Board Thread:Season 52 - Tasmania/@comment-38356764-20190416145316

Ok...first of all, congratulations you three! You're sitting where many of us wish we were and it's such a huge accomplishment and I'm super proud of all of you. I'm also really lucky to have gotten to know you guys over the last while and I've really enjoyed that a lot.

Benj...You are SO fun. I really admire your ability to pull of immunity wins and I have far more respect for that than abstaining from challenges or not winning challenges and still being at the end. You always tried your best and you pulled off amazing wins. I knew towards the end that if I didn't get you out, you'd win immunity and get me out. Which happened, so kudos to you! I have to confess that I was really sketched out at first that you seemed to be playing up how I did in other orgs. I didn't know if you were playing up that I was awesome so that you could pull the wool over my eyes and stab me in the back later, or if you truly thought I was a nice person and wanted to work with me. The first post merge vote when everyone let me believe Ashlee was the vote really solidified that I couldn't really trust very many people. However, you came to me earnestly after and apologized. That helped me believe that I could at least have some kind of working and mutually beneficial relationship somehow throughout the game. At the end of the day, though, I knew when it came down to it, you would vote me out when you got the chance, so I held you at arms length a bit some of the time. My biggest regret in the game in regards to you is trying to stay true to my f3 alliance and not coming to you in an effort to vote out Ashlee before she voted me out. My question for you is...I want to know if you were really actually sincere in how you befriended me and communicated with me? Was I right in feeling like you were trying to play it up and flatter me a bit to get me to trust you more and see you as an ally?

Ashlee...I honestly don't really know what to say, except congrats on being the bitch that you claimed you were and that I always sensed you were. KIDDING...I'm not continuing our fake feud. lol I have zero hard feelings. However, after reading your speech, I do have a couple of comments and things to say. Many times throughout the game, I questioned if I should trust that you really wanted to work with me. I don't really feel like you  purposely sought me out as a strategy to win. I feel like you saw yourself as going home next, insignificant and the ideal goat and to save yourself, played up the girl power aspect as a way to get myself and thereby Hayden in your corner. However, I'm the least girl power person on the face of the planet, to be honest...so I went along with it as a way to save myself. Hayden and I did a LOT of strategizing on the side and the reason our Python trio went as far as it did was because both Hayden and I had to keep your grounded from flipping all over the place like a fish out of water. And the only reason you are probably sitting at FTC is because I made a regrettable error in not trying to work with Hedger to get you out when I could. Instead, I stayed loyal to you and you got me out before I got you out, which is the way it works, I guess. All of that said, whether you agree with me or not...why did you feel like you had to lie and say the game didn't matter to you and you didn't care about anything, you just wanted to see as many women at FTC as possible in an effort to get me to work with you...instead of just being honest and saying "Hey, we are both desperate, let's save ourselves together and work together for awhile."

Hayden...you were my bestest friend in this game. And I say that with a huge amount of irony, because at the very beginning of the game, JJ and I were talking about the players and who was more present or not and he asked me about you and I was like "Who dat?" I think I even wrote a confessional somewhere about how you were inactive and it was annoying or something. BUT. I take it ALL back. You really were key to me in several points of the game. You orchestrated Tasha's vote out (as sad as it was, because I LOVE TASHA), which was HUGE. I would rather have voted out Chloe, but in the end, you were bang on about Tasha having lots of connections and we may have not made it so far if she had made the merge. You kept me safe when Chloe wanted me out. And you were 100% loyal and trustworthy and literally made this game the best time I've had playing an org. I didn't have to doubt that you were honest and sincere or question if you were telling me the truth. You were fun and smart and hilarious and I appreciated having you as my number 1. I loved talking strategy with you and you have far more to offer than you seem to have been given credit for. You tried your best at challenges, you showed up and cared about the game. I respect that a lot. I can't even think of a question for you, because you were so open with me throughout the game, I basically know what you were thinking all along, BUT...I love hearing people talk about their one regret of the game, so that's my question for you.

Once again, congrats to the three of you! You are such a great final three and good luck!  