His Time In This Game Is Long Overdue/Confessionals

Day 27
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- i've been up all night WAITING for more words but all the hosts and players r asleep wtf!!!!!! now is my time to shine ladies let me get them while they're snoozing..............i have no other chance 2 win challenges lets be real lol

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- now szymon is here to crush my dreams for the third time in a row!!!!!!!

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- Well that was a misplay. I guess that I can't handle IRL stress and org stress at the same time. Now I'm left very vulnerable and exposed with anything to protect me. Oh well, I'm too paranoid to play properly I guess. I don't wanna quit trying but not gonna lie I'm pretty defeated by the mistake. I'm not sure what to do to positioned myself better. I guess I deserve to be where I am. Sadly I don't think there will be a lot of rounds left for me. I guess I've just put way too much pressure on myself and on doing well. I'm hoping I could try and spin it around but my hopes are really low. Jamie told me that szymon wants to turn on me, chelsea or jessica around final 9. I can't seem to work with the minority at all. I don't trust sydney and jamie to not align with the minority to get one of us out. Yeah, this is a depressing conf.

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- jessica rlly told me an hour ago "congrats" and that i'm probably good to sleep bc she's out for the night but then went on to tie with me. sister what is the truth i knew u weren't done here! im literally gonna cry !!!! 24+ hours awake now and im probably gonna lose haha fun

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- https://vocaroo.com/i/s0RtvB9qwQVD

Day 28
"balegdeh"

- Im not going into details of last tribal. That was enough for me, and i’ve had enough of this game. If im voted out, im voted out.

But i am not giving up. I gotta rally the troops and i’m gonna try and plant some seeds around this tribe and let them know that this IS season 50. If they want to have a majority alliance run the game, then they have a boring game on their hands, and in the finale, those who came to play can and will tear their heads off.

I need people to realize that audrey can and will win this game if no one gets her out. Szymon is a goat, Jared is inactive. They dont need to leave. Sydney is strategic, but never really online and is snakey. Jamie is just... all over the place, Jessica is a MESS, and chelsea has no balls whatsoever. Audrey is winning as of right now, and i’m not going down unless I can try and light a fire under their asses and let them know that they will lose this game if they dont vote her out.

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- AFTER THIS TRIBAL, REGARDLESS OF WHETHER OR NOT I GO HOME, I DON’T WANT TO HEAR ANYONE EVER SAY AGAIN THAT I DON’T PUT EFFORT INTO THESE GAMES…BECAUSE MAWMA IS PUTTING IN WORK

Ok so to bring you up to speed, right when the round starts off, Jessica Sarah Parker and Jakey both tell me that there was some “tension” between Sydney and Szymon in the last vote (IT’S WHAT SHE DESERVES BUT THAT’S BESIDE THE POINT) I don’t really get the details and tbh I do not CARE about the details, all I need to know is that there is some sort of rift that is being created and THAT can be utilized.

So Jenna pops off and wins the challenge and at first things are looking more depressing robbed king Byron only making it to the 2nd episode. I mean theres 7 of them, 4 of us…THIS IS NOT SUPPOSED TO END WELL FOR US RIGHT??? Ha wrong bitch.

Dani is V adamant that she wants Audrey out, like it doesn’t even seem like it’s on discussion that’s who she wants out and she’s going to GUN FOR HER. So great, werk, I’m just going to try and get a group together with Audrey, Chelsea, Jessica, and Jakey and prosper that way

Which btw BIG CREDIT TO JAKEY because he also put in WORK to potentially make this a thing. ME AND JAKEY WILL THRIVE AND SURVIVE.

So currently we’re not really sure IF this group is going to work out, I know me, Audrey, and jess haven’t EVER really worked together game wise but there just might be potential here. SO IN CONCLUSION, IM EITHER FINALLY VOTING CORRECTLY, OR IM GETTING VOTED OUT. I’m really scared regardless of the outcome BUT IM EXCITED AND IM HAVING A BLAST.

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- I don't remember the last confessional I wrote? Whoops.

Last round, I knew everything that would happen :~) I knew about Jenna's vote steal thanks to Jake, and I was hoping that she'd use to to send Szymon home but I also knew if it failed, it meant Tyler left which also benefitted me. The only thing I didn't know was Audrey's idol, I assumed she had it because it had to be Bryce/Audrey by process of elimination, but I wish she'd told me as I would have absolutely told her not to play it.

Right now, Jared knows about the idol guessing grid, but he doesn't know the answer is a prime number (I think). Jake, Cali, and myself are guessing a bunch of numbers, hopefully one of us gets the idol. We have about 3 days left until we've all done all prime numbers, if we don't get it by then it means someone else has it.

Ummm this round I'm flipping because the game is kind of boring and also because Sydney/Jamie/Szy all seem to just think of me as a pawn I get the sense? I think they're planning to go against each other or Chelsea next round, and I'd rather just go against them all now :~) Me/Audrey/Chelsea are planning to flip, so as long as Dani and Jenna don't leak our plan, then it should be 7-4 for whoever we pick to vote out. I am nervous about Jenna or Dani leaking this plan, but I also don't think it really benefits them to? let's be real I am not a threat in the game right now (on PURPOSE) whereas Jamie/Sydney are.

Worst case is this doesn't work and then I get to be voted out and hang out on jury. Sounds like a win win!

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- Okay so i think maybe possibly somehow this vote may be able to pull thru???? I do this every week but idk this week it feels different.

Audrey AND jessica both wanted to flip and change up the vote, and vote out either Jamie or Sydney, which made me feel like... holy fuccccc is this real life???? If things go according to plan, sydney will leave. If not it’ll be probably me or jake, and i am ok with that. Because i would rather be voted out whilst trying to shake up the game than be voted out for any other reason, you know?

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- Welp I know people commonly say in these games to """"never give up"""", but I think this is it. The most fucked situation that could have happened HAPPENED. My closest ally literally is going to be forced to send me home with a challenge win, like I mean...This is as fucked as it gets.

Jakey. You are so amazing and I wish I could have really capitalized on that in more of these confessionals. Me and you were supposed to have the iconic legendary ending. WE were supposed to SNATCH the children bald, take the money, and prance to our respectful crowns. And you know what, even though things didn’t turn out the way we wanted, we still went from the fucking minority to the majority. I CAN’T SAY ENOUGH NICE THINGS ABOUT THAT LEGEND

I’m also super sad because I did want more time to potentially bond with people who I didn’t have the best first impression of. Ya I had my “fake rivalry” with jess in my head but she’s the FUNNIEST person on this season and she really is fantastic. And honestly, Audrey is straight up, direct and to the point and I was really starting to learn how to love that and appreciate that about her. CHELSEA IS A GODDESS. REGARDLESS OF THE ISSUES WE HAD THIS SEASON I WILL NEVER HOLD ANYTHING AGAISNT HER. And Dani and Jenna are both great, and come on they saved my ASS all the way back they’re fantastic.

But no no not all things are “gloomy droomy” and all that shit. THIS SEASON WAS JUST SUCH A BLAST and I say that over and over again because it’s so TRUE. If Jakey somehow gets voted out and im left here than I know I need to give my 5000000% INTO WINNING THIS FOR HIM. Sydney and Jamie turned it out tonight, gotta give credit where it’s due. Idk this is so bizarre IM HEARTBROKEN, SAD, HAVE A CRAVING FOR CHIPOTLE BUT NOT A CRAVING FOR E COLI like this is a lot LMAO. Also, regardless of whether I stay or leave…FIVE TRIBALS IN A ROW VOTING INCORRECTLY? UR FAVES ARE SHOOKED HUNNY. JAMIE WAS FOUND DEAD! Chris Blue? RECOVERED IN A DITCH. Evan? FOUND AT A HANNAH MONTANA CONCERT LMAOOO

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- I’m only making this because I didn’t make one this round yet.

I felt really bad voting off Tyler, but honestly Jamie kind of screwed up not voting Jakey like she was supposed to and I’m not sure if she did it on purpose or not. The other side constantly makes me feel on the bottom of their group and like the last one to know everything, I want to trust Dani and Jenna but I know the herd has to be thinned a bit before I can help them. My plan was to get rid of Jakey and then get Jamie to flip, or wait til Cali is out too not sure which yet. Jakey is cool but he’s just too much of a threat and every tribal he’s always at the center of drama. I wanted to keep the three girls of Audrey Chelsea and Jessica close too, if nothing else for the fact of having more girls around me and I didn’t think either of the two sides would ever work together. Jamie is paranoid about Jakey playing an idol to get her out and may play an idol on me and I was telling her she’s paranoid.

Or so I thought.

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- After the results of the last vote I’m really glad I didn’t take the advantage. If I did Szymon would’ve gone home and people would probably be able to tell it was me since I had just went to the castle. I liked Tyler but he was with people who I didn’t trust at all so there was no great loss there. I knew this challenge wasn’t one I could win simply because I missed half of it and I’m just not good at it. I am glad though that I got a point from “Alice In Wonderland” similar to that Castle challenge pre-merge where the Alice movie helped me win for our tribe so that was a cute little parallel. I’m trying to be calm with this vote and just shift it to one of them. I don’t trust Cali either but I feel like I’d rather her go in the game longer than them. Jake tried getting me to flip so I just went along but like I keep saying, I don’t trust him and hopefully everyone votes the way they say they will and he finally goes because his time in this game is long overdue.

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- AUDREY IS SO FANTASTIC. I TAKE BACK EVERY ILL THING I EVER SAID ABOUT HER.

I feel like a lot of people are messaging as if they’re paying respects to their recently deceased hamster and I’m not mad at it. The attention clears my pores bitch.

If I do stay? I want to link up with Audrey Jess and Chelsea long term, get a final 3 with Dani and Jenna and play the game from there. Obviously I’m not sure the odds are in my favor at the moment but let it be known that if whoever out of me or jakey stays is SLAYING this game