A Perfectly Fine Inactive To Murder/Confessionals

Day 7
"barbarossa"

- Here's to real dick not swapped dick.

"cheng"

- "This swap is...interesting. I mean, I'm with three other members from my original tribe, so right away, I already know half this tribe, and that's great! But this could also put me in a sticky situation

See, it's possible the other four could think we are this big group who needs to go right away, form up, and then try to get one of us to flip. So all it takes is one of us to fuck over the other three. And I don't know about anyone else, but I could see Karsten flipping to save himself from a rock draw.

But here's the other thing. I don't WANT to limit myself to a group of four people who I've only talked to for 6 days. Yes I really like Ethan, so maybe I wanna stick with him, but I wanna keep my options open. I don't need some rigid perception fucking up my game.

I'm hoping that I build enough social bonds that if this could be a problem, I will be told it. I want this tribe to work together as a group, not as splinter of our original tribes.

So here goes nothing!"

"barbarossa"

- "this swap is scary. prob the worst case scenario happened when cheng's are minority on both tribes. it probably means that at least couple of us are going to fall victims to this swap, sadly. I like everyone from my tribe and legitimately thought I could possibly work with them hhhh :(.

Anyway I'm quite glad that I have some familiar faces on the swapped tribe. I've played with both Willow and Andrea so that's kewl and I've hosted with Yousef!! I haven't talked to Natalia or Lex a lot yet but I'm working on it! I'm confident on my (and Su's for that matter) social game that we can keep each other safe. Not so sure about Anita though. :/ "

"cheng"

- "THE TRIBE SWAP! I was not expecting a tribe swap this early in the game to be honest. I was kinda unprepared for it, but then again when are you EVER ready for your game to be uprooted and sunk to the bottom of the ocean? Never, thats when. But on a more serious note, I think I got pretty lucky. We got swapped onto this tribe where its majority my old Barbarossa, just Willow go moved to the other side, which kinda sucks because after Karsten's move the other day, she was probably my #2 behind Hunter. But Right now I'm trying to ingratiate myself with these new tribe members. Jake and I have really hit it off I think, he is really cool and nice to talk too. Bradley, I get a weird feeling from him. I'm not sure what it is, but something in my gut doesn't trust him. Nick is cool, but I wish he responded more often. And Katie. KATIE! My Rome buddy for ONE episode before she was Med-evaced! It feels weird seeing her after all this time, however I am looking forward to reconnecting and seeing what we can do in this game together.

So far, I'm keeping my options open, because I don't want to get put in a box and excluded from any alliances that may be getting created. Whatever ends up being made, I want in. I still have a good relationship with everyone from my original tribe, so I'm relying on the bonds I've made so far to get me into the next stage of this game. And if I play my hand right, I could be the one at the helm of this ship."

"barbarossa"

- "Hi guys it’s me again. I’m sorry I’ve been so bad at keeping up with my confessionals. Basically, Mitch was voted out at tribal which was perfect for my plan because I wanted him gone. As he was leaving he also antagonized Yousef and tried throwing him under the bus by telling everyone in the tribe chat that we should get him out. Yousef is one of my closest allies so regardless I’m gonna keep him around, however, I’m not an idiot so I am taking in what Mitch said. When I talk to Yousef I’m going to act like I don’t believe Mitch at all and he was just some crazy guy and doesn’t make sense. But the truth is, I do recognize that Yousef is a threat. It’s just that I would rather keep him close for now while he is still useful to my game than try to get rid of him. Yousef’s time to go will come but it is not now. The second part of my strategy recently has been that when the tribe swap was announced, I messaged everybody on my tribe solidifying our “tight relationship” I’m case we were split up and saying that no matter what we would come back to each other at the merge. I’ve told like three different people that they are my “favourite person”. This was done as a way to help ensure that when the merge comes that I would have as many people on my side. Obviously anything can happen and my original tribe members could make relationships that are closer with new people than they were with mine but at least I’m doing something productive. Better to try something than do nothing. I’ve also been very successful so far in looking for an idol. I’ve come very close so it’s only a matter of time before I can find a second lifeline in this game. "

"barbarossa"

- Yesterday we were swapped and the survivor gods blessed me with a new tribe comprised of 4 original calico members. This is an ideal situation because we have control of the tribe when it comes down to votes. We also won the latest immunity challenge as a tribe so we are safe until next tribal. So far the other three or so people in our new tribe have been messaging me and I them to get to know each other. I’ve used the same strategy with them as I did with Calico which was be very friendly try to make a connection and downplay my strategy. It seems to be working in my favour and it seems like for the most part they are liking me as a person. Hopefully enough to not consider voting me out or look at me as a threat. Only time will tell. I’m still in the process of finding the idol, Yousef came to me and confessed he had gotten a step closer to finding the idol (he has no idea that I’m at the last step of finding the idol). I let Yousef believe that we would help each other find the idol and that whoever found it first would tell the other and celebrate together. However, if I find the idol, I’m not telling anyone. As much as I like Yousef as a person (which I do, a lot) I can’t trust anybody with that information no matter what. Lest he uses that to make me a target in order to flush out the idol or something. Nope. No thanks. Anyway, so far this is where I am strategically in the game.

"barbarossa"

- This is my confessional. Just writing this in case this is part of our next challenge as some have suggested.. sneaky sneaky, you guys.. sneaky sneaky.

"barbarossa"

- Another one just in case

"cheng"

- "Apologies for being so slack in the confessionals, I guess it just reflects how I've been trying to play the game. Often I come into a group of people as a dominant personality, but around those in Calico and now Cheng 2.0, I find myself taking on a more under-the-radar role.

The swap has both its pros and cons. Cons, I am on a tribe with 4 former Barbarossa and 3 former Cheng and me, the sole member of former Calico and thus an easy first vote. Pros, I imagine there is enough jostling for numbers in new Cheng that I could potentially become a swing vote and I get to begin working with 7 new people as opposed to the other former Calico, hopefully widening my options.

Interestingly enough, I have mainly been approached socially by people from Barbarossa, the ones who arguably do not need my vote. I'm thinking if we do go tribal (which looking at this challenge is likely inevitable), I vote with the Cheng members to tie the vote in the possible event Barbarossa vote for me. If they do, I hope the Cheng go to rocks to force out a Barbarossa, otherwise I flip my vote on the member of Cheng they want out. "

"cheng"

- This swap is genuinely horrible for my game ugh. I trust the three from my OG tribe but I would've felt much more comfortable if I was with Willow - and she's alone on the other tribe so if they go to tribal, she could be a goner. I hope my position isn't as thin in this tribe as I feel like it is...

Day 8
"barbarossa"

- this is a confessional for the chall hi. whats going on ladies....... the other tribe should throw lol.

"barbarossa"

- so we swapped. https://66.media.tumblr.com/4d4724830aed60708dddac9aee645d16/tumblr_omw2cpzFqO1ql2ui0o2_400.gif me meeting these 4 new ppl

i feel rlly bad for nick and i hope he lives. KLJBALKSDMFKASM

anyway on this tribe we had 4 og calico ppl and i'm legit stunned.... totally thought i'd be swapfucked. still might be b/c this 4-3-1 division could fuck the calico people in the ass

i'm definitely nervous even though we have the numbers. first of all, the idol is still out there and i'm sure the cheng idol is found, and the barbarossa one honestly. i'm still going to guess like shit for the barbarossa one though, because i want to know if it rlly is found or not and i want it if it's not.

something that's legit stunned me tho is that when i got on the tribe elmo asked me how far i got in the idol system and i'm kinda shocked? idk who asks someone that within 30 minutes of being swapped w/ them and i'm kinda just like... the only reason he feels comfortable asking this is b/c we knew each other pre-season and are good friends. if i didn't have the idol i wouldn't be as peeved about it but i do so i had to lie. it's impossible to not have found the spot unless you don't guess a lot and elmo knows me and he knows i'd be guessing every 6 hours straight, so i couldn't say i didn't find the spot. i had to say i made it to mastermind but couldn't solve it b/c i found the spot too late and then we swapped.

now i have to tell lex and natalia about this or elmo can easily use it against me to get a flipper/someone on his side. i know that sounds paranoid, but i'm trying to cover all my bases with precautions and this is just a possible issue that could easily fuck me over. i don't want to go home because i didn't clean my tracks, and this is most likely going to be my last run on this org. i'm not going home because i made a little mistake.

but ya i love elmo i just wish he didn't snap like that KLJBSKLADFLKM we aren't even allied yet or anything... he asked andrea too and i don't know if he asked lex or natalia but if he didn't then that just proves my point about the whole knowing e/o thing. it's alright i guess, i just need to repair the situation.

i told lex already and he seemed okay, but i don't know if i should wait to tell natalia until tomorrow or something. i haven't told her yet b/c telling them at once seems kinda messy, so i guess i'll wait until tomorrow. i made an og calico alliance chat because i need some assurance/stability but i'm kinda tired of being the leader of the tribe. i guess it's a given since i don't have a life and rlly care ab doing well this season so it's kind of fell on my lap, but jeez is it a new position i'm not entirely experienced with. leading my tribe and having an idol is not a familiar realm to me.

speaking of leading, that's another thing that came up in my conversation with elmo that was MY fault entirely and i'm just kind of annoyed i did it. he was like ""ugh @ me being the leader of the tribe already lkjfskjfdskljfds i need to calm down"" something along those lines and my dumbass says it's okay relatable. and then he says some shit like ""omg"" and doesn't reply to my following messages for like 1 min and leaves me on delivered and i can only think he's talking to su about what i said or something. i didn't even mean to imply i was the leader of my og tribe, i just tried to make him feel better and now his ass is gonna think i led og calico b/c i'm a dumbass.

but yeah i currently see su and elmo as a duo just because i feel like they'd get along. i have no idea who su is and i just met him this org and i think if we were on the same og tribe we'd be really good allies and maybe we still can now, but i'm unsure if he's really with his og tribe or if he's just acting. he started talking shit about them saying that they were shallow/hard to talk to and i can't tell if he's just trying to make us think he's not w/ them so we try to get him to flip, but like.... it's weird. doesn't feel entirely genuine and smooth. but ya i just see him and elmo getting along so i'm keeping my boundaries up.

so ya, to continue what i was saying about my previous conversations either, seemed like elmo was fishing for information since he also asked if katie and i were friends. lbkjasdfkmasfklmads i was just like............ no. like whatev https://66.media.tumblr.com/5644dd0bd36110ee16528d7834caab2c/tumblr_omivuvMQ2T1rrt01ro2_250.gif

so ya i haven't talked to anita at all rlly, i said something like she seems cool and shit and i hope to talk to her more and then she was like omg u too! goodnight. LKBJASDLKFMDKASM idk if she thought i was trying to say i was going to sleep but i was just like damn.

i rlly hope andrea remains loyal to me.... it'll be such a loss if she isn't. she hasn't talked to me as much and i can't tell if it's because she's just busy or something, but i need that person i can just talk to about my worries so they can calm me/tell information to so we make the best decisions. she didn't seem that interested in having a convo tn so i just said alright have a good time studying or whatever. if this is more than what it rlly is then i'm fucked LMAO i rlly hope she doesn't end up working w/ willow or something and leaves me in the dust b/c i value as an ally a lot.

that seems to be it for my tribe.... the next challenge is 24 hr endurance and it starts at 5 pm est tomorrow. i don't want to seem like a threat, but if hunter/ethan/other ppl on the tribe go off, i'll go off too. i don't wanna lose b/c i hate going to tribal since it just extenuates my paranoia. mission is further myself on the idol system for this tribe and tell natalia about the idol system. hopefully this makes my trust with her better, but i know her bio goes off about being a survivor analyst and all that so lets see.

so ya.... og calicons i stan. https://im3.ezgif.com/tmp/ezgif-3-af41d3d8abf1.gif

"barbarossa"

- Well, we swapped, Cheng got gerrymandered, and I'm even more fucked than before. Luckily I'm with Su and Elmo, the people I felt most comfortable with, but everyone else on this tribe is a bit... bland? Yousef is the only one who I don't feel like it's a legal requirement to talk to, rather, I just talk to him because I like to, and Willow's okay I guess, and Andrea is at least trying, but Alex seems to be the king of one-word answers over here, and Natalia is friends with everyone on the tribe except for me, so yikes. Also, when Su and Elmo were talking in our new alliance chat about idols (where I conveniently "had to go offline" for that talk), Su said B3 was empty, which seems fishy, since I know it's not... and I can't blame him, I've been hiding my idol hunt from them, but that means that he knows about the B3 square and doesn't want us to, either meaning he has it and doesn't want us to know for some reason, or he's still looking for it and he doesn't want us to catch him. At any rate, I wanna try this maze again to get the idol but the hosts are never online at the same time as m-- I mean, I haven't gotten the chance to yet.

"barbarossa"

- hi. this is a sample conf. Barbarossa is winning this challenge. :)

"barbarossa"

- pls throw

"cheng"

- "This challenge sucks elephant balls, but this tribe swap went pretty well for me, probably. Elmo went to the other tribe, so that gets me an in over there. Meanwhile I've been left here with Brandon, who seems to trust me. Katie, who still sucks but is getting better. Hunter, who seemed psyched to be playing with me for whatever reason. And Ethan, who just seems to like our conversations. Karston is okay, but barely messages me. Liam and...what's his face...oh, Nick. They're both not around, but Nick practically does not exist. I don't think I've seen him online once today, and it was only tonight that I realized he was even a player. I feel secure here if only in knowing there's two people who probably aren't going to have more than one person try to save them if their name spreads around.

What I need to watch out for right now are three things, A) Being targeted because of having the most OG Tribe numbers. B) Being targeted for being one of like 4 Canadians on this tribe. C) Being targeted because I'm seen as being too tight with someone.

I'm worried I could be seen as tight with Hunter, so I need to start getting close to someone new so they forget about it. I think the only person left who is still active that I DON'T yet have a decent relationship with is Katie and Karston, but I've been working on Katie. Karston just doesn't reply for 30 years between messages, it seems.

I'm going to throw a three person alliance together on this tribe, I feel like. Myself, Hunter, and who? See, Hunter is much more of a relevant 703 threat vs me, and so I assume he would be voted out for me before a FTC if it came down to it. The question is, who do I bring in with Hunter? I may just let him choose - I'm not picky.

But yeah, this challenge kind of sucks and I've decided to just let the tribe take a nosedive into a 200-15 score or something by tomorrow. I COULD step up and start doing the puzzles and whatever, but what's the point in making myself look like a challenge threat when we have a perfectly fine inactive to murder? I still need to make it look like I give a shit so I'll continue throwing shade at the challenge, but overall I'm pretty okay losing this one.

"cheng"

- We're slaying the challenge, although for a while I thought everyone else on our tribe was throwing because it was just the Cheng gang scoring points for us. Then the others got online, and it turns out they just suck, but still, they could be throwing and that worries me a lot. Willow and Yousef are the only ones I feel like I've actually connected with, which is scary going into a possible tribal council soon with a dark pearl, since even if we manage to flip just one of them, I could still go home 5-4. Everything is just a mess and I'm trying my best to be a likable person but that isn't really in my nature, so it's tough. That's why I've been working my ass off in this challenge; even if we can't win out until the merge, I can at least buy myself some time, which is exactly what I need.

"barbarossa"

- "Evan put out an extra vote in the chat and no one is biting...yet

It's quite interesting because the other tribe is REALLY ahead of us at this point. Like by about 50 points. Yet no one on their side is biting.

We are so far back, maybe near the end someone will grab cause they think we have no hope.

But the question remains; who is willing to have that hanging over their head. Cause when it's played, everyone will KNOW they did it, so people will KNOW they're willing to be selfish.

I'm waiting for it to be taken, but if no one takes it...either it means everyone is wanting to play safe, or everyone here is playing smart. Neither of those ideas I like."

"cheng"

- "Alright, I get it. We're playing a game. People do stuff for themselves in a game. Grabbing the mask, grabbing the double vote, fine whatever. I know Liam has the double vote, and hopefully the mask doesn't fuck me over since I don't know who has it.

I'm willing to play with this paranoia and this frustration with others, cause that's part of the game.

WHAT I AM NOT HERE FOR IS FUCKING NATALIA OVER ON THE OTHER TRIBE, RUBBING IT IN OUR FACES HOW FAR BACK WE ARE!

Evan shows the score and we're basically 100 points back, AND YOU LAUGH?!?! YOU LAUGH REACT THE POST?! Fuck you, show some fucking class and don't be all ""oh haha look how far back you are it's so hilarious"" like fuck off, that just makes me never want to work with you, and vote you off the first chance I get.

Oh yeah it's a game, but have some fucking class"

"cheng"

- So we swapped and Honestly at first I was a little disappointed. I love My Cheng tribe but it was nice to get a fresh start. Right off the bat I instantly connected back with Karstan me and him are tight and I know we have each other‘s back‘s. I also really like Ethan he seems funny and he has like a niche sense of humor like me. One person who came across all sketchy to me is Hunter. He said he was in alliance with me jake and Ethan but when I approached him about it He denied it. Which at that point like just come clean because I’m I’ve heard it from multiple people. I also really like Katie she someone who super genuine and funny who I can see myself working with for the rest of the game. Right now my deal boo would be Nick just because he’s the person I haven’t talk to.I feel like putting the votes on Nick wouldn’t be that hard because he doesn’t have any previous allies from his old tribe.Tribal has just started though and things could change by the minute.

"cheng"

- This challenge is a mess but I managed to snag the double vote advantage, which I'm so relieved for. Unfortunately Hunter and Ethan both know I have it, but I trust them to keep it to themselves for now as they believe it'll have some sort of mutual benefit to them as well, but if the time comes when I have to play it to save one of them instead of myself, I'm not so sure I will, because in this game you must look after Numero Uno.

Day 9
"barbarossa"

- Holy fuck we won immunity. And nobody on our tribe took the vote negator or extra vote. Oh my god fuck yes. I've been finally talking some strategy with Yousef and Willow, nothing telling me if I'm completely fucked or not, but it's a start. I'll try to message Natalia to see if we hit it off, but I think her and Alex would be at the top of my "please don't make me place lower than these people, that'd be really embarrassing" list. I still have this feeling that I'm expendable, but I just want to power through this premerge and get to the real fun!

"barbarossa"

- Yes we escaped tribal council! now I'm like one of three people left in the game who hasn't gone which is sorta cool. I worked my ass off in the challenge, we pretty much all did, so I'm happy we crushed it and won. Also I definitely needed the extra time but things are looking up? Elmo has his idol which can always help us out worst case, and then Elmo told me that Yousef is interested in doing an alliance with us and Natalia which I love since those 3 are like my favorites on the tribe. So I think winning immunity this round was rlly pivotal cuz it gives us another couple days to try to get that alliance off the ground and to cover our asses. I have hope we can keep up our streak of winning tho! Overall, still going pretty good, Main hasnt become hell yet but thats prolly cuz I've avoided TC thus far lmao

"cheng"

- Katie will not be the boot tonight!!! Her name has been tossed around but t will not happen! 1. Shes the person I talk too the most! 2.Shes super genuine and funny. 3. she's our only female and i cant deal with all that testosterone it will just be too much cause i would need to assert myself and im not alpha.

""barbarossa"

- https://66.media.tumblr.com/afadf075339f97409e7f1456016878db/tumblr_inline_o56eyzz9g31sotrar_250.gif

there's been resonating disappointment that i didn't take the advantages and enabled the other tribe to take them and in the event that someone who isn't katie took them i will be v v regretful that i let them take it and yes ik some of u will be like ""Lol told u so XD beta!!!! victim noises!!! shouldn't have waited!"" but i'm just not used to playing strongly and didn't fully realize in my mind that w/ the target on my back i can't play passively anymore or try to be under the radar, which is why i made that squirrel squad alliance today.

originally i wanted it to be made before the immunity challenge ended b/c i wanted it to be a way to solidify my security if i took the advantage so we could all agree to take it and to resolve the issue of the 4-3-1 split and people's fears of og calico staying strong but people just weren't online so it just ended up being an idea that sparked into smth that i believe can be beneficial for my game now

if i'm going to merge/swap i need more allies than just og calico + need to branch out and i can't do that if og cheng believes that og calico is just going to wipe them off the face of the earth if we vote willow or someone off, which is where that alliance comes in b/c elmo/su can maintain anita as a number and me/natalia can maintain andrea/lex as numbers. in this position i feel like willow would be the best boot because she hasn't talked about anything from her og tribe and hasn't made a move to ally me or anything even though she's literally alone KLFJSDLKJFDS i feel like she should be more proactive and try to work her positioning rn instead of waiting until tribal or it's gonna fuck her in the ass but she can do her.

i talked to su for like an hour tonight and i think i'm in good w/ elmo even tho he lied to me today about su's chat nickname being #thatBitch#1 JDJSDJS p awkward he said it was someone else's nickname and then su basically gave it away that it was him

so um ya... awk. JJDSJDJSDJS but yeah anyway i think anita and willow are most vulnerable unless su and elmo are still working with anita and informing her of the tribe dynamic like i am w/ andrea

andrea was almost in the final 4 instead of natalia but we decided it's best to instead rope in natalia b/c elmo thinks i'm closer to her already anyway and it's a good safety blanket to make natalia feel good

ok i think that's it except i am aware that the other tribe probably hates my guts and wants to target my ass KLJLKJSDLKJSAD i'm so dumb for not clearing my cookies before playing simon and showing that i've gotten 128 in that game before they prob think i'm annoying and lifeless

but ya can't wait to get advantaged out at the beginning of the merge b/c i'm a dumbass!!!!! elmo has an idol clue that can be used at merge tho so hopefully we make it there and find it. i rlly want to make it to that point with squirrel squad + og calicons + elmo and su's allies so i have people surrounding me securing my safety along with another big threat, elmo, who knows it's beneficial to have me in the game as we're the biggest targets on our tribe, as is the same ideology with hunter+ethan on the other tribe probably

this is my last try on the org to fuck shit up+win and as i am disappointed i didn't take the advantages, i need to recognize my mistake and keep going. being a leader is not a position i'm familiar with so i see how i made the mistake but i just need to take it in and not give up as corny as that sounds!

https://66.media.tumblr.com/f60264dd78e6f722f340fb435e44842f/tumblr_omjs7h3tx91tyvan0o1_250.gif

" "barbarossa"

- I was too afraid to go for the advantages at the 24h madness. Do I regret it? A little, but I have to live with my decision ! I'm worried about what will happen on the Cheng's tribal bc the vote will be VERY telling. Praying that Bradley doesn't go.

"cheng"

- "We ended up losing the challenge, which really sucks, but hey, I tried my best, and showed my team that I am an asset moving forward, and a giant shield for them should a swap or merge happen. So I'm hoping that will keep me out of the line of cannon fire should any idol/advantage shenanigans occur tonight. (Thank god I told Liam to grab the Double Vote, so I don't have to worry about that being used against us... hopefully)

NOW ONTO THE VOTE. Currently the 4 OG Barbarossa have an alliance, and inside that alliance is ""The Three Musketeers"" which all of us minus Karsten. This is because Hunter distrusts Karsten, and vice versa. It is crazy how much these two distrust each other, yet trust me so much. I'm currently the middle man between these two, desperately trying to get them not to flip on the other. Each time they talk about all the shady stuff the other does, and how they are worried they might flip, I'm all like ""Yeah that is weird... BUT I think our interests align right now, so don't worry about it"" and its getting exhausting. I know that these two are going to come to a breaking point, however I do not think it's going to be this vote, if I can keep each of them from trying to throw each other overboard. Right now the OG Barbarossa are leaning towards voting out one of the original Cheng members.

Nick came to me right away when the tribes were formed, and told me he said he was willing to vote with OG Barbarossa because the other 3 had barely talked to him. Do I believe him? Probably. I mean there should ALWAYS be cause for concern when meeting new people, but he has followed up by slowing telling the others, and telling me a head of time what he was doing, so I think he's telling the truth."

"cheng"

- "So me and Hunter were talking, when Hunter comes to me and says Jake came to him, and wanted a 4 person alliance between Hunter, Myself, Bradley and Jake. I said to him ""Sure, great, awesome, let's do it"" because that is what you do in survivor. I then told Hunter that we should tell Karsten, but Hunter was really against the idea since he's super paranoid about Karsten flipping. But you know what WILL cause Karsten to flip? Leaving Karsten out of the plan! Hunter is thinking two steps ahead in this game, while completely ignoring the first step. I desperately just want these two boys who hate each other, to work together. But I know it's never going to happen without the work of a miracle. ANYWAYS back to the newly formed alliance between Jake/Bradley/Hunter/Myself. We haven't talked about much yet, but I'm going to see where their head is at. I assume they are going to try and push to vote off Nick or Karsten to us.

My biggest fear is that Jake/Bradley are just going to pretend to be going along with this, and if one of them has an idol, they will idol whoever we are going to vote out, and blindside one of us. They could just be trying to fish us for information. But i really hope they aren't! I really like Jake and Bradley and would be willing to vote with them down the line, I just hope they aren't too attached to Katie to see that they wouldn't be next on the chopping block anyways.

This vote is a LOT more stressful than the last one because not everyone is going to be on the same page (from what I can see currently). I'm planning on just using the ""Challenge Strength"" excuse, because it will make people think I'm one track minded, and not that strategic, but in reality, I only ever use that excuse when the person I want to target fits into that category. I hope I'm managing my threat level and keeping it low at this stage of the game. I want them to think I'm just some dumb challenge boy who wants to keep the tribe strong (And I make sure to point out how people on the other tribe are obviously stronger than me; Elmo, Anita, Yousef, ect). I hope I can make it past this tribal without having to bust out my idol."

"cheng"

- "I'm caught up in a real web here.

Ethan and I made a group with OG Barbarossa, because that was what was expected.

Then, Jake wanted to make an alliance, and I dragged Ethan into it so I had someone I trusted.

But Nick wanted to vote against OG Cheng, so now I'm in ANOTHER group with all OG Barbarossa and Nick.

Also Karsten and Liam know about the Jake and Bradley alliance.

I feel like I'm setting myself up to have my game blown up, and Ethan is getting a bit frustrating to work with. We are only doing what HE WANTS. Last time Anabel left cause he wanted it This time we have to work with Nick and OG Barbarossa, while telling them of the Jake group cause he wanted it

I can see his logic in it but so far, I feel like I'm not having much say here. Next round if we go to tribal, I'm putting my fucking foot down"

"cheng"

- Katie needs to show up now! I’m trying to save her but it’s really tough when she hasn’t talked to many people. It’s either gonna be her or nick. I’m gonna keep fighting to have her stay but this looks like a losing battle😥😦

"cheng"

- "I don't wanna piss off Jake and Bradley. I honest to god like Jake and wanna work with him. Both Ethan and I are set on Katie.

If Bradley and Jake still wanna go for Nick, I need to consider whether I tell Jake or not that I'm gonna probably vote Katie. He may not like it, so worst case is I blame Ethan, which may not sit well, but it's better than possibly smashing a bond I'm trying to build with Jake because he's stubborn and I want Katie...I just don't know what to do"

"cheng"

- I'm so over this clusterfuck of a vote. Tonight's vote is either gonna be smooth as hell or an idol will fuck me over, but I doubt that Jake and Bradley would really use there idol to keep Katie around, sure she's a number for them but I doubt she's really like a talkative, productive member of their alliance. Regardless, I hope that I will still be here tomorrow, I've been honest with the guys and I hope they respect that because I'm not a threat to them as an individual right now......ugh I feel sick.