I Wanted To Be Chaos Kat... Or Maybe Messy Kat/Confessionals

Day 21
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- Okay so the last vote was SO messy. I've also heard so many things about Rob, Su, and Kat and I honestly don't know what to trust anymore. Apparently during the kidnapping round, I was the plan to be voted out and those three ended up getting together to vote out Loris because I was safe that week. If that's true, that means that Su's been lying to my face this whole time which honestly stings a little because I've trusted him since day one. I don't blame him because it's a game and everyone has to do what they have to do to survive but all during the vote he was saying stuff to me like ""I haven't heard anything yet... I don't want either of us to go home"" and like 20 minutes before the deadline he told be that he heard both of our names thrown out. Like, bro you've been working with Rob to try and get me out (or so I've heard). I really like Su personally but I don't think I can fully trust him anymore.

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- Well that vote didn't go as planned. It shocked me that Rob went home. Well not really, but I thought that the singles would come together to get a double out. The longer we keep the duos in the bigger and stronger their pendant power gets. I thought that Jayme, Torsa or Andre would go home. As of right now Brian is running this game. It is Rob's fault that he put Brian in a position of power by waiting to hear 'what Brian wanted to do' for the vote. AKA Brian could do anything he wants and it will be the way the vote sways. I need to find a way to either be that person or lay low. The next challenge is an endurance challenge and I could stay up all night and play it. However, I have a few hesitations with that. One, if I participate ppl will think that I am in trouble. Two, people could think I did the Alex vote. Three, idr want to do it. I think I have good enough relationships with people right now to lay low and let them implode. BTW I was the one that voted Alex. I did it just because I think he has an idol and I want to try to make him paranoid. I knew the vote would be unanimous and I wanted to be chaos Kat... Or maybe messy Kat... idrk.

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- so the vote went p well i guess, Rob went which was the plan and it was basically unanimous except for one person who voted for me for whtever reason. I thought it would be one of Jake/Kat, Jake cause he's just dumb enough to do it for no reason, or Kat because she wants to start more shit nn I used to be quite close to Kat but now I just always hear things abt her and that she keeps telling ppl I have an idol, which I mean I do so I can't be angry but like I just don't know her problem with me maybe she's just threatened nn. Andre said that it was Kat tht voted me and I'm really not bothered cause no one i've really talked to is like besties with Kat, maybe Su but now he's scrambling cause he knows he's been messy and he wants to try and stay so he's just looking out for himself now I guess. The little trio of Su/Rob/Kat has just been like ruined so idk what she's doing now but I'm really not worried nnnn. I'm more worried about this little group of 4 tht have decided they're going to be the final 4, Andreas/Liz/Jake/Jerry, literally no one even remembered Jake was in this game so idk what he thinks he's doing by suggesting tht final 4 omg. Andreas is just playing all sides he can and it'll catch up to him soon I think, and we can afford to split a pair up so he kinda needs to watch himself nn. Jerry and Elizabeth are both super nice but just have no impact or power and are just floating and it's kinda boring and if that really was the f4 then... well idw be apart of another boring ssn so maybe let's not have tht. My aim for this sort of round though is to just let ppl do what they want and im just gonna completely sit back. I think Kat is gonna target me maybe? Su will do nothing idt. Brian and Matt might want to vote Kat/Su and then that 'Final 4' group idk if they're gonna pop off and make a move but I'm guessing they'll follow suit for a bit longer. and then i know Torsa wants to lay low as well cause she was worried she'll be targeted. and Andre and Jayme are kinda chilling i think, they aren't rlly going to be targeted over Torsa or I so I think they're doing ok, well Andre might get votes cause I have the idol and ppl might want to flush it idk. I'll have to trust what ppl tell me which is hard because like no one tells the truth here so um tht's fun. I would hope Brian/Matt/Torsa/Jayme/Andre are truthful to me at least but I wouldn't be too surprised if one of a few of them weren't nn.

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- Okay I'm starting to feel bad about how well I'm doing in the immunity challenge. I know that if I was in someone else's place and saw how big the lead was, I would feel so defeated and discouraged. I hate thinking that I'm possibly making people feel that way. 😢 There's no way in hell that I'm going to stop going hard though because my name's been thrown out way too many times for me to not fight for immunity

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- hey yalll IM SO SORRY for how bleak i was last time. I was acting like i was fucking losing a limb or my mom died TCRFVUBHJKN im so sorry. I was just so scared and thrown for a loop cuz i came on and my name was being thrown around, and i lost an ally, and then irl things are getting crazy busy for me so i was just like, overall panicking? and it poured out into the game into me turning into a sobbing mess of freaking out.

BUT

that su is GONE! as I ate my M&M blizzard last night and tried to get myself to stop wanting to cry, i was like. WAIT A MINUTE. UR SAD. OVER AN ONLINE GAME. and it was just like an epiphany. at the end of the day, don't mess ur life up over this game. AND you have nothing to lose now. so go out there, do ur best, and slay it.

so im doing a lot better now. i know my game could end at any minute which would suck, im def not winning immunity (GO QUEEN ELIZABETH!!) and i could be an easy name for this time around. howEVER, i have been putting in work

i did my best to lay my cards out on the table and apologize to the ""four"" that i was so convinced existed. I know now i was being an idiot, maybe they've worked together but it wasn't some grand conspiracy. If i had gone last night i was happy i cleared stuff up with Alex, with jayme with andre with torsa, that things are in a good place between us all now. And they've all expressed that they don't think im absolutely fucked rn and that i have a chance to make it out of this so im HOPING i can

rn im just doing my best to rebuild bridges with everyone and hope for the best. im gonna b so busy tmrw its not even funny, im working at the zoo 8-3:30 and then i have to go straight to my gf's house for her birthday party which might go right up to the deadline so idek when im gonna be able to strategize. which is rlly scary. i don't wanna blow my chance by being offline. but im not fucking skipping my last day of the zoo or my gfs bday party for the org LMFAO sorry not sorry. so i guess we'll see what happens. If im meant to go, im meant to go. ill be able to accept it cuz i have a bunch of other stuff to worry about. if im meant to stay here and fight, god knows i will.

the ppl i trust most r def matt and kat, i feel like they've been honest with me the most and we have strong bonds. I also do still trust brian although we still haven't talked ab the vote or future much lately which is spooky to me but oh well. and everyone else i feel like i could work with, ive done my best to rebound with elizabeth too and i hope its enough

Day 22
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- Well last tribal was an absolute mess. The so called pairs alliance apparently doesn't even exist and it was all in Rob's head. And then Rob goes out and ruins all the plans by throwing people under the bus. So now I have to deal with a 12 man tribal with no clear lines and perhaps another unanimous vote. I actually don't have a plan for tonight's tribal as of now. I might push for Jayme this tribal because I feel like he's more of a threat than the others. And there have been talks of an idol with him. Andre and I really have connected. Either that or he just wants me to feel comfortable as he pushes me out the door.

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- I WON IMMUNITY!!!!!!!!! This is my first individual immunity win ever and I honestly can't believe I did it. For most of the day I had a 20 point lead but then in the last hour Jake started going so hard trying to close the gap while I was out of the house rip. I was really impressed by his performance tbh, he really gave me a run for my money near the end haha. But! I kept fighting and won!!! It feels so good to be safe for a round and not have to worry about being targeted. Also! I literally don't get why people keep throwing my name out during votes. It made since during pre-merge because I was literally flopping every challenge but now??? Why do you want to take out someone who's literally not a threat?????? Idk man

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- OKAAAYY! Rob went with a lot more of the majority than I expected initially! Kat apparently had thrown me under the bus for saying Elizabeth needed to go, but many people knew she was lying and told me, and then I went immediately to Elizabeth to confirm that her suspicions of Kat lying were correct. I also had to come clean about my idol with a lot of people because everyone basically knows, but they don't know I know they know... so ya!

I ALSO am very nervous about this upcoming tribal because I do feel like both Su and Kat are people who are going to be targeted, when I'd rather someone like Jake go because I don't really give a flying flip about working with him for the future of this game! Immunity could change a lot, but we will see....

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- So, at this point I’m the game. I’m just hoping to get through this round. I wanted to kinda get a vibe from people last round and I like what was happening. I was told Rob threw my my name out and that wasn’t cool with me. I wasn’t gonna act some type of way about it. But what happened last round happened. AND rob admitted that he did so I appreciate him giving me the confirm that I do have some more people in my corner. I like my spot, if people are coming to me that quickly than I feel alright. I still want to get that pair immunity out of the way. But I’m not completely sure how. I would like to push my agenda a bit, however, the second someone throws out some names they get targeted. Everyone is so scared turtle. And if they are gonna just try to thrive in chaos, then I like my chances of going farther. If people are in my corner then I’ll have to cut some strings when the time comes. I just have to remember that this game is a marathon not a sprint. But I can’t be cutting corners along the way.

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- sorry guys this is gonna b rlly short but i just wanna leave a little bit about this tribal while i can! vote is still like 12 hours away, but last night I talked to Andre and he asked me for a name. I said one of the romeral guys, probably Jake, because I thought that would be the easiest person for him to go for. He seemed open and wants to tell EVERYONE that I want Jake out now LMFAOOOOO i begged him to please not make me that person that publicly threw a name out first, and he said he'd wait to offer up jake as an option from me until other names were out, but stiLL, that's SCARY cuz i just wanted to lay low this round and follow along and nOT try to be the one directing things. so i rlly rlly rlly RLLY hope this doesnt blow up in my face cuz i dont have the time today irl to sit down and fix a big mess if it happens.

I do feel like I've reestablished enough bonds to hopefully get me thru this, and im hoping Brian and Kat and Matt especially can keep me filled in on whats going on and what I need to do, and I do think I can trust Torsa, Andre, and Jayme decently as well. I just really am praying i dont become the easy vote.

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- well everything is quiet, i can't blame ppl for not wanting to throw a name out though cause I won't be doing that either nnn, I really want to just lay low for now cause there's potentially 4 idols in play, i i have mine and brian has his but the other two idk abt, they could easily make an appearance soon so I just have to not make a scene or anything so even if I am in the majority of a vote I'm not being idoled out. I'm just going to have to try and keep talking to everyone and hope they like me enough to not do that but, it kinda sucks cause I feel Andreas has a lot of power right now he potentially has the idol and is working with both sides, and I find it really difficult to talk to him for a long time, not because he's horrible or boring we just haven't seemed to find what we have in common or something we can easily talk about so him having all this power is scary nn but hopefully it just attracts attention to him and ppl will want to start voting him out. but yeah im not throwing any names out until im in a safer position <3

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- I have work in a couple hours, and I still haven't gotten true solid tea from anyone, especially no one that seems to be in danger of actually going out tonight. Now, I could literally be going and be blindsided completely, but like I'm hoping and praying that people do not take me out. I have my idol, but I fear that if I am targeted, the people targeting me will be the people that I trust LOL.

I'm really just waiting for someone to give off some big dick energy vibes. So far, I'm the only bitch throwing out a name (Kat) to more than one person... I want a solid majority to form, and after this... if I can get like 6 people on board, we have that majority! I think Alex, Andre, Jayme, Torsa, and Matt make up a nice 6 person group for me, but I have to hope that each of them trusts each other like I'd like to think they trust me.

Realistically, I know all these people probably are fucking so sketched out by me, but what can I say? I didn't come to sit on the sidelines. I've done the UTR game so many times before, and I'm ready to step my puss up and be a main player in this season! I didn't come back for a second chance to be flopping.

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- LOL WE HAVE A CONTENDER FOR MESSY BITCH OF THE ROUND WITH MR. JAKE WOMMACK! At least I finally can say he's doing something super notable in this game! He's suggesting a Jayme vote to me, and I'm very, very interested to see where this goes. I've wanted him out this whole round, so if I can sway people this way, I really think this could be a cute look! I have been throwing out Kat, so I could save Jake for another easy vote next round, but kJHFAS...

I don't wanna sound like THE mastermind of the season, because I'm far from it, but I think I'm genuinely one of the only people willing to go balls to the walls and throw out names right now.

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- Jake Womack is a power player and a big threat. I'm doing everything I can to make sure Jayme goes home. No one in this game wants to talk about strategy because they all want to fit in. I'm doing the opposite, and I've gained the majority of this vote. I'm playing my ass of because I'm not a challenge guy and I'm not hiding any idols. Honestly at this point in the game I have no allegiance. I have social bonds that I am tapping into to to gain power. Su, Kat, and Jerry just to name a few. I can't wait to see if this vote really does work and I can pull off the first big move this season. This is Jake Womack, and you're watching Disney Channel.

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- FJSGKGKJSGSJGSKJG SBITCHES TRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIED IT!!!

I am so GAGGED. So! Turns out that all day long Jake has been gathering his army of leftovers and snakes to blindside me Like. I knew he was throwing my name out last tribal, but the person who we literally called ""who?"" all season has came to play. I'm honestly living for it but i'm living for what happened after! So Jake had allegedly got Jerry, Kat, Su, and...Andrelizabeth to get my ass outtta here! Unfortunately, six is not majority so they needed Brian...who outed them out to me instantaneously  I'm a little bit sad Andrelizabeth is apart of it because I genuinely trusted them the most in this game, but that is the game! I guess Andreas really wanted that revenge from Kamchatka, huh. Brian said that he'd play the idol on me if it came down to it, but then...he filled Alex in and Alex the GODSEND just got all the votes off of me (i think). Alex literally went in my books as: 'don't trust that snake' to 'my actual savior'. He played his power so everyone's votes is public, and then no one wants to vote for me anymore bc it's far too risky. Now...they wanna vote Matt DSKFSFSL. Brian can still play the idol on Matt if it is going to be a 6-6, but now our minds are racing as we contemplate do we split 6-3-3 and take out a Kat or Andreas and i'm QUAKING. I'm genuinely so shook. Brian and Alex r my saviors in this game now and they were the two allies I was most unsure of...ughhhh their minds and my small mind for doubting them.

As it comes down to it, it's really funny how this happened. They wanted to vote for me because ""Alex has an idol, so that means Jayme has one too"". I really don't understand where this Jayme/Alex F2 duo comes from, because now they're literally forcing us into it and if we gotta, we WILL now become it. They have no one to blame for themselves for having bad game awareness and pushing false narratives. Ughh and now I'm gagged. So now, Me, Matt, Brian, Alex, Andre, and Torsa need to figure out who we want gone and whether or not to play an idol or split the vote, but rn I am LIVING for this. Godt.

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- oh look here comes another confessional of me freaking out about the vote!! So like elizabeth won immunity. love that, queen of ducks. i redeem myself by catching 10 ducks, more than i did the last time i played this challenge over a year ago. so we love a growth arc!

and now we come to tribal. so initially, just a love unan 11-1 on kat. what do other people think? to indict elizabeth and andreas in a 6 with kat/su/jerry and jake and that they are blindsiding jayme, but oh no wait they're switching to me. LIKE HELL NAW BITCH I WILL COME AND SLAP A 16 YEAR OLD, I DON'T CARE IF I GET ARRESTED. im just over these people. like what does getting rid of me do? all it does it out you in an even bigger minority and the 6 pairs can just team up and get you out lmfao. its so dumb like wow, even i can't make the stupidity up. its like they are all sharing crack needles and sharing them around.

BUT THEN A PLOT TWIST. Elizabeth comes to me and is like ""they want you out"" which was 1. terrifying and 2. annoying, as said earlier. so then i call with torsa and we end up deducing that its jake trying to get the pairs to target each other so they can scoot away free and potentially start to have numbers. um no?? that is not allowed?? and THEN andreas and elizabeth are on call with jayme and outright just tell him that there is a plan to blindside me out. so trust with them has been restored absolutely thank god. we basically have 8 votes on jake with jerry unknown and kat/su/jake voting me most likely. with this twist though, idols are going to be played so i feel like anything can and will happen. fuck my life, give me jesus and REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

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- ugh not me releasing my unveil token on the girls. I used it because Brian told me about Liz/Andreas forming a plan to vote out Jayme with Jerry/Kat/Su/Jake. Us pairs were meant to stick together but I rlly don't blame them for breaking off because I think it's obvious Torsa/Jayme/Andre and I are much closer together than we are to Liz/Andreas so while I expected it, it doesn't make it ok. So I thought I might as well use this to put pressure on them, they can flip but now it's just painfully obvious and it will divide the tribe I feel, like we've already formed a tighter bond as a 6, Matt/Brian/Myself/Andre/Torsa/Jayme, Torsa and Jayme are super grateful to me for using this to help out Jayme, Andre's my partner and I'd like to think Brian/Matt both like me and would want to go far with me, so I feel ok at the moment. Remember when I said I was going to lay low, yeah no it didn't happen but I feel from now it rlly does NNNN. So yeah they sort of need to make their move and I'm definitely ready with my idol in case something goes down, but I'm also down for it to tie cause I'm not scared to go to rocks especially because I think we could easily flip someone from that side, idk maybe my chaotic is showing, but yeah I'm really fine going to rocks nnn, but if they're votes on me I'll just use my idol tbh, like I'd rather not go through it myself because maybe people would just have second thoughts about keeping me when they have the perfect chance to get rid of me so yeah, we'll see for these vote submissions but yeah I'm ready to idol some ppl if I must and to see what shenanigans ensue. People right now are leaning towards voting Jake out, I was really hoping to take Andreas out but oh well from now we'll have majority so we can kind of have more room to do things, I am just worried about a potential idol from that side but we can handle it. I feel pretty good abt the use of it, don't really regret it since this could be a pivotal tribal for this game <3

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- Caño Cristales Day 22 conf - a fuck car wreak

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- i may have prejudged andrelizabeth...they ended up filling me in on the jake tea and now it looks like jake turned on su, and now jake might be leaving unanimously SKLGSGSKGSKGSKGKJGSKJ god i love this game...all bc alex played his public vote thing the other side decided to just target each other LMFAOOO im weak

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- THIS tribal is insane as hell. jake is essentially the new rob where he just keeps switching the vote. he originally said jayme. then said su bc su said his name. i just made a parchment for kat and jake in case of any idols or whatever so we'll see what goes down

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- Okay so Jake came to Elizabeth and I and wants to make a group to blindside Jayme ?? im not having any of this. So after careful decisions, Elizabeth and I decided to tell Jayme about this, and we told Jayme that maybe Jake go instead. Elizabeth then went into the Sugar Bears and popped this in the chat. Then Su went to Matt and threw out Jakes name. Now the vote is Jake ???