Board Thread:Season 46 - Kariba/@comment-20483335-20180413231154/@comment-34704154-20180414125452

Yayyy Jack thank you for your questions :)

1. I think the f7 boot order was pretty solid! Looking back I can’t find too much fault with it as it did get me here ultimately. Though don’t worry I’m not gna just sidestep your question!! I think it would have been good if Louise had hanged around a bit longer but if I’m honest Hals going at f4 was not bad for me as I felt she was definitely a bigger jury threat than Jake and I was seen to do all I could to keep her in the game. The main problem I had with Jake staying in the game was “could I beat him at final immunity challenge?” but as it turned out I could so I wouldn’t change him being here tonight. And I’m glad Vincent is here not only because he’s the goat but also from a personal note of being able to make it through the whole game with someone from first tribe, to swap to merge even if we didn’t always get along aha. And I definitely have no qualms with you going when you did because you definitely had a stellar game with you coming through that messy swap and making it through the merge unscathed. Sooooo without further ado here is my ideal boot order from f7 onward:

7th: Matthias - It would have been good to get my 2nd advantage sooner and I felt I could vote him out without too much damage to my position within the tribe

6th: Louise - I mean, it’s starting to get to crunch time and Louise was a big target; having SAID that I’m not sure in retrospect what Jake could have done with his idol here, so this is truly an ideal placement.

5th: Jack - too good an all-rounder, and these are a four I am happy being in the f3 with whatever happens here on out - you would be too much of a contender at ftc if you scraped through!

4th: Honestly? Hals! - I have no regrets about what I did to try and save her as it was an important change in strategy for me as a character in this season. However, Hals' presence with the jury is without question. The reason I would still want her here at f4 is because had I lost immunity I would have had the most chance in persuading her to go to a tiebreaker for me I believe.

This is genuine; for a long time I wanted Jake and Vincent in the f3 with me and in retrospect having Jake here was (hopefully!) not a mistake as it didn’t harm my chances of winning final immunity, which was always admittedly a fear. Crucially the final 4 I was happy with, which I’ll get onto now!

2. I’m fairly certain that Jake and Vincent wanted me out if I lost final immunity challenge, as Vincent and Hals told me. So perhaps my best option would have been to do the reverse of what I did; beg Hals for a tiebreaker. I feel that if I had turned on Hals and tried to convince Jake and Vincent to get her out, I’d obviously lose sympathy with her and given my previous knowledge, it was an unlikely outcome causing me to deem that option fruitless. Naturally I would have tried convincing Vincent that voting out Jake was the better option due to his physical prowess and ability to manoeuvre the minority, but tbh I’m pretty sure he was set on me as alluded to in his speech. I’d like to think Hals would have given me a tiebreaker, and I would have puled out all the stops about how we’d had a final 2 since pretty much day 1 and had been genuinely close friends throughout the game and that I would have done the same for her (which I did!). To Jake, to make sure I didn’t cause Hals any reason to vote against me as that would have been fatal, I would have probably tried to angle for Vincent as Jake and Hals both did to me, but i KNOW that’s a long shot looool xx

However, this would have been all about where I assessed everyone to stand after immunity results. I love Hals, but if it wasn't me who won final 4 immunity, it would have been Jake, and then only Hals, Vincent and myself would have been able to receive votes. There was no way Vincent would have been eliminated, so I could have felt forced to turn on Hals and argue that she had the support of the jury - Becky and Matthias for example.

However, I put everything I had into the final immunity to make sure I never had to make the plea. I knew if I lost, I was eliminated - I was told that I was done for if I did not win because apparently they thought I had played the strongest game. And my final immunity win wasn't lucky, even though Jake had won more immunities by the final 4, I knew I was a better all-rounder and had looked at past final immunities, they were all the 'Trials' format. Of course I didn’t let on to this and pretended I was totally oblivious when talking about it to people! I knew that if I could reach final 4, I would win final immunity, I had come 2nd or 1st in almost every immunity and so my goal was just reaching final 4, which I did with my fake idol and real idol plays.

So, in conclusion, in an ideal world my plea would have been about getting rid of Hals because I acknowledge that she was a threat and I feel like the rest of the tribe would respond to that more. Failing that, however, I would have endeavoured to get a tiebreaker out of Hals which I would have been confident winning, since it would have been against Vincent (assuming Jake won immunity). I ultimately knew however that I would never have to make that plea because I was almost certain that I could win final immunity.

Sidenote: I’d just like to take this opportunity to reflect on some of the other things you said and thank you for saying them tbh because it's helping me to become increasingly aware of what I messed up on. I agree that the way I went about voting out Louise was wrong and has caused bitter resentment towards me on the jury from her - but I do think it was right that she went make no mistake! But yeah it was a mess how she went and I happily concede that. And true I get that at ppl finding it hard to communicate with me, but I do feel like I’m coming away from this with real friendships though and ppl trusted me enough to always include me in their plans so I think that’s more of a jury management thing which ugh I know is a flaw :( All I hope is that people who aren’t bitter towards me don’t vote against me for poor jury management because like, if you’re not bitter hopefully that won’t affect your vote? Idk, yeah it’s a problem that only time and hopefully a fire jury performance from me will tell! And yeah I definitely don’t wanna exaggerate my control over the game; I feel I totally dictated my own safety and I wasn’t relying on anyone else for security due to my own various strategies, but outside that I definitely had less impactful moments. I don’t know if that’s a particular flaw though as it allowed me to remain less of a target - and I still had key moves I was an explicit cause of, like getting out Drew, Becky and Matthias! Jake can claim he had control by purposefully creating a volatile social landscape all he wants but to me, that just sounds like a retrospective justification for a messy game - I always had a plan to get *myself* through each tribal untouched.

3. Here are what I personally saw as the weaknesses which sent everyone home from my perspective!:

Dan - From a personal level I didn’t talk to Dan or feel as close to him as I did with Becky/Jordan, but that was probably down to time zones as much as anything else! The revelation of his allies was a weakness here.

Dovile - Although personally I loved it and loved Dovile, Dovile’s wildness and unpredictable nature meant a lot of the cast felt alienated by her. This meant no one was really willing to save her, causing her to go out.

Drew - Overplayed! Drew overplayed and it came back to bite him. The leaking of his idol was absolutely fatal as he did not tell me about it despite me giving him about 20 days and perfect opportunities to do so. This exemplified that he was not as close an ally as I would like to believe, causing me to side against him hence the 5-4 vote.

Becky/Jordan - They were a social mastermind who was also associated with the Matthias-Hals-Becky-Dan alliance! Aside from being my target (which obvs isn’t a weakness that’s just luck) it was easy for people to be convinced that they were a threat who needed to go home due to their likeable nature.

Louise - Again, a clear frontrunner for winning as evidenced by Touchy Subjects. Ultimately she couldn’t command the loyalty required to carry her game, enabling her to go home.

Matthias - I wasn’t voting out Hals but I was sided with Jake, Vincent and Jack here. So perhaps the weakness here was not being as close with me as I was with Hals, or telling people (it was a bluff?) about your advantage made people suspicious.

Jack - The only weakness you had was not finding that idol/winning immunity! So I guess it was your physical game that let you down i.e. not winning clues/immunity challenges. If you REALLY want to connect the dots, you could even go as far to say that trusting the wrong people i.e. me caused you to go home, as you believed me when I said Fei Long wasn’t the idol when in fact it ended up being so… but that’s an extreme connection haha.

Hals - I guess it ultimately came down to challenge ability as her weakness, but also not being able to overrule her threat status with the loyalty she could command was a weakness too.

Thank you so much Jack for giving me a fair chance to defend myself I appreciate it xx