I'm Probably Drawing Dead Now/Confessionals

Day 30
"nyuchi"

- i fucking held a grudge from pre merge till merge cuz ben gorelick left over fucking dovile imagine what i will do for fucking becky during merge. jake and vincent have something else coming for them and they wont lke it idc

"nyuchi"

- LIVING LIFE today!!! i am so shook that i actually flipped matthias and becky on roisin and louise. and vice versa obv but that happened quickly and i didn't expect the people who were coming for me to shake it up like that. that is a round that would like great in a FTC speech and now i'm ready for many more.

i'm having a rough time irl tonight, so my social game can die with my dreams for a hot minute, but tomorrow i'll try to repair the bridge with matthias and see where hals, louise, and roisin all are. i'm low key shook at how rude he got, but it's all okay. anger is a secondary emotion and it comes from fear or sadness, so i'll do my best to address both of those because i may need him for a move later. knowing the flip-floppery of some players, i need all my bases covered before i'm done like becky and drew were.

for the next round, my direction is unclear, but i need immunity if i want to pull off a substantial move so there's no real shot of it backfiring. i've been sitting with this hunter's lodge idol for five tribals now and i'm ready to use her.

i know there are still a lot of tensions between vincent and the rest of the tribe. i really want to find a way to exploit that to my advantage and keep him around as a goat. i think it's a F2, so that is a possibility. ideally, i can begin to angle hals and matthias as FTC threats and roisin as a strategic threat, then move in on jack and louise late-game, but that's a far way away. plans fall through and i expect mine to. i also know my name is out there now and people might not let go. whatever's next - i'm going out or forward fighting!! xoxo

"nyuchi"

- I don't know if this makes sense, but I feel that my game can be described in two words: loyal and messy. In my attempts to prove my loyalty (which usually succeed tbf) my gameplay ends up being incredibly messy. It's all going to come crashing down very soon, it's like I'm playing Twitter and I'm using all of my hands and feet and soon I'm going to make one wrong move and I'm going to fail in a spectacular fashion.

"nyuchi"

- meanwhile i'm getting increasingly insane 🙂

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"nyuchi"

- last tribal did not go how i expected, i wish i stayed calm but i showered, had a day off and came back with a plan. this week im willing to go if my plan doesnt work I understand its me vs louise i thought of a plan to make a strong plea against why she needs to go and it should work

"nyuchi"

- yesss. today was a success and a failure, but it's all okay.

despite six hours of work, i'm probs losing to vincent in the immunity because he likes clicking cookies for hours. but i think i did a decent job of repairing relations with matthias and took that angle as far as i could to get his sights off myself and onto someone else. i subtly blamed louise and roisin for the becky vote, just by saying they came to me an hour after results and not clarifying how it ended up on becky, and now he's v set on louise and i have options going into the next tribal ideally, since he's spread it to the straights and is looking for a 5-2 blindside. i personally like it because roisin and louise have voted correctly all of merge, so it'd knock them off the ""i've never been blindsided"" status the other five of us don't have.

there's a chance he's attempting to play us against each other, so i'll definitely work that out, but i'd honestly like to see them both go soon in whatever order just for playing quality games. i personally thought roisin was the larger threat, but after talking around, people really seem to respect louise's gameplay so it's in my best interest to try to be the last zambezi and start really thinking of what i can boast for in FTC because it's getting close and i might have a shot considering how solid my bonds to jack, vincent, louise, matthias and roisin are, or at least appear to be. i'm v wary of matthias and will likely go for him or hals either this tribal or the one after, esp. considering the tribal chat wildness, but since i planted the seed, it might be v nice to let it go and claim credit later ❤ so far my only huge moves are causing the alliance leak at F11, shutting down dovile's comeback at F10, and fracturing the majority at F8 and that's really not enough for me since those were all more UTR-style moves that i might have to defend to a jury. idk i'm thinking too far ahead but i'm really starting to think how i can get more aggressive so the jury can see i'm a contender!

"nyuchi"

- I am DETERMINED to win this challenge 😂😂 i spent all last night getting my cookie factory in2 a gd position so when i slept it was doing 7 million cookies every second, and when i woke up it was on 220 billion or so 😮 vincent was my main competition but appaz he was using a script so he had 2 start again! he then said jack wld be my main competition cos "last Vincent heard he was on 2 billion" 😮 but I am on 520 billion 😀 by the time i have 2 submit it shld be in2 the trillions so i am hopeful of a victory yay!! ❤ Xx

Day 31
"nyuchi"

- vincent didnt win, taking a shot at louise didn't work I have to exploit every crack I see till I find gold and im reshaping my target strategy. this time im in my element because i can be vocal and chaotic because I have nothing to lose

"nyuchi"

- i love when i put in the work to see something happen and matthias and vincent can’t play nice and let it happen i’m not ok. they just hate each other too much to work together i guess and i think my best move might be trying to find a way to keep that rivalry in the game and alive!

"nyuchi"

- Low key I feel that my game was good until I aligned with Jake, that really made things a lot harder than they needed to be and I'm probably drawing dead now, I'll going to keep going just in case it will change

"nyuchi"

- I think at this point, I could beat anyone In the final nnnnn I would have the toughest time beating Jake and jack though I think

"nyuchi"

- Wellllll i'll be damned jake is a wee snake know that 😅 he told me he had 100 billion cookies 4 hours b4 the deadline then he rocks up with 4 trillion 😡 luckily previous arguments r gna control this tribal and it looks like 1 of vincent matthias or louise r going. i'll probs vote matthias but even i can see that louise is a threat and probs needs 2 go b4 ftc 😞 idk we'll see, but at least i wont have 2 use my idol or vote steal this round hopefully 😮 xx

"nyuchi"

- might be getting this vote on hals and keeping the rivalry around as a shield. i completely somehow worked a convo with louise into that outcome (and found out hals is louise’s target) idt louise realizes how involved she is with the situation that went down today (basically the plan to go for her is the source of the tension between vincent and matthias) so keeping both around isn’t great for her but it’s amazing for me. the three of them have become a triangle of tensions and i’m here for it because i genuinely think i might have a lot of sway with them. i really hope this works out but i also understand tensions are very high and somehow working enemies into neutrality is v difficult so let’s see!! 😊 meanwhile going to start trying to turn jack against other people because i need him on my side going forward. we’re v tight and we’ve voted together every time, but he’s becoming increasingly laid back so it’s harder to get where his head is at.

meanwhile i’m sure either roisin or louise has the idol and i’m shook.

also i’m shook that i was fine in the tribe fight. i could’ve been v on board with matthias’ plan and for some reason he kept my name out of it and i’m so happy whatever i did worked.

"nyuchi"

- Matthias is the obvious vote. Jake wants to keep him around as a consistent target, but he wants to vote Hals. Hals is one of my top allies. So either I have to convince him to vote out a huge target or I have to vote out my top ally. Unless... Roisin isn't a huge Matthias-level threat and I'm not that closely allied with her CF: so maybe she'd be the best vote.

"nyuchi"

- Roisin is completely misting Jake, he is so stubborn about keeping her around

"nyuchi"

- so the voting process has been a process lmfao.

trying to switch the target from matthias to hals to keep my shields has been interesting.

louise was v on board. vincent took a lot of convincing, but eventually he saw what i was saying. keeping hals is great for him because he could sway her the same way i might be able to sway matthias but i think i worked it.

now it’s just about getting jack and roisin on board and getting all of us on the same page on fake publicizing matthias as our target then sneaking on hals to prevent advantages.

it could still fall through because of hals’ og hwadze connections and matthias’ continuous self-destruction, but i’m going to try my best :/

"nyuchi"

- OK ok. Jake is gunning for Hals, Vincet is gunning for Ro and me and hals are gunning for vincent. idk how POTS is free and safe (Louise) but sure.. We're trying to use Roisin's vote stealer so we build a solid 4 votes on vincent ... god this is so.. UGH fuck us up roisin