I'm Not Going To Say We'll Lose This Challenge... But We're Going to Lose This Challenge/Confessionals

Day 14
"qahtan"

- OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHFFFFFUUUUUUCUCCKKKKKKKKKYEEEAAAHAHHHHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!!1!!!!!

"bariq"

- So Alfons was blindsided 8-3-1 (not counting the stupid double votes). Well, what can I say? better him and not me, but it could've been nice if he at least made the jury. Considering I came into this tribal with a high potential to go home, I consider the fact I didn't get a single vote somewhat of an achievement. Once again I left out some important info in my last confessional so the casual reader wouldn't understand, but before the vote Alfons pretty much fucked his own game by telling Yap he was the target. Yap immediately went to Joan with this, Joan became paranoid and wanted to vote out Alfons and Skandi refused. But Skandi didn't have a say in this tribal in the first place. the reason why we voted for Yap (and split for Ricky) was because that was Joan's plan and Jessy was the one who brought up the split. That's why I believe this move was made specifically against Alfons and not against me or Skandi. They could have just voted him off if they wanted without saying a word, but they approached us and asked us to vote for Yap which is what I personally would've done anyway. Now I just need to sit and wait for their excuses I guess

"qahtan"

- Also.. I apologize for being such a bitch last round with the challenge. I'm no good without my beauty sleep.

Okay so today's the day where I'm just working and I got Summerslam to watch. I don't really wanna do anything, and even though the challenge is quite simple. LOL don't wanna deal with that. So I opted to sit out (probably a bad idea, thought about that, but LOL oh well).

Po devices this strategy that will pretty much set us up for tribal and the next immunity challenge, and it's pretty smart. We all agree to it, idk I'm working.

Fast forward to tribal and this is where things get interesting... So Bariq actually has the same strategy as us, won't surprise me if Po and Ricky thought of it together/worked together on it. My only connection to Bariq is Ricky and well.. Lukas. I hardly talked to Jessy, and I haven't said hi to Jamie. However it's common knowledge that Jamie and Joan are close, so that's two together.

I get the talk going that us 4 Qahtan are tight, right? They all agree to it, so it was only down to talking about who to vote for. At this point, I'm working really close with Ricky and Po., while talking to Lukas on the side. My mission is to talk to people and push against some of the old school players.

And so for the majority of the vote, I get told that it's gonna be old school vs new school with us in the middle. That's when Lukas tells me that yeah.. it's turned to middle school. WAIT LOL WHAT. Cali's name has been brought up, and that my name had been brought up. Later Ricky tells me that Skandi is even pushing for middle schoolers to go. OKAY. NOT WORRIED.

Lukas also tells me that Joan that I've been working with new schoolers, so that's why my name got tossed around. Joan WTF man!! THOUGHT WE WERE TIGHT HOMIE! So now a new chat gets started up with myself, Ridgeway, Cali, Po, and Ricky. And we're all deciding on who to bring in for this vote. Joan starts to become out of the question after that.. and now we have to wait for the others to wake up.

Well I wake up at 6 AM for whatever reason, and Lukas is telling me that my name is being brought up. WHAT. And that Joan is throwing my name under the bus. Well this is where I started feeling so much anxiety, I decided to confront Joan. Best decision I made. I tell him total honesty, that this and this is happening, Lukas is telling me this and I don't wanna believe it. Whatever the truth is Joan, he's putting blame on you.

And I think this awakens something in Joan. He just tells me that he'll never vote for me. Little vague but okay, so then I wake up 4 hours later and I hear that we have the votes from Ricky. And we decided to vote of Lukas for being an ass for stirring the damn pot. It won't surprise me if they had a little skype call without me. Idk, I don't like not getting included in game talk. Joan talks to me and I'm like to Ricky should I tell him what the plan is?? And he tells me that yeah, Joan is totally on board with it now.

Now I was still a little skeptical about it, what if the idol was played. Well it was time for the moment of truth. Szymon decides to reveal the votes LIVE. I SEE MY NAME COME UP 5 TIMES, and MATH IS HARD WHEN THERE ARE DOUBLE VOTES. So half of me thought I got screwed. In the end, Lukas goes home. I wanted to work with him, but in a way he kept stirring the pot and always said things to avoid responsibility. So he needed to go, we can move on with 5 members on this tribe.

Ughh okay so that shit was way too much. I'm just glad I survived that hectic round that probably was decided in the last hour. Afterwards I finally introduced myself to Skandi, Amir, Charley, and Jamie. If anything, this was a clear reminder to me I need to go out there and talk more. Sure it's a 2 way street, but it means I gotta lay down the cement and make the effort. Cause only Cali and my name came up apparently. If my name up cause I didn't really talk to them, I'm sure Cali didn't either.

This round was a nice big wake up call for me, let's hope I don't have to go through that shit again.

"shehr"

- So, I'm not going to say we will lose this challenge... but we are going to lose this challenge. We have some shady bitches in our tribe, and the other tribes were greedy last tribal

"bariq"

- I HATE EVERYONE. Seriously! I can handle being blindsided, and having someone voted out, it literally happens to me all the time, I couldn't care less. But to lie to me for like stupid stuff THAT YOU CAUSED is just like... really?? It's making me question these people so hard as players! Like again, people lying to me, fine. I can handle it, it's part of the game. Actually, Ricky had a very good reason to lie to me, I was lying to him too, so I honestly don't care. What's so stupid about this vote... Here we go. Big rant coming! So basically, when we had a tribe swap I made it clear to Jamie, Jessy and Ricky that I was against old school. They attempted to vote me out, why the hell would I want to stay with them? It should shock NO ONE that I wanted to jump ship. But then this twist happened, and I was like okay, whatever. So I'm like well let's keep our tribe safe first of all, and it's suggested that I go to old school and get them to vote with us. Fine, whatever, I have to work with old school. But I worked with them SO WE WOULD BE SAFE. So this vote, same twist happens, and we're going to tribal because they all made the wise decisions of taking all the advantages for themselves in the challenge. But this time, I don't even really talk to old school. When Ricky finds out that I haven't talked to them yet, he basically gets all passive aggressive telling me to talk to old school. I will repeat, Ricky suggested that I talk to old school. So fine. I was honestly trying hard to get the vote onto Cali so I wouldn't have to lie to Ricky, but the vote was changed to Yap, yada yada, I don't care, Lukas goes home. And here's the best part... I get told by Jamie... "We didn't tell you because you're close with old school and we were afraid you'd tell him and he'd play an idol." So let me do a handy recap: 1. I work with old school to get votes so our tribe can stay safe. Alright, who cares right? Our tribe was safe. 2. Second round, Ricky straight up tells me to go to old school for votes. Okay, again whatever. 3. Lukas is voted out, I'm not told. If the list ended here, I wouldn't care. I was lying too, I can handle getting lied to, I honestly wouldn't care. 4. I am then told that I AM LOYAL TO OLD SCHOOL. The only reason I am even working with old school is to help my tribe! They want me to work with old school! I would've been completely down to vote out Lukas, he literally voted me out! Of course I would've! So yes, I lied, I was a sneaky little jerk who lied to Ricky and tried to get Yap out. I don't care that they lied, I don't care that Lukas is out... BUT DON'T SAY I'M LOYAL TO OLD SCHOOL WHEN YOU HAVE BEEN FORCING ME INTO A CORNER AND TELLING ME TO TALK TO THEM ABOUT VOTES. God! I don't know why this has me thinking about it so hard but... Yeah. God.

"bariq"

- What a crazy crazy round!! Last tribal council I put myself in a situation where I voted along original trouble lines! I didn't necessarily have a huge strategy but I was going with the flow to what I assumed the majority of people were going to do... I had every single individual besides Jessy telling me that they were going to go over to leave the game! Some of these people are people who are close to some of us so I assumed they were going to be honest. At the end of the day a lot of people let their egos get the best of them and players like Kevin thought about the really short term: opposed to common sense that could have benefited us both. At the end of the day the group left me as the sole individual who would be entering this best tribal council as the only person to have voted in the minority and easy scapegoat!! Early on when joining Bariq, I have created an alliance of myself Jamie and Charley! I thought it was great because I was starting to build a lot of trust with Jamie: and Charley seem to be on the outs retry but I really wanted to help her and her quest of getting from the bottom to the top. In the Jessy vote they both did some lying to me and left me in the dark. In this new tribal I had to do some MAJOR damage control! Luckily I knew I could trust Yap and Tyler. P! Charley and Jamie were saying they would not vote for me and mid school was in the middle indecisive between old-school and new school. It seemed like it was almost hopeless, yet again Jamie end Charley were playing both sides to old school and me -- but when all seemed as if it was going south, i convinced Jamie to side with me, which enticed all the middle schoolers to realize we had the numbers after all and we did a last minute strike on Lukas. I came into this tribal with no hope, and I am leaving as the orchestrator of a major blindside, i think I finally have Jamie Partially controlled... And I am now leaving this tribal council having convinced tyler to give me the shehr idol. Raising my stakes and taking my claim, it was supposed to be me, yap or tyler p leaving -- but knocking some sense into some bitches really helped.

"bariq"

- Mihai i am coming for you bitch, and I have a few surprises. So loosen up mother fucker, cause I'm about to fuck you. HARD!

"qahtan"

- Survivor Generations - Day 14 Confessional

"bariq"

- These's no way we're gonna win this immunity, so I didn't try that hard. With all Qahtan's advantages, there's really no point. I just hope that Ricky will return the favour since I kept him last TC.

"shehr"

- a lot has happened the past few days, and it's starting to get even more shady up in here. first of all, the sacrificial lamb challenge was frustrating as hell, but we ended up using tyler's plan of taking double votes so that we could have the numbers at tribal no matter what two tribes went, and it worked out best for me and molly i think because we still have our double votes and didn't have to go since everyone else on the other tribes decided to take advantages too. i was scared that sam was gonna be super pissed at me, but she seemed to be mostly okay and said she "expected me to do that" so idk, it seems like i'm okay there. we did a skype call which was good for smoothing things over, and she also gave me some tea about the idols. now, before this call, i was on call with pasta town (ricky/molly/tyler) discussing the plan for them at tribal, which looked like it was gonna be tough because they didn't have the numbers locked in but luckily they managed to turn it around at the last minute. but anyway. during that conversation, ricky was like "amelia, i have a confession to make. i didn't actually find the idol, it was just a fake one." and tyler was like, "i also have a confession to make. i have the real idol." and we all laughed about that for a bit and how ridiculous it was, and i was like okay cool this is fine we still have an idol as well as a fake one, not to mention molly's fake one which she told me about earlier, we're all set, i love this alliance. then they're like, we think sam has an idol, because of the shit she pulled last time, and im like yeah that's definitely a possibility. i wouldn't be surprised. so then, when i'm on call with sam, she says she thinks lukas has the idol for bariq or whatever tribe he is/was on, and then she's like, "can i tell you a secret? don't tell anyone" so i said of course i won't and she says "tyler has the idol from shehr, and molly and ricky both have fake ones, according to molly." oh my word. my heart just about stops at this point, because if i hadn't just heard that from tyler and ricky on call i would have been like nice they're giving her false information all is well but /now/ i'm just like, am i the number four in this alliance? i'm just now being told this, but not only does the rest of the alliance know about it, they also told SAM before they told me. well, technically only molly told sam. which is actually even more shady, because literally five minutes before in our conversation sam was like "yeah molly doesnt even really talk to me and when i asked her what would happen at tribal she just said idk", and that just does not add up. molly doesn't have time to reassure sam about her place with us and thus get her to vote with us, and yet she went and go told on tyler and ricky at some point. so i'm just like, was everyone in on this? are they deliberately not including me? what the hellll is going on? now i don't even know who i trust the most, because pasta town seems safe but they're also not telling me this major information until after everyone else, and on the other hand sam and mihai just blatantly lied to me last vote and haven't really been giving me much to work with. i don't know. i'm not sure if the plan is to go for middle school again because their numbers are outta control or if we're going to continue to work with them to take out old school, but i'm not really feeling secure right now and i really hope things can get straightened out a little bit soon. i do feel like ricky and tyler and molly have my back, but i also don't think they're planning to keep me around past a certain point. constant vigilance, man. let's hope this game doesn't kill me.

"shehr"

- [cue emotional music and lisa whelchel looking off into the distance while crying] [this is probably gonna be the only time i talk about this in confessionals so just bear with me] so i'm a little bit upset right now, because ricky just sent me this screencap of a conversation he had with mihai. i'm not gonna post the exact words or anything, but basically mihai was like "amelia is a girl lol" and ricky was like "she identifies as gender neutral" and mihai said "yeah but she's a girl" and i just????? no????? normally i don't let these things get to me because i get it, i know the world as a whole doesn't understand or care about my gender identity, and i don't go into places like the org expecting that everyone will be accepting and respectful. but this just....really....stings? it's one thing to make mistakes with pronouns (not that that's okay but it's understandable) but another to be like "i hear what you are saying and i am very consciously refusing to respect it" and i really liked mihai before this but this seemed very - in ricky's words - "purposely shady" and idk it just makes me feel really weird. and it's just been a long couple of weeks already and i've only had half a cup of rice today and i just can't really deal with it right now, so i'm gonna go hide mihai's socks or something. lol. whatever, i just wanted to write this down so maybe someone will read it when this season is over and be like "oh you know what that isn't okay" but i know nobody actually really cares so i'll get back to the game now.

Day 15
"bariq"

- I'M SO FUCKING PISSED!!!JAMIE AND JOAN ARE IDIOTS!!!!!!!! LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!! WHY VOTE OUT LUKAS!!!!!!!! SHEHR IS GOING TO STAY AND THEY'RE GOIGN TO FUCKING DOMINATE THIS GAME

"qahtan"

- How to spot someone from the Tumblr ORGs: "truu" Shoot me.

"qahtan"

- So this might be a little late but I believe I owe to explain what the fuck happened last tribal. So we had this plan me and Jessy made to split votes between Ricky and Yap; blindsiding either of them. However Mr. Lukas Shepherd Strategy Mastermind Leader and Saviour of the Community in it's golden months decided it would be a smart decision to go talk to Yap, Yap managed to milk basically every single information piece he knew. This information included tons of shady shit Ive been doing such as what I talked about with Amir. Like honestly had I told him my favourite colour he would have also told that to Yap. This ticked me off so much, it was as if he had tried to make me look like a complete asshole or something plus he was ruining the split that me and Jessy had planned so carefully. So what did I do? I went to Jamie, I knew shed be up to it, and told her what Lukas had done and she agreed that he should go home. We went to Skandi trying to get the numbers from Old School, Skandi didn't want to get him out just yet, so we took it into our own hands. We got Tyler R and the Tumblr Endurers and blindsided the fuck out of Lukas because if you even mess with my game even you didn't mean it, I’m cutting you loose. Now then, Skandi was so pissed about it like he went in his real scary mode warning me that I should be fully trusty at him and that if I was unable to trust him he would get me voted out immediately. I can only say that if he even dares to threaten me like that a single more time I’m getting him out, you do NOT threaten me, I aint a weak ass punk who is just going to allow people to spit on him, no I’m not gonna shy down because of a few words, I aint. In the other hand me and Jamie gained the trust of the Tumblr Endurers since we saved their asses so maybe it will now be easier to get rid of them. I did win immunity, I am keeping tabs in the other tribes to just be aware of what is going on, you know just in case people need some info because yeah… I’m just you info source as long as you don’t mess with me and as soon as you do I am your worst nightmare, such violent nightmare that you wont realise you are living it until your torch is snuffed while I’m going back to camp, smiling.

"bariq"

- they want to vote off charley b/c i'm too close with her... god i'm so not here for this i am NOT voting for her fuck y'all!!!!!!!

"bariq"

- I have an eerie feeling that I'm going home tonight. I wouldn't be shocked, I know some Shehr probably doesn't like me, and I'm a perpetual liar whos gotten caught. Twice. My target though is the lovely Ricky. I do love Ricky, he's a great guy, but I lied to him twice. And he lied to me once. But he must not trust me, and I must have a nice big old school target between my eyes. I might have to change that though, I don't know. I have to protect myself first and foremost, not making big moves. So I don't know what to do. I hope I don't go. I'm just trying to keep strong and keep alive. I don't want to go, drag me out fighting.

"bariq"

- I’m really becoming annoyed with Sam. She always lies to me or pretends to be oblivious to stuff… Like, Jessy’s already told me everything I’m questioning you about, Sam. She pretends to be so confused about who has the idols while I know she has one. I honestly can’t believe a word she says because it’s practically all lies to me lmao (how was this girl cast as a hero?). The sad thing is, I actually wanna work with her and be loyal to her but the more she lies, the more it’s making me be wary of her and want her out… I mean, I’m supposed to be VOTING with her this TC, and she won’t even tell me the plan (which I’m already aware of). It’s so infuriating.

"shehr"

- The Mind of Kevin

"shehr"

- how the heck was charley selected to play again? that girl is clueless. She wants ricky out. Like wtf? Mid schoolers are 7, soon will have majority, but whatever, these people are chickens that dont want to make big moves. I'm over it at this point.

"bariq"

- So, I'm pretty sure I'm screwed from all angles! Everyone still thinks I'm with old school and I am basically being forced to work with them. Newsflash! If you corner someone and cut off all potential allies except for old school, it's your own goddamn fault they're running to old school. So I think I'm screwed from that angle. I was going to target Ricky, but that fell through because middle school sucks for some reason. I don't know. Jessy suggested Ricky, but Sam and Kevin weren’t down, so whatever. So I feel like they’re targeting me. I think everyone is except old school, leaving me with the three people in the game who don’t talk. And when they do talk they’re right on the verge of messing with my plans. I don’t think anyone understands the frustration that is there with that. Anyway, I won’t blame them if I do go home, because I’ve lied ten ways to Sunday in this game, but like… Damn. I don’t know. It just sucks not knowing. I think I’m going, but I might not have a target on my back. And that’s the hardest part, I think I have a target so I want to scramble, but what if I don’t, and the scrambling puts a target on my back? That’s the tough part of everything. I hate this tribal, I feel so isolated. Middle school won’t work with me because it’s Sam and Kevin. Sam, I’ll give her credit, we talked a bit tonight, not game stuff though, so whatever that’s a thing that happened. Kevin is just being Kevin, and I’ve never talked to him because… I just know that wouldn’t end well. I’m not patient enough to handle a self-proclaimed Rupert. I know that in my heart of hearts. Old school is just… Old school. Again, Amir never talks. Skandi won’t trust me so he is like freaking out over nothing and driving me up the wall. Mihai is coherent enough to give me something to work with, but being in an alliance chat is impossibly frustrating because he doesn’t talk. And we’re waiting for his answer and he just doesn’t talk. And this is what I’m backed into a corner to work with. These three are my best allies. The guys that at one point wanted to vote me out. I love them all as people, but in the game, how sad is that? And then new school, I just don’t even care. Ricky and Jamie keep lying to me, or more just avoiding me. And I don’t blame Ricky, I lied to him a bunch. Again, I still think his whole “You’re close with old school!” after telling me to work with old school is completely stupid. Jamie is nice, I love her as a person, but it’s like bro, you were bringing up Yap and suggesting lying to Ricky just as much as I was, but I’m the one still getting flak. Like come on bro. Molly seems nice, talked to her a bit. Amelia too seems nice. But again, no one who would want to work with me. This game is so weirdly isolating. Like in Nepal and Madagascar, I actually made friends and got to know people. This game is just too fast paced and too strategy based for me to really get to know people. And when we do slow down, everyone is so sick of strategy we just don’t talk all together. And I’ve been going to every single tribal. This is a non-stop strategy rollercoaster to hell that I can’t get off. I’m not complaining, I’m so thankful to have this chance to return, and I am enjoying it, it’s just so different. I’ll just have to try and survive this tribal… This might just be another moment that I’m too paranoid for my own good. But I just get this unshakable feeling this is my swan song… Oh well. I’m gunna keep trying.

"bariq"

- im going to be voted out todaypProbably and I figured none will know about my brilliant game if i won't tell it at the beginning i formed 3 major connections with charley with lukas and with joan i joined lukas to the alliance of me and amir amir brought mihai and the connection with charley helped me to get the numbers in the original tribe and even tho she sucked at challenges i knew shes my best bet from the rest of the tribe so i kept her which was hard tbh but it payed off The connection with joan gave me two great things the idol and the chance to survive first joint tribal rn its seems like this connection is going to break cuz i feel like joan is plotting against my ally and i cant do much to keep it alive im giving charley a chance to save us but if it wont work im gonna use my idol This tribal is one of the most tribals in this game tbh

"shehr"

- So, charley said ricky and now she said we wont do ricky anymore because the middle school dont agree. Now she wants to work with ricky. Lol, who does that? Who goes and talk with everyone? I would have done this the smart way, but I'm starting to lose my patience with this old schools dumbasses. The key to win this game is to have some balls and stick to your decisions, change them only if it helps you not because you get paranoid. And yes, it could be me, I wouldnt be shocked. I will keep you updated.

"bariq"

- Well, I'm in deep shit. it turns out that voting Tom off was the worst mistake I ever did, because he was the only one of the new schools who was willing to work with us. Mihai is trying to initiate something with Ricky and Amelia, but I don't trust them at all. Sam, Jessy and Jamie doesn't seem to be on my side as well since I haven't heard anything from them since last tribal. Kevin and Molly are dead bodies in this game, which leaves only the 4 Old Schoolers alone and isolated. Skandi is said to be their target, but I don't think I buy that either. Joan has been spreading rumours and disinformation everywhere, so now is not really the time to trust him. So here I am, once again with absolutely nothing I can do. I guess Skandi is going to play his idol and maybe save himself, but will that really help? no. We will go to another joint tribal when we once again end up in the minority. I'm not used to giving up like that, but honestly? this game gave me no options. I was stuck in a losing tribe without any pre-game relationships with the other tribes. I had a chance to balance my game again in the new tribe, and then we got this twist. I'm simply not enjoying this game anymore, I feel how the hype of this season has went downhill into a pit of frustration. I can't believe I'm saying it, but I hope it's me tonight. These people are just boring! all they ever want to talk about is the game, it's like most of them don't even have a personality at all and I'm sick of it.

"bariq"

- So right now, it seems like the plan is to vote Skandi, which I know is a bad idea because according to Joan, he has the idol. So that means, if I haven’t been lied to, Skandi, Ricky and Sam are the three who have the idols. While I’m down with voting Skandi out, I think for me it’d be better if Skandi played the idol and me + old school + Jessy voted Sam. That way, the Bariq idol AND the Qahtan idol would’ve been flushed and Joan can get the Qahtan idol, and me or Jessy can get the Bariq idol. It’d shift the power in idols since Sam is playing both sides and Skandi is a potential number, but not really an ally.

All the people ‘deciding’ this vote (Ricky + Amelia + Molly + Sam + Kevin) have all resulted to what they did in the Tom vote — just talking amongst themselves and pushing the vote onto me and Jessy. I know I might be an AWFUL alliance member in the sense that I need to be catered to all the time, but I just want my opinions to be taken into account instead of just having a vote pushed onto me. The fact that I had no power in this vote just reaffirms to me that I am on the bottom of this group, and just kinda makes me want to make the power shift again. I don’t know if I’ll actually go through with it though, I’m getting the sense that it might be time to just ~calm down and go with the flow instead of having a Rome repeat.

"shehr"

- what the fuck is this Episode6conf1.png

"bariq"

- So I told Skandi to play his idol and him + the rest of old school are gonna vote Kevin. I don’t fully trust him and don’t know if he’ll tell people that I spilled the beans — making me a target — but all I can do is hope that he’ll listen, play his idol, and be kept in the game. The reason I want Skandi here is because as long as he’s here, people will want to target him over me. He sucks in challenges, he’s got a huge reputation for being a villain here and he doesn’t really talk to anyone (the people he does, he annoys). I also don’t want old school being picked off, which seems like it’s gonna happen. Old school (minus Charley) don’t really talk much or seem like they’re putting in much effort. They’re the easy targets, so I don’t really wanna just pick them off when I have bigger fish to fry.

Anyway, if Skandi plays his idol I can also search for the newly rehidden Bariq one. My only worries are that Skandi could tell people I’ve told him that he’s a target, or that his idol is fake. If it blows up in my face though, it does. I’ve had fun and played hard and after all it’s an ORG, so I’d be upset but not really that upset. I hope my time isn’t up though, because if this pans out then I won’t get any flack for it (after all, I’m voting Skandi since everyone wanted it!) and I will have created a load of trust between me and Skandi, and potentially the rest of old school too.

"bariq"

- This vote has become an amazing psychological war between Joan/Jamie and me, and Skandi and his idol are at the center. This duo of motherfucking bitches are trying to make Skandi so paranoid that he would play his idol tonight, but I don't believe that he is in danger at all. He was not the target at any vote so far and I don't believe he is now. Besides, what Joan and Jamie are saying makes absolutely no sense and they keep changing it over and over when they see Skandi doesn't buy it. But these bitches have no idea who they are fucking with. I have enough experience in Survivor to call bullshit when I see it, and smell it from miles away. I managed to convince Skandi to give me the idol so he will not do something stupid, and even if somehow he will be voted off then the idol is still with me.

"qahtan"

- Ok so right now I had the most hectic day up to date and I was immune, Skandi can't handle his won shit without me having to interfere. So the loveable bonehead and his fellow old school loveable boneheads decided their social game must be deplorable and didn't talk to middle school and Jamie, causing them to freak out and want to side with new school. Mihai for unknown reasons decided to have a psycho fit and out of the blue decided to tell random people random names getting busted. Amelia decided to be a not very nice person and started spreading shit about the main org in tumblr survivor. This resulted on me wanting her/his/idkhowtousenonbinarytermsplzsocietydonthateme ass out of here because if you are gonna be bitchy about the community you shouldn't be here. Anyways next comes Skandi being a hot head and deciding he wasn't going to play the idol despite having the majority against him, he said that it was up to me to get him a majority to save him. This pissed me like, i don't know, it pissed. So what did I do? Nothing, I chilled out and told Jamie about Skandi's idol in an act of revenge at Skandi's personality and she told me that Sam had the Qahtan idol, great moment to find that the person you used to trust the most lied to your face. Anyways I knew Skandi was going to play the idol and was just pressuring me into try to save him from having to flush the idol so early on but my dignity is more important than his idol and I am not going to be his bitch just for an idol, hell I'll eventually find an idol myself if Im lucky so i do not need you to use the idol as currency to pay my loyalty, you can use the fact that you are being a joke of a player as a currency because that way I can take you to day 39 and win. This confessional is messy as fuck but yeah Im tired, physically and of dealing with everybody's SHIT. I am going to get some vodka shots now, yay, underage drinking. BYE.

"bariq"

- im pretty sure im going, but I'm here to help amir and even tho im not a huge fan of this plan tbh i think its stupid af im doing what amir tells me cuz thats basically y im here ugh its so obvious that new schoolers will vote me out idk y amir refuses to listen Emotikon squint but w/e his responsibility idgaf

"qahtan"

- When you win a lot of challenges, it's hard to know what's going on in the game. You're pretty much on a need to know basis because everyone wants to keep tabs on who knows what and you become a liability that doesn't need to know stuff. The plan worked out in the end. We sacrificed winning last round (almost my damn life in this game) and blew immunity out of the water. Whatever, we win, time to go to sleep for the rest of the round.