It's What She Deserved/Confessionals

"kanaloaAlright, so it's 5am right now, and I woke up and couldn't sleep so I decided might as well do this. So like, basically, I was the last person to vote I believe. I had two options, one of these was to vote out Jordan- my closest ally, or to go to rocks and risk being the one to leave. By telling the four people that voted Jordan that I had already voted, they had no issues telling me what was happening. This also allowed me to go to Jordan and kinda say that like, ""Hey you know I could vote you out, right?"" and like I think that kind of showed him how close I was to him. I'm not exactly sure why they voted Jordan to keep him safe? Unless it was Roisin's decision because she told me about how he was with her from the beginning. unfortunately I can't say that because I literally wasn't on a tribe with her in the beginning- and when she gave David an idol I was lowkey super mad at her. So going to rocks was entirely my decision- I could have voted Jordan and avoided it, or threw a vote on anyone but Ali and Jordan still would have left- but instead... I chose rocks. This may have been the riskiest decision I have made this entire game- well actually, I KNOW that it is. It may have been stupid, but to be completely honest, this is an outcome I don't mind. I LOVE Mitchell as a person, but he was a huge threat, socially. I'm pretty sure everyone loved him, which was pretty much confirmed by the rankings chart. So him leaving helps me more than if Jordan or Audrey left. I really want to merge now. I want to meet up with Mackie and literally put this night from hell behind me. <3"

- Lexi

"kanaloa"

- Wow.... that was a close call. I hate that my misplays brought me to the point of almost being rocked out. In the end, I think losing Mitchell was the best for me because he was really everywhere. But I still feel bad he got rocked out.

I misplayed because I told Mitchell about the possibility of the both of them having idols, so I was aware it could have happened. I thought of throwing out a vote to Alexandra but didn't because I was scared of pissing off 5 people instead of 2. I also thought that Nick would really split the vote on Roisin and on Alexandra. I also misplayed by casting my revote one minute after it was announced. Anyway, I don't see myself voting for anyone else that was available. Losing Jordan would have been dreadful for my game.

My social game took a big fall with this vote. I think I can repair things with Nick, but I will never believe he will trust me again, and I won't ever trust him again for making me go to rocks. I'll go after them as soon as possible, but will play nice and regretful in the meanwhile.

I can't believe I tried to align with Roisin for this vote, I hope she will still be a target because she needs to be out. Yes she is a fucking mess, but she is impossible to kill... The thought of losing to her in FTC makes me want to vomit.

Trust ranking: 1. Mackie 2. Lexi 3. Jordan

That's pretty much it... and that is a scary thought....

"aumakua"

- MERGE MERGE MERGE MERGE MERGE. We merged! Oh my god, I'm so thankful I made it to merge, like honestly, the pre-merge has seemed so freaking long. Honestly, I'm like, shocked I made it this far. I'm almost halfway through an All Star season, and I honestly think I'm in a pretty good position! I'm not in with the 'pre-made' but I think they like me and they want to work with me, to an extent. I feel a hell of a lot closer to Jordan, Audrey, and Mackie though. They're like, the peanut to my butter basically. So, moving forward I'm going to have a lot of choices to make. But I'm pretty confident in how I've been playing so far- and I hope to continue playing in a way that no matter when I get voted out, I'll be able to be proud of my game. I'll write more later, but Linus just called me so I'm out for now. <3

"aumakua"

- Well that entire tribal was crazy. So here is what went down. Nick and I have been labelled a duo for a large part of this game. Going into the tribal, we knew it was kind of us two vs. Ali / Roisin with everyone else in the middle. We tried to work with the villains in order to have them side with us and finally get Roisin out of this game. When speaking to Mitch, we both got vibes that he was lying to us for the fact that he was not fighting on any plans and was just agreeing with what we said. To confirm this, I spoke to Audrey and she did not give me any good feelings. Nick was already thinking about playing his idol, but when Audrey would not tell me what her "iconic" confessional was, I knew that it was not a vote against Alexandra, but one against Nick. This caused Nick to play his idol. Unfortunately, Roisin played Declan's idol too, which caused no votes. Originally, we wanted to get rid of Roisin's right-hand woman, Ali. Everyone voted for Ali, but then I realized that was not good for my game. The villain trio + Lexi would still not be on my side, and Roisin would still not like myself and Nick. I flat out told Nick once there were 4 votes against Ali that Ali was not leaving and I wanted to force rocks. This would make myself, Nick, Roisin, Ali and whoever we voted safe from the draw. Roisin needed to be convinced by Ali and Declan, but it was the smart move for her to force rocks. I knew that I wanted Jordan saved, but I could not make it too apparent, so that is why I said that we cannot vote Audrey or Mitch because those two are the most dangerous. I knew that Roisin would not vote Lexi because she was a hero, so that left Jordan as the one to save. This helps me so much in my game because I created allies that would not have been made without this rock draw. Ali was saved my Nick and I. We helped Jordan avoid the rock draw. And we kept Roisin's closest ally in. The only drawbacks were Audrey and Lexi. Audrey is now on her own because most of the villains are gone, including her close ally Mitch. And Lexi is a very emotional player who will be ok at the merge. Moving forward, I know that I have 6 with me, Nick, Sora, Claire, Evan, and Maya. I feel confident with Mackie and I hope that last tribal created trust with Ali and Jordan that they will not vote for me in the first few tribal councils. Wow I am so happy I was immune last tribal!

"aumakua"

- I FINALLY made merge after what felt the the longest pre-merge ever. 11 tribals, and I still managed to make it here. It feels great honestly, but the job is only half complete.

In Argentina I started off insanely well and everything went downhill from there. I had to scrap my way to F5 and even then had to win Immunity to survive. I'm on a better path this time around, and I believe I have options. I'm not going to make the same mistakes twice, and I think I have an extremely promising opportunity to obtain some power. I think it's time the villains had a little fun after getting shafted for so long

"aumakua"

- Ok wow SOOOOOOOOOOooOO much has happened since my last confessional, so I'll try and recap EVERYTHING. So last round everyone flat out LIED to me and told me they were all voting Roisin but we were going to split the votes between her/Alex in case of an idol. Last minute, I decided to play my idol because EVERYONE was acting super sketch and the villains are beyond transparent. So I end up negated 6 fucking votes which I did NOT expect to happen. Right after I started going at it with Alex in the tribe chat because I called everyone fake, referring to the villains and Lexi since I didn't know they were all voting me. Than the villains were all messaging me and apologizing which was all bullshit and told me they were voting Alex. That made me realize that Alex flipped to the villains and now KNEW her ass was on the bottom so I wanted to save her because she'd be loyal to me. So amongst this chaos so much damn shit happened. I had Mitch telling me someone convinced him to vote me but would NOT tell me who. This hurt because I thought me and Mitch were like really tight, but I guess that was one sided. I have Audrey apologizing and telling me how ""she thinks I found a new home"" aka with the people who voted Marie out? Ok girl. She also was asking Rob why I didn't vote Alex like we had planned...UMMM Girl WHY did you vote me is the better question. You know I really liked Audrey up until she started acting entitled recently. ALSO WHY did everyone think the idol was Rob's? Because it was MINE can everyone PLEASE stop trying to discredit my damn game because I have friends. I was also trying to make up with Roisin amongst all this because I needed to talk to her because me, her, Alex and Rob were all supposed to be voting one way. If we did, than the 4 of us would become immune and we'd pick one of the people who voted me to keep safe (aka who we vote) and the rest can go to rocks since they all felt the need to juggle with my game. So, the 4 of us decided to save Jordan since he probably has the most pull between them and if we saved him he'd most likely not come after us. Ultimately, Mitch was rocked out which was upsetting but that was his karma for voting me honestly. On his way out Mitch PM'd me saying ""Jordan convinced me to vote you good luck"". So now Jordan's ass is fucking GRASS and I want him out just as bad as I want Roisin gone. Even though me and Roisin are apparently on good terms right now, she kept bouncing around the subject of me and her making up so I do NOT consider us completely good AT all. ANYWAYS, now for merge thoughts. I'm SUPERRRRR FUCKING STOKED because I'm a 3 time merger which makes me BEYOND happy. I really came here to play this season and I'm really showing people that even with my back against the wall I can fight my ass off till the end. As of right now I REALLY want to put together this brigade alliance of me, Rob Sora and Mackie but Sora is definitely not down which is yikes...he doesn't really trust Mackie but I really do. Mackie keeps telling me he didn't know I was getting those votes and he's REAL pissed at the villains for doing that to me but who knows if that's the truth or not. I feel like it is true that he didn't know because Mackie was probably too busy dealing with his own shit that round. I'd really want that to be my ideal final 4 but I'm not 100% sure yet because I can see Mackie or Sora beating me. I 1000% want to go all the way to the end with Rob. We're both from Azerbaijan and we both have been together in this game since the second swap which is a while now. We've also endured ALL the call outs together of us being in a premade!1!!! I mean yea me and Rob ARE an unbreakable duo but why must it be brought up all the damn time. I feel like there's a lot of people in this game who have super strong relationships that aren't being brought up. Ultimately, I'm just happy to still be in the game after all that damn shit and so are all my main allies so things are starting to look up for your bitch.

"aumakua"

- I can't go home this tribal I'm so close to reaching 100 days and that's a big milestone for me like that's insane it shows I have no life but still! We finally hit merge so I'm really happy about it I think everyone is being a bit quiet and waiting for immunity so it's like "calm before the storm ooo" so who knows

"aumakua"

- The worst part is you never know what choice is correct do I go down this one but have to cut off person A or do I go down this path and cut person B looking back on it it's kinda insane how many little choices bring you up where you are in the game right now. It's kinda nice to just sit back and reflect. I'm really happy I could get this far and hell that I even got on I just gotta prove it wasn't a waste

"aumakua"

- MERGE!!! OH YAY mission accomplished to reach merge on all of my seasons. I'm so happy uwu. Going to the merge I feel like the game will become more intense since people are really going to give their all this time.

There's nothing new for my communication aspect on the merge, I've talked to all of them most of the times and I feel like I'm kind of in a good relationship with these peoples. Let's list out how's my actual relationship with the tribe. I feel good with the heroes, I feel like they won't try to get me out any time soon because there is much bigger target here.

For the villains, I honestly feel like I can work with Nick and Mackie (especially after I tried to save him last time), and hope he feels owed towards me. Roisin however, Declan and Alexandra are working with her but tbh I'm just kinda go along with it but I don't trust her at all. But... it's good to keep her in this game or bring her to the final because literally everyone dislike her and she could be the shield to my game.

Also,I don't want to be in the powerful position because later the underdog/bottom people will try to take me out. Playing all sides is much better for my game at the moment. I need to know what is going to happen every time we go to the tribal.

"aumakua"

- It's still seriously quiet I want stuff to pick up you know? I want to just talk to people it can be about game or what pair of socks people are wearing but for some reason I think randomly seeking people out-OH GOD LEXI MSG'D ME thank you lexi you saint you have answered me in my time of need <3

"aumakua"

- I did it, and I'M HERE. I can't lie and say there was definitely a sinking feeling of nervousness all throughout the premerge, thinking I could be a 2 time premerger and be all but a fluke player in this org but .. ultimately I've made it. I found myself in a majority early in this game, had to deal with an AWFUL middle of the premerge, with fucking up votes left and right, dealing with pretentious/bitter/self righteous players, and being on the bottom all throughout the first swap. But I fought and won my way and found new life at the second swap, and now it's time to get to the nitty gritty and to play HARD.

The last tribal at Kanaloa was a double sided sword, I'm sad Mitchell left because he was probably one of my favorite people to talk to in this game even though we had zero game relationship bc of tribes, but I was hoping to rekindle that at the merge. However, he was seemingly the number one social threat and a key cog in the opposing side that I now have to DISMANTLE come this merge through deals on my side, immunities, and idols.

I feel like there's a solid 6 coming into this w/ me/Claire/Sora/Maya/Nick/Rob, with Lexi as a potential vote, and Alexandra ideally maybe owing Nick/Rob one for saving her and taking out a villain like Jordan/Audrey? What's terrifying though is the phenomenal hypocrite duo of Declan Roisin can make a big splash this round, say ""omg get rid of yootoob x((( dont mind us even if we know each other and pass idols left and right tho!!!"", and fuck US in the ass, but I've prepared multiple insurances to make sure at the very worst I'm hopefully not biting the bullet. I've reconnected w Audrey as an in to make sure she's not fucking me if things flip overnight, and promised Jordan who I just met ""yeaaa I'm not voting you out man :\\ doing that to an inactive would suck"" even though the TRUTH IS?? I kinda wanna do it LOL

This first challenge is going to be KEY to what goes down at this merge, along with this first vote. Should it go my way I do feel I would have at least 6 solid votes heading into the final 12, but throwing this aside, I tried like hell in this challenge to not only secure my own safety but nab an idol clue. It's about time an idol finally finds itself my way after me going passive the first time and then having shit luck the next, so hopefully 189k is the score to beat, bc if someone like Declan gets it I'm fucked.

There's 5 minutes to the challenge deadline so let this be the beginning of another march to the endgame.

"aumakua"

- I DID IT. I ACTUALLY DID IT IM SO HAPPY, I MADE THE MERGE (first person to do it 4 times) and what's more, I BEAT JAMIE AND I HAVE THE MOST DAYS PLAYED NOW!!!!!!!!!! GAHH IT WAS WORTH IT, ALL THE FREAK OUTS AND SHITTY DAYS, SO WORTH IT.

I'm also ready to play hard as hell right now, so get ready for this.

"aumakua"

- kk so I’m either getting voted off rn or I’m in the best position and idrk which... cos I voted with nick and rob last round, they shld see me as a viable option as a swing vote but also on the outside I’m their biggest rival. But tbh I gave every1 else literally like 8 opportunities to take 1 of them out and they didn’t and now we’re here... u have Claire sora rob Evan and nick on one side, mackie Audrey Jordan Lexi Alexandra on the other (tho all of those have personal relations with the other five) and then me maya and Declan in the middle. And tbh Declan wants to side with nick sora etc and idk if I can get behind that looooool so this is rly gna be a mess... tbh I gave every1 a chance to get out the pregame friends for the entire pre-merge, and now look at the mess we are in!! A big part of me j wants to allow myself to get absorbed into their group and take a solid 6th place lmaoooo... - and surely they’d turn on themselves at f6 which cld give me further options? Idk whats gonna happen atm but I can tell u that it’ll define the rest of the merge!! Xx

"aumakua"

- Sorry for the lack of a confessional yesterday... I had a lot going on in my real life and had to find somewhere else to stay for the night so I could ensure my own safety- so that kind of went above this game. But I'm back- and I still managed to submit, and honestly, I think I did pretty good! I knew my score wasn't going to win, but I did get 4th and that's honestly pretty good for me! So I currently have NO idea what's going to happen this tribal. Right now I'm kinda smooshed in between the premade and the non-premade/villains. The thing is though, some of the premade no longer trusts me after last tribal. However, I think they know that they need me, so I'm hoping I'll be safe for at least this tribal until they figure out what I'm doing... which to be honest, I should probably figure out what I'm doing as well.... <3

"aumakua"

- Fuck yeah it's time to intensify this game & really flourish. We've merged so I need to elevate my gameplay to the next level since it's tribal every 2 days from now till FTC. I'm running a very complicated operation but I have a significant amount of power by doing so. I have Lexi Jordan and Audrey all 100% with me for the time being and most likely deep into the game. Rob and Nick trust me significantly. Sora is on the way there but he's a gamer & will never fully trust me he knows I'm too good to trust. Claire and I have been working on a strategic relationship which I think is bound to pay off over the next few rounds. Declan and Ali still hold significant loyalty to me from David. Roisin trusts me by proxy as a villain, but I've also worked on maintaining that bond. Maya had thrown me a bone before and I think I can get her on my side in the right circumstances. Evan and I will always be against each other to some extent but I think we truly have developed enough of a repoir to work together if necessary. I wanted John and Mitchell out the moment I knew it was a double tribal and by stroke of luck I got it. I tried to campaign to the other tribe to eliminate Mitchell but they lied to me and didn't. But he got rocked out yay me ! At this point I don't trust anyone enough to fall on the sword for them. I see that nobody here is going to carry me or go all out taking me to the end. I have to work my way there. But I'm going to, and once I get to the end I will be more satisfied than I ever have been in any org I've ever played. I always have a positive outlook but now more than ever I honestly think I have great chances at going deep I just need to play this right. I'm down 5 villains to 8 heroes. There are powerhouses here and also strong bonds. Emotional and strategic players. But I need to work with that, and against that to ensure I always have a leg up on everyone, and the ability to leave others behind in order to advance. I need to latch on to as many moving parts as I can while not being the figurehead, that has been my previous downfall in the past. If I can do that successfully, I can win.

As for the vote, in my mind either we go after Roisin finally or take a huge shot at the heroes core. I just think we might need to trim the fat a little before we go to war. Once we win one war another starts and I want to make sure I have the most ammo in my arsenal. That sometimes means turning around and taking a shot at your own side to gain trust with enemies. I just need to figure out if I need to do that, or if I'm ready to go big game hunting. Because id like to taxidermy a comp beast and hang em over the mantle of my fireplace.

"aumakua"

- Okay so immunity's mine and thank god bc I could've seen me being a prime target this vote if they wanted to. This vote's shaping up to be a showdown and at this point it's fucking now or never with Roisin going. I've said this to about 23940234 people in the game and I'll say it here - I'm really sick of the fact that I'm spending 95% of my 3rd time out here playing a game I love having to deflect bullshit rumors. No one actually believes the premade narrative BUUUT, since it's such an uneducated atrocity in the first place, it becomes an easy platform to jump on to shine the light on other players and put a focus on them. It's really pathetic, UNDERSTANDABLE, but pathetic.

This merged vote is in my mind, the most important merged vote I've dealt with in a while here because this is FINALLY the opportunity to incinerate this red-haired fooligan that's placed us ALL in these boundaries to compensate for their own lack of ability to position themselves. I know for a fact that we can get at least me/Nick/Sora/Rob/Claire/Maya on the same page, and 7 is the magic number, unfortunately, that last vote is going to be the most difficult one to get because at this venture in the game, it makes SENSE for everyone else to hide behind Roisin, snipe a hero/part of the 'premade XDD', and let us fall like dominoes before throwing away Roisin in the trash or just using her as goat lmao

Alexandra won't play ball but I'm keeping up a steady relationship w her and maybe us and Claire can get some suballiance going. I have great individual talks w Maya as well, the yootoob premade XDD is always an option, and as of now my most vital connection in this game is Audrey and seeing if I can flip her for this vote to take out Roisin. This just has has has has to happen bc once Roisin can goes, it's a whole new environment we can all play in and we can all play loose and free. Should Roisin get her way, it could spell the beginning of the end for my game, so I'm gonna see what I can make happen, and if hell rises, I need Sora to play that idol.

"aumakua"

- I think it's really not a good thing keeping Roisin more longer. She dictates the votes and I feel like she's going to keep doing this if we keep her and that's not good for my game. It's hard to talk to people freely and to open up about the game.

Also, she's already determined who's with her before anyone even got online and that's really terrible. Her game is terrible imo. People knows how she play this game at this point but they want to think her as a shield (which is not good now) I still need to solidify their votes and make sure those who are like still wishy washy are on board with this. If I can get Mackie & Lexi together, we will be in majority.

"aumakua"

- Right so, operation try to convince Lexi or Audrey or Alexandra for me was a NO GO earlier today and the odds felt a little dim. Lexi is just a continuous liar that's hopped on the villain ship for whatever reason, Alexandra naturally owes Roisin her vote so I can't fault her there, and Audrey and I had a good talk earlier but was now giving me vague responses. Sooo honestly I was just going to ask Sora to wing his idol to Rob last second but apparently now Mackie is on board? I'm about to find out but it would make sense if Alexandra is all of a sudden wanting to throw votes - perhaps she was tipped off and doesn't want to burn Roisin, who knows, but there's 90 minutes left and hopefully there's a clear picture painted SOON

"aumakua"

- https://youtu.be/3eYXZyNMe7I

"aumakua"

- Yay Roisin went home...oh no double tribal I do feel kinda bad cause my parch was a bit extra but I had a serious issue with her stating facts that were outright false and not talking to my face about it she made a group chat without me the works. I'll explain everything to her when I see her but for now I gotta focus on the game

"aumakua"

- Ahhhhh Roisin.

First, I shouldn't have called her a bitch in the tribe chat... I should be nicer. It's hard sometimes... at least people can see it as me rubbing the jury the wrong way. I don't know if the jury will see the merge tribe chat though...

So I'm glad she is out but at what cost?! Why did she put that target on my back? I feel like I'm in constant damage control mode.

Overall voting Roisin out was the right decision, since Ali and Declan are now officially with Mackie, Lexi, Jordan and I. So it's a 6 vs another 6. It's interesting and exciting and anything can happen.

The path to my final four goal is a long way ahead.

Feeling solid with the 6. Feeling ok with Nick, Rob and Sora. Evan, Claire and Maya I am on talking terms.

Don't know where to go from now, but one of the three big boys have to go (Evan, Sora, Rob).

"aumakua"

- DAMN The first merge tribal did not disappoint in terms of craziness. So it was initially shaping up to be votes between Roisin and Rob, but guess who did not get a single vote! I definitely credit that to my social game for people to feel loyal to me, and have no desire to vote me off this early. Right now I am in a very good spot. I have my core alliance of myself, Sora, Nick, and Evan. We are also very close to Claire because of our "pregame." Then we have a connection to Maya due to the heroes. Audrey seems to trust me now because she betrayed Nick and I so why not turn a 180? Mackie and Jordan have a huge level of trust with me Nick and Sora so that could be an alliance down the road. Ali and Declan said that they were going to vote me, ya no I want a perfect game. I was able to convince them that the only way to show they want to work with me in long-run would be not to vote me. SO THEY VOTED EACH OTHER!! I did #THAT. The only person I am shaky on now is Lexi. She says makes up so many lies and is just an emotional player, I cannot trust that and I want her gone ASAP because I am covered on all other bases. I know eventually I am going to need to turn on the "premade," but now they are good numbers. Down the line I need to make a huge move or else they will steamroll me. I am in a pretty good spot right now and I dig it.

"aumakua"

- Fuuuuck I have been busy. It's a crazy time but I haven't been inactive busy, but I've just tried to keep my head down for right now to avoid any potential form of being targeted.

So after I got to the merge and reached the day's count, I kind of had my own mini wake up call. I realized that this is my fourth time and it doesn't matter what place I get, I'd rather just play how I want to play and go out with a bang. Like I may have regrets through things I can't control, but in decisions and what I do with this game I don't want to live with remorse or me thinking I should've done this or that, I want to do what I want and if it gets me voted out then so be it because I hate playing UTR and don't want to go down like that. Like this is my laaast rodeo, and I want to spend it solidifying my spot as the best while have fun doing it.

I feel like I'm doing a pretty good job so far but I feel like my side would be sort of fucked without me but i'm not really sure how much I did?? Like one second i'm logged off and everyone is like ""SORA WERE FUCKED YOU NEED TO PLAY YOUR IDOL SHITS GONE SOUTH"" but then when I check on everything things seemed fine?? So I'm not sure if I did much, but I did kinda reel in Audrey and Jordan I think with my victim noises of my game being stifled (which btw it was, like what else am i supposed to do when i'm getting called a pregame every round? I kinda just implied I would flip if Roisin left and they went with it, as for the subject of flipping I was kind of just saying that to get them to flip. But the more I think of it it's like why don't I flip? Like I don't exactly feel indebted or a personal closeness with my allies so maybe I wanna go make close ones somewhere else.

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"aumakua"

- Hi, sorry for lack of confessionals! So basically, last vote didn't look messy... but it was. Sora was willing to vote Rob, but basically Mackie and Jordan said ""No, let's just vote Roisin."" Now, we have a double tribal, and I'm hoping we have Alexandra and Declan on our side still. At least then we can tie. If we have Maya with us, that's even better. I don't know who the heroes are going to go after, now that they're number 1 target is gone. It probably won't be Mackie, since apparently he's close to Sora. And Audrey says that she felt good about it... so where the hell does that leave me???? I wanted to vote Rob. It was the SMART thing to do. Take out a threat while we were certain that we had the numbers, and keep Roisin who was a bigger target than us. But noooo, no one wants Roisin around because she's a loose cannon... well guess what? That loose cannon was on our side, pointing at the biggest threats in the game. Ugh. Literally, that decision was the stupidest thing I can think of, and I swear if I end up going because of them being stupid.... I'm not gonna be happy. I have no idea what is going to happen with this vote, and honestly I'm not even concerned because what I've learned in this game is that decisions are NEVER made early. <3

"aumakua"

- YES! Roisin is out. It's what she deserved.

I can say that the relationship I build played a huge role in making the vote almost unanimous last tribal. Except Declan & Alexandra voting each other because they promised to not write Roisin's name out. The fact that Roisin thought I was with her until the very last minute also proved the relationship bonded is on par. They all are open to talk to me about their votes and make sure to confirm it with me before I voted. It's a good thing of course but I'm pretty it's not going to stay like this for a long time, that's why I need to start like gather people in making a solid alliance.

If there's actually an alliance out there, I will make sure I'm not on the opposite side. If it takes me to be on the bottom for awhile, I'd take it and work my way from there. But right now, I legit don't see any lines really drawn yet so it's hard to say.

Lately, I felt this good feeling with Mackie & Nick. Sora and Evan are the huge threats imo right now. Also Rob & Claire, but their thinking and moves can be see ahead. Haven't talked to Jordan since the merge, prob he's busy but i heard he is the easy target for this tribal. Audrey! she's got my back. Lexi, she's like John. Alex & Declan, I believed we are still in this trio but I know they are the duo. ttyl :D

"aumakua"

- Okay, let's talk about these votes. So first of all, Declan and I both told Roisin that we would never write her name down, but it was becoming increasingly obvious that she was playing herself out of the game, especially once she made that freaky group chat. So I told Declan that, in order to stick with the majority, not show our hands early, and keep our promise, that we should vote each other. So we do that and how does Roisin thank us for our loyalty? By giving immunity to Nick. She even told me on her way out that she saved me before and it destroyed her game so she didn't want to save me again. Lady! You were on the bottom of the villains tribe. Like, not just bottom, rock bottom, like that place that Spongebob goes where everyone speaks in spit. You made the right move. The only reason it blew up in your face is because you stayed fixated on Nick and Rob as targets. When you play with your emotions, this is what happens. And if you're that mad at me, at least give immunity to Declan who has stuck by you this entire time. For the record, I think the parchments against Roisin were unnecessarily harsh, but I feel like Aubry after Neal didn't give her the idol. Sayonara, Roisin, and thanks for nothing. Seriously glad I stuck my neck out for you. So now we have another tribal because this season is so twisty it's like a hedge maze. Mackie comes to me and says he wants Evan. Claire comes to me and pitches Jordan. Either side we go with, Declan and I know that we're on the bottom. At this point, the villains would only be able to do a 6-6 with their numbers. Getting us to a rock draw. No thank you. But Declan and I are very content with trying to play that middle and go where we feel we have the best shot at getting to the end.

"aumakua"

- So I wake up to 6 people saying Jordan wants me out and honestly that's reasonable we haven't talked at all but then I hear via Mackie that Rob could've made up this whole thing to get the vote on Jordan...and that's fine by me tbh I wanted Jordan out anyway this gives me the excuse to vote him. Perfecto! I just gotta trust my allies will go with it too Stay positive all the way

"aumakua"

- So I'm really not here for being picked off by this big ass hero group. So, Declan, Mackie, and I are in a secret alliance of three. I'm also in a super secret alliance with Claire. Roisin made some decent points about this big group and I guess I'm going with a bit of a flip flop strategy until I can get in a majority. Claire has had it out for Rob since day one, and only I know this. So I go to her and say, if the vote is Rob, would you throw away your vote so we can make it happen? She said, "even less suspicious, if you tie it up, I'll flip on the revote to 'avoid rocks', which will seem even less suspicious. Mackie also seems to think that he's found a way to get Nick not to vote for Jordan, which would make this even less suspicious, but we will definitely see. Expect some fireworks.

"aumakua"

- Okay well, this second vote was naturally really fucking messy and I still can't predict what's about to happen. The debate at hand was deciding between Jordan and Lexi, but we figured to go aggressive this round and knock out Jordan for being a stronger overall player. However, ROB wanted to embellish a convo between them and in doing so put a huge target on his back this round. Lexi is pretty much the swing, and if she's game to vote Rob, or shit, potentially any one of us, we're going to determine which 6 is stronger through a battle of sheer will. I've did my best to keep up my individual relationships across the board and I'm hoping I can get out of this double tribal twist with some room to operate.

"aumakua"

- I'm really trying to mend bridges now Roisin is on the jury. Evan and I spoke quite a lot, I really don't trust him because I know he even targeted me last vote but it's nice to be formally ok with him. Claire and I are fine as far as I know, Sora and Nick too. Rob is where we run into issues haha. He was targeting me this tribal and wants to keep Jordan to get rid of me!! Then he is adding me to chats and espousing how much he trusts me. Nope haha, not having that.

I found out Jordan was getting votes and I had no input in that decision, the heroes didn't even tell me to follow it. How can they expect me to vote that way when I have no input and Claire said they don't trust me and two of them have targeted me haha. I'm playing this game very candidly like I did in Molise and make sure people trust my word, once people stop trusting your messages, you are ruined in this game I believe. Nobody will listen to your campaigns, I don't think people realise how difficult an untrustworthy label is to remove. Rob clearly doesn't realise. I'm making sure not to lie to Rob right now, I sent him a sticker and meme I found to divert the conversation haha.

I think my position is slightly underrated. I do feel a bit helpless but I think at the moment I'm covered quite well. Maybe I'm not, but I'm trying to do the same thing I did in Molise, I made everybody think I was in such a bad position that nobody wanted to act against me because why would you act against the person who's in a shit position? I don't think people have any clue about how close I am to Nick and Sora, Claire and Evan both hinted about working with me and I'm voting with Jordan, Alexandra, Mackie, Audrey and Lexi, and Maya I think I'm good with.

I'll have to do damage control but I'm ready!!

"aumakua"

- Hi I'll make another confessional about this later, but Audrey Mackie Ali are liars, and if I got Lexi to throw her vote then PHEW.

"aumakua"

- MY FIRST INDIVIDUAL WIN AND IT'S BECAUSE ROISIN GAVE ME THE NECKLACE....I literally feel like Ika Wong when she told Kevin to shove the veto up his ass and than he used it on her. I'm BEYONDDDDDD happy Roisin is finally fucking gone. This round has been chaotic but I had the necklace so I could give 0 fucks. I really wanted Jordan to go because him not being around is REALLY rare and beneficial imo. Jordan is a fucking comp beast and I really wanted him to go now before he could start going on a comp streak. Mackie also has been lying to me the entire day and I'm like hurt/shook/not shocked? By it...like I always have this thought in the back of my mind that Mackie is gonna fuck me over but he never has directly effected me. He was trying to get me to throw my vote at Evan which I think...is SOO fucked up because I was really like satisfied with getting Evan out this round too but this bitch dead ass waited until 4:29 to tell me he was really voting Rob. I mean I knew that buddy but okay...I don't know what this will do for me and him for the rest of this game because now I'm gonna have trust issues with him. I'm just tired at this point and this whole round gave me a migraine.