I'm Here For Myself/Confessionals

Day 2
"savanne"

- So hey, it's me Shea, and after 5 or 6 times applying I'm finally here. I was a LOVELY first alternate, but thank the lord above that someone dropped and I am sitting here today. This tribe is really good, I think in flash games we might be on the weaker side, but I think If we do end up at tribal first I won't be the one going home.

My strategy this time is going to be way different. I was lucky to have my 703 experience to learn what not to do, and I had Canadienne teach me the little mistakes I make in my gameplay. I think this time around I could really take that crown and give these nerds a run for their money.

First Impressions are important, and I think I made really great ones. I really hit it off with Wendy and Lexi, Devon and Audrey seem cool. Courtney is far out there, like on another planet, but she's funny. Angel is kinda more grunge and doesn't seem to be as positive as the others, and he works at McDonalds. Kells is pretty quiet too, I'm not sure about him. Nicholas I know already and he seems really excited to see me, but he mentioned my reputation which scares me

I think I'll be okay for a little bit. I just hope we aren't going to tribal first, nobody wants to be the first one voted out but as long as it isn't me I'll be alright. I'm just gonna take the advice of Jun Song and "If i'm not the target shut the fuck up"

"moka"

- I've been playing very cautiously and trying to get to know each and everyone of these people, because despite this being a cutthroat game, it's still a social experiment and you need to get to know them on a personal level. I connected with Eve the most and I think she's an amazing girl. We decided to form a little alliance between the two and trying to slowly recruit people in our alliance.

"moka"

- It's great to be here and so far the cast has seemed genuinely good and I've gotten to know some of them well, especially Ben which is great! The one person I'm a bit hesitant about is Diane though. She brought up possibly aligning after we greeted. Of course I just said sure but not sure if it's just gonna blow up in her face for playing too early or be a decent alliance.

"moka"

- I'm loving right now. I'm starting off on a good page with everyone. Eve said she'll do whatever I want. I learned about Eve and Emily's relationship and like honestly they should have kept their mouth shuts. Im going to use it against them and play both sides. Both of them think there is a plan to get to backdoor the other one. When in reality I want them gone. I'm already being evil. This is amazing so far!!

"savanne"

- Eek! Can I just start out by saying I'm really honored to have been offered the chance to play (even though the amount of anxiety I have knowing that this Org has a huge following is enormous). I'm really excited to try do better than I did in the one other Org I've played!

Thoughts on my tribemates so far: Audrey - I haven't been able to talk to that much, but we did have a nice conversation about Halloween and her job with Cirque. Nicholas - I also haven't talked to Nicholas that much, though I think that's because our time zones are 12 hours apart. Kells - Also haven't talked to much, but they did say I seem cool and that they hope we get close! Angel - We've had some conversations about family and different murder shows and about Halloween! Seems really nice! Courtney - Haven't talked to much - apparently she thought I was a host at first... oops? We talked a bit about work. Wendy - Knew me from Bang a Rang :O I didn't really think anyone knew me so like, that was kinda shocking. We've talked about how nice everyone seems and all that.. I'd love to work with her when we have a Tribal! Devon - We talked about food (mainly Chipotle and their Queso that's coming soon). Seems pretty cool! I need to get to know them more still though! Shea - OKAY CAN WE JUST. I'm like 80% sure that Shea and I must somehow be related. When we talk it's like we have the same thoughts about stuff. I love talking, so finding someone that's willing to chat with me is like amazing. It's even better because of how similar we are. I can't even tell you everything we've talked about, because we've basically been talking since the tribe was announced. I'm going to do everything I can to keep the both of us safe whenever we have a tribal! Hopefully that won't be for a bit though, so I can work on forming better bonds with the others!

"savanne"

- Getting such a strong score in the challenge really helps me in this game. Whether we lose or not, I feel like I'm going to be safe with a perfect score and it's set me up as being someone who can provide for the tribe in challenges. I'm socially well connected in the tribe as well and I have a good grasp of whats going on.

This tribe is very quiet and subtle in the way that they strategize. You have the trio of Myself, Lexi and Wendy. The three of us have this silent understanding that we're aligned, we've all exchanged strategy and have talked a lot between the three of us but none of us are loud enough to straight up make an alliance chat.

Then you have the less-integrated people like Audrey and Angel. Angel's got an edge to him and he'll let you know it. He's someone who respects strong people who know who they are and enjoys opening up about himself. I think being that person he can go to complain or open up to is going to get me a lot of loyalty from him, but there's something about him I can't trust. Audrey is a nice person but that's all I get from her, and that means I'm only at the surface. There's more to Audrey that I'm not getting into, and from what I know nobody else is either.

You then have Courtney and Kells, the wildcards. Courtney, shes way out there. This isn't a super young tribe by any means but she's got quite a few years on the rest of us and it really shows in how she socializes. She's very rough around the edges and not easy to connect with, There isn't much someone like me, a hyper-liberal non-gender-conforming 17 year old has in common with someone like Courtney, a southern mom from Texas pushing 30. I want to think that she's smarter than she comes across but I'm not sure that's the case. Alternatively there's Kells who is younger than the rest of us at 15, and I'm not even sure that's his true age since he comes off as far younger. I only have a couple years on him but the maturity level is really what sets him apart. Within the first day he asked to align with me, He doesn't know the meaning of subtlety and in a tribe like this where everyone is playing very quiet, He sticks out. He's really the black sheep of the tribe.

Then there's Devon and Nicholas. In a way I feel bad for Nicholas because he doesn't have a fair chance on this tribe. He wakes up when we're all asleep and that's already a mark against him. People are picking up on him being the least social and if he's a liability in this challenge I don't see him staying. Devon on the other hand is very social. If there is a person playing hard and doing it well, It's Devon. He's kinda the jock of our tribe, the football star. The advantage I have in this game is my wits and my knowledge, and within 5 minutes of our first conversation Devon lied to me. He blatantly said he had never played in an ORG when I know of his history in Conquest as this meathead who got really messy, overplayed and went home because of it. I respect him trying to leave his past reputations behind but I don't trust him.

I'm over-analyzing every little thing, I'm always on in this game. While I am paying a lot more attention to my social game, at the end of the day I'm always going to be a strategic player. My advantage is my mind and I'm gonna use it every chance I get. At this point, I'm playing the long game. I'm in it for the long haul and I am excited to see what comes next.

"moka"

- So, it's time to make a random confessionnal about the game and everything. I began to talk a little with all the members of my tribe, even if Diane didn't anwsered yet. I have a good first impression about Emily and John, they seems cool, in the other hand, i totally failed my first approche with Maria, not my kind pf person at the first sight, too much "i want to give myself a style" but i will try again later. Nothing really consistant otherwise. Btw, just after finishing this confessionnal, i turned back and i surprised girlfriend checking her waist size. Wtf

"savanne"

- The challenge was pretty difficult! I was hoping for a live challenge but that's not what happened. I'm just hoping my score was enough to keep my tribe from going to the First Tribal Council because, I'd hate to be even an option for first voted out this season. Everyone seems nice so far, but at the end of day, I don't trust ANYBODY. True colors will show if we lose, and I'm not ready to show mine yet.

"savanne"

- https://youtu.be/12jmEWfe2Ag

Day 3
"savanne"

- IM IN THE MAIN ORG!!! Okay that out of the way. I didn't do the typical "I love my tribe' "everyone so nice" blah blah. This is a game and im here for myself. But I Do like some of them. While others are just eh to me. Audrey is someone I can work with since she TOTALLY listen to me and also she an carry a conversation (these people really has that lack of skill/lazy or dont want to talk to me but if you dont like me then make it less obvious), Courtney and I have some mutual respect to one another and I do think she will side with me at least for now, Devon kell and nicholas are on the same boat There decent but if they have to go then I won't hesitate. Alexis is fun and she make me laugh but I havent seen her paranoia side yet and when it comes I don't think it'll deal with it. Wendy and shea are initially i enjoy talking to but now is just i have to force them to talk to me (that the vibe im getting) and if that the case then don't waste my time. But I could be wrong.

"savanne"

- https://youtu.be/XR4PuxxnH4I

"savanne"

- Well, I suppose I'd better start doing these right at the beginning so I don't lose track if I make it far huh? My tribe seems really cool! Everyone's active and works hard in challenges so far. Shea I know from outside the game. He's a cool guy and I really do want to work with him going forward - we've already begun talking game so clearly the game is on with these people. Devon is great too, one of the best people to talk to on the tribe for sure; and someone I can definitely place my trust in. Lexi is super super nice and easy to get along with. I really enjoy talking to her. So, with those three; you have what would be my preferred group moving forward in this game. As for the rest of the tribe; I've barely talked to Courtney, Angel is... talkative but he seems a little off? Like I just get this weird vibe and that's not a good thing; it's early days after all. Nicholas and Audrey are both cool and I wanna get to know them more and maybe talk a little game, we have a lot of common interests which is nice! Kells... Is kind of a gamebot, like our conversations have been short and he was very quick to be like WE HAVE EACH OTHERS' BACKS RIGHT? When I hadn't even spoken to him much but meh, I guess he's an extra vote if needed!

"moka"

- It's a real bummer that we lost. Diane didn't submit on time, but even if she did, it wouldn't have made a difference. The vote right now is at Diane and I'm hoping it stays that way. My tribe can either make this vote difficult or easy and I'm hoping they make it easy. I asked Emily for an alliance earlier today. We bonded a bit, so an alliance between us was sure to happen.

"moka"

- I spoke with almost all my tribe, and Diane is the clear boot. She is inactive and she don't talk with people, and no one seems to want to make a big move or something else. I know that it's probably an easy boot but i cannot relax. You know, my social is probably shit, I feel that when i try to speak like Shakespeare, i speak like Franklin the turtle. I'm worried that people begin to find me anoying as fuck because English is not my mother language and want to vote me out in consequence.