Board Thread:Season 30 - Svalbard/@comment-26244999-20160127184724/@comment-27299215-20160128022110

 Why do I deserve to win this game? I’m actually really glad that this is the question because there has been something I have been wanting to say.

 Going into this final tribal, I was expecting to go into the jury vote with a 7-0 loss. Why wouldn’t I, we all tricked ourselves into thinking that Tatianna played a great game. Throughout the game everyone was like, “we can’t let her get to the finals” or “she is playing a great game.” However, after reading through all of her speeches, it has become blatantly obvious that she has only made two moves in this game. The first move being voting you off (though she would have been the largest idiot in the world not too, you were too powerful), the second move being the final immunity challenge. Her winning that is the only other notable thing she did all game. I made seven notable ones. I was responsible for Eva going home, I made sure no one flipped in the Aren vote, I managed to get the target off of my back right when Thomas put one on it, I am one of the reasons that Alietta went home, I am the sole reason that Brandon went home, I am the reason why Thomas went home, and most of all I managed to convince you guys that I was one of the biggest idiots to ever play this game. Win or lose, I played the fool card to the fullest extent and it worked.

 In terms of the Thomas vote, why did I send him home over Brett? I had convinced myself that I had no shot at winning, it wasn’t until I typed up my introduction speech that I realized just how good of a game that I played. And I didn’t just stay to one style, I went from power house, to ghost, to weakling, to follower, the decided. As I do have clinical anxieties I do not condone people calling my gameplay “bi-polar” as I don’t approve of that word being used as an insult, that being said my gameplay was all over the place, that no one that was still in was able to figure it out. Back to your question though, since I had convinced myself I had zero shot at winning, I had to get rid of the one person standing between me and a guaranteed spot in the finals, and that was Thomas.

 I know I was nowhere near as close with you than you were with Tatianna. You two are friends which makes my attempt at your vote even tougher, but I am not going to lie or bash her in order to do so. Instead I am bringing you facts about my game and how my game was better played than hers. As I have previously stated, my biggest regret was the retribution argument. I never even thought that a huge fight (let alone a fight) would come out of that and if I could take it back I would have never posted it, however that fight but me in a great in game position, it was a distraction that took the target off my back, and let brandon and thomas being targeted, leaving me with the deciding vote.

 As for the bratty way I acted the entire season, most of it was an act. I’m sure some of you guys did some fb stalking on me during the season and those who did probably looked at my wall and would realize that my behavior in this doesn’t add up to my real life. I even like to think of myself as a nice person in real life, but in this game being nice is the same as being a threat, and playing it rude and bratty was my best chance of getting this far.

 Ultimately Rihannon, the decision is yours. I know you are good friends with Tatianna, but when you compare all of the moves I made this game, to the two moves she made in her game, there is no comparison. Tatianna may have seemed like the golden finalist coming into this, but when you dissect her game, you are basically looking at someone who, aside from flipping on her alliance once, floated to the f4. I did what I needed to do to stay alive. I trusted nobody and made moves whenever they were necessary. I didn't just choose a side.