This Weight Attached to my Leg/Confessionals

Day 16
"qahtan"

- Skandi just auto eliminated himself from the game, and I think Im gonna start screaming and running in circles because with those tribal results Ive seen that the old schoolers actually went after Kevin, one of the swing votes, Skandi oh Skandi you had so much potential but you single handedly blew it all up... Now I must throw with Jamie next challenge because dear god we need to regain numbers by getting rid of Yap Tyler P and Ricky asap because if not come merge we are dead.

"shehr"

- As I was saying, I was blindsided. Now sam and kevin are mad at me and I'm the biggest fool. Ofcourse amelia is not guilty. I know I'm out next, I dont care at this point, I just want to say how dissapointed I am in ricky. i've never been more sad that someone lied to me in a org, because I genuinely liked him and wanted to work with him. I'm glad I met amir, but I'm done with this, I will just enjoy my last round by saying amelia she's a she for how many times I can.

"bariq"

- Apparently middle school is pissed at old school for targeting Kevin. I'll say that again, Middle school, which just targeted and voted out an old school, is pissed at us. Excuse me while I go have a mental freak out. Where do these people get their logic? In what universe does this even make sense? Like they are aware they just voted out Skandi, aren't they? They are aware that by targeting Skandi they have no moral high ground to stand on when we then target them? Kevin, I don't even know the guy but he just seems so annoying. Like dude, of course we targeted you, you were targeting us. What the hell do you expect? He really is Rupert, acting holier than thou after doing the exact same thing against us. These people... I'm losing my mind. Like what the hell. ALAOTRA WAS BETTER THAN THIS. Do you know how bad shit has to be for me to say Alaotra is better? Do you even understand? I just like... I'm staring blankly at every message and I'm just like... why. Just, why.

"shehr"

- it makes me super uncomfortable that people talk about my boobs as part of a strategy esp since like they're not even that great but whatever

"shehr"

- so we got rid of skandi, which was nice seeing as he literally didnt talk to me once and the only things i heard about him were that he was inactive and sent inappropriate sexual messages. also, it means the old school is pretty much nonthreatening at this point, except for their idol, which we think amir or mihai might have. oh yeah - can i just say how fun this round was though? i was on call for probably 4 hours total with ricky, sam, molly and kevin, which was a super good bonding experience and made me feel a lot better about my position with all of them. it's also nice to have sam included in my main group's plans and not have to worry about censoring what i tell her and everything. i think she's with us for sure now, as is kevin. not to say they won't flip in the future if it's in their favor, because i'm sure they totally would, but for now i think they feel like this is a good place for them. honestly to be tbh i think ricky is one of my favorite people in this game, and he's problematic as hell but i do enjoy talking to him. kevin is also funnier than i initially thought, even though some of his jokes this round were more stressful than anything - "hey you know what would be great? if i commented on the tribal post and said i'm playing my idol tonight" everyone: "KEVIN NO" anyways. so this round was a success and it's good to know we had jessy and jamie on our side, since they seem to be the main flip votes at this point. which is definitely something to watch out for, but also something to try to find a way to take advantage of. i also learned some of the names of the people on the other tribe, which is awesome progress, so go me. as for what happens next, i'm not totally sure. i think everyone is collectively done with mihai, but i don't know if that's a wise choice next time. i'm also worried about the middle schooler thing, not gonna lie - no matter what the current alliances are, the fact remains that there are 7 of them and only 9 of the rest of us combined, and jessy and jamie being closer to the middle is definitely a cause for concern. it'd be pretty easy for them to say, okay, let's use the new schoolers to wipe out old school and then get them out and be the final 7 before they know it. so i think the most important thing for us - me, ricky, molly, and tyler p - is to maintain this good relationship with sam and kevin, and to also secure yap since it sounds like that's a thing right now. that would give us 7 right there, although of course being spread across 3 different tribes kind of changes that. ricky had suggested that bariq and shehr just throw some challenges so we can keep going to tribal together and take advantage of having the majority there, but a) i'm not totally sure about that, since that still means we have to trust jamie and jessy who could be pulled in by old school if they have any bit of life left in them, and b) i think everyone is so excited about this selfie challenge (at least i am) that it's not gonna be a question of throwing it. so i guess we'll see the results of this challenge and go from there. if bariq and shehr go again, we're gonna have to split the vote and try to flush the idol and get another old school taken care of. if it's us and qahtan, i have no fucking clue what will happen since i haven't even spoken to half of that tribe yet. and if it's bariq and qahtan, we can just sit back and breathe for a while and pray for tyler and ricky. so much depends on these selfies.

"qahtan"

- I've been busy with life so sorry about no confessional but this scavenger hunt is killer and I'm hoping Bariq goes to tribal with us if we lose bc i want my freaking idol back and Ricky has it. He better give it back or he's potentially screwing me over big time.

"bariq"

- I can't make any moves with this fucking weight attached to my leg (Sam)

==Day 17= "qahtan"

- I just realized Cali and Yap played on the same original season lol call me Sherlock!!!! I'm so dumb. Also woo we won I made top 14!!

"bariq"

- so I asked Sam for the fucking idol if I do the move to vote out Ricky or Molly and she's bullshitting so hard rn, before she was like "if any of us are in trouble we can pass it to eachother! it's OUR idol" no if I do the move and you don't you should give me the idol b/c if we consider the swap I'm in shit and you're sitting pretty b/c you don't want to vote them off and you still don't want to give me the idol ?? GOD

"bariq"

- jesus fucking christ I say hi to mihai and suddenly I'm up to something. i'd save old school if they didn't fucking broadcast all of my conversations

"bariq"

- Skandi was voted out, and it sucks because I basically applied for this season so I can finally have a chance to play with him again after all these years. I don't understand why they targeted him out of all people, I don't understand why Jamie and Joan were trying to save him... the only thing I could think of is that they were trying to flush the Bariq idol and benefit from it in the form of blindsiding a threat. I don't get the game of these people and the reason lies with the fact they all fucking know each other! just from taking a look at some of Skandi's screenshots, you can clearly see how organized they are. I feel terrible about not letting Skandi play his idol, but now we have tons of screenshots that prove Joan and Jamie are running the game and that they were targeting Ricky, Yap, Tyler P and even Molly. My plan is to make both Mihai and Charley approach Ricky with these screenshots and hopefully try to make him flip, so we have a chance to blindside Jamie. I told both of them not to tell anything to the other person, so if the plan fails and one of them will go home, I will still have the full trust of the other person for the next round. I'm going to play the idol anyway because fuck it you can never know what they are going to do, but I'm not going to do anything other than that. Mihai and Charley are paranoid enough to do the job for me, and it might just raise the chances that Jamie and the others will actually throw their votes at me at the end and get what they deserve.

"shehr"

- Everyone in my "alliance" feels comfortable. They think we're just gonna pull off a blindside and it'll be amazing. Now I'm juggling 2 alliances that don't know that the other is voting out one of their own and if I don't flip, we could be going to rocks. Ricky isn't worth going to rocks over and neither is Jamie. I don't know what to do. Do I tell Ricky to play his idol? Do I tell Jessy that Jamie has 5 votes coming her way? SHOULD I JUST SELF VOTE SO I DONT DISAPPOINT ANYONE? WHAT IF THEY WANNA BLINDSIDE ME WITH AN IDOL IN MY POCKET. I'm so stressed out that I even told Kevin about the idol. And now Jessy is begging me to give it to her so she has it at swap. Like what if I need it at swap? I know I've been saying OUR idol but at the end of the day, I'm the one in possession of the idol and it's mine. ALL I WANNA DO IS SLEEP AND I CANT WHY IS THIS GAME SO HARD

"bariq"

- My plan to blindside Jamie may actually work even without using the idol. Mihai and Charley did the job I assigned them to and approached Ricky with the screenshots proving Jamie and Joan are two bitches that need to be killed with fire before they lay eggs. Ricky was hesitant at first as expected, but once Mihai approached Molly with the screenshot that shows Jamie was targeting her as well, everyone made a skype call of the Old+New school and agreed to vote that bitch's ass out. The new schools may not be the most trustworthy players in this game, but at this point we don't really have a choice. Do you think we're going to get any help from Joan and his angels later on? hell no. We all agreed that there's probably going to be a switch at the next vote and the Middle school+Jamie could have majority on both tribes and they must be stopped somehow. They may still be lying to us, but logically thinking (and considering they were true to us at the Tom's vote) there is a big chance this is going to happen after all. My personal dilemma is whether I should play the idol or not. I told both Mihai and Charley about it because I honestly thought I'd use it anyway, but now I'm just not sure. I may just need it for the next vote if we do switch.

"shehr"

- so basically i think new school and old school are teaming up this round and in the future maybe so lets hope this works

"bariq"

- whew I'm so suspicious of Sam rn that I'm beginning to doubt her idol

"bariq"

- I'm trying to make a big move in this game. I want to make Ricky and his allies flip to help old school. Well, he should want to work with us. We have nothing to lose. So I spelled it all out for him, how jessy and Jamie have been lying to me every round, how they targeted him last round, they can't be trusted.... Hopefully he goes with us. This may put a target on my back, and I may go home, but I was possibly going anyway. I'm coming out of this game kicking and screaming. If Jessy or Jamie goes home.... I'm gunna be happy

"bariq"

- Everything’s so quiet, almost too quiet. It’s probably just because I’m on holiday and not talking to anyone, and Ricky isn’t talking to anyone too so I’m not getting info from him either. Anyway, Skandi didn’t play his idol. That is if he even had one, and didn’t just completely lie. Oh well, he’s out now so it’s the past. But yeah, this TC has been silent tbh, apart from the last like 10 minutes where me and Jessy tried to co-ordinate a flip. Basically, we’re tired of catering to the endure/new school alliance and decided to make a move against the group. I spoke to Charley and Amir and they were down, Jessy wanted Ricky and although I love Ricky and don’t want him to go, it made sense. We asked in the main alliance chat (of mid+new school) who we should tell the old schoolers to vote, and they said Ricky. Now it just makes sense for us to vote him because if word gets out, we can say we were just doing what we were asked to do. In some ways it sucks though, because Ricky gives me loads of info but it’s time to make a move. Also, Ricky was recently engaged and I don’t wanna fuck him over while he’s happy but… it’s a game I guess. Idk why I’m feeling so guilty about blindsiding people (if this works out) since I’m known for being ruthless but I loveeee Ricky and feel really bad about this Emotikon unsure. I guess it’ll further me in the future though, and he has an idol so getting rid of that would be good (if he even has it, he might be lying like Skandi was). The way this works though is that new+mid school are splitting it between Mihai and Amir, and with me+Jessy flipping, the vote should be 5-3-2. I mean, that is if WE’RE not being played and one of us is going, which is always a possibility. I haven’t spoken to many people in a couple days because of being on holiday so I haven’t really cemented my position in the tribe, so I’m even MORE paranoid than usual. Another potential issue is another swap coming up, that I might be putting myself into minority but honestly fuck the endure/new school alliance, atleast they’ll be somewhat stopped before they just run the whole org.

"shehr"

- me: molly christ sam: antichrist ricky: ant amelia: angel kevin: garden gnome jamie: the devil old school: potential disciples tyler: pumpkin

"qahtan"

- Sam has the Qahtan idol and lied to me about it even though i tried to help her find it! I don't trust her at all right now and I'm worried that Molly or Ricky or even Amelia could go home tonight. I think this tribal will be very telling and if someone goes I'm gonna have to do some quick thinking or make sure I can make the next swap or merge and work from there.

"shehr"

- SO MANY FUCKING LAYERS. We've got people flipping on an alliance, we've got people who don't want to vote for one person, to avoid sharing secrets, and here I am, sitting in the middle not giving a shit. People assume I won't vote Ricky out, so they don't even bring up the option to me. But I said before in this game. I'll do whatever it takes, but if I can keep people who are feeding me information, the better off I am

"qahtan"

- So no surprise there, we end up winning the challenge AGAIN. The big surprise is when out of nowhere Po and I are added to this chat called "Operation WTF Jamie". I literally wake up and I'm like dying to read everything cause I'm so out of it. Well thanks to Molly and Ricky, Po and I get some sort of peak of what's going on. And when I say something in chat, Amelia and Sam are like on high alert, I swear they went like (!) A couple screenshots are shared, and it's pretty like *.* wtf? I eventually get the rundown that A) Jamie is running around saying a lot of shit B) Mihai is leaking all this information to Ricky Idk, you probably get all you need to know from the others. I know what I know, which is that Sam and Kevin were left out of the whole vote Jamie out plan because they showed they weren't into it from the beginning. Old school teamed up with Ricky and them. While Jamie and Jessy were on the short end of the stick. I think this was around the time I heard about Kevin, and his weird fiasco where talk a lot of shit about me. He's like throwing my name under the bus a lot because of what happened in Endure. And I get super pissed about this shit. Like I want to work with Kevin, he even promised me he would give me a chance in the future. But before I can even make a name for myself in this game, my reputation is getting dragged through the mud by some man child who's abandoned a diaper for a tighty whitey. AND WE GET IT, YOUR FAT AND PROUD. BUT THERE ARE SOMETHINGS YOU SHOULDN'T BE PROUD ABOUT. //rant over