Board Thread:Season 32 - New Zealand/@comment-31248167-20160421023122/@comment-27051031-20160421230854

Hey Charlie,

First I would like to say that I am sorry you feel this way about the game. I am sorry if I contributed to you feeling like there were people here that don't care, and don't try. I hope that my answers can give some clarity and help you feel at least a little better about these results.

1. How was your experience playing Survivor as someone who supposedly doesn't watch the actual show?

Playing this game was even harder than expected. I knew coming into this that I was at a disadvantage. I wasn't able to make connections with the survivor fans, didn't understand much of what people were talking about whenever it was a survivor related topic, and always kind of felt like an outsider in that respect.

However, I have had an absolute blast! I have enjoyed every single minute of this game, much more than I ever dreamed. I was hesitant to even apply but am so glad I did. The challenges were fun, searching for idols was way more complicated than I thought but super cool, and going to rewards was also a blast!

2. How did you prepare for this if you didn't know a whole lot? Did you do your homework?

I played a game previous to this that was a survivor org. It was a much different game but all the aspects were same. I learned a lot about how to try and find idols, about trying to split votes in case one was played and about how even if you can't win immunity, you can still go really far. I wish I would have learned more about the real show and about people who have played ad maybe modeled my game after some of the winners. Maybe that way I would have played a game that you all respected a little more!

3. Was there something you specifically did in this game, some sort of move without others' permission, and by that I mean were you unpredictable to everyone at any stage or did you follow different people's orders and jump ship the whole time?

I wouldn't necessarily say that I always followed different people's orders, but I definitely constantly jumped ship every chance I got. That's proven by how bitter most people on the jury probably are right now. I normally play an extremely loyal game, probably actually too loyal. But I realized that I couldn't do that with any of the players in this game the moment Pav got blindsided by Berk, someone he extremely trusted.

4. Why should people vote for you when their perception is a little on the salty side?

I think people should vote for me BECAUSE they're perception is a little on the salty side. If I've learned anything about playing these games, it's that if there isn't at least one person upset with you, you're probably not playing the game hard enough. Every person that is mad at me is mad because they think I don't care enough, or I turned on them and voted them out. But voting out strong players is a very important part of this game. If I didn't do that, I wouldn't be here. I also hope that with my answers people start to see that I really do care about this game, I just played it in a way that makes that harder to see.

5. Why should Daniella and Faith NOT win? People are genuinely so pissed at you that they're wanting to vote Faith or Daniella almost purely out of spite.

Ill start with Faith:

I don't think she deserves to win because she has always been playing for second place. The minute she made a final two deal with Brittany and let Britt make all the decisions, she became the runner up. Even when yourself and Josh made posts about all the goats needing to wake up and start playing, she STILL was 100 percent loyal to Brittany and was once again playing for second place. If you value a loyal game then sure she's a good person to vote for. But if you value someone who did whatever they could, including turning on every single ally they had, then vote for me.

Daniella:

You could easily say that Dani and I played very similar games. Almost identical actually. But I don't think she deserves to win over me because every single decision made to turn on a big player was made without her. Once the thought was there she was then included in the plan. But it was never her plan. I had been going after Berk almost since the merge but knew it wasn't the right time yet. I also knew that I would have to go after Britt and needed Berk around to make that happen. Dani was always an afterthought where I was always part of the decision.

6. What held you back from lying convincingly?

Oh this is an easy question. I'm a horrible liar. I always have been. Which is why i every other game I've played I am a very loyal player and always tell the truth. If I lie, you can totally tell. I made the decision to not be loyal to anyone but myself, and with that came lying. Unfortunately, I am just really not good at it, unlike our friend Berk who had me paranoid the whole game because of his lies!

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">7. Did you have a main strategy coming into this game and did you get to implement it?

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">Coming into this game I had no idea what to expect. My initial strategy was to be a great social player and to make as many bonds with as many people as I could. I also wanted to wiggle my way into as many alliances as possible.

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">I didn't implement any of that! I was barely in any alliances, there are people who played this game who I still haven't spoken to, and all the tribe swaps really through me for a loop!

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">I had to constantly change my strategy to keep up with the game, and I'm not going to lie it was extremely challenging.

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">8. Why did you feel the need to kiss ass so much?

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">Mostly because I really did not want to get voted out and was always afraid of becoming a target. Some would say that playing afraid is not a good way to play but I couldn't help it. I never felt like people were honest with me, and I was constantly being pushed and pulled in different directions. I'm also used to Big Brother where you have way more chances to save yourself once you become a target. The only thing that made me feel safe was kissing ass.

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">9. What were the turning points in the game for you?

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">The biggest turning point was when Pav got voted out. When the first tribe swap happened and I was on a tribe with Pav, Casper, and Kostas I knew that I wanted to play the game with them and bring in Britt and Faith when we made merge. But then tribe swaps kept happening and I never felt as connected with anyone else. Once I swapped back to a tribe with Pav I felt at home again and he was saying that Berk would be a part of our alliance and that we were in a great spot. Then all of a sudden he got voted out and I realized then and there that I couldn't trust people in this game. That was when I decided that I didn't care who I back stabbed, I would turn on anyone when t came down to me winning this game!

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">10. Do you feel like you took Brittany's spot as a leader or did you see yourself as something else?

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">No. I haven't seen myself as a leader ever in this game. Do I think it opened up the possibility of me winning? Yes. Do I stand by my decision to vote her out? Yes. But I definitely know I am not a leader.

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">11. Do you think you made any mistakes in this game? Any regrets?

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">Yes I do. I wish I was much more social and created better friendships with more people in the game. I also wish I took more risks. But I don't have any regrets. I don't think anyone should have regrets if they stand by how the played. And I do!

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">12. Did you learn anything about New Zealand as a country?

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">I learned that I 100% want to go visit because of all the beautiful photos and history that have been shown to us. I also learned that there aren't wild Koala Bears there and that really shouldn't have been our tribe name even though it was a super cute name.

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">13. How much do you want to win? What does it mean to you? Make me feel your passion you have if any.

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">I don't think I have ever wanted to win something so badly.

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">One of the main reasons, being that it really saddens me you all think I played a horrible game and that I don't deserve to be here.

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">But I also really want to win because it means that you don't have to be good at competitions. It means that an underdog can 100 percent win this game if they make the right moves at the right time. It means that everything I have done, ever person I stabbed in the back, every decision I made, every minute I spent worrying and being paranoid, every hour I spent on my phone, or sitting at my computer talking to people I have never even met instead of being out in the real world with family or friends, every connection I have made, every word that I have typed, would all be worth while. It would all mean something.

<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">I would officially be the person who outwit, outlasted, and outplayed every single person in this season even if some of you don't think I deserve it.

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<p style="font-weight:normal;color:rgb(0,0,0);line-height:22px;">Thanks for all of your questions! I really hope that my answers were what you were looking for. I hope my Charisma, Uniqueness, Nerve, and Talent is what you are looking for in a winner.