Win This Damned Challenge/Confessionals

Day 37
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- "I have won my 3rd immunity in a Row! Do I think I needed it? Of course. Everyone (besides I think Andrea) would have voted me out if I lose at final 6 or 5. I don't think I needed it at 7, but being safe is never a bad thing. I am so thankful that I have been able to clutch these wins out in these last few days, I didn't think I had it in me, If I'm being honest. But I feel as if I am gaining more and more confidence with each day that passes in this game. I know I have been playing a great game, unfortunately it isn't as ""flashy"" as I wanted. I know from last round before Su left, he seemed a little cold with me, unlike everyone else that has been sent to the Jury. He mentioned to me how he thought I was making Yousef's move for him, which was not the case at all, but that is his perception. I tried to explain to him that he had stronger skillsets in the places that I am weak at (puzzles/social games) and that is why I felt the need to vote him out, and that it was completely devoid of Yousef's input, however I am not sure that he believed me. I think that voting Yousef out at this point, is probably the best move for me. I know I am not helping out my ""boring"" looking gameplay by making a flashy move to save Yousef and blindside Jake, however, I think that would be a horrible move for my game. Yousef has been promising me the world if I was to keep him this round. I have a tough time believing him, because If I were in his shoes... that is exactly what I would be saying to him. Yousef makes some VERY valid and compelling points, but I know I can't trust him. Ever since the Elmo vote, when he threw my name under the bus, he has basically lost all the trust I had in him, which really sucks because he is a great dude to hang around and talk too.

I'm not sure how Andrea will feel about this plan, but I'm trying to show her this option as possibly being the best move for us. I really want Andrea in the end with me at this point, because I don't think her self-vote at the last tribal council is going to be helping her case should we be standing in front of the jury together. The other spot (if it is a final 3) is a toss-up for me between Jake and Karsten. Jake has this amazing UTR game, and Karsten has a crazy under-dog story, but I can also see him as a goat at this point. Jake is the biggest wild-card for me, because I haven't heard the jurors say anything about him as they were leaving, or while they were in the game. Nothing good, and nothing bad. He is this enigma I just can't place my finger on. He could either be an amazing player who has been making all these subtle moves, or he could be this player everyone just sees as a floater and no one will vote for. It's really 50/50 for me.

I know my game relies on me winning immunities to get to the end, but I need to prove to this jury I have agency in the game. That I was able to get what I wanted to happen at tribal council. I believe Su has a lot of sway on this Jury, and if he was displeased with me making the choice to vote him out last round over one of the others because he thinks Yousef was manipulating me, then I need to make sure Yousef leaves this round. If I let him stay, then that will just reinforce Su's stance on my game, which could cost me down the like. I also think Yousef is probably the stronger of the two in challenges, so voting for Yousef is better for me on two fronts. For me getting to the end, and for me being able to win a jury vote. Yousef has been one of the consistently smartest and strategic players through out this whole season, and I know I can't have that sort of the threat have a chance to beat me in the next challenge(s). Do I think keeping Jake in the game has its own problems? Of course! But only one person can get the boot tonight, and after weighing all the options, I think this plan is what I need to accomplish if I want to make it to day 39."

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- Ethan and Yousef r fighting over how to get me to f3 WSEDRFTGHJNM HELP

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- https://youtu.be/CUnSOxKSnT8

Day 38
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- "Here it is! The FINAL immunity challenge! I am so close to day 39 I can taste it! I have won the last 3 immunites in a row, and I know how the other players on the tribe are perceiving me, so If I can't close it out and win this last challenge, I don't stand a chance. My entire game, everything I have done up to this moment has all come down to this. It is terrifying, and I am not getting cocky, I wouldn't be surprised if Jake came out of the woodwork and whooped my ass on a few portions of this challenge.

TRIAL 1 - Flag Making: Funny thing about this... I actually made a tribe flag way back at like the final 8, so I just had to tweak it a little bit, and voila! I have my flag already finished basically before this challenge even started. I knew it would be a challenge down the line, but having it already done REALLY came in handy for me to be able to focus on the other 3 parts.

TRIAL 2 - Hand on a Hard Idol: This one is the only part of the challenge where everyone knows how well everyone else is doing. So far, I am in the lead, and if I keep it up for a few more hours, there will be no way for anyone else to pass me. So I hope I can keep it up. I will stay awake until the deadline if I have to. I need this so bad.

TRIAL 3 - Logic Problem: This was by far the hardest one, and fuck this logic puzzle. I have never really done anything like this before, so I had to figure out what the hell a ""logic grid"" was, and started using that to narrow down the options. I took forever on this part, so I am basically considering myself as ""last"" in my head. I need to rock it out on the other parts if I want a chance to win.

TRIAL 4 - Sunny Day Sky: I have been flapping this umbrella for hours. It is torture. But I love it! I am fairly good at flashgames, and I think I figured out a strategy to get a really good score, but I feel like I can see everyone else figuring it out as well. This is by far the most important one, because if there is a tie, then this will be considered the tie-breaker. (I think that is how it will work)

SO YEAH, I am really worried, and I'm unsure about what I want to do (if I do) end up winning the game. I know I want Andrea in the final 3 because I feel like she probably has the weakest shot to win the whole game. I know Myself/Andrea/Jake have all had an alliance for a while now, and that Karsten is the ""lone man out"" meaning if he makes it to the end, he will have a VERY different story than the rest of us. And if the jury respects his underdog gameplay, then there is nothing we can do to stop him from winning. Where as on the other hand, I see the jury thinking he is a goat as well. I feel as if Jake/Andrea/Myself have played similar games, and I hope I have played the best version of our games, so I think I have a chance to beat them if I have played my cards right with this jury. Honestly this conversation is for another confessional, if I even win this damned challenge in the first place. "

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- "im currently on 24 hours awake and there are 2 hours until the deadline for everything but the endurance portion. I am constantly trying to play this flash game but in this state right now I keep fucking up a lot of obvious and easy jump and its so frustrating. Im actually kind of emotional right now, I am constantly playing but not getting any further because of my lack of sleep. I want this SO badly. Honestly probably more than anything I have ever done and I feel like my body is giving out on me. I'm just terrified of losing and having everything Ive done up to this point be worthless. I think I have a good score, but I don't know how anyone else is doing... It makes me want to cry. I have put my EVERYTHING into this and I just can't have this be the end. I don't want it too. I just... It can't be. I feel like this is finally my chance and I don't want it stolen away from me.

Sorry this is just my lack of sleep riddled brain rambling and being emotional... This isn't like me, but everything right now all my emotions feel heightened and also diluted at the same time... It is the most bizarre feeling. I'm not giving up though, I have too much on the line to come up this short. I know I will never get another shot at the ORG, so right now, in this moment, is what will make or break everything I have worked towards since the beginning of this game. Willow, Hunter, Grace, Evan, Sora, Nick, Yannick, Bryce, and my amazing boyfriend Farley, I'm doing this for you."

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- "Well, I just submitted most of my FIC results. According to what Jake told me, I beasted the logic puzzle, coming in at 8:41 while he *claims* he got over 40 minutes, and that Ethan got over an hour. Not sure if I truly believe him, but we'll see soon enough. Also beat him in the flash challenge by a score of 3.1 million to 1 million. I doubt Andrea did well in either. So i'm probably looking at potentially two first place finishes (flash/logic) and a second place (endurance, as long as I don't fuck up) or one first place (logic) and two seconds (endurance/flash). I think it might come down to the flag making trial, and I think I did a decent job in that one. Hopefully the masses agree. The flag challenge is probably the best chance to make up points against Ethan for winning the endurance part of the challenge.

Winning this immunity would go a long way in writing my narrative of being a clutch underdog player."

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- "I'm not sure if I would say that I'm ""proud"" of the game I've played. I wasn't socially or strategically connected to many people in the game, but during the biggest and brightest moments of pressure in this game, I came through in the clutch. I never backed down from a challenge that came my way and never gave up.

My relationship with Anita and Su helped me survive the Anita vote out, even though my boot was basically set in stone. By fostering a relationship with Anita, she felt the need to advocate on my behalf-- it may have cost her the game, but my social connection kept me around. I followed that up by volunteering for the hero challenge even though I expected to be against Elmo or Ethan, two challenge beasts. I wanted my fate in my own hands. I ended up thoroughly beating Bradley in two of the three trials to the point that I didn't even need to attempt the third. If I lose that challenge, I am 100% going home-- other tribe members basically told me as much afterwards. That's just one of a few examples that I hope to touch on if I get to FTC.

Fired up, ready to go.

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- https://youtu.be/8wss-BIjKOU

Day 39
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- THE DAY IS HERE. THE FINAL DAY. This marks the 100th day of the survivor ORG that I have played! It feels so great to finally be here, and be given the opportunity to state my case as to why I feel I deserve to win the title of Sole Survivor! Hopefully I don't fuck it up!