I Just Don't Like Him/Confessionals

Day 11
"zambezi"

- honestly i love becky and daniel so much i want us 2 be aligned forever like im on some gay shit w/them two also dovile i love her too even tho she paranoid 2 shit xxxx

"hwadze"

- I feel like Drew is trying to make me feel complacent by complimenting me on my (really sub-par) gameplay so far. I want to swap onto a tribe with him so I can vote him out 🙂

"hwadze"

- When one of your closer allies jokingly calls you a greedy ass bitch, but she doesn't even know you have an idol and have already been to the hunting lodge once....

"hwadze"

- not to get too cocky but this perfect for me, omg every new person on the tribe is a premade and the rest are old tribe mates that liked me omg... my mind... it amazes me

"hwadze"

- this is perfect for me to get vincent out and go get something from the twist WIGGGGGGG AKNGKLNDG im so happy becky and hals will happy me

"hwadze"

- Maybe this would be a perfect opportunity to take out Drew. I'll have to test the water first with the new people and see how they feel before really doing anything big. Hopefully they'd be on board with it but I'm not going to be the guy who greets them with strategy.

"hwadze"

- Right now I have two ideas. One is to take the easy way out and vote Dan/Becky. I only want to use that as a last resort. My other idea would be to try and target Drew and Matthias. I feel it would keep me with more options in the post merge and I don't trust either of them very well. Potential roadblocks would be if they don't want to do it (if they tell me they want to go for Hals, for example), or if some twist throws a wrench in the plan.

"zambezi"

- so we have an interesting dynamic here. it’s dovile, louise, ben and elizabeth which is basically removing the people who saved dovile from the equation and keeping two of the people who were down to vote her. aka i don’t think zambezi is going to stick together at all. dovile is the type of player who will go on a war path and she’ll come for elizabeth and ben and try to use kiley. jack is close with ben and i think kiley can wiggle her way in wherever she needs, but it might be with dovile? we might legit have a 4-3 split. idk i don’t want to speak too soon at all but that’s a rough first impression. just using the 5-2 numbers advantage simply isn’t cute. i’m hoping im okay in this overall dynamic but i think ben and elizabeth have my back so idk. time will tell and the dynamic will unfold i think. 😊👑 just hoping i can make it through the next few rounds!

"hwadze"

- My new target is Matthias. I think that he could be easier to vote than Roisin since I'm not affiliated with him in any alliances, but it really depends on what Dan/Becky decide to do. I'm probably leaning much more towards targeting Drew/Matthias now. I'd guess that the merge is at 10 (so we have 4 rounds with our current targets), so I'll have plenty of time.

Day 12
"zambezi"

- Ugh, those past days were fucking freaking. Augusto, that silly bastard, made the DUMBEST move ever. I can't believe he is so silly, oh my GOD. Even my English teacher is smarter than him. I found out Eliza, Ben voted me too. So they will get what they deserved as well. I hate them, hate them. I hate my currently tribe af. Only Louise and Jake are normal. Jack is nice, but he is a huge threat, Kiley is a queen, but not in his game, coz she does not care about it at all and Ben& Elizabeth, the players who fucked up. Right now if we lose, I hope Kiley will be gone and if we lose again, I will have to do something good. Ben and Jack are too close, so I am very interested to split them. I can't believe I got 3 votes. I did not nothing literally. I was not bad at challenges, I was not a threat, I did not mention anybody's names. Really hope so this tribe members are smarter. When I got mad I can do something bad. Like Abi said "if u fuck with me, you are dead to me". So I will try to take out Ben asap

"zambezi"

- So tribal results went a little bit weirdly? It was a 5-3 with who I assume was Elizabeth, Ben and Augusto voting Dovile while the rest of us voted Augusto. I’m sad to take him out cuz I don’t think as a person he was bad but his gameplay was too messy, I think he threw out 5-6 names? That’s just a little too much. I’ll get onto the tribe swap In my next confessional but here’s some final thoughts on the original Zambezi tribe and how I feel moving forward my relationship with them will be if I were to run into them again. Elizabeth: probably my weakest relationship on the original tribe, we had….. very little conversation and the fact she felt the need to throw my name out once or twice does make me nervous about where she fit on the large scale of things. I think if I were to make merge (That’s still a good 10+ days away but still on my mind), I will have to take that opportunity to try form a new bond. At the very least we didn’t leave on bad terms and did at least talk briefly about the augusto vote. Dovile: This one is important, while idk if Dovile would survive many tribals if Zambezi 2.0 lose, I do feel like if we do link up back at merge, she will be loyal to me as I did help start the turn around onto Augusto to save her. Ben: another important friendship, he had claimed that me and augusto were the people he talked to the most and well…now that augusto is gone I feel like Ben may consider me his #1 but we’ll see…. My main concern is that he may be targeted because I did hear people knew him and Jack played on a season together (Carthage) which does concern me as people may use it as a reason to take him out. I’m annoyed he also voted early cuz I told him to keep his vote open just in case and he really could’ve voted augusto later but I understand why he didn’t want to at the time and why he voted early cuz self voting isn’t cute. :S  Jake: eh…. On one hand he was fun to talk to a little but on the other hand he really didn’t show his cards at all, especially for someone who was like “omg I trust you” and shit like idk, seems like he’d be willing to take most people out, and Becky told me he felt closest to her and Elizabeth so I think the likelihood of jake and I working closely is not very high, but I will at least try to be civil and pleasant so he doesn’t target me. ❤  Becky: Right now Becky is probably my best alliance because she is pretty competent, she did a lot of work to get Jake to flip which really impressed me tbfh, I don’t want to rely on having her as my main alliance but she’s really fun to talk with and I feel like she and I could be a deadly duo, the only problem moving forward would be people starting to use that against us. Louise: THIS GIRL WAS HIGH DURING THE VOTE ❤ WHAT A QUEEN. Ummmmm Louise is funny asf but I mean idk strategy wise I have no fucking idea, I think she’s just a chill girl which I like, but I think what her goals and strategy are, are going to be left a mystery for the most part. :S

"hwadze"

- omg for the first time i don't really feel safe cos every1 on my tribe was really gd at the challenge and i sorta sucked cos the game was bare crump 😡 and on top of that i feel uneasy cos Becky was telling me abt their other orgs and then i looked at that orgs website and i saw that Matthias and Daniel from that org r on this tribe so obviously they’re going 2 be friends!!! which makes me think that if we go 2 tribal they cld team up and maybz against me 😖 Xx

Day 13
"zambezi"

- omfg i love new zambezi more than old zambezi by a lot, simply because i think it's a lot easier to manipulate an outcome. right now, our dynamic is og tribes, but only because kiley isn't really reaching out or killing it in challenges so she's being labeled the weakest link. i wish we could get to meet her, but i think it will be 6-1 her tonight. it's straightforward and kinda obvious.

once kiley is gone, that's a v different story. ben and jack are publicly pretty close and ben doesn't want to be dragged down into the minority and therefore is at least claiming to be willing to vote him out, but i at least know he's open to keeping jack. if i could turn it into sides, i could basically try to make it dovile/louise v ben/jack with elizabeth and i in the middle, which is beautiful because if executed properly, it could set me up to look at a few options for votes without necessarily playing it like augusto did and having that traced back to me?

speaking of augusto, i was sad to see him go. like at the time i couldn't process that because i was so shook about everything changing so quick, but i miss him a lot. like that's 10x more personal than strategic because he was wilding, but yeah, we lost an icon.

anyways, which direction i would want to take would be entirely dependent on where i stand with people. i managed to manipulate the elizabeth/ben voting situation to get a lot closer to dovile/louise's ears and cut out the middle man that was elizabeth in terms of hearing where their head was at. so i'm v good with that duo. meanwhile i really vibe well personally with jack and ben so i think i'd be fine with them?? and then elizabeth is the definition of loyal so she practically always listens to my ideas and gives me information so that's really nice to have in this game. rn she's my #1.

but yeah, i might actually have a p excellent standing here?? and i don't wanna mess it up. time will tell! if we're here until merge, i might actually make merge?? like what that's low key insane.

"hwadze"

- ok tbh i wish i couldve been on the og tribe w/ becky & dan because theyre both sooo nice & easy to talk to, i kinda love them already. like, even though ik vincent is hoping for some sort of flippage, ik its not the right thing yet but fuck man, idw to vote anyone on this tribe off!!! also, idk what it is yet, but something about this whole sitch is giving me sorta bad vibes so maybe im just slacking & need to step up orrrr im just paranoid idk... i usually ignore these little worries but then it turns out im right and then i fuck myself over!!! i dont wanna be the romeo drinking his poison right before juliet wakes up or w/e hdhjfjks drew's still sussing me out tho.... anddd matthias lucked the fuck out w/ this swap im jelly

"hwadze"

- i love my gay dads and long lost birth mother, dan, matthias and hals