We Love Some Messy Tribals/Confessionals

Day 10
"kisimul"

- Holy fuck... grace actually leaving takes this game to a whole new level for me! I’m really happy shes gone and while i love her like a sister its soo good for my game that shes gone.

Plus, this round 2 groups are going to tribal, so if my tribe doesnt go then thats just a bonus for me and i’ve already advanced 2 more places!! 👅👅👅

"culzean"

- So the plan worked and Grace got sent home 2-1 and it’s 20 people left. At this point we thought it was gonna be a swap and Chris was like “lol nah bruh” and it’s a DOUBLE TRIBAL like...💀💀💀 bruh are you kidding me? So the three of us have to bust so much ass to not get sent home like ughhh the monarchs cannot catch a break lmao

"glamis"

- Me: I’m trying to drop subtle hints that I want to keep Chelsea safe at the next tribal.

Also me: "I want Chelsea safe at the next tribal."

"glamis"

- ugh. do i take a leap of faith? it's really becoming that sink or swim moment on glamis.

the reality of our current situation is with a double tribal and little wiggle room with who is competing, tribal is on the horizon and its best to start planting my seeds now so they seem more authentic when the day comes.

my main concern is this is likely the last pre-swap tribal, so this could change the criteria of the vote. before, i felt somewhat decent in that i had three quasi-social-strategic bonds that supplemented an alliance, but assured in that i have been a strong challenge performer for this tribe. the downside of the final pre-swap tribal? challenge performance is taken out of the equation and because that is something i’ve structured my safety around in a sense, i’m nervous..

that being said, it seems i’m not the only one expecting the inevitability of tribal and thus being a little more bold in trying to set up a safety net. jake did reach out and explain that he also lacks an alliance. i really hope he’s telling the truth. my concern is that if he’s in a majority and wants me gone, setting me up is a great way to make me a target over a different minority member. i’ve pulled that exact strategy in the past, so it’s realistic. however, i think that wouldn't make sense for his game, but you never know? i could take a leap of faith and say “let’s start something”, but in doing so i become a scapegoat of sorts for whoever is excluded and that’s so fcking messy. so i’m not sure what to do… i feel like i’m okay if we go to tribal.. making an alliance could go from okay to an extreme.. its just which extreme would that be? idk.. i feel like chelsea would still be the one to go, probably 5-1 even because while she’s an angel, i don't think anyone has built a particularly strong bond with her? there are alternatives, but i don't want to think of it until we go to tribal.

"kisimul"

- Yas we love some messy tribals *looks at Culzean* Maybe they are floppy so far but they sure are here to provide us with iconic results of their tribals sksksksk. As for our tribe.. I really don't wanna go to tribal. My things about potential target didnt change, i personally love Tyler but there's something so fake in him that scares me. Still i obviously don't want to lose this fuckin challenge as im typing this confessional after costant trying to improve my score. Jenna shared with me her castle visit and the fact that she got a steal vote that im actually VUNERABLE to since she can only steal our tribemates vote scares me. On the bright side, Jenna shared with me this information but i still need to flush that out asap. Plus, Jenna is a really emotional person and i kinda alraedy learnt when she feels off and how to handle her in those moments. Still Im staying on alert with this one

"fyvie"

- S50 Day 10 Confessional

"culzean"

- im literally giving myself a brain aneurysm. why wont sydney and tyler just DO BETTER IN THESE PUZZLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE I LITERALLY BEAT BOTH OF THEIR ATTEMPTS ON MY FIRST GO. I GET IM THE CRAZY ONE AND NOT THEM BUT ITS FUCKING DRIVING ME MAD. WE'RE GONNA LOSE FUCKING AGAIN BC THESE 2 CANT JUST FUCKING SLIDE A PUZZLE AND PUT PIECES OF A JIGSAW TOGETHER. this is SUCH a disproportionate response BUT ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY. we're literally losing again AND I CANT TAKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IVE HAD ENOUGH OF FUCKING TRIBAL COUNCIL

"culzean"

- u know what im just accepting that we're gonna lose. it's acc hard bc lowkey it could be me going and this is the first time ive ever felt that the whole game. REALISTICALLY... idt it will be bc tyler i think feels closer to me and sydney does too.. as far as i know.. but this is still UNNERVING. w/e i just need to embrace the denise/malcolm storyline. it SUCKS tho bc i do feel like im gonna be losing someone who is very loyal to me........ rip..............................

"glamis"

- Day 10 Confessional

Day 11
"glamis"

- i rlly thought we were going to tribAL LMFAO but jakey snapped and did that. time to swap i guess. we pray i end up with fyvies since ya..

"culzean"

- okay maybe i was wrong.. tbh i actually had like 14 mental breakdowns today over 3 fucking org puzzles like i need to reevaluate my life?? i usually get into this ott paranoid mind state in these games and IT NEEDS TO STOP. in arch i legit went crazy and thought that an option at exile island would get u automatically ejected from the game. KJBSDHA. embarrassing. so yes im glad my mental breakdowns in this game occurred on a round where we won immunity and now all i have to do is PUSH THEM DOWN and suppress them from occurring in the future.

also lol @this.. https://i.imgur.com/QB9Pk5T.png..... i am GENUINELY sorry to the well-intentioned hosts who had to suffer through me today. ESPECIALLY SORA who i ranted at for a solid like 40 minutes so i am SORRY!!!!! i really mean it. now sora give me my ottn for this ep and be done with it. bye im gonna enjoy a stress free day tomorrow

"fyvie"

- I feel so defeated right now. It's not the fact that we lost, it's not because I think I'm leaving this round, but it's because I feel like I have no energy to campaign and play like I normally would. That's not because of the tribe but because of IRL stuff going on and has been going for 5-6 days now. I've been inactive for basically two rounds because of this and I feel useless. The normal me would be going crazy to make sure I set up how every single person votes. Right now I'm just nodding my head to go along with what my alliance is saying. I wouldn't be shocked if I got voted out and it would probably be a relief. Idk, life just sucks sometimes and I'm not in the best place right now.

"kisimul"

- Fuck we lost... FUCK FUCK FUCKK. I don't want to suond emo but yesterdays been just a trainwreck day. For some other of my tribemates too and the loss was just cherry on the top of poison cake! Ive got a fever so i didn't get much chance to talk to people and didn't have much energy to think about it either. Since this is probably the last tribal before swap i have only one goal. SURVIVE THIS TRIBAL.

I still have no knowledge on who potentially holds the idol in our tribe, and Jenna has the ability to steal my vote which limits my options to staying low this week. I think the best move for me here is to do what would make my allies more happy. Jenna as i predicted would like Ally to go over Tyler. So we are disagreeing once again. Dani is trusting Tyler more, but shes undecided. I obviously want Ally to stay. Tyler threw Allys name out there and Ally just wants to survive. Tyler is basing his game on social (JUST LIKE ME!! HELLO THERE CAN BE ONLY ONE SOCIAL SLUT IN THIS TRIBE) and Ally is better at challenges. I also feel like Ally is a better person for me longterm wise.But i know that i can't just push too hard for what i want because im aware that with one wrong push everything could turn on me with a snap of the fingers. Im still going to try to save Ally its just a matter of how to do it. Id feel awful if i had to write her name down... Key person for this tribal is Dani.

Fuck..............I just want to survive this so badly.

"kisimul"

- so we are going to tribal basically bc of me lol. if i got a better time we wouldn’t be here! idk if the rest of the tribe cares or noticed bc i’m close to szy/dani and then also with tyler. going into this i had a bad feeling we would lose but i kept reassuring tyler we would be okay since i have the vote steal. tyler is definitely my closest ally other than szy, it’s a toss up between those two but i talk to tyler a loooot more. probably because of time zones tho. or he’s just great. i actually love him with my entire being. whether this game goes well or not i’ll be happy i became friends with him! but it’s gonna go well, i have lots of good vibes this season allies wise and power wise! it’s been like 7 hours since tribal was posted and ally still hasn’t messaged me, not that i expected her to bc i always have to message her first. :( i thought she was only doing it to me but it turns out she’s not v social with the other members either so that’s a relief. i much rather have kept all of us intact but since that can’t happen i def need ally to go. szy seems to want tyler to go more since he’s a “social threat” and gives him “fake vibes”. I would steal ally’s vote before that happened so i will fight him for tyler to stay lol. ally is a known game bot and obviously i get along with tyler way too well to let him leave!!!

"kisimul"

- So Jenna is rather set with the way she wants to vote... Sad thing is that i can't really push because i might only give her reasons for her to snatch my own vote later on. I just want to survive this so i might have to let Ally go and make sure that i don't get any votes aganist me. It would be much easier if i had knew where idol stands at and if it was even found. I can't do anything crazy when i don't know if im save. This is going to be a long day, i just want to make it to the swap and start a new chapter in my game.

"fyvie"

- Relatively eventful day, we lost the challenge and are the first tribe at the double tribal.

It makes complete sense to get Sarah out because she never talks to me (despite my efforts to) amidst being inactive and non-contributory to the tribe in all facets of the game, and thus essentially useless if swapped onto a tribe with her. I was concerned TJ wouldn't be receptive because he kept bringing up how much he'd 'clicked' with her, so I was suspicious that he might try and slow fade in a Bryce vote after initially agreeing to Sarah.

With this is mind I did lay some fallback groundwork to potentially capitalise on TJ's dark pearl (which I only found out about today - and that was a relieving surprise - if anything went awry Bryce, Audrey and I could guarantee a 4 majority on TJ). I was talking to Audrey though and it wouldn't be surprising at all if TJ had the idol - after all, he did volunteer to be the decoy vote.

However, I'm 85% convinced right now that the consensus is on Sarah. TJ and Jessica (the latter of which I'm more optimistic on as an ally now) seem to be mirroring the sentiments against Sarah. It's a boring move, but also the best one for now.

There was a brief incident whereby TJ told Audrey and I that Sarah ASKED to be voted out, only for Sarah to immediately make a groupchat to throw Bryce's and my name out, raising red flags and major side eye from Audrey and myself. It seems??? like that was just a bit of strategic neuroticism from Sarah and not TJ trying to be duplicitous, but I had Audrey agreeing to pile on TJ for a second there and my heart was AFLUTTER with excitement.

Despite how much I bring him up in this context, I'm not actually hell bent on getting TJ out, Sarah would actually be better for the time being, I'm just also a bit leery of TJ and it would be a fun move. I'm therefore not putting my foot down saying TJ has to go, but I also would rejoice if my rational jabs at him in my alliance chat with Audrey and Bryce, and private dms, resulted in them being fully down to vote him. I just wasn't sure if we could get the numbers on Sarah, but to my moderate surprise it seems like everyone is down.

Hoping this is the last cycle on OG Fyvie, I'm getting bored of the current dynamics and would love to meet some new people. "kisimul"

- Damn this sucks so badly...... Ive had my talks with everyone and it seems like itd be an unanimous vote aganist Ally, which sucks. I can't push for what i want too hard because at this point i need to adapt on whats going on rather than forcing control. Coming to a potential swap id rather for my tribemates to see as someone who would be going along with their ideas instead of someone who is going to push ideas down their throats. I still don't feel safe enough with lack of knowledge of where tf does the idol stand at. So i'm using Dani as a way to get Ally to target Tyler instead of Jenna like i feel Ally wants to do. This way i can stay out of fire if something goes wrong. It's all complicated since theres no reason for anyone to leave, its just the matter of trust. With this tribal i wanna appear like someone who's going to roll along with their ideas, and that i look out for their best interests, so it will be easier to gather information for me later on. My biggest challenge for now is how to handle Ally until Tribal results. I'd love her to pop off to me saying that she got the idol lololol so id be down to do something crazy. But now i have to lie to her which sucks SO BADLY because she trusts me and im walking on a thin ass ice right now.

"kisimul"

- well, we lost immunity, and with that.. my heart has completely shattered.

i thought it might be OK going to tribal...but its not :( ally wants to work with me so bad and i wanna work with her too... but jenna and tyler have both said they want her gone. i cant switch to tyler without making jenna uspet, and she was already upset with the byron vote.... i legit feel so so bad. this vote is painful and i really dont wanna lose her as a friend tbh because shes so kind and sweet and just... ugh. i know she wants to be in this game so badly and this vote is absolutely nothing against her because honestly if i could have it my way...... id probably want to get Jenna out?

Like ya im working with jenna and shit but... i do talk to her the least. i feel like shes more loyal to szy than to me and that worries me a bit. but i dont think itll be possible :( if i end up leaving this week tho i dont even think id be MAD because everyones expressed how they dont wanna vote and ugh. its just a bad situation... i love szy and ill vote with hiim this week and if its ally he wants gone then :(

"kisimul"

- Omg this is such a mess... Ally is telling Tyler about voting for Jenna, while she herself thinks that the vote is Tyler.. Tyler thinks the vote is Ally but goes along with what Ally says.. The only names that havent been thrown out are mine and Dani's. Unless theres a secret blindside coming to stab me by the back. I can't say that i feel safe yet since ive been lying directly/indirectly to both Ally and Tyler and my best scenario is to have them going aganist each other in this vote. It just sucks that the only way to keep Kisimul strong together is to vote Ally out, since thats the only way for an unanimous vote. Fuckkkkkkkkkk

"kisimul"

- I may or may not be trying to get Jenna to flush her steal vote tonight and waste it on ally dkjshdgjkshdgkjsdh

"culzean"

- I don’t have a lot to say since we won and I failed the castle, so here’s to hoping Ally can survive and we can dominate the swap together ❤️

"fyvie"

- S50 Day 11 Confessional

"glamis"

- Safe again! Not to get a big head because I had literally nothing to do with the last challenge but the Rebels & Nobles have 2 things in common, winning immunities and mwah, so I’m just saying that I could be a good luck charm. I think me and Jakey have genuinely connected about just not being the best at socializing with this tribe and he seems pretty comfortable with me so that’s good. With Chelsea we don’t talk a whole bunch but I’ve been working on our game relationship and she told me she’d let me know if someone said my name and such, if she’s telling the truth that makes me feel more safe. And with the rest I’ve just been casually talking to, like I was talking to Jake about bananas of all things so that at least shows I’m trying. I’m definitely hoping for something to spice the game up because I really want to start playing, hopefully I won’t regret saying that!

"kisimul"

- https://soundcloud.com/user-594339892/kingdoms-collide-day-11/s-QmgvN

"culzean"

- Even though I flopped HOLY SHIT we pulled it off! We’re safe and we won’t be going to tribal and we can actually relax! Jamie and I have been exchanging idol guesses to try and find the idol before we leave but no luck so far so rip the Culzean idol lmao I’m still tired from the 24 hour challenge so I’m taking my black ass to SLEEP!! Thank God for the break 🙌🏽

"kisimul"

- We're going to tribal and I'm feeling a lot better about it than I expected I would. I think a lot of my worry of a Szy/Dani/Ally alliance was mostly Paranoia + me preparing for the worst, which is probably a good thing. But after the conversations I've had with them today I don't think there's any way they're lying to me, unless Szy is just a really dirty liar. - And of course even if that were the case, Jenna has her vote steal and I've gotten much closer with her over the past few days. We've definitely solidified ourselves as close allies and I am confident that my relationship with her is very good and she is someone I can more than trust. I've also gotten tighter with Szymon and I'm feeling better about him once again. I think we've all done enough to make Ally believe that Jenna is the target and everyone wants Ally out (thank god), and I think even if Jenna doesn't use the vote steal tonight, all should go as planned? Part of me doesn't want her to use it anymore because in the unlikely event that we don't swap next, we would need it. Also if Ally were to play an idol we would have to revote with her immune and then I'd no longer feel safe. So yeah, Idk how I feel about the vote steal, Jenna has been kind of wanting to use it which is understandable because Ally is planning to vote her, but at this point I trust Szymon and Dani and I think it's best she doesn't use it but I really can't control her. But yeah aside from me preparing for the worst and considering every possible outcome, I hope and I think that this will go my way.