Board Thread:Season 18 - Heroes vs. Villains/@comment-5810529-20140819205349/@comment-4379763-20140819231656

Hi Eddie!

This may be long, sorry if my explanations are too long XD. I just feel I have a lot to explain.

Firstly, I genuinely did enjoy talking and Skyping with you. I felt we had a true friendship, and you understood me a lot more than just about anyone else did. I don't want you to think I was just putting up with you, because that is not true at all. I see you as a good friend, and I thought that you just might be a good ally. In an alternate universe, I think we could have worked together very well. But circumstances and tribal alignments got in the way.

From the deep bottom of my heart, I do sincerely apologize if I hurt you in any way. I never intended for that. I thought it would just be a game move and I guess I should have considered feelings more. I don't want you to think I was just putting up with you because I really did and still do see you as a great friend. I hope the events of this game didn't impact our friendship.

And yes, we are friends. I hope we still are, at least. I would love to continue talking when this game is over, because I think there's more to you than people see. You really are a nice guy and are really fun to Skype with. It was great to finally play against you as well.

To answer why you over Miguel when Adam had Immunity, well it's a long story.

I felt going into the merge that I would have to stick with the Heroes. It was easy voting out Jerby and Alejandro. But then it came down to the twist that took out Jessy. Then Sam getting idoled out by you. I was upset after Sam's departure, but then we talked and made our finals deal. I didn't know if I could trust you, since you told me both times that someone different was going. Also when you swore that you wouldn't play the idol, but then you did. I didn't really know how I felt about sticking with you after that.

So then it came down to Adam winning Immunity. I knew Miguel wouldn't betray Adam, and Adam swore he wouldn't vote me. So I knew if I could trust Adam for the time, I could trust Miguel too. I know you're a strong social player, so the thought kept going through my mind that you were playing me. Kinda like my fear with Richie at the first Tribal.

And yes, I felt very bad about it. After seeing how sad you got after results, it genuinely hurt me. I didn't want or expect you to take it as personally as you did, and I'm deeply sorry.

I swear on everything I love that everything I just said is completely true. I hope our friendship hasn't been harmed by this and we can continue talking after this game.

Lastly, if I could change anything about this game, I probably would have flipped to keep in Wesley back when he got voted out. I think he would have been super loyal in the future of the game. He also might have made FTC with me had he stayed. It may have been early in the game, but it certainly impacted the long run of it.

Thank you for the questions, Eddie. And I do really hope you can forgive me.