Board Thread:Season 12 - All-Stars/@comment-3966394-20140216170807/@comment-11497002-20140217022236

Hi Jhet.

I've outlined how I played this game and if you think I played the game better than Gerda and Lloyd then I would appreciate your vote but as for why I deserve your vote...

Like you said, all three of us have lied to you but whilst I did lie to you I still respected you. I've lied to probably a lot of people in this game but I still respected every one of the 24 players. I didn't set out to deceive people for fun. I didn't make promises and deals I didn't intend - at the time at least - to keep. If I had the chance to be honest and genuine with people then I was. I only deceived when I felt it necessary. On Mpilo I was truthful with you for Alejandro's elimination. I included you in the discussion and decision even when I already had enough numbers because you weren't just a number. You were a member of the tribe. I did lie to you with the next two votes but that was because I was still cautious about my position in the tribe and the game, and I kept my cards close to my chest. Hunter believed you to be close with Henry so I decided not to tell you about his elimination in case that changed the plan. But after the vote I explained the situation to you and apologised for lying to you. It doesn't feel good to be deceived so I genuinely felt sorry for having done that to you. Yes, I then deceived you once more at Hunter's elimination. In hindsight I should have given you the opportunity to show you were loyal and trustworthy but at the time I didn't want to risk upsetting the plan I knew would work. Once again, I came to you after the vote and apologised. I opened up to you about how my personal life affected some of my decisions in this game because I wanted to accept responsibility for my duplicitous actions, and explain to you that it wasn't your fault.

At that time, I said I wanted to make it up to you. I meant that and I truly did try to make amends for how I had treated you. I decided I would no longer lie to you. At the merge I was the only one not to vote for you. It didn't matter that I was putting myself in the minority because some things are more important than a game and I wanted to remain by your side like I should have from the beginning. When I found out people were voting for you I fought for you to stay. I tried to get people to change votes but it had already been decided. When I knew you were going I came to you and told you. I wanted you to know before the vote reveal because you deserved to not be blindsided.

All three of us lied to you but in the end I decided enough was enough. It was time to be truthful. When I voted with you at final 11 that was probably the one time I put what was 'right' ahead of what was right for me in terms of the game. I feel that Lloyd and I are answering the jury honestly but Gerda at least is still being disrespectful by not being honest at this point. She has lied about the way Lloyd and I played this game and won't own up to the way she treated people like Taylor, Andrei and Lloyd in this game. The time for lying is over. If you can't be honest at the Final Tribal Council then you're disrespecting the jury by not allowing them to make an informed decision, you're disrespecting the game by making it out to be something it wasn't, and you're disrespecting yourself by not thinking your game was good enough to be judged on its own merits.

So all three of us have lied to you but I think what separates me from the other two is that I have always respected you and everyone else in this game. I don't know if that makes me deserving of your vote but regardless of your decision I still respect you.