Board Thread:Season 46 - Kariba/@comment-32290059-20180413235206/@comment-34704154-20180414144658

Hey Hals thanks for your question and so sorry for the late reply! I had a thing I had to deal with imminently and I’m trying to do them in the order of who posted when ahaha <3

When in the game did you feel unsafe?

I felt unsafe right from the start - remember when I messed up the posting on that challenge? I was really worried people would see me as a liability and take the opportunity to vote me out since I messed up the challenge and this was literally my first few days on the ORG ever so I was so gutted to do something like that!

I felt unsafe again at the Louise vote as I knew Vincent was targeting me. However, for sure though when I felt like I had most on the line was when I was bluffing with my fake idol. I felt this necessary as I was aware some were plotting to get me out for being a threat. When you called me out and said something like “watch this idol be fake and you all fooled us” or something my heart literally skipped a beat omg. My game was truly all out in the open and bare. I was worried the cast would work it out as they were really smart, so this fear was shown when I tried to jolt people into action by saying “omg ppl r rly gna vote me to test if my idol is real :P :P”  as this was a way to put the feelers out to see if I needed to play my real idol. Luckily for me this was untrue and I survived, but I was so worried before results!

There was always an undercurrent of fear in the game; playing a middle of the road game like mine can always leave you about to get run over. But I think I overcame the fear well and was always able to escape unscathed.

Now the social question!

Dan - His future: We spoke a lot about our jobs and lives atm, and last I heard he’d finished a course and was looking for jobs in mentoring but he wasn’t sure what kind yet. So I hope that’s all going well for him and he’s got his future set! (another important part of your future is did you ever get over the BBCan twists that you were raging about?!)

Strong emphasis for family: the first thing we spoke about was holidays and family and how his father is from the Netherlands and he wants to come to Europe and is jealous of his sisters who went travelling around Europe a while back. This made me realise how much Dan valued his family which was really sweet to see, like before he left he was on holiday with his mum and grandma in Queensland and that honestly made me feel bad voting him out cos it showed like the sweet kinda guy he was <3

Timezones suck and I wish we’d been able to speak more about real life interests but whenever we were online I was heading out to work or we were doing an intense challenge together ahah! Family and life plans are pretty important discussions anyway <3

Matthias - Eurovision was what we really bonded over :D like I could literally go in to the particulars of all his Eurovision tastes and tbh I will. At first when he said he didn’t watch national finals I was like weary of his fan status but clearly he’s a diehard fan. He was disappointed with Malta’s revamp but still loves it (that’s the Taboo reference he would always say guys!) He hated Malta 2012 and is a supporter of Israel this year at Eurovision. We had fun going through past artists old songs like Jamala’s Smile ahaha and it was amazing to have someone i could just shout Eurovision opinions at like “Romania 2014 was robbed!” or “Bosnia and herzegovina 2005 was robbed!” and someone would get what I was saying :) Aside from Eurovision, we spoke about… more music! He loves Dua Lipa and other pop girls like Ariana but hasn't listened to Whitney Houston’s songs - if that was a crime, then you would be criminals (he’ll get the reference Bulgaria 2016…). Honestly one of my favourite moments in the game was reciting word for word ‘I Have Nothing’ out of nowhere cos it kinda showed the real me and not the dumb facade i’d been putting up <3 I know it sounds dumb but like our love for similar music I really do think helped bring us together a lot.

He’s the feisty clerk who takes complaints from customers in Malta and honestly I couldn’t think of a more iconic job for Matthias. We all remember his argument with the hosts but his Drag Race related humour, memes and song lyrics references consistently made me alive in the group chat <3

Hals okay omg I have so much I could say about you but I’ve tried to group as much as I possible could into two categories:

Creativity! - Honestly I think this is like the most obvious thing you notice from talking to you, your creativity and sense of spirit (it’ll make sense i promise!). You’re an instrumental music teacher and are obviously really intrigued by Music, like how you asked me about Eurovision to learn more about it. You’re really good at Art - i remember the drawing you drew of me! and the pets you have too like your parrot shows how caring you are. The sense of spirit is meant to reference like your attitude towards life like your belief in what will be will be and also your sense of omens. I remember that story you told me about the Indian song you were listening to when your other grandpa died and how you felt it was a bad omen for your other and like, although sad I kinda feel that just epitomises this side of you perfectly in a surreal way. Also similar to Matthias our love for Bella and Zendaya was legendary <3 Like, I know this paragraph sounds stupid but I was kinda trying to actually pinpoint your personality not just say facts though i did that too loool <3

Family and friends are important to you too! You obviously care for your brothers a lot even though you were always complaining about them and you always had fun stories to tell like about like how your parrot repeats what your grandma’s TV shows say. We spoke about your Indian heritage and also about your grandpa’s illness and I know the drives to Virginia must be stressful omg but it shows your love for him and your worry for him really showed that <3 I’m not gonna go into the deep details about that here cos like that’s for private messages I think but of course I know them and I rly am praying for you that he gets better <3

So yeah! That’s it, I hope my answers can try and highlight maybe I did have more of a social game, thank you Hals sm for your questions and words and love you xxx