Board Thread:Season 31 - Retribution/@comment-25097517-20160309030957/@comment-24277959-20160309052747

"My question to you is, why was Bryce always a priority to you over me?"

I wouldn't say Bryce by HIMSELF was a priority over you. If the question here is more so focused around why I aligned with him around the beginning of unmerge rather than you, my choice to do so wasn't as black and white as just choosing HIM over '''YOU. The main reason why I aligned where I did around that stage of the game is because of the allies you two had, not just you two in particular - in short, I felt like I could work with some of the people Bryce had, while the players you were aligned with, like Boo, I felt I didn't have a deep enough relationship or game connection with where I could realistically work with yall for a good portion of the game. '''So in a way I kinda made you guilty by association, but know that I absolutely would've wanted to work with if given the opportunity. I just don't think the events of this game gave us that chance.

But Bryce wasn't ALWAYS a higher priority than you in terms of game. You mentioned how I would save him over you at the first merged vote, well, yeah absolutely, AT THE TIME Bryce hadn't backstabbed any of my allies yet and you and I hadn't spoken. '''But if the vote was between you and Bryce at other instances after that, more times than not, I'd probably have voted out Bryce over you if given the choice. '''

"Why did you rely on the YouTubers so much that you let yourself constantly get walked over again and again?"

Honestly, I was fully cognizant of the fact that Bryce was playing me and going back on his word time and time again, but I wouldn't exactly say I was walked on considering that I did put Bryce's name down, and this was two rounds before your voteout. Survivor is a game of timing, ever since the Yannick vote I knew I couldn't trust Bryce for anything in terms of endgame plans, and the Nick and Ethan votes made that issue even more alarming and made me want to vote out Bryce earlier. However, I couldn't be quick to pull the trigger and gun for him right away. I wanted to see you and him duke it out while I enjoyed the fireworks, and clearly that failed on my part. But in terms of going after Bryce I had to play it round by round until I found the opportunity to do so, and that's exactly what I did when F7 came. And part of the waiting process was isolating myself from you, because when I talked to the both of you I got caught.

In terms of trusting the other YouTubers so much I honestly have no qualms admitting that that was a flaw in my game, there were 5 of us but before I could blink it was down to 2 in the remerge. I failed to consider our individual games, and before I knew it, I was put into a position where I wasn't given as much strategic leeway and I had to just make a run for it. And thankfully I got here.

" Also, I want to know if you were faking being nice to me for the portion of the game where we were somewhat close, I really considered you to be somewhat of a friend at that point then you went back to Bryce as if it meant nothing. " 

'''Grace, everything I said to you personally was genuine in this game. FROM A HUMAN LEVEL, IF THERE'S ONE THING I'M TERRIBLE AT, IT'S BEING FAKE. What I say is often straight up and I don't want yo u to think otherwise in terms of any of the conversations we had. I actually thought we would be o n rough grounds after something you posted about me in the Skye Islands VL (dw that's in the past now and that issues way resolved lol) and that it would be hard-pressed for me to talk to you. Through your speech I found out you similarly felt the same way about me. I think the fact that we both were skeptical of talking to one another from just a communication standpoint shows that the talks we eventually would have weren't just these drawn out and choppy messes, but were actually relevant and meaningful. '''

'''While I consider myself to be straightforward from a personal level I also know to separate game and personal levels, so the talks I chose to cease with you weren't a knock against you personally in any way shape or form, it was a temporary strategic decision on my part and I want you to know that. I honestly thought of you as a friend in the game too, and that's something I want to continue when this is all said and done. '''

'''Oh and in terms of the whole not opening messages ordeal? I kinda do that to everyone I talk to. And I mean everyone. SO IT WASN'T AGAINST YOU. I even do it to Yannick sometimes whoops, and that's just because when I do talk to people I usually want extended conversations, and if I'm not in the time or place to do so, I'll just wait until a later time to open their message. But clearly that frustrated you and I want to apologize to you about that. '''

But if there's anything I learned through your speech, it's that I really need to value individual relationships in this game and not just be this cold or calculating player, or this freight train that just bulldozes everything in its path with no regard for anything else. That's something I've always struggled with, just genuine social connections, because I don't think I have too many redeeming qualities from a personal level, but even if so there's other players in the game with feelings too, and I should work on reciprocating them. So once more I want to apologize for my on and off messages, and that I hope when this season's over we can be friends. I wholeheartedly mean that.