I Wanna Be At RISK!/Confessionals

Day 8
"galeras"

- hi! so we swapped! honestly, i'm not terribly mad about it? im happy galeras got broken up cuz this brings a whole new element to the game and maybe we can break the galeras curse lmfaoooo. but my swap isnt like, the best it could be? idk

im on new galeras so it's a 3/3 split between old tribes but idk if those lines are going to hold. im personally not gonna focus on tribal lines toooooooo much becuz doing so is being like, hey, vote out galeras!!!! cuz we're the 10-7 minority!!!!!!! so nah im not gonna be like GALERAS STRONG BABES <3

im just weirded out cuz like no one im SUUUPER close with is here. Loris I do like and is probably the person i've connected with the most out of everyone but he's still not like, my top person from og Sotara (torsa). But im happy hes here cuz i think he'll work with me for sure. Then theres Rob, we're good friends and we host indie together, we just dont talk a ton. although he did spring a shit ton of strategy on me right away last night that SPOOOKED my soul from my body i was like omg chill one sec let me breathe LMFAOOO. i luv him tho it was just a little overwhelming idr what we even talked about cuz it was a lot

then theres the girls <3 i love them all, i just havent talked to them a bunch. Like Kat is chill af we've just only had a couple conversations. And Elizabeth loves conservation too and layla is sooo cool i've gotten to know her more recently <3 but theyre none of the ppl i instantly clicked hard with like jayme brian matt or andre yknow, like I can work with them for sure but they're not the ppl i was hoping I'd be with 100%

but like this is good! cuz it means i get to strengthen bonds with 5 ppl i havent made suuuuper strong connections with so far. and i also dont think im on their radars, rob and layla seem to be a little mad at e/o cuz rob told me she made an alliance with him yu and jake but then betrayed it? so that might cause a mess. and loris said none of the sotaras have spoken to elizabeth once. and kat isnt the most active ever either, so like I feel like i'm doing ok even if MENINISM seems to be leaping out on this tribe lowkey :'(

right now im just gonna chill, get to know everyone better, and not make any hard and fast promises and scope out where it would be best for me to place myself. rn im thinking i stick with loris and rob and then theyre gonna wanna take out elizabeth or layla but like, if the women wanna do an alliance with me im always down :D so we'll have to see how it goes, but for now i do feel relatively safe and i think i'm not swapfucked in the slightest, just not like, having an AWESOME swap yknow. at least i can still talk to everyone cuz of one world <3

"romeral"

- So the swap pretty much worked in my favor on this one. I did end up on a 5 man tribe, which kinda sucks, but the good thing is I have options. Should we lose the first challenge, I can either vote out Brian with Sotara, or take out Jones who has been inactive since day 1. I know that voting off Jones would look bad to the rest of Sotara, but it would look goof to Layla. Who has many connections on Galeras. So this could really open up the game for me and give me some power. I also am very happy that Layla is on a tribe where she is safe, so that keeps me from worrying about her. I am a little concerned about Torsa, one of my main allies, but Torsa is smart and shes got this.But what sucks is that this 5 man tribe is pretty weak in challenges it looks like. Hopefully we can scratch together a couple of wins because I have never been to tribal council and I dont want to start now. I don't believe in the Brian curse, but he will have to go if we cant win any challenges.good news is that Jerry and I are in an alliance so that is spectacular. This is a good shot for me to take control of the game. I am the kingpin, now beg for mercy.

"sotara"

- This is so annoying the swap happened and I don’t even have the energy to talk to anyone because I’m so tired and sick

"sotara"

- well what a swap. im rlly on a tribe of 3 pairs wow and im very scared, i already have a target picked out tho ksksksk. If we do go to tribal i'm hoping me and andre can pair up with torsa and jayme but for some reason i just don't see tht happening ksksk, I would want to vote out Callum though, he's nice and everything but we just haven't really clicked and I feel like I've managed to hold conversations with everyone on this tribe but him, plus he had some comments to make about the old Sotara tribe and saying we were too quiet, which is very rich coming from someone who got called inactive in two orgs but that's ok I guess! Yeah so if we do go to tribal I'm hoping we can get rid of Callum, hopefully Torsa and Jayme would be up for that, but I really do now know how it would all shake down cause Matt is a great player and wouldn't just watch his partner get voted out so, and i'm also worried for Andre just cause he doesn't talk in group chats really so I have no idea what his relationship with people like Jayme or Matt is and it's a bit susp to go ask them. So I'm hoping he's been social enough to sort of make bonds with them but he also left that old tribe being in some drama so maybe Jayme/Matt think he's messy or something idk there's a lot to consider and I don't want to have to use my advantage or idol early in the game so I'm hoping my tribe can just brute force their way to winning tbh.

"galeras"

- Well, Yu is gone which really hurt me because I tried so hard to win and it led to his demise but I think it's going to open up a new phase for me where I only have to worry about myself. I'm glad with how the swap turned out, Elizabeth and Layla have beef I'm pretty sure so we can get one of them out. Layla claims she still wants to work with me. I want to form an alliance with Su and Kat at some point. I really want Sotara 2.0 to go to tribal as I want to start forming a singleton coalition. Thus, I am sending strategy vids to people on the brown tribe to try and help them do well :)

"sotara"

- So. We swapped. I couldn’t be more ambivalent to this new tribe. I get to play w Torsa who was my whole reason for signing up in the first place so like….ugh I could NOT be happier with that.

On one hand, LOVE Torsa and Matt ofc. My two faves in the cast. I really enjoy Andre as well. Callum is okay and Ive enjoyed my talks with Alex. On a personal level, whew I’m shaking I’m enjoying it quite a bit. On the other hand, the game in me is like….this is gross as hell. I can ofc work w my partner Torsa and Matt and Andre, those are people who I wanted to work with anyways, but we have THREE pairs/duos in this tribe. It makes the possibility of losing so much scarier. Initially I’m sure me and Matt will wanna take out Alex tbfh, but I don’t think anyone else will. And that scares me. I don’t know where anyone’s head is at currently on this tribe.

Just prayin’ we win...

"romeral"

- Cc day 8

"sotara"

- Caño Cristales Day 8 conf - a big eek I recorded this yesterday and I have extra tea to go along with it! So I was on call with Brian. He basically professes me to be his no.1, even higher than loris, his own loved one LOL. so then I get told that Alex has the sotara idol so I then obvs tell Jayme and Callum this, the two people who I feel closest too on my tribe. So ya it's a spanner in the works cause Alex was/is my target if we end up at tribal. I mean I'm trying not to manifest that at all so like Ew but AHHHH. I feel good tho, I just wish torsa was slightly more active cause I like actually want to pick her brains about what she is thinking to get some trust between us.

Day 9
"galeras"

- There were a lot of complications with the Yu vote that I forgot to write a confessional about! Anyway, here goes nothing.

I was the one who started gaining momentum on the Yu vote. Unfortunately, I orchestrated it almost entirely, and I think everyone knew it. Luckily though, we swapped, so I'm not as much at risk of being next.

Yu did a lot of sketchy shit. Shortly after I made an alliance chat with Rob, Yu, Jake, and myself, Yu's chaotic tendencies really popped out. He told Matt that I wanted to vote for him during Caleb's vote, which isn't necessarily untrue, but definitely a stretch of the truth. Plus, I told him specifically not to tell Matt that I wouldn't've minded voting for him, but that's exactly what he did. I tried to give him the benefit of the doubt after it happened, but Yu just kept on going.

Andre told me that Yu was planning to get Elizabeth and I to turn against each other at tribal. His plan was to tell me to vote Liz, but Liz to vote me. His overall goal was to get rid of Elizabeth, but I don't know why I was involved. (Because apparently, Yu liked me a lot and didn't actually want me gone.) As soon as I found out about it, I told Liz to gain her trust but to also remind her that people are gonna try to divide us, and she can't listen to all of this darn Layla slander.

I had another weird interaction with Yu as soon as tribal started. He told me that the vote was fairly simple and we both knew who was going. I was actually confused, so I told him I had no idea what he was talking about. And then Yu, out of nowhere, no questions of who I wanted gone, just said: ""you want elizabeth right"". Not going to lie, it bothered me that he pretty much told me who I wanted to vote out instead of taking my opinions into consideration. And then he had the AUDACITY to tell me to spread the word to everyone else on the tribe. And if that wasn't enough, he told me specifically not to tell Su about the vote, because there's questions as to whether Su is close with Liz or not. I went right to Su and told him that Yu was keeping the vote from him, and Su backed me quickly.

The rest of the story is obvious. I told Yu that sure, I would vote for Elizabeth. I spread my suspicion of Yu to the rest of the tribe as a way to get support behind voting him out. And you know what? It worked out just fine. I gained the trust of Matt, Liz, and Su. I voted out someone who's been trying to fuck with my game for days now. All is copacetic now.

My only problem has been explaining this to Rob. I've voted Rob out twice in past ORGs, and voting out his partner shortly after making an alliance with them doesn't give me a totally innocent look. But I explained the situation to Rob and I hope he understands. After all of the lies I've told Rob (in past seasons, not necessarily in this one), there's no way he'll trust me again, but maybe we can coexist.

As far as the tribe swap goes, I like my tribe! Elizabeth is probably going to be a loyal number to me. I vibe so well with Su and I know I'm gonna work with him more. I know Kat and Jake are close, so maybe I can pull her in to the Galeras side. I love Loris, but I don't trust him. I love Rob, but I know he doesn't trust me.

That's basically all for now - until next time.

"romeral"

- So we just tribe swapped and honestly, I kinda like my new tribe. I trust Andreas, even tho I would not be surprised if he was talking to everyone. That's fine, I'm talking to a lot of people too. I'm also with Jake, who basically me and him spent like 20 minutes buttering each other up about ""sticking together"" and ""I got you man"" right before we swapped. It was a little funny to be apart of, but idk I think I can trust him for now. Plus with the numerical on my original tribes side I think I could be fine. Brian is from the other tribe, however, Loris who I like and trust is his loved one. I could see him being pretty pissed about losing Brian. Cause he kinda seemed desperate for him to stay in the game lol. But truthfully, he voted out Caleb and left a really snarky parchment so that's kinda my thought process with him at the moment. An I for an I.

Unfortunately, Jones is completely fucking inactive. Like she doesn't talk to ANYONE and then was like the first person to choose a number for the swap...... I'm completely confused by her. Probably best to send her home first, but ya know. If we go on a losing stream I'm not sure I like my chances. Fingers crossed.

"galeras"

- hi so i was swapped. think i told u about that. i cant remember if i told you that alex has the blue idol and brian found where he found it so he had to tell alex.. so we basically have an idol triangle. i found the red idol gave it to brian, alex found out, and then alex found the blue idol and then brian found out. maybe i feel left out because i dont have one but. i don't need one. i think im gonna be good on swap tribe? i love rob and su, and im getting along with elizabeth and layla. kat doesnt talk much. bye

"romeral"

- Lol, so I talked with Jake about getting rid of Jones last night. He said him an Andreas talked about it so I talk to Andreas about it without saying his name was mentioned in the conversation. BAM! Easy way to make him feel like he's in complete control of the swapped tribe. Just trying to make everyone feel comfortable and hopefully that will allow me to be in a good spot. Nice painless and easy.

"romeral"

- I'm SO SSAAADD!!! Yu really just died in this game, and he was such an angel... he didn't deserve a fate like that, but ... I don't know... it's probably for the best that he's not another person I have to worry about eventually betraying... he was a real angel, though, and I will miss him greatly!!

"romeral"

- OH MY GOODD... a 17 person tribe swap? This is going to get messy! I don't really know what to expect, but I know it won't be pretty. We're getting some uneven tribes or an exile, and I sure as hell hope I'm the person exiled in that case so I can spend some time thinking about my next move in the game. I still have my trust old idol, and I have my newly formed knowledge of Alex having another idol, so we'll see where this goes! It should be very fun!

In addition to that, after we swap, I'm going to do a quick... tribe ranking! It won't be as intense as my first one (maybe), but it sure will be... interesting.

"romeral"

- ANNDDD.. fuck my life!

All the other tribes have 3-3 splits in terms of tribal lines, and of COURSE, my tribe has a fucking 4-1 majority over me... LIKE... byE! And... to add on to all of that... I am literally with the 2 people I bonded with the least so far, Andreas (after I just tried to get rid of Elizabeth...), and Jones (who I dearly love, but she hasn't read any of my messages from the last full week). I'm SO SAD! We're literally going to lose at least one challenge, and I just have to hope it isn't this first one, and I hope even more that I can survive if we go to tribal... I'm trying so hard in this game, and to just.. flop... would be so disheartening!

"romeral"

- Ugh, okay... so I've been a bit more active in chats with the people on my tribe and in my two alliances with Alex-Loris and James-Matt, so I'm ready to handle this first tribal with ease. I know we'll most likely be going since Jones ... hasn't be on to submit anything, but I do think my tribe will wise up and send her home first since she isn't contributing or being social at all. It's sad because I genuinely like Jones from my experiences with her, but I can't risk my game or my idol to save her at all.

I also promised some tribe rankings, so I'll start with my tribe, the brown Romeral tribe and move to the others afterwards! I will say that my tribe is by far the weirdest to rank because I don't genuinely want to work with any of them down the line, but dkajshdkas... I have to fake a smile and play pretend!

4. Jerry - I like Jerry, but him and Jake are generally the same in that I get not a lot from them and find them both to be bland in comparison to the rest of the cast! 3. Jake - I like him, but him and Jerry are generally the same in that I get not a lot from them and find them both to be bland in comparison to the rest of the cast, HOWEVER I ranked him higher because I see more potential to work with him as he is tied to Layla! 2. Jones - I just wish she was active... she's higher than Jake/Jerry because I know we'd work well together if given the chance, but... she hasn't been online in so long to even read my messages!! 1. Andreas - OK, so I went into this tribe kinda worried most about Andreas, and it wasn't because we didn't get along prior, but it was because he was a nice guy that I just didn't COMPLETELY click with, and it made me nervous of what was to come for our future, but I think we will end up being good allies in this game if we can move further together! He's nice and fun and gay, and I love him for that!

Next upppp... my 2nd favorite tribe! New Galeras!

6. Elizabeth - My only issue with Elizabeth is that her and I only click on a very surface level, but I do think that if I can work on Andreas, I can get Elizabeth! So yea... she's so sweet, though, ugh!! 5. Layla - My biggest issue with Layla is not how much I like her, because I love her so much, but it's really that I feel she feeds the same BS to everyone, and I'm just another side hoe to her. I do like her, so I want to try and trust her more, but kjdhajk... ugh!! 4. Kat - Surprisingly, Kat did a whole ass jump for me! I love her with my whole heart.. she's such a queen, and she's really just someone I want to go to a party with and pop off! I think her and I will be able to grow a bond more as the season goes, but I love her now, and I hope she sticks with me in this game. 3. Rob - King Rob... ugh... we were robbed of being a cute 4some with him and Yu and me and Loris... I love Rob a ton! He's so nice, and he's been really always so socially active with me! I think he's someone that I will work with down the line, but I will be sure to remember that Rob tends to be snakey sokdjsahdjkqsa.... YEA! 2. Su - I think Su is slightly above Rob? Idk... I really like Su a lot, and our personal bond is amazing, tbh, but I just worry that he uses the little cute boi antics on everyone, and I'm being PLAYED! However, I do think that... we just get along too well for it to be fake, and I adore him so much. Truly someone I look forward to playing with more in this game. 1. Loris - dumb fag.... jk I love him... endlessly. Forever my favorite king... <3

Finally, the most iconic tribe: Sotara!

6. Torsa - I never thought I'd rank Torsa last on a tribe, but I just don't think I see myself going super far with her in this game in comparison to every one else on her tribe. I also don't trust her yet with my game tea, but I will always love her endlessly! She is such a cutie... 5. Alex - I like Alex a whole ass lot, and he does know about my idol, but he's a sneaky son of a bitch, and i know I can't trust him as far as I throw him. He's someone I do see myself working with for awhile down the road, but he has a past of just fucking over everyone, so I will not be trusting him as much as I trust the others. 4. Andre - Andre is in a weird spot because he's Alex's partner, so I want to trust him more but I feel like I can't. I feel like I have to tip-toe around Andre, and it's fine for now, but I do really like him and see myself working a lot closer with him in the instance, let's say, Alex leaves. :) 3. Callum - I don't talk to Callum as much as I talk to Andre/Alex, but I do think Callum is someone I could work with because of Matt and because of how well we've bonded personally! He's a gem, and I think he's someone I see in my future game!! 2. James - Me, James, and Matt are an iconic trio, and I do trust James a lot, however I will not be telling him about my idol until very necessary!  I don't think him knowing helps me at all, and I just don't want more people to know so that I have more people that could possibly know (in this case, Torsa). 1. Matt - I love Matt with my whole heart, and now that I've exposed knowing about Alex's idol, too, I genuinely think he is my closest ally in this game.  I would die for him, and I love him endlessly!

"galeras"

- I don't think I've ever been more relieved to have immunity this week. I really do like my new tribe and everyone's been super nice to me but I don't feel 100% safe with them yet. Su is a so great and I love having him here because he's been nothing but loyal to me. Layla I'm still not fully sure on. She's really nice to me and I genuinely like her but part of me doesn't doubt that she'd turn on me. I've been getting to know my three new tribe mates but I feel like I haven't gotten to know them well enough to be safe with them yet. Rob and Loris I don't know a whole lot yet so I'm not sure where they stand and I know Kat was getting close to Andreas but I haven't gotten the chance to really connect with her yet.

"romeral"

- Cc day 9

Day 10
"romeral"

- Going to tribal sucks, but atleast it's a very easy vote. Jones will go home tonight, most likely in a 5-0 vote assuming she self votes. On the other side of things, Jerry and I are becoming great allies. And I definitely feel like he is a free agent I can bring in, becuase his partner Caleb, was voted out. And I am slowly starting to drift away from Andreas. This vote should send a message to the Galeras tribe that I am down to work with literally anyone.

"sotara"

- Alex has the Sotara Idol

Brian has the Galeras Idol

Loris...idk but I don't trust him.

That's going to be one strong, powerful trio as we progress in this game and I don't want anything to do with it! I want Brian to stay, but I want him to work with US! Not THEM!

Alex having the idol reaaally fucks a lot of my strategy up over here on Sotara tbfh. My initial plan was to target him because I literally do NOT trust at all, and I know Matt feels similar. Alex is the only person here who I do not have a semblance of trust in. However, Torsa trusts him. Andre -- obviously -- trusts him. It'll literally be three versus three if we lose with how we'd want to do this. Now, I don't want to go against Torsa...at all. I'd love it if she'd work with us to vote him out, but they've literally been sharing idol guesses. They're close ;; and it's big rip. That's why BvW is complicated as fuckkkkkk i can't w this

I'm going to try and buddy-buddy with Alex for now, so in case we lose, Matt, Callum, and I have the chance to blindside him, because I don't want him to link up with Brian and Loris. That will be a trio that will become unstoppable.

I'm highkey worried about Andreas tonight, even though he's overconfident about staying. Brian having the Galeras idol and telling Matt he might try to save Jones is a big rip and if Andreas falls victim to some fuckery I'd be gagged but so disappointed.

I'm also worried about my girls Layla and Elizabeth over on New Galeras :( Su and I have become pretty close, and I consider him my #1, and he's filled me in that it looks like it'll be one of the two of them bc Old Sotara is staying strong and none of them wanna go to a deadlock vote. I hate that. I stuck my neck out for both Layla and Elizabeth at the last tribal to send Yu (rip bby) home, with the intention of our tribe being unified so we don't get pagong'd and to hear that they're out there not working together is so slkfjglgsgs fuck...I highkey just want New Galeras and New Sotara to keep on winning until another swap or merge. Let Jones leave. Let Jerry go. Maybe Brian'll idol out Jake or smthn. Idfc. I just want the people I trust to remain safe until I can back them up myself.

"galeras"

- ugh.. immune again... getting boring ladies.... I wanna be at RISK! I wanna be IDOLED OUT!

"galeras"

- sick of winning I wanna be at risk. I wanna be idoled out. where’s the flavour to winning back to back to back to back ugh

"sotara"

- omg immunity, feels good still very scared for next challenge and tribal omg but i feel like we should be able to do well, that last challenge as awful and we still managed to put a respectable score out so if this next one is to our strengths then it's over for the other tribes. im also fully realising how nice everyone is in this cast and it just makes me happy, seems like this is shaping up to be a very exciting game and a great merge or whatever happens next, it'll be sad to leave or see other people leave but i've met some great people and been able to enjoy my time playing already and I just hope that continues cause the potential Sotara tribal still is super scary to me, idk why maybe im just super paranoid but I can definitely see myself going if we did go to tribal, I feel like Matt might want revenge for Newfoundland and could convince Jayme and Torsa to vote me but idk, idk what's people's perceptions of me are and if me already being a winner holds any bearings over that so it's scary and I would love to just immunity run for however long I can until I find myself in a more stable dynamic <3

"romeral"

- I don’t have too much to say, but there is a slight fear that this is my last day in the game because everyone’s lying to me... BUT I really think Jones is going, so we are thriving and living our best lives.

I kinda wanna poof away and sleep for the rest of the day, but I have to make sure that my name does stay outta their mouths.

"sotara"

- sorry my confessionals aren't really loaded i'm just glad i've been able to avoid tribal cus i've been busy or sick but now i think i'm past that and finally ready to play yassss

"sotara"

- WE WON IMMUNITY. YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. THANK GOD THANK GOD. I was SO over going to tribal and with these tribe dynamics, no thank you. like no. Sotara going to tribal in its current state sounds like a fucking mess and i am not here for it at all. no way luv. just wanna win our way to swap honestly, us going to tribal sounds like hell.

i honestly don't have a lot to say atm KLHAFSDJ sorry chris but im in a positive mood about this game and im feeling good about our tribe strength, but as can be seen above the fact we could go to tribal is fucking nerve wracking and eeeeeeek. also brian better be safe omfg. love jones but brian MUST be safe. he gives me all the tea and loves me unconditionally

"sotara"

- HELLO SORRY I'VE LOST THE PLOT WITH CONFESSIONALS!! I've felt really drained recently and I still need to get my shit together so like... whoops, so:

HALLELUJAH MY PRAYERS WERE ANSWERED WITH A SWAP. GOD ACTUALLY IS REAL. *AND* I WASN'T SWAPFUCKED <3

I was gonna go DELIRIOUS with OG Sotara. and what's even better is that I like this tribe so much more. There's a much better vibe, I don't feel left out as much and also I'm in the majority in the tribe!!! (+ I'm technically allied with Andreas and Elizabeth even though I have very little trust in both of them but ok???)

I also have quite a lot of tea. Apparently Alex has the Sotara idol so like... I wanna avoid tribal as much as possible because of that. I believe Brian also has an idol as well, so yeah... I better work on him more because I don't want him to like... use that idol against me. But for now, I'm just gonna play like I'm Boo Boo the Fool and that I haven't heard shit... the good thing is that I'm perfectly under the radar for now, I feel, so I'm gonna stay put and let other people stay visible and all... can't afford shit hitting the fan for me right now soooo :)))

also it's my birthday in 7 minutes so wig!! bye

"romeral"

- So our tribe lost as expected. Honestly, heading into tribal council I am not overly worried. Jones continues to be super inactive which has led to a super easy decision on the vote. The plan currently sits that she will be voted out, 4-1 or 5-0. If she someone has an idol I will honestly kill myself...... Or if anyone flips I will actually MURDER them... like genuinely such a stupid move.

So I discovered the location of the Sotara Idol, B13. It has already been snatched up though sadly. I told Kat and immediately she came back and said that that is one of the places Alex looked... which leads me to think that he indeed found the idol. I haven't even told Elizabeth this, because the reality is that neither Jayme or Matt have told me that the Galeras idol was found..... and thats shady on their part. But I think Elizabeth might be inclined to tell them that, and with their tribe setup it could cause chaos. I told Jayme the idol was found but thats that.

Anyways, I'm gonna go submit my vote now. If I get voted out I will literally DIE..........