Board Thread:Season 39 - Morocco/@comment-29899619-20170403110059/@comment-30945643-20170403163208

Hey Whit. I'm up so let's do this.

First thanks for bringing up honesty. Let me tell you exactly what you're going to get from Tate when he gets off of work.

He's going to give a nice greeting, talk about how sorry he is for the way he acted and how much he's changed as a person. Every answer is going to come back to A) How great you are and how huge your ego deserves to be B) How not sorry Will is C) How great any other juror that he wants to impress is. That's been the strategy for every answer, because he knows that flattering people's egos instead of being real with them is as deep as his game goes. Just feed whoever's speaking exactly what they want to hear. Tate's had this personal journey of self reflection and change that I don't think he's mentioned to you, me, Aras, Romain, Brett, or Anna. I've talked to this kid every day since you were voted out and I haven't heard a damned thing. I'd ask you to take a look at my response to Anna's question because that goes into his tendency to blow smoke up people's ass.



I also think you could have been much harder on me with your questions, so please feel free to reply to this with more. Or just general shit talk, it's all god.

1. Do you want my jury vote?

Yes.

2. Do you think your incessant arrogance is still justified?

No.

1. Do you like me, Whitney Benson, as a person?

No. I don't hate you like you said, but you're not my cup of tea.

''2. Why did you vote me out when you did? I personally felt like I had no chance of winning, so was surprised everyone was against me so much.''

You probably know why it was strategically good for me. Maybe I could have tried to take out Tate or Brett instead, but it was the choice that didn't rock the boat and I knew that Aras was considering using you to vote me out. I also had better relationships with everyone else on Zahra because how could we possibly have any trust between us after the things I said to you.

3. Since I was on the outs all the time, I had no idea what was going on - what was one move the other finalist made that was pivotal in the game?

I'm really going to try to answer this fairly, really. If Tate were successful any of the three times he targeted me or if he had used his relationship with Zak/Brett/Aras for some purpose, I think those would have been pivotal moves, but really I'd agree with you that voting out Anna and taking me to FTC is the first and biggest thing strategically that Tate did. No shade intended. Anna asked him what his flashiest move was, and he said that was it. I'd ask him to reply to this if he thinks he did something else I should have mentioned..so there's that.

4. Predict how each juror is going to vote - yes 



Ooh fun.

9) Kristen - I have zero idea where Kristen's head is at but I'd assume Tate.

8) Zak - I think he probably believes that Tate is remorseful, which is unfortunate but I can respect Zak's opinion.

7) Whitney - I think I sacrificed your jury vote back in F8 when I told you I didn't want it. At the time I remember being really upset at how you'd treated me during the first two rounds and feeling like you were holding you jury vote over my head, so I said some dumb shit and I have to live with it. I also told you that you were irrelevant to the game (if you remember) which in my opinion is worse because it was just some bullshit thing I said to make you feel bad or to look cool to the VL. I'm not really sure which. I actually went back to the conversation and the one's preceding it, and I really cringe at how little there was for me to be upset about. I overreacted to the things you did time and time again, and being offended gave me the moral high ground, in my head, to say whatever the fuck I wanted. I'm not going to hold it against you when/if you do vote for Tate because that's the bed that I made for myself, and I know that you say your vote is up in the air but objectively I don't think there is any chance at all that you vote for me. Which is fair.

6) Aras - I believe Aras votes for Will because he's strategically minded and that wasn't really an element of the game that Tate had success with.

5) Romain - I'm not sure, Romain is also very strategic but I know that Tate is going to tell Romain what a strategic mastermind he (Romain) is without being honest about the things he's said about Romain that indicate he doesn't respect him as a player. I'm the reason Romain went home, so I'd say Tate but I'm least confident about this one.

4) Brett - He wanted to go to the end with Tate over me, which indicates that he thought he could beat Tate more easily than he could beat me. I'd say Will.

3) Anna - Will.

Will, you need to show why you hated me...

I mentioned this, but while I didn't hate you, I just really disliked how you acted once you were on bottom. I felt like you were cocky and antagonistic (pot calling the kettle black, eh??) and if you remember, you started out by calling me Aras and Zak's goat, which really bruised my ego. It was dumb because I knew that wasn't the case, but it was important to me that you knew that for whatever reason. Also I was so dead set on avenging Rood you have no idea, so that was the catalyst for everything really.

and if you've changed.

I won't change as a person from this, because Will as a person is completely different from who I am here. Tate's going to tell you that he's changed forever, and that's good for him if you don't think he's bullshitting you, but let's be realistic. I've always been competitive, and that's something that I've learned to be mindful of so it's not an issue in my personal life. Hasn't been since I was 16. I'm never one to gang up on the little guy because I know what it's like be on the wrong side of that. I hate bullies and that's why I feel disappointed with myself for how I was here. I really felt like you were bullying people and shitting on them to make yourself look better, but that's exactly what I did, isn't it? To be real with you, the last few months have been extremely peaceful in Will's life.. I met someone around the start of the game and I've been generally the opposite of how I played here, so she'd also be disappointed in me to know some of the things I said to you. I can't take that shit back and I'm sorry.

However, my experience with you, Kristen, and this entire cast is going to make me rethink everything in terms of how I approach ORGs in the future. I'm gonna be real with you, I fell in love with this game. I had so much fun with every aspect of this (even when I shouldn't have) and I really think I'm good at this. Not perfect, not even great, but good. And I enjoy the shit out of it so it's something that I want to keep doing. But I have to think about whether it's ethical for me to keep playing these games, you were the first person I had any adversity with and I completely lost it at you. That's not sustainable, and I'm not okay with victimizing a handful of people every time I play. I've always prided myself on being super objective, and I never blamed anyone for game moves, but just like I criticized you for doing, I got swept the fuck up and I lost all of my perspective when my narrative got challenged. So I would say, if I do decide that I can play again without acting like a shit head, I'm going to be extremely honest with myself about the ethics of what I'm doing outside of the game, and I'm not going to say a fucking thing to someone in a 1-7 minority. You know I live for the confrontation because the drama is fun for everyone, but we both know I crossed the line very early on and I really, really regret that I turned competitive banter into just straight hostility. Outside of FTC or whatever, I'm sorry Whit. We could have had a fun rivalry, but I spoiled it and I know that I fucked with your life in the process.