest threat here.

"zahra"

- Whitney will start to pisses me off. Did she make something IRL ? I want her gone.

"zahra"

- Friggin Whitney wins the reward of course, which means that we have to deal with her having a vote steal in addition to her idol. We have to plan out the 4-3 split vote in a way that she won't be able to flip with her vote steal.

Meanwhile, Aras decides he wants to goat Brett so he comes to me to ask about blindsiding Zak of all people. I thought they were paired up, and they're both the two biggest jury threats so I'm fucking confused about why Aras wants to take him out so soon. I was even planning on taking out Zak in Final 8, but now that I know Aras is this focused on saving Brett, Brett needs to fucking goooo. This is such a dumb move for Aras, he's going to be so vulnerable.

I just need a Zibaq to win immunity so we can split vote for Whitney and Kristen like we always planned.

"zahra"

- LMAO I'VE ACTUALLY GONE CRAZY. Bitchney is here and she ain’t leaving YET. I’ve just decided - everyone hates me, so why not make sparks fly before I exit? I may low-key be suiciding any shot I had at winning, but at this point I don’t care. I literally sent videos of someone screaming to everyone on the tribe and the first thing someone said was "I'm not doing the challenge you don't need to try to distract me lol” LMAO. I’ve gone full out troll, and maybe they’ll see me as such a social noob they’ll decide to take me to the end. Zakriah and Romain? Super big threats who no one can seem to see through. Anna and Will? Refuse to make moves and seem perfectly content with 4th and 5th place. Brett? Stupid flipper who’ll get what’s coming. Kristen? Low-key crazy but gotta love her she’s iconically bipolar. and Aras FRICKIN ARAS HE DESERVES TO WIN PERSEVERING THROUGH ALL MY ATTEMPTS. You know he hasn’t gone to tribal where he hasn’t got votes LMAO? So I’m gonna try and pull off a CRAZY ZIBAQ SABOTAGE next tribal, involving the immunity I’ll win, my idol and my vote steal; get ready whores #JihadiWhitney

"zahra"

- I lost my Scott. And I understand why it happened. I do. I understand why Tate didn't tell me. I understand why Aras lied to me, why Anna led me on, why Scott had every right to be paranoid when I told him everything was going to be okay. I wish I had known. If I had known Scott was the intended target, I would have requested Tate push for me to go instead, especially since Scott doesn't get to be on the jury. He worked really hard and I hate that he doesn't get a seat there. He's more deserving than me. But what does that word even mean anyway?

I was super drunk at the time of the tribal council. And it was one of those funny moments where I had a heightened emotional response and I wondered "Should I be more drunk to deal with this or do I wish I were less drunk so that I could react appropriately?" Everyone was super nice about it. Zakriah, Will, and Aras all approached me apologizing because they know Scott was important to me personally. They didn't have to do that and I really appreciated that they reached out to make sure I was okay. I spoke with Tate later and I really don't know where I stand with Tate, but I don't have many other options at this point but to continue being loyal to him. He told me it was between me and Scott and that all he could do was make sure it wasn't me.

The next morning, Whitney approaches me and tells me "Not gonna lie, I heard you flipped." I just said "Okay, Whitney." I rolled my eyes so hard. Flip from what? There was no solid unit to flip FROM! And where am I flipping TO? I was the one vote for Kristen! This bitch is literally crazy. It's not even a flip.

Zakriah then expressed in the tribe chat that he liked Scott and Whitney decided to start drama. I've been nice to Whitney and Kristen for almost a month (though for the sake of "game time," we'll say three weeks) and I have nothing more to lose now. I don't have to be nice to either of them anymore and it's super liberating. When Whitney decided to bring my name into it saying I agreed to get rid of Aras and all this other garbage, I stepped in to correct her and Kristen and Whitney went nuts on me (as expected). It felt so good to tell Whitney exactly what I've been thinking about her for a while and what Scott had been thinking to. "Six people voted Scott out. Scott had no hard feelings towards any of them, but instead took the opportunity to tell you you're a piece of shit, Whitney. What does that tell you?" Zakriah, Tate, Will, Aras, Romain, Anna and I have absolutely no patience for Whitney and Kristen's antics anymore.

The reward challenge comes and it's...a flash game! I predictably lose and the worst possible scenario happens. Whitney wins. Oh my god, just kill me. Whitney with a bazaar advantage and possibly Kristen with one as well is super bad news for me. If the Zibaq contingent gets spooked, I'm expendable to them and completely defenseless. This is not good at all.

Day 23
"zahra"

- Withney and Kristen are so crazy. And with Aras immune, we have no choice : Split of the votes, and bye-bye Crazy Girls !

"zahra"

- If I'm on the Final Eight, I'll need to start a "big move" game. I see some big threats not being voted out already, and I think I'll have numbers and time to do whatever I want. Tonka Truck and Will are on my side and we'll gonna destroy all of their pussies.

"zahra"

- The second we got an endurance challenge, I knew I had to win this one to set up Kristen or Whitney going home. Of course, I didn't come close but Aras killed it so that's good enough!

However, Whitney winning reward was devastating. She was able to pull a vote steal for herself, and Kristen got a light pearl, which negates one vote. There's a lot of crazy math behind it, but essentially it is 7 vs 2, and the 2 girls have the chance to actually pull off the blindside if they play each of their items correctly. This would be fine if Zak was on the block, but Whitney's got it out for Tate now because he called her out the other day. So, I'm cutting the bullshit and using my vote steal to guarantee that it's Whitney or Kristen going home tonight.

I'm trying to annoy the shit out of Whitney by telling her she's going home in front of everyone. Two reasons: 1) I want her to think I'm bluffing and play the idol on Kristen. 2) I want people to see themselves beating me in FTC. If I don't have Whitney or Kristen's vote, I'm a lot more appealing to take to the end.

Aras is being sloppy too, he came to me about blindsiding Zak and then about blindsiding Tate. Like Aras just quit trying to do things and just be my meatshield for a while longer.

"zahra"

- Will made a mistake. He told to the whole alliance that he got an advantage. You kidding me ? And now Whitney knows about that, somebody on the alliance told to her. I hope that the plan will works, I don't wanna go now.

"zahra"

- I'm just alternating between adrenaline and paranoia. Aras is being SKETCHY, he told Whitney about my vote steal. I asked if he knew anything about it and he confessed, but still...why you trying to play both sides?

This has literally been, the most complicated vote ever. There's 4 items in play, a vote split, and a ton of misinformation being fed to Whitney.

I'm most likely going to make both of my votes for Kristen to be safe and make the vote 5-3-2. As long as Whitney's items are gone and Kristen is gone, my game is still together.

It really would be the worst thing to be voted out by these two shit shows, but I'm gonna hold onto this idol. I'm confident in the vote split I've set up and in the people I trust.

"zahra"

- So, I guess this is probably it. I know that the whole majority alliance is against me, and even though I've tried to bring back in Aras and Brett, the likelihood of them swapping is low. Yes, I have a vote steal, but is that enough? All i can hope for is that they stick to their word, and the votes go in my favour. It could end in a 4-3-2 Tate-Kristen-Whitney, but will it happen? I don't know, but if I go it's been lit! Thanks for all the love!

"I have a funeral to attend today and it's for the father of my best friend. It's already a hard enough day and Whitney decides it's a good time for her to spam my inbox with her reasons for being awful and I straight up tell her. "I have much more important things going on today. You are literally the LAST person I want to deal with right now. We can talk later." Whitney alleges that she doesn't give a shit that I have to help my best friend put her father in the ground and that she won't just wait to be spoken to. She can go fuck herself. She's disgusting.

The immunity challenge drops and it's endurance. Immediately, Tate distracts Whitney from focusing on the challenge by calling her out and giving Aras, Zakriah, Will, and everyone else the chance to get a head start on it. He's awesome! I give it a go for a few hours, but it ends up that the HARD mode is ideal while the EASY mode doesn't build you points fast enough. Either way, I wasn't going to stay up all night to make sure Whitney didn't win, but fortunately Aras is that crazy and he took the prize. I'm ecstatic, Whitney is a terrible human being and Kristen is a dumpster fire with hair and I'm so ready to get rid of one of them.

Tate has approached me and he explains that my best bet to be useful to the Zibaq contingent is to work with them as a double agent--re-ingratiate myself with Whitney and Kristen and learn their plan only to spoil it to the others I'd much rather work with. It's not easy being nice to Whitney, but after Will told me the same thing Tate did, I figured I'd just take a deep breath and be fake as fuck--whatever it takes to ultimately make sure her and Kristen are done for. I approach her and tell her that the service I attended that morning was beautiful (it really was) and that I have found some peace of mind and I'm ready to talk things through. I told her I lashed out at her because I was pissed that Scott left and I blamed it on her inability to see past ARAS ARAS ARAS. Whitney apologized and said that we can turn this game around and Najma strong and blah blah blah (Najma STILL triggers me. Enough with the Najma shit). Ultimately, Whitney tells me she has a major plan and that she can't wait to exact it. I had to wait a couple of hours before she finally told me that she has a vote steal and wants to use it to eliminate Tate. My Tate?! Nope. Not on board. But of course I'm not going to tell her that. Sure, let's do it. Let's fuck shit up. Whatever. I hope I'm convincing enough to put her at ease.

I go to Will and Tate with the information almost immediately. Will wants to split the vote between Whitney and Kristen because they're idol scared. I was wrong about Tate having an idol, so I don't have the best track record with this, but I really don't think Whitney or Kristen have one between the two of them this early in the merge. I can't call the shots and be like "Fuck this, let's put all the votes on Whitney and fuck her life up," and I also don't want to try it because I wouldn't want to be wrong and have Tate go home. Oh God. I just thought about what would happen if I lost Scott and Tate in back-to-back tribal councils. I would be on a watch list for sure. That's so depressing!

I really enjoy talking shit on the girls to Will and Tate. I compared Kristen's lack of self-control, trashiness, and the fact that she's barely fluent in the only language she knows to her being the feral toddler from The Wild Thornberrys. I think it's so true!"

- Brett

Day 24
"zahra"

- what a terrible waste of time winning that immunity challenge was! yeah I'm safe and at best I wont have the distinction of being the first jury member but did I need it? not really, cant really complain though, but will could've easily won it as well and I'm still deprived as fuck for killing myself on hard mode of the endurance game for 20 god damn hours :/

meh, I just like to complain. people already knew I was a challenge threat and I already had people targeting me regardless so it doesn't change things up THAT much or make me THAT much more of a target I suppose, but the "relying on immunities" card does become a bit old sometimes I have to say

"zahra"

- so I came to the realization that in order to win the game I need to have a decent social game with everyone and cant be that cunt whos playing the game for the sake of returning, though I know that is some peoples sole motive in the game is to play again, but why play again when you can win the first time? guess that's easy for me to say given my position right now, but who gives a hoot

oh yeah onto social game, ive decided to talk more with whitney and Kristen considering after that reward they've got advantages on them, and even if I don't side with them its always good to have the option in case things go south for zibaq

heck, apparently whitney now wants me to WIN and TRUSTS ME even though I "destroyed her game" but to each their own, I'm not complaining :P and her way of saying that is telling me she has a vote steal and an advantage, earlier today I was pretty strongly considering the opportunity of jumping ship but theres a few reasons ive decided against it, the reason may surprise some people though. despite our many fights earlier I decided to take a chill pill and we could forget all the shit that happened, even if I vote whitney out id like to maintain her jury vote and even though its corny, her friendship to bc I actually get along with her when we're not trying to accuse the other of cheating to get ahead for the lols

1) there was a preconceived notion that brett was 100% with whats left of the joke for a tribe that is najma 2) the target was originally zakriah who was a legitimate threat but moved to TATE of all people just because tate thinks whitney is a sock,

shit for a gang of newbies these people are really problematic and annoying, and I certainly didn't suspect id be playing with Jaime again

anyhow yall are in for a pretty weird vote we got people voting on whitney with a potential idol play, I'm probably voting Kristen with anna and brett and she will probs be getting idoled out with a few votes on tate, theres the elephant in the room of whether or not will actually has a vote steal cause damn that shit is pretty lucky and prevents this vote from becoming hell in terms of revotes lmfao

"zahra"

- im in a lot of alliances/deals rn and these consist of

F3 with Anna and Will (and final 2s with each that the other doesn't know about)

Zibaq alliance (myself, Anna, Will, Zak, Romain, Tate and Brett lowkey there too)

A bloc between myself Anna and Brett

Najma alliance (myself, Whitney, Kristen, Brett)

F2 with Brett

A deal to keep Whitney around so she can be iconic & return

A f4 deal with Zak

SO YEAH WHEN YOU HAVE AN ALLIANCE WITH EVERY CAST MEMBER AND DEALS WITH MOST OF THEM AND THEY'RE NOT BLOWING UP IN MY FACE I THINK IM DOING A PRETTY GOOD JOB SO FAR

people lie in this game all the time and I don't think im perceived as a liar,, well that's not true, I lie a lot but mine go largely undetected

shits about to get real soon and imma have to do plenty more smooth talking and the occasional challenge score in the ten millions

"zahra"

- This has been such a messy merge tribe. I dont know whats going on with all the sock accusations, and overall its making us look like villains. I'm being thrown around as the leader of thr majority alliance, which I do not like at all, so I'm either gonna be idoled out in ten minutes or I'm gonna continue to lay low for a little. Tate was asking about forming something with me, Anna, and aras a little earlier but I was busy with school and couldn't really talk to him about it. Everyone in my alliance seems to want to work with me and Anna, so unless theres something fishy I dont know about and not factoring in me getting idoled out tonight me and anna should be set for the endgame. I'm kinda hopeful.

"zahra"

- I have been assigned to vote for Kristen. I'd rather vote for Whitney because it is personal and I'd love the satisfaction, but I'm not about to rock the boat and insist I have my way. Discussion of Kristen having the light pearl and Whitney having an idol and Will having a vote steal ensues. Aras for some inconceivable reason told Whitney Will has a vote steal and I find that EXTREMELY shifty of Aras. Aras approached me saying "We have to move together." And I told him straight up "I WOULD RATHER BE SHOT IN THE FUCKING FACE THAN WORK WITH WHITNEY." Seriously. In the fucking face. The answer is no, Aras. We are not working with her. His level of shadiness and willingness to go back to those awful women really makes me question him as an ally.

I've been upfront and honest completely with Tate and Will. Will appreciates that I told him about the vote steal leak that got to Whitney. He's expressed that Zakriah and Aras are tight, but that Aras wants to make a move against him sometime around seven people remaining. I compare notes with Tate and he says he was told the same thing. Tate feels like we can get to the final four with Will and possibly Romain while Will tells me that there's a place for me in the top six with an impending war between Zakriah and Aras. Either way, I'm not in the driver's seat, but I'm going to do my best to make sure I get back to some means of control in this game.

Will we lose Kristen or Whitney tonight? I don't know. I'd be devastated to lose Tate. I've been having fun seeing Will mess with Whitney and Kristen in the group chat too. Kristen has the reading comprehension that matches her six year-old daughter and she forms sentences like a Yoda that does ALL the drugs. Will has referred to her phrasing as an "inbred haiku" and has called her a "Redneck Confucius." I think he's brilliant. He's very intelligent and can talk shit with the best of them.

Hopefully all goes well tonight. My fingers are crossed.