Put On My Fake Smile/Confessionals

Day 13
"jember"

- And there is no point in having a reward challenge, this guy isn't going to provide us with any advice, we're not fucking surviving on an island we don't need advice on how to survive in the game of survivor. There are different dynamics on every single tribe, some random ass guy coming in and telling us how to play the game is not going to make us better players.

"jember"

- Like I'm sorry, what help is some fucking guy from a previous season going to give us? There's nothing we fucking need, it's not like he's helping us in the immunity challenge, he's legit coming and trying to tell us how to play the game which is kind of awful. I don't want to be told by some guy how to play, it makes me look incompetent if some guy who's done well comes and tries to tell me how to play the game and it makes me look like I can't do it myself. In fact by bringing him in in general it makes EVERYONE look like they're not capable of playing the game on their own. I don't see the point in having him here and if we win I'm not going to pay much attention to him or what he's saying, in fact I'll gladly ignore everything he has to say.

"malasan"

- My snazzy little confessional for ya viewing pleasure ;)

"jember"

- Well m8, it's been such a great vacation from tribal council, I've blazed it so much m8. But I don't plan on this vacation ending, we're still gonna win

"malasan"

- Malasan should be called MalaSAD because that is the only emotion that is felt amoung us

"jember"

- I guess this is the calm before the storm. Jember has not been to tribal in 3 tribals and we are hopefully going on our 4th. Things have been a lot calmer around here, and Clairie going home on Malasan could mean there is a boys alliance going on. We will know for sure next tribal if Danielle goes home. Michelle and Loxias are still on the bottom of our tribe, but one thing still remains very clear. while our tribe is amazing in challenges... we are getting lazy Socially. Sheryl barely comes on anymore and Loxias doesn't talk. despite not going to tribal I dont feel very secure with how quiet its been. Michelle is doing everything in her power to climb from out of the bottom, and she just might succeed provided we keep winning. I just hope things are easy from here on out and we keep smashing Malasan in the challenges so we dont have to go to tribal. I am starting to really get close with Michelle and i dont particularly want to vote her out anytime soon.

"jember"

- Here we go! After a long time we have a confessional from Loxias :D….. So our Jember tribe is now in a quite huge winning streak. We won immunity 3 times in a row which is great. This is happening right now in the tribe: Dani is totally inactive and she has low score in the challenges. Alex is totally inactive because he plays in another org. Edward is active but he is so fucking annoying, I cant stand him anymore. He just texts so strange and too often. But I am now a bit afraid to target anyone because I don’t want to ‘’pull a Bjorn.’’ Michelle is quiet active but not very good at challenges, Sheryl is like Dani but a bit more active and Chris is active, good at challenges, but way to cocky and arrogant…Just look what he texted in the last reward challenge thread (Day 13 reward challenge). I definitely want to get rid off him but I don’t know what the others think. And until we don’t loose imunity I think I wont target him and even if we lose, I have to do it clever. Like somehow propose to vote him off and don’t get targeted. But anyways, I think I am in a good spot now, because I am good in challenges and I hope they wont vote me instead of a inactive guy. That would be stupid. So I will try to speak with Sheryl a bit and think of the possibilities what to do.

"jember"

- XxSolarEclipsexX why??? unless its everyones first time playing an org, why would they need someone's advice on the game? im pretty sure they know what they are doing and its really subjective and basically degrades them to not as good as luke... 10 hours ago I'm so glad someone agrees with me I'll apologize to Luke in this confessional and hope he sees it but it's nothing personal against him, it really isn't, it's the fact that someone who did well in two previous seasons with completely different people and completely different dynamics is going to come and tell us how to play Survivor. First of all, I don't want Michelle, Edward or Loxias getting any bright ideas from him. Second of all, I don't need help on how to play, nor does Dani, nor does Alex nor does Sheryl, We've all bee surviving just fine, we're in a majority alliance, we keep winning, and quite frankly some guy trying to tell us how to play isn't going to help us in any way shape or form. Enough about the reward, let's talk about some of my tribe members.

Edward. I talked with Edward yesturday, he seemed to be a bit withdrawn like he was holding something back and trying to hide something from me, I don't know if I can trust him moving forward, but I don't have a choice. He talked about the final 3 Dani and I have with him, which may or may not be fake depending on how the game turns out, but he discussed it and that's the only real hope I have that he's still on my side because it's the only time in the conversation he discussed about us still being together.

I talked with Alex, it's kind of disappointing that his focus is more on another ORG then this one, I hope he gets voted out of that other ORG so he can come back to this one and re-focus. He didn't have much to say, he said he still has my back, I said I still have his, part of me thinks he might be lying to me part of me thinks he just doesn't have much to say whatsoever as he's not paying attention to this one at all.

"malasan"

- How, in all that is good and wonderful in this world, do you get a 72 on that game. What. There's gotta be something out there we can win. SOMETHING. We started out strong enough. We'll find their kryptonite and we'll expose it. We can't afford to lose anything else. At least they didn't get a challenge advantage or anything.

"jember"

- I talked with Dani today, me and her are still solid and I trust her completely. I don't think I would ever go against her in this game, she's my favorite person on this tribe and I'm going to stick with her. I talked with Michelle, again I don't know what she thinks is acceptable to say to me or what she means by what she says but yesturday the first thing she said to me was "hey nice running around HAHAHAHA" and I took it as like running around on the tribe talking to people and her being like "I found out I know what you're doing" so i got nervous and said "what?" and she responded with "i mean in the challenge". It's hard to communicate with her sometimes because it's hard to understand what she has to say. I still need to talk with Loxias and have a conversation and I need to talk with Sheryl.

Ideally, my tribe wins the next 2 immunity challenges and we merge with 7, and then I tell Loxias "Look I know they're probably approaching you about flipping but you need to understand you're clearly on the bottom of that alliance and will never in a million years make it to the end. They've had 5 tribal councils to prove trust to each other and they have each and every time, your best choice would be to stick with us, as a group of 7 can have many cracks and we can go anywhere with 7, you can't really go anywhere in a group of 5 when you and michelle are on the bottom" and hope that works out. If we lose a challenge I would like Michelle to go and I would like to see if Loxias votes Michelle out like he has been saying. I think it's more likely for edward to flip if he's at the merge with loxias and michelle and the other 3 from the other tribe as there is no bottom. And tbh, thinking about it as im typing that doesnt make any sense for me to want that so I want to lose one of the next 2 challenges.

To do list for today: Talk with Sheryl and Loxias, hopefully lose reward.

"jember"

- We won a reward today, which is a 24h visit of a "Local Bushman" who is some guy named Luke, whoever he is but he won a season of this org. Chris said that this a crappy reward. That's just typical Chris.... The funny think is that I agree with him on some points. But he is so stupid that he says it to everyone even outside the tribe. This may be the excuse of voting him off. We will see. As we say in the Czech Republic: Patience brings fruit.

"jember"

- Great. we won reward! Yaaaaay! *claps*. *rolls eyes* This is the single worst reward and I don't know what this guy is going to do, I really don't fucking care what he's going to do, in fact I doubt anyone really cares that he's here. I mean what is he going to say to us, "win"? I mean we've been winning there is nothing he can say to us that will be advice and in my opinion this is a waste of all of our times. I'll just put on my fake smile and walk around without talking to him because frankly I don't give a fuck.

Day 14
"malasan"

- I have not prayed on the ORG gods yet. So I will start now. If there is any challenge that any tribe in ORG history needed to win its this one! I pray on all things ORG that Malasans losing streak ends! I pray on Charley, Laure, and Dominique. I

Day 15
"malasan"

- I am just bored so I am trying to orchestrate a blindside. Why not right?

"jember"

- I am legit shocked. My prediction was wrong and this was NOT the calm before the storm. We won again and Michelle saved herself by creating a winning flag. I am interested to see how this turns out for Malasan. if Danielle were to leave this game then a male alliance would be obvious. if Danielle were to live through this tribal then we are at a loss with our predictions. Chris came to me and told me we should all (the Jember 5) throw the next immunity to take out Michelle so she has no options to flip. Michelle saved herself this time around but if we decide on throwing this, she is gone. I still cant put my finger on why we are targetting Michelle over Loxias, Michelle is resourceful and kind while Loxias is just there. He just doesnt bring much to the table and that is gonna cost him. im not gonna push to save Michelle though, if I do people may think im working with her and I do not want to lose this game by helping her. Loxias is easy to trick, so if we do merge after voting out Michelle he will be easy to convince that were all still Jember strong and vote out the left over Malasans. there is one problem with my plans though... its a problem probably everyone faces, we keep voting off and voting off and voting off until there are only alliance members left, and then what? We're meant to vote off the very people we have spent this entire game with, how is that suppost to work. right now i just need to worry about making the merge, and if i stay quiet that wont be a problem. I guess ill just sit back and watch the waves.

"jember"

- Well we won the immunity challenge. I'm honestly not surprised, we seem to be on this massive winning streak and the other tribe just can't get it together. However I'm afraid this winning streak may have to come to an end. If we continue to win and all 7 of us merge with 3 people from the other tribe, Loxias and Michelle already know they're on the bottom and will flip, and I'm afraid in this situation Edward may flip. He'd flip because he'd be flipping with 2 other people to a 6 person alliance, and no one would be on the bottom of that alliance as it's 3 and 3. However, if we were to throw the next immunity challenge, and vote out michelle 6-1 (I talked with loxias and he said he'd be willing to vote michelle out) and merge with 6 people, I think it would be very hard for Loxias or Edward to want to flip to 4 people where they'd be on the bottom. I've already talked to Alex, Sheryl and Dani about it and they all agree it's the best thing for us to do. It's important we don't make it obvious that we're throwing it and don't let Edward, Loxias and Michelle know about it. It just has to be a convincing loss, which I think we can pull off. The whole point of Survivor is to set yourself up moving forward and play the game thinking long-term. I need to control situations that I am in control of, and while I'm on this tribe and while I have majority on this tribe, I need to do something to help my game. If we somehow end up winning the challenge we're going to throw then the other tribe deserves to lose. Hopefully they'll be divided after this tribal council, and if we throw the challenge the person on the outs will come to us.

"malasan"

- me when I get the 2nd highest score on my tribe for t*tris: http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_maew0eTBFL1r5jgouo1_250.gif

No but seriously I fucking hate this game and I hate whoever came up with making this a challenge bc kms!!! at least it's not for IMMUNITY or else I'd be fucked (::::: Also I probs could have gotten a /somewhat/ higher score but after thinking about it.....I don't want this reward..... why on EARTH would I want my TRIBE, aka my COMPETITION, to get advice on how to play the game!! Obviously I'm FLOPPING in challenges, what if Luke tells them something and they're like "Oh we should vote out Seth then!" I don't want that??????????? And losing this reward won't hurt me, it will help the other tribe but I'm not worried about that right now tbh. anyways we lost immunity again : ))))))))) fuck M Y LIFE Honestly Xavier says he doesn't trust Trent as much as Brian but like?? Is there an alliance I don't know about because??? Trent literally believes us 3 are a trio I'm so confused! Unless he's ready to backstab us all and get 7/8th place then why the fuck would he flip at merge tbh?? If he truly believes we're sticking together ? http://24.media.tumblr.com/b8cc70098d2e40fd2c2c01a58415b9f3/tumblr_mn7t0rEOHn1ssppvlo1_500.gif sketchy sketchy....

"malasan"

- everyone on this tribe is absolutely annoying and I hate them all. I hope that they realize that one of us is being voted out and start talking. I honestly don't care if I go because at least I won't have to deal with these annoying pieces of flop.

"malasan"

- Java Confessional 1 The First 15 Days

"jember"

- So Sheryl just approached me and said she was thinking about quitting. Great. Just fucking great. Now I have to convince her not to fucking quit, I cannot have her quitting I don't care if she quits at the final like 6 but please do not quit right now when I need your vote in a merge that's coming up. PLEASE. Her quitting would pretty much mean the end of my game. There's no way in hell I could ever recover from her quitting. the other tribe is in a male dominating alliance and are sticking together, Michelle and Loxias don't trust us that much, Edward might think he's on the outs, I need Michelle in this game and I'm actually disgusted that she's thinking of quitting because she changed jobs and hasn't been doing challenges. I'm sorry, but challenges are not the most important part of the fucking game and you've been sitting out of them. It's just really frustrating that someone is thinking of quitting when we're approaching the hardest part of the game, the merge, and I need her vote.

"jember"

- My eyes are so red now, I've smoked so much weed without stopping, I can just sit around and do nothing, I can just watch my tribe win Not to be cocky but ya know, w33d is so good.

"malasan"

- Seth, You're the last person left on the tribe I don't have any alliance or affiliation to. And we need people that'll help us win these damn challenges. Therefore, I have no choice but to vote you.