Board Thread:Season 50 - Kingdoms Collide/@comment-10584014-20181223062901/@comment-24114312-20181223190934

oh wow oh wow okay firstly thank you for all the compliments! I agree like our bond was one of the highlights of the season for me and I'm glad you thought so too <3. Now to get onto what you spoke about, my reasoning for saying that and how imo it's not a big deal:

Yeah so at the cookie challenge, after it was cancelled and changed, I asked people for their scores. The hosts said they had proof someone had cheated, and so I was like 'oh what scores did people get?', thinking 'oh whoever got the highest will have cheated'. So I'm hearing 11 million, 9 million, 15 million, 2 million, etc etc and then suddenly I hear 30 million. To give some backstory, I had done some research on this challenge by looking up previous scores. I found a vid on YouTube of someone getting 11 million in about 50 minutes (heading for a solid 17 million in total probably), and ALL the comments were like 'wtf is this a world record??' so I was like 'oh okay so around 11 million is probably a winning score', like I was even shook by Audrey's score.

BUT what I hadn't done research on was Cookie Storms which is what you got. It's extremely rare but gives you 1-7 minutes worth of cookies, and you said you got like 1 million per cookie, which is 5-6 minutes worth of cookies for what you would've been on at that level, so definitely possible. Considering you probably got a lot of those cookies, I now don't think you cheated and even said as much to other people in the game, which unfortunately hasn't got back to you BUT I nonetheless did clarify to people.

The reason I even questioned it wasn't because it was you, like I was never doubting your character in particular, it was just that a score of 30 million left me quaking in my boots. It had nothing to do with you beating me or me thinking I was the best challenge person ever, I lost final 6 and final 5 immunity in Archetypes and I never accused anyone of cheating even though I really needed it. Imo the issue was that the challenge was SO easily cheatable and there had been such a fiasco made out of it, like I had argued with the hosts for HOURS asking them to change it so my confidence in the challenge was next to nothing. I said this to Audrey and maybe a few others, but I legit said 'no matter what happens, if I don't win I'm never gonna be satisfied that it wasn't due to cheating', not because I don't trust or respect the players in the game but because cheating in that challenge was as simple as typing in 'Game.cookies = 9999999' which gave you 9999999 cookies instantly with no way of proving you had done that. I knew I hadn't cheated, but even if I trusted people with my life, I had 0 proof either way that people had or hadn't cheated, so no matter WHO beat me, I would've been like 'okay um wtf' because I had 0 proof they didn't beat me dubiously.

I'm definitely not the only one who said it. You say it truly hurt you in the game so I see 0 value in throwing anyone under the bus, whether they're a finalist or juror or anything, and being like 'oh they said it too' and getting their messages. But after the whole cheating thing was revealed, EVERYONE was speaking about who had possibly cheated. I speculated with people about every single possibility of who could've cheated, not just in relation to you. Everything I said was speculative and I made sure people knew that. I'm sure I was accused as some point, it comes with the territory of having a challenge that is extremely cheatable in. I also said to people that I didn't know for sure it was you, I'm rereading my messages to get exactly what I said (which I can copy/paste if you want) but in all the messages I've seen I've said 'idk if cheating was involved' or something to that extent, and then I later clarified that I didn't infact think you had cheated to many people I had the convo with.

I'm sorry that I hurt you in that way and I'm glad it won't affect our relationship outside of the game. If it's enough to make you not vote me, that's fine becasue I did say it and I stand by saying it because I was ignorant of the way in which you got that score. I had no clue Cookie Storms were a thing, so all I saw was a score that was legit impossible before I knew more about it. BUT please know it was never a condemnation of your character or game, it was literally just my frustration with the hosts, and I later clarified to people how I didn't even think you did cheat! It's a shame you've only heard 1 side of it and if this means a lot to you then I hope I can share screens or screenshot everything post-season because it was never a malicious thing or like attacking you at all.

Love u queen, unless I get into a response war then this will be my last jury response. Cali please don't think less of me because of that bc they were spur of the moment convos and it didn't amount to anything at all because I actually never even thought about it again until you'd brought it up now, since I had looked into it more and realised it was very possible to get that score. But ya sorry :(, hopefully it doesn't impact ur vote or our friendship.