It Will Be the Biggest Blindside/Confessionals

Day 8
"ayung"

- So the plan worked perfectly, Emily the only person i had no personal connection with was voted out, and this vote continues to leave me perfectly in the middle. I was the swing vote, I could have gone and voted out Max, or blindsided Alexandra, but either of those options felt far too early for me to make, and Emily seemed the safest viable option at this point. "ayung"

- Coming back from tribal I knew i had to placate Max. He had wanted a 4 person alliance with me and Emily and Elmo, and ultimately I blindsided one of his closest allies, and to make it worse, I did not inform him of the split vote plan. I'm in a tricky position, I have an alliance with every single person on this tribe and it could easily blow up in my face. Luckily Max, believed my lie, about not knowing about the split votes, but i realise i need to tread carefully, before people start realising I have my hands in every pot. We cannot afford to lose another challenge, or my cards really will be shown... "legian"

- I need to get rid of Rin and I am sooo sad :( I could stick my neck out to save him but it would be putting my game in jeopardy and likely not work. I see some potential with Tyler and Danielle (though they are clearly close) so I cant blow that.

Day 9
"legian"

- We lost again :( huhuh idk why. Now everything is on Tyler and Danielle's hands. honestly, i dont like it. I dont want to vote out David now, because he can help me in the future, i think so. Tyler and Danielle are quiet now, they told me that they are ok to vote David. I come to talk with Christina, she feel trust me. I asked her if we lose again, who will be voted out? it's clearly me or her. So i suggest to do a big move. I want to vote Danielle although she is in my alliance now, but who know she have another alliance without me? I cant control only Danielle in this tribe, addition she is weak so no one target her in the merge or swap. I need someone who will be a bigger target than me to stay in the game. So sorry to make a move vote you out, Danielle. So christina undrstand how she need to do now, she need to follow me. Just wait David. I hope he can see i'm loyal to him and he is my secret ally. It will be a biggest blindside "legian"

- Challenge Confessional: This time the challenge is a scavenger hunt, I love scavenger hunts! It's harder to do as a group because some people say that they will do certain ones and then don't do it. I tried to do as many as I could do, but some of the things on the list are not close to where I live. I did the best I could and it sucks that we lost...AGAIN! "legian"

- LIFE UPDATE: this is not straightforward. This is not a vote I can put minimal effort into anymore like Sian and Braden or Bradley or whoever. This is my wakeup call to start scrambling and make shit happen

Last time I said I felt bad getting rid of Rin.... no. I said that because we played together in the only other ORG I've been in, I voted him out, and then we came into this trusting each other. But he told Tyler that we are "enemies" and that I could be the vote for all he cares. He's way too paranoid and I won't feel bad getting rid of him anymore.

Tyler is my main man at this point. Either he is playing better than Tony in Cagayan or he actually does want me in. I could see me danielle and tyler taking control of this vote but I really haven't gotten to know Danielle too much (my fault) so it might be more complicated than I think

Last thing, Christina insinuated to target me. Interesting. Questions: Why does she think Rin/Tyler/Danielle are a group? Are they? Why me? Is Tyler sincere when he says he doesn't go for it?

HMMMMMMM! hm. well see "legian"

- OMG the plan is flop -_- idk why David dont want to make a move. He is so quiet, so i ask my self that : " Do i need to trust this person in the long way?" . I feel very weird between David and Christina, but Tyler make me calm very well. I trust Tyler, not Danielle. "ayung"

- I'm annoyed at myself for not pushing Jenna and Elmo to blindside Alexandra with me and Emily, I almost went home because Alexandra/Junior/Julia decided to split the vote between me and Emily incase Emily had an Idol, I thought Emily was going home 6-1, so I threw her a pity vote and voted Julia with her expecting 5-2, but instead it's 3-2-2, if I had any idea the vote was gonna be split I would've just voted Emily, but right now I'm not in a great spot, as if my tribe goes to tribal again before the swap it's going to be a 3-3 tie, and a rock draw most likely with me, Jenna and Elmo VS Alexandra, Junior and Julia. The one and only good thing about tribal council last night, is that all the beauties are on the same page heading into the swap, we stay beauty strong and take out as many brains as we can, however, right now it might not be in my best interest to keep Alexandra, Junior or Julia in the game when I know they almost got me voted out... "legian"

- So at first I thought it was a total disaster when we lost the challenge. (Not worried for myself of course, because everyone on this tribe worships me.) But because I didn't want to have to take out someone who could be long-term loyal to me so early. My relationships with Christina and David has improved 10x, both of them have told me vital information and at this point I'm assured they've both poured most of their trust in me. (And Danielle, but I think more me.) Speaking of which I still consider Danielle my main bitch for the time being, and then there's Rin who I *was* willing to drag along due to his unbelievable obsession with me, and I could bypass his crazy, but it turns out he's much more of a fucking nutjob than I thought he was. His incessant bitching and whining about nothing came to a peak this week. Spamming me with obnoxious sad faces in my sleep and ranting and raving about how paranoid he is. He continues this for the entire day, to me, Danielle, David, and Christina, non-stop whining. It never ends. It'd still be going on now if he didn't fall asleep. I already decided he was going when I woke up, but here comes the last straw... Of course Danielle and I toned down the amount of attention we gave him today, since he's going we really just lost the motivation, and he needs SO much of it. And as you can predict, this set him over the edge. I got more "I'm so nervous, please Tyler i need you, i don't know why i'm nervous" messages than ever, and following this, he goes off the chain and starts pestering David and Christina to which they send their complaints to me. He whines and whines, and then tells Christina of a plan to blindside DANIELLE with the help of David and 3-2 her. He then realized he won't get David's vote and backs out of the plan, Christina then tells him she's voting David. (Keep in mind he basically tells David all about his "alliance" with Danielle and I, in the fake chat he forced us to join against our will.) Christina of course relays all this information to me first, then Danielle, and at this point it's set in stone, Rin the psychopath is fucking GONE. At this point I'm just beyond relieved that we lost so that Rin can get the fuck out of my face forever. I can't imagine going into a swapped tribe with him. So this looks like another successful unanimous vote orchestrated mostly by me. If we swap next I'm here for it this tribe fucking sucks.