Board Thread:Season 26 - Java/@comment-24808835-20150511225102/@comment-24603302-20150511231104

First of all, Trent, I don't think I EVER came off as Holier than thou to you. If I recall, you tried getting me to work with you and I led you on to thinking there would be a chance when there wans't. Obviously I was going to do that, why in the hell would I risk telling you to your face "no it's not going to happen" when you can eaisly get pissed off and vote for me. I always gave you hope because I actually did feel bad that you were in the position you were in. You asked me one thing, you asked me if I could ask the chat if we could get rid of loxias over you. I asked that to the chat, and Mikey quickly responded with no as well as Dani so I knew it wasn't going to happen.

Second of all I know I'm good at challenges, I won the last 4, but that's not the ONLY reason I'm here. There have been other people in survivor who have won challenges and strategized and played the game, just because you win challenges doesn't mean that's all you've done to get you to this point. I was able to keep Mikey and Sheryl in my back pocket all game, they were always loyal to me and voted how I said, which is also how I got to this point and I do believe had I lost challenges they would've remained loyal to me.

Third of all I KNOW I'm not the only person that's playing the game, every single person who was in this game was playing it. I could probably make a solid case for everyone on the jury myself. I'm in the position where I need to tell you why my case to win is better then Mikey, not the other jurors and quite frankly I don't think I could make a case against a Danielle, or against a Michelle.

And last by not least about the "they know how to try to make a move" I understand this season has been boring probably to the players and to the audience because of the way it has gone, I get that. That doesn't mean you need to make a move if you're in a solid position, the goal of Survivor is not to play to the audience and what they want to see the goal is to get yourself to the end and do whatever you need to do to get to the end, it may have been boring and I would 100% agree that I haven't played the most exciting game ever but it got me to this point.

And addressing your question of why am I such an asshole?

I honestly don't know. Clearly I have parts of my personality that need work if I'm hated by almost everyone and I don't know why. I mean there really isn't anything I can think of that I did wrong, especially to you other then leading you on. I was never rude to you, I never said anything bad about you to anyone and I thought you played a good game and it'll be proven in my confessionals that I thought that about you, so I don't know why I'm such an asshole, especially to you. All I can say is yes there are parts of my personality that aren't the best, yes I need to work on them and yes I'm not the most liked person ever, and yes I probably am not even realizing everything bad I've done and need some time to reflect on the actual game I've played. That's really all I can say on the subject, is I'm sorry for being me and for being the way I was in this game.

For my number, I'll pick 2.