Silence Makes People Give Up Their Secrets/Confessionals

Day 35
"balegdeh"

- if jamie wins immunity im killing myself

"balegdeh"

- CLIFFFYYYYYSSS HEEEEEERRREEE!!!! Omg I’m so dang excited. I need all the advice I can get after the ridiculous tribal we just had. He was also the person who introduced me to ORGS so it seems very fitting that he’s here for the CRAZIEST season I’ve ever been on. Unfortunately he was like no help on the challenge *insert eye roll* but it’s fine. I still love him ❤️

"balegdeh"

- It’s been fun getting to come and support Cali. She’s been doing a great job and I’m glad she’s able to keep the legacy going. This season has been a good one and I’m excited to see how it will end!

"balegdeh"

- I feel like Mike’s mom in WA because I was completely useless in this challenge and I don’t think I helped Sydney at all. I really hope she wins immunity or survives because that would be the second time I’d cost her the win! I’m really proud of her whatever happens and she’s proven she’s a legend to me.

"balegdeh"

- If there is anyone who exemplifies being cool, calm and collected, it's my queen, Chelsea! Coming out as her loved one is an honour and it's just so exciting to see after coming back as a winner, she's still standing and in the final six! No matter what, she has proven herself as a great player and one of the ORGs most underrated gems. Except, after this game, she won't be underrated no more because she's going for that double-crown!!! So all I have to say to Chels: "Queen... STAY QUEEN!!" 💕💕

"balegdeh"

- Jamie being the goat of the season and being dragged to F5 we stan! Wasted idols for no reason, needing immunity, no one trusting her, her being paranoid 24/7 for literally no reason, we stan a win worthy game 😍😍😍

Jk jk fr tho she's done a great job making it this far with zero voted cast against her esp with her rep and being a five timer. What 🐍 a 🐍 beast 🐍. Maybe she can pull out a win this time!!!!!!

https://media.giphy.com/media/Ckr0CGDtb47tK/giphy.gif

Day 36
"balegdeh"

- Chris keeps asking me to make confessionals when I think he will instead be posting results. What the heck

I hope no one else is smart enough to realize all the songs were sped up by the same % and you can just import them into an editing program, slow them down, and figure out almost all of them. There was only 1 I couldn't get at all (the mashup) and even then, I'm pretty confident I got at least 1 of the songs right in it.

If people are being legit with me, I've beaten Dani, Chelsea, and Jamie at the challenge. Cali I told some answers to but not all of them, and also if she wins I""m not that sad that's fine with me. Worst case scenario is Sydney wins, because it means either Cali/Dani have to turn on each other, or Jamie has to go. I don't necessarily want Jamie to stay, but I'd like to have the option of working with her.

My plan this round is: 1) hopefully win immunity 2) Talk to Jamie and offer her a deal: I'll save her this round, but she can't vote me out for the rest of the game. If she votes for me, not only will I not vote for her to win, but I'll tell her I will tear her apart in jury. Would I actually?? Probably not, but I know she cares about jury votes and thinks her chances to win at the end are apparently amazing, so I hope it works. 3) We vote Sydney out unanimously FINALLY

My strategy w/talking to people is to pull a good ol' trick out of the movie ""John Tucker Must Die"". In that movie, the main girls tell Brittany Snow that in order to get John to like her, she should always wait 5 seconds before answering his questions, because if he's desperate to get her attention he'll keep talking and give her what she wants. I find that works well in this game, silence makes people give up their secrets so easily because they get anxious that you aren't replying, and then I get info and give very little in return :~) So here's hoping that works... I know it does because when people do it to me I get very rambly so let's hope I can not blow up my position this round haha

I'm still talking to Sydney like I want to work with her, in case this all backfires. I think the best case scenario is a f5 with me, Cali, and Chelsea, because neither of them will vote me out, meaning that I'd be guaranteed f4 and almost guaranteed FTC. I think I have a huge asset on my side to win, which is nobody knows that I was close with a lot of the jurors. This is where the pregame relationships are actually working incredibly in my favour, because everyone just says ""Dani was friends with X, Y, Z so she'll win"" or ""Jamie was friends with these people so they'll vote for her"", no one seems to remember that Dani/Jamie also betrayed and fought with a LOT of their friends to get to where they are, and Jamie misplayed a bunch of advantages for no benefit. If she'd trusted in her alliances earlier, she'd be in the f5, because she'd still have her idol, and now she just has to hope other people decide to work with her but she's got no pull over the game.

I think depending on how the next 3 people go to jury.... I can win in any scenario? If it's based on arguing your game, I can for sure, I just have to read whether the jury is really cheering for Jamie or Cali, since I assume it's one of them as they're the most rootable in my opinion from an outside perspective. If I go now, I think I'd root for Cali, but I also played a lot more closely with her than say Audrey, Tyler, or Bryce did (which are 3 people that would hopefully vote for me if I'm at the end?).

"balegdeh"

- Okay so before I get into my usual ritual of complaining about how everyone in the game is after me, AHHHHH! I made the finale!! And I’m apart of a record for most females left in the game! I wanted to come back and make sure a girl won so whatever happens I’m glad I could do it! AND Marie is here and I love her, so even if I do go it’s been a good day ❤️

On that note, I am probably leaving. Dani and Cali were my best hopes and they have been ignoring me like crazy. And like, I get people are busy but they are just omg. Cali will never speak to me during a a vote and probably will never get my vote because of it, but Dani will speak to me like crazy when she needs my vote, then when she doesn’t ignores me so it’s really easy to read when she’s not with me. And if I needed anymore confirmation, Chelsea told me Dani is throwing my name out and VOTED ALREADY? Like girl really? She’s been so unloyal to me after I have been helping that girl out all the time, but not anymore if I’m going I’m voting her or getting her out instead. I know Jamie will vote with me, so I just have to convince Chelsea and Jessica they should. Chelsea is down I think because she knows Dani will keep voting her and coming after her, which isn’t good to have in the final 5. Jessica may be the harder sell, but if I can make a deal or something for JUST one more round I will take it.

I said before the season I won’t be the victim ever in this season and I’m still not, but this game has really sucked and made me realize I’m not cut out for it. Like I haven’t done anything different from anyone else and people will still find reasons to vote me out and get rid of me for the sake of it. It just really sucks like I tried to change my game up so much, but still I was the target at almost every single tribal council I attended and I hate it. Like I know it’s a game and not to take it personal, but I really feel like I should because it’s just been non stop this entire game, like I never had a second to breathe and just take it easy unless I won immunity. If I wasn’t my name came up. I’m just so sick and tired of it and I know even if I make it past this it will be the same with the next two rounds and I hate it. Maybe something will change but at this point I’m defeated like I’m not giving up, but I have no more tricks up my sleeve and no more weapons like if I’m done then I’m done.

"balegdeh"

- i have this just gut feeling thaf im leaving this week and ugh. maybe im wrong but no one is talking so I just feel really gross and really bad, but im trying to not think about it and just go with it bc theres no point in bejng paranoid as i havent legit heard anything.

i voted for sydney this round because i thought about it a lot and she is the biggest threat left for the crown imo besides Jamie. She has been on top, on the bottom, to a bunch of tribals, and has been a strategic, social, and a bit of a physical threat too. I need to look at MY endgame plan, even if it means getting rid of people that i genuinely enjoy talking to!

Ideally, i think I wanna get to the end with me, cali, and jessica. That is the top f3 for me right now. Jamie can’t be there i cant let her be there.. its just so close and i can almost taste it and ugh. all i want is to get at LEAST 4th..... if i fan get to 4th, or even to FTC i feel like ill have proved myself on main org the best that i can... because i am proud of how i played this game honestly. and i just want others to know that too..

"balegdeh"

- I've been practicing French on Duolingo so when I go to the jury I can really impress Audrey

le canard mange une pomme

She's going to be so impressed

Day 37
"balegdeh"

- WHO WOULD HAVE EVER THOUGHT

THAT LITTLE OLD CALI BANANA FOFANA SMITHE

WOULD HAVE MADE IT 100 DAYS ON THE WIKI

I am actually out of my mind this is AMAZING. I know my game has been one that’s been filled of flaws (just like my face) I still am so STOKED and damn near honored to have made it this far. I haven’t done one of these in awhile SO LET ME FILL YOU IN ON ALL THE RECENT TEA JUSH

Ok so last I did a confess I was talking about how I felt it was “sus” for us all to vote for Sydney as opposed to Jared, AND BITCH I WAS RIGHT LMAO??? I managed to get Dani on the “jared” way of wanting to vote (She may have gotten there herself BUT I WAS DEFF THE FIRST ONE THAT MENTIONED IT) Anyway I made a HUGE RISK and voted Jared despite promising everyone that I would vote Sydney AND BITCH IT PAID OFF? I was scared that it would jeopardize my game, but it actually only SAVED my game from falling in the gutter. AND THEY SAID SHE WASN’T STRATEGIC? BITCH KIM SPRADLIN WAS FOUND DEAD.

So ya Jared goes home, then flash to the next tribal. So HERE I was genuinely busy and away for a majority of the day, however guess who for probably the first times during a tribal SHOWED INTEREST IN TALKING TO ME? WHY SYDNEY OFC. Like you mean to tell me, while you and those heathers were in power in this game, you guys didn’t THINK to really make an effort to talk to me during a tribal until you were on the bottom??? And then you get mad when people aren’t being totally receptive to you when, once again, YOU DEADASS HAVE VOTED AGAISNT US FOR A MAJORITY OF THIS GAME? OFC WE’RE NOT GOING TO BE RECEPTIVE. Don’t get me wrong Sydneys a nice girl, I just don’t think her frustration with us was well placed, cause it’s like welp look at what US BOOGERS have been going through ALL FUCKING GAME. Sucks right?

So ya she goes home, Chelsea tries to be extra by tying it but I mean wtf was that lmao

So now I feel like I’ve put my self in a pretty good spot in this final 5. I’m essentially good with everyone on the tribe, and idk I guess I don’t see them cutting me off before final 3??? Regardless, BITCH im gonna get there. I have spent too much of this damn game WANTING THIS SO BAD. I’ve had to go through straight up HELL SITUATIONS, HELL TWISTS, AND HELL BREATHS to get here and I’m not stopping now. If I lose I lose, but just know good and damn well that I’m going to give a fight to remember.

"balegdeh"

- OK SO THIS IS A STICKY SITUATION

First of all, Jamie is a fucking legend. Flat out cut and dry. I wish I could have won this won but I’m not really all together in the head for me to even FINISH was an accomplishment in itself

Second of all. THIS TRIBAL OH NOES. I HAVE A LOT OF TALKING TO DO BECAUSE LIKE I DONT WANT TO GO HOME, BUT I ALSO DONT WANT DANI OR JESS TO GO HOME??? OH YA AND I DONT WANT CHELSEA TO LEAVE EITHER so whatever happens this is a sticky situation By Baylor Wilson, now available on iTunes

I’ve gone through too much bullshit to just accept 5th place so ya I know that I’m staying THATS A FACT. A part of me kind of wants Dani to go cause she would deff win over me (I mean so would everyone else but like SHE WOULD DEFF) so she’s kind of my choice, BUT I DONT WANT HER TO KNOW THAT AND IF I TOLD JESS I ALREADY KNOW IT WOULD FIND ITS WAY BACK TO DANI

"balegdeh"

- I’m a mess! I thought I could trust everyone but I don’t think I can trust anyone?

I think it’s too much to assume Chelsea is just totally cool losing to me and Jamie. It seems so weird that she wouldn’t make a move now, because she has to know her best chance of winning is with Cali and Dani? I think Sydney got in her head about making a move and now she wants me out, she’s been so weird all day and super short/cutting off conversation, which she never does. It’s too bad, because I think if her and Jamie had come out with a strong “we want to vote Cali”, Dani would have done it and this would have been easy, even though I’d rather have Cali in the final 4 but oh well.

Cali I fully trust, I don’t think she’d lie to me at this point she’d just tell me if she was voting me out. Which I don’t think she is. I think Dani is in the same position, it’s not that I trust her to not vote me but I trust her to tell me if she is. Jamie.... I think isn’t voting me out? Again I think she’d say if she was. I’m fully expecting to get 4 messages at 9:59 saying “sorry I voted you” yikes!!!

Honestly in an ideal situation, Chelsea will target me. Or at least give me a slight reason to vote her that isn’t just totally from my paranoia. And then she can go home 4-1 haha. I feel like I’m either getting 5th or winning the game at this point.

I’ve told a lot of lies in this game but the biggest one was probably that I’d be bitter if I left. I’d Be disappointed but I don’t think it’s a bad move for everyone to vote me, and I’d wish them all the best! I have no obvious person my vote is going to, so it would be an interesting race to the finish. And I could finally let my anxiety from this game mellow out

"balegdeh"

- HI QUICKIE CONFESSIONAL

JESSICA IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE WHO WILL PROBABLY BEAT ME IN THE END. I kind of want to vote her out but idt thats the best move for me just cause she has a good chance of beating jamie next immunity challenge

JAMIE WANTS ME OUT AND HOPEFULLY DANI AND CHELSEA DONT SIDE AGAINST ME?

CHELSEA IS A QUEEN WHO I HAVE TO VOTE OUT

AND DANI SMOKES HAMS FOR BREAKFAST

THAT IS ALL

"balegdeh"

- holy fuck i hope i dont get 5th

theres realy not a whole lot to say. last round there was a tie between me and syd, and i survived by lying to chelsea which is probs gonna lose me her jury vote but w/e. it got me thru !! im still here !!!

if jamie hadnt won immunity, she'd be leaving. however, she won. somehow. someway. she sucks. i want her gone. i dont want her in the finale. shes lovely but I DONT WANT TO FACE HER IN THE FINALS IF I WIN??? DFGKJDHSFKJ

if i get 4th this wil be full circle and i think im ok with that. i just wnan amake it thru this vote but im a nervous wreck and dont wanna be voted out on my birthday KGHFDFKJS

"balegdeh"

- well this entire vote has gone to shit and im pretty sure cali is leaving now and uggghhhhhh im so upset and now im getting fourth and UGH i just wanna cry now... this isnt FAIR this was EASY AT FIRST AND HAD PEOPLE FUCKING TALKED BEFORE THE DEADLINE ITD BE EASIER????? jesus

"balegdeh"

- OK SO THEY'RE VOTING ME? I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I WAS NOMINATED.

Ya no jokes aside BITCH IM IN DANGER A FUCKING GAIN

Basically Jamie and Chelsea think i'm a jury threat, and as MUCH as I would like to believe that my avalanche of a game is ""threatening"" IT'S REALLY NOT??!??!?

i'm trying to make Jess SEE THE LIGHT THAT SHE NEEDS TO KEEP ME. I'm using ANY MEANS THAT I CAN to stay right now. I'm calling chelsea a future double winner, i'm saying that we need me to help with potentially beating jamie next tribal, bitch im letting it ALL OUT THERE

Please pray for Cali for the 100TH TIME IN THIS GAME because i've been through this shit for FAR TOO LONG. I'm crossing my legs, hands, and lungs that this works out and I get to prance for another day

"balegdeh"

- IM SORRY I HAVENT MADE A CONF IN SO LONG!!!!!!!!!!

heres what went down this round: i was at a crossroads - do i wanna go w/ chelsea/jess to the end? do i wanna go w/ chelsea/dani????? does dani have all her alliance's support? do ppl think jess played better than me???? ALL THESE THOUGHTS. i worked out chelsea would never vote jess by asking chelsea to vote jess w/ me (with jess' permission) and thus, if i wanna kill jess, i must do it this round. HOWEVER!!!!!!!! realistically i wanna go to ftc w/ chelsea/jess. not bc jess has convinced me this way but its bc i FEAR dani/cali's jury vote potential. i also pushed all the votes onto cali to make sure i got MY way bc cali is a bigger threat. love that queen but its the truth. also i got dani/cali to vote together. that way if jess/chelsea flip and decide to vote dani, then i can flip on the revote and kill chelsea. i WANTED jess to get the votes but miss dani voted earlier. so i guess its chelsea. im fine w/ that tbh akjdbh. so ya. i gotta win immunity at f4 but ive won 4 so i can win the 5th, esp bc final immunities are usually trials which i tend to be quite good at. wish me luck !!!!! xox

"balegdeh"

- well its over and jess voted for cali. im fucked. im getting 4th. this is great

Day 38
"balegdeh"

- Ugh I kind of already regret voting Cali out, I feel like that was a huge mistake but it's too late now. My ideal f4 had to have 2 people in it I felt would never vote me, and I felt like I had a stronger chance of that with Chels/Dani than I did with Cali/Dani. Everyone left has SAID they won't vote me at f4, which is great, but I don't trust anyone!

I voted Cali over Chelsea because I felt like Cali/Dani were more likely to vote me out if Jamie won final immunity, whereas I feel like Dani/Chelsea will vote each other. Hopefully Jamie doesn't win at all, and I can just vote her out. The ideal situation for me is I win final immunity, because then I can just do what I want with no fear of consequences. If Chelsea chooses to vote to keep Jamie, that's on her, but I know Dani and I will be voting her. If Jamie wins FI, I'm hoping that she keeps her word and votes Dani, and then I'll make it tie for Chelsea (with the hopeful scenario that Dani loses the tiebreaker, and becomes a jury vote for me).

I think if that all happens.... I might be wrong, but I think Jake, Bryce, Dani, and Cali would all be votes for me. So.... if Dani goes to jury AND wants me to win (which only happens if I don't vote for her), I've got this? If Jamie leaves, swap her in for Dani. If Chelsea leaves.... for me that's the worst case scenario, because she will probably vote for AND cheer for Jamie. Ironically though, I'd probably vote for her.

I think I've got this? I took a risk voting Cali out, but I hope it pays off.

"balegdeh"

- Hmmm after hearing Dani's ROP maybe I don't regret cutting Cali after all :~)

I literally forget everything I wrote in my last confessional so I'm going to write another one. I think as of right now..... I am going to be in the f3 no matter what? Dani and Chelsea hate each other too much (I hope) to go against me next round, although after the disastrous f5 vote they might want to try it. Worst case I think is I'm doing a tiebreaker against Chelsea, which I think I could beat her in. But I'd rather avoid a tiebreaker at all. I think it's more likely Jamie wins FI, her and Chels vote Dani, and then Dani and I vote Chels. Which I don't love, but what can ya do.

I think I said I was winning no matter what in my last confessional??? I might have been a bit delusional when I wrote that, I don't think that at all haha I just think I have a very good shot.

I do mean it when I tell Jamie I'd be all right to lose to her at the end, but I think her having immunity most of the merge is going to be a huge black mark against her and I fully intend to exploit it if I'm at FTC with her. She has no way to prove her relationships were good enough to get her through the game because she never really needed to rely on them and when she did she'd panic and play idols that people already suspected her of having. The ONLY way she can argue that her relationships help her is if she loses FI but Chelsea still votes to keep her, which I hope doesn't happen but it definitely could, and even then that's 1 person she'd have manipulated for 1 vote. Also, between her and her core alliance of Syd/Jared/Szy, they basically had 3 idols at one point and knew where all idols were, yet she was using them to take out Jake and keep the big group of 7 strong?? I think my biggest issue is just that if she was so fearful she was out next from F8 onwards, why didn't she make bigger moves/try to work with other people more to ensure her safety? She was afraid of me/Cali/Dani/Chels teaming up against her, but why not go to Dani and Cali yourself and try to do something? I guess if I get voted out, my question will be how she planned to stay safe at F6 and F5 (and assumedly, F4) because in my opinion she'd have been out all of those rounds without immunity because her alliances weren't strong enough to keep her around.

I think it's a testament to Dani's game that she was a target from the start of merge yet is still here, and that's honestly really impressive to me. Chelsea is another one who I think really relied on her relationships to save her and it worked, at F8 and now at F5 she stayed safe because of work she'd put in ahead of time and it really impresses me.

No shade to you Jamie when you read this, you've obviously played an incredible game which I've talked about before, I just think the assumption that you'll for sure win if you're at the end is misguided. If I get voted out, I want to see a winner that managed to keep themselves safe and in the loop, and honestly I think that fits Chelsea and Dani pretty well.

May the best woman win!

"balegdeh"

- Oh wow, now I really don't know what to do if Jamie wins immunity. I'm mad, because I basically had this one and then I messed up majorly on 2 parts that I should have won (b&w and the crossword). Unless I win the swim, the cow (I have a good chance there), the flag (but Dani gets second), AND Chelsea beats Jamie in the b&w, I think this one is Jamie's.

Which will then leave me with only two options. I know earlier I said I'd vote Chelsea, but I'm really second guessing that now for a few reasons: - Unless Jamie votes Chelsea too, she could end up feeling super betrayed and vote for Jamie to win. Not good! - Dani has the potential to pull quite a few votes. Honestly? I think I've super underestimated her up until now, and I think if I end up leaving next round I'd like to see her win. She did a great job avoiding being a target, and I thinks she had a good UTR strategy. Jamie and Chelsea's games for me have gotten weaker these past few rounds whereas Dani has become super strong. Tyler, Jenna, and Cali are all swing votes that could go her way that I doubt will vote for Chelsea. - Dani could be trying to 2-1-1 me, and in voting Chelsea I vote myself out of the game. If that did happen I mean I'd be really impressed, and her and Jamie's stock would go up for me. But I'd rather be at the end of the game, so.... - I know Chelsea's game better than I know Dani's, and I'll have an easier time arguing for why she should lose. - Honestly at this point, if Chelsea wanted me out, she'd have voted me out. She's had a lot of opportunities, and she doesn't trust Dani enough to work with her. The only way Chels votes me is if Jamie does, and I don't see Jamie doing it if Dani isn't, and IF Chelsea knew I was going home 3-1 I think she'd hopefully give me a chance in a tiebreaker? What a long sentence. - I know it's not the best reason, but Chelsea has been one of my only long term allies that's still here. I lost Jake and Audrey and I betrayed Cali.... I'd like to have at least 1 person I stayed loyal to the whole way through.

As of right now, I mean there's still hope I win immunity but I don't want to count on that when it's so unlikely. It's hard, because I'm trying not see things from my perspective, but from the jury's. I definitely do not want a pro-Jamie supporter being the final juror, and Dani has outright said she'd vote me to win, multiple times. I obviously won't just vote her out without saying anything, I'm going to tell her all of this, and hope that she understands enough to still want to see me win. I wasn't giving her false hope, even now my mind isn't made up, so hopefully she understands. My hope is that since I won't be here right when results are posted, and since everyone has said they're pretty locked in who they're voting, I can just come back to 3 already locked votes and be on my way. If I come online and see that this ISN'T the case, to me that says Dani and Jamie are potentially planning to vote me, and that ain't cute.

I miiiiight also kind of hope that this turns into a 2-1-1 vote? First of all that's super fun, but it would also really help my argument at FTC. If Jamie votes me, but Dani votes Chels, and Chels/me vote Dani, it just goes to show how much people needed me to make their endgame plans work and how even in f4 I was able to keep people against each other but not against me. It also would make Jamie unable to say she controlled the f4 in any way if she votes incorrectly.

All that being said, I can't wait until this game is over. It has taken up way too much of my life lately and I'm ready to relax!!

"balegdeh"

- I just won immunity LMAOOOO. honestly i said at the beginning of the season, this has to end before xmas bc im gone afterwards and i said that was important bc there was a strong chance id make the end bc i have in pretty much ALL of my recent games. HOWEVER in reality, i didnt like ACTUALLY believe id make the end? like i did kinda but i also didnt LMAOOO, idk.... ksajdbsdh. im just a little bit shocked and surprised right now bc i think if you asked most ppl at the beginning of the season, who was gonna make f3, VERY few ppl wouldve said me. im just so happy this is my last game ever. i feel like it couldnt have been a better one to end on: i ended it on main. i found 2 idols, played 1 successfully and reversed the rome curse. i survived a matsing tribe. i had a period when i was top dog and calling the shots. i had a period when i was an underdog and had to win every immunity. i have 0 votes cast against me. i made day 39. even if i lose i rlly am sooo content w/ this season. thank u chris sora ally nadine nuno and EVEN justin for ending my org career in such a nice way!!!!!!!!!!! i legit wouldnt change ONE thing bc its all been a whole mood from start to end. LETS HOPE it ends w/ a win but even if i lose like, this is a deserving bunch. [:

"balegdeh"

- https://youtu.be/TzZuE6yxfKo

Day 39
"balegdeh"

- I have done it! I made it to FTC. I'm disappointed I didn't win final immunity (literally I would have if I did that freaking challenge properly!!) but I made it regardless :~)

I definitely have my work cut out for me at this FTC. Jamie is going to come in really hard, but I think I have the arguments to take her down. That being said, her and Chelsea both played quite well, and I feel like if I do lose this season, it won't be because people are voting AGAINST me but rather because they're voting FOR someone else, and that's at least a nice feeling to have.

I signed up for this game to improve my ORG reputation, since the last 2 games I was clearly seen as a fool as all I did was fight people and not try. The fact I'm at FTC, with a legitimate chance to win, is really impressive to me!

My argument for why I should win is going to be because I feel I""m the only person left who played all three elements (physical, social, strategic) equally. Even though I didn't win any challenges, I did come close 2nd in 5 of them, and I didn't need to win any immunity challenges to still get all the idol clues :~) I had alliances with everyone, and hopefully they aren't upset enough about me breaking them and still want to see me win.

Woop woop

"balegdeh"

- https://youtu.be/MQsiIQyfTOM

"balegdeh"

- SOOO last confessional of the season!!! Honestly so happy with this, kinda think Jess will win and I might even get 3rd but you know WHAT? I'm actually completely content with that.

I made mistakes this season and maybe if I hadn't, I'd be winning pretty handedly. BUT like, imo I had SOO many moments that outshone those mistakes and no matter how big they were, I rebounded. Even when everyone probably thought I was dead in the water, I won those immunities and got myself to the end. Win, lose, 2nd, 3rd, 1st, WHATEVER, no one can take away from me the fact that I entered this game with by far the biggest target, effortlessly made it to the merge and then was top dog at the early merge then the underdog, and rocked both well enough to reach here. I kinda got roasted by the jury but it doesn't even taint it at all because it's like, clearly I made less mistakes than them bc I made ftc lol... Anyway, if Jess wins she will be an amazing winner. I think my story outshines hers, but her gameplay outshines mine, and I'm fine admitting that. I can rest easy knowing that my ORG legacy is improved by this season, and now I've made the end 2/5 of the times I've played. Like honestly pre-Arch, idk why people targeted me when my placements were 6th, 11th, 15th - now that they're 6th, 11th, 15th, 2nd and 1st/2nd/3rd like, it just looks way better.

THANK YOU TO THE HOSTS!!!! and thank you to the players, ESPECIALLY audrey, sydney and jared who were my favourite people this season <333, and chelsea/jenna are close runner-ups in that group but we didnt play as close strategically. even tho i had to stay up till 4am a lot of nights, i really enjoyed this season and it couldnt be a better one to end on. how crazy tho asdkjbds after 6 years of playing games, its gonna end for me in 2 hours. crazy. anyway, ya. my last conf... a whole mood.... love u all and ty to any1 who played a role in this season or my org life in general. BYE!!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NLTycssWx6o