Speaking to Monkeys/Confessionals

Day 24
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- So I'm in bad shape. Kostas and Josh need me, but I'm certain that Charlie had flipped. He's with Ci'ere, he's been with Ci'ere this whole time and he's been feeding him information. That was a huge mistake on my part. Now I'm just going to lead Charlie on and pretend like we're making an all guys alliance. I'm disappointed in myself that I wasn't more careful. Ci'ere and Charlie are scrambling, and I'd love to keep them because I know I'll get picked off by the girls if I'm in the minority, but how can I? Time to think of a new way to get to the finals, this is gonna be rough.

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- Ci'ere the distrusted used an idol and Casper the endgame threat is gone. I don't even mind. In fact Ci'ere still being in it gives me hope I might manage to survive this week even without winning immunity.

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- I feel like I'm speaking to monkeys. No, not monkeys, potatoes. Monkeys actually have brains. These people have no damn clue how this game should be played. This is not Big Brother where you "vote with the house" and keep people happy. This is not one of those stupid ass irrelevant shows that's all about challenges *glares at Alex*. People are terrified to make moves and it's like, why did they even get cast here if they're not gonna play the game. These people are big old wastes of casting spots. Let that be known. There are much more deserving people who signed up. I'm furious.

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- So I guess I'm back with Ci'ere. And I really do want to get the pair Brit/Josh out. Even if Kostas manages to bring me to the end, I should have some moves to say of my own (like the getting out Brit/Josh thing) if I want any chance of winning. I hope I don't ruin things with Kostas though. I don't know if he comes first, second, or third now. Maybe 3rd cause if I can get to the end with both Ci'ere and Charlie and it's a Final Three then those two will have their vote split and maybe I can manage to pull out a win as a result. We'll see. For now, the game moves on.... at least it does whenever someone makes their move in the Reward Challenge.

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- Alright new plan, this ones been created by Kostas mainly. So Ci'ere is obviously the next to go because once he's gone I can probably control Charlie. Also there's a chance that if Ci'eres next he won't make the jury which would be great for me. Once Ci'eres gone, the target is Dani. Kostas thinks he can bring in Alex, and I believe I can bring in Josh and Charlie, which would make a 5 person make alliance to vote out either Brittany or Chelsea. We're going to keep Faith as the last girl, and then use Josh to vote out Alex and possibly Charlie. This would lead to a final 4 of Kostas, Me, Josh and Faith. As long as I can win the final immunity, Kostas goes and I win. This is my millionth final 5 plan but I'm so determined I don't care. If I put too much faith in Kostas and he fucks me then so be it, but I'm going for the win. I'm not going to get dragged to the final 5 by the girls and then voted out.

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- AAAAAAGGHH WE LOST CASPER. I was actually loyal to one person, and then Ci' ere just steals his chance away. Ci'ere your game is over bro. OVER. You tried to play victim and went to make a million alliances.

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- I don't think Ci'ere and Charlie fully understand how Evan Mode works. Once you're in Evan Mode, you can't really leave it. While I do have my social problems, it's not like I've never survived a vote without protection in an ORG before. I have survived votes without protection both as a leader of an alliance and as a mere member of an alliance before. But when you put yourself into Evan Mode by winning challenges more than twice as much as any other player and the rules are Survivor (not Big Brother), a close alliance among 3 people is not enough to save you. My best chance (and it's still a longshot) at saving myself is hoping people want to vote Ci'ere again.

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- The game is mainly about containing Ci'ere, who obviously knows he needs to scramble. He's extremely mad with me for voting for him, so he's begun the process of targeting Brittany Josh and I. I fed information to Alex and Daniella. Charlie offered to make an all guys alliance after blindsiding Alex, so I just sent them quotes from that. Charlie's becoming less and less controllable. He wants to be influential and to make strategic moves, but he doesn't understand that you can't do any of that when people don't like you. Ci'ere is the last person that cares about Charlie, and once Ci'ere is taken away, Charlie is going to have to either accept that he's a goat or get voted out. Ci'ere has the same issue. He's just not trustworthy, and he's terrible at people managing. He basically shoved Alex and Dani into an alliance and was shocked when they didn't go for it. You have to make people like you before you use them. It's not that they're bad guys, they just don't have the social intelligence to really handle people at all. That's why they both have no way to win, people just don't like them.

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- I am currently maintaining my 2 Final 5s, The Gay Casper Alliance and the Arapawa strong alliance. I am also trying to maintain the majority of the guys. My main ally at the moment is Danielle, but I need Berk to stick around to be a greater target than me.

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- So I guess now I'm attempting to get Kostas to abandon whatever else he has and join up with me, Ci'ere, Charlie, Daniella, and (to a lesser extent) Matt so that we can get rid of one of Brittany and Josh - a pair which is unlikely to separate. Ideally I'd like Brittany gone so that the guys maintain a better numbers advantage and whatever tie Faith has with Brittany gets broken as well.

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- this game really has lost a lot of it's fun for me. I'm tired of losing the people I like. Brian and Pav and Casper are all gone. Even Charlie's gone and made it impossible to work with him. The girls are courteous, but they have plans without me. Alex knows I'm a liar. Ci'ere hates me. All I have is Josh and Kostas. Josh is an awesome ally, but he doesn't contribute to strategy at all. Kostas is a good guy, but sometimes I wonder if he's brilliant or stupid. The first thing Pav told me about Kostas was that he was an idiot, and I just can't decide if I agree or not. Nonetheless, Kostas has the connections with the girls, I need him. No decisions are easy any more, I second guess everything and I don't have any one I trust that's knowledgable enough to tell me when I'm wrong. Can't look back, though. I have to believe that I was right to blindside Pav and Cheryl. That I can trust the girls. I just don't know any more. I can't wait for this game to be over, but I can't lose. Had it been me rather than Casper, that would haunt me for a very, very long time.

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- After the talk I had with Dani about Charlie and Ci'eres attempt at an all boys alliance, they have no chance at a majority. She's a sheep, and there's just no way she'll make the risky move if going against the girls this early. Especially when I have 5 paragraphs of Charlie insulting the girls and calling Dani "Brittany's slave". A lot of it is just a fundamental lack of people skills on Charlie and Ci'ere's part, though I would love to see those two make some crazy play to mix up the season. I'd hate to go from an idol play, but at some point you just have to bite the bullet and hope you made the right choice.

Day 25
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- I actually saved myself last vote. Ci'ere called me out saying that I was rallying people to vote him off (which I kind of was. I knew the numbers weren't there for Ci'ere to stay so I was doing my best to protect Charlie and Josh) and I played completely dumb. I said I wanted to "earn his trust by voting Casper". That was a lie, but I knew he couldn't vote for me if there was enough of a chance that I would vote with him. God, if I had admitted it I'd be gone, that was close.

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- So every guy goes on reward... except me. And Alex thinks I wont notice? Fam I didnt like him before now I really don't like him

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- at the reward Alex made his pitch. He wants to pull together the guys. Of course Charlie and Ci'ere were hung ho about voting out Brittany. None of them trust Josh to vote for Brittany, which is ridiculous considering he's agreed to vote her out after this tribal. Alex is trying to create a big scramble because he knows that there's a 6 person majority (Britt, Chelsea, Faith, Josh, Kostas and I). I told him I would be up for blindsiding Brittany after Ci'ere but he's dead set on doing it now because he thinks I'm lying and I want to vote him out after Ci'ere. I'm actually not, I know that Alex and Charlie are gonna have a hard time connecting with the girls so I don't worry about them uniting with the girls after we blindside Brittany. Ci'ere, on the other hand, has to go now. While everyone knows he's untrustworthy and has really poor strategy, he's going to target me soon and I know that him staying can't be in my best interest. Kostas and Josh agree, so he should be going home for real this time. Next tribal will be Brittany's turn, and that'll be insane, but for now the alliance will hold.

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- Of course literally everyone heard about the Brittany plan. Probably some random guy in the middle of Tibet who has never used the Internet even heard. And Brittany made me feel bad about it, though not in an evil way. I don't really know what I'm doing this week other than trusting in my relationship with Kostas and then maybe hoping to get to a F3 where my two opponents split jury votes and I can manage something like a 3-2-2 win. That's my longshot chance of a win in NZ.

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- This convo with Berk is pissing me off. Like im a second from just putting all my eggs in daniella and going all the way with her

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- I mean Brian had told that the Kawau idol had a male sign. And Ciere who told me got the first clue confirmed this. But when I got the 4th Kawau idol clue it had a female sign. Not a male one. I am thinking that Kyle got the second clue and when he got voted out the idol was re-hidden.

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- im becoming EVEN more self aware. Like He literally has everyone wrapped around his finger. Like he needs to GO. The problem is everyone is with him. And getting the votes is near impossible. Idk what to do awhkdfvbg

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- Now Brian may have gotten a Taieri clue. Brit says she got the 2nd clue. She could have it. If she does, I hope she playes it this round. If not either Berk or Brian had it. So Brian got booted with it or Berk is a good liar.

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- The tribe has become boys vs girls (and Josh) with me and Kostas in the middle. It's really, really, really important that when the time comes, Josh will be on my side rather than the girls. If Ci'ere is voted out and we get to final 9, Josh will be the decider. That's going to set the tone for the rest of the game. Kostas Josh and I could control every one if we can just rein Josh in.

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- Alex proposed voting Brittany at the reward, and Kostas and I agreed but privately agreed that we didn't want to let Alex or Charlie have any power so we'd vote out Ci'ere. Once Ci'eres gone the two guys are completely alone, which well hopefully translate into them working with Kostas, Josh and I. I told Brittany about Alex's plans, she called him out, and now Alex is considering backing down. Either way, Kostas, Josh and I will be voting Ci'ere and he'll be going home

Day 26
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- This afternoon has been so productive. I solidified my position with Daniella and Alex. I feel close to them. And I think we have what it takes to vote our Brittany next round. That is, if ciere doesnt play the idol. I feel in the center, I have the idol for protection so I cna make some bold moves and position myself right where I should be for Final 6. My predicted boot list, is Ciere, Brittany, Charlie

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- looks like it's going to be either Ciere or Brittany this week. I hope there's no idol played again

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- I might be putting my foot in my ass with this but I'm actually starting to.....like these people...genuinely. Oh my god what is wrong with me?

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- Kostas did some major work and managed to get Dani and Alex on board with voting out Ci'ere and then Brittany, meaning that Brittany is in the minority after this tribal. From there Kostas and I want to set up a final 5, we think Alex wants to work with us but I'm not okay with allowing Alex much further into the game. He's too good at challenges, too paranoid. My ideal final 5 would be Josh, Faith, Chelsea, Kostas and I. Just enough division that I can slip into the final 2/3 and not be considered the biggest threat.