At Least We're Going Down Together/Confessionals

Day 31
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- Fucking shit, fucking shit, fucking shit. Someone must've told Tom and the whole thing flopped and it's all my fault. God, Hugo is gonna hate me. Taking out Erlend woulda been easier but I wanted to make a move and just screwed the whole thing up for myself and my two closest allies. Shit, it's 6 against 2 now and I am so god damn screwed! I think Nick took the blow because of what Rick thought and holy god! OH WAIT, this just in: Miguel AND Red flipped, fucking shit I was shaky about Red, but Miguel I thought was guaranteed and AGHHHH! He says he has a reason (which I'm waiting for now) but how could he! We all know Tom is a challenge threat so why would anyone keep him!

Ok, so Miguel gave some jack crap excuse that I can't even with and this leaves me with one, yes one ally. Hugo.

I'm actually panicking right now, I need to win immunity, otherwise I'm screwed.

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- I cannot believe I’m still in that’s crazy. I was also able to show Tom and Miguel my loyalty by giving them some information Hugo gave to me… it wasn’t anything to write home about but it deff made them trust me more. I liked to see either Tom or Miguel win this game they are doing a great job (ya know for a couple of ORG players lol) The big mystery seems to be how far the little lost miyang girl can get in this game. I’m happy that I can be on jury I haven’t been there in a long long time- I like it a lot more then f2/3 because you get to talk trash with the other jurors and learn how they played the game as well as how the f2/3 did. But still that little voice in my head is telling me to continue with this dumb act and see if I can make it to f3 with Tom and Miguel- I doubt I’ll be able to convince the jury to keep me over them unless they turn out to be really bitter. But like I’ve said all game if Casey and Sam can do it they why the hell can’t I!? (no offense to casey she actually is a pretty decent player) }

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- i have one ally and voted for the person currently in charge of the other alliance

im so fucked

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- So, trying to keep a cool head around Miguel because I'll need him even though I want to scream and him and blind him.

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- I'm actually so mad at Miguel and Red right now, if I wasn't on the bottom I'd stab them both.

Can I honestly just stab them, like show up to Venezuela with a knife and just impale him.

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- Well, things are really looking downward for Diego and I. For me personally, I see why Tom was a threat. but to be fair taking him out right now should have never been the plan. I think the issue is that Diego and Nick wanted to go for the more aggressive approach here, and I wanted to play it on the down low for a little bit longer. I really like Katie, Tom, Miguel, Nick, Diego. I really did not want anyone of them to go home before final six. To be fair I never really wanted to really think about anything past that point. What sucks is that I am worried that I will be viewed as a floater in this season. Really want to be remembered to be honest. Hopefully I will be able to come back another season. You may not get a redo button in life, but in survivor it is the closest you will ever get.

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- My blow up was 100% successful. Tom want out Erlend, Nick want out me or Katie and then...i told that Tom and Nick are big threat and Nick alliance vote for Tom and i told my alliance that we must vote fot Nick. So now Nick is out and i'm still here without any votes on this tribal council. After last challenge i feel like looser but now i feel very good.

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- Crazy Tribal. Nick, Diego and Hugo thought they were going to pull a fast one on me. But I've done a lot better job with the social game than most think. I was suspicious of them for a while, but the challenge results really solidified my concerns. Knowing I was on the chopping block, I made a fake idol and showed it to Miguel. I told him I was going to play it. It worked perfectly and he spilled the beans on the plan to get me out. Confirmed it 100%. Later on both Red and Rick told me that I was a target. Thankfully, my influence stayed strong and everyone rallied to vote out Nick instead. I can no longer trust Diego or Hugo. Our original alliance "Los Cuatros Amigos" with those two and Miguel is dead. Now it's time to ride the "Fab Five" to the end.

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- Such a CPM5 force I am <3

So I finally found the Miyang idol, after looking for weeks! I think I'm gonna keep it to myself for now and look for the Yum Yum idol 'cause I'm so damn greedy

Red is insane! I can't believe I'm actually planning of going to the end with that guy! He's so focused on being the insider and a doble agent and all this crazy stuff and it's getting out of hands, like, pick a side and stick to it! I had to slow her down because he was about to tell Diego and Hugo that he voted with them and show them a fake pic of his vote for Tom, that's so stupid, the vote was 6-3, they know what's up! If he keeps doing this thing of wanting to jump from one alliance to the other I might have to drop him soon

Now that I've officially left from Los Ornitorrincos, I need to find a way stop Diego and Hugo from hating me before they get voted out so that they won't be bitter if I'm sitting in the end pledging my case. Nick is already bitter and probably won't vote for me, I can't keep losing jury votes

I expected pure distaste towards me from Hugo after my move but he was surprisingly cool with it, which just goes to show how awesome he is as a person. Now watch him prepare for revenge lol

I feel really bad about how I screwed Diego's position in the game. He is the biggest threat for jury votes but at the same time he's still just a kid and I feel like such a shitty person for the way that things ended.

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- Ok, so Hugo and I are all either of us have and let me say out of everybody here I'm so glad I'm with Hugo. He's honestly just such a chill and nice guy and idk but we might go down but at least we're going down together

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- More reasons to love Hugo: he said that if he won immunity that he' give the necklace to me to screw things up, I love the plan cause it'd totally catch them off guard! (and i'd be safe) If he goes home though imma start a storm of rage and insanity, I WILL PEE ON THE RICE! Share screenshots, fake idols, oh the bitches brought the game and I'm ready to play!

Day 32
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- Oh we can split the votes and vote out Diego in 4-2-2 but Tom is paranoid and want tied 3-3-2 and revote....oh god why we can't vote out Diego on 1 TC and must be a revote? We have some plans after this tribal council but our plans can be lost because we have super paranoid Tom. Now Diego don't have 24 hours but 48 hours to made moves.

Day 33
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- Going into tribal this time is so nerve-racking. Somehow I managed to go from a very comfortable spot to pleading to stay. In any regard, the possibility of me going home tonight is real, but nobody can say that I did not try to stay. ha. What makes me upset is that I might go home before Rick.....In my idealistic world the final six would have been Tom, Miguel, Katie, Nick, Diego, I....That backfired though, when people in my alliance tried making a big move to early. Survivor is all about timing, yo! Now I am trying to get Tom to save not only me rear, but Diego as well considering he still is my closest ally. That is why winning immunity was so important, but, just my luck this was the one challenge that Rick did well in. I needed that leverage! Its almost poetic when looking at where I am, the challenge, and who won immunity though, merry freaking Christmas y'all. Hu_We_Go, porque mi cuerpo es no listo para esta noche Tribal.....

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- So I have a feeling this will be my last night in the SI but you know what imma make it a spectacle for all to see. Hugo wants us to lay down and be lambs led to slaughter but I'm ready to stir things up. Tom has told me some compromising things and I'm ready to let the cat out of the bag.

Shit is about to get real.

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- Plan Pee in the Rice is a no go. Hugo basically told me to shut up and do what Tom says, do I like this idea, hell no, but so far we've seen how my ideas have played out. Right now my plan is to feel out Miguel and Tom sense if they're with me and if they aren't I don't know. But my game is coming to an end and I feel I at least owe it to Hugo to follow his lead.

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- Well, Hugo called it right. Miguel talked to me and I appreciate him being straight up about the split vote. Although he went behind my back I think he's being honest with me now about plans for a 3-3 split vote which puts me in a moral conundrum: knowing that they plan to split 3-3 and then maybe vote me out I have a unique opportunity to send Hugo home and ensure my safety by making it a 4-3-1. Hugo has honestly though been my closest ally through this whole game and what I'm debating is whether betraying my ally is worth the maybe 3 more days I'll be able to go in the game.

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- SO I JUST HEARD THAT HUGO IS TALKING AND APOLOGIZING TO TOM ABOUT THE LAST TRIBAL'S VOTE...AND I GOES IS HE SERIOUSLY DOING THIS?!? IT'S LIKE PUNCHING TOM IN THE FACE AND THEN A MINUTE LATER APOLOGIZING TO HIM... HE THROW ME AND ERLEND OUTSIDE THE BUS SAYING I'M NOT PLAYING THE GAME.. THAT'S BULLSH*T I TRIED MY BEST TO BE AN ASSET IN OUR TRIBE DURING THE PRE MERGE GAME... WORKING MY ASS ON MY SOCIAL GAME TO STAY HERE AND KNOW HE'S SAYING I'M NOT PLAYING THE GAME... THE GAME IS STATES OUTWIT, OUTPLAY, OUTLAST I MIGHT NOT OUTPLAY SOME OF THEM (WHICH I'M PLANNING TO DO IN THE NEXT REMAINING DAYS TO SHAKE THINGS UP... IT'S ACTUALLY PLANNED) BUT I DEFINITELY OUTLASTED AND OUTWITTED THEM... EVERYONE SEES ME AS A SWING VOTE AND I GOT THE PRIVILEGE TO SEE EVERYONE'S CARD/GAME PLAN WHICH IS SO AWESOME... I'M THE INSIDER IN MOST OF MY ALLIANCE... FLIPPING FROM ONE ALLIANCE TO ANOTHER... I THINK I CAN NOW SAY " THE LONGER I STAY THE DEADLIER I GET "

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- Well I love life! So I wanted to blow up, but Hugo was like stfu and go with the plan. Then Tom lies to his face and he's pissed as fuck and wants to blow up and is calling Miguel a flake! This could not go any better!!! I want to blow up and put the spotlight on Tom, but if Hugo is gonna do it all the better. Imma just sit here and fuel the fire that is his rage.

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- Hugo is my favorite, let me just make that very clear

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- Miguel just messaged me that he's mad at Hugo, I love Hugo but YAAAAAS. Dig your grave and I will rise up and avenge you!

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- YAAAS BETCH YAAAS
 * he says somberly*

Day 33, and 6 days away from the end of this roller coaster of a game! 2 councils and both my two closest allies have been eliminated but as of now this is where things turn up for me :D. I haven't exactly thought through what my next moves are but primarily I'm pushing for Erlend or Katie to go. Erlend I could see people voting because he's off-putting and I could play Katie as a detriment to Tom's plans because she could self-vote and destroy his 'majority.' Hugo has given me a chance and I'm ready to dominate again.

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- I think this challenge is mine! Miguel is about 50 behind me and I caught Red and Rick in fun-ups. Eat my dust bitches!

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- It's been a rough couple of days at camp. Most of my time was pre-occupied with the labor and delivery of my daughter. My wife was in 17 hours of labor before my little girl came out.

This meant I had no time for the recent challenge and scored a zero, effectively causing my stock to drop a bit. Thankfully, it appears that my social game has covered me nicely. Miguel, my current final two partner, has picked up the slack and organized the votes for the next tribal. He has orchestrated and executed the plans exactly in the manner that I have been when I was active.

That's why it's good to get to work early in survivor. By building my relationships and various layers and web of alliances, I can miss entire events and still hang in the game pretty well.

Only problem is that Diego won immunity and has the confidence to stir a few things up, but again, it appears that my connections with the rest of the tribe remain strong. I have a constant ear of what's going on and almost everyone tells me everything...except Erlend who hardly talks even when he's approached. Unfortunate for him, that could mean he's going home tonight.

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- Tonight I managed to put the target on Erlend, which is kinda crazy considering that I'm the only one who's gonna benefit from it. For everyone else he's a goat who's not playing the game and not coming after them, but for me Erlend staying means that Rick and Red, my intended F3 partners, could choose to go with him over me at a later point in the game. Tom could easily take him and Red to the finals and win. Diego should try to take bigger threats to keep the target off him. But yet they are all voting Erlend tonight and it's all because of me, this move only gives me more power.

So we were all in agreement of voting Erlend and then he comes and apologizes for not being around, saying it's because he's been spending a lot of time in the hospital, and I'm like: Are you kidding me right now?! Is he really playing the sympathy card right when I'm about to send his ass home? What a joke, I hope nobody falls for it.

Before Hugo went home we have this huge fight which really took a toll on me. Yeah, I know I need to get rid of him for my game, but I still really like the guy so it was tough having him call me a traitor and telling me how he was never voting for me and was gonna poison the jury just so that I didn't get my way." "Tom and Rick have been having passionately on each other since Day freaking One and it's always so tiring to have to calm the down and force them to work together. Thankfully it won't be for long since I'm considering letting go of Tom at F6 or F5.

Can I just say how AMAZING Katie is? She's like the most funny person on the entire cast, she's chill, and what I most like about her is that she gives 0 fucks. I love talking crap about other people with her and I kinda feel like she will be the only person that won't be bitter at me of I vote her out. It'd be nice to have my own cheerleader on the jury.