I Highkey Miss Being a Bitch/Confessionals

Day 14
"zambezi"

- JoJo's Bizarre Adventure (2012) - NICE! ☆

"zambezi"

- so I think I kinda lucked out on this tribe dovile has my back for sure I’m like certain on that and while she can be super hella annoying with her paranoia she’s v v sweet and someone I’d want to go to the end with for sure I’m also certain in knowing that if we lost again I’d probably be alright and I wouldn’t go home at this point my UTR social queen strategy is doing alright atm and I’m proud of myself 😊 I hope when we merge dan and Becky r there tho bc I highkey miss being a bitch with them ugh

"hwadze"

- Drew sat out of the challenge even though he would probably have been better than me. I can't be too upset because it would probably be a good idea to sit me out of the more important immunity challenge, but I really have no idea what to do for an SOS signal

Day 15
"hwadze"

- we won reward and if the idol was not found its bound to be because it is now limited to 4 options I wish I waited to look for the idol because im sure it's gonna be taken away from me now. which is rlly upsetting cuz id love an idol i think a good idol play shapes up a good ftc. whatever still legend fuck blue lives

"zambezi"

- dynamic here is kinda stagnant but i am leaning towards working with dovile louise and elizabeth going forward just bc they’re honestly easier to read than jack and ben who i love on a personal level but strategically am getting a lot of mixed signals from. plus i’d love to visit that cute lil hunters lodge. idk time will tell! for now i’m thinking about the fact that it is day 14 and we could merge after another vote or three so it is time to start thinking about who i could see myself going in the long run with and my concern is new hwadze becoming v tight and pagonging us since becky and dan were kinda up in the air about things when we split and might form actual solid bonds over there. like i really could see myself working with becky since we clicked strategically but dan gave a red flag by intentionally ignoring strategy chat thinking i didn’t know we were keeping dovile (???) and then apologizing when he realized i was in the know 😂😂 idk i think i’m in a good position if this tribe cannibalizes which is honestly becoming a possibility but you never know bc some people are wild!!

"zambezi"

- that reward challenge was the worst also dovile chose the worse looking signal and that’s the tea

"zambezi"

- Oh my GOD! Thanks God 👏🙏 we did not win that reward challenge. I guess some people do not know that the idol is re-hidden or not been found, so I am very happy about this. But honestly I wouldn't say the same about the immunity challenge. It really pisses me off going to tribal. It takes a lot of nervous. I would really like to win the next challenge, because I just wanna take some rest. I wouldn't even be surprised if the next episode has a double tribal and we will go into the merge at f10. Sooo, interesting! Right now my goal is to stay loyal for all Zambezis (before the merge), not win the reward challenge, win immunity challenge, but if it not happens, I will do my best to take out Jack! #swapfucked I did the same for Aaron in Mexico, when we played on Koror org.

"hwadze"

- The challenge is Survivor trivia and I think that I will do very well here. I am a huge fan of Survivor (one step below superfan) and one of my friends has an insane amount of geography knowledge so he might be able to help me study 🙂 I'm confident we can pull out a win here

"hwadze"

- So Drew has an idol, and Matthias likely thinks I have an idol. Likely due to Drew's lies. I might just have to invent a fake story to throw the challenge.

"zambezi"

- JESUS CHRIST. FUCK,FUCK AND AGAIN FUCK! My tribe is full of flops and losers. The girls are always slower, it is obvs, but Jake, Ben, Jack, WHERE ARE YOU? Especially you Jack, where the hell you are? You are gonna get voted out if you fuck up this challenge ugh

"hwadze"

- Alright sooooooo where to start about this new tribe?

Vincent, Drew, Hals and Matthias and Rose? I think that’s her name LMFAO

Vincent is a nice guy, he’s been a bit difficult to talk to but I can tell he’s a good kid. ❤ he knows Jake and Elizbeth due to another org so it’ll be interesting to see how their relationships translate over from that org to this one.

Hals’s is cute asf BUT she knows about my performance on BAR which is a bit scary, and I don’t want to be meta targeted that’s my biggest fear and I think it’d be a total ass way to go out. She seems like a random icon tho so I’l all here to get to know her better ❤ she’s been busy with work and I’ve been busy with life stuff so it’s been difficult to sit down and have a conversation.

It’s the same situation with Rose and Drew, I still don’t really know much about them but Rose gave me some interesting tea about how her and Kiley got into a fight and that Kiley could’ve been a contender to go home at their 2nd tribal which I do believe because Kiley is now out of the game. Drew’s a bit strange because he went on about how well I did on the bubble bee challenge and gave me deadass the exact differences between my scores and others so I guess thank you for letting me know you’re looking too much into things? That concerns me and I don’t feel comfortable with having someone like him in the game if he already picks up on things like that, it makes me think what else he could look into yknow?

Matthias and I have played like 3 orgs together now? O.o and I’m about to host him in an org so I deadass can’t get away from him, but he’s chill and I do like him, but I don’t know if he and I have a good enough bond on a 1 on 1 basis to go deep into this game. However…. I’m now in two alliances with him: One with Becky, Matthias and I and one with the same group + Hal’s, which is good for protection however Hal’s is my target for the open season so it’s a bit frustrating that someone who is good with most people is the target again for me, which is why my main focus is to keep winning, hopefully I can put my 100% into the challenge tomorrow even tho I’m not feeling the best due to family circumstances, but I still need to push on and win so I can get a better read on these people so I’m able to move deep into this game. :S

"hwadze"

- Social game put on hold until the challenge is over, even if our win is basically guaranteed I'm just too competitive

"zambezi"

- FUCK ONCE WE ARE CLOSE TO THE OTHER TRIBE, SOMEBODY HAS TO SCORE THREE OR MORE TIMES IN A ROW. I hate Becky, hate Drew fuck them all I mean Becky and Dan are soo silly Their tribe mate or ally Jack is alone here They have a majority, why do they try to win this so much Fuck them Like Becky and Dan will not get voted out Because they are smart and they know what to do. But jesus christ, Vincent, that little silly kid, Drew, that white plum ARE fucking NOT smart. How CAN they play this game if they have no brains. They do not think about themselves at all Ugh my patience is tested

"zambezi"

- yikes. we're probably going to lose again and if new hwadze is tight, we're down 7-5. for me, voting strategy would be dependent on what is the safest approach to provide multiple options for my game going forward. to describe the logic for each:

jack - the safest vote now and the most dangerous vote going forward. it's easy to 5-1 him, but it'd be tantamount to pagonging old hwadze, which leaves five people in the game v unhappy with us that we don't know. i'd prefer to keep him as a connection to old hwadze. if i try to save him once, maybe he'd do the same for me.

elizabeth - i see her as my ride or die, but we've had a few disagreements, both from this org and iguazu. for now, though, she's in a great position socially and while dovile is wary of her, it's in my best interest to keep working with elizabeth. but we could eventually be seen as a duo in this game, so i just need to be cognizant of that going forward.

louise - louise and i haven't really connected too well? she's iconic but we just never seem to talk for longer than a few minutes. the issue with voting her is it'd leave a pissed dovile in this game. we're also in a trio with dovile and if they genuinely like that trio, there's no real reason to screw that up yet.

dovile - she is a presence to say the least. i love the way she speaks her mind, but she overplays sometimes and while that makes her an excellent shield for me in some ways, i don't want to jump on a sinking ship. because i send her my parchment every round as a sign of trust, she's grown to really like me. she sent me an essay the other day about how she thinks i'm ""the best human in this game"" and how she'd go to the end with me even if it's bad for her game. like it touched my heart, but knowing she was expressing concerns to elizabeth frequently when they were still tight, i'm wary. on a personal level, i adore her. on a game, i'm getting mixed signals. ultimately, voting her poses the same issue voting louise does. it leaves someone v angry left in the game. additionally, she and becky vibed well last minute on zambezi and i don't want to burn that bridge so.

ben - ben is my optimal target this round, both open season and not. he just doesn't have too many connections rn. he and jack are tight (?), and elizabeth is close with him, but turning her on him wouldn't be too hard and i think jack would be at least happy to be saved. i think i could angle it as the best option to keep him. i love ben on a personal level, it's just he's not best for my game going forward. he was the only one not in the augusto-middle system on zambezi so...

ultimately, ben is my best option, but also one of the harder ones to pursue. elizabeth is leaning against dovile. dovile is not doing a great job of making elizabeth feel comfortable. ben might pair up with jack. it'd be pretty hard, because i'd have to sway zambezi against itself, get elizabeth to trust dovile, and somehow prevent jack/ben from ruining it since it's not an ideal outcome for either. basically, it'd be pulling a lot of strings, so i'm trying to plant my seeds now and see where they go and how they grow, but so long it's not me, i think i'm fine since i'm well connected with my tribe rn. like i don't want to be cocky bc that's not a cute look, but based on what i know i think i'm in one of the better positions here so it's just about using that position to segway into another swap or the merge. ultimately, i think this tribal could see one of two things naturally without my interference:

1) elizabeth/ben/jack want dovile. 2) og zambezi wants jack.

naturally, my third option will be v difficult to implement, so if i can implement it without undoing my position or augusto-ing myself into being taken out, i'll try. sometimes the right thing is understanding that now isn't the time to make moves. i think i could survive quite a few tribals here and i'm not ready to mess that up for a third route to og hwadze connections. idk. time will tell and i'll know for sure when people actually start thinking strategically for this vote!

"zambezi"

- i cant singlehandedly carry this tribe ive never been on a tribe this utterly uncaring in challenges like i know you just get two free swapfuck boots but come ON

"hwadze"

- now I can't vote out Drew 😢

Day 16
"zambezi"

- so my target is ben and it was going to be so complicated to get ben out and now it's THAT much easier. legit just convince dovile and louise he's the better option and i'll be picking myself up a cute lil souvenir from that hunter's lounge and i will be wearing that down the runway. and in case he has the idol, i'll try to make sure it's a blindside. i'm so ecstatic rn like yesss jack

"zambezi"

- i have elizabeth and ben both thinking i want dovile out and dovile and jake both think im voting out ben my dick is hard and im ready to play the middle the only thing that sucks here is that i have to finally choose a side hnnnnn

"zambezi"

- okay,so... we lost again. Fuck Jack, he did not try so much, because he knew he will use this. I hate him so much. Ben is flop, Eliza is kind of moron. What does she do here ? And how dares to vote me out?? I am on a tribe of losers. Jack has shocked me tbh, but I am not mad at him, I would do the same. The other tribe is dumb af, except Dan and Becky. They could throw this challenge and take one Zambezi out, but I am sure it would not be Dan or Becky. Now we are on a tribal. I feel Ben is voting me, while I am voting him. I will try to convince Louise and Jake to stay with me. Eliza scares me as well, coz she voted me 6 days ago, but we will see. I am not sure if I use an idol, I really don't wanna do this, too early. The good point is that I know I have it and nobody else does.

"zambezi"

- so this vote is looking insane already. i can tell it would have been jack just because we were not ready to turn on each other.

dovile - easiest target but best shield. she is overplaying a lil and really frustrating people with the loyalty pledges but on a personal level she’s my fave. i’m going to do what i can to save her this round but if louise is as against her as elizabeth says, there’s not much i can do. prayer circle for dovile!!

louise - the eye of the storm. she is telling two sides two stories and i have seven hours to find the truth. i just need to find the right angle so i don’t show my own cards to find hers but i need her vote so. but eyes on her going forward she showed up this round and idk if i’m here for it.

elizabeth - by voting dovile she set herself against her for the rest of the game and will not settle for anything less than dovile going, which makes keeping dovile beneficial as they’ll always go for each other over me. she’s definitely siding with ben, but he threw her name to dovile so that could be an angle to exploit.

ben - easiest route because it frustrates the least people in this game and isolates jack as an ally option which will make him easier to pick up. it’s just about where louise’s head is at.

worst comes to worst - i could leak elizabeth revealing louise’s second side to louise which could get louise on a warpath. idk i still haven’t heard my name which is a good testament to my position in this game i guess. hoping for the best expecting the worst and can we merge already?

"hwadze"

- So we won the challenge which is preferable at this point, other than that happening the only thing noteworthy that happened on this tribe was Drew messaging me about wanting to not make this season ""boring"" and not pagonging people which is nice and all but this guy has not talked to me at all so I don't see why he's say say something like that to one of the two people who, as far as he's concerned, is on the bottom, unless he wants information. I'm not sure about him so I'm just gonna try to keep my eye on him and if I have to let the other original members of this tribe know about what he said, I may have do so!

Jack pulled out some tribal skip which is lowkey funny asf, I assume tribal over there is gonna be interesting but I have a gut feeling jake and Elizabeth are one side and dovile and Louise are another with Ben in the middle... well see what results will be like. I assume Jacks original plan was to try hard in this immunity and then have like a better overall placement? Idfk but I think this advantage of his will either work to his advantage or disadvantage. If he comes back to a messy camp with everyone mad at eachother due to a blindside then I think more power to him. But if he comes back to a tribe who are mad at him due to causing them to not have a seemingly ready vote then I can assume he's probably boned. Personally, I would rather see him make merge if he has enemies cuz then hey, it may help keep the spotlight off me.

I'm gonna go sleep it's 3:30 am here and I don't know why df I'm up 😴