Board Thread:Season 46 - Kariba/@comment-32290059-20180413235206/@comment-33060993-20180414050539

(DISCLAIMER TO FAVES: I just finished Show #4 tonight and I’m a mess; I’m working on other responses and will send in the morning when my brain is not actively being a mess, especially since some offer a lot of opportunity for explanation that I’m excited to take!! I know there’s a lot of time buffer between my responses but I’m really trying to give each speech the attention it deserves. Been working on this & Jack’s for two hours yikes and i need sleep. Looking forward to it xoxo)

Joliet!! Fave ilysm. We were the second tragic showmance of the season and anyone who disagrees can throw hands!! Admittedly, I’m a little surprised at your commentary, but I think I understand where it’s coming from, it's v fair, and I really appreciate that even though you’re leaning towards an outcome, you’re giving me an opportunity to prove your impressions otherwise. It’s not an opportunity I’ll waste - I promise. I’ll first kinda address your concerns with my speech, and then your actual question. If it’s allowed, I’d really love to have a follow up conversation on specifics, because I can’t tell which parts were offsetting to you and would like to know!

"your speech you claimed to have more control than i think you really did and after reading it I was left sort of confused. Around f5, you told me you "had something from jury that would shake them" but i saw no mention of that in your speech."

Ahh you’re making relatively valid points about the shaking moment and how it transitioned from conversation to my speech, and I’ll try to clarify on your impression of my speech. I’m about to write my essay of a response to Jack, which will kinda go into the specifics of my roles in each vote. It will ideally go into the nitty gritty I didn’t want to force you all to read through in a speech, which has become increasing clear is being approached with skepticism so the nitty gritty is on its way!. There were quite a few rounds where I was truly WORKING and my response to Jacck will probably be a second “Vote for Jake!!” speech with a lot more specifics on how I was doing this. But overall - I really want to clear that up. IDK the extent to which we’re allowed to communicate through this forum, but if you were to go into specific parts where you think my statements were unfounded, I would really love to elaborate!! To reiterate what I said with Louise, the truth is like my dear idol Patrice in this game—she can only hide for so long and this is her time to come out and play. I’m really not going to sit here and exaggerate because '''I genuinely believe my entire speech was supported by my actions and conversations, so please feel free to ask about them!! '''

As for your specific question,

"please clarify for me what that thing was and explain how you used it to your advantage. If it wasn't a real thing, why tell me this if you wete just planning to take me to the end/have no conclusion to it if i was in jury."

I was really referencing my suggestion to fracture OG Hwadze by leaking your alliance, which ended up happening. I didn’t specifically reference it as “hey jury you’re about to be SHOOK” in my speech, and I think in that conversation we had, I let excitement guide my words. In retrospect, it’s not truly shakening, just solid strategic gameplay that I hid well — at a point in this game where I was still not able to talk about it, it was something that was easy to build up in my head. More than anything else, the comment to you was me confiding in a friend rather than a strategic conversation. Nonetheless - I think it really had a long-term impact on the game and grouped your four together publicly, ensuring they were targeted at multiple points in the game and in doing so, it took away the control y’all seriously had a chance at taking if Dovile went. To explain why I think it was shocking: at the time, I was REALLY trying to hit the radar. Even in our own conversation after the F11 vote, you told me something along the lines of congratulating me for the move, and I quickly feigned being a number and following, saying I was clueless and didn’t deserve credit. I used this tactic a lot. At multiple points (most often: early merge), I would try to downplay my own threat level by pretending my strategic prospects and positioning was v limited. Even though it was relatively unfounded, I would refer to myself a goat in almost all my conversations with you/Matthias/Becky and hope that the perception stuck well enough to keep a target off my back for some time. So I think more than anything else - I expected people to be surprised that I was playing as hard as I was at the time, and that my suggestion to turn Hwadze on itself grew into a dynamic that lasted literally up until F6 and in the big picture, could have cemented a lot of fates. While the subsequent vote offs would have various factors it definitely changed a lot up and led some people’s games in a certain direction and mine to one that got me here so I’d say it was a very impactful move that I don’t think was recognized or associated with me at all at the time and I’ll go into more specifics on my other response because redundancy is not cute!!

AND FOR THE FUN SOCIAL QUESTION:

"I would like to know about the connections you made with people. I'll tell you 3 names and you respond with 2 things you learned about them through being social! Jake: Becky, Drew, & me"

For my social side, here are some fun facts about my faves!! I’m bad at not going off on tangents, so I kinda wrote more than two facts oops. My social game followed the mentality that a conversation a day kept the bad vibes away and no matter where I stood strategically with someone, I always tried to reach out and talk because closing doors is not cute and I love getting to know people. Like even with you - we were really on opposite sides for a lot of the merge and I think our social connection was the foundation of us working together late-merge despite meeting when we had v different networks!! My main flaw was probably that I talked about weather with an abnormal frequency. I adore rain, hate the heat, and love the cold with a passion so I legit talked about that TOO OFTEN.

HALS: BECKY/JORDAN: DREW:
 * A fellow Heathers and SOUE fan!! The amount of people I’ve sent Heathers songs in the past two months was ahhh and to find a friend who has not only seen Heathers, but illegal Heathers, was ahhhh. I loved that your fave song was Kindergarten Boyfriend because ahh the feels in that song are sooo real. And as for SOUE we both love that show and talking about the casting choices as well as the adaptations was too fun!
 * You went on an iconic trip to Mexico this season which seems like it was really enjoyable and you also came to the hellish swap that is Florida for a solid second if I remember correctly and mentioned an alligator and I still want to know her story
 * If I use the laughing emoji you’ll murder me and you love bees with an unspeakable passion
 * Becky/Jordan was there for me when I got rejected from my top choice and it was really nice to hear someone else who went through struggles finding the ideal university to attend so that was sweet! It seems like everything is going relatively well at their university, though we never got into their experience!
 * A fellow GLEEK who stans Lauren Zizes I am so here for that.  Like slay with those correct opinions!!
 * I feel like I don’t know a lot of real specifics though which makes me kinda sad, but there was a lot of substance to our friendship beyond talking about life. I feel like we really clicked strategically and were just always there with that positivity and mainly talked about orgs.
 * A FELLOW THEATRE enthusiast!! Legit the night I went to see “Sideshow” he had researched it and we talked about it, but he also ADORES broadway which we had in common and I think talked about that and just media stuff in general quite frequently. He always had cute opinions on shows and was v knowledgeable about that (and other things)
 * A modern icon & a librarian who did not have time for childish clownery on another org (to be unnamed) — but yeah, we really connected a lot about life and I won’t go into specifics because idk how personal some of it is, but he shared some really nice comforting facts about his own life and how everything works out when I was down about personal life.