Board Thread:Season 8 - Korea/@comment-2002887-20131020090737/@comment-5.29.136.217-20131020211151

Hi Ivan

Before I answer your questions, I'd like to say that I'm proud of the way you chose to handle your elimination. The way you reacted at that moment, I could feel how disappointed you were of yourself. I'm happy to see you realized you have nothing to be ashamed of. You had a good game, you managed to shock us all when you played the ring and you made it to 7th place, which is definitely not something to take for granted.

I just want to know what you knew about why I was voted off, what part you had, and why it couldn't be avoided or postponed

As I said in my speech, I never intended to vote you off at that point, yet I had a part in your eventual elimination. My original plan involved working with you and Ryan in order to form an opposition to the A-Team. However, when Miggy won immunity I knew things are going to get complicated.

Although you told me the plan was to vote Aaron off, nobody has voted against him. I realized Ryan's vote was not in your pocket as I thought, and even Hunter had a plan of his own. At the next vote, you immediately went after Miggy again, even though I told you our best chances lies with voting Ryan.

Had you agreed to vote for Ryan, I had the opportunity to switch my vote to Ryan too and save you, but you refused. Looking back, I know I should've told you more and get you into the loop, but since you had trust in so many people, I couldn't risk my own position.

'''How much of a threat did you think I was for your game and to win this game? And how do you view me? '''

While this is a mere coincidence, I also had my first Survivor ORG back in 2009. To be honest, you reminded me a lot of myself back in that game, where I was voted out in a very similar way you to how you were voted out this season. I believed I was leading a huge alliance (bigger than the Korea Alliance), but eventually they all turned on me. I was literally devastated by what happened, and it took me a long time before I was ready to play again and learn my lesson. But the good thing I've taken from this experience, was accepting that even though I thought I understood what Survivor was all about, I knew nothing.

The way I saw you in the game, was as a person I can always go to if I feel like I'm with my back against the wall. You always seemed to be a accepting of other people's insights, however it only applied outside of our alliance. You put your trust in people who shouldn't have it, and preferred to stick to the alliance even if it wasn't the right move. On the other hand, you were able to identify Alejandro as a threat, and you should get the props for that. When you told me you plan to get him out later, I knew I could potentially work with you. I personally did not feel like you were a threat to me, but you could've been for others.

'''Also, did you think I had the idol? '''

Of course not, since I had it

'''Did you trust me? Was our friendship real or were you just using me? How did it feel to have the Baekje idol when I was taking the heat for it? '''

I indeed trust you, however I had doubts about you at some points during the game. The first time was when I discovered you had the ring, which you never told me about. I got this info from Aston, and knowing he's considering a Baekje alliance at the merge it made me feel uncomfortable. When you finally used it, I was personally shocked. It came out of the blue and I wasn't sure how to react. The second time I felt like you're not being honest with me, was when you refused to vote Max off.

Regardless of our alliance, our friendship was real. You are one of the people I hope to keep in touch with once this game is over, and I enjoyed you being on this season, even though we didn't go to the end together. When it was the time to write your name down, for the first time I felt uneasy about my vote. Knowing how you would react, it totally threw me 4 years back to my first game.

I had mixed feelings about the heat you got for having my idol. On one hand, it put a target on your back even though I never intended to blame you, out of all people, for having it. People just preferred to believe you have it, for a reasons I have yet to figure out, as I was originally trying to imply Crtha had it. On the other hand, there were many times where I was able to get the heat away from you, thanks to the fact people thought you'd play the idol. Two examples would be Monkey's and Hunter's eliminations. So while it indeed served my strategy, I felt uneasy knowing you get heat you don't deserve.

'''What is the biggest lesson you learned playing this game? '''

The biggest lesson I learned was that I should've put more effort into talking to every person in the game. I only recently realized there are many players I didn't have a chance to talk to, some of them are part of the jury. I hope I could redeem myself in the eyes of these people and get them to see my game, even though they couldn't get to know me.

I hope I pleased you :)