Underground Assassin Pulling The Strings/Confessionals

Day 35
"njano"

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"njano"

- Burying the lede in that video is that my ideal F3 is Cali/Nora, not Nicole/Nora. Why? Well I know Nicole has played well and I'd be viewed as the weaker of our duo, and I'd have to rely on bitterness against Nicole to potentially win which I'd rather not do. It's gambling on the notion of 4 locked votes for Cali being false but I really do believe I have a stronger case against Cali and Nora than Nicole and Nora. Plus Nicole I think would vote for me in the end and I doubt Cali would. It's gonna be all about striking the right balance for what I need to pitch. But ideally I need to win the last two immunities to be able to really do that.

"njano"

- "my thoughts on Chris' final words... wowie this is gonna be a ride. Honestly, he was so nasty to pretty much everyone except for Evan but some of it was like justifiable? like his section on me being a fakey McGee sure I've been a huge two-faced fakey McGee this season not gonna lie. like some people are gonna read my confs and be like Nicole wtf and I'm gonna just shrug I guess. time for a breakdown though

Evan's section doesn't really have much that I can comment on except for like Evan literally knew this was happening at least 12 hours in advance so FAODISJLK

Jack's one wasn't as bad as some of the others but it was still a bit mean but I agree Jack's a great guy and we stan him.

WEW my section lmao, yeah it was obvious I was going to vote him out but I just wanted to say it myself before results and lookie at where that got me. Also yes I wasn't delivering news to Evan! He knew in advance and acted in the alliance chat lmao. As for the talking shit about Nora, I don't even know anymore like yes she's been a shitty ally on many fronts and also somewhat annoying but like she's still a human being so I don't know.. I feel bad for how I've treated her but also like she's not even going to take this badly because she thinks I'm just distancing myself from her to the others. Part of it is true but like.. also part of the her being annoying with the whole sending ""Nicole"" and then like not saying anything afterwards literally making me so scared is a thing and the fact that she withholds information and is messy overall as well with the whole idol situation. idk I'm really reflecting on my actions this season and I feel like a bit of a stone-cold bitch! also as for the work thing, I literally did not wait for him to go to work and the fact that he thinks I'm evil enough to do that just speaks to like... how bad my character has been this season I guess. idk this really feels like a wake-up call for me but like in a weird way? I don't know I really did feel bad for voting him and I really didn't want to but now I just... I don't know? like part of me is like he was the biggest threat and he would've won that was my original reason for voting him also Evan's more stable and likely to be loyal to me. now after that blow up idk anymore I feel as though voting him out was the right decision and now I feel bad like less for him but like I feel bad about me and this game in general? like I feel like I've made a whole ass mess of myself on a human level. everything he said here apart from the work thing was right and even that is something he probably thinks is true from his perspective.

Ok, I think I need a break after that... I'll come back with the rest of my thoughts after a quick walk."

"njano"

- "hello and welcome to Nicole's extra thoughts on Chris' final words part 2!

I feel like I've said this one way too many times like to various people to vent and as a vl as well but like Nora and Cali were done so wrong so here we go again.

NORA DID NOT APPROACH CHRIS' FRIENDS AND GET THEM TO SAY NICE THINGS TO MAKE HIM LOYAL TO HER. SHE FELT BAD FOR HIM AND APPROACHED HIS FRIENDS TO MAKE HIM FEEL BETTER ABOUT HIMSELF. SHE HAD NO GAME INTENTION HERE AND THE PLAN TO BLINDSIDE HIM HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH IT. been there DONE THAT she is not evil and isn't that much of a schemer and she was genuinely just trying to help.

CALI DESERVES HER MOST DAYS AND CHRIS CANNOT TAKE THAT AWAY FROM HER. been there DONE THAT! Cali played every single day and deserves her title, Chris wasn't here for her first two seasons and even KC is just his opinion that can't take her whole achievement away from her. if he wants to bash on her Nakuru gameplay which he did then fine but I'm just simply not going to accept the part where he bashes all of her gameplay and her achievement.

as for the last paragraph, it was really unneeded but whatever he gets to say what he wants to say. the fact that he's giving me credit for having this move is uhm... interesting considering all of his other reactions but like he's not wrong I literally shifted votes from Evan to him. I need some positive energy after this lol hopefully this round is like happier? well I don't think that's the right word like less emotionally taxing I guess."

"njano"

- I absolutely failed this challenge LMAO my counting instincts are really bad I counted properly after it was done and like girl I'm so off I know I'm not winning this immunity now but it's probably for the best. I told Evan that I'd be using my idol on myself 100% if I didn't win immunity to really secure my safety so if I win immunity it could even cause problems because my idol would be up for grabs and I wouldn't have an excuse to use it on myself bc ya know... immunity necklace. luckily I failed I guess then I'm hoping for a Nora win here to keep her as a non target and also keep my targets Evan and Cali open for killing. Either way if one of them wins immunity I can probably get votes piled on the other.

"njano"

- LMFAO Nora told me she has Will's idol. I'm not surprised but now the question is its authenticity, I have an idea as to how to test that for later on but I'll have to wait for immunity results. She says she's gonna make a big fuss about it in tribal chat and reveal it to everyone with the picture. I reckon the picture is real I never saw Will's one but it looks authentic to me and I doubt Nora can photoshop that well. Part of me thinks that Will told her to do this and not tell anyone every period because idk is she really big-brained enough to do this herself like lie/truth, either way, I think Will told her to lmao.

Day 36
"njano"

- I’m not gonna quit. I can’t quit. I want this so bad with every one of my bones and every inch of my skin.

I’m gonna fight until I can’t fight no more.

Some are gonna day I don’t deserve to have the most days played.

Others have already said it.

But I now know that I deserve that title, with every single fucking trophy. Because I am that bitch, and I’m not gonna let myself delve into self pity or self doubt.

Again I know my worth.

And that’s the motherfucking...tea.

"njano"

- [] 3 days short but it's been a journey. Thank you Nakuru

"njano"

- “Hope, I just need a ray of that….”

Idk how I did it but .. barring a sudden change which I’ll have to QUICKLY DEFUSE, I THINK .. I JUST GOT NORA TO IDOL ME?? HOW ?? WHAT THE FUCK?? DO I HAVE A SECOND LIFE IN THIS GAME?

I sent Nicole a god damn ESSAY before I went to bed and sure enough when I woke up she pitches her thoughts and we have a long discussion about how we see this game shaping out.. and I feel like I can read Nicole and she slowly started seeing the writing on the wall that if she really does take me out now, she is FORCING herself into win or die mode in the next one or two challenges.. and I think that resonated in her, along with the fact I said I don’t think my jury case is as clean as Chris’ final words make it out to be.

She was the one as of an hour ago to tell me she wants to idol me and we split our votes on Nora and Jack which I’ll gladly do soooo, no fake idol trick tonight! SHIT LOOKED FAKE ANYWAYS.. but now I still have to carry out my defeated act. I have to continuously push a Nora vote to Jack and Cali and continue to ghost Nora lmfao .. she rly sent me a ‘white flag’ message just now but safe to say if this works I’m responding with the same shit back.

I am honestly downright ECSTATIC if this can somehow work out but I know there’s a way to go.. I’m sure Nicole’s mind may fluctuate but I feel like I’ve gotten to know her really well and she wears her emotion on her sleeve. I felt nothing but conviction from her when she said we’re doing this idol plan and now it’s my duty to see it through to the end. So to quote JOKER FROM PERSONA 5…

I’m not done.

"njano"

- I literally do not understand Cali. We have a GOLDEN opportunity to take out Evan and all of a sudden, Nora shows her “idol” and Evan convinces Cali it’s a fake. (FWIW, I think it is too). BUT THAT SHOULDN’T MATTER? JUST VOTE HIM OUT ANYWAYS. But now Cali is like yeah gotta get Nora out this is great for us! Uh... no it isn’t. Evan will win. Why would I keep him now even though I love him in the game. He gotta go! Of course he’s pushing Nora it’s very smart of him to do so, but why are you buying it? Now it’s gonna be 3-2 and I might burn that bridge just a bit, but what is Cali doing? What’s her gambit? Jury management? I need to beat Nora, so she has to stay. Simple as that.

"njano"

- I lost the challenge literally no one is shocked. Evan almost won but in the end Cali did. What's probably going to happen this round is I'm gonna play my idol on myself, Nora is gonna play her "idol" on herself or not and then Evan is going to go home unanimously. I don't see any reason why literally anyone on this planet (in the game atm) would keep Evan over Jack like there's no reason on this planet to. I'm about to test Nora's idol because I just want to know if it's real or not ahead of time and also I doubt she'd play her idol on Evan like I sincerely doubt that. it's about as likely as someone having the torrobo idol lmao like it's literally not happening.

"njano"

- "I tested Nora and her idol is fake wow she really tried to be a good liar but it didn't work out. There were a multitude of reasons as to why I thought it was real.

1: It seems in character for Will to pass his idol for safekeeping.

2: SHE SAID THIS THING WHERE SHE WAS LIKE CHRIS TOLD HER SHE WAS GOING NEXT AND SHE REPLIED WITH I'M NOT YOU'LL SEE

I don't even know if that event even happened but dang that was believable and scary.

So here's what I did, I told Nora that I'm going to vote her to ""distance"" ourselves from each other and not be seen as a duo. She starts saying don't and I'm like why not? u have an idol there's no reason not to! and she's like lol idol is fake don't vote for me I might actually go home. AFTER THIS I'M LIKE YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I did that. Now I know that her idol is fake, I'm not going to tell anyone else about it though. "

"njano"

- Now I have a dilemma, I was sure I was going to vote Evan out afterall it makes the most sense for my game but the emotional mess in me is coming out. I know that if I vote him out here I probably end up winning the season but there's uncertainty. Nora is unstable I don't know if she'd stay loyal to me, Jack is smart he wouldn't keep me and would probably target me right after Evan goes or if Cali wins immunity... Cali is smart as well and would probably target me with Jack if not to at least keep herself safe. I know I have f2 deals with all of them but that barely means anything considering they'd all do what's best for their games especially Jack. He already stabbed Will because he thought it was best for him our personal connection doesn't matter deals don't matter he will do what he needs to. While if I save Evan here he'll stay loyal there's no way he doesn't and I can have that certainty that I'll be sitting at the end like either Evan votes with me until he goes or we're at the end or he goes and I can at least have my shot at final immunity. The more I think about it the more saving the biggest threat in this game secures my safety and tbh it's better on an emotional level for me as well. I really like Evan he's the only person in this game who I've consistantly enjoyed talking to like nothing he has done has irritated me in any way shape or form and that's a surprise considering how bitchy I've been towards others in this game. Ugh this is going to be a hard decision and probably going to permanatly change how this game is gonna go on obviously.

"njano"

- i've decided I'm idolling Evan and it's been a mess here's what happened from my perspective. Everyone wants to kill Evan, no surprise there, Evan wants to live, no surprise there either. I with my idol the only one in the game atm btw hold the power here and I decide the fates of everyone in this tribal. I decided that I'm going to keep Evan because it gurantees my safety and I don't want to risk that part of it doesn't want to make Chris right when he said after he went Evan would go and then I would follow. I don't want him to be right about that and I want to make that endgame and really have a shot at winning this game. I told the other three that I locked my vote onto Evan before sleeping (not true) to really get them to lock the target. When I woke up I told Evan that we were going to vote Nora... why? She's obvious goat bait and the worst at challenges. If I don't get Nora know she makes it to the end which is really not ideal epseically if it's a final 2 because just likel everyone else I want to drag her to the end but that's not going to work if both me and her lose the FIC and the third person takes her or in final 4 I get voted out or sent to fire. Jack is also goat bait but he's better because 1: he's more stable and logical and 2: he's better at challenges. He has a bigger chance of beating Evan in a challenge and if it ends up f3 with me/him/evan he'd take me over evan 100% if he wins or he could beat evan at f4 challenge and then evan would be targeted over me. Also another mess was Cali. Cali.. wanted.. to vote nora out.. and.. told jack this.. and evan.. but.. not.. me... she straight lied to my face but jack and evan both told me about her and i really think she's going to vote nora which is hillarious because there's no reason in the world she should do that unless its "jury mangement" which is stupid. I'm going to vote Evan and idolled him which is also hillarious and sounds stupid but if it works out it should be fine/good even.

"njano"

- Nicole wanted to test Cali and sure enough, Cali sold hard on voting Evan and said it’d be dumb to vote Nora. So why is she lying to one of us? How does this make any sense as a move? Even if she views Nicole and Nora as a duo, how is this smart right now? Her read on the game just makes no sense to me

Day 37
"njano"

- Bad news: Cali was voting Evan despite telling me otherwise, but Nicole decided for an inexplicable reason to use her idol on him instead and Nora got idoled out, thus eliminating my likely win condition

Good news: IT’S A FINAL TWO AND I MIGHT NOT BE DEAD JUST YET

Even if Cali has her “4 locked votes” I think I can get the other 5. Will Chris Nora Evan Nicole? Definitely feasible. And if I can immunity to do it myself? Hell yeah. Yes, they’d be voting the lesser of two evils. But damn it, I’ll be less evil if it means I win

"njano"

- Oh look, Evan won immunity. Who could have seen that coming? Anyone? Anyone? Bueller? Nicole WHY (like granted Cali probably wins immunity then if Evan is gone but whatever because I could've had my me/Nora f2!!!). Her silly idol play might cost her this game because I have to seriously run through the votes to see if Cali is a better option to sit next to than Nicole and right now? I think that's the case. Regardless I HAVE to win FIC and cut Evan so that I can look the best in f2. David, meet Goliath.

"njano"

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"njano"

- It's all but confirmed that it's a final 2, there was no rites of passage which my fellow castaways have told me happens right before ftc (i didn't know that obviously LOL). Evan is going to win this immunity and no one is surprised. The 12 hour fastest rule sounds a bit dumb but whatever Evan winning is ok because he'll vote with me (I assume Jack/Cali will vote me) which is part of why I kept him. Cali's going to come second she's two hours after him and I'm going to be last because I only went for 30 minutes lol! (I didn't have enough focus to do it but Evan was going to beat me anyway) I'm going to want to vote Cali out here but I need a different reason than "oh jack and you will both take me in f3 and jack has a higher chance of beating you" in order to convince evan... I'm going to think about that while enjoying my day off (not posting every 15 minutes).

"njano"

- Evan won immunity we aren't surprised but woo I got a reason! despite Cali winning more challenges Evan also thinks that jack is a bigger challenge threat but that's not a reason to vote him out because the other two are targeting me so he wants me to have a more favourable matchup. Evan's trying to talk those two out of voting me but I know it's not going to work they're both pretty set in stone I'd say. I love Cali and I know that she won't have hard feelings but wowie I really have to perform in this firemaking otherwise everything I've done would be for nothing and Evan would probably go on to sweep this game. I mean he'd have my vote to be honest and I don't see what the other two could say to get me to vote otherwise.

"njano"

- Awkward revote time now! me and Evan did indeed vote Cali and he did indeed stay loyal to me and those two did indeed vote me. Jack said he didn't read whatever plead to vote Cali Evan sent to him so there's actually a chance that he'll flip. I'm going to plead to him and give him all of the many reasons why he has a better shot with me around than Cali and hope that he's receptive maybe I can avoid going to firemaking in the first place otherwise yikes I wonder what the hosts are going to throw at us I'm scared.

"njano"

- OK SO JACK SEES THE MERITS IN KEEPING BOTH ME AND CALI BUT IS GOING TO VOTE ME BECAUSE IT'D BE "EMBARASSING" IF HE FLIPPED. I really hope that's not the real reason because tbh THAT'S SUCH A DUMB REASON TO VOTE SOMEONE. Like I actually really hope he's just "saying that" and doesn't mean that but aye it's time for firemaking now and I'm barely on any sleep right now (we ain't shook). If I don't make it past this then wew twas a good game and I really enjoyed it.

"njano"

- Well, I went with who played better not who was more jury loved. And Evan went the other way. So now we're at a 2-2 firemaking impasse, and honestly? I kinda hope Nicole wins. I am worried about those jury votes for Cali I am! And I feel like going this way with Cali now invalidates me, whereas going with Nicole after this validates it because I tried to get her out but had to take her over Evan. Thing is I'm still really sure I could get 5 even if Cali has 4 on lock, just now it's a little iffy with Evan disagreeing with me about threat level. With Nicole I guarantee Cali's vote now I think, but it's still very undeterminable! Could go any which way and her game should be more impressive, but also her jury management worse and her FTC performance probably worse says she's usually bad and I'm usually good. But those are unreliable factors!! Idk. This is also why I wanted fire, to let the result be out of my hands. Fortuna iudicat -- fate decides.

Day 38
"njano"

- I tried. I really really tried. I just couldn't beat him. And I never should've had to beat him. Nicole took my entire win away with the swoop of her hand. Now I'm either 3rd, or losing unanimously. I can't win. And it wasn't even my own fucking fault. I could've overcame everyone's stupid perceptions of me but NOPE, Nicole had to play an idol on the biggest immunity threat just so he could *squints* win the final two immunities. What a fucking joke. I'm so defeated

"njano"

- "Don't forget this feeling."

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"njano"

- I WON FIRE MAKING I WAS SO SCARED AHHH. I love Cali n had a great goodbye with her. I can't wait to go through danganronpa v3 with her she's gonna be SHOOK and hopefully is going to be a Maki stan just like me <3. It's rop right now and like the other two are like woohoo day off and I'm like WHERE. Like rop is one of the most intensive days for me because I like to write a lot to every single person and make sure they get the message. Like I do not kid rop is going to take more for me than some of these challenges and definitely more effort than some of these tribals I'm going to SCREAM.

"njano"

- I finally finished my rop and I did it first!!!! suck it boys. I spent a good 2 hours just deciding on a theme and ended up stealing one off of the internet because nothing I did looked good in any way shape or form. Key points are like I tried not to suck up too much I stood my ground. The key things I addressed were Chris and the whatever I said about the preys whether it be three-headed snake or whatever. I hope I can really clear that up when I get to ponderosa or at ftc because I genuinely have not said anything that should have this type of reaction.

"njano"

- I've been telling jack that he really needs to win and I know that I'm going to suck at this challenge. the flag I made is literally poop coloured and looks horrid! I can't get past the border in the puzzle and hexagon gives me headaches and makes my eyes die and cry at the same time. I wouldn't be surprised if I got last, Evan's telling me about how he's going to sweat at this challenge and I'm like prioritize your health? like I'm not saying this to get him to lose but I really think he should sleep and study for his exams rather than spend 12 hours straight working on this challenge. I appreciate his effort and care for this org but gurl don't stay up until 2am? no? bad? I mean it's kind of hypocritical considering I stay up to 2am all the damn time but ugh I feel bad EVAN!! SLEEP!! EVAN!! EAT FOOD!! EVAN!! DON'T SPEND 12 HOURS IN A LIBRARY!!

"njano"

- Evan has won and he's going to send Jack out at third place, idolling him really worked out but like this obviously wasn't the best scenario for me and fighting Evan at ftc will be hard but hey at least I have a shot at this. Evan seems to be dragging the deadline out by a bit and that's good for me because ftc will be on weekends for me and I'll be able to give it my all. I've never been good at ftc I've been here 3 other times and I've failed horridly. In Byzantium I convinced the whole jury to not vote for me, in Hawaii I had one of my strongest games but my jury answers were really bad. Then there was everglades and let me just say THE THREE JURY VOTES I GOT WERE 1: a vote from picking a roman emperor 2: a random.org vote and 3: the vote of my closest ally. Honestly I SUCKED! and I probably still suck so if I'm about to severely embarrass myself then oh welp I tried.

Day 39
"njano"

- One last time.

Hello to all (or basically myself because I’ll probably be the only one reading this), it’s about time I strike a match to this season and leave this place in a blaze of glory once and for all.

Never, and I mean never in my wildest dreams would I ever think I’d have the 4 season arc I’ve experienced in my main org journey, but it’s now officially set in as reality and now there’s just the most important step left, swinging this jury over to convince them to vote me.

I very rightfully so got chastised for my betrayals this season, and of course I’ve learned I’ve been far from perfect along the way in terms of handling some social situations.. but I do get the read and feeling that they think I played the overall better game than Nicole. So my mission was to show vulnerability and humbleness at the end, as to whether or not that wants to make them vote for me..? Couldn’t tell you my friend, that’s what I’m finding out 6 hours from now.

When I’ll get to read this however many days, weeks, months later, and no matter the outcome, holy hell I can say I did the damn thing this season. I played with this new persona and playstyle being this underground assassin pulling the strings, and when that fell through I got to unleash Retribution mode for one last time. I remember starting this season I set out a goal in place, and witnessing the fruits of my labor come to life has been truly special.

I’m actually compartmentalizing WAYYY back and thinking about everyone I’ve encountered and played with along the way, the good AND the bad, and each of those memories and experiences have built me into the player and person I am today. So shout out to day 1’s, shit shout out to the youtube crew, glad to have gotten to the end of this and prove our dominance yet again, and shout out to any clown that’s decided to trash me behind closed doors in this place without ever confronting me about it because of a biased narrative and/or their pathetic pride! The good and the bad and everything in between have been my driving force and that’s never going to change.

106 days and a chance at the double crown. It’s been as breathtaking and maddening and stress-inducing and liberating every step along the way as I thought it’d be. Thank you for the memories, and signing out of Nakuru for one last time,

THE ULTIMATE HOPE. Okay no I won’t end with that, EVAN.

"njano"

- I'm happy with my speech I feel like I didn't say anything bad and the more I think about it the more I think I actually have a shot against Evan but then I read his speech. He's so much better with words and probably like 100 times more confident than I am. He wrote more, was more convincing and had the surface level better game. He was a standout threat and never went home unlike Chris. Speaking of Chris I- I don't know how to react to his speech I don't know if I even want to answer it. I still respect the fact that he can say whatever he wants but that doesn't mean that I always have to answer to it. I feel like I'll end up just ignoring his speech, it's not like I'd get his jury vote over Evan anyway.

"njano"

- "all of the jury speeches have been posted and i'm probably not going to reply to them until later on but here are my thoughts since i've read all of them. I'll go alphabetically.

Alex's speech is nice I like his questions but I'm going to have to handle this carefully because he really did feel really close to me while I felt closer to others for sure. I'm thinking about some type of answer that compares it to me and Cammy from mount o where I thought she was my #1 but she kinda murdered me!

Cali's speech is nice as well although it was a bit hard to read but I think that's just my eyes being sad. The danganronpa question will be hard for me because I'm going to have a hard time actually comparing the characters to the jurors yikes. Also I don't know how quite to answer her actual game questions to me I don't think the whole she was apologizing thing actually was a major point and I'm shook she's putting so much emphasis on it. Another thing is she says that I need to say something that Evan simply did not excel at and I'm not quite sure what answer I could say because there are many things that I did better than Evan but like he simply did not excel at them? I don't think I can go so far.

Chris. Well. Yeah.

JACK HAD A 28 MINUTE SPEECH AND I SAT THROUGH THE WHOLE THING EVEN THOUGH IT WAS ONLY ABOUT ME FOR 5 MINUTES LMFAOO. Anyway his question for me is interesting probably my favorite question out of them all, I don't know why he wants to ask it but I'm giving it my pretty much truthful answer anyway but yeah this really is similar to his Sinai speech except a lot longer!

Jino's speech is a ? for me. I mean his whole like mantra here is EVAN UR A LIAR NICOLE UR A LIAR TELL ME WHY UR NOT LIARS. I'm like... girl you lied too? you withheld information as well? what.. this seems rather hypocritical and he didn't even read the speeches ugh. Idk probably one of my least favorite speeches but ugh I just know that I want to pick 100 for my number for him but I have a feeling Evan would want to as well.

Natalia's speech is hard for me. I still don't know what in the world I even said to these people and why they're still maintaining it even in Ponderosa because literally, I didn't say anything. I reread all of my conversations to get logs but literally, I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING and I'm just going to stand up for myself because I'm really frustrated.

Nora Nora Nora ugh she's literally the person I've shat on the most in this game in confessionals and overall and I feel bad. I REALLY REALLY actually feel bad because like I've said in my various talks about Chris' final words she's actually genuine and has the best intentions at heart. She did really frustrate me during idol gate and did frustrate me with our disagreements but either way she's a human and I really shouldn't have been so mean.

Trent's speech was simply ICONIC. My favorite part of this video was when he was like starting Evan's section remembered something about me and addressed it and then like ate for 20 seconds. Also when he said we had a situation I thought like something bad happened at ponderosa again but turns out nah!! I'm a woman and I did that lmao.

I love Will even if he is probably fping so hard at my Evan idol play I loved his speech and it simply was my favorite he read both of our speeches (respect) despite them being super super long. I miss him so much and I can't wait to talk to him again ugh I love him."

"njano"

- I don't feel confident with my chances to win but then again I never have. Every time I read or watch Evan's responses I just feel... he's so great with words and I'm just not he knows what to say and I just don't. I literally spent over 100 attempts trying to record a 30-second video of me talking about the game and I couldn't. I'd talk for 5 seconds and then I'd just not be able to talk anymore I don't know even know why I've been exhausted from this ftc. I'm happy with my answers and I really feel like this was definitely my best ftc performance ever (isn't that much of an achievement though).

"njano"

- "This will be my last confessional of the season!! I have a lot of thoughts but I'm going to try and keep it shorter. In terms of ftc I'm just glad that I'll get at least one vote and I'm proud of the game I played and my performance. I'm glad I was able to like clear up some places and I'm glad with the way I defended myself rather than folding and just being like yeah idolling Evan was a bad move which by the way I still don't think it was I really think it was the best move for me given the situation. I've made like what 160 confessionals this season and in half of them I'm probably a bit nasty and I'm probably going to regret half of the stuff I said but I said what I said and I'm fine with that being released I'll deal with the aftermath myself. I enjoyed this season it was quite the comeback after my 10 month break, I put a lot of time and effort into this season and I'm happy with that it was worth it. I made friends met new people got to know friends better and I overall had a great time. Again for the millionth time I'd like to thank the hosts and the other players. I loved it and no matter the result I'm happy.

Goodbye Nakuru ily <3"