I Will Not Ignore What The Universe Is Telling Me/Confessionals

==Day 12=

"kisimul"

- Day 12 Confessional

"glamis"

- OMFG a tribe swap... im so nervous and excited. New people to start from 0 with and some old good faces is a mix of things i was hoping for. Time for a new chapter in my game, a bit more agressive hehe. heres my first impressions on my new tribemates:

Dani - im actually so glad that out of anyone from Kisimul im in a tribe with Dani. since we had the common view on most things and shes been a great partner in crime. Plus shes a bigger target than me and I just NEED someone i can bitch to about shady people to. But this time im definitly aiming to have more control rather just letting Dani calling the shots. Cali - YAAAS i knew that saving her could have benefits. Will it? time will tell. id like to work togheter with her and im going to work to blossom this relationship. Jake - already luv talking to him, i want to make him my right hand and someone to have by my side Jessica - omg she messaged me immediately so id take it as signal that shed like to work with me. She had to leave right after so i dont have much to say quite yet. Elias - cute first boot meat shield ig? hes giving me byron vibes.

Overall its 2v2v2 and for now id like to team up with the glamis two and lock a majority asap. im sooooo excited

"glamis"

- swapfuck me gently with a chainsaw.

so my new tribe is two fyvie (elias & jessica), two glamis (cali & myself), and two kisimul (szymon & dani).. my instant thought was.. this is fetch! i love cali and she has connections to original kisimul.. plus i saved fyvie so we could position ourselves in either direction..

i rlly thought that was the gag.

but no ma'am no we're apparently messes here!

so szymon apparently pm'd cali the second tribes formed asking """"you good with jake??"""" while he's all """"omg v happy to meet u"""" in pms with me like.. i might be jakeisfake but at least i'm not doing that. we have no clue if that means he wants me in a loop or outside of it and the thing is with glamis looking like a threat for our pre-swap immunity streak, cali and i are kinda nervous about this. maybe he was snapping for a majority of four, but idk.. it felt off to both of us so i'll follow up with her later on that i think. i'm so happy to have her here i'd be dead if i was alone no doubt.

so i'm really going to work my social game with everyone here and pray that if i've fucked target management, i can maybe connect with someone willing to throw me a lifeline? all it takes is one vote and i'm already thinking of angles and strategies. the ally boot shook everyone so i could pitch kisimul as a tight four compared to glamis where we kinda just got along to fyvie and hope they swing? or just hope cali sticks out her neck for me because she could always say she'd swing against dani/szymon if they voted me out so they'd work with us? idk... i might double down on idol guesses by just leaking it all to cali and hope we can idol someone out but even then we'd still be in minority.

this is only an hour into the swap. things will change. let's hope they change for the better.

also i pray for other jake. </3

"glamis"

- SWAP!

So Sarah left unanimously, thank god. I was shaking in my boots that something fishy was going on, but everyone on Fyvie exited tribal on good terms.

I've been swapped onto NuGlamis with a 2-2-2 split of tribe members:

Fyvie (myself and Jessica) Glamis (Cali and Jake F) Kisimul (Dani and Szymon) with zero Culzeans.

Jessica wouldn't have been my first choice to be lone swapped with, but I know I'm solid with Audrey, Bryce and TJ, and I grew somewhat closer to Jessicas towards the end, so I guess this is a chance to bolster my relationship with an ally through shared survival.

Otherwise, I get really good vibes from everyone so far? It's a really nice, funny, pleasant group. At this point I really don't know who I'd be inclined to target.

Immediately I told Jessica I'm with her 100% but we need to focus on putting in social legwork with the others, and she agreed. I'm probably connecting the most with Cali the most do far, we both have a proclivity to send massive walls of texts, but am also liking Jake, Szymon and Dani.

Jake is a FTC magnet and through reading his Kariba confessionals I know he's thinks holistically and sharply strategically. Obviously won't be letting him know I know that, but I'm gonna try emphasise my rational, realistic side while still being lighthearted, which he might vibe with. Conversationally he kind of has these colloquial acronyms going, all in lower case with keyboard smashes, a familiar ORG-er vibe. He's quite casual and amicable, like a lowkey social guy who can slip through because of that perception but is actually very intentional and well thought-out strategically. He's one to watch, will probably stick around for awhile, and I want to be on his good side. To cull him would probably draw the ire of the Glamis conglomerate, but I'm not ruling it out - it'd be tricky.

Dani is a hard read at first, because she's got this non-serious, bombastic jokester persona that I've noticed around the community through her interactions, and that extends into the game. Gotta see where I go with her, I think she's pretty smart beneath it all but likely isn't a major threat longterm.

Szymon is cool, I like him, a younger european guy with a good sense of humour -- still TBD on him but I've been having nice conversations with him.

"fyvie"

- ) i’m dead )

"glamis"

- So. The bitch is mad. Why am I mad you ask? I won't tell you.

"fyvie"

- We’re swapping! So Chris invites us all on rabbit and does the tribe swap live so I’m on Fyvie 2.0 with Jakey, TJ, Sydney <3, Stacks and Jenna. My tribe is pretty solid and I’m so excited to finally get to talk to new people! I already have bonds established with all of them except Stacks so now is the time I make sure I get into a good position to not go home and get some more people on my side besides just Sydney and Jamie. Speaking of Jamie she’s on Kisimul by herself and hope she can make it out cuz I miss her already.

"glamis"

- Sorry that was indecent, I will tell you!

First Fyvie decides to be a darksided as FUCK tribe and vote Sarah off, FOREVER ruining my future "Shisters" alliance that I was going to do. The shister alliance was going to be made up of me, Chelsea, and Sarah and we were gonna be bad bitches who would call each other "shister" (if the cringe is too hard now I would recommend for you to skip this confessional and move on to the one below me...most likely from Jakey?) Chelsea was going to be "Shister 1" to make her feel important (DON'T GET IT TWISTED SHE IS IMPORTANT SHE JUST DESERVES TO BE MORE IMPORTANT) Sarah was going to be "Shister 2" and I was going to be the flop "Shister 3" that made up these obnoxious nicknames and is now shit talked about by Shisters 1 &2. (Also it's sad that the most game talk I have done in a confessional is about a fictional alliance that will never be...)

We were going to make final 3 after taking ass and kicking names and Sarah was going to win. Chelsea would have lost due to already being a winner and I would have lost for being me. Say what u will about me but you can't say im not realistic!

Well thats not happening anymore and now im swapped with some fools + Dani.

I REALLY WANT TO FLIP BACK TO KISIMUL AND WORK PRIMARILY WITH THEM...but that would be so fucking dumb, that would send a message to all the former Glamis that I am a backstabbing snake. So I would personally like to see a Fyvie go home as opposed to Jake (love him btw). When talking to Elias it is made very apparent that he is very intelligent which simply further reminds me that I am very UNINTELLIGENT so I wouldn't mind him being the target at all. Jessica seems nice and Jakey told me that she was very trustworthy in Azer. Maybe I can work with her? Idk anything really... you would think after playing this org 3 times I would have developed SOME social smarts by now.

Also whoever invented the castle you will be talking to my lawyer.

Also whoever keeps voting for me to GO to the castle thus putting a target on my back you can also talk to my lawyer.

Also I'm sorry this confessional reeks of desperation I didn't really think this through at all oop oh well.

"glamis"

- Things in our new tribe are developing slowly.. Unless im unware of something. I luv talking to Jake and i believe we are building a solid ground for a good bond by getting to know each other a lot. Jessica said that things at Fyvie were slow gamewise too, not sure how much i believe that she wasn't apart of any alliances lol. Our tribe looks strong challenge wise so hopefully we won't have to lose upcoming challenge DKSJHGSJKHGD also Elias is so boring and annoying at the time but obviously im not going to let him know that and i will act like his best friend if i have to

"fyvie"

- idk who dani gunn thinks she is knowing that ally was throwing her vote at me and not telling me ab it. i feel like she lowkey wanted to keep ally but had to vote her bc no one was gonna vote w her. which is good to know that szymon & i's relationship had been real n i can trust him, but i was right to be paranoid about dani.. shouldn't have expected any less from a halsey stan.

==Day 13=

"kisimul"

- I accidentally wrote day 39 in what day is it.... A sign ? Maybe! FINALLY free from the Fyvie tribe. I was starting to suffocate with my liking of everybody. My new tribe seems... quiet. 3 former Glamis, 2 Fyvie and one Culzean. I could be in a better position but I have my idol. My precious little idol. It weighs heavy in my pocket let me tell you. It's crazy how much more pressure it gives you. I'm so scared of not playing it when I should, I'm even more paranoid than if I didn't have one... I've managed to talk a bit to my tribe. I feel like Jamie is the one that really wants to make friends and find allies but she is super sweet and I like her. So I guess it is working! Wendy and Jared are OK but we have barely talk. I wish I could develop something with Chelsea though... But her majority would probably be something she would want to keep. Ahh the comfort of a majority. I can't relate. Bryce, well he continue is "unactiveness". If you are busy don't play ORG this is for the people that have too much time on their hands !!!! My plan for this round is to win the safety of this immunity. But I think I am with a fierce bunch of competitors. So either we win it all but if we lose I don't know if I will make it in the top 3 of my tribe... We'll see. I'm eager to make some moves though, I don't like being quiet, I don't like waiting. I'm so impatient for fireworks. Give me drama!

"glamis"

- Confessional video something i think its day 13

"kisimul"

- so we swapped and im kinda happy... could be happier but im not like upset i guess. sydney/tyler r together :( and i wish i was with them but w/e i have JARED. i wanna go to ftc w/ jared again and i hope he feels the same. love him and idec if im his bitch this time round, which it seems i might have to be. im FINE WITH THAT. at least for now hehe.

as for the others, ive bonded a lot w/ audrey. love her sm and i think she likes me too which makes me feel good. i also like chelsea a lot and wendy seems really nice!!!!! BRYCE tho...... we have history and we've known each other for ages. not BAD history but like.. ik what hes like. i honestly find him less trustworthy than id find myself and if i had MY CHOICE...... bryce would be gone this tc. but i realise im gna have to just follow what others want and be fine w/ it, so as long as its not me idrc lol... im also v aware that we have 3 glamis people on this tribe so.. tht might be worrying but jared said he wasnt sure about his tribe so mayybbbeeeee there is a way glamis could go from a 3-2-1 'majority' to a 2-2-1 'minority'. idk id just prefer that if our tribe lost that glamis wouldnt then ALL survive and be 60% of the tribe? but equally i dont want bryce here lol.... WE'LL SEE. tbh id prefer if we just never lost lol.

"kisimul"

- i just did the challenge for the whole 12/12 hours. so i think im safe unless i made a mistake and just wasted hours of my life. BUT REGARDLESS that was hard and i never wanna do that again. still tho.... final 17 probably!!! hello to that.

"fyvie"

- Since my heartbreak over Ally leaving, I’ve been able to pick up the pieces and try and get my life in this game together again. The swap, was okay? Like right now on my tribe it’s 2-2-1-1 so it’s an interesting scenario. BUT, luckily for me I got swapped with Tyler who knows like EVERYONE and I think people will want to work with him on this tribe, which comes with me!!!!!!!!!!!! I love being his tag-a-long ally that people may need 😂

Now I feel like, I might be starting to subtly overplay. I’m not making alliances with anyone on my swapped tribe, but I’m trying to think ahead. Right now with this twist I feel like everyone is so worried about being safe and surviving, but I’m thinking differently. I WANT to go to tribal and potentially take someone who is a huge threat out. I would love for Jamie’s tribe to lose and then to vote out one of the Glamis tribe; that way it would be 2-2-1 with Jamie in the middle and safe. There are huge threats on the other tribe too, I still remember Jake coming after us in that 24 hour challenge so like if I get the opportunity to get him out now it would be sweet justice. My own tribe too like, I’m fine with anyone but me or Tyler going. I’ve talked with everyone and they’re super sweet but I’m not feeling totally connected to anyone in particular yet.

I may get voted out this round for being that psycho who willingly goes to tribal, but I have an idol worst case scenario and this might be a chance to use it to take out a huge threat down the line. I’m really like not playing this game to just get to the next round, I want to play and play hard to have fun.

"glamis"

- Damn this twist is WILDING :/ i actually like the idea and concept of it and i can't wait to find out how its going to play out.... as a safe member of winning tribe or winning 3. As much as tempting it actually is for me to get a sniff on more connections and situation in other tribes, i would rather be safe than spit on myself when im out because of this. This challenge makes me anxious too because im not really good at this kind of endurance + im busy UGH screw endurances in the middle of the week >:( anyway this doesn't look good at all, Dani and Jessica are busy, so is Jake as he stated and Elias probably pushed thru this with a good score. Im about to kick off in it so i just hope i will do well enough to secure my safety :(

"glamis"

- UGH THIS SWAP.

what is going on?

i finally felt relatively okay in my glamis position and now i’m in hostile territory. it’s not cute, vogue, or covergirl.

so we have two kisimul, two fyvie, and two glamis. i think i said some of this in my last confessional but i finally have time to elaborate. in terms of actual strategic developments, my game is moving slower than i like and the conundrum that is this plague twist is slowing it down even more. cali is a route to kisimul, but kisimul might be out for me? we have no real idea how to interpret szymon’s like instant message to her because it could be forming majority or it could be “get out my way”. i’ll do first impressions real quick!

cali - so happy i swapped with her. she is an angel and i’m so blessed it’s her with me and not like.. chelsea. i feel i could've worked with any of the other four, but cali really is the best option given that she has connections. we really just vibe well and i don’t feel pressure to like.. try to keep the convo going with her because i trust we’ve bonded beyond that point?

dani - sdjhkhjkdsjhk. she seems on top of things at her old tribe which could be icky in a way?we’ve played together before and i have sm respect for her but i’m also nervous she has reason to gun for me, which makes her kinda a wild factor in my game because it could go well or it could go south and i don't want to play a guessing game. for now i want to give her the benefit of the doubt so that’s what i’m doing & just trying to bond with her like i would anyone else. she’s iconic asf & i love talking to her for sure!

szymon - really mixed vibes from him. there was the whole cali pm thing which was just really aggressive for the second we swapped. like if he asked the same question literally after he talked to me it’d be good but he didn’t and that makes him susp. then in my pm’s he’s all “i really don’t want you to go to the plague tribal” and i’m just ??????????? what’s the t szymon? it comes across as fake but i’ve kinda been giving him some glamis info lightly so he has reason to trust me? i’ll go into that in a sec. he has a rlly good social game though.. i’m shook he’s pre-merged twice because he seems on top of it.

elias - aw he’s so sweet. his social game is different than what i’ve seen before and it’s not a bad thing? he just texts in full on paragraphs with tons of details and takes time to think out his responses which is new to me. idk i like him. we’ve talked abt kariba, molise, job prospects, current prospects, musicals, cats, etc. he’s definitely doing THAT socially and is someone i could see myself working with but jessica kinda makes him less optimal as a strategic ally in my mind?

jessica - ugh she’s a great personality it’s just we haven't talked too much? it’s kinda like sporadic messages with long gaps in between which just makes her look inactive. if this was the pre-swap portion and this was playing by those factors, i think she’d leave but it isn't the pre-swap and we all have twelve days of history here so idk where people will stand on her. we’ve talked abt life in general so far!! "glamis"

- at the moment, i’m trying to work with cali to figure out how we’re going to keep each other here because i trust her. but i’m also going to look out for myself. i’m kinda just planting seeds when i can that glamis wasn't a tight bunch and trying to make us look like less of a threat. if it comes up i’ve just told people things like no one talked game with me so i’m nervous it could've been me so they kinda see me as a lil isolated in this game or at least a bit more detached from glamis than i was. hopefully that’s good target management because i think i’m doing okay socially so if i’m not ostracized for being on the pre-swap immunity streak tribe, i might be able to get to a safe position on this tribe. that story appears to have resonated well with szymon so i’ll be v ready to try it with others if i can

with the blank tribal line driven slate i have at the moment in front of me, i do feel like i have options but the best is obviously to let people come to me and work with their cards instead of my own. if that doesn't happen, here are kinda drafts?

strategy a: try to win immunities and let the glamis threat erode naturally? if other tribes go to tribal and its a mosaic of tribal eliminations, we could pitch that tribal lines aren't really a thing and make a move on the least active person. i’ve planted a seed with dani that i wasn't too fond of original glamis so it'd make it more convincing maybe? szymon and i seem to have a good bond? he’s said we do, but that could be covering his bases. i think the least active person on our tribe is jessica, so i’d be more than willing to try to 5-1 or 4-2 her at the moment, but then that puts elias into a swing if we stick to lines and makes my game dependent on my bond with him, which is subjectively iffy because he and i have different types of social games?

this is probably the safest for my game and lets me into the merge or next swap with new friends and options.

strategy b: so i’m kinda hoping i can chat with cali and make us appear fractured. glamis is a threat because we appear to have numbers. we look like a unified voting bloc. the best way to erode that threat is to split ourselves up or create the facade that we are split up. specifically, if cali and i could feign having a disagreement over which duo to align with and pretend to split to both sides, we create a semblance of a 3-3 divide when we’d actually be the swing. it’s just about setting that up so that both sides buy into it, which is tricky. kisimul would have to approach her and i’d have to leak that to fyvie and those pull us to polar sides, making us look split. cali could also start it but then we look messy. but the thing is if those two sides form a four, we’re fucked regardless. it’s just a matter of if they do that and how soon do we make that move?

this is more of a “wtf do i do if we’re the next culzean and i have to wild” route i think.

strategy c: find the idol LMFAO and honestly i’d probably idol out whoever got me into the best position if i could. but i think the idol has been found. i’ve guessed so many places at this point someone has to have it. i think it’s in the lake and i know cali was there so maybe it’s her? she says we’re tight, but would she tell me? idk. i wouldn’t ask her about it until i found the spot where it was so i could be all “omg someone has the idol im freaking”

as for the here and now, i’m currently a hundred and fifty minutes into the challenge. the goal is just to be top three and make sure im safe. i think szy went for less than six and jessica couldnt, so i just have to edge out one more person. the plague twist is complex because i am trying to have a feel for this six but tomorrow how it might turn into five could be entirely out of my control and that’s yikes.

that was an actual essay to make up for yesterday’s small confessional, but i’m definitely nervous and ready to play hard if i have to. i really hope it’s smooth sailing but i’m going to try to be ready for rocky waters too and go where the metaphorical wind takes me!! now time to do hw and hope i can do immunity at the same time LMFAO.

"glamis"

- I've been putting so much time and effort into Jake.. I think i told him every minor information i could in order to plant the seeds of trust in me. But he's so hard to read i can't tell what are his tru intentions. Within days i will try to assemble a majority of Dani/Cali/Jake/Me and i'd need Jake to feel comfortable in it, becuase if i was in his skin i would probably feel on the bottom of that. And i have no bad intentions towards him so Im willing to open my mf doors for him. My plan B is Jessica but she's not around a lot. I think what she said about Fyvie might be true because Elias/Jessica aren't shooting with straight gametalk. Well doesn't mean that Elias doesnt stfu with other stuff......

"glamis"

- fuck i flopped at three hours.

so tribal is happening with the plague twist. unless two out of three of dani, cali, and elias go under three hours i'm going. this is really just.. not it. going to touch bases with like cali and see if she'd be willing to throw so we could go together. i know dani might abstain but it's because she's having a bad day and i don't want to use that for my strategy. it's just like.. not cute. if she does, i'll ask that we look out for each other i guess.

as for the other tribes, i feel like chelsea isn't going to thrive so maybe she'll be there with like.. bryce or someone else who didn't slay the task challenge. idk if cali and i go, all we need is a third glamis and i'll be okay

but i just get end of my game vibes from this moment. tomorrow is the worst day for me to go to tribal and of course that's the day i'm going.

eighteenth isn't that bad. but i had sm hope and it's just all gone rn. i can't see in front of me, so i can't plan.

"fyvie"

- So!!!!! Ally went home which was actually super sad. She made a rlly long post about orgs in general not making her happy but only temporarily and tbh i can totally relate bc almost always after they're done i get an icky feeling but sometimes!!!! SOMETIMES!!!!! they are worth it and you meet amazing people. i think this season will be a good one, so far i have no icky feelings but that could always change.

After being grateful I survived with my idol, vote steal and 3 rlly great allies of course we were expecting a swap! I was excited but nervous I'd be split up from all my faves. BUT I WASN'T BC I GOT SWAPPED WITH ACTUAL ANGEL TYLER STACKS <3. also!!! the rest of my tribe is super gr8. i was happy with the results!!!! jakey i was excited to see, which may shock him and maybe u guys but i genuinely liked him in last stand up until the rock draw where things got darksided. i have no hard feelings over any of that at all, and the fact that hes all alone on this tribe i can def use to my advantage! sydney i have always rooted for and thought of as an amazing player and person, so it'll be interesting to see how she is to play with. tyler ridgeway- another actual angel. i think all tylers are amazing or something? he's always been so supportive of me, i played johnny's org with him and beat him in ftc and he still loved me so that tells u what kind of person he is. a great one, i'm excited to see what we can do together this time! finally is TJ- who i do not know much about, but he also seems like a very very sweet man, he always called me lady and miss jenna which makes me laugh but its very endearing.

ALL in ALL, an amazing swap. The only disgusting thing is this twist. (It's actually clever but I hate it because im garbage at all challenges now apparently). I literally got 55 minutes and I was planning to go all day so that is a DRAG. I'm definitely in the bottom, so unless my tribe wins (which the tylers are going HARD so i really hope we have a shot) I will definitely be going to tribal. I'm not terrified bc I do have the idol, but I really dont want to have to play it yet. I also have no idea who from the other tribes would flop, and who I would work with if I were to be in the bottom since I have a feeling all my allies from Kisimul are doing amazing in the challenge. Rn I'm just hoping that no one else went as hard as tyler squared.

==Day 14=

"glamis"

- I am SOOOO PARANOID RIGHT NOW.

I bet I'm going home. I BET IT. I don't know Sydney at all. For the longest time I thought she was from Australia so I was going to make a very not funny joke about her name being the capital of the country she lives in but none of that makes sense cause she does not live in Australia

so Now I want her out for ruining my planned potential joke! I can't vote out jenna cause dani and szy would see how SUS that would be and I would probably being going out right after

I can't really do Jessica because we're here with TJ and from what I can tell he LOVES Jess

I can't really do tj cause that would make me equivalent to the person who killed Jesus...

I'm not doing jake cause lol no

AND IM NOT DOING ME CAUSE THE BITCH STILL HAS SOME COINS TO WIN. Sydney just makes the most sense, and I know I'm going to eat these words cause she's deff going to evade this tribal again like the GODDESS she is and I'm just gonna be left looking REAL dusty once I get over to premerge ponderosa (why can't we ever make that a thing like pls?)

SO HERES THE TO DO LIST FOR THIS TRIBAL 1. Convince TJ that lol Sydney should go 2. get Sydney out 3. strengthen a bond with tj and jenna 4. cement trust with jake 5.bake whoopee pies with Jessica! 6. Profit

"kisimul"

- I am highkey excited about this swap. On my original tribe I just wasn't too sure of where I stood and I didn't really have an idea of who would go if we lost. On my new tribe I have 2 OG members, Chelsea and Wendy, I'm still not that close with Wendy but I've been working on my relationship with Chelsea and I think especially in this situation we're closer. I have Jamie, my unbreakable duo from Archetypes. At first it was a little iffy just cause I happened to be busy and the timezone difference but now I'm pretty sure we're almost back to where we were in Archetypes. I don't think it'll ever be as tight as it was just cause it was so natural and we didn't really have anyone else then, but I think we'll be able to work together. I definitely still wanna go far with her and be loyal just because of our past but I want to work more on being an individual player instead of just a side-kick. I don't have a long history with Bryce or Audrey but I like them so far and I could see myself working with them, especially Bryce. So right now, if I play it right, I could be in the middle. I could either stick with my original tribe or I could make a big move and just flip completely. Only time will tell.

"glamis"

- Phew i was in the top3... We love a good day off! Im going to use it to chill and make an attempt for Elias to trust me since i have to be stuck with him for next 24 hours.. Im nervous for whats going to happen in that Black Death tribal council because there are people who are close to me in that mix of people and i would rather for no one of them to leave this early. I'd rather for no one from my current tribe to leave but im worried for them eventually bonding over it if they all comeback to the tribe. So even tho im safe there are things that could go terribly wrong with this

"glamis"

- So I really got away with exerting the MINIMUM EFFORT REQUIRED to escape the black death twist.... the threshold on nuGlamis for immunity was just above three hours, and I just scraped ahead of Jake by 10 minutes (he must be lowkey annoyed), while Fyvie, who also lost overall, had people like Tyler Ridgeway and Stacks spending 12 hours.... yikes.

There is an interesting original tribe distribution among the bottom six, comprising of the three lowest scoring members for Glamis and Fyvie.

We have Jake and Cali from OG Glamis, TJ and Jessica from OG Fyvie, Sydney from OG Culzean and Jenna who I believe is an OG Kisimul.

I can't really comment on Sydney and Jenna beyond the fact that one of them going would probably be the best case scenario for me, given that I've never met them and have a pretty good connection with the first four so like options, ya know.

Jake and Cali I'm on good terms with -- no one from OG Glamis has left yet which is yikes and I really like Jake, but if he left that would be cutting a likely threatening endgamer, so I'd be okay with that.

I was really harsh on TJ during previous confessionals (sorry when you inevitably see these!!!) but absence definitely makes the heart grow fonder and I weirdly miss the guy - he was playing all sides at any one time and questionably genuine but still. I'd be quietly sad if something were to happen to him cause I know how excited he is to be playing.

Weirdly, I would be okay with one of TJ or Jessica leaving though??? They were the two people not in my core alliance on Fyvie and I'm not sure of their long term loyalty, and despite losing an OG Fyvie in Jessica on my new tribe that would probably put me in some kind of swing-ish position on Glamis since I've made inroads with everyone.

Final comments on Szymon and Dani -- both very chill and very friendly, I've probably connected with Dani the least because it feels like she's been in the ORG community for so long and is still so actively engaged that it's almost as if the ORG comprises her personality? I'm finding it hard to segue into personal talk so I'm keeping it light, funny and interested... maybe some others have cracked her wall of humour and feel super connected, but I'm still waiting for it to happen.

Cali and Jake have so far been more... exuberant, personal and purposeful in how they talk -- I can definitely see them making effective inroads with people in the same way that I do and I worry that maybe I was a bit too enthusiastic sending giant paragraphs of texts to them and getting personal pretty quickly, maybe they're thinking that I was transparently trying to """"connect and bond"""" with them as strategic options and for my safety, which IS TRUE to an extent, but I also do like meeting new people at the same time and searching for some kind of connection - if one is made it actually does mean quite alot to me, and I can't really build that with concise messages haha.

Jury is still out on which pair I'd prefer to work with more? Or maybe it's not as cut and dry as that. I haven't gauged how bonded each pair are from their original tribes, based on facebook interactions I can tell Dani and Szymon are very close and given their similar temperaments I'd have to assume Jake and Cali are as well, and the thing is that Jessica and I aren't SUPER close, and there is potentially breadth for us to be turned against each other if they can clue into that. She's saying she's loyal, but I'm not getting that connected vibe through our interactions still - if she were to leave, I'd almost feel more at ease and free, like more of a rogue wanderer.

Who knows, maybe they've all bridged together against us Fyvie's, I'd have to guess not at this stage but I'm trying not to be complacent. "fyvie"

- So the challenge is another live one but the twist is if your tribe doesn’t win and if you don’t come within the top 3 of your tribe, you going to tribal so I’m like oh shit. TJ and Jenna already fucked up so now I’m like shit shit shit. So stacks and I gotta try and bring this shit home from the tribe.

Meanwhile as this is happening, I’m loving the convos I’m having with everyone. Jake? Love him we’re getting married (he doesn’t know yet). Stacks? Love him he’s awesome! Jenna? Already loved and stanned her! Sydney? Also marrying her after the game tbh & TJ? Love him too! The whole tribe is so nice and chill and I love it honestly. It’s such a different vibe from Culzean so hopefully we can stay together for a while

"glamis"

- well.. my time has come to end. looking for a lifeline.

i don’t have too much time to write, so i’ll try to keep it concise but the cards are stacked against me here. i’m on the plague tribe with cali, my ride or die at this point, jessica from my swapped tribe and three strangers: TJ, jenna, and sydney.

here’s the conundrum. jessica isn't trying enough to have built bonds with cali and i so the probability of her flipping against us feels high.

which means jessica isn't going to be the one to pull TJ to cali and i. jessica is most likely going to be the one pulled against us. idk for sure, i just think she’s our weak point. she is talking strategy with me though, so we’ll see.

which means we have to pull TJ over. luckily, me saving fyvie in the challenge earned me good karma with him. he directly told cali he owes us and i don't think he’d throw that out if it wasn't true. he’s also actively trying to collaborate with me on the vote (a little aggressively, even) so either he’s trying to get a name to solidify the target on me or he’s genuinely interested in working with us and i really hope the latter is the tea. it’s just difficult because honestly voting out anyone but cali or myself isn't smart for his game. why isolated himself from his swapped or original tribes by voting one of their members out? idk.. and that’s why it’s tricky. it’s clear cali and i have to take the initiative to create an agenda to get TJ on board.. which is.. also tricky.

cali seems to want sydney gone and it was admittedly my first thought too. we don't piss off the fyvie or kisimul members on our swapped tribe. the problem? TJ has good vibes with sydney apparently so us turning him on her seems less realistic. can the same be said for jenna? idk

i personally suggested we take jessica out by telling jenna and sydney they were in just as vulnerable a position as we were by letting TJ and jessica be the swing and take the hit in jessica leaving but cali made a fair point that that’ll not only make elias a swing on our new tribe, but a swing pissed at us which is yikes. i feel like jessica is the easiest route here but the hardest route moving forward.

then there’s the ultimate back up plan. if it’s going to be 4-2, i could try to get two people from their side (sydney and jessica) by leaking cali threw their names for a 3-2-1. furthermore, if i said the target was on me because jenna/TJ knew cali, it’d do that whole pregame effect people tweak over. i’d stay possibly, but at the expense of probably the person in the game i’m tightest with and i don't think she’d forgive me which breaks my heart a lil. i don't want to cut throats, but i also want to keep my throat intact and if that requires shoving someone else in front of a bus, it has to be done.

another option is to tell jenna how close I've gotten with szymon and dani (maybe even lie and say we formed majority) so she’d think keeping me is protecting her old tribe in a way?

for now, i want myself here. it seems improbable, but i’m going to do everything i can. if possible, i’d love cali here at the end of this process. for now, i’m really working on bonding with TJ and hoping maybe myself, jessica, cali, and him can form a majority here.

"fyvie"

- S50 Day 14 Confessional

"glamis"

- tj keeps asking me what i want to do like.. tj idk im not throwing ppl on ur tribe's name to u and i'm not throwing ppl on my tribe's name to u. what's ur expectation here lol

then i was like "we could form majority" bc i feel weird giving him nothing for an answer twice and he was like "I'm completely game for that, man!" like if ur completely game for that MAN can u give me something more than frequent interrogations on what i want to do?

i feel like he's trying to get an answer from me to use it against me or he's just rlly not here for a "give some, get some" dynamic which is crucial to relationship forming. it's not cute whatever it is and it's annoying. i'm in a vulnerable spot and stressed what do u want tj i'm not tanking my already tanked spot MAN

"glamis"

- IT'S OFFICIAL.

I LIKE STRAIGHT PEOPLE.

the straights will get me through tribal?

idk TJ threw Jessica's name which is a huge curveball strategically because i thought if i wanted her gone, he'd be someone to dodge in the process which made it tricky.

maybe making it sound like i wanted her gone is what he'll use to turn her against me. idk. it's weird because the second i say """"yeah i'm down for that"""", he could go to her and pretend he was doing it to prove she couldn't stick with cali and i? it'd be what he needs to flip her on us. but by the same measure if she goes back to him and leaks that i told her, i'm fucked. maybe i'll try to get someone else to let her know?

but on the other hand, this really is my best option at the moment? idk i don't have a strong bond with jessica and while it makes glamis 2.0 more tricky, OG glamis is a target right now and cali and i are exposed. if we make it back there, we make it back there and i'd rather take it a day at a time than plan too far ahead and get cut in the process. i know szymon and dani wouldn't be too upset over jessica leaving, but elias might be? idk.

i'm pretending i'm in class right now to avoid responding to his message because once i do, i'm either fucked or set but i know i can't do that for long. i need cali to wake up so we can talk about what we want to do LMFAO.

"glamis"

- ughhh i know i'm writing too much but i hate when missing pieces of the puzzle cost me. it's the same dilemma i encountered in the kariba merge. i wasn't on the first hwadze tribe, so i didn't know what their relationship network looked like and sometimes it fucked me over. now i'm not on the original fyvie tribe, so i don't know what their dynamic looked like and if TJ would actually flip on Jessica like that. if he would, i'm set. if he wouldn't, i'm screwed.

the good news is the last thing i asked jessica is how she felt about the other three, so if she said she and TJ were close, it'd tip me off that something is fishy.

NNNNNNNNNN AS I WAS WRITING THIS HE JUST MADE A GROUP OUT OF NOWHERE AND COPY AND PASTED THE SAME PITCH HE SENT TO ME. TJ HUN WHAT U DOING NNN. i can't see who is in the group unless i log on... oml. oml.

ten minutes. ten more minutes in the challenge and i'd be coasting. fml.

"fyvie"

- S50 Day 14 Confessional 2 "glamis"

- ok so TJ’s group consisted of myself, him, and cali and he literally copy pasted the message he sent me about jessica being an ideal target.. i just don’t think he’s being real. it feels too good to be true that he would vote out his own og tribe member instead of targeting an obvious duo from a tribe that has numbers? like.. ???????

that being said, outside of common logic, jessica didn't seem tipped off that something was going on so at the very least i feel like she might be unaware. or maybe she was when we talked a few hours ago. right now she’s thinking jenna or sydney. TJ said their original tribe wasn't close or anything which is why he is comfortable voting her. i think it might be a clever move for him in some ways and not too bright in others. i mean cali and i are sitting ducks, but tbf if they take a shot, they’re leaving one of us in the game very upset about being lied to so it would be messy and that was kinda my pitch to him in terms of working together despite being on different tribes. that this twist sucks and it’s best to not let it hurt our games, so we should do whatever unifies all of us and doesn't cause divisions that will be exploited down the road. plus there’s no better way for him to make it clear he’s not fyvie-strong than by voting a fyvie whereas cali and i continue to look like threats.

so yeah, i’m not going to pretend to be some mastermind pulling together a fetch plan for my long-term game. i’m in a tough spot and i’m doing things that will weaken my glamis 2.0 position and long-term perception, but i’d rather be in a tough spot than be in no spot at all. so that’s what i’m trying to do; survive. i wouldn't be shocked in the slightest if i go tonight, but i’m doing everything i can to prevent that. another alternative i conceptualized was voting with jessica so that no matter what it’s 3-3, and if they voted jessica then we can safely flip. it’d erode trust, but better safe than sorry?

anyways - the next step is to connect with sydney and jenna about tribal and see if cali and i should buy what TJ is admittedly poorly selling. i think three names are in rotation. myself, jessica, and sydney. so it’s just about making jessica look like the right person to leave. or flipping if another plan suits me better.

"glamis"

- We’re going to tribal! I am a bit nervous because like... what if people target me?? I think I can count on Jake, Cali, and TJ ago keep me safe, my hope is that TJ will be ok with voting someone from his tribe (so Sydney or Jenna I guess). I don’t really want to vote someone from my new tribe because I feel like they’d be mad, buuuut I also get along well with Szymon and Dani so they probably wouldn’t be too heartbroken if Cali or Jake left? I’m really more worried about the two of them going for me than I am anything else... hopefully t doesn’t happen!

"glamis"

- HOLY FUCK SOMEHOW I WON IMMUNITY????? Idk how i was able to go for so long bc that was like... i sat in a starbucks for 3 hours..... while doing a super emotionally draining RPG at the same time (fk u nuno) and i was sooooo close to quitting the challenge so many times while doing it, or at like 3h 10m JUST so j beat Jake bc i wanted to make sure i didnt go to tribal andnenjgkektkt but im really glad i went for as long as i did!!!!!

I’m super glad Szy and eli are safe tbb. Cali going to tribal is rough and im really hoping she survives tribal, because rn i feel closest with her and szy on this tribe, and i think szy feels close w/ jessica??? I’m not quite sure at this point but i think if we do go to tribal i have a pre good chance at surviving at this point sooo... fingers crossed 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼 "glamis"

- The Title of this episode: THE DAY EVERYONE DECIDED TO NOT BRING THEIR BIG BOY PANTS

These people mainly want Jessica out and its like…WHY??? What threat does Jessica pose to anyone?????? WHY NOT VOTE OUT THE BIG PLAYER IN SYDNEY?! The big player whose elimination would BARELY cause any repercussions. I’m so sick of people going with the “Easy vote” or voting for people who are lowkey not gonna be impacting anything. If you have a chance to take a shot at a big fucking player TAKE THE FUCKING SHOT.

Jake is being hesitant in wanting to vote Sydney, like I get he’s thinking logically about the entire thing…BUT SOMETIMES YOU CAN’T THINK LOGICALLY ABOUT THESE TINGZ. (I would highly advice that no one apply my logic about logic to anything…ever)

I’m gonna try to convince jenna and see if I can get her on board, but no matter what there are only 3 people who will probably go home this round Sydney will go home if everyone decides they wouldn’t want to fall to a huge threat in the post merge

Jessica will go home if these people decide they WOULD like to fall to a huge threat in the post merge

And I will go home if I went too OTTN this episode and if so whew my lucy huang edit is shaking

"fyvie"

- So our tribe lost but Jake, Stacks and I are safe which means Jenna, TJ and Syd are going to tribal with Cali, Jake F (who has a great voice btw) and Jessica. I’m hoping they all can come out in one piece especially Sydney. I know for a fact I can trust her and I don’t want her going home so pray for her!!!

"fyvie"

- I know I said beforehand it would be cool to throw this and get a threat out. But like, I did this challenge 100% not trying to throw and lost anyway... So I guess this is my karma 😬

Honestly though I don’t think it’s going to be a problem whatsoever, like this may work really well for me. We’re 3-3 and trying to think of options, and TJ had a really great plan that I wanted to do anyway! Try and get a 3-2-1 going to get one of them out, which I’m all for like if you guys are dumb enough to fall for that hats off! There is the question of which one to go for but that’s kind of been settled too.

Of course it wouldn’t be a tribal council unless my name came up, which occurred last night an hour into this LOL, apparently Cali threw my name out already! Like girl really??? You want me out THAT bad you’re already pitching voting me out AN HOUR INTO THE VOTE? I thought she was some crazy good player but like LOL WHAT. Although I would like to get rid of her to show her what’s up, Cali really isn’t a player in my mind and right now my sights are set on Jake. He’s really good physically and his social game is amazing, he won and if circumstances were different I’d make him my final 2 because I LOVE HIM ALREADY. But this is a big move that we’re gonna have to make!

"kisimul"

- Oh boy. I just went to the castle. And I won a big advantage. An immunity necklace that I can use after the results of the challenge are announced but before the tribal post is up. That is very important for me because challenges is what makes me lose these games. Of course I can't use it when I'm the most vulnerable (F5/F4) but it may help me if I end up getting heat mid game. I feel weird having that advantage + an idol. I never ever ever ever get lucky with those... So I feel like there must be a ton of advantages around. Too much advantages is bad, I hate seeing that on the show. It does feel good to have them on me though... I'm conflicted because I always value social and strategic game over physical and advantages.... I feel like it's unfair for me to have that and that it will weaken my overall game if I use them... I might have to use them on others for social capital.

On another note, I am safe from tribal again. That is another thing I am not used to. It's like I'm not playing the survivor I know. Winning all the time is super re-assuring but a bit boring. I'm conflicted all the time between wanting to be safe and wanting to experience the fireworks of tribal. I can't make up my mind.

This game overall is super weird. I never felt like this... I've got a feeling I actually can win it. But at the same time I'd be such a... lukewarm winner? I feel like there are such legends on this cast that would make epic winners for this epic season. I'm just this loud girl that recently got into the game... I don't know it's weird. But winning would be so sweet!

I'm wondering if this game is fun to watch for the viewers... I hope so because it is a bit slow for me at the moment. I need to use that time wisely and build my relationships. I so hope I'll make merge.

One thing I need to never forget : DO NOT GET OVER CONFIDENT OF YOUR POSITION. Always doubt people, always question their intention. Never feel too safe. Be smart, be sneaky, but this time play cleaner. A bit of messiness is fine, but not too much. You know what you are able to achieve and all you need is the last luck and skill needed to make FTC...

Wow this turned into a pep talk... See ya next round.

"fyvie"

- i’m literally sitting on stage rn for my choir concert but nuno wants a confessional and i give my mans anything he wants!

ya so I WON IMMUNITY BITCH!!!! AGAIN!!!!!! a fat ass mood is tyler and tyler going 12 hours and me only going 3 SKSHSKJSKAHS but that’s literally perfect cause i was taking a risk stopping my endurance early cause i was worried to do too well and start standing out in the challenges. i got so lucky w how this worked out and the risk was worth it whew.

but boy am i worried for cali right now!!! and jessica!!! and tj!!! and i don’t want sydney to go bc i rly rly like her... and me and jenna get along v well Ughhhh i just know i’m gonna be disappointed by the results so i’m v nervous for them. ik they won’t vote out jake bc everyone i talk to LOves him so like rip

anyway my horoscope said i need to not trust someone new in my life and i don’t know WHO it specifically is yet but i don’t NORMALLY trust people so this makes me even more PARANOID!!!! i honestly think it’s trying to tell me not to trust tyler ridgeway so i need to def keep him at more of an arms length in terms of trust I WILL NOT IGNORE WHAT THE UNIVERSE IS TELLING ME! "fyvie"

- So i've had a good few days cause, I wasn't put at a big disadvantage w/ this swap, and this twist would normally scare me, but thankfully it was an endurance challenge which is my specialty, and I lasted nearly the entire 12 given hours, n so did Tyler, but everyone else on this tribe did horrendous like damn ma the challenge really wasn't that hard at all. But ya I'm safe from this twist and i'm happy rn. Anyways, when we swapped Jenna told me she found the Kisimul idol which is great ofc because she's my #1 rn, but she fked herself in this challenge and now she's at tribal. I feel like she could end up using the idol even if she doesn't need it, out of paranoia which is understandable, but it'd be great if she could save it. Now if she goes home i'm gonna cry like fr, all that rly matters w/ this tribal is that my girl lives.

"fyvie"

- So I got the worst score in the challenge... shocker!!!!! not. I am NOT happy 2 go to tribal as a plague victim but I expected it. No one from my original tribe is coming with me which is super worrisome. I have to rely on the fact that I kept Cali the tribal Byron left, and my small connections with TJ and Sydney. I also have the idol but I really don't want to use it yet lol. I didn't want to come off too strong bc I don't have enough trust with any of these people to lead any charge one way or another. I obviously want to keep TJ and Sydney so our tribe stays strong for now and I do like them both. TJ suggested a plan where we tell Jake and Cali we'll vote Jessica out with them, but then actually vote Jake since he's won before and is a threat in challenges. I realize this is bc Jessica was on his original tribe so it's in his best interest, but I don't have any complaints bc right now I just want the 3 of us to survive. The shitty part is, Jessica is kind of dry to talk to and I'm really enjoying talking to Jake, but I do already have allies I trust and I don't think I need to stick my neck out for him just because he's fun to talk to. The other issue is i'll be lying to Cali who I do want to work with moving forward, but I know she's closeish to Jake and wouldn't want to vote him out. Hopefully even if Cali and Jake are lying to us about voting Jess, which I think is unlikely bc i do trust them, the vote would be Sydney over me.... IDK all I'm really saying is that I want to survive this tribal. If someone whips an idol out I'm prayin my name isn't written down at all, so I'm just being rlly nice to everyone until the deadline is up!