Board Thread:Season 38 - The Ganges/@comment-24259216-20170207171754/@comment-30203302-20170207174842

My biggest mistake was not telling Ronel and Blake that I was voting them out. With those 2, I had shared extremely personal stories about myself and we both had given something to each other.

Alternatively, I could have just chosen to not actually get to know them as people so that when I had to vote them out, it wouldn't have been as painful for them and for me. I also could have not helped them when they were going through difficult times, but I think that that would defeat the entire purpose of why I play these games.

As for the idol, yes I knew Dean had the idol. He told me right away. I didn't want to explicitly say that the other side had the idol because it would have caused you guys to distrust me and to think I was playing both sides. However, I posted in our alliance group chat that I wanted to switch votes because "the other side may have an idol." I never wanted you to go home and at the time, I actually did not know Dean was actually going to play the idol on Cat; I just thought that he might and I wanted to eliminate the possibility so you'd be safe.

Finally, I don't think I buttered you up or backstabbed you. I think that with you at least, I was honest. I ask that you consider voting for me because I was not a dick to you specifically even if I may have backstabbed other jurors.