We're Not Spellbound/Confessionals

Day 9
"pesante"

- "dlk;fjasdlk;jtkl;js;klfjslkf so Jordan apparently went to check out C17 (where I found the idol) to see what it said, and ran into Trey there. I LITERALLY GOT THE IDOL AT EXACTLY THE RIGHT TIME. IF I DIDN'T GET IT RIGHT THEN TREY OR JORDAN WOULD'VE GOT IT. The good thing is it apparently didn't tell them that the idol was found, so my plan to convince Trey that Jordan still could work.

On an unrelated note, I was really thinking this round was the swap, and that one of the cards was gonna involve a swap with one person going to Exile without a tribe. But I was wrong. I don't really have anything else to say atm, here's hoping I get a snow day tomorrow."

"vicino"

- Still no swap??? What is this? I need to get off this small tribe! This challenge seems odd, and I have exactly no idea what could happen, which is why I'd prefer to sit out, but it looks like Devon has a better excuse than I do lol. Declan is awesome btw. And what's up with these cards? They keep saying that they will be revealed in due time, but I really want that time to be now. I really hope the card fucks things up good! Not in a bad way though, in a way that benefits me. I'm really hoping to not go to a pre merge tribal, so I can eliminate all fear of flopping. I'm 3-0 right now, and I'm hoping to make that 4-0! I'm sure I'll be making another confessional soon lol, but for now, adios amigos, or however you say goodbye friends in Italian.

"lontano"

- If we go to tribal this time around, Idk what would happen. Something tells me that Jason/Christian/Declan are close, but I am also close to them three too, mostly Jason/Declan. Mai and I are the only former Pesante's on this tribe so if we do go to tribal, I hope that we could maybe take Christian out.

"vicino"

- Lets win this challenge! I gotta make the swap and succeed! I wanna make merge at least, and I need not go to tribal pre merge, because that would be lit. Tbh idk why I'm making this confessional because I talk about the same thing every single time :). Lets hope all goes well!

"vicino"

- I hope we can win. I'm hoping that I can stay tribal free. I like my tribe, and if we did have to go, it's going to be Mai that goes. She's definitely the weakest. Never online, weak in challenges, always sits out, and is just not reliable. Hopefully we don't have to go to tribal

"lontano"

- "So this challenge honestly has me feeling super down. Seeing the other two tribes put us down as the tribe they most want to see lose, and then seeing my profile edited was kind of shit, but it's alright because i'm hopeful that we won't win immunity. I'm pretty convinced at this point that if we swap I'm going to either need to boost my social game exponentially or I'll need to tryhard and make sure my tribe wins all of the challenges, because realistically fmpov the other tribes have made it clear they want me gone. But you never know, it's easy to dislike someone before you know them, so maybe after I speak to these people they won't see me as an awful bitch cow.

The people on my tribe are pretty cool. I speak to Antoine the most and I think i'm confident that we would stick together should we ever go to tribal council. Izzy is super nice, but sometimes I can't tell whether or not she likes/dislikes me. I don't speak to Harrison too much, but I'm not sure whether that's due to him not being around or us two not being super close. Anyway I'm having a lot of fun so far but I'm super apprehensive moving forward because this is getting super intense. "

"giovane"

- Sooooo basically since it's a live challenge, apart from Andrea, our tribe doesn't try at all (including me). I'm worried that if we go to tribal I might be in hot water.

I'm concerned that Ashley and Andrea have bonded heavily, Ashley and Juliet have the Survivor Sucks Forum connection, and Juliet is not a very proactive conversationalist - I'm not sure if that's only with me but it makes me nervous. I like everyone, but I have a sinking feeling they all like each other better. Hell I've even bonded and gotten along super well with Andrea, but an actual alliance? Not really. I wish Ashley would put a bit more effort into challenges tbh. Things are looking a bit shaky.

"pesante"

- So our tribe has randomly started talking about dicks....and I'm honestly really uncomfortable seeing all of this. Just a complete awkward conversation to have to listen too. Please help....I need new people to talk too so I don't feel awkward anymore...

Day 10
"lontano"

- Once again Nat saved us from a likely crash. I'm a bit disappointed that Vicino didn't lose immunity since they have the most members left but I don't really care who goes home in Giovane. Elias was a nice guy though from the little time I spent with him at the beginning of the game, hopefully he'll be safe.

"pesante"

- This could very well be my last confessional before the swap, as I'm expecting it will be after this tribal, so let's see how this goes! So as of right now, I think I'm in a pretty good position. That idol clue was VERY specific, so I fully expect someone on Lontano also has one, but I have the Pesante one, so I don't have to worry about that. I'd just like to evaluate my standing with each of my tribemates. I know this confessional is really scatter-brained but whatever.

Jordan- Him and I are in a really good spot. I told him about the idol, so him and I have that bond. We have, as Jordan called it, the dynamic where you just sit back in the shelter and mock everyone else. I really hope I swap with him so that we can continue that. He's also very trusting which is good, but he's clearly a social player, so I'm gonna have to watch out for that. Trey- I really like and trust Trey, but I know somewhere down the line I'm gonna have to cut him. I'm putting that off as long as possible, but the day WILL come.I'm thinking it can wait until after the merge, and it could be a resume move, but if it has to happen earlier, it can. My #1 job at the swap is to compile a loyal group of people that I can turn against big threats like Trey when it becomes necessary. I would love to be able to consider Aaron and Jason part of that number, but they've each played in more games with Trey than I have, and I don't know if they consider themselves closer to me or Trey, so I'll have to be wary of them. Jerry- By far, this is the person I have the worst relationship with on the Pesante tribe. We hardly ever talk, and when we do our conversations are kinda dull, if I'm being perfectly honest. He reached out to me today after the challenge ended, but it was so out of the blue, and our conversation died after five minutes, so it seems that he's just trying to solidify his bond with me in case we swap together. I don't trust Jerry as far as I can throw him. The good thing is, if I don't really like him, maybe no one else will. Like I keep hearing him talked about as a huge social threat, but I just don't see it! He doesn't seem to really know how to carry on a good conversation, at least with me.

I think that's all. As far as the Pesante idol goes, Jordan and I are gonna continue pretending we aren't friendly at all. If one of us gets wind that people are voting for the other one, we can use the idol.

My main focus going into the swap is to work on my social bonds. I got in trouble on Malawi because I didn't really build strong bonds with people (cough, mainly because it was christmas and i was practically on my deathbed i was so sick cough), so it was easy to vote me off. Wherever I end up tomorrow, I'm gonna be making everyone my best friend. I'm gonna be funny, I'm gonna be friendly, and I'm gonna be interesting. Ofc it's inconvenient timing once again, because I have finals this week, but I can survive. It's just a matter of budgeting my time (aka pulling all nighters for the next five days lmao). I think that's all!

"vicino"

- We won immunity! Yay!!! I'm really glad that we were able to win, because tribal is stressful. I really hope we swap next round, and I have a feeling I know what's going to happen. Not saying it'll be next round, but I have a feeling at some point we'll be back with those original tribes from the first day. I think that would be interesting but who knows what could happen.

"vicino"

- Whoops forgot to put this in my last one, but Mai is so useless tbh. Like she's super nice, but she doesn't ever do challenges or talk.

"giovane"

- Okay so, I woke up this morning in a horrific position. Ashley was being ambiguous so he was obviously targeting me, Andrea was being Andrea making promises that she's probably made to everyone because shes a great social player, and Juliet was being inoffensive but quiet, as usual.

Everyone's just like ""Ohh I don't want to vote anyone, I don't want to have to choose! Yikes!"" which roughly translates to ""I'm targeting you otherwise I'd throw out a solid name to get the target off of myself.""

However, I think I've had some room the manoeuvre after I sussed out the landscape of the tribe. Juliet isn't under Andrea's spell - Andrea has individually become best friends with everyone, we all like her, but Juliet and I, we're not spellbound.

Her, Ashley and I have been in an alliance since christmas, ""Wise (wo)men"". Juliet and I decided to whip up a pitch to Ashley both levelling with him and appealing to the ""we've been together since day one lets not break up now, I love you guys"" type, and revealing to him that although Andrea and him might be close, she's close to all of us as well, so who is she lying to? This is Survivor, not the best friend committee. So yeah, he APPEARS to be on board but I'm still a bit nervous. Him and Juliet were saying all the right things. I don't want to go pre merge on main but it's a definite possibility.

"pesante"

- Things are about the same as they were. I hate seeing Eli go to another tribal. I hope he can survive.

The idol is bothering me. I’m convinced someone has it. I dont think it’s Jerry. He would’ve told me. My fear is Jordan has it. That’s worst case scenario. We’re all acting like us 4 are tight and going to the end. When in reality, I don’t want any of these guys in the F4 with me.

I’m excited about a potential swap, but I’m also nervous about one. However, we need something to liven things up.

"pesante"

- WHEW a lot has happened since we last talked, but so far everything i have done has paid off small term. Still hoping for some long term benefits, but for now things are good i think. Ive started to become a challenge beast in my tribes eyes, which is meh. Good for value to the tribe, but thats probs gonna come around and bite me in the ass later. Marty is someone i got close with, and it seems to be paying off. He told me he found the idol and we have a lot of fun talking to each other and making fun of the other dicks on our tribe (inside pesante joke ;) anyways, we think were swapping tomorrow which will either be really good or really bad for me. Only time will tell

"lontano"

- OMG!!! I can't believe it. I've found the freaking hidden not anymore immunity idol!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know what the Lontanos are doing cause the clue was pretty obvious to me. I'm really stoked! I have to control myself not to do the bacon on the floor cause I didn't washed it since a while. I'm a bit stressed out what to do with this thing now to be honest. I'm mainly glad that nobody else have it to be honest. I have more control in this game now and I hope that it will make fireworks.