Board Thread:Season 55 - Nakuru/@comment-32540642-20191025182846/@comment-31762786-20191026024354

As I’ve said in other speeches I’ll be covering the Evan vote in more detail here! Despite everything everyone has said I still stand by my idol play and I’ll defend myself until the grave if I have to. I played my idol with my future safety in the game and endgame in mind. Let’s look at who else was in the f5, Cali/Nora/Jack/Evan, I had final 2 or at least ftc deals with all 4 of these people but obviously I couldn’t trust it. I weighed up who’d actually stay loyal to me and go through and bring me to the end and the possible scenarios/factors. Obviously Cali wasn’t an option to vote out because she was immune so I proceeded with this thought “what would happen in the next round(s) if I vote Evan out here”. I thought that I wouldn’t win immunity which ended up being true, I didn’t even come close to winning either of the immunity challenges and then I thought that I’d be targeted especially if Cali won immunity since Nora wouldn’t be a target and Cali would go for me over you. Which also ended up being true, you and Cali ended up voting me over each other in the real f4 and I imagine you’d do the same except Nora’s the one in control of my fate now and I felt like she’d be less reliable than Evan because I had a history of throwing her under the bus and she literally did not have a single good reason to prioritize me and save me when she was probably gonna get to the end regardless. While if I idolled Evan here I thought that he’d take me straight to the end regardless of what happens next, which was true as well he did just that. In addition I also thought that with Evan out of the picture if it was a final 2 I’d have to win the FIC to actually get to the end because Nora would be taken over me which also ended up being true when you told me that Nora was your only shot implying that you would’ve definitely taken her to have a shot. I really don’t get it when the jurors say I would’ve won easily if I didn’t idol Evan here. Let’s see how the events are likely to play out. Me/You/Nora/Cali are in the final 4 and Cali wins immunity and you two target me again either Nora votes me out and I go home or I get sent to firemaking against you Jack which I had a massive chance of losing but not for sure but let’s say I did win firemaking again. I’m in final 3 with Cali and Nora. Cali who had already tried to take a shot at me and knows that Nora doesn’t have jury votes would win (I performed horridly) and take her over me and I end up 3rd… even if let’s say I win f4 immunity and I push my agenda to get Cali voted out and she’s gone now and I’m in final 3 with you and Nora. You’d win since you almost beat Evan and certainly did better than me then you take Nora like you said because she’s “your only shot” and I end up 3rd. There’s no situation where I make FTC unless I win both immunities which I knew wasn’t happening. As to why I got Nora out over you, that’s because like I said she’s the bigger goat bait and also going along with this thought process you’d have a bigger chance of beating Evan in final immunity over Nora. In my most ideal situation after idolling Nora out, Cali would’ve gone next and then you would’ve taken me to FTC over Evan. Obviously that didn’t happen but then again idolling Evan made my WORST case scenario is still an ftc fight against him and not idolling him would’ve meant that I would’ve gone out at 4th or 3rd. As I can see yall really see me as a clown for this but I ask you guys to think about my perspective though and ask yourselves how I would’ve gotten to the end let alone win without idolling Evan and getting out Nora apart from going on a mini immunity run which is literally off the table.

Ok now onto your actual question sorry for that long winded explanation I needed to put it in someone’s reply!! I know you said you didn’t want an exact timeline or round by round breakdown but I’ll include some brief thoughts on why I wanted the people I did.

First I’ll list the “deals” I had Final 3 Alliance: Chris/Evan - Jino vote FTC Deal: Will - Somewhere premerge FTC Deal: Cali - Chris Vote F2: Nora - Somewhere Premerge F2: You - Immunity Challenge After Natalia Vote F2: Evan - Jino Vote I guess you could consider the alliance between me/Will/Nora a final 3 alliance as well but it wasn’t specifically one.

Going into merge I had a variety of thoughts as to who I wanted to sit with and I wasn’t really solid on anything. I would’ve wanted something along the lines of Nora/Alex but in my heart I wanted Will with me. Nora was a close reliable ally of mine and I saw myself being able to go to the end with her. Will was another solid ally for me and I would’ve loved to sit at the end with him but Nora told me she planned on backstabbing him so I didn’t know how realistic being in the end with him would’ve been. As for Alex I was on the same tribe for all 3 swaps with him and he directly said that I was his closest ally, I didn’t know whether or not to buy it or not in the beginning but as time went on I started believing that he was for real. In addition Nora was good with him and didn’t have an active plan to murder him so that was a box ticked!

After Alex and Will were both voted out and idol gate happened with Nora I was less solid with her but probably still going to take her to the end as we both understood that sticking with each other was the best for our safety at the time. I didn’t feel solid enough with anyone else to go as far as to fully consider them in my FTC thoughts. Although I did think about the potential of you and me after us not blowing up at each other after Will’s boot.

At the time we made our f2, my f3 would’ve been you and Nora but I was tossed up between you guys as to who I’d take to f2 since that was in the talks. I believe I ended up settling on Nora because I thought you’d be able to perform at FTC better/could actually have a case. This was what I thought all the way until I got Nora out. After that the ideal situation would be sitting next to you after you won FIC. Also something definitely to note is that basically all of these thoughts are what I was thinking on a gameplay level not personal.

Thank you so much for your speech, I’m excited to have another gif made of you in the reunion.