Board Thread:Season 57 - Laguna Colorada/@comment-32237110-20200216163220/@comment-44735465-20200216201055

Hi Liam! Long time no see, huh? Alright. I won't try to get you to vote for me by specifically trying to explain why I think I deserve your vote more, but I'd like to use this platform provided by you as a bit of an opportunity for a closing statement based on what I've learned during this final tribal council. Luca and I both played pretty similarly when it came to making the moves. We targeted the same people, so us both trying to fight for credit on votes like the the Toby vote is just pointless at this point, because it was all done in cooperation, and not dictated by any individual.

Forget about the game. With all my sincerity, I want to apologize for any little thing that has rubbed you jurors the wrong way. I've now learned that my jury speech was not the most humble one, and I do agree with that. Although confident, coming into this final tribal council, I felt like I was put between a rock and a hard place, so I felt the need to walk you through my own game, the way I saw it through my lenses. I'm not offended if you don't feel like voting for me, but I do take it a bit personally if you only see me as a floater and someone who only did what they were told. If that was the case, TC would be sitting right next to me, not Luca. I always tried making sure I had the best route to the end, and bringing Luca over TC was what I thought would be a lot easier for me here at the end.

Many of you have said that they were coming into the final tribal council with the intention of voting for me, but quickly decided that I might not be as worthy as you thought I was. What I feel the need to point out is the fact that if the jury was already viewing me as someone who had no own game and just ensured TC would get an easy, bumpless road to the end, how does me trying to explain how I did indeed have an independent, strategic game manage to lower my odds even more? I'm fully aware that flashy moves are what people nowadays look for, but those aren't everything. Being flashy doesn't correlate with good gameplay. Managing your own threat level is everything. I went to every single tribal council held this season, so getting here was never as easy as sliding down a slide. My name kept coming up every tribal once the first tribe swap happened, and it only stopped coming up once we reached the merge, because I managed to camouflage myself. People might've had the mentality of slaughtering all the goats, yet they still never wanted to target me even though I presented myself as one. I never got a single vote once the merge hit excluding the forced self vote from the Adam and Eve twist. That was all due to my gameplay. People didn't feel the need to target me, because I let them underestimate and overlook me. That's how I got here. I didn't make unnecessary moves and get voted out due to painting an unnecessary target on my back. I only made moves when necessary. The rest of the time I was making sure I was still in people's good graces.

I am aware that the jury doesn't like the way I managed my relationships, but I always tried getting to know everyone on a personal level, because deep down social connections are formed based on intel, and what better info would there be to give than a piece of you? Something that defines you as a person. With that all being said, I'm not satisfied with the way this game turned out for me. I was subtle, but I wasn't subtle when controlling my relationships. People usually quickly realize whether I like them or not, and even though it's hard to admit, I do have a bit of an attitude. I'm very awkward socially, so if I don't find that click between someone, I usually just aren't able to force myself to talk to that person, because that's when my anxiety also kicks in. What I do know, though, is that I was always active. I was playing the game from dusk till dawn, and I always gave my all. You not seeing my moves is not an excuse to discredit my game, because I put a lot effort into getting here, and I've earned my spot here by making sure my torch stayed lit for 39 days straight. With that being said, I'm not discrediting anyone's personal views on my game, but I hope you take into consideration everything I've said.

Addressing what Luca said about be shitting on his game: There is not one way of managing the final tribal council. It doesn't mean that I have no resume if I point out stuff about the person's game that's in the run for the title right next to me. It's up to you to decide who played the better game, and me making comments on Luca's game is something I feel like I have the right to do. Unlike he claims, my purpose hasn't been to paint him in a bad light, but to point out my own observations. If we look into this whole thing, he was the one who first started addressing my statements when I was the one posting mine first, giving him the time to read through mine while answering his at the same time. Whatever missile shooting there's between us has not been directed at him, but towards his game instead. We're here to win the war, and part of the battle is to have counter attacks so you don't get run over yourself. I'm just as entitled to make comments as he is.