Calm Down Dude, I Barely Trust You/Confessionals

Day 25
"payang"

- OMFG!!!! IT'S THE MERGE!!!! I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW!!!!!! First thing I do is get to work on the idol, I don't think it's been found but I have two clues to work with so lets see if I can sleuth it out, FINAL 3 HERE I COME!

"miyang"

- WOOOHOOO I'M SO HAPPY TO REACH THE MERGE!!! NOW THE BATTLE IS OFFICIALLY ON!!!! I'M GONNA TRY TO WORK HARDER THIS TIME.... LOSING IS NOT AN OPTION! HOPING TO FIND AN ALLIANCE THAT CAN PROTECT ME... PEOPLE MIGHT SEE ME AS A GOAT BUT WHO KNOWS I MIGHT BE A SNAKE THAT CAN EAT THEM UP ALIVE! I'M SO PUMPED! TIME TO WORK DOUBLE TIME STARTING NOW!

"miyang"

- Red is so weird. He's been giving me the silence treatment all season long and as soon as we merge he starts talking to me about how he loves working with me and wants to stay loyal till the F3. Like, calm down dude, I barely trust you.

"payang"

- Ok, so merge and I have a lot to say!

So first, I got to meet Katie! We talked on Day 0 and I actually wanted to be on her tribe more than I wanted to be on Tom's (thanks GOD though I wasn't a nasty Miyang). I hate that she's Miyang cause otherwise I'd like to go far with her because the little I've seen of her is super cool. Also I got to see the New Miyang chat and they seemed a lot closer than they let on. I was like umm…

Also, I've been guessing for this damn idol FOR freaking EVER and I can't find it, aagggghhhhhhhh!

So onto alliances, I want to go with Katie but she has to go soon (for obvious reasons although it makes me really sad); so knowing Payang is the smartest route I talked to Red, he's really impressionable and I think he's 100% with me. We talked and he likes Miguel, and so do I, so we talked and decided that the two of us, Miguel, Hugo, and Nick. This gives us the majority when we're down to 8 Payang and gives my KO 3 the majority when we're down to the newly formed 5.

FTC is just a few short days away and I know I'll be sitting there.

"miyang"

- So, we merged. I'm not sure about my situation right now. I think I'm relatively safe with Rick, Miguel, Red and Tom, since we are an alliance, but I'm certain they don't value me as very smart nor am I valuable or useful. I know that if I want to survive until the Jury, which is my goal, I either have to win immunity all the time (and since I suck donkey dick at games that won't happen) or, try to stay anonymous and not attract attention from the other people. If I can just hold on until Jury I'll be happy, I don't give a fuck about winning. My prediction is that either Tom will be targeted by the others as soon as he loses immunity, since he is a big threat, or he'll go on to win it all. I think I'll have to make a pre-emptive strike to get him out soon too. He's keeping me in to try to get me into the Jury, since he wants my potential vote, but I know he'll toss me away as soon as I have exceeded my usefulness. and I don't want that pretentious cumstain to win anytime soon. Somehow I have to rally some other people to vote him out as soon as possible. I don't know about my people skills since I'm an antisocial goose, but Tom has got to go.

"miyang"

- It's been a while since I gave a confessional. There hasn't been much drama with my tribe winning challenges consistently. But that's all about to change. Me and Miguel are basically playing both sides of the major alliances. We're sticking with our foursome of Diego, Hugo, Miguel and myself. But we're also working with Erlend, Red and Rick for now. Both sides have agreed to take out Trevor. The four some wants to take out Katie next, but me and Miguel want to use her to pick off Rick and ensure numbers. I'm also trying to work a way to keep Nick around as long as possible, but that's going to be challenging. I don't want to say I'm in control, because in survivor, when you think you're in control you're gone the next day. Regardless, things appear to be going my way for the most part and I should have no problem making the Final Four.

"miyang"

- Why are people even considering names like Galang and colors like green or orange? How unoriginal and uninspired can they be? Those are like the worst options they could come up with.

"payang"

- Red wine is an ugly ass color. And Yum Yum is a stupid name, considering voting Tom out just for that.

"payang"

- Still fuming about the color. Bitches it's ugly can we not please.

"payang"

- You know your insane when your strategizing to get people to vote orange as the merge color.

"payang"

- I think our merge name is gonna be yum yum. Imma stab these people with garden gnomes. But like for real, there're like three people I like on this tribe and the rest of them are just bitches I tolerate.

"yumyum"

- Yum Yum lol I love it my tumblr survivor peeps will be proud of that name. Now its time to throw trevor under the bus and save myself. Last woman standing… last miyang standing LET DO THIS.

"yumyum"

- I LOVE EVERYTHING THAT'S HAPPENING IN THE GAME.... I HAVE AN ALLIANCE (A FINAL 5 ALLIANCE) WITH MY FORMER PAYANG TRIBEMATES WHICH IS PRETTY SOLID AND AWESOME.... BUT THIS IS SURVIVOR I NEED TO HAVE A BACK UP PLAN SO WHAT I DID IS I TALKED TO DIEGO AND ASK IF HE CAN STILL TAKE ME IN HIS ALLIANCE AND DAMN IT WORK! NOW I ALSO HAVE (KINDA) ALLIANCE WITH HUGO, NICK AND DIEGO... AND ONCE THE OLD MIYANG IS OUT BLOOD WILL SPLATTER ALL OVER THE PLACE.... HELL WILL LOOSE... I MADE A F2 AGREEMENT WITH MIGUEL WHICH IS THE ONLY PERSON I TRUST IN THE GAME.... BUT IT WILL STILL DEPENDS ON HOW HE'S GONNA BE A JURY THREAT....

I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M HAVING THIS KIND GAMEPLAY.... I LOVE IT!

"yumyum"

- Tom is killing me right now. He told EVERYTHING to Diego and Hugo. All about Katie being tight with us and the Fab 5 alliance. How can someone be that naive? Like honestly, these people have been planning your ousting for weeks now, they'd probably rather have Nick go to the end with them than us and you want to give them every piece of information we have? So stupid, so so stupid.

Day 26
"yumyum"

- Challenge time! I doubt I will, but right now all I want is to win immunity and safely watch Trevor go home. I just think it would establish my dominance in the game, and I'd get a shiny necklace. So far merged dynamics are going alright, I seem to have solid numbers (although I'm not going to be the niece player who believes everything is what it seems to be), I have a feeling Miguel and Tom have more alliances that I'm not aware about which makes me nervous but ultimately I think I should be fine.

I'm also really exasperated and want to punch through a wall while eating a frozen dinner.

"yumyum"

- Erlend is strange.

"yumyum"

- After merge there are so many alliances. So it's little scary. We havealliance Fab 5 where are Tom, Erlend, myself, Miguel and Red. Then it'salliance with new Miyang - Tom, myself, Miguel, Katie, Red, Erlend. Old Payang alliance where are Tom, Diego, Nick, Hugo, myself, Miguel, Erlend and Red. So now it's crazy becasue Fab 5 want use Katie and made it to the F6 but old Payang alliance want Katie out after Trevor. Tom has F5 packt with Fab 5 and F4 packt with Nick, Hugo and Diego. So now it's clear that Trevor is out of everything and then it will be very intresting. I have alliance with Miguel and we want made alliance with Katie, Erlend and Red and vote out Tom/Nick or Diego. Because if we vote out Katie next me, Erlend, Red and Miguel are on the bottom of Payang alliance. I don't trust Tom but i must work with him for now. Now i only trust to Miguel and hopefully we can vote out finally Tom and Diego.

​"yumyum"

- I came in second. Fucking Tom. I mean how the hell do you score 200,000 higher than everybody else like really. *cough* cheater *cough* He is just fueling the fire that s my rage. Luckily though, with this being his second immunity win Hugo brought up that the next challenge he lost we should take him out which I completely agree with, cause he isn't part of my Final 3 and I'm almost positive I'm not part of his so his presence in this game serves me no purpose.​

Day 27
"yumyum"

- Now that we're at the merge, I feel like the next decision I'm gonna make is going to determine the course of the game. Right now I'm in Los Cuatro Amigos alliance which is crumbling because Tom's making himself a bigger threat than he already is by killing it in challenges and telling people he has an extra vote in Katie, so dumb of him really. I'm in an alliance with Diego, Hugo and Nick and at the same time I'm with the Fab 5. I have a lot to consider, because if I decide to play a loyal game and stay with Diego and Hugo till the end I might just lose to them because they had it tougher at the swap, I might even place 4th if they decide to keep Nick over me. If I go with the Fab 5 I think I would have a better shot at winning against Red and Rick, but then again the three people that I'm betraying in Diego, Hugo and Nick could be bitter and decide not to vote for me. So I really need o consider what my next step is gonna be, I feel like I have so many options but none of them are gonna lead me to the win which is frustrating.

My strategy since the beginning of the game have been to use Tom as a shield. Everytime I want a plan to be executed I would just have to talk Tom into it and he would set it in motion, which has been working out for me so far because it takes the heat off me. For example it was my idea not to throw the challenge after MGM went home to force Nick to play his idol but of course I didn't want anyone to know that so I just told Tom to tell the others to play and he did so, and now Nick is holding a grudge against him for something that was my idea, which is kinda great. Of course I realize that as much as I'm letting Tom take the blame for my decisions, he's also getting credit for some of my moves, so that made my choice of not going to the end with him a lot easier. After two or three more people go home, Tom's gonna be my main target so he better keep winning those immunities or else he's out.

"yumyum"

- Why is Nick talking about me looking for idols? If he's trying to put a target on me he's gonna get blindsided sooner than expected. I really can't trust the guy