I Play with My Heart on My Sleeve/Confessionals

Day 35
"doabslavskq"

- I fucking hate everyone now. Joanna and Christine just flipped on me and Linus/Claire are being arrogant assholes right now. Even when I was in the majority, I wasn't being a bitch to the minority in the tribal chat, like wtf? Don't they realize I'm gonna be in the jury in 2 days? These bitches are never going to get my vote, and Chrsitine neither bc it was completely idiot to flip on Mike and I, it was a smart decision from Joanna bc she was the 4th of the alliance, so I guess I'm rooting for her now. Yeah, I know I'm talking like I'm already out but if I don't win the challenge I'm screwed, so I'd rather write my final words now

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- That feel when you're trying to be sneaky and set up an optimal final 3 for yourself, but the person at the bottom is so bitter they refuse to even try and get further in the game...

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- Finally a challenge I knew how to do this is by far the most important one for me to win because of Idols I know it's really really low but I'd rather have 100% then 98%

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- Ok, so……I think I messed up. No wait, scratch that. I know I messed up. Big time. I voted out a major ally. I wasted my idol. I practically threw a knife and drove it into Maries back and now she’s staring back at me with literal daggers in her eyes. All for what…..Protecting a major threat in this game? Actually two threats I guess…Or one threat and my best friend in this game......I screwed up real bad, huh. I have to win this immunity challenge. There’s no other option. Joanna and Marie will probably target me now and I wouldn’t be surprised if Linus tagged along with them so I’m doomed if that necklace isn’t around my adorable mangatars neck.

Day 36
"doabslavskq"

- Apparently Joanna didn't flip on me zqsfehrf I misread the votes I hate myself

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- I just feel…dead. I was so close. So. Close. Maybe I deserve to go home at this point. Marie’s pretty much saying I’m showing my “true face” right now just because I tried explaining to her that not everything goes according to plan in this game. I’m not here for someone trying to attack me and I’m not gonna apologize for standing up for myself but it’s like…I don’t know. I play with my heart on my sleeve. I care too much about the people I align with (Ex: Claire) and I really didn’t want to go to the end with Linus and Claire because they are huge threats but Marie and Joanna are backing me into a corner now so I really don’t have a choice. But I guess it’s better to go to the end with some actual competitors instead of people that just try and tear others down when things don’t go their way.

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- I'm a bit worried about Linus backstabbing the final 3 for Joanna later


 * shrug* I don't think it'll be me though!

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- So basically Im in a really awkward spot with my voting decision this round. Last round I voted with Christine and Claire, and I really want to vote with them again now more than anything, they have been nothing but kind and helpful to me throughout the game, the problem lies in that I feel it will be hard to beat Claire at the end. Im counting Jury votes and I like to think I have Felix, John and Scott on lock. Claire will have Anna and Lexi most likely. Marie is a tossup because on one hand I was the only person of us three ever on a tribe with her even, on the other hand she is irl friends with Lexi, so she could definitely be influenced by her. My other option is vote Christine out of here, which not only kills me a bit on the inside to do because she is so sweet, but also strategically could mess me up. If I don't win the last immunity there will be a serious target on my head, and Ill be honest, I trust Claire to not vote me out, but I can definitely not say the same of Joanna or Marie. The safer option would be to take out Marie, but then I may not have jury support. Or Alternatively I can take out Christine, and be forced to win the FIC. I'm damned if I do, damned if I don't right now 😞.

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- So this vote is still killing me. It's all coming down to it I can beat Marie, Joanna and Claire in a final immunity challenge the best move is to vote Christine, if I don't think I can then I should vote Marie. I have all the power this round and yet I feel like that's just going to burn jurors and put me in an awkward spot no matter what I do..

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- I do my best to persuade Marie to vote with me and Linus. I hope it is going to work.

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- I think that probably everyone is going to vote for me. Or they did it. This season is too easy for me... everything so good despite worse days when people are using special powers.