I Don't Get Paid Enough For This/Confessionals

Day One
"barbarossa"

- "Holy crap does it feel good to be back. I haven't played in an ORG since Ret, and that was like, what? 2 years ago? I'm definitely a little rusty. Now, ONTO THE GAME!

I am super glad we are in smaller tribes, they are much easier to manage your interpersonal connections. Even though me and willow are the only two returning players, I need to REALLY make sure people don't get in the ""let's eliminate the returnee's"" mindset, because that would be disastrous. Right now im just laying low, connecting with people. Right off the Bat Hunter, Anabel, and Liam seem really cool. The other two of Karsten and Willow seem to be not as active. But it is WAY to early to try and form anything solid. I just need to make sure that I'm approachable enough that if anything is formed, i'll be liked enough to be brought into it. This game is just starting and I feel that feeling from years ago. Competition. With every passing second I feel it getting stronger, and I'm so excited to be back. I know that if there is any time for me to win, it is now. I've grown so much as a person since I was last here. (I'm still socially defunked as ever) but I know that If I don't hit the mark this time, I won't get another shot."

"barbarossa"

- "Alright! Finally we are doing this!

This has been about a year and a half to two years coming. Ever since I rejected my place in Bali (and that's not me having an ego they actually asked me to play), I've been looking for a time to apply again, and I'm so excited!

So far our tribe seems pretty cool! Liam I know is gonna be a great guy, Ethan and Anabel are fun to talk to, Willow is a sweetie and I really hope she doesn't leave early this time, and I haven't seen much of Karsten, but I'm hoping to know more.

A part of me thought MAYBE there'd be returnees, but I thought the chances are low...welp fuck me I guess :

"cheng"

- Whooph, we out here! As soon as we got dropped off here, Elmo immediately started talking to me, and we've got a lot in common! I like him a lot, he seems a little over-eager but that's better than ambivalence, an he seems like such a genuine guy, you've just gotta love him. Brad and Jake started talking to me a bit after, and Brad seems a little aloof which put me off a little, but he's an alright dude! Jake seems really down to earth and I like his sense of humor, but I haven't gotten much of a chance to talk to him. Meanwhile, Katie and I exchanged just a couple sentences and then nothing else, and Su hasn't even tried to talk to me yet, but I assume they're both just busy. So far I'm really liking my tribe! Everyone seems so sweet, but really my main goal is to just not be the first one out, since I just feel like I'm gonna be the odd one out, since I'm a lot younger than most of the people here (I think), and I'm kinda the outsider of a lot of groups where I'm the youngest one, which is my main worry here. I just don't want my age and the cultural, vernacular, and personal differences that come with it to be my downfall here. I'm just trying my best!

"calico"

- "Hi i shall try to do 1 a day no promises I suck. ok hi tribe assessment. 1. Yousef. Voted me out of rebirth. I'm luckily not meta, and am more than willing to work with him. In fact, I'd like to, because I have a feeling vets r gonna get targeted and I'd like to stick together as much as I can. He is super active and my fve conversationalist so far. I expect an alliance w him. 2. Lex. We are friends pre season. Unfortunately, he is a bit of a game bot when we play. He will be loyal to the end, but I may not be. Maybe a good shield but I can't let him run things. Has already offered me a f2. ..... uh fmghjnersgtbn 3. Natalia. She is an ANGEL. ok we've barely talked but is her first game and I want to protect her and just talk to her alot. Love her name yes. 4. Mitch. We have talked a little, not sure what to make of him 5. Nick. Apparently is Benj's friend? Haven't talked to yet, he is at work.

So I naturally am casted with liam lovelis. Lol my name is conveniently andrea lovelis. So i quick change it to fileding and hopefully noone notices. I plan on voting liam out of this game. REDEMPTION BITCH!"

"barbarossa"

- I'm so so so happy with my tribe. I get a good vibe from them all which is honestly rare in my experience and I feel like I could potentially work with them all down the line - hopefully I can keep up with these connections and prove them to be useful for me in the future. Hopefully we're challenge competent too otherwise that'll be a disaster...I'm optimistic though!

"barbarossa"

- "I know it's already Day 1, but I'm pretty damn sure Ethan is gonna be my ride or die in this game. I must assess the situation further........but I usually figure this out within the first few days so we may be settled!"

"calico"

- Oh my marbles! I am quite excited that we have three starting tribes because I feel these present more potential relationships and inter-mingling. That being said, each tribe has two captains from past seasons who add an element to the game I was not anticipating. These people have played before so they understand how the game works better than us who are playing for the first time. I am wary of any of them getting far, but if they feel that they may be considered threats because of their history, inciting this fear in them may help create some strong allies if I stick with them. Everyone seems to be really chirpy, and my inner Courtney Yates has already had enough of the "we're all so chill, love the vibes". I honestly could not care less whether we were one happy family. I need two to three close allies who are willing to keep me around until a swap or merge, even if it means voting out someone 'nice'. I want to play a bold game and I'm ready to cut ties to form new ones.

"cheng"

- So I think this tribe is off to an awesome start! I am loving this group, I've talked with everyone already even just a little and they all seem nice, so I think we have a good active tribe. Not a single inactive person which is rare. Katie is hilarious, Bradley is cool, Anita and I are really similar imo, and Jake and Elmo are pretty nice too. It's still early but I think this tribe is getting along pretty well and I'm hyped to see how we evolve! Hopefully I can stay in a good spot lmao

"cheng"

- HIHI! its me Bradley on day 1. I'm tired and about to go to bed and will try to make a good confessional tomorrow but i just wanted to say its the end of day 1 and i have a social relationship with everyone. Elmo is great! I love Sofi. And this lime green color is iconic. The other tribes are gonna be strong and I'm def scared playing with returnees but honestly they are assets rather than liabilities. I 'm just trying to get a good sense of how I feel before I get too into game mode and see who i want to work with but right now sofi and elmo are great! I like katie from the bit we talked and jake was cool also. Su was cool also. ugh we <3 a great social tribe. Heres to winning some challenges! This is the start of a long seasons and I just have to remember one thing. This season is based around pirates so I have to play like one and pirates take no prisoners!

"calico"

- "https://66.media.tumblr.com/c6afbab75339d26e06135cd8f39cf8d6/tumblr_omig384i7u1teep5ro1_500.gif

hello ladies!!!!!!!!! im BACK its time for my first confessional in like years okay so lets talk about my TRIBE. first of all im gagged that the vets are split up and not on the same tribe but it makes sense since we'd prob beast in challenges

-i was at first shook that i was put w/ andrea since i voted her off in rebirth but she's actually rlly fun and i like talking to her -i legit ADORE lex and i'm kinda making it out to be that i'm in love with him when talking to him... i'm always like ""ur so funny"" ""i adore u"" ""ily"" when talking to him so let's hope he has a gay wrapped around his finger and doesn't wanna vote me off -natalia is cute... i think i overestimated her tho i thought she'd be talking to a lot of people about stuff and game but i think she may just be socializing strictly since she's new to orgs??? But idk andrea said otherwise.... i'm sus tho and she left me on read before goign to bed :(( i see her bonding w/ nick b/c they're like.... both good looking. there i said it! -mitch... he left me at read at first and told andrea it's scary i've played 4 seasons LBKJASDKFMLSLAKM why would u tell another returnee that! we've played as many orgs if u look at her fb page u will see like 20 fucking orgs on her org in review photo anyway... i talked to him again after he left me on read so hopefully he isn't scared of me -and then NICK. oh nick. he was at work and i guess he panicked when he returned to his home b/c i was the only person online and he asks me a bunch of questions likes hes interviewing me or something.... how my seasons were like... how it feels to be a returnee.... my opinion on andrea im legit just like why are u asking me all this ur overplaying and then he ends up ASKING ME for an alliance with andrea and im legit just like sis lets hold up. i just met you. and idk what to do b/c i don't want him to use it against me to the newbies and try to put a target on the returnees back by making it seem like we presented the alliance deal w/ him

so idk i may have to setup some precautions w/ the other newbies mainly lex but i think i should watch out for him... he's played a lot. even tho we may be ""connecting"" it could be completely one sided and he wouldn't tell me if i'm being blindsided in a newbie alliance move or wahtever.

i just need to make sure the newbies aren't turned off by all the times i've played and work against andrea and i. andrea is great and i love her, if i could work w/ her i would love to, but if it comes down to it i'm completing down w/ working w/ newbies??? anything to keep my ass safe i'm down for actually. so yeah.... just give me a chance and i will give you a chance and we could hopefully work together!

i think i may need to take some intitiatve this time and make the bonds myself and not be so submissive. i'm a returnee. these are newbies... they may me be lookign to me to make a move which si dumb bc i am just a simple gay 17 year old boy but WHATEVER ur all older than me except lex and mitch.

but ya if i leave b/c i've played a lot (which.... not rlly i legit only played when i was like fucking 13 years old and was stupid so this should rlly be my second attempt if we're being realistic) or b/c of this nick alliance scheme i will be upset."

"cheng"

- The premiere night went super well! The tribe seems super nice, I'm a lil sad that the other returnee, Katie seems to be a lil inact rn. This might the best original tribal socially I've been a part of? :o

"cheng"

- "It's the first day, and I'm not sure yet if I want to do private or public confessionals. We'll start privately and see if anyone drastically changes when I switch over to public lol. #exposed

Hmm, I think things are going about as well as expected. I still haven't messaged Katie, but my strategy here is to chill and relax early on. I'm waiting for people to come to me instead of messaging everyone on the tribe immediately. Also, when people do this it tends to lead to a lower quality of conversation because they're stuck juggling 4 different people. Quality 1-on-1 conversations are key to winning Survivor. Most of the time. My plan is to have at least one good conversation with each person on my tribe, every round. It doesn't need to be super lengthy, just good enough that they like me more than someone else LOL. This is what I did in 703 Survivor, so maybe it'll work here.

The difference is that this time people know who I am. I've come in with a potential threat status. My choice has been to not try hiding it at all. I want people to know I'm a legit player, and hopefully they end up wanting to work with me. My work will be making sure that despite my own threat status, there will be larger ones to deal with at merge, putting me in the middle between the threats and UTR players. I'll start out as a top contender in the eyes of this tribe and then slowly fall to the middle of the pack, then rise again near the end. That's my ideal plan, anyway.

My favourite so far is Elmo, but the bar is low, honestly. This tribe is not super great at joking around, but there hasn't been any legitimately bad chats so far. I think Brandon is my least favourite of the people I've spoken with so far, but Anita being 15 weirds me out and she kind of ditched our convo which isn't great lol. I'm genuinely considering banding together the oldest people on the tribe and just making an alliance based on that. The problem with young players is that they tend to be impulsive and will turn on you just because it's a move, even if it's way too early, etc.

I'm excited to see Hunter here. He was probably my biggest supporter in the viewing lounge the last time I played on Facebook, and I'm really psyched he's not on my starting tribe. That's a potential connection I can use in the future if we swap, or even at merge, and nobody will know about it. Big advantage if he ends up pulling me into whatever he's got going on his side of the game, or we could even run the game secretly on opposite sides."

"cheng"

- "I'm not lying to people I'm just stretching the truth... honestly why should I tell strangers real facts about my life when I can fluff them up and have a nice giggle about it?

hm first confessional... usually people list each tribe member and write a love note about them, but so far I'm not getting much from anyone so it's very to be continued. Guess my game update would be I'm just chillin."

"calico"

- I AM SO EXCITED!! I’ve talked to everyone on my tribe and am starting to get good bonds with everyone. However, Yousef has played THREE TIMES. And I can see why. He was talking to me a lot last night and has good social skills. He is a big threat and I will do whatever convincing I have to to be sure that he goes.

"barbarossa"

- "It's not day one if there's not a first impressions confessional! Anabel - I fucking LOVE her. She's so funny, charming & I hope we can work together. She's definitely one of the most talkative people on the tribe so far and I really would love to go far with her. Ethan - He's alright! We've had some good conversations so far but I can tell he's come here to play the game, which I admire, but also find nerve wracking cause he could be trying to get final twos with every other player, so will be watching out for him if he doesn't end up working with me for long! Karsten - I knew of him from Tibet and he's a pretty cool guy! Haven't talked to him a hell of a lot yet but he seems decent from what I can gather, would love to work with him though because if I recall correctly he's a loyal player (or at least was in Tibet/Mount Olympus i think??) so it'd be a relief to have him on my side if he was following that sort of play style in this game. Hunter - Haven't talked to him that much yet but again he seems fine. He kinda seems a bit disconnected from the tribe as a whole but hopefully it's just initial nerves and he'll come out of his shell more when we start getting into the nitty gritty. Willow - LEGEND. I love Willow so much so I was so gassed when she was in the season let alone my tribe, but she hasn't been on much at all today or yesterday so I'm very worried she's gonna be isolated and then we can't work together </3 so for now I can't put all my eggs into her basket - hopefully I can rely on her when she's around more though.

And as for the people not on my tribe but in the game, I'm very good friends with Andrea, Elmo and Yousef so hopefully they're people I can lean on if we ever end up together on a swap or at the merge even. I just hope playing with friends won't blow up the actual friendships themselves...but I guess we'll have to see..."

"cheng"

- I finally got to really talk with Su and Katie, and Katie and I mostly just had some small talk, Su and I talked about some really personal stuff and it was kind of nice being able to talk to him about stuff I don't normally get to talk about. At first glance he could be mistaken for the Minecraft kid lol xd stereotype, but I think anyone can be boxed into a stereotype at first glance, and he's a really nice guy and super fun to talk to, so I'm glad I didn't judge that book by its cover too quickly. As the challenge approaches, I'm thinking about what'll happen if we lose, and I'm trying to situate myself as well as I can in case we do. I love Brad, but I think he might be our first boot; while I think I'd rather vote Jake or even Katie, I don't know if anyone else would, and I don't think I've bonded with Brad enough to do all that much to save him. Hopefully we don't even have to worry about it though. The only people I'd do a whole lot to save are Su and Elmo, since they seem like they actually enjoy talking to me and would want to keep me around down the line. But I'm not gonna plan ahead too much, because you never know what can happen in just a couple of days or a couple of tribals.

"cheng"

- HIHI! its me Bradley on day 1. I'm tired and about to go to bed and will try to make a good confessional tomorrow but i just wanted to say its the end of day 1 and i have a social relationship with everyone. Elmo is great! I love Sofi. And this lime green color is iconic. The other tribes are gonna be strong and I'm def scared playing with returnees but honestly they are assets rather than liabilities. I 'm just trying to get a good sense of how I feel before I get too into game mode and see who i want to work with but right now sofi and elmo are great! I like katie from the bit we talked and jake was cool also. Su was cool also. ugh we <3 a great social tribe. Heres to winning some challenges! This is the start of a long seasons and I just have to remember one thing. This season is based around pirates so I have to play like one and pirates take no prisoners!

Day Two
"barbarossa"

- "I'm staying up late on the first day (so it's technically day 2 now!) and me and Hunter have really bonded. We are both aspiring video editors from Canada. Weird. We have been talking and we have a SUSPICIOUS amount of similar interests and it's a little freaky. He seems really cool. We've already made an alliance right off the bat, which is nice. I think I can trust him for now at least. He seems pretty genuine. He has raised SOME red flags by pre-emptivley asking ""what is it okay for me to say about you if I'm talking to other people about you"" but maybe he really is just THAT direct and to the point. Anywho.

This may sound stupid in a day or two, but the lack of Buffs, and the lack of colour co-ordination on our Mangas makes me suspicious that these may not be our final tribes, or our final cast for that matter. 18 seems a tad small, I could see 2 more people joining and possibly creating 5 tribes of 4 or something wonkey like that. Just something my paranoid brain has come up with after being in the game for a few hours.

I'm managed to have a conversation with everyone on my tribe so far. Everyone seems super nice, and there doesn't seem to be anyone here that just wants to start drama. I pray it stays that way. I trust Hunter the most, followed closely by Liam, he seems fun and mature. I've talked with Willow, she seems very personable which kinda scares me? But I feel way more confident with her than I do with Anabel. Anabel seems a little young and possibly naive, but she is the sweetest. Honestly someone wrap her in bubble wrap because I don't want to see her break, she's too pure for this world. Karsten seems very intelligent, and I can see us working together, however he seems a little stand-offish which is giving me pause. I REALLY want to work with him, however I am not sure if he feels the same about me. Hopefully it was just first day nerves and he comes around and we can have a more natural conversation and see where his head is at. AND THATS IT. Those are all the people on my tribe. Crazy. I think this small tribe could be a blessing for me if I can get my foot in the door and get some power. Overall, I'm having a really good time and I'm excited to be back baybeh! Hopefully I can traverse these backstabby waters and avoid being forced to walk the plank of shame."

"barbarossa"

- I'm ECSTATIC I can do the flag! Literally if any challenge is made for me, it's design. I can design something real cool in only a couple hours and I hope that it'll be well received by the judges ;). I need to try and get a firm alliance going so I'm gonna try and sort something out with Anabel and Willow tonight before I sleep - hopefully they like each other and would be willing to work together because they're my two faves on this tribe rn.

"cheng"

- Well, this challenge is looking like a mixed bag. On one part, there's Elmo and Su dominating the image post challenge, on another, there's me and Brad being pretty average at the flash game, and then there's Jake and Katie's flag... it's not bad by any means, but I don't think it's enough for us to win. I have a bit of a bossy streak so I'm trying to just let it go, since saying my actual thoughts will make me look really annoying, but aaaaaagh I just am not confident in it. Hopefully our other two parts will make up for it, because I don't want to go to tribal with this gang. I've got this nagging feeling that people don't really like me, and it's eating away at me from the inside. Because usually when I really like everyone in a group, it turns out they all hate me. Maybe I'm projecting a little too much here, but life experience has me wary and I'm trying to be as sweet and innocent as possible, because I just don't want to go home first. That's my goal for this challenge: win, so I don't go home first. Everyone always thinks the premerge of Survivor is easy, but let me tell you, it's not. At least, for someone like me who's a social recluse and doesn't have much experience talking to people (though not for lack of trying), I'm very easily picked on and that means death in Survivor. This round already feels like a grueling fight to stay alive, so I can't imagine what's in store for me.

"cheng"

- OMGGGGGGGGG today has been a blast! I stayed up WAYY too late doing the endurance challenge but apparently Elmo and I are leading by 160 over 2nd place and like 350 over 3rd or something so I think we are in a good spot. I hope we stay in 1st because over today Elmo and I have CLICKED like holy fuck he is a heaven sent ally he is the perfect person for me. Super active, funny, not overconfident, hes just fun to talk to. And I hope that we stay in 1st so we can win that power cuz that would help us out immensely. Overall a great day, I think that Cheng is doing really well and we should be able to escape Tribal this round!

"barbarossa"

- "LET’S FUCKING GO!!! The hosts post the map for the idol search and I got the right guess on the FIRST TRY!!! I guessed D4 cause of the star

It was this treasure box to play a Mastermind kind of game. I also had a great first guess and may be able to break this code quickly.

I’m coming for the treasure let’s go!!!"

"calico"

- ugh this tribe is legit so dead

idk if it's just me not having a life but no one is ever here to talk to me and it's weird b/c i love going all out with my social game b/c playing orgs is just a fun hobby to the point where i meet people that i end up long term friends w/ sometimes and i even love thinking about all the options i can take and if i'll be voted out despite the stress because i feel like since i started playing so young i've just grown to appreciate the game

so being one of 2 returnees on a tribe with 4 newbies that don't talk a lot is so weird for me because i know it could easily be being paranoid since these people aren't online a lot but i've starting to come up with conspiracies that the newbies could easily turn against the returnees if they start having talks because we're just the easy target, and to combat that i would form strong bonds with them but like they just don't talk. BLKJASDFKMLASKM

lex talks but idk if i can trust him... i need to do some research on him and look at confessionals in his past orgs but i'm just lazy to research. i'm forcing myself to do that after this confessional. natalia isn't rlly online or leaves me on delivered but it's scary b/c her bio goes OFF??? she's like. I'M A SURVIVOR ANALYST. I WILL WIN THIS GAME. idk if sis knew those bios would be public but i'm scared she's gonna mastermind something against the returnees to secure her safety by using the newbies

nick is just insane. he seems so unpredictable to me. last night he bounced off an idea that me/him/andrea could work together and then when i initiated the convo today about what he said to me last night he said that natalia said she likes andrea and i which is weird b/c we're both the returnees but like... i guess i get it b/c i don't exactly see her bonding with lex and mitch off the bat b/c mitch isn't rlly active + possibly the first boot despite his purity and lex is... awk

so ya. this tribe is weird. but um the challenge was post and so is the idol system and i'm gonna go bonkers w/ my alarms to find this idol b/c i want it..... it'll make me go even more paranoid but one of my org bucket list things is to idol someone out and i want that to happen in this game.

idt everyone else is going as bonkers w/ the alarms and shit b/c they aren't really online that often but i'm trying hard ladies. if someone got it w/ a lucky first guess i'm gna be upset but like... that's the way of the road bud.

update: it's 2 hours after writing the first part of this confessional. i legit went on a scavenger hunt looking at the text inside the picture b/c evan left a quote when he posted the idol system saying don't take shit for face value basically and i went NUTS! i think it's a watermark that's blurred out now but like... i'm still sus. and lex guessed in one of the places it had those watermarks and it took him like 3-4 mins to respond so #sus but idk if i wanna potentially waste a guess by checking if there's a thing that says ""it looks like smth here has been found!"" and if i was him i wouldn't say the spot w/ the idol b/c of that...

but ya. idk. this tribe is dead. i like andrea and lex the most. mitch is pure. nick is funny. natalia is cute. i'm a paranoid mess. what can ya do.

also i'm pretty sure we're losing because mitch has school, andrea is busy, natalia can't really help with the flag, so it's up to lex and nick to carry the tribe for us hahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahah i'm gon die

"cheng"

- Something about this tribe just doesn't feel right. I don't know if it's just an antisocial crowd, but half of them keep ghosting me. At this point I'm closest with Bradley and Emo just based off the fact that they haven't ditched the convo five minutes in lol. I should probably make an attempt to get closer with Su as well, but I honestly just don't care about Su. He is the prime offender of the "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" "How are you" spammage. I'm not here to talk about how I bought an onion at the grocery store, c'mon man. I think he gets that he needs to ask questions to keep conversations going, but he doesn't know how to not ask boring ones for the most part lol. Halfway theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeere, wooaaHOOOOOH. Anyway, I was paired with Katie for the flag, and aside from taking 30 hours to message me back, she tells me she's doing...no, not a flag. That would be ridiculous. No, she's going to do a post card. U wot m8. The challenge explicitly says flag. Did you learn how to do post cards and that's all you'll ever do now? I cringed. Anyway, she did her post card, and it's good looking, but it's NOT A FLAG. Uhhh. I made my own flag and threw that in the ring. It's not my best work at all, but at least it's a friggen flag lol. Like, imagine if the other team played the wrong flash game and were like "lol judge my score anyway". I probably shouldn't be worsening our chances at immunity, but I just don't like Katie because Katie sucks. That is all.

"barbarossa"

- "I don't know if I messed up with getting such a high score in the challenge. I don't want to be seen as a challenge threat, but it's easy to pass off a really good challenge score as ""dumb luck"".

Truthfully, I did want to get first for the flash game because I want this reward that whoever gets first place in each challenge section will get. I'm hoping for something other than an idol clue, but an idol clue may not be bad either, cause it means Karsten gets it as well, meaning I could plant seeds that he has an idol.

I like to be the nice guy, and yes I don't like voting people out, even though it's part of the game.

But it's much harder to win if I'm always trying to be the nice guy. I need a good mix of kind friendship, and lying dick. So, this reward could help me do both :)".

"calico"

- New opinions r my whole tribe is either a gamebot or inactive. I don't like mitch. Yousef is an angel. I want a swap. Love lex sm as a person but he won't talk to me unless its game. Scared. COnfused. I am doing bad at wings over water. Challenges? not my forte. Not fetch. I fucking hate this tribe come on we came to play survivor not sit around and not talk. That's what movies r for

"barbarossa"

- I've properly established bonds with Anabel and Willow, so hopefully they can help me if we ever go to tribal! Anabel wants to link up with Andrea at merge/swap which I'm down for too, so hopefully I can really work with Anabel further in this game. So far the flag is coming along well so hopefully we can get maximum points on this thing!

Day Three
"calico"

- "The Calico tribe! Wonderful name and wonderful tribe. We have ICONIC returnees: Andrea: one of my favorite people ever and to see her here is fucking amazing. Yousef: Jessy popped. For someone who made merge three times on main, i’m surprised I’m so not intimidated by him. His social skills are ON POINT, but he’s paranoid alright. Super nice, super fun and I do hope to work with him for a while. Now the newbs! All 3 are not that active and all seem perfectly nice. But again, not that active. So a bit disappointing there. "

"barbarossa"

- "HAHAHA!!! I'm very much enjoying this game. Not only did I get an idol clue because our tribe got first, but I got to play a little 50/50 game because Karsten and I won our portion of the challenge.

I picked right, I now have two idols clues that I can use whenever! I'm hoping I don't jinx myself but right now, things are looking up!"

"calico"

- All this drama? I don't get paid enough for this.

"calico"

- "Considering I was working for 13 of the 24 hours the challenge was live and sleeping for 6 of those, I am content with my effort in the challenge which I would associated with being the most difficult to succeed at. We had no idea what the standard of the flags would be and the other tribes really pulled through, even if I personally think they were cluttered af. No one on the tribe, however, really came through with a spectacular performance and its to no surprise we find ourself at tribal tonight.

Going into the vote I plan to leverage my friendships with Natalia, Andrea, and Yousef to send Mitch home - that's my goal. Mitch made a dismal effort in the challenge and has began creating alliance chats which exclude me. His communication with me has left little to be desired, the same being said for Lex except he has been stronger in the challenge. I think our foursome is a great combination of male/female/newbie/returnee and all seem to be onboard with working with each other. At present, the vote will be for Mitch.

That being said, I have to make sure I am not leaning too hard on these relationships. Furthermore, I ought to watch out for the two returnees, especially Yousef. He has made the merge the three times he has played so he definitely has potential to go far. Whether I can trust him to work with me, or instead find a new set of allies to give myself options... we'll just have to wait and see. Of course, I could be the one being blindsided tonight and if it were to happen it would certainly surprise me. "

"cheng"

- Well, we got back from the challenge, and Bradleydoodle and I just lost our part of the challenge, but it was really close, so I'm not too bothered. It seems like we both contributed almost exactly as much, so I feel well-matched. The flag, to my surprise, did very well, so I guess the judges have different taste from me! But when I got back, Brad and I got to pick from three urns that gave us... something. So, naturally, while Brad wanted to play it safe and not play this twisted game, I went head-on in like the blithering idiot that I am, and got an extra vote cast against me at the next tribal council. Bradley is the only one who knows (hopefully, I don't think he'd tell anyone else but I'm not gonna keep all my eggs in one basket), and I want to keep it quiet because if people know I have an extra vote against me, they're going to think it's easier to vote me out, and maybe target me. So I'm just going to keep my mouth shut for once, and hope for the best. Meanwhile, Brad is feeding me all this info about the idol and I'm just shocked he trusts me that much. That's definitely pushing him up in my pecking order, because he clearly thinks I can be trusted. Won't he feel like a fool? I'm not saying I'm gonna cut him ASAP, but I definitely wouldn't've shared that information with him. However, I'm grateful for him. He's like a flashlight in the dark for me; the only person who will talk strategy. This game is already punishing me for being a fool in a woman's body, but I think I'm handling it well. As for my position on the tribe, well, I'd describe it as two deer with no eyes and no legs having sex. Still no fucking idear.

"barbarossa"

- "We have just won the challenge! We DOMINATED! I was in a pair with the other returning player on our tribe, Willow, and she was great. We got to talking a lot, shared idol clue info, and told stories about our lives. I am feeling a LOT better about her now, and in fact, I may want to align with her! Speaking of aligning, I haven't made any ""official"" alliances, however, I did give the ""D4"" on the grid up to both Karsten and Willow to help them out a bit and gain their trust. I think I'm far enough ahead that either myself or Hunter will get the idol before anyone else.

At this point, I'm just hoping that my social game is going to carry me through this tribe should we end up at a tribal at some point (which is looking doubtful, not going to lie) but you always have to be ready in case of a swap. I'm REALLY trying to create ""tribe unity"" and be open and honest with pretty much everyone, and because this is such a small tribe, I don't see ""sides"" forming, But hey, I could be completely wrong and everyone hates me and I'm just being placated until my trip down the plank. And yes, I will be using ship references for the theme of this season.

Overall, I'm happy with where I'm positioned on the tribe, and I'm trying really hard to establish open and honest lines of communication with these people, and I hope it is paying off. I've honestly never bonded this quickly with people on a tribe before, and it feels pretty great. Sorry ocean queen, I don't plan on seeing you anytime soon. "

"barbarossa"

- I FOUND THE IDOL WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Me and Hunter have been working together these first few days and we have been helping each other with these idol trials, and thank god for that, because I JUST FOUND THE IDOL BECAUSE OF IT. I'm honestly beyond excited. I am, however, less excited that someone knows my murky little secret. I would prefer if my idol was hidden from everyone, but hey, if it had to be anyone who knew, I'm glad its Hunter. I know having an idol is a lot of pressure and has a chance to backfire and capsize my game, but I hope I can save it for as long as possible. One of the best parts of having an idol, is knowing for certain that other people don't. Loving this tribe and everything we have going for us. IDOL HYPE!

"calico"

- So it’s the first tribal! I made a legendary alliance with myself, Andrea, and Natalia and it is iconic. Even though Yousef seems to trust me, he is a threat. A big one. I am really hoping I can get him out tonight. Unfortunately, I got an opportunity to open a vase thing and I got a challenge disadvantage. I am really hoping that the whole tribe doesn’t find out about it because otherwise I am SCREWED next vote.

"calico"

- Yeah not feeling this tribe. Yousef and I sharing idol stuff means he super trusts me and it means that he's willing to use it on me...hopefully. I am terrified of being swapfucked and would highkey like it in my possession. I hope that he fucks up the code so I have a shot at 12... Mitch can go honestly, Natalia is manipulative, Nick is so cool to be around as aperson, but hes too gamebotty, and Lex... can't read my boy rn. Get me this idol and get me off this tribe k thanks bye

"barbarossa"

- "So Ethan found the idol. That's the second best thing behind me finding it, and I'm glad he trusted me enough to tell me. How will I use this information I have no clue. It's nice to have someone who will willingly play an idol for you, but if Ethan is getting too dangerous, it's always a nice piece of information to have.

Clearly I still haven't decided whether I wanna play good or not, I'm just gonna end up with a messy jumble of both XD"