I Will Actually Jump Out My Window/Confessionals

Day 15
"glamis"

- Wtf im so... I got nothing but a heart ache And I just wanna let you know that I’m About to go insane You know that I will soon take My gun My gun to shoot THEM down >:(

"fyvie"

- So TJ devised this plan that they would all vote out Jessica. He then went to Jessica and said the vote was on Sydney. Then him, Syd and Jenna votes Jake and Jake F is gone 3-2-1. Now I will admit I did think that he was gonna be a problem in the future tbh but the way TJ set that up was like oh you came to play play. Ok then 👀 that lets me know TJ got his savage glasses on tbh. Especially when I heard from Jake that TJ was supposed to be hella close to Jessica and then he just lied to her and Jake and I were like damn bruh aren’t y’all cool? Ooh Chile #messy

"glamis"

- Seriously?! Jake and Cali got played by.... TJ? I had a gut feeling this tribal was going to go either badly or goodly for me and its hard to say which one is it in this case. Im sad about losing Jake but the train keeps moving and u bet im staying on board. That tribal emerged a lack of trust from Jessica to Cali, which works for me and Dani PERFECTLY LMAO. It seems like Cali/Jake voted for Jessica thinking its an unanimous vote. I cant believe they got played so easly LAHSDGKJASHDGJKSHDG Im going to elaborate Jessica so that she can trust me and i will have to make sure shes not going to make up with Cali so easly. If we lose (which we probably will at this point) I'd love for Elias to go. That would be my perfect scenario for now. I WANT ALL OF THOSE FYVIES GONE

"glamis"

- Cali gurl... This whole pre-merge is a crazy ride for her INDEED but it seems like she fucked up big time and now she's trying to do some damage control but it doesn't seem like its working.. Im just sitting here and trying to comfort her, but i'd like to also say a big THANK YOU for making herself such a target. Anyway i already talked to Dani that if we lose we need to get ELIAS out - this way we can have Jessica and Cali still aganist each other and me and Dani to control the tribe. I don't trust Elias at ALLLLLLLLLL so im going to work my ass off to have him gone instead of Jess or Cali

"glamis"

- Yikes so Jake actually left in a textbook 3-2-1. Evidently I was being dramatic talking him up so much and now he's just gone haha.

So the current narrative that I've gathered is:

TJ/Sydney/Jenna tricked Jake and Cali into thinking they were voting Jessica, so Jake and Cali voted her to avoid a tie, while Jessica appears to have been left out of the loop, voting Sydney. The former three piled their votes on Jake, eliminating the first Glamis member from Kingdom's Collide.

Jessica was obviously not happy with Cali and that bridge has been burned. The first thing she said to me was "CALI IS A SNAKE!!!!"

I'm not sure whether Cali, who claims to have wanted to target ultra-threat Sydney but gave in to voting Jessica because everyone else said they were, was actually spearheading voting out Jessica and got taken advantage of by TJ & co. or whether she genuinely was just acting out of self preservation. I get the feeling it was the former option but I'm going to be cautious with her. They sure weren't loyal to nuGlamis lines at all, like Jessica purported to be, and like I wouldn't expect them to be but damn they really did give in to cutting her instantaneously.

Also apparently Cali knew TJ before the game and decided to work with him over a new tribal connection like Jessica who she apparently connected with? based on that. I don't like the sound of that and hope it isn't a prominent recurring theme this season.

I'm still not sure exactly where Dani and Szymon stand strategically but am on good terms with with both, Jessica claims to be aswell, and I'm fairly sure we'll be heading to tribal during the double tribal. Jessica wants to target Cali and I'm sure her being in the game is of no benefit to Cali either, so it's in their best interests to target each-other, but it may end up getting more complicated than that. I've been playing both sides of this so hopefully don't get caught in any crossfire. "fyvie"

- So this challenge is another double tribal and we have to come up with common links between two or three former survivor players and whoever gets the most wins. Sydney sits out and I’m at work (which everyone knows) so that leaves it up to Jake, Jenna, Stacks and TJ to pull out a win for us! I’m hoping they can do it. Meanwhile in pms I’m apologizing for not being here to help with the challenge at all and everyone understands because I’m at work plus I was the only person besides Jamie who stayed up the whole 12 hours and posted every 5 minutes to try and get our tribe the win so...everyone is cutting me some slack lol

"glamis"

- Our tribe is a mess. So far no one really tried in the challenge so it looks like Tribal date is gonna be hard to avoid and im starting to get mentally ready for it.

All its gonna take are 3 votes, and i just wanna make sure that there will be no way for me to get majority of votes. Obviously Jessica and Cali seem to be aganist each other now and both appear to be desperate. What im trying to do with them individually is to look like im here for their own best interest and so they can feel safe. I need to have relationship that i know would have my back and im working hard on it. The only thing that im scared of is people possibly viewing me and Dani as a duo. Which they woudnt be wrong about. However Elias and Jessica might be viewed just as much as duo so i need the girlies to feel safe with me. I still might leave Jessica in the dark in case we lose because i definitely would want Elias gone, and im not sure if i can trust Jessica with that yet.

Plus, i woudnt be suprised if after this double tribal we are going to swap onto 3 tribes of 5 or 2 tribes of 7 with one person going to castle or something. So less people are mad with me, the better will be. And with that last tribal results the tension is really high in the air.

"kisimul"

- okay me and audrey spoke and she wants to work with bryce and chelsea. i however wanna work with jared BUT i agreed with her of course. audrey right now is a good ally of mine and i trust her moving forward, but i also know she is probably working me to some extent. REGARDLESS, anything that can get me further and to the merge is a positive :)). also this tribal will be day 16 and i need to reach day 18 to get most days so as long as i make it thru this.. im coming to snatch sora's weave.

"fyvie"

- Omg I survived yet again, and somehow my name got thrown up there as a vote again!

The plan worked perfectly and it was sooo thrilling to pull off such a huge blindside like that, like those were one of those moves that send a message to everyone else in the game! We have a double tribal coming up and, given my track record and FINALLY having a chance to not participate in a challenge by sitting I’m taking it. I expect the other tribe that lost before to lose with us again this round, Jamie solved all of those movies on her own so I’m sure she’ll be super good in this too. It’ll be funny to see how Cali and Jessica handle this vote if they lose because I imagine there’s some hard feelings there 😂 If we lose I’m just going to do what I did last time and attach myself to people so they don’t want me gone!!! Like I know me and Tyler are solid, and I’m not 100% but I think me TJ and jenna have a kind of unspoken alliance now that we survived that? I like Jakey a lot too so I think that would leave Stacks as where I would want to vote since we haven’t talked much!

"glamis"

- Ugh I really want to break through with Dani and build a more substantial friendship, but anything serious I say she ignores and will just say something general, replying to the most neutral or challenge related topic in my message.

This either means she isn't interested in working with me, or just has a very casual approach to the social game? Or both.

Another worrying sign is that Jessica, who has grown close with Szymon, told me that when she brought up Cali likely wanting to target her Szymon said "I don't want that to happen" or "I won't let that happen," (something along those lines) which doesn't directly imply that he would want to target Cali, but that he won't let Jessica be the target. Which is a red flag -- could I be collateral that they're willing to switch the target to? It wouldn't be a great look to obliterate both Glamis members. I can't see Szymon or Dani agreeing to take out Jessica, but they may be willing to cut me and Cali might just take what she can get.

I've been making my standard efforts with the Kisimul's but something isn't 100% clicking, especially with Dani (I do really like Szymon and I think he likes me) but I think Jessica is clicking with them more.

I know one thing - I have clicked with Cali. If there is some kind of option to, I may not want to perpetuate this Cali vs. Jessica narrative and assume that I would side with Jessica no matter what.

Cali would certainly be connected and a useful ally at the merge, a common link to a bunch of the old Glamis members. I feel like if both Jake and Cali are swallowed whole on our tribe, it may box us Fyvie's in with the Kisimul's to some extent, and I'd prefer a more fluid dynamic because I was boxed in with an alliance in Molise and it was my downfall.

I'd be willing to cut Jessica, and honestly Dani or Szymon. IF it comes to light that Szymon and Dani will jump on board for us with Cali, I have the option to let Cali know and that she should play an idol if she has one. But if she doesn't, I'd just be arming her with an excuse to throw me under the bus.

Maybe I'm overthinking this and it really is as cut and dry as it appears to be superficially, and I really am as well situated as it would appear to be on the surface. Maybe we won't even go to tribal. my cappucino is getting cold

Day 16
"glamis"

- Keeping with my brand of exerting minimal challenge effort, which I'm aware isn't exactly something to be proud of, we won immunity from double tribal ENTIRELY thanks to Jessica and Szymon. Things would likely have gotten wild had we gone to tribal council.

The only people I care about leaving Audrey and Bryce - anyone elses departure will be good for my game. My head is spinning at the potential beneficial outcomes here. They are technically in a minority on their tribe but Audrey is playing a hell of a game and very likeable so should be fine, and Bryce? Hopefully he's picked up his social act or he could be in hot water.

If the brutality and cut-throatedness of last tribal is any indicator, it should be a good show though!

"kisimul"

- okay so just first thoughts on this tribal: wendy is the obvious boot. audrey/jared both want them gone. i guess im okay w/ that???? i like wendy and dont want to see them go but someone does HAVE to go.. like ya i dont want it to be wendy but idw it to be ANYONE. id probably prefer it to be chelsea but i dont see that happening realistically so theres no merit in pushing for it. BUUUUT audrey wants to throw votes and do random shit, she even suggested a 3-2-1 soo i might take an opportunity while its presenting itself. basically my thought process is.. if this tribe flops and flops then i might be a lil bit fucked bc audrey/bryce are apparently quite close and audrey/chelsea are close too. so if wendy goes.. audrey has full control and she will DEFINITELY vote jared next, like im very convinced of it. AND JARED. CANT. GO. NEXT. sooo theoretically if me/jared/wendy voted together and audrey/bryce/chelsea were split, we could take control of the tribe!!! this would set me up till merge but basically kill my relationship w/ the other three so its all difficult. i MIGHT try to convince audrey to vote chelsea buuut i REALLLY dont think she would. idk its nice to have the option but im not sure that ill necessarily NEED full control right now. like maybe itd be better to let audrey take control and just chill for a bit, beast out in challs and then when merge comes round, be fine and not have a big target.. idk. food for thought. we'll see what happens.

"kisimul"

- okay scratch my last conf (kinda). i just had a really long convo with audrey and i trust her a lot more. she is SOO fun to talk to and i feel like we just gel? so i dont want to lose than bond, i like wendy a lot but theres a big difference between my bond with them and my bond with audrey. atm id love to merge with audrey sydney tyler and jared. like i feel like if that happened, id have protection in MANY different areas and thatd be truly iconic. esp bc, if the merge tribe is 12 then me + them is already 5, and ik audrey has bryce and im guessing other bonds. idk audrey strikes me as a great player and i dont want to give her TOO much power and ill definitely be wary until i see blood from former tribemates on her hands and like a genuine action that proves im at the top of her priorities. for right now, i trust her enough that i want to stick by her and i have hopes we'll go very far together [: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"glamis"

- So i woke up to the fact that we WON THE CHALLENGE????? LMAO! Thanks to queen Jessica only. I mainly contributed so people woudn't have a reason to target me if we lost. I woudn't mind going to Tribal Council but we won so that's i think much better. Except i was voted into the castle which im not sure if its a good thing. im SCARED of this castle.

This challenge made me bond a lot closer with Jessica. We worked together well... actually we were the ONLY people from our tribe to do something in this challenge... LOL.. So Elias gets to live another day in the game. Oh well, if i can use this to make him trust me and feel comfortable with me, why not. He seems to feel comfortable enough to not even help in the challenge? Im a paranoid binch so i don't know where else would his security come from if not from having an idol. I was ready to work my ass to blindside him if we lost but the fact that he stays.. That's another connection that might be helpful for me to get to Fyvie. And im here for Fyvie's blood baby! They voted out Sarah and i don't really know what to expect from any of them. I want Elias/TJ gone asap and i will work hard to make that happen.

Also the fact that we won means that i... at least tied my best placement on main ORG. That suonds so pathetic skdjghsdkjg but im aiming much higher hehe there's still a lot of things i gotta do in this game.

"glamis"

- Wait a second.. Elias JUST reached out to me proposing on working together closely KJADSHGAKJHDSGJK

damn that means that literally everyone in this Glamis 2.0 preached loyalty to me.. on their own. Does it mean i feel comfortable?? NO. Im going to elaborate all those relationships because with merge coming around closer and closer i will need at least a bunch of people that i know woudn't immediately vote me out. I still sniff a swap or something wild happening after this.. "glamis"

- 'i wanted to extend the olive branch to you' damn Elias striking at me with those big ass smart words.. 'i want to work togehter' would be enough binch im a simple man and ur magic doesnt work on me

"fyvie"

- TJ is getting too much for me ahhh he's a sweet guy but way too dom and playin a bit hard these past votes

"glamis"

- So Elias keeps spilling some interesting tea to me while im just sitting, sipping and collecting all of it. Most important part of it is that it confirms me that he and Jessica are pretty close, and talk a lot of game which means that if we are going to lose then im going to have to leave Jessica completely in dark when we gonna blindside Elias. Apparently they both talked about trusting in me but i dont trust either of them over Dani and Cali. This just gives me motivation however to avoid TC for as long as possible, so i can keep both Elias and Jessica to trust me. And then eventually to get me connected to other Fyvies further in the game so i can destroy them all from insides. But for now i will let them trust me. And be their best friend if i need to. So they can leave a good word or two for me when a swap happens or something and i'd stuck with them with eventually more fyvies ;)

"fyvie"

- S50 Day 16 Confessional

"kisimul"

- Alrighty! So, I thought we had this immunity in the bag... I was very wrong. But at the same time not surprising since I was almost the only one carrying the team. That pisses me off to no end. But I'll do some breathing exercices and not blow up... yet. On my new tribe, I vibed really great with Jamie and Chelsea. I have big hope to be able to work with them as long as I can. They are strong, will probably pull a fast one on me eventually, but you know what, I'm good with that. I love playing with strong people, I want this game to be challenging and fun. I've talked a bit more with Jared, he seems a bit like an open book. I hope he is honest. All of that to say that the main target this round is Wendy, it was brought up to me by Jared and then by Jamie which I'm 100% okay with since Wendy is really boring, doesn't talk and still won Mauritius which I am a bit bitter about. So better get rid of them now before they somehow managed to make their way to the end. Thing is I am scared shitless of an idol play. There is a lot of idols going around this season. So if we all pilled up our votes on Wendy and they uses an idol.... I don't feel confident I won't be the target. So I want to split the votes somehow... Bryce has been so MIA lately. I get he has family stuff but I HATE carrying people and then having them fuck up my game later. So in my mind I wouldn't mind him being the decoy boot and give him a few votes. I saved him once, I'm about to save him twice. I don't know why I always do that... anyway... Thing is Jamie is a bit in love with Bryce ?? She pities his situation a lot. Which only means she has a much much bigger heart than me. But like if we don't use him as a decoy who will we be using.... So right now I'm about to form a group chat with Chelsea, Jamie and Jared (we just did, it is called The Jewels). We need to figure out how to approach this vote... I'm anxious... I'm always a paranoid mess. I don't want to waste my idol but I don't want to be blindsided. Right now I feel okay in my position, but I play hard, always too hard and I don't want it to be turned against me ... We'll see what happen....

"kisimul"

- Soooooo first tribal of the season for me, didnt wanna get to this point but here we are.

Supposedly, this will be a pretty simple vote, as people have spoken to Bryce the least out of everyone. I'm not sure how true this is but honestly, at this point, I'm just going to have to trust that they're all going to base their vote off this. I kind of took initiative telling Jamie, Jared and Chelsea that Bryce was super quiet and they all agreed, and then Audrey came to me saying she'd heard Bryce's name which is a super good sign. Honestly though if it does end up being me; I will have gone out trying to take initiative and proceed as a tribe rather than just sitting back!

"kisimul"

- Well... it’s been a busy few days. And now we’re heading to TC.. AND IM SO EXCITED!!!!!!! It’s time to actually play this dang game. I haven’t been to one yet, I haven’t had to strategize, or create alliances. THIS IS AMAZING. I feel pretty safe with the people on my tribe. So I couldn’t be more excited... time to vote!

"kisimul"

- okay so im feeling good! audrey/me/chelsea/jared formed an alliance and i guess im okay with that? i love audrey and jared and im a LITTLE bit wary of chelsea but if shes locked in an alliance w/ me then its give me the ability to work with her moving forward. ive kinda gone off the idea of working with wendy just bc i think theres more options w/ audrey/chelsea moving forward. TBHHHH id lowkey prefer bryce to go but atm im appeasing audrey to make her think im her bitch so if i have to be the swing in the alliance to decide we're voting wendy, then i guess thats what ill do.

"fyvie"

- hie, so this tribal makes zero sense to me and I don’t even want to bother recapping it so I’ll just say this: I’m rly upset that I could v likely be going tonight when I was the only one who really contributed to the challenge, and knowing that if I had any help with it at all, we would have won really hurts. And it sucks. Irregardless of what transpired, (I've been waiting to use that phrase in a sentence since Mariah Carey dropped her album hehe) I am confident about one thing, I have Jenna and Jakey on my side. (You can call me a fool if I don’t.) So worst case scenario is an idol play, or a tie. If/when Jenna ever gets online, I can put on my best pair of puppy dog eyes and hope that she plays her idol on me, (it won’t happen), and yeah. Hope for the best I guess. There’s really not much else I can do, due to the fact that Tyler and Sydney are basically giving me and Jakey the cold shoulder, (For what reason, I don't quite know.) and everything that comes out of TJ’s mouth is a lie. I guess the best move for me would be to just chill and do nothing until Jenna wakes up, if she ever does :\

"fyvie"

- The one where i kill my entire tribe

"fyvie"

- I’m so sad, I wanted to keep TJ the whole time but he just made it impossible to do with how much he was running his mouth :( It just sucks because he JUST saved me and I’m repaying him by stabbing him in the back with a vote off. I wish I could’ve told TJ to calm down earlier so we could have gotten rid of Stacks or Jenna, but it was too late.. I do feel bad because I know he wanted to be here bad and just seeing him not even reach merge is heartbreaking...

Thank you for saving me last round TJ and I’m sorry I couldn’t repay the favor :(

"kisimul"

- The game has officially begun for me, no more pre-gaming. This is the first time I'm going to tribal and like expected, the strategic part of it has turned up. The most active people on this tribe are easily Audrey, Jamie, Chelsea, and I, all of us figured that out since we've all been talking to each other 1 on 1 the most. Audrey and I quickly decided that we'd both like Wendy to go, I think she's bitter over her original season which I'm not judging cause I'd be too. I just want to make a big move and get some more people from my original tribe out to be petty and get a possible target off my back since we won all of the challenges pre-swap. I thought it was gonna be easy but Jamie told me she'd lowkey prefer Bryce and Chelsea basically told me that too, just without actually saying it. She tried telling me she heard Bryce's name and when I asked from who she said she'd rather not tell because she thinks shes just being played and blahblah so basically she tried manipulating me but honestly that makes me like her even more and I respect the attempt, so I just played along like I trusted her. So a little bit later I decided to just make that group official and because I finally wanted to be in an actual alliance group chat after 16 days. I trust Jamie a lot and same with Chelsea, I'm still on the fence with Audrey cause that relationship is new but I don't not trust her either. So even though I wanted Wendy gone I decided to play more under the radar and let them talk it out, I acted like I didn't care either way while encouraging Audrey in PMs with her so she can be the one fighting for it and if Chelsea or Jamie got upset over it it'd be at her and not me. And thankfully Audrey didn't give up because I feel like with Wendy gone I'm in the perfect position on the tribe because theres the Jewels alliance foursome and then I was 1 out of 2 people more for Bryce to stay so if he somehow gets power, he won't go after me. I think I'm definitely improving on my social game compared to last season, either that or I've just gotten more delusional, either one works.

"fyvie"

- So we lost by a small margin which sucks :/ so anyways the target is supposed to be Jenna because she disappeared during the challenge and Jake thinks that if Jenna was there and actively contributing then it wouldn’t be an issue and we woulda won so she was supposed to be the target. But then TJ (who said he was gonna chill at the beginning of this tribal), decided he was gonna overplay and create alliance chats with me & Syd and another one with Jake, Stacks and Jenna throwing us all under the bus. What TJ didn’t count on (and he knows me as a player so he should know better tbh) was that everything he said to Jake/Jenna/Stacks they ran back to me and I told Syd because they all like me and I have strong relationships with each one of them.

"fyvie"

- So we’re all comparing notes and Jake makes this huge chat and we’re all like fuck it TJ is giving us anxiety he gotta go lmao Sydney feels bad but like TJ is being way too erratic at this point to keep around plus I think Jake trusts us enough to wanna stay with us over Stacks and Jenna because the two of them are so quiet. I’m making sure I make my daily convos with everyone tho because I want allies anywhere I can get them as the numbers start to dwindle down. #PERIODT anyways we 5-1 TJ outta here and now it’s F15!